第5章

类别:其他 作者:Charles Dickens字数:7537更新时间:18/12/13 16:21:26
IfeltthatIwentpale,andthoughnat\'rallyaboldspeaker,I couldn\'thardlysay,\"Where\'sNormandy?\" \"Bolted。Withtheplate,\"saidMr。Chops。 \"Andt\'otherone?\"meaninghimasformerlyworethebishop\'smitre。 \"Bolted。Withthejewels,\"saidMr。Chops。 Isatdownandlookedathim,andhestoodupandlookedatme。 \"Magsman,\"hesays,andheseemedtomyselftogetwiserashegothoarser;\"Society,takeninthelump,isalldwarfs。AtthecourtofSt。James\'s,theywasalladoingmyoldbusiness——allagointhreetimesroundtheCairawan,intheholdcourt-suitsandproperties。Elsewheres,theywasmostof\'emringintheirlittlebellsoutofmake-believes。Everywheres,thesarserwasagoinround。Magsman,thesarseristheuniwersalInstitution!\" Iperceived,youunderstand,thathewassouredbyhismisfortunes,andIfeltforMr。Chops。 \"AstoFatLadies,\"hesays,givinghisheadatremendiousoneaginthewall,\"there\'slotsofTHEMinSociety,andworsethantheoriginal。HERSwasaoutrageuponTaste——simplyaoutrageuponTaste——awakenincontempt——carryinitsownpunishmentintheformofaIndian。\"Herehegivhimselfanothertremendiousone。\"ButTHEIRS,Magsman,THEIRSismercenaryoutrages。LayinCashmeershawls,buybracelets,strew\'emandalotof\'andsomefansandthingsaboutyourrooms,letitbeknownthatyougiveawaylikewatertoallascometoadmire,andtheFatLadiesthatdon\'texhibitforsomuchdownuponthedrum,willcomefromallthepintsofthecompasstoflockaboutyou,whateveryouare。They\'lldrillholesinyour\'art,Magsman,likeaCullender。Andwhenyou\'venomorelefttogive,they\'lllaughatyoutoyourface,andleaveyoutohaveyourbonespickeddrybyWulturs,likethedeadWildAssofthePrairiesthatyoudeservetobe!\"Herehegivhimselfthemosttremendiousoneofall,anddropped。 Ithoughthewasgone。HisEdwassoheavy,andheknockeditsohard,andhefellsostoney,andthesassagerialdisturbanceinhimmusthavebeensoimmense,thatIthoughthewasgone。But,hesooncomeroundwithcare,andhesatuponthefloor,andhesaidtome,withwisdomcominoutofhiseyes,ifeveritcome: \"Magsman!Themostmaterialdifferencebetweenthetwostatesofexistencethroughwhichyourunhappyfriendhaspassed;\"hereachedouthispoorlittlehand,andhistearsdroppeddownonthemoustachiowhichitwasacredittohimtohavedonehisbesttogrow,butitisnotinmortalstocommandsuccess,——\"thedifferencethis。WhenIwasoutofSociety,Iwaspaidlightforbeingseen。 WhenIwentintoSociety,Ipaidheavyforbeingseen。Iprefertheformer,evenifIwasn\'tforceduponit。Givemeoutthroughthetrumpet,intheholdway,to-morrow。\" Arterthat,heslidintothelineagainaseasyasifhehadbeeniledallover。Buttheorganwaskepfromhim,andnoallusionswasevermade,whenacompanywasin,tohisproperty。Hegotwisereveryday;hisviewsofSocietyandthePublicwasluminous,bewilderin,awful;andhisEdgotbiggerandbiggerashisWisdomexpandedit。 Hetookwell,andpulled\'eminmostexcellentfornineweeks。Attheexpirationofthatperiod,whenhisEdwasasight,heexpressedoneevenin,thelastCompanyhavinbeenturnedout,andthedoorshut,awishtohavealittlemusic。 \"Mr。Chops,\"Isaid(Ineverdroppedthe\"Mr。\"withhim;theworldmightdoit,butnotme);\"Mr。Chops,areyousureasyouareinastateofmindandbodytositupontheorgan?\" Hisanswerwasthis:\"Toby,whennextmetwithonthetramp,I forgiveherandtheIndian。AndIam。\" ItwaswithfearandtremblingthatIbegantoturnthehandle;buthesatlikealamb。Iwillbemybelieftomydyingday,thatIseehisEdexpandashesat;youmaythereforejudgehowgreathisthoughtswas。Hesatoutallthechanges,andthenhecomeoff。 \"Toby,\"hesays,withaquietsmile,\"thelittlemanwillnowwalkthreetimesroundtheCairawan,andretirebehindthecurtain。\" Whenwecalledhiminthemorning,wefoundhimgoneintoamuchbetterSocietythanmineorPallMall\'s。IgivMr。Chopsascomfortableafuneralaslayinmypower,followedmyselfasChief,andhadtheGeorgetheFourthcanvasscarriedfirst,intheformofabanner。But,theHousewassodismalarterwards,thatIgivitup,andtooktotheWanagain。 \"Idon\'ttriumph,\"saidJarber,foldingupthesecondmanuscript,andlookinghardatTrottle。\"Idon\'ttriumphoverthisworthycreature。Imerelyaskhimifheissatisfiednow?\" \"Howcanhebeanythingelse?\"Isaid,answeringforTrottle,whosatobstinatelysilent。\"Thistime,Jarber,youhavenotonlyreadusadelightfullyamusingstory,butyouhavealsoansweredthequestionabouttheHouse。Ofcourseitstandsemptynow。Whowouldthinkoftakingitafterithadbeenturnedintoacaravan?\"I lookedatTrottle,asIsaidthoselastwords,andJarberwavedhishandindulgentlyinthesamedirection。 \"Letthisexcellentpersonspeak,\"saidJarber。\"Youwereabouttosay,mygoodman?\"- \"Ionlywishedtoask,sir,\"saidTrottledoggedly,\"ifyoucouldkindlyobligemewithadateortwoinconnectionwiththatlaststory?\" \"Adate!\"repeatedJarber。\"Whatdoesthemanwantwithdates!\" \"Ishouldbegladtoknow,withgreatrespect,\"persistedTrottle,\"ifthepersonnamedMagsmanwasthelasttenantwholivedintheHouse。It\'smyopinion——ifImaybeexcusedforgivingit——thathemostdecidedlywasnot。\" Withthosewords,Trottlemadealowbow,andquietlylefttheroom。 ThereisnodenyingthatJarber,whenwewerelefttogether,lookedsadlydiscomposed。Hehadevidentlyforgottentoinquireaboutdates;and,inspiteofhismagnificenttalkabouthisseriesofdiscoveries,itwasquiteasplainthatthetwostorieshehadjustread,hadreallyandtrulyexhaustedhispresentstock。Ithoughtmyselfbound,incommongratitude,tohelphimoutofhisembarrassmentbyatimelysuggestion。SoIproposedthatheshouldcometoteaagain,onthenextMondayevening,thethirteenth,andshouldmakesuchinquiriesinthemeantime,asmightenablehimtodisposetriumphantlyofTrottle\'sobjection。 Hegallantlykissedmyhand,madeaneatlittlespeechofacknowledgment,andtookhisleave。FortherestoftheweekI wouldnotencourageTrottlebyallowinghimtorefertotheHouseatall。Isuspectedhewasmakinghisowninquiriesaboutdates,butI putnoquestionstohim。 OnMondayevening,thethirteenth,thatdearunfortunateJarbercame,punctualtotheappointedtime。Helookedsoterriblyharassed,thathewasreallyquiteaspectacleoffeeblenessandfatigue。Isaw,ataglance,thatthequestionofdateshadgoneagainsthim,thatMr。MagsmanhadnotbeenthelasttenantoftheHouse,andthatthereasonofitsemptinesswasstilltoseek。 \"WhatIhavegonethrough,\"saidJarber,\"wordsarenoteloquentenoughtotell。OSophonisba,Ihavebegunanotherseriesofdiscoveries!Acceptthelasttwoasstorieslaidonyourshrine; andwaittoblamemeforleavingyourcuriosityunappeased,untilyouhaveheardNumberThree。\" NumberThreelookedlikeaveryshortmanuscript,andIsaidasmuch。Jarberexplainedtomethatweweretohavesomepoetrythistime。InthecourseofhisinvestigationshehadsteppedintotheCirculatingLibrary,toseekforinformationontheoneimportantsubject。AlltheLibrary-peopleknewabouttheHousewas,thatafemalerelativeofthelasttenant,astheybelieved,had,justafterthattenantleft,sentalittlemanuscriptpoemtothemwhichshedescribedasreferringtoeventsthathadactuallypassedintheHouse;andwhichshewantedtheproprietoroftheLibrarytopublish。Shehadwrittennoaddressonherletter;andtheproprietorhadkeptthemanuscriptreadytobegivenbacktoher(thepublishingofpoemsnotbeinginhisline)whenshemightcallforit。Shehadnevercalledforit;andthepoemhadbeenlenttoJarber,athisexpressrequest,toreadtome。 Beforehebegan,IrangthebellforTrottle;beingdeterminedtohavehimpresentatthenewreading,asawholesomecheckonhisobstinacy。TomysurprisePeggyansweredthebell,andtoldme,thatTrottlehadsteppedoutwithoutsayingwhere。Iinstantlyfeltthestrongestpossibleconvictionthathewasathisoldtricks: andthathissteppingoutintheevening,withoutleave,meant—— Philandering。 Controllingmyselfonmyvisitor\'saccount,IdismissedPeggy,stifledmyindignation,andprepared,aspolitelyasmightbe,tolistentoJarber。 THREEEVENINGSINTHEHOUSE NUMBERONE。 I。 Yes,itlook\'ddarkanddrearyThatlongandnarrowstreet: Onlythesoundoftherain,Andthetrampofpassingfeet,Thedullerglowofthefire,AndgatheringmistsofnightTomarkhowslowandwearyThelongday\'scheerlessflight! II。 Watchingthesullenfire,Hearingthedrearyrain,Dropafterdrop,rundownOnthedarkeningwindow-pane; ChillwastheheartofBertha,Chillasthatwinterday,- ForthestarofherlifehadrisenOnlytofadeaway。 III。 ThevoicethathadbeensostrongTobidthesnaredepart,Thetrueandearnestwill,Andthecalmandsteadfastheart,Werenowweigh\'ddownbysorrow,Werequiveringnowwithpain; Theclearpathnowseem\'dclouded,Andallhergriefinvain。 IV。 Duty,Right,Truth,whopromisedTohelpandsavetheirown,Seem\'dspreadingwidetheirpinionsToleavehertherealone。 So,turningfromthePresentTowell-knowndaysofyore,Shecall\'donthemtostrengthenAndguardhersouloncemore。 V。 ShethoughthowinhergirlhoodHerlifewasgivenaway,ThesolemnpromisespokenShekeptsowellto-day; HowtoherbrotherHerbertShehadbeenhelpandguide,Andhowhisartist-natureOnhercalmstrengthrelied。 VI。 Howthroughlife\'sfretandturmoilThepassionandfireofartInhimwassoothedandquicken\'dByhertruesisterheart; HowfuturehopeshadalwaysBeenforhissakealone; Andnow,whatstrangenewfeelingPossess\'dherasitsown? VII。 Herhome;eachflowerthatbreathedthere; Thewind\'ssigh,softandlow; Eachtremblingsprayofivy; Theriver\'smurmuringflow; Theshadowoftheforest; Sunset,ortwilightdim; Dearastheywere,weredearerByleavingthemforhim。 VIII。 AndeachyearasitfoundherInthedull,feverishtown,Sawselfstillmoreforgotten,AndselfishcarekeptdownBythecalmjoyofeveningThatbroughthimtoherside,Towarnhimwithwisecounsel,Orpraisewithtenderpride。 IX。 Herheart,herlife,herfuture,Hergenius,onlymeantAnotherthingtogivehim,Andbetherewithcontent。 To-day,whatwordshadstirr\'dher,Hersoulcouldnotforget? Whatdreamhadfill\'dherspiritWithstrangeandwildregret? X。 Toleavehimforanother: Coulditindeedbeso? CouldithavecostsuchanguishTobidthisvisiongo? Wasthisherfaith?WasHerbertThesecondinherheart? DiditneedallthisstruggleTobidadreamdepart? XI。 Andyet,withinherspiritAfar-offlandwasseen; Ahome,whichmighthaveheldher; Alove,whichmighthavebeen; AndLife:notthemerebeingOfdailyebbandflow,ButLifeitselfhadclaim\'dher,Andshehadletitgo! XII。 Withinherheartthereecho\'dAgainthewell-knowntuneThatpromisedthisbrightfuture,Andask\'dherforitsown: Thenwordsofsorrow,brokenByhalf-reproachfulpain; Andthenafarewell,spokenInwordsofcolddisdain。 XIII。 WherenowwasthesternpurposeThatnervedhersoulsolong? Whencecamethewordssheutter\'d,Sohard,socold,sostrong? WhatrighthadshetobanishAhopethatGodhadgiven? Whymustshechooseearth\'sportion,AndturnasidefromHeaven? XIV。 To-day!Wasitthismorning? Ifthislong,fearfulstrifeWasbuttheworkofhours,Whatwouldbeyearsoflife? WhydidacruelHeavenForsuchgreatsufferingcall? Andwhy——O,stillmorecruel!- Mustherownwordsdoall? XV。 Didsherepent?OSorrow! WhydowelingerstillTotakethylovingmessage,Anddothygentlewill? See,hertearsfallmoreslowly; Thepassionatemurmurscease,AndbackuponherspiritFlowstrength,andlove,andpeace。 XVI。 Thefireburnsmorebrightly,Therainhaspassedaway,HerbertwillseenoshadowUponhishometo-day; OnlythatBerthagreetshimWithdoublytendercare,KissingafonderblessingDownonhisgoldenhair。 NUMBERTWO。 I。 Thestudioisdeserted,Paletteandbrushlaidby,Thesketchrestsontheeasel,Thepaintisscarcelydry; AndSilence——whoseemsalwaysWithinherdepthstobearThenextsoundthatwillutter- Nowholdsadumbdespair。 II。 SoBerthafeelsit:listeningWithbreathless,stonyfear,WaitingthedreadfulsummonsEachminutebringsmorenear: Whentheyounglife,nowebbing,Shallfail,andpassawayIntothatmightyshadowWhoshroudsthehouseto-day。 III。 Butwhy——whenthesickchamberIsontheupperfloor- WhydaresnotBerthaenterWithintheclose-shutdoor? Ifhe——herall——herBrother,Liesdyinginthatgloom,WhatstrangemysteriouspowerHassentherfromtheroom? IV。 Itisnotoneweek\'sanguishThatcanhavechangedherso; Joyhasnotdiedherelately,Struckdownbyonequickblow; ButcruelmonthshaveneededTheirlongrelentlesschain,ToteachthatshrinkingmannerOfhelpless,hopelesspain。 V。 ThestrugglewasscarceoverLastChristmasEvehadbrought: ThefibresstillwerequiveringOftheonewoundedthought,WhenHerbert——who,unconscious,Hadguessednoinwardstrife- Badeher,inprideandpleasure,Welcomehisfairyoungwife。 VI。 Badeherrejoice,andsmiling,Althoughhiseyesweredim,Thank\'dGodhethuscouldpayherThecareshegavetohim。 ThisfreshbrightlifewouldbringherAnewandjoyousfate- OBertha,checkthemurmurThatcries,Toolate!toolate! VII。 Toolate!CouldshehaveknownitAfewshortweeksbefore,Thathislifewascompleted,Andneedinghersnomore,Shemight——Osadrepining! What\"mighthavebeen,\"forget; \"Itwasnot,\"shouldsufficeusTostiflevainregret。 VIII。 Heneededhernolonger,Eachdayitgrewmoreplain; Firstwithastartledwonder,Thenwithawonderingpain。 Love:why,hiswifebestgaveit; Comfort:durstBerthaspeak? Counsel:whenquickresentmentFlush\'dontheyoungwife\'scheek。 IX。 NomorelongtalksbyfirelightOfchildishtimeslongpast,AnddreamsoffuturegreatnessWhichhemustreachatlast; Dreams,whereherpurerinstinctWithtruthunerringtoldWherewastheworthlessgilding,Andwhererefinedgold。 X。 Slowly,butsurelyever,Dora\'spoorjealouspride,Whichshecall\'dloveforHerbert,DroveBerthafromhisside; And,spiteofnervouseffortTosharetheiralter\'dlife,ShefeltachecktoHerbert,Aburdentohiswife。 XI。 Thiswastheleast;forBerthaFear\'d,dreaded,KNEWatlength,HowmuchhisnatureowedherOftruth,andpower,andstrength; Andwatch\'dthedailyfailingOfallhisnoblerpart: Lowaims,weakpurpose,tellingInlower,weakerart。 XII。 Andnow,whenheisdying,ThelastwordsshecouldhearMustnotbehers,butgivenThebrideofoneshortyear。 Thelastcareisanother\'s; ThelastprayermustnotbeTheonetheylearnttogetherBesidetheirmother\'sknee。 XIII。 Summon\'datlast:shekissesTheclay-coldstiffeninghand; And,readingpleadingeffortsTomakeherunderstand,Answers,withsolemnpromise,Inclearbuttremblingtone,ToDora\'slifehenceforwardShewilldevoteherown。 XIV。 Nowallisover。BerthaDaresnotremaintoweep,ButsoothesthefrightenedDoraIntoasobbingsleep。 Thepoorweakchildwillneedher: O,whocandarecomplain,WhenGodsendsanewDutyTocomforteachnewPain! NUMBERTHREE。 I。 TheHouseisalldesertedInthedimeveninggloom,OnlyonefigurepassesSlowlyfromroomtoroom; And,pausingateachdoorway,SeemsgatheringupagainWithinherhearttherelicsOfbygonejoyandpain。 II。 ThereisanearnestlongingInthosewhoonwardgaze,LookingwithwearypatienceTowardsthecomingdays。 Thereisadeeperlonging,Moresad,morestrong,morekeen: Thoseknowitwholookbackward,Andyearnforwhathasbeen。 III。 Ateveryhearthshepauses,Toucheseachwell-knownchair; Gazesfromeverywindow,Lingersoneverystair。 WhathavethesemonthsbroughtBerthaNowonemoreyearispast? ThisChristmasEveshalltellus,Thethirdoneandthelast。 IV。 Thewilful,waywardDora,Inthosefirstweeksofgrief,CouldseekandfindinBerthaStrength,soothing,andrelief。 AndBertha——lastsadcomfortTruewoman-heartcantake- HadsomethingstilltosufferAnddoforHerbert\'ssake。 V。 Spring,withherwesternbreezes,FromIndianislandsboreToBerthanewsthatLeonardWouldseekhishomeoncemore。 Whatwasit——joy,orsorrow? Whatwerethey——hopes,orfears? Thatflush\'dhercheekswithcrimson,Andfill\'dhereyeswithtears? VI。 Hecame。AndwhosokindlyCouldaskandhearhertellHerbert\'slasthours;forLeonardHadknownandlovedhimwell。 Dailyhecame;andBertha,Poorwearheart,atlength,Weigh\'ddownbyother\'sweakness,Couldrestuponhisstrength。 VII。 YetnotthevoiceofLeonardCouldhertruecarebeguile,Thatturn\'dtowatch,rejoicing,Dora\'srevivingsmile。 So,fromthatlittlehouseholdTheworstgloompass\'daway,TheonebrighthourofeveningLitupthelivelongday。 VIII。 Dayspassed。ThegoldensummerInsuddenheatboredownItsblue,bright,glowingsweetnessUponthescorchingtown。 AndsightsandsoundsofcountryCameinthewarmsofttuneSungbythehoney\'dbreezesBorneonthewingsofJune。 IX。 Onetwilighthour,butearlierThanusual,BerthathoughtSheknewthefreshsweetfragranceOfflowersthatLeonardbrought; Throughopen\'ddoorsandwindowsItstoleupthroughthegloom,AndwithappealingsweetnessDrewBerthafromherroom。 X。 Yes,hewasthere;andpausingJustneartheopen\'ddoor,Tocheckherheart\'squickbeating,Sheheard——andpausedstillmore- HislowvoiceDora\'sanswers- Hispleading——Yes,sheknewThetone——thewords——theaccents: Sheoncehadheardthemtoo。 XI。