第17章

类别:其他 作者:Thomas Hardy字数:17656更新时间:18/12/13 16:29:45
Thezestforthiswasnowwell-nighover。Butonawakinginthemorningandlookingupthevalleytowardsthecastle,andatthedarkgreenheightoftheKonigsstuhlalongside,hefeltthattobecomevanquishedbyapassion,driventosuffer,fast,andprayinthedullpainsandvapoursofdespisedlove,wasacontingencynottobewelcomedtooreadily。Thereuponhesethimselftolearnthesadscienceofrenunciation,whicheverybodyhastolearninhisdegree——eitherrebellingthroughoutthelesson,or,likeSomerset,takingtoitkindlybyforceofjudgment。Amoreobstinatepupilmighthavealtogetherescapedthelessoninthepresentcasebydiscoveringitsillegality。 Resolvingtopersevereintheheretoforesatisfactorypathsofartwhilelifeandfacultieswereleft,thougheveryinstinctmustproclaimthattherewouldbenolongeranycollateralattractioninthatpursuit,hewentalongunderthetreesoftheAnlageandreachedthecastlevaults,inwhosecoolshadeshespenttheafternoon,workingouthisintentionswithfairresult。Whenhehadstrolledbacktohishotelintheeveningthetimewasapproachingforthetable-d\'hote。Havingseatedhimselfratherearly,hespentthefewminutesofwaitinginlookingoverhispocket-book,andputtingafewfinishingtouchestotheafternoonperformancewhilsttheobjectswerefreshinhismemory。Thusoccupiedhewasbutdimlyconsciousofthecustomaryrustleofdressesandpullingupofchairsbythecrowdofotherdinersastheygatheredaroundhim。 Servingbegan,andheputawayhisbookandpreparedforthemeal。Hehadhardlydonethiswhenhebecameconsciousthatthepersononhislefthandwasnotthetypicalcosmopolitewithboundlesshotelknowledgeandirrelevantexperiencesthathewasaccustomedtofindnexthim,butafaceherecognizedasthatofayoungmanwhomhehadmetandtalkedtoatStancyCastlegarden-party,whosenamehehadnowforgotten。Thisyoungfellowwasconversingwithsomebodyonhislefthand——nootherpersonagethanPaulaherself。NexttoPaulahebeheldDeStancy,andDeStancy\'ssisterbeyondhim。Itwasoneofthosegratuitousencounterswhichonlyhappentodiscardedloverswhohaveshowncommendablestoicismunderdisappointment,asifonpurposetoreopenandaggravatetheirwounds。 Itseemedasiftheinterveningtravellerhadmettheotherpartybyaccidentthereandthen。InaminuteheturnedandrecognizedSomerset,andbydegreestheyoungmen\'scursoryremarkstoeachotherdevelopedintoaprettyregularconversation,interruptedonlywhenheturnedtospeaktoPaulaonhislefthand。 \'Yourarchitecturaladvisertravelsinyourparty:howveryconvenient,\'saidtheyoungtouristtoher。\'Farpleasanterthanhavingamedicalattendantinone\'strain!\' Somerset,whohadnodistractionsontheothersideofhim,couldheareverywordofthis。HeglancedatPaula。Shehadnotknownofhispresenceintheroomtillnow。Theireyesmetforasecond,andshebowedsedately。Somersetreturnedherbow,andhereyeswerequicklywithdrawnwithscarcelyvisibleconfusion。 \'Mr。Somersetisnottravellingwithus,\'shesaid。\'Wehavemetbyaccident。Mr。Somersetcametomeonbusinessalittlewhileago。\' \'Imustcongratulateyouonhavingputthecastleintogoodhands,\'continuedtheenthusiasticyoungman。 \'IbelieveMr。Somersetisquitecompetent,\'saidPaulastiffly。 ToincludeSomersetintheconversationtheyoungmanturnedtohimandadded:\'Youcarryonyourworkatthecastleconamore,nodoubt?\' \'ThereisworkIshouldlikebetter,\'saidSomerset。 \'Indeed?\' Thefrigidityofhismannerseemedtosetherateasebydispersingallfearofascene;andalternatedialoguesofthissortwiththegentlemanintheirmidstweremoreorlesscontinuedbybothPaulaandSomersettilltheyrosefromtable。 Inthebustleofmovingoutthetwolatterforonemomentstoodsidebyside。 \'MissPower,\'saidSomerset,inalowvoicethatwasobscuredbytherustle,\'youhavenothingmoretosaytome?\' \'Ithinkthereisnothingmore?\'saidPaula,liftinghereyeswithlongingreticence。 \'ThenItakeleaveofyou;andtendermybestwishesthatyoumayhaveapleasanttimebeforeyou!……IsetoutforEnglandto-night。\' \'Withaspecialphotographer,nodoubt?\' ItwasthefirsttimethatshehadaddressedSomersetwithameaningdistinctlybitter;andherremark,whichhadreferencetotheforgedphotograph,fellofcoursewithoutitsintendedeffect。 \'No,MissPower,\'saidSomersetgravely。\'Butwithadeepersenseofwoman\'sthoughtlesstriflingthantimewillevereradicate。\' \'Isnotthatamistake?\'sheaskedinavoicethatdistinctlytrembled。 \'Amistake?How?\' \'Imean,doyounotforgetmanythings?\'(throwingonhimatroubledglance)。\'Awomanmayfeelherselfjustifiedinherconduct,althoughitadmitsofnoexplanation。\' \'Idon\'tcontestthepointforamoment……Goodbye。\' \'Good-bye。\' Theypartedamidthefloweringshrubsandcagedbirdsinthehall,andhesawhernomore。DeStancycameup,andspokeafewcommonplacewords,hissisterhavinggoneout,eitherwithoutperceivingSomerset,orwithintentiontoavoidhim。 Thatnight,ashehadsaid,hewasonhiswaytoEngland。 VII。 TheDeStancysandPowersremainedinHeidelbergforsomedays。AllremarkedthatafterSomerset\'sdeparturePaulawasfrequentlyirritable,thoughatothertimesassereneasever。 Yetevenwheninablitheandsaucymoodtherewasatbottomatingeofmelancholy。Somethingdidnotlieeasyinherundemonstrativeheart,andallherfriendsexcusedtheinequalitiesofahumourwhosesource,thoughnotpositivelyknown,couldbefairlywellguessed。 DeStancyhadlongsincediscoveredthathischancelaychieflyinherrecentlyacquiredandfancifulpredilectiond\'artisteforhoarymediaevalfamilieswithancestorsinalabasterandprimogenitiverenown。Seeingthishedweltonthosetopicswhichbroughtoutthataspectofhimselfmoreclearly,talkingfeudalismandchivalrywithazestthathehadneverhithertoshown。Yetitwasnotaltogetherfactitious。For,discoveringhowmuchthisquondamPuritanwasinterestedintheattributesoflong-chronicledhouses,areflectedinterestinhimselfaroseinhisownsoul,andhebegantowonderwhyhehadnotprizedthesethingsbefore。 Tillnowdisgustedbythefailureofhisfamilytoholditsownintheturmoilbetweenancientandmodern,hehadgrowntoundervalueitspastprestige;anditwaswithcorrectiveardourthatheadoptedwhileheministeredtoherviews。 HenceforwardthewooingofDeStancytooktheformofanintermittentaddress,theincidentsoftheirtravelfurnishingpegswhereontohanghissubject;sometimeshinderingit,butseldomfailingtoproduceinheragreatertoleranceofhispresence。HisnextopportunitywasthedayafterSomerset\'sdeparturefromHeidelberg。TheystoodonthegreatterraceoftheSchloss-Garten,lookingacrosstheinterveningravinetothenorth-eastfrontofthecastlewhichrosebeforetheminallitscustomarywarmtintsandbatteredmagnificence。 \'Thisisaspot,ifany,whichshouldbringmatterstoacrisisbetweenyouandme,\'heassertedgood-humouredly。\'Butyouhavebeensosilentto-daythatIlosethespirittotakeadvantageofmyprivilege。\' Sheinquiredwhatprivilegehespokeof,asifquiteanothersubjecthadbeeninhermindthanDeStancy。 \'TheprivilegeofwinningyourheartifIcan,whichyougavemeatCarlsruhe。\' \'O,\'shesaid。\'Well,I\'vebeenthinkingofthat。ButIdonotfeelmyselfabsolutelyboundbythestatementImadeinthatroom;andIshallexpect,ifIwithdrawit,nottobecalledtoaccountbyyou。\' DeStancylookedratherblank。 \'Ifyourecedefromyourpromiseyouwilldoubtlesshavegoodreason。ButImustsolemnlybegyou,afterraisingmyhopes,tokeepasnearasyoucantoyourword,soasnottothrowmeintoutterdespair。\' PauladroppedherglanceintotheThier-Gartenbelowthem,wheregaypromenaderswereclamberingupbetweenthebushesandflowers。Atlengthshesaid,withevidentembarrassment,butwithmuchdistinctness:\'IdeservemuchmoreblameforwhatIhavedonethanyoucanexpresstome。Iwillconfesstoyouthewholetruth。AllthatItoldyouinthehotelatCarlsruhewassaidinamomentofpiqueatwhathadhappenedjustbeforeyoucamein。ItwassupposedIwasmuchinvolvedwithanotherman,andcircumstancesmadethesuppositionparticularlyobjectionable。ToescapeitIjumpedatthealternativeofyourself。\' \'That\'sbadforme!\'hemurmured。 \'IfafterthisavowalyoubindmetomywordsIshallsaynomore:Idonotwishtorecedefromthemwithoutyourfullpermission。\' \'Whatacaprice!ButIreleaseyouunconditionally,\'hesaid。 \'AndIbegyourpardonifIseemedtoshowtoomuchassurance。 Pleaseputitdowntomygratifiedexcitement。Ientirelyacquiesceinyourwish。Iwillgoawaytowhateverplaceyouplease,andnotcomenearyoubutbyyourownpermission,andtillyouarequitesatisfiedthatmypresenceandwhatitmayleadtoisnotundesirable。Ientirelygivewaybeforeyou,andwillendeavourtomakemyfuturedevotedness,ifeverwemeetagain,anewgroundforexpectingyourfavour。\' Paulaseemedstruckbythegenerousandcheerfulfairnessofhisremarks,andsaidgently,\'Perhapsyourdepartureisnotabsolutelynecessaryformyhappiness;andIdonotwishfromwhatyoucallcaprice——\' \'Iretractthatword。\' \'Well,whateveritis,Idon\'twishyoutodoanythingwhichshouldcauseyourealpain,ortrouble,orhumiliation。\' \'That\'sverygoodofyou。\' \'ButIreservetomyselftherighttoacceptorrefuseyouraddresses——justasifthoserashwordsofminehadneverbeenspoken。\' \'ImustbearitallasbestIcan,Isuppose,\'saidDeStancy,withmelancholyhumorousness。 \'AndIshalltreatyouasyourbehaviourshallseemtodeserve,\'shesaidplayfully。 \'ThenImaystay?\' \'Yes;Iamwillingtogiveyouthatpleasure,ifitisone,inreturnfortheattentionsyouhaveshown,andthetroubleyouhavetakentomakemyjourneypleasant。\' ShewalkedonanddiscoveredMrs。Goodmannear,andpresentlythewholepartymettogether。DeStancydidnotfindhimselfagainathersidetilllaterintheafternoon,whentheyhadlefttheimmediateprecinctsofthecastleanddecidedonadrivetotheKonigsstuhl。 Thecarriage,containingonlyMrs。Goodman,wasdrivenashortwayupthewindingincline,Paula,heruncle,andMissDeStancywalkingbehindundertheshadowofthetrees。ThenMrs。Goodmancalledtothemandaskedwhentheyweregoingtojoinher。 \'Wearegoingtowalkup,\'saidMr。Power。 Paulaseemedseizedwithaspiritofboisterousnessquiteunlikeherusualbehaviour。\'Myauntmaydriveup,andyoumaywalkup;butIshallrunup,\'shesaid。\'See,here\'saway。\'Shetrippedtowardsapaththroughthebusheswhich,insteadofwindingliketheregulartrack,madestraightforthesummit。 Paulahadnottheremotestconceptionoftheactualdistancetothetop,imaginingittobebutacoupleofhundredyardsattheoutside,whereasitwasreallyneareramile,theascentbeinguniformlysteepalltheway。WhenheruncleandDeStancyhadseenhervanishtheystoodstill,theformerevidentlyreluctanttoforsaketheeasyascentforadifficultone,thoughhesaid,\'Wecan\'tlethergoalonethatway,I suppose。\' \'No,ofcoursenot,\'saidDeStancy。 TheythenfollowedinthedirectiontakenbyPaula,Charlotteenteringthecarriage。WhenPowerandDeStancyhadascendedaboutfiftyyardstheformerlookedback,anddroppedofffromthepursuit,toreturntotheeasyroute,givinghiscompanionapartinghintconcerningPaula。WhereuponDeStancywentonalone。HesoonsawPaulaabovehiminthepath,whichascendedskywardstraightasJacob\'sLadder,butwassooverhungbythebrushwoodastobequiteshutoutfromthesun。Whenhereachedhersideshewasmovingeasilyupward,apparentlyenjoyingtheseclusionwhichtheplaceafforded。 \'Isnotmyunclewithyou?\'shesaid,onturningandseeinghim。 \'Hewentback,\'saidDeStancy。 Sherepliedthatitwasofnoconsequence;thatsheshouldmeethimatthetop,shesupposed。 Paulalookedupamidthegreenlightwhichfilteredthroughtheleafageasfarashereyescouldstretch。Butthetopdidnotappear,andsheallowedDeStancytogetinfront。\'Itdidnotseemsuchalongwayasthis,tolookat,\'shepresentlysaid。 Heexplainedthatthetreeshaddeceivedherastotherealheight,byreasonofherseeingtheslopeforeshortenedwhenshelookedupfromthecastle。\'Allowmetohelpyou,\'headded。 \'No,thankyou,\'saidPaulalightly;\'wemustbenearthetop。\' Theywentonagain;butnoKonigsstuhl。WhennextDeStancyturnedhefoundthatshewassittingdown;immediatelygoingbackheofferedhisarm。Shetookitinsilence,declaringthatitwasnowonderheruncledidnotcomethatwearisomeway,ifhehadeverbeentherebefore。 DeStancydidnotexplainthatMr。Powerhadsaidtohimatparting,\'There\'sachanceforyou,ifyouwantone,\'butatoncewentonwiththesubjectbegunontheterrace。\'Ifmybehaviourisgood,youwillreaffirmthestatementmadeatCarlsruhe?\' \'Itisnotfairtobeginthatnow!\'expostulatedPaula;\'Icanonlythinkofgettingtothetop。\' Hercolourdeepeningbytheexertion,hesuggestedthatsheshouldsitdownagainononeofthemossybouldersbythewayside。Nothinglothshedid,DeStancystandingby,andwithhiscanescratchingthemossfromthestone。 \'Thisisratherawkward,\'saidPaula,inherusualcircumspectway。\'Myrelativesandyoursisterwillbesuretosuspectmeofhavingarrangedthisscramblewithyou。\' \'ButIknowbetter,\'sighedDeStancy。\'IwishtoHeavenyouhadarrangedit!\' Shewasnotatthetop,butshetookadvantageofthehalttoanswerhispreviousquestion。\'TherearemanypointsonwhichImustbesatisfiedbeforeIcanreaffirmanything。Doyounotseethatyouaremistakeninclingingtothisidea?——thatyouarelayingupmortificationanddisappointmentforyourself?\' \'Anegativereplyfromyouwouldbedisappointment,earlyorlate。\' \'Andyoupreferhavingitlatetoacceptingitnow?IfIwereaman,Ishouldliketoabandonafalsescentassoonaspossible。\' \'Isupposeallthathasbutonemeaning:thatIamtogo。\' \'Ono,\'shemagnanimouslyassuredhim,boundingupfromherseat;\'Iadheretomystatementthatyoumaystay;thoughitistruesomethingmaypossiblyhappentomakemealtermymind。\' Heagainofferedhisarm,andfromsheernecessitysheleantuponitasbefore。 \'Grantmebutamoment\'spatience,\'hebegan。 \'CaptainDeStancy!Isthisfair?Iamphysicallyobligedtoholdyourarm,sothatIMUSTlistentowhatyousay!\' \'No,itisnotfair;\'ponmysoulitisnot!\'saidDeStancy。 \'Iwon\'tsayanotherword。\' Hedidnot;andtheyclamberedonthroughtheboughs,nothingdisturbingthesolitudebuttherustleoftheirownfootstepsandthesingingofbirdsoverhead。Theyoccasionallygotapeepatthesky;andwheneveratwighungoutinapositiontostrikePaula\'sfacethegallantcaptainbentitasidewithhisstick。Butshedidnotthankhim。Perhapshewasjustaswellsatisfiedasifshehaddoneso。 Paula,panting,brokethesilence:\'Willyougoon,anddiscoverifthetopisnear?\' Hewenton。Thistimethetopwasnear。Whenhereturnedshewassittingwherehehadleftheramongtheleaves。\'Itisquitenearnow,\'hetoldhertenderly,andshetookhisarmagainwithoutaword。Soonthepathchangeditsnaturefromasteepandruggedwatercoursetoalevelgreenpromenade。 \'Thankyou,CaptainDeStancy,\'shesaid,lettinggohisarmasifrelieved。 Beforethemrosethetower,andatthebasetheybeheldtwooftheirfriends,Mr。Powerbeingseenabove,lookingovertheparapetthroughhisglass。 \'Youwillgotothetopnow?\'saidDeStancy。 \'No,Itakenointerestinit。Myinteresthasturnedtofatigue。Ionlywanttogohome。\' Hetookherontowherethecarriagestoodatthefootofthetower,andleavingherwithhissisterascendedtheturrettothetop。Thelandscapehadquitechangedfromitsafternoonappearance,andhadbecomerathermarvellousthanbeautiful。 Theairwaschargedwithaluridexhalationthatblurredtheextensiveview。HecouldseethedistantRhineatitsjunctionwiththeNeckar,shininglikeathreadofbloodthroughthemistwhichwasgraduallywrappingupthedecliningsun。Thescenehadinitsomethingthatwasmorethanmelancholy,andnotmuchlessthantragic;butforDeStancysucheveningeffectspossessedlittlemeaning。Hewasengagedinanenterprisethattaxedallhisresources,andhadnosentimentstospareforair,earth,orskies。 \'Remarkablescene,\'saidPower,mildly,athiselbow。 \'Yes;Idaresayitis,\'saidDeStancy。\'TimehasbeenwhenIshouldhaveheldforthuponsuchaprospect,andwonderedifitslividcoloursshadowedoutmyownlife,etcaetera,etcaetera。But,begad,Ihavealmostforgottenthere\'ssuchathingasNature,andIcarefornothingbutacomfortablelife,andacertainwomanwhodoesnotcareforme!……Nowshallwegodown?\' VIII。 ItwasquitetruethatDeStancyatthepresentperiodofhisexistencewishedonlytoescapefromthehurly-burlyofactivelife,andtowintheaffectionofPaulaPower。Therewere,however,occasionswhenarecollectionofhisoldrenunciatoryvowswouldobtrudeitselfuponhim,andtingehispresentwithwaywardbitterness。SomuchwasthisthecasethatadayortwoaftertheyhadarrivedatMainzhecouldnotrefrainfrommakingremarksalmostprejudicialtohiscause,sayingtoher,\'Iamunfortunateinmysituation。Thereare,unhappily,worldlyreasonswhyIshouldpretendtoloveyou,evenifIdonot:theyaresostrongthat,thoughreallylovingyou,perhapstheyenterintomythoughtsofyou。\' \'Idon\'twanttoknowwhatsuchreasonsare,\'saidPaula,withpromptness,foritrequiredbutlittleastutenesstodiscoverthathealludedtothealienatedWessexhomeandestates。 \'Youlacktone,\'shegentlyadded:\'that\'swhythesituationofaffairsseemsdistastefultoyou。\' \'Yes,IsupposeIamill。AndyetIamwellenough。\' TheseremarkspassedunderatreeinthepublicgardensduringanoddminuteofwaitingforCharlotteandMrs。Goodman;andhesaidnomoretoherinprivatethatday。Fewasherwordshadbeenhelikedthembetterthananyhehadlatelyreceived。 Theconversationwasnotresumedtilltheyweregliding\'betweenthebanksthatbearthevine,\'onboardoneoftheRhinesteamboats,which,likethehotelsinthisearlysummertime,werecomparativelyfreefromotherEnglishtravellers; sothateverywherePaulaandherpartywerereceivedwithopenarmsandcheerfulcountenances,asamongthefirstswallowsoftheseason。 Thesaloonofthesteamboatwasquiteempty,thefewpassengersbeingoutside;andthispaucityofvoyagersaffordedDeStancyaroomyopportunity。 Paulasawhimapproachher,andthereappearinginhisfacesignsthathewouldbeginagainontheeternalsubject,sheseemedtobestruckwithasenseoftheludicrous。 DeStancyreddened。\'Somethingseemstoamuseyou,\'hesaid。 \'Itisover,\'shereplied,becomingserious。 \'Wasitaboutme,andthisunhappyfeverinme?\' \'IfIspeakthetruthImustsayitwas。\' \'Youthought,\"Here\'sthatabsurdmanagain,goingtobeginhisdailysupplication。\"\' \'Not\"absurd,\"\'shesaid,withemphasis;\'becauseIdon\'tthinkitisabsurd。\' ShecontinuedlookingthroughthewindowsattheLurleiHeightsunderwhichtheywerenowpassing,andheremainedwithhiseyesonher。 \'MayIstayherewithyou?\'hesaidatlast。\'Ihavenothadawordwithyoualoneforfour-and-twentyhours。\' \'Youmustbecheerful,then。\' \'Youhavesaidsuchasthatbefore。Iwishyouwouldsay\"loving\"insteadof\"cheerful。\"\' \'Yes,Iknow,Iknow,\'sheresponded,withimpatientperplexity。\'Butwhymustyouthinkofme——meonly?Istherenootherwomanintheworldwhohasthepowertomakeyouhappy?Iamsuretheremustbe。\' \'Perhapsthereis;butIhaveneverseenher。\' \'Thenlookforher;andbelievemewhenIsaythatyouwillcertainlyfindher。\' Heshookhishead。 \'CaptainDeStancy,Ihavelongfeltforyou,\'shecontinued,withafrankglanceintohisface。\'Youhavedeprivedyourselftoolongofotherwomen\'scompany。Whynotgoawayforalittletime?andwhenyouhavefoundsomebodyelselikelytomakeyouhappy,youcanmeetmeagain。Iwillseeyouatyourfather\'shouse,andwewillenjoyallthepleasureofeasyfriendship。\' \'Verycorrect;andverycold,Obestofwomen!\' \'Youaretoofullofexclamationsandtransports,Ithink!\' Theystoodinsilence,Paulaapparentlymuchinterestedinthemanoeuvringofaraftwhichwaspassingby。\'DearMissPower,\'heresumed,\'beforeIgoandjoinyouruncleabove,letmejustask,DoIstandanychanceatallyet?Isitpossibleyoucanneverbemorepliantthanyouhavebeen?\' \'Youputmeoutofallpatience!\' \'Butwhydidyouraisemyhopes?Youshouldatleastpitymeafterdoingthat。\' \'Yes;it\'sthatagain!IunfortunatelyraisedyourhopesbecauseIwasafool——wasnotmyselfthatmoment。Nowquestionmenomore。AsitisIthinkyoupresumetoomuchuponmybecomingyoursastheconsequenceofmyhavingdismissedanother。\' \'Notonbecomingmine,butonlisteningtome。\' \'YourargumentwouldbereasonableenoughhadIledyoutobelieveIwouldlistentoyou——andultimatelyacceptyou;butthatIhavenotdone。Iseenowthatawomanwhogivesamananansweroneshadelessperemptorythanaharshnegativemaybecarriedbeyondherintentions,andoutofherownpowerbeforesheknowsit。\' \'Chidemeifyouwill;Idon\'tcare!\' Shelookedsteadfastlyathimwithalittlemischiefinhereyes。\'YouDOcare,\'shesaid。 \'Thenwhydon\'tyoulistentome?Iwouldnotpersevereforamomentlongerifitwereagainstthewishesofyourfamily。 Yourunclesaysitwouldgivehimpleasuretoseeyouacceptme。\' \'Doeshesaywhy?\'sheaskedthoughtfully。 \'Yes;hetakes,ofcourse,apracticalviewofthematter;hethinksitcommendsitselfsotoreasonandcommonsensethattheownerofStancyCastleshouldbecomeamemberoftheDeStancyfamily。\' \'Yes,that\'sthehorridplagueofit,\'shesaid,withanonchalancewhichseemedtocontradictherwords。\'Itissodreadfullyreasonablethatweshouldmarry。Iwishitwasn\'t!\' \'Well,youareyoungerthanI,andperhapsthat\'sanaturalwish。Buttomeitseemsafelicitouscombinationnotoftenmetwith。Iconfessthatyourinterestinourfamilybeforeyouknewmelentastabilitytomyhopesthatotherwisetheywouldnothavehad。\' \'MyinterestintheDeStancyshasnotbeenapersonalinterestexceptinthecaseofyoursister,\'shereturned。 \'Ithasbeenanhistoricalinterestonly;andisnotatallincreasedbyyourexistence。\' \'Andperhapsitisnotdiminished?\' \'No,Iamnotawarethatitisdiminished,\'shemurmured,assheobservedtheglidingshore。 \'Well,youwillallowmetosaythis,sinceIsayitwithoutreferencetoyourpersonalityortomine——thatthePowerandDeStancyfamiliesarethecomplementstoeachother;andthat,abstractedly,theycallearnestlytooneanother:\"Howneatandfitathingforustojoinhands!\"\' Paula,whowasnotprudishwhenadirectappealwasmadetohercommonsense,answeredwithreadycandour:\'Yes,fromthepointofviewofdomesticpolitics,thatundoubtedlyisthecase。ButIhopeIamnotsocalculatingastoriskhappinessinordertoroundoffasocialidea。\' \'Ihopenot;orthatIameither。Stillthesocialideaexists,andmyincreasedyearsmakeitsexcellencemoreobvioustomethantoyou。\' Theiceoncebrokenonthisaspectofthequestion,thesubjectseemedfurthertoengrossher,andshespokeonasifdaringlyinclinedtoventurewhereshehadneveranticipatedgoing,derivingpleasurefromtheverystrangenessofhertemerity:\'YoumeanthatinthefitnessofthingsIoughttobecomeaDeStancytostrengthenmysocialposition?\' \'AndthatIoughttostrengthenminebyalliancewiththeheiressofanamesodeartoengineeringscienceasPower。\' \'Well,wearetalkingwithunexpectedfrankness。\' \'Butyouarenotseriouslydispleasedwithmeforsayingwhat,afterall,onecan\'thelpfeelingandthinking?\' \'No。Onlybesogoodastoleaveoffgoingfurtherforthepresent。Indeed,ofthetwo,Iwouldratherhavetheothersortofaddress。Imean,\'shehastilyadded,\'thatwhatyouurgeastheresultofarealaffection,howeverunsuitable,I havesomeremotesatisfactioninlisteningto——nottheleastfromanyreciprocalloveonmyside,butfromawoman\'sgratificationatbeingtheobjectofanybody\'sdevotion;forthatfeelingtowardsherisalwaysregardedasameritinawoman\'seye,andtakenasakindnessbyher,evenwhenitisattheexpenseofherconvenience。\' Shehadsaid,voluntarilyorinvoluntarily,betterthingsthanheexpected,andperhapstoomuchinherownopinion,forshehardlygavehimanopportunityofreplying。 TheypassedSt。GoarandBoppard,andwhensteeringroundthesharpbendoftheriverjustbeyondthelatterplaceDeStancymetheragain,exclaiming,\'Youleftmeverysuddenly。\' \'Youmustmakeallowances,please,\'shesaid;\'Ihavealwaysstoodinneedofthem。\' \'Thenyoushallalwayshavethem。\' \'Idon\'tdoubtit,\'shesaidquickly;butPaulawasnottobecaughtagain,andkeptclosetothesideofherauntwhiletheyglidedpastBraubackandOberlahnstein。ApproachingCoblenzherauntsaid,\'Paula,letmesuggestthatyoubenotsomuchalonewithCaptainDeStancy。\' \'Andwhy?\'saidPaulaquietly。 \'You\'llhaveplentyofoffersifyouwantthem,withouttakingtrouble,\'saidthedirectMrs。Goodman。\'Yourexistenceishardlyknowntotheworldyet,andCaptainDeStancyistoonearmiddle-ageforagirllikeyou。\'Pauladidnotreplytoeitheroftheseremarks,beingseeminglysointerestedinEhrenbreitstein\'sheightsasnottohearthem。 IX。 ItwasmidnightatCoblenz,andthetravellershadretiredtorestintheirrespectiveapartments,overlookingtheriver。 Findingthattherewasamoonshining,Paulaleantoutofherwindow。ThetallrockofEhrenbreitsteinontheoppositeshorewasfloodedwithlight,andabelatedsteamerwasdrawinguptothelanding-stage,whereitpresentlydepositeditspassengers。 \'Weshouldhavecomebythelastboat,soastohavebeentouchedintoromancebytheraysofthismoon,likethosehappypeople,\'saidavoice。 Shelookedtowardsthespotwhencethevoiceproceeded,whichwasawindowquitenearathand。DeStancywassmokingoutsideit,andshebecameawarethatthewordswereaddressedtoher。 \'Youleftmeveryabruptly,\'hecontinued。 Paula\'sinstinctofcautionimpelledhertospeak。 \'Thewindowsareallopen,\'shemurmured。\'Pleasebecareful。\' \'TherearenoEnglishinthishotelexceptourselves。Ithankyouforwhatyousaidto-day。\' \'Pleasebecareful,\'sherepeated。 \'MydearMissP——\' \'Don\'tmentionnames,anddon\'tcontinuethesubject!\' \'Lifeanddeathperhapsdependuponmyrenewingitsoon!\' Sheshutthewindowdecisively,possiblywonderingifDeStancyhaddrunkaglassortwoofSteinbergmorethanwasgoodforhim,andsawnomoreofmoonlitEhrenbreitsteinthatnight,andheardnomoreofDeStancy。Butitwassometimebeforeheclosedhiswindow,andprevioustodoingsosawadarkformatanadjoiningoneontheotherside。 ItwasMr。Power,alsotakingtheair。\'Well,whatluckto- day?\'saidPower。 \'Adecidedadvance,\'saidDeStancy。 Noneofthespeakersknewthatalittlepersonintheroomaboveheardallthisout-of-windowtalk。Charlotte,thoughnotlookingout,hadlefthercasementopen;andwhatreachedherearssetherwonderingastotheresult。 ItisnotnecessarytodetailinfullDeStancy\'simperceptibleadvanceswithPauladuringthatnorthwardjourney——soslowlyperformedthatitseemedasifshemustperceivetherewasaspecialreasonfordelayingherreturntoEngland。AtCologneonedayheconvenientlyovertookherwhenshewasascendingthehotelstaircase。Seeinghim,shewenttothewindowoftheentresollanding,whichcommandedaviewoftheRhine,meaningthatheshouldpassbytohisroom。 \'Ihavebeenveryuneasy,\'beganthecaptain,drawinguptoherside;\'andIamobligedtotroubleyousoonerthanImeanttodo。\' Paulaturnedhereyesuponhimwithsomecuriosityastowhatwascomingofthisrespectfuldemeanour。\'Indeed!\'shesaid,Hetheninformedherthathehadbeenoverhaulinghimselfsincetheylasttalked,andhadsomereasontoblamehimselfforbluntnessandgeneralwantofeuphemism;which,althoughhehadmeantnothingbyit,musthavebeenverydisagreeabletoher。Buthehadalwaysaimedatsincerity,particularlyashehadtodealwithaladywhodespisedhypocrisyandwasaboveflattery。However,hefearedhemighthavecarriedhisdisregardforconventionalitytoofar。Butfromthattimehewouldpromisethatsheshouldfindanalterationbywhichhehopedhemightreturnthefriendshipatleastofayoungladyhehonouredmorethananyotherintheworld。 Thisretrogrademovementwasevidentlyunexpectedbythehonouredyoungladyherself。Afterbeingsolongaccustomedtorebukehimforhispersistencetherewasnoveltyinfindinghimdotheworkforher。Theguessmightevenhavebeenhazardedthattherewasalsodisappointment。 StilllookingacrosstheriveratthebridgeofboatswhichstretchedtotheoppositesuburbofDeutz:\'Youneednotblameyourself,\'shesaid,withthemildestconceivablemanner,\'Icanmakeallowances。AllIwishisthatyoushouldremainundernomisapprehension。\' \'Icomprehend,\'hesaidthoughtfully。\'Butsince,byaperversefate,Ihavebeenthrownintoyourcompany,youcouldhardlyexpectmetofeelandactotherwise。\' \'Perhapsnot。\' \'SinceIhavesomuchreasontobedissatisfiedwithmyself,\' headded,\'Icannotrefrainfromcriticizingelsewheretoaslightextent,andthinkingIhavetodowithanungenerousperson。\' \'Whyungenerous?\' \'Inthisway;thatsinceyoucannotloveme,youseenoreasonatallfortryingtodosointhefactthatIsodeeplyloveyou;henceIsaythatyouarerathertobedistinguishedbyyourwisdomthanbyyourhumanity。\' \'Itcomestothis,thatifyourwordsareallseriouslymeantitismuchtoberegrettedweevermet,\'shemurmured。\'Nowwillyougoontowhereyouweregoing,andleavemehere?\' Withoutaremonstrancehewenton,sayingwithdejectedwhimsicalityashesmiledbackuponher,\'Youshowawisdomwhichforsoyoungaladyisperfectlysurprising。\' ItwasresolvedtoprolongthejourneybyacircuitthroughHollandandBelgium;butnothingchangedintheattitudesofPaulaandCaptainDeStancytilloneafternoonduringtheirstayattheHague,whentheyhadgoneforadrivedowntoScheveningenbythelongstraightavenueofchestnutsandlimes,underwhoseboughstuftsofwildparsleywavedtheirflowers,exceptwherethebuitenplaatsenofretiredmerchantsblazedforthwithnewpaintofeveryhue。Onmountingthedunewhichkeptouttheseabehindthevillageabriskbreezegreetedtheirfaces,andafinesandblewupintotheireyes。 DeStancyscreenedPaulawithhisumbrellaastheystoodwiththeirbackstothewind,lookingdownontheredroofsofthevillagewithintheseawall,andpullingatthelonggrasswhichbysomemeansfoundnourishmentinthepowderysoilofthedune。 Whentheyhaddiscussedthescenehecontinued,\'Italwaysseemstomethatthisplacereflectstheaveragemoodofhumanlife。Imean,ifwestrikethebalancebetweenourbestmoodsandourworstweshallfindouraverageconditiontostandataboutthesamepitchinemotionalcolourasthesesandydunesandthisgreyscenedoinlandscape。\' Paulacontendedthatheoughtnottomeasureeverybodybyhimself。 \'Ihavenootherstandard,\'saidDeStancy;\'andifmyowniswrong,itisyouwhohavemadeitso。HaveyouthoughtanymoreofwhatIsaidatCologne?\' \'Idon\'tquiterememberwhatyoudidsayatCologne?\' \'Mydearestlife!\'Paula\'seyesroundingsomewhat,hecorrectedtheexclamation。\'MydearMissPower,Iwill,withoutreserve,tellittoyoualloveragain。\' \'Prayspareyourselftheeffort,\'shesaiddrily。\'Whathasthatonefatalstepbetrayedmeinto!……DoyouseriouslymeantosaythatIamthecauseofyourlifebeingcolouredlikethissceneofgrassandsand?Ifso,Ihavecommittedaverygreatfault!\' \'Itcanbenullifiedbyaword。\' \'Suchaword!\' \'Itisaveryshortone。\' \'There\'sastillshorteronemoretothepurpose。Frankly,I believeyoususpectmetohavesomelatentandunownedinclinationforyou——thatyouthinkspeakingistheonlypointuponwhichIambackward……Therenow,itisraining; whatshallwedo?Ithoughtthiswindmeantrain。\' \'Do?Standonhere,aswearestandingnow。\' \'Yoursisterandmyauntaregoneunderthewall。Ithinkwewillwalktowardsthem。\' \'Youhadmademehope,\'hecontinued(histhoughtsapparentlyfarawayfromtherainandthewindandthepossibilityofshelter),\'thatyoumightchangeyourmind,andgivetoyouroriginalpromisealiberalmeaninginrenewingit。InbriefI meanthis,thatyouwouldallowittomergeintoanengagement。Don\'tthinkitpresumptuous,\'hewenton,asheheldtheumbrellaoverher;\'IamsureanymanwouldspeakasIdo。Adistinctpermissiontobewithyouonprobation——thatwaswhatyougavemeatCarlsruhe:andflingingcasuistryononeside,whatdoesthatmean?\' \'ThatIamartisticallyinterestedinyourfamilyhistory。\' Andshewentoutfromtheumbrellatotheshelterofthehotelwhereshefoundherauntandfriend。 DeStancycouldnotbutfeelthathispersistencehadmadesomeimpression。Itwashardlypossiblethatawomanofindependentnaturewouldhavetoleratedhisdanglingathersidesolong,ifhispresencewerewhollydistastefultoher。 ThateveningwhendrivingbacktotheHaguebyadeviousroutethroughthedenseavenuesoftheBoschheconversedwithheragain;alsothenextdaywhenstandingbytheVijverlookingattheswans;andineachcasesheseemedtohaveatleastgotoverherobjectiontobeingseentalkingtohim,apartfromtheremainderofthetravellingparty。 ScenesverysimilartothoseatScheveningenandontheRhinewereenactedatlaterstagesoftheirdesultoryjourney。Mr。 PowerhadproposedtocrossfromRotterdam;butastiffnorth- westerlybreezeprevailingPaulaherselfbecamereluctanttohastenbacktoStancyCastle。TurningabruptlytheymadeforBrussels。 Itwashere,whilewalkinghomewardfromtheParkonemorning,thatheruncleforthefirsttimealludedtothesituationofaffairsbetweenherselfandheradmirer。ThecaptainhadgoneuptheRueRoyalewithhissisterandMrs。Goodman,eithertoshowthemthehouseinwhichtheballtookplaceontheeveofQuatreBrasorsomeothersiteofinterest,andthetwoPowerswerethuslefttothemselves。ToreachtheirhoteltheypassedintoalittlestreetslopingsteeplydownfromtheRueRoyaletothePlaceSte。Gudule,where,atthemomentofnearingthecathedral,aweddingpartyemergedfromtheporchandcrossedinfrontofuncleandniece。 \'Ihope,\'saidtheformer,inhispassionlessway,\'weshallseeaperformanceofthissortbetweenyouandCaptainDeStancy,notsoverylongafterourreturntoEngland。\' \'Why?\'askedPaula,followingthebridewithhereyes。 \'Itisdiplomatically,asImaysay,suchahighlycorrectthing——suchanexpedientthing——suchanobviousthingtoalleyes。\' \'Notaltogethertomine,uncle,\'shereturned。 \'\'Twouldbeathousandpitiestoletslipsuchaneatofferofadjustingdifficultiesasaccidentmakesyouinthis。Youcouldmarrymoretin,that\'strue;butyoudon\'twantit,Paula。Youwantaname,andhistoricwhat-do-they-call-it。 Nowbycomingtotermswiththecaptainyou\'llbeLadyDeStancyinafewyears:andatitlewhichisuselesstohim,andafortuneandcastlewhichareinsomedegreeuselesstoyou,willmakeasplendidwholeusefultoyouboth。\' \'I\'vethoughtitover——quite,\'sheanswered。\'AndIquiteseewhattheadvantagesare。ButhowifIdon\'tcareoneatomforartisticcompletenessandasplendidwhole;anddocareverymuchtodowhatmyfancyinclinesmetodo?\' \'ThenIshouldsaythat,takingacomprehensiveviewofhumannatureofallcolours,yourfancyisaboutthesilliestfancyexistingonthisearthlyball。\' Paulalaughedindifferently,andherunclefeltthat,persistentaswashisnature,hewasthewrongmantoinfluenceherbyargument。Paula\'sblindnesstotheadvantagesofthematch,ifshewereblind,wasthatofawomanwhowouldn\'tsee,andthebestargumentwassilence。 Thiswasinsomemeasureprovedthenextmorning。WhenPaulamadeherappearanceMrs。Goodmansaid,holdingupanenvelope: \'Here\'saletterfromMr。Somerset。\' \'Dearme,\'saidsheblandly,thoughaquicklittleflushascendedhercheek。\'Ihadnearlyforgottenhim!\' Theletteronbeingreadcontainedarequestasbriefasitwasunexpected。Havingpreparedallthedrawingsnecessaryfortherebuilding,Somersetbeggedleavetoresignthesuperintendenceoftheworkintootherhands。 \'Hislettercapsyourremarksveryaptly,\'saidMrs。Goodman,withsecrettriumph。\'Youarenearlyforgettinghim,andheisquiteforgettingyou。\' \'Yes,\'saidPaula,affectingcarelessness。\'Well,Imustgetsomebodyelse,Isuppose。\' X。 TheynextdeviatedtoAmiens,intendingtostaythereonlyonenight;buttheirschemeswerederangedbythesuddenillnessofCharlotte。Shehadbeenlookingunwellforafortnightpast,though,withherusualself-abnegation,shehadmadelightofherailment。Evennowshedeclaredshecouldgoon; butthiswassaidover-night,andinthemorningitwasabundantlyevidentthattomoveherwashighlyunadvisable。 Stillshewasnotinseriousdanger,andhavingcalledinaphysician,whopronouncedrestindispensable,theypreparedtoremainintheoldPicardcapitaltwoorthreeadditionaldays。 Mr。PowerthoughthewouldtakeadvantageofthehalttorunuptoParis,leavingDeStancyinchargeoftheladies。 InmorewaysthanintheillnessofCharlottethisdaywastheharbingerofacrisis。 Itwasasummereveningwithoutacloud。Charlottehadfallenasleepinherbed,andPaula,whohadbeensittingbyher,lookedoutintothePlaceSt。Denis,whichthehotelcommanded。Thelawnofthesquarewasallablazewithredandyellowclumpsofflowers,theacaciatreeswerebrightlygreen,thesunwassoftandlow。TemptedbytheprospectPaulawentandputonherhat;andarousingheraunt,whowasnoddinginthenextroom,torequesthertokeepanearonCharlotte\'sbedroom,PauladescendedintotheRuedeNoyonalone,andenteredthegreenenclosure。 Whileshewalkedround,twoorthreelittlechildreninchargeofanursetrundledalargevariegatedballalongthegrass,anditrolledtoPaula\'sfeet。Shesmiledatthem,andendeavouredtoreturnitbyaslightkick。Theballroseintheair,andpassingoverthebackofaseatwhichstoodunderoneofthetrees,alightedinthelapofagentlemanhithertoscreenedbyitsboughs。ThebackandshouldersprovedtobethoseofDeStancy。Heturnedhishead,jumpedup,andwasathersideinaninstant,anettledflushhavingmeanwhilecrossedPaula\'sface。 \'IthoughtyouhadgonetotheHotoiePromenade,\'shesaidhastily。\'Iamgoingtothecathedral;\'(obviouslyutteredlestitshouldseemthatshehadseenhimfromthehotelwindows,andenteredthesquareforhiscompany)。 \'Ofcourse:thereisnothingelsetogotohere——evenforRoundheads。\' \'IfyoumeanMEbythat,youareverymuchmistaken,\'saidshetestily。 \'TheRoundheadswereyourancestors,andtheyknockeddownmyancestors\'castle,andbrokethestainedglassandstatuaryofthecathedral,\'saidDeStancyslily;\'andnowyougonotonlytoacathedral,buttoaserviceoftheunreformedChurchinit。\' \'Inaforeigncountryitisdifferentfromhome,\'saidPaulainextenuation;\'andyouofallmenshouldnotreproachmefortergiversation——whenithasbeenbroughtaboutby——bymysympathieswith——\' \'WiththetroublesoftheDeStancys。\' \'Well,youknowwhatImean,\'sheanswered,withconsiderableanxietynottobemisunderstood;\'mylikingfortheoldcastle,andwhatitcontains,andwhatitsuggests。IdeclareIwillnotexplaintoyoufurther——whyshouldI?Iamnotanswerabletoyou!\' Paula\'sshowofpetulancewasperhapsnotwhollybecauseshehadappearedtoseekhim,butalsofrombeingremindedbyhiscriticismthatMr。Woodwell\'sprophecyonherweaklysuccumbingtosurroundingswasslowlyworkingoutitsfulfilment。 Shemovedforwardtowardsthegateatthefurtherendofthesquare,beyondwhichthecathedrallayataveryshortdistance。Pauladidnotturnherhead,andDeStancystrolledslowlyafterherdowntheRueduCollege。Thedayhappenedtobeoneofthechurchfestivals,andpeoplewereasecondtimeflockingintotheloftymonumentofCatholicismatitsmeridian。Paulavanishedintotheporchwiththerest;and,almostcatchingthewicketasitflewbackfromherhand,hetooenteredthehigh-shoulderededifice——anedificedoomedtolabourunderthemelancholymisfortuneofseemingonlyhalfasvastasitreallyis,andastrulyaswhimsicallydescribedbyHeineasamonumentbuiltwiththestrengthofTitans,anddecoratedwiththepatienceofdwarfs。 DeStancywalkedupthenave,soclosebesideherastotouchherdress;butshewouldnotrecognizehispresence;thedarknessthateveninghadthrownovertheinterior,whichwasscarcelybrokenbythefewcandlesdottedabout,beingasufficientexcuseifsherequiredone。 \'MissPower,\'DeStancysaidatlast,\'Iamcomingtotheservicewithyou。\' Shereceivedtheintelligencewithoutsurprise,andheknewshehadbeenconsciousofhimalltheway。 Paulawentnofurtherthanthemiddleofthenave,wheretherewashardlyasoul,andtookachairbesideasolitaryrushlightwhichlookedamidthevaguegloomoftheinaccessiblearchitecturelikealighthouseatthefootoftallcliffs。