第15章

类别:其他 作者:Bret Harte字数:6946更新时间:18/12/13 14:51:04
alone!Thecontiguousforestcouldnotbeboltedout,andtheIndianwifeheardall.Recognizingthesituationwithaboriginaldirectnessofpurpose,shecommittedsuicideinthefondbeliefthatitwouldreunitethesurvivors.Butinvain;thecousinspartedonthespottomeetnomore. EvenMrs.Ashwood\'spredilectionfortheyouthfulwritercouldnotoverlookthefactthatthedenouementwasbynomeansnovelnorthesituationhuman,butyetitwasherethatshewasmostinterestedandfascinated.ThedescriptionoftheforestwasadescriptionofthewoodwhereshehadfirstmetHarcourt;thecharmofitreturned,untilshealmostseemedtoagaininhaleitsbalsamicfreshnessinthepagesbeforeher.Now,asthen,heryouthcamebackwiththesamelongingandregret.Butmorebewilderingthanall,itwasherselfthatmovedthere,paintedwiththelovinghandofthenarrator.Forthefirsttimesheexperiencedthedeliciousflatteryofseeingherselfasonlyalovercouldseeher.Thesmallestdetailofhercostumewassuggestedwithanaccuracythatpleasantlythrilledherfemininesense.Thegraceofherfigureslowlymovingthroughtheshadow,thecurvesofherarmandthedelicacyofherhandthatheldthebridlerein,thegentleglowofhersoftlyroundedcheek,thesweetmysteryofherveiledeyesandforehead,andtheescapinggoldofherlovelyhairbeneathherhatwereallinturnmasterfullytouchedortenderlysuggested.Andwhentothiswasaddedthefaintperfumeofhernearerpresence—— thescentshealwaysused——thedelicaterevelationsofherwithdrawngauntlet,thebraceletclaspingherwhitewrist,andatlastthethrillingcontactofhersofthandonhisarm,——sheputdownthemanuscriptandblushedlikeaverygirl.Thenshestarted. Ashout!——HISvoicesurely!——andthesoundofoarsintheirrowlocks. Aninstantrevulsionoffeelingovertookher.Withaquickmovementsheinstantlyhidthemanuscriptbeneathhercloakandstooduperectandindignant.Nottwentyyardsaway,apparentlyadvancingfromtheoppositeshoreofthebay,wasaboat.ItcontainedonlyJohnMilton,restingonhisoarsandscanningthegroupofrocksanxiously.Hisface,whichwasquitestrainedwithanxiety,suddenlyflushedwhenhesawher,andthenrecognizingtheunmistakablesignificanceofherlookandattitude,paledoncemore.Hebentoverhisoarsagain;afewstrokesbroughthimclosetotherock. \"Ibegyourpardon,\"hesaidhesitatingly,asheturnedtowardsherandlaidasidehisoars,\"but——Ithought——youwere——indanger.\" Sheglancedquicklyroundher.Shehadforgottenthetide!Theledgebetweenherandtheshorewasalreadyafootunderbrownsea- water.Yetifshehadnotthoughtthatitwouldlookridiculous,shewouldhaveleapeddowneventhenandwadedashore. \"It\'snothing,\"shesaidcoldly,withtheairofonetowhomthesituationwasaneverydayoccurrence;\"it\'sonlyafewstepsandaslightwetting——andmybrotherwouldhavebeenhereinamomentmore.\" JohnMilton\'sfrankeyesmadenosecretofhismortification.\"I oughtnottohavedisturbedyou,Iknow,\"hesaidquickly,\"Ihadnoright.ButIwasontheothershoreoppositeandIsawyoucomedownhere——thatis\"——heblushedprodigiously——\"IthoughtitMIGHT BEyou——andIventured——Imean——won\'tyouletmerowyouashore?\" Thereseemedtobenoreasonableexcuseforrefusing.Sheslippedquicklyintotheboatwithoutwaitingforhishelpinghand,avoidingthatcontactwhichonlyamomentagoshewastryingtorecall. Afewstrokesbroughtthemashore.Hecontinuedhisexplanationwiththehopelessfranknessandpersistencyofyouthandinexperience.\"Ionlycameherethedaybeforeyesterday.Iwouldnothavecome,butMr.Fletcher,whohasacottageontheothershore,sentformetooffermemyoldplaceonthe\'Clarion.\'I hadnoideaofintrudinguponyourprivacybycallingherewithoutpermission.\" Mrs.Ashwoodhadresumedherconventionalcourtesywithouthoweverlosingherfemininedesiretomakehercompanionpayfortheagitationhehadcausedher.\"Wewouldhavebeenalwayspleasedtoseeyou,\"shesaidvaguely,\"andIhope,asyouareherenow,youwillcomewithmetothehotel.Mybrother\"—— Buthestillretainedhisholdoftheboat-ropewithoutmoving,andcontinued,\"Isawyouyesterday,throughthetelescope,sittinginyourbalcony;andlateratnightIthinkitwasyourshadowIsawneartheblueshadedlampinthesitting-roombythewindow,——I don\'tmeantheREDLAMPthatyouhaveinyourownroom.Iwatchedyouuntilyouputoutthebluelampandlittheredone.Itellyouthis——because——because——IthoughtyoumightbereadingamanuscriptIsentyou.Atleast,\"hesmiledfaintly,\"ILIKEDtothinkitso.\" Inherpresentmoodthisstruckheronlyaspersistentandsomewhategotistical.Butshefeltherselfnowongroundwhereshecoulddealfirmlywithhim. \"Oh,yes,\"shesaidgravely.\"Igotitandthankyouverymuchforit.Iintendedtowritetoyou.\" \"Don\'t,\"hesaid,lookingatherfixedly.\"Icanseeyoudon\'tlikeit.\" \"Onthecontrary,\"shesaidpromptly,\"Ithinkitbeautifullywritten,andveryingeniousinplotandsituation.Ofcourseitisn\'tthestoryItoldyou——Ididn\'texpectthat,forI\'mnotagenius.Themanisnotatalllikemycousin,youknow,andthewoman——wellreally,totellthetruth,SHEissimplyinconceivable!\" \"Youthinkso?\"hesaidgravely.Hehadbeengazingabstractedlyatsomeshiningbrownseaweedinthewater,andwhenheraisedhiseyestoherstheyseemedtohavecaughtitscolor. \"Thinkso?I\'mpositive!There\'snosuchawoman;sheisn\'tHUMAN.Butletuswalktothehotel.\" \"Thankyou,butImustgobacknow.\" \"Butatleastletmybrotherthankyoufortakinghisplace——inrescuingme.ItwassothoughtfulinyoutoputoffatoncewhenyousawIwassurrounded.Imighthavebeeningreatdanger.\" \"Pleasedon\'tmakefunofme,Mrs.Ashwood,\"hesaidwithafaintreturnofhisboyishsmile.\"Youknowtherewasnodanger.Ihaveonlyinterruptedyouinanaporareverie——andIcanseenowthatyouevidentlycameheretobealone.\" Holdingthemanuscriptmorecloselyhiddenunderthefoldsofhercloak,shesmiledenigmatically.\"IthinkIDID,anditseemsthatthetidethoughtsotoo,andacteduponit.Butyouwillcomeuptothehotelwithme,surely?\" \"No,Iamgoingbacknow.\"Therewasasuddenfirmnessabouttheyoungfellowwhichshehadneverbeforenoticed.Thiswasevidentlythecreaturewhohadmarriedinspiteofhisfamily. \"Won\'tyoucomebacklongenoughtotakeyourmanuscript?IwillpointoutthepartIreferto,and——wewilltalkitover.\" \"Thereisnonecessity.Iwrotetoyouthatyoumightkeepit;itisyours;itwaswrittenforyouandnoneother.Itisquiteenoughformetoknowthatyouweregoodenoughtoreadit.Butwillyoudoonethingmoreforme?Readitagain!Ifyoufindanythinginitthesecondtimetochangeyourviews——ifyoufind\"—— \"Iwillletyouknow,\"shesaidquickly.\"IwillwritetoyouasI intended.\" \"No,Ididn\'tmeanthat.Imeantthatifyoufoundthewomanlessinconceivableandmorehuman,don\'twritetome,butputyourredlampinyourwindowinsteadoftheblueone.Iwillwatchforitandseeit.\" \"IthinkIwillbeabletoexplainmyselfmuchbetterwithsimplepenandink,\"shesaiddryly,\"anditwillbemuchmoreusefultoyou.\" Heliftedhishatgravely,shovedofftheboat,leapedintoit,andbeforeshecouldholdoutherhandwastwentyfeetaway.Sheturnedandranquicklyuptherocks.Whenshereachedthehotel,shecouldseetheboatalreadyhalfacrossthebay. Enteringhersitting-roomshefoundthatherbrother,tiredofwaitingforher,haddrivenout.Takingthehiddenmanuscriptfromhercloakshetosseditwithaslightgestureofimpatienceonthetable.Thenshesummonedthelandlord. \"Isthereatownacrossthebay?\" \"No!thewholemountain-sidebelongstoDonDiegoFletcher.HelivesawaybackinthecoastrangeatLosGatos,buthehasacottageandmillonthebeach.\" \"DonDiegoFletcher——Fletcher!IsheaSpaniardthen?\" \"Halfandhalf,Ireckon;he\'sfromthelowercountry,Ibelieve.\" \"Ishehereoften?\" \"Notmuch;hehasmillsatLosGatos,wheatranchesatSantaClara,andownsanewspaperin\'Frisco!Buthe\'sherenow.Therewerelightsinhishouselastnight,andhiscutterliesoffthepoint.\" \"Couldyougetasmallpackageandnotetohim?\" \"Certainly;itisonlyarowacrossthebay.\" \"Thankyou.\" WithoutremovingherhatandcloakshesatdownatthetableandbeganalettertoDonDiegoFletcher.Shebeggedtoinclosetohimamanuscriptwhichshewassatisfied,fortheinterestsofitsauthor,wasbetterinhishandsthanhers.Ithadbeengiventoherbytheauthor,Mr.J.M.Harcourt,whomsheunderstoodwasengagedonMr.Fletcher\'spaper,the\"Clarion.\"Infact,ithadbeenwrittenatHERsuggestion,andfromanincidentinreallifeofwhichshewascognizant.ShewassorrytosaythatonaccountofsomeveryfoolishcriticismofherownastotheFACTS,thetalentedyoungauthorhadbecomesodissatisfiedwithitastomakeitpossiblethat,iflefttohimself,thisverycharmingandbeautifullywrittenstorywouldremainunpublished.AsanadmirerofMr.Harcourt\'sgenius,andafriendofhisfamily,shefeltthatsuchaneventwouldbedeplorable,andshethereforebeggedtoleaveittoMr.Fletcher\'sdelicacyandtacttoarrangewiththeauthorforitspublication.SheknewthatMr.Fletcherhadonlytoreadittobeconvincedofitsremarkableliterarymerit,andsheagainwouldimpressuponhimthefactthatherplayfulandthoughtlesscriticism——whichwaspersonalandconfidential——wasonlybaseduponthecircumstancesthattheauthorhadreallymadeamorebeautifulandtouchingstorythanthepoorfactswhichshehadfurnishedseemedtowarrant.ShehadonlyjustlearnedthefortunatecircumstancethatMr.Fletcherwasintheneighborhoodofthehotelwhereshewasstayingwithherbrother. Withthesamepractical,business-likedirectness,butperhapsacertainunbusiness-likehastesuperadded,sherolledupthemanuscriptanddispatcheditwiththeletter. Thisdone,however,aslightreactionsetin,andhavingtakenoffherhatandshawl,shedroppedlistlesslyonachairbythewindow,butassuddenlyroseandtookaseatinthedarkerpartoftheroom.Shefeltthatshehaddoneright,thathighestbutmostdepressingofhumanconvictions!Itwasentirelyforhisgood. Therewasnoreasonwhyhisbestinterestsshouldsufferforhisfolly.Ifanybodywastosufferitwasshe.Butwhatnonsensewasshethinking!Shewouldwritetohimlaterwhenshewasalittlecooler,——asshehadsaid.Butthenhehaddistinctlytoldher,andveryrudelytoo,thathedidn\'twanthertowrite.WantedhertomakeSIGNALStohim,——theidiot!andprobablywasevennowwatchingherwithatelescope.Itwasreallytoopreposterous! Theresultwasthatherbrotherfoundheronhisreturninasomewhatuncertainmood,and,asacounselor,variableandconflictinginjudgment.IfthisClementina,whoseemedtohavethefamilyqualitiesofobstinacyandaudacity,reallycaredforhim,shecertainlywouldn\'tletdelicacystandinthewayoflettinghimknowit——andhewasthereforesafetowaitalittle.Afewmomentslater,shelanguidlydeclaredthatshewasafraidthatshewasnocounselorinsuchmatters;reallyshewasgettingtoooldtotakeanyinterestinthatsortofthing,andsheneverhadbeenamatchmaker!Bythewaynow,wasn\'titoddthatthisneighbor,thatrichcapitalistacrossthebay,shouldbecalledFletcher,and\"JamesFletcher\"too,forDiegomeant\"James\"inSpanish.Exactlythesamenameaspoor\"CousinJim\"whodisappeared.DidherememberheroldplaymateJim?Butherbrotherthoughtsomethingelsewasadeucedsightmoreodd,namely,thatthissameDonDiegoFletcherwassaidtobeverysweetonClementinanow,andwasalwaysinhercompanyattheRamirez.Andthat,withthis\"Clarion\"apologyonthetopofit,lookedinfernallyqueer. Mrs.Ashwoodfeltasuddenconsternation.Herehadshe——Jack\'ssister——justbeentakingJack\'sprobablerivalintoconfidentialcorrespondence!SheturneduponJacksharply:—— \"Whydidn\'tyousaythatbefore?\" \"Ididtellyou,\"hesaidgloomily,\"butyoudidn\'tlisten.Butwhatdifferencedoesitmaketoyounow?\" \"Nonewhatever,\"saidMrs.Ashwoodcalmlyasshewalkedoutoftheroom. Neverthelesstheafternoonpassedwearily,andherusualrideintotheuplandcanyondidnotreanimateher.Forreasonsknownbesttoherselfshedidnottakeherafter-dinnerstrollalongtheshoretowatchtheoutlyingfog.Atacomparativelyearlyhour,whiletherewasstillaroseateglowinthewesternsky,sheappearedwithgrimdeliberation,andthebluelamp-shadeinherhand,andplaceditoverthelampwhichshelitandstoodonhertablebesidethewindow.Thisdoneshesatdownandbegantowritewithbright-eyedbutviciouscomplacency. \"Butyoudon\'twantthatlightANDthewindow,Constance,\"saidJackwonderingly. Mrs.Ashwoodcouldnotstandthedreadfultwilight. \"Buttakeawayyourlampandyou\'llhavelightenoughfromthesunset,\"respondedJack. Thatwasjustwhatshedidn\'twant!Thelightfromthewindowwasthathorridvulgarredglowwhichshehated.ItmightbeveryromanticandsuitloverslikeJack,butasSHEhadsomeworktodo,shewantedtheblueshadeofthelamptocorrectthatdreadfulglare. CHAPTERXII. JohnMiltonhadrowedbackwithoutliftinghiseyestoMrs. Ashwood\'srecedingfigure.Hebelievedthathewasrightindecliningherinvitation,althoughhehadamiserablefeelingthatitentailedseeingherforthelasttime.Withallthathebelievedwashispreviousexperienceoftheaffections,hewasstillsountutoredastobeconfusedastohisreasonsfordeclining,orhisrighttohavebeenshockedanddisappointedathermanner.Itseemedtohimsufficientlyplainthathehadoffendedthemostperfectwomanhehadeverknownwithoutknowingmore.Thefeelinghehadforherwasnonethelesspowerfulbecause,inhisgreatsimplicity,itwasvagueandunformulated. Anditwasapartofthisstrangesimplicitythatinhismiserablelonelinesshisthoughtsturnedunconsciouslytohisdeadwifeforsympathyandconsolation.Loowouldhaveunderstoodhim! Mr.Fletcher,whohadreceivedhimonhisarrivalwithsingulareffusivenessandcordiality,hadputofftheirfinalarrangementsuntilafterdinner,onaccountofpressingbusiness.ItwasthereforewithsomesurprisethatanhourbeforethetimehewassummonedtoFletcher\'sroom.Hewasstillmoresurprisedtofindhimsittingathisdesk,fromwhichanumberofbusinesspapersandlettershadbeenhurriedlythrustasidetomakewayforamanuscript. AsingleglanceatitwasenoughtoshowtheunhappyJohnMiltonthatitwastheonehehadsenttoMrs.Ashwood.Thecolorflashedtohischeekandhefeltamistbeforehiseyes.Hisemployer\'sface,onthecontrary,wasquitepale,andhiseyeswerefixedonHarcourtwithasingularintensity.Hisvoicetoo,althoughundergreatcontrol,washardandstrange. \"Readthat,\"hesaid,handingtheyoungmanaletter. ThecoloragainstreamedintoJohnMilton\'sfaceasherecognizedthehandofMrs.Ashwood,andremainedtherewhilehereadit. Whenheputitdown,however,heraisedhisfrankeyestoFletcher\'s,andsaidwithacertaindignityandmanliness:\"Whatshesaysisthetruth,sir.ButitisIalonewhoamatfault. ThismanuscriptismerelyMYstupidideaofaverysimplestoryshewasoncekindenoughtotellmewhenweweretalkingofstrangeoccurrencesinreallife,whichshethoughtImightsometimemakeuseofinmywork.Itriedtoembellishit,andfailed.That\'sall.Iwilltakeitback,——itwaswrittenonlyforher.\" Therewassuchanirresistibletruthfulnessandsincerityinhisvoiceandmanner,thatanyideaofcomplicitywiththesenderwasdismissedfromFletcher\'smind.AsHarcourt,however,extendedhishandforthemanuscriptFletcherinterfered. \"Youforgetthatyougaveittoher,andshehassentittome.IfIdon\'tkeepit,itcanbereturnedtoheronly.NowmayIaskwhoisthisladywhotakessuchaninterestinyourliterarycareer? Haveyouknownherlong?Issheafriendofyourfamily?\" Theslightsneerthataccompaniedhisquestionrestoredthenaturalcolortotheyoungman\'sface,butkindledhiseyeominously. \"No,\"hesaidbriefly.\"ImetheraccidentallyabouttwomonthsagoandasaccidentallyfoundoutthatshehadtakenaninterestinoneofthefirstthingsIeverwroteforyourpaper.Sheneitherknewyounorme.Itwasthenthatshetoldmethisstory;shedidnoteventhenknowwhoIwas,thoughshehadmetsomeofmyfamily. Shewasverygoodandhasgenerouslytriedtohelpme.\" Fletcher\'seyesremainedfixeduponhim. \"ButthistellsmeonlyWHATsheis,notWHOsheis.\" \"Iamafraidyoumustinquireofherbrother,Mr.Shipley,\"saidHarcourtcurtly. \"Shipley?\" \"Yes;heistravelingwithherforhishealth,andtheyaregoingsouthwhentherainscome.TheyarewealthyPhiladelphians,I believe,and——andsheisawidow.\" Fletcherpickeduphernoteandglancedagainatthesignature,\"ConstanceAshwood.\"Therewasamomentofsilence,whenheresumedinquiteadifferentvoice:\"It\'soddInevermetthemnortheyme.\" Asheseemedtobewaitingforaresponse,JohnMiltonsaidsimply: \"Isupposeit\'sbecausetheyhavenotbeenherelong,andaresomewhatreserved.\"