Thezestforthiswasnowwell-nighover。Butonawakinginthemorningandlookingupthevalleytowardsthecastle,andatthedarkgreenheightoftheKonigsstuhlalongside,hefeltthattobecomevanquishedbyapassion,driventosuffer,fast,andprayinthedullpainsandvapoursofdespisedlove,wasacontingencynottobewelcomedtooreadily。Thereuponhesethimselftolearnthesadscienceofrenunciation,whicheverybodyhastolearninhisdegree——eitherrebellingthroughoutthelesson,or,likeSomerset,takingtoitkindlybyforceofjudgment。Amoreobstinatepupilmighthavealtogetherescapedthelessoninthepresentcasebydiscoveringitsillegality。
Resolvingtopersevereintheheretoforesatisfactorypathsofartwhilelifeandfacultieswereleft,thougheveryinstinctmustproclaimthattherewouldbenolongeranycollateralattractioninthatpursuit,hewentalongunderthetreesoftheAnlageandreachedthecastlevaults,inwhosecoolshadeshespenttheafternoon,workingouthisintentionswithfairresult。Whenhehadstrolledbacktohishotelintheeveningthetimewasapproachingforthetable-d\'hote。Havingseatedhimselfratherearly,hespentthefewminutesofwaitinginlookingoverhispocket-book,andputtingafewfinishingtouchestotheafternoonperformancewhilsttheobjectswerefreshinhismemory。Thusoccupiedhewasbutdimlyconsciousofthecustomaryrustleofdressesandpullingupofchairsbythecrowdofotherdinersastheygatheredaroundhim。
Servingbegan,andheputawayhisbookandpreparedforthemeal。Hehadhardlydonethiswhenhebecameconsciousthatthepersononhislefthandwasnotthetypicalcosmopolitewithboundlesshotelknowledgeandirrelevantexperiencesthathewasaccustomedtofindnexthim,butafaceherecognizedasthatofayoungmanwhomhehadmetandtalkedtoatStancyCastlegarden-party,whosenamehehadnowforgotten。Thisyoungfellowwasconversingwithsomebodyonhislefthand——nootherpersonagethanPaulaherself。NexttoPaulahebeheldDeStancy,andDeStancy\'ssisterbeyondhim。Itwasoneofthosegratuitousencounterswhichonlyhappentodiscardedloverswhohaveshowncommendablestoicismunderdisappointment,asifonpurposetoreopenandaggravatetheirwounds。
Itseemedasiftheinterveningtravellerhadmettheotherpartybyaccidentthereandthen。InaminuteheturnedandrecognizedSomerset,andbydegreestheyoungmen\'scursoryremarkstoeachotherdevelopedintoaprettyregularconversation,interruptedonlywhenheturnedtospeaktoPaulaonhislefthand。
\'Yourarchitecturaladvisertravelsinyourparty:howveryconvenient,\'saidtheyoungtouristtoher。\'Farpleasanterthanhavingamedicalattendantinone\'strain!\'
Somerset,whohadnodistractionsontheothersideofhim,couldheareverywordofthis。HeglancedatPaula。Shehadnotknownofhispresenceintheroomtillnow。Theireyesmetforasecond,andshebowedsedately。Somersetreturnedherbow,andhereyeswerequicklywithdrawnwithscarcelyvisibleconfusion。
\'Mr。Somersetisnottravellingwithus,\'shesaid。\'Wehavemetbyaccident。Mr。Somersetcametomeonbusinessalittlewhileago。\'
\'Imustcongratulateyouonhavingputthecastleintogoodhands,\'continuedtheenthusiasticyoungman。
\'IbelieveMr。Somersetisquitecompetent,\'saidPaulastiffly。
ToincludeSomersetintheconversationtheyoungmanturnedtohimandadded:\'Youcarryonyourworkatthecastleconamore,nodoubt?\'
\'ThereisworkIshouldlikebetter,\'saidSomerset。
\'Indeed?\'
Thefrigidityofhismannerseemedtosetherateasebydispersingallfearofascene;andalternatedialoguesofthissortwiththegentlemanintheirmidstweremoreorlesscontinuedbybothPaulaandSomersettilltheyrosefromtable。
Inthebustleofmovingoutthetwolatterforonemomentstoodsidebyside。
\'MissPower,\'saidSomerset,inalowvoicethatwasobscuredbytherustle,\'youhavenothingmoretosaytome?\'
\'Ithinkthereisnothingmore?\'saidPaula,liftinghereyeswithlongingreticence。
\'ThenItakeleaveofyou;andtendermybestwishesthatyoumayhaveapleasanttimebeforeyou!……IsetoutforEnglandto-night。\'
\'Withaspecialphotographer,nodoubt?\'
ItwasthefirsttimethatshehadaddressedSomersetwithameaningdistinctlybitter;andherremark,whichhadreferencetotheforgedphotograph,fellofcoursewithoutitsintendedeffect。
\'No,MissPower,\'saidSomersetgravely。\'Butwithadeepersenseofwoman\'sthoughtlesstriflingthantimewillevereradicate。\'
\'Isnotthatamistake?\'sheaskedinavoicethatdistinctlytrembled。
\'Amistake?How?\'
\'Imean,doyounotforgetmanythings?\'(throwingonhimatroubledglance)。\'Awomanmayfeelherselfjustifiedinherconduct,althoughitadmitsofnoexplanation。\'
\'Idon\'tcontestthepointforamoment……Goodbye。\'
\'Good-bye。\'
Theypartedamidthefloweringshrubsandcagedbirdsinthehall,andhesawhernomore。DeStancycameup,andspokeafewcommonplacewords,hissisterhavinggoneout,eitherwithoutperceivingSomerset,orwithintentiontoavoidhim。
Thatnight,ashehadsaid,hewasonhiswaytoEngland。
VII。
TheDeStancysandPowersremainedinHeidelbergforsomedays。AllremarkedthatafterSomerset\'sdeparturePaulawasfrequentlyirritable,thoughatothertimesassereneasever。
Yetevenwheninablitheandsaucymoodtherewasatbottomatingeofmelancholy。Somethingdidnotlieeasyinherundemonstrativeheart,andallherfriendsexcusedtheinequalitiesofahumourwhosesource,thoughnotpositivelyknown,couldbefairlywellguessed。
DeStancyhadlongsincediscoveredthathischancelaychieflyinherrecentlyacquiredandfancifulpredilectiond\'artisteforhoarymediaevalfamilieswithancestorsinalabasterandprimogenitiverenown。Seeingthishedweltonthosetopicswhichbroughtoutthataspectofhimselfmoreclearly,talkingfeudalismandchivalrywithazestthathehadneverhithertoshown。Yetitwasnotaltogetherfactitious。For,discoveringhowmuchthisquondamPuritanwasinterestedintheattributesoflong-chronicledhouses,areflectedinterestinhimselfaroseinhisownsoul,andhebegantowonderwhyhehadnotprizedthesethingsbefore。
Tillnowdisgustedbythefailureofhisfamilytoholditsownintheturmoilbetweenancientandmodern,hehadgrowntoundervalueitspastprestige;anditwaswithcorrectiveardourthatheadoptedwhileheministeredtoherviews。
HenceforwardthewooingofDeStancytooktheformofanintermittentaddress,theincidentsoftheirtravelfurnishingpegswhereontohanghissubject;sometimeshinderingit,butseldomfailingtoproduceinheragreatertoleranceofhispresence。HisnextopportunitywasthedayafterSomerset\'sdeparturefromHeidelberg。TheystoodonthegreatterraceoftheSchloss-Garten,lookingacrosstheinterveningravinetothenorth-eastfrontofthecastlewhichrosebeforetheminallitscustomarywarmtintsandbatteredmagnificence。
\'Thisisaspot,ifany,whichshouldbringmatterstoacrisisbetweenyouandme,\'heassertedgood-humouredly。\'Butyouhavebeensosilentto-daythatIlosethespirittotakeadvantageofmyprivilege。\'
Sheinquiredwhatprivilegehespokeof,asifquiteanothersubjecthadbeeninhermindthanDeStancy。
\'TheprivilegeofwinningyourheartifIcan,whichyougavemeatCarlsruhe。\'
\'O,\'shesaid。\'Well,I\'vebeenthinkingofthat。ButIdonotfeelmyselfabsolutelyboundbythestatementImadeinthatroom;andIshallexpect,ifIwithdrawit,nottobecalledtoaccountbyyou。\'
DeStancylookedratherblank。
\'Ifyourecedefromyourpromiseyouwilldoubtlesshavegoodreason。ButImustsolemnlybegyou,afterraisingmyhopes,tokeepasnearasyoucantoyourword,soasnottothrowmeintoutterdespair。\'
PauladroppedherglanceintotheThier-Gartenbelowthem,wheregaypromenaderswereclamberingupbetweenthebushesandflowers。Atlengthshesaid,withevidentembarrassment,butwithmuchdistinctness:\'IdeservemuchmoreblameforwhatIhavedonethanyoucanexpresstome。Iwillconfesstoyouthewholetruth。AllthatItoldyouinthehotelatCarlsruhewassaidinamomentofpiqueatwhathadhappenedjustbeforeyoucamein。ItwassupposedIwasmuchinvolvedwithanotherman,andcircumstancesmadethesuppositionparticularlyobjectionable。ToescapeitIjumpedatthealternativeofyourself。\'
\'That\'sbadforme!\'hemurmured。
\'IfafterthisavowalyoubindmetomywordsIshallsaynomore:Idonotwishtorecedefromthemwithoutyourfullpermission。\'
\'Whatacaprice!ButIreleaseyouunconditionally,\'hesaid。
\'AndIbegyourpardonifIseemedtoshowtoomuchassurance。
Pleaseputitdowntomygratifiedexcitement。Ientirelyacquiesceinyourwish。Iwillgoawaytowhateverplaceyouplease,andnotcomenearyoubutbyyourownpermission,andtillyouarequitesatisfiedthatmypresenceandwhatitmayleadtoisnotundesirable。Ientirelygivewaybeforeyou,andwillendeavourtomakemyfuturedevotedness,ifeverwemeetagain,anewgroundforexpectingyourfavour。\'
Paulaseemedstruckbythegenerousandcheerfulfairnessofhisremarks,andsaidgently,\'Perhapsyourdepartureisnotabsolutelynecessaryformyhappiness;andIdonotwishfromwhatyoucallcaprice——\'
\'Iretractthatword。\'
\'Well,whateveritis,Idon\'twishyoutodoanythingwhichshouldcauseyourealpain,ortrouble,orhumiliation。\'
\'That\'sverygoodofyou。\'
\'ButIreservetomyselftherighttoacceptorrefuseyouraddresses——justasifthoserashwordsofminehadneverbeenspoken。\'
\'ImustbearitallasbestIcan,Isuppose,\'saidDeStancy,withmelancholyhumorousness。
\'AndIshalltreatyouasyourbehaviourshallseemtodeserve,\'shesaidplayfully。
\'ThenImaystay?\'
\'Yes;Iamwillingtogiveyouthatpleasure,ifitisone,inreturnfortheattentionsyouhaveshown,andthetroubleyouhavetakentomakemyjourneypleasant。\'
ShewalkedonanddiscoveredMrs。Goodmannear,andpresentlythewholepartymettogether。DeStancydidnotfindhimselfagainathersidetilllaterintheafternoon,whentheyhadlefttheimmediateprecinctsofthecastleanddecidedonadrivetotheKonigsstuhl。
Thecarriage,containingonlyMrs。Goodman,wasdrivenashortwayupthewindingincline,Paula,heruncle,andMissDeStancywalkingbehindundertheshadowofthetrees。ThenMrs。Goodmancalledtothemandaskedwhentheyweregoingtojoinher。
\'Wearegoingtowalkup,\'saidMr。Power。
Paulaseemedseizedwithaspiritofboisterousnessquiteunlikeherusualbehaviour。\'Myauntmaydriveup,andyoumaywalkup;butIshallrunup,\'shesaid。\'See,here\'saway。\'Shetrippedtowardsapaththroughthebusheswhich,insteadofwindingliketheregulartrack,madestraightforthesummit。
Paulahadnottheremotestconceptionoftheactualdistancetothetop,imaginingittobebutacoupleofhundredyardsattheoutside,whereasitwasreallyneareramile,theascentbeinguniformlysteepalltheway。WhenheruncleandDeStancyhadseenhervanishtheystoodstill,theformerevidentlyreluctanttoforsaketheeasyascentforadifficultone,thoughhesaid,\'Wecan\'tlethergoalonethatway,I
suppose。\'
\'No,ofcoursenot,\'saidDeStancy。
TheythenfollowedinthedirectiontakenbyPaula,Charlotteenteringthecarriage。WhenPowerandDeStancyhadascendedaboutfiftyyardstheformerlookedback,anddroppedofffromthepursuit,toreturntotheeasyroute,givinghiscompanionapartinghintconcerningPaula。WhereuponDeStancywentonalone。HesoonsawPaulaabovehiminthepath,whichascendedskywardstraightasJacob\'sLadder,butwassooverhungbythebrushwoodastobequiteshutoutfromthesun。Whenhereachedhersideshewasmovingeasilyupward,apparentlyenjoyingtheseclusionwhichtheplaceafforded。
\'Isnotmyunclewithyou?\'shesaid,onturningandseeinghim。
\'Hewentback,\'saidDeStancy。
Sherepliedthatitwasofnoconsequence;thatsheshouldmeethimatthetop,shesupposed。
Paulalookedupamidthegreenlightwhichfilteredthroughtheleafageasfarashereyescouldstretch。Butthetopdidnotappear,andsheallowedDeStancytogetinfront。\'Itdidnotseemsuchalongwayasthis,tolookat,\'shepresentlysaid。
Heexplainedthatthetreeshaddeceivedherastotherealheight,byreasonofherseeingtheslopeforeshortenedwhenshelookedupfromthecastle。\'Allowmetohelpyou,\'headded。
\'No,thankyou,\'saidPaulalightly;\'wemustbenearthetop。\'
Theywentonagain;butnoKonigsstuhl。WhennextDeStancyturnedhefoundthatshewassittingdown;immediatelygoingbackheofferedhisarm。Shetookitinsilence,declaringthatitwasnowonderheruncledidnotcomethatwearisomeway,ifhehadeverbeentherebefore。
DeStancydidnotexplainthatMr。Powerhadsaidtohimatparting,\'There\'sachanceforyou,ifyouwantone,\'butatoncewentonwiththesubjectbegunontheterrace。\'Ifmybehaviourisgood,youwillreaffirmthestatementmadeatCarlsruhe?\'
\'Itisnotfairtobeginthatnow!\'expostulatedPaula;\'Icanonlythinkofgettingtothetop。\'
Hercolourdeepeningbytheexertion,hesuggestedthatsheshouldsitdownagainononeofthemossybouldersbythewayside。Nothinglothshedid,DeStancystandingby,andwithhiscanescratchingthemossfromthestone。
\'Thisisratherawkward,\'saidPaula,inherusualcircumspectway。\'Myrelativesandyoursisterwillbesuretosuspectmeofhavingarrangedthisscramblewithyou。\'
\'ButIknowbetter,\'sighedDeStancy。\'IwishtoHeavenyouhadarrangedit!\'
Shewasnotatthetop,butshetookadvantageofthehalttoanswerhispreviousquestion。\'TherearemanypointsonwhichImustbesatisfiedbeforeIcanreaffirmanything。Doyounotseethatyouaremistakeninclingingtothisidea?——thatyouarelayingupmortificationanddisappointmentforyourself?\'
\'Anegativereplyfromyouwouldbedisappointment,earlyorlate。\'
\'Andyoupreferhavingitlatetoacceptingitnow?IfIwereaman,Ishouldliketoabandonafalsescentassoonaspossible。\'
\'Isupposeallthathasbutonemeaning:thatIamtogo。\'
\'Ono,\'shemagnanimouslyassuredhim,boundingupfromherseat;\'Iadheretomystatementthatyoumaystay;thoughitistruesomethingmaypossiblyhappentomakemealtermymind。\'
Heagainofferedhisarm,andfromsheernecessitysheleantuponitasbefore。
\'Grantmebutamoment\'spatience,\'hebegan。
\'CaptainDeStancy!Isthisfair?Iamphysicallyobligedtoholdyourarm,sothatIMUSTlistentowhatyousay!\'
\'No,itisnotfair;\'ponmysoulitisnot!\'saidDeStancy。
\'Iwon\'tsayanotherword。\'
Hedidnot;andtheyclamberedonthroughtheboughs,nothingdisturbingthesolitudebuttherustleoftheirownfootstepsandthesingingofbirdsoverhead。Theyoccasionallygotapeepatthesky;andwheneveratwighungoutinapositiontostrikePaula\'sfacethegallantcaptainbentitasidewithhisstick。Butshedidnotthankhim。Perhapshewasjustaswellsatisfiedasifshehaddoneso。
Paula,panting,brokethesilence:\'Willyougoon,anddiscoverifthetopisnear?\'
Hewenton。Thistimethetopwasnear。Whenhereturnedshewassittingwherehehadleftheramongtheleaves。\'Itisquitenearnow,\'hetoldhertenderly,andshetookhisarmagainwithoutaword。Soonthepathchangeditsnaturefromasteepandruggedwatercoursetoalevelgreenpromenade。
\'Thankyou,CaptainDeStancy,\'shesaid,lettinggohisarmasifrelieved。
Beforethemrosethetower,andatthebasetheybeheldtwooftheirfriends,Mr。Powerbeingseenabove,lookingovertheparapetthroughhisglass。
\'Youwillgotothetopnow?\'saidDeStancy。
\'No,Itakenointerestinit。Myinteresthasturnedtofatigue。Ionlywanttogohome。\'
Hetookherontowherethecarriagestoodatthefootofthetower,andleavingherwithhissisterascendedtheturrettothetop。Thelandscapehadquitechangedfromitsafternoonappearance,andhadbecomerathermarvellousthanbeautiful。
Theairwaschargedwithaluridexhalationthatblurredtheextensiveview。HecouldseethedistantRhineatitsjunctionwiththeNeckar,shininglikeathreadofbloodthroughthemistwhichwasgraduallywrappingupthedecliningsun。Thescenehadinitsomethingthatwasmorethanmelancholy,andnotmuchlessthantragic;butforDeStancysucheveningeffectspossessedlittlemeaning。Hewasengagedinanenterprisethattaxedallhisresources,andhadnosentimentstospareforair,earth,orskies。
\'Remarkablescene,\'saidPower,mildly,athiselbow。
\'Yes;Idaresayitis,\'saidDeStancy。\'TimehasbeenwhenIshouldhaveheldforthuponsuchaprospect,andwonderedifitslividcoloursshadowedoutmyownlife,etcaetera,etcaetera。But,begad,Ihavealmostforgottenthere\'ssuchathingasNature,andIcarefornothingbutacomfortablelife,andacertainwomanwhodoesnotcareforme!……Nowshallwegodown?\'
VIII。
ItwasquitetruethatDeStancyatthepresentperiodofhisexistencewishedonlytoescapefromthehurly-burlyofactivelife,andtowintheaffectionofPaulaPower。Therewere,however,occasionswhenarecollectionofhisoldrenunciatoryvowswouldobtrudeitselfuponhim,andtingehispresentwithwaywardbitterness。SomuchwasthisthecasethatadayortwoaftertheyhadarrivedatMainzhecouldnotrefrainfrommakingremarksalmostprejudicialtohiscause,sayingtoher,\'Iamunfortunateinmysituation。Thereare,unhappily,worldlyreasonswhyIshouldpretendtoloveyou,evenifIdonot:theyaresostrongthat,thoughreallylovingyou,perhapstheyenterintomythoughtsofyou。\'
\'Idon\'twanttoknowwhatsuchreasonsare,\'saidPaula,withpromptness,foritrequiredbutlittleastutenesstodiscoverthathealludedtothealienatedWessexhomeandestates。
\'Youlacktone,\'shegentlyadded:\'that\'swhythesituationofaffairsseemsdistastefultoyou。\'
\'Yes,IsupposeIamill。AndyetIamwellenough。\'
TheseremarkspassedunderatreeinthepublicgardensduringanoddminuteofwaitingforCharlotteandMrs。Goodman;andhesaidnomoretoherinprivatethatday。Fewasherwordshadbeenhelikedthembetterthananyhehadlatelyreceived。
Theconversationwasnotresumedtilltheyweregliding\'betweenthebanksthatbearthevine,\'onboardoneoftheRhinesteamboats,which,likethehotelsinthisearlysummertime,werecomparativelyfreefromotherEnglishtravellers;
sothateverywherePaulaandherpartywerereceivedwithopenarmsandcheerfulcountenances,asamongthefirstswallowsoftheseason。
Thesaloonofthesteamboatwasquiteempty,thefewpassengersbeingoutside;andthispaucityofvoyagersaffordedDeStancyaroomyopportunity。
Paulasawhimapproachher,andthereappearinginhisfacesignsthathewouldbeginagainontheeternalsubject,sheseemedtobestruckwithasenseoftheludicrous。
DeStancyreddened。\'Somethingseemstoamuseyou,\'hesaid。
\'Itisover,\'shereplied,becomingserious。
\'Wasitaboutme,andthisunhappyfeverinme?\'
\'IfIspeakthetruthImustsayitwas。\'
\'Youthought,\"Here\'sthatabsurdmanagain,goingtobeginhisdailysupplication。\"\'
\'Not\"absurd,\"\'shesaid,withemphasis;\'becauseIdon\'tthinkitisabsurd。\'
ShecontinuedlookingthroughthewindowsattheLurleiHeightsunderwhichtheywerenowpassing,andheremainedwithhiseyesonher。
\'MayIstayherewithyou?\'hesaidatlast。\'Ihavenothadawordwithyoualoneforfour-and-twentyhours。\'
\'Youmustbecheerful,then。\'
\'Youhavesaidsuchasthatbefore。Iwishyouwouldsay\"loving\"insteadof\"cheerful。\"\'
\'Yes,Iknow,Iknow,\'sheresponded,withimpatientperplexity。\'Butwhymustyouthinkofme——meonly?Istherenootherwomanintheworldwhohasthepowertomakeyouhappy?Iamsuretheremustbe。\'
\'Perhapsthereis;butIhaveneverseenher。\'
\'Thenlookforher;andbelievemewhenIsaythatyouwillcertainlyfindher。\'
Heshookhishead。
\'CaptainDeStancy,Ihavelongfeltforyou,\'shecontinued,withafrankglanceintohisface。\'Youhavedeprivedyourselftoolongofotherwomen\'scompany。Whynotgoawayforalittletime?andwhenyouhavefoundsomebodyelselikelytomakeyouhappy,youcanmeetmeagain。Iwillseeyouatyourfather\'shouse,andwewillenjoyallthepleasureofeasyfriendship。\'
\'Verycorrect;andverycold,Obestofwomen!\'
\'Youaretoofullofexclamationsandtransports,Ithink!\'
Theystoodinsilence,Paulaapparentlymuchinterestedinthemanoeuvringofaraftwhichwaspassingby。\'DearMissPower,\'heresumed,\'beforeIgoandjoinyouruncleabove,letmejustask,DoIstandanychanceatallyet?Isitpossibleyoucanneverbemorepliantthanyouhavebeen?\'
\'Youputmeoutofallpatience!\'
\'Butwhydidyouraisemyhopes?Youshouldatleastpitymeafterdoingthat。\'
\'Yes;it\'sthatagain!IunfortunatelyraisedyourhopesbecauseIwasafool——wasnotmyselfthatmoment。Nowquestionmenomore。AsitisIthinkyoupresumetoomuchuponmybecomingyoursastheconsequenceofmyhavingdismissedanother。\'
\'Notonbecomingmine,butonlisteningtome。\'
\'YourargumentwouldbereasonableenoughhadIledyoutobelieveIwouldlistentoyou——andultimatelyacceptyou;butthatIhavenotdone。Iseenowthatawomanwhogivesamananansweroneshadelessperemptorythanaharshnegativemaybecarriedbeyondherintentions,andoutofherownpowerbeforesheknowsit。\'
\'Chidemeifyouwill;Idon\'tcare!\'
Shelookedsteadfastlyathimwithalittlemischiefinhereyes。\'YouDOcare,\'shesaid。
\'Thenwhydon\'tyoulistentome?Iwouldnotpersevereforamomentlongerifitwereagainstthewishesofyourfamily。
Yourunclesaysitwouldgivehimpleasuretoseeyouacceptme。\'
\'Doeshesaywhy?\'sheaskedthoughtfully。
\'Yes;hetakes,ofcourse,apracticalviewofthematter;hethinksitcommendsitselfsotoreasonandcommonsensethattheownerofStancyCastleshouldbecomeamemberoftheDeStancyfamily。\'
\'Yes,that\'sthehorridplagueofit,\'shesaid,withanonchalancewhichseemedtocontradictherwords。\'Itissodreadfullyreasonablethatweshouldmarry。Iwishitwasn\'t!\'
\'Well,youareyoungerthanI,andperhapsthat\'sanaturalwish。Buttomeitseemsafelicitouscombinationnotoftenmetwith。Iconfessthatyourinterestinourfamilybeforeyouknewmelentastabilitytomyhopesthatotherwisetheywouldnothavehad。\'
\'MyinterestintheDeStancyshasnotbeenapersonalinterestexceptinthecaseofyoursister,\'shereturned。
\'Ithasbeenanhistoricalinterestonly;andisnotatallincreasedbyyourexistence。\'
\'Andperhapsitisnotdiminished?\'
\'No,Iamnotawarethatitisdiminished,\'shemurmured,assheobservedtheglidingshore。
\'Well,youwillallowmetosaythis,sinceIsayitwithoutreferencetoyourpersonalityortomine——thatthePowerandDeStancyfamiliesarethecomplementstoeachother;andthat,abstractedly,theycallearnestlytooneanother:\"Howneatandfitathingforustojoinhands!\"\'
Paula,whowasnotprudishwhenadirectappealwasmadetohercommonsense,answeredwithreadycandour:\'Yes,fromthepointofviewofdomesticpolitics,thatundoubtedlyisthecase。ButIhopeIamnotsocalculatingastoriskhappinessinordertoroundoffasocialidea。\'
\'Ihopenot;orthatIameither。Stillthesocialideaexists,andmyincreasedyearsmakeitsexcellencemoreobvioustomethantoyou。\'
Theiceoncebrokenonthisaspectofthequestion,thesubjectseemedfurthertoengrossher,andshespokeonasifdaringlyinclinedtoventurewhereshehadneveranticipatedgoing,derivingpleasurefromtheverystrangenessofhertemerity:\'YoumeanthatinthefitnessofthingsIoughttobecomeaDeStancytostrengthenmysocialposition?\'
\'AndthatIoughttostrengthenminebyalliancewiththeheiressofanamesodeartoengineeringscienceasPower。\'
\'Well,wearetalkingwithunexpectedfrankness。\'
\'Butyouarenotseriouslydispleasedwithmeforsayingwhat,afterall,onecan\'thelpfeelingandthinking?\'
\'No。Onlybesogoodastoleaveoffgoingfurtherforthepresent。Indeed,ofthetwo,Iwouldratherhavetheothersortofaddress。Imean,\'shehastilyadded,\'thatwhatyouurgeastheresultofarealaffection,howeverunsuitable,I
havesomeremotesatisfactioninlisteningto——nottheleastfromanyreciprocalloveonmyside,butfromawoman\'sgratificationatbeingtheobjectofanybody\'sdevotion;forthatfeelingtowardsherisalwaysregardedasameritinawoman\'seye,andtakenasakindnessbyher,evenwhenitisattheexpenseofherconvenience。\'
Shehadsaid,voluntarilyorinvoluntarily,betterthingsthanheexpected,andperhapstoomuchinherownopinion,forshehardlygavehimanopportunityofreplying。
TheypassedSt。GoarandBoppard,andwhensteeringroundthesharpbendoftheriverjustbeyondthelatterplaceDeStancymetheragain,exclaiming,\'Youleftmeverysuddenly。\'
\'Youmustmakeallowances,please,\'shesaid;\'Ihavealwaysstoodinneedofthem。\'
\'Thenyoushallalwayshavethem。\'
\'Idon\'tdoubtit,\'shesaidquickly;butPaulawasnottobecaughtagain,andkeptclosetothesideofherauntwhiletheyglidedpastBraubackandOberlahnstein。ApproachingCoblenzherauntsaid,\'Paula,letmesuggestthatyoubenotsomuchalonewithCaptainDeStancy。\'
\'Andwhy?\'saidPaulaquietly。
\'You\'llhaveplentyofoffersifyouwantthem,withouttakingtrouble,\'saidthedirectMrs。Goodman。\'Yourexistenceishardlyknowntotheworldyet,andCaptainDeStancyistoonearmiddle-ageforagirllikeyou。\'Pauladidnotreplytoeitheroftheseremarks,beingseeminglysointerestedinEhrenbreitstein\'sheightsasnottohearthem。
IX。
ItwasmidnightatCoblenz,andthetravellershadretiredtorestintheirrespectiveapartments,overlookingtheriver。
Findingthattherewasamoonshining,Paulaleantoutofherwindow。ThetallrockofEhrenbreitsteinontheoppositeshorewasfloodedwithlight,andabelatedsteamerwasdrawinguptothelanding-stage,whereitpresentlydepositeditspassengers。
\'Weshouldhavecomebythelastboat,soastohavebeentouchedintoromancebytheraysofthismoon,likethosehappypeople,\'saidavoice。
Shelookedtowardsthespotwhencethevoiceproceeded,whichwasawindowquitenearathand。DeStancywassmokingoutsideit,andshebecameawarethatthewordswereaddressedtoher。
\'Youleftmeveryabruptly,\'hecontinued。
Paula\'sinstinctofcautionimpelledhertospeak。
\'Thewindowsareallopen,\'shemurmured。\'Pleasebecareful。\'
\'TherearenoEnglishinthishotelexceptourselves。Ithankyouforwhatyousaidto-day。\'
\'Pleasebecareful,\'sherepeated。
\'MydearMissP——\'
\'Don\'tmentionnames,anddon\'tcontinuethesubject!\'
\'Lifeanddeathperhapsdependuponmyrenewingitsoon!\'
Sheshutthewindowdecisively,possiblywonderingifDeStancyhaddrunkaglassortwoofSteinbergmorethanwasgoodforhim,andsawnomoreofmoonlitEhrenbreitsteinthatnight,andheardnomoreofDeStancy。Butitwassometimebeforeheclosedhiswindow,andprevioustodoingsosawadarkformatanadjoiningoneontheotherside。
ItwasMr。Power,alsotakingtheair。\'Well,whatluckto-
day?\'saidPower。
\'Adecidedadvance,\'saidDeStancy。
Noneofthespeakersknewthatalittlepersonintheroomaboveheardallthisout-of-windowtalk。Charlotte,thoughnotlookingout,hadlefthercasementopen;andwhatreachedherearssetherwonderingastotheresult。
ItisnotnecessarytodetailinfullDeStancy\'simperceptibleadvanceswithPauladuringthatnorthwardjourney——soslowlyperformedthatitseemedasifshemustperceivetherewasaspecialreasonfordelayingherreturntoEngland。AtCologneonedayheconvenientlyovertookherwhenshewasascendingthehotelstaircase。Seeinghim,shewenttothewindowoftheentresollanding,whichcommandedaviewoftheRhine,meaningthatheshouldpassbytohisroom。
\'Ihavebeenveryuneasy,\'beganthecaptain,drawinguptoherside;\'andIamobligedtotroubleyousoonerthanImeanttodo。\'
Paulaturnedhereyesuponhimwithsomecuriosityastowhatwascomingofthisrespectfuldemeanour。\'Indeed!\'shesaid,Hetheninformedherthathehadbeenoverhaulinghimselfsincetheylasttalked,andhadsomereasontoblamehimselfforbluntnessandgeneralwantofeuphemism;which,althoughhehadmeantnothingbyit,musthavebeenverydisagreeabletoher。Buthehadalwaysaimedatsincerity,particularlyashehadtodealwithaladywhodespisedhypocrisyandwasaboveflattery。However,hefearedhemighthavecarriedhisdisregardforconventionalitytoofar。Butfromthattimehewouldpromisethatsheshouldfindanalterationbywhichhehopedhemightreturnthefriendshipatleastofayoungladyhehonouredmorethananyotherintheworld。
Thisretrogrademovementwasevidentlyunexpectedbythehonouredyoungladyherself。Afterbeingsolongaccustomedtorebukehimforhispersistencetherewasnoveltyinfindinghimdotheworkforher。Theguessmightevenhavebeenhazardedthattherewasalsodisappointment。
StilllookingacrosstheriveratthebridgeofboatswhichstretchedtotheoppositesuburbofDeutz:\'Youneednotblameyourself,\'shesaid,withthemildestconceivablemanner,\'Icanmakeallowances。AllIwishisthatyoushouldremainundernomisapprehension。\'
\'Icomprehend,\'hesaidthoughtfully。\'Butsince,byaperversefate,Ihavebeenthrownintoyourcompany,youcouldhardlyexpectmetofeelandactotherwise。\'
\'Perhapsnot。\'
\'SinceIhavesomuchreasontobedissatisfiedwithmyself,\'
headded,\'Icannotrefrainfromcriticizingelsewheretoaslightextent,andthinkingIhavetodowithanungenerousperson。\'
\'Whyungenerous?\'
\'Inthisway;thatsinceyoucannotloveme,youseenoreasonatallfortryingtodosointhefactthatIsodeeplyloveyou;henceIsaythatyouarerathertobedistinguishedbyyourwisdomthanbyyourhumanity。\'
\'Itcomestothis,thatifyourwordsareallseriouslymeantitismuchtoberegrettedweevermet,\'shemurmured。\'Nowwillyougoontowhereyouweregoing,andleavemehere?\'
Withoutaremonstrancehewenton,sayingwithdejectedwhimsicalityashesmiledbackuponher,\'Youshowawisdomwhichforsoyoungaladyisperfectlysurprising。\'
ItwasresolvedtoprolongthejourneybyacircuitthroughHollandandBelgium;butnothingchangedintheattitudesofPaulaandCaptainDeStancytilloneafternoonduringtheirstayattheHague,whentheyhadgoneforadrivedowntoScheveningenbythelongstraightavenueofchestnutsandlimes,underwhoseboughstuftsofwildparsleywavedtheirflowers,exceptwherethebuitenplaatsenofretiredmerchantsblazedforthwithnewpaintofeveryhue。Onmountingthedunewhichkeptouttheseabehindthevillageabriskbreezegreetedtheirfaces,andafinesandblewupintotheireyes。
DeStancyscreenedPaulawithhisumbrellaastheystoodwiththeirbackstothewind,lookingdownontheredroofsofthevillagewithintheseawall,andpullingatthelonggrasswhichbysomemeansfoundnourishmentinthepowderysoilofthedune。
Whentheyhaddiscussedthescenehecontinued,\'Italwaysseemstomethatthisplacereflectstheaveragemoodofhumanlife。Imean,ifwestrikethebalancebetweenourbestmoodsandourworstweshallfindouraverageconditiontostandataboutthesamepitchinemotionalcolourasthesesandydunesandthisgreyscenedoinlandscape。\'
Paulacontendedthatheoughtnottomeasureeverybodybyhimself。
\'Ihavenootherstandard,\'saidDeStancy;\'andifmyowniswrong,itisyouwhohavemadeitso。HaveyouthoughtanymoreofwhatIsaidatCologne?\'
\'Idon\'tquiterememberwhatyoudidsayatCologne?\'
\'Mydearestlife!\'Paula\'seyesroundingsomewhat,hecorrectedtheexclamation。\'MydearMissPower,Iwill,withoutreserve,tellittoyoualloveragain。\'
\'Prayspareyourselftheeffort,\'shesaiddrily。\'Whathasthatonefatalstepbetrayedmeinto!……DoyouseriouslymeantosaythatIamthecauseofyourlifebeingcolouredlikethissceneofgrassandsand?Ifso,Ihavecommittedaverygreatfault!\'
\'Itcanbenullifiedbyaword。\'
\'Suchaword!\'
\'Itisaveryshortone。\'
\'There\'sastillshorteronemoretothepurpose。Frankly,I
believeyoususpectmetohavesomelatentandunownedinclinationforyou——thatyouthinkspeakingistheonlypointuponwhichIambackward……Therenow,itisraining;
whatshallwedo?Ithoughtthiswindmeantrain。\'
\'Do?Standonhere,aswearestandingnow。\'
\'Yoursisterandmyauntaregoneunderthewall。Ithinkwewillwalktowardsthem。\'
\'Youhadmademehope,\'hecontinued(histhoughtsapparentlyfarawayfromtherainandthewindandthepossibilityofshelter),\'thatyoumightchangeyourmind,andgivetoyouroriginalpromisealiberalmeaninginrenewingit。InbriefI
meanthis,thatyouwouldallowittomergeintoanengagement。Don\'tthinkitpresumptuous,\'hewenton,asheheldtheumbrellaoverher;\'IamsureanymanwouldspeakasIdo。Adistinctpermissiontobewithyouonprobation——thatwaswhatyougavemeatCarlsruhe:andflingingcasuistryononeside,whatdoesthatmean?\'
\'ThatIamartisticallyinterestedinyourfamilyhistory。\'
Andshewentoutfromtheumbrellatotheshelterofthehotelwhereshefoundherauntandfriend。
DeStancycouldnotbutfeelthathispersistencehadmadesomeimpression。Itwashardlypossiblethatawomanofindependentnaturewouldhavetoleratedhisdanglingathersidesolong,ifhispresencewerewhollydistastefultoher。
ThateveningwhendrivingbacktotheHaguebyadeviousroutethroughthedenseavenuesoftheBoschheconversedwithheragain;alsothenextdaywhenstandingbytheVijverlookingattheswans;andineachcasesheseemedtohaveatleastgotoverherobjectiontobeingseentalkingtohim,apartfromtheremainderofthetravellingparty。
ScenesverysimilartothoseatScheveningenandontheRhinewereenactedatlaterstagesoftheirdesultoryjourney。Mr。
PowerhadproposedtocrossfromRotterdam;butastiffnorth-
westerlybreezeprevailingPaulaherselfbecamereluctanttohastenbacktoStancyCastle。TurningabruptlytheymadeforBrussels。
Itwashere,whilewalkinghomewardfromtheParkonemorning,thatheruncleforthefirsttimealludedtothesituationofaffairsbetweenherselfandheradmirer。ThecaptainhadgoneuptheRueRoyalewithhissisterandMrs。Goodman,eithertoshowthemthehouseinwhichtheballtookplaceontheeveofQuatreBrasorsomeothersiteofinterest,andthetwoPowerswerethuslefttothemselves。ToreachtheirhoteltheypassedintoalittlestreetslopingsteeplydownfromtheRueRoyaletothePlaceSte。Gudule,where,atthemomentofnearingthecathedral,aweddingpartyemergedfromtheporchandcrossedinfrontofuncleandniece。
\'Ihope,\'saidtheformer,inhispassionlessway,\'weshallseeaperformanceofthissortbetweenyouandCaptainDeStancy,notsoverylongafterourreturntoEngland。\'
\'Why?\'askedPaula,followingthebridewithhereyes。
\'Itisdiplomatically,asImaysay,suchahighlycorrectthing——suchanexpedientthing——suchanobviousthingtoalleyes。\'
\'Notaltogethertomine,uncle,\'shereturned。
\'\'Twouldbeathousandpitiestoletslipsuchaneatofferofadjustingdifficultiesasaccidentmakesyouinthis。Youcouldmarrymoretin,that\'strue;butyoudon\'twantit,Paula。Youwantaname,andhistoricwhat-do-they-call-it。
Nowbycomingtotermswiththecaptainyou\'llbeLadyDeStancyinafewyears:andatitlewhichisuselesstohim,andafortuneandcastlewhichareinsomedegreeuselesstoyou,willmakeasplendidwholeusefultoyouboth。\'
\'I\'vethoughtitover——quite,\'sheanswered。\'AndIquiteseewhattheadvantagesare。ButhowifIdon\'tcareoneatomforartisticcompletenessandasplendidwhole;anddocareverymuchtodowhatmyfancyinclinesmetodo?\'
\'ThenIshouldsaythat,takingacomprehensiveviewofhumannatureofallcolours,yourfancyisaboutthesilliestfancyexistingonthisearthlyball。\'
Paulalaughedindifferently,andherunclefeltthat,persistentaswashisnature,hewasthewrongmantoinfluenceherbyargument。Paula\'sblindnesstotheadvantagesofthematch,ifshewereblind,wasthatofawomanwhowouldn\'tsee,andthebestargumentwassilence。
Thiswasinsomemeasureprovedthenextmorning。WhenPaulamadeherappearanceMrs。Goodmansaid,holdingupanenvelope:
\'Here\'saletterfromMr。Somerset。\'
\'Dearme,\'saidsheblandly,thoughaquicklittleflushascendedhercheek。\'Ihadnearlyforgottenhim!\'
Theletteronbeingreadcontainedarequestasbriefasitwasunexpected。Havingpreparedallthedrawingsnecessaryfortherebuilding,Somersetbeggedleavetoresignthesuperintendenceoftheworkintootherhands。
\'Hislettercapsyourremarksveryaptly,\'saidMrs。Goodman,withsecrettriumph。\'Youarenearlyforgettinghim,andheisquiteforgettingyou。\'
\'Yes,\'saidPaula,affectingcarelessness。\'Well,Imustgetsomebodyelse,Isuppose。\'
X。
TheynextdeviatedtoAmiens,intendingtostaythereonlyonenight;buttheirschemeswerederangedbythesuddenillnessofCharlotte。Shehadbeenlookingunwellforafortnightpast,though,withherusualself-abnegation,shehadmadelightofherailment。Evennowshedeclaredshecouldgoon;
butthiswassaidover-night,andinthemorningitwasabundantlyevidentthattomoveherwashighlyunadvisable。
Stillshewasnotinseriousdanger,andhavingcalledinaphysician,whopronouncedrestindispensable,theypreparedtoremainintheoldPicardcapitaltwoorthreeadditionaldays。
Mr。PowerthoughthewouldtakeadvantageofthehalttorunuptoParis,leavingDeStancyinchargeoftheladies。
InmorewaysthanintheillnessofCharlottethisdaywastheharbingerofacrisis。
Itwasasummereveningwithoutacloud。Charlottehadfallenasleepinherbed,andPaula,whohadbeensittingbyher,lookedoutintothePlaceSt。Denis,whichthehotelcommanded。Thelawnofthesquarewasallablazewithredandyellowclumpsofflowers,theacaciatreeswerebrightlygreen,thesunwassoftandlow。TemptedbytheprospectPaulawentandputonherhat;andarousingheraunt,whowasnoddinginthenextroom,torequesthertokeepanearonCharlotte\'sbedroom,PauladescendedintotheRuedeNoyonalone,andenteredthegreenenclosure。
Whileshewalkedround,twoorthreelittlechildreninchargeofanursetrundledalargevariegatedballalongthegrass,anditrolledtoPaula\'sfeet。Shesmiledatthem,andendeavouredtoreturnitbyaslightkick。Theballroseintheair,andpassingoverthebackofaseatwhichstoodunderoneofthetrees,alightedinthelapofagentlemanhithertoscreenedbyitsboughs。ThebackandshouldersprovedtobethoseofDeStancy。Heturnedhishead,jumpedup,andwasathersideinaninstant,anettledflushhavingmeanwhilecrossedPaula\'sface。
\'IthoughtyouhadgonetotheHotoiePromenade,\'shesaidhastily。\'Iamgoingtothecathedral;\'(obviouslyutteredlestitshouldseemthatshehadseenhimfromthehotelwindows,andenteredthesquareforhiscompany)。
\'Ofcourse:thereisnothingelsetogotohere——evenforRoundheads。\'
\'IfyoumeanMEbythat,youareverymuchmistaken,\'saidshetestily。
\'TheRoundheadswereyourancestors,andtheyknockeddownmyancestors\'castle,andbrokethestainedglassandstatuaryofthecathedral,\'saidDeStancyslily;\'andnowyougonotonlytoacathedral,buttoaserviceoftheunreformedChurchinit。\'
\'Inaforeigncountryitisdifferentfromhome,\'saidPaulainextenuation;\'andyouofallmenshouldnotreproachmefortergiversation——whenithasbeenbroughtaboutby——bymysympathieswith——\'
\'WiththetroublesoftheDeStancys。\'
\'Well,youknowwhatImean,\'sheanswered,withconsiderableanxietynottobemisunderstood;\'mylikingfortheoldcastle,andwhatitcontains,andwhatitsuggests。IdeclareIwillnotexplaintoyoufurther——whyshouldI?Iamnotanswerabletoyou!\'
Paula\'sshowofpetulancewasperhapsnotwhollybecauseshehadappearedtoseekhim,butalsofrombeingremindedbyhiscriticismthatMr。Woodwell\'sprophecyonherweaklysuccumbingtosurroundingswasslowlyworkingoutitsfulfilment。
Shemovedforwardtowardsthegateatthefurtherendofthesquare,beyondwhichthecathedrallayataveryshortdistance。Pauladidnotturnherhead,andDeStancystrolledslowlyafterherdowntheRueduCollege。Thedayhappenedtobeoneofthechurchfestivals,andpeoplewereasecondtimeflockingintotheloftymonumentofCatholicismatitsmeridian。Paulavanishedintotheporchwiththerest;and,almostcatchingthewicketasitflewbackfromherhand,hetooenteredthehigh-shoulderededifice——anedificedoomedtolabourunderthemelancholymisfortuneofseemingonlyhalfasvastasitreallyis,andastrulyaswhimsicallydescribedbyHeineasamonumentbuiltwiththestrengthofTitans,anddecoratedwiththepatienceofdwarfs。
DeStancywalkedupthenave,soclosebesideherastotouchherdress;butshewouldnotrecognizehispresence;thedarknessthateveninghadthrownovertheinterior,whichwasscarcelybrokenbythefewcandlesdottedabout,beingasufficientexcuseifsherequiredone。
\'MissPower,\'DeStancysaidatlast,\'Iamcomingtotheservicewithyou。\'
Shereceivedtheintelligencewithoutsurprise,andheknewshehadbeenconsciousofhimalltheway。
Paulawentnofurtherthanthemiddleofthenave,wheretherewashardlyasoul,andtookachairbesideasolitaryrushlightwhichlookedamidthevaguegloomoftheinaccessiblearchitecturelikealighthouseatthefootoftallcliffs。