第4章

类别:其他 作者:Thomas Hardy字数:19493更新时间:18/12/13 16:16:15
walkingaboutoutside,andstraininghereyesalongthehighwayfortheexpectedone。Buteachcloudofdustthatenlargedinthedistanceanddrewnearwasfoundtodiscloseaconveyanceotherthanhispost-chaise。Barbararemainedtilltheappointmentwastwohourspassed,andthenbegantofearthatowingtosomeadversewindintheChannelhewasnotcomingthatnight。 Whilewaitingshewasconsciousofacurioustrepidationthatwasnotentirelysolicitude,anddidnotamounttodread;hertensestateofincertitudeborderedbothondisappointmentandonrelief。 Shehadlivedsixorsevenweekswithanimperfectlyeducatedyethandsomehusbandwhomnowshehadnotseenforseventeenmonths,andwhowassochangedphysicallybyanaccidentthatshewasassuredshewouldhardlyknowhim。Canwewonderathercompoundstateofmind? ButherimmediatedifficultywastogetawayfromLorntonInn,forhersituationwasbecomingembarrassing。LiketoomanyofBarbara\'sactions,thisdrivehadbeenundertakenwithoutmuchreflection。 Expectingtowaitnomorethanafewminutesforherhusbandinhispost-chaise,andtoenteritwithhim,shehadnothesitatedtoisolateherselfbysendingbackherownlittlevehicle。Shenowfoundthat,beingsowellknowninthisneighbourhood,herexcursiontomeetherlong-absenthusbandwasexcitinggreatinterest。Shewasconsciousthatmoreeyeswerewatchingherfromtheinn-windowsthanmetherowngaze。Barbarahaddecidedtogethomebyhiringwhateverkindofconveyancethetavernafforded,when,straininghereyesforthelasttimeoverthenowdarkeninghighway,sheperceivedyetanotherdust-clouddrawingnear。Shepaused;achariotascendedtotheinn,andwouldhavepassedhadnotitsoccupantcaughtsightofherstandingexpectantly。Thehorseswerecheckedontheinstant。 \'Youhere——andalone,mydearMrs。Willowes?\'saidLordUplandtowers,whosecarriageitwas。 Sheexplainedwhathadbroughtherintothislonelysituation;and,ashewasgoinginthedirectionofherownhome,sheacceptedhisofferofaseatbesidehim。Theirconversationwasembarrassedandfragmentaryatfirst;butwhentheyhaddrivenamileortwoshewassurprisedtofindherselftalkingearnestlyandwarmlytohim:herimpulsivenesswasintruthbutthenaturalconsequenceofherlateexistence——asomewhatdesolateonebyreasonofthestrangemarriageshehadmade;andthereisnomoreindiscreetmoodthanthatofawomansurprisedintotalkwhohaslongbeenimposinguponherselfapolicyofreserve。Thereforeheringenuousheartrosewithaboundintoherthroatwhen,inresponsetohisleadingquestions,orratherhints,sheallowedhertroublestoleakoutofher。LordUplandtowerstookherquitetoherowndoor,althoughhehaddriventhreemilesoutofhiswaytodoso;andinhandingherdownsheheardfromhimawhisperofsternreproach:\'Itneednothavebeenthusifyouhadlistenedtome!\' Shemadenoreply,andwentindoors。There,astheeveningworeaway,sheregrettedmoreandmorethatshehadbeensofriendlywithLordUplandtowers。Buthehadlaunchedhimselfuponhersounexpectedly:ifshehadonlyforeseenthemeetingwithhim,whatacarefullineofconductshewouldhavemarkedout!Barbarabrokeintoaperspirationofdisquietwhenshethoughtofherunreserve,and,inself-chastisement,resolvedtosituptillmidnightonthebarechanceofEdmond\'sreturn;directingthatsuppershouldbelaidforhim,improbableashisarrivaltillthemorrowwas。 Thehourswentpast,andtherewasdeadsilenceinandroundaboutYewsholtLodge,exceptforthesoughingofthetrees;till,whenitwasnearuponmidnight,sheheardthenoiseofhoofsandwheelsapproachingthedoor。Knowingthatitcouldonlybeherhusband,Barbarainstantlywentintothehalltomeethim。Yetshestoodtherenotwithoutasensationoffaintness,somanywerethechangessincetheirparting!And,owingtohercasualencounterwithLordUplandtowers,hisvoiceandimagestillremainedwithher,excludingEdmond,herhusband,fromtheinnercircleofherimpressions。 Butshewenttothedoor,andthenextmomentafiguresteppedinside,ofwhichsheknewtheoutline,butlittlebesides。Herhusbandwasattiredinaflappingblackcloakandslouchedhat,appearingaltogetherasaforeigner,andnotastheyoungEnglishburgesswhohadleftherside。Whenhecameforwardintothelightofthelamp,sheperceivedwithsurprise,andalmostwithfright,thatheworeamask。Atfirstshehadnotnoticedthis——therebeingnothinginitscolourwhichwouldleadacasualobservertothinkhewaslookingonanythingbutarealcountenance。 Hemusthaveseenherstartofdismayattheunexpectednessofhisappearance,forhesaidhastily:\'Ididnotmeantocomeintoyoulikethis——Ithoughtyouwouldhavebeeninbed。Howgoodyouare,dearBarbara!\'Heputhisarmroundher,buthedidnotattempttokissher。 \'OEdmond——itISyou?——itmustbe?\'shesaid,withclaspedhands,forthoughhisfigureandmovementwerealmostenoughtoproveit,andthetoneswerenotunliketheoldtones,theenunciationwassoalteredastoseemthatofastranger。 \'Iamcoveredlikethistohidemyselffromthecuriouseyesoftheinn-servantsandothers,\'hesaid,inalowvoice。\'Iwillsendbackthecarriageandjoinyouinamoment。\' \'Youarequitealone?\' \'Quite。MycompanionstoppedatSouthampton。\' Thewheelsofthepost-chaiserolledawayassheenteredthedining- room,wherethesupperwasspread;andpresentlyherejoinedherthere。Hehadremovedhiscloakandhat,butthemaskwasstillretained;andshecouldnowseethatitwasofspecialmake,ofsomeflexiblemateriallikesilk,colouredsoastorepresentflesh;itjoinednaturallytothefronthair,andwasotherwisecleverlyexecuted。 \'Barbara——youlookill,\'hesaid,removinghisglove,andtakingherhand。 \'Yes——Ihavebeenill,\'saidshe。 \'Isthisprettylittlehouseours?\' \'O——yes。\'Shewashardlyconsciousofherwords,forthehandhehadunglovedinordertotakeherswascontorted,andhadoneortwoofitsfingersmissing;whilethroughthemaskshediscernedthetwinkleofoneeyeonly。 \'Iwouldgiveanythingtokissyou,dearest,now,atthismoment!\' hecontinued,withmournfulpassionateness。\'ButIcannot——inthisguise。Theservantsareabed,Isuppose?\' \'Yes,\'saidshe。\'ButIcancallthem?Youwillhavesomesupper?\' Hesaidhewouldhavesome,butthatitwasnotnecessarytocallanybodyatthathour。Thereupontheyapproachedthetable,andsatdown,facingeachother。 DespiteBarbara\'sscaredstateofmind,itwasforceduponhernoticethatherhusbandtrembled,asifhefearedtheimpressionhewasproducing,orwasabouttoproduce,asmuchas,ormorethan,she。Hedrewnearer,andtookherhandagain。 \'IhadthismaskmadeatVenice,\'hebegan,inevidentembarrassment。\'MydarlingBarbara——mydearestwife——doyouthinkyou——willmindwhenItakeitoff?Youwillnotdislikeme——willyou?\' \'OEdmond,ofcourseIshallnotmind,\'saidshe。\'Whathashappenedtoyouisourmisfortune;butIampreparedforit。\' \'Areyousureyouareprepared?\' \'Oyes!Youaremyhusband。\' \'Youreallyfeelquiteconfidentthatnothingexternalcanaffectyou?\'hesaidagain,inavoicerendereduncertainbyhisagitation。 \'IthinkIam——quite,\'sheansweredfaintly。 Hebenthishead。\'Ihope,Ihopeyouare,\'hewhispered。 Inthepausewhichfollowed,thetickingoftheclockinthehallseemedtogrowloud;andheturnedalittleasidetoremovethemask。Shebreathlesslyawaitedtheoperation,whichwasoneofsometediousness,watchinghimonemoment,avertingherfacethenext; andwhenitwasdonesheshuthereyesatthehideousspectaclethatwasrevealed。Aquickspasmofhorrorhadpassedthroughher;butthoughshequailedsheforcedherselftoregardhimanew,repressingthecrythatwouldnaturallyhaveescapedfromherashylips。 Unabletolookathimlonger,Barbarasankdownonthefloorbesideherchair,coveringhereyes。 \'Youcannotlookatme!\'hegroanedinahopelessway。\'Iamtooterribleanobjectevenforyoutobear!Iknewit;yetIhopedagainstit。Oh,thisisabitterfate——cursetheskillofthoseVenetiansurgeonswhosavedmealive!……Lookup,Barbara,\'hecontinuedbeseechingly;\'viewmecompletely;sayyouloatheme,ifyoudoloatheme,andsettlethecasebetweenusforever!\' Hisunhappywifepulledherselftogetherforadesperatestrain。HewasherEdmond;hehaddonehernowrong;hehadsuffered。A momentarydevotiontohimhelpedher,andliftinghereyesasbiddensheregardedthishumanremnant,thisecorche,asecondtime。Butthesightwastoomuch。Sheagaininvoluntarilylookedasideandshuddered。 \'Doyouthinkyoucangetusedtothis?\'hesaid。\'Yesorno!Canyoubearsuchathingofthecharnel-housenearyou?Judgeforyourself;Barbara。YourAdonis,yourmatchlessman,hascometothis!\' Thepoorladystoodbesidehimmotionless,savefortherestlessnessofhereyes。Allhernaturalsentimentsofaffectionandpityweredrivencleanoutofherbyasortofpanic;shehadjustthesamesenseofdismayandfearfulnessthatshewouldhavehadinthepresenceofanapparition。Shecouldnohowfancythistobeherchosenone——themanshehadloved;hewasmetamorphosedtoaspecimenofanotherspecies。\'Idonotloatheyou,\'shesaidwithtrembling。\'ButIamsohorrified——soovercome!Letmerecovermyself。Willyousupnow?AndwhileyoudosomayIgotomyroomto——regainmyoldfeelingforyou?Iwilltry,ifImayleaveyouawhile?Yes,Iwilltry!\' Withoutwaitingforananswerfromhim,andkeepinghergazecarefullyaverted,thefrightenedwomancrepttothedoorandoutoftheroom。Sheheardhimsitdowntothetable,asiftobeginsupperthough,Heavenknows,hisappetitewasslightenoughafterareceptionwhichhadconfirmedhisworstsurmises。WhenBarbarahadascendedthestairsandarrivedinherchambershesankdown,andburiedherfaceinthecoverletofthebed。 Thussheremainedforsometime。Thebed-chamberwasoverthedining-room,andpresentlyasshekneltBarbaraheardWillowesthrustbackhischair,andrisetogointothehall。Infiveminutesthatfigurewouldprobablycomeupthestairsandconfrontheragain;it,——thisnewandterribleform,thatwasnotherhusband\'s。Inthelonelinessofthisnight,withneithermaidnorfriendbesideher,shelostallself-control,andatthefirstsoundofhisfootsteponthestairs,withoutsomuchasflingingacloakroundher,sheflewfromtheroom,ranalongthegallerytothebackstaircase,whichshedescended,and,unlockingthebackdoor,letherselfout。Shescarcelywasawarewhatshehaddonetillshefoundherselfinthegreenhouse,crouchingonaflower-stand。 Heresheremained,hergreattimideyesstrainedthroughtheglassuponthegardenwithout,andherskirtsgatheredup,infearofthefield-micewhichsometimescamethere。Everymomentshedreadedtohearfootstepswhichsheoughtbylawtohavelongedfor,andavoicethatshouldhavebeenasmusictohersoul。ButEdmondWillowescamenotthatway。Thenightsweregettingshortatthisseason,andsoonthedawnappeared,andthefirstraysofthesun。 Bydaylightshehadlessfearthaninthedark。Shethoughtshecouldmeethim,andaccustomherselftothespectacle。 Sothemuch-triedyoungwomanunfastenedthedoorofthehot-house,andwentbackbythewayshehademergedafewhoursago。Herpoorhusbandwasprobablyinbedandasleep,hisjourneyhavingbeenlong;andshemadeaslittlenoiseaspossibleinherentry。Thehousewasjustasshehadleftit,andshelookedaboutinthehallforhiscloakandhat,butshecouldnotseethem;nordidsheperceivethesmalltrunkwhichhadbeenallthathebroughtwithhim,hisheavierbaggagehavingbeenleftatSouthamptonfortheroad-waggon。Shesummonedcouragetomountthestairs;thebedroom- doorwasopenasshehadleftit。Shefearfullypeepedround;thebedhadnotbeenpressed。Perhapshehadlaindownonthedining- roomsofa。Shedescendedandentered;hewasnotthere。Onthetablebesidehisunsoiledplatelayanote,hastilywrittenontheleafofapocket-book。Itwassomethinglikethis: \'MYEVER-BELOVEDWIFE——TheeffectthatmyforbiddingappearancehasproduceduponyouwasonewhichIforesawasquitepossible。I hopedagainstit,butfoolishlyso。IwasawarethatnoHUMANlovecouldsurvivesuchacatastrophe。IconfessIthoughtyoursDIVINE; but,aftersolonganabsence,therecouldnotbeleftsufficientwarmthtoovercomethetoonaturalfirstaversion。Itwasanexperiment,andithasfailed。Idonotblameyou;perhaps,even,itisbetterso。Good-bye。IleaveEnglandforoneyear。Youwillseemeagainattheexpirationofthattime,ifIlive。ThenIwillascertainyourtruefeeling;and,ifitbeagainstme,goawayforever。E。W。\' Onrecoveringfromhersurprise,Barbara\'sremorsewassuchthatshefeltherselfabsolutelyunforgiveable。Sheshouldhaveregardedhimasanafflictedbeing,andnothavebeenthisslavetomereeyesight,likeachild。Tofollowhimandentreathimtoreturnwasherfirstthought。Butonmakinginquiriesshefoundthatnobodyhadseenhim:hehadsilentlydisappeared。 Morethanthis,toundothesceneoflastnightwasimpossible。Herterrorhadbeentooplain,andhewasamanunlikelytobecoaxedbackbyhereffortstodoherduty。Shewentandconfessedtoherparentsallthathadoccurred;which,indeed,soonbecameknowntomorepersonsthanthoseofherownfamily。 Theyearpassed,andhedidnotreturn;anditwasdoubtedifhewerealive。Barbara\'scontritionforherunconquerablerepugnancewasnowsuchthatshelongedtobuildachurch-aisle,orerectamonument,anddevoteherselftodeedsofcharityfortheremainderofherdays。TothatendshemadeinquiryoftheexcellentparsonunderwhomshesatonSundays,ataverticaldistanceoftwentyfeet。Buthecouldonlyadjusthiswigandtaphissnuff-box;forsuchwasthelukewarmstateofreligioninthosedays,thatnotanaisle,steeple,porch,eastwindow,Ten-Commandmentboard,lion-and- unicorn,orbrasscandlestick,wasrequiredanywhereatallintheneighbourhoodasavotiveofferingfromadistractedsoul——thelastcenturycontrastinggreatlyinthisrespectwiththehappytimesinwhichwelive,whenurgentappealsforcontributionstosuchobjectspourinbyeverymorning\'spost,andnearlyallchurcheshavebeenmadetolooklikenewpennies。Asthepoorladycouldnoteaseherconsciencethisway,shedeterminedatleasttobecharitable,andsoonhadthesatisfactionoffindingherporchthrongedeverymorningbytheraggedest,idlest,mostdrunken,hypocritical,andworthlesstrampsinChristendom。 Buthumanheartsareaspronetochangeastheleavesofthecreeperonthewall,andinthecourseoftime,hearingnothingofherhusband,Barbaracouldsitunmovedwhilsthermotherandfriendssaidinherhearing,\'Well,whathashappenedisforthebest。\'Shebegantothinksoherself;forevennowshecouldnotsummonupthatloppedandmutilatedformwithoutashiver,thoughwheneverhermindflewbacktoherearlyweddeddays,andthemanwhohadstoodbesideherthen,athrilloftendernessmovedher,whichifquickenedbyhislivingpresencemighthavebecomestrong。Shewasyoungandinexperienced,andhadhardlyonhislatereturngrownoutofthecapriciousfanciesofgirlhood。 Buthedidnotcomeagain,andwhenshethoughtofhiswordthathewouldreturnoncemore,ifliving,andhowunlikelyhewastobreakhisword,shegavehimupfordead。Sodidherparents;soalsodidanotherperson——thatmanofsilence,ofirresistibleincisiveness,ofstillcountenance,whowasasawakeassevensentinelswhenheseemedtobeassoundasleepasthefiguresonhisfamilymonument。 LordUplandtowers,thoughnotyetthirty,hadchuckledlikeacausticfogeyofthreescorewhenheheardofBarbara\'sterrorandflightatherhusband\'sreturn,andofthelatter\'spromptdeparture。Hefeltprettysure,however,thatWillowes,despitehishurtfeelings,wouldhavereappearedtoclaimhisbright-eyedpropertyifhehadbeenaliveattheendofthetwelvemonths。 Astherewasnohusbandtolivewithher,Barbarahadrelinquishedthehousepreparedforthembyherfather,andtakenupherabodeanewatCheneManor,asinthedaysofhergirlhood。BydegreestheepisodewithEdmondWillowesseemedbutafevereddream,andasthemonthsgrewtoyearsLordUplandtowers\'friendshipwiththepeopleatChene——whichhadsomewhatcooledafterBarbara\'selopement—— revivedconsiderably,andheagainbecameafrequentvisitorthere。 HecouldnotmakethemosttrivialalterationorimprovementatKnollingwoodHall,wherehelived,withoutridingofftoconsultwithhisfriendSirJohnatChene;andthusputtinghimselffrequentlyunderhereyes,Barbaragrewaccustomedtohim,andtalkedtohimasfreelyastoabrother。Sheevenbegantolookuptohimasapersonofauthority,judgment,andprudence;andthoughhisseverityonthebenchtowardspoachers,smugglers,andturnip- stealerswasmatterofcommonnotoriety,shetrustedthatmuchofwhatwassaidmightbemisrepresentation。 Thustheylivedontillherhusband\'sabsencehadstretchedtoyears,andtherecouldbenolongeranydoubtofhisdeath。A passionlessmannerofrenewinghisaddressesseemednolongeroutofplaceinLordUplandtowers。Barbaradidnotlovehim,butherswasessentiallyoneofthosesweet-peaorwith-windnatureswhichrequireatwigofstouterfibrethanitsowntohanguponandbloom。 Now,too,shewasolder,andadmittedtoherselfthatamanwhoseancestorhadrunscoresofSaracensthroughandthroughinfightingforthesiteoftheHolySepulchrewasamoredesirablehusband,sociallyconsidered,thanonewhocouldonlyclaimwithcertaintytoknowthathisfatherandgrandfatherwererespectableburgesses。 SirJohntookoccasiontoinformherthatshemightlegallyconsiderherselfawidow;and,inbrief;LordUplandtowerscarriedhispointwithher,andshemarriedhim,thoughhecouldnevergethertoownthatshelovedhimasshehadlovedWillowes。InmychildhoodI knewanoldladywhosemothersawthewedding,andshesaidthatwhenLordandLadyUplandtowersdroveawayfromherfather\'shouseintheeveningitwasinacoach-and-four,andthatmyladywasdressedingreenandsilver,andworethegayesthatandfeatherthateverwereseen;thoughwhetheritwasthatthegreendidnotsuithercomplexion,orotherwise,theCountesslookedpale,andthereverseofblooming。AftertheirmarriageherhusbandtookhertoLondon,andshesawthegaietiesofaseasonthere;thentheyreturnedtoKnollingwoodHall,andthusayearpassedaway。 Beforetheirmarriageherhusbandhadseemedtocarebutlittleaboutherinabilitytolovehimpassionately。\'Onlyletmewinyou,\'hehadsaid,\'andIwillsubmittoallthat。\'Butnowherlackofwarmthseemedtoirritatehim,andheconductedhimselftowardsherwitharesentfulnesswhichledtoherpassingmanyhourswithhiminpainfulsilence。Theheir-presumptivetothetitlewasaremoterelative,whomLordUplandtowersdidnotexcludefromthedislikeheentertainedtowardsmanypersonsandthingsbesides,andhehadsethisminduponalinealsuccessor。Heblamedhermuchthattherewasnopromiseofthis,andaskedherwhatshewasgoodfor。 Onaparticulardayinhergloomylifealetter,addressedtoherasMrs。Willowes,reachedLadyUplandtowersfromanunexpectedquarter。 AsculptorinPisa,knowingnothingofhersecondmarriage,informedherthatthelong-delayedlife-sizestatueofMr。Willowes,which,whenherhusbandleftthatcity,hehadbeendirectedtoretaintillitwassentfor,wasstillinhisstudio。Ashiscommissionhadnotwhollybeenpaid,andthestatuewastakinguproomhecouldillspare,heshouldbegladtohavethedebtclearedoff,anddirectionswheretoforwardthefigure。ArrivingatatimewhentheCountesswasbeginningtohavelittlesecrets(ofaharmlesskind,itistrue)fromherhusband,byreasonoftheirgrowingestrangement,sherepliedtothisletterwithoutsayingawordtoLordUplandtowers,sendingoffthebalancethatwasowingtothesculptor,andtellinghimtodespatchthestatuetoherwithoutdelay。 ItwassomeweeksbeforeitarrivedatKnollingwoodHall,and,byasingularcoincidence,duringtheintervalshereceivedthefirstabsolutelyconclusivetidingsofherEdmond\'sdeath。Ithadtakenplaceyearsbefore,inaforeignland,aboutsixmonthsaftertheirparting,andhadbeeninducedbythesufferingshehadalreadyundergone,coupledwithmuchdepressionofspirit,whichhadcausedhimtosuccumbtoaslightailment。ThenewswassentherinabriefandformalletterfromsomerelativeofWillowes\'sinanotherpartofEngland。 Hergrieftooktheformofpassionatepityforhismisfortunes,andofreproachtoherselfforneverhavingbeenabletoconquerheraversiontohislatterimagebyrecollectionofwhatNaturehadoriginallymadehim。ThesadspectaclethathadgonefromearthhadneverbeenherEdmondatalltoher。Othatshecouldhavemethimashewasatfirst!ThusBarbarathought。Itwasonlyafewdayslaterthatawaggonwithtwohorses,containinganimmensepacking- case,wasseenatbreakfast-timebothbyBarbaraandherhusbandtodriveroundtothebackofthehouse,andby-and-bytheywereinformedthatacaselabelled\'Sculpture\'hadarrivedforherladyship。 \'Whatcanthatbe?\'saidLordUplandtowers。 \'ItisthestatueofpoorEdmond,whichbelongstome,buthasneverbeensenttillnow,\'sheanswered。 \'Whereareyougoingtoputit?\'askedhe。 \'Ihavenotdecided,\'saidtheCountess。\'Anywhere,sothatitwillnotannoyyou。\' \'Oh,itwon\'tannoyme,\'sayshe。 Whenithadbeenunpackedinabackroomofthehouse,theywenttoexamineit。Thestatuewasafull-lengthfigure,inthepurestCarraramarble,representingEdmondWillowesinallhisoriginalbeauty,ashehadstoodatpartingfromherwhenabouttosetoutonhistravels;aspecimenofmanhoodalmostperfectineverylineandcontour。Theworkhadbeencarriedoutwithabsolutefidelity。 \'Phoebus-Apollo,sure,\'saidtheEarlofUplandtowers,whohadneverseenWillowes,realorrepresented,tillnow。 Barbaradidnothearhim。Shewasstandinginasortoftrancebeforethefirsthusband,asifshehadnoconsciousnessoftheotherhusbandatherside。ThemutilatedfeaturesofWilloweshaddisappearedfromhermind\'seye;thisperfectbeingwasreallythemanshehadloved,andnotthatlaterpitiablefigure;inwhomloveandtruthshouldhaveseenthisimagealways,buthadnotdoneso。 ItwasnottillLordUplandtowerssaidroughly,\'Areyougoingtostayhereallthemorningworshippinghim?\'thatsherousedherself。 HerhusbandhadnottillnowtheleastsuspicionthatEdmondWillowesoriginallylookedthus,andhethoughthowdeepwouldhavebeenhisjealousyyearsagoifWilloweshadbeenknowntohim。 ReturningtotheHallintheafternoonhefoundhiswifeinthegallery,whitherthestatuehadbeenbrought。 Shewaslostinreveriebeforeit,justasinthemorning。 \'Whatareyoudoing?\'heasked。 Shestartedandturned。\'Iamlookingatmyhusb-mystatue,toseeifitiswelldone,\'shestammered。\'WhyshouldInot?\' \'There\'snoreasonwhy,\'hesaid。\'Whatareyougoingtodowiththemonstrousthing?Itcan\'tstandhereforever。\' \'Idon\'twishit,\'shesaid。\'I\'llfindaplace。\' Inherboudoirtherewasadeeprecess,andwhiletheEarlwasabsentfromhomeforafewdaysinthefollowingweek,shehiredjoinersfromthevillage,whounderherdirectionsenclosedtherecesswithapanelleddoor。Intothetabernaclethusformedshehadthestatueplaced,fasteningthedoorwithalock,thekeyofwhichshekeptinherpocket。 Whenherhusbandreturnedhemissedthestatuefromthegallery,and,concludingthatithadbeenputawayoutofdeferencetohisfeelings,madenoremark。Yetatmomentshenoticedsomethingonhislady\'sfacewhichhehadnevernoticedtherebefore。Hecouldnotconstrueit;itwasasortofsilentecstasy,areservedbeatification。Whathadbecomeofthestatuehecouldnotdivine,andgrowingmoreandmorecurious,lookedabouthereandthereforittill,thinkingofherprivateroom,hewenttowardsthatspot。 Afterknockingheheardtheshuttingofadoor,andtheclickofakey;butwhenheenteredhiswifewassittingatwork,onwhatwasinthosedayscalledknotting。LordUplandtowers\'eyefelluponthenewly-painteddoorwheretherecesshadformerlybeen。 \'Youhavebeencarpenteringinmyabsencethen,Barbara,\'hesaidcarelessly。 \'Yes,Uplandtowers。\' \'Whydidyougoputtingupsuchatastelessenclosureasthat—— spoilingthehandsomearchofthealcove?\' \'Iwantedmorecloset-room;andIthoughtthatasthiswasmyownapartment——\' \'Ofcourse,\'hereturned。LordUplandtowersknewnowwherethestatueofyoungWilloweswas。 Onenight,orratherinthesmallesthoursofthemorning,hemissedtheCountessfromhisside。Notbeingamanofnervousimaginingshefellasleepagainbeforehehadmuchconsideredthematter,andthenextmorninghadforgottentheincident。Butafewnightslaterthesamecircumstancesoccurred。Thistimehefullyrousedhimself; butbeforehehadmovedtosearchforher,sheenteredthechamberinherdressing-gown,carryingacandle,whichsheextinguishedassheapproached,deeminghimasleep。Hecoulddiscoverfromherbreathingthatshewasstrangelymoved;butnotonthisoccasioneitherdidherevealthathehadseenher。Presently,whenshehadlaindown,affectingtowake,heaskedhersometrivialquestions。 \'Yes,EDMOND,\'sherepliedabsently。 LordUplandtowersbecameconvincedthatshewasinthehabitofleavingthechamberinthisqueerwaymorefrequentlythanhehadobserved,andhedeterminedtowatch。Thenextmidnighthefeigneddeepsleep,andshortlyafterperceivedherstealthilyriseandletherselfoutoftheroominthedark。Heslippedonsomeclothingandfollowed。Atthefartherendofthecorridor,wheretheclashofflintandsteelwouldbeoutofthehearingofoneinthebed- chamber,shestruckalight。Hesteppedasideintoanemptyroomtillshehadlitataperandhadpassedontoherboudoir。Inaminuteortwohefollowed。Arrivedatthedooroftheboudoir,hebeheldthedooroftheprivaterecessopen,andBarbarawithinit,standingwithherarmsclaspedtightlyroundtheneckofherEdmond,andhermouthonhis。Theshawlwhichshehadthrownroundhernightclotheshadslippedfromhershoulders,andherlongwhiterobeandpalefacelenthertheblanchedappearanceofasecondstatueembracingthefirst。Betweenherkisses,sheapostrophizeditinalowmurmurofinfantinetenderness: \'Myonlylove——howcouldIbesocrueltoyou,myperfectone——sogoodandtrue——Iameverfaithfultoyou,despitemyseeminginfidelity!Ialwaysthinkofyou——dreamofyou——duringthelonghoursoftheday,andinthenight-watches!OEdmond,Iamalwaysyours!\'Suchwordsasthese,intermingledwithsobs,andstreamingtears,anddishevelledhair,testifiedtoanintensityoffeelinginhiswifewhichLordUplandtowershadnotdreamedofherpossessing。 \'Ha,ha!\'sayshetohimself。\'Thisiswhereweevaporate——thisiswheremyhopesofasuccessorinthetitledissolve——ha,ha!Thismustbeseento,verily!\' LordUplandtowerswasasubtlemanwhenoncehesethimselftostrategy;thoughinthepresentinstanceheneverthoughtofthesimplestratagemofconstanttenderness。Nordidheentertheroomandsurprisehiswifeasablundererwouldhavedone,butwentbacktohischamberassilentlyashehadleftit。WhentheCountessreturnedthither,shakenbyspentsobsandsighs,heappearedtobesoundlysleepingasusual。Thenextdayhebeganhiscountermovesbymakinginquiriesastothewhereaboutsofthetutorwhohadtravelledwithhiswife\'sfirsthusband;thisgentleman,hefound,wasnowmasterofagrammar-schoolatnogreatdistancefromKnollingwood。AtthefirstconvenientmomentLordUplandtowerswentthitherandobtainedaninterviewwiththesaidgentleman。Theschoolmasterwasmuchgratifiedbyavisitfromsuchaninfluentialneighbour,andwasreadytocommunicateanythingthathislordshipdesiredtoknow。 Aftersomegeneralconversationontheschoolanditsprogress,thevisitorobservedthathebelievedtheschoolmasterhadoncetravelledagooddealwiththeunfortunateMr。Willowes,andhadbeenwithhimontheoccasionofhisaccident。He,LordUplandtowers,wasinterestedinknowingwhathadreallyhappenedatthattime,andhadoftenthoughtofinquiring。AndthentheEarlnotonlyheardbywordofmouthasmuchashewishedtoknow,but,theirchatbecomingmoreintimate,theschoolmasterdrewuponpaperasketchofthedisfiguredhead,explainingwithbatedbreathvariousdetailsintherepresentation。 \'Itwasverystrangeandterrible!\'saidLordUplandtowers,takingthesketchinhishand。\'Neithernosenorears!\' ApoormaninthetownnearesttoKnollingwoodHall,whocombinedtheartofsign-paintingwithingeniousmechanicaloccupations,wassentforbyLordUplandtowerstocometotheHallonadayinthatweekwhentheCountesshadgoneonashortvisittoherparents。 Hisemployermadethemanunderstandthatthebusinessinwhichhisassistancewasdemandedwastobeconsideredprivate,andmoneyinsuredtheobservanceofthisrequest。Thelockofthecupboardwaspicked,andtheingeniousmechanicandpainter,assistedbytheschoolmaster\'ssketch,whichLordUplandtowershadputinhispocket,settoworkuponthegod-likecountenanceofthestatueundermylord\'sdirection。Whatthefirehadmaimedintheoriginalthechiselmaimedinthecopy。Itwasafiendishdisfigurement,ruthlesslycarriedout,andwasrenderedstillmoreshockingbybeingtintedtothehuesoflife,aslifehadbeenafterthewreck。 Sixhoursafter,whentheworkmanwasgone,LordUplandtowerslookedupontheresult,andsmiledgrimly,andsaid: \'Astatueshouldrepresentamanasheappearedinlife,andthat\'sasheappeared。Ha!ha!But\'tisdonetogoodpurpose,andnotidly。\' Helockedthedooroftheclosetwithaskeletonkey,andwenthiswaytofetchtheCountesshome。 Thatnightsheslept,buthekeptawake。Accordingtothetale,shemurmuredsoftwordsinherdream;andheknewthatthetenderconverseofherimaginingswasheldwithonewhomhehadsupplantedbutinname。AttheendofherdreamtheCountessofUplandtowersawokeandarose,andthentheenactmentofformernightswasrepeated。Herhusbandremainedstillandlistened。Twostrokessoundedfromtheclockinthepedimentwithout,when,leavingthechamber-doorajar,shepassedalongthecorridortotheotherend,where,asusual,sheobtainedalight。Sodeepwasthesilencethathecouldevenfromhisbedhearhersoftlyblowingthetindertoaglowafterstrikingthesteel。Shemovedonintotheboudoir,andheheard,orfanciedheheard,theturningofthekeyinthecloset- door。Thenextmomenttherecamefromthatdirectionaloudandprolongedshriek,whichresoundedtothefarthestcornersofthehouse。Itwasrepeated,andtherewasthenoiseofaheavyfall。 LordUplandtowerssprangoutofbed。Hehastenedalongthedarkcorridortothedooroftheboudoir,whichstoodajar,and,bythelightofthecandlewithin,sawhispooryoungCountesslyinginaheapinhernightdressonthefloorofthecloset。Whenhereachedhersidehefoundthatshehadfainted,muchtothereliefofhisfearsthatmatterswereworse。Hequicklyshutupandlockedinthehatedimagewhichhaddonethemischief;andliftedhiswifeinhisarms,whereinafewinstantssheopenedhereyes。Pressingherfacetohiswithoutsayingaword,hecarriedherbacktoherroom,endeavouringashewenttodisperseherterrorsbyalaughinherear,oddlycompoundedofcausticity,predilection,andbrutality。 \'Ho——ho——ho!\'sayshe。\'Frightened,dearone,hey?Whatababy\'tis!Onlyajoke,sure,Barbara——asplendidjoke!Butababyshouldnotgotoclosetsatmidnighttolookfortheghostofthedeardeparted!Ifitdoitmustexpecttobeterrifiedathisaspect——ho——ho——ho!\' Whenshewasinherbed-chamber,andhadquitecometoherself; thoughhernerveswerestillmuchshaken,hespoketohermoresternly。\'Now,mylady,answerme:doyoulovehim——eh?\' \'No——no!\'shefaltered,shuddering,withherexpandedeyesfixedonherhusband。\'Heistooterrible——no,no!\' \'Youaresure?\' \'Quitesure!\'repliedthepoorbroken-spiritedCountess。Buthernaturalelasticityasserteditself。Nextmorningheagaininquiredofher:\'Doyoulovehimnow?\' Shequailedunderhisgaze,butdidnotreply。 \'Thatmeansthatyoudostill,byG-!\'hecontinued。 \'ItmeansthatIwillnottellanuntruth,anddonotwishtoincensemylord,\'sheanswered,withdignity。 \'Thensupposewegoandhaveanotherlookathim?\'Ashespoke,hesuddenlytookherbythewrist,andturnedasiftoleadhertowardstheghastlycloset。 \'No——no!Oh——no!\'shecried,andherdesperatewriggleoutofhishandrevealedthatthefrightofthenighthadleftmoreimpressionuponherdelicatesoulthansuperficiallyappeared。 \'Anotherdoseortwo,andshewillbecured,\'hesaidtohimself。 ItwasnowsogenerallyknownthattheEarlandCountesswerenotinaccord,thathetooknogreattroubletodisguisehisdeedsinrelationtothismatter。Duringthedayheorderedfourmenwithropesandrollerstoattendhimintheboudoir。Whentheyarrived,theclosetwasopen,andtheupperpartofthestatuetiedupincanvas。Hehadittakentothesleeping-chamber。Whatfollowedismoreorlessmatterofconjecture。Thestory,astoldtome,goesontosaythat,whenLadyUplandtowersretiredwithhimthatnight,shesawnearthefootoftheheavyoakfour-poster,atalldarkwardrobe,whichhadnotstoodtherebefore;butshedidnotaskwhatitspresencemeant。 \'Ihavehadalittlewhim,\'heexplainedwhentheywereinthedark。 \'Haveyou?\'saysshe。 \'Toerectalittleshrine,asitmaybecalled。\' \'Alittleshrine?\' \'Yes;toonewhomwebothequallyadore——eh?I\'llshowyouwhatitcontains。\' Hepulledacordwhichhungcoveredbythebed-curtains,andthedoorsofthewardrobeslowlyopened,disclosingthattheshelveswithinhadbeenremovedthroughout,andtheinterioradaptedtoreceivetheghastlyfigure,whichstoodthereasithadstoodintheboudoir,butwithawax-candleburningoneachsideofittothrowthecroppedanddistortedfeaturesintorelief。Sheclutchedhim,utteredalowscream,andburiedherheadinthebedclothes。\'Oh,takeitaway——pleasetakeitaway!\'sheimplored。 \'Allingoodtimenamely,whenyoulovemebest,\'hereturnedcalmly。\'Youdon\'tquiteyet——eh?\' \'Idon\'tknow——Ithink——OUplandtowers,havemercy——Icannotbearit——O,inpity,takeitaway!\' \'Nonsense;onegetsaccustomedtoanything。Takeanothergaze。\' Inshort,heallowedthedoorstoremainunclosedatthefootofthebed,andthewax-tapersburning;andsuchwasthestrangefascinationofthegrislyexhibitionthatamorbidcuriositytookpossessionoftheCountessasshelay,and,athisrepeatedrequest,shedidagainlookoutfromthecoverlet,shuddered,hidhereyes,andlookedagain,allthewhilebegginghimtotakeitaway,oritwoulddriveheroutofhersenses。Buthewouldnotdosoasyet,andthewardrobewasnotlockedtilldawn。 Thescenewasrepeatedthenextnight。Firminenforcinghisferociouscorrectives,hecontinuedthetreatmenttillthenervesofthepoorladywerequiveringinagonyunderthevirtuoustorturesinflictedbyherlord,tobringhertruantheartbacktofaithfulness。 Thethirdnight,whenthescenehadopenedasusual,andshelaystaringwithimmensewildeyesatthehorridfascination,onasuddenshegaveanunnaturallaugh;shelaughedmoreandmore,staringattheimage,tillsheliterallyshriekedwithlaughter: thentherewassilence,andhefoundhertohavebecomeinsensible。 Hethoughtshehadfainted,butsoonsawthattheeventwasworse: shewasinanepilepticfit。Hestartedup,dismayedbythesensethat,likemanyothersubtlepersonages,hehadbeentooexactingforhisowninterests。Suchloveashewascapableof,thoughratheraselfishgloatingthanacherishingsolicitude,wasfannedintolifeontheinstant。Heclosedthewardrobewiththepulley,claspedherinhisarms,tookhergentlytothewindow,anddidallhecouldtorestoreher。 ItwasalongtimebeforetheCountesscametoherself,andwhenshedidso,aconsiderablechangeseemedtohavetakenplaceinheremotions。Sheflungherarmsaroundhim,andwithgaspsoffearabjectlykissedhimmanytimes,atlastburstingintotears。Shehadneverweptinthisscenebefore。 \'You\'lltakeitaway,dearest——youwill!\'shebeggedplaintively。 \'Ifyouloveme。\' \'Ido——oh,Ido!\' \'Andhatehim,andhismemory?\' \'Yes——yes!\' \'Thoroughly?\' \'Icannotendurerecollectionofhim!\'criedthepoorCountessslavishly。\'Itfillsmewithshame——howcouldIeverbesodepraved!I\'llneverbehavebadlyagain,Uplandtowers;andyouwillneverputthehatedstatueagainbeforemyeyes?\' Hefeltthathecouldpromisewithperfectsafety。\'Never,\'saidhe。 \'AndthenI\'llloveyou,\'shereturnedeagerly,asifdreadinglestthescourgeshouldbeappliedanew。\'AndI\'llnever,neverdreamofthinkingasinglethoughtthatseemslikefaithlessnesstomymarriagevow。\' Thestrangethingnowwasthatthisfictitiouslovewrungfromherbyterrortookon,throughmerehabitofenactment,acertainqualityofreality。AservilemoodofattachmenttotheEarlbecamedistinctlyvisibleinhercontemporaneouslywithanactualdislikeforherlatehusband\'smemory。Themoodofattachmentgrewandcontinuedwhenthestatuewasremoved。Apermanentrevulsionwasoperantinher,whichintensifiedastimeworeon。Howfrightcouldhaveeffectedsuchachangeofidiosyncrasylearnedphysiciansalonecansay;butIbelievesuchcasesofreactionaryinstinctarenotunknown。 Theupshotwasthatthecurebecamesopermanentastobeitselfanewdisease。Sheclungtohimsotightly,thatshewouldnotwillinglybeoutofhissightforamoment。Shewouldhavenositting-roomapartfromhis,thoughshecouldnothelpstartingwhenheenteredsuddenlytoher。Hereyeswerewell-nighalwaysfixeduponhim。Ifhedroveout,shewishedtogowithhim;hisslightestcivilitiestootherwomenmadeherfranticallyjealous;tillatlengthherveryfidelitybecameaburdentohim,absorbinghistime,andcurtailinghisliberty,andcausinghimtocurseandswear。Ifheeverspokesharplytohernow,shedidnotrevengeherselfbyflyingofftoamentalworldofherown;allthataffectionforanother,whichhadprovidedherwitharesource,wasnowacoldblackcinder。 Fromthattimethelifeofthisscaredandenervatedlady——whoseexistencemighthavebeendevelopedtosomuchhigherpurposebutfortheignobleambitionofherparentsandtheconventionsofthetime——wasoneofobsequiousamativenesstowardsaperverseandcruelman。Littlepersonaleventscametoherinquicksuccession——halfadozen,eight,nine,tensuchevents,——inbrief;sheborehimnolessthanelevenchildrenintheeightfollowingyears,buthalfofthemcameprematurelyintotheworld,ordiedafewdaysold;onlyone,agirl,attainedtomaturity;sheinafteryearsbecamethewifeoftheHonourableMr。Beltonleigh,whowascreatedLordD\'Almaine,asmayberemembered。 Therewasnolivingsonandheir。Atlength,completelywornoutinmindandbody,LadyUplandtowerswastakenabroadbyherhusband,totrytheeffectofamoregenialclimateuponherwastedframe。Butnothingavailedtostrengthenher,andshediedatFlorence,afewmonthsafterherarrivalinItaly。 Contrarytoexpectation,theEarlofUplandtowersdidnotmarryagain。Suchaffectionasexistedinhim——strange,hard,brutalasitwas——seemeduntransferable,andthetitle,asisknown,passedathisdeathtohisnephew。Perhapsitmaynotbesogenerallyknownthat,duringtheenlargementoftheHallforthesixthEarl,whiledigginginthegroundsforthenewfoundations,thebrokenfragmentsofamarblestatuewereunearthed。Theyweresubmittedtovariousantiquaries,whosaidthat,sofarasthedamagedpieceswouldallowthemtoformanopinion,thestatueseemedtobethatofamutilatedRomansatyr;orifnot,anallegoricalfigureofDeath。Onlyoneortwooldinhabitantsguessedwhosestatuethosefragmentshadcomposed。 Ishouldhaveaddedthat,shortlyafterthedeathoftheCountess,anexcellentsermonwaspreachedbytheDeanofMelchester,thesubjectofwhich,thoughnameswerenotmentioned,wasunquestionablysuggestedbytheaforesaidevents。Hedweltuponthefollyofindulgenceinsensuousloveforahandsomeformmerely;andshowedthattheonlyrationalandvirtuousgrowthsofthataffectionwerethosebaseduponintrinsicworth。InthecaseofthetenderbutsomewhatshallowladywhoselifeIhaverelated,thereisnodoubtthataninfatuationforthepersonofyoungWilloweswasthechieffeelingthatinducedhertomarryhim;whichwasthemoredeplorableinthathisbeauty,byalltradition,wastheleastofhisrecommendations,everyreportbearingouttheinferencethathemusthavebeenamanofsteadfastnature,brightintelligence,andpromisinglife。 Thecompanythankedtheoldsurgeonforhisstory,whichtheruraldeandeclaredtobeafarmorestrikingonethananythinghecouldhopetotell。AnelderlymemberoftheClub,whowasmostlycalledtheBookworm,saidthatawoman\'snaturalinstinctoffidelitywould,indeed,sendbackherhearttoamanafterhisdeathinatrulywonderfulmannersometimes——ifanythingoccurredtoputbeforeherforciblytheoriginalaffectionbetweenthem,andhisoriginalaspectinhereyes,——whateverhisinferioritymayhavebeen,socialorotherwise;andthenageneralconversationensueduponthepowerthatawomanhasofseeingtheactualintherepresentation,therealityinthedream——apowerwhich(accordingtothesentimentalmember)menhavenofacultyofequalling。 Theruraldeanthoughtthatsuchcasesasthatrelatedbythesurgeonwereratheranillustrationofpassionelectrifiedbacktolifethanofalatent,trueaffection。Thestoryhadsuggestedthatheshouldtrytorecounttothemonewhichhehadusedtohearinhisyouth,andwhichaffordedaninstanceofthelatterandbetterkindoffeeling,hisheroinebeingalsoaladywhohadmarriedbeneathher,thoughhefearedhisnarrativewouldbeofamuchslighterkindthanthesurgeon\'s。TheClubbeggedhimtoproceed,andtheparsonbegan。 DAMETHETHIRD:THEMARCHIONESSOFSTONEHENGE BytheRuralDeanIwouldhaveyouknow,then,thatagreatmanyyearsagotherelivedinaclassicalmansionwithwhichIusedtobefamiliar,standingnotahundredmilesfromthecityofMelchester,aladywhosepersonalcharmsweresorareandunparalleledthatshewascourted,flattered,andspoiltbyalmostalltheyoungnoblemenandgentlemeninthatpartofWessex。Foratimetheseattentionspleasedherwell。Butas,inthewordsofgoodRobertSouth(whosesermonsmightbereadmuchmorethantheyare),themostpassionateloverofsport,iftiedtofollowhishawksandhoundseverydayofhislife,wouldfindthepursuitthegreatesttormentandcalamity,andwouldflytotheminesandgalleysforhisrecreation,sodidthisloftyandbeautifulladyafterawhilebecomesatiatedwiththeconstantiterationofwhatshehadinitsnoveltyenjoyed;andbyanalmostnaturalrevulsionturnedherregardsabsolutelynetherward,sociallyspeaking。Sheperverselyandpassionatelycentredheraffectiononquiteaplain-lookingyoungmanofhumblebirthandnopositionatall;thoughitistruethathewasgentleanddelicateinnature,ofgoodaddress,andguilelessheart。Inshort,hewastheparish- clerk\'sson,actingasassistanttotheland-stewardofherfather,theEarlofAvon,withthehopeofbecomingsomedayaland-stewardhimself。ItshouldbesaidthatperhapstheLadyCaroline(asshewascalled)wasalittlestimulatedinthispassionbythediscoverythatayounggirlofthevillagealreadylovedtheyoungmanfondly,andthathehadpaidsomeattentionstoher,thoughmerelyofacasualandgood-naturedkind。 Sincehisoccupationbroughthimfrequentlytothemanor-houseanditsenvirons,LadyCarolinecouldmakeampleopportunitiesofseeingandspeakingtohim。Shehad,inChaucer\'sphrase,\'allthecraftoffineloving\'atherfingers\'ends,andtheyoungman,beingofareadily-kindlingheart,wasquicktonoticethetendernessinhereyesandvoice。Hecouldnotatfirstbelieveinhisgoodfortune,havingnounderstandingofherwearinessofmoreartificialmen;butatimecomeswhenthestupidestseesinaneyetheglanceofhisotherhalf;anditcametohim,whowasquitethereverseofdull。 Ashegainedconfidenceaccidentalencountersledtoencountersbydesign;tillatlengthwhentheywerealonetogethertherewasnoreserveonthematter。Theywhisperedtenderwordsasotherloversdo,andwereasdevotedapairaseverwasseen。Butnotarayorsymptomofthisattachmentwasallowedtoshowitselftotheouterworld。 Now,asshebecamelessandlessscrupuloustowardshimundertheinfluenceofheraffection,andhebecamemoreandmorereverentialundertheinfluenceofhis,andtheylookedthesituationinthefacetogether,theirconditionseemedintolerableinitshopelessness。Thatshecouldeverasktobeallowedtomarryhim,orcouldholdhertongueandquietlyrenouncehim,wasequallybeyondconception。Theyresolveduponathirdcourse,possessingneitherofthedisadvantagesofthesetwo:towedsecretly,andliveoninoutwardappearancethesameasbefore。Inthistheydifferedfromtheloversofmyfriend\'sstory。