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类别:其他 作者:Thomas Hardy字数:15061更新时间:18/12/13 16:52:01
ThreehoursandahalfofstraininguphillsandjoggingdownbroughtthemtoSt。Launce\'s,themarkettownandrailwaystationnearesttoEndelstow,andtheplacefromwhichStephenSmithhadjourneyedoverthedownsonthe,tohim,memorablewintereveningatthebeginningofthesameyear。Thecarrier\'svanwassotimedastomeetastartingup-train,whichStephenentered。Twoorthreehours\'railwaytravelthroughverticalcuttingsinmetamorphicrock,throughoakcopsesrichandgreen,stretchingoverslopesanddowndelightfulvalleys,glens,andravines,sparklingwithwaterlikemany-rilledIda,andheplungedamidthehundredandfiftythousandpeoplecomposingthetownofPlymouth。 Therebeingsometimeuponhishandshelefthisluggageatthecloak-room,andwentonfootalongBedfordStreettothenearestchurch。HereStephenwanderedamongthemultifarioustombstonesandlookedinatthechancelwindow,dreamingofsomethingthatwaslikelytohappenbythealtarthereinthecourseofthecomingmonth。HeturnedawayandascendedtheHoe,viewedthemagnificentstretchofseaandmassivepromontoriesofland,butwithoutparticularlydiscerningonefeatureofthevariedperspective。Hestillsawthatinnerprospect——theeventhehopedforinyonderchurch。ThewideSound,theBreakwater,thelight- houseonfar-offEddystone,thedarksteamvessels,brigs,barques,andschooners,eitherfloatingstilly,orglidingwithtiniestmotion,wereasthedream,then;thedreamed-ofeventwasasthereality。 SoonStephenwentdownfromtheHoe,andreturnedtotherailwaystation。Hetookhisticket,andenteredtheLondontrain。 ThatdaywasanirksometimeatEndelstowvicarage。NeitherfathernordaughteralludedtothedepartureofStephen。Mr。 Swancourt\'smannertowardsherpartookofthecompunctiouskindnessthatarisesfromamisgivingastothejusticeofsomepreviousact。 Eitherfromlackofthecapacitytograspthewholecoupd\'oeil,orfromanaturalendowmentforcertainkindsofstoicism,womenarecoolerthanmenincriticalsituationsofthepassiveform。 Probably,inElfride\'scaseatleast,itwasblindnesstothegreatercontingenciesofthefutureshewaspreparingforherself,whichenabledhertoaskherfatherinaquietvoiceifhecouldgiveheraholidaysoon,toridetoSt。Launce\'sandgoontoPlymouth。 Now,shehadonlyoncebeforegonealonetoPlymouth,andthatwasinconsequenceofsomeunavoidabledifficulty。Beingacountrygirl,andagood,nottosayawild,horsewoman,ithadbeenherdelighttocanter,withouttheghostofanattendant,overthefourteenorsixteenmilesofhardroadinterveningbetweentheirhomeandthestationatSt。Launce\'s,putupthehorse,andgoontheremainderofthedistancebytrain,returninginthesamemannerintheevening。Itwasthenresolvedthat,thoughshehadsuccessfullyaccomplishedthisjourneyonce,itwasnottoberepeatedwithoutsomeattendance。 ButElfridemustnotbeconfoundedwithordinaryyoungfeminineequestrians。Thecircumstancesofherlonelyandnarrowlifemadeitimperativethatintrottingabouttheneighbourhoodshemusttrotaloneorelsenotatall。Usagesoonrenderedthisperfectlynaturaltoherself。Herfather,whohadhadotherexperiences,didnotmuchliketheideaofaSwancourt,whosepedigreecouldbeasdistinctlytracedasathreadinaskeinofsilk,scamperingoverthehillslikeafarmer\'sdaughter,eventhoughhecouldhabituallyneglecther。Butwhatwithhisnotbeingabletoaffordheraregularattendant,andhisinveteratehabitoflettinganythingbetosavehimselftrouble,thecircumstancegrewcustomary。Andsotherearoseachronicnotioninthevillagers\' mindsthatallladiesrodewithoutanattendant,likeMissSwancourt,exceptafewwhoweresometimesvisitingatLordLuxellian\'s。 \'Idon\'tlikeyourgoingtoPlymouthalone,particularlygoingtoSt。Launce\'sonhorseback。Whynotdrive,andtaketheman?\' \'Itisnotnicetobesooverlooked。\'Worm\'scompanywouldnotseriouslyhaveinterferedwithherplans,butitwasherhumourtogowithouthim。 \'Whendoyouwanttogo?\'saidherfather。 Sheonlyanswered,\'Soon。\' \'Iwillconsider,\'hesaid。 Onlyafewdayselapsedbeforesheaskedagain。AletterhadreachedherfromStephen。Ithadbeentimedtocomeonthatdaybyspecialarrangementbetweenthem。InithenamedtheearliestmorningonwhichhecouldmeetheratPlymouth。HerfatherhadbeenonajourneytoStratleigh,andreturnedinunusualbuoyancyofspirit。Itwasagoodopportunity;andsincethedismissalofStephenherfatherhadbeengenerallyinamoodtomakesmallconcessions,thathemightsteerclearoflargeonesconnectedwiththatoutcastloverofhers。 \'NextThursdayweekIamgoingfromhomeinadifferentdirection,\'saidherfather。\'Infact,Ishallleavehomethenightbefore。Youmightchoosethesameday,fortheywishtotakeupthecarpets,orsomesuchthing,Ithink。AsIsaid,I don\'tlikeyoutobeseeninatownonhorsebackalone;butgoifyouwill。\' Thursdayweek。HerfatherhadnamedtheverydaythatStephenalsohadnamedthatmorningastheearliestonwhichitwouldbeofanyusetomeether;thatwas,aboutfifteendaysfromthedayonwhichhehadleftEndelstow。Fifteendays——thatfragmentofdurationwhichhasacquiredsuchaninterestingindividualityfromitsconnectionwiththeEnglishmarriagelaw。 Sheinvoluntarilylookedatherfathersostrangely,thatonbecomingconsciousofthelookshepaledwithembarrassment。Herfather,too,lookedconfused。Whatwashethinkingof? ThereseemedtobeaspecialfacilityofferedherbyapowerexternaltoherselfinthecircumstancethatMr。Swancourthadproposedtoleavehomethenightprevioustoherwished-forday。 Herfatherseldomtooklongjourneys;seldomsleptfromhomeexceptperhapsonthenightfollowingaremoteVisitation。Well,shewouldnotinquiretoocuriouslyintothereasonoftheopportunity,nordidhe,aswouldhavebeennatural,proceedtoexplainitofhisownaccord。Inmattersoffacttherehadhithertobeennoreservebetweenthem,thoughtheywerenotusuallyconfidentialinitsfullsense。ButthedivergenceoftheiremotionsonStephen\'saccounthadproducedanestrangementwhichjustatpresentwenteventotheextentofreticenceonthemostordinaryhouseholdtopics。 Elfridewasalmostunconsciouslyrelieved,persuadingherselfthatherfather\'sreserveonhisbusinessjustifiedherinsecrecyasregardedherown——asecrecywhichwasnecessarilyaforegonedecisionwithher。Soanxiousisayoungconsciencetodiscoverapalliative,thattheexpostfactonatureofareasonisofnoaccountinexcludingit。 Theinterveningfortnightwasspentbyhermostlyinwalkingbyherselfamongtheshrubsandtrees,indulgingsometimesinsanguineanticipations;more,farmorefrequently,inmisgivings。 Allherflowersseemeddullofhue;herpetsseemedtolookwistfullyintohereyes,asiftheynolongerstoodinthesamefriendlyrelationtoherasformerly。Sheworemelancholyjewellery,gazedatsunsets,andtalkedtooldmenandwomen。Itwasthefirsttimethatshehadhadaninnerandprivateworldapartfromthevisibleoneabouther。Shewishedthatherfather,insteadofneglectingherevenmorethanusual,wouldmakesomeadvance——justoneword;shewouldthentellall,andriskStephen\'sdispleasure。Thusbroughtroundtotheyouthagain,shesawhiminherfancy,standing,touchingher,hiseyesfullofsadaffection,hopelesslyrenouncinghisattemptbecauseshehadrenouncedhers;andshecouldnotrecede。 OntheWednesdayshewastoreceiveanotherletter。Shehadresolvedtoletherfatherseethearrivalofthisone,betheconsequenceswhattheymight:thedreadoflosingherloverbythisdeedofhonestypreventedheractingupontheresolve。Fiveminutesbeforethepostman\'sexpectedarrivalsheslippedout,anddownthelanetomeethim。Shemethimimmediatelyuponturningasharpangle,whichhidherfromviewinthedirectionofthevicarage。Themansmilinglyhandedonemissive,andwasgoingontohandanother,acircularfromsometradesman。 \'No,\'shesaid;\'takethatontothehouse。\' \'Why,miss,youaredoingwhatyourfatherhasdoneforthelastfortnight。\' Shedidnotcomprehend。 \'Why,cometothiscorner,andtakealetterofmeeverymorning,allwritinthesamehandwriting,andlettinganyothersforhimgoontothehouse。\'Andonthepostmanwent。 Nosoonerhadheturnedthecornerbehindherbackthansheheardherfathermeetandaddresstheman。Shehadsavedherletterbytwominutes。Herfatheraudiblywentthroughpreciselythesameperformanceasshehadjustbeenguiltyofherself。 Thisstealthyconductofhiswas,tosaytheleast,peculiar。 Givenanimpulsiveinconsequentgirl,neglectedastoherinnerlifebyheronlyparent,andthefollowingforcesalivewithinher;todeterminearesultant: Firstloveacteduponbyadeadlyfearofseparationfromitsobject:inexperience,guidingonwardafranticwishtopreventtheabove-namedissue:misgivingsastopropriety,metbyhopeofultimateexoneration:indignationatparentalinconsistencyinfirstencouraging,thenforbidding:achillingsenseofdisobedience,overpoweredbyaconscientiousinabilitytobrookabreakingofplightedfaithwithamanwho,inessentials,hadremainedunalteredfromthebeginning:ablessedhopethatoppositionwouldturnanerroneousjudgement:abrightfaiththatthingswouldmendthereby,andwindupwell。 Probablytheresultwould,afterall,havebeennil,hadnotthefollowingfewremarksbeenmadeonedayatbreakfast。 Herfatherwasinhisoldheartyspirits。Hesmiledtohimselfatstoriestoobadtotell,andcalledElfridealittlescampforsurreptitiouslypreservingsomeblindkittensthatoughttohavebeendrowned。Afterthisexpression,shesaidtohimsuddenly: IfMr。Smithhadbeenalreadyinthefamily,youwouldnothavebeenmadewretchedbydiscoveringhehadpoorrelations?\' \'Doyoumeaninthefamilybymarriage?\'herepliedinattentively,andcontinuingtopeelhisegg。 Theaccumulatingscarlettoldthatwashermeaning,asmuchastheaffirmativereply。 \'Ishouldhaveputupwithit,nodoubt,\'Mr。Swancourtobserved。 \'Sothatyouwouldnothavebeendrivenintohopelessmelancholy,buthavemadethebestofhim?\' Elfride\'serraticmindhadfromheryouthupwardsbeenconstantlyinthehabitofperplexingherfatherbyhypotheticalquestions,basedonabsurdconditions。Thepresentseemedtobecastsopreciselyinthemouldofpreviousonesthat,notbeinggiventosynthesesofcircumstances,heanswereditwithcustomarycomplacency。 \'Ifhewerealliedtousirretrievably,ofcourseI,oranysensibleman,shouldacceptconditionsthatcouldnotbealtered; certainlynotbehopelesslymelancholyaboutit。Idon\'tbelieveanythingintheworldwouldmakemehopelesslymelancholy。Anddon\'tletanythingmakeyouso,either。\' \'Iwon\'t,papa,\'shecried,withaserenebrightnessthatpleasedhim。 CertainlyMr。Swancourtmusthavebeenfarfromthinkingthatthebrightnesscamefromanexhilaratingintentiontoholdbacknolongerfromthemadactionshehadplanned。 IntheeveninghedroveawaytowardsStratleigh,quitealone。Itwasanunusualcourseforhim。AtthedoorElfridehadbeenagainalmostimpelledbyherfeelingstopouroutall。 \'WhyareyougoingtoStratleigh,papa?\'shesaid,andlookedathimlongingly。 \'Iwilltellyouto-morrowwhenIcomeback,\'hesaidcheerily; \'notbeforethen,Elfride。Thouwiltnotutterwhatthoudostnotknow,andsofarwillItrustthee,gentleElfride。\' Shewasrepressedandhurt。 \'IwilltellyoumyerrandtoPlymouth,too,whenIcomeback,\' shemurmured。 Hewentaway。Hisjocularitymadeherintentionseemthelighter,ashisindifferencemadehermoreresolvedtodoassheliked。 ItwasafamiliarSeptembersunset,dark-bluefragmentsofclouduponanorange-yellowsky。Thesesunsetsusedtotempthertowalktowardsthem,asanybeautifulthingtemptsanearapproach。 Shewentthroughthefieldtotheprivethedge,clamberedintothemiddleofit,andreclineduponthethickboughs。Afterlookingwestwardforaconsiderabletime,sheblamedherselffornotlookingeastwardtowhereStephenwas,andturnedround。 Ultimatelyhereyesfellupontheground。 Apeculiaritywasobservablebeneathher。Agreenfieldspreaditselfoneachsideofthehedge,onebelongingtotheglebe,theotherbeingapartofthelandattachedtothemanor-houseadjoining。Onthevicaragesideshesawalittlefootpath,thedistinctiveandaltogetherexceptionalfeatureofwhichconsistedinitsbeingonlyabouttenyardslong;itterminatedabruptlyateachend。 Afootpath,suddenlybeginningandsuddenlyending,comingfromnowhereandleadingnowhere,shehadneverseenbefore。 Yes,shehad,onsecondthoughts。Shehadseenexactlysuchapathtroddeninthefrontofbarracksbythesentry。 Andthisrecollectionexplainedtheoriginofthepathhere。Herfatherhadtroddenitbypacingupanddown,asshehadonceseenhimdoing。 Sittingonthehedgeasshesatnow,hereyescommandedaviewofbothsidesofit。Andafewminuteslater,Elfridelookedovertothemanorside。 Herewasanothersentrypath。Itwaslikethefirstinlength,anditbeganandendedexactlyoppositethebeginningandendingofitsneighbour,butitwasthinner,andlessdistinct。 Tworeasonsexistedforthedifference。Thisonemighthavebeentroddenbyasimilarweightoftreadtotheother,exercisedalessnumberoftimes;oritmighthavebeenwalkedjustasfrequently,butbylighterfeet。 ProbablyagentlemanfromScotland-yard,hadhebeenpassingatthetime,mighthaveconsideredthelatteralternativeasthemoreprobable。Elfridethoughtotherwise,sofarasshethoughtatall。ButherowngreatTo-Morrowwasnowimminent;allthoughtsinspiredbycasualsightsoftheeyewereonlyallowedtoexercisethemselvesininferiorcornersofherbrain,previouslytobeingbanishedaltogether。 Elfridewasatlengthcompelledtoreasonpracticallyuponherundertaking。Allherdefiniteperceptionsthereon,whentheemotionaccompanyingthemwasabstracted,amountedtonomorethanthese: \'Sayanhourandthree-quarterstoridetoSt。Launce\'s。 \'SayhalfanhourattheFalcontochangemydress。 \'SaytwohourswaitingforsometrainandgettingtoPlymouth。 \'Sayanhourtosparebeforetwelveo\'clock。 \'TotaltimefromleavingEndelstowtilltwelveo\'clock,fivehours。 \'ThereforeIshallhavetostartatseven。\' Nosurpriseorsenseofunwontednessenteredthemindsoftheservantsatherearlyride。Themonotonyoflifeweassociatewithpeopleofsmallincomesindistrictsoutofthesoundoftherailwaywhistle,hasoneexception,whichputsintoshadetheexperienceofdwellersaboutthegreatcentresofpopulation——thatis,intravelling。Everyjourneythereismoreorlessanadventure;adventuroushoursarenecessarilychosenforthemostcommonplaceouting。MissElfridehadtoleaveearly——thatwasall。 Elfrideneverwentoutonhorsebackbutshebroughthomesomething——somethingfound,orsomethingbought。Ifshetrottedtotownorvillage,herburdenwasbooks。Iftohills,woods,ortheseashore,itwaswonderfulmosses,abnormaltwigs,ahandkerchiefofwetshellsorseaweed。 Once,inmuddyweather,whenPansywaswalkingwithherdownthestreetofCastleBoterel,onafair-day,apacketinfrontofherandapacketunderherarm,anaccidentbefellthepackets,andtheyslippeddown。Ononesideofher,threevolumesoffictionlaykissingthemud;ontheothernumerousskeinsofpolychromaticwoolslayabsorbingit。Unpleasantwomensmiledthroughwindowsatthemishap,themenalllookedround,andaboy,whowasmindingaginger-breadstallwhilsttheownerhadgonetogetdrunk,laughedloudly。Theblueeyesturnedtosapphires,andthecheekscrimsonedwithvexation。 Afterthatmisadventureshesetherwitstowork,andwasingeniousenoughtoinventanarrangementofsmallstrapsaboutthesaddle,bywhichagreatdealcouldbesafelycarriedthereon,inasmallcompass。Hereshenowspreadoutandfastenedaplaindarkwalking-dressandafewothertriflesofapparel。Wormopenedthegateforher,andshevanishedaway。 Oneofthebrightestmorningsoflatesummershoneuponher。Theheatherwasatitspurplest,thefurzeatitsyellowest,thegrasshopperschirpedloudenoughforbirds,thesnakeshissedlikelittleengines,andElfrideatfirstfeltlively。SittingateaseuponPansy,inherorthodoxriding-habitandnondescripthat,shelookedwhatshefelt。Butthemercuryofthosedayshadatrickoffallingunexpectedly。First,onlyforoneminuteintenhadsheasenseofdepression。Thenalargecloud,thathadbeenhanginginthenorthlikeablackfleece,cameandplaceditselfbetweenherandthesun。Ithelpedonwhatwasalreadyinevitable,andshesankintoauniformityofsadness。 Sheturnedinthesaddleandlookedback。Theywerenowonanopentable-land,whosealtitudestillgaveheraviewoftheseabyEndelstow。Shelookedlonginglyatthatspot。 DuringthislittlerevulsionoffeelingPansyhadbeenstilladvancing,andElfridefeltitwouldbeabsurdtoturnherlittlemare\'sheadtheotherway。\'Still,\'shethought,\'ifIhadamammaathomeIWOULDgoback!\' Andmakingoneofthosestealthymovementsbywhichwomenlettheirheartsjugglewiththeirbrains,shedidputthehorse\'sheadabout,asifunconsciously,andwentatahand-galloptowardshomeformorethanamile。Bythistime,fromtheinveteratehabitofvaluingwhatwehaverenounceddirectlythealternativeischosen,thethoughtofherforsakenStephenrecalledher,andsheturnedabout,andcanteredontoSt。Launce\'sagain。 Thismiserablestrifeofthoughtnowbegantorageinallitswildness。Overwroughtandtrembling,shedroppedthereinuponPansy\'sshoulders,andvowedshewouldbeledwhitherthehorsewouldtakeher。 Pansyslackenedherpacetoawalk,andwalkedonwithheragitatedburdenforthreeorfourminutes。Attheexpirationofthistimetheyhadcometoalittleby-wayontheright,leadingdownaslopetoapoolofwater。Theponystopped,lookedtowardsthepool,andthenadvancedandstoopedtodrink。 ElfridelookedatherwatchanddiscoveredthatifsheweregoingtoreachSt。Launce\'searlyenoughtochangeherdressattheFalcon,andgetachanceofsomeearlytraintoPlymouth——therewereonlytwoavailable——itwasnecessarytoproceedatonce。 Shewasimpatient。ItseemedasifPansywouldneverstopdrinking;andthereposeofthepool,theidlemotionsoftheinsectsandfliesuponit,theplacidwavingoftheflags,theleaf-skeletons,likeGenoesefiligree,placidlysleepingatthebottom,bytheircontrastwithherownturmoilmadeherimpatiencegreater。 Pansydidturnatlast,andwentuptheslopeagaintothehigh- road。Theponycameuponit,andstoodcross-wise,lookingupanddown。Elfride\'sheartthrobbederratically,andshethought,\'Horses,iflefttothemselves,makeforwheretheyarebestfed。 Pansywillgohome。\' PansyturnedandwalkedontowardsSt。Launce\'sPansyathome,duringsummer,hadlittlebutgrasstoliveon。 AfteraruntoSt。Launce\'sshealwayshadafeedofcorntosupportheronthereturnjourney。Therefore,beingnowmorethanhalfway,shepreferredSt。Launce\'s。 ButElfridedidnotrememberthisnow。Allshecaredtorecognizewasadreamyfancythatto-day\'srashactionwasnotherown。Shewasdisabledbyhermoods,anditseemedindispensabletoadheretotheprogramme。Sostrangelyinvolvedaremotivesthat,morethanbyherpromisetoStephen,moreeventhanbyherlove,shewasforcedonbyasenseofthenecessityofkeepingfaithwithherself,aspromisedintheinanevowoftenminutesago。 Shehesitatednolonger。Pansywent,likethesteedofAdonis,asifshetoldthesteps。PresentlythequaintgablesandjumbledroofsofSt。Launce\'swerespreadbeneathher,andgoingdownthehillsheenteredthecourtyardoftheFalcon。Mrs。Buckle,thelandlady,cametothedoortomeether。 TheSwancourtswerewellknownhere。Thetransitionfromequestriantotheordinaryguiseofrailwaytravellershadbeenmorethanonceperformedbyfatheranddaughterinthisestablishment。 InlessthanaquarterofanhourElfrideemergedfromthedoorinherwalkingdress,andwenttotherailway。ShehadnottoldMrs。 Buckleanythingastoherintentions,andwassupposedtohavegoneoutshopping。 Anhourandfortyminuteslater,andshewasinStephen\'sarmsatthePlymouthstation。Notupontheplatform——inthesecretretreatofadesertedwaiting-room。 Stephen\'sfacebodedill。Hewaspaleanddespondent。 Whatisthematter?\'sheasked。 \'Wecannotbemarriedhereto-day,myElfie!Ioughttohaveknownitandstayedhere。InmyignoranceIdidnot。Ihavethelicence,butitcanonlybeusedinmyparishinLondon。Ionlycamedownlastnight,asyouknow。\' \'Whatshallwedo?\'shesaidblankly。 \'There\'sonlyonethingwecando,darling。\' \'What\'sthat?\' \'GoontoLondonbyatrainjuststarting,andbemarriedthereto-morrow。\' \'Passengersforthe11。5up-traintaketheirseats!\'saidaguard\'svoiceontheplatform。 \'Willyougo,Elfride?\' \'Iwill。\' Inthreeminutesthetrainhadmovedoff,bearingawaywithitStephenandElfride。 ChapterXII \'Adieu!shecries,andwavedherlilyhand。\' Thefewtatteredcloudsofthemorningenlargedandunited,thesunwithdrewbehindthemtoemergenomorethatday,andtheeveningdrewtoacloseindriftsofrain。Thewater-dropsbeatlikeduckshotagainstthewindowoftherailway-carriagecontainingStephenandElfride。 ThejourneyfromPlymouthtoPaddington,byeventhemostheadlongexpress,allowsquiteenoughleisureforpassionofanysorttocool。Elfride\'sexcitementhadpassedoff,andshesatinakindofstuporduringthelatterhalfofthejourney。Shewasarousedbytheclangingofthemazeofrailsoverwhichtheytracedtheirwayattheentrancetothestation。 IsthisLondon?\'shesaid。 \'Yes,darling,\'saidStepheninatoneofassurancehewasfarfromfeeling。Tohim,nolessthantoher,therealitysogreatlydifferedfromtheprefiguring。 Shepeeredoutaswellasthewindow,beadedwithdrops,wouldallowher,andsawonlythelamps,whichhadjustbeenlit,blinkinginthewetatmosphere,androwsofhideouszincchimney- pipesindimreliefagainstthesky。Shewritheduneasily,aswhenathoughtisswellinginthemindwhichmustcausemuchpainatitsdeliveranceinwords。Elfridehadknownnomoreaboutthestingsofevilreportthanthenativewild-fowlknewoftheeffectsofCrusoe\'sfirstshot。Nowshesawalittlefurther,andalittlefurtherstill。 Thetrainstopped。Stephenrelinquishedthesofthandhehadheldalltheday,andproceededtoassistherontotheplatform。 Thisactofalightinguponstrangegroundseemedallthatwaswantedtocompletearesolutionwithinher。 Shelookedatherbetrothedwithdespairingeyes。 \'OStephen,\'sheexclaimed,\'Iamsomiserable!Imustgohomeagain——Imust——Imust!Forgivemywretchedvacillation。Idon\'tlikeithere——normyself——noryou!\' Stephenlookedbewildered,anddidnotspeak。 \'Willyouallowmetogohome?\'sheimplored。\'Iwon\'ttroubleyoutogowithme。Iwillnotbeanyweightuponyou;onlysayyouwillagreetomyreturning;thatyouwillnothatemeforit,Stephen!ItisbetterthatIshouldreturnagain;indeeditis,Stephen。\' \'Butwecan\'treturnnow,\'hesaidinadeprecatorytone。 \'Imust!Iwill!\' \'How?Whendoyouwanttogo?\' \'Now。Canwegoatonce?\' Theladlookedhopelesslyalongtheplatform。 \'Ifyoumustgo,andthinkitwrongtoremain,dearest,\'saidhesadly,\'youshall。Youshalldowhateveryoulike,myElfride。 Butwouldyouinrealityrathergonowthanstaytillto-morrow,andgoasmywife?\' \'Yes,yes——much——anythingtogonow。Imust;Imust!\'shecried。 \'Weoughttohavedoneoneoftwothings,\'heansweredgloomily。 \'Nevertohavestarted,ornottohavereturnedwithoutbeingmarried。Idon\'tliketosayit,Elfride——indeedIdon\'t;butyoumustbetoldthis,thatgoingbackunmarriedmaycompromiseyourgoodnameintheeyesofpeoplewhomayhearofit。\' \'Theywillnot;andImustgo。\' \'OElfride!Iamtoblameforbringingyouaway。\' \'Notatall。Iamtheelder。\' \'Byamonth;andwhat\'sthat?Butnevermindthatnow。\'Helookedaround。\'IsthereatrainforPlymouthto-night?\'heinquiredofaguard。Theguardpassedonanddidnotspeak。 \'IsthereatrainforPlymouthto-night?\'saidElfridetoanother。 \'Yes,miss;the8。10——leavesintenminutes。Youhavecometothewrongplatform;itistheotherside。ChangeatBristolintothenightmail。Downthatstaircase,andundertheline。\' Theyrandownthestaircase——Elfridefirst——tothebooking-office,andintoacarriagewithanofficialstandingbesidethedoor。 \'Showyourtickets,please。\'Theyarelockedin——menabouttheplatformacceleratetheirvelocitiestilltheyflyupanddownlikeshuttlesinaloom——awhistle——thewavingofaflag——ahumancry——asteamgroan——andawaytheygotoPlymouthagain,justcatchingthesewordsastheyglideoff: \'Thosetwoyoungstershadanearrunforit,andnomistake!\' Elfridefoundherbreath。 \'Andhaveyoucometoo,Stephen?Whydidyou?\' \'IshallnotleaveyoutillIseeyousafeatSt。Launce\'s。DonotthinkworseofmethanIam,Elfride。\' Andthentheyrattledalongthroughthenight,backagainbythewaytheyhadcome。Theweathercleared,andthestarsshoneinuponthem。Theirtwoorthreefellow-passengerssatformostofthetimewithclosedeyes。Stephensometimesslept;Elfridealonewaswakefulandpalpitatinghourafterhour。 Thedaybegantobreak,andrevealedthattheywerebythesea。 Redrocksoverhungthem,and,recedingintodistance,grewlividinthebluegreyatmosphere。Thesunrose,andsentpenetratingshaftsoflightinupontheirwearyfaces。Anotherhour,andtheworldbegantobebusy。Theywaitedyetalittle,andthetrainslackeneditsspeedinviewoftheplatformatSt。Launce\'s。 Sheshivered,andmusedsadly。 \'Ididnotseealltheconsequences,\'shesaid。\'Appearancesarewofullyagainstme。Ifanybodyfindsmeout,Iam,Isuppose,disgraced。\' \'Thenappearanceswillspeakfalsely;andhowcanthatmatter,eveniftheydo?Ishallbeyourhusbandsoonerorlater,forcertain,andsoproveyourpurity。\' \'Stephen,onceinLondonIoughttohavemarriedyou,\'shesaidfirmly。\'Itwasmyonlysafedefence。IseemorethingsnowthanIdidyesterday。Myonlyremainingchanceisnottobediscovered;andthatwemustfightformostdesperately。\' Theysteppedout。Elfridepulledathickveiloverherface。 Awomanwithredandscalyeyelidsandglisteningeyeswassittingonabenchjustinsidetheoffice-door。ShefixedhereyesuponElfridewithanexpressionwhoseforceitwasimpossibletodoubt,butthemeaningofwhichwasnotclear;thenuponthecarriagetheyhadleft。Sheseemedtoreadasinisterstoryinthescene。 Elfrideshrankback,andturnedtheotherway。 \'Whoisthatwoman?\'saidStephen。\'Shelookedhardatyou。\' \'Mrs。Jethway——awidow,andmotherofthatyoungmanwhosetombwesatontheothernight。Stephen,sheismyenemy。WouldthatGodhadhadmercyenoughuponmetohavehiddenthisfromHER!\' \'Donottalksohopelessly,\'heremonstrated。\'Idon\'tthinksherecognizedus。\' \'Ipraythatshedidnot。\' Heputonamorevigorousmood。 \'Now,wewillgoandgetsomebreakfast。\' \'No,no!\'shebegged。\'Icannoteat。IMUSTgetbacktoEndelstow。\' ElfridewasasifshehadgrownyearsolderthanStephennow。 \'ButyouhavehadnothingsincelastnightbutthatcupofteaatBristol。\' \'Ican\'teat,Stephen。\' \'Wineandbiscuit?\' \'No。\' \'Nortea,norcoffee?\' \'No。\' \'Aglassofwater?\' \'No。Iwantsomethingthatmakespeoplestrongandenergeticforthepresent,thatborrowsthestrengthofto-morrowforuseto- day——leavingto-morrowwithoutanyatallforthatmatter;oreventhatwouldtakealllifeawayto-morrow,solongasitenabledmetogethomeagainnow。Brandy,that\'swhatIwant。Thatwoman\'seyeshaveeatenmyheartaway!\' \'Youarewild;andyougrieveme,darling。Mustitbebrandy?\' \'Yes,ifyouplease。\' \'Howmuch?\' \'Idon\'tknow。Ihaveneverdrunkmorethanateaspoonfulatonce。AllIknowisthatIwantit。Don\'tgetitattheFalcon。\' Heleftherinthefields,andwenttothenearestinninthatdirection。Presentlyhereturnedwithasmallflasknearlyfull,andsomeslicesofbread-and-butter,thinaswafers,inapaper- bag。Elfridetookasiportwo。 \'Itgoesintomyeyes,\'shesaidwearily。\'Ican\'ttakeanymore。 Yes,Iwill;Iwillclosemyeyes。Ah,itgoestothembyaninsideroute。Idon\'twantit;throwitaway。\' However,shecouldeat,anddideat。HerchiefattentionwasconcentrateduponhowtogetthehorsefromtheFalconstableswithoutsuspicion。Stephenwasnotallowedtoaccompanyherintothetown。Sheactednowuponconclusionsreachedwithoutanyaidfromhim:hispoweroverherseemedtohavedeparted。 \'Youhadbetternotbeseenwithme,evenherewhereIamsolittleknown。Wehavebegunstealthilyasthieves,andwemustendstealthilyasthieves,atallhazards。Untilpapahasbeentoldbymemyself,adiscoverywouldbeterrible。\' Walkingandgloomilytalkingthustheywaitedtillnearlynineo\'clock,atwhichtimeElfridethoughtshemightcallattheFalconwithoutcreatingmuchsurprise。Behindtherailway-stationwastheriver,spannedbyanoldTudorbridge,whencetheroaddivergedintwodirections,oneskirtingthesuburbsofthetown,andwindingroundagainintothehigh-roadtoEndelstow。BesidethisroadStephensat,andawaitedherreturnfromtheFalcon。 Hesatasonesittingforaportrait,motionless,watchingthechequeredlightsandshadesonthetree-trunks,thechildrenplayingoppositetheschoolprevioustoenteringforthemorninglesson,thereapersinafieldafaroff。Thecertaintyofpossessionhadnotcome,andtherewasnothingtomitigatetheyouth\'sgloom,thatincreasedwiththethoughtofthepartingnowsonear。 Atlengthshecametrottingroundtohim,inappearancemuchasontheromanticmorningoftheirvisittothecliff,butshornoftheradiancewhichglistenedaboutherthen。However,hercomparativeimmunityfromfurtherriskandtroublehadconsiderablycomposedher。Elfride\'scapacityforbeingwoundedwasonlysurpassedbyhercapacityforhealing,whichrightlyorwronglyisbysomeconsideredanindexoftransientnessoffeelingingeneral。 \'Elfride,whatdidtheysayattheFalcon?\' \'Nothing。Nobodyseemedcuriousaboutme。TheyknewIwenttoPlymouth,andIhavestayedthereanightnowandthenwithMissBicknell。Irathercalculateduponthat。\' Andnowpartingaroselikeadeathtothesechildren,foritwasimperativethatsheshouldstartatonce。Stephenwalkedbesideherfornearlyamile。Duringthewalkhesaidsadly: \'Elfride,four-and-twentyhourshavepassed,andthethingisnotdone。\' \'Butyouhaveinsuredthatitshallbedone。\' \'HowhaveI?\' \'OStephen,youaskhow!DoyouthinkIcouldmarryanothermanonearthafterhavinggonethusfarwithyou?HaveInotshownbeyondpossibilityofdoubtthatIcanbenobodyelse\'s?HaveInotirretrievablycommittedmyself?——pridehasstoodfornothinginthefaceofmygreatlove。Youmisunderstoodmyturningback,andIcannotexplainit。Itwaswrongtogowithyouatall;andthoughitwouldhavebeenworsetogofurther,itwouldhavebeenbetterpolicy,perhaps。Beassuredofthis,thatwheneveryouhaveahomeforme——howeverpoorandhumble——andcomeandclaimme,Iamready。\'Sheaddedbitterly,\'Whenmyfatherknowsofthisday\'swork,hemaybeonlytoogladtoletmego。\' \'Perhapshemay,then,insistuponourmarriageatonce!\'Stephenanswered,seeingarayofhopeintheveryfocusofherremorse。 \'Ihopehemay,evenifwehadstilltoparttillIamreadyforyou,asweintended。\' Elfridedidnotreply。 \'Youdon\'tseemthesamewoman,Elfie,thatyouwereyesterday。\' \'NoramI。Butgood-bye。Gobacknow。\'Andshereinedthehorseforparting。\'OStephen,\'shecried,\'Ifeelsoweak!Idon\'tknowhowtomeethim。Cannotyou,afterall,comebackwithme?\' \'ShallIcome?\' Elfridepausedtothink。 \'No;itwillnotdo。Itismyutterfoolishnessthatmakesmesaysuchwords。Buthewillsendforyou。\' \'Saytohim,\'continuedStephen,\'thatwedidthisintheabsolutedespairofourminds。Tellhimwedon\'twishhimtofavourus—— onlytodealjustlywithus。Ifhesays,marrynow,somuchthebetter。Ifnot,saythatallmaybeputrightbyhispromisetoallowmetohaveyouwhenIamgoodenoughforyou——whichmaybesoon。SayIhavenothingtoofferhiminexchangeforhistreasure——themoresorryI;butallthelove,andallthelife,andallthelabourofanhonestmanshallbeyours。Astowhenthishadbetterbetold,Ileaveyoutojudge。\' Hiswordsmadehercheerfulenoughtotoywithherposition。 \'Andifillreportshouldcome,Stephen,\'shesaidsmiling,\'why,theorange-treemustsaveme,asitsavedvirginsinSt。George\'stimefromthepoisonousbreathofthedragon。There,forgivemeforforwardness:Iamgoing。\' Thentheboyandgirlbeguiledthemselveswithwordsofhalf- partingonly。 \'Ownwifie,Godblessyoutillwemeetagain!\' \'Tillwemeetagain,good-bye!\' Andtheponywenton,andshespoketohimnomore。Hesawherfigurediminishandherblueveilgrowgray——sawitwiththeagonizingsensationsofaslowdeath。 Afterthuspartingfromamanthanwhomshehadknownnonegreaterasyet,Elfrideroderapidlyonwards,atearbeingoccasionallyshakenfromhereyesintotheroad。Whatyesterdayhadseemedsodesirable,sopromising,eventrifling,hadnowacquiredthecomplexionofatragedy。 ShesawtherocksandseaintheneighbourhoodofEndelstow,andheavedasighofreliefWhenshepassedafieldbehindthevicaragesheheardthevoicesofUnityandWilliamWorm。Theywerehangingacarpetuponaline。Unitywasutteringasentencethatconcludedwith\'whenMissElfridecomes。\' \'Whend\'yeexpecther?\' \'Nottilleveningnow。She\'ssafeenoughatMissBicknell\'s,blessye。\' Elfridewentroundtothedoor。Shedidnotknockorring;andseeingnobodytotakethehorse,Elfrideledherroundtotheyard,slippedoffthebridleandsaddle,drovehertowardsthepaddock,andturnedherin。ThenElfridecreptindoors,andlookedintoalltheground-floorrooms。Herfatherwasnotthere。 Onthemantelpieceofthedrawing-roomstoodaletteraddressedtoherinhishandwriting。Shetookitandreaditasshewentupstairstochangeherhabit。 STRATLEIGH,Thursday。 \'DEARELFRIDE,——OnsecondthoughtsIwillnotreturnto-day,butonlycomeasfarasWadcombe。Ishallbeathomebyto-morrowafternoon,andbringafriendwithme——Yours,inhaste,C。S。\' Aftermakingaquicktoiletshefeltmorerevived,thoughstillsufferingfromaheadache。OngoingoutofthedoorshemetUnityatthetopofthestair。 \'OMissElfride!Isaidtomyself\'tishersperrit!Wedidn\'tdreamo\'younotcominghomelastnight。Youdidn\'tsayanythingaboutstaying。\' \'Iintendedtocomehomethesameevening,butalteredmyplan。I wishedIhadn\'tafterwards。Papawillbeangry,Isuppose?\' \'Betternottellhim,miss,\'saidUnity。 \'Idofearto,\'shemurmured。\'Unity,wouldyoujustbegintellinghimwhenhecomeshome?\'