第10章

类别:其他 作者:James Joyce字数:14701更新时间:18/12/14 10:08:28
Thenhewonderedatthevaguenessofhiswonder,attheremotenessofhisownsoulfromwhathehadhithertoimaginedhersanctuary,atthefrailholdwhichsomanyyearsoforderandobediencehadofhimwhenonceadefiniteandirrevocableactofhisthreatenedtoendforever,intimeandineternity,hisfreedom。Thevoiceofthedirectorurginguponhimtheproudclaimsofthechurchandthemysteryandpowerofthepriestlyofficerepeateditselfidlyinhismemory。Hissoulwasnottheretohearandgreetitandheknewnowthattheexhortationhehadlistenedtohadalreadyfallenintoanidleformaltale。Hewouldneverswingthethuriblebeforethetabernacleaspriest。Hisdestinywastobeelusiveofsocialorreligiousorders。Thewisdomofthepriest\'sappealdidnottouchhimtothequick。Hewasdestinedtolearnhisownwisdomapartfromothersortolearnthewisdomofothershimselfwanderingamongthesnaresoftheworld。 Thesnaresoftheworldwereitswaysofsin。Hewouldfall。Hehadnotyetfallenbuthewouldfallsilently,inaninstant。Nottofallwastoohard,toohard;andhefeltthesilentlapseofhissoul,asitwouldbeatsomeinstanttocome,falling,falling,butnotyetfallen,stillunfallen,butabouttofall。 HecrossedthebridgeoverthestreamoftheTolkaandturnedhiseyescoldlyforaninstanttowardsthefadedblueshrineoftheBlessedVirginwhichstoodfowl-wiseonapoleinthemiddleofaham-shapedencampmentofpoorcottages。Then,bendingtotheleft,hefollowedthelanewhichleduptohishouse。Thefaintdourstinkofrottedcabbagescametowardshimfromthekitchengardensontherisinggroundabovetheriver。Hesmiledtothinkthatitwasthisdisorder,themisruleandconfusionofhisfather\'shouseandthestagnationofvegetablelife,whichwastowinthedayinhissoul。Thenashortlaughbrokefromhislipsashethoughtofthatsolitaryfarmhandinthekitchengardensbehindtheirhousewhomtheyhadnicknamedthemanwiththehat。Asecondlaugh,takingrisefromthefirstafterapause,brokefromhiminvoluntarilyashethoughtofhowthemanwiththehatworked,consideringinturnthefourpointsoftheskyandthenregretfullyplunginghisspadeintheearth。 Hepushedopenthelatchlessdooroftheporchandpassedthroughthenakedhallwayintothekitchen。Agroupofhisbrothersandsisterswassittingroundthetable。Teawasnearlyoverandonlythelastofthesecondwateredtearemainedinthebottomsofthesmallglassjarsandjampotswhichdidserviceforteacups。Discardedcrustsandlumpsofsugaredbread,turnedbrownbytheteawhichhadbeenpouredoverthem,layscatteredonthetable。Littlewellsoftealayhereandthereontheboard,andaknifewithabrokenivoryhandlewasstuckthroughthepithofaravagedturnover。 Thesadquietgrey-blueglowofthedyingdaycamethroughthewindowandtheopendoor,coveringoverandallayingquietlyasuddeninstinctofremorseinStephen\'sheart。Allthathadbeendeniedthemhadbeenfreelygiventohim,theeldest;butthequietglowofeveningshowedhimintheirfacesnosignofrancour。 Hesatnearthematthetableandaskedwherehisfatherandmotherwere。Oneanswered:—— Goneborotoborolookboroatboroaborohouseboro。 Stillanotherremoval!AboynamedFalloninBelvederehadoftenaskedhimwithasillylaughwhytheymovedsooften。Afrownofscorndarkenedquicklyhisforeheadasheheardagainthesillylaughofthequestioner。 Heasked:—— Whyareweonthemoveagainifit\'safairquestion?—— Becauseborotheborolandborolordborowillboroputborousborooutboro。 ThevoiceofhisyoungestbrotherfromthefarthersideofthefireplacebegantosingtheairOftintheStillyNight。Onebyonetheotherstookuptheairuntilafullchoirofvoiceswassinging。Theywouldsingsoforhours,melodyaftermelody,gleeafterglee,tillthelastpalelightdieddownonthehorizon,tillthefirstdarknightcloudscameforthandnightfell。 Hewaitedforsomemoments,listening,beforehetootookuptheairwiththem。Hewaslisteningwithpainofspirittotheovertoneofwearinessbehindtheirfrailfreshinnocentvoices。Evenbeforetheysetoutonlife\'sjourneytheyseemedwearyalreadyoftheway。 Heheardthechoirofvoicesinthekitchenechoedandmultipliedthroughanendlessreverberationofthechoirsofendlessgenerationsofchildrenandheardinalltheechoesanechoalsooftherecurringnoteofwearinessandpain。Allseemedwearyoflifeevenbeforeenteringuponit。AndherememberedthatNewmanhadheardthisnotealsointhebrokenlinesofVirgil,givingutterance,likethevoiceofNatureherselftothatpainandwearinessyethopeofbetterthingswhichhasbeentheexperienceofherchildrenineverytime。 Hecouldwaitnolonger。 FromthedoorofByron\'spublic-housetothegateofClontarfChapel,fromthegateofClontailChapeltothedoorofByron\'spublic-houseandthenbackagaintothechapelandthenbackagaintothepublic-househehadpacedslowlyatfirst,plantinghisstepsscrupulouslyinthespacesofthepatchworkofthefootpath,thentimingtheirfalltothefallofverses。AfullhourhadpassedsincehisfatherhadgoneinwithDanCrosby,thetutor,tofindoutforhimsomethingabouttheuniversity。Forafullhourhehadpacedupanddown,waiting:buthecouldwaitnolonger。 HesetoffabruptlyfortheBull,walkingrapidlylesthisfather\'sshrillwhistlemightcallhimback;andinafewmomentshehadroundedthecurveatthepolicebarrackandwassafe。 Yes,hismotherwashostiletotheidea,ashehadreadfromherlistlesssilence。Yethermistrustprickedhimmorekeenlythanhisfather\'sprideandhethoughtcoldlyhowhehadwatchedthefaithwhichwasfadingdowninhissoulageingandstrengtheninginhereyes。Adimantagonismgatheredforcewithinhimanddarkenedhismindasacloudagainstherdisloyaltyandwhenitpassed,cloud-like,leavinghismindsereneanddutifultowardsheragain,hewasmadeawaredimlyandwithoutregretofafirstnoiselesssunderingoftheirlives。 Theuniversity!Sohehadpassedbeyondthechallengeofthesentrieswhohadstoodasguardiansofhisboyhoodandhadsoughttokeephimamongthemthathemightbesubjecttothemandservetheirends。Prideaftersatisfactionupliftedhimlikelongslowwaves。Theendhehadbeenborntoserveyetdidnotseehadledhimtoescapebyanunseenpathandnowitbeckonedtohimoncemoreandanewadventurewasabouttobeopenedtohim。Itseemedtohimthatheheardnotesoffitfulmusicleapingupwardsatoneanddownwardsadiminishedfourth,upwardsatoneanddownwardsamajorthird,liketriple-branchingflamesleapingfitfully,flameafterflame,outofamidnightwood。Itwasanelfinprelude,endlessandformless; and,asitgrewwilderandfaster,theflamesleapingoutoftime,heseemedtohearfromundertheboughsandgrasseswildcreaturesracing,theirfeetpatteringlikerainupontheleaves。Theirfeetpassedinpatteringtumultoverhismind,thefeetofharesandrabbits,thefeetofhartsandhindsandantelopes,untilheheardthemnomoreandrememberedonlyaproudcadencefromNewman:—— Whosefeetareasthefeetofhartsandunderneaththeeverlastingarms。 Theprideofthatdimimagebroughtbacktohismindthedignityoftheofficehehadrefused。Allthroughhisboyhoodhehadmuseduponthatwhichhehadsooftenthoughttobehisdestinyandwhenthemomenthadcomeforhimtoobeythecallhehadturnedaside,obeyingawaywardinstinct。 Nowtimelaybetween:theoilsofordinationwouldneveranointhisbody。 Hehadrefused。Why? HeturnedseawardfromtheroadatDollymountandashepassedontothethinwoodenbridgehefelttheplanksshakingwiththetrampofheavilyshodfeet。AsquadofchristianbrotherswasonitswaybackfromtheBullandhadbeguntopass,twobytwo,acrossthebridge。Soonthewholebridgewastremblingandresounding。Theuncouthfacespassedhimtwobytwo,stainedyelloworredorlividbythesea,and,ashestrovetolookatthemwitheaseandindifference,afaintstainofpersonalshameandcommiserationrosetohisownface。Angrywithhimselfhetriedtohidehisfacefromtheireyesbygazingdownsidewaysintotheshallowswirlingwaterunderthebridgebuthestillsawareflectionthereinoftheirtop-heavysilkhatsandhumbletape-likecollarsandloosely-hangingclericalclothes—— BrotherHickey。 BrotherQuaid。 BrotherMacArdle。 BrotherKeogh—— Theirpietywouldbeliketheirnames,liketheirfaces,liketheirclothes,anditwasidleforhimtotellhimselfthattheirhumbleandcontritehearts,itmightbe,paidafarrichertributeofdevotionthanhishadeverbeen,agifttenfoldmoreacceptablethanhiselaborateadoration。 Itwasidleforhimtomovehimselftobegeneroustowardsthem,totellhimselfthatifheevercametotheirgates,strippedofhispride,beatenandinbeggar\'sweeds,thattheywouldbegeneroustowardshim,lovinghimasthemselves。Idleandembittering,finally,toargue,againsthisowndispassionatecertitude,thatthecommandmentoflovebadeusnottoloveourneighbourasourselveswiththesameamountandintensityoflovebuttolovehimasourselveswiththesamekindoflove。 Hedrewforthaphrasefromhistreasureandspokeitsoftlytohimself:—— Adayofdappledseaborneclouds。 Thephraseandthedayandthesceneharmonizedinachord。Words。Wasittheircolours?Heallowedthemtoglowandfade,hueafterhue:sunrisegold,therussetandgreenofappleorchards,azureofwaves,thegrey-fringedfleeceofclouds。No,itwasnottheircolours:itwasthepoiseandbalanceoftheperioditself。Didhethenlovetherhythmicriseandfallofwordsbetterthantheirassociationsoflegendandcolour?Orwasitthat,beingasweakofsightashewasshyofmind,hedrewlesspleasurefromthereflectionoftheglowingsensibleworldthroughtheprismofalanguagemany-colouredandrichlystoriedthanfromthecontemplationofaninnerworldofindividualemotionsmirroredperfectlyinalucidsuppleperiodicprose? Hepassedfromthetremblingbridgeontofirmlandagain。Atthatinstant,asitseemedtohim,theairwaschilledand,lookingaskancetowardsthewater,hesawaflyingsqualldarkeningandcrispingsuddenlythetide。 Afaintclickathisheart,afaintthrobinhisthroattoldhimoncemoreofhowhisfleshdreadedthecoldinfrahumanodourofthesea;yethedidnotstrikeacrossthedownsonhisleftbutheldstraightonalongthespineofrocksthatpointedagainsttheriver\'smouth。 Aveiledsunlightlitupfaintlythegreysheetofwaterwheretheriverwasembayed。Inthedistancealongthecourseoftheslow-flowingLiffeyslendermastsfleckedtheskyand,moredistantstill,thedimfabricofthecitylayproneinhaze。Likeasceneonsomevaguearras,oldasman\'sweariness,theimageoftheseventhcityofchristendomwasvisibletohimacrossthetimelessair,nooldernormorewearynorlesspatientofsubjectionthaninthedaysofthethingmote。 Disheartened,heraisedhiseyestowardstheslow-driftingclouds,dappledandseaborne。Theywerevoyagingacrossthedesertsofthesky,ahostofnomadsonthemarch,voyaginghighoverIreland,westwardbound。TheEuropetheyhadcomefromlayouttherebeyondtheIrishSea,Europeofstrangetonguesandvalleyedandwoodbegirtandcitadelledandofentrenchedandmarshalledraces。Heheardaconfusedmusicwithinhimasofmemoriesandnameswhichhewasalmostconsciousofbutcouldnotcaptureevenforaninstant;thenthemusicseemedtorecede,torecede,torecede,andfromeachrecedingtrailofnebulousmusictherefellalwaysonelongdrawncallingnote,piercinglikeastartheduskofsilence。Again!Again!Again! Avoicefrombeyondtheworldwascalling—— Hello,Stephanos!—— HerecomesTheDedalus!—— Ao!Eh,giveitover,Dwyer,I\'mtellingyou,orI\'llgiveyouastuffinthekisserforyourselfAo!—— Goodman,Towser!Duckhim!—— Comealong,Dedalus!BousStephanoumenos!BousStephaneforos!—— Duckhim!Guzzlehimnow,Towser!—— Help!Help!Ao! Herecognizedtheirspeechcollectivelybeforehedistinguishedtheirfaces。Themeresightofthatmedleyofwetnakednesschilledhimtothebone。Theirbodies,corpse-whiteorsuffusedwithapallidgoldenlightorrawlytannedbythesun,gleamedwiththewetofthesea。Theirdiving-stone,poisedonitsrudesupportsandrockingundertheirplunges,andtherough-hewnstonesoftheslopingbreakwateroverwhichtheyscrambledintheirhorseplaygleamedwithcoldwetlustre。Thetowelswithwhichtheysmackedtheirbodieswereheavywithcoldseawater;anddrenchedwithcoldbrinewastheirmattedhair。 Hestoodstillindeferencetotheircallsandparriedtheirbanterwitheasywords。Howcharacterlesstheylooked:Shuleywithouthisdeepunbuttonedcollar,Enniswithouthisscarletbeltwiththesnakyclasp,andConnollywithouthisNorfolkcoatwiththeflaplessside-pockets!Itwasapaintoseethem,andasword-likepaintoseethesignsofadolescencethatmaderepellenttheirpitiablenakedness。Perhapstheyhadtakenrefugeinnumberandnoisefromthesecretdreadintheirsouls。Buthe,apartfromthemandinsilence,rememberedinwhatdreadhestoodofthemysteryofhisownbody—— StephanosDedalos!BousStephanoumenos!BousStephaneforos! Theirbanterwasnotnewtohimandnowitflatteredhismildproudsovereignty。Now,asneverbefore,hisstrangenameseemedtohimaprophecy。 Sotimelessseemedthegreywarmair,sofluidandimpersonalhisownmood,thatallageswereasonetohim。AmomentbeforetheghostoftheancientkingdomoftheDaneshadlookedforththroughthevestureofthehazewrappedCity。Now,atthenameofthefabulousartificer,heseemedtohearthenoiseofdimwavesandtoseeawingedformflyingabovethewavesandslowlyclimbingtheair。Whatdiditmean?Wasitaquaintdeviceopeningapageofsomemedievalbookofpropheciesandsymbols,ahawk-likemanflyingsunwardabovethesea,aprophecyoftheendhehadbeenborntoserveandhadbeenfollowingthroughthemistsofchildhoodandboyhood,asymboloftheartistforginganewinhisworkshopoutofthesluggishmatteroftheearthanewsoaringimpalpableimperishablebeing? Hishearttrembled;hisbreathcamefasterandawildspiritpassedoverhislimbsasthoughhewassoaringsunward。Hishearttrembledinanecstasyoffearandhissoulwasinflight。Hissoulwassoaringinanairbeyondtheworldandthebodyheknewwaspurifiedinabreathanddeliveredofincertitudeandmaderadiantandcommingledwiththeelementofthespirit。Anecstasyofflightmaderadianthiseyesandwildhisbreathandtremulousandwildandradianthiswindsweptlimbs—— One!Two!Lookout!—— Oh,Cripes,I\'mdrownded!—— One!Two!Threeandaway!—— Thenext!Thenext!—— One!UK!—— Stephaneforos! Histhroatachedwithadesiretocryaloud,thecryofahawkoreagleonhigh,tocrypiercinglyofhisdeliverancetothewinds。Thiswasthecalloflifetohissoulnotthedullgrossvoiceoftheworldofdutiesanddespair,nottheinhumanvoicethathadcalledhimtothepaleserviceofthealtar。Aninstantofwildflighthaddeliveredhimandthecryoftriumphwhichhislipswithheldclefthisbrain—— Stephaneforos! Whatweretheynowbutcerementsshakenfromthebodyofdeath-thefearhehadwalkedinnightandday,theincertitudethathadringedhimround,theshamethathadabasedhimwithinandwithout-cerements,thelinensofthegrave? Hissoulhadarisenfromthegraveofboyhood,spurninghergrave-clothes。 Yes!Yes!Yes!Hewouldcreateproudlyoutofthefreedomandpowerofhissoul,asthegreatartificerwhosenamehebore,alivingthing,newandsoaringandbeautiful,impalpable,imperishable。 Hestartedupnervouslyfromthestone-blockforhecouldnolongerquenchtheflameinhisblood。Hefelthischeeksaflameandhisthroatthrobbingwithsong。Therewasalustofwanderinginhisfeetthatburnedtosetoutfortheendsoftheearth。On!On!hisheartseemedtocry。 Eveningwoulddeepenabovethesea,nightfallupontheplains,dawnglimmerbeforethewandererandshowhimstrangefieldsandhillsandfaces。Where? HelookednorthwardtowardsHowth。Theseahadfallenbelowtheline0ofseawrackontheshallowsideofthebreakwaterandalreadythetidewasrunningoutfastalongtheforeshore。Alreadyonelongovalbankofsandlaywarmanddryamidthewavelets。Hereandtherewarmislesofsandgleamedabovetheshallowtideandabouttheislesandaroundthelongbankandamidtheshallowcurrentsofthebeachwerelightcladfigures,wadinganddelving。 Incafewmomentshewasbarefoot,hisstockingsfoldedinhispocketsandhiscanvasshoesdanglingbytheirknottedlacesoverhisshouldersand,pickingapointedsalt-eatenstickoutofthejetsamamongtherocks,heclambereddowntheslopeofthebreakwater。 Therewasalongrivuletinthestrandand,ashewadedslowlyupitscourse,hewonderedattheendlessdriftofseaweed。Emeraldandblackandrussetandolive,itmovedbeneaththecurrent,swayingandturning。 Thewateroftherivuletwasdarkwithendlessdriftandmirroredthehigh-driftingclouds。Thecloudsweredriftingabovehimsilentlyandsilentlytheseatanglewasdriftingbelowhimandthegreywarmairwasstillandanewwildlifewassinginginhisveins。 Wherewashisboyhoodnow?Wherewasthesoulthathadhungbackfromherdestiny,tobroodaloneupontheshameofherwoundsandinherhouseofsqualorandsubterfugetoqueenitinfadedcerementsandinwreathsthatwitheredatthetouch?Orwherewashe? Hewasalone。Hewasunheeded,happyandneartothewildheartoflife。 Hewasaloneandyoungandwilfulandwildhearted,aloneamidawasteofwildairandbrackishwatersandthesea-harvestofshellsandtangleandveiledgreysunlightandgaycladlightcladfiguresofchildrenandgirlsandvoiceschildishandgirlishintheair。 Agirlstoodbeforehiminmidstream,aloneandstill,gazingouttosea。Sheseemedlikeonewhommagichadchangedintothelikenessofastrangeandbeautifulseabird。Herlongslenderbarelegsweredelicateasacrane\'sandpuresavewhereanemeraldtrailofseaweedhadfashioneditselfasasignupontheflesh。Herthighs,fullerandsoft-huedasivory,werebaredalmosttothehips,wherethewhitefringesofherdrawerswerelikefeatheringofsoftwhitedown。Herslate-blueskirtswerekiltedboldlyaboutherwaistanddovetailedbehindher。Herbosomwasasabird\'s,softandslight,slightandsoftasthebreastofsomedark-plumageddove。Butherlongfairhairwasgirlish:andgirlish,andtouchedwiththewonderofmortalbeauty,herface。 Shewasaloneandstill,gazingouttosea;andwhenshefelthispresenceandtheworshipofhiseyeshereyesturnedtohiminquietsufferanceofhisgaze,withoutshameorwantonness。Long,longshesufferedhisgazeandthenquietlywithdrewhereyesfromhisandbentthemtowardsthestream,gentlystirringthewaterwithherfoothitherandthither。Thefirstfaintnoiseofgentlymovingwaterbrokethesilence,lowandfaintandwhispering,faintasthebellsofsleep;hitherandthither,hitherandthither;andafaintflametrembledonhercheek—— HeavenlyGod!criedStephen\'ssoul,inanoutburstofprofanejoy。 Heturnedawayfromhersuddenlyandsetoffacrossthestrand。Hischeekswereaflame;hisbodywasaglow;hislimbsweretrembling。Onandonandonandonhestrode,faroutoverthesands,singingwildlytothesea,cryingtogreettheadventofthelifethathadcriedtohim。 Herimagehadpassedintohissoulforeverandnowordhadbrokentheholysilenceofhisecstasy。Hereyeshadcalledhimandhissoulhadleapedatthecall。Tolive,toerr,tofall,totriumph,torecreatelifeoutoflife!Awildangelhadappearedtohim,theangelofmortalyouthandbeauty,anenvoyfromthefaircourtsoflife,tothrowopenbeforehiminaninstantofecstasythegatesofallthewaysoferrorandglory。 Onandonandonandon! Hehaltedsuddenlyandheardhisheartinthesilence。Howfarhadhewalked?Whathourwasit? Therewasnohumanfigurenearhimnoranysoundbornetohimovertheair。Butthetidewasneartheturnandalreadythedaywasonthewane。 Heturnedlandwardandrantowardstheshoreand,runninguptheslopingbeach,recklessofthesharpshingle,foundasandynookamidaringoftuftedsandknollsandlaydowntherethatthepeaceandsilenceoftheeveningmightstilltheriotofhisblood。 Hefeltabovehimthevastindifferentdomeandthecalmprocessesoftheheavenlybodies;andtheearthbeneathhim,theearththathadbornehim,hadtakenhimtoherbreast。 Heclosedhiseyesinthelanguorofsleep。Hiseyelidstrembledasiftheyfeltthevastcyclicmovementoftheearthandherwatchers,trembledasiftheyfeltthestrangelightofsomenewworld。Hissoulwasswooningintosomenewworld,fantastic,dim,uncertainasundersea,traversedbycloudyshapesandbeings。Aworld,aglimmeroraflower?Glimmeringandtrembling,tremblingandunfolding,abreakinglight,anopeningflower,itspreadinendlesssuccessiontoitself,breakinginfullcrimsonandunfoldingandfadingtopalestrose,leafbyleafandwaveoflightbywaveoflight,floodingalltheheavenswithitssoftflushes,everyflushdeeperthantheother。 Eveninghadfallenwhenhewokeandthesandandaridgrassesofhisbedglowednolonger。Heroseslowlyand,recallingtheraptureofhissleep,sighedatitsjoy。 Heclimbedtothecrestofthesandhillandgazedabouthim。Eveninghadfallen。Arimoftheyoungmooncleftthepalewasteofskyline,therimofasilverhoopembeddedingreysand;andthetidewasflowinginfasttothelandwithalowwhisperofherwaves,islandingafewlastfiguresindistantpools。 Chapter5Hedrainedhisthirdcupofwateryteatothedregsandsettochewingthecrustsoffriedbreadthatwerescatterednearhim,staringintothedarkpoolofthejar。Theyellowdrippinghadbeenscoopedoutlikeabogholeandthepoolunderitbroughtbacktohismemorythedarkturf-colouredwaterofthebathinClongowes。Theboxofpawnticketsathiselbowhadjustbeenrifledandhetookupidlyoneafteranotherinhisgreasyfingerstheblueandwhitedockets,scrawledandsandedandcreasedandbearingthenameofthepledgerasDalyorMacEvoy。 1PairBuskins。 1D。Coat。 3ArticlesandWhite。 1Man\'sPants。 Thenheputthemasideandgazedthoughtfullyatthelidofthebox,speckledwithlousemarks,andaskedvaguely:—— Howmuchistheclockfastnow? Hismotherstraightenedthebatteredalarmclockthatwaslyingonitssideinthemiddleofthemantelpieceuntilitsdialshowedaquartertotwelveandthenlaiditoncemoreonitsside—— Anhourandtwenty-fiveminutes,shesaid。Therighttimenowistwentypastten。Thedearknowsyoumighttrytobeintimeforyourlectures—— Fillouttheplaceformetowash,saidStephen—— Katey,fillouttheplaceforStephentowash—— Boody,fillouttheplaceforStephentowash—— Ican\'t,I\'mgoingforblue。Fillitout,you,Maggy。 Whentheenamelledbasinhadbeenfittedintothewellofthesinkandtheoldwashinggloveflungonthesideofitheallowedhismothertoscrubhisneckandrootintothefoldsofhisearsandintotheintersticesatthewingsofhisnose—— Well,it\'sapoorcase,shesaid,whenauniversitystudentissodirtythathismotherhastowashhim—— Butitgivesyoupleasure,saidStephencalmly。 Anear-splittingwhistlewasheardfromupstairsandhismotherthrustadampoverallintohishands,saying:—— Dryyourselfandhurryoutfortheloveofgoodness。 Asecondshrillwhistle,prolongedangrily,broughtoneofthegirlstothefootofthestaircase—— Yes,father?—— Isyourlazybitchofabrothergoneoutyet?—— Yes,father—— Sure?—— Yes,father—— Hm! Thegirlcameback,makingsignstohimtobequickandgooutquietlybytheback。Stephenlaughedandsaid:—— Hehasacuriousideaofgendersifhethinksabitchismasculine—— Ah,it\'sascandalousshameforyou,Stephen,saidhismother,andyou\'lllivetoruethedayyousetyourfootinthatplace。Iknowhowithaschangedyou—— Goodmorning,everybody,saidStephen,smilingandkissingthetipsofhisfingersinadieu。 Thelanebehindtheterracewaswaterloggedandashewentdownitslowly,choosinghisstepsamidheapsofwetrubbish,heheardamadnunscreechinginthenuns\' madhousebeyondthewall—— Jesus!OJesus!Jesus! Heshookthesoundoutofhisearsbyanangrytossofhisheadandhurriedon,stumblingthroughthemoulderingoffal,hisheartalreadybittenbyanacheofloathingandbitterness。Hisfather\'swhistle,hismother\'smutterings,thescreechofanunseenmaniacweretohimnowsomanyvoicesoffendingandthreateningtohumbletheprideofhisyouth。Hedrovetheirechoesevenoutofhisheartwithanexecration;but,ashewalkeddowntheavenueandfeltthegreymorninglightfallingabouthimthroughthedrippingtreesandsmeltthestrangewildsmellofthewetleavesandbark,hissoulwasloosedofhermiseries。 Therain-ladentreesoftheavenueevokedinhim,asalways,memoriesofthegirlsandwomenintheplaysofGerhartHauptmann;andthememoryoftheirpalesorrowsandthefragrancefallingfromthewetbranchesmingledinamoodofquietjoy。Hismorningwalkacrossthecityhadbegun,andheforeknewthatashepassedthesloblandsofFairviewhewouldthinkofthecloistralsilver-veinedproseofNewman;thatashewalkedalongtheNorthStrandRoad,glancingidlyatthewindowsoftheprovisionshops,hewouldrecallthedarkhumourofGuidoCavalcantiandsmile;thatashewentbyBaird\'sstonecuttingworksinTalbotPlacethespiritofIbsenwouldblowthroughhimlikeakeenwind,aspiritofwaywardboyishbeauty; andthatpassingagrimymarinedealer\'sshopbeyondtheLiffeyhewouldrepeatthesongbyBenJonsonwhichbegins:IwasnotwearierwhereIlay。HismindwhenweariedofitssearchfortheessenceofbeautyamidthespectralwordsofAristotleorAquinasturnedoftenforitspleasuretothedaintysongsoftheElizabethans。Hismind,inthevestureofadoubtingmonk,stoodofteninshadowunderthewindowsofthatage,tohearthegraveandmockingmusicofthelutenistsorthefranklaughterofwaist-coateersuntilalaughtoolow,aphrase,tarnishedbytime,ofchamberingandfalsehonourstunghismonkishprideanddrovehimonfromhislurking-place。 ThelorewhichhewasbelievedtopasshisdaysbroodinguponsothatithadrapthimfromthecompanionshipofyouthwasonlyagarnerofslendersentencesfromAristotle\'spoeticsandpsychologyandaSynopsisPhilosophiaeScholasticaeadmentemdiviThomae。Histhinkingwasaduskofdoubtandself-mistrust,litupatmomentsbythelightningsofintuition,butlightningsofsoclearasplendourthatinthosemomentstheworldperishedabouthisfeetasifithadbeenfire-consumed;andthereafterhistonguegrewheavyandhemettheeyesofotherswithunansweringeyes,forhefeltthatthespiritofbeautyhadfoldedhimroundlikeamantleandthatinreveryatleasthehadbeenacquaintedwithnobility。Butwhenthisbriefprideofsilenceupheldhimnolongerhewasgladtofindhimselfstillinthemidstofcommonlives,passingonhiswayamidthesqualorandnoiseandslothofthecityfearlesslyandwithalightheart。 Nearthehoardingsonthecanalhemettheconsumptivemanwiththedoll\'sfaceandthebrimlesshatcomingtowardshimdowntheslopeofthebridgewithlittlesteps,tightlybuttonedintohischocolateovercoat,andholdinghisfurledumbrellaaspanortwofromhimlikeadiviningrod。Itmustbeeleven,hethought,andpeeredintoadairytoseethetime。Theclockinthedairytoldhimthatitwasfiveminutestofivebut,asheturnedaway,heheardaclocksomewherenearhim,butunseen,beatingelevenstrokesinswiftprecision。HelaughedashehearditforitmadehimthinkofMcCann,andhesawhimasquatfigureinashootingjacketandbreechesandwithafairgoatee,standinginthewindatHopkins\' corner,andheardhimsay:—— Dedalus,you\'reanantisocialbeing,wrappedupinyourself。I\'mnot。I\'mademocratandI`IlworkandactforsociallibertyandequalityamongallclassesandsexesintheUnitedStatesoftheEuropeofthefuture。 Eleven!Thenhewaslateforthatlecturetoo。Whatdayoftheweekwasit?Hestoppedatanewsagent\'storeadtheheadlineofaplacard。 Thursday。Tentoeleven,English;eleventotwelve,French;twelvetoone,physics。HefanciedtohimselftheEnglishlectureandfelt,evenatthatdistance,restlessandhelpless。Hesawtheheadsofhisclassmatesmeeklybentastheywroteintheirnotebooksthepointstheywerebiddentonote,nominaldefinitions,essentialdefinitionsandexamplesordatesofbirthordeath,chiefworks,afavourableandanunfavourablecriticismsidebyside。Hisownheadwasunbentforhisthoughtswanderedabroadandwhetherhelookedaroundthelittleclassofstudentsoroutofthewindowacrossthedesolategardensofthegreenanodourassailedhimofcheerlesscellar-dampanddecay。Anotherheadthanhis,rightbeforehiminthefirstbenches,waspoisedsquarelyaboveitsbendingfellowsliketheheadofapriestappealingwithouthumilitytothetabernacleforthehumbleworshippersabouthim。WhywasitthatwhenhethoughtofCranlyhecouldneverraisebeforehismindtheentireimageofhisbodybutonlytheimageoftheheadandface?Evennowagainstthegreycurtainofthemorninghesawitbeforehimlikethephantomofadream,thefaceofaseveredheadordeath-mask,crownedonthebrowsbyitsstiffblackuprighthairasbyanironcrown。Itwasapriest-likeface,priest-likeinitspalor,inthewidewingednose,intheshadowingsbelowtheeyesandalongthejaws,priest-likeinthelipsthatwerelongandbloodlessandfaintlysmiling; andStephen,rememberingswiftlyhowhehadtoldCranlyofallthetumultsandunrestandlongingsinhissoul,dayafterdayandnightbynight,onlytobeansweredbyhisfriend\'slisteningsilence,wouldhavetoldhimselfthatitwasthefaceofaguiltypriestwhoheardconfessionsofthosewhomhehadnotpowertoabsolvebutthathefeltagaininmemorythegazeofitsdarkwomanisheyes。 Throughthisimagehehadaglimpseofastrangedarkcavernofspeculationbutatonceturnedawayfromit,feelingthatitwasnotyetthehourtoenterit。Butthenightshadeofhisfriend\'slistlessnessseemedtobediffusingintheairaroundhimatenuousanddeadlyexhalationandbefoundhimselfglancingfromonecasualwordtoanotheronhisrightorleftinstolidwonderthattheyhadbeensosilentlyemptiedofinstantaneoussenseuntileverymeanshoplegendboundhismindlikethewordsofaspellandhissoulshrivelledupsighingwithageashewalkedoninalaneamongheapsofdeadlanguage。Hisownconsciousnessoflanguagewasebbingfromhisbrainandtricklingintotheverywordsthemselveswhichsettobandanddisbandthemselvesinwaywardrhythms:Theivywhinesuponthewall,Andwhinesandtwinesuponthewall,Theyellowivyuponthewall,Ivy,ivyupthewall。Didanyoneeverhearsuchdrivel?LordAlmighty!Whoeverheardofivywhiningonawall?Yellowivy;thatwasallright。Yellowivoryalso。Andwhataboutivoryivy? Thewordnowshoneinhisbrain,clearerandbrighterthananyivorysawnfromthemottledtusksofelephants。Ivory,ivoire,avorio,ebur。 OneofthefirstexamplesthathehadlearntinLatinhadrun:Indiamittitebur;andherecalledtheshrewdnorthernfaceoftherectorwhohadtaughthimtoconstruetheMetamorphosesofOvidinacourtlyEnglish,madewhimsicalbythementionofporkersandpotsherdsandchinesofbacon。 HehadlearntwhatlittleheknewofthelawsofLatinversefromaraggedbookwrittenbyaPortuguesepriest。Contrahitorator,variantincarminevates。ThecrisesandvictoriesandsecessionsinRomanhistorywerehandedontohiminthetritewordsintantodiscrimineandhehadtriedtopeerintothesociallifeofthecityofcitiesthroughthewordsimplereollamdenariorumwhichtherectorhadrenderedsonorouslyasthefillingofapotwithdenaries。Thepagesofhistime-wornHoraceneverfeltcoldtothetouchevenwhenhisownfingerswerecold;theywerehumanpagesandfiftyyearsbeforetheyhadbeenturnedbythehumanfingersofJohnDuncanInverarityandbyhisbrother,WilliamMalcolmInverarity。Yes,thosewerenoblenamesontheduskyflyleafand,evenforsopooraLatinistashe,theduskyverseswereasfragrantasthoughtheyhadlainallthoseyearsinmyrtleandlavenderandvervain;butyetitwoundedhimtothinkthathewouldneverbebutashyguestatthefeastoftheworld\'scultureandthatthemonkishlearning,intermsofwhichhewasstrivingtoforgeoutanestheticphilosophy,washeldnohigherbytheagehelivedinthanthesubtleandcuriousjargonsofheraldryandfalconry。 ThegreyblockofTrinityonhisleft,setheavilyinthecity\'signorancelikeadullstonesetinacumbrousring,pulledhisminddownwardandwhilehewasstrivingthiswayandthattofreehisfeetfromthefettersofthereformedconsciencehecameuponthedrollstatueofthenationalpoetofIreland。 Helookedatitwithoutanger;for,thoughslothofthebodyandofthesoulcreptoveritlikeunseenvermin,overtheshufflingfeetandupthefoldsofthecloakandaroundtheservilehead,itseemedhumblyconsciousofitsindignity。ItwasaFirbolgintheborrowedcloakofaMilesian;andhethoughtofhisfriendDavin,thepeasantstudent。Itwasajestingnamebetweenthem,buttheyoungpeasantborewithitlightly:—— Goon,Stevie,Ihaveahardhead,youtellme。Callmewhatyouwill。 ThehomelyversionofhischristiannameonthelipsofhisfriendhadtouchedStephenpleasantlywhenfirstheardforhewasasformalinspeechwithothersastheywerewithhim。Often,ashesatinDavin\'sroomsinGranthamStreet,wonderingathisfriend\'swell-madebootsthatflankedthewallpairbypairandrepeatingforhisfriend\'ssimpleeartheversesandcadencesofotherswhichweretheveilsofhisownlonginganddejection,therudeFirbolgmindofhislistenerhaddrawnhismindtowardsitandflungitbackagain,drawingitbyaquietinbredcourtesyofattentionorbyaquaintturnofoldEnglishspeechorbytheforceofitsdelightinrudebodilyskill-forDavinhadsatatthefeetofMichaelCusack,theGael-repellingswiftlyandsuddenlybyagrossnessofintelligenceorbyabluntnessoffeelingorbyadullstareofterrorintheeyes,theterrorofsoulofastarvingIrishvillageinwhichthecurfewwasstillanightlyfear。