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AlreadyMr.Corbet\'snamewasknownthroughthecountryasthatofagreatlawyer;peoplediscussedhisspeechesandcharacterfarandwide;andthewell-informedinlegalgossipspokeofhimassuretobeofferedajudgeshipatthenextvacancy.Sohe,thoughgrave,andmiddle-aged,andsomewhatgrey,dividedattentionandremarkwithhislovelybride,andherprettytrainofcousinbridesmaids.MissMonroneednothavefearedforEllinor:shesawandheardallthingsasinamist——adream;assomethingshehadtogothrough,beforeshecouldwakenuptoarealityofbrightnessinwhichheryouth,andthehopesofheryouth,shouldberestored,andallthesewearyyearsofdreaminessandwoeshouldberevealedasnothingbutthenightmareofanight.Shesatmotionlessenough,stillenough,MissMonrobyher,watchingherasintentlyasakeeperwatchesamadman,andwiththesamepurpose——topreventanyoutburstevenbybodilystrength,ifsuchrestraintbeneeded.Whenallwasover;whentheprincipalpersonagesoftheceremonyhadfiledintothevestrytosigntheirnames;whentheswarmoftownspeopleweregoingoutasswiftlyastheirindividualnotionsoftherestraintsofthesacrededificepermitted;whenthegreatchordsofthe\"WeddingMarch\"clangedoutfromtheorgan,andtheloudbellspealedoverhead——EllinorlaidherhandinMissMonro\'s.\"Takemehome,\"shesaidsoftly.AndMissMonroledherhomeasoneleadstheblind. CHAPTERXII. Therearesomepeoplewhoimperceptiblyfloatawayfromtheiryouthintomiddleage,andthencepassintodeclininglifewiththesoftandgentlemotionofhappyyears.Thereareotherswhoarewhirled,inspiteofthemselves,downdizzyrapidsofagonyawayfromtheiryouthatonegreatbound,intooldagewithanothersuddenshock;andthenceintothevastcalmoceanwheretherearenoshore-markstotelloftime. Thislast,itseemed,wastobeEllinor\'slot.Heryouthhadgoneinasinglenight,fifteenyearsago,andnowsheappearedtohavebecomeanelderlywoman;verystillandhopelessinlookandmovement,butassweetandgentleinspeechandsmileasevershehadbeeninherhappiestdays.Allyoungpeople,whentheycametoknowher,lovedherdearly,thoughatfirsttheymightcallherdull,andheavytogetonwith;andasforchildrenandoldpeople,herreadywatchfulsympathyintheirjoysaswellastheirsorrowswasanunfailingpassagetotheirhearts.AfterthefirstgreatshockofMr.Corbet\'smarriagewasover,sheseemedtopassintoagreaterpeacethanshehadknownforyears;thelastfainthopeofhappinesswasgone;itwould,perhaps,bemoreaccuratetosay,ofthebrighthappinessshehadplannedforherselfinherearlyyouth. Unconsciously,shewasbeingweanedfromself-seekinginanyshape,andherdailylifebecame,ifpossible,moreinnocentandpureandholy.Oneofthecanonsusedtolaughatherforherconstantattendanceatalltheservices,andforherdevotiontogoodworks,andcallheralwaysthereverendsister.MissMonrowasalittleannoyedatthisfaintclericaljoke;Ellinorsmiledquietly.MissMonrodisapprovedofEllinor\'sgravewaysandsoberseverestyleofdress. \"Youmaybeasgoodasyoulike,mydear,andyetgodressedinsomeprettycolour,insteadofthoseperpetualblacksandgreys,andthentherewouldbenoneedformetobeperpetuallytellingpeopleyouareonlyfour-and-thirty(andtheydon\'tbelieveme,thoughItellthemsotillIamblackintheface).Or,ifyouwouldbutwearadecent-shapedbonnet,insteadofalwayswearingthoseofthepokyshapeinfashionwhenyouwereseventeen.\" Theoldcanondied,andsomeonewastoheappointedinhisstead. Theseclericalprefermentsandappointmentsweretheall-importantintereststotheinhabitantsoftheClose,andthediscussionofprobabilitiescameupinvariablyifanytwomettogether,instreetorhouse,orevenintheverycathedralitself.Atlengthitwassettled,andannouncedbythehigherpowers.Anenergetic,hard- workingclergymanfromadistantpartofthediocese,Livingstonebyname,wastohavethevacantcanonry. MissMonrosaidthatthenamewassomehowfamiliartoher,andbydegreessherecollectedtheyoungcuratewhohadcometoinquireafterEllinorinthatdreadfulillnessshehadhadatHamleyintheyear1829.Ellinorknewnothingofthatvisit;nomorethanMissMonrodidofwhathadpassedbetweenthetwobeforethatanxiousnight.EllinorjustthoughtitpossibleitmightbethesameMr. Livingstone,andwouldratheritwerenot,becauseshedidnotfeelasifshecouldbearthefrequentthoughnotintimateintercourseshemustneedshave,ifsuchwerethecase,withonesocloselyassociatedwiththatgreattimeofterrorwhichshewasstrivingtoburyoutofsightbyeveryeffortinherpower.MissMonro,onthecontrary,wasbusyweavingaromanceforherpupil;shethoughtofthepassionateinterestdisplayedbythefairyoungclergymanfifteenyearsago,andbelievedthatoccasionallymencouldbeconstant,andhopedthatifMr.Livingstonewerethenewcanon,hemightprovetheraraaviswhichexistsbutonceinacentury.Hecame,anditwasthesame.Helookedalittlestouter,alittleolder,buthadstillthegaitandaspectofayoungman.Hissmoothfairfacewasscarcelylinedatallwithanymarksofcare;theblueeyeslookedsokindlyandpeaceful,thatMissMonrocouldscarcelyfancytheywerethesamewhichshehadseenfastfillingwithtears;theblandcalmlookofthewholemanneededtheennoblementofhisevidentdevoutnesstoberaisedintothetypeofholyinnocencewhichsomeoftheRomanistscallthe\"sacerdotalface.\"Hisentiresoulwasinhiswork,andhelookedaslittlelikelytostepforthinthecharacterofeitheraheroofromanceorafaithfulloverascouldbeimagined. StillMissMonrowasnotdiscouraged;sherememberedthewarm,passionatefeelingshehadonceseenbreakthroughthecalmexterior,andshebelievedthatwhathadhappenedoncemightoccuragain. Ofcourse,whilealleyesweredirectedonthenewcanon,hehadtolearnwhothepossessorsofthoseeyeswereonebyone;anditwasprobablysometimebeforetheideacameintohismindthatMissWilkins,theladyinblack,withthesadpaleface,soconstantanattendantatservice,soregularavisitorattheschool,wasthesameMissWilkinsasthebrightvisionofhisyouth.Itwashersweetsmileatapainstakingchildthatbetrayedher——if,indeed,betrayalitmightbecalledwheretherewasnowishorefforttoconcealanything.CanonLivingstonelefttheschoolroomalmostdirectly,and,afterbeingforanhourorsoinhishouse,wentouttocallonMrs.Randall,thepersonwhoknewmoreofherneighbours\' affairsthananyoneinEastChester. ThenextdayhecalledonMissWilkinsherself.Shewouldhavebeenverygladifhehadkeptoninhisignorance;itwassokeenlypainfultobeinthecompanyofonethesightofwhom,evenatadistance,hadbroughthersuchakeenremembranceofpastmisery;andwhentoldofhiscall,asshewassittingathersewinginthedining-room,shehadtonerveherselffortheinterviewbeforegoingupstairsintothedrawing-room,wherehewasbeingentertainedbyMissMonrowithwarmdemonstrationsofwelcome.Alittlecontractionofthebrow,alittlecompressionofthelips,anincreasedpalloronEllinor\'spart,wasallthatMissMonrocouldseeinher,thoughshehadputonherglasseswithforesightandintentiontoobserve.Sheturnedtothecanon;hiscolourhadcertainlydeepenedashewentforwardswithout-stretchedhandtomeetEllinor.Thatwasallthatwastobeseen;butontheslightfoundationofthatblush,MissMonrobuiltmanycastles;andwhentheyfadedaway,oneafterone,sherecognisedthattheywereonlybaselessvisions.SheusedtoputthedisappointmentofherhopesdowntoEllinor\'sunvariedcalmnessofdemeanour,whichmightbetakenforcoldnessofdisposition;andtohersteadyrefusaltoallowMissMonrotoinviteCanonLivingstonetothesmallteastheywereinthehabitofoccasionallygiving.Yetheperseveredinhiscalls;aboutonceeveryfortnighthecame,andwouldsitanhourormore,lookingcovertlyathiswatch,asifasMissMonroshrewdlyobservedtoherself,hedidnotgoawayatlastbecausehewishedtodoso,butbecauseheought.SometimesEllinorwaspresent,sometimesshewasaway;inthislattercaseMissMonrothoughtshecoulddetectacertainwistfulwatchingofthedooreverytimeanoisewasheardoutsidetheroom.HealwaysavoidedanyreferencetoformerdaysatHamley,andthat,MissMonrofeared,wasabadsign. AfterthislonguniformityofyearswithoutanyeventcloselytouchingonEllinor\'sownindividuallife,withtheonegreatexceptionofMr.Corbet\'smarriage,somethinghappenedwhichmuchaffectedher.Mr.Nessdiedsuddenlyathisparsonage,andEllinorlearntitfirstfromMr.Brown,aclergyman,whoselivingwasnearHamley,andwhohadbeensentforbytheParsonageservantsassoonastheydiscoveredthatitwasnotsleep,butdeath,thatmadetheirmastersolateinrising. Mr.Brownhadbeenappointedexecuterbyhislatefriend,andwrotetotellEllinorthatafterafewlegacieswerepaid,shewastohavealife-interestintheremainderofthesmallpropertywhichMr.Nesshadleft,andthatitwouldbenecessaryforher,astheresiduarylegatee,tocometoHamleyParsonageassoonasconvenient,todecideuponcertaincoursesofactionwithregardtofurniture,books,&c. Ellinorshrankfromthisjourney,whichherloveanddutytowardsherdeadfriendrenderednecessary.ShehadscarcelyleftEastChestersinceshefirstarrivedthere,sixteenorseventeenyearsago,andshewastimorousabouttheverymodeoftravelling;andthentogobacktoHamley,whichshethoughtnevertohaveseenagain!Sheneverspokemuchaboutanyfeelingsofherown,butMissMonrocouldalwaysreadhersilence,andinterpreteditintoprettyjustandforciblewordsthatafternoonwhenCanonLivingstonecalled.ShelikedtotalkaboutEllinortohim,andsuspectedthathelikedtohear.Shewasalmostannoyedthistimebythecomforthewouldkeepgivingher;therewasnogreaterdangerintravellingbyrailroadthanbycoach,alittlecareaboutcertainthingswasrequired,thatwasall,andtheaveragenumberofdeathsbyaccidentsonrailroadswasnotgreaterthantheaveragenumberwhenpeopletravelledbycoach,ifyoutookintoconsiderationthefargreaternumberoftravellers.Yes!returningtothedesertedscenesofone\'syouthwasverypainfulHadMissWilkinsmadeanyprovisionforanotherladytotakeherplaceasvisitorattheschool?Hebelieveditwasherweek.MissMonrowasoutofallpatienceathisentirecalmnessandreasonableness.Laterinthedayshebecamemoreatpeacewithhim,whenshereceivedakindlittlenotefromMrs.Forbes,agreatfriendofhers,andthemotherofthefamilyshewasnowteaching,sayingthatCanonLivingstonehadcalledandtoldherthatEllinorhadtogoonaverypainfuljourney,andthatMrs.ForbeswasquitesureMissMonro\'scompanionshipuponitwouldbeagreatcomforttoboth,andthatshecouldperfectlybesetatlibertyforafortnightorso,foritwouldfallinadmirablywiththefactthat\"Jeaniewasgrowingtall,andthedoctorhadadvisedseaairthisspring;soamonth\'sholidaywouldsuitthemnowevenbetterthanlateron.\"WasthisgoingstraighttoMrs.Forbes,towhomsheshouldherselfscarcelyhavelikedtonameit,theactofagood,thoughtfulman,orofalover?questionedMissMonro;butshecouldnotanswerherowninquiry,andhadtobeverygratefulforthedeed,withoutaccountingforthemotives. AcoachmetthetrainatastationabouttenmilesfromHamley,andDixonwasattheinnwherethecoachstopped,readytoreceivethem. Theoldmanwasalmostintearsatthesightofthemagaininafamiliarplace.HehadputonhisSundayclothestodothemhonour; andtoconcealhisagitationhekeptupapretendedbustleabouttheirluggage.Totheindignationoftheinn-porters,whowereofalatergeneration,hewouldwheelithimselftotheParsonage,thoughhebrokedownfromfatigueonceortwiceontheway,andhadtostandandrest,hisladieswaitingbyhisside,andmakingremarksonthealterationsofhousesandtheplacesoftrees,inordertogivehimampletimetorecruithimself,fortherewasnoonetowaitforthemandgivethemawelcometotheParsonage,whichwastobetheirtemporaryhome.Therespectfulservants,indeepmourning,hadallprepared,andgaveEllinoranotefromMr.Brown,sayingthathepurposelyrefrainedfromdisturbingthemthatdayaftertheirlongjourney,butwouldcallonthemorrow,andtellthemofthearrangementshehadthoughtofmaking,alwayssubjecttoMissWilkins\'sapproval. Theseweresimpleenough;certainlegalformstobegonethrough,anyselectionfrombooksorfurnituretobemade,andtheresttobesoldbyauctionasspeedilyasconvenient,asthesuccessortothelivingmightwishtohaverepairsandalterationseffectedintheoldparsonage.ForsomedaysEllinoremployedherselfinbusinessinthehouse,nevergoingoutexcepttochurch.MissMonro,onthecontrary,strolledabouteverywhere,noticingallthealterationsinplaceandpeople,whichwereneverimprovementsinheropinion. Ellinorhadplentyofcallers(hertenants,Mr.andMrs.Osbaldistoneamongothers),but,exceptinginrarecases——mostofthembelongedtohumblelife——shedeclinedtoseeeveryone,asshehadbusinessenoughonherhands:sixteenyearsmakesagreatdifferenceinanysetofpeople.Theoldacquaintancesofherfatherinhisbetterdayswerealmostalldeadorremoved;therewereoneortworemaining,andtheseEllinorreceived;oneortwomore,oldandinfirm,confinedtotheirhouses,sheplannedtocalluponbeforeleavingHamley.Everyevening,whenDixonhaddonehisworkatMr. Osbaldistone\'s,hecameuptotheParsonage,ostensiblytohelpherinmovingorpackingbooks,butreallybecausethesetwoclungtoeachother——wereboundtoeachotherbyabondnevertobespokenabout.ItwasunderstoodbetweenthemthatoncebeforeEllinorleftsheshouldgoandseetheoldplace,FordBank.Nottogointothehouse,thoughMr.andMrs.Osbaldistonehadbeggedhertonameherowntimeforrevisitingitwhentheyandtheirfamilywouldbeabsent,buttoseeallthegardensandgroundsoncemore;asolemn,miserablevisit,which,becauseoftheverymiseryitinvolved,appearedtoEllinortobeanimperativeduty. Dixonandshetalkedtogetherasshesatmakingacatalogueoneeveningintheoldlow-browedlibrary;thecasementwindowswereopenintothegarden,andtheMayshowershadbroughtoutthescentsofthenew-leavedsweetbriarbushjustbelow.Beyondthegardenhedgethegrassymeadowsslopedawaydowntotheliver;theParsonagewassomuchraisedthat,sittinginthehouse,youcouldseeovertheboundaryhedge.Menwithinstrumentswerebusyinthemeadow. Ellinor,pausinginherwork,askedDixonwhattheyweredoing. \"Them\'sthepeopleforthenewrailway,\"saidhe.\"NoughtwouldsatisfytheHamleyfolkbuttohavearailwayalltothemselves—— coachesisn\'tgoodenoughnow-a-days.\" Hespokewithatoneofpersonaloffencenaturaltoamanwhohadpassedallhislifeamonghorses,andconsideredrailway-enginesastheirdespicablerivals,conqueringonlybystratagem. By-and-byEllinorpassedontoasubjecttheconsiderationofwhichshehadrepeatedlyurgeduponDixon,andentreatedhimtocomeandformoneoftheirhouseholdatEastChester.Hewasgrowingold,shethoughtoldereveninlooksandfeelingsthaninyears,andshewouldmakehimhappyandcomfortableinhisdecliningyearsifhewouldbutcomeandpassthemunderhercare.TheadditionwhichMr.Ness\'sbequestmadetoherincomewouldenablehertodonotonlythis,buttorelieveMissMonroofheroccupationofteaching;which,attheyearsshehadarrivedat,wasbecomingburdensome.WhensheproposedtheremovaltoDixonheshookhishead. \"It\'snotthatIdon\'tthankyou,andkindly,too;butI\'mtoooldtogochoppingandchanging.\" \"Butitwouldbenochangetocomebacktome,Dixon,\"saidEllinor. \"Yes,itwould.Iwereborni\'Hamley,andit\'si\'HamleyIreckontodie.\" Onherurginghimalittlemore,itcameoutthathehadastrongfeelingthatifhedidnotwatchthespotwherethedeadmanlayburied,thewholewouldbediscovered;andthatthisdreadofhishadoftenpoisonedthepleasureofhisvisittoEastChester. \"Idon\'trightlyknowhowitis,forIsometimesthinkifitwasn\'tforyou,missy,IshouldbegladtohavemadeitallclearbeforeI go;andyetattimesIdream,oritcomesintomyheadasIlieawakewiththerheumatics,thatsomeoneisthere,digging;orthatIhear\'emcuttingdownthetree;andthenIgetupandlookoutoftheloftwindow——you\'llmindthewindowoverthestables,aslooksintothegarden,allcoveredoverwi\'theleavesofthejargonellepear-tree? ThatweremyroomwhenfirstIcomeasstable-boy,andtho\'Mr. Osbaldistonewouldfaingivemeawarmerone,IallaystellhimI liketh\'oldplacebest.AndbytimesI\'vegettenupfiveorsixtimesa-nighttomakesureastherewasnooneatworkunderthetree.\" Ellinorshiveredalittle.Hesawit,andrestrainedhimselfinthereliefhewasreceivingfromimpartinghissuperstitiousfancies. \"Yousee,missy,Icouldneverresta-nightsifIdidn\'tfeelasifI keptthesecretinmyhand,andheldittightdayandnight,soasI couldopenmyhandatanyminuteandseeasitwasthere.No!myownlittlemissywillletmecomeandseehernowandagain,andIknowasIcanallaysaskherforwhatIwant:andifitpleaseGodtolaymeby,Ishalltellherso,andshe\'llseeasIwantfornothing. ButsomehowIcouldne\'erbearleavingHamley.Youshallcomeandfollowmetomygravewhenmytimecomes.\" \"Don\'ttalkso,please,Dixon,\"saidshe. \"Nay,it\'llbeamercywhenIcanlaymedownandsleepinpeace: thoughIsometimesfearaspeacewillnotcometomeeventhere.\"Hewasgoingoutoftheroom,andwasnowmoretalkingtohimselfthantoher.\"Theysaybloodwillout,andifitweren\'tforherpartinit,IcouldwishforaclearbreastbeforeIdie.\" Shedidnothearthelatterpartofthismumbledsentence.Shewaslookingataletterjustbroughtinandrequiringanimmediateanswer.ItwasfromMr.Brown.Notesfromhimwereofdailyoccurrence,butthiscontainedanopenletterthewritingofwhichwasstrangelyfamiliartoher——itdidnotneedthesignature\"RalphCorbet,\"totellherwhomthelettercamefrom.Forsomemomentsshecouldnotreadthewords.Theyexpressedasimpleenoughrequest,andwereaddressedtotheauctioneerwhowastodisposeoftherathervaluablelibraryofthelateMr.Ness,andwhosenamehadbeenadvertisedinconnectionwiththesale,intheAthenaeum,andothersimilarpapers.TohimMr.Corbetwrote,sayingthatheshouldbeunabletobepresentwhenthebooksweresold,butthathewishedtobeallowedtobuyin,atanypricedecidedupon,acertainrarefolioeditionofVirgil,boundinparchment,andwithnotesinItalian. Thebookwasfullydescribed.ThoughnoLatinscholar,Ellinorknewthebookwell——remembereditslookfromoldtimes,andcouldinstantlyhavelaidherhanduponit.Theauctioneerhadsenttherequestontohisemployer,Mr.Brown.ThatgentlemanappliedtoEllinorforherconsent.ShesawthatthefactoftheintendedsalemustbeallthatMr.Corbetwasawareof,andthathecouldnotknowtowhomthebooksbelonged.Shechoseoutthebook,andwrappedandtieditupwithtremblinghands.HEmightbethepersontountietheknot.Itwasstrangelyfamiliartoherlove,aftersomanyyears,tobebroughtintothusmuchcontactwithhim.ShewroteashortnotetoMr.Brown,inwhichsherequestedhimtosay,asthoughfromhimself;andwithoutanymentionofhername,thathe,asexecutor,requestedMr.Corbet\'sacceptanceoftheVirgil,asaremembranceofhisformerfriendandtutor.Thensherangthebell,andgavetheletterandparceltotheservant. Againalone,andMr.Corbet\'sopenletteronthetable.Shetookitupandlookedatittillthelettersdazzledcrimsononthewhitepaper.Herliferolledbackwards,andshewasagirlagain.Atlastsherousedherself;butinsteadofdestroyingthenote——itwaslongyearssinceallherlove-lettersfromhimhadbeenreturnedtothewriter——sheunlockedherlittlewriting-caseagain,andplacedthislettercarefullydownatthebottom,amongthedeadrose-leaveswhichembalmedthenotefromherfather,foundafterhisdeathunderhispillow,thelittlegoldencurlofhersister\'s,thehalf-finishedsewingofhermother. Theshabbywriting-caseitselfwasgivenherbyherfatherlongago,andhadsincebeentakenwithhereverywhere.Tobesure,herchangesofplacehadbeenbutfew;butifshehadgonetoNovaZembla,thesightofthatlittleleatherboxonawakingfromherfirstsleep,wouldhavegivenherasenseofhome.Shelockedthecaseupagain,andfeltallthericherforthatmorning. AdayortwoafterwardssheleftHamley.BeforeshewentshecompelledherselftogoroundthegardensandgroundsofFordBank. ShehadmadeMrs.Osbaldistoneunderstandthatitwouldbepainfulforhertore-enterthehouse;butMr.Osbaldistoneaccompaniedherinherwalk. \"Youseehowliterallywehaveobeyedtheclauseintheleasewhichtiesusoutfromanyalterations,\"saidhe,smiling.\"Wearelivinginatangledthicketofwood.ImustconfessthatIshouldhavelikedtocutdownagooddeal;butwedonotdoeventherequisitethinningswithoutmakingtheproperapplicationforleavetoMr. Johnson.Infact,youroldfriendDixonisjealousofeverypea- stickthegardenercuts.Inevermetwithsofaithfulafellow.A goodenoughservant,too,inhisway;butsomewhattooold-fashionedformywifeanddaughters,whocomplainofhisbeingsurlynowandthen.\" \"Youarenotthinkingofpartingwithhim?\"saidEllinor,jealousforDixon. \"Oh,no;heandIarecapitalfriends.AndIbelieveMrs. Osbaldistoneherselfwouldneverconsenttohisleavingus.Butsomeladies,youknow,likealittlemoresubserviencyinmannerthanourfriendDixoncanboast.\" Ellinormadenoreply.Theywereenteringthepaintedflowergarden,hidingtheghastlymemory.Shecouldnotspeak.Shefeltasif,withallherstriving,shecouldnotmove——justasonedoesinanightmare——butshewaspasttheplaceevenasthisterrorcametoitsacme;andwhenshecametoherself,Mr.Osbaldistonewasstillblandlytalking,andsaying- \"Itisnowarewardforourobediencetoyourwishes,MissWilkins,foriftheprojectedrailwaypassesthroughtheash-fieldyonderweshouldhavebeenperpetuallytroubledwiththesightofthetrains; indeed,thesoundwouldhavebeenmuchmoredistinctthanitwillbenowcomingthroughtheinterlacingbranches.Thenyouwillnotgoin,MissWilkins?\"Mrs.Osbaldistonedesiredmetosayhowhappy—— Ah!Icanunderstandsuchfeelings——Certainly,certainly;itissomuchtheshortestwaytothetown,thatweelderonesalwaysgothroughthestable-yard;foryoungpeople,itisperhapsnotquitesodesirable.Ha!Dixon,\"hecontinued,\"onthewatchfortheMissEllinorwesooftenhearof!Thisoldman,\"hecontinuedtoEllinor,\"isneversatisfiedwiththeseatofouryoungladies,alwayscomparingtheirwayofridingwiththatofacertainmissy——\" \"Icannothelpit,sir;they\'vequiteadifferentstyleofhand,andsitalllumpish-like.Now,MissEllinor,there-\" \"Hush,Dixon,\"shesaid,suddenlyawareofwhytheoldservantwasnotpopularwithhismistress.\"IsupposeImaybeallowedtoaskforDixon\'scompanyforanhourorso;wehavesomethingtodotogetherbeforeweleave.\" Theconsentgiven,thetwowalkedaway,asbypreviousappointment,toHamleychurchyard,wherehewastopointouttohertheexactspotwherehewishedtobeburied.Tramplingoverthelong,rankgrass,butavoidingpassingdirectlyoveranyofthethickly-strewngraves,hemadestraightforonespot——alittlespaceofunoccupiedgroundcloseby,whereMolly,theprettyscullery-maid,lay: SacredtotheMemoryofMARYGREAVES. Born1797.Died1818. \"Weparttomeetagain.\" \"Iputthisstoneupoverherwithmyfirstsavings,\"saidhe,lookingatit;andthen,pullingouthisknife,hebegantocleanouttheletters.\"IsaidthenasIwouldliebyher.Andit\'llbeacomforttothinkyou\'llseemelaidhere.Itrustnoone\'llbesocrabbedastotakeafancytothis\'erespotofground.\" Ellinorgraspedeagerlyattheonlypleasurewhichhermoneyenabledhertogivetotheoldman:andpromisedhimthatshewouldtakecareandbuytherighttothatparticularpieceofground.ThiswasevidentlyagratificationDixonhadfrequentlyyearnedafter;hekeptsaying,\"I\'mgreatlyobleegedtoye,MissEllinor.ImaysayI\'mtrulyobleeged.\"Andwhenhesawthemoffbythecoachthenextday,hislastwordswere,\"IcannotjustlysayhowgreatlyI\'mobleegedtoyouforthatmatterofthechurchyard.\"ItwasamuchmoreeasyaffairtogiveMissMonrosomeadditionalcomforts;shewasascheerfulasever;stillworkingawayatherlanguagesinanysparetime,butconfessingthatshewastiredoftheperpetualteachinginwhichherlifehadbeenspentduringthelastthirtyyears.Ellinorwasnowenabledtosetheratlibertyfromthis,andsheacceptedthekindnessfromherformerpupilwithasmuchsimplegratitudeasthatwithwhichamotherreceivesafavourfromachild.\"IfEllinorwerebutmarriedtoCanonLivingstone,IshouldbehappierthanIhaveeverbeensincemyfatherdied,\"sheusedtosaytoherselfinthesolitudeofherbedchamber,fortalkingaloudhadbecomeherwontintheearlyyearsofherisolatedlifeasagoverness.\"Andyet,\"shewenton,\"Idon\'tknowwhatIshoulddowithouther;itisluckyformethatthingsarenotinmyhands,foraprettymessIshouldmakeofthem,onewayoranother.Dear!howoldMrs.Cadoganusedtohatethatword\'mess,\'andcorrecthergranddaughtersforusingitrightbeforemyface,whenIknewIhadsaiditmyselfonlythemomentbefore!Well!thosedaysareallovernow.Godbethanked!\" Inspiteofbeinggladthat\"thingswerenotinherhands\"MissMonrotriedtotakeaffairsintoherchargebydoingallshecouldtopersuadeEllinortoallowhertoinvitethecanontotheir\"littlesociableteas.\"Themostprovokingpartwas,thatshewassurehewouldhavecomeifhehadbeenasked;butshecouldnevergetleavetodoso.\"Ofcoursenomancouldgoonforeverandeverwithoutencouragement,\"assheconfidedtoherselfinaplaintivetoneofvoice;andby-and-bymanypeoplewereledtosupposethatthebachelorcanonwaspayingattentiontoMissForbes,theeldestdaughterofthefamilytowhichthedelicateJeaniebelonged.Itwas,perhaps,withtheForbesesthatbothMissMonroandEllinorwerethemostintimateofallthefamiliesinEastChester.Mrs.Forbeswasawidowladyofgoodmeans,withalargefamilyofpretty,delicatedaughters.Sheherselfbelongedtooneofthegreathousesin——shire,buthadmarriedintoScotland;so,afterherhusband\'sdeath,itwasthemostnaturalthingintheworldthatsheshouldsettleinEastChester;andoneafteranotherofherdaughtershadbecomefirstMissMonro\'spupilandafterwardsherfriend.Mrs. ForbesherselfhadalwaysbeenstronglyattractedbyEllinor,butitwaslongbeforeshecouldconquerthetimidreservebywhichMissWilkinswashedgedround.ItwasMissMonro,whowasherselfincapableofjealousy,whoperseveredinpraisingthemtooneanother,andinbringingthemtogether;andnowEllinorwasasintimateandfamiliarinMrs.Forbes\'shouseholdassheevercouldbewithanyfamilynotherown. Mrs.Forbeswasconsideredtobealittlefancifulastoillness;butitwasnowonder,rememberinghowmanysistersshehadlostbyconsumption.MissMonrohadoftengrumbledatthewayinwhichherpupilsweremadeirregularforverytriflingcauses.Butnoonesoalarmedasshe,when,intheautumnsucceedingMr.Ness\'sdeath,Mrs. ForbesremarkedtoheronEllinor\'sincreaseddelicacyofappearance,andshortnessofbreathing.FromthattimeforwardssheworriedEllinor(ifanyonesosweetandpatientcouldeverhavebeenworried)withrespiratorsandprecautions.Ellinorsubmittedtoallherfriend\'swishesandcares,soonerthanmakeheranxious,andremainedaprisonerinthehousethroughthewholeofNovember.ThenMissMonro\'sanxietytookanotherturn.Ellinor\'sappetiteandspiritsfailedher——notatallanunnaturalconsequenceofsomanyweeks\'confinementtothehouse.Aplanwasstarted,quitesuddenly,onemorninginDecember,thatmetwithapprovalfromeveryonebutEllinor,whowas,however,bythistimetoolanguidtomakemuchresistance. Mrs.ForbesandherdaughtersweregoingtoRomeforthreeorfourmonths,soastoavoidthetryingeastwindsofspring;whyshouldnotMissWilkinsgowiththem?Theyurgedit,andMissMonrourgedit,thoughwithalittleprivatesinkingoftheheartattheideaofthelongseparationfromonewhowasalmostlikeachildtoher. Ellinorwas,asitwere,liftedoffherfeetandborneawaybytheunanimousopinionofothers——thedoctorincluded——whodecidedthatsuchastepwashighlydesirable;ifnotabsolutelynecessary.Sheknewthatshehadonlyalifeinterestbothinherfather\'spropertyandinthatbequeathedtoherbyMr.Ness.Hithertoshehadnotfeltmuchtroubledbythis,asshehadsupposedthatinthenaturalcourseofeventssheshouldsurviveMissMonroandDixon,bothofwhomshelookeduponasdependentuponher.Allshehadtobequeathtothetwowasthesmallsavings,whichwouldnotnearlysufficeforbothpurposes,especiallyconsideringthatMissMonrohadgivenupherteaching,andthatbothsheandDixonwerepassingintoyears. BeforeEllinorleftEnglandshehadmadeeveryarrangementforthecontingencyofherdeathabroadthatMr.Johnsoncouldsuggest.ShehadwrittenandsentalonglettertoDixon;andashorteronewasleftinchargeofCanonLivingstone(shedarednothintatthepossibilityofherdyingtoMissMonro)tobesenttotheoldman. AstheydroveoutoftheKing\'sCrossstation,theypassedagentleman\'scarriageentering.Ellinorsawabright,handsomelady,anurse,andbabyinside,andagentlemansittingbythemwhosefaceshecouldneverforget.ItwasMr.Corbettakinghiswifeandchildtotherailway.TheyweregoingonaChristmasvisittoEastChesterdeanery.Hehadbeenleaningback,notnoticingthepassers-by,notattendingtotheotherinmatesofthecarriage,probablyabsorbedintheconsiderationofsomelawcase.SuchwerethecasualglimpsesEllinorhadofonewithwhoselifeshehadoncethoughtherselfboundup. WhosoproudasMissMonrowhenaforeignlettercame?Hercorrespondentwasnotparticularlygraphicinherdescriptions,norwerethereanyadventurestobedescribed,norwasthehabitofmindofEllinorsuchastomakeherclearanddefiniteinherownimpressionsofwhatshesaw,andhernaturalreservekeptherfrombeingfluentincommunicatingthemeventoMissMonro.Butthatladywouldhavebeenpleasedtoreadaloudtheseletterstotheassembleddeanandcanons,andwouldnothavebeensurprisediftheyhadinvitedhertothechapter-houseforthatpurpose.Tohercircleofuntravelledladies,ignorantofMurray,butlaudablydesirousofinformation,allEllinor\'shistoricalreminiscencesandratherformaldetailswerereallyinteresting.TherewasnorailroadinthosedaysbetweenLyonsandMarseilles,sotheirprogresswasslow,andthepassageofletterstoandfro,whentheyhadarrivedinRome,longanduncertain.Butallseemedgoingonwell.Ellinorspokeofherselfasinbetterhealth;andCanonLivingstone(betweenwhomandMissMonrogreatintimacyhadsprungupsinceEllinorhadgoneaway,andMissMonrocouldaskhimtotea)confirmedthisreportofMissWilkins\'shealthfromaletterwhichhehadreceivedfromMrs. Forbes.CuriosityaboutthatletterwasMissMonro\'storment.Whatcouldtheyhavehadtowritetoeachotherabout?Itwasaveryoddproceeding;althoughtheLivingstonesandForbesesweredistantlyrelated,afterthemannerofScotland.CouldithavebeenthathehadofferedtoEuphemia,afterall,andthathermotherhadanswered; or,possibly,therewasaletterfromEffieherself,enclosed.ItwasapityforMissMonro\'speaceofmindthatshedidnotaskhimstraightaway.ShewouldthenhavelearntwhatCanonLivingstonehadnothoughtofconcealing,thatMrs.Forbeshadwrittensolelytogivehimsomefullerdirectionsaboutcertaincharitiesthanshehadhadtimetothinkaboutinthehurryofstarting.Asitwas,andwhen,alittlelateron,sheheardhimspeakofthepossibilityofhisgoinghimselftoRome,assoonashistermofresidencewasover,intimefortheCarnival,shegaveupherfondprojectindespair,andfeltverymuchlikeachildwhosehouseofbrickshadbeenknockeddownbytheunluckywaftofsomepassingpetticoat. Meanwhile,theentirechangeofscenebroughtontheexquisiterefreshmentofentirechangeofthought.Ellinorhadnotbeenablesocompletelytoforgetherpastlifeformanyyears;itwaslikearenewingofheryouth;cutsosuddenlyshortbytheshearsofFate. Eversincethatnight,shehadhadtorouseherselfonawakeninginthemorningintoafullcomprehensionofthegreatcauseshehadformuchfearandheavygrief.Now,whenshewakenedinherlittleroom,fourthpiano,No.36,Babuino,shesawthestrange,prettythingsaroundher,andhermindwentoffintopleasantwonderandconjecture,happyrecollectionsofthedaybefore,andpleasantanticipationsofthedaytocome.LatentinEllinorwasherfather\'sartistictemperament;everythingnewandstrangewasapictureandadelight;themerestgroupinthestreet,aRomanfacchino,withhiscloakdrapedoverhisshoulder,agirlgoingtomarketorcarryingherpitcherbackfromthefountain,everythingandeverypersonthatpresenteditorhimselftohersenses,gavethemadeliciousshock,asifitweresomethingstrangelyfamiliarfromPinelli,butunseenbyhermortaleyesbefore.Sheforgotherdespondency,herill- healthdisappearedasifbymagic;theMissesForbes,whohadtakenthepensive,droopinginvalidasacompanionoutofkindnessofheart,foundthemselvesamplyrewardedbythesightofheramendedhealth,andherkeenenjoymentofeverything,andthehalf-quaint,halfnaiveexpressionsofherpleasure. SoMarchcameround;Lentwaslatethatyear.ThegreatnosegaysofvioletsandcamelliaswereforsaleatthecorneroftheCondotti,andtherevellershadnodifficultyinprocuringmuchrarerflowersforthebellesoftheCorso.Theembassieshadtheirbalconies;theattachesoftheRussianEmbassythrewtheirlightandlovelypresentsateveryprettygirl,orsuspicionofaprettygirl,whopassedslowlyinhercarriage,coveredoverwithherwhitedomino,andholdingherwiremaskasaprotectiontoherfacefromtheshowersoflimeconfetti,whichotherwisewouldhavebeenenoughtoblindher; Mrs.Forbeshadherownhiredbalcony,asbecameawealthyandrespectableEnglishwoman.Thegirlshadagreatbasketfullofbouquetswithwhichtopelttheirfriendsinthecrowdbelow;astoreofmoccolettilaypiledonthetablebehind,foritwasthelastdayofCarnival,andassoonasduskcameonthetapersweretobelighted,tobeasquicklyextinguishedbyeverymeansineveryone\'spower.Thecrowdbelowwasatitswildestpitch;therowsofstatelycontadinialonesittingimmovableastheirpossibleancestors,thesenatorswhoreceivedBrennusandhisGauls.Masksandwhitedominoes,foreigngentlemen,andtheriffraffofthecity,slow- drivingcarriages,showersofflowers,mostofthemfadedbythistime,everyoneshoutingandstrugglingatthatwildpitchofexcitementwhichmaysosoonturnintofury.TheForbesgirlshadgivenplaceatthewindowtotheirmotherandEllinor,whoweregazinghalfamused,halfterrified,atthemadparti-colouredmovementbelow;whenafamiliarfacelookedup,smilingarecognition;and\"HowshallIgettoyou?\"wasaskedinEnglish,bythewell-knownvoiceofCanonLivingstone.Theysawhimdisappearunderthebalconyonwhichtheywerestanding,butitwassometimebeforehemadehisappearanceintheirroom.Andwhenhedid,hewasalmostoverpoweredwithgreetings;sogladweretheytoseeanEastChesterface. \"Whendidyoucome?Whereareyou?Whatapityyoudidnotcomesooner!Itissolongsincewehaveheardanything;dotelluseverything!Itisthreeweekssincewehavehadanyletters;thosetiresomeboatshavebeensoirregularbecauseoftheweather.\"\"Howwaseverybody——MissMonroinparticular?\"Ellinorasks. He,quietlysmiling,repliedtotheirquestionsbyslowdegrees.Hehadonlyarrivedthenightbefore,andhadbeenhuntingforthemallday;butnoonecouldgivehimanydistinctintelligenceastotheirwhereaboutsinallthenoiseandconfusionoftheplace,especiallyastheyhadtheironlyEnglishservantwiththem,andthecanonwasnotstronginhisItalian.Hewasnotsorryhehadmissedallbutthislastdayofcarnival,forhewashalfblindedandwhollydeafened,asitwas.Hewasatthe\"Angleterre;\"hehadleftEastChesteraboutaweekago;hehadlettersforallofthem,buthadnotdaredtobringthemthroughthecrowdforfearofhavinghispocketpicked.MissMonrowasverywell,butveryuneasyatnothavingheardfromEllinorforsolong;theirregularityoftheboatsmustbetellingbothways,fortheirEnglishfriendswerefullofwonderatnothearingfromRome.Andthenfollowedsomewell-deservedabuseoftheRomanpost,andsomesuspicionofthecarelessnesswithwhichItalianservantspostedEnglishletters.Alltheseanswersweresatisfactoryenough,yetMrs.ForbesthoughtshesawalatentuneasinessinCanonLivingstone\'smanner,andfanciedonceortwicethathehesitatedinreplyingtoEllinor\'squestions.Buttherewasnobeingquitesureintheincreasingdarkness,whichpreventedcountenancesfrombeingseen;norintheconstantinterruptionsandscreamswhichweregoingoninthesmallcrowdedroom,aswaftinghandkerchiefs,puffsofwind,orveritableextinguishers,fastenedtolongsticks,andcomingfromnobodyknewwhere,putouttaperaftertaperasfastastheywerelighted. \"Youwillcomehomewithus,\"saidMrs.Forbes.\"Icanonlyofferyoucoldmeatwithtea;ourcookisgoneout,thisbeingauniversalfesta;butwecannotpartwithanoldfriendforanyscruplesastothecommissariat.\" \"Thankyou.Ishouldhaveinvitedmyselfifyouhadnotbeengoodenoughtoaskme.\" WhentheyhadallarrivedattheirapartmentintheBabuino(CanonLivingstonehadgoneroundtofetchtheletterswithwhichhewasentrusted),Mrs.ForbeswasconfirmedinhersuppositionthathehadsomethingparticularandnotverypleasanttosaytoEllinor,bytherathergraveandabsentmannerinwhichheawaitedherreturnfromtakingoffherout-of-doorthings.Hebrokeoff,indeed,inhisconversationwithMrs.ForbestogoandmeetEllinor,andtoleadherintothemostdistantwindowbeforehedeliveredherletters. \"Fromwhatyousaidinthebalconyyonder,Ifearyouhavenotreceivedyourhomelettersregularly?\" \"No!\"repliedshe,startledandtrembling,shehardlyknewwhy. \"NomorehasMissMonroheardfromyou;nor,Ibelieve,hassomeoneelsewhoexpectedtohear.Yourmanofbusiness——Iforgethisname.\" \"Mymanofbusiness!Somethinghasgonewrong,Mr.Livingstone. Tellme——Iwanttoknow.Ihavebeenexpectingit——onlytellme.\" Shesatdownsuddenly,aswhiteasashes. \"DearMissWilkins,I\'mafraiditispainfulenough,butyouarefancyingitworsethanitis.Allyourfriendsarequitewell;butanoldservant——\" \"Well!\"shesaid,seeinghishesitation,andleaningforwardsandgripingathisarm. \"Istakenuponachargeofmanslaughterormurder.Oh!Mrs.Forbes,comehere!\" ForEllinorhadfainted,fallingforwardsonthearmshehadheld. Whenshecameroundshewaslyinghalfundressedonherbed;theyweregivingherteainspoonfuls. \"Imustgetup,\"shemoaned.\"Imustgohome.\" \"Youmustliestill,\"saidMrs.Forbes,firmly. \"Youdon\'tknow.Imustgohome,\"sherepeated;andshetriedtositup,butfellbackhelpless.Thenshedidnotspeak,butlayandthought.\"Willyoubringmesomemeat?\"shewhispered.\"Andsomewine?\"Theybroughthermeatandwine;sheate,thoughshewaschoking.\"Now,please,bringmemyletters,andleavemealone;andafterthatIshouldliketospeaktoCanonLivingstone.Don\'tlethimgo,please.Iwon\'tbelong——halfanhour,Ithink.Onlyletmebealone.\" TherewasahurriedfeverishsharpnessinhertonethatmadeMrs. Forbesveryanxious,butshejudgeditbesttocomplywithherrequests. Theletterswerebrought,thelightswerearrangedsothatshecouldreadthemlyingonherbed;andtheylefther.Thenshegotupandstoodonherfeet,dizzyenough,herarmsclaspedatthetopofherhead,hereyesdilatedandstaringasiflookingatsomegreathorror.Butafterafewminutesshesatdownsuddenly,andbegantoread.Letterswereevidentlymissing.Somehadbeensentbyanopportunitythathadbeendelayedonthejourney,andhadnotyetarrivedinRome.Othershadbeendespatchedbythepost,butthesevereweather,theunusualsnow,had,inthosedays,beforetherailwaywasmadebetweenLyonsandMarseilles,putastoptomanyatraveller\'splans,andhadrenderedthetransmissionofthemailextremelyuncertain;so,muchofthatintelligencewhichMissMonrohadevidentlyconsideredascertaintobeknowntoEllinorwasentirelymatterofconjecture,andcouldonlybeguessedatfromwhatwastoldintheseletters.OnewasfromMr.Johnson,onefromMr.