第21章

类别:其他 作者:Thomas Hardy字数:18594更新时间:18/12/13 16:52:01
\'WhenyouwerewithHewby,ofcourse,ofcourse。Well,Ican\'tunderstandit。\'Histonesrose。\'Idon\'tknowwhattosay,yourhoodwinkingmelikethisforsolong!\' \'Idon\'tseethatIhavehoodwinkedyouatall。\' \'Yes,yes,but\'—— Knightarosefromhisseat,andbeganpacingupanddowntheroom。 Hisfacewasmarkedlypale,andhisvoiceperturbed,ashesaid—— \'YoudidnotactasIshouldhaveactedtowardsyouunderthosecircumstances。Ifeelitdeeply;andItellyouplainly,Ishallneverforgetit!\' \'What?\' \'Yourbehaviouratthatmeetinginthefamilyvault,whenItoldyouweweregoingtobemarried。Deception,dishonesty,everywhere;alltheworld\'sofapiece!\' Stephendidnotmuchlikethismisconstructionofhismotives,eventhoughitwasbutthehastyconclusionofafrienddisturbedbyemotion。 \'IcoulddonootherwisethanIdid,withdueregardtoher,\'hesaidstiffly。 \'Indeed!\'saidKnight,inthebitteresttoneofreproach。\'Norcouldyouwithdueregardtoherhavemarriedher,Isuppose!I havehoped——longed——thatHE,whoturnsouttobeYOU,wouldultimatelyhavedonethat。\' \'Iammuchobligedtoyouforthathope。Butyoutalkverymysteriously。IthinkIhadaboutthebestreasonanybodycouldhavehadfornotdoingthat。\' \'Oh,whatreasonwasit?\' \'ThatIcouldnot。\' \'Yououghttohavemadeanopportunity;yououghttodosonow,inbarejusticetoher,Stephen!\'criedKnight,carriedbeyondhimself。\'Thatyouknowverywell,andithurtsandwoundsmemorethanyoudreamtofindyouneverhavetriedtomakeanyreparationtoawomanofthatkind——sotrusting,soapttoberunawaywithbyherfeelings——poorlittlefool,somuchtheworseforher!\' \'Why,youtalklikeamadman!Youtookherawayfromme,didyounot?\' \'Pickingupwhatanotherthrowsdowncanscarcelybecalled\"takingaway。”However,weshallnotagreetoowelluponthatsubject,sowehadbetterpart。\' \'ButIamquitecertainyoumisapprehendsomethingmostgrievously,\'saidStephen,shakentothebottomofhisheart。 \'WhathaveIdone;tellme?IhavelostElfride,butisthatsuchasin?\' \'Wasitherdoing,oryours?\' \'Waswhat?\' \'Thatyouparted。\' \'Iwilltellyouhonestly。Itwashersentirely,entirely。\' \'Whatwasherreason?\' \'Icanhardlysay。ButI\'lltellthestorywithoutreserve。\' Stephenuntilto-dayhadunhesitatinglyheldthatshegrewtiredofhimandturnedtoKnight;buthedidnotliketoadvancethestatementnow,oreventothinkthethought。TofancyotherwiseaccordedbetterwiththehopetowhichKnight\'sestrangementhadgivenbirth:thatloveforhisfriendwasnotthedirectcause,butaresultofhersuspensionofloveforhimself。 \'Suchamattermustnotbeallowedtobreeddiscordbetweenus,\' Knightreturned,relapsingintoamannerwhichconcealedallhistruefeeling,asifconfidencenowwasintolerable。\'Idoseethatyourreticencetowardsmeinthevaultmayhavebeendictatedbyprudentialconsiderations。\'Heconcludedartificially,\'Itwasastrangethingaltogether;butnotofmuchimportance,Isuppose,atthisdistanceoftime;anditdoesnotconcernmenow,thoughI don\'tmindhearingyourstory。\' ThesewordsfromKnight,utteredwithsuchanairofrenunciationandapparentindifference,promptedSmithtospeakon——perhapswithalittlecomplacency——ofhisoldsecretengagementtoElfride。Hetoldthedetailsofitsorigin,andtheperemptorywordsandactionsofherfathertoextinguishtheirlove。 Knightperseveredinthetoneandmannerofadisinterestedoutsider。IthadbecomemorethaneverimperativetoscreenhisemotionsfromStephen\'seye;theyoungmanwouldotherwisebelessfrank,andtheirmeetingwouldbeagainembittered。Whatwastheuseofuntowardcandour? Stephenhadnowarrivedatthepointinhisingenuousnarrativewhereheleftthevicaragebecauseofherfather\'smanner。 Knight\'sinterestincreased。Theirloveseemedsoinnocentandchildlikethusfar。 \'Itisanicepointincasuistry,\'heobserved,\'todecidewhetheryouwereculpableornotinnottellingSwancourtthatyourfriendswereparishionersofhis。Itwasonlyhumannaturetoholdyourtongueunderthecircumstances。Well,whatwastheresultofyourdismissalbyhim?\' \'Thatweagreedtobesecretlyfaithful。Andtoinsurethiswethoughtwewouldmarry。\' Knight\'ssuspenseandagitationrosehigherwhenStephenentereduponthisphaseofthesubject。 \'Doyoumindtellingon?\'hesaid,steadyinghismannerofspeech。 \'Oh,notatall。\' ThenStephengaveinfulltheparticularsofthemeetingwithElfrideattherailwaystation;thenecessitytheywereunderofgoingtoLondon,unlesstheceremonyweretobepostponed。Thelongjourneyoftheafternoonandevening;hertimidityandrevulsionoffeeling;itsculminationonreachingLondon;thecrossingovertothedown-platformandtheirimmediatedepartureagain,solelyinobediencetoherwish;thejourneyallnight; theiranxiouswatchingforthedawn;theirarrivalatSt。Launce\'satlast——weredetailed。AndhetoldhowavillagewomannamedJethwaywastheonlypersonwhorecognizedthem,eithergoingorcoming;andhowdreadfullythisterrifiedElfride。Hetoldhowhewaitedinthefieldswhilstthisthenreproachfulsweetheartwentforherpony,andhowthelastkissheevergaveherwasgivenamileoutofthetown,onthewaytoEndelstow。 ThesethingsStephenrelatedwithawill。HebelievedthatindoingsoheestablishedwordbywordthereasonablenessofhisclaimtoElfride。 \'Curseher!cursethatwoman!——thatmiserableletterthatpartedus!OGod!\' Knightbeganpacingtheroomagain,andutteredthisatfurtherend。 \'Whatdidyousay?\'saidStephen,turninground。 \'Say?DidIsayanything?Oh,Iwasmerelythinkingaboutyourstory,andtheoddnessofmyhavingafancyforthesamewomanafterwards。AndthatnowI——Ihaveforgottenheralmost;andneitherofuscareabouther,exceptjustasafriend,youknow,eh?\' Knightstillcontinuedatthefurtherendoftheroom,somewhatinshadow。 \'Exactly,\'saidStephen,inwardlyexultant,forhewasreallydeceivedbyKnight\'soff-handmanner。 YethewasdeceivedlessbythecompletenessofKnight\'sdisguisethanbythepersuasivepowerwhichlayinthefactthatKnighthadneverbeforedeceivedhiminanything。SothissuppositionthathiscompanionhadceasedtoloveElfridewasanenormouslighteningoftheweightwhichhadturnedthescaleagainsthim。 \'AdmittingthatElfrideCOULDloveanothermanafteryou,\'saidtheelder,underthesamevarnishofcarelesscriticism,\'shewasnonetheworseforthatexperience。\' \'Theworse?Ofcourseshewasnonetheworse。\' \'Didyoueverthinkitawildandthoughtlessthingforhertodo?\' \'Indeed,Ineverdid,\'saidStephen。\'Ipersuadedher。Shesawnoharminituntilshedecidedtoreturn,nordidI;norwasthere,excepttotheextentofindiscretion。\' \'Directlyshethoughtitwaswrongshewouldgonofurther?\' \'Thatwasit。Ihadjustbeguntothinkitwrongtoo。\' \'Suchachildishescapademighthavebeenmisrepresentedbyanyevil-disposedperson,mightitnot?\' \'Itmight;butIneverheardthatitwas。Nobodywhoreallyknewallthecircumstanceswouldhavedoneotherwisethansmile。Ifalltheworldhadknownit,Elfridewouldstillhaveremainedtheonlyonewhothoughtheractionasin。Poorchild,shealwayspersistedinthinkingso,andwasfrightenedmorethanenough。\' \'Stephen,doyoulovehernow?\' \'Well,Ilikeher;Ialwaysshall,youknow,\'hesaidevasively,andwithallthestrategylovesuggested。\'ButIhavenotseenherforsolongthatIcanhardlybeexpectedtoloveher。Doyouloveherstill?\' \'HowshallIanswerwithoutbeingashamed?Whatficklebeingswemenare,Stephen!Menmaylovestrongestforawhile,butwomenlovelongest。Iusedtoloveher——inmyway,youknow。\' \'Yes,Iunderstand。Ah,andIusedtoloveherinmyway。Infact,Ilovedheragooddealatonetime;buttravelhasatendencytoobliterateearlyfancies。\' \'Ithas——ithas,truly。\' Perhapsthemostextraordinaryfeatureinthisconversationwasthecircumstancethat,thougheachinterlocutorhadatfirsthissuspicionsoftheother\'sabidingpassionawakenedbyseverallittleacts,neitherwouldallowhimselftoseethathisfriendmightnowbespeakingdeceitfullyaswellashe。 \'Stephen。\'resumedKnight,\'nowthatmattersaresmoothbetweenus,IthinkImustleaveyou。Youwon\'tmindmyhurryingofftomyquarters?\' \'You\'llstaytosomesortofsuppersurely?didn\'tyoucometodinner!\' \'Youmustreallyexcusemethisonce。\' \'Thenyou\'lldropintobreakfastto-morrow。\' \'Ishallberatherpressedfortime。\' \'Anearlybreakfast,whichshallinterferewithnothing?\' \'I\'llcome,\'saidKnight,withasmuchreadinessasitwaspossibletograftuponahugestockofreluctance。\'Yes,early; eighto\'clocksay,asweareunderthesameroof。\' \'Anytimeyoulike。Eightitshallbe。\' AndKnightlefthim。Towearamask,todissemblehisfeelingsashehadintheirlatemiserableconversation,wassuchtorturethathecouldsupportitnolonger。ItwasthefirsttimeinKnight\'slifethathehadeverbeensoentirelytheplayerofapart。AndthemanhehadthusdeceivedwasStephen,whohaddocilelylookeduptohimfromyouthasasuperiorofunblemishedintegrity。 Hewenttobed,andallowedthefeverofhisexcitementtorageuncontrolled。Stephen——itwasonlyhewhowastherival——onlyStephen!Therewasananti-climaxofabsurditywhichKnight,wretchedandconscience-strickenashewas,couldnothelprecognizing。Stephenwasbutaboytohim。WherethegreatgrieflaywasinperceivingthattheveryinnocenceofElfrideinreadingherlittlefaultasonesogravewaswhathadfatallymisledhim。HadElfride,withanydegreeofcoolness,assertedthatshehaddonenoharm,thepoisonousbreathofthedeadMrs。 Jethwaywouldhavebeeninoperative。Whydidhenotmakehislittledocilegirltellmore?Ifonthatsubjecthehadonlyexercisedtheimperativenesscustomarywithhimonothers,allmighthavebeenrevealed。Itsmotehisheartlikeaswitchwhenherememberedhowgentlyshehadbornehisscourgingspeeches,neveransweringhimwithasinglereproach,onlyassuringhimofherunboundedlove。 KnightblessedElfrideforhersweetness,andforgotherfault。 Hepicturedwithavividfancythosefairsummersceneswithher。 Heagainsawherasattheirfirstmeeting,timidatspeaking,yetinhereagernesstobeexplanatoryborneforwardalmostagainstherwill。Howshewouldwaitforhimingreenplaces,withoutshowinganyoftheordinarywomanlyaffectationsofindifference! Howproudshewastobeseenwalkingwithhim,bearinglegiblyinhereyesthethoughtthathewasthegreatestgeniusintheworld! Heformedaresolution;andafterthatcouldmakepretenceofslumbernolonger。Risinganddressinghimself,hesatdownandwaitedforday。 ThatnightStephenwasrestlesstoo。NotbecauseoftheunwontednessofareturntoEnglishscenery;notbecausehewasabouttomeethisparents,andsettledownforawhiletoEnglishcottagelife。Hewasindulgingindreams,andforthenoncethewarehousesofBombayandtheplainsandfortsofPoonahwerebutashadow\'sshadow。Hisdreamwasbasedonthisoneatomoffact: ElfrideandKnighthadbecomeseparated,andtheirengagementwasasifithadneverbeen。TheirrupturemusthaveoccurredsoonafterStephen\'sdiscoveryofthefactoftheirunion;and,Stephenwentontothink,whatsoprobableasthatareturnofhererrantaffectiontohimselfwasthecause? Stephen\'sopinionsinthismatterwerethoseofalover,andnotthebalancedjudgmentofanunbiassedspectator。Hisnaturallysanguinespiritbuilthopeuponhope,tillscarcelyadoubtremainedinhismindthatherlingeringtendernessforhimhadinsomewaybeenperceivedbyKnight,andhadprovokedtheirparting。 TogoandseeElfridewasthesuggestionofimpulsesitwasimpossibletowithstand。Atanyrate,torundownfromSt。 Launce\'stoCastlePoterel,adistanceoflessthantwentymiles,andglidelikeaghostabouttheiroldhaunts,makingstealthyinquiriesabouther,wouldbeafascinatingwayofpassingthefirstsparehoursafterreachinghomeonthedayafterthemorrow。 Hewasnowarichermanthanheretofore,standingonhisownbottom;andthedefinitepositioninwhichhehadrootedhimselfnullifiedoldlocaldistinctions。Hehadbecomeillustrious,evensanguineclarus,judgingfromthetoneoftheworthyMayorofSt。 Launce\'s。 ChapterXXXIX \'Eachtothelovedone\'sside。\' Thefriendsandrivalsbreakfastedtogetherthenextmorning。Notawordwassaidoneithersideuponthematterdiscussedthepreviouseveningsogliblyandsohollowly。Stephenwasabsorbedthegreaterpartofthetimeinwishinghewerenotforcedtostayintownyetanotherday。 \'Idon\'tintendtoleaveforSt。Launce\'stillto-morrow,asyouknow,\'hesaidtoKnightattheendofthemeal。\'Whatareyougoingtodowithyourselfto-day?\' \'Ihaveanengagementjustbeforeten,\'saidKnightdeliberately; \'andafterthattimeImustcallupontwoorthreepeople。\' \'I\'lllookforyouthisevening,\'saidStephen。 \'Yes,do。Youmayaswellcomeanddinewithme;thatis,ifwecanmeet。ImaynotsleepinLondonto-night;infact,Iamabsolutelyunsettledastomymovementsyet。However,thefirstthingIamgoingtodoistogetmybaggageshiftedfromthisplacetoBede\'sInn。Good-byeforthepresent。I\'llwrite,youknow,ifIcan\'tmeetyou。\' Itnowwantedaquartertonineo\'clock。WhenKnightwasgone,Stephenfeltyetmoreimpatientofthecircumstancethatanotherdaywouldhavetodragitselfawaywearilybeforehecouldsetoutforthatspotofearthwhereonasoftthoughtofhimmightperhapsbenourishedstill。Onasuddenheadmittedtohismindthepossibilitythattheengagementhewaswaitingintowntokeepmightbepostponedwithoutmuchharm。 Itwasnosoonerperceivedthanattempted。Lookingathiswatch,hefounditwantedfortyminutestothedepartureoftheteno\'clocktrainfromPaddington,whichlefthimasurplusquarterofanhourbeforeitwouldbenecessarytostartforthestation。 Scribblingahastynoteortwo——oneputtingoffthebusinessmeeting,anothertoKnightapologizingfornotbeingabletoseehimintheevening——payinghisbill,andleavinghisheavierluggagetofollowhimbygoods-train,hejumpedintoacabandrattledofftotheGreatWesternStation。 Shortlyafterwardshetookhisseatintherailwaycarriage。 Theguardpausedonhiswhistle,toletintothenextcompartmenttoSmith\'samanofwhomStephenhadcaughtbutahastyglimpseasheranacrosstheplatformatthelastmoment。 Smithsankbackintothecarriage,stilledbyperplexity。ThemanwaslikeKnight——astonishinglylikehim。Wasitpossibleitcouldbehe?TohavegottherehemusthavedrivenlikethewindtoBede\'sInn,andhardlyhavealightedbeforestartingagain。No,itcouldnotbehe;thatwasnothiswayofdoingthings。 DuringtheearlypartofthejourneyStephenSmith\'sthoughtsbusiedthemselvestillhisbrainseemedswollen。Onesubjectwasconcerninghisownapproachingactions。Hewasadayearlierthanhislettertohisparentshadstated,andhisarrangementwiththemhadbeenthattheyshouldmeethimatPlymouth;aplanwhichpleasedtheworthycouplebeyondexpression。Oncebeforethesameengagementhadbeenmade,whichhehadthenquashedbyante-datinghisarrival。ThistimehewouldgorightontoCastleBoterel; rambleinthatwell-knownneighbourhoodduringtheeveningandnextmorning,makinginquiries;andreturntoPlymouthtomeetthemasarranged——acontrivancewhichwouldleavetheircherishedprojectundisturbed,relievinghisownimpatiencealso。 AtChippenhamtherewasalittlewaiting,andsomelooseningandattachingofcarriages。 Stephenlookedout。Atthesamemomentanotherman\'sheademergedfromtheadjoiningwindow。Eachlookedintheother\'sface。 KnightandStephenconfrontedoneanother。 \'Youhere!\'saidtheyoungerman。 \'Yes。Itseemsthatyouaretoo,\'saidKnight,strangely。 \'Yes。\' Theselfishnessofloveandthecrueltyofjealousywerefairlyexemplifiedatthismoment。Eachofthetwomenlookedathisfriendashehadneverlookedathimbefore。EachwasTROUBLEDattheother\'spresence。 \'Ithoughtyousaidyouwerenotcomingtillto-morrow,\'remarkedKnight。 \'Idid。Itwasanafterthoughttocometo-day。Thisjourneywasyourengagement,then?\' \'No,itwasnot。Thisisanafterthoughtofminetoo。Ileftanotetoexplainit,andaccountformynotbeingabletomeetyouthiseveningaswearranged。\' \'SodidIforyou。\' \'Youdon\'tlookwell:youdidnotthismorning。\' \'Ihaveaheadache。Youarepalerto-daythanyouwere。\' \'I,too,havebeensufferingfromheadache。Wehavetowaithereafewminutes,Ithink。\' Theywalkedupanddowntheplatform,eachonemoreandmoreembarrassinglyconcernedwiththeawkwardnessofhisfriend\'spresence。Theyreachedtheendofthefootway,andpausedinsheerabsent-mindedness。Stephen\'svacanteyesrestedupontheoperationsofsomeporters,whowereshiftingadarkandcurious- lookingvanfromtherearofthetrain,toshuntanotherwhichwasbetweenitandtheforepartofthetrain。Thisoperationhavingbeenconcluded,thetwofriendsreturnedtothesideoftheircarriage。 \'Willyoucomeinhere?\'saidKnight,notverywarmly。 \'Ihavemyrugandportmanteauandumbrellawithme:itisratherbotheringtomovenow,\'saidStephenreluctantly。\'Whynotyoucomehere?\' \'Ihavemytrapstoo。Itishardlyworthwhiletoshiftthem,forIshallseeyouagain,youknow。\' \'Oh,yes。\' Andeachgotintohisownplace。Justatstarting,amanontheplatformhelduphishandsandstoppedthetrain。 Stephenlookedouttoseewhatwasthematter。 Oneoftheofficialswasexclaimingtoanother,\'Thatcarriageshouldhavebeenattachedagain。Can\'tyouseeitisforthemainline?Quick!Whatfoolsthereareintheworld!\' \'Whataconfoundednuisancethesestoppagesare!\'exclaimedKnightimpatiently,lookingoutfromhiscompartment。\'Whatisit?\' \'Thatsingularcarriagewesawhasbeenunfastenedfromourtrainbymistake,itseems,\'saidStephen。 Hewaswatchingtheprocessofattachingit。Thevanorcarriage,whichhenowrecognizedashavingseenatPaddingtonbeforetheystarted,wasrichandsolemnratherthangloomyinaspect。Itseemedtobequitenew,andofmoderndesign,anditsimpressivepersonalityattractedthenoticeofothersbesidehimself。Hebehelditgraduallywheeledforwardbytwomenoneachside: slowerandmoresadlyitseemedtoapproach:thenaslightconcussion,andtheywereconnectedwithit,andoffagain。 StephensatalltheafternoonponderinguponthereasonofKnight\'sunexpectedreappearance。WashegoingasfarasCastleBoterel?Ifso,hecouldonlyhaveoneobjectinview——avisittoElfride。Andwhatanideaitseemed! AtPlymouthSmithpartookofalittlerefreshment,andthenwentroundtothesidefromwhichthetrainstartedforCamelton,thenewstationnearCastleBoterelandEndelstow。 Knightwasalreadythere。 Stephenwalkedupandstoodbesidehimwithoutspeaking。Twomenatthismomentcreptoutfromamongthewheelsofthewaitingtrain。 \'Thecarriageislightenough,\'saidoneinagrimtone。\'Lightasvanity;fullofnothing。\' \'Nothinginsize,butagooddealinsignification,\'saidtheother,amanofbrightermindandmanners。 SmiththenperceivedthattotheirtrainwasattachedthatsamecarriageofgrandanddarkaspectwhichhadhauntedthemallthewayfromLondon。 \'Youaregoingon,Isuppose?\'saidKnight,turningtoStephen,afteridlylookingatthesameobject。 \'Yes。\' \'Wemayaswelltraveltogetherfortheremainingdistance,maywenot?\' \'Certainlywewill;\'andtheybothenteredthesamedoor。 Eveningdrewonapace。ItchancedtobetheeveofSt。 Valentine\'s——thatbishopofblessedmemorytoyouthfullovers——andthesunshonelowundertherimofathickhardcloud,decoratingtheeminencesofthelandscapewithcrownsoforangefire。Asthetrainchangeditsdirectiononacurve,thesameraysstretchedinthroughthewindow,andcoaxedopenKnight\'shalf-closedeyes。 \'YouwillgetoutatSt。Launce\'s,Isuppose?\'hemurmured。 \'No,\'saidStephen,\'Iamnotexpectedtillto-morrow。\'Knightwassilent。 \'Andyou——areyougoingtoEndelstow?\'saidtheyoungermanpointedly。 \'Sinceyouask,IcandonolessthansayIam,Stephen,\' continuedKnightslowly,andwithmoreresolutionofmannerthanhehadshownalltheday。\'IamgoingtoEndelstowtoseeifElfrideSwancourtisstillfree;andifso,toaskhertobemywife。\' \'SoamI,\'saidStephenSmith。 \'Ithinkyou\'llloseyourlabour,\'Knightreturnedwithdecision。 \'Naturallyyoudo。\'TherewasastrongaccentofbitternessinStephen\'svoice。\'YoumighthavesaidHOPEinsteadofTHINK,\'headded。 \'Imighthavedonenosuchthing。Igaveyoumyopinion。ElfrideSwancourtmayhavelovedyouonce,nodoubt,butitwaswhenshewassoyoungthatshehardlyknewherownmind。\' \'Thankyou,\'saidStephenlaconically。\'SheknewhermindaswellasIdid。Wearethesameage。Ifyouhadn\'tinterfered——\' \'Don\'tsaythat——don\'tsayit,Stephen!HowcanyoumakeoutthatIinterfered?Bejust,please!\' \'Well,\'saidhisfriend,\'shewasminebeforeshewasyours——youknowthat!Anditseemedahardthingtofindyouhadgother,andthatifithadnotbeenforyou,allmighthaveturnedoutwellforme。\'Stephenspokewithaswellingheart,andlookedoutofthewindowtohidetheemotionthatwouldmakeitselfvisibleuponhisface。 \'Itisabsurd,\'saidKnightinakindertone,\'foryoutolookatthematterinthatlight。WhatItellyouisforyourgood。Younaturallydonotliketorealizethetruth——thatherlikingforyouwasonlyagirl\'sfirstfancy,whichhasnorootever。\' \'Itisnottrue!\'saidStephenpassionately。\'Itwasyouputmeout。Andnowyou\'llbepushinginagainbetweenus,anddeprivingmeofmychanceagain!Myright,that\'swhatitis!Howungenerousofyoutocomeanewandtrytotakeherawayfromme!Whenyouhadwonher,Ididnotinterfere;andyoumight,Ithink,Mr。Knight,dobymeasIdidbyyou!\' \'Don\'t\"Mr。”me;youareaswellintheworldasIamnow。\' \'Firstloveisdeepest;andthatwasmine。\' \'Whotoldyouthat?\'saidKnightsuperciliously。 \'Ihadherfirstlove。Anditwasthroughmethatyouandsheparted。Icanguessthatwellenough。\' \'Itwas。AndifIweretoexplaintoyouinwhatwaythatoperatedinpartingus,Ishouldconvinceyouthatyoudoquitewronginintrudinguponher——that,asIsaidatfirst,yourlabourwillbelost。Idon\'tchoosetoexplain,becausetheparticularsarepainful。Butifyouwon\'tlistentome,goon,forHeaven\'ssake。Idon\'tcarewhatyoudo,myboy。\' \'Youhavenorighttodomineerovermeasyoudo。Justbecause,whenIwasalad,Iwasaccustomedtolookuptoyouasamaster,andyouhelpedmealittle,forwhichIwasgratefultoyouandhavelovedyou,youassumetoomuchnow,andstepinbeforeme。 Itiscruel——itisunjust——ofyoutoinjuremeso!\' Knightshowedhimselfkeenlyhurtatthis。\'Stephen,thosewordsareuntrueandunworthyofanyman,andtheyareunworthyofyou。 Youknowyouwrongme。Ifyouhaveeverprofitedbyanyinstructionofmine,Iamonlytoogladtoknowit。Youknowitwasgivenungrudgingly,andthatIhaveneveroncelookeduponitasmakingyouinanywayadebtortome。\' Stephen\'snaturallygentlenaturewastouched,anditwasinatroubledvoicethathesaid,\'Yes,yes。Iamunjustinthat——I ownit。\' \'ThisisSt。Launce\'sStation,Ithink。Areyougoingtogetout?\' Knight\'smannerofreturningtothematterinhanddrewStephenagainintohimself。\'No;ItoldyouIwasgoingtoEndelstow,\'heresolutelyreplied。 Knight\'sfeaturesbecameimpassive,andhesaidnomore。Thetraincontinuedrattlingon,andStephenleantbackinhiscornerandclosedhiseyes。Theyellowsofeveninghadturnedtobrowns,theduskyshadesthickened,andaflyingcloudofdustoccasionallystrokedthewindow——borneuponachillingbreezewhichblewfromthenorth-east。Thepreviouslygildedbutnowdrearyhillsbegantolosetheirdaylightaspectsofrotundity,andtobecomeblackdiscsvandykedagainstthesky,allnaturewearingthecloakthatsixo\'clockcastsoverthelandscapeatthistimeoftheyear。 Stephenstartedupinbewildermentafteralongstillness,anditwassometimebeforeherecollectedhimself。 \'Well,howreal,howreal!\'heexclaimed,brushinghishandacrosshiseyes。 \'Whatis?\'saidKnight。 \'Thatdream。Ifellasleepforafewminutes,andhavehadadream——themostvividIeverremember。\' Hewearilylookedoutintothegloom。TheywerenowdrawingneartoCamelton。Thelightingofthelampswasperceptiblethroughtheveilofevening——eachflamestartingintoexistenceatintervals,andblinkingweaklyagainstthegustsofwind。 \'Whatdidyoudream?\'saidKnightmoodily。 \'Oh,nothingtobetold。\'Twasasortofincubus。Thereisneveranythingindreams。\' \'Ihardlysupposedtherewas。\' \'Iknowthat。However,whatIsovividlydreamtwasthis,sinceyouwouldliketohear。ItwasthebrightestofbrightmorningsatEastEndelstowChurch,andyouandIstoodbythefont。FarawayinthechancelLordLuxellianwasstandingalone,coldandimpassive,andutterlyunlikehisusualself:butIknewitwashe。Insidethealtarrailstoodastrangeclergymanwithhisbookopen。HelookedupandsaidtoLordLuxellian,\"Where\'sthebride?\"LordLuxelliansaid,\"There\'snobride。”Atthatmomentsomebodycameinatthedoor,andIknewhertobeLadyLuxellianwhodied。Heturnedandsaidtoher,\"Ithoughtyouwereinthevaultbelowus;butthatcouldhaveonlybeenadreamofmine。 Comeon。”Thenshecameon。AndinbrushingbetweenusshechilledmesowithcoldthatIexclaimed,\"Thelifeisgoneoutofme!\"and,inthewayofdreams,Iawoke。ButhereweareatCamelton。\' Theywereslowlyenteringthestation。 \'Whatareyougoingtodo?\'saidKnight。\'DoyoureallyintendtocallontheSwancourts?\' \'Bynomeans。Iamgoingtomakeinquiriesfirst。IshallstayattheLuxellianArmsto-night。YouwillgorightontoEndelstow,Isuppose,atonce?\' \'Icanhardlydothatatthistimeoftheday。Perhapsyouarenotawarethatthefamily——herfather,atanyrate——isatvariancewithmeasmuchaswithyou。 \'Ididn\'tknowit。\' \'AndthatIcannotrushintothehouseasanoldfriendanymorethanyoucan。CertainlyIhavetheprivilegesofadistantrelationship,whatevertheymaybe。\' Knightletdownthewindow,andlookedahead。\'Thereareagreatmanypeopleatthestation,\'hesaid。\'Theyseemalltobeonthelook-outforus。\' Whenthetrainstopped,thehalf-estrangedfriendscouldperceivebythelamplightthattheassemblageofidlersenclosedasakernelagroupofmeninblackcloaks。Asidegateintheplatformrailingwasopen,andoutsidethisstoodadarkvehicle,whichtheycouldnotatfirstcharacterize。ThenKnightsawonitsupperpartformsagainsttheskylikecedarsbynight,andknewthevehicletobeahearse。Fewpeoplewereatthecarriagedoorstomeetthepassengers——themajorityhadcongregatedatthisupperend。KnightandStephenalighted,andturnedforamomentinthesamedirection。 Thesombrevan,whichhadaccompaniedthemalldayfromLondon,nowbegantorevealthattheirdestinationwasalsoitsown。Ithadbeendrawnupexactlyoppositetheopengate。Thebystandersallfellback,formingaclearlanefromthegatewaytothevan,andthemenincloaksenteredthelatterconveyance。 \'Theyarelabourers,Ifancy,\'saidStephen。\'Ah,itisstrange; butIrecognizethreeofthemasEndelstowmen。Ratherremarkablethis。\' Presentlytheybegantocomeout,twoandtwo;andundertheraysofthelamptheywereseentobearbetweenthemalight-colouredcoffinofsatin-wood,brightlypolished,andwithoutanail。Theeightmentooktheburdenupontheirshoulders,andslowlycrossedwithitovertothegate。 KnightandStephenwentoutside,andcameclosetotheprocessionasitmovedoff。Acarriagebelongingtothecortegeturnedroundclosetoalamp。TheraysshoneinuponthefaceofthevicarofEndelstow,Mr。Swancourt——lookingmanyyearsolderthanwhentheyhadlastseenhim。KnightandStepheninvoluntarilydrewback。 Knightspoketoabystander。\'WhathasMr。Swancourttodowiththatfuneral?\' \'Heisthelady\'sfather,\'saidthebystander。 \'Whatlady\'sfather?\'saidKnight,inavoicesohollowthatthemanstaredathim。 \'Thefatheroftheladyinthecoffin。ShediedinLondon,youknow,andhasbeenbroughtherebythistrain。Sheistobetakenhometo-night,andburiedto-morrow。\' Knightstoodstaringblindlyatwherethehearsehadbeen;asifhesawit,orsomeone,there。Thenheturned,andbeheldthelitheformofStephenboweddownlikethatofanoldman。Hetookhisyoungfriend\'sarm,andledhimawayfromthelight。 ChapterXL \'Welcome,proudlady。\' Halfanhourhaspassed。TwomiserablemenarewanderinginthedarknessupthemilesofroadfromCameltontoEndelstow。 \'Hasshebrokenherheart?\'saidHenryKnight。\'CanitbethatI havekilledher?Iwasbitterwithher,Stephen,andshehasdied! AndmayGodhaveNOmercyuponme!\' \'HowcanyouhavekilledhermorethanI?\' \'Why,Iwentawayfromher——stoleawayalmost——anddidn\'ttellherIshouldnotcomeagain;andatthatlastmeetingIdidnotkissheronce,butlethermiserablygo。Ihavebeenafool——afool!I wishthemostabjectconfessionofitbeforecrowdsofmycountrymencouldinanywaymakeamendstomydarlingfortheintensecrueltyIhaveshownher!\' \'YOURdarling!\'saidStephen,withasortoflaugh。\'Anymancansaythat,Isuppose;anymancan。Iknowthis,shewasMYdarlingbeforeshewasyours;andaftertoo。Ifanybodyhasarighttocallherhisown,itisI。\' \'Youtalklikeamaninthedark;whichiswhatyouare。Didsheeverdoanythingforyou?Riskhername,forinstance,foryou?\' Yes,shedid,\'saidStephenemphatically。 \'Notentirely。Didsheeverliveforyou——proveshecouldnotlivewithoutyou——laughandweepforyou?\' \'Yes。\' \'Never!Didsheeverriskherlifeforyou——no!Mydarlingdidforme。\' \'Thenitwasinkindnessonly。Whendidsheriskherlifeforyou?\' \'Tosavemineonthecliffyonder。ThepoorchildwaswithmelookingattheapproachofthePuffinsteamboat,andIslippeddown。Webothhadanarrowescape。Iwishwehaddiedthere!\' \'Ah,butwait,\'Stephenpleadedwithweteyes。\'Shewentonthatclifftoseemearrivehome:shehadpromisedit。Shetoldmeshewouldmonthsbefore。Andwouldshehavegonethereifshehadnotcaredformeatall?\' \'YouhaveanideathatElfridediedforyou,nodoubt,\'saidKnight,withamournfulsarcasmtoonervelesstosupportitself。 \'Nevermind。Ifwefindthat——thatshediedyours,I\'llsaynomoreever。\' \'Andifwefindshediedyours,I\'llsaynomore。\' \'Verywell——soitshallbe。\' Thedarkcloudsintowhichthesunhadsunkhadbeguntodropraininanincreasingvolume。 \'Canwewaitsomewhereheretillthisshowerisover?\'saidStephendesultorily。 \'Asyouwill。Butitisnotworthwhile。We\'llheartheparticulars,andreturn。Don\'tletpeopleknowwhoweare。Iamnotmuchnow。\' Theyhadreachedapointatwhichtheroadbranchedintotwo——justoutsidethewestvillage,oneforkofthedivergingroutespassingintothelatterplace,theotherstretchingontoEastEndelstow。 Havingcomesomeofthedistancebythefootpath,theynowfoundthatthehearsewasonlyalittleinadvanceofthem。 \'IfancyithasturnedofftoEastEndelstow。Canyousee?\' \'Icannot。Youmustbemistaken。\' KnightandStephenenteredthevillage。Abaroffierylightlayacrosstheroad,proceedingfromthehalf-opendoorofasmithy,inwhichbellowswereheardblowingandahammerringing。Therainhadincreased,andtheymechanicallyturnedforsheltertowardsthewarmandcosyscene。 Closeattheirheelscameanotherman,withoutover-coatorumbrella,andwithaparcelunderhisarm。 \'Awetevening,\'hesaidtothetwofriends,andpassedbythem。 Theystoodintheouterpenthouse,butthemanwentintothefire。 Thesmithceasedhisblowing,andbegantalkingtothemanwhohadentered。 \'IhavewalkedallthewayfromCamelton,\'saidthelatter。\'Wasobligedtocometo-night,youknow。\' Heheldtheparcel,whichwasaflatone,towardsthefirelight,tolearniftherainhadpenetratedit。Restingitedgewiseontheforge,hesupporteditperpendicularlywithonehand,wipinghisfacewiththehandkerchiefheheldintheother。 \'IsupposeyouknowwhatI\'vegothere?\'heobservedtothesmith。 \'No,Idon\'t,\'saidthesmith,pausingagainonhisbellows。 \'Astherain\'snotover,I\'llshowyou,\'saidthebearer。 Helaidthethinandbroadpackage,whichhadacuteanglesindifferentdirections,flatupontheanvil,andthesmithblewupthefiretogivehimmorelight。First,afteruntyingthepackage,asheetofbrownpaperwasremoved:thiswaslaidflat。 Thenheunfoldedapieceofbaize:thisalsohespreadflatonthepaper。Thethirdcoveringwasawrapperoftissuepaper,whichwasspreadoutinitsturn。Theenclosurewasrevealed,andhehelditupforthesmith\'sinspection。 \'Oh——Isee!\'saidthesmith,kindlingwithachastenedinterest,anddrawingclose。\'Pooryounglady——ah,terriblemelancholything——sosoontoo!\' KnightandStephenturnedtheirheadsandlooked。 \'Andwhat\'sthat?\'continuedthesmith。 \'That\'sthecoronet——beautifullyfinished,isn\'tit?Ah,thatcostsomemoney!\' \'\'TisasfineabitofmetalworkaseverIsee——that\'tis。\' \'Itcamefromthesamepeopleasthecoffin,youknow,butwasnotreadysoonenoughtobesentroundtothehouseinLondonyesterday。I\'vegottofixitonthisverynight。\' Thecarefully-packedarticleswereacoffin-plateandcoronet。 KnightandStephencameforward。Theundertaker\'sman,onseeingthemlookfortheinscription,civillyturneditroundtowardsthem,andeachread,almostatonemoment,bytheruddylightofthecoals: ELFRIDE,WifeofSpenserHugoLuxellian,FifteenthBaronLuxellian: DiedFebruary10,18。 Theyreadit,andreadit,andreaditagain——StephenandKnight—— asifanimatedbyonesoul。ThenStephenputhishanduponKnight\'sarm,andtheyretiredfromtheyellowglow,further,further,tillthechilldarknessenclosedthemround,andthequietskyasserteditspresenceoverheadasadimgreysheetofblankmonotony。 \'Whereshallwego?\'saidStephen。 \'Idon\'tknow。\' Alongsilenceensued……\'Elfridemarried!\'saidStephentheninathinwhisper,asifhefearedtolettheassertionlooseontheworld。 \'False,\'whisperedKnight。 \'Anddead。Deniedusboth。Ihate\"false\"——Ihateit!\' Knightmadenoanswer。 Nothingwasheardbythemnowsavetheslowmeasurementoftimebytheirbeatingpulses,thesofttouchofthedribblingrainupontheirclothes,andthelowpurroftheblacksmith\'sbellowshardby。 \'ShallwefollowElfieanyfurther?\'Stephensaid。 \'No:letusleaveheralone。Sheisbeyondourlove,andletherbebeyondourreproach。Sincewedon\'tknowhalfthereasonsthatmadeherdoasshedid,Stephen,howcanwesay,evennow,thatshewasnotpureandtrueinheart?\'Knight\'svoicehadnowbecomemildandgentleasachild\'s。Hewenton:\'Canwecallherambitious?No。Circumstancehas,asusual,overpoweredherpurposes——fragileanddelicateasshe——liabletobeoverthrowninamomentbythecoarseelementsofaccident。Iknowthat\'sit,—— don\'tyou?\' \'Itmaybe——itmustbe。Letusgoon。\' TheybegantobendtheirstepstowardsCastleBoterel,whithertheyhadsenttheirbagsfromCamelton。Theywanderedoninsilenceformanyminutes。Stephenthenpaused,andlightlyputhishandwithinKnight\'sarm。 \'Iwonderhowshecametodie,\'hesaidinabrokenwhisper。 \'Shallwereturnandlearnalittlemore?\' Theyturnedbackagain,andenteringEndelstowasecondtime,cametoadoorwhichwasstandingopen。ItwasthatofaninncalledtheWelcomeHome,andthehouseappearedtohavebeenrecentlyrepairedandentirelymodernized。Thenametoowasnotthatofthesamelandlordasformerly,butMartinCannister\'s。 KnightandSmithentered。Theinnwasquitesilent,andtheyfollowedthepassagetilltheyreachedthekitchen,whereahugefirewasburning,whichroaredupthechimney,andsentoverthefloor,ceiling,andnewly-whitenedwallsaglaresointenseastomakethecandlequiteasecondarylight。Awomaninawhiteapronandblackgownwasstandingtherealonebehindacleanly-scrubbeddealtable。Stephenfirst,andKnightafterwards,recognizedherasUnity,whohadbeenparlour-maidatthevicarageandyounglady\'s-maidattheCrags。 \'Unity,\'saidStephensoftly,\'don\'tyouknowme?\' Shelookedinquiringlyamoment,andherfaceclearedup。 \'Mr。Smith——ay,thatitis!\'shesaid。\'Andthat\'sMr。Knight。I begyoutositdown。PerhapsyouknowthatsinceIsawyoulastI havemarriedMartinCannister。\' \'Howlonghaveyoubeenmarried?\' \'Aboutfivemonths。WeweremarriedthesamedaythatmydearMissElfiebecameLadyLuxellian。\'TearsappearedinUnity\'seyes,andfilledthem,andfelldownhercheek,inspiteofeffortstothecontrary。 Thepainofthetwomeninresolutelycontrollingthemselveswhenthusexampledtoadmitreliefofthesamekindwasdistressing。 Theybothturnedtheirbacksandwalkedafewstepsaway。 ThenUnitysaid,\'Willyougointotheparlour,gentlemen?\' \'Letusstayherewithher,\'Knightwhispered,andturningsaid,\'No;wewillsithere。Wewanttorestanddryourselveshereforatime,ifyouplease。\' Thateveningthesorrowingfriendssatwiththeirhostessbesidethelargefire,Knightintherecessformedbythechimneybreast,wherehewasinshade。Andbyshowingalittleconfidencetheywonhers,andshetoldthemwhattheyhadstayedtohear——thelatterhistoryofpoorElfride。 \'Oneday——afteryou,Mr。Knight,leftusforthelasttime——shewasmissedfromtheCrags,andherfatherwentafterher,andbroughtherhomeill。Whereshewentto,Ineverknew——butshewasveryunwellforweeksafterwards。Andshesaidtomethatshedidn\'tcarewhatbecameofher,andshewishedshecoulddie。 Whenshewasbetter,Isaidshewouldlivetobemarriedyet,andshesaidthen,\"Yes;I\'lldoanythingforthebenefitofmyfamily,soastoturnmyuselesslifetosomepracticalaccount。” Well,itbeganlikethisaboutLordLuxelliancourtingher。ThefirstLadyLuxellianhaddied,andhewasingreattroublebecausethelittlegirlswereleftmotherless。Afterawhiletheyusedtocomeandseeherintheirlittleblackfrocks,fortheylikedheraswellorbetterthantheirownmother——that\'strue。Theyusedtocallher\"littlemamma。”Thesechildrenmadeherashadelivelier,butshewasnotthegirlshehadbeen——Icouldseethat—— andshegrewthinneragooddeal。Well,mylordgottoasktheSwancourtsoftenerandoftenertodinner——nobodyelseofhisacquaintance——andatlastthevicar\'sfamilywerebackwardsandforwardsatallhoursoftheday。Well,peoplesaythatthelittlegirlsaskedtheirfathertoletMissElfridecomeandlivewiththem,andthathesaidperhapshewouldiftheyweregoodchildren。However,thetimewenton,andonedayIsaid,\"MissElfride,youdon\'tlooksowellasyouusedto;andthoughnobodyelseseemstonoticeitIdo。”Shelaughedalittle,andsaid,\"I shalllivetobemarriedyet,asyoutoldme。” \'\"Shallyou,miss?Iamgladtohearthat,\"Isaid。 \'\"WhomdoyouthinkIamgoingtobemarriedto?\"shesaidagain。 \'\"Mr。Knight,Isuppose,\"saidI。 \'\"Oh!\"shecried,andturnedoffsowhite,andaforeIcouldgettohershehadsunkdownlikeaheapofclothes,andfaintedaway。 Well,then,shecametoherselfafteratime,andsaid,\"Unity,nowwe\'llgoonwithourconversation。” \'\"Betternotto-day,miss,\"Isaid。 \'\"Yes,wewill,\"shesaid。\"WhomdoyouthinkIamgoingtobemarriedto?\" \'\"Idon\'tknow,\"Isaidthistime。 \'\"Guess,\"shesaid。 \'\"\'Tisn\'tmylord,isit?\"saysI。 \'\"Yes,\'tis,\"saysshe,inasickwildway。 \'\"Buthedon\'tcomecourtingmuch,\"Isaid。 \"\'Ah!youdon\'tknow,\"shesaid,andtoldme\'twasgoingtobeinOctober。Afterthatshefreshenedupabit——whether\'twaswiththethoughtofgettingawayfromhomeornot,Idon\'tknow。For,perhaps,Imayaswellspeakplainly,andtellyouthatherhomewasnohometohernow。Herfatherwasbittertoherandharshuponher;andthoughMrs。Swancourtwaswellenoughinherway,\'twasasortofcoldpolitenessthatwasnotworthmuch,andthelittlethinghadaworryingtimeofitaltogether。Aboutamonthbeforethewedding,sheandmylordandthetwochildrenusedtorideabouttogetheruponhorseback,andaveryprettysighttheywere;andifyou\'llbelieveme,Ineversawhimoncewithherunlessthechildrenwerewithhertoo——whichmadethecourtingsostrange-looking。Ay,andmylordissohandsome,youknow,sothatatlastIthinksheratherlikedhim;andIhaveseenhersmileandblushabitatthingshesaid。Hewantedherthemorebecausethechildrendid,foreverybodycouldseethatshewouldbeamosttendermothertothem,andfriendandplaymatetoo。Andmylordisnotonlyhandsome,butasplendidcourter,anduptoallthewayso\'t。Sohemadeherthebeautifullestpresents;ah,oneIcanmind——alovelybracelet,withdiamondsandemeralds。 Oh,howredherfacecamewhenshesawit!Theoldrosescamebacktohercheeksforaminuteortwothen。Ihelpeddressherthedaywebothweremarried——itwasthelastserviceIdidher,poorchild!Whenshewasready,Iranupstairsandslippedonmyownweddinggown,andawaytheywent,andawaywentMartinandI;andnosoonerhadmylordandmyladybeenmarriedthantheparsonmarriedus。Itwasaveryquietpairofweddings——hardlyanybodyknewit。Well,hopewillholditsowninayoungheart,ifsobeitcan;andmyladyfreshenedupabit,formylordwasSO handsomeandkind。\' \'Howcameshetodie——andawayfromhome?\'murmuredKnight。 \'Don\'tyousee,sir,shefelloffagainaforethey\'dbeenmarriedlong,andmylordtookherabroadforchangeofscene。Theywerecominghome,andhadgotasfarasLondon,whenshewastakenveryillandcouldn\'tbemoved,andthereshedied。\' \'Washeveryfondofher?\' \'What,mylord?Oh,hewas!\' \'VERYfondofher?\' \'VERY,beyondeverything。Notsuddenly,butbyslowdegrees。 \'Twashernaturetowinpeoplemorewhentheyknewherwell。He\'dhavediedforher,Ibelieve。Poormylord,he\'sheart-brokennow!\' \'Thefuneralisto-morrow?\' \'Yes;myhusbandisnowatthevaultwiththemasons,openingthestepsandcleaningdownthewalls。\' ThenextdaytwomenwalkedupthefamiliarvalleyfromCastleBotereltoEastEndelstowChurch。Andwhenthefuneralwasover,andeveryonehadleftthelawn-likechurchyard,thepairwentsoftlydownthestepsoftheLuxellianvault,andunderthelow- groinedarchestheyhadbeheldoncebefore,litupthenasnow。 Inthenewnicheofthecryptlayarathernewcoffin,whichhadlostsomeofitslustre,andanewercoffinstill,brightanduntarnishedintheslightestdegree。 Besidethelatterwasthedarkformofaman,kneelingonthedampfloor,hisbodyflungacrossthecoffin,hishandsclasped,andhiswholeframeseeminglygivenupinutterabandonmenttogrief。 Hewasstillyoung——younger,perhaps,thanKnight——andevennowshowedhowgracefulwashisfigureandsymmetricalhisbuild。Hemurmuredaprayerhalfaloud,andwasquiteunconsciousthattwootherswerestandingwithinafewyardsofhim。 KnightandStephenhadadvancedtowheretheyoncestoodbesideElfrideonthedayallthreehadmetthere,beforeshehadherselfgonedownintosilencelikeherancestors,andshutherbrightblueeyesforever。Notuntilthendidtheyseethekneelingfigureinthedimlight。KnightinstantlyrecognizedthemournerasLordLuxellian,thebereavedhusbandofElfride。 Theyfeltthemselvestobeintruders。KnightpressedStephenback,andtheysilentlywithdrewastheyhadentered。 \'Comeaway,\'hesaid,inabrokenvoice。\'Wehavenorighttobethere。Anotherstandsbeforeus——nearertoherthanwe!\' AndsidebysidetheybothretracedtheirstepsdownthegreystillvalleytoCastleBoterel。