—— Isir?Why,sir?
Alittlewaveofquietmirthbrokeforthovertheclassofboysfromtherector\'sgrimsmile。Stephen\'sheartbeganslowlytofoldandfadewithfearlikeawitheringflower。
Therectorwentongravely:——
YouareallfamiliarwiththestoryofthelifeofsaintFrancisXavier,Isuppose,thepatronofyourcollege。HecameofanoldandillustriousSpanishfamilyandyourememberthathewasoneofthefirstfollowersofsaintIgnatius。TheymetinPariswhereFrancisXavierwasprofessorofphilosophyattheuniversity。Thisyoungandbrilliantnoblemanandmanoflettersenteredheartandsoulintotheideasofourgloriousfounderandyouknowthathe,athisowndesire,wassentbysaintIgnatiustopreachtotheIndians。Heiscalled,asyouknow,theapostleoftheIndies。
Hewentfromcountrytocountryintheeast,fromAfricatoIndia,fromIndiatoJapan,baptizingthepeople。Heissaidtohavebaptizedasmanyastenthousandidolatersinonemonth。Itissaidthathisrightarmhadgrownpowerlessfromhavingbeenraisedsooftenovertheheadsofthosewhomhebaptized。HewishedthentogotoChinatowinstillmoresoulsforGodbuthediedoffeverontheislandofSancian。Agreatsaint,saintFrancisXavier!AgreatsoldierofGod!
Therectorpausedandthen,shakinghisclaspedhandsbeforehim,wenton:——
Hehadthefaithinhimthatmovesmountains。TenthousandsoulswonforGodinasinglemonth!Thatisatrueconqueror,truetothemottoofourorder:admajoremDeigloriam!Asaintwhohasgreatpowerinheaven,remember:powertointercedeforusinourgrief;powertoobtainwhateverweprayforifitbeforthegoodofoursouls;powerabovealltoobtainforusthegracetorepentifwebeinsin。Agreatsaint,saintFrancisXavier!Agreatfisherofsouls!
Heceasedtoshakehisclaspedhandsand,restingthemagainsthisforehead,lookedrightandleftofthemkeenlyathislistenersoutofhisdarksterneyes。
Inthesilencetheirdarkfirekindledtheduskintoatawnyglow。Stephen\'shearthadwithereduplikeaflowerofthedesertthatfeelsthesimoomcomingfromafar——
Rememberonlythylastthingsandthoushaltnotsinforever-wordstaken,mydearlittlebrothersinChrist,fromthebookofEcclesiastes,seventhchapter,fortiethverse。InthenameoftheFatherandoftheSonandoftheHolyGhost。Amen。
Stephensatinthefrontbenchofthechapel。FatherArnallsatatatabletotheleftofthealtar。Heworeabouthisshouldersaheavycloak;
hispalefacewasdrawnandhisvoicebrokenwithrheum。Thefigureofhisoldmaster,sostrangelyrearisen,broughtbacktoStephen\'smindhislifeatClongowes:thewideplaygrounds,swarmingwithboys;thesquareditch;thelittlecemeteryoffthemainavenueoflimeswherehehaddreamedofbeingburied;thefirelightonthewalloftheinfirmarywherehelaysick;thesorrowfulfaceofBrotherMichael。Hissoul,asthesememoriescamebacktohim,becameagainachild\'ssoul——
Weareassembledheretoday,mydearlittlebrothersinChrist,foronebriefmomentfarawayfromthebusybustleoftheouterworldtocelebrateandtohonouroneofthegreatestofsaints,theapostleoftheIndies,thepatronsaintalsoofyourcollege,saintFrancisXavier。Yearafteryear,formuchlongerthananyofyou,mydearlittleboys,canrememberorthanIcanremember,theboysofthiscollegehavemetinthisverychapeltomaketheirannualretreatbeforethefeastdayoftheirpatronsaint。Timehasgoneonandbroughtwithititschanges。Eveninthelastfewyearswhatchangescanmostofyounotremember?Manyoftheboyswhosatinthosefrontbenchesafewyearsagoareperhapsnowindistantlands,intheburningtropics,orimmersedinprofessionaldutiesorinseminaries,orvoyagingoverthevastexpanseofthedeepor,itmaybe,alreadycalledbythegreatGodtoanotherlifeandtotherenderingupoftheirstewardship。
Andstillastheyearsrollby,bringingwiththemchangesforgoodandbad,thememoryofthegreatsaintishonouredbytheboysofthiscollegewhomakeeveryyeartheirannualretreatonthedaysprecedingthefeastdaysetapartbyourHolyMothertheChurchtotransmittoalltheagesthenameandfameofoneofthegreatestsonsofcatholicSpain——
NowwhatisthemeaningofthiswordretreatandwhyisitallowedonallhandstobeamostsalutarypracticeforallwhodesiretoleadbeforeGodandintheeyesofmenatrulychristianlife?Aretreat,mydearboys,signifiesawithdrawalforawhilefromthecaresofourlife,thecaresofthisworkadayworld,inordertoexaminethestateofourconscience,toreflectonthemysteriesofholyreligionandtounderstandbetterwhywearehereinthisworld。DuringthesefewdaysIintendtoputbeforeyousomethoughtsconcerningthefourlastthings。Theyare,asyouknowfromyourcatechism,death,judgement,hell,andheaven。Weshalltrytounderstandthemfullyduringthesefewdayssothatwemayderivefromtheunderstandingofthemalastingbenefittooursouls。Andremember,mydearboys,thatwehavebeensentintothisworldforonethingandforonethingalone:todoGod\'sholywillandtosaveourimmortalsouls。Allelseisworthless。Onethingaloneisneedful,thesalvationofone\'ssoul。Whatdothitprofitamantogainthewholeworldifhesufferthelossofhisimmortalsoul?Ah,mydearboys,believemethereisnothinginthiswretchedworldthatcanmakeupforsuchaloss——
Iwillaskyou,therefore,mydearboys,toputawayfromyourmindsduringthesefewdaysallworldlythoughts,whetherofstudyorpleasureorambition,andtogiveallyourattentiontothestateofyoursouls。
Ineedhardlyremindyouthatduringthedaysoftheretreatallboysareexpectedtopreserveaquietandpiousdemeanourandtoshunallloudunseemlypleasure。Theelderboys,ofcourse,willseethatthiscustomisnotinfringedandIlookespeciallytotheprefectsandofficersofthesodalityofOurBlessedLadyandofthesodalityoftheholyangelstosetagoodexampletotheirfellow-students——
Letustry,therefore,tomakethisretreatinhonourofsaintFranciswithourwholeheartandourwholemind。God\'sblessingwillthenbeuponallyouryear\'sstudies。But,aboveandbeyondall,letthisretreatbeonetowhichyoucanlookbackinafteryearswhenmaybeyouarefarfromthiscollegeandamongverydifferentsurroundings,towhichyoucanlookbackwithjoyandthankfulnessandgivethankstoGodforhavinggrantedyouthisoccasionoflayingthefirstfoundationofapioushonourablezealouschristianlife。Andif,asmaysohappen,therebeatthismomentinthesebenchesanypoorsoulwhohashadtheunutterablemisfortunetoloseGod\'sholygraceandtofallintogrievoussin,Iferventlytrustandpraythatthisretreatmaybetheturningpointinthelifeofthatsoul。IpraytoGodthroughthemeritsofHiszealousservantFrancisXavier,thatsuchasoulmaybeledtosincererepentanceandthattheholycommuniononsaintFrancis\'sdayofthisyearmaybealastingcovenantbetweenGodandthatsoul。Forjustandunjust,forsaintandsinneralike,maythisretreatbeamemorableone——
Helpme,mydearlittlebrothersinChrist。Helpmebyyourpiousattention,byyourowndevotion,byyouroutwarddemeanour。Banishfromyourmindsallworldlythoughtsandthinkonlyofthelastthings,death,judgement,hell,andheaven。Hewhoremembersthesethings,saysEcclesiastes,shallnotsinforever。Hewhoremembersthelastthingswillactandthinkwiththemalwaysbeforehiseyes。Hewillliveagoodlifeanddieagooddeath,believingandknowingthat,ifhehassacrificedmuchinthisearthlylife,itwillbegiventohimahundredfoldandathousandfoldmoreinthelifetocome,inthekingdomwithoutend-ablessing,mydearboys,whichIwishyoufrommyheart,oneandall,inthenameoftheFatherandoftheSonandoftheHolyGhost。Amen!
Ashewalkedhomewithsilentcompanions,athickfogseemedtocompasshismind。Hewaitedinstuporofmindtillitshouldliftandrevealwhatithadhidden。Heatehisdinnerwithsurlyappetiteandwhenthemealwasoverandthegrease-strewnplateslayabandonedonthetable,heroseandwenttothewindow,clearingthethickscumfromhismouthwithhistongueandlickingitfromhislips。Sohehadsunktothestateofabeastthatlickshischapsaftermeat。Thiswastheend;andafaintglimmeroffearbegantopiercethefogofhismind。Hepressedhisfaceagainstthepaneofthewindowandgazedoutintothedarkeningstreet。Formspassedthiswayandthatthroughthedulllight。Andthatwaslife。ThelettersofthenameofDublinlayheavilyuponhismind,pushingoneanothersurlilyhitherandthitherwithslowboorishinsistence。Hissoulwasfatteningandcongealingintoagrossgrease,plungingeverdeeperinitsdullfearintoasombrethreateningduskwhilethebodythatwashisstood,listlessanddishonoured,gazingoutofdarkenedeyes,helpless,perturbed,andhumanforabovinegodtostareupon。
Thenextdaybroughtdeathandjudgement,stirringhissoulslowlyfromitslistlessdespair。Thefaintglimmeroffearbecameaterrorofspiritasthehoarsevoiceofthepreacherblewdeathintohissoul。Hesuffereditsagony。Hefeltthedeathchilltouchtheextremitiesandcreeponwardtowardstheheart,thefilmofdeathveilingtheeyes,thebrightcentresofthebrainextinguishedonebyonelikelamps,thelastsweatoozingupontheskin,thepowerlessnessofthedyinglimbs,thespeechthickeningandwanderingandfailing,theheartthrobbingfaintlyandmorefaintly,allbutvanquished,thebreath,thepoorbreath,thepoorhelplesshumanspirit,sobbingandsighing,gurglingandrattlinginthethroat。Nohelp!
Nohelp!He-hehimself-hisbodytowhichhehadyieldedwasdying。
Intothegravewithit。Nailitdownintoawoodenboxthecorpse。Carryitoutofthehouseontheshouldersofhirelings。Thrustitoutofmen\'ssightintoalongholeintheground,intothegrave,torot,tofeedthemassofitscreepingwormsandtobedevouredbyscuttlingplump-belliedrats。
Andwhilethefriendswerestillstandingintearsbythebedsidethesoulofthesinnerwasjudged。Atthelastmomentofconsciousnessthewholeearthlylifepassedbeforethevisionofthesouland,ereithadtimetoreflect,thebodyhaddiedandthesoulstoodterrifiedbeforethejudgementseat。God,whohadlongbeenmerciful,wouldthenbejust。
Hehadlongbeenpatient,pleadingwiththesinfulsoul,givingittimetorepent,sparingityetawhile。Butthattimehadgone。Timewastosinandtoenjoy,timewastoscoffatGodandatthewarningsofHisholychurch,timewastodefyHismajesty,todisobeyHiscommands,tohoodwinkone\'sfellowmen,tocommitsinaftersinandtohideone\'scorruptionfromthesightofmen。Butthattimewasover。NowitwasGod\'sturn:andHewasnottobehoodwinkedordeceived。Everysinwouldthencomeforthfromitslurkingplace,themostrebelliousagainstthedivinewillandthemostdegradingtoourpoorcorruptnature,thetiniestimperfectionandthemostheinousatrocity。Whatdiditavailthentohavebeenagreatemperor,agreatgeneral,amarvellousinventor,themostlearnedofthelearned?AllwereasonebeforethejudgementseatofGod。Hewouldrewardthegoodandpunishthewicked。Onesingleinstantwasenoughforthetrialofaman\'ssoul。Onesingleinstantafterthebody\'sdeath,thesoulhadbeenweighedinthebalance。Theparticularjudgementwasoverandthesoulhadpassedtotheabodeofblissortotheprisonofpurgatoryorhadbeenhurledhowlingintohell。
Norwasthatall。God\'sjusticehadstilltobevindicatedbeforemen:
aftertheparticulartherestillremainedthegeneraljudgement。Thelastdayhadcome。Thedoomsdaywasathand。Thestarsofheavenwerefallingupontheearthlikethefigscastbythefig-treewhichthewindhasshaken。
Thesun,thegreatluminaryoftheuniverse,hadbecomeassackclothofhair。Themoonwasblood-red。Thefirmamentwasasascrollrolledaway。
ThearchangelMichael,theprinceoftheheavenlyhost,appearedgloriousandterribleagainstthesky。Withonefootontheseaandonefootonthelandheblewfromthearch-angelicaltrumpetthebrazendeathoftime。
Thethreeblastsoftheangelfilledalltheuniverse。Timeis,timewas,buttimeshallbenomore。AtthelastblastthesoulsofuniversalhumanitythrongtowardsthevalleyofJehoshaphat,richandpoor,gentleandsimple,wiseandfoolish,goodandwicked。Thesoulofeveryhumanbeingthathaseverexisted,thesoulsofallthosewhoshallyetbeborn,allthesonsanddaughtersofAdam,allareassembledonthatsupremeday。Andlo,thesupremejudgeiscoming!NolongerthelowlyLambofGod,nolongerthemeekJesusofNazareth,nolongertheManofSorrows,nolongertheGoodShepherd,Heisseennowcomingupontheclouds,ingreatpowerandmajesty,attendedbyninechoirsofangels,angelsandarchangels,principalities,powersandvirtues,thronesanddominations,cherubimandseraphim,GodOmnipotent,GodEverlasting。Hespeaks:andHisvoiceisheardevenatthefarthestlimitsofspace,evenInthebottomlessabyss。SupremeJudge,fromHissentence
therewillbeandcanbenoappeal。HecallsthejusttoHisside,biddingthementerintothekingdom,theeternityofblisspreparedforthem。TheunjustHecastsfromHim,cryinginHisoffendedmajesty:Departfromme,yecursed,intoeverlastingfirewhichwaspreparedforthedevilandhisangels。O,whatagonythenforthemiserablesinners!Friendistornapartfromfriend,childrenaretornfromtheirparents,husbandsfromtheirwives。Thepoorsinnerholdsouthisarmstothosewhoweredeartohiminthisearthlyworld,tothosewhosesimplepietyperhapshemadeamockof,tothosewhocounselledhimandtriedtoleadhimontherightpath,toakindbrother,toalovingsister,tothemotherandfatherwholovedhimsodearly。Butitistoolate:thejustturnawayfromthewretcheddamnedsoulswhichnowappearbeforetheeyesofallintheirhideousandevilcharacter。Oyouhypocrites,O,youwhitedsepulchres,Oyouwhopresentasmoothsmilingfacetotheworldwhileyoursoulwithinisafoulswampofsin,howwillitfarewithyouinthatterribleday?
Andthisdaywillcome,shallcome,mustcome:thedayofdeathandthedayofjudgement。Itisappointeduntomantodieandafterdeaththejudgement。Deathiscertain。Thetimeandmannerareuncertain,whetherfromlongdiseaseorfromsomeunexpectedaccident:theSonofGodcomethatanhourwhenyoulittleexpectHim。Bethereforereadyeverymoment,seeingthatyoumaydieatanymoment。Deathistheendofusall。Deathandjudgement,broughtintotheworldbythesinofourfirstparents,arethedarkportalsthatcloseourearthlyexistence,theportalsthatopenintotheunknownandtheunseen,portalsthroughwhicheverysoulmustpass,alone,unaidedsavebyitsgoodworks,withoutfriendorbrotherorparentormastertohelpit,aloneandtrembling。Letthatthoughtbeeverbeforeourmindsandthenwecannotsin。Death,acauseofterrortothesinner,isablessedmomentforhimwhohaswalkedintherightpath,fulfillingthedutiesofhisstationinlife,attendingtohismorningandeveningprayers,approachingtheholysacramentfrequentlyandperforminggoodandmercifulworks。Forthepiousandbelievingcatholic,forthejustman,deathisnocauseofterror。WasitnotAddison,thegreatEnglishwriter,who,whenonhisdeathbed,sentforthewickedyoungearlofWarwicktolethimseehowachristiancanmeethisend?Heitisandhealone,thepiousandbelievingchristian,whocansayinhisheart:Ograve,whereisthyvictory?
Odeath,whereisthysting?Everywordofitwasforhim。Againsthissin,foulandsecret,thewholewrathofGodwasaimed。Thepreacher\'sknifehadprobeddeeplyintohisdisclosedconscienceandhefeltnowthathissoulwasfesteringinsin。
Yes,thepreacherwasright。God\'sturnhadcome。Likeabeastinitslairhissoulhadlaindowninitsownfilthbuttheblastsoftheangel\'strumpethaddrivenhimforthfromthedarknessofsinintothelight。Thewordsofdoomcriedbytheangelshatteredinaninstanthispresumptuouspeace。
Thewindofthelastdayblewthroughhismind,hissins,thejewel-eyedharlotsofhisimagination,fledbeforethehurricane,squeakinglikemiceintheirterrorandhuddledunderamaneofhair。
Ashecrossedthesquare,walkinghomeward,thelightlaughterofagirlreachedhisburningear。Thefrailgaysoundsmotehisheartmorestronglythanatrumpetblast,and,notdaringtolifthiseyes,heturnedasideandgazed,ashewalked,intotheshadowofthetangledshrubs。Shamerosefromhissmittenheartandfloodedhiswholebeing。TheimageofEmmaappearedbeforehim,andunderhereyesthefloodofshamerushedforthanewfromhisheart。Ifsheknewtowhathismindhadsubjectedherorhowhisbrute-likelusthadtornandtrampleduponherinnocence!Wasthatboyishlove?Wasthatchivalry?Wasthatpoetry?Thesordiddetailsofhisorgiesstankunderhisverynostrils。Thesoot-coatedpacketofpictureswhichhehadhiddenintheflueofthefireplaceandinthepresenceofwhoseshamelessorbashfulwantonnesshelayforhourssinningInthoughtanddeed;hismonstrousdreams,peopledbyape-likecreaturesandbyharlotswithgleamingjeweleyes;thefoullonglettershehadwritteninthejoyofguiltyconfessionandcarriedsecretlyfordaysanddaysonlytothrowthemundercoverofnightamongthegrassinthecornerofafieldorbeneathsomehingelessdoorinsomenicheinthehedgeswhereagirlmightcomeuponthemasshewalkedbyandreadthemsecretly。Mad!Mad!Wasitpossiblehehaddonethesethings?Acoldsweatbrokeoutuponhisforeheadasthefoulmemoriescondensedwithinhisbrain。
Whentheagonyofshamehadpassedfromhimhetriedtoraisehissoulfromitsabjectpowerlessness。GodandtheBlessedVirginweretoofarfromhim:GodwastoogreatandsternandtheBlessedVirgintoopureandholy。ButheimaginedthathestoodnearEmmainawidelandand,humblyandintears,bentandkissedtheelbowofhersleeve。
Inthewidelandunderatenderlucideveningsky,aclouddriftingwestwardamidapalegreenseaofheaven,theystoodtogether,childrenthathaderred。TheirerrorhadoffendeddeeplyGod\'smajestythoughitwastheerroroftwochildren;butithadnotoffendedherwhosebeautyisnotlikeearthlybeauty,dangeroustolookupon,butlikethemorningstarwhich。isitsemblem,brightandmusical。Theeyeswerenotoffendedwhichsheturneduponhimnorreproachful。Sheplacedtheirhandstogether,handinhand,andsaid,speakingtotheirhearts:——
Takehands,StephenandEmma。Itisabeautifuleveningnowinheaven。
Youhaveerredbutyouarealwaysmychildren。Itisoneheartthatlovesanotherheart。Takehandstogether,mydearchildren,andyouwillbehappytogetherandyourheartswillloveeachother。
Thechapelwasfloodedbythedullscarletlightthatfilteredthroughtheloweredblinds;andthroughthefissurebetweenthelastblindandthesashashaftofwanlightenteredlikeaspearandtouchedtheembossedbrassesofthecandlesticksuponthealtarthatgleamedlikethebattle-wornmailarmourofangels。
Rainwasfallingonthechapel,onthegarden,onthecollege。Itwouldrainforever,noiselessly。Thewaterwouldriseinchbyinch,coveringthegrassandshrubs,coveringthetreesandhouses,coveringthemonumentsandthemountaintops。Alllifewouldbechokedoff,noiselessly:birds,men,elephants,pigs,children:noiselesslyfloatingcorpsesamidthelitterofthewreckageoftheworld。Fortydaysandfortynightstherainwouldfalltillthewaterscoveredthefaceoftheearth。
Itmightbe。Whynot?——
Hellhasenlargeditssoulandopeneditsmouthwithoutanylimits-wordstaken,mydearlittlebrothersinChristJesus,fromthebookofIsaias,fifthchapter,fourteenthverse。InthenameoftheFatherandoftheSonandoftheHolyGhost。Amen。
Thepreachertookachainlesswatchfromapocketwithinhissoutaneand,havingconsidereditsdialforamomentinsilence,placeditsilentlybeforehimonthetable。
Hebegantospeakinaquiettone——
AdamandEve,mydearboys,were,asyouknow,ourfirstparents,andyouwillrememberthattheywerecreatedbyGodinorderthattheseatsinheavenleftvacantbythefallofLuciferandhisrebelliousangelsmightbefilledagain。Lucifer,wearetold,wasasonofthemorning,aradiantandmightyangel;yethefell:hefellandtherefellwithhimathirdpartofthehostofheaven:hefellandwashurledwithhisrebelliousangelsintohell。Whathissinwaswecannotsay。Theologiansconsiderthatitwasthesinofpride,thesinfulthoughtconceivedinaninstant:nonserviam:Iwillnotserve。Thatinstantwashisruin。
HeoffendedthemajestyofGodbythesinfulthoughtofoneinstantandGodcasthimoutofheavenintohellforever——
AdamandEvewerethencreatedbyGodandplacedinEden,intheplainofDamascus,thatlovelygardenresplendentwithsunlightandcolour,teemingwithluxuriantvegetation。Thefruitfulearthgavethemherbounty:
beastsandbirdsweretheirwillingservants:theyknewnottheillsourfleshisheirto,diseaseandpovertyanddeath:allthatagreatandgenerousGodcoulddoforthemwasdone。ButtherewasoneconditionimposedonthembyGod:obediencetoHisword。Theywerenottoeatofthefruitoftheforbiddentree——
Alas,mydearlittleboys,theytoofell。Thedevil,onceashiningangel,asonofthemorning,nowafoulfiendcameintheshapeofaserpent,thesubtlestofallthebeastsofthefield。Heenviedthem。He,thefallengreatone,couldnotbeartothinkthatman,abeingofclay,shouldpossesstheinheritancewhichhebyhissinhadforfeitedforever。Hecametothewoman,theweakervessel,andpouredthepoisonofhiseloquenceintoherear,promisingher-O,theblasphemyofthatpromise!-thatifsheandAdamateoftheforbiddenfruittheywouldbecomeasgods,nayasGodHimself。Eveyieldedtothewilesofthearchtempter。SheatetheappleandgaveitalsotoAdamwhohadnotthemoralcouragetoresisther。ThepoisontongueofSatanhaddoneitswork。Theyfell——
AndthenthevoiceofGodwasheardinthatgarden,callingHiscreaturemantoaccount:andMichael,princeoftheheavenlyhost,withaswordofflameinhishand,appearedbeforetheguiltypairanddrovethemforthfromEdenintotheworld,theworldofsicknessandstriving,ofcrueltyanddisappointment,oflabourandhardship,toearntheirbreadinthesweatoftheirbrow。ButeventhenhowmercifulwasGod!HetookpityonourpoordegradedparentsandpromisedthatinthefullnessoftimeHewouldsenddownfromheavenOnewhowouldredeemthem,makethemoncemorechildrenofGodandheirstothekingdomofheaven:andthatOne,thatRedeemeroffallenman,wastobeGod\'sonlybegottenSon,theSecondPersonoftheMostBlessedTrinity,theEternalWord——
Hecame。Hewasbornofavirginpure,Marythevirginmother。HewasborninapoorcowhouseinJudeaandlivedasahumblecarpenterforthirtyyearsuntilthehourofHismissionhadcome。Andthen,filledwithloveformen,Hewentforthandcalledtomentohearthenewgospel——
Didtheylisten?Yes,theylistenedbutwouldnothear。Hewasseizedandboundlikeacommoncriminal,mockedatasafool,setasidetogiveplacetoapublicrobber,scourgedwithfivethousandlashes,crownedwithacrownofthorns,hustledthroughthestreetsbythejewishrabbleandtheRomansoldiery,strippedofhisgarmentsandhangeduponagibbetandHissidewaspiercedwithalanceandfromthewoundedbodyofourLordwaterandbloodissuedcontinually——
Yeteventhen,inthathourofsupremeagony,OurMercifulRedeemerhadpityformankind。Yeteventhere,onthehillofCalvary,Hefoundedtheholycatholicchurchagainstwhich,itispromised,thegatesofhellshallnotprevail。Hefoundeditupontherockofages,andendoweditwithHisgrace,withsacramentsandsacrifice,andpromisedthatifmenwouldobeythewordofHischurchtheywouldstillenterintoeternallife;
butif,afterallthathadbeendoneforthem,theystillpersistedintheirwickedness,thereremainedforthemaneternityoftorment:hell。
Thepreacher\'svoicesank。Hepaused,joinedhispalmsforaninstant,partedthem。Thenheresumed:——
Nowletustryforamomenttorealize,asfaraswecan,thenatureofthatabodeofthedamnedwhichthejusticeofanoffendedGodhascalledintoexistencefortheeternalpunishmentofsinners。Hellisastraitanddarkandfoul-smellingprison,anabodeofdemonsandlostsouls,filledwithfireandsmoke。ThestraitnessofthisprisonhouseisexpresslydesignedbyGodtopunishthosewhorefusedtobeboundbyHislaws。Inearthlyprisonsthepoorcaptivehasatleastsomelibertyofmovement,wereitonlywithinthefourwallsofhiscellorinthegloomyyardofhisprison。
Notsoinhell。There,byreasonofthegreatnumberofthedamned,theprisonersareheapedtogetherintheirawfulprison,thewallsofwhicharesaidtobefourthousandmilesthick:andthedamnedaresoutterlyboundandhelplessthat,asablessedsaint,saintAnselm,writesinhisbookonsimilitudes,theyarenotevenabletoremovefromtheeyeawormthatgnawsit——
Theylieinexteriordarkness。For,remember,thefireofhellgivesforthnolight。As,atthecommandofGod,thefireoftheBabylonianfurnacelostitsheatbutnotitslight,so,atthecommandofGod,thefireofhell,whileretainingtheintensityofitsheat,burnseternallyindarkness。
Itisaneverendingstormofdarkness,darkflamesanddarksmokeofburningbrimstone,amidwhichthebodiesareheapedoneuponanotherwithoutevenaglimpseofair。OfalltheplagueswithwhichthelandofthePharaohsweresmittenoneplaguealone,thatofdarkness,wascalledhorrible。Whatname,then,shallwegivetothedarknessofhellwhichistolastnotforthreedaysalonebutforalleternity?——
Thehorrorofthisstraitanddarkprisonisincreasedbyitsawfulstench。Allthefilthoftheworld,alltheoffalandscumoftheworld,wearetold,shallrunthereastoavastreekingsewerwhentheterribleconflagrationofthelastdayhaspurgedtheworld。Thebrimstone,too,whichburnsthereinsuchprodigiousquantityfillsallhellwithitsintolerablestench;andthebodiesofthedamnedthemselvesexhalesuchapestilentialodourthat,assaintBonaventuresays,oneofthemalonewouldsufficetoinfectthewholeworld。Theveryairofthisworld,thatpureelement,becomesfoulandunbreathablewhenithasbeenlongenclosed。Considerthenwhatmustbethefoulnessoftheairofhell。Imaginesomefoulandputridcorpsethathaslainrottinganddecomposinginthegrave,ajelly-likemassofliquidcorruption。Imaginesuchacorpseapreytoflames,devouredbythefireofburningbrimstoneandgivingoffdensechokingfumesofnauseousloathsomedecomposition。Andthenimaginethissickeningstench,multipliedamillionfoldandamillionfoldagainfromthemillionsuponmillionsoffetidcarcassesmassedtogetherinthereekingdarkness,ahugeandrottinghumanfungus。Imagineallthis,andyouwillhavesomeideaofthehorrorofthestenchofhell——
Butthisstenchisnot,horriblethoughitis,thegreatestphysicaltormenttowhichthedamnedaresubjected。Thetormentoffireisthegreatesttormenttowhichthetyranthaseversubjectedhisfellowcreatures。Placeyourfingerforamomentintheflameofacandleandyouwillfeelthepainoffire。ButourearthlyfirewascreatedbyGodforthebenefitofman,tomaintaininhimthesparkoflifeandtohelphimintheusefularts,whereasthefireofhellisofanotherqualityandwascreatedbyGodtotortureandpunishtheunrepentantsinner。Ourearthlyfirealsoconsumesmoreorlessrapidlyaccordingastheobjectwhichitattacksismoreorlesscombustible,sothathumaningenuityhasevensucceededininventingchemicalpreparationstocheckorfrustrateitsaction。Butthesulphurousbrimstonewhichburnsinhellisasubstancewhichisspeciallydesignedtoburnforeverandforeverwithunspeakablefury。Moreover,ourearthlyfiredestroysatthesametimeasitburns,sothatthemoreintenseitistheshorterisitsduration;butthefireofhellhasthisproperty,thatitpreservesthatwhichitburns,and,thoughitrageswithincredibleintensity,itragesforever——
Ourearthlyfireagain,nomatterhowfierceorwidespreaditmaybe,isalwaysofalimitedextent;butthelakeoffireinhellisboundless,shorelessandbottomless。Itisonrecordthatthedevilhimself,whenaskedthequestionbyacertainsoldier,wasobligedtoconfessthatifawholemountainwerethrownintotheburningoceanofhellitwouldbeburnedupInaninstantlikeapieceofwax。Andthisterriblefirewillnotafflictthebodiesofthedamnedonlyfromwithout,buteachlostsoulwillbeahelluntoitself,theboundlessfireraginginitsveryvitals。
O,howterribleisthelotofthosewretchedbeings!Thebloodseethesandboilsintheveins,thebrainsareboilingintheskull,theheartinthebreastglowingandbursting,thebowelsared-hotmassofburningpulp,thetendereyesflaminglikemoltenballs——
AndyetwhatIhavesaidastothestrengthandqualityandboundlessnessofthisfireisasnothingwhencomparedtoitsintensity,anintensitywhichithasasbeingtheinstrumentchosenbydivinedesignforthepunishmentofsoulandbodyalike。ItisafirewhichproceedsdirectlyfromtheireofGod,workingnotofitsownactivitybutasaninstrumentofDivinevengeance。Asthewatersofbaptismcleansethesoulwiththebody,sodothefiresofpunishmenttorturethespiritwiththeflesh。Everysenseofthefleshistorturedandeveryfacultyofthesoultherewith:theeyeswithimpenetrableutterdarkness,thenosewithnoisomeodours,theearswithyellsandhowlsandexecrations,thetastewithfoulmatter,leprouscorruption,namelesssuffocatingfilth,thetouchwithredhotgoadsandspikes,withcrueltonguesofflame。AndthroughtheseveraltormentsofthesensestheimmortalsoulistorturedeternallyinitsveryessenceamidtheleaguesuponleaguesofglowingfireskindledintheabyssbytheoffendedmajestyoftheOmnipotentGodandfannedintoeverlastingandever-increasingfurybythebreathoftheangeroftheGod-head——
Considerfinallythatthetormentofthisinfernalprisonisincreasedbythecompanyofthedamnedthemselves。Evilcompanyonearthissonoxiousthattheplants,asifbyinstinct,withdrawfromthecompanyofwhatsoeverisdeadlyorhurtfultothem。Inhellalllawsareoverturned-thereisnothoughtoffamilyorcountry,ofties,ofrelationships。Thedamnedhowlandscreamatoneanother,theirtortureandrageintensifiedbythepresenceofbeingstorturedandraginglikethemselves。Allsenseofhumanityisforgotten。Theyellsofthesufferingsinnersfilltheremotestcornersofthevastabyss。ThemouthsofthedamnedarefullofblasphemiesagainstGodandofhatredfortheirfellowsufferersandofcursesagainstthosesoulswhichweretheiraccomplicesinsin。Inoldentimesitwasthecustomtopunishtheparricide,themanwhohadraisedhismurderoushandagainsthisfather,bycastinghimintothedepthsoftheseainasackinwhichwereplacedacock,amonkey,andaserpent。Theintentionofthoselaw-giverswhoframedsuchalaw,whichseemscruelinourtimes,wastopunishthecriminalbythecompanyofhurtfulandhatefulbeasts。Butwhatisthefuryofthosedumbbeastscomparedwiththefuryofexecrationwhichburstsfromtheparchedlipsandachingthroatsofthedamnedinhellwhentheybeholdintheircompanionsinmiserythosewhoaidedandabettedtheminsin,thosewhosewordssowedthefirstseedsofevilthinkingandevillivingintheirminds,thosewhoseimmodestsuggestionsledthemontosin,thosewhoseeyestemptedandalluredthemfromthepathofvirtue。
Theyturnuponthoseaccomplicesandupbraidthemandcursethem。Buttheyarehelplessandhopeless:itistoolatenowforrepentance——
Lastofallconsiderthefrightfultormenttothosedamnedsouls,temptersandtemptedalike,ofthecompanyofthedevils。Thesedevilswillafflictthedamnedintwoways,bytheirpresenceandbytheirreproaches。
Wecanhavenoideaofhowhorriblethesedevilsare。SaintCatherineofSienaoncesawadevilandshehaswrittenthat,ratherthanlookagainforonesingleinstantonsuchafrightfulmonster,shewouldprefertowalkuntiltheendofherlifealongatrackofredcoals。Thesedevils,whowereoncebeautifulangels,havebecomeashideousanduglyastheyoncewerebeautiful。Theymockandjeeratthelostsoulswhomtheydraggeddowntoruin。Itisthey,thefouldemons,whoaremadeinhellthevoicesofconscience。Whydidyousin?Whydidyoulendaneartothetemptingsoffriends?Whydidyouturnasidefromyourpiouspracticesandgoodworks?
Whydidyounotshuntheoccasionsofsin?Whydidyounotleavethatevilcompanion?Whydidyounotgiveupthatlewdhabit,thatimpurehabit?
Whydidyounotlistentothecounselsofyourconfessor?Whydidyounot,evenafteryouhadfallenthefirstorthesecondorthethirdorthefourthorthehundredthtime,repentofyourevilwaysandturntoGodwhoonlywaitedforyourrepentancetoabsolveyouofyoursins?Nowthetimeforrepentancehasgoneby。Timeis,timewas,buttimeshallbenomore!Timewastosininsecrecy,toindulgeinthatslothandpride,tocovettheunlawful,toyieldtothepromptingsofyourlowernature,tolivelikethebeastsofthefield,nayworsethanthebeastsofthefield,forthey,atleast,arebutbrutesandhavenoreasontoguidethem:timewas,buttimeshallbenomore。Godspoketoyoubysomanyvoices,butyouwouldnothear。Youwouldnotcrushoutthatprideandangerinyourheart,youwouldnotrestorethoseill-gottengoods,youwouldnotobeythepreceptsofyourholychurchnorattendtoyourreligiousduties,youwouldnotabandonthosewickedcompanions,youwouldnotavoidthosedangeroustemptations。
Suchisthelanguageofthosefiendishtormentors,wordsoftauntingandofreproach,ofhatredandofdisgust。Ofdisgust,yes!Foreventhey,theverydevils,whentheysinned,sinnedbysuchasinasalonewascompatiblewithsuchangelicalnatures,arebellionoftheintellect:andthey,eventhey,thefouldevilsmustturnaway,revoltedanddisgusted,fromthecontemplationofthoseunspeakablesinsbywhichdegradedmanoutragesanddefilesthetempleoftheHolyGhost,defilesandpolluteshimself——
O,mydearlittlebrothersinChrist,mayitneverbeourlottohearthatlanguage!Mayitneverbeourlot,Isay!InthelastdayofterriblereckoningIprayferventlytoGodthatnotasinglesoulofthosewhoareinthischapeltodaymaybefoundamongthosemiserablebeingswhomtheGreatJudgeshallcommandtodepartforeverfromHissight,thatnotoneofusmayeverhearringinginhisearstheawfulsentenceofrejection:Departfromme,yecursed,intoeverlastingfirewhichwaspreparedforthedevilandhisangels!
Hecamedowntheaisleofthechapel,hislegsshakingandthescalpofhisheadtremblingasthoughithadbeentouchedbyghostlyfingers。
Hepassedupthestaircaseandintothecorridoralongthewallsofwhichtheovercoatsandwaterproofshunglikegibbetedmalefactors,headlessanddrippingandshapeless。Andateverystephefearedthathehadalreadydied,thathissoulhadbeenwrenchedforthofthesheathofhisbody,thathewasplungingheadlongthroughspace。
Hecouldnotgripthefloorwithhisfeetandsatheavilyathisdesk,openingoneofhisbooksatrandomandporingoverit。Everywordforhim。
Itwastrue。Godwasalmighty。Godcouldcallhimnow,callhimashesatathisdesk,beforehehadtimetobeconsciousofthesummons。Godhadcalledhim。Yes?What?Yes?Hisfleshshranktogetherasitfelttheapproachoftheravenoustonguesofflames,driedupasitfeltaboutittheswirlofstiflingair。Hehaddied。Yes。Hewasjudged。Awaveoffiresweptthroughhisbody:thefirst。Againawave。Hisbrainbegantoglow。Another。
Hisbrainwassimmeringandbubblingwithinthecrackingtenementoftheskull。Flamesburstforthfromhisskulllikeacorolla,shriekinglikevoices:——
Hell!Hell!Hell!Hell!Hell!
Voicesspokenearhim:——
Onhell——
Isupposeherubbeditintoyouwell——
Youbethedid。Heputusallintoabluefunk——
That\'Swhatyoufellowswant:andplentyofittomakeyouwork。
Heleanedbackweaklyinhisdesk。Hehadnotdied。Godhadsparedhimstill。Hewasstillinthefamiliarworldoftheschool。MrTateandVincentHeronstoodatthewindow,talking,jesting,gazingoutatthebleakrain,movingtheirheads——
Iwishitwouldclearup。IhadarrangedtogoforaspinonthebikewithsomefellowsoutbyMalahide。Buttheroadsmustbeknee-deep——
Itmightclearup,sir。
Thevoicesthatheknewsowell,thecommonwords,thequietoftheclassroomwhenthevoicespausedandthesilencewasfilledbythesoundofsoftlybrowsingcattleastheotherboysmunchedtheirlunchestranquilly,lulledhisachingsoul。
Therewasstilltime。OMary,refugeofsinners,intercedeforhim!
OVirginUndefiled,savehimfromthegulfofdeath!
TheEnglishlessonbeganwiththehearingofthehistory。Royalpersons,favourites,intriguers,bishops,passedlikemutephantomsbehindtheirveilofnames。Allhaddied:allhadbeenjudged。Whatdiditprofitamantogainthewholeworldifhelosthissoul?Atlasthehadunderstood:
andhumanlifelayaroundhim,aplainofpeacewhereonant-likemenlabouredinbrotherhood,theirdeadsleepingunderquietmounds。Theelbowofhiscompaniontouchedhimandhisheartwastouched:andwhenhespoketoansweraquestionofhismasterheheardhisownvoicefullofthequietudeofhumilityandcontrition。
Hissoulsankbackdeeperintodepthsofcontritepeace,nolongerabletosufferthepainofdread,andsendingforth,ashesank,afaintprayer。
Ahyes,hewouldstillbespared;hewouldrepentinhisheartandbeforgiven;
andthenthoseabove,thoseinheaven,wouldseewhathewoulddotomakeupforthepast:awholelife,everyhouroflife。Onlywait——
All,God!All,all!
Amessengercametothedoortosaythatconfessionswerebeingheardinthechapel。Fourboyslefttheroom;andheheardotherspassingdownthecorridor。Atremulouschillblewroundhisheart,nostrongerthanalittlewind,andyet,listeningandsufferingsilently,heseemedtohavelaidanearagainstthemuscleofhisownheart,feelingitcloseandquail,listeningtotheflutterofitsventricles。
Noescape。Hehadtoconfess,tospeakoutinwordswhathehaddoneandthought,sinaftersin。How?How?——
Father,I。
Thethoughtslidlikeacoldshiningrapierintohistenderflesh:confession。
Butnotthereinthechapelofthecollege。Hewouldconfessall,everysinofdeedandthought,sincerely;butnotthereamonghisschoolcompanions。
Farawayfromthereinsomedarkplacehewouldmurmurouthisownshame;
andhebesoughtGodhumblynottobeoffendedwithhimifhedidnotdaretoconfessinthecollegechapelandinutterabjectionofspirithecravedforgivenessmutelyoftheboyishheartsabouthim。
Timepassed。
Hesatagaininthefrontbenchofthechapel。Thedaylightwithoutwasalreadyfailingand,asitfellslowlythroughthedullredblinds,itseemedthatthesunofthelastdaywasgoingdownandthatallsoulswerebeinggatheredforthejudgement——
IamcastawayfromthesightofThineeyes:wordstaken,mydearlittlebrothersinChrist,fromtheBookofPsalms,thirtiethchapter,twenty-thirdverse。InthenameoftheFatherandoftheSonandoftheHolyGhost。Amen。
Thepreacherbegantospeakinaquietfriendlytone。Hisfacewaskindandhejoinedgentlythefingersofeachhand,formingafrailcagebytheunionoftheirtips——
Thismorningweendeavoured,inourreflectionuponhell,tomakewhatourholyfoundercallsinhisbookofspiritualexercises,thecompositionofplace。Weendeavoured,thatis,toimaginewiththesensesofthemind,inourimagination,thematerialcharacterofthatawfulplaceandofthephysicaltormentswhichallwhoareinhellendure。Thiseveningweshallconsiderforafewmomentsthenatureofthespiritualtormentsofhell——
Sin,remember,isatwofoldenormity。Itisabaseconsenttothepromptingsofourcorruptnaturetothelowerinstincts,tothatwhichisgrossandbeast-like;anditisalsoaturningawayfromthecounselofourhighernature,fromallthatispureandholy,fromtheHolyGodHimself。Forthisreasonmortalsinispunishedinhellbytwodifferentformsofpunishment,physicalandspiritual。
Nowofallthesespiritualpainsbyfarthegreatestisthepainofloss,sogreat,infact,thatinitselfitisatormentgreaterthanalltheothers。SaintThomas,thegreatestdoctorofthechurch,theangelicdoctor,asheiscalled,saysthattheworstdamnationconsistsinthis,thattheunderstandingofmanistotallydeprivedofdivinelightandhisaffectionobstinatelyturnedawayfromthegoodnessofGod。God,remember,isabeinginfinitelygood,andthereforethelossofsuchabeingmustbealossinfinitelypainful。Inthislifewehavenotaveryclearideaofwhatsuchalossmustbe,butthedamnedinhell,fortheirgreatertorment,haveafullunderstandingofthatwhichtheyhavelost,andunderstandthattheyhavelostitthroughtheirownsinsandhavelostitforever。
AttheveryinstantofdeaththebondsoftheflesharebrokenasunderandthesoulatoncefliestowardsGodastowardsthecentreofherexistence。
Remember,mydearlittleboys,oursoulslongtobewithGod。WecomefromGod,welivebyGod,webelongtoGod:weareHis,inalienablyHis。Godloveswithadivineloveeveryhumansoul,andeveryhumansoullivesinthatlove。Howcoulditbeotherwise?Everybreaththatwedraw,everythoughtofourbrain,everyinstantoflifeproceedsfromGod\'sinexhaustiblegoodness。Andifitbepainforamothertobepartedfromherchild,foramantobeexiledfromhearthandhome,forfriendtobesunderedfromfriend,Othinkwhatpain,whatanguishitmustbeforthepoorsoultobespurnedfromthepresenceofthesupremelygoodandlovingCreatorWhohascalledthatsoulintoexistencefromnothingnessandsustaineditinlifeandloveditwithanimmeasurablelove。This,then,tobeseparatedforeverfromitsgreatestgood,fromGod,andtofeeltheanguishofthatseparation,knowingfullwellthatitisunchangeable:thisisthegreatesttormentwhichthecreatedsouliscapableofbearing,poenadamni,thepainofloss。