第6章

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\'WewereoutintheEastwhenIwrotetohim.Everythinghadseemedtogowrongwithme.Justaftermyletterhadgonewewereorderedhome.That\'showitisyouseemehere.AssoonaswegotintobarracksatCasterbridgeIheardo\'thisDamnme!I\'lldaretofollowmyfather,andmakeawaywithmyself,too.Itistheonlythinglefttodo!\' \'Don\'tyeberash,LukeHolway,Isayagain;buttrytomakeamendsbyyourfuturelife.Andmaybeyourfatherwillsmileasmiledownfromheavenupon\'eefor\'t.\' Heshookhishead.\'Idon\'tknowaboutthat!\'heansweredbitterly. \'Tryandbeworthyofyourfatherathisbest.\'Tisnottoolate.\' \'D\'yethinknot?Ifancyitis!Well,I\'llturnitover. Thankyouforyourgoodcounsel.I\'llliveforonething,atanyrate.I\'llmovefather\'sbodytoadecentChristianchurchyard,ifI doitwithmyownhands.Ican\'tsavehislife,butIcangivehimanhonourablegrave.Heshan\'tlieinthisaccursedplace!\' \'Ay,asourpa\'sonsays,\'tisabarbarouscustomtheykeepupatSidlinch,andoughttobedoneawaywi\'.Themana\'oldsoldier,too.Yousee,ourpa\'sonisnotlikeyoursatSidlinch.\' \'Hesaysitisbarbarous,doeshe?Soitis!\'criedthesoldier. \'Nowhearken,myfriends.\'Thenheproceededtoinquireiftheywouldincreasehisindebtednesstothembyundertakingtheremoval,privately,ofthebodyofthesuicidetothechurchyard,notofSidlinch,aparishhenowhated,butofChalk-Newton.Hewouldgivethemallhepossessedtodoit. LotaskedEzraCattstockwhathethoughtofit. Cattstock,the\'celloplayer,whowasalsothesexton,demurred,andadvisedtheyoungsoldiertosoundtherectoraboutitfirst.\'Midbehewouldobject,andyet\'amid\'nt.Thepa\'sono\'Sidlinchisahardman,Iownye,and\'asaidiffolkwillkilltheirselvesinhotbloodtheymusttaketheconsequences.Butoursdon\'tthinklikethatatall,andmightallowit.\' \'What\'shisname?\' \'ThehonourableandreverentMr.Oldham,brothertoLordWessex.Butyouneedn\'tbeafeardo\'enonthataccount.He\'lltalkto\'eelikeacommonman,ifsobeyouhaven\'thadenoughdrinktogie\'eebadbreath.\' \'O,thesameasformerly.I\'llaskhim.Thankyou.Andthatdutydone——\' \'Whatthen?\' \'There\'swarinSpain.Ihearournextmoveisthere.I\'lltrytoshowmyselftobewhatmyfatherwishedme.Idon\'tsupposeIshall—— butI\'lltryinmyfeebleway.ThatmuchIswear——hereoverhisbody.SohelpmeGod.\' Lukesmackedhispalmagainstthewhitehand-postwithsuchforcethatitshook.\'Yes,there\'swarinSpain;andanotherchanceformetobeworthyoffather.\' Sothematterendedthatnight.Thattheprivateactedinonethingashehadvowedtodosoonbecameapparent,forduringtheChristmasweektherectorcameintothechurchyardwhenCattstockwasthere,andaskedhimtofindaspotthatwouldbesuitableforthepurposeofsuchaninterment,addingthathehadslightlyknownthelatesergeant,andwasnotawareofanylawwhichforbadehimtoassenttotheremoval,theletteroftherulehavingbeenobserved.ButashedidnotwishtoseemmovedbyoppositiontohisneighbouratSidlinch,hehadstipulatedthattheactofcharityshouldbecarriedoutatnight,andasprivatelyaspossible,andthatthegraveshouldbeinanobscurepartoftheenclosure.\'Youhadbetterseetheyoungmanaboutitatonce,\'addedtherector. ButbeforeEzrahaddoneanythingLukecamedowntohishouse.Hisfurloughhadbeencutshort,owingtonewdevelopmentsofthewarinthePeninsula,andbeingobligedtogobacktohisregimentimmediately,hewascompelledtoleavetheexhumationandreintermenttohisfriends.Everythingwaspaidfor,andheimploredthemalltoseeitcarriedoutforthwith. Withthisthesoldierleft.ThenextdayEzra,onthinkingthematterover,againwentacrosstotherectory,struckwithsuddenmisgiving.Hehadrememberedthatthesergeanthadbeenburiedwithoutacoffin,andhewasnotsurethatastakehadnotbeendriventhroughhim.Thebusinesswouldbemoretroublesomethantheyhadatfirstsupposed. \'Yes,indeed!\'murmuredtherector.\'Iamafraiditisnotfeasibleafterall.\' Thenexteventwasthearrivalofaheadstonebycarrierfromthenearesttown;tobeleftatMr.EzraCattstock\'s;allexpensespaid. Thesextonandthecarrierdepositedthestoneintheformer\'southouse;andEzra,leftalone,putonhisspectaclesandreadthebriefandsimpleinscription:- HERELYETHTHEBODYOFSAMUELHOLWAY,LATESERGEANTINHISMAJESTY\'S—— DREGIMENTOFFOOT,WHODEPARTEDTHISLIFEDECEMBERTHE20TH,180. ERECTEDBYL.H. \'IAMNOTWORTHYTOBECALLEDTHYSON.\' Ezraagaincalledattheriversiderectory.\'Thestoneiscome,sir. ButI\'mafeardwecan\'tdoitnohow.\' \'Ishouldliketoobligehim,\'saidthegentlemanlyoldincumbent. \'AndIwouldforegoallfeeswillingly.Still,ifyouandtheothersdon\'tthinkyoucancarryitout,Iamindoubtwhattosay.\' Well,sir;I\'vemadeinquiryofaSidlinchwomanastohisburial,andwhatIthoughtseemstrue.Theyburiedenwi\'anewsix-foothurdle-sauldrough\'sbody,fromthesheep-penupinNorthEweleasethoughtheywon\'towntoitnow.Andthequestionis,Isthemovingworthwhile,consideringtheawkwardness?\' \'Haveyouheardanythingmoreoftheyoungman?\' EzrahadonlyheardthathehadembarkedthatweekforSpainwiththerestoftheregiment.\'Andifhe\'sasdesperateas\'aseemed,weshallneverseehimhereinEnglandagain.\' \'Itisanawkwardcase,\'saidtherector. Ezratalkeditoverwiththechoir;oneofwhomsuggestedthatthestonemightbeerectedatthecrossroads.Thiswasregardedasimpracticable.Anothersaidthatitmightbesetupinthechurchyardwithoutremovingthebody;butthiswasseentobedishonest.Sonothingwasdone. TheheadstoneremainedinEzra\'southousetill,growingtiredofseeingitthere,heputitawayamongthebushesatthebottomofhisgarden.Thesubjectwassometimesrevivedamongthem,butitalwaysendedwith:\'Consideringhow\'awasburied,wecanhardlymakeajobo\'t.\' TherewasalwaystheconsciousnessthatLukewouldnevercomeback,animpressionstrengthenedbythedisasterswhichwererumouredtohavebefallenthearmyinSpain.Thistendedtomaketheirinertnesspermanent.TheheadstonegrewgreenasitlayonitsbackunderEzra\'sbushes;thenatreebytheriverwasblowndown,and,fallingacrossthestone,crackeditinthreepieces.Ultimatelythepiecesbecameburiedintheleavesandmould. LukehadnotbeenbornaChalk-Newtonman,andhehadnorelationsleftinSidlinch,sothatnotidingsofhimreachedeithervillagethroughoutthewar.ButafterWaterlooandthefallofNapoleontherearrivedatSidlinchonedayanEnglishsergeant-majorcoveredwithstripesand,asitturnedout,richinglory.ForeignservicehadsototallychangedLukeHolwaythatitwasnotuntilhetoldhisnamethattheinhabitantsrecognizedhimasthesergeant\'sonlyson. HehadservedwithunswervingeffectivenessthroughthePeninsularcampaignsunderWellington;hadfoughtatBusaco,Fuentesd\'Onore,CiudadRodrigo,Badajoz,Salamanca,Vittoria,QuatreBras,andWaterloo;andhadnowreturnedtoenjoyamorethanearnedpensionandreposeinhisnativedistrict. HehardlystayedinSidlinchlongerthantotakeamealonhisarrival.ThesameeveninghestartedonfootoverthehilltoChalk- Newton,passingthehand-post,andsayingasheglancedatthespot,\'ThankGod:he\'snotthere!\'Nightfallwasapproachingwhenhereachedthelattervillage;buthemadestraightforthechurchyard. Onhisenteringitthereremainedlightenoughtodiscerntheheadstonesby,andthesehenarrowlyscanned.Butthoughhesearchedthefrontpartbytheroad,andthebackpartbytheriver,whathesoughthecouldnotfind——thegraveofSergeantHolway,andamemorialbearingtheinscription:\'IAMNOTWORTHYTOBECALLEDTHY SON.\' Heleftthechurchyardandmadeinquiries.Thehonourableandreverendoldrectorwasdead,andsoweremanyofthechoir;butbydegreesthesergeant-majorlearntthathisfatherstilllayatthecross-roadsinLongAshLane. Lukepursuedhiswaymoodilyhomewards,todowhich,inthenaturalcourse,hewouldbecompelledtorepassthespot,therebeingnootherroadbetweenthetwovillages.Buthecouldnotnowgobythatplace,vociferouswithreproachesinhisfather\'stones;andhegotoverthehedgeandwandereddeviouslythroughtheploughedfieldstoavoidthescene.ThroughmanyafightandfatigueLukehadbeensustainedbythethoughtthathewasrestoringthefamilyhonourandmakingnobleamends.Yethisfatherlaystillindegradation.Itwasratherasentimentthanafactthathisfather\'sbodyhadbeenmadetosufferforhisownmisdeeds;buttohissuper-sensitivenessitseemedthathiseffortstoretrievehischaracterandtopropitiatetheshadeoftheinsultedonehadendedinfailure. Heendeavoured,however,toshakeoffhislethargy,and,notlikingtheassociationsofSidlinch,hiredasmallcottageatChalk-Newtonwhichhadlongbeenempty.Herehelivedalone,becomingquiteahermit,andallowingnowomantoenterthehouse. TheChristmasaftertakinguphisabodehereinhewassittinginthechimneycornerbyhimself,whenheheardfaintnotesinthedistance,andsoonamelodyburstforthimmediatelyoutsidehisownwindow,itcamefromthecarol-singers,asusual;andthoughmanyoftheoldhands,EzraandLotincluded,hadgonetotheirrest,thesameoldcarolswerestillplayedoutofthesameoldbooks.Thereresoundedthroughthesergeant-major\'swindow-shuttersthefamiliarlinesthatthedeceasedchoirhadrenderedoverhisfather\'sgrave:- Hecomes\'thepri\'-sonersto\'re-lease\',InSa\'-tan\'sbon\'-dageheld\'. Whentheyhadfinishedtheywentontoanotherhouse,leavinghimtosilenceandlonelinessasbefore. Thecandlewantedsnuffing,buthedidnotsnuffit,andhesatontillithadburntdownintothesocketandmadewavesofshadowontheceiling. TheChristmascheerfulnessofnextmorningwasbrokenatbreakfast- timebytragicintelligencewhichwentdownthevillagelikewind. Sergeant-MajorHolwayhadbeenfoundshotthroughtheheadbyhisownhandatthecross-roadsinLongAshLanewherehisfatherlayburied. Onthetableinthecottagehehadleftapieceofpaper,onwhichhehadwrittenhiswishthathemightbeburiedattheCrossbesidehisfather.Butthepaperwasaccidentallyswepttothefloor,andoverlookedtillafterhisfuneral,whichtookplaceintheordinarywayinthechurchyard. Christmas1897. ENTERADRAGOON Ilatelyhadamelancholyexperience(saidthegentlemanwhoisanswerableforthetruthofthisstory).ItwasthatofgoingoveradoomedhousewithwhoseoutsideaspectIhadlongbeenfamiliar——ahouse,thatis,whichbyreasonofageanddilapidationwastobepulleddownduringthefollowingweek.Someofthethatch,brownandrottenasthegillsofoldmushrooms,had,indeed,beenremovedbeforeIwalkedoverthebuilding.Seeingthatitwasonlyaverysmallhouse——whichisusuallycalleda\'cottage-residence\'——situatedinaremotehamlet,andthatitwasnotmorethanahundredyearsold,ifsomuch,Iwasledtothinkinmyprogressthroughthehollowrooms,withtheircrackedwallsandslopingfloors,whatanexceptionalnumberofabruptfamilyincidentshadtakenplacetherein——toreckononlythosewhichhadcometomyownknowledge. AndnodoubtthereweremanymoreofwhichIhadneverheard. Itstoodatthetopofagardenstretchingdowntothelaneorstreetthatranthroughahermit-groupofdwellingsinMellstockparish. Fromagreengateatthelowerentrance,overwhichthethornhedgehadbeenshapedtoanarchbyconstantclippings,agravelpathascendedbetweentheboxedgesofoncetrimraspberry,strawberry,andvegetableplots,towardsthefrontdoor.Thiswasincolouranancientandbleachedgreenthatcouldberubbedoffwiththefinger,anditboreasmalllong-featuredbrassknockercoveredwithverdigrisinitscrevices.Forsomeyearsbeforethiseveofdemolitionthehomesteadhaddegenerated,andbeendividedintotwotenementstoserveascottagesforfarmlabourers;butinitsprimeithadindisputableclaimtobeconsideredneat,pretty,andgenteel. Thevarietyofincidentsabovealludedtowasmainlyowingtothenatureofthetenure,wherebytheplacehadbeenoccupiedbyfamiliesnotquiteofthekindcustomaryinsuchspots——peoplewhosecircumstances,position,orantecedentsweremoreorlessofacriticalhappy-go-luckycast.AndoftheseresidentsthefamilywhosetermcomprisedthestoryIwishtorelatewasthatofMr.JacobPaddockthemarket-gardener,whodweltthereforsomeyearswithhiswifeandgrown-updaughter. I Anevidentcommotionwasagitatingthepremises,whichjerkedbusysoundsacrossthefrontplot,resemblingthoseofadisturbedhive. Ifamemberofthehouseholdappearedatthedooritwaswithacountenanceofabstractionandconcern. Eveningbegantobendoverthescene;andtheotherinhabitantsofthehamletcameouttodrawwater,theircommonwellbeinginthepublicroadoppositethegardenandhouseofthePaddocks.Havingwounduptheirbucketsfullrespectivelytheylingered,andspokesignificantlytogether.Fromtheirwordsanycasuallistenermighthavegatheredinformationofwhathadoccurred. Thewoodmanwholivednearestthesiteofthestorytoldmostofthetale.Selina,thedaughterofthePaddocksopposite,hadbeensurprisedthatafternoonbyreceivingaletterfromheronceintendedhusband,thenacorporal,butnowasergeant-majorofdragoons,whomshehadhithertosupposedtobeoneoftheslainintheBattleoftheAlmatwoorthreeyearsbefore. \'Shepickedupwi\'enagainstherfather\'swish,asweknow,andbeforehegothisstripes,\'theirinformantcontinued.\'Notbutthatthemanwasasheartyafellerasyou\'dmeetthissideo\'London. ButJacob,yousee,wishedhertodobetter,andonecanunderstandit.However,shewasdeterminedtosticktohimatthattime;andforwhathappenedshewasnotmuchtoblame,sonearastheyweretomatrimonywhenthewarbrokeoutandspoiledall.\' \'Eventheverypighadbeenkilledforthewedding,\'saidawoman,\'andthebarrelo\'beerorderedin.O,themanmeanthonourableenough.Buttobeoffintwodaystofightinaforeigncountry—— \'twasnaturalofherfathertosaytheyshouldwaittillhegotback.\' \'Andhenevercame,\'murmuredoneintheshade. \'Thewarendedbuthermanneverturnedupagain.Shewasnotsurehewaskilled,butwastooproud,ortootimid,togoandhuntforhim.\' \'Onereasonwhyherfatherforgaveherwhenhefoundouthowmattersstoodwas,ashesaidplainatthetime,thathelikedtheman,andcouldseethathemeanttoactstraight.Sotheoldfolksmadethebestofwhattheycouldn\'tmend,andkepthertherewith\'em,whensomewouldn\'t.Timehasprovedseeminglythathedidmeantoactstraight,nowthathehaswrittoherthathe\'scoming.She\'dhavestucktohimallthroughthetime,\'tismybelief;ift\'otherhadn\'tcomealong.\' \'Atthetimeofthecourtship,\'resumedthewoodman,\'theregimentwasquarteredinCasterbridgeBarracks,andheandshegotacquaintedbyhiscallingtobuyapenn\'orthofrathe-ripesoffthattreeyonderinherfather\'sorchard——though\'twassaidheseedHERoverhedgeaswellastheapples.Hedeclared\'twasakindofapplehemuchfancied;andhecalledforapenn\'ortheverydaytillthetreewascleared.Itendedinhiscallingforher.\' \'\'Twasathousandpitiestheydidn\'tjineupatonceandha\'donewi\' it. \'Well;betterlatethannever,ifsobehe\'llhavehernow.But,Lord,she\'dthatfaithin\'enthatshe\'dnomorebeliefthathewasalive,whena\'didn\'tcome,thanthattheundermostmaninourchurchyardwasalive.She\'dneverhavethoughtofanotherbutforthat——Ono!\' \'\'Tisawkward,altogether,forhernow.\' \'Stillshehadn\'tmarriedwi\'thenewman.Thoughtobesureshewouldhavecommitteditnextweek,eventhelicencebeinggot,theysay,forshe\'dhavenobannsthistime,thefirstbeingsounfortunate.\' \'Perhapsthesergeant-majorwillthinkhe\'sreleased,andgoashecame.\' \'O,notasIreckon.Soldiersbain\'tparticular,andshe\'satidypieceo\'furniturestill.Whatwillhappenisthatshe\'llhavehersoldier,andbreakoffwiththemaster-wheelwright,licenceorno—— dazemeifshewon\'t.\' Intheprogressofthesedesultoryconjecturestheformofanotherneighbouraroseinthegloom.Shenoddedtothepeopleatthewell,whoreplied\'G\'dnight,Mrs.Stone,\'asshepassedthroughMr. Paddock\'sgatetowardshisdoor.Shewasanintimatefriendofthelatter\'shousehold,andthegroupfollowedherwiththeireyesupthepathandpastthewindows,whichwerenowlightedupbycandlesinside. II Mrs.Stonepausedatthedoor,knocked,andwasadmittedbySelina\'smother,whotookhervisitoratonceintotheparlouronthelefthand,whereatablewaspartlyspreadforsupper.Onthe\'beaufet\' againstthewallstoodprobablytheonlyobjectwhichwouldhaveattractedtheeyeofalocalstrangerinanotherwiseordinarilyfurnishedroom,agreatplum-cakeguardedasifitwereacuriositybyaglassshadeofthekindseeninmuseums——square,withawoodenbacklikethoseenclosingstuffedspecimensofrarefeatherorfur. Thiswasthemummyofthecakeintendedinearlierdaysforthewedding-feastofSelinaandthesoldier,whichhadbeenreligiouslyandlovinglypreservedbytheformerasatestimonytoherintentionalrespectabilityinspiteofanuntowardsubsequentcircumstance,whichwillbementioned.Thisrelicwasnowasdryasabrick,andseemedtobelongtoapre-existentcivilization.Tillquiterecently,Selinahadbeeninthehabitofpausingbeforeitdaily,andrecallingtheaccidentwhoseconsequenceshadthrownashadowoverherlifeeversince——thatofwhichthewater-drawershadspoken——thesuddennewsonemorningthattheRoutehadcomeforthe—— thDragoons,twodaysonlybeingtheintervalbeforedeparture;thehurriedconsultationastowhatshouldbedone,thesecondtimeofaskingbeingpastbutnotthethird;andthedecisionthatitwouldbeunwisetosolemnizematrimonyinsuchhaphazardcircumstances,evenifitwerepossible,whichwasdoubtful. Beforethefiretheyoungwomaninquestionwasnowseatedonalowstool,inthestillnessofreverie,andatoddlingboyplayedabouttheflooraroundher. \'Ah,Mrs.Stone!\'saidSelina,risingslowly.\'Howkindofyoutocomein.You\'llbidetosupper?Motherhastoldyouthestrangenews,ofcourse?\' \'No.ButIhearditoutside,thatis,thatyou\'dhadaletterfromMr.Clark——Sergeant-MajorClark,astheysayheisnow——andthathe\'scomingtomakeitupwith\'ee.\' \'Yes;comingto-night——allthewayfromthenorthofEnglandwherehe\'squartered.Idon\'tknowwhetherI\'mhappyor——frightenedatit. OfcourseIalwaysbelievedthatifhewasalivehe\'dcomeandkeephissolemnvowtome.Butwhenitisprintedthatamaniskilled—— whatcanyouthink?\' \'ItWASprinted?\' \'Why,yes.AftertheBattleoftheAlmathebookofthenamesofthekilledandwoundedwasnailedupagainstCasterbridgeTownHalldoor. \'TwasonaSaturday,andIwalkedthereo\'purposetoreadandseeformyself;forI\'dheardthathisnamewasdown.Therewasacrowdofpeopleroundthebook,lookingforthenamesofrelations;andI canmindthatwhentheysawmetheymadewayforme——knowingthatwe\'dbeenjustgoingtobemarried——andthat,asyoumaysay,I belongedtohim.Well,Ireachedupmyarm,andturnedoverthefarrelsofthebook,andunderthe\"killed\"Ireadhissurname,butinsteadof\"John\"they\'dprinted\"James,\"andIthought\'twasamistake,andthatitmustbehe.Whocouldhaveguessedthereweretwonearlyofonenameinoneregiment.\' \'Well——he\'scomingtofinishtheweddingof\'eeasmaybesaid;sonevermind,mydear.All\'swellthatendswell.\' \'That\'swhatheseemstosay.ButthenhehasnotheardyetaboutMr.Miller;andthat\'swhatratherterrifiesme.Luckilymymarriagewithhimnextweekwastohavebeenbylicence,andnotbanns,asinJohn\'scase;anditwasnotsowellknownonthataccount.Still,I don\'tknowwhattothink.\' \'Everythingseemstocomejust\'twixtcupandlipwith\'ee,don\'titnow,MissPaddock.Twoweddingsbrokeoff——\'tisodd!HowcameyoutoacceptMr.Miller,mydear?\' \'He\'sbeensogoodandfaithful!Notmindingaboutthechildatall; forheknewtherightsofthestory.He\'sdearlyfondo\'Johnny,youknow——justasif\'twerehisown——isn\'the,myduck?DoMr.Millerloveyouordon\'the?\' \'Iss!An\'IloveMr.Miller,\'saidthetoddler. \'Well,yousee,Mrs.Stone,hesaidhe\'dmakemeacomfortablehome; andthinking\'twouldbeagoodthingforJohnny,Mr.Millerbeingsomuchbetteroffthanme,Iagreedatlast,justasawidowmight—— whichiswhatIhavealwaysfeltmyself;eversinceIsawwhatI thoughtwasJohn\'snameprintedthere.IhopeJohnwillforgiveme!\' \'Sohewillforgive\'ee,since\'twasnomannerofwrongtohim.Heoughttohavesent\'eealine,saying\'twasanotherman.\' Selina\'smotherentered.\'We\'venotknownofthisanhour,Mrs. Stone,\'shesaid.\'TheletterwasbroughtupfromLowerMellstockPost-officebyoneoftheschoolchildren,onlythisafternoon.Mr. Millerwascomingherethisverynighttosettleabouttheweddingdoings.Hark!Isthatyourfather?OrisitMr.Milleralreadycome?\' Thefootstepsenteredtheporch;therewasabrushingonthemat,andthedooroftheroomsprungbacktodisclosearubicundmanaboutthirtyyearsofage,ofthrivingmaster-mechanicappearanceandobviouslycomfortabletemper.Onseeingthechild,andbeforetakinganynoticewhateveroftheelders,thecomermadeanoiselikethecrowingofacockandflappedhisarmsasiftheywerewings,amethodofentrywhichhadtheunqualifiedadmirationofJohnny. \'Yes——itishe,\'saidSelinaconstrainedlyadvancing. \'What——wereyoualltalkingaboutme,mydear?\'saidthegenialyoungmanwhenhehadfinishedhiscrowingandresumedhumanmanners.\'Whywhat\'sthematter,\'hewenton.\'Youlookstruckallofaheap.\' Mr.Millerspreadanaspectofconcernoverhisownface,anddrewachairuptothefire. \'Omother,wouldyoutellMr.Miller,ifhedon\'tknow?\' \'MISTERMiller!andgoingtobemarriedinsixdays!\'heinterposed. \'Ah——hedon\'tknowityet!\'murmuredMrs.Paddock. \'Knowwhat?\' \'Well——JohnClark——nowSergeant-MajorClark——wasn\'tshotatAlmaafterall.\'Twasanotherofalmostthesamename.\' \'Nowthat\'sinteresting!Therewereseveralcaseslikethat.\' \'Andhe\'shomeagain;andhe\'scominghereto-nighttoseeher.\' \'WhatevershallIsay,thathemaynotbeoffendedwithwhatI\'vedone?\'interposedSelina. \'Butwhyshoulditmatterifhebe?\' \'O!Imustagreetobehiswifeifheforgivesme——ofcourseI must.\' \'Must!Butwhynotsaynay,Selina,evenifhedoforgive\'ee?\' \'Ono!HowcanIwithoutbeingwicked?Youwereveryverykind,Mr. Miller,toaskmetohaveyou;noothermanwouldhavedoneitafterwhathadhappened;andIagreed,eventhoughIdidnotfeelhalfsowarmasIought.Yetitwasentirelyowingtomybelievinghiminthegrave,asIknewthatifhewerenothewouldcarryouthispromise;andthisshowsthatIwasrightintrustinghim.\' \'YesHemustbeagoodishsortoffellow,\'saidMr.Miller,foramomentsoimpressedwiththeexcellentlyfaithfulconductofthesergeant-majorofdragoonsthathedisregardeditseffectuponhisownposition.Hesighedslowlyandadded,\'Well,Selina,\'tisforyoutosay.Iloveyou,andIlovetheboy;andthere\'smychimney- cornerandstickso\'furniturereadyfor\'eeboth.\' \'Yes,Iknow!ButImustn\'thearitanymorenow,\'murmuredSelinaquickly.\'Johnwillbeheresoon.Ihopehe\'llseehowitallwaswhenItellhim.IfsobeIcouldhavewrittenittohimitwouldhavebeenbetter.\' \'Youthinkhedoesn\'tknowasinglewordaboutourhavingbeenonthebrinko\'t.Butperhapsit\'stheotherway——he\'sheardofitandthatmayhavebroughthim. \'Ah——perhapshehas!\'shesaidbrightening.\'Andalreadyforgivesme.\' \'Ifnot,speakoutstraightandfair,andtellhimexactlyhowitfellout.Ifhe\'samanhe\'llseeit.\' \'Ohe\'samantrueenough.ButIreallydothinkIshan\'thavetotellhimatall,sinceyou\'veputittomethatway!\' AsitwasnowJohnny\'sbedtimehewascarriedupstairs,andwhenSelinacamedownagainhermotherobservedwithsomeanxiety,\'I fancyMr.Clarkmustbeheresoonifhe\'scoming;andthatbeingso,perhapsMr.Millerwouldn\'tmind——wishingusgood-night!sinceyouaresodeterminedtosticktoyoursergeant-major.\'Alittlebitternessbubbledamidtheclosingwords.\'Itwouldbelessawkward,Mr.Millernotbeinghere——ifhewillallowmetosayit.\' \'Tobesure;tobesure,\'themaster-wheelwrightexclaimedwithinstantconviction,risingalertlyfromhischair.\'Lordblessmysoul,\'hesaid,takinguphishatandstick,\'andwetohavebeenmarriedinsixdays!ButSelina——you\'reright.Youdobelongtothechild\'sfathersincehe\'salive.I\'lltrytomakethebestofit.\' BeforethegenerousMillerhadgotfurthertherecameaknocktothedooraccompaniedbythenoiseofwheels. \'IthoughtIheardsomethingdrivingup!\'saidMrsPaddock. TheyheardMr.Paddock,whohadbeensmokingintheroomopposite,riseandgotothedoor,andinamomentavoicefamiliarenoughtoSelinawasaudiblysaying,\'AtlastIamhereagain——notwithoutmanyinterruptions!Howisitwith\'ee,Mr.Paddock?Andhowisshe? Thoughtnevertoseemeagain,Isuppose?\' Astepwithaclinkofspursinitstruckupontheentryfloor. \'DangedifIbain\'tcatched!\'murmuredMr.Miller,forgettingcompany-speech.\'Nevermind——Imayaswellmeethimhereaselsewhere;andIshouldliketoseethechap,andmakefriendswithen,asheseemsoneo\'therightsort.\'Hereturnedtothefireplacejustasthesergeant-majorwasusheredin. III Hewasagoodspecimenofthelong-servicesoldierofthosedays;anotunhandsomeman,withacertainundemonstrativedignity,whichsomemighthavesaidtobepartlyowingtothestiffnessofhisuniformabouthisneck,thehighstockbeingstillworn.HewasmuchstouterthanwhenSelinahadpartedfromhim.Althoughshehadnotmeanttobedemonstrativesheranacrosstohimdirectlyshesawhim,andheheldherinhisarmsandkissedher. Theninmuchagitationshewhisperedsomethingtohim,atwhichheseemedtobemuchsurprised. \'He\'sjustputtobed,\'shecontinued.\'Youcangoupandseehim. Iknewyou\'dcomeifyouwerealive!ButIhadquitegi\'dyouupfordead.You\'vebeenhomeinEnglandeversincethewarended?\' \'Yes,dear.\' \'Whydidn\'tyoucomesooner?\' \'That\'sjustwhatIaskmyself!WhywasIsuchasappyasnottohurryherethefirstdayIsetfootonshore!Well,who\'dhavethoughtit——youareasprettyasever!\' Herelinquishedhertopeepupstairsalittleway,where,bylookingthroughtheballusters,hecouldseeJohnny\'scotjustwithinanopendoor.OnhissteppingdownagainMr.Millerwaspreparingtodepart. \'Now,what\'sthis?IamsorrytoseeanybodygoingthemomentI\'vecome,\'expostulatedthesergeant-major.\'Ithoughtwemightmakeaneveningofit.There\'saninegalloncasko\'\"Phoenix\"beeroutsideinthetrap,andaham,andhalfarawmil\'cheese;forIthoughtyoumightbeshorto\'forageinalonelyplacelikethis;anditstruckmewemightliketoaskinaneighbourortwo.Butperhapsitwouldbetakingaliberty?\' \'Ono,notatall,\'saidMr.Paddock,whowasnowintheroom,inajudicialmeasuredmanner.\'Verythoughtfulof\'ee,only\'twasnotnecessary,forwehadjustlaidinanextrystockofeatablesanddrinkablesinpreparationforthecomingevent.\' \'\'Twasverykind,uponmyheart,\'saidthesoldier,\'tothinkmeworthsuchajocundpreparation,sinceyoucouldonlyhavegotmyletterthismorning.\' Selinagazedatherfathertostophim,andexchangedembarrassedglanceswithMiller.ContrarytoherhopesSergeant-MajorClarkplainlydidnotknowthatthepreparationsreferredtowereforsomethingquiteotherthanhisownvisit. Themovementofthehorseoutside,andtheimpatienttappingofawhip-handleuponthevehicleremindedthemthatClark\'sdriverwasstillinwaiting.Theprovisionswerebroughtintothehouse,andthecartdismissed.Miller,withverylittlepressureindeed,acceptedaninvitationtosupper,andafewneighbourswereinducedtocomeintomakeupacheerfulparty. Duringthelayingofthemeal,andthroughoutitscontinuance,Selina,whosatbesideherfirstintendedhusband,triedfrequentlytobreakthenewstohimofherengagementtotheother——nowterminatedsosuddenly,andsohappilyforherheart,andhersenseofwomanlyvirtue.Butthetalkranentirelyuponthelatewar;andthoughfortifiedbyhalfahornofthestrongalebroughtbythesergeant-majorshedecidedthatshemighthaveabetteropportunitywhensupperwasoverofrevealingthesituationtohiminprivate. Havingsupped,Clarkleanedbackateaseinhischairandlookedaround.\'Weusedsometimestohaveadanceinthatotherroomaftersupper,Selinadear,Irecollect.Weusedtoclearoutallthefurnitureintothisroombeforebeginning.Haveyoukeptupsuchgoingson?\' \'No,notatall!\'saidhissweetheart,sadly. \'Wewerenotunlikelytoreviveitinafewdays,\'saidMr.Paddock. \'But,howsomever,there\'sseeminglymanyaslip,asthesayingis.\' \'Yes,I\'lltellJohnallaboutthatbyandby!\'interposedSelina;atwhich,perceivingthatthesecretwhichhedidnotlikekeepingwastobekeptevenyet,herfatherheldhistonguewithsomeshowoftestiness. Thesubjectofadancehavingbeenbroached,toputthethoughtinpracticewasthefeelingofall.Soonafterthetablesandchairswerebornefromtheoppositeroomtothisbyzealoushands,andtwoofthevillagerssenthomeforafiddleandtambourine,whenthemajoritybegantotreadameasurewellknowninthatsecludedvale. Selinanaturallydancedwiththesergeant-major,notaltogethertoherfather\'ssatisfaction,andtotherealuneasinessofhermother,bothofwhomwouldhavepreferredapostponementoffestivitiestilltherashlyanticipatedrelationshipbetweentheirdaughterandClarkinthepasthadbeenmadefactbythechurch\'sordinances.Theydidnot,however,expressapositiveobjection,Mr.Paddockremembering,withself-reproach,thatitwasowingtohisoriginalstronglyexpresseddisapprovalofSelina\'sbeingasoldier\'swifethattheweddinghadbeendelayed,andfinallyhindered——withworseconsequencesthanwereexpected;andeversincethemisadventurebroughtaboutbyhisgovernmenthehadallowedeventstosteertheirowncourses. \'Mytailswillsurelycatchinyourspurs,John!\'murmuredthedaughterofthehouse,asshewhirledarounduponhisarmwiththeraptsoulandlookofasomnambulist.\'Ididn\'tknowweshoulddance,orIwouldhaveputonmyotherfrock.\' \'I\'lltakecare,mylove.We\'vedancedherebefore.Doyouthinkyourfatherobjectstomenow?I\'veriseninrank.Ifancyhe\'sstillalittleagainstme.\' \'Hehasrepented,timesenough.\' \'AndsohaveI!IfIhadmarriedyouthen\'twouldhavesavedmanyamisfortune.IhavesometimesthoughtitmighthavebeenpossibletorushtheceremonythroughsomehowbeforeIleft;thoughwewereonlyinthesecondasking,werewe?AndevenifIhadcomebackstraightherewhenwereturnedfromtheCrimea,andmarriedyouthen,howmuchhappierIshouldhavebeen!\' \'DearJohn,tosaythat!Whydidn\'tyou?\' \'O——dilatorinessandwantofthought,andafearoffacingyourfatheraftersolong.Iwasinhospitalagreatwhile,youknow. Buthowfamiliartheplaceseemsagain!What\'sthatIsawonthebeaufetintheotherroom?Itneverusedtobethere.Asortofwitheredcorpseofacake——notanoldbride-cakesurely?\' \'Yes,John,ours.\'Tistheveryonethatwasmadeforourweddingthreeyearsago.\' \'Sakesalive!Why,timeshutsuptogether,andallbetweenthenandnowseemsnottohavebeen!Whatbecameofthatwedding-gownthattheyweremakinginthisroom,Iremember——abluish,whitish,frothything?\' \'Ihavethattoo.\' \'Really!Why,Selina——\' \'Yes!\' \'Whynotputitonnow?\' \'Wouldn\'titseem.Andyet,OhowIshouldliketo!Itwouldremindthemall,ifwetoldthemwhatitwas,howwereallymeanttobemarriedonthatbygoneday!\'Hereyeswereagainladenwithwet. \'YesThepitythatwedidn\'t——thepity!\'Moodymournfulnessseemedtoholdsilentawhileonenotnaturallytaciturn.\'Well——willyou?\'hesaid. \'Iwill——thenextdance,ifmotherdon\'tmind.\' Accordingly,justbeforethenextfigurewasformed,Selinadisappeared,andspeedilycamedownstairsinacreasedandbox-worn,butstillairyandpretty,muslingown,whichwasindeedtheveryonethathadbeenmeanttograceherasabridethreeyearsbefore. \'Itisdreadfullyold-fashioned,\'sheapologized. \'Notatall.Whatagrandthoughtofmine!Now,let\'sto\'tagain.\' Sheexplainedtosomeofthem,asheledhertotheseconddance,whatthefrockhadbeenmeantfor,andthatshehadputitonathisrequest.Andagainathwartandaroundtheroomtheywent. \'Youseemthebride!\'hesaid. \'ButIcouldn\'twearthisgowntobemarriedinnow!\'shereplied,ecstatically,\'orIshouldn\'thaveputitonandmadeitdusty.Itisreallytooold-fashioned,andsofoldedandfrettedout,youcan\'tthink.Thatwaswithmytakingitoutsomanytimestolookat.I haveneverputiton——never——tillnow!\' \'Selina,Iamthinkingofgivingupthearmy.WillyouemigratewithmetoNewZealand?I\'veanuncleouttheredoingwell,andhe\'dsoonhelpmetomakingalargerincome.TheEnglisharmyisglorious,butitain\'taltogetherenriching.\' \'Ofcourse,anywherethatyoudecideupon.IsithealthythereforJohnny?\' \'Alovelyclimate.AndIshallneverbehappyinEnglandAha!\' heconcludedagain,withabitternessofunexpectedstrength,\'wouldtoHeavenIhadcomestraightbackhere!\' Asthedancebroughtroundoneneighbourafteranotherthere-unitedpairwerethrownintojuxtapositionwithBobHeartallamongtherestwhohadbeencalledin;onewhosechronicexpressionwasthathecarriedinsidehimajokeonthepointofburstingwithitsownvastness.Hetookoccasionnowtoletoutalittleofitsquality,shakinghisheadatSelinaasheaddressedherinanundertone- \'Thisisabitofatoppertothebridegroom,hoho!\'Twillteachenthelibertyyou\'llexpectwhenyou\'vemarrieden!\' \'Whatdoeshemeanbya\"topper,\"\'thesergeant-majorasked,who,notbeingoflocalextraction,despisedthevenerablelocallanguage,andalsoseemedtosuppose\'bridegroom\'tobeananticipatorynameforhimself.\'IonlyhopeIshallneverbeworsetreatedthanyou\'vetreatedmeto-night!\' Selinalookedfrightened.\'Hedidn\'tmeanyou,dear,\'shesaidastheymovedon.\'Wethoughtperhapsyouknewwhathadhappened,owingtoyourcomingjustatthistime.Hadyou——heardanythingabout—— whatIintended?\' \'Notabreath——howshouldI——awayupinYorkshire?ItwasbythemerestaccidentthatIcamejustatthisdatetomakepeacewithyouformydelay.\' \'IwasengagedtobemarriedtoMr.BartholomewMiller.That\'swhatitis!Iwouldhavelet\'eeknowbyletter,buttherewasnotime,onlyhearingfrom\'eethisafternoonYouwon\'tdesertmeforit,willyou,John?Because,asyouknow,Iquitesupposedyoudead,and——and——\'Hereyeswerefulloftearsoftrepidation,andhemighthavefeltasobheavingwithinher. IV Thesoldierwassilentduringtwoorthreedoublebarsofthetune. \'WhenwereyoutohavebeenmarriedtothesaidMr.BartholomewMiller?\'heinquired. \'Quitesoon.\' \'Howsoon?\' \'Nextweek——Oyes——justthesameasitwaswithyouandme.There\'sastrangefateofinterruptionhangingoverme,Isometimesthink! Hehadboughtthelicence,whichIpreferredsothatitmightn\'tbelike——ours.Butitmadenodifferencetothefateofit.\' \'Hadboughtthelicence!Thedevil!\' \'Don\'tbeangry,dearJohn.Ididn\'tknow!\' \'No,no,I\'mnotangry.\' \'Itwassokindofhim,considering!\' \'YesIsee,ofcourse,hownaturalyouractionwas——neverthinkingofseeingmeanymore!IsittheMr.Millerwhoisinthisdance?\' \'Yes.\' ClarkglancedrounduponBartholomewandwassilentagain,forsomelittlewhile,andshestolealookathim,tofindthatheseemedchanged.\'John,youlookill!\'shealmostsobbed.\'\'Tisn\'tme,isit?\' \'Odear,no.ThoughIhadn\'t,somehow,expectedit.Ican\'tfindfaultwithyouforamoment——andIdon\'tThisisadeuceofalongdance,don\'tyouthink?We\'vebeenatittwentyminutesifasecond,andthefiguredoesn\'tallowonemuchrest.I\'mquiteoutofbreath.\' \'Theylikethemsodreadfullylonghere.Shallwedropout?OrI\'llstopthefiddler.\' \'Ono,no,IthinkIcanfinish.ButalthoughIlookhealthyenoughIhaveneverbeensostrongasIformerlywas,sincethatlongillnessIhadinthehospitalatScutari.\' \'AndIknewnothingaboutit!\' \'Youcouldn\'t,dear,asIdidn\'twrite.WhatafoolIhavebeenaltogether!\'Hegaveatwitch,asofoneinpain.\'Iwon\'tdanceagainwhenthisoneisover.ThefactisIhavetravelledalongwayto-day,anditseemstohaveknockedmeupabit.\' Therecouldbenodoubtthatthesergeant-majorwasunwell,andSelinamadeherselfmiserablebystillbelievingthatherstorywasthecauseofhisailment.Suddenlyhesaidinachangedvoice,andsheperceivedthathewaspalerthanever:\'Imustsitdown.\' Lettinggoherwaisthewentquicklytotheotherroom.Shefollowed,andfoundhiminthenearestchair,hisfacebentdownuponhishandsandarms,whichwererestingonthetable. \'What\'sthematter?\'saidherfather,whosattheredozingbythefire. \'Johnisn\'twellWearegoingtoNewZealandwhenwearemarried,father.Alovelycountry!John,wouldyoulikesomethingtodrink?\' \'Adropo\'thatSchiedamofoldOwlett\'s,that\'sunderstairs,perhaps,\'suggestedherfather.\'Notthatnowadays\'tismuchbetterthanlicensedliquor.\' \'John,\'shesaid,puttingherfaceclosetohisandpressinghisarm. \'Willyouhaveadropofspiritsorsomething?\' Hedidnotreply,andSelinaobservedthathisearandthesideofhisfacewerequitewhite.Convincedthathisillnesswasserious,agrowingdismayseizedholdofher.Thedanceended;hermothercamein,andlearningwhathadhappened,lookednarrowlyatthesergeant- major. \'Wemustnotlethimlielikethat,lifthimup,\'shesaid.\'Lethimrestinthewindow-benchonsomecushions.\' Theyunfoldedhisarmsandhandsastheylayclaspeduponthetable,andonliftinghisheadfoundhisfeaturestobeartheveryimpressofdeathitself.BartholomewMiller,whohadnowcomein,assistedMr.Paddocktomakeacomfortablecouchinthewindow-seat,wheretheystretchedoutClarkuponhisback. Stillheseemedunconscious.\'Wemustgetadoctor,\'saidSelina. \'O,mydearJohn,howisityoubetakenlikethis?\' \'Myimpressionisthathe\'sdead!\'murmuredMr.Paddock.\'Hedon\'tbreatheenoughtomoveatomtit\'sfeather.\' Therewereplentytovolunteertogoforadoctor,butasitwouldbeatleastanhourbeforehecouldgettherethecaseseemedsomewhathopeless.Thedancing-partyendedasunceremoniouslyasithadbegun;buttheguestslingeredroundthepremisestillthedoctorshouldarrive.Whenhedidcomethesergeant-major\'sextremitieswerealreadycold,andtherewasnodoubtthatdeathhadovertakenhimalmostatthemomentthathehadsatdown. ThemedicalpractitionerquiterefusedtoaccepttheunhappySelina\'stheorythatherrevelationhadinanywayinducedClark\'ssuddencollapse.Bothheandthecoronerafterwards,whofoundtheimmediatecausetobeheart-failure,heldthatsuchasuppositionwasunwarrantedbyfacts.Theyassertedthatalongday\'sjourney,ahurrieddrive,andthenanexhaustingdance,weresufficientforsucharesultuponaheartenfeebledbyfattydegenerationaftertheprivationsofaCrimeanwinterandothertryingexperiences,thecoincidenceofthesadeventwithanydisclosureofhersbeingapureaccident. Thisconclusion,however,didnotdislodgeSelina\'sopinionthattheshockofherstatementhadbeentheimmediatestrokewhichhadfelledaconstitutionsoundermined. V AtthisdatetheCasterbridgeBarrackswerecavalryquarters,theiradaptationtoartilleryhavingbeeneffectedsomeyearslater.Ithadbeenowingtothefactthatthe——thDragoons,inwhichJohnClarkhadserved,happenedtobelyingtherethatSelinamadehisacquaintance.AtthetimeofhisdeaththebarrackswereoccupiedbytheScotsGreys,butwhenthepatheticcircumstancesofthesergeant- major\'sendbecameknowninthetowntheofficersoftheGreysofferedtheservicesoftheirfinereedandbrassband,thathemighthaveafuneralmarkedbyduemilitaryhonours.Hisbodywasaccordinglyremovedtothebarracks,andcarriedthencetothechurchyardintheDurnoverquarteronthefollowingafternoon,oneoftheGreys\'mostancientanddocilechargersbeingblackeduptorepresentClark\'shorseontheoccasion. EverybodypitiedSelina,whosestorywaswellknown.Shefollowedthecorpseastheonlymourner,Clarkhavingbeenwithoutrelationsinthispartofthecountry,andacommunicationwithhisregimenthavingbroughtnonefromadistance.Shesatinalittleshabbybrown-blackmourningcarriage,squeezingherselfupinacornertobeasmuchaspossibleoutofsightduringtheslowanddramaticmarchthroughthetowntothetunefromSaul.Whentheintermenthadtakenplace,thevolleysbeenfired,andthereturnjourneybegun,itwaswithsomethinglikeashockthatshefoundthemilitaryescorttobemovingataquickmarchtothelivelystrainsof\'Offshegoes!\'asifallcareforthesergeant-majorwasexpectedtobeendedwiththelatedischargeofthecarbines.Itwas,bychance,theverytunetowhichtheyhadbeenfootingwhenhedied,andunabletobearitsnotes,shehastilytoldherdrivertodropbehind.ThebandandmilitarypartydiminisheduptheHighStreet,andSelinaturnedoverSwanbridgeandhomewardtoMellstock. Thenrecommencedforheralifewhoseincidentswerepreciselyofasuitwiththosewhichhadprecededthesoldier\'sreturn;buthowdifferentinherappreciationofthem!Hernarrowmissoftherecoveredrespectabilitytheyhadhopedforfromthattardyeventworkeduponherparentsasanirritant,andafterthefirstweekortwoofhermourningherlifewiththemgrewalmostinsupportable. Shehadimpulsivelytakentoherselftheweedsofawidow,forsuchsheseemedtoherselftobe,andclothedlittleJohnnyinsableslikewise.Thisassumptionofamoralrelationshiptothedeceased,whichsheassertedtobeonlynotalegalonebytwomostunexpectedaccidents,ledtheoldpeopletoindulgeinsarcasmatherexpensewhenevertheybeheldherattire,thoughallthewhileitcostthemmorepaintoutterthanitgavehertohearit.Havingbecomeaccustomedbyherresidenceathometothebusinesscarriedonbyherfather,shesurprisedthemonedaybygoingoffwiththechildtoChalk-Newton,inthedirectionofthetownofIvell,andopeningaminiaturefruitandvegetableshop,attendingIvellmarketwithherproduce.Herbusinessgrewsomewhatlarger,anditwassoonsufficienttoenablehertosupportherselfandtheboyincomfort. Shecalledherself\'Mrs.JohnClark\'fromthedayofleavinghome,andpaintedthenameonhersignboard——nomanforbiddingher. Bydegreesthepainofherstatewasforgotteninhernewcircumstances,andgettingtobegenerallyacceptedasthewidowofasergeant-majorofdragoons——anassumptionwhichhermodestandmournfuldemeanourseemedtosubstantiate——herlifebecameaplacidone,hermindbeingnourishedbythemelancholyluxuryofdreamingwhatmighthavebeenherfutureinNewZealandwithJohn,ifhehadonlylivedtotakeherthere.HeronlytravelsnowwereajourneytoIvellonmarket-days,andonceafortnighttothechurchyardinwhichClarklay,theretotend,withJohnny\'sassistance,aswidowsarewonttodo,theflowersshehadplanteduponhisgrave. Onadayabouteighteenmonthsafterhisunexpecteddecease,SelinawassurprisedinherlodgingoverherlittleshopbyavisitfromBartholomewMiller.Hehadcalledonheronceortwicebefore,onwhichoccasionshehadusedwithoutawordofcommentthenamebywhichshewasknown. \'I\'vecomethistime,\'hesaid,\'lessbecauseIwasinthisdirectionthantoaskyou,Mrs.Clark,whatyoumidwellguess.I\'vecomeo\' purpose,inshort.\' Shesmiled. \'\'Tistoaskmeagaintomarryyou?\'