第16章

类别:其他 作者:Thomas Hardy字数:5629更新时间:18/12/13 16:52:01
Shewaschildishlyfulloflifeandspirits,thoughinwalkingupanddownwithhimbeforetheotherpassengers,andgettingnoticedbythem,shewasatstartingratherconfused,itbeingthefirsttimeshehadshownherselfsoopenlyunderthatkindofprotection。\'Iexpecttheyareenviousandsayingthingsaboutus,don\'tyou?\'shewouldwhispertoKnightwithastealthysmile。 \'Ohno,\'hewouldanswerunconcernedly。\'Whyshouldtheyenvyus,andwhatcantheysay?\' \'Notanyharm,ofcourse,\'Elfridereplied,\'exceptsuchasthis: \"Howhappythosetwoare!sheisproudenoughnow。”Whatmakesitworse,\'shecontinuedintheextremityofconfidence,\'Iheardthosetwocricketingmensayjustnow,\"She\'sthenobbiestgirlontheboat。”ButIdon\'tmindit,youknow,Harry。\' \'Ishouldhardlyhavesupposedyoudid,evenifyouhadnottoldme,\'saidKnightwithgreatblandness。 Shewasnevertiredofaskingherloverquestionsandadmiringhisanswers,good,bad,orindifferentastheymightbe。Theeveninggrewdarkandnightcameon,andlightsshoneuponthemfromthehorizonandfromthesky。 \'Nowlookthereaheadofus,atthathalointheair,ofsilverybrightness。Watchit,andyouwillseewhatitcomesto。\' Shewatchedforafewminutes,whentwowhitelightsemergedfromthesideofahill,andshowedthemselvestobetheoriginofthehalo。 \'Whatadazzlingbrilliance!Whatdotheymark?\' \'TheSouthForeland:theywerepreviouslycoveredbythecliff。\' \'Whatisthatlevellineoflittlesparkles——atown,Isuppose?\' \'That\'sDover。\' Allthistime,andlater,softsheetlightningexpandedfromacloudintheirpath,enkindlingtheirfacesastheypacedupanddown,shiningoverthewater,and,foramoment,showingthehorizonasakeenline。 Elfridesleptsoundlythatnight。HerfirstthoughtthenextmorningwasthethrillingonethatKnightwasascloseathandaswhentheywereathomeatEndelstow,andherfirstsight,onlookingoutofthecabinwindow,wastheperpendicularfaceofBeachyHead,gleamingwhiteinabrilliantsix-o\'clock-in-the- morningsun。Thisfairdaybreak,however,soonchangeditsaspect。Acoldwindandapalemistdescendeduponthesea,andseemedtothreatenadrearyday。 WhentheywerenearingSouthampton,Mrs。Swancourtcametosaythatherhusbandwassoillthathewishedtobeputonshorehere,andlefttodotheremainderofthejourneybyland。\'Hewillbeperfectlywelldirectlyhetreadsfirmgroundagain。 Whichshallwedo——gowithhim,orfinishourvoyageasweintended?\' ElfridewascomfortablyhousedunderanumbrellawhichKnightwasholdingoverhertokeepoffthewind。\'Oh,don\'tletusgoonshore!\'shesaidwithdismay。\'Itwouldbesuchapity!\' \'That\'sveryfine,\'saidMrs。Swancourtarchly,astoachild。 \'See,thewindhasincreasedhercolour,theseaherappetiteandspirits,andsomebodyherhappiness。Yes,itwouldbeapity,certainly。\' \'\'Tismymisfortunetobealwaysspokentofromapedestal,\' sighedElfride。 \'Well,wewilldoasyoulike,Mrs。Swancourt,\'saidKnight,\'but——\' \'Imyselfwouldratherremainonboard,\'interruptedtheelderlady。\'AndMr。Swancourtparticularlywishestogobyhimself。 Sothatshallsettlethematter。\' Thevicar,nowadrabcolour,wasputashore,andbecameaswellaseverforthwith。 Elfride,sittingaloneinaretiredpartofthevessel,sawaveiledwomanwalkaboardamongtheverylatestarrivalsatthisport。Shewasclothedinblacksilk,andcarriedadarkshawluponherarm。Thewoman,withoutlookingaroundher,turnedtothequarterallottedtothesecond-cabinpassengers。AllthecarnationMrs。Swancourthadcomplimentedherstep-daughteruponpossessingleftElfride\'scheeks,andshetrembledvisibly。 Sherantotheothersideoftheboat,whereMrs。Swancourtwasstanding。 \'Letusgohomebyrailwaywithpapa,afterall,\'shepleadedearnestly。\'Iwouldrathergowithhim——shallwe?\' Mrs。Swancourtlookedaroundforamoment,asifunabletodecide。 \'Ah,\'sheexclaimed,\'itistoolatenow。Whydidnotyousaysobefore,whenwehadplentyoftime?\' TheJuliethadatthatminuteletgo,theengineshadstarted,andtheywereglidingslowlyawayfromthequay。Therewasnohelpforitbuttoremain,unlesstheJulietcouldbemadetoputback,andthatwouldcreateagreatdisturbance。Elfridegaveuptheideaandsubmittedquietly。Herhappinesswassadlymutilatednow。 ThewomanwhosepresencehadsodisturbedherwasexactlylikeMrs。Jethway。SheseemedtohauntElfridelikeashadow。Afterseveralminutes\'vainendeavourtoaccountforanydesignMrs。 Jethwaycouldhaveinwatchingher,Elfridedecidedtothinkthat,ifitwerethewidow,theencounterwasaccidental。SherememberedthatthewidowinherrestlessnesswasoftenvisitingthevillagenearSouthampton,whichwasheroriginalhome,anditwaspossiblethatshechosewater-transitwiththeideaofsavingexpense。 \'Whatisthematter,Elfride?\'Knightinquired,standingbeforeher。 \'NothingmorethanthatIamratherdepressed。\' \'Idon\'tmuchwonderatit;thatwharfwasdepressing。Weseemedunderneathandinferiortoeverythingaroundus。Butweshallbeintheseabreezeagainsoon,andthatwillfreshenyou,dear。\' TheeveningclosedinandduskincreasedastheymadewaydownSouthamptonWaterandthroughtheSolent。Elfride\'sdisturbanceofmindwassuchthatherlightspiritsoftheforegoingfourandtwentyhourshadentirelydesertedher。Theweathertoohadgrownmoregloomy,forthoughtheshowersofthemorninghadceased,theskywascoveredmorecloselythaneverwithdenseleadenclouds。 HowbeautifulwasthesunsetwhentheyroundedtheNorthForelandthepreviousevening!nowitwasimpossibletotellwithinhalfanhourthetimeoftheluminary\'sgoingdown。Knightledherabout,andbeingbythistimeaccustomedtohersuddenchangesofmood,overlookedthenecessityofacauseinregardingtheconditions—— impressionablenessandelasticity。 Elfridelookedstealthilytotheotherendofthevessel。Mrs。 Jethway,orherdouble,wassittingatthestern——hereyesteadilyregardingElfride。 \'Letusgototheforepart,\'shesaidquicklytoKnight。\'Seethere——themanisfixingthelightsforthenight。\' Knightassented,andafterwatchingtheoperationoffixingtheredandthegreenlightsontheportandstarboardbows,andthehoistingofthewhitelighttothemasthead,hewalkedupanddownwithhertilltheincreaseofwindrenderedpromenadingdifficult。 Elfride\'seyeswereoccasionallytobefoundfurtivelygazingabaft,tolearnifherenemywerereallythere。Nobodywasvisiblenow。 \'Shallwegobelow?\'saidKnight,seeingthatthedeckwasnearlydeserted。 \'No,\'shesaid。\'IfyouwillkindlygetmearugfromMrs。 Swancourt,Ishouldlike,ifyoudon\'tmind,tostayhere。\'ShehadrecentlyfanciedtheassumedMrs。Jethwaymightbeafirst- classpassenger,anddreadedmeetingherbyaccident。 Knightappearedwiththerug,andtheysatdownbehindaweather- clothonthewindwardside,justasthetworedeyesoftheNeedlesglareduponthemfromthegloom,theirpointedsummitsrisinglikeshadowyphantomfiguresagainstthesky。Itbecamenecessarytogobelowtoaneight-o\'clockmealofnondescriptkind,andElfridewasimmenselyrelievedatfindingnosignofMrs。Jethwaythere。Theyagainascended,andremainedabovetillMrs。SnewsonstaggereduptothemwiththemessagethatMrs。 SwancourtthoughtitwastimeforElfridetocomebelow。Knightaccompaniedherdown,andreturnedagaintopassalittlemoretimeondeck。 Elfridepartlyundressedherselfandlaydown,andsoonbecameunconscious,thoughhersleepwaslightHowlongshehadlain,sheknewnot,whenbyslowdegreesshebecamecognizantofawhisperinginherear。 \'Youarewellonwithhim,Icansee。Well,provokemenow,butmydaywillcome,youwillfind。\'Thatseemedtobetheutterance,orwordstothateffect。 Elfridebecamebroadawakeandterrified。Sheknewthewords,ifreal,couldbeonlythoseofoneperson,andthatpersonthewidowJethway。 Thelamphadgoneoutandtheplacewasindarkness。Inthenextberthshecouldhearherstepmotherbreathingheavily,furtheronSnewsonbreathingmoreheavilystill。Theseweretheonlyotherlegitimateoccupantsofthecabin,andMrs。Jethwaymusthavestealthilycomeinbysomemeansandretreatedagain,orelseshehadenteredanemptyberthnextSnewson\'s。ThefearthatthiswasthecaseincreasedElfride\'sperturbation,tillitassumedthedimensionsofacertainty,forhowcouldastrangerfromtheotherendoftheshippossiblycontrivetogetin?Couldithavebeenadream? Elfrideraisedherselfhigherandlookedoutofthewindow。Therewasthesea,flounderingandrushingagainsttheship\'ssidejustbyherhead,andthencestretchingaway,dimandmoaning,intoanexpanseofindistinctness;andfarbeyondallthistwoplacidlightslikeraylessstars。Nowalmostfearingtoturnherfaceinwardsagain,lestMrs。Jethwayshouldappearatherelbow,ElfridemeditateduponwhethertocallSnewsontokeephercompany。\'Fourbells\'sounded,andsheheardvoices,whichgaveheralittlecourage。ItwasnotworthwhiletocallSnewson。 AtanyrateElfridecouldnotstaytherepantinglonger,attheriskofbeingagaindisturbedbythatdreadfulwhispering。Sowrappingherselfuphurriedlysheemergedintothepassage,andbytheaidofafaintlightburningattheentrancetothesaloonfoundthefootofthestairs,andascendedtothedeck。Drearytheplacewasintheextreme。Itseemedanewspotaltogetherincontrastwithitsdaytimeself。Shecouldseetheglowwormlightfromthebinnacle,andthedimoutlineofthemanatthewheel; alsoaformatthebows。Notanothersoulwasapparentfromstemtostern。 Yes,thereweretwomore——bythebulwarks。OneprovedtobeherHarry,theotherthemate。Shewasgladindeed,andondrawingcloserfoundtheywereholdingalowslowchataboutnauticalaffairs。SheranupandslippedherhandthroughKnight\'sarm,partlyforlove,partlyforstability。 \'Elfie!notasleep?\'saidKnight,aftermovingafewstepsasidewithher。 \'No:Icannotsleep。MayIstayhere?Itissodismaldownthere,and——andIwasafraid。Wherearewenow?\' \'DuesouthofPortlandBill。Thosearethelightsabeamofus: look。Aterriblespot,that,onastormynight。Anddoyouseeaverysmalllightthatdipsandrisestotheright?That\'salight- shiponthedangerousshoalcalledtheShambles,wheremanyagoodvesselhasgonetopieces。BetweenitandourselvesistheRace—— aplacewhereantagonisticcurrentsmeetandformwhirlpools——aspotwhichisroughinthesmoothestweather,andterrificinawind。Thatdark,drearyhorizonwejustdiscerntotheleftistheWestBay,terminatedlandwardsbytheChesilBeach。\' \'Whattimeisit,Harry?\' \'Justpasttwo。\' \'Areyougoingbelow?\' \'Ohno;notto-night。Ipreferpureair。\' Shefanciedhemightbedispleasedwithherforcomingtohimatthisunearthlyhour。\'Ishouldliketostayheretoo,ifyouwillallowme,\'shesaidtimidly。 \'Iwanttoaskyouthings。\' \'Allowyou,Elfie!\'saidKnight,puttinghisarmroundheranddrawinghercloser。\'Iamtwiceashappywithyoubymyside。 Yes:wewillstay,andwatchtheapproachofday。\' Sotheyagainsoughtouttheshelterednook,andsittingdownwrappedthemselvesintherugasbefore。 \'Whatwereyougoingtoaskme?\'heinquired,astheyundulatedupanddown。 \'Oh,itwasnotmuch——perhapsathingIoughtnottoask,\'shesaidhesitatingly。Hersuddenwishhadreallybeentodiscoveratoncewhetherhehadeverbeforebeenengagedtobemarried。Ifhehad,shewouldmakethatagroundfortellinghimalittleofherconductwithStephen。Mrs。Jethway\'sseemingwordshadsodepressedthegirlthatsheherselfnowpaintedherflightinthedarkestcolours,andlongedtoeaseherburdenedmindbyaninstantconfession。IfKnighthadeverbeenimprudenthimself,hemight,shehoped,forgiveall。 \'Iwantedtoaskyou,\'shewenton,\'if——youhadeverbeenengagedbefore。\'Sheaddedtremulously,\'Ihopeyouhave——Imean,Idon\'tmindatallifyouhave。\' \'No,Ineverwas,\'Knightinstantlyandheartilyreplied。 \'Elfride\'——andtherewasacertainhappyprideinhistone——\'Iamtwelveyearsolderthanyou,andIhavebeenabouttheworld,and,inaway,intosociety,andyouhavenot。AndyetIamnotsounfitforyouasstrict-thinkingpeoplemightimagine,whowouldassumethedifferenceinagetosignifymostsurelyanequaladditiontomypracticeinlove-making。\' Elfrideshivered。 \'Youarecold——isthewindtoomuchforyou?\' \'No,\'shesaidgloomily。Thebeliefwhichhadbeenhersheet- anchorinhopingforforgivenesshadprovedfalse。Thisaccountoftheexceptionalnatureofhisexperience,amatterwhichwouldhavesetherrejoicingtwoyearsago,chilledhernowlikeafrost。 \'Youdon\'tmindmyaskingyou?\'shecontinued。 \'Ohno——notatall。\' \'Andhaveyouneverkissedmanyladies?\'shewhispered,hopinghewouldsayahundredattheleast。 Thetime,thecircumstances,andthesceneweresuchastodrawconfidencesfromthemostreserved。\'Elfride,\'whisperedKnightinreply,\'itisstrangeyoushouldhaveaskedthatquestion。ButI\'llanswerit,thoughIhavenevertoldsuchathingbefore。I