ThreehoursandahalfofstraininguphillsandjoggingdownbroughtthemtoSt。Launce\'s,themarkettownandrailwaystationnearesttoEndelstow,andtheplacefromwhichStephenSmithhadjourneyedoverthedownsonthe,tohim,memorablewintereveningatthebeginningofthesameyear。Thecarrier\'svanwassotimedastomeetastartingup-train,whichStephenentered。Twoorthreehours\'railwaytravelthroughverticalcuttingsinmetamorphicrock,throughoakcopsesrichandgreen,stretchingoverslopesanddowndelightfulvalleys,glens,andravines,sparklingwithwaterlikemany-rilledIda,andheplungedamidthehundredandfiftythousandpeoplecomposingthetownofPlymouth。
Therebeingsometimeuponhishandshelefthisluggageatthecloak-room,andwentonfootalongBedfordStreettothenearestchurch。HereStephenwanderedamongthemultifarioustombstonesandlookedinatthechancelwindow,dreamingofsomethingthatwaslikelytohappenbythealtarthereinthecourseofthecomingmonth。HeturnedawayandascendedtheHoe,viewedthemagnificentstretchofseaandmassivepromontoriesofland,butwithoutparticularlydiscerningonefeatureofthevariedperspective。Hestillsawthatinnerprospect——theeventhehopedforinyonderchurch。ThewideSound,theBreakwater,thelight-
houseonfar-offEddystone,thedarksteamvessels,brigs,barques,andschooners,eitherfloatingstilly,orglidingwithtiniestmotion,wereasthedream,then;thedreamed-ofeventwasasthereality。
SoonStephenwentdownfromtheHoe,andreturnedtotherailwaystation。Hetookhisticket,andenteredtheLondontrain。
ThatdaywasanirksometimeatEndelstowvicarage。NeitherfathernordaughteralludedtothedepartureofStephen。Mr。
Swancourt\'smannertowardsherpartookofthecompunctiouskindnessthatarisesfromamisgivingastothejusticeofsomepreviousact。
Eitherfromlackofthecapacitytograspthewholecoupd\'oeil,orfromanaturalendowmentforcertainkindsofstoicism,womenarecoolerthanmenincriticalsituationsofthepassiveform。
Probably,inElfride\'scaseatleast,itwasblindnesstothegreatercontingenciesofthefutureshewaspreparingforherself,whichenabledhertoaskherfatherinaquietvoiceifhecouldgiveheraholidaysoon,toridetoSt。Launce\'sandgoontoPlymouth。
Now,shehadonlyoncebeforegonealonetoPlymouth,andthatwasinconsequenceofsomeunavoidabledifficulty。Beingacountrygirl,andagood,nottosayawild,horsewoman,ithadbeenherdelighttocanter,withouttheghostofanattendant,overthefourteenorsixteenmilesofhardroadinterveningbetweentheirhomeandthestationatSt。Launce\'s,putupthehorse,andgoontheremainderofthedistancebytrain,returninginthesamemannerintheevening。Itwasthenresolvedthat,thoughshehadsuccessfullyaccomplishedthisjourneyonce,itwasnottoberepeatedwithoutsomeattendance。
ButElfridemustnotbeconfoundedwithordinaryyoungfeminineequestrians。Thecircumstancesofherlonelyandnarrowlifemadeitimperativethatintrottingabouttheneighbourhoodshemusttrotaloneorelsenotatall。Usagesoonrenderedthisperfectlynaturaltoherself。Herfather,whohadhadotherexperiences,didnotmuchliketheideaofaSwancourt,whosepedigreecouldbeasdistinctlytracedasathreadinaskeinofsilk,scamperingoverthehillslikeafarmer\'sdaughter,eventhoughhecouldhabituallyneglecther。Butwhatwithhisnotbeingabletoaffordheraregularattendant,andhisinveteratehabitoflettinganythingbetosavehimselftrouble,thecircumstancegrewcustomary。Andsotherearoseachronicnotioninthevillagers\'
mindsthatallladiesrodewithoutanattendant,likeMissSwancourt,exceptafewwhoweresometimesvisitingatLordLuxellian\'s。
\'Idon\'tlikeyourgoingtoPlymouthalone,particularlygoingtoSt。Launce\'sonhorseback。Whynotdrive,andtaketheman?\'
\'Itisnotnicetobesooverlooked。\'Worm\'scompanywouldnotseriouslyhaveinterferedwithherplans,butitwasherhumourtogowithouthim。
\'Whendoyouwanttogo?\'saidherfather。
Sheonlyanswered,\'Soon。\'
\'Iwillconsider,\'hesaid。
Onlyafewdayselapsedbeforesheaskedagain。AletterhadreachedherfromStephen。Ithadbeentimedtocomeonthatdaybyspecialarrangementbetweenthem。InithenamedtheearliestmorningonwhichhecouldmeetheratPlymouth。HerfatherhadbeenonajourneytoStratleigh,andreturnedinunusualbuoyancyofspirit。Itwasagoodopportunity;andsincethedismissalofStephenherfatherhadbeengenerallyinamoodtomakesmallconcessions,thathemightsteerclearoflargeonesconnectedwiththatoutcastloverofhers。
\'NextThursdayweekIamgoingfromhomeinadifferentdirection,\'saidherfather。\'Infact,Ishallleavehomethenightbefore。Youmightchoosethesameday,fortheywishtotakeupthecarpets,orsomesuchthing,Ithink。AsIsaid,I
don\'tlikeyoutobeseeninatownonhorsebackalone;butgoifyouwill。\'
Thursdayweek。HerfatherhadnamedtheverydaythatStephenalsohadnamedthatmorningastheearliestonwhichitwouldbeofanyusetomeether;thatwas,aboutfifteendaysfromthedayonwhichhehadleftEndelstow。Fifteendays——thatfragmentofdurationwhichhasacquiredsuchaninterestingindividualityfromitsconnectionwiththeEnglishmarriagelaw。
Sheinvoluntarilylookedatherfathersostrangely,thatonbecomingconsciousofthelookshepaledwithembarrassment。Herfather,too,lookedconfused。Whatwashethinkingof?
ThereseemedtobeaspecialfacilityofferedherbyapowerexternaltoherselfinthecircumstancethatMr。Swancourthadproposedtoleavehomethenightprevioustoherwished-forday。
Herfatherseldomtooklongjourneys;seldomsleptfromhomeexceptperhapsonthenightfollowingaremoteVisitation。Well,shewouldnotinquiretoocuriouslyintothereasonoftheopportunity,nordidhe,aswouldhavebeennatural,proceedtoexplainitofhisownaccord。Inmattersoffacttherehadhithertobeennoreservebetweenthem,thoughtheywerenotusuallyconfidentialinitsfullsense。ButthedivergenceoftheiremotionsonStephen\'saccounthadproducedanestrangementwhichjustatpresentwenteventotheextentofreticenceonthemostordinaryhouseholdtopics。
Elfridewasalmostunconsciouslyrelieved,persuadingherselfthatherfather\'sreserveonhisbusinessjustifiedherinsecrecyasregardedherown——asecrecywhichwasnecessarilyaforegonedecisionwithher。Soanxiousisayoungconsciencetodiscoverapalliative,thattheexpostfactonatureofareasonisofnoaccountinexcludingit。
Theinterveningfortnightwasspentbyhermostlyinwalkingbyherselfamongtheshrubsandtrees,indulgingsometimesinsanguineanticipations;more,farmorefrequently,inmisgivings。
Allherflowersseemeddullofhue;herpetsseemedtolookwistfullyintohereyes,asiftheynolongerstoodinthesamefriendlyrelationtoherasformerly。Sheworemelancholyjewellery,gazedatsunsets,andtalkedtooldmenandwomen。Itwasthefirsttimethatshehadhadaninnerandprivateworldapartfromthevisibleoneabouther。Shewishedthatherfather,insteadofneglectingherevenmorethanusual,wouldmakesomeadvance——justoneword;shewouldthentellall,andriskStephen\'sdispleasure。Thusbroughtroundtotheyouthagain,shesawhiminherfancy,standing,touchingher,hiseyesfullofsadaffection,hopelesslyrenouncinghisattemptbecauseshehadrenouncedhers;andshecouldnotrecede。
OntheWednesdayshewastoreceiveanotherletter。Shehadresolvedtoletherfatherseethearrivalofthisone,betheconsequenceswhattheymight:thedreadoflosingherloverbythisdeedofhonestypreventedheractingupontheresolve。Fiveminutesbeforethepostman\'sexpectedarrivalsheslippedout,anddownthelanetomeethim。Shemethimimmediatelyuponturningasharpangle,whichhidherfromviewinthedirectionofthevicarage。Themansmilinglyhandedonemissive,andwasgoingontohandanother,acircularfromsometradesman。
\'No,\'shesaid;\'takethatontothehouse。\'
\'Why,miss,youaredoingwhatyourfatherhasdoneforthelastfortnight。\'
Shedidnotcomprehend。
\'Why,cometothiscorner,andtakealetterofmeeverymorning,allwritinthesamehandwriting,andlettinganyothersforhimgoontothehouse。\'Andonthepostmanwent。
Nosoonerhadheturnedthecornerbehindherbackthansheheardherfathermeetandaddresstheman。Shehadsavedherletterbytwominutes。Herfatheraudiblywentthroughpreciselythesameperformanceasshehadjustbeenguiltyofherself。
Thisstealthyconductofhiswas,tosaytheleast,peculiar。
Givenanimpulsiveinconsequentgirl,neglectedastoherinnerlifebyheronlyparent,andthefollowingforcesalivewithinher;todeterminearesultant:
Firstloveacteduponbyadeadlyfearofseparationfromitsobject:inexperience,guidingonwardafranticwishtopreventtheabove-namedissue:misgivingsastopropriety,metbyhopeofultimateexoneration:indignationatparentalinconsistencyinfirstencouraging,thenforbidding:achillingsenseofdisobedience,overpoweredbyaconscientiousinabilitytobrookabreakingofplightedfaithwithamanwho,inessentials,hadremainedunalteredfromthebeginning:ablessedhopethatoppositionwouldturnanerroneousjudgement:abrightfaiththatthingswouldmendthereby,andwindupwell。
Probablytheresultwould,afterall,havebeennil,hadnotthefollowingfewremarksbeenmadeonedayatbreakfast。
Herfatherwasinhisoldheartyspirits。Hesmiledtohimselfatstoriestoobadtotell,andcalledElfridealittlescampforsurreptitiouslypreservingsomeblindkittensthatoughttohavebeendrowned。Afterthisexpression,shesaidtohimsuddenly:
IfMr。Smithhadbeenalreadyinthefamily,youwouldnothavebeenmadewretchedbydiscoveringhehadpoorrelations?\'
\'Doyoumeaninthefamilybymarriage?\'herepliedinattentively,andcontinuingtopeelhisegg。
Theaccumulatingscarlettoldthatwashermeaning,asmuchastheaffirmativereply。
\'Ishouldhaveputupwithit,nodoubt,\'Mr。Swancourtobserved。
\'Sothatyouwouldnothavebeendrivenintohopelessmelancholy,buthavemadethebestofhim?\'
Elfride\'serraticmindhadfromheryouthupwardsbeenconstantlyinthehabitofperplexingherfatherbyhypotheticalquestions,basedonabsurdconditions。Thepresentseemedtobecastsopreciselyinthemouldofpreviousonesthat,notbeinggiventosynthesesofcircumstances,heanswereditwithcustomarycomplacency。
\'Ifhewerealliedtousirretrievably,ofcourseI,oranysensibleman,shouldacceptconditionsthatcouldnotbealtered;
certainlynotbehopelesslymelancholyaboutit。Idon\'tbelieveanythingintheworldwouldmakemehopelesslymelancholy。Anddon\'tletanythingmakeyouso,either。\'
\'Iwon\'t,papa,\'shecried,withaserenebrightnessthatpleasedhim。
CertainlyMr。Swancourtmusthavebeenfarfromthinkingthatthebrightnesscamefromanexhilaratingintentiontoholdbacknolongerfromthemadactionshehadplanned。
IntheeveninghedroveawaytowardsStratleigh,quitealone。Itwasanunusualcourseforhim。AtthedoorElfridehadbeenagainalmostimpelledbyherfeelingstopouroutall。
\'WhyareyougoingtoStratleigh,papa?\'shesaid,andlookedathimlongingly。
\'Iwilltellyouto-morrowwhenIcomeback,\'hesaidcheerily;
\'notbeforethen,Elfride。Thouwiltnotutterwhatthoudostnotknow,andsofarwillItrustthee,gentleElfride。\'
Shewasrepressedandhurt。
\'IwilltellyoumyerrandtoPlymouth,too,whenIcomeback,\'
shemurmured。
Hewentaway。Hisjocularitymadeherintentionseemthelighter,ashisindifferencemadehermoreresolvedtodoassheliked。
ItwasafamiliarSeptembersunset,dark-bluefragmentsofclouduponanorange-yellowsky。Thesesunsetsusedtotempthertowalktowardsthem,asanybeautifulthingtemptsanearapproach。
Shewentthroughthefieldtotheprivethedge,clamberedintothemiddleofit,andreclineduponthethickboughs。Afterlookingwestwardforaconsiderabletime,sheblamedherselffornotlookingeastwardtowhereStephenwas,andturnedround。
Ultimatelyhereyesfellupontheground。
Apeculiaritywasobservablebeneathher。Agreenfieldspreaditselfoneachsideofthehedge,onebelongingtotheglebe,theotherbeingapartofthelandattachedtothemanor-houseadjoining。Onthevicaragesideshesawalittlefootpath,thedistinctiveandaltogetherexceptionalfeatureofwhichconsistedinitsbeingonlyabouttenyardslong;itterminatedabruptlyateachend。
Afootpath,suddenlybeginningandsuddenlyending,comingfromnowhereandleadingnowhere,shehadneverseenbefore。
Yes,shehad,onsecondthoughts。Shehadseenexactlysuchapathtroddeninthefrontofbarracksbythesentry。
Andthisrecollectionexplainedtheoriginofthepathhere。Herfatherhadtroddenitbypacingupanddown,asshehadonceseenhimdoing。
Sittingonthehedgeasshesatnow,hereyescommandedaviewofbothsidesofit。Andafewminuteslater,Elfridelookedovertothemanorside。
Herewasanothersentrypath。Itwaslikethefirstinlength,anditbeganandendedexactlyoppositethebeginningandendingofitsneighbour,butitwasthinner,andlessdistinct。
Tworeasonsexistedforthedifference。Thisonemighthavebeentroddenbyasimilarweightoftreadtotheother,exercisedalessnumberoftimes;oritmighthavebeenwalkedjustasfrequently,butbylighterfeet。
ProbablyagentlemanfromScotland-yard,hadhebeenpassingatthetime,mighthaveconsideredthelatteralternativeasthemoreprobable。Elfridethoughtotherwise,sofarasshethoughtatall。ButherowngreatTo-Morrowwasnowimminent;allthoughtsinspiredbycasualsightsoftheeyewereonlyallowedtoexercisethemselvesininferiorcornersofherbrain,previouslytobeingbanishedaltogether。
Elfridewasatlengthcompelledtoreasonpracticallyuponherundertaking。Allherdefiniteperceptionsthereon,whentheemotionaccompanyingthemwasabstracted,amountedtonomorethanthese:
\'Sayanhourandthree-quarterstoridetoSt。Launce\'s。
\'SayhalfanhourattheFalcontochangemydress。
\'SaytwohourswaitingforsometrainandgettingtoPlymouth。
\'Sayanhourtosparebeforetwelveo\'clock。
\'TotaltimefromleavingEndelstowtilltwelveo\'clock,fivehours。
\'ThereforeIshallhavetostartatseven。\'
Nosurpriseorsenseofunwontednessenteredthemindsoftheservantsatherearlyride。Themonotonyoflifeweassociatewithpeopleofsmallincomesindistrictsoutofthesoundoftherailwaywhistle,hasoneexception,whichputsintoshadetheexperienceofdwellersaboutthegreatcentresofpopulation——thatis,intravelling。Everyjourneythereismoreorlessanadventure;adventuroushoursarenecessarilychosenforthemostcommonplaceouting。MissElfridehadtoleaveearly——thatwasall。
Elfrideneverwentoutonhorsebackbutshebroughthomesomething——somethingfound,orsomethingbought。Ifshetrottedtotownorvillage,herburdenwasbooks。Iftohills,woods,ortheseashore,itwaswonderfulmosses,abnormaltwigs,ahandkerchiefofwetshellsorseaweed。
Once,inmuddyweather,whenPansywaswalkingwithherdownthestreetofCastleBoterel,onafair-day,apacketinfrontofherandapacketunderherarm,anaccidentbefellthepackets,andtheyslippeddown。Ononesideofher,threevolumesoffictionlaykissingthemud;ontheothernumerousskeinsofpolychromaticwoolslayabsorbingit。Unpleasantwomensmiledthroughwindowsatthemishap,themenalllookedround,andaboy,whowasmindingaginger-breadstallwhilsttheownerhadgonetogetdrunk,laughedloudly。Theblueeyesturnedtosapphires,andthecheekscrimsonedwithvexation。
Afterthatmisadventureshesetherwitstowork,andwasingeniousenoughtoinventanarrangementofsmallstrapsaboutthesaddle,bywhichagreatdealcouldbesafelycarriedthereon,inasmallcompass。Hereshenowspreadoutandfastenedaplaindarkwalking-dressandafewothertriflesofapparel。Wormopenedthegateforher,andshevanishedaway。
Oneofthebrightestmorningsoflatesummershoneuponher。Theheatherwasatitspurplest,thefurzeatitsyellowest,thegrasshopperschirpedloudenoughforbirds,thesnakeshissedlikelittleengines,andElfrideatfirstfeltlively。SittingateaseuponPansy,inherorthodoxriding-habitandnondescripthat,shelookedwhatshefelt。Butthemercuryofthosedayshadatrickoffallingunexpectedly。First,onlyforoneminuteintenhadsheasenseofdepression。Thenalargecloud,thathadbeenhanginginthenorthlikeablackfleece,cameandplaceditselfbetweenherandthesun。Ithelpedonwhatwasalreadyinevitable,andshesankintoauniformityofsadness。
Sheturnedinthesaddleandlookedback。Theywerenowonanopentable-land,whosealtitudestillgaveheraviewoftheseabyEndelstow。Shelookedlonginglyatthatspot。
DuringthislittlerevulsionoffeelingPansyhadbeenstilladvancing,andElfridefeltitwouldbeabsurdtoturnherlittlemare\'sheadtheotherway。\'Still,\'shethought,\'ifIhadamammaathomeIWOULDgoback!\'
Andmakingoneofthosestealthymovementsbywhichwomenlettheirheartsjugglewiththeirbrains,shedidputthehorse\'sheadabout,asifunconsciously,andwentatahand-galloptowardshomeformorethanamile。Bythistime,fromtheinveteratehabitofvaluingwhatwehaverenounceddirectlythealternativeischosen,thethoughtofherforsakenStephenrecalledher,andsheturnedabout,andcanteredontoSt。Launce\'sagain。
Thismiserablestrifeofthoughtnowbegantorageinallitswildness。Overwroughtandtrembling,shedroppedthereinuponPansy\'sshoulders,andvowedshewouldbeledwhitherthehorsewouldtakeher。
Pansyslackenedherpacetoawalk,andwalkedonwithheragitatedburdenforthreeorfourminutes。Attheexpirationofthistimetheyhadcometoalittleby-wayontheright,leadingdownaslopetoapoolofwater。Theponystopped,lookedtowardsthepool,andthenadvancedandstoopedtodrink。
ElfridelookedatherwatchanddiscoveredthatifsheweregoingtoreachSt。Launce\'searlyenoughtochangeherdressattheFalcon,andgetachanceofsomeearlytraintoPlymouth——therewereonlytwoavailable——itwasnecessarytoproceedatonce。
Shewasimpatient。ItseemedasifPansywouldneverstopdrinking;andthereposeofthepool,theidlemotionsoftheinsectsandfliesuponit,theplacidwavingoftheflags,theleaf-skeletons,likeGenoesefiligree,placidlysleepingatthebottom,bytheircontrastwithherownturmoilmadeherimpatiencegreater。
Pansydidturnatlast,andwentuptheslopeagaintothehigh-
road。Theponycameuponit,andstoodcross-wise,lookingupanddown。Elfride\'sheartthrobbederratically,andshethought,\'Horses,iflefttothemselves,makeforwheretheyarebestfed。
Pansywillgohome。\'
PansyturnedandwalkedontowardsSt。Launce\'sPansyathome,duringsummer,hadlittlebutgrasstoliveon。
AfteraruntoSt。Launce\'sshealwayshadafeedofcorntosupportheronthereturnjourney。Therefore,beingnowmorethanhalfway,shepreferredSt。Launce\'s。
ButElfridedidnotrememberthisnow。Allshecaredtorecognizewasadreamyfancythatto-day\'srashactionwasnotherown。Shewasdisabledbyhermoods,anditseemedindispensabletoadheretotheprogramme。Sostrangelyinvolvedaremotivesthat,morethanbyherpromisetoStephen,moreeventhanbyherlove,shewasforcedonbyasenseofthenecessityofkeepingfaithwithherself,aspromisedintheinanevowoftenminutesago。
Shehesitatednolonger。Pansywent,likethesteedofAdonis,asifshetoldthesteps。PresentlythequaintgablesandjumbledroofsofSt。Launce\'swerespreadbeneathher,andgoingdownthehillsheenteredthecourtyardoftheFalcon。Mrs。Buckle,thelandlady,cametothedoortomeether。
TheSwancourtswerewellknownhere。Thetransitionfromequestriantotheordinaryguiseofrailwaytravellershadbeenmorethanonceperformedbyfatheranddaughterinthisestablishment。
InlessthanaquarterofanhourElfrideemergedfromthedoorinherwalkingdress,andwenttotherailway。ShehadnottoldMrs。
Buckleanythingastoherintentions,andwassupposedtohavegoneoutshopping。
Anhourandfortyminuteslater,andshewasinStephen\'sarmsatthePlymouthstation。Notupontheplatform——inthesecretretreatofadesertedwaiting-room。
Stephen\'sfacebodedill。Hewaspaleanddespondent。
Whatisthematter?\'sheasked。
\'Wecannotbemarriedhereto-day,myElfie!Ioughttohaveknownitandstayedhere。InmyignoranceIdidnot。Ihavethelicence,butitcanonlybeusedinmyparishinLondon。Ionlycamedownlastnight,asyouknow。\'
\'Whatshallwedo?\'shesaidblankly。
\'There\'sonlyonethingwecando,darling。\'
\'What\'sthat?\'
\'GoontoLondonbyatrainjuststarting,andbemarriedthereto-morrow。\'
\'Passengersforthe11。5up-traintaketheirseats!\'saidaguard\'svoiceontheplatform。
\'Willyougo,Elfride?\'
\'Iwill。\'
Inthreeminutesthetrainhadmovedoff,bearingawaywithitStephenandElfride。
ChapterXII
\'Adieu!shecries,andwavedherlilyhand。\'
Thefewtatteredcloudsofthemorningenlargedandunited,thesunwithdrewbehindthemtoemergenomorethatday,andtheeveningdrewtoacloseindriftsofrain。Thewater-dropsbeatlikeduckshotagainstthewindowoftherailway-carriagecontainingStephenandElfride。
ThejourneyfromPlymouthtoPaddington,byeventhemostheadlongexpress,allowsquiteenoughleisureforpassionofanysorttocool。Elfride\'sexcitementhadpassedoff,andshesatinakindofstuporduringthelatterhalfofthejourney。Shewasarousedbytheclangingofthemazeofrailsoverwhichtheytracedtheirwayattheentrancetothestation。
IsthisLondon?\'shesaid。
\'Yes,darling,\'saidStepheninatoneofassurancehewasfarfromfeeling。Tohim,nolessthantoher,therealitysogreatlydifferedfromtheprefiguring。
Shepeeredoutaswellasthewindow,beadedwithdrops,wouldallowher,andsawonlythelamps,whichhadjustbeenlit,blinkinginthewetatmosphere,androwsofhideouszincchimney-
pipesindimreliefagainstthesky。Shewritheduneasily,aswhenathoughtisswellinginthemindwhichmustcausemuchpainatitsdeliveranceinwords。Elfridehadknownnomoreaboutthestingsofevilreportthanthenativewild-fowlknewoftheeffectsofCrusoe\'sfirstshot。Nowshesawalittlefurther,andalittlefurtherstill。
Thetrainstopped。Stephenrelinquishedthesofthandhehadheldalltheday,andproceededtoassistherontotheplatform。
Thisactofalightinguponstrangegroundseemedallthatwaswantedtocompletearesolutionwithinher。
Shelookedatherbetrothedwithdespairingeyes。
\'OStephen,\'sheexclaimed,\'Iamsomiserable!Imustgohomeagain——Imust——Imust!Forgivemywretchedvacillation。Idon\'tlikeithere——normyself——noryou!\'
Stephenlookedbewildered,anddidnotspeak。
\'Willyouallowmetogohome?\'sheimplored。\'Iwon\'ttroubleyoutogowithme。Iwillnotbeanyweightuponyou;onlysayyouwillagreetomyreturning;thatyouwillnothatemeforit,Stephen!ItisbetterthatIshouldreturnagain;indeeditis,Stephen。\'
\'Butwecan\'treturnnow,\'hesaidinadeprecatorytone。
\'Imust!Iwill!\'
\'How?Whendoyouwanttogo?\'
\'Now。Canwegoatonce?\'
Theladlookedhopelesslyalongtheplatform。
\'Ifyoumustgo,andthinkitwrongtoremain,dearest,\'saidhesadly,\'youshall。Youshalldowhateveryoulike,myElfride。
Butwouldyouinrealityrathergonowthanstaytillto-morrow,andgoasmywife?\'
\'Yes,yes——much——anythingtogonow。Imust;Imust!\'shecried。
\'Weoughttohavedoneoneoftwothings,\'heansweredgloomily。
\'Nevertohavestarted,ornottohavereturnedwithoutbeingmarried。Idon\'tliketosayit,Elfride——indeedIdon\'t;butyoumustbetoldthis,thatgoingbackunmarriedmaycompromiseyourgoodnameintheeyesofpeoplewhomayhearofit。\'
\'Theywillnot;andImustgo。\'
\'OElfride!Iamtoblameforbringingyouaway。\'
\'Notatall。Iamtheelder。\'
\'Byamonth;andwhat\'sthat?Butnevermindthatnow。\'Helookedaround。\'IsthereatrainforPlymouthto-night?\'heinquiredofaguard。Theguardpassedonanddidnotspeak。
\'IsthereatrainforPlymouthto-night?\'saidElfridetoanother。
\'Yes,miss;the8。10——leavesintenminutes。Youhavecometothewrongplatform;itistheotherside。ChangeatBristolintothenightmail。Downthatstaircase,andundertheline。\'
Theyrandownthestaircase——Elfridefirst——tothebooking-office,andintoacarriagewithanofficialstandingbesidethedoor。
\'Showyourtickets,please。\'Theyarelockedin——menabouttheplatformacceleratetheirvelocitiestilltheyflyupanddownlikeshuttlesinaloom——awhistle——thewavingofaflag——ahumancry——asteamgroan——andawaytheygotoPlymouthagain,justcatchingthesewordsastheyglideoff:
\'Thosetwoyoungstershadanearrunforit,andnomistake!\'
Elfridefoundherbreath。
\'Andhaveyoucometoo,Stephen?Whydidyou?\'
\'IshallnotleaveyoutillIseeyousafeatSt。Launce\'s。DonotthinkworseofmethanIam,Elfride。\'
Andthentheyrattledalongthroughthenight,backagainbythewaytheyhadcome。Theweathercleared,andthestarsshoneinuponthem。Theirtwoorthreefellow-passengerssatformostofthetimewithclosedeyes。Stephensometimesslept;Elfridealonewaswakefulandpalpitatinghourafterhour。
Thedaybegantobreak,andrevealedthattheywerebythesea。
Redrocksoverhungthem,and,recedingintodistance,grewlividinthebluegreyatmosphere。Thesunrose,andsentpenetratingshaftsoflightinupontheirwearyfaces。Anotherhour,andtheworldbegantobebusy。Theywaitedyetalittle,andthetrainslackeneditsspeedinviewoftheplatformatSt。Launce\'s。
Sheshivered,andmusedsadly。
\'Ididnotseealltheconsequences,\'shesaid。\'Appearancesarewofullyagainstme。Ifanybodyfindsmeout,Iam,Isuppose,disgraced。\'
\'Thenappearanceswillspeakfalsely;andhowcanthatmatter,eveniftheydo?Ishallbeyourhusbandsoonerorlater,forcertain,andsoproveyourpurity。\'
\'Stephen,onceinLondonIoughttohavemarriedyou,\'shesaidfirmly。\'Itwasmyonlysafedefence。IseemorethingsnowthanIdidyesterday。Myonlyremainingchanceisnottobediscovered;andthatwemustfightformostdesperately。\'
Theysteppedout。Elfridepulledathickveiloverherface。
Awomanwithredandscalyeyelidsandglisteningeyeswassittingonabenchjustinsidetheoffice-door。ShefixedhereyesuponElfridewithanexpressionwhoseforceitwasimpossibletodoubt,butthemeaningofwhichwasnotclear;thenuponthecarriagetheyhadleft。Sheseemedtoreadasinisterstoryinthescene。
Elfrideshrankback,andturnedtheotherway。
\'Whoisthatwoman?\'saidStephen。\'Shelookedhardatyou。\'
\'Mrs。Jethway——awidow,andmotherofthatyoungmanwhosetombwesatontheothernight。Stephen,sheismyenemy。WouldthatGodhadhadmercyenoughuponmetohavehiddenthisfromHER!\'
\'Donottalksohopelessly,\'heremonstrated。\'Idon\'tthinksherecognizedus。\'
\'Ipraythatshedidnot。\'
Heputonamorevigorousmood。
\'Now,wewillgoandgetsomebreakfast。\'
\'No,no!\'shebegged。\'Icannoteat。IMUSTgetbacktoEndelstow。\'
ElfridewasasifshehadgrownyearsolderthanStephennow。
\'ButyouhavehadnothingsincelastnightbutthatcupofteaatBristol。\'
\'Ican\'teat,Stephen。\'
\'Wineandbiscuit?\'
\'No。\'
\'Nortea,norcoffee?\'
\'No。\'
\'Aglassofwater?\'
\'No。Iwantsomethingthatmakespeoplestrongandenergeticforthepresent,thatborrowsthestrengthofto-morrowforuseto-
day——leavingto-morrowwithoutanyatallforthatmatter;oreventhatwouldtakealllifeawayto-morrow,solongasitenabledmetogethomeagainnow。Brandy,that\'swhatIwant。Thatwoman\'seyeshaveeatenmyheartaway!\'
\'Youarewild;andyougrieveme,darling。Mustitbebrandy?\'
\'Yes,ifyouplease。\'
\'Howmuch?\'
\'Idon\'tknow。Ihaveneverdrunkmorethanateaspoonfulatonce。AllIknowisthatIwantit。Don\'tgetitattheFalcon。\'
Heleftherinthefields,andwenttothenearestinninthatdirection。Presentlyhereturnedwithasmallflasknearlyfull,andsomeslicesofbread-and-butter,thinaswafers,inapaper-
bag。Elfridetookasiportwo。
\'Itgoesintomyeyes,\'shesaidwearily。\'Ican\'ttakeanymore。
Yes,Iwill;Iwillclosemyeyes。Ah,itgoestothembyaninsideroute。Idon\'twantit;throwitaway。\'
However,shecouldeat,anddideat。HerchiefattentionwasconcentrateduponhowtogetthehorsefromtheFalconstableswithoutsuspicion。Stephenwasnotallowedtoaccompanyherintothetown。Sheactednowuponconclusionsreachedwithoutanyaidfromhim:hispoweroverherseemedtohavedeparted。
\'Youhadbetternotbeseenwithme,evenherewhereIamsolittleknown。Wehavebegunstealthilyasthieves,andwemustendstealthilyasthieves,atallhazards。Untilpapahasbeentoldbymemyself,adiscoverywouldbeterrible。\'
Walkingandgloomilytalkingthustheywaitedtillnearlynineo\'clock,atwhichtimeElfridethoughtshemightcallattheFalconwithoutcreatingmuchsurprise。Behindtherailway-stationwastheriver,spannedbyanoldTudorbridge,whencetheroaddivergedintwodirections,oneskirtingthesuburbsofthetown,andwindingroundagainintothehigh-roadtoEndelstow。BesidethisroadStephensat,andawaitedherreturnfromtheFalcon。
Hesatasonesittingforaportrait,motionless,watchingthechequeredlightsandshadesonthetree-trunks,thechildrenplayingoppositetheschoolprevioustoenteringforthemorninglesson,thereapersinafieldafaroff。Thecertaintyofpossessionhadnotcome,andtherewasnothingtomitigatetheyouth\'sgloom,thatincreasedwiththethoughtofthepartingnowsonear。
Atlengthshecametrottingroundtohim,inappearancemuchasontheromanticmorningoftheirvisittothecliff,butshornoftheradiancewhichglistenedaboutherthen。However,hercomparativeimmunityfromfurtherriskandtroublehadconsiderablycomposedher。Elfride\'scapacityforbeingwoundedwasonlysurpassedbyhercapacityforhealing,whichrightlyorwronglyisbysomeconsideredanindexoftransientnessoffeelingingeneral。
\'Elfride,whatdidtheysayattheFalcon?\'
\'Nothing。Nobodyseemedcuriousaboutme。TheyknewIwenttoPlymouth,andIhavestayedthereanightnowandthenwithMissBicknell。Irathercalculateduponthat。\'
Andnowpartingaroselikeadeathtothesechildren,foritwasimperativethatsheshouldstartatonce。Stephenwalkedbesideherfornearlyamile。Duringthewalkhesaidsadly:
\'Elfride,four-and-twentyhourshavepassed,andthethingisnotdone。\'
\'Butyouhaveinsuredthatitshallbedone。\'
\'HowhaveI?\'
\'OStephen,youaskhow!DoyouthinkIcouldmarryanothermanonearthafterhavinggonethusfarwithyou?HaveInotshownbeyondpossibilityofdoubtthatIcanbenobodyelse\'s?HaveInotirretrievablycommittedmyself?——pridehasstoodfornothinginthefaceofmygreatlove。Youmisunderstoodmyturningback,andIcannotexplainit。Itwaswrongtogowithyouatall;andthoughitwouldhavebeenworsetogofurther,itwouldhavebeenbetterpolicy,perhaps。Beassuredofthis,thatwheneveryouhaveahomeforme——howeverpoorandhumble——andcomeandclaimme,Iamready。\'Sheaddedbitterly,\'Whenmyfatherknowsofthisday\'swork,hemaybeonlytoogladtoletmego。\'
\'Perhapshemay,then,insistuponourmarriageatonce!\'Stephenanswered,seeingarayofhopeintheveryfocusofherremorse。
\'Ihopehemay,evenifwehadstilltoparttillIamreadyforyou,asweintended。\'
Elfridedidnotreply。
\'Youdon\'tseemthesamewoman,Elfie,thatyouwereyesterday。\'
\'NoramI。Butgood-bye。Gobacknow。\'Andshereinedthehorseforparting。\'OStephen,\'shecried,\'Ifeelsoweak!Idon\'tknowhowtomeethim。Cannotyou,afterall,comebackwithme?\'
\'ShallIcome?\'
Elfridepausedtothink。
\'No;itwillnotdo。Itismyutterfoolishnessthatmakesmesaysuchwords。Buthewillsendforyou。\'
\'Saytohim,\'continuedStephen,\'thatwedidthisintheabsolutedespairofourminds。Tellhimwedon\'twishhimtofavourus——
onlytodealjustlywithus。Ifhesays,marrynow,somuchthebetter。Ifnot,saythatallmaybeputrightbyhispromisetoallowmetohaveyouwhenIamgoodenoughforyou——whichmaybesoon。SayIhavenothingtoofferhiminexchangeforhistreasure——themoresorryI;butallthelove,andallthelife,andallthelabourofanhonestmanshallbeyours。Astowhenthishadbetterbetold,Ileaveyoutojudge。\'
Hiswordsmadehercheerfulenoughtotoywithherposition。
\'Andifillreportshouldcome,Stephen,\'shesaidsmiling,\'why,theorange-treemustsaveme,asitsavedvirginsinSt。George\'stimefromthepoisonousbreathofthedragon。There,forgivemeforforwardness:Iamgoing。\'
Thentheboyandgirlbeguiledthemselveswithwordsofhalf-
partingonly。
\'Ownwifie,Godblessyoutillwemeetagain!\'
\'Tillwemeetagain,good-bye!\'
Andtheponywenton,andshespoketohimnomore。Hesawherfigurediminishandherblueveilgrowgray——sawitwiththeagonizingsensationsofaslowdeath。
Afterthuspartingfromamanthanwhomshehadknownnonegreaterasyet,Elfrideroderapidlyonwards,atearbeingoccasionallyshakenfromhereyesintotheroad。Whatyesterdayhadseemedsodesirable,sopromising,eventrifling,hadnowacquiredthecomplexionofatragedy。
ShesawtherocksandseaintheneighbourhoodofEndelstow,andheavedasighofreliefWhenshepassedafieldbehindthevicaragesheheardthevoicesofUnityandWilliamWorm。Theywerehangingacarpetuponaline。Unitywasutteringasentencethatconcludedwith\'whenMissElfridecomes。\'
\'Whend\'yeexpecther?\'
\'Nottilleveningnow。She\'ssafeenoughatMissBicknell\'s,blessye。\'
Elfridewentroundtothedoor。Shedidnotknockorring;andseeingnobodytotakethehorse,Elfrideledherroundtotheyard,slippedoffthebridleandsaddle,drovehertowardsthepaddock,andturnedherin。ThenElfridecreptindoors,andlookedintoalltheground-floorrooms。Herfatherwasnotthere。
Onthemantelpieceofthedrawing-roomstoodaletteraddressedtoherinhishandwriting。Shetookitandreaditasshewentupstairstochangeherhabit。
STRATLEIGH,Thursday。
\'DEARELFRIDE,——OnsecondthoughtsIwillnotreturnto-day,butonlycomeasfarasWadcombe。Ishallbeathomebyto-morrowafternoon,andbringafriendwithme——Yours,inhaste,C。S。\'
Aftermakingaquicktoiletshefeltmorerevived,thoughstillsufferingfromaheadache。OngoingoutofthedoorshemetUnityatthetopofthestair。
\'OMissElfride!Isaidtomyself\'tishersperrit!Wedidn\'tdreamo\'younotcominghomelastnight。Youdidn\'tsayanythingaboutstaying。\'
\'Iintendedtocomehomethesameevening,butalteredmyplan。I
wishedIhadn\'tafterwards。Papawillbeangry,Isuppose?\'
\'Betternottellhim,miss,\'saidUnity。
\'Idofearto,\'shemurmured。\'Unity,wouldyoujustbegintellinghimwhenhecomeshome?\'