第20章

类别:其他 作者:Charles Dickens字数:14029更新时间:18/12/13 12:49:25
`Ihadneverbeforeseenthesenseofbeingoppressed,burstingforthlikeafire.Ihadsupposedthatitmustbelatentinthepeoplesomewhere;but,Ihadneverseenitbreakout,untilIsawitinthedyingboy. `\"Nevertheless,Doctor,mysistermarried.Hewasailingatthattime,poorfellow,andshemarriedherlover,thatshemighttendandcomforthiminourcottage——ourdog-hut,asthatmanwouldcallit.Shehadnotbeenmarriedmanyweeks,whenthatman\'sbrothersawherandadmiredher,andaskedthatmantolendhertohim——forwhatarehusbandsamongus!Hewaswillingenough,butmysisterwasgoodandvirtuous,andhatedhisbrotherwithahatredasstrongasmine.Whatdidthetwothen,topersuadeherhusbandtousehisinfluencewithher,tomakeherwilling?\" `Theboy\'seyes,whichhadbeenfixedonmine,slowlyturnedtothelooker-on,andIsawintheMofacesthatallhesaidwastrue.Thetwoopposingkindsofprideconfrontingoneanother,Icansee,eveninthisBastille;thegentleman\'sallnegligentindifference;thepeasant\'s,alltrodden-downsentiment,andpassionaterevenge. `\"Youknow,Doctor,thatitisamongtheRightsoftheseNoblestoharnessuscommondogstocarts,anddriveus.Theysoharnessedhimanddrovehim.YouknowthatitisamongtheirRightstokeepusintheirgroundsallnight,quietingthefrogs,inorderthattheirnoblesleepmaynotbedisturbed.Theykepthimoutintheunwholesomemistsatnight,andorderedhimbackintohisharnessintheday.Buthewasnotpersuaded.No!Takenoutofharnessonedayatnoon,tofeed——ifhecouldfindfood——hesobbedtwelvetimes,onceforeverystrokeofthebell,anddiedonherbosom.\" `Nothinghumancouldhaveheldlifeintheboybuthisdeterminationtotellallhiswrong.Heforcedbackthegatheringshadowsofdeath,asheforcedhisclenchedrighthandtoremainclenched,andtocoverhiswound. `\"Then,withthatman\'spermissionandevenwithhisaid,hisbrothertookheraway;inspiteofwhatIknowshemusthavetoldhisbrother——andwhatthatis,willnotbelongunknowntoyou,Doctor,ifitisnow——hisbrothertookheraway——forhispleasureanddiversion,foralittlewhile.Isawherpassmeontheroad.WhenItookthetidingshome,ourfather\'sheartburst;heneverspokeoneofthewordsthatfilledit.Itookmyyoungsister(forIhaveanother)toaplacebeyondthereachofthisman,andwhere,atleast,shewillneverbehisvassal.Then,Itrackedthebrotherhere,andlastnightclimbedin-acommondog,butswordinhand——Whereistheloftwindow?Itwassomewherehere?\" `Theroomwasdarkeningtohissight;theworldwasnarrowingaroundhim.Iglancedaboutme,andsawthatthehayandstrawweretrampledoverthefloor,asiftherehadbeenastruggle. `\"Sheheardme,andranin.Itoldhernottocomenearustillhewasdead.Hecameinandfirsttossedmesomepiecesofmoney;thenstruckatmewithawhip.ButI,thoughacommondog,sostruckathimastomakehimdraw.Lethimbreakintoasmanypiecesashewill,theswordthathestainedwithmycommonblood;hedrewtodefendhimself——thrustatmewithallhisskillforhislife.\" `Myglancehadfallen,butafewmomentsbefore,onthefragmentsofabrokensword,lyingamongthehay.Thatweaponwasagentleman\'s.Inanotherplace,layanoldswordthatseemedtohavebeenasoldier\'s. `\"Now,liftmeup,Doctor;liftmeup.Whereishe?\" `\"Heisnothere,\"Isaid,supportingtheboy,andthinkingthathereferredtothebrother. `\"He!Proudasthesenoblesare,heisafraidtoseeme.Whereisthemanwhowashere?Turnmyfacetohim.\" `Ididso,raisingtheboy\'sheadagainstmyknee.But,investedforthemomentwithextraordinarypower,heraisedhimselfcompletely:obligingmetorisetoo,orIcouldnothavestillsupportedhim. `\"Marquis,\"saidtheboy,turnedtohimwithhiseyesopenedwide,andhisrighthandraised,\"inthedayswhenallthesethingsaretobeansweredfor,Isummonyouandyours,tothelastofyourbadrace,toanswerforthem.Imarkthiscrossofblooduponyou,asasignthatIdoit.Inthedayswhenallthesethingsaretobeansweredfor,Isummonyourbrother,theworstofthebadrace,toanswerforthemseparately.Imarkthiscrossofblooduponhim,asasignthatIdoit. `Twice,heputhishandtothewoundinhisbreast,andwithforefingerdrewacrossintheair.Hestoodforaninstantwiththefingeryetraised,and,asitwithit,andIlaidhimdowndead.**** `WhenIreturnedtothebedsideoftheyoungwoman,Ifoundherravinginpreciselythesameorderandcontinuity.Iknewthatthismightlastformanyhours,andthatitwouldprobablyendinthesilenceofthegrave. `IrepeatedthemedicinesIhadgivenher,andIsatatthesideofthebeduntilthenightwasfaradvanced.Sheneverabatedthepiercingqualityofhershrieks,neverstumbledinthedistinctnessortheorderofherwords.Theywerealways\"Myhusband,myfather,andmybrother!One,two,three,four,five,six,seven,eight,nine,ten,eleven,twelve.Hush!\" `Thislastedtwenty-sixhoursfromthetimewhenIfirstsawher.Ihadcomeandgonetwice,andwasagainsittingbyher,whenshebegantofalter.Ididwhatlittlecouldbedonetoassistthatopportunity,andby-and-byshesankintoalethargy,andlaylikethedead. `Itwasasifthewindandrainhadlulledatlast,afteralongandfearfulstorm.Ireleasedherarms,andcalledthewomantoassistmetocomposeherfigureandthedressshehadtorn.ItwasthenthatIknewherconditiontobethatofoneinwhomthefirstexpectationsofbeingamotherhavearisen;anditwasthenthatIlostthelittlehopeIhadhadofher. `\"Isshedead?\"askedtheMarquis,whomIwillstilldescribeastheelderbrother,comingbootedintotheroomfromhishorse. `\"Notdead,\"saidI;\"butliketodie.\" `\"whatstrengththereisinthesecommonbodies!\"hesaid,lookingdownatherwithsomecuriosity. `\"Thereisprodigiousstrength,\"Iansweredhim,\"insorrowanddespair.\" `Hefirstlaughedatmywords,andthenfrownedatthem.Hemovedachairwithhisfootneartomine,orderedthewomanaway,andsaidinasubduedvoice, `\"Doctor,findingmybrotherinthisdifficultywiththesehinds,Irecommendedthatyouraidshouldbeinvited.Yourreputationishigh,and,asayoungmanwithyourfortunetomake,youareprobablymindfulofyourinterest.Thethingsthatyouseehere,arethingstobeseen,andnotspokenof.\" `Ilistenedtothepatient\'sbreathing,andavoidedanswering. `\"Doyouhonourmewithyourattention,Doctor? `\"Monsieur,\"saidI,\"inmyprofession,thecommunicationsofpatientsarealwaysreceivedinconfidence.\"Iwasguardedinmyanswer,forIwastroubledinmymindwithwhatIhadheardandseen. `Herbreathingwassodifficulttotrace,thatIcarefullytriedthepulseandtheheart.Therewaslife,andnomore.LookingroundasIresumedmyseat,Ifoundthebrothersintentuponme.**** `Iwritewithsomuchdifficulty,thecoldissosevere,Iamsofearfulofbeingdetectedandconsignedtoanundergroundcellandtotaldarkness,thatImustabridgethisnarrative.Thereisnoconfusionorfailureinmymemory;itcanrecall,andcoulddetail,everywordthatwaseverspokenbetweenmeandthosebrothers. `Shelingeredforaweek.Towardsthelast,Icouldunderstandsomefewsyllablesthatshesaidtome,byplacingmyearclosetoherlips.Sheaskedmewhereshewas,andItoldher;whoIwas,andItoldher.ItwasinvainthatIaskedherforherfamilyname.Shefaintlyshookherheaduponthepillow,andkepthersecret,astheboyhaddone. `Ihadnoopportunityofaskingheranyquestion,untilIhadtoldthebrothersshewassinkingfast,andcouldnotliveanotherday.Untilthen,thoughnoonewaseverpresentedtoherconsciousnesssavethewomanandmyself,oneorotherofthemhadalwaysjealouslysatbehindthecurtainattheheadofthebedwhenIwasthere.Butwhenitcametothat,theyseemedcarelesswhatcommunicationImightholdwithher;asif——thethoughtpassedthroughmymind——Iweredyingtoo. `Ialwaysobservedthattheirpridebitterlyresentedtheyoungerbrother\'s(asIcallhim)havingcrossedswordswithapeasant,andthatpeasantaboy.Theonlyconsiderationthatappearedtoaffectthemindofeitherofthemwastheconsiderationthatthiswashighlydegradingtothefamily,andwasridiculous.AsoftenasIcaughttheyoungerbrother\'seyes,theirexpressionremindedmethathedislikedmedeeply,furknowingwhatIknewfromtheboy.Hewassmootherandmorepolitetomethantheelder;butIsawthis.IalsosawthatIwasanincumbranceinthemindoftheelder,too. `Mypatientdied,twohoursbeforemidnight——atatime,bymywatch,answeringalmosttotheminutewhenIhadfirstseenher.Iwasalonewithher,whenherforlornyoungheadtroopedgentlyononeside,andallherearthlywrongsandsorrowsended. `Thebrotherswerewaitinginaroomdown-stairs,impatienttorideaway.Ihadheardthem,aloneatthebedside,strikingtheirbootswiththeirriding-whips,andloiteringupanddown. `\"Atlastsheisdead?\"saidtheelder,whenIwentin. `\"Sheisdead,\"saidI. `\"Icongratulateyou,mybrother,\"werehiswordsasheturnedround. `Hehadbeforeofferedmemoney,whichIhadpostponedtaking.Henowgavemearouleauofgold.Itookitfromhishand,butlaiditonthetable.Ihadconsideredthequestion,andhadresolvedtoacceptnothing. `\"Prayexcuseme,\"saidI.\"Underthecircumstances,no.\"`Theyexchangedlooks,butbenttheirheadstomeasIbentminetothem,andwepartedwithoutanotherwordoneitherside.**** `Iamweary,weary,weary——worndownbymisery.IcannotreadwhatIhavewrittenwiththisgaunthand. `Earlyinthemorning,therouleauofgoldwasleftatm\'doorinalittlebox,withmynameontheoutside.Fromthefirst,IhadanxiouslyconsideredwhatIoughttodo.Idecided,thatday,towriteprivatelytotheMinister,statingthenatureofthetwoeasestowhichIhadbeensummoned,andtheplacetowhichIhadgone:ineffect,statingallthecircumstances.IknewwhatCourtinfluencewas,andwhattheimmunitiesoftheNobleswere,andIexpectedthatthematterwouldneverbeheardof;but,Iwishedtorelievemyownmind.Ihadkeptthematteraprofoundsecret,evenfrommywife;andthis,too,Iresolvedtostateinmyletter.Ihadnoapprehensionwhateverofmyrealdanger;butIwasconsciousthattheremightbedangerforothers,ifotherswerecompromisedbypossessingtheknowledgethatIpossessed. `Iwasmuchengagedthatday,andcouldnotcompletemyletterthatnight.Iroselongbeforemyusualtimenextmorningtofinishit.Itwasthelastdayoftheyear.Theletterwaslyingbeforemejustcompleted,whenIwastoldthataladywaited,whowishedtoseeme.**** `IamgrowingmoreandmoreunequaltothetaskIhavesetmyself.Itissocold,sodark,mysensesaresobenumbed,andthegloomuponmeissodreadful. `Theladywasyoung,engaging,andhandsome,butnotmarkedforlonglife.Shewasingreatagitation.ShepresentedherselftomeasthewifeoftheMarquisSt.Evrémonde.Iconnectedthetitlebywhichtheboyhadaddressedtheelderbrother,withtheinitialletterembroideredonthescarf,andhadnodifficultyinarrivingattheconclusionthatIhadseenthatnoblemanverylately. `Mymemoryisstillaccurate,butIcannotwritethewordsofOurconversation.IsuspectthatIamwatchedmorecloselythanIwas,andIknownotatwhattimesImaybewatched.Shehadinpartsuspected,andinpartdiscovered,themainfactsofthecruelstory,ofherhusband\'sshareinit,andmybeingresortedto.Shedidnotknowthatthegirlwasdead.Herhopehadbeen,shesaidingreatdistress,toshowher,insecret,awoman\'ssympathy.HerhopehadbeentoavertthewrathofHeavenfromaHousethathadlongbeenhatefultothesufferingmany. `Shehadreasonsforbelievingthattherewasayoungsisterliving,andhergreatestdesirewas,tohelpthatsister.Icouldtellhernothingbutthattherewassuchasister;beyondthat,Iknewnothing.Herinducementtocometome,relyingonmyconfidence,hadbeenthehopethatIcouldtellherthenameandplaceofabode.Whereas,tothiswretchedhourIamignorantofboth.**** `Thesescrapsofpaperfailme.Onewastakenfromme,withawarning,yesterday.Imustfinishmyrecordto-day. `Shewasagood,compassionatelady,andnothappyinhermarriage.Howcouldshebe!Thebrotherdistrustedanddislikedher,andhisinfluencewasallopposedtoher;shestoodindreadofhim,andindeadofherhusbandtoo.WhenIhandedherdowntothedoor,therewasachild,aprettyboyfromtwotothreeyearsold,inhercarriage. `\"Forhissake,Doctor,\"shesaid,pointingtohimintears,\"IwoulddoallIcantomakewhatpooramendsIcan.Hewillneverprosperinhisinheritanceotherwise.Ihaveapresentimentthatifnootherinnocentatonementismadeforthis,itwillonedayberequiredofhim.WhatIhavelefttocallmyown——itislittlebeyondtheworthofafewjewels——Iwillmakeitthefirstchargeofhislifetobestow,withthecompassionandlamentingofhisdeadmother,onthisinjuredfamily,ifthesistercanbediscovered.\" `Shekissedtheboy,andsaid,caressinghim,\"Itisforthineowndearsake.Thouwiltbefaithful,littleCharles?\"Thechildansweredherbravely,\"Yes!\"Ikissedherhand,andshetookhiminherarms,andwentawaycaressinghim.Ineversawhermore. `Asshehadmentionedherhusband\'snameinthefaiththatIknewit,Iaddednomentionofittomyletter.Isealedmyletter,and,nottrustingitoutofmyownhands,delivereditmyselfthatday. `Thatnight,thelastnightoftheyear,towardsnineo\'clock,amaninablackdressrangatmygate,demandedtoseeme,andsoftlyfollowedmyservant,ErnestDefarge,ayouth,upstairs.WhenmyservantcameintotheroomwhereIsatwithmywife——Omywife,belovedofmyheart!MyfairyoungEnglishwife!——wesawtheman,whowassupposedtobeatthegate,standingsilentbehindhim. `AnurgentcaseintheRueSt.Honoré\',hesaid.Itwouldnotdetainme,hehadacoachinwaiting. `Itbroughtmehere,itbroughtmetomygrave.WhenIwasclearofthehouse,ablackmufflerwasdrawntightlyovermymouthfrombehind,andmyarmswerepinioned.Thetwobrotherscrossedtheroadfromadarkcorner,andidentifiedmewithasinglegesture.TheMarquistookfromhispockettheletterIhadwritten,showeditme,burntitinthelightofalanternthatwasheld,andextinguishedtheasheswithhisfoot.Notawordwasspoken.Iwasbroughthere,Iwasbroughttomylivinggrave. `IfithadpleasedGODtoputitinthehardheartofeitherofthebrothers,inallthesefrightfulyears,tograntmeanytidingsofmydearestwife——somuchastoletmeknowbyawordwhetheraliveordead——ImighthavethoughtthatHehadnotquiteabandonedthem.But,nowIbelievethatthemarkoftheredcrossisfataltothem,andthattheyhavenopartinHismercies.Andthemandtheirdescendants,tothelastoftheirrace,I,AlexandreManette,unhappyprisoner,dothislastnightoftheyear1767,inmyunbearableagony,denouncetothetimeswhenallthesethingsshallbeansweredfor.IdenouncethemtoHeavenandtoearth.\' Aterriblesoundarosewhenthereadingofthisdocumentwasdone.Asoundofcravingandeagernessthathadnothingarticulateinitbutblood.Thenarrativecalledupthemostrevengefulpassionsofthetime,andtherewasnotaheadinthenationbutmusthavedroppedbeforeit. Littleneed,inpresenceofthattribunalandthatauditory,toshowhowtheDefargeshadnotmadethepaperpublic,withtheothercapturedBastillememorialsborneinprocession,andhadkeptit,bidingtheirtime.LittleneedtoshowthatthisdetestedfamilynamehadlongbeenanathematisedbySaintAntoine,andwaswroughtintothefatalregister.ThemannevertrodgroundwhosevirtuesandServiceswouldhavesustainedhiminthatplacethatday,againstsuchdenunciation. Andalltheworseforthedoomedman,thatthedenouncerwasawell-knowncitizen,hisownattachedfriend,thefatherofhiswife.Oneofthefrenziedaspirationsofthepopulacewas,forimitationsofthequestionablepublicvirtuesofantiquity,andforsacrificesandself-immolationsonthepeople\'saltar.ThereforewhenthePresidentsaid(elsehadhisownheadquiveredonhisshoulders),thatthegoodphysicianoftheRepublicwoulddeservebetterstilloftheRepublicbyrootingoutanobnoxiousfamilyofAristocrats,andwoulddoubtlessfeelasacredglowandjoyinmakinghisdaughterawidowandherchildanorphan,therewaswildexcitement,patrioticfervour,notatouchofhumansympathy. `Muchinfluencearoundhim,hasthatDoctor?\'murmuredMadameDefarge,smilingtoTheVengeance.`Savehimnow,myDoctor,savehim!\' Ateveryjuryman\'svote,therewasaroar.Anotherandanother.Roarandroar. Unanimouslyvoted.AtheartandbydescentanAristocrat,anenemyoftheRepublic,anotoriousoppressorofthePeople.BacktotheConciergerie,andDeathwithinfour-and-twentyhours! CHAPTERXI Dusk THEwretchedwifeoftheinnocentmanthusdoomedtodie,underthesentence,asifshehadbeenmortallystricken.But,sheutterednosound;andsostrongwasthevoicewithinher,representingthatitwassheofalltheworldwhomustupholdhiminhismiseryandnotaugmentit,thatitquicklyraisedher,evenfromthatshock. Thejudgeshavingtotakepartinapublicdemonstrationoutofdoors,thetribunaladjourned.Thequicknoiseandmovementofthecourt\'semptyingitselfbymanypassageshadnotceased,whenLuciestoodstretchingoutherarmstowardsherhusband,withnothinginherfacebutloveandconsolation. `IfImighttouchhim!IfImightembracehimonce!O,goodcitizens,ifyouwouldhavesomuchcompassionforus!\' Therewasbutagaolerleft,alongwithtwoofthefourmenwhohadtakenhimlastnight,andBarsad.Thepeoplehadallpouredouttotheshowinthestreets.Barsadproposedtotherest,`Letherembracehimthen;itisbutamoment.\'Itwassilentlyacquiescedin,andtheypassedherovertheseatsinthehalltoaraisedplace,wherehe,byleaningoverthedock,couldfoldherinhisarms. `Farewell,deardarlingofmysoul.Mypartingblessingonmylove.Weshallmeetagain,wherethewearyareatrest!\' Theywereherhusband\'swords,asheheldhertohisbosom. `Icanbearit,dearCharles.Iamsupportedfromabove:don\'tsufferforme.Apartingblessingforourchild.\' `Isendittoherbyyou.Ikissherbyyou.Isayfarewelltoherbyyou.\' `Myhusband.No!Amoment!\'Hewastearinghimselfapartfromher.`Weshallnotbeseparatedlong.Ifeelthatthiswillbreakmyheartby-and-by;butIwilldomydutywhileIcan,andwhenIleaveher,Godwillraiseupfriendsforher,asHedidforme.\' Herfatherhadfollowedher,andwouldhavefallenonhiskneestobothofthem,butthatDarnayputoutahandandseizedhim,crying: `No,no!Whathaveyoudone,whathaveyoudone,thatyoushouldkneeltous!Weknownow,whatastruggleyoumadeofold.Weknownow,whatyouunderwentwhenyoususpectedmydescent,andwhenyouknewit.Weknownow,thenaturalantipathyyoustroveagainst,andconquered,forherdearsake.Wethankyouwithallourhearts,andallourloveandduty.Heavenbewithyou!\' Herfather\'sonlyanswerwastodrawhishandsthroughhiswhitehair,andwringthemwithashriekofanguish. `Itcouldnotbeotherwise,\'saidtheprisoner.`Allthingshaveworkedtogetherastheyhavefallenout.Itwasthealways-vainendeavourtodischargemypoormother\'strustthatfirstbroughtmyfatalpresencenearyou.Goodcouldnevercomeofsuchevil,ahappierendwasnotinnaturetosounhappyabeginning.Becomforted,andforgiveme.Heavenblessyou!\' Ashewasdrawnaway,hiswifereleasedhim,andstoodlookingafterhimwithherhandstouchingoneanotherintheattitudeofprayer,andwitharadiantlookuponherface,inwhichtherewasevenacomfortingsmile.Ashewentoutattheprisoners\'door,sheturned,laidherheadlovinglyonherfather\'sbreast,triedtospeaktohim,andfellathisfeet. Then,issuingfromtheobscurecornerfromwhichhehadnevermoved,SydneyCartoncameandtookherup.OnlyherfatherandMr.Lorrywerewithher.Hisarmtrembledasitraisedher,andsupportedherhead.Yet,therewasanairabouthimthatwasnotallofpity——thathadaflushofprideinit. `ShallItakehertoacoach?Ishallneverfeelherweight.\' Hecarriedherlightlytothedoor,andlaidhertenderlydowninacoach.Herfatherandtheiroldfriendgotintoit,andhetookhisseatbesidethedriver. Whentheyarrivedatthegatewaywherehehadpausedinthedarknotmanyhoursbefore,topicturetohimselfonwhichoftheroughstonesofthestreetherfeethadtrodden,heliftedheragain,andcarriedherupthestaircasetotheirrooms.There,helaidherdownonacouch,whereherchildandMissProssweptoverher. `Don\'trecallhertoherself,\'hesaid,softly,tothelatter,`sheisbetterso.Don\'trevivehertoconsciousness,whilesheonlyfaints.\' `Oh,Carton,Carton,dearCarton!\'criedlittleLucie,springingupandthrowingherarmspassionatelyroundhim,inaburstofgrief.`Nowthatyouhavecome,Ithinkyouwilldosomethingtohelpmamma,somethingtosavepapa!O,lookather,dearCarton!Canyou,ofallthepeoplewholoveher,beartoseeherso?\' Hebentoverthechild,andlaidherbloomingcheekagainsthisface.Heputhergentlyfromhim,andlookedatherunconsciousmother. `BeforeIgo,\'hesaid,andpaused——\'Imaykissher?\' Itwasrememberedafterwardsthatwhenhebentdownandtouchedherfacewithhislips,hemurmuredsomewords.Thechild,whowasnearesttohim,toldthemafterwards,andtoldhergrandchildrenwhenshewasahandsomeoldlady,thatsheheardhimsay,`Alifeyoulove.\' Whenhehadgoneoutintothenextroom,heturnedsuddenlyonMr.Lorryandherfather,whowerefollowing,andsaidtothelatter: `Youhadgreatinfluencebutyesterday,DoctorManette;letitatleastbetried.Thesejudges,andallthemeninpower,ireveryfriendlytoyou,andveryrecognisantofyourservices;aretheynot?\' `NothingconnectedwithCharleswasconcealedfromme.IhadthestrongestassurancesthatIshouldsavehim;andIdid.\'Hereturnedtheansweringreattrouble,andveryslowly. `Trythemagain.Thehoursbetweenthisandto-morrowafternoonarefewandshort,buttry.\' `Iintendtotry.Iwillnotrestamoment.\' `That\'swell.Ihaveknownsuchenergyasyoursdogreatthingsbeforenow——thoughnever,\'headded,withasmileandasightogether,`suchgreatthingsasthis.Buttry!Oflittleworthaslifeiswhenwemisuseit,itisworththateffort.Itwouldcostnothingtolaydownifitwerenot.\' `Iwillgo,\'saidDoctorManette,`totheProsecutorandthePresidentstraight,andIwillgotootherswhomitisbetternottoname.Iwillwritetoo,and——Butstay!Thereisacelebrationinthestreets,andnoonewillbeaccessibleuntildark.\' `That\'strue.Well!Itisaforlornhopeatthebest,andnotmuchtheforlornerforbeingdelayedtilldark.Ishouldliketoknowhowyouspeed;though,mind!Iexpectnothing!Whenareyoulikelytohaveseenthesedreadpowers,DoctorManette?\' `Immediatelyafterdark,Ishouldhope.Withinanhourortwofromthis.\' `Itwillbedarksoonafterfour.Letusstretchthehourortwo.IfIgotoMr.Lorry\'satnine,shallIhearwhatyouhavedone,eitherfromourfriendorfromyourself?\' `Yes.\'`Mayyouprosper!\' Mr.LorryfollowedSydneytotheouterdoor,and,touchinghimontheshoulderashewasgoingaway,causedhimtoturn. `Ihavenohope,\'saidMr.Lorry,inalowandsorrowfulwhisper. `NorhaveI.\' `Ifanyoneofthesemen,orallofthesemen,weredisposedtosparehim——whichisalargesupposition;forwhatishislife,oranyman\'stothem!——Idoubtiftheydurstsparehimafterthedemonstrationinthecourt.\' `AndsodoI.Iheardthefalloftheaxeinthatsound.\' Mr.Lorryleanedhisarmuponthedoor-post,andbowedhisfaceuponit. `Don\'tdespond,\'saidCarton,verygently;`don\'tgrieve.IencouragedDoctorManetteinthisidea,becauseIfeltthatitmightonedaybeconsolatorytoher.Otherwise,shemightthink\"hislifewaswantonlythrownawayorwasted,\"andthatmighttroubleher.\' `Yes,yes,yes,\'returnedMr.Lorry,dryinghiseyes,`youareright.Buthewillperish;thereisnorealhope. `Yes.Hewillperish:thereisnorealhope,\'echoedCarton.Andwalkedwithasettledstep,down-stairs. CHAPTERXII Darkness SYDNEYCARTONpausedinthestreet,notquitedecidedwheretogo.`AtTellson\'sbanking-houseatnine,\'hesaid,withamusingface.`ShallIdowell,inthemeantime,toshowmyself?Ithinkso.ItisbestthatthesepeopleshouldknowthereissuchamanasIhere;itisasoundprecaution,andmaybeanecessarypreparation.Butcare,care,care!Letmethinkitout!\' Checkinghissteps,whichhadbeguntotendtowardsanobject,hetookaturnortwointhealreadydarkeningstreet,andtracedthethoughtinhismindtoitspossibleconsequences.Hisfirstimpressionwasconfirmed.`Itisbest,\'hesaid,finallyresolved,`thatthesepeopleshouldknowthereissuchamanasIhere.\'AndheturnedhisfacetowardsSaintAntoine. Defargehaddescribedhimself,thatday,asthekeeperofawine-shopintheSaintAntoinesuburb.Itwasnotdifficultforonewhoknewthecitywell,tofindhishousewithoutaskinganyquestion.Havingascertaineditssituation,Cartoncameoutofthosecloserstreetsagain,anddinedataplaceofrefreshmentandfellsoundasleepafterdinner.Forthefirsttimeinmanyyears,hehadnostrongdrink.Sincelastnighthehadtakennothingbutalittlelightthinwine,andlastnighthehaddroppedthebrandyslowlydownonMr.Lorry\'shearthlikeamanwhohaddonewithit. Itwasaslateasseveno\'clockwhenheawokerefreshed,andwentoutintothestreetsagain.AshepassedalongtowardsSaintAntoine,hestoppedatashop-windowwheretherewasamirror,andslightlyalteredthedisorderedarrangementofhisloosecravat,andhiscoat-collar,andhiswildhair.Thisdone,hewentondirecttoDefarge\'s,andwentin. TherehappenedtobenocustomerintheshopbutJacquesThree,oftherestlessfingersandthecroakingvoice.Thisman,whomhehadseenupontheJury,stooddrinkingatthelittlecounter,inconversationwiththeDefarges,manandwife.TheVengeanceassistedintheconversation,likearegularmemberoftheestablishment. AsCartonwalkedin,tookhisseatandasked(inveryindifferentFrench)forasmallmeasureofwine,MadameDefargecastacarelessglanceathim,andthenakeener,andthenakeener,andthenadvancedtohimherself,andaskedhimwhatitwashehadordered. Herepeatedwhathehadalreadysaid. `English?\'askedMadameDefarge,inquisitivelyraisingherdarkeyebrows. Afterlookingather,asifthesoundofevenasingleFrenchwordwereslowtoexpressitselftohim,heanswered,inhisformerstrongforeignaccent,`Yes,madame,yes.IamEnglish!\' MadameDefargereturnedtohercountertogetthewine,and,ashetookupaJacobinjournalandfeignedtoporeoveritpuzzlingoutitsmeaning,heheardhersay,`Isweartoyou,likeEvrémonde!\' Defargebroughthimthewine,andgavehimGoodEvening. `How?\' `Goodevening.\' `Oh!Goodevening,citizen,\'fillinghisglass.`Ah!andgoodwine.IdrinktotheRepublic.\' Defargewentbacktothecounter,andsaid,`Certainly,alittlelike.\'Madamesternlyretorted,`Itellyouagooddeallike.\'JacquesThreepacificallyremarked,`Heissomuchinyourmind,seeyou,madame.\'TheamiableVengeanceadded,withalaugh,`Yes,myfaith!Andyouarelookingforwardwithsomuchpleasuretoseeinghimoncemoreto-morrow!\' Cartonfollowedthelinesandwordsofhispaper,withaslowforefinger,andwithastudiousandabsorbedface.Theywereallleaningtheirarmsonthecounterclosetogether,speakinglow.Afterasilenceofafewmoments,duringwhichtheyalllookedtowardshimwithoutdisturbinghisoutwardattentionfromtheJacobineditor,theyresumedtheirconversation. `Itistruewhatmadamesays,\'observedJacquesThree.`Whystop?Thereisgreatforceinthat.Whystop?\' `Well,well,\'reasonedDefarge,`butonemuststopsomewhere.Afterall,thequestionisstillwhere?\' `Atextermination,\'saidmadame. `Magnificent!\'croakedJacquesThree.TheVengeance,also,highlyapproved. `Exterminationisgooddoctrine,mywife,\'saidDefarge,rathertroubled;`ingeneral,Isaynothingagainstit.ButthisDoctorhassufferedmuch;youhaveseenhimto-day;youhaveobservedhisfacewhenthepaperwasread.\' `Ihaveobservedhisface!\'repeatedmadame,contemptuouslyandangrily.`Yes.Ihaveobservedhisface.IhaveobservedhisfacetobenotthefaceofatruefriendoftheRepublic.Lethimtakecareofhisface!\' `Andyouhaveobserved,mywife,\'saidDefarge,inadeprecatorymanner,`theanguishofhisdaughter,whichmustbeadreadfulanguishtohim!\' `Ihaveobservedhisdaughter,\'repeatedmadame;`yes,Ihaveobservedhisdaughter,moretimesthanone.Ihaveobservedherto-day,andIhaveobservedherotherdays.Ihaveobservedherinthecourt,andIhaveobservedherinthestreetbytheprison.Letmebutliftmyfinger——!\'Sheseemedtoraiseit(thelistener\'seyeswerealwaysonhispaper),andtoletitfallwitharattleontheledgebeforeher,asiftheaxehaddropped. `Thecitizenessissuperb!\'croakedtheJuryman. `SheisanAngel!\'saidTheVengeance,andembracedher. `Astothee,\'pursuedmadame,implacably,addressingherhusband,`ifitdependedonthee——which,happily,itdoesnot——thouwouldstrescuethismanevennow. `No!\'protestedDefarge.`Notiftoliftthisglasswoulddoit!ButIwouldleavethematterthere.Isay,stopthere.\' `Seeyouthen,Jacques,\'saidMadameDefarge,wrathfully;`andseeyou,too,mylittleVengeance;seeyouboth!Listen!Forothercrimesastyrantsandoppressors,Ihavethisracealongtimeonmyregister,doomedtodestructionandextermination.Askmyhusband,isthatso.\' `Itisso,\'assentedDefarge,withoutbeingasked. `Inthebeginningofthegreatdays,whentheBastillefalls,hefindsthispaperofto-day,andhebringsithome,andinthemiddleofthenightwhenthisplaceisclearandshut,wereadit,hereonthisspot,bythelightofthislamp.Askhim,isthatso.\' `Itisso,\'assentedDefarge. `Thatnight,Itellhim,whenthepaperisreadthrough,andthelampisburntout,andthedayisgleaminginabovethoseshuttersandbetweenthoseironbars,thatIhavenowasecrettocommunicate.Askhim,isthatso.\' `Itisso,\'assentedDefargeagain. `Icommunicatetohimthatsecret.IsmitethisbosomwiththesetwohandsasIsmiteitnow,andItellhim,\"Defarge,Iwasbroughtupamongthefishermenofthesea-shore,andthatpeasantfamilysoinjuredbythetwoEvrémondebrothers,asthatBastillepaperdescribes,ismyfamily.Defarge,thatsisterofthemortallywoundedboyuponthegroundwasmysister,thathusbandwasmysister\'shusband,thatunbornchildwastheirchild,thatbrotherwasmybrother,thatfatherwasmyfather,thosedeadaremydead,andthatsummonstoanswerforthosethingsdescendstome!\"Askhim,isthatso.\' `Itisso,\'assentedDefargeoncemore. `ThentellWindandFirewheretostop,\'returnedmadame;`butdon\'ttellme.\' Bothherhearersderivedahorribleenjoymentfromthedeadlynatureofherwrath——thelistenercouldfeelhowwhiteshewas,withoutseeingher——andbothhighlycommendedit.Defarge,aweakminority,interposedafewwordsforthememoryofthecompassionatewifeoftheMarquis;butonlyelicitedfromhisownwifearepetitionofherlastreply.`TelltheWindandtheFirewheretostop;notme!\' Customersentered,andthegroupwasbrokenup.TheEnglishcustomerpaidforwhathehadhad,perplexedlycountedhischange,andasked,asastranger,tobedirectedtowardstheNationalPalace.MadameDefargetookhimtothedoor,andputherarmonhis,inpointingouttheroad.TheEnglishcustomerwasnotwithouthisreflectionsthen,thatitmightbeagooddeedtoseizethatarm,liltit,andstrikeunderitsharpanddeep. But,hewenthisway,andwassoonswallowedupintheshadowoftheprisonwall.Attheappointedhour,heemergedfromittopresenthimselfinMr.Lorry\'sroomagain,wherehefoundtheoldgentlemanwalkingtoandfroinrestlessanxiety.HesaidhehadbeenwithLucieuntiljustnow,andhadonlyleftherforafewminutes,tocomeandkeephisappointment.Herfatherhadnotbeenseen,sincehequittedthebankinghousetowardsfouro\'clock.ShehadsomefainthopesthathismediationmightsaveCharles,buttheywereveryslight.Hehadbeenmorethanfivehoursgone:wherecouldhebe? Mr.Lorrywaiteduntilten;but,DoctorManettenotreturning,andhebeingunwillingtoleaveLucieanylonger,itwasarrangedthatheshouldgobacktoher,andcometothebanking-houseagainatmidnight.Inthemeanwhile,CartonwouldwaitalonebythefirefortheDoctor.Hewaitedandwaited,andtheclockstrucktwelve;butDoctorManettedidnotcomeback.Mr.Lorryreturned,andfoundnotidingsofhim,andbroughtnone.Wherecouldhebe? Theywerediscussingthisquestion,andwerealmostbuildingupsomeweakstructureofhopeonhisprolongedabsence,whentheyheardhimonthestairs.Theinstantheenteredtheroom,itwasplainthatallwaslost. Whetherhehadreallybeentoanyone,orwhetherhehadbeenallthattimetraversingthestreets,wasneverknown.Ashestoodstaringatthem,theyaskedhimnoquestion,forhisfacetoldthemeverything. `Icannotfindit,\'saidhe,`andImusthaveit.Whereisit?\' Hisheadandthroatwerebare,and,ashespokewithahelplesslookstrayingallaround,hetookhiscoatoff,andletitdroponthefloor. `Whereismybench?Ihavebeenlookingeverywhereformybench,andIcan\'tfindit.Whathavethey,donewithmywork?Timepresses:Imustfinishthoseshoes. Theylookedatoneanother,andtheirheartsdiedwithinthem. `Come,come!\'saidhe,inawhimperingmiserableway;`letmegettowork.Givememywork.\' Receivingnoanswer,hetorehishair,andbeathisfeetupontheground,likeadistractedchild. `Don\'ttortureapoorforlornwretch,\'heimploredthem,withadreadfulcry;`butgivememywork!Whatistobecomeofus,ifthoseshoesarenotdoneto-night?\' Lost,utterlylost! Itwassoclearlybeyondhopetoreasonwithhim,ortrytorestorehim,——that——asifbyagreement——theyeachputahanduponhisshoulder,andsoothedhimtositdownbeforethefire,withapromisethatheshouldhavehisworkpresently.Hesankintothechair,andbroodedovertheembers,andshedtears.Asifallthathadhappenedsincethegarrettimewereamomentaryfancy,oradream,Mr.LorrysawhimshrinkintotheexactfigurethatDefargehadhadinkeeping. Affected,andimpressedwithterrorastheybothwere,bythisspectacleofruin,itwasnotatimetoyieldtosuchemotions.Hislonelydaughter,bereftofherfinalhopeandreliance,appealedtothembothtoostrongly.Again,asifbyagreement,theylookedatoneanotherwithonemeaningintheirfaces.Cartonwasthefirsttospeak: `Thelastchanceisgone:Itwasnotmuch.Yes;hehadbetterbetakentoher.But,beforeyougo,willyou,foramoment,steadilyattendtome?Don\'taskmewhyImakethestipulationsIamgoingtomake,andexactthepromiseIamgoingtoexact;Ihaveareason——agoodone.\' `Idonotdoubtit,\'answeredMr.Lorry.`Sayon.\'