第26章

类别:其他 作者:E. P. Roe字数:11981更新时间:18/12/13 14:44:18
Butthemaidenherself——whydidhiseyesturnsooftentoher,andwhydidhe,unasked,introduceherintothesketchwithacareandlingeringdelicacyoftouchthatmadeevenherpencilledimageseemalivinggirl?Whennotaffectedorrenderedconventionalbysociety,hervoicewassingularlygirlishandnatural,andtherewouldoftenbeatoneinaplaintiveandminorkeythatvibratedlikealow,sweetchordinhisheartratherthaninhisears.Itmustbeadmittedthathegavelittleheedtothesacredwordssheread;buttheflexiblemusicofhervoice,mingledwiththemurmurofthebrook,therustleoftheleavesandtheoccasionalsongofabird,allcombinedtoformthesweetestsymphonyhehadeverheard. Asanartistheexulted.Hishandhadnotlostitscunning,andhisrulingpassion,whichthestrangeexperiencesofthepastfewweekshadheldinabeyance,wasreassertingitselfwithafuller,richerpowerthanhehadknownbefore.ThatWASIdaMayhew\'sfacethatwasgrowingbeautifulandfullofhernewandbetterlifeunderhisappreciativeandskilfultouch,andtheconsciousnessofsuccessinthekindofeffortinwhichsuccessmeanttohimsomuch,filledhimwithastrongenthusiasm. OnceortwiceIdaglancedshylyathim,andhisappearancedidnottendtofixherthoughtswhollyonthesacredtext. AtlastMr.Eltingesaid:\"Thatwilldoforto-day.Ithink,underthecircumstances,youhavegivenmostpraiseworthyattentiontowhatyouhaveread,andtowhatlittleIcouldsayinthewayofexplanation.Nowforthepicture,andIconfessI\'maseagerasachildtoseeit;\"andtheycameandlookedoverVanBerg\'sshoulder. AlmostinstantlyIdaclappedherhands,exclaimingwithdelight: \"Thetreeisperfect,andoh,Mr.Eltinge,Ishallalwayshaveyounow,withyourdearkindfaceturnedtowardsmeasIhaveseenitto-day!\"Suddenlyhermannerchanged,andinatonefullofdisappointmentsheadded,\"Oh,Mr.VanBerg,howcouldyouspoilmypicture?Youhaveputmeinit.\" \"Certainly,\"hereplieddemurely,\"youwereapartofthepicture.\" \"Notanecessarypart.Ididnotaskyoutodothat,\"sheanswered,inawaythatprovedherfeelingswerehurt. \"Iamwillingtodomorethanyouask,andifyouinsistonitI willeffaceyourimage,althoughIshouldmuchregrettodoso.\" \"Iprotestagainstthat,\"criedMr.Eltinge.\"Sofarfromspoilingthepicture,yourbeingtheremakesitinvaluabletome.I\'mgoingtotaxMr.VanBerg\'sgenerosity,andaskforthisinthehopethathewillmakeanotherdrawingoftheoldmanandthetreeonly,foryou.\" \"Wouldyouliketohaveitsoverymuch?\"saidIda,muchpleasedwiththisarrangement. \"Yes,mydear,verymuchindeed,andI\'llplaceitnearmyfavoritechimneycorner,whereIcanseeyouallwinter.Mr.VanBerg,Icongratulateyou;I\'mnotmuchofajudgeofart,butthisismylittlefriendhere,truetolife.YouhavebeenveryhappyincatchingtheexpressionwhichIamlearningtoknowsowell.\" \"Yourwordshaveafullermeaningthanyouthink,\"repliedtheartist,heartily.\"Ihaveindeedbeenveryhappyinmywork.I neverenjoyedamorningmoreinmylife.\" \"ButI\'mtogohomewithoutanypicture,\"saidIda,tryingtohideherpleasurebyassumedreproachfulness. \"Thereisnopictureyet,foranyone,\"heanswered,\"thisisonlyasketchfromwhichIshalltrytomaketwopicturesthatwillsuggestasceneparticularlyattractivetooneofmycalling,tosaytheleast.\" Asheplacedthesketchinhisbook,theworkhehadbeenengagedonthatmorningwhenIdamethimbytheroadside,droppedout,andshesawherselfleaningonthebalusterrailofthestaircase,withherhandhalfextendedasatokenofforgivenessandreconciliation. Hercheeksflushedinstantly,butshewasabletoremarkquietly: \"Isupposethatisthewayyouartistskeepamemorandumofcurrentevents.\" Herepliedgravely,butwithsomeansweringcoloralso:\"Yes,MissMayhew,whenthecurrentisdeepandstrong.\" VanBergfelthimselfhappyinsecuringfromMr.Eltingeaninvitationtocomeagain.Astheywereridinghome,Idaremarked,shyly: \"Ididnotknowyoucoulddrawsowell.\" \"NordidIeitherbefore.Thatoldgardenisenchantedground.\" \"Yes,\"saidIda,\"poorEvewasdrivenoutoftheGardenofEden,butIfeelasifIhadfoundmywayintoit.IonlywishIcouldstaythere,\"andhersighwaslonganddeep. \"Doestheworldoutsideseemveryfullofthornsandthistles?\"heasked,kindly. Afteramomentshereplied,simplyandbriefly,\"Yes.\" Helookedathersympatheticallyforamoment,andthensaidearnestly: \"MissIda,pardonmeifIventureaprediction.Whereveryoudwell,hereafter,allthatisgoodandbeautifulinlifeandcharacterwhichthegardentypifieswillbegintotaketheplaceofthornsandthistles.\" \"Ihopeso,\"shefaltered,\"butthatinvolvesbleedinghands,Mr. VanBerg.Iamnotcastinheroicmould.Iamweakandwavering,andasaproofIamdwellingontheverysubjectthatIhadforbidden. Itrustthatyouwillbetoomanlytotakeadvantageofmyweaknesshenceforthandwilltrytohelpmeforgetmyself.\" \"Thatmaybeahardertaskthanyouthink,butIwillattemptwhateveryouask,\"andfromherpleasedandinterestedexpressionitwouldseemthatduringthenexthalfhourhesucceededremarkablywell.Suddenly,asifahappythoughthadstruckhim,hesaidalittleabruptly: \"IforeseethatyouandMissBurtonaredestinedtobecomegreatfriends.Youhavenotyetlearnedwhatalovelycharactershepossessesandhowbroadanddeeparehersympathies.\" Ida\'ssilencecausedhimtoturnandlookather,andhesawthatthelightandcolorhadfadedfromherface,butshesaid,emphatically: \"MissBurtonisevenmoreadmirablethanyouthinkhertobe,ifthatwerepossible.\" \"Iampleasedtohearoneladyspeaksostronglyandgenerouslyofanother.Itisnotusual.Ishalldomyutmosttomakeyoubetteracquaintedwitheachother,andinthispleasanttaskamsureI shallrenderyouaverygreatservice.\" \"Mr.VanBerg,Ibegyouwillnot,\"sheexclaimed,hastily,andhesawwithsurprisethatsheappearedpainfullyembarrassed. \"Pardonme,MissMayhew,\"hesaid;\"Ididnotmeantobeofficious.\" Idasawnowayofextricatingherselfsavebypromptlychangingthesubject,andthisshedid;butshecouldnotfailtoobservethathercompanionwashurtbyherapparentunfriendlinesstowardsoneonwhomhebelievedhehadbestowedthebestamancouldgive.Theremainderofthedrivewasnotenjoyedbyeitherofthemastheearlierparthadbeen,andsomethinglikeconstrainttingedthemannerandwordsofboth. AstheydroveuptothehotelStantongavealowwhistleofsurprise,butwasinnomoodforhisold-timebanter. ChapterXLV.ProblemsBeyondArt. WhenVanBergleftthegardenhethoughthehadlearnedtounderstandIdaalmostasclearlyashesawthepebblybedofthelittlebrookthroughthelimpidcurrentthatflowedoverit,andyetwithinabriefhalf-houranotherbafflingmysteryhadarisen.WhydidshedislikeJennieBurton?WhysheHADdislikedherwasplain,butitseemedtofollowinevitablythatonewhocouldloveoldMr.Eltingemustalsofindacongenialfriendinthewomanhesogreatlyadmired. Astheremainderofthedaypassed,thisnewclouddarkenedandseemedtoshadowevenhimself.Whilehecoulddetectnoflawinhercourtesy,hecouldnothelpfeelingthatshemadeaconsciousefforttoavoidthemboth.Atdinnersheconversedchieflywithhercousin.VanBerg\'seyeswouldwanderoftentoherface,butsheneverlookedtowardshimunlesshespoketoher.WhenheorMissBurtonaddressedhertherewasnotatraceofcoldnessinhermannerofresponding;asuperficialobserverwouldmerelythinktheywerepeopleinwhomshewasnotespeciallyinterested. \"Poorchild,\"thoughtJennieBurton,\"sheactsherpartwell,\"andshepuzzledtheartiststillfurtherbytakinglessnoticeofIdathanusual. \"ButwhenIthinkofit,\"hemused,\"it\'sjustlikemyuniquelittlefriend.Onlythoseintroubleinteresther,andMissMayhewisonastraightroadtohappinessnow,shebelieves,althoughtheyoungladyherselfseemstodreadaworldfullofthornsandthistles,andherfatherandmother,atleast,willinsureanabundanceofbothinherownhome.ButherrepulsionfromMissBurton,theveryonetowardswhomIsupposedshewouldbeattractedinhernewlife,iswhatperplexesmemost.Iimagineallwomenaremysterieswhenyoucometoscrutinizetheirmotivesandimpulsesclosely.Thetwowhohaveoccupiedmythoughtsthissummercertainlyare,andI\'llsticktopaintingifIevergetoutofthismuddle.\" AfterdinnerhefoundachancetoaskStantonifMr.Mayhewwasexpectedthatevening. \"Yes,\"wasthereply.\"InmemoryoflastSundayhewrotehewouldnotcome,butIdasentatelegramaskinghimtobeherewithoutfail.Itookitovertothestationforher,andmadesurethatmyunclereceivedit.Shewillpuzzlehimmorethanshehastherestofus,Isuppose,andIamquitecurioustoseetheresult.\" Theartistmadenoreply,butwenttohisroomandtriedtoworkonhispictures.Hewasmorethancurious——hewasdeeplyinterested,butfeltthathewastrenchingondelicateground.Therelationsbetweenthefatheranddaughterweretoosacred,hebelieved,forevensympatheticobservationonhispart. Hesoonthrewasidehiswork.Theinspirationofthemorningwasallgone,andinitsplacehadcomeanunaccountabledissatisfactionwithhimselfandtheworldingeneral.Hehadleftthegardenwithasenseofexhilarationthatmadelifeappearbeautifulandfullofrichestpromise.Hehadbeensavedfromdisasterthatwouldhavebeencrushing;hisobjectincomingtothecountryhadbeenaccomplished,andtheUndinehediscoveredHADreceivedawoman\'ssoulthatwasblendingtheperfectbutdiscordantfeaturesintoanexquisitelybeautifulface.Theresult,certainly,hadnotbeenbroughtaboutasheexpected,norinawaytendingtoincreasehisself-complacency,buthefeltthathewouldbeabroaderandbettermanfortheordealthroughwhichhehadpassed.HealsorealizedthatthechangesinIdawerenotthesuperficialoneshehadcontemplated.hehadregardedherfaceandcharacteraslittlebetterthanapieceofcanvasonwhichtherewasalreadyadrawingofgreatpromise,butverydefective.Byerasureshereandskillfultouchestherehehadhopedtoassistnatureincarryingoutherevidentintentions.Thetragedythatwell-nighresultedtaughthimthathumanlivesaredangerousplaythings,andthatquackeryinattemptingspiritualreforminvolvedmoreperilthanignorantinterferencewithphysicallaws. Andyetthatmorninghadprovedthatthedesiredchangehadbeenaccomplished,evenmorethoroughlythanhehadhoped.Thedangerousperiodoftransitionhadbeensafelypassed,andthebeautifulfaceexpressedthatwhichwasmorethanwomanlyrefinement,thoughtandculture.Theseelementswoulddevelopwithtime.Butthecountenanceonwhichhehadseentheimpressofvanity,pride,andinsincerity,andlaterthedespairofawrongedanddesperatewoman,hadgrownopenandchildlikeagainasshetoldhimherstoryandreadtoMr.Eltinge;andinit,asthroughacleartransparency,hehadwitnessedthekindlinglightoftheChristianfaithhismotherhadtaughthimtorespectatleast,longyearsbefore. HehadleftthegardenwiththebeliefthathehadsecuredthefriendshipofthisrareUndine,andthatshewouldbringtohisartaninspirationlikethatofwhichhewassograndlyconsciouswhilemakingthepictureinwhichsheformedtheloveliestfeature. Hehadexpectedwithinstinctivecertaintythatshewouldnowbedrawntowardsthewomanhehopedtomakehiswife,andthatfriendshipswouldbecementedthatwouldlastthroughlife. ButinsuggestingthishopeandexpectationtoIdaithadbeenasifacloudhadsuddenlypassedbeforethesun,andnowthewholeskywasdarkening.JennieBurtonseemedmoreshadowyandremotethanever——morewrappedupinapastinwhichshehadnopart;andthemaidenintowhoseverysoulhethoughthehadlookedbecameinscrutableagaininthedistantcourtesyofhermanner.Evenduringthebriefhourofdinnerhewasledtofeelthathehadnoinevitableplaceinthethoughtsofeitheroftheladies,andthisimpressionwasincreasedashesoughttheirsocietylaterintheday. Moreover,inhischangedmoodheagainbegantochafeirritablyatIda\'sassociations.Sheherselfhadbeenthoroughlyredeemedinanartisticpointofview,anditwashisnaturetolookatthingsinthislight.Whileheshudderedatherterriblepurposeherecognizedthehigh,strongspiritwhichinitperversionandwronghadrenderedthedeedpossible,andherdarkdesignmadeagrandandsombrebackgroundagainstwhichthemaidenhehadsketchedthatmorningwasallthemoreluminous.Hithertoeverythingconnectedwithherchangeofcharacterhadbeennotonlyconventional,buthadappealedtohisaesthetictemperamentassingularlybeautiful. Thequaintgardenwithitsflowers,brook,andallegoricaltreewereassociationsthatharmonizedwithIda\'sloveliness,whileMr.Eltinge,whohadrenderedsuchanimmeasurableservicetothemboth,realizedhisbestidealofdignifiedandvenerableage. Butwhenhecomparedherspiritualfatherwiththemansheexpectedthatnight,hefoundhiswholenaturebecomingfullofirritableprotestanddissatisfaction. \"Thismorning,\"hemuttered,\"sheappearedcapableofrealizingapoet\'sdreams,butalreadyIseethehardandprosaicconditionsofherlotdwarfinghergrowthandthrowingtheirgrotesqueshadowsacrossherbeauty.Whatcanshedowhileinseparablefromsuchafatherandmother?Themoreunlikethemshebecomesthemorehideoustheywillappear.Mrs.Mayhewisessentiallylackinginwomanlydelicacy,andmerecoarsenessismoretolerablethanfashionable,veneeredvulgarity.Mr.Mayhewisaspiritlesswretchwhoseonlyprotestagainsthiswife\'soverbearanceandindifferencehasbeenintoxication.Linkedoneithersidetosomuchdeformity,whatchancehasthedaughterunlesssheescapesfromthemanddevelopsaseparatelife?Butarenotthetiesofnaturetooclosetopermitsuchescape,andwoulditnotbewrongtoseekit?ItcertainlywouldnotbeChristian,andIamconfidentMr.Eltingewouldnotadviseit.Herlotisindeedacruelone.NowondersheclingstoMr.Eltingeandthegarden,andthattheoutsideworldseemsfullofthornsandthistles.Well,Ipityherfromthedepthsofmyheart,andcannotseehowshewillsolvetheharshproblemofherlife.Iimagineshewillsoonbecomediscouragedandseekbymarriagetoobliterateherpresenttiesasfaraspossible.\" Havingreachedthisunsatisfactoryconclusionhethrewhissketchimpatientlyasideandwentdowntothepiazza.Idaandhermotherwerealreadythere,foritwasabouttimeforarrivalsfromtheearliertrain.VanBergfeltalmostsurethatIdamusthavebeenawarethathewasstandingnearher,butsheexhibitednoconsciousnessofhispresence.Whenalittlelatertheymetinpromenadeshebowedpolitelybutabsently,andinawaythatwouldleadanywhowereobservingthemtothinkthathewasnotinherthoughts.Sohewasledtobelievehimself,butMissBurton,whowasreadinginoneoftheparlorwindows,smiledandwhisperedtoherself,\"Welldone.\" IdawasinhopesthatherfatherwouldtakethefirstopportunityofreachingtheLakeHouse,andshewasnotdisappointed.Thetelegramhadflashedintohisleaden-huedlifethatdaylikeameteor.Diditportendgoodorevil?Evilonly,hefeared,foritseemedtohimthatevilwouldeverbehisportion.Itwasthereforewithavaguesenseofapprehensionthathelookedforwardtomeetinghiswifeanddaughter. AsheemergedfromthestagewiththeothershefoundIdahalf-waydownthestepstogreethim. \"I\'msogladyou\'vecome!\"shesaidinalowearnestvoice,andshekissedhim,notintheoldformalway,asifitweretheonlyproperthingtodo,butasadaughtergreetingherfather.Then,beforehecouldrecoverfromhissurprise,hislighttravellingbagwastakenfromhimandtheyounggirl\'sarmlinkedlovinglyinhis,andheledtoMrs.Mayhew,whoalsokissedhim,butinaway,itmustbeadmitted,thatsuggestedadutyratherthanapleasure. Herhusbandscarcelygavetoheraglance,however,butkepthiseyesfixedonhisdaughter. \"Idaisbewitched,\"saidMr.Mayhew. \"AndIhopeyouwillfindmebewitching,father,forIwantasmuchofyoursocietyasyouwillgivemeduringthisvisit.\"Shetriedtospeakplayfullyandnaturally,buttearsweregatheringinhereyes,forhisexpressionofperplexitywassingularlypatheticandfullofthekeenestreproach.\"OGod,\"shemurmured,\"whathaveIbeenthatheshouldbespeechlessfromsurprise,whenImerelygreethimasadaughtershould!\" VanBergturnedhastilyaway,forhefeltthatsceneswerecoming,onwhichhehadnorighttolook.TherewasnothingyettoindicateawishonIda\'sparttoavoidinartisticassociations,anddeepinhishearthewascompelledtoadmitthatshehadneverappearedsosupremelybeautifulaswhenshelookedloveandwelcomeintotheeyesofthesmirchedanddisheartenedmantowhomnaturegavethebestrighttoclaimthesegifts. \"Comewithme,father,\"saidIda,tryingtogivehimareassuringsmile,\"andIwillansweryourscaredandquestioningglancesinyourroom,\"andhewentwithherasifwalkinginadream. TearsnowgatheredinJennieBurton\'seyes,butshesmiledagainasshethought,\"Betterdonestill,IdaMayhew,andMr.VanBerg,whoisstalkingawaysorapidlyyonder,isnotthemanIthinkhim,ifyouhavenotnowmadeyourbestanddeepestimpressiononhisheart.\" \"Ida,\"herfatherfaltered,aftertheyhadreachedtheprivacyofhisroom,\"whatdoesyourtelegrammean?Whatisimportant?\" \"YOUaretome.Ofather,please,pleaseforgiveme,\"andsheputherarmsaroundhisneckandburstintoapassionoftears. Thebewilderedmanbegantotremble.\"Canit——canitbethatmydaughterhasaheart?\"hemuttered. \"Yes,father,butit\'sbrokenbecauseofmycrueltreatmentofyou; Inowhopebetterdaysarecomingforusall.\" Heheldherawayfromhimandlookedintoherfacewithalongingintensitythatsuggestedasoulperishingforthelackofloveandhope. \"Father,father,Ican\'tbearthatlook.Oh,Godforgiveme,howIhavewrongedyou!\"andsheburiedherfaceonhisshoulderagain. \"Ida,\"hesaid,slowlyandpleadingly,\"beverycareful——besurethisisnotapassingimpulse,amereremorsefultwingeofconscience. I\'vebeenhopingforyears——Iwouldhaveprayed,ifIdaredto——forsometokenthatIwasnotaburdentoyouandyourmother.Youseemedtolovemesomewhenyouwerelittle,butasyougrewolderyougrewawayfromme.I\'vetriedtoforgetthatIhadaheart. I\'vetriedtobecomeabeastbecauseitwasagonytobeaman.whyIhavelivedIscarcelyknow.IthoughtIhadsufferedallthatI couldsufferinthisworld,butIwasmistaken.IleftthisplacelastMondaywiththefearthatmybeautifuldaughterwasgivingherlovetoamanevenbaserthanIam,baseandlowfromchoice,baseandcorruptineveryfibreofhissoulandbody,andfromthathourtothisithasseemedasifIweregroundbetweentwomillstones,\"andheshudderedasifsmittenwithanague.\"Ida,\" heconcludedpiteously,\"I\'mtooweak,I\'mtoofargonetobeardisappointment.Thisismorethananimpulse,isitnot?Youwillnotthrowyourselfaway?Oh,Ida,myonlychild,ifyoucouldbeinheartwhatyouwereinyourfaceasyougreetedmeto-night,I coulddiecontent!\" Forafewminutesthepoorgirlcouldonlysobconvulsivelyonhisbreast.Atlastshefalteredbrokenly: \"Yes,father——itisanimpulse——animpulsefromheaven;butIshallpraydailythatitbenotapassingone.I——Ihavelostconfidenceinmyself,butwithmySaviour\'shelp,Iwilltrytobealovingdaughtertoyouandmakeyourwishesfirstineverything.\" \"GreatGod!\"hemuttered,\"canthisbetrue?\" \"Yes,father,becauseGodISgreat,andvery,VERY,kind.\" Hisbentformbecameerectandalmoststeelyinitstenseness.Hegentlybutfirmlyplacedherinachair,andthenpacedtheroomrapidlyamomentortwo,hisdarkeyesglowingwithastrongandkindlingexcitement.Idabegantoregardhimwithwonderandalmostalarm.Suddenlyheraisedhishandtoheaven,andsaidsolemnly: \"Thisshallbenoone-sidedaffairsohelpmeGod!\" Thenopeninghisvalise,hetookoutabottleofbrandyandthewit,withacrash,intotheemptygrate. Idasprangtowardshimwithagladcry,exclaiming,\"Ofather,nowIunderstandyou!ThankGod!thankGod!\" Hekissedhertearful,upturnedfaceagainandagain,asifhefoundtheretheveryelixiroflife. \"Ida,mydearlittleIda,\"hesaid,huskily,\"youhavesavedyourfatherfromadrunkard\'send——fromadrunkard\'sgrave.Iwasinadrunkard\'shellalready.\" Mr.Mayhewrequestedthatsuppershouldbeservedinhisownroom,forneitherhenorhisdaughterwasinamoodtomeetstrangersthatevening.Idacalledhermother,andtriedtoexplaintoherwhytheydidnotwishtogodown,butthepoorwomanwasnotabletograspverymuchofthetruth,andwasdecidedlymystifiedbythedomesticchangeswhichshehadverylimitedpowertoappreciate,andinwhichshehadsolittlepart.Shewasnotacoarsewoman,butmatteroffact,superficial,andworldlytothelastdegree. VanBergcouldscarcelybelievehiseyeswhenMr.MayhewcamedowntobreakfastwithhisfamilySundaymorning.Thebondmanhadbecomefree;theslaveofadegradingvicehadbeentransformedintoaquiet,dignifiedgentleman.Hisformwaserect,andwhilehisbearingwassingularlymodestandretiring,therewasnothingoftheoldcowering,shrinkingmannerwhichsuggesteddefeat,lossofself-respect,andhopelessdejection.Allwhoknewhiminstinctivelyfeltthattheprostratemanhadrisentohisfeet,andtherewassomethinginhismannerthatmadethembelievehewouldholdhisfootingamongothermenhereafter. Theartistfoundhimselfbowingtothe\"spiritlesswretch\"withapolitenessthatwasbynomeansassumed,andfromthenaturalandalmostcordialmannerinwhichMr.Mayhewreturnedhissalutation,hewasverygladtobelievethatIdahadnottoldhimthedeeperanddarkersecretsofherexperienceduringthepastweek. \"Thisisherwork,\"hethought,andIda\'sradiantfaceconfirmedtheimpression.Shethenfeltthatafterherfather\'swords,\"Youhavesavedme,\"shecouldneverbeveryunhappyagain.Ahundredtimesshehadmurmured,\"Oh,howmuchbetterGod\'swayoutoftroublehasbeenthanmine!\" Mr.MayhewhadalwayshadpeculiarattractionsforMissBurton,andtheyatonceenteredintoconversation.Butassherecognizedthemarvellouschangeinhim,thepleasedwonderofherfacegrewsoapparent,thatherepliedtoitinlowtones: \"Inowbelieveinyour\'remedies,\'MissBurton;butagreatdealdependsonwhoadministersthem.MylittlegirlandIhavebeendiscoveringhownearlyrelatedweare.\" Hereyesgrewmoistwithhersympathyandgladness.\"Mr.Mayhew,\" shesaid,\"I\'minclinedtothinkthatheavenisalwayswithinasteportwoofus,ifwecouldonlytaketherightsteps.\" \"Tomeithasseemedbeyondthefartheststar,\"hereplied,verygravely.\"Tosome,however,thewordisasindefiniteastheplace,andacessationofpainappearsheaven.IcouldbecontenttoasknothingbetterthanthisSabbathmorninghasbroughtme.IhavefoundwhatIthoughtlostforever.\" JennieBurtonbecameverypale,asdeepfromherheartrosethequery,\"ShallIeverfindwhatIhavelost?\"Thenwithastronginstincttomaintainherself-controlandshunaperilousnearnesstoherhiddensorrow,shechangedthesubject. ItwastouchingtoseehowoftenMr.Mayhew\'seyesturnedtowardshisdaughter,asiftoreassurehimselfthatthechangeinhermannertowardshimwasnotadream,andtheexpressionofherfaceasshemethisscrutinyseemedtobrightenandcheerhimlikeacomingdawn. \"WhatheavenlymagicistransformingMissMayhew?\"JennieBurtonaskedofVanBerg,astheysaunteredoutonthepiazza. \"Withyourwontedfelicity,youexpressitexactly,\"hereplied. \"ItisaheavenlymagicwhichIdon\'tunderstandintheleast,butmustbelievein,sincecauseandeffectaredirectlyundermyeyes.Ithasbeenmygoodfortunetowitnessasbeautifulasceneasevermortalsaw.Sincesherefersnaturallyandopenlytothefriendswhomshehasvisitedduringthepastweek,ImaytellyouaboutMr.Eltinge\'sinfluenceandteachingwithoutviolatinganyconfidence,\"andinharmonywiththefrankandfriendlyrelationswhichhenowsustainedtoMissBurton,herelatedhisexperienceofthepreviousday,remainingscrupulouslyreticentoneverypoint,however,thatheevenimaginedIdawouldwishveiledfromtheknowledgeofothers.\"Icannottellyou,\"heconcluded,\"howdeeplythesceneaffectedme.Itnotonlyawokealltheartistinme,butthemanalso.InonebriefhourIlearnedtoreverethatnobleoldgentleman,andifyoucouldhaveseenhimleaningagainsttheemblematictree,asIdid,Ithinkhewouldhaverealizedyouridealofage,whollydevoidofweaknessandbleakness.AndthenMissMayhew\'sface,asshereadandlistenedtohim,seemedindeed,initscontrastwithwhatwehaveseenduringthepastsummer,theresultof\'heavenlymagic.\'ItwillbenoheavytasktofulfiltheconditionsonwhichIwaspermittedtoentertheenchantedgarden. Theyexpectmorepencilsketches,butIshalleventuallygivethemastruthfulapictureasIamcapableofpainting,foritisraregoodfortunetofindthemessoinspiring.\" GuardedasVanBergwasinhisnarrative,MissBurtonwasabletoreadmore\"betweenthelines\"thaninhiswords.Hedidnotunderstandhermotivewhenshesaid,asifitwereherfirstobviousthought: \"Thepicturewhichyouhavepresented,eventotheeyeofmyfancy,isuniquelybeautiful,andIthinkitmustredeemMissMayhewinyourmind,fromallherdisagreeableassociations.Butinmyestimationsheappearedtoevenbetteradvantageinthegreetingshegaveherfatherlastevening.Wasthereeveramoredelicioussurpriseonearth,thanthatpoormanhadwhenhereturnedandfoundatrueandlovingdaughterawaitinghim?Withherfilialhandsshehasalreadyliftedhimoutofthemireofhisdegradation,andto-dayheisagentlemanwhomyouinvoluntarilyrespect.O Mr.VanBerg,Icannottellouhowinexpressiblybeautifulandreassuringsuchthingsaretome!Youlookatthechangeswearewitnessingfromthestandpointofanartist,Ifromthatofpoorwoundedhumanity;andwhatIhaveseeninIdaMayhewandherfather,isprooftomethatthereisagoodGodaboveallthechaosaroundme,whichIcannotunderstandandwhichattimesdisheartensme. Theirhappierandennobledfacesareaprophecyandanearnestofthattimewhentheswayofevilshallbebroken,whenfamishingsoulsandemptyheartsshallbefilled,whenbroken,thwartedlivesaremadeperfect,andwhatwasmissedandlostregained.\" Shelookedawayfromhimintothesummersky,whichthesunwasfloodingwithcloudlesslight.Therewerenotearsinhereyes,butanexpressionofintenseandsorrowfullongingthatwasfarbeyondsuchsimpleandnaturalexpression. \"JennieBurton,\"saidVanBerg,inalow,earnestvoice,\"therearetimeswhenIcouldsufferallthingstomakeyouhappy.\" Shestartedasifshehadalmostforgottenhispresence,andansweredquietly:\"Youcouldnotmakemehappybysuffering.OnlyasI canbanishalittlepainandgloomhereandtheredoIfindsolace. ButIcandosovery,verylittle.ItreassuresmetoseeGoddoingthisworkinhisgrand,largeway.Andyetitseemstomethathemightbrightentheworldasthesunfillsthisskywithlight.Asitis,theraysthatillumineheartsandfacesglintonlyhereandtherebetweenthethreateningcloudsofevil.Mr. VanBerg,youdonotknow——youneverrealizedhowshadowedhumanityis.Withinamileofyourstudio,thatisfulloflightandbeauty,therearethousandswhoareperishinginaslow,remorselesspain. Itisthisawfulmysteryofevil——thiscontinuousgroanandcryofanguishthathasgoneuptoheaventhroughalltheages——thatappallsmyheartandstaggersmyfaith.Butthere——afterwhatIhaveseento-dayIhavenorighttosuchgloomythoughts.Isupposemyreligionseemstoyounomorethanaclingingfaithinafar-away,incomprehensibleGod,andsoisnotveryattractive?IwishIcouldsuggesttoyousomethingmoresatisfactory,butsinceIcannotI\'llleaveyoutofindbetterinfluences.\" \"Itdoesseemtomethatrash,faultyIdaMayhewhasabetterfaiththanthis,\"hethought;\"shebelievesshehasfoundanearandhelpfulFriend,whilemysad-eyedsainthasonlyaGod,andisalwaysinpatheticdoubtwhetherherprayercanbridgetheinfinitedistancebetweenthem.Whoisright?Iseitherright?IusedtobeimpressedwithhowmuchIknew;I\'mgladtheoppositeimpressionisbecomingsostrong,for,asMissBurtonsays,thehopelessfoolsarethosewhoneverfindthemselvesout. \"Shewasright.IdaMayhewwilleverappeartobetteradvantageinaidingherpoorfathertoregainhismanhood,thanbythemostartisticcombinationofcircumstancesthatIcouldimagine.Allthemaninmerecognizesthesacrednessofthedutyandthebeautyofitsperformance.AndyetbutyesterdayIwasstupidenoughtobelievethatherbestchancefordevelopmentwastoescapefromherfatherandliveaseparatelife.Ithastakenonlyafewhourstoprovehowsuperficialwasmyphilosophyoflife.Guidedsimplybytheinstinctofloveandduty,thisfaultygirlhasaccomplishedmorethanIhadsupposedpossible.Buthermotherwillcontinueathorninherside,\"andVanBergwasnotfarastray. ChapterXLVI.AResolutePhilosopher.