walkingaboutoutside,andstraininghereyesalongthehighwayfortheexpectedone。Buteachcloudofdustthatenlargedinthedistanceanddrewnearwasfoundtodiscloseaconveyanceotherthanhispost-chaise。Barbararemainedtilltheappointmentwastwohourspassed,andthenbegantofearthatowingtosomeadversewindintheChannelhewasnotcomingthatnight。
Whilewaitingshewasconsciousofacurioustrepidationthatwasnotentirelysolicitude,anddidnotamounttodread;hertensestateofincertitudeborderedbothondisappointmentandonrelief。
Shehadlivedsixorsevenweekswithanimperfectlyeducatedyethandsomehusbandwhomnowshehadnotseenforseventeenmonths,andwhowassochangedphysicallybyanaccidentthatshewasassuredshewouldhardlyknowhim。Canwewonderathercompoundstateofmind?
ButherimmediatedifficultywastogetawayfromLorntonInn,forhersituationwasbecomingembarrassing。LiketoomanyofBarbara\'sactions,thisdrivehadbeenundertakenwithoutmuchreflection。
Expectingtowaitnomorethanafewminutesforherhusbandinhispost-chaise,andtoenteritwithhim,shehadnothesitatedtoisolateherselfbysendingbackherownlittlevehicle。Shenowfoundthat,beingsowellknowninthisneighbourhood,herexcursiontomeetherlong-absenthusbandwasexcitinggreatinterest。Shewasconsciousthatmoreeyeswerewatchingherfromtheinn-windowsthanmetherowngaze。Barbarahaddecidedtogethomebyhiringwhateverkindofconveyancethetavernafforded,when,straininghereyesforthelasttimeoverthenowdarkeninghighway,sheperceivedyetanotherdust-clouddrawingnear。Shepaused;achariotascendedtotheinn,andwouldhavepassedhadnotitsoccupantcaughtsightofherstandingexpectantly。Thehorseswerecheckedontheinstant。
\'Youhere——andalone,mydearMrs。Willowes?\'saidLordUplandtowers,whosecarriageitwas。
Sheexplainedwhathadbroughtherintothislonelysituation;and,ashewasgoinginthedirectionofherownhome,sheacceptedhisofferofaseatbesidehim。Theirconversationwasembarrassedandfragmentaryatfirst;butwhentheyhaddrivenamileortwoshewassurprisedtofindherselftalkingearnestlyandwarmlytohim:herimpulsivenesswasintruthbutthenaturalconsequenceofherlateexistence——asomewhatdesolateonebyreasonofthestrangemarriageshehadmade;andthereisnomoreindiscreetmoodthanthatofawomansurprisedintotalkwhohaslongbeenimposinguponherselfapolicyofreserve。Thereforeheringenuousheartrosewithaboundintoherthroatwhen,inresponsetohisleadingquestions,orratherhints,sheallowedhertroublestoleakoutofher。LordUplandtowerstookherquitetoherowndoor,althoughhehaddriventhreemilesoutofhiswaytodoso;andinhandingherdownsheheardfromhimawhisperofsternreproach:\'Itneednothavebeenthusifyouhadlistenedtome!\'
Shemadenoreply,andwentindoors。There,astheeveningworeaway,sheregrettedmoreandmorethatshehadbeensofriendlywithLordUplandtowers。Buthehadlaunchedhimselfuponhersounexpectedly:ifshehadonlyforeseenthemeetingwithhim,whatacarefullineofconductshewouldhavemarkedout!Barbarabrokeintoaperspirationofdisquietwhenshethoughtofherunreserve,and,inself-chastisement,resolvedtosituptillmidnightonthebarechanceofEdmond\'sreturn;directingthatsuppershouldbelaidforhim,improbableashisarrivaltillthemorrowwas。
Thehourswentpast,andtherewasdeadsilenceinandroundaboutYewsholtLodge,exceptforthesoughingofthetrees;till,whenitwasnearuponmidnight,sheheardthenoiseofhoofsandwheelsapproachingthedoor。Knowingthatitcouldonlybeherhusband,Barbarainstantlywentintothehalltomeethim。Yetshestoodtherenotwithoutasensationoffaintness,somanywerethechangessincetheirparting!And,owingtohercasualencounterwithLordUplandtowers,hisvoiceandimagestillremainedwithher,excludingEdmond,herhusband,fromtheinnercircleofherimpressions。
Butshewenttothedoor,andthenextmomentafiguresteppedinside,ofwhichsheknewtheoutline,butlittlebesides。Herhusbandwasattiredinaflappingblackcloakandslouchedhat,appearingaltogetherasaforeigner,andnotastheyoungEnglishburgesswhohadleftherside。Whenhecameforwardintothelightofthelamp,sheperceivedwithsurprise,andalmostwithfright,thatheworeamask。Atfirstshehadnotnoticedthis——therebeingnothinginitscolourwhichwouldleadacasualobservertothinkhewaslookingonanythingbutarealcountenance。
Hemusthaveseenherstartofdismayattheunexpectednessofhisappearance,forhesaidhastily:\'Ididnotmeantocomeintoyoulikethis——Ithoughtyouwouldhavebeeninbed。Howgoodyouare,dearBarbara!\'Heputhisarmroundher,buthedidnotattempttokissher。
\'OEdmond——itISyou?——itmustbe?\'shesaid,withclaspedhands,forthoughhisfigureandmovementwerealmostenoughtoproveit,andthetoneswerenotunliketheoldtones,theenunciationwassoalteredastoseemthatofastranger。
\'Iamcoveredlikethistohidemyselffromthecuriouseyesoftheinn-servantsandothers,\'hesaid,inalowvoice。\'Iwillsendbackthecarriageandjoinyouinamoment。\'
\'Youarequitealone?\'
\'Quite。MycompanionstoppedatSouthampton。\'
Thewheelsofthepost-chaiserolledawayassheenteredthedining-
room,wherethesupperwasspread;andpresentlyherejoinedherthere。Hehadremovedhiscloakandhat,butthemaskwasstillretained;andshecouldnowseethatitwasofspecialmake,ofsomeflexiblemateriallikesilk,colouredsoastorepresentflesh;itjoinednaturallytothefronthair,andwasotherwisecleverlyexecuted。
\'Barbara——youlookill,\'hesaid,removinghisglove,andtakingherhand。
\'Yes——Ihavebeenill,\'saidshe。
\'Isthisprettylittlehouseours?\'
\'O——yes。\'Shewashardlyconsciousofherwords,forthehandhehadunglovedinordertotakeherswascontorted,andhadoneortwoofitsfingersmissing;whilethroughthemaskshediscernedthetwinkleofoneeyeonly。
\'Iwouldgiveanythingtokissyou,dearest,now,atthismoment!\'
hecontinued,withmournfulpassionateness。\'ButIcannot——inthisguise。Theservantsareabed,Isuppose?\'
\'Yes,\'saidshe。\'ButIcancallthem?Youwillhavesomesupper?\'
Hesaidhewouldhavesome,butthatitwasnotnecessarytocallanybodyatthathour。Thereupontheyapproachedthetable,andsatdown,facingeachother。
DespiteBarbara\'sscaredstateofmind,itwasforceduponhernoticethatherhusbandtrembled,asifhefearedtheimpressionhewasproducing,orwasabouttoproduce,asmuchas,ormorethan,she。Hedrewnearer,andtookherhandagain。
\'IhadthismaskmadeatVenice,\'hebegan,inevidentembarrassment。\'MydarlingBarbara——mydearestwife——doyouthinkyou——willmindwhenItakeitoff?Youwillnotdislikeme——willyou?\'
\'OEdmond,ofcourseIshallnotmind,\'saidshe。\'Whathashappenedtoyouisourmisfortune;butIampreparedforit。\'
\'Areyousureyouareprepared?\'
\'Oyes!Youaremyhusband。\'
\'Youreallyfeelquiteconfidentthatnothingexternalcanaffectyou?\'hesaidagain,inavoicerendereduncertainbyhisagitation。
\'IthinkIam——quite,\'sheansweredfaintly。
Hebenthishead。\'Ihope,Ihopeyouare,\'hewhispered。
Inthepausewhichfollowed,thetickingoftheclockinthehallseemedtogrowloud;andheturnedalittleasidetoremovethemask。Shebreathlesslyawaitedtheoperation,whichwasoneofsometediousness,watchinghimonemoment,avertingherfacethenext;
andwhenitwasdonesheshuthereyesatthehideousspectaclethatwasrevealed。Aquickspasmofhorrorhadpassedthroughher;butthoughshequailedsheforcedherselftoregardhimanew,repressingthecrythatwouldnaturallyhaveescapedfromherashylips。
Unabletolookathimlonger,Barbarasankdownonthefloorbesideherchair,coveringhereyes。
\'Youcannotlookatme!\'hegroanedinahopelessway。\'Iamtooterribleanobjectevenforyoutobear!Iknewit;yetIhopedagainstit。Oh,thisisabitterfate——cursetheskillofthoseVenetiansurgeonswhosavedmealive!……Lookup,Barbara,\'hecontinuedbeseechingly;\'viewmecompletely;sayyouloatheme,ifyoudoloatheme,andsettlethecasebetweenusforever!\'
Hisunhappywifepulledherselftogetherforadesperatestrain。HewasherEdmond;hehaddonehernowrong;hehadsuffered。A
momentarydevotiontohimhelpedher,andliftinghereyesasbiddensheregardedthishumanremnant,thisecorche,asecondtime。Butthesightwastoomuch。Sheagaininvoluntarilylookedasideandshuddered。
\'Doyouthinkyoucangetusedtothis?\'hesaid。\'Yesorno!Canyoubearsuchathingofthecharnel-housenearyou?Judgeforyourself;Barbara。YourAdonis,yourmatchlessman,hascometothis!\'
Thepoorladystoodbesidehimmotionless,savefortherestlessnessofhereyes。Allhernaturalsentimentsofaffectionandpityweredrivencleanoutofherbyasortofpanic;shehadjustthesamesenseofdismayandfearfulnessthatshewouldhavehadinthepresenceofanapparition。Shecouldnohowfancythistobeherchosenone——themanshehadloved;hewasmetamorphosedtoaspecimenofanotherspecies。\'Idonotloatheyou,\'shesaidwithtrembling。\'ButIamsohorrified——soovercome!Letmerecovermyself。Willyousupnow?AndwhileyoudosomayIgotomyroomto——regainmyoldfeelingforyou?Iwilltry,ifImayleaveyouawhile?Yes,Iwilltry!\'
Withoutwaitingforananswerfromhim,andkeepinghergazecarefullyaverted,thefrightenedwomancrepttothedoorandoutoftheroom。Sheheardhimsitdowntothetable,asiftobeginsupperthough,Heavenknows,hisappetitewasslightenoughafterareceptionwhichhadconfirmedhisworstsurmises。WhenBarbarahadascendedthestairsandarrivedinherchambershesankdown,andburiedherfaceinthecoverletofthebed。
Thussheremainedforsometime。Thebed-chamberwasoverthedining-room,andpresentlyasshekneltBarbaraheardWillowesthrustbackhischair,andrisetogointothehall。Infiveminutesthatfigurewouldprobablycomeupthestairsandconfrontheragain;it,——thisnewandterribleform,thatwasnotherhusband\'s。Inthelonelinessofthisnight,withneithermaidnorfriendbesideher,shelostallself-control,andatthefirstsoundofhisfootsteponthestairs,withoutsomuchasflingingacloakroundher,sheflewfromtheroom,ranalongthegallerytothebackstaircase,whichshedescended,and,unlockingthebackdoor,letherselfout。Shescarcelywasawarewhatshehaddonetillshefoundherselfinthegreenhouse,crouchingonaflower-stand。
Heresheremained,hergreattimideyesstrainedthroughtheglassuponthegardenwithout,andherskirtsgatheredup,infearofthefield-micewhichsometimescamethere。Everymomentshedreadedtohearfootstepswhichsheoughtbylawtohavelongedfor,andavoicethatshouldhavebeenasmusictohersoul。ButEdmondWillowescamenotthatway。Thenightsweregettingshortatthisseason,andsoonthedawnappeared,andthefirstraysofthesun。
Bydaylightshehadlessfearthaninthedark。Shethoughtshecouldmeethim,andaccustomherselftothespectacle。
Sothemuch-triedyoungwomanunfastenedthedoorofthehot-house,andwentbackbythewayshehademergedafewhoursago。Herpoorhusbandwasprobablyinbedandasleep,hisjourneyhavingbeenlong;andshemadeaslittlenoiseaspossibleinherentry。Thehousewasjustasshehadleftit,andshelookedaboutinthehallforhiscloakandhat,butshecouldnotseethem;nordidsheperceivethesmalltrunkwhichhadbeenallthathebroughtwithhim,hisheavierbaggagehavingbeenleftatSouthamptonfortheroad-waggon。Shesummonedcouragetomountthestairs;thebedroom-
doorwasopenasshehadleftit。Shefearfullypeepedround;thebedhadnotbeenpressed。Perhapshehadlaindownonthedining-
roomsofa。Shedescendedandentered;hewasnotthere。Onthetablebesidehisunsoiledplatelayanote,hastilywrittenontheleafofapocket-book。Itwassomethinglikethis:
\'MYEVER-BELOVEDWIFE——TheeffectthatmyforbiddingappearancehasproduceduponyouwasonewhichIforesawasquitepossible。I
hopedagainstit,butfoolishlyso。IwasawarethatnoHUMANlovecouldsurvivesuchacatastrophe。IconfessIthoughtyoursDIVINE;
but,aftersolonganabsence,therecouldnotbeleftsufficientwarmthtoovercomethetoonaturalfirstaversion。Itwasanexperiment,andithasfailed。Idonotblameyou;perhaps,even,itisbetterso。Good-bye。IleaveEnglandforoneyear。Youwillseemeagainattheexpirationofthattime,ifIlive。ThenIwillascertainyourtruefeeling;and,ifitbeagainstme,goawayforever。E。W。\'
Onrecoveringfromhersurprise,Barbara\'sremorsewassuchthatshefeltherselfabsolutelyunforgiveable。Sheshouldhaveregardedhimasanafflictedbeing,andnothavebeenthisslavetomereeyesight,likeachild。Tofollowhimandentreathimtoreturnwasherfirstthought。Butonmakinginquiriesshefoundthatnobodyhadseenhim:hehadsilentlydisappeared。
Morethanthis,toundothesceneoflastnightwasimpossible。Herterrorhadbeentooplain,andhewasamanunlikelytobecoaxedbackbyhereffortstodoherduty。Shewentandconfessedtoherparentsallthathadoccurred;which,indeed,soonbecameknowntomorepersonsthanthoseofherownfamily。
Theyearpassed,andhedidnotreturn;anditwasdoubtedifhewerealive。Barbara\'scontritionforherunconquerablerepugnancewasnowsuchthatshelongedtobuildachurch-aisle,orerectamonument,anddevoteherselftodeedsofcharityfortheremainderofherdays。TothatendshemadeinquiryoftheexcellentparsonunderwhomshesatonSundays,ataverticaldistanceoftwentyfeet。Buthecouldonlyadjusthiswigandtaphissnuff-box;forsuchwasthelukewarmstateofreligioninthosedays,thatnotanaisle,steeple,porch,eastwindow,Ten-Commandmentboard,lion-and-
unicorn,orbrasscandlestick,wasrequiredanywhereatallintheneighbourhoodasavotiveofferingfromadistractedsoul——thelastcenturycontrastinggreatlyinthisrespectwiththehappytimesinwhichwelive,whenurgentappealsforcontributionstosuchobjectspourinbyeverymorning\'spost,andnearlyallchurcheshavebeenmadetolooklikenewpennies。Asthepoorladycouldnoteaseherconsciencethisway,shedeterminedatleasttobecharitable,andsoonhadthesatisfactionoffindingherporchthrongedeverymorningbytheraggedest,idlest,mostdrunken,hypocritical,andworthlesstrampsinChristendom。
Buthumanheartsareaspronetochangeastheleavesofthecreeperonthewall,andinthecourseoftime,hearingnothingofherhusband,Barbaracouldsitunmovedwhilsthermotherandfriendssaidinherhearing,\'Well,whathashappenedisforthebest。\'Shebegantothinksoherself;forevennowshecouldnotsummonupthatloppedandmutilatedformwithoutashiver,thoughwheneverhermindflewbacktoherearlyweddeddays,andthemanwhohadstoodbesideherthen,athrilloftendernessmovedher,whichifquickenedbyhislivingpresencemighthavebecomestrong。Shewasyoungandinexperienced,andhadhardlyonhislatereturngrownoutofthecapriciousfanciesofgirlhood。
Buthedidnotcomeagain,andwhenshethoughtofhiswordthathewouldreturnoncemore,ifliving,andhowunlikelyhewastobreakhisword,shegavehimupfordead。Sodidherparents;soalsodidanotherperson——thatmanofsilence,ofirresistibleincisiveness,ofstillcountenance,whowasasawakeassevensentinelswhenheseemedtobeassoundasleepasthefiguresonhisfamilymonument。
LordUplandtowers,thoughnotyetthirty,hadchuckledlikeacausticfogeyofthreescorewhenheheardofBarbara\'sterrorandflightatherhusband\'sreturn,andofthelatter\'spromptdeparture。Hefeltprettysure,however,thatWillowes,despitehishurtfeelings,wouldhavereappearedtoclaimhisbright-eyedpropertyifhehadbeenaliveattheendofthetwelvemonths。
Astherewasnohusbandtolivewithher,Barbarahadrelinquishedthehousepreparedforthembyherfather,andtakenupherabodeanewatCheneManor,asinthedaysofhergirlhood。BydegreestheepisodewithEdmondWillowesseemedbutafevereddream,andasthemonthsgrewtoyearsLordUplandtowers\'friendshipwiththepeopleatChene——whichhadsomewhatcooledafterBarbara\'selopement——
revivedconsiderably,andheagainbecameafrequentvisitorthere。
HecouldnotmakethemosttrivialalterationorimprovementatKnollingwoodHall,wherehelived,withoutridingofftoconsultwithhisfriendSirJohnatChene;andthusputtinghimselffrequentlyunderhereyes,Barbaragrewaccustomedtohim,andtalkedtohimasfreelyastoabrother。Sheevenbegantolookuptohimasapersonofauthority,judgment,andprudence;andthoughhisseverityonthebenchtowardspoachers,smugglers,andturnip-
stealerswasmatterofcommonnotoriety,shetrustedthatmuchofwhatwassaidmightbemisrepresentation。
Thustheylivedontillherhusband\'sabsencehadstretchedtoyears,andtherecouldbenolongeranydoubtofhisdeath。A
passionlessmannerofrenewinghisaddressesseemednolongeroutofplaceinLordUplandtowers。Barbaradidnotlovehim,butherswasessentiallyoneofthosesweet-peaorwith-windnatureswhichrequireatwigofstouterfibrethanitsowntohanguponandbloom。
Now,too,shewasolder,andadmittedtoherselfthatamanwhoseancestorhadrunscoresofSaracensthroughandthroughinfightingforthesiteoftheHolySepulchrewasamoredesirablehusband,sociallyconsidered,thanonewhocouldonlyclaimwithcertaintytoknowthathisfatherandgrandfatherwererespectableburgesses。
SirJohntookoccasiontoinformherthatshemightlegallyconsiderherselfawidow;and,inbrief;LordUplandtowerscarriedhispointwithher,andshemarriedhim,thoughhecouldnevergethertoownthatshelovedhimasshehadlovedWillowes。InmychildhoodI
knewanoldladywhosemothersawthewedding,andshesaidthatwhenLordandLadyUplandtowersdroveawayfromherfather\'shouseintheeveningitwasinacoach-and-four,andthatmyladywasdressedingreenandsilver,andworethegayesthatandfeatherthateverwereseen;thoughwhetheritwasthatthegreendidnotsuithercomplexion,orotherwise,theCountesslookedpale,andthereverseofblooming。AftertheirmarriageherhusbandtookhertoLondon,andshesawthegaietiesofaseasonthere;thentheyreturnedtoKnollingwoodHall,andthusayearpassedaway。
Beforetheirmarriageherhusbandhadseemedtocarebutlittleaboutherinabilitytolovehimpassionately。\'Onlyletmewinyou,\'hehadsaid,\'andIwillsubmittoallthat。\'Butnowherlackofwarmthseemedtoirritatehim,andheconductedhimselftowardsherwitharesentfulnesswhichledtoherpassingmanyhourswithhiminpainfulsilence。Theheir-presumptivetothetitlewasaremoterelative,whomLordUplandtowersdidnotexcludefromthedislikeheentertainedtowardsmanypersonsandthingsbesides,andhehadsethisminduponalinealsuccessor。Heblamedhermuchthattherewasnopromiseofthis,andaskedherwhatshewasgoodfor。
Onaparticulardayinhergloomylifealetter,addressedtoherasMrs。Willowes,reachedLadyUplandtowersfromanunexpectedquarter。
AsculptorinPisa,knowingnothingofhersecondmarriage,informedherthatthelong-delayedlife-sizestatueofMr。Willowes,which,whenherhusbandleftthatcity,hehadbeendirectedtoretaintillitwassentfor,wasstillinhisstudio。Ashiscommissionhadnotwhollybeenpaid,andthestatuewastakinguproomhecouldillspare,heshouldbegladtohavethedebtclearedoff,anddirectionswheretoforwardthefigure。ArrivingatatimewhentheCountesswasbeginningtohavelittlesecrets(ofaharmlesskind,itistrue)fromherhusband,byreasonoftheirgrowingestrangement,sherepliedtothisletterwithoutsayingawordtoLordUplandtowers,sendingoffthebalancethatwasowingtothesculptor,andtellinghimtodespatchthestatuetoherwithoutdelay。
ItwassomeweeksbeforeitarrivedatKnollingwoodHall,and,byasingularcoincidence,duringtheintervalshereceivedthefirstabsolutelyconclusivetidingsofherEdmond\'sdeath。Ithadtakenplaceyearsbefore,inaforeignland,aboutsixmonthsaftertheirparting,andhadbeeninducedbythesufferingshehadalreadyundergone,coupledwithmuchdepressionofspirit,whichhadcausedhimtosuccumbtoaslightailment。ThenewswassentherinabriefandformalletterfromsomerelativeofWillowes\'sinanotherpartofEngland。
Hergrieftooktheformofpassionatepityforhismisfortunes,andofreproachtoherselfforneverhavingbeenabletoconquerheraversiontohislatterimagebyrecollectionofwhatNaturehadoriginallymadehim。ThesadspectaclethathadgonefromearthhadneverbeenherEdmondatalltoher。Othatshecouldhavemethimashewasatfirst!ThusBarbarathought。Itwasonlyafewdayslaterthatawaggonwithtwohorses,containinganimmensepacking-
case,wasseenatbreakfast-timebothbyBarbaraandherhusbandtodriveroundtothebackofthehouse,andby-and-bytheywereinformedthatacaselabelled\'Sculpture\'hadarrivedforherladyship。
\'Whatcanthatbe?\'saidLordUplandtowers。
\'ItisthestatueofpoorEdmond,whichbelongstome,buthasneverbeensenttillnow,\'sheanswered。
\'Whereareyougoingtoputit?\'askedhe。
\'Ihavenotdecided,\'saidtheCountess。\'Anywhere,sothatitwillnotannoyyou。\'
\'Oh,itwon\'tannoyme,\'sayshe。
Whenithadbeenunpackedinabackroomofthehouse,theywenttoexamineit。Thestatuewasafull-lengthfigure,inthepurestCarraramarble,representingEdmondWillowesinallhisoriginalbeauty,ashehadstoodatpartingfromherwhenabouttosetoutonhistravels;aspecimenofmanhoodalmostperfectineverylineandcontour。Theworkhadbeencarriedoutwithabsolutefidelity。
\'Phoebus-Apollo,sure,\'saidtheEarlofUplandtowers,whohadneverseenWillowes,realorrepresented,tillnow。
Barbaradidnothearhim。Shewasstandinginasortoftrancebeforethefirsthusband,asifshehadnoconsciousnessoftheotherhusbandatherside。ThemutilatedfeaturesofWilloweshaddisappearedfromhermind\'seye;thisperfectbeingwasreallythemanshehadloved,andnotthatlaterpitiablefigure;inwhomloveandtruthshouldhaveseenthisimagealways,buthadnotdoneso。
ItwasnottillLordUplandtowerssaidroughly,\'Areyougoingtostayhereallthemorningworshippinghim?\'thatsherousedherself。
HerhusbandhadnottillnowtheleastsuspicionthatEdmondWillowesoriginallylookedthus,andhethoughthowdeepwouldhavebeenhisjealousyyearsagoifWilloweshadbeenknowntohim。
ReturningtotheHallintheafternoonhefoundhiswifeinthegallery,whitherthestatuehadbeenbrought。
Shewaslostinreveriebeforeit,justasinthemorning。
\'Whatareyoudoing?\'heasked。
Shestartedandturned。\'Iamlookingatmyhusb-mystatue,toseeifitiswelldone,\'shestammered。\'WhyshouldInot?\'
\'There\'snoreasonwhy,\'hesaid。\'Whatareyougoingtodowiththemonstrousthing?Itcan\'tstandhereforever。\'
\'Idon\'twishit,\'shesaid。\'I\'llfindaplace。\'
Inherboudoirtherewasadeeprecess,andwhiletheEarlwasabsentfromhomeforafewdaysinthefollowingweek,shehiredjoinersfromthevillage,whounderherdirectionsenclosedtherecesswithapanelleddoor。Intothetabernaclethusformedshehadthestatueplaced,fasteningthedoorwithalock,thekeyofwhichshekeptinherpocket。
Whenherhusbandreturnedhemissedthestatuefromthegallery,and,concludingthatithadbeenputawayoutofdeferencetohisfeelings,madenoremark。Yetatmomentshenoticedsomethingonhislady\'sfacewhichhehadnevernoticedtherebefore。Hecouldnotconstrueit;itwasasortofsilentecstasy,areservedbeatification。Whathadbecomeofthestatuehecouldnotdivine,andgrowingmoreandmorecurious,lookedabouthereandthereforittill,thinkingofherprivateroom,hewenttowardsthatspot。
Afterknockingheheardtheshuttingofadoor,andtheclickofakey;butwhenheenteredhiswifewassittingatwork,onwhatwasinthosedayscalledknotting。LordUplandtowers\'eyefelluponthenewly-painteddoorwheretherecesshadformerlybeen。
\'Youhavebeencarpenteringinmyabsencethen,Barbara,\'hesaidcarelessly。
\'Yes,Uplandtowers。\'
\'Whydidyougoputtingupsuchatastelessenclosureasthat——
spoilingthehandsomearchofthealcove?\'
\'Iwantedmorecloset-room;andIthoughtthatasthiswasmyownapartment——\'
\'Ofcourse,\'hereturned。LordUplandtowersknewnowwherethestatueofyoungWilloweswas。
Onenight,orratherinthesmallesthoursofthemorning,hemissedtheCountessfromhisside。Notbeingamanofnervousimaginingshefellasleepagainbeforehehadmuchconsideredthematter,andthenextmorninghadforgottentheincident。Butafewnightslaterthesamecircumstancesoccurred。Thistimehefullyrousedhimself;
butbeforehehadmovedtosearchforher,sheenteredthechamberinherdressing-gown,carryingacandle,whichsheextinguishedassheapproached,deeminghimasleep。Hecoulddiscoverfromherbreathingthatshewasstrangelymoved;butnotonthisoccasioneitherdidherevealthathehadseenher。Presently,whenshehadlaindown,affectingtowake,heaskedhersometrivialquestions。
\'Yes,EDMOND,\'sherepliedabsently。
LordUplandtowersbecameconvincedthatshewasinthehabitofleavingthechamberinthisqueerwaymorefrequentlythanhehadobserved,andhedeterminedtowatch。Thenextmidnighthefeigneddeepsleep,andshortlyafterperceivedherstealthilyriseandletherselfoutoftheroominthedark。Heslippedonsomeclothingandfollowed。Atthefartherendofthecorridor,wheretheclashofflintandsteelwouldbeoutofthehearingofoneinthebed-
chamber,shestruckalight。Hesteppedasideintoanemptyroomtillshehadlitataperandhadpassedontoherboudoir。Inaminuteortwohefollowed。Arrivedatthedooroftheboudoir,hebeheldthedooroftheprivaterecessopen,andBarbarawithinit,standingwithherarmsclaspedtightlyroundtheneckofherEdmond,andhermouthonhis。Theshawlwhichshehadthrownroundhernightclotheshadslippedfromhershoulders,andherlongwhiterobeandpalefacelenthertheblanchedappearanceofasecondstatueembracingthefirst。Betweenherkisses,sheapostrophizeditinalowmurmurofinfantinetenderness:
\'Myonlylove——howcouldIbesocrueltoyou,myperfectone——sogoodandtrue——Iameverfaithfultoyou,despitemyseeminginfidelity!Ialwaysthinkofyou——dreamofyou——duringthelonghoursoftheday,andinthenight-watches!OEdmond,Iamalwaysyours!\'Suchwordsasthese,intermingledwithsobs,andstreamingtears,anddishevelledhair,testifiedtoanintensityoffeelinginhiswifewhichLordUplandtowershadnotdreamedofherpossessing。
\'Ha,ha!\'sayshetohimself。\'Thisiswhereweevaporate——thisiswheremyhopesofasuccessorinthetitledissolve——ha,ha!Thismustbeseento,verily!\'
LordUplandtowerswasasubtlemanwhenoncehesethimselftostrategy;thoughinthepresentinstanceheneverthoughtofthesimplestratagemofconstanttenderness。Nordidheentertheroomandsurprisehiswifeasablundererwouldhavedone,butwentbacktohischamberassilentlyashehadleftit。WhentheCountessreturnedthither,shakenbyspentsobsandsighs,heappearedtobesoundlysleepingasusual。Thenextdayhebeganhiscountermovesbymakinginquiriesastothewhereaboutsofthetutorwhohadtravelledwithhiswife\'sfirsthusband;thisgentleman,hefound,wasnowmasterofagrammar-schoolatnogreatdistancefromKnollingwood。AtthefirstconvenientmomentLordUplandtowerswentthitherandobtainedaninterviewwiththesaidgentleman。Theschoolmasterwasmuchgratifiedbyavisitfromsuchaninfluentialneighbour,andwasreadytocommunicateanythingthathislordshipdesiredtoknow。
Aftersomegeneralconversationontheschoolanditsprogress,thevisitorobservedthathebelievedtheschoolmasterhadoncetravelledagooddealwiththeunfortunateMr。Willowes,andhadbeenwithhimontheoccasionofhisaccident。He,LordUplandtowers,wasinterestedinknowingwhathadreallyhappenedatthattime,andhadoftenthoughtofinquiring。AndthentheEarlnotonlyheardbywordofmouthasmuchashewishedtoknow,but,theirchatbecomingmoreintimate,theschoolmasterdrewuponpaperasketchofthedisfiguredhead,explainingwithbatedbreathvariousdetailsintherepresentation。
\'Itwasverystrangeandterrible!\'saidLordUplandtowers,takingthesketchinhishand。\'Neithernosenorears!\'
ApoormaninthetownnearesttoKnollingwoodHall,whocombinedtheartofsign-paintingwithingeniousmechanicaloccupations,wassentforbyLordUplandtowerstocometotheHallonadayinthatweekwhentheCountesshadgoneonashortvisittoherparents。
Hisemployermadethemanunderstandthatthebusinessinwhichhisassistancewasdemandedwastobeconsideredprivate,andmoneyinsuredtheobservanceofthisrequest。Thelockofthecupboardwaspicked,andtheingeniousmechanicandpainter,assistedbytheschoolmaster\'ssketch,whichLordUplandtowershadputinhispocket,settoworkuponthegod-likecountenanceofthestatueundermylord\'sdirection。Whatthefirehadmaimedintheoriginalthechiselmaimedinthecopy。Itwasafiendishdisfigurement,ruthlesslycarriedout,andwasrenderedstillmoreshockingbybeingtintedtothehuesoflife,aslifehadbeenafterthewreck。
Sixhoursafter,whentheworkmanwasgone,LordUplandtowerslookedupontheresult,andsmiledgrimly,andsaid:
\'Astatueshouldrepresentamanasheappearedinlife,andthat\'sasheappeared。Ha!ha!But\'tisdonetogoodpurpose,andnotidly。\'
Helockedthedooroftheclosetwithaskeletonkey,andwenthiswaytofetchtheCountesshome。
Thatnightsheslept,buthekeptawake。Accordingtothetale,shemurmuredsoftwordsinherdream;andheknewthatthetenderconverseofherimaginingswasheldwithonewhomhehadsupplantedbutinname。AttheendofherdreamtheCountessofUplandtowersawokeandarose,andthentheenactmentofformernightswasrepeated。Herhusbandremainedstillandlistened。Twostrokessoundedfromtheclockinthepedimentwithout,when,leavingthechamber-doorajar,shepassedalongthecorridortotheotherend,where,asusual,sheobtainedalight。Sodeepwasthesilencethathecouldevenfromhisbedhearhersoftlyblowingthetindertoaglowafterstrikingthesteel。Shemovedonintotheboudoir,andheheard,orfanciedheheard,theturningofthekeyinthecloset-
door。Thenextmomenttherecamefromthatdirectionaloudandprolongedshriek,whichresoundedtothefarthestcornersofthehouse。Itwasrepeated,andtherewasthenoiseofaheavyfall。
LordUplandtowerssprangoutofbed。Hehastenedalongthedarkcorridortothedooroftheboudoir,whichstoodajar,and,bythelightofthecandlewithin,sawhispooryoungCountesslyinginaheapinhernightdressonthefloorofthecloset。Whenhereachedhersidehefoundthatshehadfainted,muchtothereliefofhisfearsthatmatterswereworse。Hequicklyshutupandlockedinthehatedimagewhichhaddonethemischief;andliftedhiswifeinhisarms,whereinafewinstantssheopenedhereyes。Pressingherfacetohiswithoutsayingaword,hecarriedherbacktoherroom,endeavouringashewenttodisperseherterrorsbyalaughinherear,oddlycompoundedofcausticity,predilection,andbrutality。
\'Ho——ho——ho!\'sayshe。\'Frightened,dearone,hey?Whatababy\'tis!Onlyajoke,sure,Barbara——asplendidjoke!Butababyshouldnotgotoclosetsatmidnighttolookfortheghostofthedeardeparted!Ifitdoitmustexpecttobeterrifiedathisaspect——ho——ho——ho!\'
Whenshewasinherbed-chamber,andhadquitecometoherself;
thoughhernerveswerestillmuchshaken,hespoketohermoresternly。\'Now,mylady,answerme:doyoulovehim——eh?\'
\'No——no!\'shefaltered,shuddering,withherexpandedeyesfixedonherhusband。\'Heistooterrible——no,no!\'
\'Youaresure?\'
\'Quitesure!\'repliedthepoorbroken-spiritedCountess。Buthernaturalelasticityasserteditself。Nextmorningheagaininquiredofher:\'Doyoulovehimnow?\'
Shequailedunderhisgaze,butdidnotreply。
\'Thatmeansthatyoudostill,byG-!\'hecontinued。
\'ItmeansthatIwillnottellanuntruth,anddonotwishtoincensemylord,\'sheanswered,withdignity。
\'Thensupposewegoandhaveanotherlookathim?\'Ashespoke,hesuddenlytookherbythewrist,andturnedasiftoleadhertowardstheghastlycloset。
\'No——no!Oh——no!\'shecried,andherdesperatewriggleoutofhishandrevealedthatthefrightofthenighthadleftmoreimpressionuponherdelicatesoulthansuperficiallyappeared。
\'Anotherdoseortwo,andshewillbecured,\'hesaidtohimself。
ItwasnowsogenerallyknownthattheEarlandCountesswerenotinaccord,thathetooknogreattroubletodisguisehisdeedsinrelationtothismatter。Duringthedayheorderedfourmenwithropesandrollerstoattendhimintheboudoir。Whentheyarrived,theclosetwasopen,andtheupperpartofthestatuetiedupincanvas。Hehadittakentothesleeping-chamber。Whatfollowedismoreorlessmatterofconjecture。Thestory,astoldtome,goesontosaythat,whenLadyUplandtowersretiredwithhimthatnight,shesawnearthefootoftheheavyoakfour-poster,atalldarkwardrobe,whichhadnotstoodtherebefore;butshedidnotaskwhatitspresencemeant。
\'Ihavehadalittlewhim,\'heexplainedwhentheywereinthedark。
\'Haveyou?\'saysshe。
\'Toerectalittleshrine,asitmaybecalled。\'
\'Alittleshrine?\'
\'Yes;toonewhomwebothequallyadore——eh?I\'llshowyouwhatitcontains。\'
Hepulledacordwhichhungcoveredbythebed-curtains,andthedoorsofthewardrobeslowlyopened,disclosingthattheshelveswithinhadbeenremovedthroughout,andtheinterioradaptedtoreceivetheghastlyfigure,whichstoodthereasithadstoodintheboudoir,butwithawax-candleburningoneachsideofittothrowthecroppedanddistortedfeaturesintorelief。Sheclutchedhim,utteredalowscream,andburiedherheadinthebedclothes。\'Oh,takeitaway——pleasetakeitaway!\'sheimplored。
\'Allingoodtimenamely,whenyoulovemebest,\'hereturnedcalmly。\'Youdon\'tquiteyet——eh?\'
\'Idon\'tknow——Ithink——OUplandtowers,havemercy——Icannotbearit——O,inpity,takeitaway!\'
\'Nonsense;onegetsaccustomedtoanything。Takeanothergaze。\'
Inshort,heallowedthedoorstoremainunclosedatthefootofthebed,andthewax-tapersburning;andsuchwasthestrangefascinationofthegrislyexhibitionthatamorbidcuriositytookpossessionoftheCountessasshelay,and,athisrepeatedrequest,shedidagainlookoutfromthecoverlet,shuddered,hidhereyes,andlookedagain,allthewhilebegginghimtotakeitaway,oritwoulddriveheroutofhersenses。Buthewouldnotdosoasyet,andthewardrobewasnotlockedtilldawn。
Thescenewasrepeatedthenextnight。Firminenforcinghisferociouscorrectives,hecontinuedthetreatmenttillthenervesofthepoorladywerequiveringinagonyunderthevirtuoustorturesinflictedbyherlord,tobringhertruantheartbacktofaithfulness。
Thethirdnight,whenthescenehadopenedasusual,andshelaystaringwithimmensewildeyesatthehorridfascination,onasuddenshegaveanunnaturallaugh;shelaughedmoreandmore,staringattheimage,tillsheliterallyshriekedwithlaughter:
thentherewassilence,andhefoundhertohavebecomeinsensible。
Hethoughtshehadfainted,butsoonsawthattheeventwasworse:
shewasinanepilepticfit。Hestartedup,dismayedbythesensethat,likemanyothersubtlepersonages,hehadbeentooexactingforhisowninterests。Suchloveashewascapableof,thoughratheraselfishgloatingthanacherishingsolicitude,wasfannedintolifeontheinstant。Heclosedthewardrobewiththepulley,claspedherinhisarms,tookhergentlytothewindow,anddidallhecouldtorestoreher。
ItwasalongtimebeforetheCountesscametoherself,andwhenshedidso,aconsiderablechangeseemedtohavetakenplaceinheremotions。Sheflungherarmsaroundhim,andwithgaspsoffearabjectlykissedhimmanytimes,atlastburstingintotears。Shehadneverweptinthisscenebefore。
\'You\'lltakeitaway,dearest——youwill!\'shebeggedplaintively。
\'Ifyouloveme。\'
\'Ido——oh,Ido!\'
\'Andhatehim,andhismemory?\'
\'Yes——yes!\'
\'Thoroughly?\'
\'Icannotendurerecollectionofhim!\'criedthepoorCountessslavishly。\'Itfillsmewithshame——howcouldIeverbesodepraved!I\'llneverbehavebadlyagain,Uplandtowers;andyouwillneverputthehatedstatueagainbeforemyeyes?\'
Hefeltthathecouldpromisewithperfectsafety。\'Never,\'saidhe。
\'AndthenI\'llloveyou,\'shereturnedeagerly,asifdreadinglestthescourgeshouldbeappliedanew。\'AndI\'llnever,neverdreamofthinkingasinglethoughtthatseemslikefaithlessnesstomymarriagevow。\'
Thestrangethingnowwasthatthisfictitiouslovewrungfromherbyterrortookon,throughmerehabitofenactment,acertainqualityofreality。AservilemoodofattachmenttotheEarlbecamedistinctlyvisibleinhercontemporaneouslywithanactualdislikeforherlatehusband\'smemory。Themoodofattachmentgrewandcontinuedwhenthestatuewasremoved。Apermanentrevulsionwasoperantinher,whichintensifiedastimeworeon。Howfrightcouldhaveeffectedsuchachangeofidiosyncrasylearnedphysiciansalonecansay;butIbelievesuchcasesofreactionaryinstinctarenotunknown。
Theupshotwasthatthecurebecamesopermanentastobeitselfanewdisease。Sheclungtohimsotightly,thatshewouldnotwillinglybeoutofhissightforamoment。Shewouldhavenositting-roomapartfromhis,thoughshecouldnothelpstartingwhenheenteredsuddenlytoher。Hereyeswerewell-nighalwaysfixeduponhim。Ifhedroveout,shewishedtogowithhim;hisslightestcivilitiestootherwomenmadeherfranticallyjealous;tillatlengthherveryfidelitybecameaburdentohim,absorbinghistime,andcurtailinghisliberty,andcausinghimtocurseandswear。Ifheeverspokesharplytohernow,shedidnotrevengeherselfbyflyingofftoamentalworldofherown;allthataffectionforanother,whichhadprovidedherwitharesource,wasnowacoldblackcinder。
Fromthattimethelifeofthisscaredandenervatedlady——whoseexistencemighthavebeendevelopedtosomuchhigherpurposebutfortheignobleambitionofherparentsandtheconventionsofthetime——wasoneofobsequiousamativenesstowardsaperverseandcruelman。Littlepersonaleventscametoherinquicksuccession——halfadozen,eight,nine,tensuchevents,——inbrief;sheborehimnolessthanelevenchildrenintheeightfollowingyears,buthalfofthemcameprematurelyintotheworld,ordiedafewdaysold;onlyone,agirl,attainedtomaturity;sheinafteryearsbecamethewifeoftheHonourableMr。Beltonleigh,whowascreatedLordD\'Almaine,asmayberemembered。
Therewasnolivingsonandheir。Atlength,completelywornoutinmindandbody,LadyUplandtowerswastakenabroadbyherhusband,totrytheeffectofamoregenialclimateuponherwastedframe。Butnothingavailedtostrengthenher,andshediedatFlorence,afewmonthsafterherarrivalinItaly。
Contrarytoexpectation,theEarlofUplandtowersdidnotmarryagain。Suchaffectionasexistedinhim——strange,hard,brutalasitwas——seemeduntransferable,andthetitle,asisknown,passedathisdeathtohisnephew。Perhapsitmaynotbesogenerallyknownthat,duringtheenlargementoftheHallforthesixthEarl,whiledigginginthegroundsforthenewfoundations,thebrokenfragmentsofamarblestatuewereunearthed。Theyweresubmittedtovariousantiquaries,whosaidthat,sofarasthedamagedpieceswouldallowthemtoformanopinion,thestatueseemedtobethatofamutilatedRomansatyr;orifnot,anallegoricalfigureofDeath。Onlyoneortwooldinhabitantsguessedwhosestatuethosefragmentshadcomposed。
Ishouldhaveaddedthat,shortlyafterthedeathoftheCountess,anexcellentsermonwaspreachedbytheDeanofMelchester,thesubjectofwhich,thoughnameswerenotmentioned,wasunquestionablysuggestedbytheaforesaidevents。Hedweltuponthefollyofindulgenceinsensuousloveforahandsomeformmerely;andshowedthattheonlyrationalandvirtuousgrowthsofthataffectionwerethosebaseduponintrinsicworth。InthecaseofthetenderbutsomewhatshallowladywhoselifeIhaverelated,thereisnodoubtthataninfatuationforthepersonofyoungWilloweswasthechieffeelingthatinducedhertomarryhim;whichwasthemoredeplorableinthathisbeauty,byalltradition,wastheleastofhisrecommendations,everyreportbearingouttheinferencethathemusthavebeenamanofsteadfastnature,brightintelligence,andpromisinglife。
Thecompanythankedtheoldsurgeonforhisstory,whichtheruraldeandeclaredtobeafarmorestrikingonethananythinghecouldhopetotell。AnelderlymemberoftheClub,whowasmostlycalledtheBookworm,saidthatawoman\'snaturalinstinctoffidelitywould,indeed,sendbackherhearttoamanafterhisdeathinatrulywonderfulmannersometimes——ifanythingoccurredtoputbeforeherforciblytheoriginalaffectionbetweenthem,andhisoriginalaspectinhereyes,——whateverhisinferioritymayhavebeen,socialorotherwise;andthenageneralconversationensueduponthepowerthatawomanhasofseeingtheactualintherepresentation,therealityinthedream——apowerwhich(accordingtothesentimentalmember)menhavenofacultyofequalling。
Theruraldeanthoughtthatsuchcasesasthatrelatedbythesurgeonwereratheranillustrationofpassionelectrifiedbacktolifethanofalatent,trueaffection。Thestoryhadsuggestedthatheshouldtrytorecounttothemonewhichhehadusedtohearinhisyouth,andwhichaffordedaninstanceofthelatterandbetterkindoffeeling,hisheroinebeingalsoaladywhohadmarriedbeneathher,thoughhefearedhisnarrativewouldbeofamuchslighterkindthanthesurgeon\'s。TheClubbeggedhimtoproceed,andtheparsonbegan。
DAMETHETHIRD:THEMARCHIONESSOFSTONEHENGE
BytheRuralDeanIwouldhaveyouknow,then,thatagreatmanyyearsagotherelivedinaclassicalmansionwithwhichIusedtobefamiliar,standingnotahundredmilesfromthecityofMelchester,aladywhosepersonalcharmsweresorareandunparalleledthatshewascourted,flattered,andspoiltbyalmostalltheyoungnoblemenandgentlemeninthatpartofWessex。Foratimetheseattentionspleasedherwell。Butas,inthewordsofgoodRobertSouth(whosesermonsmightbereadmuchmorethantheyare),themostpassionateloverofsport,iftiedtofollowhishawksandhoundseverydayofhislife,wouldfindthepursuitthegreatesttormentandcalamity,andwouldflytotheminesandgalleysforhisrecreation,sodidthisloftyandbeautifulladyafterawhilebecomesatiatedwiththeconstantiterationofwhatshehadinitsnoveltyenjoyed;andbyanalmostnaturalrevulsionturnedherregardsabsolutelynetherward,sociallyspeaking。Sheperverselyandpassionatelycentredheraffectiononquiteaplain-lookingyoungmanofhumblebirthandnopositionatall;thoughitistruethathewasgentleanddelicateinnature,ofgoodaddress,andguilelessheart。Inshort,hewastheparish-
clerk\'sson,actingasassistanttotheland-stewardofherfather,theEarlofAvon,withthehopeofbecomingsomedayaland-stewardhimself。ItshouldbesaidthatperhapstheLadyCaroline(asshewascalled)wasalittlestimulatedinthispassionbythediscoverythatayounggirlofthevillagealreadylovedtheyoungmanfondly,andthathehadpaidsomeattentionstoher,thoughmerelyofacasualandgood-naturedkind。
Sincehisoccupationbroughthimfrequentlytothemanor-houseanditsenvirons,LadyCarolinecouldmakeampleopportunitiesofseeingandspeakingtohim。Shehad,inChaucer\'sphrase,\'allthecraftoffineloving\'atherfingers\'ends,andtheyoungman,beingofareadily-kindlingheart,wasquicktonoticethetendernessinhereyesandvoice。Hecouldnotatfirstbelieveinhisgoodfortune,havingnounderstandingofherwearinessofmoreartificialmen;butatimecomeswhenthestupidestseesinaneyetheglanceofhisotherhalf;anditcametohim,whowasquitethereverseofdull。
Ashegainedconfidenceaccidentalencountersledtoencountersbydesign;tillatlengthwhentheywerealonetogethertherewasnoreserveonthematter。Theywhisperedtenderwordsasotherloversdo,andwereasdevotedapairaseverwasseen。Butnotarayorsymptomofthisattachmentwasallowedtoshowitselftotheouterworld。
Now,asshebecamelessandlessscrupuloustowardshimundertheinfluenceofheraffection,andhebecamemoreandmorereverentialundertheinfluenceofhis,andtheylookedthesituationinthefacetogether,theirconditionseemedintolerableinitshopelessness。Thatshecouldeverasktobeallowedtomarryhim,orcouldholdhertongueandquietlyrenouncehim,wasequallybeyondconception。Theyresolveduponathirdcourse,possessingneitherofthedisadvantagesofthesetwo:towedsecretly,andliveoninoutwardappearancethesameasbefore。Inthistheydifferedfromtheloversofmyfriend\'sstory。