第7章

类别:其他 作者:James Joyce字数:18248更新时间:18/12/14 10:08:28
—— Isir?Why,sir? Alittlewaveofquietmirthbrokeforthovertheclassofboysfromtherector\'sgrimsmile。Stephen\'sheartbeganslowlytofoldandfadewithfearlikeawitheringflower。 Therectorwentongravely:—— YouareallfamiliarwiththestoryofthelifeofsaintFrancisXavier,Isuppose,thepatronofyourcollege。HecameofanoldandillustriousSpanishfamilyandyourememberthathewasoneofthefirstfollowersofsaintIgnatius。TheymetinPariswhereFrancisXavierwasprofessorofphilosophyattheuniversity。Thisyoungandbrilliantnoblemanandmanoflettersenteredheartandsoulintotheideasofourgloriousfounderandyouknowthathe,athisowndesire,wassentbysaintIgnatiustopreachtotheIndians。Heiscalled,asyouknow,theapostleoftheIndies。 Hewentfromcountrytocountryintheeast,fromAfricatoIndia,fromIndiatoJapan,baptizingthepeople。Heissaidtohavebaptizedasmanyastenthousandidolatersinonemonth。Itissaidthathisrightarmhadgrownpowerlessfromhavingbeenraisedsooftenovertheheadsofthosewhomhebaptized。HewishedthentogotoChinatowinstillmoresoulsforGodbuthediedoffeverontheislandofSancian。Agreatsaint,saintFrancisXavier!AgreatsoldierofGod! Therectorpausedandthen,shakinghisclaspedhandsbeforehim,wenton:—— Hehadthefaithinhimthatmovesmountains。TenthousandsoulswonforGodinasinglemonth!Thatisatrueconqueror,truetothemottoofourorder:admajoremDeigloriam!Asaintwhohasgreatpowerinheaven,remember:powertointercedeforusinourgrief;powertoobtainwhateverweprayforifitbeforthegoodofoursouls;powerabovealltoobtainforusthegracetorepentifwebeinsin。Agreatsaint,saintFrancisXavier!Agreatfisherofsouls! Heceasedtoshakehisclaspedhandsand,restingthemagainsthisforehead,lookedrightandleftofthemkeenlyathislistenersoutofhisdarksterneyes。 Inthesilencetheirdarkfirekindledtheduskintoatawnyglow。Stephen\'shearthadwithereduplikeaflowerofthedesertthatfeelsthesimoomcomingfromafar—— Rememberonlythylastthingsandthoushaltnotsinforever-wordstaken,mydearlittlebrothersinChrist,fromthebookofEcclesiastes,seventhchapter,fortiethverse。InthenameoftheFatherandoftheSonandoftheHolyGhost。Amen。 Stephensatinthefrontbenchofthechapel。FatherArnallsatatatabletotheleftofthealtar。Heworeabouthisshouldersaheavycloak; hispalefacewasdrawnandhisvoicebrokenwithrheum。Thefigureofhisoldmaster,sostrangelyrearisen,broughtbacktoStephen\'smindhislifeatClongowes:thewideplaygrounds,swarmingwithboys;thesquareditch;thelittlecemeteryoffthemainavenueoflimeswherehehaddreamedofbeingburied;thefirelightonthewalloftheinfirmarywherehelaysick;thesorrowfulfaceofBrotherMichael。Hissoul,asthesememoriescamebacktohim,becameagainachild\'ssoul—— Weareassembledheretoday,mydearlittlebrothersinChrist,foronebriefmomentfarawayfromthebusybustleoftheouterworldtocelebrateandtohonouroneofthegreatestofsaints,theapostleoftheIndies,thepatronsaintalsoofyourcollege,saintFrancisXavier。Yearafteryear,formuchlongerthananyofyou,mydearlittleboys,canrememberorthanIcanremember,theboysofthiscollegehavemetinthisverychapeltomaketheirannualretreatbeforethefeastdayoftheirpatronsaint。Timehasgoneonandbroughtwithititschanges。Eveninthelastfewyearswhatchangescanmostofyounotremember?Manyoftheboyswhosatinthosefrontbenchesafewyearsagoareperhapsnowindistantlands,intheburningtropics,orimmersedinprofessionaldutiesorinseminaries,orvoyagingoverthevastexpanseofthedeepor,itmaybe,alreadycalledbythegreatGodtoanotherlifeandtotherenderingupoftheirstewardship。 Andstillastheyearsrollby,bringingwiththemchangesforgoodandbad,thememoryofthegreatsaintishonouredbytheboysofthiscollegewhomakeeveryyeartheirannualretreatonthedaysprecedingthefeastdaysetapartbyourHolyMothertheChurchtotransmittoalltheagesthenameandfameofoneofthegreatestsonsofcatholicSpain—— NowwhatisthemeaningofthiswordretreatandwhyisitallowedonallhandstobeamostsalutarypracticeforallwhodesiretoleadbeforeGodandintheeyesofmenatrulychristianlife?Aretreat,mydearboys,signifiesawithdrawalforawhilefromthecaresofourlife,thecaresofthisworkadayworld,inordertoexaminethestateofourconscience,toreflectonthemysteriesofholyreligionandtounderstandbetterwhywearehereinthisworld。DuringthesefewdaysIintendtoputbeforeyousomethoughtsconcerningthefourlastthings。Theyare,asyouknowfromyourcatechism,death,judgement,hell,andheaven。Weshalltrytounderstandthemfullyduringthesefewdayssothatwemayderivefromtheunderstandingofthemalastingbenefittooursouls。Andremember,mydearboys,thatwehavebeensentintothisworldforonethingandforonethingalone:todoGod\'sholywillandtosaveourimmortalsouls。Allelseisworthless。Onethingaloneisneedful,thesalvationofone\'ssoul。Whatdothitprofitamantogainthewholeworldifhesufferthelossofhisimmortalsoul?Ah,mydearboys,believemethereisnothinginthiswretchedworldthatcanmakeupforsuchaloss—— Iwillaskyou,therefore,mydearboys,toputawayfromyourmindsduringthesefewdaysallworldlythoughts,whetherofstudyorpleasureorambition,andtogiveallyourattentiontothestateofyoursouls。 Ineedhardlyremindyouthatduringthedaysoftheretreatallboysareexpectedtopreserveaquietandpiousdemeanourandtoshunallloudunseemlypleasure。Theelderboys,ofcourse,willseethatthiscustomisnotinfringedandIlookespeciallytotheprefectsandofficersofthesodalityofOurBlessedLadyandofthesodalityoftheholyangelstosetagoodexampletotheirfellow-students—— Letustry,therefore,tomakethisretreatinhonourofsaintFranciswithourwholeheartandourwholemind。God\'sblessingwillthenbeuponallyouryear\'sstudies。But,aboveandbeyondall,letthisretreatbeonetowhichyoucanlookbackinafteryearswhenmaybeyouarefarfromthiscollegeandamongverydifferentsurroundings,towhichyoucanlookbackwithjoyandthankfulnessandgivethankstoGodforhavinggrantedyouthisoccasionoflayingthefirstfoundationofapioushonourablezealouschristianlife。Andif,asmaysohappen,therebeatthismomentinthesebenchesanypoorsoulwhohashadtheunutterablemisfortunetoloseGod\'sholygraceandtofallintogrievoussin,Iferventlytrustandpraythatthisretreatmaybetheturningpointinthelifeofthatsoul。IpraytoGodthroughthemeritsofHiszealousservantFrancisXavier,thatsuchasoulmaybeledtosincererepentanceandthattheholycommuniononsaintFrancis\'sdayofthisyearmaybealastingcovenantbetweenGodandthatsoul。Forjustandunjust,forsaintandsinneralike,maythisretreatbeamemorableone—— Helpme,mydearlittlebrothersinChrist。Helpmebyyourpiousattention,byyourowndevotion,byyouroutwarddemeanour。Banishfromyourmindsallworldlythoughtsandthinkonlyofthelastthings,death,judgement,hell,andheaven。Hewhoremembersthesethings,saysEcclesiastes,shallnotsinforever。Hewhoremembersthelastthingswillactandthinkwiththemalwaysbeforehiseyes。Hewillliveagoodlifeanddieagooddeath,believingandknowingthat,ifhehassacrificedmuchinthisearthlylife,itwillbegiventohimahundredfoldandathousandfoldmoreinthelifetocome,inthekingdomwithoutend-ablessing,mydearboys,whichIwishyoufrommyheart,oneandall,inthenameoftheFatherandoftheSonandoftheHolyGhost。Amen! Ashewalkedhomewithsilentcompanions,athickfogseemedtocompasshismind。Hewaitedinstuporofmindtillitshouldliftandrevealwhatithadhidden。Heatehisdinnerwithsurlyappetiteandwhenthemealwasoverandthegrease-strewnplateslayabandonedonthetable,heroseandwenttothewindow,clearingthethickscumfromhismouthwithhistongueandlickingitfromhislips。Sohehadsunktothestateofabeastthatlickshischapsaftermeat。Thiswastheend;andafaintglimmeroffearbegantopiercethefogofhismind。Hepressedhisfaceagainstthepaneofthewindowandgazedoutintothedarkeningstreet。Formspassedthiswayandthatthroughthedulllight。Andthatwaslife。ThelettersofthenameofDublinlayheavilyuponhismind,pushingoneanothersurlilyhitherandthitherwithslowboorishinsistence。Hissoulwasfatteningandcongealingintoagrossgrease,plungingeverdeeperinitsdullfearintoasombrethreateningduskwhilethebodythatwashisstood,listlessanddishonoured,gazingoutofdarkenedeyes,helpless,perturbed,andhumanforabovinegodtostareupon。 Thenextdaybroughtdeathandjudgement,stirringhissoulslowlyfromitslistlessdespair。Thefaintglimmeroffearbecameaterrorofspiritasthehoarsevoiceofthepreacherblewdeathintohissoul。Hesuffereditsagony。Hefeltthedeathchilltouchtheextremitiesandcreeponwardtowardstheheart,thefilmofdeathveilingtheeyes,thebrightcentresofthebrainextinguishedonebyonelikelamps,thelastsweatoozingupontheskin,thepowerlessnessofthedyinglimbs,thespeechthickeningandwanderingandfailing,theheartthrobbingfaintlyandmorefaintly,allbutvanquished,thebreath,thepoorbreath,thepoorhelplesshumanspirit,sobbingandsighing,gurglingandrattlinginthethroat。Nohelp! Nohelp!He-hehimself-hisbodytowhichhehadyieldedwasdying。 Intothegravewithit。Nailitdownintoawoodenboxthecorpse。Carryitoutofthehouseontheshouldersofhirelings。Thrustitoutofmen\'ssightintoalongholeintheground,intothegrave,torot,tofeedthemassofitscreepingwormsandtobedevouredbyscuttlingplump-belliedrats。 Andwhilethefriendswerestillstandingintearsbythebedsidethesoulofthesinnerwasjudged。Atthelastmomentofconsciousnessthewholeearthlylifepassedbeforethevisionofthesouland,ereithadtimetoreflect,thebodyhaddiedandthesoulstoodterrifiedbeforethejudgementseat。God,whohadlongbeenmerciful,wouldthenbejust。 Hehadlongbeenpatient,pleadingwiththesinfulsoul,givingittimetorepent,sparingityetawhile。Butthattimehadgone。Timewastosinandtoenjoy,timewastoscoffatGodandatthewarningsofHisholychurch,timewastodefyHismajesty,todisobeyHiscommands,tohoodwinkone\'sfellowmen,tocommitsinaftersinandtohideone\'scorruptionfromthesightofmen。Butthattimewasover。NowitwasGod\'sturn:andHewasnottobehoodwinkedordeceived。Everysinwouldthencomeforthfromitslurkingplace,themostrebelliousagainstthedivinewillandthemostdegradingtoourpoorcorruptnature,thetiniestimperfectionandthemostheinousatrocity。Whatdiditavailthentohavebeenagreatemperor,agreatgeneral,amarvellousinventor,themostlearnedofthelearned?AllwereasonebeforethejudgementseatofGod。Hewouldrewardthegoodandpunishthewicked。Onesingleinstantwasenoughforthetrialofaman\'ssoul。Onesingleinstantafterthebody\'sdeath,thesoulhadbeenweighedinthebalance。Theparticularjudgementwasoverandthesoulhadpassedtotheabodeofblissortotheprisonofpurgatoryorhadbeenhurledhowlingintohell。 Norwasthatall。God\'sjusticehadstilltobevindicatedbeforemen: aftertheparticulartherestillremainedthegeneraljudgement。Thelastdayhadcome。Thedoomsdaywasathand。Thestarsofheavenwerefallingupontheearthlikethefigscastbythefig-treewhichthewindhasshaken。 Thesun,thegreatluminaryoftheuniverse,hadbecomeassackclothofhair。Themoonwasblood-red。Thefirmamentwasasascrollrolledaway。 ThearchangelMichael,theprinceoftheheavenlyhost,appearedgloriousandterribleagainstthesky。Withonefootontheseaandonefootonthelandheblewfromthearch-angelicaltrumpetthebrazendeathoftime。 Thethreeblastsoftheangelfilledalltheuniverse。Timeis,timewas,buttimeshallbenomore。AtthelastblastthesoulsofuniversalhumanitythrongtowardsthevalleyofJehoshaphat,richandpoor,gentleandsimple,wiseandfoolish,goodandwicked。Thesoulofeveryhumanbeingthathaseverexisted,thesoulsofallthosewhoshallyetbeborn,allthesonsanddaughtersofAdam,allareassembledonthatsupremeday。Andlo,thesupremejudgeiscoming!NolongerthelowlyLambofGod,nolongerthemeekJesusofNazareth,nolongertheManofSorrows,nolongertheGoodShepherd,Heisseennowcomingupontheclouds,ingreatpowerandmajesty,attendedbyninechoirsofangels,angelsandarchangels,principalities,powersandvirtues,thronesanddominations,cherubimandseraphim,GodOmnipotent,GodEverlasting。Hespeaks:andHisvoiceisheardevenatthefarthestlimitsofspace,evenInthebottomlessabyss。SupremeJudge,fromHissentence therewillbeandcanbenoappeal。HecallsthejusttoHisside,biddingthementerintothekingdom,theeternityofblisspreparedforthem。TheunjustHecastsfromHim,cryinginHisoffendedmajesty:Departfromme,yecursed,intoeverlastingfirewhichwaspreparedforthedevilandhisangels。O,whatagonythenforthemiserablesinners!Friendistornapartfromfriend,childrenaretornfromtheirparents,husbandsfromtheirwives。Thepoorsinnerholdsouthisarmstothosewhoweredeartohiminthisearthlyworld,tothosewhosesimplepietyperhapshemadeamockof,tothosewhocounselledhimandtriedtoleadhimontherightpath,toakindbrother,toalovingsister,tothemotherandfatherwholovedhimsodearly。Butitistoolate:thejustturnawayfromthewretcheddamnedsoulswhichnowappearbeforetheeyesofallintheirhideousandevilcharacter。Oyouhypocrites,O,youwhitedsepulchres,Oyouwhopresentasmoothsmilingfacetotheworldwhileyoursoulwithinisafoulswampofsin,howwillitfarewithyouinthatterribleday? Andthisdaywillcome,shallcome,mustcome:thedayofdeathandthedayofjudgement。Itisappointeduntomantodieandafterdeaththejudgement。Deathiscertain。Thetimeandmannerareuncertain,whetherfromlongdiseaseorfromsomeunexpectedaccident:theSonofGodcomethatanhourwhenyoulittleexpectHim。Bethereforereadyeverymoment,seeingthatyoumaydieatanymoment。Deathistheendofusall。Deathandjudgement,broughtintotheworldbythesinofourfirstparents,arethedarkportalsthatcloseourearthlyexistence,theportalsthatopenintotheunknownandtheunseen,portalsthroughwhicheverysoulmustpass,alone,unaidedsavebyitsgoodworks,withoutfriendorbrotherorparentormastertohelpit,aloneandtrembling。Letthatthoughtbeeverbeforeourmindsandthenwecannotsin。Death,acauseofterrortothesinner,isablessedmomentforhimwhohaswalkedintherightpath,fulfillingthedutiesofhisstationinlife,attendingtohismorningandeveningprayers,approachingtheholysacramentfrequentlyandperforminggoodandmercifulworks。Forthepiousandbelievingcatholic,forthejustman,deathisnocauseofterror。WasitnotAddison,thegreatEnglishwriter,who,whenonhisdeathbed,sentforthewickedyoungearlofWarwicktolethimseehowachristiancanmeethisend?Heitisandhealone,thepiousandbelievingchristian,whocansayinhisheart:Ograve,whereisthyvictory? Odeath,whereisthysting?Everywordofitwasforhim。Againsthissin,foulandsecret,thewholewrathofGodwasaimed。Thepreacher\'sknifehadprobeddeeplyintohisdisclosedconscienceandhefeltnowthathissoulwasfesteringinsin。 Yes,thepreacherwasright。God\'sturnhadcome。Likeabeastinitslairhissoulhadlaindowninitsownfilthbuttheblastsoftheangel\'strumpethaddrivenhimforthfromthedarknessofsinintothelight。Thewordsofdoomcriedbytheangelshatteredinaninstanthispresumptuouspeace。 Thewindofthelastdayblewthroughhismind,hissins,thejewel-eyedharlotsofhisimagination,fledbeforethehurricane,squeakinglikemiceintheirterrorandhuddledunderamaneofhair。 Ashecrossedthesquare,walkinghomeward,thelightlaughterofagirlreachedhisburningear。Thefrailgaysoundsmotehisheartmorestronglythanatrumpetblast,and,notdaringtolifthiseyes,heturnedasideandgazed,ashewalked,intotheshadowofthetangledshrubs。Shamerosefromhissmittenheartandfloodedhiswholebeing。TheimageofEmmaappearedbeforehim,andunderhereyesthefloodofshamerushedforthanewfromhisheart。Ifsheknewtowhathismindhadsubjectedherorhowhisbrute-likelusthadtornandtrampleduponherinnocence!Wasthatboyishlove?Wasthatchivalry?Wasthatpoetry?Thesordiddetailsofhisorgiesstankunderhisverynostrils。Thesoot-coatedpacketofpictureswhichhehadhiddenintheflueofthefireplaceandinthepresenceofwhoseshamelessorbashfulwantonnesshelayforhourssinningInthoughtanddeed;hismonstrousdreams,peopledbyape-likecreaturesandbyharlotswithgleamingjeweleyes;thefoullonglettershehadwritteninthejoyofguiltyconfessionandcarriedsecretlyfordaysanddaysonlytothrowthemundercoverofnightamongthegrassinthecornerofafieldorbeneathsomehingelessdoorinsomenicheinthehedgeswhereagirlmightcomeuponthemasshewalkedbyandreadthemsecretly。Mad!Mad!Wasitpossiblehehaddonethesethings?Acoldsweatbrokeoutuponhisforeheadasthefoulmemoriescondensedwithinhisbrain。 Whentheagonyofshamehadpassedfromhimhetriedtoraisehissoulfromitsabjectpowerlessness。GodandtheBlessedVirginweretoofarfromhim:GodwastoogreatandsternandtheBlessedVirgintoopureandholy。ButheimaginedthathestoodnearEmmainawidelandand,humblyandintears,bentandkissedtheelbowofhersleeve。 Inthewidelandunderatenderlucideveningsky,aclouddriftingwestwardamidapalegreenseaofheaven,theystoodtogether,childrenthathaderred。TheirerrorhadoffendeddeeplyGod\'smajestythoughitwastheerroroftwochildren;butithadnotoffendedherwhosebeautyisnotlikeearthlybeauty,dangeroustolookupon,butlikethemorningstarwhich。isitsemblem,brightandmusical。Theeyeswerenotoffendedwhichsheturneduponhimnorreproachful。Sheplacedtheirhandstogether,handinhand,andsaid,speakingtotheirhearts:—— Takehands,StephenandEmma。Itisabeautifuleveningnowinheaven。 Youhaveerredbutyouarealwaysmychildren。Itisoneheartthatlovesanotherheart。Takehandstogether,mydearchildren,andyouwillbehappytogetherandyourheartswillloveeachother。 Thechapelwasfloodedbythedullscarletlightthatfilteredthroughtheloweredblinds;andthroughthefissurebetweenthelastblindandthesashashaftofwanlightenteredlikeaspearandtouchedtheembossedbrassesofthecandlesticksuponthealtarthatgleamedlikethebattle-wornmailarmourofangels。 Rainwasfallingonthechapel,onthegarden,onthecollege。Itwouldrainforever,noiselessly。Thewaterwouldriseinchbyinch,coveringthegrassandshrubs,coveringthetreesandhouses,coveringthemonumentsandthemountaintops。Alllifewouldbechokedoff,noiselessly:birds,men,elephants,pigs,children:noiselesslyfloatingcorpsesamidthelitterofthewreckageoftheworld。Fortydaysandfortynightstherainwouldfalltillthewaterscoveredthefaceoftheearth。 Itmightbe。Whynot?—— Hellhasenlargeditssoulandopeneditsmouthwithoutanylimits-wordstaken,mydearlittlebrothersinChristJesus,fromthebookofIsaias,fifthchapter,fourteenthverse。InthenameoftheFatherandoftheSonandoftheHolyGhost。Amen。 Thepreachertookachainlesswatchfromapocketwithinhissoutaneand,havingconsidereditsdialforamomentinsilence,placeditsilentlybeforehimonthetable。 Hebegantospeakinaquiettone—— AdamandEve,mydearboys,were,asyouknow,ourfirstparents,andyouwillrememberthattheywerecreatedbyGodinorderthattheseatsinheavenleftvacantbythefallofLuciferandhisrebelliousangelsmightbefilledagain。Lucifer,wearetold,wasasonofthemorning,aradiantandmightyangel;yethefell:hefellandtherefellwithhimathirdpartofthehostofheaven:hefellandwashurledwithhisrebelliousangelsintohell。Whathissinwaswecannotsay。Theologiansconsiderthatitwasthesinofpride,thesinfulthoughtconceivedinaninstant:nonserviam:Iwillnotserve。Thatinstantwashisruin。 HeoffendedthemajestyofGodbythesinfulthoughtofoneinstantandGodcasthimoutofheavenintohellforever—— AdamandEvewerethencreatedbyGodandplacedinEden,intheplainofDamascus,thatlovelygardenresplendentwithsunlightandcolour,teemingwithluxuriantvegetation。Thefruitfulearthgavethemherbounty: beastsandbirdsweretheirwillingservants:theyknewnottheillsourfleshisheirto,diseaseandpovertyanddeath:allthatagreatandgenerousGodcoulddoforthemwasdone。ButtherewasoneconditionimposedonthembyGod:obediencetoHisword。Theywerenottoeatofthefruitoftheforbiddentree—— Alas,mydearlittleboys,theytoofell。Thedevil,onceashiningangel,asonofthemorning,nowafoulfiendcameintheshapeofaserpent,thesubtlestofallthebeastsofthefield。Heenviedthem。He,thefallengreatone,couldnotbeartothinkthatman,abeingofclay,shouldpossesstheinheritancewhichhebyhissinhadforfeitedforever。Hecametothewoman,theweakervessel,andpouredthepoisonofhiseloquenceintoherear,promisingher-O,theblasphemyofthatpromise!-thatifsheandAdamateoftheforbiddenfruittheywouldbecomeasgods,nayasGodHimself。Eveyieldedtothewilesofthearchtempter。SheatetheappleandgaveitalsotoAdamwhohadnotthemoralcouragetoresisther。ThepoisontongueofSatanhaddoneitswork。Theyfell—— AndthenthevoiceofGodwasheardinthatgarden,callingHiscreaturemantoaccount:andMichael,princeoftheheavenlyhost,withaswordofflameinhishand,appearedbeforetheguiltypairanddrovethemforthfromEdenintotheworld,theworldofsicknessandstriving,ofcrueltyanddisappointment,oflabourandhardship,toearntheirbreadinthesweatoftheirbrow。ButeventhenhowmercifulwasGod!HetookpityonourpoordegradedparentsandpromisedthatinthefullnessoftimeHewouldsenddownfromheavenOnewhowouldredeemthem,makethemoncemorechildrenofGodandheirstothekingdomofheaven:andthatOne,thatRedeemeroffallenman,wastobeGod\'sonlybegottenSon,theSecondPersonoftheMostBlessedTrinity,theEternalWord—— Hecame。Hewasbornofavirginpure,Marythevirginmother。HewasborninapoorcowhouseinJudeaandlivedasahumblecarpenterforthirtyyearsuntilthehourofHismissionhadcome。Andthen,filledwithloveformen,Hewentforthandcalledtomentohearthenewgospel—— Didtheylisten?Yes,theylistenedbutwouldnothear。Hewasseizedandboundlikeacommoncriminal,mockedatasafool,setasidetogiveplacetoapublicrobber,scourgedwithfivethousandlashes,crownedwithacrownofthorns,hustledthroughthestreetsbythejewishrabbleandtheRomansoldiery,strippedofhisgarmentsandhangeduponagibbetandHissidewaspiercedwithalanceandfromthewoundedbodyofourLordwaterandbloodissuedcontinually—— Yeteventhen,inthathourofsupremeagony,OurMercifulRedeemerhadpityformankind。Yeteventhere,onthehillofCalvary,Hefoundedtheholycatholicchurchagainstwhich,itispromised,thegatesofhellshallnotprevail。Hefoundeditupontherockofages,andendoweditwithHisgrace,withsacramentsandsacrifice,andpromisedthatifmenwouldobeythewordofHischurchtheywouldstillenterintoeternallife; butif,afterallthathadbeendoneforthem,theystillpersistedintheirwickedness,thereremainedforthemaneternityoftorment:hell。 Thepreacher\'svoicesank。Hepaused,joinedhispalmsforaninstant,partedthem。Thenheresumed:—— Nowletustryforamomenttorealize,asfaraswecan,thenatureofthatabodeofthedamnedwhichthejusticeofanoffendedGodhascalledintoexistencefortheeternalpunishmentofsinners。Hellisastraitanddarkandfoul-smellingprison,anabodeofdemonsandlostsouls,filledwithfireandsmoke。ThestraitnessofthisprisonhouseisexpresslydesignedbyGodtopunishthosewhorefusedtobeboundbyHislaws。Inearthlyprisonsthepoorcaptivehasatleastsomelibertyofmovement,wereitonlywithinthefourwallsofhiscellorinthegloomyyardofhisprison。 Notsoinhell。There,byreasonofthegreatnumberofthedamned,theprisonersareheapedtogetherintheirawfulprison,thewallsofwhicharesaidtobefourthousandmilesthick:andthedamnedaresoutterlyboundandhelplessthat,asablessedsaint,saintAnselm,writesinhisbookonsimilitudes,theyarenotevenabletoremovefromtheeyeawormthatgnawsit—— Theylieinexteriordarkness。For,remember,thefireofhellgivesforthnolight。As,atthecommandofGod,thefireoftheBabylonianfurnacelostitsheatbutnotitslight,so,atthecommandofGod,thefireofhell,whileretainingtheintensityofitsheat,burnseternallyindarkness。 Itisaneverendingstormofdarkness,darkflamesanddarksmokeofburningbrimstone,amidwhichthebodiesareheapedoneuponanotherwithoutevenaglimpseofair。OfalltheplagueswithwhichthelandofthePharaohsweresmittenoneplaguealone,thatofdarkness,wascalledhorrible。Whatname,then,shallwegivetothedarknessofhellwhichistolastnotforthreedaysalonebutforalleternity?—— Thehorrorofthisstraitanddarkprisonisincreasedbyitsawfulstench。Allthefilthoftheworld,alltheoffalandscumoftheworld,wearetold,shallrunthereastoavastreekingsewerwhentheterribleconflagrationofthelastdayhaspurgedtheworld。Thebrimstone,too,whichburnsthereinsuchprodigiousquantityfillsallhellwithitsintolerablestench;andthebodiesofthedamnedthemselvesexhalesuchapestilentialodourthat,assaintBonaventuresays,oneofthemalonewouldsufficetoinfectthewholeworld。Theveryairofthisworld,thatpureelement,becomesfoulandunbreathablewhenithasbeenlongenclosed。Considerthenwhatmustbethefoulnessoftheairofhell。Imaginesomefoulandputridcorpsethathaslainrottinganddecomposinginthegrave,ajelly-likemassofliquidcorruption。Imaginesuchacorpseapreytoflames,devouredbythefireofburningbrimstoneandgivingoffdensechokingfumesofnauseousloathsomedecomposition。Andthenimaginethissickeningstench,multipliedamillionfoldandamillionfoldagainfromthemillionsuponmillionsoffetidcarcassesmassedtogetherinthereekingdarkness,ahugeandrottinghumanfungus。Imagineallthis,andyouwillhavesomeideaofthehorrorofthestenchofhell—— Butthisstenchisnot,horriblethoughitis,thegreatestphysicaltormenttowhichthedamnedaresubjected。Thetormentoffireisthegreatesttormenttowhichthetyranthaseversubjectedhisfellowcreatures。Placeyourfingerforamomentintheflameofacandleandyouwillfeelthepainoffire。ButourearthlyfirewascreatedbyGodforthebenefitofman,tomaintaininhimthesparkoflifeandtohelphimintheusefularts,whereasthefireofhellisofanotherqualityandwascreatedbyGodtotortureandpunishtheunrepentantsinner。Ourearthlyfirealsoconsumesmoreorlessrapidlyaccordingastheobjectwhichitattacksismoreorlesscombustible,sothathumaningenuityhasevensucceededininventingchemicalpreparationstocheckorfrustrateitsaction。Butthesulphurousbrimstonewhichburnsinhellisasubstancewhichisspeciallydesignedtoburnforeverandforeverwithunspeakablefury。Moreover,ourearthlyfiredestroysatthesametimeasitburns,sothatthemoreintenseitistheshorterisitsduration;butthefireofhellhasthisproperty,thatitpreservesthatwhichitburns,and,thoughitrageswithincredibleintensity,itragesforever—— Ourearthlyfireagain,nomatterhowfierceorwidespreaditmaybe,isalwaysofalimitedextent;butthelakeoffireinhellisboundless,shorelessandbottomless。Itisonrecordthatthedevilhimself,whenaskedthequestionbyacertainsoldier,wasobligedtoconfessthatifawholemountainwerethrownintotheburningoceanofhellitwouldbeburnedupInaninstantlikeapieceofwax。Andthisterriblefirewillnotafflictthebodiesofthedamnedonlyfromwithout,buteachlostsoulwillbeahelluntoitself,theboundlessfireraginginitsveryvitals。 O,howterribleisthelotofthosewretchedbeings!Thebloodseethesandboilsintheveins,thebrainsareboilingintheskull,theheartinthebreastglowingandbursting,thebowelsared-hotmassofburningpulp,thetendereyesflaminglikemoltenballs—— AndyetwhatIhavesaidastothestrengthandqualityandboundlessnessofthisfireisasnothingwhencomparedtoitsintensity,anintensitywhichithasasbeingtheinstrumentchosenbydivinedesignforthepunishmentofsoulandbodyalike。ItisafirewhichproceedsdirectlyfromtheireofGod,workingnotofitsownactivitybutasaninstrumentofDivinevengeance。Asthewatersofbaptismcleansethesoulwiththebody,sodothefiresofpunishmenttorturethespiritwiththeflesh。Everysenseofthefleshistorturedandeveryfacultyofthesoultherewith:theeyeswithimpenetrableutterdarkness,thenosewithnoisomeodours,theearswithyellsandhowlsandexecrations,thetastewithfoulmatter,leprouscorruption,namelesssuffocatingfilth,thetouchwithredhotgoadsandspikes,withcrueltonguesofflame。AndthroughtheseveraltormentsofthesensestheimmortalsoulistorturedeternallyinitsveryessenceamidtheleaguesuponleaguesofglowingfireskindledintheabyssbytheoffendedmajestyoftheOmnipotentGodandfannedintoeverlastingandever-increasingfurybythebreathoftheangeroftheGod-head—— Considerfinallythatthetormentofthisinfernalprisonisincreasedbythecompanyofthedamnedthemselves。Evilcompanyonearthissonoxiousthattheplants,asifbyinstinct,withdrawfromthecompanyofwhatsoeverisdeadlyorhurtfultothem。Inhellalllawsareoverturned-thereisnothoughtoffamilyorcountry,ofties,ofrelationships。Thedamnedhowlandscreamatoneanother,theirtortureandrageintensifiedbythepresenceofbeingstorturedandraginglikethemselves。Allsenseofhumanityisforgotten。Theyellsofthesufferingsinnersfilltheremotestcornersofthevastabyss。ThemouthsofthedamnedarefullofblasphemiesagainstGodandofhatredfortheirfellowsufferersandofcursesagainstthosesoulswhichweretheiraccomplicesinsin。Inoldentimesitwasthecustomtopunishtheparricide,themanwhohadraisedhismurderoushandagainsthisfather,bycastinghimintothedepthsoftheseainasackinwhichwereplacedacock,amonkey,andaserpent。Theintentionofthoselaw-giverswhoframedsuchalaw,whichseemscruelinourtimes,wastopunishthecriminalbythecompanyofhurtfulandhatefulbeasts。Butwhatisthefuryofthosedumbbeastscomparedwiththefuryofexecrationwhichburstsfromtheparchedlipsandachingthroatsofthedamnedinhellwhentheybeholdintheircompanionsinmiserythosewhoaidedandabettedtheminsin,thosewhosewordssowedthefirstseedsofevilthinkingandevillivingintheirminds,thosewhoseimmodestsuggestionsledthemontosin,thosewhoseeyestemptedandalluredthemfromthepathofvirtue。 Theyturnuponthoseaccomplicesandupbraidthemandcursethem。Buttheyarehelplessandhopeless:itistoolatenowforrepentance—— Lastofallconsiderthefrightfultormenttothosedamnedsouls,temptersandtemptedalike,ofthecompanyofthedevils。Thesedevilswillafflictthedamnedintwoways,bytheirpresenceandbytheirreproaches。 Wecanhavenoideaofhowhorriblethesedevilsare。SaintCatherineofSienaoncesawadevilandshehaswrittenthat,ratherthanlookagainforonesingleinstantonsuchafrightfulmonster,shewouldprefertowalkuntiltheendofherlifealongatrackofredcoals。Thesedevils,whowereoncebeautifulangels,havebecomeashideousanduglyastheyoncewerebeautiful。Theymockandjeeratthelostsoulswhomtheydraggeddowntoruin。Itisthey,thefouldemons,whoaremadeinhellthevoicesofconscience。Whydidyousin?Whydidyoulendaneartothetemptingsoffriends?Whydidyouturnasidefromyourpiouspracticesandgoodworks? Whydidyounotshuntheoccasionsofsin?Whydidyounotleavethatevilcompanion?Whydidyounotgiveupthatlewdhabit,thatimpurehabit? Whydidyounotlistentothecounselsofyourconfessor?Whydidyounot,evenafteryouhadfallenthefirstorthesecondorthethirdorthefourthorthehundredthtime,repentofyourevilwaysandturntoGodwhoonlywaitedforyourrepentancetoabsolveyouofyoursins?Nowthetimeforrepentancehasgoneby。Timeis,timewas,buttimeshallbenomore!Timewastosininsecrecy,toindulgeinthatslothandpride,tocovettheunlawful,toyieldtothepromptingsofyourlowernature,tolivelikethebeastsofthefield,nayworsethanthebeastsofthefield,forthey,atleast,arebutbrutesandhavenoreasontoguidethem:timewas,buttimeshallbenomore。Godspoketoyoubysomanyvoices,butyouwouldnothear。Youwouldnotcrushoutthatprideandangerinyourheart,youwouldnotrestorethoseill-gottengoods,youwouldnotobeythepreceptsofyourholychurchnorattendtoyourreligiousduties,youwouldnotabandonthosewickedcompanions,youwouldnotavoidthosedangeroustemptations。 Suchisthelanguageofthosefiendishtormentors,wordsoftauntingandofreproach,ofhatredandofdisgust。Ofdisgust,yes!Foreventhey,theverydevils,whentheysinned,sinnedbysuchasinasalonewascompatiblewithsuchangelicalnatures,arebellionoftheintellect:andthey,eventhey,thefouldevilsmustturnaway,revoltedanddisgusted,fromthecontemplationofthoseunspeakablesinsbywhichdegradedmanoutragesanddefilesthetempleoftheHolyGhost,defilesandpolluteshimself—— O,mydearlittlebrothersinChrist,mayitneverbeourlottohearthatlanguage!Mayitneverbeourlot,Isay!InthelastdayofterriblereckoningIprayferventlytoGodthatnotasinglesoulofthosewhoareinthischapeltodaymaybefoundamongthosemiserablebeingswhomtheGreatJudgeshallcommandtodepartforeverfromHissight,thatnotoneofusmayeverhearringinginhisearstheawfulsentenceofrejection:Departfromme,yecursed,intoeverlastingfirewhichwaspreparedforthedevilandhisangels! Hecamedowntheaisleofthechapel,hislegsshakingandthescalpofhisheadtremblingasthoughithadbeentouchedbyghostlyfingers。 Hepassedupthestaircaseandintothecorridoralongthewallsofwhichtheovercoatsandwaterproofshunglikegibbetedmalefactors,headlessanddrippingandshapeless。Andateverystephefearedthathehadalreadydied,thathissoulhadbeenwrenchedforthofthesheathofhisbody,thathewasplungingheadlongthroughspace。 Hecouldnotgripthefloorwithhisfeetandsatheavilyathisdesk,openingoneofhisbooksatrandomandporingoverit。Everywordforhim。 Itwastrue。Godwasalmighty。Godcouldcallhimnow,callhimashesatathisdesk,beforehehadtimetobeconsciousofthesummons。Godhadcalledhim。Yes?What?Yes?Hisfleshshranktogetherasitfelttheapproachoftheravenoustonguesofflames,driedupasitfeltaboutittheswirlofstiflingair。Hehaddied。Yes。Hewasjudged。Awaveoffiresweptthroughhisbody:thefirst。Againawave。Hisbrainbegantoglow。Another。 Hisbrainwassimmeringandbubblingwithinthecrackingtenementoftheskull。Flamesburstforthfromhisskulllikeacorolla,shriekinglikevoices:—— Hell!Hell!Hell!Hell!Hell! Voicesspokenearhim:—— Onhell—— Isupposeherubbeditintoyouwell—— Youbethedid。Heputusallintoabluefunk—— That\'Swhatyoufellowswant:andplentyofittomakeyouwork。 Heleanedbackweaklyinhisdesk。Hehadnotdied。Godhadsparedhimstill。Hewasstillinthefamiliarworldoftheschool。MrTateandVincentHeronstoodatthewindow,talking,jesting,gazingoutatthebleakrain,movingtheirheads—— Iwishitwouldclearup。IhadarrangedtogoforaspinonthebikewithsomefellowsoutbyMalahide。Buttheroadsmustbeknee-deep—— Itmightclearup,sir。 Thevoicesthatheknewsowell,thecommonwords,thequietoftheclassroomwhenthevoicespausedandthesilencewasfilledbythesoundofsoftlybrowsingcattleastheotherboysmunchedtheirlunchestranquilly,lulledhisachingsoul。 Therewasstilltime。OMary,refugeofsinners,intercedeforhim! OVirginUndefiled,savehimfromthegulfofdeath! TheEnglishlessonbeganwiththehearingofthehistory。Royalpersons,favourites,intriguers,bishops,passedlikemutephantomsbehindtheirveilofnames。Allhaddied:allhadbeenjudged。Whatdiditprofitamantogainthewholeworldifhelosthissoul?Atlasthehadunderstood: andhumanlifelayaroundhim,aplainofpeacewhereonant-likemenlabouredinbrotherhood,theirdeadsleepingunderquietmounds。Theelbowofhiscompaniontouchedhimandhisheartwastouched:andwhenhespoketoansweraquestionofhismasterheheardhisownvoicefullofthequietudeofhumilityandcontrition。 Hissoulsankbackdeeperintodepthsofcontritepeace,nolongerabletosufferthepainofdread,andsendingforth,ashesank,afaintprayer。 Ahyes,hewouldstillbespared;hewouldrepentinhisheartandbeforgiven; andthenthoseabove,thoseinheaven,wouldseewhathewoulddotomakeupforthepast:awholelife,everyhouroflife。Onlywait—— All,God!All,all! Amessengercametothedoortosaythatconfessionswerebeingheardinthechapel。Fourboyslefttheroom;andheheardotherspassingdownthecorridor。Atremulouschillblewroundhisheart,nostrongerthanalittlewind,andyet,listeningandsufferingsilently,heseemedtohavelaidanearagainstthemuscleofhisownheart,feelingitcloseandquail,listeningtotheflutterofitsventricles。 Noescape。Hehadtoconfess,tospeakoutinwordswhathehaddoneandthought,sinaftersin。How?How?—— Father,I。 Thethoughtslidlikeacoldshiningrapierintohistenderflesh:confession。 Butnotthereinthechapelofthecollege。Hewouldconfessall,everysinofdeedandthought,sincerely;butnotthereamonghisschoolcompanions。 Farawayfromthereinsomedarkplacehewouldmurmurouthisownshame; andhebesoughtGodhumblynottobeoffendedwithhimifhedidnotdaretoconfessinthecollegechapelandinutterabjectionofspirithecravedforgivenessmutelyoftheboyishheartsabouthim。 Timepassed。 Hesatagaininthefrontbenchofthechapel。Thedaylightwithoutwasalreadyfailingand,asitfellslowlythroughthedullredblinds,itseemedthatthesunofthelastdaywasgoingdownandthatallsoulswerebeinggatheredforthejudgement—— IamcastawayfromthesightofThineeyes:wordstaken,mydearlittlebrothersinChrist,fromtheBookofPsalms,thirtiethchapter,twenty-thirdverse。InthenameoftheFatherandoftheSonandoftheHolyGhost。Amen。 Thepreacherbegantospeakinaquietfriendlytone。Hisfacewaskindandhejoinedgentlythefingersofeachhand,formingafrailcagebytheunionoftheirtips—— Thismorningweendeavoured,inourreflectionuponhell,tomakewhatourholyfoundercallsinhisbookofspiritualexercises,thecompositionofplace。Weendeavoured,thatis,toimaginewiththesensesofthemind,inourimagination,thematerialcharacterofthatawfulplaceandofthephysicaltormentswhichallwhoareinhellendure。Thiseveningweshallconsiderforafewmomentsthenatureofthespiritualtormentsofhell—— Sin,remember,isatwofoldenormity。Itisabaseconsenttothepromptingsofourcorruptnaturetothelowerinstincts,tothatwhichisgrossandbeast-like;anditisalsoaturningawayfromthecounselofourhighernature,fromallthatispureandholy,fromtheHolyGodHimself。Forthisreasonmortalsinispunishedinhellbytwodifferentformsofpunishment,physicalandspiritual。 Nowofallthesespiritualpainsbyfarthegreatestisthepainofloss,sogreat,infact,thatinitselfitisatormentgreaterthanalltheothers。SaintThomas,thegreatestdoctorofthechurch,theangelicdoctor,asheiscalled,saysthattheworstdamnationconsistsinthis,thattheunderstandingofmanistotallydeprivedofdivinelightandhisaffectionobstinatelyturnedawayfromthegoodnessofGod。God,remember,isabeinginfinitelygood,andthereforethelossofsuchabeingmustbealossinfinitelypainful。Inthislifewehavenotaveryclearideaofwhatsuchalossmustbe,butthedamnedinhell,fortheirgreatertorment,haveafullunderstandingofthatwhichtheyhavelost,andunderstandthattheyhavelostitthroughtheirownsinsandhavelostitforever。 AttheveryinstantofdeaththebondsoftheflesharebrokenasunderandthesoulatoncefliestowardsGodastowardsthecentreofherexistence。 Remember,mydearlittleboys,oursoulslongtobewithGod。WecomefromGod,welivebyGod,webelongtoGod:weareHis,inalienablyHis。Godloveswithadivineloveeveryhumansoul,andeveryhumansoullivesinthatlove。Howcoulditbeotherwise?Everybreaththatwedraw,everythoughtofourbrain,everyinstantoflifeproceedsfromGod\'sinexhaustiblegoodness。Andifitbepainforamothertobepartedfromherchild,foramantobeexiledfromhearthandhome,forfriendtobesunderedfromfriend,Othinkwhatpain,whatanguishitmustbeforthepoorsoultobespurnedfromthepresenceofthesupremelygoodandlovingCreatorWhohascalledthatsoulintoexistencefromnothingnessandsustaineditinlifeandloveditwithanimmeasurablelove。This,then,tobeseparatedforeverfromitsgreatestgood,fromGod,andtofeeltheanguishofthatseparation,knowingfullwellthatitisunchangeable:thisisthegreatesttormentwhichthecreatedsouliscapableofbearing,poenadamni,thepainofloss。