第5章

类别:其他 作者:Willa Cather字数:22516更新时间:18/12/20 10:21:51
Hecutbandsallrightforafewminutes,andthen,Mrs。Harling,hewavedhishandtomeandjumpedhead-firstrightintothethreshingmachineafterthewheat。 `Ibeguntoscream,andthemenruntostopthehorses,butthebelthadsuckedhimdown,andbythetimetheygotherstopped,hewasallbeatandcuttopieces。 Hewaswedgedinsotightitwasahardjobtogethimout,andthemachineain\'tneverworkedrightsince。\' `Washecleardead,Tony?\'wecried。 `Washedead?Well,Iguessso!There,now,Nina\'sallupset。 Wewon\'ttalkaboutit。Don\'tyoucry,Nina。Nooldtrampwon\'tgetyouwhileTony\'shere。\' Mrs。Harlingspokeupsternly。`Stopcrying,Nina,orI\'llalwayssendyouupstairswhenAntoniatellsusaboutthecountry。 Didtheyneverfindoutwherehecamefrom,Antonia?\' `Never,ma\'m。Hehadn\'tbeenseennowhereexceptinalittletowntheycallConway。Hetriedtogetbeerthere,buttherewasn\'tanysaloon。 Maybehecameinonafreight,butthebrakemanhadn\'tseenhim。 Theycouldn\'tfindnolettersnornothingonhim;nothingbutanoldpenknifeinhispocketandthewishboneofachickenwrappedupinapieceofpaper,andsomepoetry。\' `Somepoetry?\'weexclaimed。 `Iremember,\'saidFrances。`Itwas“TheOldOakenBucket,“ cutoutofanewspaperandnearlywornout。OleIversonbroughtitintotheofficeandshowedittome。\' `Now,wasn\'tthatstrange,MissFrances?\'Tonyaskedthoughtfully。 `Whatwouldanybodywanttokillthemselvesinsummerfor? Inthreshingtime,too!It\'sniceeverywherethen。\' `Soitis,Antonia,\'saidMrs。Harlingheartily。`MaybeI\'llgohomeandhelpyouthreshnextsummer。Isn\'tthattaffynearlyreadytoeat? I\'vebeensmellingitalongwhile。\' TherewasabasicharmonybetweenAntoniaandhermistress。 Theyhadstrong,independentnatures,bothofthem。Theyknewwhattheyliked,andwerenotalwaystryingtoimitateotherpeople。Theylovedchildrenandanimalsandmusic,androughplayanddiggingintheearth。 Theylikedtopreparerich,heartyfoodandtoseepeopleeatit; tomakeupsoftwhitebedsandtoseeyoungstersasleepinthem。 Theyridiculedconceitedpeopleandwerequicktohelpunfortunateones。 Deepdownineachofthemtherewasakindofheartyjoviality,arelishoflife,notover-delicate,butveryinvigorating。 Inevertriedtodefineit,butIwasdistinctlyconsciousofit。 IcouldnotimagineAntonia\'slivingforaweekinanyotherhouseinBlackHawkthantheHarlings\'。 VII WINTERLIESTOOLONGincountrytowns;hangsonuntilitisstaleandshabby,oldandsullen。Onthefarmtheweatherwasthegreatfact,andmen\'saffairswentonunderneathit,asthestreamscreepundertheice。 ButinBlackHawkthesceneofhumanlifewasspreadoutshrunkenandpinched,frozendowntothebarestalk。 ThroughJanuaryandFebruaryIwenttotheriverwiththeHarlingsonclearnights,andweskateduptothebigislandandmadebonfiresonthefrozensand。ButbyMarchtheicewasroughandchoppy,andthesnowontheriverbluffswasgreyandmournful-looking。Iwastiredofschool,tiredofwinterclothes,oftheruttedstreets,ofthedirtydriftsandthepilesofcindersthathadlainintheyardssolong。 Therewasonlyonebreakinthedrearymonotonyofthatmonth: whenBlindd\'Arnault,theNegropianist,cametotown。 HegaveaconcertattheOperaHouseonMondaynight,andheandhismanagerspentSaturdayandSundayatourcomfortablehotel。 Mrs。Harlinghadknownd\'Arnaultforyears。ShetoldAntoniashehadbettergotoseeTinythatSaturdayevening,astherewouldcertainlybemusicattheBoys\'Home。 SaturdaynightaftersupperIrandowntowntothehotelandslippedquietlyintotheparlour。Thechairsandsofaswerealreadyoccupied,andtheairsmelledpleasantlyofcigarsmoke。 Theparlourhadoncebeentworooms,andthefloorwasswaybackedwherethepartitionhadbeencutaway。 Thewindfromwithoutmadewavesinthelongcarpet。 Acoalstoveglowedateitherendoftheroom,andthegrandpianointhemiddlestoodopen。 Therewasanatmosphereofunusualfreedomaboutthehousethatnight,forMrs。GardenerhadgonetoOmahaforaweek。Johnniehadbeenhavingdrinkswiththeguestsuntilhewasratherabsent-minded。ItwasMrs。Gardenerwhoranthebusinessandlookedaftereverything。 Herhusbandstoodatthedeskandwelcomedincomingtravellers。 Hewasapopularfellow,butnomanager。 Mrs。Gardenerwasadmittedlythebest-dressedwomaninBlackHawk,drovethebesthorse,andhadasmarttrapandalittlewhite-and-goldsleigh。Sheseemedindifferenttoherpossessions,wasnothalfsosolicitousaboutthemasherfriendswere。 Shewastall,dark,severe,withsomethingIndian-likeintherigidimmobilityofherface。Hermannerwascold,andshetalkedlittle。Guestsfeltthattheywerereceiving,notconferring,afavourwhentheystayedatherhouse。 EventhesmartesttravellingmenwereflatteredwhenMrs。Gardenerstoppedtochatwiththemforamoment。 Thepatronsofthehotelweredividedintotwoclasses: thosewhohadseenMrs。Gardener\'sdiamonds,andthosewhohadnot。 WhenIstoleintotheparlour,AnsonKirkpatrick,MarshallField\'sman,wasatthepiano,playingairsfromamusicalcomedythenrunninginChicago。 HewasadapperlittleIrishman,veryvain,homelyasamonkey,withfriendseverywhere,andasweetheartineveryport,likeasailor。 Ididnotknowallthemenwhoweresittingabout,butIrecognizedafurnituresalesmanfromKansasCity,adrugman,andWillyO\'Reilly,whotravelledforajewelleryhouseandsoldmusicalinstruments。 Thetalkwasallaboutgoodandbadhotels,actorsandactressesandmusicalprodigies。IlearnedthatMrs。GardenerhadgonetoOmahatohearBoothandBarrett,whoweretoplaytherenextweek,andthatMaryAndersonwashavingagreatsuccessin`AWinter\'sTale,\'inLondon。 Thedoorfromtheofficeopened,andJohnnieGardenercamein,directingBlindd\'Arnault——hewouldneverconsenttobeled。 Hewasaheavy,bulkymulatto,onshortlegs,andhecametappingthefloorinfrontofhimwithhisgold-headedcane。 Hisyellowfacewasliftedinthelight,withashowofwhiteteeth,allgrinning,andhisshrunken,paperyeyelidslaymotionlessoverhisblindeyes。 `Goodevening,gentlemen。Noladieshere?Goodevening,gentlemen。 Wegoingtohavealittlemusic?Someofyougentlemengoingtoplayformethisevening?\'Itwasthesoft,amiableNegrovoice,likethoseIrememberedfromearlychildhood,withthenoteofdocilesubservienceinit。HehadtheNegrohead,too;almostnoheadatall; nothingbehindtheearsbutfoldsofneckunderclose-clippedwool。 Hewouldhavebeenrepulsiveifhisfacehadnotbeensokindlyandhappy。 ItwasthehappiestfaceIhadseensinceIleftVirginia。 Hefelthiswaydirectlytothepiano。Themomenthesatdown,InoticedthenervousinfirmityofwhichMrs。Harlinghadtoldme。 Whenhewassitting,orstandingstill,heswayedbackandforthincessantly,likearockingtoy。Atthepiano,heswayedintimetothemusic,andwhenhewasnotplaying,hisbodykeptupthismotion,likeanemptymillgrindingon。 Hefoundthepedalsandtriedthem,ranhisyellowhandsupanddownthekeysafewtimes,tinklingoffscales,thenturnedtothecompany。 `Sheseemsallright,gentlemen。NothinghappenedtohersincethelasttimeIwashere。Mrs。Gardener,shealwayshasthispianotunedupbeforeIcome。Nowgentlemen,Iexpectyou\'veallgotgrandvoices。 Seemslikewemighthavesomegoodoldplantationsongstonight。\' Themengatheredroundhim,ashebegantoplay`MyOldKentuckyHome。\' TheysangoneNegromelodyafteranother,whilethemulattosatrockinghimself,hisheadthrownback,hisyellowfacelifted,hisshrivelledeyelidsneverfluttering。 HewasbornintheFarSouth,onthed\'Arnaultplantation,wherethespiritifnotthefactofslaverypersisted。Whenhewasthreeweeksold,hehadanillnesswhichlefthimtotallyblind。 Assoonashewasoldenoughtositupaloneandtoddleabout,anotheraffliction,thenervousmotionofhisbody,becameapparent。 Hismother,abuxomyoungNegrowenchwhowaslaundressforthed\'Arnaults,concludedthatherblindbabywas`notright\' inhishead,andshewasashamedofhim。Shelovedhimdevotedly,buthewassougly,withhissunkeneyesandhis`fidgets,\'thatshehidhimawayfrompeople。AllthedaintiesshebroughtdownfromtheBigHousewerefortheblindchild,andshebeatandcuffedherotherchildrenwhenevershefoundthemteasinghimortryingtogethischicken-boneawayfromhim。Hebegantotalkearly,rememberedeverythingheheard,andhismammysaidhe`wasn\'tallwrong。\' ShenamedhimSamson,becausehewasblind,butontheplantationhewasknownas`yellowMartha\'ssimplechild。\'Hewasdocileandobedient,butwhenhewassixyearsoldhebegantorunawayfromhome,alwaystakingthesamedirection。Hefelthiswaythroughthelilacs,alongtheboxwoodhedge,uptothesouthwingoftheBigHouse,whereMissNellied\'Arnaultpractisedthepianoeverymorning。 Thisangeredhismothermorethananythingelsehecouldhavedone; shewassoashamedofhisuglinessthatshecouldn\'tbeartohavewhitefolksseehim。Whenevershecaughthimslippingawayfromthecabin,shewhippedhimunmercifully,andtoldhimwhatdreadfulthingsoldMr。d\'ArnaultwoulddotohimifheeverfoundhimneartheBigHouse。 ButthenexttimeSamsonhadachance,heranawayagain。 IfMissd\'Arnaultstoppedpractisingforamomentandwenttowardthewindow,shesawthishideouslittlepickaninny,dressedinanoldpieceofsacking,standingintheopenspacebetweenthehollyhockrows,hisbodyrockingautomatically,hisblindfaceliftedtothesunandwearinganexpressionofidioticrapture。 OftenshewastemptedtotellMarthathatthechildmustbekeptathome,butsomehowthememoryofhisfoolish,happyfacedeterredher。 Sherememberedthathissenseofhearingwasnearlyallhehad—— thoughitdidnotoccurtoherthathemighthavemoreofitthanotherchildren。 OnedaySamsonwasstandingthuswhileMissNelliewasplayingherlessontohermusic-teacher。Thewindowswereopen。 Heheardthemgetupfromthepiano,talkalittlewhile,andthenleavetheroom。Heheardthedoorcloseafterthem。 Hecreptuptothefrontwindowsandstuckhisheadin: therewasnoonethere。Hecouldalwaysdetectthepresenceofanyoneinaroom。Heputonefootoverthewindow-sillandstraddledit。 Hismotherhadtoldhimoverandoverhowhismasterwouldgivehimtothebigmastiffifheeverfoundhim`meddling。\'Samsonhadgottoonearthemastiff\'skennelonce,andhadfelthisterriblebreathinhisface。 Hethoughtaboutthat,buthepulledinhisotherfoot。 ThroughthedarkhefoundhiswaytotheThing,toitsmouth。Hetoucheditsoftly,anditansweredsoftly,kindly。Heshiveredandstoodstill。 Thenhebegantofeelitallover,ranhisfinger-tipsalongtheslipperysides,embracedthecarvedlegs,triedtogetsomeconceptionofitsshapeandsize,ofthespaceitoccupiedinprimevalnight。 Itwascoldandhard,andlikenothingelseinhisblackuniverse。 Hewentbacktoitsmouth,beganatoneendofthekeyboardandfelthiswaydownintothemellowthunder,asfarashecouldgo。Heseemedtoknowthatitmustbedonewiththefingers,notwiththefistsorthefeet。 Heapproachedthishighlyartificialinstrumentthroughamereinstinct,andcoupledhimselftoit,asifheknewitwastopiecehimoutandmakeawholecreatureofhim。Afterhehadtriedoverallthesounds,hebegantofingeroutpassagesfromthingsMissNelliehadbeenpractising,passagesthatwerealreadyhis,thatlayundertheboneofhispinched,conicallittleskull,definiteasanimaldesires。 Thedooropened;MissNellieandhermusic-masterstoodbehindit,butblindSamson,whowassosensitivetopresences,didnotknowtheywerethere。Hewasfeelingoutthepatternthatlayallready-madeonthebigandlittlekeys。 Whenhepausedforamoment,becausethesoundwaswrongandhewantedanother,MissNelliespokesoftly。 Hewhirledaboutinaspasmofterror,leapedforwardinthedark,struckhisheadontheopenwindow,andfellscreamingandbleedingtothefloor。Hehadwhathismothercalledafit。 Thedoctorcameandgavehimopium。 WhenSamsonwaswellagain,hisyoungmistressledhimbacktothepiano。 Severalteachersexperimentedwithhim。Theyfoundhehadabsolutepitch,andaremarkablememory。Asaveryyoungchildhecouldrepeat,afterafashion,anycompositionthatwasplayedforhim。 Nomatterhowmanywrongnoteshestruck,heneverlosttheintentionofapassage,hebroughtthesubstanceofitacrossbyirregularandastonishingmeans。Heworehisteachersout。 Hecouldneverlearnlikeotherpeople,neveracquiredanyfinish。 HewasalwaysaNegroprodigywhoplayedbarbarouslyandwonderfully。 Aspiano-playing,itwasperhapsabominable,butasmusicitwassomethingreal,vitalizedbyasenseofrhythmthatwasstrongerthanhisotherphysicalsenses——thatnotonlyfilledhisdarkmind,butworriedhisbodyincessantly。Tohearhim,towatchhim,wastoseeaNegroenjoyinghimselfasonlyaNegrocan。 Itwasasifalltheagreeablesensationspossibletocreaturesoffleshandbloodwereheapeduponthoseblack-and-whitekeys,andheweregloatingoverthemandtricklingthemthroughhisyellowfingers。 Inthemiddleofacrashingwaltz,d\'Arnaultsuddenlybegantoplaysoftly,and,turningtooneofthemenwhostoodbehindhim,whispered,`Somebodydancinginthere。\' Hejerkedhisbullet-headtowardthedining-room。`Ihearlittlefeet——girls,Ispect。\' AnsonKirkpatrickmountedachairandpeepedoverthetransom。 Springingdown,hewrenchedopenthedoorsandranoutintothedining-room。TinyandLena,AntoniaandMaryDusak,werewaltzinginthemiddleofthefloor。Theyseparatedandfledtowardthekitchen,giggling。 KirkpatrickcaughtTinybytheelbows。`What\'sthematterwithyougirls?Dancingoutherebyyourselves,whenthere\'saroomfuloflonesomemenontheothersideofthepartition! Introducemetoyourfriends,Tiny。\' Thegirls,stilllaughing,weretryingtoescape。Tinylookedalarmed。 `Mrs。Gardenerwouldn\'tlikeit,\'sheprotested。`She\'dbeawfulmadifyouwastocomeouthereanddancewithus。\' `Mrs。Gardener\'sinOmaha,girl。Now,you\'reLena,areyou?—— andyou\'reTonyandyou\'reMary。HaveIgotyouallstraight?\' O\'Reillyandtheothersbegantopilethechairsonthetables。 JohnnieGardenerraninfromtheoffice。 `Easy,boys,easy!\'heentreatedthem。`You\'llwakethecook,andthere\'llbethedeviltopayforme。Shewon\'thearthemusic,butshe\'llbedowntheminuteanything\'smovedinthedining-room。\' `Oh,whatdoyoucare,Johnnie?FirethecookandwireMollytobringanother。Comealong,nobody\'lltelltales。\' Johnnieshookhishead。`\'Safact,boys,\'hesaidconfidentially。 `IfItakeadrinkinBlackHawk,MollyknowsitinOmaha!\' Hisguestslaughedandslappedhimontheshoulder。`Oh,we\'llmakeitallrightwithMolly。Getyourbackup,Johnnie。\' MollywasMrs。Gardener\'sname,ofcourse。`MollyBawn\'waspaintedinlargebluelettersontheglossywhitesidesofthehotelbus,and`Molly\'wasengravedinsideJohnnie\'sringandonhiswatch-case—— doubtlessonhisheart,too。Hewasanaffectionatelittleman,andhethoughthiswifeawonderfulwoman;heknewthatwithoutherhewouldhardlybemorethanaclerkinsomeotherman\'shotel。 AtawordfromKirkpatrick,d\'Arnaultspreadhimselfoutoverthepiano,andbegantodrawthedancemusicoutofit,whiletheperspirationshoneonhisshortwoolandonhisupliftedface。HelookedlikesomeglisteningAfricangodofpleasure,fullofstrong,savageblood。 Wheneverthedancerspausedtochangepartnersortocatchbreath,hewouldboomoutsoftly,`Who\'sthatgoin\'backonme? Oneofthesecitygentlemen,Ibet!Now,yougirls,youain\'tgoin\' toletthatfloorgetcold?\' Antoniaseemedfrightenedatfirst,andkeptlookingquestioninglyatLenaandTinyoverWillyO\'Reilly\'sshoulder。 TinySoderballwastrimandslender,withlivelylittlefeetandprettyankles——sheworeherdressesveryshort。 Shewasquickerinspeech,lighterinmovementandmannerthantheothergirls。MaryDusakwasbroadandbrownofcountenance,slightlymarkedbysmallpox,buthandsomeforallthat。 Shehadbeautifulchestnuthair,coilsofit;herforeheadwaslowandsmooth,andhercommandingdarkeyesregardedtheworldindifferentlyandfearlessly。Shelookedboldandresourcefulandunscrupulous,andshewasallofthese。 Theywerehandsomegirls,hadthefreshcolouroftheircountryupbringing,andintheireyesthatbrilliancywhichiscalled—— bynometaphor,alas!——`thelightofyouth。\' D\'Arnaultplayeduntilhismanagercameandshutthepiano。 Beforeheleftus,heshowedushisgoldwatchwhichstruckthehours,andatopazring,givenhimbysomeRussiannoblemanwhodelightedinNegromelodies,andhadheardd\'ArnaultplayinNewOrleans。Atlasthetappedhiswayupstairs,afterbowingtoeverybody,docileandhappy。 IwalkedhomewithAntonia。Weweresoexcitedthatwedreadedtogotobed。 WelingeredalongwhileattheHarlings\'gate,whisperinginthecolduntiltherestlessnesswasslowlychilledoutofus。 VIII THEHARLINGCHILDRENandIwereneverhappier,neverfeltmorecontentedandsecure,thanintheweeksofspringwhichbrokethatlongwinter。 Wewereoutalldayinthethinsunshine,helpingMrs。HarlingandTonybreakthegroundandplantthegarden,digaroundtheorchardtrees,tieupvinesandclipthehedges。Everymorning,beforeIwasup,IcouldhearTonysinginginthegardenrows。Aftertheappleandcherrytreesbrokeintobloom,weranaboutunderthem,huntingforthenewneststhebirdswerebuilding,throwingclodsateachother,andplayinghide-and-seekwithNina。 Yetthesummerwhichwastochangeeverythingwascomingnearereveryday。 Whenboysandgirlsaregrowingup,lifecan\'tstandstill,noteveninthequietestofcountrytowns;andtheyhavetogrowup,whethertheywillorno。 Thatiswhattheireldersarealwaysforgetting。 ItmusthavebeeninJune,forMrs。HarlingandAntoniawerepreservingcherries,whenIstoppedonemorningtotellthemthatadancingpavilionhadcometotown。 Ihadseentwodrayshaulingthecanvasandpaintedpolesupfromthedepot。 Thatafternoonthreecheerful-lookingItaliansstrolledaboutBlackHawk,lookingateverything,andwiththemwasadark,stoutwomanwhoworealonggoldwatch-chainaboutherneckandcarriedablacklaceparasol。 Theyseemedespeciallyinterestedinchildrenandvacantlots。WhenI overtookthemandstoppedtosayaword,Ifoundthemaffableandconfiding。 TheytoldmetheyworkedinKansasCityinthewinter,andinsummertheywentoutamongthefarmingtownswiththeirtentandtaughtdancing。 Whenbusinessfelloffinoneplace,theymovedontoanother。 ThedancingpavilionwasputupneartheDanishlaundry,onavacantlotsurroundedbytall,archedcottonwoodtrees。 Itwasverymuchlikeamerry-go-roundtent,withopensidesandgayflagsflyingfromthepoles。 Beforetheweekwasover,alltheambitiousmothersweresendingtheirchildrentotheafternoondancingclass。 Atthreeo\'clockonemetlittlegirlsinwhitedressesandlittleboysintheround-collaredshirtsofthetime,hurryingalongthesidewalkontheirwaytothetent。 Mrs。Vannireceivedthemattheentrance,alwaysdressedinlavenderwithagreatdealofblacklace,herimportantwatch-chainlyingonherbosom。Sheworeherhaironthetopofherhead,builtupinablacktower,withredcoralcombs。 Whenshesmiled,sheshowedtworowsofstrong,crookedyellowteeth。 Shetaughtthelittlechildrenherself,andherhusband,theharpist,taughttheolderones。 Oftenthemothersbroughttheirfancyworkandsatontheshadysideofthetentduringthelesson。Thepopcornmanwheeledhisglasswagonunderthebigcottonwoodbythedoor,andloungedinthesun,sureofagoodtradewhenthedancingwasover。Mr。Jensen,theDanishlaundryman,usedtobringachairfromhisporchandsitoutinthegrassplot。Someraggedlittleboysfromthedepotsoldpopandicedlemonadeunderawhiteumbrellaatthecorner,andmadefacesatthespruceyoungsterswhocametodance。 Thatvacantlotsoonbecamethemostcheerfulplaceintown。 Evenonthehottestafternoonsthecottonwoodsmadearustlingshade,andtheairsmelledofpopcornandmeltedbutter,andBouncingBetswiltinginthesun。Thosehardyflowershadrunawayfromthelaundryman\'sgarden,andthegrassinthemiddleofthelotwaspinkwiththem。 TheVanniskeptexemplaryorder,andclosedeveryeveningatthehoursuggestedbythecitycouncil。WhenMrs。Vannigavethesignal,andtheharpstruckup`Home,SweetHome,\' allBlackHawkknewitwasteno\'clock。Youcouldsetyourwatchbythattuneasconfidentlyasbytheroundhousewhistle。 Atlasttherewassomethingtodointhoselong,emptysummerevenings,whenthemarriedpeoplesatlikeimagesontheirfrontporches,andtheboysandgirlstrampedandtrampedtheboardsidewalks—— northwardtotheedgeoftheopenprairie,southtothedepot,thenbackagaintothepost-office,theice-creamparlour,thebutchershop。 Nowtherewasaplacewherethegirlscouldweartheirnewdresses,andwhereonecouldlaughaloudwithoutbeingreprovedbytheensuingsilence。Thatsilenceseemedtooozeoutoftheground,tohangunderthefoliageoftheblackmapletreeswiththebatsandshadows。Nowitwasbrokenbylightheartedsounds。 FirstthedeeppurringofMr。Vanni\'sharpcameinsilveryripplesthroughtheblacknessofthedusty-smellingnight;thentheviolinsfellin——oneofthemwasalmostlikeaflute。Theycalledsoarchly,soseductively,thatourfeethurriedtowardthetentofthemselves。 Whyhadn\'twehadatentbefore? Dancingbecamepopularnow,justasrollerskatinghadbeenthesummerbefore。TheProgressiveEuchreClubarrangedwiththeVannisfortheexclusiveuseoftheflooronTuesdayandFridaynights。 Atothertimesanyonecoulddancewhopaidhismoneyandwasorderly; therailroadmen,theroundhousemechanics,thedeliveryboys,theiceman,thefarm-handswholivednearenoughtorideintotownaftertheirday\'sworkwasover。 InevermissedaSaturdaynightdance。Thetentwasopenuntilmidnightthen。Thecountryboyscameinfromfarmseightandtenmilesaway,andallthecountrygirlswereonthefloor——AntoniaandLenaandTiny,andtheDanishlaundrygirlsandtheirfriends。 Iwasnottheonlyboywhofoundthesedancesgayerthantheothers。 TheyoungmenwhobelongedtotheProgressiveEuchreClubusedtodropinlateandriskatiffwiththeirsweetheartsandgeneralcondemnationforawaltzwith`thehiredgirls。\' IX THEREWASACURIOUSsocialsituationinBlackHawk。Alltheyoungmenfelttheattractionofthefine,well-set-upcountrygirlswhohadcometotowntoearnaliving,and,innearlyeverycase,tohelpthefatherstruggleoutofdebt,ortomakeitpossiblefortheyoungerchildrenofthefamilytogotoschool。 Thosegirlshadgrownupinthefirstbitter-hardtimes,andhadgotlittleschoolingthemselves。Buttheyoungerbrothersandsisters,forwhomtheymadesuchsacrificesandwhohavehad`advantages,\'neverseemtome,whenImeetthemnow,halfasinterestingoraswelleducated。 Theoldergirls,whohelpedtobreakupthewildsod,learnedsomuchfromlife,frompoverty,fromtheirmothersandgrandmothers;theyhadall,likeAntonia,beenearlyawakenedandmadeobservantbycomingatatenderagefromanoldcountrytoanew。 IcanrememberascoreofthesecountrygirlswhowereinserviceinBlackHawkduringthefewyearsIlivedthere,andIcanremembersomethingunusualandengagingabouteachofthem。 Physicallytheywerealmostaraceapart,andout-of-doorworkhadgiventhemavigourwhich,whentheygotovertheirfirstshynessoncomingtotown,developedintoapositivecarriageandfreedomofmovement,andmadethemconspicuousamongBlackHawkwomen。 Thatwasbeforethedayofhigh-schoolathletics。 Girlswhohadtowalkmorethanhalfamiletoschoolwerepitied。 Therewasnotatennis-courtinthetown;physicalexercisewasthoughtratherinelegantforthedaughtersofwell-to-dofamilies。 Someofthehigh-schoolgirlswerejollyandpretty,buttheystayedindoorsinwinterbecauseofthecold,andinsummerbecauseoftheheat。 Whenonedancedwiththem,theirbodiesnevermovedinsidetheirclothes; theirmusclesseemedtoaskbutonething——nottobedisturbed。 Irememberthosegirlsmerelyasfacesintheschoolroom,gayandrosy,orlistlessanddull,cutoffbelowtheshoulders,likecherubs,bytheink-smearedtopsofthehighdesksthatweresurelyputtheretomakeusround-shoulderedandhollow-chested。 ThedaughtersofBlackHawkmerchantshadaconfident,unenquiringbeliefthattheywere`refined,\'andthatthecountrygirls,who`workedout,\'werenot。TheAmericanfarmersinourcountywerequiteashard-pressedastheirneighboursfromothercountries。 AllalikehadcometoNebraskawithlittlecapitalandnoknowledgeofthesoiltheymustsubdue。Allhadborrowedmoneyontheirland。 ButnomatterinwhatstraitsthePennsylvanianorVirginianfoundhimself,hewouldnotlethisdaughtersgooutintoservice。 Unlesshisgirlscouldteachacountryschool,theysatathomeinpoverty。 TheBohemianandScandinaviangirlscouldnotgetpositionsasteachers,becausetheyhadhadnoopportunitytolearnthelanguage。 Determinedtohelpinthestruggletoclearthehomesteadfromdebt,theyhadnoalternativebuttogointoservice。Someofthem,aftertheycametotown,remainedasseriousandasdiscreetinbehaviourastheyhadbeenwhentheyploughedandherdedontheirfather\'sfarm。Others,likethethreeBohemianMarys,triedtomakeupfortheyearsofyouththeyhadlost。Buteveryoneofthemdidwhatshehadsetouttodo,andsenthomethosehard-earneddollars。 ThegirlsIknewwerealwayshelpingtopayforploughsandreapers,brood-sows,orsteerstofatten。 Oneresultofthisfamilysolidaritywasthattheforeignfarmersinourcountywerethefirsttobecomeprosperous。 Afterthefatherswereoutofdebt,thedaughtersmarriedthesonsofneighbours——usuallyoflikenationality—— andthegirlswhoonceworkedinBlackHawkkitchensareto-daymanagingbigfarmsandfinefamiliesoftheirown; theirchildrenarebetteroffthanthechildrenofthetownwomentheyusedtoserve。 Ithoughttheattitudeofthetownpeopletowardthesegirlsverystupid。 IfItoldmyschoolmatesthatLenaLingard\'sgrandfatherwasaclergyman,andmuchrespectedinNorway,theylookedatmeblankly。Whatdiditmatter? Allforeignerswereignorantpeoplewhocouldn\'tspeakEnglish。 TherewasnotamaninBlackHawkwhohadtheintelligenceorcultivation,muchlessthepersonaldistinction,ofAntonia\'sfather。YetpeoplesawnodifferencebetweenherandthethreeMarys;theywereallBohemians,all`hiredgirls。\' IalwaysknewIshouldlivelongenoughtoseemycountrygirlscomeintotheirown,andIhave。To-daythebestthataharassedBlackHawkmerchantcanhopeforistosellprovisionsandfarmmachineryandautomobilestotherichfarmswherethatfirstcropofstalwartBohemianandScandinaviangirlsarenowthemistresses。 TheBlackHawkboyslookedforwardtomarryingBlackHawkgirls,andlivinginabrand-newlittlehousewithbestchairsthatmustnotbesatupon,andhand-paintedchinathatmustnotbeused。 Butsometimesayoungfellowwouldlookupfromhisledger,oroutthroughthegratingofhisfather\'sbank,andlethiseyesfollowLenaLingard,asshepassedthewindowwithherslow,undulatingwalk,orTinySoderball,trippingbyinhershortskirtandstripedstockings。 Thecountrygirlswereconsideredamenacetothesocialorder。 Theirbeautyshoneouttooboldlyagainstaconventionalbackground。 Butanxiousmothersneedhavefeltnoalarm。Theymistookthemettleoftheirsons。TherespectforrespectabilitywasstrongerthananydesireinBlackHawkyouth。 Ouryoungmanofpositionwaslikethesonofaroyalhouse; theboywhosweptouthisofficeordrovehisdeliverywagonmightfrolicwiththejollycountrygirls,buthehimselfmustsitalleveninginaplushparlourwhereconversationdraggedsoperceptiblythatthefatheroftencameinandmadeblunderingeffortstowarmuptheatmosphere。 Onhiswayhomefromhisdullcall,hewouldperhapsmeetTonyandLena,comingalongthesidewalkwhisperingtoeachother,orthethreeBohemianMarysintheirlongplushcoatsandcaps,comportingthemselveswithadignitythatonlymadetheireventfulhistoriesthemorepiquant。 Ifhewenttothehoteltoseeatravellingmanonbusiness,therewasTiny,archinghershouldersathimlikeakitten。 Ifhewentintothelaundrytogethiscollars,therewerethefourDanishgirls,smilingupfromtheirironing-boards,withtheirwhitethroatsandtheirpinkcheeks。 ThethreeMarysweretheheroinesofacycleofscandalousstories,whichtheoldmenwerefondofrelatingastheysataboutthecigar-standinthedrugstore。MaryDusakhadbeenhousekeeperforabachelorrancherfromBoston,andafterseveralyearsinhisserviceshewasforcedtoretirefromtheworldforashorttime。 Latershecamebacktotowntotaketheplaceofherfriend,MarySvoboda,whowassimilarlyembarrassed。ThethreeMaryswereconsideredasdangerousashighexplosivestohaveaboutthekitchen,yettheyweresuchgoodcooksandsuchadmirablehousekeepersthattheyneverhadtolookforaplace。 TheVannis\'tentbroughtthetownboysandthecountrygirlstogetheronneutralground。SylvesterLovett,whowascashierinhisfather\'sbank,alwaysfoundhiswaytothetentonSaturdaynight。 HetookallthedancesLenaLingardwouldgivehim,andevengrewboldenoughtowalkhomewithher。Ifhissistersortheirfriendshappenedtobeamongtheonlookerson`popularnights,\' Sylvesterstoodbackintheshadowunderthecottonwoodtrees,smokingandwatchingLenawithaharassedexpression。 SeveraltimesIstumbleduponhimthereinthedark,andI feltrathersorryforhim。HeremindedmeofOleBenson,whousedtositonthedrawsideandwatchLenaherdhercattle。 Laterinthesummer,whenLenawenthomeforaweektovisithermother,IheardfromAntoniathatyoungLovettdroveallthewayouttheretoseeher,andtookherbuggy-riding。 InmyingenuousnessIhopedthatSylvesterwouldmarryLena,andthusgiveallthecountrygirlsabetterpositioninthetown。 SylvesterdalliedaboutLenauntilhebegantomakemistakesinhiswork; hadtostayatthebankuntilafterdarktomakehisbooksbalance。 Hewasdaftabouther,andeveryoneknewit。Toescapefromhispredicamentheranawaywithawidowsixyearsolderthanhimself,whoownedahalf-section。Thisremedyworked,apparently。HeneverlookedatLenaagain,norliftedhiseyesasheceremoniouslytippedhishatwhenhehappenedtomeetheronthesidewalk。 Sothatwaswhattheywerelike,Ithought,thesewhite-handed,high-collaredclerksandbookkeepers!IusedtoglareatyoungLovettfromadistanceandonlywishedIhadsomewayofshowingmycontemptforhim。 X ITWASATTHEVannis\'tentthatAntoniawasdiscovered。HithertoshehadbeenlookeduponmoreasawardoftheHarlingsthanasoneofthe`hiredgirls。\' Shehadlivedintheirhouseandyardandgarden;herthoughtsneverseemedtostrayoutsidethatlittlekingdom。ButafterthetentcametotownshebegantogoaboutwithTinyandLenaandtheirfriends。 TheVannisoftensaidthatAntoniawasthebestdancerofthemall。 IsometimesheardmurmursinthecrowdoutsidethepavilionthatMrs。Harlingwouldsoonhaveherhandsfullwiththatgirl。 Theyoungmenbegantojokewitheachotherabout`theHarlings\'Tony\'astheydidabout`theMarshalls\'Anna\'or`theGardeners\'Tiny。\' Antoniatalkedandthoughtofnothingbutthetent。Shehummedthedancetunesallday。Whensupperwaslate,shehurriedwithherdishes,droppedandsmashedtheminherexcitement。 Atthefirstcallofthemusic,shebecameirresponsible。 Ifshehadn\'ttimetodress,shemerelyflungoffherapronandshotoutofthekitchendoor。SometimesIwentwithher; themomentthelightedtentcameintoviewshewouldbreakintoarun,likeaboy。Therewerealwayspartnerswaitingforher; shebegantodancebeforeshegotherbreath。 Antonia\'ssuccessatthetenthaditsconsequences。 Theicemanlingeredtoolongnow,whenhecameintothecoveredporchtofilltherefrigerator。Thedeliveryboyshungaboutthekitchenwhentheybroughtthegroceries。 YoungfarmerswhowereintownforSaturdaycametrampingthroughtheyardtothebackdoortoengagedances,ortoinviteTonytopartiesandpicnics。LenaandNorwegianAnnadroppedintohelpherwithherwork,sothatshecouldgetawayearly。 TheboyswhobroughtherhomeafterthedancessometimeslaughedatthebackgateandwakenedMr。Harlingfromhisfirstsleep。 Acrisiswasinevitable。 OneSaturdaynightMr。Harlinghadgonedowntothecellarforbeer。 Ashecameupthestairsinthedark,heheardscufflingonthebackporch,andthenthesoundofavigorousslap。 Helookedoutthroughthesidedoorintimetoseeapairoflonglegsvaultingoverthepicketfence。 Antoniawasstandingthere,angryandexcited。YoungHarryPaine,whowastomarryhisemployer\'sdaughteronMonday,hadcometothetentwithacrowdoffriendsanddancedallevening。 Afterward,hebeggedAntoniatolethimwalkhomewithher。 Shesaidshesupposedhewasaniceyoungman,ashewasoneofMissFrances\'sfriends,andshedidn\'tmind。 Onthebackporchhetriedtokissher,andwhensheprotested—— becausehewasgoingtobemarriedonMonday——hecaughtherandkissedheruntilshegotonehandfreeandslappedhim。 Mr。Harlingputhisbeer-bottlesdownonthetable。 `ThisiswhatI\'vebeenexpecting,Antonia。You\'vebeengoingwithgirlswhohaveareputationforbeingfreeandeasy,andnowyou\'vegotthesamereputation。Iwon\'thavethisandthatfellowtrampingaboutmybackyardallthetime。 Thisistheendofit,tonight。Itstops,short。Youcanquitgoingtothesedances,oryoucanhuntanotherplace。 Thinkitover。\' ThenextmorningwhenMrs。HarlingandFrancestriedtoreasonwithAntonia,theyfoundheragitatedbutdetermined。 `Stopgoingtothetent?\'shepanted。`Iwouldn\'tthinkofitforaminute!Myownfathercouldn\'tmakemestop! Mr。Harlingain\'tmybossoutsidemywork。Iwon\'tgiveupmyfriends,either。TheboysIgowitharenicefellows。 IthoughtMr。Painewasallright,too,becauseheusedtocomehere。 IguessIgavehimaredfaceforhiswedding,allright!\' sheblazedoutindignantly。 `You\'llhavetodoonethingortheother,Antonia,\'Mrs。Harlingtoldherdecidedly。`Ican\'tgobackonwhatMr。Harlinghassaid。 Thisishishouse。\' `ThenI\'lljustleave,Mrs。Harling。Lena\'sbeenwantingmetogetaplaceclosertoherforalongwhile。MarySvoboda\'sgoingawayfromtheCutters\' toworkatthehotel,andIcanhaveherplace。\' Mrs。Harlingrosefromherchair。`Antonia,ifyougototheCutters\'towork,youcannotcomebacktothishouseagain。 Youknowwhatthatmanis。Itwillbetheruinofyou。\' Tonysnatcheduptheteakettleandbegantopourboilingwaterovertheglasses,laughingexcitedly。`Oh,Icantakecareofmyself!I\'malotstrongerthanCutteris。 Theypayfourdollarsthere,andthere\'snochildren。 Thework\'snothing;Icanhaveeveryevening,andbeoutalotintheafternoons。\' `Ithoughtyoulikedchildren。Tony,what\'scomeoveryou?\' `Idon\'tknow,somethinghas。\'Antoniatossedherheadandsetherjaw。 `Agirllikemehasgottotakehergoodtimeswhenshecan。 Maybetherewon\'tbeanytentnextyear。IguessIwanttohavemyfling,liketheothergirls。\' Mrs。Harlinggaveashort,harshlaugh。`IfyougotoworkfortheCutters,you\'relikelytohaveaflingthatyouwon\'tgetupfrominahurry。\' Francessaid,whenshetoldgrandmotherandmeaboutthisscene,thateverypanandplateandcupontheshelvestrembledwhenhermotherwalkedoutofthekitchen。Mrs。HarlingdeclaredbitterlythatshewishedshehadneverletherselfgetfondofAntonia。 XI WICKCUTTERWASthemoney-lenderwhohadfleecedpoorRussianPeter。 WhenafarmeroncegotintothehabitofgoingtoCutter,itwaslikegamblingorthelottery;inanhourofdiscouragementhewentback。 Cutter\'sfirstnamewasWycliffe,andhelikedtotalkabouthispiousbringing-up。HecontributedregularlytotheProtestantchurches,`forsentiment\'ssake,\'ashesaidwithaflourishofthehand。 HecamefromatowninIowawheretherewereagreatmanySwedes,andcouldspeakalittleSwedish,whichgavehimagreatadvantagewiththeearlyScandinaviansettlers。 Ineveryfrontiersettlementtherearemenwhohavecometheretoescaperestraint。Cutterwasoneofthe`fastset\' ofBlackHawkbusinessmen。Hewasaninveterategambler,thoughapoorloser。Whenwesawalightburninginhisofficelateatnight,weknewthatagameofpokerwasgoingon。 Cutterboastedthatheneverdrankanythingstrongerthansherry,andhesaidhegothisstartinlifebysavingthemoneythatotheryoungmenspentforcigars。Hewasfullofmoralmaximsforboys。Whenhecametoourhouseonbusiness,hequoted`PoorRichard\'sAlmanack\'tome,andtoldmehewasdelightedtofindatownboywhocouldmilkacow。 Hewasparticularlyaffabletograndmother,andwhenevertheymethewouldbeginatoncetotalkabout`thegoodoldtimes\' andsimpleliving。Idetestedhispink,baldhead,andhisyellowwhiskers,alwayssoftandglistening。 Itwassaidhebrushedthemeverynight,asawomandoesherhair。 Hiswhiteteethlookedfactory-made。Hisskinwasredandrough,asiffromperpetualsunburn;heoftenwentawaytohotspringstotakemudbaths。Hewasnotoriouslydissolutewithwomen。 TwoSwedishgirlswhohadlivedinhishouseweretheworsefortheexperience。OneofthemhehadtakentoOmahaandestablishedinthebusinessforwhichhehadfittedher。 Hestillvisitedher。 Cutterlivedinastateofperpetualwarfarewithhiswife,andyet,apparently,theyneverthoughtofseparating。 Theydweltinafussy,scroll-workhouse,paintedwhiteandburiedinthickevergreens,withafussywhitefenceandbarn。 Cutterthoughtheknewagreatdealabouthorses,andusuallyhadacoltwhichhewastrainingforthetrack。 OnSundaymorningsonecouldseehimoutatthefairgrounds,speedingaroundtherace-courseinhistrotting-buggy,wearingyellowglovesandablack-and-white-checktravellingcap,hiswhiskersblowingbackinthebreeze。 Iftherewereanyboysabout,Cutterwouldofferoneofthemaquartertoholdthestop-watch,andthendriveoff,sayinghehadnochangeandwould`fixitupnexttime。\' Noonecouldcuthislawnorwashhisbuggytosuithim。 Hewassofastidiousandprimabouthisplacethataboywouldgotoagooddealoftroubletothrowadeadcatintohisbackyard,ortodumpasackfuloftincansinhisalley。 Itwasapeculiarcombinationofold-maidishnessandlicentiousnessthatmadeCutterseemsodespicable。 HehadcertainlymethismatchwhenhemarriedMrs。Cutter。 Shewasaterrifying-lookingperson;almostagiantessinheight,raw-boned,withiron-greyhair,afacealwaysflushed,andprominent,hystericaleyes。Whenshemeanttobeentertainingandagreeable,shenoddedherheadincessantlyandsnappedhereyesatone。 Herteethwerelongandcurved,likeahorse\'s;peoplesaidbabiesalwayscriedifshesmiledatthem。Herfacehadakindoffascinationforme:itwastheverycolourandshapeofanger。 Therewasagleamofsomethingakintoinsanityinherfull,intenseeyes。Shewasformalinmanner,andmadecallsinrustling,steel-greybrocadesandatallbonnetwithbristlingaigrettes。 Mrs。Cutterpaintedchinasoassiduouslythatevenherwash-bowlsandpitchers,andherhusband\'sshaving-mug,werecoveredwithvioletsandlilies。Once,whenCutterwasexhibitingsomeofhiswife\'schinatoacaller,hedroppedapiece。 Mrs。Cutterputherhandkerchieftoherlipsasifsheweregoingtofaintandsaidgrandly:`Mr。Cutter,youhavebrokenalltheCommandments——sparethefinger-bowls!\' TheyquarrelledfromthemomentCuttercameintothehouseuntiltheywenttobedatnight,andtheirhiredgirlsreportedthesescenestothetownatlarge。Mrs。CutterhadseveraltimescutparagraphsaboutunfaithfulhusbandsoutofthenewspapersandmailedthemtoCutterinadisguisedhandwriting。Cutterwouldcomehomeatnoon,findthemutilatedjournalinthepaper-rack,andtriumphantlyfittheclippingintothespacefromwhichithadbeencut。 Thosetwocouldquarrelallmorningaboutwhetherheoughttoputonhisheavyorhislightunderwear,andalleveningaboutwhetherhehadtakencoldornot。 TheCuttershadmajoraswellasminorsubjectsfordispute。 Thechiefofthesewasthequestionofinheritance:Mrs。Cuttertoldherhusbanditwasplainlyhisfaulttheyhadnochildren。 HeinsistedthatMrs。Cutterhadpurposelyremainedchildless,withthedeterminationtooutlivehimandtosharehispropertywithher`people,\'whomhedetested。Tothisshewouldreplythatunlesshechangedhismodeoflife,shewouldcertainlyoutlivehim。 Afterlisteningtoherinsinuationsabouthisphysicalsoundness,Cutterwouldresumehisdumb-bellpracticeforamonth,orrisedailyatthehourwhenhiswifemostlikedtosleep,dressnoisily,anddriveouttothetrackwithhistrotting-horse。 Oncewhentheyhadquarrelledabouthouseholdexpenses,Mrs。Cutterputonherbrocadeandwentamongtheirfriendssolicitingordersforpaintedchina,sayingthatMr。Cutterhadcompelledher`tolivebyherbrush。\' Cutterwasn\'tshamedasshehadexpected;hewasdelighted! Cutteroftenthreatenedtochopdownthecedartreeswhichhalf-buriedthehouse。HiswifedeclaredshewouldleavehimifshewerestrippedoftheIprivacy\'whichshefeltthesetreesaffordedher。 Thatwashisopportunity,surely;buthenevercutdownthetrees。 TheCuttersseemedtofindtheirrelationstoeachotherinterestingandstimulating,andcertainlytherestofusfoundthemso。 WickCutterwasdifferentfromanyotherrascalIhaveeverknown,butIhavefoundMrs。Cuttersallovertheworld;sometimesfoundingnewreligions,sometimesbeingforciblyfed——easilyrecognizable,evenwhensuperficiallytamed。 XII AFTERANTONIAWENTTOlivewiththeCutters,sheseemedtocareaboutnothingbutpicnicsandpartiesandhavingagoodtime。 Whenshewasnotgoingtoadance,sheseweduntilmidnight。 Hernewclotheswerethesubjectofcausticcomment。 UnderLena\'sdirectionshecopiedMrs。Gardener\'snewpartydressandMrs。Smith\'sstreetcostumesoingeniouslyincheapmaterialsthatthoseladiesweregreatlyannoyed,andMrs。Cutter,whowasjealousofthem,wassecretlypleased。 Tonyworeglovesnow,andhigh-heeledshoesandfeatheredbonnets,andshewentdowntownnearlyeveryafternoonwithTinyandLenaandtheMarshalls\'NorwegianAnna。Wehigh-schoolboysusedtolingerontheplaygroundattheafternoonrecesstowatchthemastheycametrippingdownthehillalongtheboardsidewalk,twoandtwo。 Theyweregrowingprettiereveryday,butastheypassedus,IusedtothinkwithpridethatAntonia,likeSnow-Whiteinthefairytale,wasstill`fairestofthemall。\' Beingaseniornow,Igotawayfromschoolearly。 SometimesIovertookthegirlsdowntownandcoaxedthemintotheice-creamparlour,wheretheywouldsitchatteringandlaughing,tellingmeallthenewsfromthecountry。 IrememberhowangryTinySoderballmademeoneafternoon。ShedeclaredshehadheardgrandmotherwasgoingtomakeaBaptistpreacherofme。 `Iguessyou\'llhavetostopdancingandwearawhitenecktiethen。 Won\'thelookfunny,girls?\' Lenalaughed。`You\'llhavetohurryup,Jim。Ifyou\'regoingtobeapreacher,Iwantyoutomarryme。Youmustpromisetomarryusall,andthenbaptizethebabies。\' NorwegianAnna,alwaysdignified,lookedatherreprovingly。 `Baptistsdon\'tbelieveinchristeningbabies,dothey,Jim?\' ItoldherIdidn\'tknowwhattheybelieved,anddidn\'tcare,andthatIcertainlywasn\'tgoingtobeapreacher。 `That\'stoobad,\'Tinysimpered。Shewasinateasingmood。`You\'dmakesuchagoodone。You\'resostudious。Maybeyou\'dliketobeaprofessor。 YouusedtoteachTony,didn\'tyou?\' Antoniabrokein。`I\'vesetmyheartonJimbeingadoctor。You\'dbegoodwithsickpeople,Jim。Yourgrandmother\'strainedyouupsonice。 Mypapaalwayssaidyouwereanawfulsmartboy。\' IsaidIwasgoingtobewhateverIpleased。`Won\'tyoubesurprised,MissTiny,ifIturnouttobearegulardevilofafellow?\' TheylaugheduntilaglancefromNorwegianAnnacheckedthem;thehigh-schoolprincipalhadjustcomeintothefrontpartoftheshoptobuybreadforsupper。AnnaknewthewhisperwasgoingaboutthatIwasaslyone。 Peoplesaidtheremustbesomethingqueeraboutaboywhoshowednointerestingirlsofhisownage,butwhocouldbelivelyenoughwhenhewaswithTonyandLenaorthethreeMarys。 Theenthusiasmforthedance,whichtheVannishadkindled,didnotatoncedieout。Afterthetentlefttown,theEuchreClubbecametheOwlClub,andgavedancesintheMasonicHallonceaweek。Iwasinvitedtojoin,butdeclined。 Iwasmoodyandrestlessthatwinter,andtiredofthepeopleIsaweveryday。CharleyHarlingwasalreadyatAnnapolis,whileIwasstillsittinginBlackHawk,answeringtomynameatroll-calleverymorning,risingfrommydeskatthesoundofabellandmarchingoutlikethegrammar-schoolchildren。 Mrs。Harlingwasalittlecooltowardme,becauseIcontinuedtochampionAntonia。Whatwasthereformetodoaftersupper? UsuallyIhadlearnednextday\'slessonsbythetimeIlefttheschoolbuilding,andIcouldn\'tsitstillandreadforever。 IntheeveningIusedtoprowlabout,huntingfordiversion。 Therelaythefamiliarstreets,frozenwithsnoworliquidwithmud。 Theyledtothehousesofgoodpeoplewhowereputtingthebabiestobed,orsimplysittingstillbeforetheparlourstove,digestingtheirsupper。BlackHawkhadtwosaloons。 Oneofthemwasadmitted,evenbythechurchpeople,tobeasrespectableasasalooncouldbe。HandsomeAntonJelinek,whohadrentedhishomesteadandcometotown,wastheproprietor。 InhissaloontherewerelongtableswheretheBohemianandGermanfarmerscouldeatthelunchestheybroughtfromhomewhiletheydranktheirbeer。Jelinekkeptryebreadonhandandsmokedfishandstrongimportedcheesestopleasetheforeignpalate。 Ilikedtodropintohisbar-roomandlistentothetalk。 Butonedayheovertookmeonthestreetandclappedmeontheshoulder。 `Jim,\'hesaid,`IamgoodfriendswithyouandIalwaysliketoseeyou。 Butyouknowhowthechurchpeoplethinkaboutsaloons。Yourgrandpahasalwaystreatedmefine,andIdon\'tliketohaveyoucomeintomyplace,becauseIknowhedon\'tlikeit,anditputsmeinbadwithhim。\' SoIwasshutoutofthat。 Onecouldhangaboutthedrugstore;andlistentotheoldmenwhosatthereeveryevening,talkingpoliticsandtellingrawstories。 OnecouldgotothecigarfactoryandchatwiththeoldGermanwhoraisedcanariesforsale,andlookathisstuffedbirds。 Butwhateveryoubeganwithhim,thetalkwentbacktotaxidermy。 Therewasthedepot,ofcourse;Ioftenwentdowntoseethenighttraincomein,andafterwardsatawhilewiththedisconsolatetelegrapherwhowasalwayshopingtobetransferredtoOmahaorDenver,`wheretherewassomelife。\' Hewassuretobringouthispicturesofactressesanddancers。 Hegotthemwithcigarettecoupons,andnearlysmokedhimselftodeathtopossessthesedesiredformsandfaces。 Forachange,onecouldtalktothestationagent; buthewasanothermalcontent;spentallhissparetimewritingletterstoofficialsrequestingatransfer。HewantedtogetbacktoWyomingwherehecouldgotrout-fishingonSundays。 Heusedtosay`therewasnothinginlifeforhimbuttroutstreams,eversincehe\'dlosthistwins。\' ThesewerethedistractionsIhadtochoosefrom。 Therewerenootherlightsburningdowntownafternineo\'clock。 OnstarlightnightsIusedtopaceupanddownthoselong,coldstreets,scowlingatthelittle,sleepinghousesoneitherside,withtheirstorm-windowsandcoveredbackporches。 Theywereflimsyshelters,mostofthempoorlybuiltoflightwood,withspindleporch-postshorriblymutilatedbytheturning-lathe。Yetforalltheirfrailness,howmuchjealousyandenvyandunhappinesssomeofthemmanagedtocontain! Thelifethatwentoninthemseemedtomemadeupofevasionsandnegations;shiftstosavecooking,tosavewashingandcleaning,devicestopropitiatethetongueofgossip。 Thisguardedmodeofexistencewaslikelivingunderatyranny。 People\'sspeech,theirvoices,theirveryglances,becamefurtiveandrepressed。Everyindividualtaste,everynaturalappetite,wasbridledbycaution。Thepeopleasleepinthosehouses,Ithought,triedtolivelikethemiceintheirownkitchens; tomakenonoise,toleavenotrace,toslipoverthesurfaceofthingsinthedark。Thegrowingpilesofashesandcindersinthebackyardsweretheonlyevidencethatthewasteful,consumingprocessoflifewentonatall。OnTuesdaynightstheOwlClubdanced;thentherewasalittlestirinthestreets,andhereandthereonecouldseealightedwindowuntilmidnight。 Butthenextnightallwasdarkagain。 AfterIrefusedtojoin`theOwls,\'astheywerecalled,ImadeaboldresolvetogototheSaturdaynightdancesatFiremen\'sHall。 Iknewitwouldbeuselesstoacquaintmyelderswithanysuchplan。 Grandfatherdidn\'tapproveofdancing,anyway;hewouldonlysaythatifI wantedtodanceIcouldgototheMasonicHall,among`thepeopleweknew。\' ItwasjustmypointthatIsawaltogethertoomuchofthepeopleweknew。 Mybedroomwasonthegroundfloor,andasIstudiedthere,Ihadastoveinit。IusedtoretiretomyroomearlyonSaturdaynight,changemyshirtandcollarandputonmySundaycoat。 Iwaiteduntilallwasquietandtheoldpeoplewereasleep,thenraisedmywindow,climbedout,andwentsoftlythroughtheyard。 ThefirsttimeIdeceivedmygrandparentsIfeltrathershabby,perhapseventhesecondtime,butIsoonceasedtothinkaboutit。 ThedanceattheFiremen\'sHallwastheonethingIlookedforwardtoalltheweek。ThereImetthesamepeopleIusedtoseeattheVannis\'tent。SometimestherewereBohemiansfromWilber,orGermanboyswhocamedownontheafternoonfreightfromBismarck。 TonyandLenaandTinywerealwaysthere,andthethreeBohemianMarys,andtheDanishlaundrygirls。 ThefourDanishgirlslivedwiththelaundrymanandhiswifeintheirhousebehindthelaundry,withabiggardenwheretheclotheswerehungouttodry。 Thelaundrymanwasakind,wiseoldfellow,whopaidhisgirlswell,lookedoutforthem,andgavethemagoodhome。Hetoldmeoncethathisowndaughterdiedjustasshewasgettingoldenoughtohelphermother,andthathehadbeen`tryingtomakeupforiteversince。\' Onsummerafternoonsheusedtositforhoursonthesidewalkinfrontofhislaundry,hisnewspaperlyingonhisknee,watchinghisgirlsthroughthebigopenwindowwhiletheyironedandtalkedinDanish。 Thecloudsofwhitedustthatblewupthestreet,thegustsofhotwindthatwitheredhisvegetablegarden,neverdisturbedhiscalm。 Hisdrollexpressionseemedtosaythathehadfoundthesecretofcontentment。Morningandeveninghedroveaboutinhisspringwagon,distributingfreshlyironedclothes,andcollectingbagsoflinenthatcriedoutforhissudsandsunnydrying-lines。Hisgirlsneverlookedsoprettyatthedancesastheydidstandingbytheironing-board,oroverthetubs,washingthefinepieces,theirwhitearmsandthroatsbare,theircheeksbrightasthebrightestwildroses,theirgoldhairmoistwiththesteamortheheatandcurlinginlittledampspiralsabouttheirears。 TheyhadnotlearnedmuchEnglish,andwerenotsoambitiousasTonyorLena;buttheywerekind,simplegirlsandtheywerealwayshappy。 Whenonedancedwiththem,onesmelledtheirclean,freshlyironedclothesthathadbeenputawaywithrosemaryleavesfromMr。Jensen\'sgarden。 Therewerenevergirlsenoughtogoroundatthosedances,buteveryonewantedaturnwithTonyandLena。 Lenamovedwithoutexertion,ratherindolently,andherhandoftenaccentedtherhythmsoftlyonherpartner\'sshoulder。 Shesmiledifonespoketoher,butseldomanswered。Themusicseemedtoputherintoasoft,wakingdream,andherviolet-colouredeyeslookedsleepilyandconfidinglyatonefromunderherlonglashes。