Thenhewonderedatthevaguenessofhiswonder,attheremotenessofhisownsoulfromwhathehadhithertoimaginedhersanctuary,atthefrailholdwhichsomanyyearsoforderandobediencehadofhimwhenonceadefiniteandirrevocableactofhisthreatenedtoendforever,intimeandineternity,hisfreedom。Thevoiceofthedirectorurginguponhimtheproudclaimsofthechurchandthemysteryandpowerofthepriestlyofficerepeateditselfidlyinhismemory。Hissoulwasnottheretohearandgreetitandheknewnowthattheexhortationhehadlistenedtohadalreadyfallenintoanidleformaltale。Hewouldneverswingthethuriblebeforethetabernacleaspriest。Hisdestinywastobeelusiveofsocialorreligiousorders。Thewisdomofthepriest\'sappealdidnottouchhimtothequick。Hewasdestinedtolearnhisownwisdomapartfromothersortolearnthewisdomofothershimselfwanderingamongthesnaresoftheworld。
Thesnaresoftheworldwereitswaysofsin。Hewouldfall。Hehadnotyetfallenbuthewouldfallsilently,inaninstant。Nottofallwastoohard,toohard;andhefeltthesilentlapseofhissoul,asitwouldbeatsomeinstanttocome,falling,falling,butnotyetfallen,stillunfallen,butabouttofall。
HecrossedthebridgeoverthestreamoftheTolkaandturnedhiseyescoldlyforaninstanttowardsthefadedblueshrineoftheBlessedVirginwhichstoodfowl-wiseonapoleinthemiddleofaham-shapedencampmentofpoorcottages。Then,bendingtotheleft,hefollowedthelanewhichleduptohishouse。Thefaintdourstinkofrottedcabbagescametowardshimfromthekitchengardensontherisinggroundabovetheriver。Hesmiledtothinkthatitwasthisdisorder,themisruleandconfusionofhisfather\'shouseandthestagnationofvegetablelife,whichwastowinthedayinhissoul。Thenashortlaughbrokefromhislipsashethoughtofthatsolitaryfarmhandinthekitchengardensbehindtheirhousewhomtheyhadnicknamedthemanwiththehat。Asecondlaugh,takingrisefromthefirstafterapause,brokefromhiminvoluntarilyashethoughtofhowthemanwiththehatworked,consideringinturnthefourpointsoftheskyandthenregretfullyplunginghisspadeintheearth。
Hepushedopenthelatchlessdooroftheporchandpassedthroughthenakedhallwayintothekitchen。Agroupofhisbrothersandsisterswassittingroundthetable。Teawasnearlyoverandonlythelastofthesecondwateredtearemainedinthebottomsofthesmallglassjarsandjampotswhichdidserviceforteacups。Discardedcrustsandlumpsofsugaredbread,turnedbrownbytheteawhichhadbeenpouredoverthem,layscatteredonthetable。Littlewellsoftealayhereandthereontheboard,andaknifewithabrokenivoryhandlewasstuckthroughthepithofaravagedturnover。
Thesadquietgrey-blueglowofthedyingdaycamethroughthewindowandtheopendoor,coveringoverandallayingquietlyasuddeninstinctofremorseinStephen\'sheart。Allthathadbeendeniedthemhadbeenfreelygiventohim,theeldest;butthequietglowofeveningshowedhimintheirfacesnosignofrancour。
Hesatnearthematthetableandaskedwherehisfatherandmotherwere。Oneanswered:——
Goneborotoborolookboroatboroaborohouseboro。
Stillanotherremoval!AboynamedFalloninBelvederehadoftenaskedhimwithasillylaughwhytheymovedsooften。Afrownofscorndarkenedquicklyhisforeheadasheheardagainthesillylaughofthequestioner。
Heasked:——
Whyareweonthemoveagainifit\'safairquestion?——
Becauseborotheborolandborolordborowillboroputborousborooutboro。
ThevoiceofhisyoungestbrotherfromthefarthersideofthefireplacebegantosingtheairOftintheStillyNight。Onebyonetheotherstookuptheairuntilafullchoirofvoiceswassinging。Theywouldsingsoforhours,melodyaftermelody,gleeafterglee,tillthelastpalelightdieddownonthehorizon,tillthefirstdarknightcloudscameforthandnightfell。
Hewaitedforsomemoments,listening,beforehetootookuptheairwiththem。Hewaslisteningwithpainofspirittotheovertoneofwearinessbehindtheirfrailfreshinnocentvoices。Evenbeforetheysetoutonlife\'sjourneytheyseemedwearyalreadyoftheway。
Heheardthechoirofvoicesinthekitchenechoedandmultipliedthroughanendlessreverberationofthechoirsofendlessgenerationsofchildrenandheardinalltheechoesanechoalsooftherecurringnoteofwearinessandpain。Allseemedwearyoflifeevenbeforeenteringuponit。AndherememberedthatNewmanhadheardthisnotealsointhebrokenlinesofVirgil,givingutterance,likethevoiceofNatureherselftothatpainandwearinessyethopeofbetterthingswhichhasbeentheexperienceofherchildrenineverytime。
Hecouldwaitnolonger。
FromthedoorofByron\'spublic-housetothegateofClontarfChapel,fromthegateofClontailChapeltothedoorofByron\'spublic-houseandthenbackagaintothechapelandthenbackagaintothepublic-househehadpacedslowlyatfirst,plantinghisstepsscrupulouslyinthespacesofthepatchworkofthefootpath,thentimingtheirfalltothefallofverses。AfullhourhadpassedsincehisfatherhadgoneinwithDanCrosby,thetutor,tofindoutforhimsomethingabouttheuniversity。Forafullhourhehadpacedupanddown,waiting:buthecouldwaitnolonger。
HesetoffabruptlyfortheBull,walkingrapidlylesthisfather\'sshrillwhistlemightcallhimback;andinafewmomentshehadroundedthecurveatthepolicebarrackandwassafe。
Yes,hismotherwashostiletotheidea,ashehadreadfromherlistlesssilence。Yethermistrustprickedhimmorekeenlythanhisfather\'sprideandhethoughtcoldlyhowhehadwatchedthefaithwhichwasfadingdowninhissoulageingandstrengtheninginhereyes。Adimantagonismgatheredforcewithinhimanddarkenedhismindasacloudagainstherdisloyaltyandwhenitpassed,cloud-like,leavinghismindsereneanddutifultowardsheragain,hewasmadeawaredimlyandwithoutregretofafirstnoiselesssunderingoftheirlives。
Theuniversity!Sohehadpassedbeyondthechallengeofthesentrieswhohadstoodasguardiansofhisboyhoodandhadsoughttokeephimamongthemthathemightbesubjecttothemandservetheirends。Prideaftersatisfactionupliftedhimlikelongslowwaves。Theendhehadbeenborntoserveyetdidnotseehadledhimtoescapebyanunseenpathandnowitbeckonedtohimoncemoreandanewadventurewasabouttobeopenedtohim。Itseemedtohimthatheheardnotesoffitfulmusicleapingupwardsatoneanddownwardsadiminishedfourth,upwardsatoneanddownwardsamajorthird,liketriple-branchingflamesleapingfitfully,flameafterflame,outofamidnightwood。Itwasanelfinprelude,endlessandformless;
and,asitgrewwilderandfaster,theflamesleapingoutoftime,heseemedtohearfromundertheboughsandgrasseswildcreaturesracing,theirfeetpatteringlikerainupontheleaves。Theirfeetpassedinpatteringtumultoverhismind,thefeetofharesandrabbits,thefeetofhartsandhindsandantelopes,untilheheardthemnomoreandrememberedonlyaproudcadencefromNewman:——
Whosefeetareasthefeetofhartsandunderneaththeeverlastingarms。
Theprideofthatdimimagebroughtbacktohismindthedignityoftheofficehehadrefused。Allthroughhisboyhoodhehadmuseduponthatwhichhehadsooftenthoughttobehisdestinyandwhenthemomenthadcomeforhimtoobeythecallhehadturnedaside,obeyingawaywardinstinct。
Nowtimelaybetween:theoilsofordinationwouldneveranointhisbody。
Hehadrefused。Why?
HeturnedseawardfromtheroadatDollymountandashepassedontothethinwoodenbridgehefelttheplanksshakingwiththetrampofheavilyshodfeet。AsquadofchristianbrotherswasonitswaybackfromtheBullandhadbeguntopass,twobytwo,acrossthebridge。Soonthewholebridgewastremblingandresounding。Theuncouthfacespassedhimtwobytwo,stainedyelloworredorlividbythesea,and,ashestrovetolookatthemwitheaseandindifference,afaintstainofpersonalshameandcommiserationrosetohisownface。Angrywithhimselfhetriedtohidehisfacefromtheireyesbygazingdownsidewaysintotheshallowswirlingwaterunderthebridgebuthestillsawareflectionthereinoftheirtop-heavysilkhatsandhumbletape-likecollarsandloosely-hangingclericalclothes——
BrotherHickey。
BrotherQuaid。
BrotherMacArdle。
BrotherKeogh——
Theirpietywouldbeliketheirnames,liketheirfaces,liketheirclothes,anditwasidleforhimtotellhimselfthattheirhumbleandcontritehearts,itmightbe,paidafarrichertributeofdevotionthanhishadeverbeen,agifttenfoldmoreacceptablethanhiselaborateadoration。
Itwasidleforhimtomovehimselftobegeneroustowardsthem,totellhimselfthatifheevercametotheirgates,strippedofhispride,beatenandinbeggar\'sweeds,thattheywouldbegeneroustowardshim,lovinghimasthemselves。Idleandembittering,finally,toargue,againsthisowndispassionatecertitude,thatthecommandmentoflovebadeusnottoloveourneighbourasourselveswiththesameamountandintensityoflovebuttolovehimasourselveswiththesamekindoflove。
Hedrewforthaphrasefromhistreasureandspokeitsoftlytohimself:——
Adayofdappledseaborneclouds。
Thephraseandthedayandthesceneharmonizedinachord。Words。Wasittheircolours?Heallowedthemtoglowandfade,hueafterhue:sunrisegold,therussetandgreenofappleorchards,azureofwaves,thegrey-fringedfleeceofclouds。No,itwasnottheircolours:itwasthepoiseandbalanceoftheperioditself。Didhethenlovetherhythmicriseandfallofwordsbetterthantheirassociationsoflegendandcolour?Orwasitthat,beingasweakofsightashewasshyofmind,hedrewlesspleasurefromthereflectionoftheglowingsensibleworldthroughtheprismofalanguagemany-colouredandrichlystoriedthanfromthecontemplationofaninnerworldofindividualemotionsmirroredperfectlyinalucidsuppleperiodicprose?
Hepassedfromthetremblingbridgeontofirmlandagain。Atthatinstant,asitseemedtohim,theairwaschilledand,lookingaskancetowardsthewater,hesawaflyingsqualldarkeningandcrispingsuddenlythetide。
Afaintclickathisheart,afaintthrobinhisthroattoldhimoncemoreofhowhisfleshdreadedthecoldinfrahumanodourofthesea;yethedidnotstrikeacrossthedownsonhisleftbutheldstraightonalongthespineofrocksthatpointedagainsttheriver\'smouth。
Aveiledsunlightlitupfaintlythegreysheetofwaterwheretheriverwasembayed。Inthedistancealongthecourseoftheslow-flowingLiffeyslendermastsfleckedtheskyand,moredistantstill,thedimfabricofthecitylayproneinhaze。Likeasceneonsomevaguearras,oldasman\'sweariness,theimageoftheseventhcityofchristendomwasvisibletohimacrossthetimelessair,nooldernormorewearynorlesspatientofsubjectionthaninthedaysofthethingmote。
Disheartened,heraisedhiseyestowardstheslow-driftingclouds,dappledandseaborne。Theywerevoyagingacrossthedesertsofthesky,ahostofnomadsonthemarch,voyaginghighoverIreland,westwardbound。TheEuropetheyhadcomefromlayouttherebeyondtheIrishSea,Europeofstrangetonguesandvalleyedandwoodbegirtandcitadelledandofentrenchedandmarshalledraces。Heheardaconfusedmusicwithinhimasofmemoriesandnameswhichhewasalmostconsciousofbutcouldnotcaptureevenforaninstant;thenthemusicseemedtorecede,torecede,torecede,andfromeachrecedingtrailofnebulousmusictherefellalwaysonelongdrawncallingnote,piercinglikeastartheduskofsilence。Again!Again!Again!
Avoicefrombeyondtheworldwascalling——
Hello,Stephanos!——
HerecomesTheDedalus!——
Ao!Eh,giveitover,Dwyer,I\'mtellingyou,orI\'llgiveyouastuffinthekisserforyourselfAo!——
Goodman,Towser!Duckhim!——
Comealong,Dedalus!BousStephanoumenos!BousStephaneforos!——
Duckhim!Guzzlehimnow,Towser!——
Help!Help!Ao!
Herecognizedtheirspeechcollectivelybeforehedistinguishedtheirfaces。Themeresightofthatmedleyofwetnakednesschilledhimtothebone。Theirbodies,corpse-whiteorsuffusedwithapallidgoldenlightorrawlytannedbythesun,gleamedwiththewetofthesea。Theirdiving-stone,poisedonitsrudesupportsandrockingundertheirplunges,andtherough-hewnstonesoftheslopingbreakwateroverwhichtheyscrambledintheirhorseplaygleamedwithcoldwetlustre。Thetowelswithwhichtheysmackedtheirbodieswereheavywithcoldseawater;anddrenchedwithcoldbrinewastheirmattedhair。
Hestoodstillindeferencetotheircallsandparriedtheirbanterwitheasywords。Howcharacterlesstheylooked:Shuleywithouthisdeepunbuttonedcollar,Enniswithouthisscarletbeltwiththesnakyclasp,andConnollywithouthisNorfolkcoatwiththeflaplessside-pockets!Itwasapaintoseethem,andasword-likepaintoseethesignsofadolescencethatmaderepellenttheirpitiablenakedness。Perhapstheyhadtakenrefugeinnumberandnoisefromthesecretdreadintheirsouls。Buthe,apartfromthemandinsilence,rememberedinwhatdreadhestoodofthemysteryofhisownbody——
StephanosDedalos!BousStephanoumenos!BousStephaneforos!
Theirbanterwasnotnewtohimandnowitflatteredhismildproudsovereignty。Now,asneverbefore,hisstrangenameseemedtohimaprophecy。
Sotimelessseemedthegreywarmair,sofluidandimpersonalhisownmood,thatallageswereasonetohim。AmomentbeforetheghostoftheancientkingdomoftheDaneshadlookedforththroughthevestureofthehazewrappedCity。Now,atthenameofthefabulousartificer,heseemedtohearthenoiseofdimwavesandtoseeawingedformflyingabovethewavesandslowlyclimbingtheair。Whatdiditmean?Wasitaquaintdeviceopeningapageofsomemedievalbookofpropheciesandsymbols,ahawk-likemanflyingsunwardabovethesea,aprophecyoftheendhehadbeenborntoserveandhadbeenfollowingthroughthemistsofchildhoodandboyhood,asymboloftheartistforginganewinhisworkshopoutofthesluggishmatteroftheearthanewsoaringimpalpableimperishablebeing?
Hishearttrembled;hisbreathcamefasterandawildspiritpassedoverhislimbsasthoughhewassoaringsunward。Hishearttrembledinanecstasyoffearandhissoulwasinflight。Hissoulwassoaringinanairbeyondtheworldandthebodyheknewwaspurifiedinabreathanddeliveredofincertitudeandmaderadiantandcommingledwiththeelementofthespirit。Anecstasyofflightmaderadianthiseyesandwildhisbreathandtremulousandwildandradianthiswindsweptlimbs——
One!Two!Lookout!——
Oh,Cripes,I\'mdrownded!——
One!Two!Threeandaway!——
Thenext!Thenext!——
One!UK!——
Stephaneforos!
Histhroatachedwithadesiretocryaloud,thecryofahawkoreagleonhigh,tocrypiercinglyofhisdeliverancetothewinds。Thiswasthecalloflifetohissoulnotthedullgrossvoiceoftheworldofdutiesanddespair,nottheinhumanvoicethathadcalledhimtothepaleserviceofthealtar。Aninstantofwildflighthaddeliveredhimandthecryoftriumphwhichhislipswithheldclefthisbrain——
Stephaneforos!
Whatweretheynowbutcerementsshakenfromthebodyofdeath-thefearhehadwalkedinnightandday,theincertitudethathadringedhimround,theshamethathadabasedhimwithinandwithout-cerements,thelinensofthegrave?
Hissoulhadarisenfromthegraveofboyhood,spurninghergrave-clothes。
Yes!Yes!Yes!Hewouldcreateproudlyoutofthefreedomandpowerofhissoul,asthegreatartificerwhosenamehebore,alivingthing,newandsoaringandbeautiful,impalpable,imperishable。
Hestartedupnervouslyfromthestone-blockforhecouldnolongerquenchtheflameinhisblood。Hefelthischeeksaflameandhisthroatthrobbingwithsong。Therewasalustofwanderinginhisfeetthatburnedtosetoutfortheendsoftheearth。On!On!hisheartseemedtocry。
Eveningwoulddeepenabovethesea,nightfallupontheplains,dawnglimmerbeforethewandererandshowhimstrangefieldsandhillsandfaces。Where?
HelookednorthwardtowardsHowth。Theseahadfallenbelowtheline0ofseawrackontheshallowsideofthebreakwaterandalreadythetidewasrunningoutfastalongtheforeshore。Alreadyonelongovalbankofsandlaywarmanddryamidthewavelets。Hereandtherewarmislesofsandgleamedabovetheshallowtideandabouttheislesandaroundthelongbankandamidtheshallowcurrentsofthebeachwerelightcladfigures,wadinganddelving。
Incafewmomentshewasbarefoot,hisstockingsfoldedinhispocketsandhiscanvasshoesdanglingbytheirknottedlacesoverhisshouldersand,pickingapointedsalt-eatenstickoutofthejetsamamongtherocks,heclambereddowntheslopeofthebreakwater。
Therewasalongrivuletinthestrandand,ashewadedslowlyupitscourse,hewonderedattheendlessdriftofseaweed。Emeraldandblackandrussetandolive,itmovedbeneaththecurrent,swayingandturning。
Thewateroftherivuletwasdarkwithendlessdriftandmirroredthehigh-driftingclouds。Thecloudsweredriftingabovehimsilentlyandsilentlytheseatanglewasdriftingbelowhimandthegreywarmairwasstillandanewwildlifewassinginginhisveins。
Wherewashisboyhoodnow?Wherewasthesoulthathadhungbackfromherdestiny,tobroodaloneupontheshameofherwoundsandinherhouseofsqualorandsubterfugetoqueenitinfadedcerementsandinwreathsthatwitheredatthetouch?Orwherewashe?
Hewasalone。Hewasunheeded,happyandneartothewildheartoflife。
Hewasaloneandyoungandwilfulandwildhearted,aloneamidawasteofwildairandbrackishwatersandthesea-harvestofshellsandtangleandveiledgreysunlightandgaycladlightcladfiguresofchildrenandgirlsandvoiceschildishandgirlishintheair。
Agirlstoodbeforehiminmidstream,aloneandstill,gazingouttosea。Sheseemedlikeonewhommagichadchangedintothelikenessofastrangeandbeautifulseabird。Herlongslenderbarelegsweredelicateasacrane\'sandpuresavewhereanemeraldtrailofseaweedhadfashioneditselfasasignupontheflesh。Herthighs,fullerandsoft-huedasivory,werebaredalmosttothehips,wherethewhitefringesofherdrawerswerelikefeatheringofsoftwhitedown。Herslate-blueskirtswerekiltedboldlyaboutherwaistanddovetailedbehindher。Herbosomwasasabird\'s,softandslight,slightandsoftasthebreastofsomedark-plumageddove。Butherlongfairhairwasgirlish:andgirlish,andtouchedwiththewonderofmortalbeauty,herface。
Shewasaloneandstill,gazingouttosea;andwhenshefelthispresenceandtheworshipofhiseyeshereyesturnedtohiminquietsufferanceofhisgaze,withoutshameorwantonness。Long,longshesufferedhisgazeandthenquietlywithdrewhereyesfromhisandbentthemtowardsthestream,gentlystirringthewaterwithherfoothitherandthither。Thefirstfaintnoiseofgentlymovingwaterbrokethesilence,lowandfaintandwhispering,faintasthebellsofsleep;hitherandthither,hitherandthither;andafaintflametrembledonhercheek——
HeavenlyGod!criedStephen\'ssoul,inanoutburstofprofanejoy。
Heturnedawayfromhersuddenlyandsetoffacrossthestrand。Hischeekswereaflame;hisbodywasaglow;hislimbsweretrembling。Onandonandonandonhestrode,faroutoverthesands,singingwildlytothesea,cryingtogreettheadventofthelifethathadcriedtohim。
Herimagehadpassedintohissoulforeverandnowordhadbrokentheholysilenceofhisecstasy。Hereyeshadcalledhimandhissoulhadleapedatthecall。Tolive,toerr,tofall,totriumph,torecreatelifeoutoflife!Awildangelhadappearedtohim,theangelofmortalyouthandbeauty,anenvoyfromthefaircourtsoflife,tothrowopenbeforehiminaninstantofecstasythegatesofallthewaysoferrorandglory。
Onandonandonandon!
Hehaltedsuddenlyandheardhisheartinthesilence。Howfarhadhewalked?Whathourwasit?
Therewasnohumanfigurenearhimnoranysoundbornetohimovertheair。Butthetidewasneartheturnandalreadythedaywasonthewane。
Heturnedlandwardandrantowardstheshoreand,runninguptheslopingbeach,recklessofthesharpshingle,foundasandynookamidaringoftuftedsandknollsandlaydowntherethatthepeaceandsilenceoftheeveningmightstilltheriotofhisblood。
Hefeltabovehimthevastindifferentdomeandthecalmprocessesoftheheavenlybodies;andtheearthbeneathhim,theearththathadbornehim,hadtakenhimtoherbreast。
Heclosedhiseyesinthelanguorofsleep。Hiseyelidstrembledasiftheyfeltthevastcyclicmovementoftheearthandherwatchers,trembledasiftheyfeltthestrangelightofsomenewworld。Hissoulwasswooningintosomenewworld,fantastic,dim,uncertainasundersea,traversedbycloudyshapesandbeings。Aworld,aglimmeroraflower?Glimmeringandtrembling,tremblingandunfolding,abreakinglight,anopeningflower,itspreadinendlesssuccessiontoitself,breakinginfullcrimsonandunfoldingandfadingtopalestrose,leafbyleafandwaveoflightbywaveoflight,floodingalltheheavenswithitssoftflushes,everyflushdeeperthantheother。
Eveninghadfallenwhenhewokeandthesandandaridgrassesofhisbedglowednolonger。Heroseslowlyand,recallingtheraptureofhissleep,sighedatitsjoy。
Heclimbedtothecrestofthesandhillandgazedabouthim。Eveninghadfallen。Arimoftheyoungmooncleftthepalewasteofskyline,therimofasilverhoopembeddedingreysand;andthetidewasflowinginfasttothelandwithalowwhisperofherwaves,islandingafewlastfiguresindistantpools。
Chapter5Hedrainedhisthirdcupofwateryteatothedregsandsettochewingthecrustsoffriedbreadthatwerescatterednearhim,staringintothedarkpoolofthejar。Theyellowdrippinghadbeenscoopedoutlikeabogholeandthepoolunderitbroughtbacktohismemorythedarkturf-colouredwaterofthebathinClongowes。Theboxofpawnticketsathiselbowhadjustbeenrifledandhetookupidlyoneafteranotherinhisgreasyfingerstheblueandwhitedockets,scrawledandsandedandcreasedandbearingthenameofthepledgerasDalyorMacEvoy。
1PairBuskins。
1D。Coat。
3ArticlesandWhite。
1Man\'sPants。
Thenheputthemasideandgazedthoughtfullyatthelidofthebox,speckledwithlousemarks,andaskedvaguely:——
Howmuchistheclockfastnow?
Hismotherstraightenedthebatteredalarmclockthatwaslyingonitssideinthemiddleofthemantelpieceuntilitsdialshowedaquartertotwelveandthenlaiditoncemoreonitsside——
Anhourandtwenty-fiveminutes,shesaid。Therighttimenowistwentypastten。Thedearknowsyoumighttrytobeintimeforyourlectures——
Fillouttheplaceformetowash,saidStephen——
Katey,fillouttheplaceforStephentowash——
Boody,fillouttheplaceforStephentowash——
Ican\'t,I\'mgoingforblue。Fillitout,you,Maggy。
Whentheenamelledbasinhadbeenfittedintothewellofthesinkandtheoldwashinggloveflungonthesideofitheallowedhismothertoscrubhisneckandrootintothefoldsofhisearsandintotheintersticesatthewingsofhisnose——
Well,it\'sapoorcase,shesaid,whenauniversitystudentissodirtythathismotherhastowashhim——
Butitgivesyoupleasure,saidStephencalmly。
Anear-splittingwhistlewasheardfromupstairsandhismotherthrustadampoverallintohishands,saying:——
Dryyourselfandhurryoutfortheloveofgoodness。
Asecondshrillwhistle,prolongedangrily,broughtoneofthegirlstothefootofthestaircase——
Yes,father?——
Isyourlazybitchofabrothergoneoutyet?——
Yes,father——
Sure?——
Yes,father——
Hm!
Thegirlcameback,makingsignstohimtobequickandgooutquietlybytheback。Stephenlaughedandsaid:——
Hehasacuriousideaofgendersifhethinksabitchismasculine——
Ah,it\'sascandalousshameforyou,Stephen,saidhismother,andyou\'lllivetoruethedayyousetyourfootinthatplace。Iknowhowithaschangedyou——
Goodmorning,everybody,saidStephen,smilingandkissingthetipsofhisfingersinadieu。
Thelanebehindtheterracewaswaterloggedandashewentdownitslowly,choosinghisstepsamidheapsofwetrubbish,heheardamadnunscreechinginthenuns\'
madhousebeyondthewall——
Jesus!OJesus!Jesus!
Heshookthesoundoutofhisearsbyanangrytossofhisheadandhurriedon,stumblingthroughthemoulderingoffal,hisheartalreadybittenbyanacheofloathingandbitterness。Hisfather\'swhistle,hismother\'smutterings,thescreechofanunseenmaniacweretohimnowsomanyvoicesoffendingandthreateningtohumbletheprideofhisyouth。Hedrovetheirechoesevenoutofhisheartwithanexecration;but,ashewalkeddowntheavenueandfeltthegreymorninglightfallingabouthimthroughthedrippingtreesandsmeltthestrangewildsmellofthewetleavesandbark,hissoulwasloosedofhermiseries。
Therain-ladentreesoftheavenueevokedinhim,asalways,memoriesofthegirlsandwomenintheplaysofGerhartHauptmann;andthememoryoftheirpalesorrowsandthefragrancefallingfromthewetbranchesmingledinamoodofquietjoy。Hismorningwalkacrossthecityhadbegun,andheforeknewthatashepassedthesloblandsofFairviewhewouldthinkofthecloistralsilver-veinedproseofNewman;thatashewalkedalongtheNorthStrandRoad,glancingidlyatthewindowsoftheprovisionshops,hewouldrecallthedarkhumourofGuidoCavalcantiandsmile;thatashewentbyBaird\'sstonecuttingworksinTalbotPlacethespiritofIbsenwouldblowthroughhimlikeakeenwind,aspiritofwaywardboyishbeauty;
andthatpassingagrimymarinedealer\'sshopbeyondtheLiffeyhewouldrepeatthesongbyBenJonsonwhichbegins:IwasnotwearierwhereIlay。HismindwhenweariedofitssearchfortheessenceofbeautyamidthespectralwordsofAristotleorAquinasturnedoftenforitspleasuretothedaintysongsoftheElizabethans。Hismind,inthevestureofadoubtingmonk,stoodofteninshadowunderthewindowsofthatage,tohearthegraveandmockingmusicofthelutenistsorthefranklaughterofwaist-coateersuntilalaughtoolow,aphrase,tarnishedbytime,ofchamberingandfalsehonourstunghismonkishprideanddrovehimonfromhislurking-place。
ThelorewhichhewasbelievedtopasshisdaysbroodinguponsothatithadrapthimfromthecompanionshipofyouthwasonlyagarnerofslendersentencesfromAristotle\'spoeticsandpsychologyandaSynopsisPhilosophiaeScholasticaeadmentemdiviThomae。Histhinkingwasaduskofdoubtandself-mistrust,litupatmomentsbythelightningsofintuition,butlightningsofsoclearasplendourthatinthosemomentstheworldperishedabouthisfeetasifithadbeenfire-consumed;andthereafterhistonguegrewheavyandhemettheeyesofotherswithunansweringeyes,forhefeltthatthespiritofbeautyhadfoldedhimroundlikeamantleandthatinreveryatleasthehadbeenacquaintedwithnobility。Butwhenthisbriefprideofsilenceupheldhimnolongerhewasgladtofindhimselfstillinthemidstofcommonlives,passingonhiswayamidthesqualorandnoiseandslothofthecityfearlesslyandwithalightheart。
Nearthehoardingsonthecanalhemettheconsumptivemanwiththedoll\'sfaceandthebrimlesshatcomingtowardshimdowntheslopeofthebridgewithlittlesteps,tightlybuttonedintohischocolateovercoat,andholdinghisfurledumbrellaaspanortwofromhimlikeadiviningrod。Itmustbeeleven,hethought,andpeeredintoadairytoseethetime。Theclockinthedairytoldhimthatitwasfiveminutestofivebut,asheturnedaway,heheardaclocksomewherenearhim,butunseen,beatingelevenstrokesinswiftprecision。HelaughedashehearditforitmadehimthinkofMcCann,andhesawhimasquatfigureinashootingjacketandbreechesandwithafairgoatee,standinginthewindatHopkins\'
corner,andheardhimsay:——
Dedalus,you\'reanantisocialbeing,wrappedupinyourself。I\'mnot。I\'mademocratandI`IlworkandactforsociallibertyandequalityamongallclassesandsexesintheUnitedStatesoftheEuropeofthefuture。
Eleven!Thenhewaslateforthatlecturetoo。Whatdayoftheweekwasit?Hestoppedatanewsagent\'storeadtheheadlineofaplacard。
Thursday。Tentoeleven,English;eleventotwelve,French;twelvetoone,physics。HefanciedtohimselftheEnglishlectureandfelt,evenatthatdistance,restlessandhelpless。Hesawtheheadsofhisclassmatesmeeklybentastheywroteintheirnotebooksthepointstheywerebiddentonote,nominaldefinitions,essentialdefinitionsandexamplesordatesofbirthordeath,chiefworks,afavourableandanunfavourablecriticismsidebyside。Hisownheadwasunbentforhisthoughtswanderedabroadandwhetherhelookedaroundthelittleclassofstudentsoroutofthewindowacrossthedesolategardensofthegreenanodourassailedhimofcheerlesscellar-dampanddecay。Anotherheadthanhis,rightbeforehiminthefirstbenches,waspoisedsquarelyaboveitsbendingfellowsliketheheadofapriestappealingwithouthumilitytothetabernacleforthehumbleworshippersabouthim。WhywasitthatwhenhethoughtofCranlyhecouldneverraisebeforehismindtheentireimageofhisbodybutonlytheimageoftheheadandface?Evennowagainstthegreycurtainofthemorninghesawitbeforehimlikethephantomofadream,thefaceofaseveredheadordeath-mask,crownedonthebrowsbyitsstiffblackuprighthairasbyanironcrown。Itwasapriest-likeface,priest-likeinitspalor,inthewidewingednose,intheshadowingsbelowtheeyesandalongthejaws,priest-likeinthelipsthatwerelongandbloodlessandfaintlysmiling;
andStephen,rememberingswiftlyhowhehadtoldCranlyofallthetumultsandunrestandlongingsinhissoul,dayafterdayandnightbynight,onlytobeansweredbyhisfriend\'slisteningsilence,wouldhavetoldhimselfthatitwasthefaceofaguiltypriestwhoheardconfessionsofthosewhomhehadnotpowertoabsolvebutthathefeltagaininmemorythegazeofitsdarkwomanisheyes。
Throughthisimagehehadaglimpseofastrangedarkcavernofspeculationbutatonceturnedawayfromit,feelingthatitwasnotyetthehourtoenterit。Butthenightshadeofhisfriend\'slistlessnessseemedtobediffusingintheairaroundhimatenuousanddeadlyexhalationandbefoundhimselfglancingfromonecasualwordtoanotheronhisrightorleftinstolidwonderthattheyhadbeensosilentlyemptiedofinstantaneoussenseuntileverymeanshoplegendboundhismindlikethewordsofaspellandhissoulshrivelledupsighingwithageashewalkedoninalaneamongheapsofdeadlanguage。Hisownconsciousnessoflanguagewasebbingfromhisbrainandtricklingintotheverywordsthemselveswhichsettobandanddisbandthemselvesinwaywardrhythms:Theivywhinesuponthewall,Andwhinesandtwinesuponthewall,Theyellowivyuponthewall,Ivy,ivyupthewall。Didanyoneeverhearsuchdrivel?LordAlmighty!Whoeverheardofivywhiningonawall?Yellowivy;thatwasallright。Yellowivoryalso。Andwhataboutivoryivy?
Thewordnowshoneinhisbrain,clearerandbrighterthananyivorysawnfromthemottledtusksofelephants。Ivory,ivoire,avorio,ebur。
OneofthefirstexamplesthathehadlearntinLatinhadrun:Indiamittitebur;andherecalledtheshrewdnorthernfaceoftherectorwhohadtaughthimtoconstruetheMetamorphosesofOvidinacourtlyEnglish,madewhimsicalbythementionofporkersandpotsherdsandchinesofbacon。
HehadlearntwhatlittleheknewofthelawsofLatinversefromaraggedbookwrittenbyaPortuguesepriest。Contrahitorator,variantincarminevates。ThecrisesandvictoriesandsecessionsinRomanhistorywerehandedontohiminthetritewordsintantodiscrimineandhehadtriedtopeerintothesociallifeofthecityofcitiesthroughthewordsimplereollamdenariorumwhichtherectorhadrenderedsonorouslyasthefillingofapotwithdenaries。Thepagesofhistime-wornHoraceneverfeltcoldtothetouchevenwhenhisownfingerswerecold;theywerehumanpagesandfiftyyearsbeforetheyhadbeenturnedbythehumanfingersofJohnDuncanInverarityandbyhisbrother,WilliamMalcolmInverarity。Yes,thosewerenoblenamesontheduskyflyleafand,evenforsopooraLatinistashe,theduskyverseswereasfragrantasthoughtheyhadlainallthoseyearsinmyrtleandlavenderandvervain;butyetitwoundedhimtothinkthathewouldneverbebutashyguestatthefeastoftheworld\'scultureandthatthemonkishlearning,intermsofwhichhewasstrivingtoforgeoutanestheticphilosophy,washeldnohigherbytheagehelivedinthanthesubtleandcuriousjargonsofheraldryandfalconry。
ThegreyblockofTrinityonhisleft,setheavilyinthecity\'signorancelikeadullstonesetinacumbrousring,pulledhisminddownwardandwhilehewasstrivingthiswayandthattofreehisfeetfromthefettersofthereformedconsciencehecameuponthedrollstatueofthenationalpoetofIreland。
Helookedatitwithoutanger;for,thoughslothofthebodyandofthesoulcreptoveritlikeunseenvermin,overtheshufflingfeetandupthefoldsofthecloakandaroundtheservilehead,itseemedhumblyconsciousofitsindignity。ItwasaFirbolgintheborrowedcloakofaMilesian;andhethoughtofhisfriendDavin,thepeasantstudent。Itwasajestingnamebetweenthem,buttheyoungpeasantborewithitlightly:——
Goon,Stevie,Ihaveahardhead,youtellme。Callmewhatyouwill。
ThehomelyversionofhischristiannameonthelipsofhisfriendhadtouchedStephenpleasantlywhenfirstheardforhewasasformalinspeechwithothersastheywerewithhim。Often,ashesatinDavin\'sroomsinGranthamStreet,wonderingathisfriend\'swell-madebootsthatflankedthewallpairbypairandrepeatingforhisfriend\'ssimpleeartheversesandcadencesofotherswhichweretheveilsofhisownlonginganddejection,therudeFirbolgmindofhislistenerhaddrawnhismindtowardsitandflungitbackagain,drawingitbyaquietinbredcourtesyofattentionorbyaquaintturnofoldEnglishspeechorbytheforceofitsdelightinrudebodilyskill-forDavinhadsatatthefeetofMichaelCusack,theGael-repellingswiftlyandsuddenlybyagrossnessofintelligenceorbyabluntnessoffeelingorbyadullstareofterrorintheeyes,theterrorofsoulofastarvingIrishvillageinwhichthecurfewwasstillanightlyfear。