第6章

类别:其他 作者:Elia W。 Peatti字数:15307更新时间:18/12/13 16:50:22
Itwaspastmidnightwhenthepriestwasawakenedfromhissleepbyaknockonthedoor。Hewrappedhisgreatbuffalo-coatabouthim,andansweredthesummons。 WithoutinthedampdarknessstoodPierre。 \"Father,\"hecried,\"Ninonhassentforyou。Sincesheleftyou,shehasbeenveryill。IhavedonewhatIcould;butnowshehardlyspeaks,butImakeoutthatshewantsyou。”Tenminuteslater,theywereinNinon\'scabin。WhenFatherdeSmetlookedatherheknewshewasdying。HehadseentheIndianslikethatmanytimesduringthewinter。Itwastheplague,butdrivenintopreyuponthesystembytheexposure。TheParisienne\'steethwereset,butshemanagedtosmileuponhervisitorashethrewoffhiscoatandbentoverher。 Hepouredsomewhiskeyforher;butshecouldnotgettheliquidoverherthroat。 \"Donot,\"shesaidfiercelybetweenthosesetwhiteteeth,\"donotforgetthelilies。”Shesankbackandfixedherglazingeyesontheantlers,andkeptthemtherewatchingthosedanglingsilkenscarves,whilethepriest,inhaste,spokethewordsforthedepartingsoul。 Thenextmorningshelaydeadamongthosehalfbarbaricrelicsofhercoquetry,andtwowhitelilieswithheartsofgoldshedperfumefromanaltarinawilderness。 UptheGulch\"GOWest?\"sighedKate。\"Why,yes!I\'dliketogoWest。” Shelookedatthebabies,whowereplay- ingonthefloorwiththeirfather,andsighedagain。 \"You\'vegottogosomewhere,youknow,Kate。Itmightaswellbewestasinanyotherdirection。Andthisissuchachance! Wecan\'thavemammalyingaroundonsofaswithoutanyrosesinhercheeks,canwe?\"Heputthislasttothechildren,who,beingyetattheagewhentheytalkedin\"EarlyEnglish,\"astheirfathercalledit,madeaclamorousbutinarticulatereply。 MajorShelly,thegrandfatheroftheseveryyoungpersons,strokedhismustacheandlookedindulgent。 \"Showalmosthumanintelligence,don\'tthey?\"saidtheirfather,ashelayflatonhisbackandpermittedthebabiestoclimboverhim。 \"Ya-as,\"drawledthemajor。\"Theydo。 Don\'tseehowyouaccountforit,Jack。” Jackroared,andthelipsofthebabiestrembledwithfear。 Theirmothersaidnothing。Shewasonthesofa,herhandslyinginert,hereyesfixedonherrosybabieswithanexpressionwhichherfather-in-lawandherhusbandtriedhardnottonotice。 ItwasnoteasytotellwhyKatewasailing。Ofcourse,thebabieswereyoung,buttherewereotherreasons。 \"Ibelieveyou\'retoohappy,\"Jacksome- timessaidtoher。\"Trynottobequitesohappy,Kate。Atleast,trynottotakeyourhappinesssoseriously。Pleasedon\'tadoremeso;I\'monlyacommonplacefellow。Andthebabies——they\'renotgoingtoblowaway。” ButKatecontinuedtolookwithintenseeyesatherlittleworld,andtodrawintoitwithlovingandgeneroushandsallwhowerewillingtocome。 \"Kateisjustlikeakite,\"Jackexplainedtohisfather,themajor;\"shecan\'tkeepafloatwithoutjustsomanybobs。” Kate\'s\"bobs\"weretheunfortunatesshecollectedaroundher。Theseabsorbedherstrength。Shefelttheirmiserywithsym- pathiesthatwereabnormal。Theverylaborerinthestreetsfelthistoillesskeenlythanshe,asshewatchedthedropsgatheronhisbrow。 \"Islifeworthkeepingatthecostofalotlikethat?\"shewouldask。Shefeltashamedofherownease。Sheapologizedforherownsereneandperfecthappiness。 Sheevenfeltsorryforthosemotherswhohadnotchildrenasradiantlybeautifulasherown。 \"Katemusthaveachange,\"themajorhadgivenout。HewasgoingWestonbusinessandinsistedontakingherwithhim。Jacklookeddoubtful。Hewasn\'tsurehowhewouldgetalongwithoutKatetolookaftereverything。Secretly,hehadanideathatservantswereakindofwildanimalthathadtobefedbyanexperiencedkeeper。Butwhenthetimecame,hekissedhergood-byinasjocularamannerashecouldsummon,andrefusedtoseethetearsthatgatheredinhereyes。 UntilChicagowasreached,therewasnothingverydifferentfromthatwhichKatehadbeeninthehabitofseeing。 Afterthat,shesetherselftowatchforWesterncharacteristics。Shefeltthatshewouldknowthemassoonasshesawthem。 \"Iexpectedtobestirredupandshocked,\" sheexplainedtothemajor。Butsomehow,theWesterntypedidnotappear。Common- placewomenwithwornfaces——brownedandseamed,thoughnotaged——wereatthestations,waitingforsomethingorsomeone。Menwithahurried,nervousairwereeverywhere。KatelookedinvainforthegayetyandheartinesswhichshehadalwaysassociatedwiththeWest。 Aftertheygotbeyondthetimbercountryandrodehourafterhouronatractsmoothasabecalmedocean,shegaveherselfuptothefeelingofimmeasurablevastnesswhichtookpossessionofher。Thesunrolledoutoftheskyintooblivionwithafrantic,head- longhaste。Nothingsoftenedtheaspectofitswrath。Near,red,familiar,itseemedtovisiblybowlalongtheheavens。Inthemorningitroseasbaldlyasithadset。 Andbackandforthovertheawfulplainblewthewinds,——blewfromeasttowestandbackagain,strongasiffreshfromthechambersoftheirbirth,fullofelementalscentsandofmightymurmurings。 \"ThisistheWest!\"Katecried,againandagain。 Themajorlistenedtoherunsmilingly。 Italwaysseemedtohimawasteofmuscu- larenergytosmile。Hedidnottalkmuch。 Conversationhadneverappealedtohiminthelightofanart。Hespokewhentherewasadirectionoracommandtobegiven,oraninquirytobemade。Themajor,ifthetruthmustbeknown,wasmaterial。 Thingsthathecouldtaste,touch,see,appealedtohim。Hehadbeenavolunteerinthecivilwar,——avolunteerwithagoodrecord,——whichhenevermentioned;and,havingacquittedhimselfdecently,letthemattergowithoutaskingreprisalorpay- mentforwhathehadfreelygiven。Hewentintobusinessandsoldcerealfoods。 \"Ibelieveinusefulthings,\"themajorexpressedhimself。\"Oatmeal,wheat,—— menhavetohavethem。Godintendedtheyshould。There\'sJack——myson—— JackShelly——lawyer。What\'stheuseoflitigation?Goddidn\'tdesignlitigation。 Itdoesn\'tdoanybodyanygood。Itisn\'tjusticeyouget。It\'ssomethingentirelydifferent,——averdictaccordingtolaw。 TheysayJack\'sclever。ButI\'mmightygladIsellwheat。” Hedidn\'tsellitasaspeculator,how- ever。Thatwasn\'thisway。 \"IearnwhatImake,\"heoftensaid;andhehadgrownrichinthesellingofhiswholesomefoods…… Helenaliesamonground,brownhills。 Aboveitisaskyofdeepandillimitableblue。Inthestreetsarecrumbsofgold,butitnolongerpaystomineforthese; because,asrealestate,thepropertyismorevaluable。Itisaplaceoffictitiousvalues。 Thereisexcitementintheair。Menhavethefacesofspeculators。Everylaborerispatientathistaskbecausehecherishesahopethatsomedayhewillbeamillion- naire。Thereishospitality,andcordialityandgoodfellowship,andanundeniabledemocracy。Thereiswealthandluxuriousliving。Thereisevenculture,——butitisobtrudedasasortofnovelty;itisnotacceptedasamatterofcourse。 Kateandthemajorweredrivenovertwoorthreemilesofdusty,hardroadtoadis- tanthotel,whichstandsinthemidstofgreenness,——inanoasis。Immediatelyabovethegreenswardthatsurroundsitthebrownhillsrise,thegrassscorchedbythesun。 Kateyieldedherselftothealmostabsurdluxuryoftheplacewitheaseandcompla- cency。Shetookkindlytothegreatveran- das。Sheadaptedherselftotheelaborateandill-assortedmeals。Shebathedinthemarvellouspool,warmwiththeheatofeternalfiresinmid-earth。ThispoolwascoveredwithapicturesqueMoorishstruct- ure,andatoneendacascadetumbled,overwhichthesun,comingthroughcoloredwin- dows,madeamimicprisminthewhitespray。Thelifewasnotunendurable。Themajorwasseldomwithher,beingobligedtogoabouthisbusiness;andKateamusedherselfbydrivingoverthehills,bywatch- ingtheinhabitants,bywonderingaboutthelivesinthegreat,pretentious,unhomelikehouseswiththeirtreelessyardsandtheirclosedshutters。Thesunlight,whiteastheglareonArabiansands,penetratedeverywhere。Itseemedtofairlyscorchtheeye-balls。 \"Oh,we\'reWest,now,\"Katesaid,exult- antly。\"I\'veseenathousandtypes。Butyet——notquiteTHEtype——nottheimper- sonationofsimplicityanddaringthatIwaslookingfor。” Themajordidn\'tknowquitewhatshewastalkingabout。Butheacquiesced。 Allhecaredaboutwastoseehergrowstronger;andthatshewasdoingeveryday。 Shewasgrowingamazinglylovely,too,—— atleastthemajorthoughtso。Everyonelookedather;butthatwas,perhaps,be- causeshewassuchasylphofawoman。 Besidethestalwartmajor,shelookedlikeafairyprincess。 Onedayshesuddenlyrealizedthefactthatshehadhadacompanionontheverandaforseveralmornings。Ofcourse,therewereagreatmanypersons——invalids,largely——sittingabout,butoneofthemhadbeenobtrudinghimselfpersistentlyintoherconsciousness。Itwasnotthathewasrude;itwasonlythathewasthinkingabouther。ApersonwithatemperamentlikeKate\'scouldnotlongbeoblivioustoathinglikethat;andshefurtivelyobservedtheoffenderwiththatgeniusforpsycho- logicalperceptionwhichwasatoncehergreatestdangerandhercharm。 Themanwasdressedwithachildishattemptatdisplay。Hisshirt-frontwasdecoratedwithadiamond,andhiscuff- buttonswereofonyxwithdiamondsettings。 Hisclotheswereexpensiveandperceptiblynew,andheoftenchangedhiscostumes,butwithanoticeabledisregardforpro- priety。Hewasveryconsciousofhissilkhat,andfrequentlywipeditwithahandker- chiefonwhichhismonogramwasworkedinblue。 Whenthe\'bussesbroughtuptheirloads,hewasalwaysonhandtowatchthenew- comers。Hetookalongtimeathisdin- ners,andappearedtoorderagreatdealandeatverylittle。Therewerecard-roomsandabilliard-hall,nottomentionabowling- alleyandatennis-court,wheretheotherguestsofthehotelspentmuchtime。Butthismannevervisitedthem。Hesatoftenwithoneofthelatereviewsinhishand,lookingasifheintendedgivinghisatten- tiontoitatanymoment。Butafterhehadscrupulouslycuttheleaveswithalittlecarvedivorypaper-cutter,hesatstaringstraightbeforehimwiththebookopen,butunread,inhishand。 Katetookmoreinterestinthismelan- choly,middle-agedmanthanshewouldhavedoneifshehadnotbeenontheout- lookforherWesterntype,——themanwhowastocombineallthequalitiesofchivalry,daring,bombast,andgenerosity,seasonedwithpiquantgrammar,whichshefirmlybelievedtobetherealthing。Butnotwith- standingthiskindlyandsomewhatcuriousinterest,shemightneverhavemadehisacquaintanceifithadnotbeenforaratherunpleasantadventure。 Themajorwas\"closingupadeal\"andhadhurriedawayafterbreakfast,andKate,intheluxuryofconvalescence,half-reclinedinagreatchairontheverandaandwatchedtheduskybluemisttwiningitselfaroundthebrownhills。Shewasnotthinkingofthebabies;shewasnotworryingabouthome;shewasnotlongingforanything,orevenindulginginadream。Thatvacuouscontentwhichengrossesthebodyafterlongindisposition,heldherimperatively。Sud- denlyshewasarousedfromthishappycon- ditionofnothingnessbythespectacleofanenormousbull-dogapproachingherwiththreateningteeth。Shehadnoticedthemonsterofteninhiskennelnearthesta- bles,anditwaswellunderstoodthathewasnevertobepermittedhisfreedom。Nowhewalkedtowardherwithasolidstepandanalarmingdeliberateness。Katesatstillandtriedtoassureherselfthathemeantnomis- chief,butbythetimethegreatbodyhadmadeitselffeltontheskirtofhergownshecouldrestrainherfearnolonger,andgaveanervouscryofalarm。Thebruteansweredwithagrowl。Ifhehadlackedprovocationbefore,heconsideredthathehaditnow。 Heshowedhisteethandflunghisdetestablebodyuponher;andKatefeltherselfgrow- ingdizzywithfear。Butjustthenanarmwasinterposedandthedogwasflungback。 Therewasamomentarystruggle。Somegentlemencamehurryingoutoftheoffice; andastheybeatthedogbacktoitsretreat,Katesummonedwordsfromherparchedthroattothankherbenefactor。 Itwasthemelancholymanwiththenewclothes。Thismorninghewasdressedinasuitofthelightestgray,withawhitemarseilleswaistcoat,overwhichhisglitter- ingchainshoneostentatiously。Whitetennis-shoes,awhiteroseinhisbutton- hole,andawhitestrawhatinhishandcom- pletedatoiletoverwhichmuchtimehadevidentlybeenspent。Katenotedthesedetailsassheheldoutherhand。 \"Imayhavebeenalarmedwithoutcause,\" shesaid;\"butIwashorriblyfrightened。 Thankyousomuchforcomingtomyres- cue。AndIthink,ifyouwouldaddtoyourkindnessbygettingmeaglassofwater——\" Whenhecameback,hishandwastrem- blingalittle;andasKatelookeduptolearnthecause,shesawthathisfacewasflushed。Hewasembarrassed。Shedecidedthathewasnotaccustomedtothesocietyofladies。\"Bruteslikethatdogain\'tnoplaceinth\'world——that\'smyopinion。 Therearesomebadthingswecan\'thelphavin\'aroun\';butabull-dogain\'toneof\'em。” \"Iquiteagreewithyou,\"Kateacqui- esced,asshedrankthewater。\"ButasthisisthefirstunpleasantexperienceofanykindthatIhavehadsinceIcamehere,Idon\'tfeelthatIhaveanyrighttocomplain。” \"You\'reherefuryurhealth?\" \"Yes。AndIamgettingit。You\'renotaninvalid,Iimagine?\" \"No——no-op。I\'mherebe——well,I\'vethoughtfuralongtimeI\'dliket\'stayatthisherehotel。” \"Indeed!\" \"Yes。I\'vebeenupth\'gulchthesefif- teenyears。Binlivin\'onashelfofblackrock。 Th\'sungot\'round\'boutten。Couldn\'tmakeathinggrow。”Themanwaslook- ingofftowardthehills,withanexpressionofdeepsadnessinhiseyes。\"Didn\'tneverliveinaplacewherenothin\'\'dgrow,didyou?Itookgeraniumsupthartimean\'timeagin。Redones。Mademethinkofmother;she\'sinGermany。Watered\'emmornin\'an\'night。Th\'damnedthingsdied。” Theoathslippedoutwithanartlessun- consciousness,andtherewasalittlemoist- ureinhiseyes。Katefeltsheoughttobringtheconversationtoaclose。ShewonderedwhatJackwouldsayifhesawhertalkingwithaperfectstrangerwhousedoaths!Shewouldhavegoneintothehousebutforsomethingthatcaughthereye。Itwasthehandoftheman;thathandwasabludgeon。Allgraceandflexibilityhadgoneoutofit,andithadbecomeamereinstrumentoftoil。Itwasseamedandmisshapen;yetithadbeencarefullymani- cured,andthepointednailslookedfantasticandanimal-like。Agreatseal-ringboreanelaboratemonogram,whilethelittlefingerdisplayedacollectionofdiamondsandemeraldstrulydazzlingtobehold。Animpulseofhumanityandasortofartisticcuriosity,muchstrongerthanherdiscretion,urgedKatetocontinueherconversation。 \"Whatwereyoudoingupthegulch?\" shesaid。 Themanleanedbackinhischairandregardedheramomentbeforeanswering。 Herealizedthesignificanceofherquestion。 Hetookitasasignthatshewaswillingtobefriendly。Alookofgratitude,almosttender,sprangintohiseyes,——dullgrayeyes,theywere,withakindlinessfortheironlyrecommendation。 \"Makin\'mypile,\"hereplied。\"I\'vebeeninthesepartstwentyyears。WhenI comehere,IthoughtIwasgoin\'tomakeafortunerightoff。Ihadallth\'moneythatmothercouldgiveme,andIlosteverythingI hadinthreemonths。Iwentupth\'gulch。” Hepaused,andwipedhisforeheadwithhishandkerchief。 TherewassomethinginhisremarkandtheintonationwhichmadeKatesaysoftly: \"Isupposeyou\'vehadahardtimeofit。” \"Tharyouwere!\"hecried。\"Tharwasth\'rock——risin\',risin\',black!Atth\' bottomwusth\'creek,howlin\'dayan\' night!Lonesome!Gee!Noonet\'talkto。Ofcourse,th\'men。Hadsomewithmealways。Theydidn\'ttalk。It\'stoo—— tooquiett\'talkmuch。Theyplayedcards。 Curious,butIneverplayedcards。Don\'tthinkI\'dfinditamusin\'。No,Iworked。 Camedownhereonceinsixmonthsorthreemonths。Hadt\'come——grub-stakedth\'men,youknow。Didyouevereatsaltpork?\"HeturnedtoKatesuddenlywiththisquestion。 \"Why,yes;afewtimes。Didyouhaveit?\" \"Nothin\'else,much。Iusedt\'thinkofth\'thingsmothercooked。Motherunder- stoodcookin\',ifeverawomandid。I\'llneverforgetth\'dinnershegavemeth\'dayIcameaway。Awomanoughtt\'cook。I hearAmericanwomendon\'tgoinmuchforcookin\'。” \"Oh,Ithinkthat\'samistake,\"Katehastenedtointerrupt。\"AllthatIknowun- derstandhowtoserveexcellentdinners。Ofcourse,theymaynotcookthemthemselves,butIthinktheycouldifitwerenecessary。” \"Hum!\"HepickedupalongglovethathadfallenfromKate\'slapandfingereditbeforereturningit。 \"Is\'poseyoucook?\" \"Imakeaspecialtyofsaladsandsor- bets,\"smiledKate。\"IguessIcouldroastmeatandmakebread;butcircumstanceshavenotyetcompelledmetodoit。ButI\'veatheorythatanAmericanwomancandoanythingsheputshermindto。” Themanlaughedoutloud,——alaughquiteoutofproportiontothemildgoodhumoroftheremark;butitwasevidentthathecouldnolongerconcealhisdelightatthiscompanionship。 \"Howaboutraisin\'flowers?\"heasked。 \"Areyoustrongonthat?\" \"I\'veonlytolookataplanttomakeitgrow,\"Katecried,withenthusiasm。 \"Whenmyfriendsareindespairoveraplant,theybringittome,andIjustpetitalittle,anditbrightensup。I\'vethemostwonderfulferneryyoueversaw。It\'sgreen,summerandwinter。Hundredsofpeoplestopandlookupatit,itissogreenandenticing,thereabovethecitystreets。” \"Whatcity?\" \"Philadelphia。” \"Mother\'sjestthatway。Shehasagar- denofroses。Andthemignonette——\" Buthebrokeoffsuddenly,andsatoncemorestaringbeforehim。 \"Butnotadamnedthing,\"headded,withpoeticpensiveness,\"wouldgrowinthatgulch。” \"Whydidyoustaytheresolong?\"askedKate,afteralittlepauseinwhichsheman- agedtoregainherwaningcourage。 \"Badluck。Youneverseeaplacewithsomanyfalseleads。To-dayyou\'dgetastreakthatlookedbig。To-morrowyou\'dfinditapocket。OnenightI\'dgot\'bedwithmyheartgoin\'likearace-horse。 Nextnightitwouldbeploddin\'alonglikeawindedburro。Don\'tknowwhatmademestickt\'it。Itwashotthere,too!Andcold!Alwaysroastin\'urfreezin\'。It\'dbeendifferentifI\'dhadanyonet\'helpmestandit。Butth\'menwerealwaysfindin\' fault。Theyblamedmefureverythin\'。I usedt\'lieawakeatnightan\'hear\'emtalkin\'meover。Itmademelonesome,I tellyou!Tharwasn\'tnoone!Motherusedt\'write。ButInevertoldherth\' truth。Sheain\'tasuspicionofwhatI\'vebeena-goin\'through。” Katesatandlookedathiminsilence。 Hisfacewasseamed,thoughfarfromold。 Hisbodywasawkward,butimpressedherwithasenseofmagnificentstrength。 \"Icouldn\'tasknowomant\'sharemyhardtimes,\"heresumedafteratime。\"I alwayssaidwhenIgotawoman,itwasgoin\'t\'bet\'makeherhappy。Itwer\'n\'tt\'bet\'askhert\'drudge。” Therewasanothersilence。Thismanoutofthesolitudeseemedtobeelatedpastexpressionathisnewcompanionship。HelookedwithappreciationatthelittlepointedtoesofKate\'sslippers,astheyglancedfrombelowtheskirtofherdaintyorgandie。Henotedthebandofpearlsonherfinger。Hiseyesrestedlongonthedaisiesatherwaist。 Thewindtosseduplittlecurlsofherwarmbrownhair。Hereyessuffusedwithinter- est,hertendermouthseemedreadytolenditselftoanyemotion,andwithalshewassosmall,socompact,soexquisite。Themanwipedhisforeheadagain,inmereexuberance。 \"Here\'smycard,\"hesaid,verysolemnly,ashedrewanengravedbitofpasteboardfromitsleathercase。Katebowedandtookit。 \"Mr。PeterRoeder,\"sheread。 \"I\'venocard,\"shesaid。\"MynameisShelly。I\'mhereformyhealth,asItoldyou。”Sheroseatthispoint,andheldoutherhand。\"Imustthankyouoncemoreforyourkindness,\"shesaid。 Hiseyesfastenedonherswithanappealforalessformalword。Therewassomethingalmostterribleintheirsilenteloquence。 \"Ihopewemaymeetagain,\"shesaid。 Mr。PeterRoedermadeaverylowandawkwardbow,andopenedthedoorintothecorridorforher。 ThateveningthemajorannouncedthathewasobligedtogotoSeattle。Thejourneywasnotaninvitingone;Katewaswellplacedwhereshewas,andhedecidedtoleaveher。 Shewaswellenoughnowtotakelongerdrives;andshefoundstrange,lonelycan- yons,wildandbeautiful,whereyellowwatersburstthroughrockybarrierswithroarandfury,——tortuous,terribleplaces,suchasshehadneverdreamedof。Comingbackfromoneofthesedrives,twodaysafterherconversationonthepiazzawithPeterRoeder,shemethimridingamassiveroan。 HesattheanimalwiththatairofperfectunconsciousnesswhichistheattributeoftheWesternman,andhisattire,eventohisEnglishstock,wasfaultless,——faultilyfaultless。 \"Ihopeyouwon\'tobjecttohavin\'meridebesideyou,\"hesaid,wheelinghishorse。Totellthetruth,Katedidnotobject。Shewasalittledull,andhadbeenconsciousallthemorningofthatpeculiarphysicaldepressionwhichmarksthebegin- ningofafitofhomesickness。 \"Thewindgitsafinesweep,\"saidRoeder,afterhavingobtainedthepermis- sionhedesired。\"Nowinthegulchweeitherhadadeadstagnation,orelsethewindwastearin\'upanddownlikeawildbeast。” Katedidnotreply,andtheywentontogether,facingtheriotouswind。 \"Youcan\'tguesshowqueeritseemst\' behere,\"hesaid,confidentially。\"Itseemst\'measifIhadcomefromsomeotherplanet。Thardon\'trightlyseemt\'benoplacefurme。Itellyouwhatit\'slike。 It\'sasifI\'dcomedownt\'enlistinth\' ranks,an\'found\'emfull,——everymanmarchin\'alonginhisplace,an\'noplaceleftfurme。” Katecouldnotfindareply。 \"Iain\'tafriend,——notafriend!Iain\'tcomplainin\'。Itain\'tth\'faultofanyone——butmyself。Youdon\'knowwhatadurnedfoolI\'vebin。Someway,uptharinth\'gulchIgott\'seemin\'sosortofimpor- tantt\'myself,andmymakin\'mystakeseemedsuchabigthing,thatIthoughtI hadonlyt\'comedownheret\'Helenat\' havefolkswantt\'knowme。Ididn\'tparticularwantth\'moneybecauseitwusmoney。Butouthereyouworkfurit,jestasyouworkfurotherthingsinotherplaces,——jestbecauseeveryoneisworkin\'furit,andit\'sthemanwhogetsth\'mostthatbeats。Itain\'tthattheyareanymoregreedythanmenanywhereelse。Mypile\'saprettygood-sizedone。An\'it\'slikelytobebigger;butnooneelseseemst\'care。 Th\'paperprintedsomepiecesaboutit。 Someofth\'mencameroundt\'seeme; butIsawtheirgame。IsaidIguessedI\'dlookfurtherfurmyacquaintances。I ain\'tspokentoalady,——notareallady,youknow,——t\'talkwith,friendlylike,butyou,fur——years。” Hisfaceflushedinthatsuddenwayagain。 Theywerepassingsomeofthosepreten- tioushouseswhichriseinthemidstofHelena\'sraggedstreetswithsuchanextra- neousair,andKateleanedforwardtolookatthem。Thedriver,seeingherinterest,drewupthehorsesforamoment。 \"Fine,fine!\"ejaculatedRoeder。\"Buttheyain\'tgotnogarden。Ahousedon\'tseemanythin\'t\'mewithoutagarden。 DoyouknowwhatIthinkwouldbeth\' mostbeautifulthinginth\'world?A babyinarose-garden!Doyouknow,I ain\'thadababyinmyhands,excep\'NedRamsey\'slittlekid,once,fortenyear!\" Kate\'sfaceshonewithsympathy。 \"Howdreadful!\"shecried。\"Icouldn\'tlivewithoutababyabout。” \"Likebabies,doyou?Well,well。 Boys?Likeboys?\" \"Notabitbetterthangirls,\"saidKate,stoutly。 \"Ilikeboys,\"respondedRoeder,withconviction。\"Mymotherlikedboys。Shehadthreegirls,butshelikedmeadamnedsightthebest。” Katelaughedoutright。 \"Whydoyouswear?\"shesaid。\"I neverheardamanswearbefore,——atleast,notonewithwhomIwastalking。That\'soneofyourgulchhabits。Youmustgetoverit。” Roeder\'sblondfaceturnedscarlet。 \"Youmustexcuseme,\"hepleaded。 \"I\'llcuremyselfofit!Jestgivemeachance。” ThiswasalittlemorepersonalthanKateapprovedof,andsheraisedherparasoltoconcealherannoyance。Itwasabrilliantlittlefluffofathingwhichlookedasifitweremadeofbutterflies\'wings。Roedertoucheditwithawe。 \"Youhavesechbeautifulthings,\"hesaid。\"Ididn\'tknowwomenworesechnicethings。Nowthatdress——it\'slike——Idon\'tknowwhatit\'slike。”Itwasasimplelittletaffeta,withwarpandwoofofazureandofcream,andgayknotsofribbonaboutit。 \"Wehavetheadvantageofmen,\"shesaid。\"Ioftenthinkoneofthegreatestdrawbackstobeingamanwouldbethesombreclothes。Iliketoweartheprettiestthingsthatcanbefound。” \"Lace?\"queriedRoeder。\"Doyoulikelace?\" \"Ishouldsayso!Didyoueverseeawomanwhodidn\'t?\" \"Hu——um!ThesewomenI\'veknowndon\'tknowlace,——thesewivesofth\'menouthere。They\'reth\'onlykindI\'veseenthislongtime。” \"Oh,ofcourse,butImean——\" \"Iknowwhatyoumean。Mymotherhasachestfulloflinenan\'lace。Sheshoweditt\'meth\'dayIleft。\'Peter,\'shesaid,\'somedayyoubringawifehomewithyou,an\'I\'llgiveyouthatlacean\'thatlinen。\' An\'I\'mgoin\'t\'doit,too,\"hesaidquietly。 \"Ihopeso,\"saidKate,withhereyesmoist。\"Ihopeyouwill,andthatyourmotherwillbeveryhappy。”…… Therewasahopatthehotelthatnight,anditwasalmostamatterofcourtesyforKatetogo。Ladieswereindemand,fortherewerenotverymanyofthematthehotel。Everyonewasexpectedtodohisbesttomakeitasuccess;andKate,notatallaversetoawaltzortwo,dressedherselffortheoccasionwithherhabitualstrivingafterartisticeffect。Shewasoneofthosewomenwhomakeapictureofthemselvesasnaturallyasabirdsings。ShehadanopalnecklacewhichJackhadgivenherbecause,hesaid,shehadasmanymoodsasanopalhadcolors;andsheworethiswithacré;pegown,thetintofthegreenlightsinhernecklace。Aboxofflowerscameforherasshewasdressing;theywerePuritanroses,andPeterRoeder\'scardwasinthemidstofthem。Shewasusedtohavingflowersgivenher。Itwouldhaveseemedremark- ableifsomeonehadnotsentherabouquetwhenshewasgoingtoaball。 \"Ishalldancebuttwice,\"shesaidtothosewhosoughtherforapartner。 \"Neithermorenorless。” \"Ain\'tyougoin\'t\'dancewithmeatall?\"Roedermanagedtosaytoherinthemidstofherlaughingaltercationwiththegentlemen。 \"Dancewithyou!\"criedKate。\"Howdomenlearntodancewhentheyareupagulch?\" \"Ikendance,\"hesaidstubbornly。Hewasmortifiedatherchaffing。 \"Thenyoumayhavethesecondwaltz,\" shesaid,inquickcontrition。\"Nowyouothergentlemenhavebeendancinganynumberoftimestheselastfifteenyears。 ButMr。Roederisjustbackfromahardcampaign,——acampaignagainstfate。Mysecondwaltzishis。AndIshalldancemybest。” Ithappenedtobejusttherightsortofspeech。Thewomentriedgood-naturedlytomakeRoeder\'seveningapleasantone。 Theywerefilledwithcompassionforamanwhohadnotenjoyedthesocietyoftheirsexforfifteenyears。Theyfoundmuchamuse- mentinleadinghimthroughthesquaredances,theformsofwhichwereutterlyunknowntohim。Buthewaltzedwithasortofseriousalertnessthatwasnotsobadasitmighthavebeen。 Katedancedwell。Herslightbodyseemedasfullofthespiritofthewaltzasathrush\'sbodyisofsong。PeterRoedermovedalongwithherinamaze,onlyhalf- answeringherquestions,hisgrayeyesfullofmystery。 Oncetheystoppedforamoment,andhelookeddownather,aswithflushedfaceshestoodsmilingandwavinghergossamerfan,eachmotionstirringthefrailleavesoftheroseshehadsenther。 \"It\'scur\'ous,\"hesaidsoftly,\"butIkeepthinkin\'aboutthatblackgulch。” \"Forgetit,\"shesaid。\"Whydoyouthinkofagulchwhen——\"Shestoppedwithasuddenrecollectionthathewasnotusedtopersiflage。Butheanticipatedwhatshewasabouttosay。 \"Whythinkofthegulchwhenyouarehere?\"hesaid。\"Why,becauseitisonlyth\'gulchthatseemsreal。Allthis,——thesepleasant,politepeople,thisbeautifulroom,th\'flowerseverywhere,andyou,andmeasIam,seemasifIwasdreamin\'。Tharain\'tanythinginitallthatislikewhatI thoughtitwouldbe。” \"Notasyouthoughtitwouldbe?\" \"No。Different。Ithoughtitwouldbe——well,Ithoughtth\'peoplewouldnotbequitesohigh-toned。Ihopeyoudon\'tmindthatword。” \"Notintheleast,\"shesaid。\"It\'samu- sicalterm。Itappliesverywelltopeople。” Theytookupthedanceagainandwaltzedbreathlesslytilltheclose。Katewastired; theexertionhadbeenalittlemorethanshehadbargainedfor。Shesatverystillontheverandaunderthewhiteglareofanelectricball,andletRoederdothetalking。Herthoughts,inspiteoftheentertainmentshewasderivingfromherpresentexperiences,wouldgobacktothebabies。Shesawthemtuckedwellinbed,eachinalittleironcrib,withthemuslincurtainsshieldingtheirrosyfacesfromthelight。ShewonderedifJackwerereadingaloneinthelibraryorwasattheclub,orperhapsatthesummercon- cert,withtheswelloftheviolinsinhisears。Jackdidsolovemusic。Asshethoughthowdelicatehisperceptionswere,howherespondedtoeverythingmostsubtleinnatureandinart,ofhowlifeitselfwasafineartwithhim,andjoyathingtobecultivated,sheturnedwithasenseofdeepcompassiontothesimplemanbyherside。 Hisroughfacelookedalittlemoreunat- tractivethanusual。Hiseveningclotheswerealmostgrotesque。Hisfaceworealookofsolitude,ofhunger。 \"Whatwereyousaying?\"shesaid,dreamily。\"Ibegyourpardon。” \"Iwassayin\'howIusedt\'dreamofsittin\'onthestepsofahotellikethis,andnothavin\'athingt\'do。WhenIusedt\' comedownhereoutofthegulch,andseemenwhohadhadgooddinners,an\'goodbaths,sittin\'aroundsmokin\',withmoneyt\'goovertheret\'th\'bookstan\'an\'getany- thin\'they\'dwant,itusedt\'seemt\'meaboutallasinglemancouldwishfur。” \"Well,you\'vegotitallnow。” \"ButIdidn\'tanyofth\'timesupposethatwouldsatisfyamanlong。OnlyIwassodarnedtiredIcouldn\'thelpwantin\'t\' rest。ButI\'mnotsoselfishurs\'narrowastobesatisfiedwithTHAT。No,I\'mnotgoin\'t\'spendm\'pilethatway——quite!\" Helaughedoutloud,andthensatinsilencewatchingKateasshelaybackwearilyinherchair。 \"I\'vegott\'havethattheregarden,\"hesaid,laughingly。\"Gott\'getthemroses。 An\'I\'llhaveabigbath-house,——plentyofspringsinthiscountry。Youkenhaveabathherethatwon\'tfreezesummerNOR winter。An\'ababy!I\'vegott\'haveababy。He\'llgowithth\'rosesan\'th\' bath。”Helaughedagainheartily。 \"It\'saqueerjoke,isn\'tit?\"Roederasked。\"Talkin\'aboutmybaby,an\'I haven\'tevenawife。”Hisfaceflushedandheturnedhiseyesaway。 \"HaveIshownyouthepicturesofmybabies?\"Kateinquired。\"You\'dlikemyboy,Iknow。Andmygirlisjustlikeme,——inminiature。” Therewasasilence。Shelookedupafteramoment。Roederappearedtobeexaminingthemonogramonhisringasifhehadneverseenitbefore。 \"Ididn\'tunderstandthatyouweremar- ried,\"hesaidgently。 \"Didn\'tyou?Idon\'tthinkyouevercalledmebyanynameatall,orIshouldhavenoticedyourmistakeandsetyouright。 Yes,I\'mmarried。Icameoutheretogetstrongforthebabies。” \"Gotaboyan\'agirl,eh?\" \"Yes。” \"Howold\'sth\'boy?\" \"Five。” \"An\'th\'girl?\" \"She\'llsoonbefour。” \"An\'yerhusband——he\'slivin\'?\" \"Ishouldsayso!I\'maveryhappywoman,Mr。Roeder。IfonlyIwerestronger!\" \"Yerlookin\'muchbetter,\"hesaid,gravely,\"thanwhenyoucome。You\'llbeallright。” Themoonbegantocomeupscarletbeyondtheeasternhills。Thetwowatcheditinsilence。Katehadafeelingofguilt,asifshehadbeenhurtingsomehelplessthing。 \"Iwasinhopes,\"hesaid,suddenly,inavoicethatseemedabruptandshrill,\"thetyou\'dseefitt\'stayhere。” \"HereinHelena?Oh,no!\" \"Iwasthinkin\'I\'dofferyouthattwohundredthousanddollars,ifyou\'dstay。” \"Mr。Roeder!Youdon\'tmean—— surely——\" \"Why,yes。Whynot?\"Hespokeratherdoggedly。\"I\'llneverseenootherwomanlikeyou。You\'redifferentfromothers。Howgoodyou\'vebeent\'me!\" \"Good!I\'mafraidI\'vebeenverybad——atleast,verystupid。” \"Isay,now——yourhusband\'sgoodt\' you,ain\'the?\" \"Heisthekindestmanthateverlived。” \"Oh,well,Ididn\'tknow。” AratherawkwardpausefollowedwhichwasbrokenbyRoeder。 \"Idon\'tseejestwhatI\'mgoin\'t\'dowiththatthartwohundredthousanddol- lars,\"hesaid,mournfully。 \"Dowithit?Why,livewithit!Sendsometoyourmother。” \"Oh,I\'vedonethat。Fivethousanddollars。Itdon\'tseemmuchhere;butit\'llseemalott\'her。I\'dsendhermore,onlyitwould\'vebotheredher。” \"Thenthereisyourhouse,——thehousewiththebath-room。ButIsupposeyou\'llhaveotherrooms?\" Peterlaughedalittleinspiteofhimself。 \"IguessIwon\'thaveahouse,\"hesaid。 \"An\'Icouldn\'tmakeagardenalone。” \"Hireamantohelpyou。”Katewastrembling,butshekepttalkinggayly。Shewasprayingthatnothingveryseriouswouldhappen。Therewasanundercurrentofsom- brenessintheman\'smannerthatfrightenedher。 \"IguessI\'lljesthavet\'keepondreamin\'ofthatboyplayin\'withth\'roses。” \"No,no,\"criedKate;\"hewillcometruesomeday!Iknowhe\'llcometrue。” Petergotupandstoodbyherchair。 \"Youdon\'tknownothin\'aboutit,\"hesaid。\"Youdon\'tknow,an\'youcan\'tknowwhatit\'sbint\'met\'talkwithyou。HereIcomeoutofaplacewherethereain\'tnosoundbutthewaterandthepines。Yearscomean\'go。Stillnosound。Onlythinkin\',thinkin\',thinkin\'!Missin\'allth\'thingsmencarefur!Dreamin\'ofatimewhenIsh\'dstriketh\'pile。ThenI seedhome,wife,aboy,flowers,everythin\'。 You\'resobeautiful,an\'you\'resogood。 You\'veawayofpickin\'aman\'sheartrightoutofhim。FirsttimeIsetmyeyesonyouIthoughtyouwereth\'nicestthingI eversee!Andhowlittleyouare!Thathandofyours,——lookatit,——it\'slikealeaf!An\'howeasyyousmile。Upth\' gulchwedidn\'tsmile;welaughed,butgen\'lybecausesomeonegotinafix。Thenyourvoice!Ah,I\'vethoughtfuryearsthatsomedayImighthearavoicelikethat!Don\'tyougo!Sitstill!I\'mnotblamin\'youfuranythin\';butImaynever,\'slong\'sIlive,findanyonewhowillunderstandthingsth\'wayyouunder- stand\'em。Here!Itellyouaboutthatgulchan\'youseethatgulch。Youknowhowth\'rainsoundedthar,an\'howth\' shacklooked,an\'th\'lifeIled,an\'allth\' thoughtsIhad,an\'th\'longnights,an\' th\'timeswhen——butnevermind。Iknowyouknowitall。Isawitinyereyes。I tellyouofmother,an\'yousee\'er。Youknow\'eroldGermanface,an\'\'erproudways,an\'herprideinme,an\'howshewouldthinkIwuzawfullyrich。An\'youseehowshewouldgiveoutthemlinens,allmarkedfurmywife,an\'howIwouldsitan\'watchherdoin\'it,an\'——youseeevery- thing。Iknowyoudo。Icouldfeelyoudoin\'it。ThenIsaytomyself:\'Hereisth\'onewomaninth\'worldmadefurme。 WhateverIhave,sheshallhave。I\'llspendmylifewaitin\'onher。She\'lltellmeallth\'thingsIoughtt\'know,an\'hevmissedknowin\';she\'llreadt\'me;she\'llbepatientwhenshefindshowdullI\'vegrown。Andthar\'llbeth\'boy——\'\" Heseizedherhandandwrungit,andwasgone。Katesawhimnomorethatnight。 Thenextmorningthemajorreturned。 Katethrewherarmsaroundhisneckandwept。 \"Iwantthebabies,\"sheexplainedwhenthemajorshowedhisconsternation。\"Don\'tmindmycrying。Yououghttobeusedtoseeingmecrybythistime。Imustgethome,that\'sall。ImustseeJack。” Sothatnighttheystarted。 AtthedoorofthecarriagestoodPeterRoeder,waiting。 \"I\'mgoingt\'ridedownwithyou,\"hesaid。Themajorlookednonplussed。 Kategotinandthemajorfollowed。 \"Come,\"shesaidtoRoeder。Hesatoppositeandlookedatherasifhewouldfastenherimageonhismind。 \"Youremember,\"hesaidafteratime,\"thatItoldyouIusedt\'dreamofsittin\'ontheverandaofth\'hotelandhavin\'nothin\' t\'do?\" \"Yes。” \"Well,Idon\'tthinkIcarefurit。I\'vehadamonthofit。I\'mgoin\'backupth\'gulch。” \"No!\"criedKate,instinctivelyreachingoutherhandstowardhim。 \"Whynot?Iguessyoudon\'tknowme。 IknewthatsomewhereI\'dfindafriend。I foundthatfriend;an\'nowI\'maloneagain。It\'sprettyquietuptharinthegulch;butI\'lltryit。” \"No,no。GotoEurope;gotoseeyourmother。” \"Ithoughtaboutthatagooddeal,awhileago。ButIdon\'tseemt\'havenoheartfuritnow。IfeelasifI\'dbesaferinth\'gulch。” \"Safer?\"