Hadn\'tyoubetterletherdecidethis?\"
\"Thefinaldecisionrestswithher,ofcourse,\"admittedMrs。Comstock。\"Butlookyouonething!She\'sallIhave。
AsSolomonsays,`sheistheonechild,theonlychildofhermother。\'I\'vesufferedenoughinthisworldthatIfightagainstanysufferingwhichthreatensher。
SofarasIknowyou\'vealwaysbeenaman,andyoumaystay。Butifyoubringtearsandheartachetoher,don\'thavetheassurancetothinkI\'llbearittamely。
I\'llgetrightupandfightlikeacatamount,ifthingsgowrongforElnora!\"
\"Ihavenodoubtbutyouwill,\"repliedPhilip,\"andI
don\'tblameyouintheleastifyoudo。IhavetheutmostdevotiontoofferElnora,agoodhome,fairsocialposition,andmyfamilywillloveherdearly。Thinkitover。Iknowitissudden,butmyfatheradvisedit。\"
\"Yes,Ireckonhedid!\"saidMrs。Comstockdryly。\"Iguessinsteadofmebeingthecatamount,youhadthegenuinearticleupinChicago,masqueradinginpeacockfeathers,andposingasafinelady,untilhertimecametoscratch。
Humannatureseemstobethesametheworldover。ButI\'dgiveaprettytoknowthatsecretthingyousayyoudon\'t,thatsetherravingoveryourjustcatchingamothforElnora。
Youmightgetthatcrockofstrawberriesinthespringhouse。\"
Theypreparedandatesupper。Afterwardtheysatinthearbourandtalked,orElnoraplayeduntiltimeforPhiliptogo。
\"Willyouwalktothegatewithme?\"heaskedElnoraashearose。
\"Notto-night,\"sheansweredlightly。\"Comeearlyinthemorningifyoulike,andwewillgoovertoSleepySnakeCreekandhuntmothsandgatherdandelionsfordinner。\"
Philipleanedtowardher。\"MayItellyouto-morrowwhyIcame?\"heasked。
\"Ithinknot,\"repliedElnora。\"Thefactis,Idon\'tcarewhyyoucame。Itisenoughformethatweareyourverygoodfriends,andthatintrouble,youhavefoundusarefuge。Ifancywehadbetterliveaweekortwobeforeyousayanything。Thereisapossibilitythatwhatyouhavetosaymaychangeinthatlengthoftime。
\"Itwillnotchangeoneiota!\"criedPhilip。
\"Thenitwillhavethegraceofthatmuchagetogiveitsomesmalltouchofflavour,\"saidthegirl。\"Comeearlyinthemorning。\"
Sheliftedtheviolinandbegantoplay。
\"Wellblessmysoul!\"ejaculatedtheastoundedMrs。Comstock。
\"TothinkIwasworryingforfearyoucouldn\'ttakecareofyourself!\"
Elnoralaughedwhilesheplayed。
\"ShallItellyouwhathesaid?\"
\"Nope!Idon\'twanttohearit!\"saidElnora。\"HeisonlysixhoursfromChicago。I\'llgiveheraweektofindhimandfixitup,ifhestaysthatlong。Ifshedoesn\'tputinanappearancethen,hecantellmewhathewantstosay,andI\'lltakemytimetothinkitover。Timeinplenty,too!Therearethreeofusinthis,andonemustbeleftwithasoreheartforlife。IfthedecisionrestswithmeIproposetobeverysurethatitistheonewhodeservessuchhardluck。\"
ThenextmorningPhilipcameearly,dressedintheoutingclothinghehadworntheprevioussummer,andasidefromaslightpalenessseemedverymuchthesameaswhenheleft。Elnoramethimontheoldfooting,andforaweeklifewentonexactlyasithadtheprevioussummer。
Mrs。Comstockmadementalnotesandwatchedinsilence。
ShecouldseethatElnorawasonastrain,thoughshehopedPhilipwouldnot。Thegirlgrewrestlessastheweekdrewtoaclose。Oncewhenthegateclickedshesuddenlylostcolourandmovednervously。Billycamedownthewalk。
PhilipleanedtowardMrs。Comstockandsaid:\"IamexpresslyforbiddentospeaktoElnoraasIwouldlike。
WouldyoumindtellingherformethatIhadaletterfrommyfatherthismorningsayingthatMissCarrisonherwaytoEuropeforthesummer?\"
\"Elnora,\"saidMrs。Comstockpromptly,\"IhavejustheardthatCarrwomanisonherwaytoEurope,andI
wishtomygraciousstarsshe\'dstaythere!\"
PhilipAmmonshouted,butElnoraarosehastilyandwenttomeetBilly。TheycameintothearbourtogetherandafterspeakingtoMrs。ComstockandPhilip,Billysaid:\"UncleWesleyandIfoundsomethingfunny,andwethoughtyou\'dliketosee。\"
\"Idon\'tknowwhatIshoulddowithoutyouandUncleWesleytohelpme,\"saidElnora。\"Whathaveyoufoundnow?\"
\"SomethingIcouldn\'tbring。Youhavetocometoit。
ItriedtogetoneandIkilledit。Theyareakindofinsectythings,andtheygotalongtailthatisthreefinehairs。Theystickthosehairsrightintothehardbarkoftrees,andifyoupull,thehairsstayfastanditkillsthebug。\"
\"Wewillcomeatonce,\"laughedElnora。\"Iknowwhattheyare,andIcanusesomeinmywork。\"
\"Billy,haveyoubeencrying?\"inquiredMrs。Comstock。
Billyliftedachastenedface。\"Yes,ma\'am,\"hereplied。
\"Thishasbeentheworstday。\"
\"What\'sthematterwiththeday?\"
\"Thedayisallright,\"admittedBilly。\"Imeaneverysinglethinghasgonewrongwithme。\"
\"Nowthatistoobad!\"sympathizedMrs。Comstock。
\"Beganearlythismorning,\"saidBilly。\"AllSnap\'sfault,too。\"
\"WhathaspoorSnapbeendoing?\"demandedMrs。
Comstock,hereyesbeginningtotwinkle。
\"Diggingforwoodchucks,likehealwaysdoes。Hegetsupattwoo\'clocktodigforthem。Hewascominginfromthewoodsalltiredandcoveredthickwithdirt。
IwasgoingtothebarnwiththepailofwaterforUncleWesleytouseinmilking。Ihadtosetdownthepailtoshutthegatesothechickenswouldn\'tgetintotheflowerbeds,andoldSnapstuckhisdirtynoseintothewaterandbegantolapitdown。IknewUncleWesleywouldn\'tusethat,soIhadtogo\'waybacktothecisternformore,anditpumpsawfulhard。Madememad,soIthrewthewateronSnap。\"
\"Well,whatofit?\"
\"Nothing,ifhe\'dstoodstill。Butitscaredhimawful,andwhenhe\'safraidhegoesa-humpingforAuntMargaret。
Whenhegotrightupagainstherhestiffenedoutandgaveabigshake。YououghterseenthenicebluedressshehadputontogotoOnabasha!\"
Mrs。ComstockandPhiliplaughed,butElnoraputherarmsaroundtheboy。\"OhBilly!\"shecried。
\"Thatwastoobad!\"
\"Shegotupearlyandironedthatdresstowearbecauseitwascool。Then,whenitwasalldirty,shewouldn\'tgo,andshewantedtorealbad。\"Billywipedhiseyes。\"Thatain\'tall,either,\"headded。
\"We\'dliketoknowaboutit,Billy,\"suggestedMrs。
Comstock,strugglingwithherface。
\"Cosshecouldn\'tgotothecity,she\'smostworkedherselftodeath。She\'sdoneallthedirty,hardjobsshecouldfind。She\'sfixinghergrapejuicenow。\"
\"Sure!\"criedMrs。Comstock。\"Whenawomanisdisappointedshealwaysworkslikeadogtogainsympathy!\"
\"Well,UncleWesleyandIaresympathizingallweknowhow,withoutherworkingso。I\'vesqueezeduntilIalmostbustedtogetthejuiceoutfromtheseedsandskins。That\'sthehardpart。Now,shehastostrainitthroughwhiteflannelandsealitinbottles,andit\'sgoodforsickfolks。MostwishI\'dgetsickmyself,soIcouldhaveaglass。It\'ssogood!\"
Elnoraglancedswiftlyathermother。
\"Iworkedsohard,\"continuedBilly,\"thatshesaidifIwouldthrowtheleavingsinthewoods,thenIcouldcomeafteryoutoseeaboutthebugs。Doyouwanttogo?\"
\"Wewillallgo,\"saidMrs。Comstock。\"Iammightilyinterestedinthosebugsmyself。\"
FromafarcommotioncouldbeseenattheSintonhome。
WesleyandMargaretwererunningaroundwildlyandpeculiarsoundsfilledtheair。
\"What\'sthetrouble?\"askedPhilip,hurryingtoWesley。
\"Cholera!\"groanedSinton。\"Myhogsaredyinglikeflies。\"
Margaretwassoftlycrying。\"Wesley,can\'tIfixsomethinghot?Can\'twedoanything?Itmeansseveralhundreddollarsandourwintermeat。\"
\"Ineversawstocktakensosuddenlyandsohard,\"
saidWesley。\"Ihave\'phonedfortheveterinarytocomeassoonashecangethere。\"
Allofthemhurriedtothefeedingpenintowhichthepigsseemedtobegatheringfromthewoods。AmongthecommonstockwerebigwhitebeastsofpedigreewhichwereWesley\'sprideatcountyfairs。Severaloftheserolledontheirbacks,pawingtheairfeeblyandemittinglittlesqueaks。AhugeBerkshiresatonhishaunches,slowlyshakinghishead,thewaterdroppingfromhiseyes,untilhe,too,rolledoverwithfaintgrunts。Apaircrossingtheyardonwaveringlegscollided,andattackedeachotherinanger,onlytofall,soweaktheyscarcelycouldsqueal。AfinesnowyPlymouthRockrooster,afterseveralattempts,flewtothefence,balancedwithgreateffort,wildlyflappedhiswingsandstartedagutturalcrow,butfellsprawlingamongthepigs,toohelplesstostand。
\"Didyoueverseesuchadreadfulsight?\"sobbedMargaret。
Billyclimbedonthefence,tookonelonglookandturnedanastoundedfacetoWesley。
\"Whythempigsisdrunk!\"hecried。\"Theyactjustlikemypa!\"
WesleyturnedtoMargaret。
\"Wheredidyouputtheleavingsfromthatgrapejuice?\"
hedemanded。
\"IsentBillytothrowitinthewoods。\"
\"Billy——\"beganWesley。
\"Threwitjustwhereshetoldmeto,\"criedBilly。
Butsomeofthepigscamebytherecomingintothepen,andsomewerecloseinthefencecorners。\"
\"Didtheyeatit?\"demandedWesley。
\"Theyjustchankedintoit,\"repliedBillygraphically。
\"Theypushed,andsquealed,andfoughtoverit。
Youcouldn\'tblame\'em!ItwasthebeststuffIevertasted!\"
\"Margaret,\"saidWesley,\"run\'phonethatdoctorhewon\'tbeneeded。Billy,takeElnoraandMr。Ammontoseethebugs。Katharine,supposeyouhelpmeaminute。\"
Wesleytooktheclothesbasketfromthebackporchandstartedinthedirectionofthecellar。Margaretreturnedfromthetelephone。
\"Ijustcaughthim,\"shesaid。\"There\'sthatmuchsaved。
WhyWesley,whatareyougoingtodo?\"
\"Yougositonthefrontporchalittlewhile,\"saidWesley。
\"Youwillfeelbetterifyoudon\'tseethis。\"
\"Wesley,\"criedMargaretaghast。\"Someofthatwineistenyearsold。Therearedaysanddaysofhardworkinit,andIcouldn\'tsayhowmuchsugar。Dr。Ammonkeepspeoplealivewithitwhennothingelsewillstayontheirstomachs。\"
\"Let\'emdie,then!\"saidWesley。\"Youheardtheboy,didn\'tyou?\"
\"It\'sacoldprocess。There\'snotaparticleoffermentationaboutit。\"
\"Notaparticleoffermentation!Greatday,Margaret!Lookatthosepigs!\"
Margarettookalonglook。\"Leavemeafewbottlesformince-meat,\"shewavered。
\"Notasmellforanyuseonthisearth!Youheardtheboy!Heshan\'tsay,whenhegrowstomanhood,thathelearnedtolikeithere!\"
Wesleythrewawaythewine,Mrs。Comstockcheerfullyassisting。
Thentheywalkedtothewoodstoseeandlearnaboutthewonderfulinsects。ThedayendedwithabigsupperatSintons\',andthentheywenttotheComstockcabinforaconcert。Elnoraplayedbeautifullythatnight。WhentheSintonsleftshekissedBillywithparticulartenderness。
ShewassomovedthatshewaskindertoPhilipthanshehadintendedtobe,andElnoraasanantidotetoadisappointedloverwasadecidedsuccessinanymood。
HoweverstrongtheattractionsofEdithCarrhadbeen,oncethebondwasfinallybroken,PhilipAmmoncouldnothelprealizingthatElnorawasthesuperiorwoman,andthathewasfortunatetohaveescaped,whenheregardedhistiesstrongest。Everyday,whileworkingwithElnora,hesawmoretoadmire。Hegrewverythankfulthathewasfreetotrytowinher,andimpatienttojustifyhimselftoher。
Elnoradidnotevincetheslightesthastetohearwhathehadtosay,butwaitedtheweekshehadset,inspiteofPhilip\'shourlymanifestimpatience。Whenshedidconsenttolisten,Philipfeltbeforehehadtalkedfiveminutes,thatshewasputtingherselfinEdithCarr\'splace,andjudginghimfromwhattheothergirl\'sstandpointwouldbe。Thatwassodisconcerting,hedidnotpleadhiscausenearlysowellashehadhoped,forwhenheceasedElnorasatinsilence。
\"Youaremyjudge,\"hesaidatlast。\"Whatisyourverdict?\"
\"IfIcouldhearherspeakfromherheartasIjusthaveheardyou,thenIcoulddecide,\"answeredElnora。
\"Sheisontheocean,\"saidPhilip。\"Shewentbecausesheknewshewaswhollyinthewrong。Shehadnothingtosay,orshewouldhaveremained。\"
\"Thatsoundsplausible,\"reasonedElnora,\"butitisprettydifficulttofindawomaninanaffairthatinvolvesherheartwithnothingatalltosay。IfancyifIcouldmeether,shewouldsayseveralthings。Ishouldlovetohearthem。IfIcouldtalkwithherthreeminutes,I
couldtellwhatanswertomakeyou。\"
\"Don\'tyoubelieveme,Elnora?\"
\"Unquestioningly,\"answeredElnora。\"ButIwouldbelieveheralso。IfonlyIcouldmeetherIsoonwouldknow。\"
\"Idon\'tseehowthatistobeaccomplished,\"saidPhilip,\"butIamperfectlywilling。Thereisnoreasonwhyyoushouldnotmeether,exceptthatsheprobablywouldlosehertemperandinsultyou。\"
\"Nottoanyextent,\"saidElnoracalmly。\"Ihaveatongueofmyown,whileIamnotwithoutsomesmallsenseofpersonalvalues。\"
Philipglancedatherandbegantolaugh。Verydifferentoffacialformationandcolouring,Elnoraattimescloselyresembledhermother。Shejoinedinhislaughruefully。
\"Thepointisthis,\"shesaid。\"Someoneisgoingtobehurt,mostdreadfully。Ifthedecisionastowhomitshallberestswithme,Imustknowitistherightone。
Ofcourse,nooneeverhintedittoyou,butyouareaveryattractiveman,Philip。Youaremightygoodtolookat,andyouhaveatrained,refinedmind,thatmakesyoumostinteresting。ForyearsEdithCarrhasfeltthatyouwerehers。Now,howisshegoingtochange?Ihavebeenthinking——thinkingdeepandlong,Phil。IfIwereinherplace,Isimplycouldnotgiveyouup,unlessyouhadmadeyourselfunworthyoflove。Undoubtedly,youneverseemedsodesirabletoherasjustnow,whensheistoldshecan\'thaveyou。WhatIthinkisthatshewillcometoclaimyouyet。\"
\"Youoverlookthefactthatitisnotinawoman\'spowertothrowawayamanandpickhimupatpleasure,\"saidPhilipwithsomewarmth。\"Shepubliclyandrepeatedlycastmeoff。Iacceptedherdecisionaspubliclyasitwasmade。Youhavedoneallyourthinkingfromawrongviewpoint。YouseemtohaveanideathatitlieswithyoutodecidewhatIshalldo,thatifyousaytheword,IshallreturntoEdith。Putthatthoughtoutofyourhead!Now,andforalltimetocome,sheisamatterofindifferencetome。ShekilledallfeelinginmyheartforhersocompletelythatIdonotevendreadmeetingher。
\"IfIhatedher,orwasangrywithher,Icouldnotbesurethefeelingwouldnotdie。Asitis,shehasdeadenedmeintoacreatureofindifference。Soyoujustreviseyourviewpointalittle,Elnora。CeasethinkingitisforyoutodecidewhatIshalldo,andthatIwillobeyyou。
Imakemyowndecisionsinreferencetoanywoman,saveyou。
ThequestionyouaretodecideiswhetherImayremainhere,associatingwithyouasIdidlastsummer;butwiththedifferencethatitisunderstoodthatIamfree;thatitismyintentiontocareforyouallIplease,tomakeyoureturnmyfeelingforyouifIcan。Thereisjustonequestionforyoutodecide,anditisnottriangular。
Itisbetweenus。MayIremain?MayIloveyou?
WillyougivemethechancetoprovewhatIthinkofyou?\"
\"Youspeakveryplainly,\"saidElnora。
\"Thisisthetimetospeakplainly,\"saidPhilipAmmon。
\"Thereisnouseinallowingyoutogoonthreshingoutaproblemwhichdoesnotexist。Ifyoudonotwantmehere,saysoandIwillgo。Ofcourse,IwarnyoubeforeIstart,thatIwillcomeback。Iwon\'tyieldwithoutthestiffestfightitisinmetomake。ButdropthinkingitliesinyourpowertosendmebacktoEdithCarr。
Ifshewerethelastwomanintheworld,andIthelastman,I\'djumpofftheplanetbeforeIwouldgiveherfurtheropportunitytoexercisehertemperonme。Narrowthistous,Elnora。Willyoutaketheplaceshevacated?
Willyoutaketheheartshethrewaway?I\'dgivemyrighthandandnotflinch,ifIcouldofferyoumylife,freefromanycontactwithhers,butthatisnotpossible。Ican\'tundothingswhicharedone。
Icanonlyprofitbyexperienceandbuildbetterinthefuture。\"
\"Idon\'tseehowyoucanbesureofyourself,\"saidElnora。
\"Idon\'tseehowIcouldbesureofyou。Youlovedherfirst,younevercancareformeanythinglikethat。AlwaysI\'dhavetobeafraidyouwerethinkingofherandregretting。\"
\"Folly!\"criedPhilip。\"Regrettingwhat?ThatI
wasnotmarriedtoawomanwhowasliabletoraveatmeanytimeorplace,withoutmybeingconsciousofhavinggivenoffence?Amandoesrelishthat!Iamlikelytopineformore!\"
\"You\'dbethinkingshe\'dlearnedalesson。Youwouldthinkitwouldn\'thappenagain。\"
\"No,Iwouldn\'tbe`thinking,\'\"said,Philip。\"I\'dbeeverlastinglysure!Iwouldn\'triskwhatIwentthroughthatnightagain,nottosavemylife!Justyouandme,Elnora。Decideforus。\"
\"Ican\'t!\"criedElnora。\"Iamafraid!\"
\"Verywell,\"saidPhilip。\"Wewillwaituntilyoufeelthatyoucan。Waituntilfearvanishes。Justdecidenowwhetheryouwouldratherhavemegoforafewmonths,orremainwithyou。Whichshallitbe,Elnora?\"
\"Youcanneverlovemeasyoudidher,\"wailedElnora。
\"IamhappytosayIcannot,\"repliedhe。\"I\'vecutmymatrimonialteeth。I\'mcuredofwantingtoswellinsociety。I\'moverbeingproudofawomanforherlooksalone。Ihavenofurtheruseforlavishingmyselfonabeautiful,elegantlydressedcreature,whothinksonlyofself。IhavelearnedthatIamacommonman。IadmirebeautyandbeautifulclothingquiteasmuchasIeverdid;but,first,Iwantanunderstanding,deepasthelowestrecessofmysoul,withthewomanImarry。Iwanttoworkforyou,toplanforyou,tobuildyouahomewitheverycomfort,togiveyouallgoodthingsIcan,toshieldyoufromeveryevil。Iwanttointerposemybodybetweenyoursandfire,flood,orfamine。Iwanttogiveyoueverything;butIhatetheideaofgettingnothingatallonwhichIcandependinreturn。EdithCarrhadonlygoodlookstooffer,andwhenangerovertookher,beautywentoutlikeasnuffedcandle。
\"Iwantyoutoloveme。Iwantsomeconsideration。
Ievencraverespect。I\'vekeptmyselfclean。SofarasIknowhowtobe,Iamhonestandscrupulous。
Itwouldn\'thurtmetofeelthatyoutooksomeinterestinthesethings。Ratherfiercetemptationsstrikeaman,everyfewdays,inthisworld。Icankeepdecent,forawomanwhocaresfordecency,butwhenIdo,I\'dliketohavethefactrecognized,byjustenoughofashowofappreciationthatIcouldseeit。Iamtiredofthisone-
sidedbusiness。Afterthis,IwanttogetalittleinreturnforwhatIgive。Elnora,youhavelove,tenderness,andhonestappreciationofthefinestinlife。TakewhatIoffer,andgivewhatIask。\"
\"Youdonotaskmuch,\"saidElnora。
\"AsfornotlovingyouasIdidEdith,\"continuedPhilip,\"asIsaidbefore,Ihopenot!Ihaveanewerandabetterideaofloving。ThefeelingIofferyouwasinspiredbyyou。ItisaLimberlostproduct。Itisasmuchbigger,cleaner,andmorewholesomethananyfeelingIeverhadforEdithCarr,asyouarebiggerthanshe,whenyoustandbeforeyourclassesandincalmdignityexplainthemarvelsoftheAlmighty,whileshestandsonaballroomfloor,andgiveswaytouncontrolledtemper。
Yegods,Elnora,ifyoucouldlookintomysoul,youwouldseeitleapandrejoiceovermyescape!Perhapsitisn\'tdecent,butit\'shuman;andI\'monlyacommonhumanbeing。I\'mthegladdestmanalivethatI\'mfree!
IwouldturnsomersaultsandyellifIdared。Whatanescape!
StopstrainingafterEdithCarr\'sviewpointandtakealookfrommine。PutyourselfinmyplaceandtrytostudyouthowIfeel。
\"IamsohappyIgrowreligiousoverit。FiftytimesadayIcatchmyselfwhispering,`Mysoulisescaped!\'
Asforyou,takeallthetimeyouwant。Ifyouprefertobealone,I\'lltakethenexttrainandstayawayaslongasIcanbearit,butI\'llcomeback。Youcanbemostsureofthat。Straightasyourpigeonstotheirloft,I\'llcomebacktoyou,Elnora。ShallIgo?\"
\"Oh,what\'stheusetobeextravagant?\"murmuredElnora。
CHAPTERXXII
WHEREINPHILIPAMMONKNEELSTOELNORA,ANDSTRANGERSCOMETOTHELIMBERLOST
ThemonthwhichfollowedwasareproductionofthepreviousJune。Therewerelongmothhunts,daysofspecimengathering,wonderfulhourswithgreatbooks,bigdinnersallofthemhelpedtoprepare,andperfectnightsfilledwithmusic。Everythingwasasithadbeen,withthedifferencethatPhilipwasnowanavowedsuitor。HemissednoopportunitytoadvancehimselfinElnora\'sgraces。Attheendofthemonthhewasnoneareranysortofunderstandingwithherthanhehadbeenatthebeginning。Herevelledintheprivilegeoflovingher,buthegotnoresponse。
Elnorabelievedinhislove,yetshehesitatedtoaccepthim,becauseshecouldnotforgetEdithCarr。
OneafternoonearlyinJuly,Philipcameacrossthefields,throughtheComstockwoods,andenteredthegarden。
HeinquiredforElnoraatthebackdoorandwastoldthatshewasreadingunderthewillow。Hewentaroundthewestendofthecabintoher。Shesatonarusticbenchtheyhadmadeandplacedbeneathadroopingbranch。
Hehadnotseenherbeforeinthedressshewaswearing。
Itwasclingingmullofpalegreen,trimmedwithnarrowrufflesandtouchedwithknotsofblackvelvet;asimpledress,butvastlybecoming。Everytintofherbrighthair,herluminouseyes,herredlips,andherrose-flushedface,neck,andarmsgrewalittlemorevividwiththedelicategreensetting。
Hestoppedshort。Shewassonear,sotemptinglysweet,helostcontrol。Hewenttoherwithahalf-
smotheredcryafterthatfirstlonglook,droppedononekneebesideherandreachedanarmbehindhertothebenchback,sothathewasverynear。Hecaughtherhands。
\"Elnora!\"hecriedtensely,\"enditnow!Saythisstrainisover。Ipledgeyouthatyouwillbehappy。
Youdon\'tknow!Ifyouonlywouldsaytheword,youwouldawaketonewlifeandgreatjoy!Won\'tyoupromisemenow,Elnora?\"
Thegirlsatstaringintothewestwoods,whilestronginhereyeswasherfather\'slookofseeingsomethinginvisibletoothers。Philip\'sarmslippedfromthebencharoundher。Hisfingersclosedfirmlyoverhers。
Elnora,\"hepleaded,\"youknowmewellenough。
Youhavehadtimeinplenty。Enditnow。Sayyouwillbemine!\"Hegatheredhercloser,pressinghisfaceagainsthers,hisbreathonhercheek。\"Can\'tyouquitepromiseyet,mygirloftheLimberlost?\"
Elnorashookherhead。Instantlyhereleasedher。
\"Forgiveme,\"hebegged。\"Ihadnointentionofthrustingmyselfuponyou,but,Elnora,youaretheveriestQueenofLovethisafternoon。Fromthetipsofyourtoestoyourshiningcrown,Iworshipyou。Iwantnowomansaveyou。
Youaresowonderfulthisafternoon,Icouldn\'thelpurging。
Forgiveme。Perhapsitwassomethingthatcamethismorningforyou。IwrotePollytosendit。Maywetryifitfits?Willyoutellmeifyoulikeit?\"
Hedrewalittlewhitevelvetboxfromhispocketandshowedherasplendidemeraldring。
\"Itmaynotberight,\"hesaid。\"Theinsideofaglovefingerisnotveryaccurateforameasure,butitwasthebestIcoulddo。IwrotePollytogetit,becausesheandmotherarehomefromtheEastthisweek,butnexttheywillgoontoourcottageinthenorth,andnooneknowswhatisrightquitesowellasPolly。\"HelaidtheringinElnora\'shand。\"Dearest,\"hesaid,\"don\'tslipthatonyourfinger;putyourarmsaroundmyneckandpromiseme,allatonceandabruptly,orI\'llkeeloveranddieofsheerjoy。\"
Elnorasmiled。
\"Iwon\'t!Notallthoseventuresomethingsatonce;
but,Phil,I\'mashamedtoconfessthatringsimplyfascinatesme。ItisthemostbeautifuloneIeversaw,anddoyouknowthatIneverownedaringofanykindinmylife?WouldyouthinkmeunwomanlyifIslipitonforasecond,beforeIcansayforsure?Phil,youknowIcare!Icareverymuch!YouknowIwilltellyoutheinstantIfeelrightaboutit。\"
\"Certainlyyouwill,\"agreedPhilippromptly。\"Itisyourrighttotakeallthetimeyouchoose。Ican\'tputthatringonyouuntilitmeansabondbetweenus。
I\'llshutmyeyesandyoutryiton,sowecanseeifitfits。\"Philipturnedhisfacetowardthewestwoodsandtightlyclosedhiseyes。Itwasaboyishthingtodo,anditcaughtthehesitatinggirlinthedepthsofherheartastheboyelementinamaneverappealstoamotherlywoman。Beforeshequiterealizedwhatshewasdoing,theringslidonherfinger。WithbotharmsshecaughtPhilipanddrewhimtoherbreast,holdinghimclosely。Herheaddroopedoverhis,herlipswereonhishair。Soaninstant,thenherarmsdropped。
Heliftedaconvulsed,whiteface。
\"DearLord!\"hewhispered。\"You——youdidn\'tmeanthat,Elnora!You——Whatmadeyoudoit?\"
\"You——youlookedsoboyish!\"pantedElnora。\"Ididn\'tmeanit!I——IforgotthatyouwereolderthanBilly。
Look——lookatthering!\"
\"`TheQueencandonowrong,\'\"quotedPhilipbetweenhissetteeth。\"Butdon\'tyoudothatagain,Elnora,unlessyoudomeanit。Kingsarenotsogoodasqueens,andthereisalimitwithallmen。Asyousay,wewilllookatyourring。Itseemsverylovelytome。Supposeyouleaveitonuntiltimeformetogo。Pleasedo!Ihaveheardofmuteappeals;perhapsitwillpleadforme。
Iamwildforyourlipsthisafternoon。Iamgoingtotakeyourhands。\"
Hecaughtbothofthemandcoveredthemwithkisses。
\"Elnora,\"hesaid,\"Willyoubemywife?\"
\"Imusthavealittlemoretime,\"shewhispered。\"Imustbeabsolutelycertain,forwhenIsayyes,andgivemyselftoyou,onlydeathshallpartus。Iwouldnotgiveyouup。SoIwantalittlemoretime——but,IthinkIwill。\"
\"Thankyou,\"saidPhilip。\"Ifatanytimeyoufeelthatyouhavereachedadecision,willyoutellme?Willyoupromisemetotellmeinstantly,orshallIkeepaskingyouuntilthetimecomes?\"
\"Youmakeitdifficult,\"saidElnora。\"ButIwillpromiseyouthat。Wheneverthelastdoubtvanishes,I
willletyouknowinstantly——ifIcan。\"
\"Woulditbedifficultforyou?\"whisperedAmmon。
\"I——Idon\'tknow,\"falteredElnora。
\"ItseemsasifIcan\'tbemanenoughtoputthisthoughtasideandgiveupthisafternoon,\"saidPhilip。
\"Iamashamedofmyself,butIcan\'thelpit。IamgoingtoaskGodtomakethatlastdoubtvanishbeforeIgothisnight。Iamgoingtobelievethatringwillpleadforme。Iamgoingtohopethatdoubtwilldisappearsuddenly。
Iwillbewatching。EverysecondIwillbewatching。
Ifithappensandyoucan\'tspeak,givemeyourhand。
Justtheleastmovementtowardme,Iwillunderstand。
Wouldithelpyoutotalkthisoverwithyourmother?
ShallIcallher?ShallI——?\"
Honk!Honk!Honk!HartHendersonsetthehornofthebigautomobilegoingasitshotfrombehindthetreesliningtheBrushwoodroad。Thepictureofavine-
coveredcabin,alargedroopingtree,agreen-cladgirlandamanbendingoverherverycloselyflashedintoview。
EdithCarrcaughtherbreathwithasnap。PollyAmmongaveTomLeveringaquicktouchandwickedlywinkedathim。
Severaldaysbefore,EdithhadreturnedfromEuropesuddenly。
SheandHendersonhadcalledattheAmmonresidencesayingthattheyweregoingtomotordowntotheLimberlosttoseePhilipafewhours,andurgedthatPollyandTomaccompanythem。
Mrs。Ammonknewthatherhusbandwoulddisapproveofthetrip,butitwaseasytoseethatEdithCarrhaddeterminedongoing。
SothemotherthoughtitbettertohavePollyalongtosupportPhilipthantoallowhimtoconfrontEdithunexpectedlyandalone。
Pollywasfullofspirit。ShedidnotrelishthethoughtofEdithasasister。Alwaystheyhadbeeninthesameset,alwaysEdith,becauseofgreaterbeautyandwealth,hadpatronizedPolly。Althoughithadrankled,shehadborneitsweetly。Buttwodaysbefore,herfatherhadextractedapromiseofsecrecy,givenherPhilip\'saddressandtoldhertosendhimthefinestemeraldringshecouldselect。
Pollyknewhowthatringwouldbeused。Whatshedidnotknowwasthatthegirlwhoaccompaniedherwentbacktothestoreafterward,madeanexcusetotheclerkthatshehadbeensenttobeabsolutelysurethattheaddresswasright,andsosecureditforEdithCarr。
TwodayslaterEdithhadinducedHartHendersontotakehertoOnabasha。BytheaidofmapstheylocatedtheComstocklandandpassedit,merelytoseetheplace。
Hendersonhatedthattrip,andimploredEdithnottotakeit,butshemadenoefforttoconcealfromhimwhatshesuffered,anditwasmorethanhecouldendure。HepointedoutthatPhiliphadgoneawaywithoutleavinganaddress,becausehedidnotwishtoseeher,oranyofthem。
ButEdithwassosureofherpower,shefeltcertainPhilipneededonlytoseehertosuccumbtoherbeautyashealwayshaddone,whilenowshewasreadytopleadforforgiveness。
SotheycamedowntheBrushwoodroad,andHendersonhadjustsaidtoEdithbesidehim:\"ThisshouldbetheComstocklandonourleft。\"
Aminutelaterthewoodended,whilethesunlight,asalwayspitiless,etchedwithdistinctnessthesceneatthewestendofthecabin。Instinctively,tosaveEdith,Hendersonsetthehornblowing。Hehadthoughttodrivetothecity,butPollyAmmonarosecrying:\"Phil!Phil!\"
TomLeveringwasonhisfeetshoutingandwaving,whileEdithinhermostimperialmannerorderedhimtoturnintothelaneleadingthroughthewoodsbesidethecabin。
\"Findsomewayformetohaveaminutealonewithher,\"
shecommandedashestoppedthecar。
\"ThatismysisterPolly,herfianceTomLevering,afriendofminenamedHenderson,and——\"beganPhilip,\"——andEdithCarr,\"volunteeredElnora。
\"AndEdithCarr,\"repeatedPhilipAmmon。\"Elnora,bebrave,formysake。Theircomingcanmakenodifferenceinanyway。Iwon\'tletthemstaybutafewminutes。
Comewithme!\"
\"DoIseemscared?\"inquiredElnoraserenely。\"Thisiswhyyouhaven\'thadyouranswer。Ihavebeenwaitingjustsixweeksforthatmotor。Youmaybringthemtomeatthearbour。\"
Philipglancedatherandbrokeintoalaugh。Shehadnotlostcolour。Herself-possessionwasperfect。
Shedeliberatelyturnedandwalkedtowardthegrapearbour,whilehesprangoverthewestfenceandrantothecar。
Elnorastandinginthearbourentrancemadeaperfectpicture,framedingreenleavesandtendrils。Nomatterhowherheartached,itwasgoodtoher,foritpumpedsteadily,andkepthercheeksandlipssuffusedwithcolour。
ShesawPhilipreachthecarandgatherhissisterintohisarms。PastherhereachedahandtoLevering,thentoEdithCarrandHenderson。Heliftedhissistertotheground,andassistedEdithtoalight。Instantly,shesteppedbesidehim,andElnora\'sheartplayeditsfirsttrick。
ShecouldseethatMissCarrwassplendidlybeautiful,whileshemovedwiththehauteurandgracesupposedtobetheprerogativesofroyalty。AndshehadinstantlytakenpossessionofPhilip。Buthealsohadabrainwhichwasworkingwithrapidity。HeknewElnorawaswatching,soheturnedtotheothers。
\"Giveherup,Tom!\"hecried。\"Ididn\'tknowIwantedtoseethelittlenuisancesobadly,butIdo。Howarefatherandmother?Polly,didn\'tthematersendmesomething?\"
\"Shedid!\"saidPollyAmmon,stoppingonthepathandliftingherchinasalittlechild,whileshedrewawayherveil。
Philipcaughtherinhisarmsandstoopedforhismother\'skiss。
\"BegoodtoElnora!\"hewhispered。
\"Umhu!\"assentedPolly。Andaloud——\"Lookatthatrippinggreenandgoldsymphony!Ineversawsuchabeauty!
ThomasAsquithLevering,youcomestraighthereandtakemyhand!\"
Edith\'smovetocompelPhiliptoapproachElnorabesideherhadbeeneasytosee;alsoitsfailure。HendersonsteppedintoPhilip\'splaceasheturnedtohissister。InsteadoftakingPolly\'shandLeveringrantoopenthegate。
Edithpassedthroughfirst,butPollydartedinfrontofherontherun,withPhilholdingherarm,andsweptuptoElnora。Pollylookedfortheringandsawit。Thatsettledmatterswithher。
\"Youlovely,lovely,darlinggirl!\"shecried,throwingherarmsaroundElnoraandkissingher。WithherlipscloseElnora\'sear,Pollywhispered,\"Sister!Dear,dearsister!\"
Elnoradrewback,staringatPollyinconfusedamazement。
Shewasabeautifulgirl,hereyesweresparklinganddancing,andassheturnedtomakewayfortheothers,shekeptoneofElnora\'shandsinhers。PollywouldhavedroppeddeadinthatinstantifEdithCarrcouldhavekilledwithalook,fornotuntilthendidsherealizethatPollywouldevenmanyaslight,andthatithadbeenagreatmistaketobringher。
Edithbowedlow,mutteredsomethingandtouchedElnora\'sfingers。TomtookhiscuefromPolly。
\"Ialwaysfollowagoodexample,\"hesaid,andbeforeanyonecoulddivinehisintentionhekissedElnoraashegrippedherhandandcried:\"Mightygladtomeetyou!
Liketomeetyouadozentimesaday,youknow!\"
Elnoralaughedandherheartpumpedsmoothly。Theyhadaccomplishedtheirpurpose。Theyhadletherknowtheyweretherethroughcompulsion,butonherside。InthatinstantonlypitywasinElnora\'sbreastfortheflashingdarkbeauty,standingwithsmilingfacewhileherheartmusthavebeenfilledwithexceedingbitterness。
Elnorasteppedbackfromtheentrance。
\"Comeintotheshade,\"sheurged。\"Youmusthavefounditwarmonthesecountryroads。Won\'tyoulayasideyourdust-coatsandhaveacooldrink?Philip,wouldyouaskmothertocome,andbringthatpitcherfromthespringhouse?\"
Theyenteredthearbourexclaimingatthedim,greencoolness。
Therewasplentyofroomandwideseatsaroundthesides,atableinthecentre,onwhichlayapieceofembroidery,magazines,books,themothapparatus,andthecyanidejarcontainingseveralspecimens。Pollyrejoicedinthecoolingshade,slippedoffherduster,removedherhat,rumpledherprettyhairandseatedherselftoindulgeinthedelightfuloccupationofpayingoffoldscores。
TomLeveringfollowedherexample。Edithtookaseatbutrefusedtoremoveherhatandcoat,whileHendersonstoodintheentrance。
\"Theregoessomethingwithwings!Shouldyouhavethat?\"criedLevering。
Heseizedanetfromthetableandracedacrossthegardenafterabutterfly。Hecaughtitandcamebackmightilypleasedwithhimself。Asthecreaturestruggledinthenet,ElnoranotedarepulsedlookonEdithCarr\'sface。
Leveringhelpedthesituationbeautifully。
\"NowwhathaveIgot?\"hedemanded。\"Isitjustacommononethateveryoneknowsandyoudon\'tkeep,orisittherarestbirdofftheperch?\"
\"Youmusthavehadpractice,youtookthatsoperfectly,\"
saidElnora。\"Iamsorry,butitisquitecommonandnotofakindIkeep。Supposeallofyouseehowbeautifulitisandthenitmaygonectarhuntingagain。\"
Sheheldthebutterflywhereallofthemcouldsee,showeditsupperandunderwingcolours,answeredPolly\'squestionsastowhatitate,howlongitlived,andhowitdied。ThensheputitintoPolly\'shandsaying:\"Standthereinthelightandloosenyourholdslowlyandeasily。\"
Elnoracaughtabrushfromthetableandbegansoftlystrokingthecreature\'ssidesandwings。Delightedwiththesensationthebutterflyopenedandcloseditswings,clingingtoPolly\'ssoftlittlefingers,whileeveryonecriedoutinsurprise。Elnoralaidasidethebrush,andthebutterflysailedaway。
\"Why,youareawizard!Youcharmthem!\"marvelledLevering。
\"IlearnedthatfromtheBirdWoman,\"saidElnora。
\"Shetakessoftbrushesandcoaxesbutterfliesandmothsintothepositionsshewantsfortheillustrationsofabooksheiswriting。Ihavehelpedheroften。MostoftherareonesIfindgotoher。\"
\"Thenyoudon\'tkeepallyoutake?\"questionedLevering。
\"Oh,dear,no!\"criedElnora。\"Notatenth!Formyself,apairofeachkindtouseinillustratingthelecturesI
giveinthecityschoolsinthewinter,andonepairforeachcollectionImake。OnemightaswellkeepthebignightmothsofJune,fortheyonlylivefourorfivedaysanyway。
FortheBirdWoman,Ionlysaverareonesshehasnotyetsecured。
SometimesIthinkitiscrueltotakesuchcreaturesfromfreedom,evenforanhour,butitistheonlywaytoteachthemassesofpeoplehowtodistinguishthepeststheyshoulddestroy,fromtheharmlessonesofgreatbeauty。
Herecomesmotherwithsomethingcooltodrink。\"
Mrs。Comstockcamedeliberately,talkingtoPhilipassheapproached。Elnoragaveheronesearchinglook,butcoulddiscoveronlyanextremebrightnessofeyetodenoteanyunusualfeeling。Sheworeoneofherlavenderdresses,whilehersnowyhairwashighpiled。Shehadtakencareofhercomplexion,andherfacehadgrownfullerduringthewinter。Shemighthavebeenanyone\'smotherwithpride,andshewasperfectlyatease。
Pollyinstantlywenttoherandheldupherfacetobekissed。
Mrs。Comstock\'seyestwinkledandshemadethegreetinghearty。
Thedrinkwascompoundedofthejuicesoforangesandberriesfromthegarden。Itwascoolenoughtofrostglassesandpitcheranddelicioustodustytiredtravellers。
Soonthepitcherwasempty,andElnorapickeditupandwenttorefillit。WhileshewasgoneHendersonaskedPhilipaboutsometroublehewashavingwithhiscar。
Theywenttothewoodsandbeganaminuteexaminationtofindadefectwhichdidnotexist。PollyandLeveringwerehavingananimatedconversationwithMrs。Comstock。
HendersonsawEditharise,followthegardenpathnextthewoodsandstandwaitingunderthewillowwhichElnorawouldpassonherreturn。Itwasforthatmeetinghehadmadethetrip。Hegotdownontheground,toreupthecar,worked,askedforhelp,andkeptPhilipbusyscrewingboltsandapplyingtheoilcan。AllthetimeHendersonkeptaneyeonEdithandElnoraunderthewillow。
ButhetookpainstolaytheworkheaskedPhiliptodowherethatscenewouldbeoutofhissight。WhenElnoracamearoundthecornerwiththepitcher,shefoundherselffacingEdithCarr。
\"Iwantaminutewithyou,\"saidMissCarr。
\"Verywell,\"repliedElnora,walkingon。
\"Setthepitcheronthebenchthere,\"commandedEdithCarr,asifspeakingtoaservant。
\"Iprefernottooffermyvisitorsawarmdrink,\"saidElnora。
\"I\'llcomebackifyoureallywishtospeakwithme。\"
\"Icamesolelyforthat,\"saidEdithCarr。
\"Itwouldbeapitytotravelsofarinthisdustandheatfornothing。I\'llonlybegoneasecond。\"
Elnoraplacedthepitcherbeforehermother。\"Pleaseservethis,\"shesaid。\"MissCarrwishestospeakwithme。\"
\"Don\'tyoupaytheleastattentiontoanythingshesays,\"criedPolly。\"TomandIdidn\'tcomeherebecausewewantedto。Weonlycametocheckmateher。IhopedI\'dgettheopportunitytosayawordtoyou,andnowshehasgivenittome。IjustwanttotellyouthatshethrewPhiloverinperfectlyhorridway。Shehasn\'tanyrighttolaytheghostofaclaimtohim,hasshe,Tom?\"
\"Naryaclaim,\"saidTomLeveringearnestly。\"Why,evenyou,Polly,couldn\'tservemeasshedidPhil,andevergetmebackagain。IfIwereyou,MissComstock,I\'dsendmymothertotalkwithherandI\'dstayhere。\"
TomhadgaugedMrs。Comstockrightly。PollyputherarmsaroundElnora。\"Letmegowithyou,dear,\"shebegged。
\"IpromisedIwouldspeakwithheralone,\"saidElnora,\"andshemustbeconsidered。Butthankyou,verymuch。\"