OnthisDr。Philipbeggedthemaidstogonearheraslittleaspossible。\"Youarenotawareofit,\"saidhe,\"butyourlooks,andyourmannerofspeaking,rouseherattention,andsheisquickerthanIthoughtshewas,andobservesverysubtly。\"
Thiswasdone;andthenshecomplainedthatnobodycamenearher。
Sheinsistedoncomingdown-stairs;itwassodull。
Dr。Philipconsented,ifshewouldbecontenttoreceivenovisitsforaweek。
Sheassentedtothat;andnowpassedsomehourseverydayinthedrawing-room。Inhermorningwrappers,sofreshandcrisp,shelookedlovely,andincreasedinhealthandstrengtheveryday。
Dr。Philipusedtolookather,andhisveryfleshwouldcreepatthethoughtthat,erelong,hemusthurlthisfaircreatureintothedustofaffliction;must,withaword,taketherubyfromherlips,therosefromhercheeks,thesparklefromhergloriouseyes——
eyesthatbeamedonhimwithsweetaffection,andamouththatneveropened,buttoshowsomesimplicityofmind,orsomeprettyburstofthesensitiveheart。
Heputoff,andputoff,andatlastcowardicebegantowhisper,\"Whytellherthewholetruthatall?Whynottakeherthroughstagesofdoubt,alarm,and,afterall,leaveagrainofhopetillherchildgetssorootedinherheartthat\"——Butconscienceandgoodsenseinterruptedthistemporarythought,andmadehimseetowhatahorriblelifeofsuspenseheshouldcondemnahumancreature,andliveaperpetuallie,andbealwaysattheedgeofsomepitfallorother。
Oneday,whilehesatlookingather,withallthesethoughts,andmanymore,coursingthroughhismind,shelookedupathim,andsurprisedhim。\"Ah!\"saidshegravely。
\"Whatisthematter,mydear?\"
\"Oh,nothing,\"saidshecunningly。
\"Uncle,dear,\"saidshepresently,\"whendowegotoHerneBay?\"
Now,Dr。Philiphadgiventhatup。HehadgottheservantsatKentVillaonhisside,andhefeltsaferherethaninanystrangeplace:sohesaid,\"Idon\'tknow:thatalldepends。Thereisplentyoftime。\"
\"No,uncle,\"saidRosagravely。\"Iwishtoleavethishouse。I
canhardlybreatheinit。\"
\"What!yournativeair?\"
\"Mysteryisnotmynativeair;andthishouseisfullofmystery。
Voiceswhisperatmydoor,andthepeopledon\'tcomein。Themaidscaststrangelooksatme,andhurryaway。IscoldedthatpertgirlJane,andsheansweredmeasmeekasMoses。Icatchyoulookingatme,withlove,andsomethingelse。Whatisthatsomething——?ItisPity:thatiswhatitis。Doyouthink,becauseIamcalledasimpleton,thatIhavenoeyes,norears,norsense?Whatisthissecretwhichyouareallhidingfromoneperson,andthatisme?
Ah!Christopherhasnotwrittenthesefiveweeks。Tellmethetruth,forIwillknowit,\"andshestartedupinwildexcitement。
ThenDr。Philipsawthehourwascome。
Hesaid,\"Mypoorgirl,youhavereadusright。IamanxiousaboutChristopher,andalltheservantsknowit。\"
\"Anxious,andnottellME;hiswife;thewomanwhoselifeisboundupinhis。\"
\"Wasitforustoretardyourconvalescence,andsetyoufretting,andperhapsdestroyyourchild?Rosa,mydarling,thinkwhatatreasureHeavenhassentyou,toloveandcarefor。\"
\"Yes,\"saidshe,trembling,\"Heavenhasbeengoodtome;IhopeHeavenwillalwaysbeasgoodtome。Idon\'tdeserveit;butthenItellGodso。Iamverygrateful,andverypenitent。Ineverforgetthat,ifIhadbeenagoodwife,myhusband——fiveweeksisalongtime。Whydoyoutrembleso?Whyareyousopale——astrongmanlikeyou?CALAMITY!CALAMITY!\"
Dr。Philiphunghishead。
Shelookedathim,startedwildlyup,thensankbackintoherchair。Sothestrickendeerleaps,thenfalls。Yetevennowsheputonadeceitfulcalm,andsaid,\"Tellmethetruth。Ihavearighttoknow。\"
Hestammeredout,\"Thereisareportofanaccidentatsea。\"
Shekeptsilence。
\"Ofapassengerdrowned——outofthatship。This,coupledwithhissilence,fillsourheartswithfear。\"
\"Itisworse——youarebreakingittome——youhavegonetoofartostop。Oneword:ishealive?Oh,sayheisalive!\"
Philiprangthebellhard,andsaidinatroubledvoice,\"Rosa,thinkofyourchild。\"
\"Notwhenmyhusband——Ishealiveordead?\"
\"Itishardtosay,withsuchaterriblereportabout,andnoletters,\"falteredtheoldman,hiscouragefailinghim。
\"Whatareyouafraidof?DoyouthinkIcan\'tdie,andgotohim?
Alive,ordead?\"andshestoodbeforehim,ragingandquiveringineverylimb。
Thenursecamein。
\"Fetchherchild,\"hecried;\"Godhavemercyonher。\"
\"Ah,thenheisdead,\"saidshe,withstonycalmness。\"Idrovehimtosea,andheisdead。\"
Thenurserushedin,andheldthechildtoher。
Shewouldnotlookatit。
\"Dead!\"
\"Yes,ourpoorChristieisgone——buthischildishere——theimageofhim。Donotforgetthemother。Havepityonhischildandyours。\"
\"Takeitoutofmysight!\"shescreamed。\"Awaywithit,orIshallmurderit,asIhavemurdereditsfather。MydearChristie,beforeallthatlive!Ihavekilledhim。Ishalldieforhim。Ishallgotohim。\"Sheravedandtoreherhair。Servantsrushedin。
Rosawascarriedtoherbed,screamingandraving,andherblackhairalldownonbothsides,apiteoussight。
Swoonfollowedswoon,andthatverynightbrainfeversetinwithallitssadaccompaniments;apoorbereavedcreature,tossingandmoaning;pale,anxious,butresolutefacesofthenurseandthekitchen-maidwatching:ononetableapailofice,andonanotherthelong,thickravenhairofourpoorSimpleton,lyingoncleansilverpaper。Dr。Philiphadcutitalloffwithhisownhand,andhewasnowfoldingitup,andcryingoverit;forhethoughttohimself,\"Perhapsinafewdaysmoreonlythiswillbeleftofheronearth。\"
CHAPTERXV。
Stainesfellhead-foremostintotheseawithaheavyplunge。Beinganexcellentswimmer,hestruckoutthemomenthetouchedthewater,andthatarrestedhisdive,andbroughthimupwithaslant,shockedandpanting,drenchedandconfused。Thenextmomenthesaw,asthroughafog——hiseyesbeingfullofwater——somethingfallfromtheship。Hebreastedthebigwaves,andswamtowardsit:itroseonthetopofawave,andhesawitwasalife-buoy。
Encumberedwithwetclothes,heseemedimpotentinthebigwaves;
theythrewhimupsohigh,anddownsolow。
Almostexhausted,hegottothelife-buoy,andclutcheditwithafiercegraspandawildcryofdelight。Hegotitoverhishead,and,placinghisarmsroundthebuoyantcircle,stoodwithhisbreastandheadoutofwater,gasping。
Henowdrewalongbreath,andgothiswethairoutofhiseyes,alreadysmartingwithsaltwater,and,raisinghimselfonthebuoy,lookedoutforhelp。
Hesaw,tohisgreatconcern,theshipalreadyatadistance。Sheseemedtohaveflown,andshewasstilldriftingfastawayfromhim。
Hesawnosignsofhelp。Hisheartbegantoturnascoldashisdrenchedbody。Ahorriblefearcrossedhim。
Butpresentlyhesawtheweather-boatfilled,andfallintothewater;andthenawaverolledbetweenhimandtheship,andheonlysawhertopmast。
Thenexttimeheroseonamightywavehesawtheboatstogetherasternofthevessel,butnotcominghisway;andthegloomwasthickening,theshipbecomingindistinct,andallwasdoubtandhorror。
Alifeofagonypassedinafewminutes。
Heroseandfelllikeacorkonthebuoyantwaves——roseandfell,andsawnothingbuttheship\'slights,nowterriblydistant。
Butatlast,asheroseandfell,hecaughtafewfitfulglimpsesofasmallerlightrisingandfallinglikehimself。\"Aboat!\"hecried,andraisinghimselfashighashecould,shouted,cried,imploredforhelp。Hestretchedhishandsacrossthewater。\"Thisway!thisway!\"
Thelightkeptmoving,butitcamenonearer。Theyhadgreatlyunderratedthedrift。Theotherboathadnolight。
Minutespassedofsuspense,hope,doubt,dismay,terror。Thoseminutesseemedhours。
Intheagonyofsuspensethequakingheartsentbeadsofsweattothebrow,thoughthebodywasimmersed。
Andthegloomdeepened,andthecoldwavesflunghimuptoheavenwiththeirgiantarms,andthendownagaintohell:andstillthatlight,hisonlyhope,wasseveralhundredyardsfromhim。
Onlyforamomentatatimecouldhiseyeballs,strainingwithagony,catchthiswill-o\'-the-wisp,theboat\'slight。Itgropedtheseaupanddown,butcamenonear。
Whenwhatseemeddaysofagonyhadpassed,suddenlyarocketroseinthehorizon——soitseemedtohim。
Thelostmangaveashriekofjoy;sopronearewetointerpretthingshopefully。
Misery!Thenexttimehesawthatlittlelight,thatsolitarysparkofhope,itwasnotquitesonearasbefore。Amortalsicknessfellonhisheart。Theshiphadrecalledtheboatsbyrocket。
Heshrieked,hecried,hescreamed,heraved。\"Oh,Rosa!Rosa!forhersake,men,men,donotleaveme。Iamhere!here!\"
Invain。Themiserablemansawtheboat\'slittlelightretire,recede,andmeltintotheship\'slargerlight,andthatlightglidedaway。
Then,acold,deadlystuporfellonhim。Then,death\'sicyclawseizedhisheart,andseemedtorunfromittoeverypartofhim。
Hewasadeadman。Onlyaquestionoftime。Nothingtogainbyfloating。
Butthedespairingmindcouldnotquittheworldinpeace,andevenhereinthecold,cruelsea,thequiveringbodyclungtothisfragmentoflife,andwincedatdeath\'stouch,thoughmoremerciful。
Hedespisedthisweakness;heragedatit;hecouldnotovercomeit。
Unabletoliveortodie,condemnedtofloatslowly,hourbyhour,downintodeath\'sjaws。
Toalong,death-likestuporsucceededfrenzy。Furyseizedthisgreatandlong-sufferingmind。Itroseagainstthecrueltyandinjusticeofhisfate。Hecursedtheworld,whosestupidityhaddrivenhimtosea,hecursedremorselessnature;andatlastherailedontheGodwhomadehim,andmadethecruelwater,thatwaswaitingforhisbody。\"God\'sjustice!God\'smercy!God\'spower!
theyarealllies,\"heshouted,\"dreams,chimeras,likeHimtheall-powerfulandgood,menbabbleofbythefire。IftherewasaGodmorepowerfulthanthesea,andonlyhalfasgoodasmenare,hewouldpitymypoorRosaandme,andsendahurricanetodrivethosecaitiffsbacktothewretchtheyhaveabandoned。Naturealoneismighty。Oh,ifIcouldhaveheronmyside,andonlyGodagainstme!ButsheisasdeaftoprayerasHeis:asmechanicalandremorseless。Iamabubblemeltingintothesea。SoulIhavenone;mybodywillsoonbenothing,nothing。Soendsanhonest,lovinglife。Ialwaystriedtolovemyfellow-creatures。Cursethem!cursethem!Cursetheearth!Cursethesea!Curseallnature:thereisnootherGodformetocurse。\"
Themooncameout。
Heraisedhisheadandstaringeyeballs,andcursedher。
Thewindbegantowhistle,andflungsprayinhisface。
Heraisedhisfallenheadandstaringeyeballs,andcursedthewind。
Whilehewasthusraving,hebecamesensibleofablackobjecttowindward。
Itlookedlikearail,andamanleaningonit。
Hestared,heclearedthewethairfromhiseyes,andstaredagain。
Thething,beinglargerthanhimselfandpartlyoutofwater,wasdriftingtoleewardfasterthanhimself。
Hestaredandtrembled,andatlastitcamenearlyabreast,black,black。
Hegavealoudcry,andtriedtoswimtowardsit;butencumberedwithhislife-buoy,hemadelittleprogress。Thethingdriftedabreastofhim,buttenyardsdistant。
Astheyeachrosehighuponthewaves,hesawitplainly。
Itwastheveryraftthathadbeentheinnocentcauseofhissadfate。
Heshoutedwithhope,heswam,hestruggled;hegotnearit,butnottoit;itdriftedpast,andhelosthischanceofinterceptingit。Hestruggledafterit。Thelife-buoywouldnotlethimcatchit。
Thenhegaveacryofagony,rage,despair,andflungoffthelife-
buoy,andriskedallonthisonechance。
Hegainsalittleontheraft。
Heloses。
Hegains:hecries,\"Rosa!Rosa!\"andstruggleswithallhissoul,aswellashisbody:hegains。
Butwhenalmostwithinreach,awavehalfdrownshim,andheloses。
Hecries,\"Rosa!Rosa!\"andswimshighandstrong。\"Rosa!Rosa!
Rosa!\"
Heisnearit。Hecries,\"Rosa!Rosa!\"andwithalltheenergyofloveandlifeflingshimselfalmostoutofthewater,andcatchesholdofthenearestthingontheraft。
Itwasthedeadman\'sleg。
Itseemedasifitwouldcomeawayinhisgrasp。Hedarednottrytopullhimselfupbythat。Butheheldonbyit,panting,exhausting,faint。
Thisfaintnessterrifiedhim。\"Oh,\"thoughthe,\"ifIfaintnow,allisover。\"
Holdingbythatterribleandstrangesupport,hemadeagrasp,andcaughtholdofthewoodworkatthebottomoftherail。Hetriedtodrawhimselfup。Impossible。
Hewasnobetteroffthanwithhislife-buoy。
Butinsituationssodreadful,menthinkfast;heworkedgraduallyroundthebottomoftheraftbyhishands,tillhegottoleeward,stillholdingon。Therehefoundasolidblockofwoodattheedgeoftheraft。Heprisedhimselfcarefullyup;theraftinthatpartthensankalittle:hegothiskneeuponthetimberoftheraft,andwithawildcryseizedthenearestupright,andthrewbotharmsrounditandclungtight。Thenfirsthefoundbreathtospeak。
\"THANKGOD!\"hecried,kneelingonthetimber,andgraspingtheuprightpost——\"OH,THANKGOD!THANKGOD!\"
CHAPTERXVI。
\"ThankGod!\"why,accordingtohistheory,itshouldhavebeen\"ThankNature。\"ButIobservethat,insuchcases,evenphilosophersareungratefultothemistresstheyworship。
OurphilosophernotonlythankedGod,butbeingonhisknees,prayedforgivenessforhislateravings,prayedhard,withonearmcurledroundtheupright,lestthesea,whicheverandanonrushedoverthebottomoftheraft,shouldswallowhimupinamoment。
Thenherosecarefully,andwedgedhimselfintothecorneroftheraftoppositetothatotherfigure,ominousrelicofthewildvoyagethenew-comerhadenteredupon;heputbotharmsovertherail,andstooderect。
Themoonwasnowup;butsowasthebreeze:fleecycloudsflewwithvastrapidityacrossherbrightface,anditwasbyfitfulthoughvividglancesStainesexaminedtheraftandhiscompanion。
Theraftwaslarge,andwellmadeoftimberstiedandnailedtogether,andastrongrailranrounditrestingonseveraluprights。Therewerealsosomeblocksofaverylightwoodscrewedtothehorizontaltimbers,andthesemadeitfloathigh。
Butwhatarrestedandfascinatedtheman\'sgazewashisdeadcompanion,solesurvivor,doubtless,ofahorriblevoyage,sincetheraftwasnotmadeforone,norbyone。
Itwasaskeleton,ornearly,whoseclothestheseabirdshadtorn,andpeckedeverylimbinallthefleshyparts;therestofthebodyhaddriedtodarkleatheronthebones。Theheadwaslittlemorethananeyelessskull;butinthefitfulmoonlight,thosehugehollowcavernsseemedgiganticlamp-likeeyes,andglaredathimfiendishly,appallingly。
Hesickenedatthesight。Hetriednottolookatit;butitwouldbelookedat,andthreatenhiminthemoonlight,withgreatlack-
lustreeyes。
Thewindwhistled,andlashedhisfacewithspraytornoffthebigwaves,andthewaterwasnearlyuptohisknees,andtherafttossedsowildly,itwasallhecoulddotoholdoninhiscorner:
inwhichstruggle,stillthosemonstrouslack-lustreeyes,likelampsofdeath,glaredathiminthemoon;allelsewasdark,exceptthefierycrestsoftheblackmountain-billows,tumblingandragingallaround。
Whatanight!
But,beforemorning,thebreezesank,themoonset,andasombrequietsucceeded,withonlythatgrimfigureinoutlinedimlyvisible。Owingtothemotionstillretainedbythewaves,itseemedtonodandrear,andbeeverpreparingtorushuponhim。
Thesunroseglorious,onalovelyscene;theskywasaverymosaicofcolorssweetandvivid,andthetranquil,ripplingsea,peach-
coloredtothehorizon,withlinesofdiamondswherethemyriadripplesbrokeintosmiles。
Staineswasasleep,exhausted。Soonthelightawokehim,andhelookedup。Whatanincongruouspicturemethiseye:thatheavenofcolorallaboveandaround,andrightbeforehim,likeadevilstuckinmid-heaven,thatgrinningcorpse,whosefateforeshadowedhisown。
Butdaylightisagreatstrengthenerofthenerves;thefigurenolongerappalledhim——amanwhohadlonglearnedtolookwithScience\'scalmeyeuponthedead。Whentheseabecamelikeglass,andfrompeach-colordeepenedtorose,hewalkedalongtheraft,andinspectedthedeadman。Hefounditwasamanofcolor,butnotablack。Thebodywasnotkeptinitsplace,ashehadsupposed,merelybybeingjammedintotheanglecausedbytherail;
itwasalsolashedtothecorneruprightbyalong,stoutbelt。
Stainesconcludedthishadkeptthebodythere,anditscompanionshadbeensweptaway。
Thiswasnotlostonhim:heremovedthebeltforhisownuse:hethenfounditwasnotonlyabelt,butareceptacle;itwasnearlyfullofsmall,hardsubstancesthatfeltlikestones。
Whenhehadtakenitoffthebody,hefeltacompunction。\"Oughthetorobthedead,andexposeittobesweptintotheseaatthefirstwave,likeadeaddog?\"
Hewasabouttoreplacethebelt,whenamiddlecourseoccurredtohim。Hewasamanwhoalwayscarriedcertainusefullittlethingsabouthim,viz。,needles,thread,scissors,andstring。Hetookapieceofstring,andeasilysecuredthispoorlightskeletontotheraft。Thebelthestrappedtotherail,andkeptforhisownneed。
Andnowhungergnawedhim。Nofoodwasnear。Therewasnothingbutthelovelyseaandsky,mosaicwithcolor,andthatgrim,ominousskeleton。
Hungercomesandgoesmanytimesbeforeitbecomesinsupportable。
Allthatdayandnight,andthenextday,hesuffereditspangs;
andthenitbecametorture,butthethirstmaddening。
Towardsnightfellagentlerain。Hespreadahandkerchiefandcaughtit。Hesuckedthehandkerchief。
Thisrevivedhim,andevenallayedinsomedegreethepangsofhunger。
Nextdaywascloudless。Ahotsunglaredonhisunprotectedhead,andbattereddownhisenfeebledframe。
Heresistedaswellashecould。Heoftendippedhishead,andasoftenthepersistentsun,withcruelglare,madeitsmokeagain。
Nextdaythesame:butthestrengthtomeetitwaswaning。HelaydownandthoughtofRosa,andweptbitterly。Hetookthedeadman\'sbelt,andlashedhimselftotheupright。Thatact,andhistearsforhisbeloved,werealmosthislastactsofperfectreason:
fornextdaycamethedelusionsandthedreamsthatsucceedwhenhungerceasestotorture,andthevitalpowersbegintoebb。Helayandsawpleasantmeadowswithmeanderingstreams,andclustersofrichfruitthatcourtedthehandandmeltedinthemouth。
Everandanontheyvanished,andhesawgrimdeathlookingdownonhimwiththosebigcavernouseyes。
Byandby,whetherhisbody\'seyesawthegrimskeleton,orhismind\'seyethejuicyfruits,greenmeadows,andpearlybrooks,allwasshadowy。
So,inaplacidcalm,beneathabluesky,theraftdrifteddead,withitsdeadfreight,upontheglassypurple,andhedrifted,too,towardstheworldunknown。
Therecameacrossthewaterstothatdismalraftathingnonetoocommon,byseaorland——agoodman。
Hewastall,stalwart,bronzed,andhadhairlikesnow,beforehistime,forhehadknowntrouble。Hecommandedamerchantsteamer,boundforCalcutta,ontheoldroute。
Themanatthemast-headdescriedafloatingwreck,andhailedthedeckaccordingly。Thecaptainalteredhiscoursewithoutonemoment\'shesitation,andbroughtupalongside,loweredaboat,andbroughtthedead,andthebreathingman,onboard。
AyoungmiddyliftedStainesinhisarmsfromthewrecktotheboat;hewhosepersonIdescribedinchapteroneweighednownomorethanthat。
Menarenotalwaysrougherthanwomen。Theirstrengthandnerveenablethemnowandthentobegentlerthanbuttery-fingeredangels,whodropfrailthingsthroughsensitiveagitation,andbreakthem。TheseroughmensawStaineswashoveringbetweenlifeanddeath,andtheyhandledhimlikeathingtheebbinglifemightbeshakenoutofinamoment。Itwasprettytoseehowgingerlythesailorscarriedthesinkingmanuptheladder,andonefetchedswabs,andtheotherslaidhimdownsoftlyonthemattheircaptain\'sfeet。
\"Welldone,men,\"saidhe。\"Poorfellow!PrayHeaven,wemaynothavecometoolate。Nowstandaloofabit。Sendthesurgeonaft。\"
Thesurgeoncame,andlooked,andfelttheheart。Heshookhishead,andcalledforbrandy。HehadStaines\'sheadraised,andgothalfaspoonfulofdilutedbrandydownhisthroat。Buttherewasanominousgurgling。
Afterseveralsuchattemptsatintervals,hesaidplainlytheman\'slifecouldnotbesavedbyordinarymeans。
\"Thentryextraordinary,\"saidthecaptain。\"Myordersarethatheistobesaved。Thereislifeinhim。Youhaveonlygottokeepitthere。HeMUSTbesaved;heSHALLbesaved。\"
\"IshouldliketotryDr。Staines\'sremedy,\"saidthesurgeon。
\"Tryit,thenwhatisit?\"
\"Abathofbeef-tea。Dr。Stainessaysheappliedittoastarvedchild——intheLancet。\"
\"Takeahundred-weightofbeef,andboilitinthecoppers。\"
Thusencouraged,thesurgeonwenttothecook,andverysoonbeefwassteamingonascaleandatarateunparalleled。
Meantime,CaptainDoddhadthepatienttakentohisowncabin,andheandhisservantadministeredweakbrandyandwaterwithgreatcautionandskill。
Therewasnoperceptibleresult。Butatalleventstherewaslifeandvitalinstinctleft,orhecouldnothaveswallowed。
Thustheyhoveredabouthimforsomehours,andthenthebathwasready。
Thecaptaintookchargeofthepatient\'sclothes:thesurgeonandasailorbathedhiminlukewarmbeef-tea,andthencoveredhimverywarmwithblanketsnexttheskin。Guesshownearathingitseemedtothem,whenItellyoutheydarednotrubhim。
Justbeforesunsethispulsebecameperceptible。Thesurgeonadministeredhalfaspoonfulofegg-flip。Thepatientswallowedit。
Byandbyhesighed。
\"Hemustnotbeleft,dayornight,\"saidthecaptain。\"Idon\'tknowwhoorwhatheis,butheisaman;andIcouldnotbearhimtodienow。\"
ThatnightCaptainDoddoverhauledthepatient\'sclothes,andlookedformarksonhislinen。Therewerenone。
\"Poordevil\"saidCaptainDodd。\"Heisabachelor。\"
CaptainDoddfoundhispocket-book,withbank-notes,twohundredpounds。Hetookthenumbers,madeamemorandumofthem,andlockedthenotesup。