\"AMORTALANTIPATHY\"wasatrulyhazardousexperiment。Averywiseandverydistinguishedphysicianwhoisasmuchathomeinliteratureasheisinscienceandthepracticeofmedicine，wrotetomeinreferringtothisstory:\"Ishouldhavebeenafraidofmysubject。”
Hedidnotexplainhimself，butIcaneasilyunderstandthathefelttheimprobabilityofthe，physiologicalorpathologicaloccurrenceonwhichthestoryisfoundedtobesogreatthatthenarrativecouldhardlyberenderedplausible。Ifeltthedifficultyformyselfaswellasformyreaders，anditwasonlybyrecallingforourconsiderationaseriesofextraordinarybutwell-authenticatedfactsofsomewhatsimilarcharacterthatIcouldhopetogainanyseriousattentiontosostrangeanarrative。
Ineednotrecurtothesewonderfulstories。Thereis，however，one，nottobefoundonrecordelsewhere，towhichIwouldespeciallycallthereader\'sattention。Itisthatofthemiddle-agedman，whoassuredmethathecouldneverpassatallhallclockwithoutanindefinableterror。Whileaninfantinarmstheheavyweightofoneofthesetallclockshadfallenwithaloudcrashandproducedanimpressiononhisnervoussystemwhichhehadnevergotover。
Thelastingeffectofashockreceivedbythesenseofsightorthatofhearingisconceivableenough。
Butthereisanothersense，thenervesofwhichareincloserelationwiththehigherorgansofconsciousness。Thestrengthoftheassociationsconnectedwiththefunctionofthefirstpairofnerves，theolfactory，isfamiliartomostpersonsintheirownexperienceandasrelatedbyothers。Nowweknowthateveryhumanbeing，aswellaseveryotherlivingorganism，carriesitsowndistinguishingatmosphere。Ifaman\'sfrienddoesnotknowit，hisdogdoes，andcantrackhimanywherebyit。Thispersonalpeculiarityvarieswiththeageandconditionsoftheindividual。
Itmaybeagreeableorotherwise，asourceofattractionorrepulsion，butitsinfluenceisnotlessreal，thoughfarlessobviousandlessdominant，thanintheloweranimals。Itwasanatmosphericimpressionofthisnaturewhichassociateditselfwithaterribleshockexperiencedbytheinfantwhichbecamethesubjectofthisstory。Theimpressioncouldnotbeoutgrown，butitmightpossiblybebrokenupbysomesuddenchangeinthenervoussystemeffectedbyacauseaspotentastheonewhichhadproducedthedisorderedcondition。
ThisisthebestkeythatIcanfurnishtoastorywhichmusthavepuzzledsome，repelledothers，andfailedtointerestmanywhodidnotsuspectthetruecauseofthemysteriousantipathy。
BEVERLYFARMS，MASS。，August，1891。
O。W。H。
AMORTALANTIPATHY。
FIRSTOPENINGOFTHENEWPORTFOLIO。
INTRODUCTION。
\"AndwhytheNewPortfolio，Iwouldask？\"
Pray，doyouremember，whentherewasanaccessiontothenurseryinwhichyouhaveaspecialinterest，whetherthenew-comerwascommonlyspokenofasababy？Wasitnot，onthecontrary，invariably，underallconditions，inallcompanies，bythewholehousehold，spokenofasthebaby？Andwasthesmallreceptacleprovidedforitcommonlyspokenofasacradle；orwasitnotalwayscalledthecradle，asiftherewerenootherinexistence？
NowthisNewPortfolioisthecradleinwhichIamtorockmynew-bornthoughts，andfromwhichIamtoliftthemcarefullyandshowthemtocallers，namely，tothewholefamilyofreadersbelongingtomylistofintimates，andsuchotherfriendsasmaydropinbyaccident。Andsoitshallhavethedefinitearticle，andnotbelostinthemobofitsfellowsasaportfolio。
ThereareafewpersonalandincidentalmattersofwhichIwishtosaysomethingbeforereachingthecontentsofthePortfolio，whateverthesemaybe。Ihavehadotherportfoliosbeforethis，——two，moreespecially，andthefirstthingIbegleavetointroducerelatestothese。
Donotthrowthisvolumedown，orturntoanotherpage，whenItellyouthattheearliestofthem，thatofwhichInowamabouttospeak，wasopenedmorethanfiftyyearsago。Thisisaverydangerousconfession，forfiftyyearsmakeeverythinghopelesslyold-fashioned，withoutgivingitthecharmofrealantiquity。IfIcouldsayahundredyears，now，myreaderswouldacceptallIhadtotellthemwithacuriousinterest；butfiftyyearsago，——therearetoomanytalkativeoldpeoplewhoknowallaboutthattime，andatbesthalfacenturyisahalf-bakedbitofware。Acoin-fancierwouldsaythatyourfifty-year-oldfactshavejustenoughofantiquitytospotthemwithrust，andnotenoughtogivethem——thedelicateanddurablepatinawhichistime\'sexquisiteenamel。
WhenthefirstPortfoliowasopenedthecoinoftherealmboreforitslegend，——ormighthaveborneifthemoredevouthero-worshipperscouldhavehadtheirway，——AndreasJackson，PopuliGratia，Imp。
Caesrzr。Aug。Div。，Max。，etc。，etc。Ineverhappenedtoseeanygoldorsilverwiththatlegend，butthetruthisIwasnotveryfamiliarlyacquaintedwiththepreciousmetalsatthatperiodofmycareer，and，theremighthavebeenagooddealofsuchcoinincirculationwithoutmyhandlingit，orknowingmuchaboutit。
Permitmetoindulgeinafewreminiscencesofthatfar-offtime。
InthosedaystheAthenaeumPictureGallerywasaprincipalcentreofattractiontoyoungBostonpeopleandtheirvisitors。Manyofusgotourfirstideasofart，tosaynothingofourfirstlessonsinthecomparativelyinnocentflirtationsofourcity\'sprimitiveperiod，inthatagreeableresortofamateursandartists。
HowthepicturesonthosewallsinPearlStreetdokeeptheirplacesinthemind\'sgallery!Trumbull\'sSortieofGibraltar，withredenoughinitforoneofoursunsetafter-glows；andNeagle\'sfull-
lengthportraitoftheblacksmithinhisshirt-sleeves；andCopley\'slong-waistcoatedgentlemenandsatin-cladladies，——theylookedlikegentlemenandladies，too；andStuart\'sfloridmerchantsandhigh-
waistedmatrons；andAllston\'slovelyItaliansceneryanddreamy，unimpassionedwomen，notforgettingFlorimelinfullflightonherinterminablerocking-horse，——youmaystillseeherattheArtMuseum；
andtherivallandscapesofDoughtyandFisher，muchtalkedofandlargelypraisedinthosedays；andtheMurillo，——notfromMarshalSoup\'scollection；andtheportraitofAnnibaleCaraccibyhimself，whichcosttheAthenaeumahundreddollars；andCole\'sallegoricalpictures，andhisimmenseanddrearycanvas，inwhichtheprostrateshepherdsandtheangelinJoseph\'scoatofmanycolorslookasiftheymusthavebeenthrowninfornothing；andWest\'sbrawnyLeartearinghisclothestopieces。Butwhygoonwiththecatalogue，whenmostofthesepicturescanbeseeneitherattheAthenaeumbuildinginBeaconStreetorattheArtGallery，andadmiredorcriticisedperhapsmorejustly，certainlynotmoregenerously，thaninthoseearlieryearswhenwelookedatthemthroughthejapannedfish-horns？
IfonehappenedtopassthroughAtkinsonStreetonhiswaytotheAthenaeum，hewouldnoticealarge，square，painted，brickhouse，inwhichlivedaleadingrepresentativeofold-fashionedcoleopterousCalvinism，andfromwhichemergedoneoftheliveliestofliterarybutterflies。Thefatherwaseditorofthe\"BostonRecorder，\"averyrespectable，butveryfarfromamusingpaper，mostlargelypatronizedbythatclassofthecommunitywhichspokehabituallyofthefirstdayoftheweekas\"theSahbuth。”Thesonwastheeditorofseveraldifferentperiodicalsinsuccession，noneofthemoversevereorserious，andofmanypleasantbooks，filledwithlivelydescriptionsofsociety，whichbestudiedontheoutsidewithaquickeyeforformandcolor，andwithacertainamountofsentiment，notverydeep，butreal，thoughsomewhatfrothedoverbyhisworldlyexperiences。
NathanielParkerWilliswasinfullbloomwhenIopenedmyfirstPortfolio。Hehadmadehimselfknownbyhisreligiouspoetry，publishedinhisfather\'spaper，Ithink，andsigned\"Roy。”Hehadstartedthe\"AmericanMagazine，\"afterwardsmergedintheNewYorkMirror。”Hehadthenleftoffwritingscripturepieces，andtakentolighterformsofverse。Hehadjustwritten\"I\'mtwenty-two，I\'mtwenty-two，Theyidlygivemejoy，AsifIshouldbegladtoknowThatIwaslessaboy。”
Hewasyoung，therefore，andalreadyfamous。Hecameverynearbeingveryhandsome。Hewastall；hishair，oflightbrowncolor，wavedinluxuriantabundance；hischeekwasasrosyasifithadbeenpaintedtoshowbehindthefootlights；hedressedwithartisticelegance。HewassomethingbetweenaremembranceofCountD\'OrsayandananticipationofOscarWilde。ThereusedtobeinthegalleryoftheLuxembourgapictureofHippolytusandPhxdra，inwhichthebeautifulyoungman，whohadkindledapassionintheheartofhiswickedstep-
mother，alwaysremindedmeofWillis，inspiteoftheshortcomingsofthelivingfaceascomparedwiththeideal。Thepaintedyouthisstillbloomingonthecanvas，butthefresh-cheecked，jauntyyoungauthoroftheyear1830haslongfadedoutofhumansight。Itooktheleaveswhichliebeforemeatthismoment，asIwrite，fromhiscoffin，asitlayjustoutsidethedoorofSaintPaul\'sChurch，onasad，overcloudedwinter\'sday，intheyear1867。Atthatearliertime，WilliswasbyfarthemostprominentyoungAmericanauthor。
Cooper，Irving，Bryant，Dana，Halleck，Drake，hadalldonetheirbestwork。Longfellowwasnotyetconspicuous。Lowellwasaschool-boy。
Emersonwasunheardof。Whittierwasbeginningtomakehiswayagainstthewriterswithbettereducationaladvantageswhomhewasdestinedtooutdoandtooutlive。Notoneofthegreathistories，whichhavedonehonortoourliterature，hadappeared。Ourschool-
booksdepended，sofarasAmericanauthorswereconcerned，onextractsfromtheorationsandspeechesofWebsterandEverett；onBryant\'sThanatopsis，hislinesToaWaterfowl，andtheDeathoftheFlowers，Halleck\'sMarcoBozzaris，RedJacket，andBurns；onDrake\'sAmericanFlag，andPercival\'sCoralGrove，andhisGeniusSleepingandGeniusWaking，——andnotgettingverywideawake，either。Thesecouldbedependedupon。Afewothercopiesofversesmightbefound，butDwight\'s\"Columbia，Columbia，\"andPierpont\'sAirsofPalestine，werealreadyeffaced，asmanyofthefavoritesofourowndayandgenerationmustsoonbe，bythegreatwavewhichthenearfuturewillpouroverthesandsinwhichtheystillarelegible。
Aboutthistime，intheyear1832，cameoutasmallvolumeentitled\"Truth，aGiftforScribblers，\"whichmadesometalkforawhile，andisnowchieflyvaluableasakindofliterarytombstoneonwhichmaybereadthenamesofmanywhoserenownhasbeenburiedwiththeirbones。The\"LondonAthenaeum\"spokeofitashavingbeendescribedasa\"tomahawksortofsatire。”AstheauthorhadbeenatrapperinMissouri，hewasfamiliarlyacquaintedwiththatweaponandthewarfareofitsowners。BorninBoston，in1804，thesonofanarmyofficer，educatedatWestPoint，hecamebacktohisnativecityabouttheyear1830。HewroteanarticleonBryant\'sPoemsforthe\"NorthAmericanReview，\"andanotheronthefamousIndianchief，BlackHawk。Inthislast-mentionedarticlehetellsthisstoryasthegreatwarriortoldithimself。ItwasanincidentofafightwiththeOsages。
\"Standingbymyfather\'sside，Isawhimkillhisantagonistandtearthescalpfromhishead。Firedwithvalorandambition，Irushedfuriouslyuponanother，smotehimtotheearthwithmytomahawk，ranmylancethroughhisbody，tookoffhisscalp，andreturnedintriumphtomyfather。Hesaidnothing，butlookedpleased。”
ThislittleredstorydescribesverywellSpelling\'sstyleofliterarywarfare。Hishandlingofhismostconspicuousvictim，Willis，wasverymuchlikeBlackHawk\'swayofdealingwiththeOsage。Hetomahawkedhiminheroics，ranhimthroughinprose，andscalpedhiminbarbarousepigrams。BryantandHalleckwereabundantlypraised；hardlyanyoneelseescaped。
Ifthereaderwishestoseethebubblesofreputationthatwerefloating，someofthemgaywithprismaticcolors，halfacenturyago，hewillfindinthepagesof\"Truth\"alongcatalogueofcelebritiesheneverheardof。Irecognizeonlythreenames，ofallwhicharementionedinthelittlebook，asbelongingtopersonsstillliving；
butasIhavenotreadtheobituariesofalltheothers，someofthemmaybestillflourishinginspiteofMr。Spelling\'sexterminatingonslaught。TimedealtashardlywithpoorSpelling，whowasnotwithouttalentandinstruction，ashehaddealtwithourauthors。I
thinkhefoundshelteratlastunderaroofwhichheldnumerousinmates，someofwhomhadseenbetterandmanyofwhomhadknownworsedaysthanthosewhichtheywerepassingwithinitsfriendlyandnotexclusiveprecincts。Such，atleast，wasthestoryIheardafterhedisappearedfromgeneralobservation。
ThatwasthedayofSouvenirs，Tokens，Forget-me-nots，Bijous，andallthatclassofshowyannuals。Shortstories，slenderpoems，steelengravings，onalevelwiththecommonfashion-platesofadvertisingestablishments，giltedges，resplendentbinding，——tomanifestationsofthissortourlighterliteraturehadverylargelyrunforsomeyears。The\"ScarletLetter\"wasanunhintedpossibility。The\"VoicesoftheNight\"hadnotstirredthebroodingsilence；theConcordseerwasstillinthelonelydesert；mostofthecontributorstothoseyearlyvolumes，whichtookupsuchpretentiouspositionsonthecentretable，haveshrunkintoentireoblivion，or，atbest，holdtheirplaceinliteraturebyascraportwoinsomeomnivorouscollection。
WhatdreadfulworkSpellingmadeamongthoseslightreputations，floatinginswollentenuityonthesurfaceofthestream，andmirroringeachotherinreciprocalreflections!Violent，abusiveashewas，unjusttoanyagainstwhomhehappenedtohaveaprejudice，hiscastigationofthesmalllitterateursofthatdaywasnotharmful，butratherofuse。HisattackonWillisveryprobablydidhimgood；heneededalittlediscipline，andthoughhegotittoounsparingly，somecautionscamewithitwhichwereworththestripeshehadtosmartunder。OnenoblewriterSpellingtreatedwithrudeness，probablyfromsomeaccidentalpique，orequallyinsignificantreason。Imyself，oneofthethreesurvivorsbeforereferredto，escapedwithalove-pat，astheyoungestsonoftheMuse。Longfellowgetsabriefnodofacknowledgment。Bailey，anAmericanwriter，\"whomadelongsinceahappysnatchatfame，\"whichmusthavebeensnatchedawayfromhimbyenvioustime，forIcannotidentifyhim；Thatcher，whodiedearly，leavingonepoem，TheLastRequest，notwhollyunremembered；MissHannahF。Gould，averybrightandagreeablewriteroflightverse，——allthesearecommendedtothekeepingofthatvenerablepubliccarrier，whofindshisscytheandhour-glasssuchaloadthathegenerallydropstheburdenscommittedtohischarge，aftermakingashowofpayingeverypossibleattentiontothemsolongasheiskeptinsight。
Itwasagoodtimetoopenaportfolio。Butmyoldonehadboyhoodwrittenoneverypage。AsinglepassionateoutcrywhentheoldwarshipIhadreadaboutinthebroadsidesthatwereapartofourkitchenliterature，andinthe\"NavalMonument，\"wasthreatenedwithdemolition；afewversessuggestedbythesightofoldMajorMelvilleinhiscockedhatandbreeches，werethebestscrapsthatcameoutofthatfirstPortfolio，whichwassoonclosedthatitshouldnotinterferewiththedutiesofaprofessionauthorizedtoclaimallthetimeandthoughtwhichwouldhavebeenotherwiseexpendedinfillingit。
DuringaquarterofacenturythefirstPortfolioremainedclosedforthegreaterpartofthetime。Onlynowandthenitwouldbetakenupandopened，andsomethingdrawnfromitforaspecialoccasion，moreparticularlyfortheannualreunionsofacertainclassofwhichI
wasamember。
Intheyear1857，towardsitsclose，the\"AtlanticMonthly，\"whichI
hadthehonorofnaming，wasstartedbytheenterprisingfirmofPhillips&Sampson，undertheeditorshipofMr。JamesRussellLowell。
HethoughtthatImightbringsomethingoutofmyoldPortfoliowhichwouldbenotunacceptableinthenewmagazine。Ilookedatthepooroldreceptacle，which，partlyfromuseandpartlyfromneglect，hadlostitsfreshness，andseemedhardlypresentabletothenewcompanyexpectedtowelcomethenew-comerintheliteraryworldofBoston，theleastprovincialofAmericancentresoflearningandletters。
Thegildedcoveringwheretheemblemsofhopeandaspirationhadlookedsobrighthadfaded；notwholly，perhaps，buthowwasthegoldbecomedim!——howwasthemostfinegoldchanged!Longdevotiontootherpursuitshadleftlittletimeforliterature，andthewaifsandstraysgatheredfromtheoldPortfoliohaddonelittlemorethankeepalivethememorythatsuchasourceofsupplywasstillinexistence。
IlookedattheoldPortfolio，andsaidtomyself，\"Toolate!toolate。Thistarnishedgoldwillneverbrighten，thesebatteredcoverswillstandnomorewearandtear；closethem，andleavethemtothespiderandthebook-worm。”
Inthemeantimethenebulaofthefirstquarterofthecenturyhadcondensedintotheconstellationofthemiddleofthesameperiod。
When，alittlewhileaftertheestablishmentofthenewmagazine，the\"SaturdayClub\"gatheredaboutthelongtableat\"Parker\'s，\"sucharepresentationofallthatwasbestinAmericanliteraturehadneverbeencollectedwithinsosmallacompass。MostoftheAmericanswhomeducatedforeignerscaredtosee-leavingoutofconsiderationofficialdignitaries，whosetemporaryimportancemakesthemobjectsofcuriosity——wereseatedatthatboard。Buttheclubdidnotyetexist，andthe\"AtlanticMonthly\"wasanexperiment。Therehadalreadybeenseveralmonthlyperiodicals，moreorlesssuccessfulandpermanent，amongwhich\"Putnam\'sMagazine\"wasconspicuous，owingitssuccesslargelytothecontributionsofthatveryaccomplishedanddelightfulwriter，Mr。GeorgeWilliamCurtis。Thatmagazine，afterasomewhatprolongedandveryhonorableexistence，hadgonewhereallperiodicalsgowhentheydie，intothearchivesofthedeaf，dumb，andblindrecordingangelwhosenameisOblivion。Ithadsowelldeservedtolivethatitsdeathwasasurpriseandasourceofregret。Couldanothermonthlytakeitsplaceandkeepitwhenthat，withallitsattractionsandexcellences，haddiedout，andleftablankinourperiodicalliteraturewhichitwouldbeveryhardtofillaswellasthathadfilledit？
Thiswastheexperimentwhichtheenterprisingpublishersventuredupon，andI，whofeltmyselfoutsideofthecharmedcircledrawnaroundthescholarsandpoetsofCambridgeandConcord，havinggivenmyselftootherstudiesandduties，wonderedsomewhatwhenMr。Lowellinsisteduponmybecomingacontributor。Andso，yieldingtoapressurewhichIcouldnotunderstand，andyetfoundmyselfunabletoresist，Ipromisedtotakeapartinthenewventure，asanoccasionalwriterinthecolumnsofthenewmagazine。
ThatwasthewayinwhichthesecondPortfoliofounditswaytomytable，andwasthereopenedintheautumnoftheyear1857。IwasalreadyatleastNelmezzodelcammindimia，vita，whenIriskedmyself，withmanymisgivings，inlittle-triedpathsofwhatlookedatfirstlikeawilderness，aselvaoscura，where，ifI
didnotmeetthelionorthewolf，Ishouldbesuretofindthecritic，themostdangerousofthecarnivores，waitingtowelcomemeafterhisownfashion。
ThesecondPortfolioisclosedandlaidaway。Perhapsitwashardlyworthwhiletoprovideandopenanewone；buthereitliesbeforeme，andIhopeImayfindsomethingbetweenitscoverswhichwilljustifymeincomingoncemorebeforemyoldfriends。ButbeforeI
openitIwanttoclaimalittlefurtherindulgence。
Thereisasubjectofprofoundinteresttoalmosteverywriter，I
mightsaytoalmosteveryhumanbeing。Nomatterwhathiscultureorignorance，nomatterwhathispursuit，nomatterwhathischaracter，thesubjectIrefertoisoneofwhichherarelyceasestothink，and，ifopportunityisoffered，totalk。Onthisheiseloquent，ifonnothingelse。Theslowofspeechbecomesfluent；thetorpidlistenerbecomeselectricwithvivacity，andalivealloverwithinterest。
Thesagaciousreaderknowswellwhatiscomingafterthisprelude。
Heisaccustomedtothephraseswithwhichtheplausiblevisitor，whohasasubscriptionbookinhispocket，prepareshisvictimforthedepressingdisclosureofhisrealerrand。Heisnotunacquaintedwiththeconversationalamenitiesofthecordialandinterestingstranger，who，havinghadthemisfortuneofleavinghiscarpet-baginthecars，orofhavinghispocketpickedatthestation，findshimselfwithoutthemeansofreachingthatdistanthomewhereaffluencewaitsforhimwithitsluxuriouswelcome，buttowhomforthemomenttheloanofsomefiveandtwentydollarswouldbeaconvenienceandafavorforwhichhisheartwouldachewithgratitudeduringthebriefintervalbetweentheloananditsrepayment。
Iwishtosayafewwordsinmyownpersonrelatingtosomepassagesinmyownhistory，andmoreespeciallytosomeoftherecentexperiencesthroughwhichIhavebeenpassing。
Whatcanjustifyoneinaddressinghimselftothegeneralpublicasifitwerehisprivatecorrespondent？Thereareatleastthreesufficientreasons:first，ifhehasastorytotellthateverybodywantstohear，——ifbehasbeenshipwrecked，orhasbeeninabattle，orhaswitnessedanyinterestingevent，andcantellanythingnewaboutit；secondly，ifhecanputinfittingwordsanycommonexperiencesnotalreadywelltold，sothatreaderswillsay，\"Why，yes!Ihavehadthatsensation，thought，emotion，ahundredtimes，butIneverhearditspokenofbefore，andIneversawanymentionofitinprint；\"andthirdly，anythingonelikes，providedhecansotellitastomakeitinteresting。
IhavenostorytotellinthisIntroductionwhichcanofitselfclaimanygeneralattention。Myfirstpagesrelatetheeffectofacertainliteraryexperienceuponmyself，——aseriesofpartialmetempsychosesofwhichIhavebeenthesubject。NextfollowsabrieftributetothememoryofaverydearandrenownedfriendfromwhomIhaverecentlybeenparted。TherestoftheIntroductionwillbeconsecratedtothememoryofmybirthplace。
IhavejustfinishedaMemoir，whichwillappearsoonafterthispageiswritten，andwillhavebeenthesubjectofcriticismlongbeforeitisinthereader\'shands。Theexperienceofthinkinganotherman\'sthoughtscontinuouslyforalongtime；oflivingone\'sselfintoanotherman\'slifeforamonth，orayear，ormore，isaverycuriousone。Nomatterhowmuchsuperiortothebiographerhissubjectmaybe，themanwhowritesthelifefeelshimself，inacertainsense，onthelevelofthepersonwhoselifeheiswriting。
OnecannotfightoverthebattlesofMarengoorAusterlitzwithNapoleonwithoutfeelingasifhehimselfhadafractionalclaimtothevictory，sorealseemsthetransferofhispersonalityintothatoftheconquerorwhilehereads。Stillmoremustthisidentificationof\"subject\"and\"object\"takeplacewhenoneiswritingofapersonwhosestudiesoroccupationsarenotunlikehisown。
Herearesomeofmymetempsychoses:
TenyearsagoIwrotewhatIcalledAMemorialOutlineofaremarkablestudentofnature。Hewasabornobserver，andsucharefarfromcommon。Hewasalsoamanofgreatenthusiasmandunwearyingindustry。Hisquickeyedetectedwhatotherspassedbywithoutnotice:theIndianrelic，whereanotherwouldseeonlypebblesandfragments；theraremollusk，orreptile，whichhiscompanionwouldpokewithhiscane，neversuspectingthattherewasaprizeattheendofit。Gettinghissinglefactstogetherwithmarvelloussagacityandlong-breathedpatience，hearrangedthem，classifiedthem，describedthem，studiedthemintheirrelations，andbeforethosearoundhimwereawareofitthecollectorwasanaccomplishednaturalist。When——hediedhiscollectionsremained，andtheystillremain，ashisrecordinthehieraticlanguageofscience。
Inwritingthismemoirthespiritofhisquietpursuits，theeventempertheybredinhim，gainedpossessionofmyownmind，sothatI
seemedtolookatnaturethroughhisgold-bowedspectacles，andtomoveabouthisbeautifullyorderedmuseumasifIhadmyselfpreparedandarrangeditsspecimens。Ifeltwisewithhiswisdom，fair-mindedwithhiscalmimpartiality；itseemedasifforthetimehisplacid，observant，inquiring，keen-sightednature\"slidintomysoul，\"andifIhadlookedatmyselfintheglassIshouldalmosthaveexpectedtoseetheimageoftheHerseyprofessorwhoselifeandcharacterIwassketching。
AfewyearshaterIlivedoverthelifeofanotherfriendinwritingaMemoirofwhichhewasthesubject。Isawhim，thebeautiful，bright-eyedboy，withdark，wavinghair；theyouthfulscholar，firstatHarvard，thenatGottingenandBerlin，thefriendandcompanionofBismarck；theyoungauthor，makingadashforrenownasanovelist，andshowingtheelementswhichmadehisfailuresthepromiseofsuccessinalargerfieldofliterarylabor；thedelvinghistorian，buryinghisfreshyoungmanhoodinthedustyalcovesofsilentlibraries，tocomeforthinthefaceofEuropeandAmericaasoneoftheleadinghistoriansofthetime；thediplomatist，accomplished，ofcaptivatingpresenceandmanners，anardentAmerican，andinthetimeoftrialanimpassionedandeloquentadvocateofthecauseoffreedom；reachingatlastthesummitofhisambitionasministerattheCourtofSaintJames。AllthisIseemedtosharewithhimasI
trackedhiscareerfromhisbirthplaceinDorchester，andthehouseinWalnutStreetwherehepassedhisboyhood，tothepalacesofViennaandLondon。Andthenthecruelblowwhichstruckhimfromtheplaceheadorned；thegreatsorrowthatdarkenedhislateryears；theinvasionofillness，athreatthatwarnedofdanger，andafteraperiodofinvalidism，duringapartofwhichIsharedhismostintimatedailylife，thesudden，hardlyunwelcome，finalsummons。
Didnotmyownconsciousnessmigrate，orseem，atleast，totransferitselfintothisbrilliantlifehistory，asItraceditsglowingrecord？I，too，seemedtofeelthedelightofcarryingwithme，asiftheyweremyown，thecharmsofapresencewhichmadeitsownwelcomeeverywhere。Isharedhisheroictoils，Ipartookofhisliteraryandsocialtriumphs，Iwashonoredbythemarksofdistinctionwhichgatheredabouthim，Iwaswrongedbytheindignityfromwhichhesuffered，mournedwithhiminhissorrow，andthus，afterIhadbeenlivingformonthswithhismemory，IfeltasifI
shouldcarryapartofhisbeingwithmesolongasmyself-
consciousnessmightremainimprisonedintheponderableelements。
Theyearspassedaway，andtheinfluencesderivedfromthecompanionshipsIhavespokenofhadblendedintimatelywithmyowncurrentofbeing。Thentherecametomeanewexperienceinmyrelationswithaneminentmemberofthemedicalprofession，whomI
methabituallyforalongperiod，andtowhosememoryIconsecratedafewpagesasapreludetoaworkofhisown，writtenunderverypeculiarcircumstances。Hewasthesubjectofaslow，torturing，malignant，andalmostnecessarilyfataldisease。Knowingwellthatthemindwouldfeeduponitselfifitwerenotsuppliedwithfoodfromwithout，hedeterminedtowriteatreatiseonasubjectwhichhadgreatlyinterestedhim，andwhichwouldobligehimtobestowmuchofhistimeandthoughtuponit，ifindeedhecouldholdouttofinishthework。Duringtheperiodwhilehewasengagedinwritingit，hiswife，whohadseemedinperfecthealth，diedsuddenlyofpneumonia。Physicalsuffering，mentaldistress，theprospectofdeathatanear，ifuncertain，timealwaysbeforehim，itwashardtoconceiveamoreterriblestrainthanthatwhichhehadtoendure。
When，inthehourofhisgreatestneed，hisfaithfulcompanion，thewifeofmanyyearsofhappyunion，whosehandhadsmoothedhispillow，whosevoicehadconsoledandcheeredhim，wastornfromhimafterafewdaysofillness，Ifeltthatmy，friend\'strialwassuchthatthecryofthemanofmanyafflictionsandtemptationsmightwellhaveescapedfromhislips:\"Iwasatease，buthehathbrokenmeasunder；hehathalsotakenmebymyneckandshakenmetopieces，andsetmeupforhismark。Hisarcherscompassmeroundabout，hecleavethmyreinsasunder，anddothnotspare；hepourethoutmygallupontheground。”
Ihaddreadedmeetinghimforthefirsttimeafterthiscrushingblow。WhatalessonhegavemeofpatienceundersufferingswhichthefearfuldescriptionoftheEasternpoetdoesnotpicturetoovividly!WehavebeentaughttoadmirethecalmphilosophyofHaller，watchinghisfalteringpulseashelaydying；wehaveheardthewordsofpiousresignationsaidtohavebeenutteredwithhislastbreathbyAddison:butherewasatrial，notofhours，ordays，orweeks，butofmonths，evenyears，ofcruelpain，andinthemidstofitsthickdarknessthelightoflove，whichhadburnedsteadilyathisbedside，wassuddenlyextinguished。
Thereweretimesinwhichthethoughtwouldforceitselfuponmyconsciousness，Howlongistheuniversetolookuponthisdreadfulexperimentofamalariousplanet，withitsunmeasurablefreightofsuffering，itspoisonousatmosphere，sosweettobreathe，sosuretokillinafewscoresofyearsatfarthest，anditsheart-breakingwoeswhichmakeeventhatbriefspaceoftimeaneternity？Therecanbebutoneanswerthatwillmeetthisterriblequestion，whichmustariseineverythinkingnaturethatwouldfain\"justifythewaysofGodtomen。”Somustitbeuntilthat\"onefar-offdivineeventTowhichthewholecreationmoves\"
hasbecomeareality，andtheantheminwhichthereisnodiscordantnoteshallbejoinedbyavoicefromeverylifemade\"perfectthroughsufferings。”
SuchwasthelessonintowhichIlivedinthosesadyetplacidyearsofcompanionshipwithmysufferingandsorrowingfriend，inretracingwhichIseemedtofindanotherexistencemingledwithmyown。
AndnowformanymonthsIhavebeenlivingindailyrelationsofintimacywithonewhoseemsnearertomesincehehasleftusthanwhilehewashereinlivingformandfeature。IdidnotknowhowdifficultataskIhadundertakeninventuringuponamemoirofamanwhomall，oralmostall，agreeuponasoneofthegreatlightsoftheNewWorld，andwhomverymanyregardasanunpredictedMessiah。
NeverbeforewasIsoforciblyremindedofCarlyle\'sdescriptionoftheworkofanewspapereditor，——thatthreshingofstrawalreadythricebeatenbytheflailsofotherlaborersinthesamefield。
Whatcouldbesaidthathadnotbeensaidof\"transcendentalism\"andofhimwhowasregardedasitsprophet；ofthepoetwhomsomeadmiredwithoutunderstanding，afewunderstood，orthoughttheydid，withoutadmiring，andmanybothunderstoodandadmired，——amongthesetherebeingnotasmallnumberwhowentfarbeyondadmiration，andlostthemselvesindevoutworship？Whileoneexaltedhimas\"thegreatestmanthateverlived，\"another，afriend，famousintheworldofletters，wroteexpresslytocautionmeagainstthedangerofoverratingawriterwhomheiscontenttorecognizeasanAmericanMontaigne，andnothingmore。
AfterfinishingthisMemoir，whichhasbutjustleftmyhands，I
wouldgladlyhaveletmybrainrestforawhile。ThewiderangeofthoughtwhichbelongedtothesubjectoftheMemoir，theoccasionalmysticismandthefrequenttendencytowardit，thesweepofimaginationandthesparkleofwitwhichkepthisreader\'smindonthestretch，theunionofprevailinggoodsensewithexceptionalextravagances，themodestaudacityofanaturethatshoweditselfinitsnakedtruthfulnessandwasnotashamed，thefeelingthatIwasinthecompanyofasibyllineintelligencewhichwasdiscountingthepromisesoftheremotefuturelongbeforetheyweredue，——allthismadethetaskagraveone。ButwhenIfoundmyselfamidstthevorticesofuncounted，various，bewilderingjudgments，CatholicandProtestant，orthodoxandliberal，scholarlyfromunderthetreeofknowledgeandinstinctivefromoverthepotato-hill；thepassionateenthusiasmofyoungadorersandthecool，ifnotcynical，estimateofhardenedcritics，allintersectingeachotherastheywhirled，eacharounditsowncentre，Ifeltthatitwasindeedverydifficulttokeepthefacultiesclearandthejudgmentunbiassed。
Itisagreatprivilegetohavelivedsolonginthesocietyofsuchaman。\"Henothingcommon\"said，\"ormean。”Hewasalwaysthesamepureandhigh-souledcompanion。Afterbeingwithhimvirtueseemedasnaturaltomanasitsoppositedidaccordingtotheoldtheologies。Buthowtoletone\'sselfdownfromthehighlevelofsuchacharactertoone\'sownpoorstandard？Itrustthattheinfluenceofthislongintellectualandspiritualcompanionshipneverabsolutelyleavesonewhohaslivedinit。Itmaycometohimintheformofself-reproachthathefallssofarshortofthesuperiorbeingwhohasbeensolongtheobjectofhiscontemplation。Butitalsocarrieshimattimesintotheother\'spersonality，sothathefindshimselfthinkingthoughtsthatarenothisown，usingphraseswhichhehasunconsciouslyborrowed，writing，itmaybe，asnearlylikehislong-studiedoriginalasJulioRomano\'spaintingwaslikeRaphael\'s；andallthiswiththeunquestioningconvictionthatheistalkingfromhisownconsciousnessinhisownnaturalway。Sofarastonesandexpressionsandhabitswhichbelongedtotheidiosyncrasyoftheoriginalareborrowedbythestudentofhislife，itisamisfortunefortheborrower。Buttosharetheinmostconsciousnessofanoblethinker，toscanone\'sselfinthewhitelightofapureandradiantsoul，——thisisindeedthehighestformofteachinganddiscipline。
Ihavewrittenthesefewmemoirs，andIamgratefulforallthattheyhavetaughtme。Butletmewritenomore。Therearebuttwobiographerswhocantellthestoryofaman\'sorawoman\'slife。Oneisthepersonhimselforherself；theotheristheRecordingAngel。
Theautobiographercannotbetrustedtotellthewholetruth，thoughhemaytellnothingbutthetruth，andtheRecordingAngelneverletshisbookgooutofhisownhands。Asformyself，Iwouldsaytomyfriends，intheOrientalphrase，\"Liveforever!\"Yes，liveforever，andI，atleast，shallnothavetowrongyourmemoriesbymyimperfectrecordandunsatisfyingcommentary。
Inconnectionwiththesebiographies，ormemoirs，moreproperly，inwhichIhavewrittenofmydepartedfriends，Ihopemyreaderswillindulgemeinanotherpersonalreminiscence。Ihavejustlostmydearandhonoredcontemporaryofthelastcentury。Ahundredyearsagothisday，December13，1784，diedtheadmirableandevertoberememberedDr。SamuelJohnson。Theyear1709wasmadeponderousandillustriousinEnglishbiographybyhisbirth。Myownhumbleadventtotheworldofprotoplasmwasintheyear1809ofthepresentcentury。Summerwasjustendingwhenthosefourletters，\"sonb。”
werewrittenunderthedateofmybirth，August29th。Autumnhadjustbegunwhenmygreatpre-contemporaryenteredthisun-ChristianuniverseandwasmadeamemberoftheChristianchurchonthesameday，forhewasbornandbaptizedonthe18thofSeptember。
ThustherewasestablishedaclosebondofrelationshipbetweenthegreatEnglishscholarandwriterandmyself。Yearbyyear，andalmostmonthbymonth，mylifehaskeptpaceinthiscenturywithhislifeinthelastcentury。IhadonlytoopenmyBoswellatanytime，andIknewjustwhatJohnsonatmyage，twentyorfiftyorseventy，wasthinkinganddoing；whatwerehisfeelingsaboutlife；whatchangestheyearshadwroughtinhisbody，hismind，hisfeelings，hiscompanionships，hisreputation。Itwasformeakindofunisonbetweentwoinstruments，bothplayingthatoldfamiliarair，\"Life，\"——
oneabassoon，ifyouwill，andtheotheranoatenpipe，ifyoucaretofindanimageforit，butstillkeepingpacewitheachotheruntiltheplayersbothgrewoldandgray。Atlastthethinnerthreadofsoundisheardbyitself，anditsdeepaccompanimentrollsoutitsthundernomore。
Ifeellonelynowthatmygreatcompanionandfriendofsomanyyearshasleftme。IfeltmoreintimatelyacquaintedwithhimthanIdowithmanyofmylivingfriends。IcanhardlyrememberwhenIdidnotknowhim。Icanseehiminhisbushywig，exactlylikethatoftheReverendDr。SamuelCooper(whodiedinDecember，1783)asCopleypaintedhim，——hehangsthereonmywall，overtherevolvingbookcase。
Hisamplecoat，too，Isee，withitsbroadflapsandmanybuttonsandgenerouscuffs，andbeneathitthelong，stillmorecopiouslybuttonedwaistcoat，archinginfrontofthefinecrescentic，almostsemi-lunarFalstaffianprominence，involvingnolessthanadozenoftheabove-mentionedbuttons，andthestronglegswiththeirsturdycalves，fittingcolumnsofsupporttothemassivebodyandsolid，capaciousbrainenthronedoverit。IcanhearhimwithhisheavytreadashecomesintotheClub，andagapiswidenedtomakeroomforhisportlyfigure。\"Afineday，\"saysSirJoshua。\"Sir，\"heanswers，\"itseemspropitious，buttheatmosphereishumidandtheskiesarenebulous，\"atwhichthegreatpaintersmiles，shiftshistrumpet，andtakesapinchofsnuff。
Dearoldmassive，deep-voiceddogmatistandhypochondriacoftheeighteenthcentury，howonewouldliketositatsomeghastlyClub，betweenyouandthebony，\"mighty-mouthed，\"harsh-tonedtermagantanddyspepticofthenineteenth!ThegrowloftheEnglishmastiffandthesnarloftheScotchterrierwouldmakeaduetwhichwouldenliventheshoresofLethe。IwishIcouldfindour\"spiritualist\'s\"paperinthePortfolio，inwhichthetwoarebroughttogether，butIhardlyknowwhatIshallfindwhenitisopened。
Yes，mylifeisalittlelessprecioustomesinceIhavelostthatdearoldfriend；andwhenthefuneraltrainmovestoWestminsterAbbeynextSaturday，forIfeelasifthiswere1784，andnot1884，——
Iseemtofindmyselffollowingthehearse，oneofthesilentmourners。
Amongtheeventswhichhaverenderedthepastyearmemorabletomehasbeenthedemolitionofthatvenerableandinterestingolddwelling-house，preciousforitsintimateassociationwiththeearlieststagesofthewaroftheRevolution，andsacredtomeasmybirthplaceandthehomeofmyboyhood。
The\"OldGambrel-roofedHouse\"existsnolonger。Iremembersayingsomething，inoneofaseriesofpaperspublishedlongago，abouttheexperienceofdyingoutofahouse，——ofleavingitforever，asthesouldiesoutofthebody。Wemaydieoutofmanyhouses，butthehouseitselfcandiebutonce；andsorealisthelifeofahousetoonewhohasdweltinit，moreespeciallythelifeofthehousewhichheldhimindreamyinfancy，inrestlessboyhood，inpassionateyouth，——soreal，Isay，isitslife，thatitseemsasifsomethinglikeasoulofitmustoutlastitsperishingframe。
TheslaughteroftheOldGambrel-roofedHousewas，Iamreadytoadmit，acaseofjustifiabledomicide。Notthelesswasittobedeploredbyallwholovethememoriesofthepast。Withitsdestructionareobliteratedsomeofthefootprintsoftheheroesandmartyrswhotookthefirststepsinthelongandbloodymarchwhichledusthroughthewildernesstothepromisedlandofindependentnationality。Personally，Ihavearighttomournforitasapartofmylifegonefromme。Myprivategriefforitslosswouldbeamatterformysolitarydigestion，wereitnotthattheexperiencethroughwhichIhavejustpassedisonesofamiliartomyfellow-
countrymenthat，intellingmyownreflectionsandfeelings，Iamrepeatingthoseofgreatnumbersofmenandwomenwhohavehadthemisfortunetooutlivetheirbirthplace。
Itisagreatblessingtobebornsurroundedbyanaturalhorizon。
TheOldGambrel-roofedHousecouldnotboastanunbrokenringofnaturalobjectsencirclingit。Northerlyitlookeduponitsownoutbuildingsandsomeunpretendingtwo-storyhouseswhichhadbeenitsneighborsforacenturyandmore。Tothesouthofitthesquarebrickdormitoriesandthebelfriedhalloftheuniversityhelpedtoshutoutthedistantview。Butthewestwindowsgaveabroadoutlookacrossthecommon，beyondwhichthehistorical\"Washingtonelm\"andtwocompanionsinlinewithit，spreadtheirleavesinsummerandtheirnetworksinwinter。Andfarawayrosethehillsthatboundedtheview，withtheglimmerhereandthereofthewhitewallsortheilluminatedcasementsofsomeembowered，half-hiddenvilla。
Eastwardlyalso，theprospectwas，inmyearlierremembrance，widelyopen，andIhavefrequentlyseenthesunlitsailsglidingalongasifthroughthelevelfields，fornowaterwasvisible。Sotherewerebroadexpansesontwosidesatleast，formyimaginationtowanderover。
Icannothelpthinkingthatwecarryourchildhood\'shorizonwithusallourdays。Amongthesewesternwoodedhillsmyday-dreamsbuilttheirfairypalaces，andevennow，asIlookatthemfrommylibrarywindow，acrosstheestuaryoftheCharles，Ifindmyselfinthefamiliarhomeofmyearlyvisions。The\"cloudsofglory\"whichwetrailwithusinafterlifeneednotbetracedtoapre-natalstate。
Thereisenoughtoaccountfortheminthatunconsciouslyrememberedperiodofexistencebeforewehavelearnedthehardlimitationsofreallife。Thoseearliestmonthsinwhichwelivedinsensationswithoutwords，andideasnotfetteredinsentences，haveallthefreshnessofproofsofanengraving\"beforetheletter。”Iamverythankfulthatthefirstpartofmylifewasnotpassedshutinbetweenhighwallsandtreadingtheunimpressibleandunsympatheticpavement。
Ouruniversitytownwasverymuchliketherealcountry，inthosedaysofwhichIamthinking。Therewereplentyofhuckleberriesandblueberrieswithinhalfamileofthehouse。Blackberriesripenedinthefields，acornsandshagbarksdroppedfromthetrees，squirrelsranamongthebranches，andnotrarelythehen-hawkmightbeseencirclingoverthebarnyard。Stillanotherruralelementwasnotwanting，intheformofthatfar-diffused，infragranteffluvium，which，dilutedbyagoodhalfmileofpureatmosphere，isnolongerodious，nayispositivelyagreeable，tomanywhohavelongknownit，thoughitssourceandcentrehasanunenviablereputation。IneednotnametheanimalwhoseParthianwarfareterrifiesandputstoflightthemightiesthunterthateverrousedthetigerfromhisjungleorfacedthelionofthedesert。Strangeasitmayseem，anaerialhintofhispersonalityinthefardistancealwaysawakensinmymindpleasantremembrancesandtenderreflections。Awholeneighborhoodrisesupbeforeme:thebarn，withitshaymow，wherethehenslaidtheireggstohatch，andweboyshidourapplestoripen，bothoccasionallyillustratingthesicvosnonvobis；theshed，wheretheannualTragedyofthePigwasactedwitharealismthatmadeSalvini\'sOthelloseembutapalecounterfeit；thericketyoldouthouse，withthe\"corn-chamber\"whichthemiceknewsowell；thepavedyard，withitsopengutter，——theseandhowmuchelsecomeupatthehintofmyfar-offfriend，whoismyverynearenemy。Nothingismorefamiliarthanthepowerofsmellinrevivingoldmemories。
Therewasthatquitedifferentfragranceofthewood-house，thesmelloffreshsawdust。Itcomesbacktomenow，andwithitthehissofthesaw；thetumbleofthedivorcedlogswhichGodputtogetherandmanhasjustputasunder；thecomingdownoftheaxeandthehah!
thathelpedit，——thestraight-grainedstickopeningatthefirstappealoftheimplementasifitwereapleasure，andthestickwithaknotinthemiddleofitthatmockedtheblowsandthehahs!untilthebeetleandwedgemadeitlistentoreason，——therearejustsuchstraight-grainedandjustsuchknottymenandwomen。AllthispassesthroughmymindwhileBiddy，whoseparlor-nameisAngela，contentsherselfwithexclaiming\"egh!*******!\"
HowdifferentdistanceswereinthoseyoungdaysofwhichIamthinking!Fromtheoldhousetotheoldyellowmeeting-house，wheretheheadofthefamilypreachedandthelimbsofthefamilylistened，wasnotmuchmorethantwoorthreetimesthewidthofCommonwealthAvenue。Butofahotsummer\'safternoon，afterhavingalreadyheardonesermon，whichcouldnotinthenatureofthingshavethecharmofnoveltyofpresentationtothemembersofthehomecircle，andthetheologyofwhichwasnottoocleartotenderapprehensions；withthreehymnsmoreorlesslugubrious，renderedbyavillage-choir，gotintovoicebymanypreliminarysnufflesandotherexpiratoryefforts，andaccompaniedbythesnortofahugebassviolwhichwallowedthroughthetunelikeahippopotamus，withotherexercisesofthecustomarycharacter，——afterallthisintheforenoon，theafternoonwalktothemeeting-houseinthehotsuncountedforasmuch，inmychildishdead-reckoning，asfromoldIsraelPorter\'sinCambridgetotheExchangeCoffeehouseinBostondidinafteryears。Ittakesagoodwhiletomeasuretheradiusofthecirclethatisaboutus，forthemoonseemsatfirstasnearasthewatchface。Whoknowsbutthat，afteracertainnumberofages，theplanetweliveonmayseemtousnobiggerthanourneighborVenusappearedwhenshepassedbeforethesunafewmonthsago，lookingasifwecouldtakeherbetweenourthumbandfinger，likeabulletoramarble？Andtime，too；howlongwasitfromtheserioussunrisetothejoyous\"sun-
down\"ofanold-fashioned，puritanical，judaicalfirstdayoftheweek，whichapiousfraudchristened\"theSabbath\"？Wasitafortnight，aswenowreckonduration，oronlyaweek？Curiousentities，ornon-entities，spaceandtithe？Whenyouseeametaphysiciantryingtowashhishandsofthemandgetridoftheseaccidents，soastolayhisdry，cleanpalmontheabsolute，doesitnotremindyouofthehopelesstaskofchangingthecoloroftheblackamoorbyasimilarproceeding？Forspaceisthefluidinwhichheiswashing，andtimeisthesoapwhichheisusingupintheprocess，andhecannotgetfreefromthemuntilhecanwashhimselfinamentalvacuum。
