第17章

类别:其他 作者:Charles Reade字数:9449更新时间:18/12/14 10:46:38
OnthisDr。Philipbeggedthemaidstogonearheraslittleaspossible。\"Youarenotawareofit,\"saidhe,\"butyourlooks,andyourmannerofspeaking,rouseherattention,andsheisquickerthanIthoughtshewas,andobservesverysubtly。\" Thiswasdone;andthenshecomplainedthatnobodycamenearher。 Sheinsistedoncomingdown-stairs;itwassodull。 Dr。Philipconsented,ifshewouldbecontenttoreceivenovisitsforaweek。 Sheassentedtothat;andnowpassedsomehourseverydayinthedrawing-room。Inhermorningwrappers,sofreshandcrisp,shelookedlovely,andincreasedinhealthandstrengtheveryday。 Dr。Philipusedtolookather,andhisveryfleshwouldcreepatthethoughtthat,erelong,hemusthurlthisfaircreatureintothedustofaffliction;must,withaword,taketherubyfromherlips,therosefromhercheeks,thesparklefromhergloriouseyes—— eyesthatbeamedonhimwithsweetaffection,andamouththatneveropened,buttoshowsomesimplicityofmind,orsomeprettyburstofthesensitiveheart。 Heputoff,andputoff,andatlastcowardicebegantowhisper,\"Whytellherthewholetruthatall?Whynottakeherthroughstagesofdoubt,alarm,and,afterall,leaveagrainofhopetillherchildgetssorootedinherheartthat\"——Butconscienceandgoodsenseinterruptedthistemporarythought,andmadehimseetowhatahorriblelifeofsuspenseheshouldcondemnahumancreature,andliveaperpetuallie,andbealwaysattheedgeofsomepitfallorother。 Oneday,whilehesatlookingather,withallthesethoughts,andmanymore,coursingthroughhismind,shelookedupathim,andsurprisedhim。\"Ah!\"saidshegravely。 \"Whatisthematter,mydear?\" \"Oh,nothing,\"saidshecunningly。 \"Uncle,dear,\"saidshepresently,\"whendowegotoHerneBay?\" Now,Dr。Philiphadgiventhatup。HehadgottheservantsatKentVillaonhisside,andhefeltsaferherethaninanystrangeplace:sohesaid,\"Idon\'tknow:thatalldepends。Thereisplentyoftime。\" \"No,uncle,\"saidRosagravely。\"Iwishtoleavethishouse。I canhardlybreatheinit。\" \"What!yournativeair?\" \"Mysteryisnotmynativeair;andthishouseisfullofmystery。 Voiceswhisperatmydoor,andthepeopledon\'tcomein。Themaidscaststrangelooksatme,andhurryaway。IscoldedthatpertgirlJane,andsheansweredmeasmeekasMoses。Icatchyoulookingatme,withlove,andsomethingelse。Whatisthatsomething——?ItisPity:thatiswhatitis。Doyouthink,becauseIamcalledasimpleton,thatIhavenoeyes,norears,norsense?Whatisthissecretwhichyouareallhidingfromoneperson,andthatisme? Ah!Christopherhasnotwrittenthesefiveweeks。Tellmethetruth,forIwillknowit,\"andshestartedupinwildexcitement。 ThenDr。Philipsawthehourwascome。 Hesaid,\"Mypoorgirl,youhavereadusright。IamanxiousaboutChristopher,andalltheservantsknowit。\" \"Anxious,andnottellME;hiswife;thewomanwhoselifeisboundupinhis。\" \"Wasitforustoretardyourconvalescence,andsetyoufretting,andperhapsdestroyyourchild?Rosa,mydarling,thinkwhatatreasureHeavenhassentyou,toloveandcarefor。\" \"Yes,\"saidshe,trembling,\"Heavenhasbeengoodtome;IhopeHeavenwillalwaysbeasgoodtome。Idon\'tdeserveit;butthenItellGodso。Iamverygrateful,andverypenitent。Ineverforgetthat,ifIhadbeenagoodwife,myhusband——fiveweeksisalongtime。Whydoyoutrembleso?Whyareyousopale——astrongmanlikeyou?CALAMITY!CALAMITY!\" Dr。Philiphunghishead。 Shelookedathim,startedwildlyup,thensankbackintoherchair。Sothestrickendeerleaps,thenfalls。Yetevennowsheputonadeceitfulcalm,andsaid,\"Tellmethetruth。Ihavearighttoknow。\" Hestammeredout,\"Thereisareportofanaccidentatsea。\" Shekeptsilence。 \"Ofapassengerdrowned——outofthatship。This,coupledwithhissilence,fillsourheartswithfear。\" \"Itisworse——youarebreakingittome——youhavegonetoofartostop。Oneword:ishealive?Oh,sayheisalive!\" Philiprangthebellhard,andsaidinatroubledvoice,\"Rosa,thinkofyourchild。\" \"Notwhenmyhusband——Ishealiveordead?\" \"Itishardtosay,withsuchaterriblereportabout,andnoletters,\"falteredtheoldman,hiscouragefailinghim。 \"Whatareyouafraidof?DoyouthinkIcan\'tdie,andgotohim? Alive,ordead?\"andshestoodbeforehim,ragingandquiveringineverylimb。 Thenursecamein。 \"Fetchherchild,\"hecried;\"Godhavemercyonher。\" \"Ah,thenheisdead,\"saidshe,withstonycalmness。\"Idrovehimtosea,andheisdead。\" Thenurserushedin,andheldthechildtoher。 Shewouldnotlookatit。 \"Dead!\" \"Yes,ourpoorChristieisgone——buthischildishere——theimageofhim。Donotforgetthemother。Havepityonhischildandyours。\" \"Takeitoutofmysight!\"shescreamed。\"Awaywithit,orIshallmurderit,asIhavemurdereditsfather。MydearChristie,beforeallthatlive!Ihavekilledhim。Ishalldieforhim。Ishallgotohim。\"Sheravedandtoreherhair。Servantsrushedin。 Rosawascarriedtoherbed,screamingandraving,andherblackhairalldownonbothsides,apiteoussight。 Swoonfollowedswoon,andthatverynightbrainfeversetinwithallitssadaccompaniments;apoorbereavedcreature,tossingandmoaning;pale,anxious,butresolutefacesofthenurseandthekitchen-maidwatching:ononetableapailofice,andonanotherthelong,thickravenhairofourpoorSimpleton,lyingoncleansilverpaper。Dr。Philiphadcutitalloffwithhisownhand,andhewasnowfoldingitup,andcryingoverit;forhethoughttohimself,\"Perhapsinafewdaysmoreonlythiswillbeleftofheronearth。\" CHAPTERXV。 Stainesfellhead-foremostintotheseawithaheavyplunge。Beinganexcellentswimmer,hestruckoutthemomenthetouchedthewater,andthatarrestedhisdive,andbroughthimupwithaslant,shockedandpanting,drenchedandconfused。Thenextmomenthesaw,asthroughafog——hiseyesbeingfullofwater——somethingfallfromtheship。Hebreastedthebigwaves,andswamtowardsit:itroseonthetopofawave,andhesawitwasalife-buoy。 Encumberedwithwetclothes,heseemedimpotentinthebigwaves; theythrewhimupsohigh,anddownsolow。 Almostexhausted,hegottothelife-buoy,andclutcheditwithafiercegraspandawildcryofdelight。Hegotitoverhishead,and,placinghisarmsroundthebuoyantcircle,stoodwithhisbreastandheadoutofwater,gasping。 Henowdrewalongbreath,andgothiswethairoutofhiseyes,alreadysmartingwithsaltwater,and,raisinghimselfonthebuoy,lookedoutforhelp。 Hesaw,tohisgreatconcern,theshipalreadyatadistance。Sheseemedtohaveflown,andshewasstilldriftingfastawayfromhim。 Hesawnosignsofhelp。Hisheartbegantoturnascoldashisdrenchedbody。Ahorriblefearcrossedhim。 Butpresentlyhesawtheweather-boatfilled,andfallintothewater;andthenawaverolledbetweenhimandtheship,andheonlysawhertopmast。 Thenexttimeheroseonamightywavehesawtheboatstogetherasternofthevessel,butnotcominghisway;andthegloomwasthickening,theshipbecomingindistinct,andallwasdoubtandhorror。 Alifeofagonypassedinafewminutes。 Heroseandfelllikeacorkonthebuoyantwaves——roseandfell,andsawnothingbuttheship\'slights,nowterriblydistant。 Butatlast,asheroseandfell,hecaughtafewfitfulglimpsesofasmallerlightrisingandfallinglikehimself。\"Aboat!\"hecried,andraisinghimselfashighashecould,shouted,cried,imploredforhelp。Hestretchedhishandsacrossthewater。\"Thisway!thisway!\" Thelightkeptmoving,butitcamenonearer。Theyhadgreatlyunderratedthedrift。Theotherboathadnolight。 Minutespassedofsuspense,hope,doubt,dismay,terror。Thoseminutesseemedhours。 Intheagonyofsuspensethequakingheartsentbeadsofsweattothebrow,thoughthebodywasimmersed。 Andthegloomdeepened,andthecoldwavesflunghimuptoheavenwiththeirgiantarms,andthendownagaintohell:andstillthatlight,hisonlyhope,wasseveralhundredyardsfromhim。 Onlyforamomentatatimecouldhiseyeballs,strainingwithagony,catchthiswill-o\'-the-wisp,theboat\'slight。Itgropedtheseaupanddown,butcamenonear。 Whenwhatseemeddaysofagonyhadpassed,suddenlyarocketroseinthehorizon——soitseemedtohim。 Thelostmangaveashriekofjoy;sopronearewetointerpretthingshopefully。 Misery!Thenexttimehesawthatlittlelight,thatsolitarysparkofhope,itwasnotquitesonearasbefore。Amortalsicknessfellonhisheart。Theshiphadrecalledtheboatsbyrocket。 Heshrieked,hecried,hescreamed,heraved。\"Oh,Rosa!Rosa!forhersake,men,men,donotleaveme。Iamhere!here!\" Invain。Themiserablemansawtheboat\'slittlelightretire,recede,andmeltintotheship\'slargerlight,andthatlightglidedaway。 Then,acold,deadlystuporfellonhim。Then,death\'sicyclawseizedhisheart,andseemedtorunfromittoeverypartofhim。 Hewasadeadman。Onlyaquestionoftime。Nothingtogainbyfloating。 Butthedespairingmindcouldnotquittheworldinpeace,andevenhereinthecold,cruelsea,thequiveringbodyclungtothisfragmentoflife,andwincedatdeath\'stouch,thoughmoremerciful。 Hedespisedthisweakness;heragedatit;hecouldnotovercomeit。 Unabletoliveortodie,condemnedtofloatslowly,hourbyhour,downintodeath\'sjaws。 Toalong,death-likestuporsucceededfrenzy。Furyseizedthisgreatandlong-sufferingmind。Itroseagainstthecrueltyandinjusticeofhisfate。Hecursedtheworld,whosestupidityhaddrivenhimtosea,hecursedremorselessnature;andatlastherailedontheGodwhomadehim,andmadethecruelwater,thatwaswaitingforhisbody。\"God\'sjustice!God\'smercy!God\'spower! theyarealllies,\"heshouted,\"dreams,chimeras,likeHimtheall-powerfulandgood,menbabbleofbythefire。IftherewasaGodmorepowerfulthanthesea,andonlyhalfasgoodasmenare,hewouldpitymypoorRosaandme,andsendahurricanetodrivethosecaitiffsbacktothewretchtheyhaveabandoned。Naturealoneismighty。Oh,ifIcouldhaveheronmyside,andonlyGodagainstme!ButsheisasdeaftoprayerasHeis:asmechanicalandremorseless。Iamabubblemeltingintothesea。SoulIhavenone;mybodywillsoonbenothing,nothing。Soendsanhonest,lovinglife。Ialwaystriedtolovemyfellow-creatures。Cursethem!cursethem!Cursetheearth!Cursethesea!Curseallnature:thereisnootherGodformetocurse。\" Themooncameout。 Heraisedhisheadandstaringeyeballs,andcursedher。 Thewindbegantowhistle,andflungsprayinhisface。 Heraisedhisfallenheadandstaringeyeballs,andcursedthewind。 Whilehewasthusraving,hebecamesensibleofablackobjecttowindward。 Itlookedlikearail,andamanleaningonit。 Hestared,heclearedthewethairfromhiseyes,andstaredagain。 Thething,beinglargerthanhimselfandpartlyoutofwater,wasdriftingtoleewardfasterthanhimself。 Hestaredandtrembled,andatlastitcamenearlyabreast,black,black。 Hegavealoudcry,andtriedtoswimtowardsit;butencumberedwithhislife-buoy,hemadelittleprogress。Thethingdriftedabreastofhim,buttenyardsdistant。 Astheyeachrosehighuponthewaves,hesawitplainly。 Itwastheveryraftthathadbeentheinnocentcauseofhissadfate。 Heshoutedwithhope,heswam,hestruggled;hegotnearit,butnottoit;itdriftedpast,andhelosthischanceofinterceptingit。Hestruggledafterit。Thelife-buoywouldnotlethimcatchit。 Thenhegaveacryofagony,rage,despair,andflungoffthelife- buoy,andriskedallonthisonechance。 Hegainsalittleontheraft。 Heloses。 Hegains:hecries,\"Rosa!Rosa!\"andstruggleswithallhissoul,aswellashisbody:hegains。 Butwhenalmostwithinreach,awavehalfdrownshim,andheloses。 Hecries,\"Rosa!Rosa!\"andswimshighandstrong。\"Rosa!Rosa! Rosa!\" Heisnearit。Hecries,\"Rosa!Rosa!\"andwithalltheenergyofloveandlifeflingshimselfalmostoutofthewater,andcatchesholdofthenearestthingontheraft。 Itwasthedeadman\'sleg。 Itseemedasifitwouldcomeawayinhisgrasp。Hedarednottrytopullhimselfupbythat。Butheheldonbyit,panting,exhausting,faint。 Thisfaintnessterrifiedhim。\"Oh,\"thoughthe,\"ifIfaintnow,allisover。\" Holdingbythatterribleandstrangesupport,hemadeagrasp,andcaughtholdofthewoodworkatthebottomoftherail。Hetriedtodrawhimselfup。Impossible。 Hewasnobetteroffthanwithhislife-buoy。 Butinsituationssodreadful,menthinkfast;heworkedgraduallyroundthebottomoftheraftbyhishands,tillhegottoleeward,stillholdingon。Therehefoundasolidblockofwoodattheedgeoftheraft。Heprisedhimselfcarefullyup;theraftinthatpartthensankalittle:hegothiskneeuponthetimberoftheraft,andwithawildcryseizedthenearestupright,andthrewbotharmsrounditandclungtight。Thenfirsthefoundbreathtospeak。 \"THANKGOD!\"hecried,kneelingonthetimber,andgraspingtheuprightpost——\"OH,THANKGOD!THANKGOD!\" CHAPTERXVI。 \"ThankGod!\"why,accordingtohistheory,itshouldhavebeen\"ThankNature。\"ButIobservethat,insuchcases,evenphilosophersareungratefultothemistresstheyworship。 OurphilosophernotonlythankedGod,butbeingonhisknees,prayedforgivenessforhislateravings,prayedhard,withonearmcurledroundtheupright,lestthesea,whicheverandanonrushedoverthebottomoftheraft,shouldswallowhimupinamoment。 Thenherosecarefully,andwedgedhimselfintothecorneroftheraftoppositetothatotherfigure,ominousrelicofthewildvoyagethenew-comerhadenteredupon;heputbotharmsovertherail,andstooderect。 Themoonwasnowup;butsowasthebreeze:fleecycloudsflewwithvastrapidityacrossherbrightface,anditwasbyfitfulthoughvividglancesStainesexaminedtheraftandhiscompanion。 Theraftwaslarge,andwellmadeoftimberstiedandnailedtogether,andastrongrailranrounditrestingonseveraluprights。Therewerealsosomeblocksofaverylightwoodscrewedtothehorizontaltimbers,andthesemadeitfloathigh。 Butwhatarrestedandfascinatedtheman\'sgazewashisdeadcompanion,solesurvivor,doubtless,ofahorriblevoyage,sincetheraftwasnotmadeforone,norbyone。 Itwasaskeleton,ornearly,whoseclothestheseabirdshadtorn,andpeckedeverylimbinallthefleshyparts;therestofthebodyhaddriedtodarkleatheronthebones。Theheadwaslittlemorethananeyelessskull;butinthefitfulmoonlight,thosehugehollowcavernsseemedgiganticlamp-likeeyes,andglaredathimfiendishly,appallingly。 Hesickenedatthesight。Hetriednottolookatit;butitwouldbelookedat,andthreatenhiminthemoonlight,withgreatlack- lustreeyes。 Thewindwhistled,andlashedhisfacewithspraytornoffthebigwaves,andthewaterwasnearlyuptohisknees,andtherafttossedsowildly,itwasallhecoulddotoholdoninhiscorner: inwhichstruggle,stillthosemonstrouslack-lustreeyes,likelampsofdeath,glaredathiminthemoon;allelsewasdark,exceptthefierycrestsoftheblackmountain-billows,tumblingandragingallaround。 Whatanight! But,beforemorning,thebreezesank,themoonset,andasombrequietsucceeded,withonlythatgrimfigureinoutlinedimlyvisible。Owingtothemotionstillretainedbythewaves,itseemedtonodandrear,andbeeverpreparingtorushuponhim。 Thesunroseglorious,onalovelyscene;theskywasaverymosaicofcolorssweetandvivid,andthetranquil,ripplingsea,peach- coloredtothehorizon,withlinesofdiamondswherethemyriadripplesbrokeintosmiles。 Staineswasasleep,exhausted。Soonthelightawokehim,andhelookedup。Whatanincongruouspicturemethiseye:thatheavenofcolorallaboveandaround,andrightbeforehim,likeadevilstuckinmid-heaven,thatgrinningcorpse,whosefateforeshadowedhisown。 Butdaylightisagreatstrengthenerofthenerves;thefigurenolongerappalledhim——amanwhohadlonglearnedtolookwithScience\'scalmeyeuponthedead。Whentheseabecamelikeglass,andfrompeach-colordeepenedtorose,hewalkedalongtheraft,andinspectedthedeadman。Hefounditwasamanofcolor,butnotablack。Thebodywasnotkeptinitsplace,ashehadsupposed,merelybybeingjammedintotheanglecausedbytherail; itwasalsolashedtothecorneruprightbyalong,stoutbelt。 Stainesconcludedthishadkeptthebodythere,anditscompanionshadbeensweptaway。 Thiswasnotlostonhim:heremovedthebeltforhisownuse:hethenfounditwasnotonlyabelt,butareceptacle;itwasnearlyfullofsmall,hardsubstancesthatfeltlikestones。 Whenhehadtakenitoffthebody,hefeltacompunction。\"Oughthetorobthedead,andexposeittobesweptintotheseaatthefirstwave,likeadeaddog?\" Hewasabouttoreplacethebelt,whenamiddlecourseoccurredtohim。Hewasamanwhoalwayscarriedcertainusefullittlethingsabouthim,viz。,needles,thread,scissors,andstring。Hetookapieceofstring,andeasilysecuredthispoorlightskeletontotheraft。Thebelthestrappedtotherail,andkeptforhisownneed。 Andnowhungergnawedhim。Nofoodwasnear。Therewasnothingbutthelovelyseaandsky,mosaicwithcolor,andthatgrim,ominousskeleton。 Hungercomesandgoesmanytimesbeforeitbecomesinsupportable。 Allthatdayandnight,andthenextday,hesuffereditspangs; andthenitbecametorture,butthethirstmaddening。 Towardsnightfellagentlerain。Hespreadahandkerchiefandcaughtit。Hesuckedthehandkerchief。 Thisrevivedhim,andevenallayedinsomedegreethepangsofhunger。 Nextdaywascloudless。Ahotsunglaredonhisunprotectedhead,andbattereddownhisenfeebledframe。 Heresistedaswellashecould。Heoftendippedhishead,andasoftenthepersistentsun,withcruelglare,madeitsmokeagain。 Nextdaythesame:butthestrengthtomeetitwaswaning。HelaydownandthoughtofRosa,andweptbitterly。Hetookthedeadman\'sbelt,andlashedhimselftotheupright。Thatact,andhistearsforhisbeloved,werealmosthislastactsofperfectreason: fornextdaycamethedelusionsandthedreamsthatsucceedwhenhungerceasestotorture,andthevitalpowersbegintoebb。Helayandsawpleasantmeadowswithmeanderingstreams,andclustersofrichfruitthatcourtedthehandandmeltedinthemouth。 Everandanontheyvanished,andhesawgrimdeathlookingdownonhimwiththosebigcavernouseyes。 Byandby,whetherhisbody\'seyesawthegrimskeleton,orhismind\'seyethejuicyfruits,greenmeadows,andpearlybrooks,allwasshadowy。 So,inaplacidcalm,beneathabluesky,theraftdrifteddead,withitsdeadfreight,upontheglassypurple,andhedrifted,too,towardstheworldunknown。 Therecameacrossthewaterstothatdismalraftathingnonetoocommon,byseaorland——agoodman。 Hewastall,stalwart,bronzed,andhadhairlikesnow,beforehistime,forhehadknowntrouble。Hecommandedamerchantsteamer,boundforCalcutta,ontheoldroute。 Themanatthemast-headdescriedafloatingwreck,andhailedthedeckaccordingly。Thecaptainalteredhiscoursewithoutonemoment\'shesitation,andbroughtupalongside,loweredaboat,andbroughtthedead,andthebreathingman,onboard。 AyoungmiddyliftedStainesinhisarmsfromthewrecktotheboat;hewhosepersonIdescribedinchapteroneweighednownomorethanthat。 Menarenotalwaysrougherthanwomen。Theirstrengthandnerveenablethemnowandthentobegentlerthanbuttery-fingeredangels,whodropfrailthingsthroughsensitiveagitation,andbreakthem。TheseroughmensawStaineswashoveringbetweenlifeanddeath,andtheyhandledhimlikeathingtheebbinglifemightbeshakenoutofinamoment。Itwasprettytoseehowgingerlythesailorscarriedthesinkingmanuptheladder,andonefetchedswabs,andtheotherslaidhimdownsoftlyonthemattheircaptain\'sfeet。 \"Welldone,men,\"saidhe。\"Poorfellow!PrayHeaven,wemaynothavecometoolate。Nowstandaloofabit。Sendthesurgeonaft。\" Thesurgeoncame,andlooked,andfelttheheart。Heshookhishead,andcalledforbrandy。HehadStaines\'sheadraised,andgothalfaspoonfulofdilutedbrandydownhisthroat。Buttherewasanominousgurgling。 Afterseveralsuchattemptsatintervals,hesaidplainlytheman\'slifecouldnotbesavedbyordinarymeans。 \"Thentryextraordinary,\"saidthecaptain。\"Myordersarethatheistobesaved。Thereislifeinhim。Youhaveonlygottokeepitthere。HeMUSTbesaved;heSHALLbesaved。\" \"IshouldliketotryDr。Staines\'sremedy,\"saidthesurgeon。 \"Tryit,thenwhatisit?\" \"Abathofbeef-tea。Dr。Stainessaysheappliedittoastarvedchild——intheLancet。\" \"Takeahundred-weightofbeef,andboilitinthecoppers。\" Thusencouraged,thesurgeonwenttothecook,andverysoonbeefwassteamingonascaleandatarateunparalleled。 Meantime,CaptainDoddhadthepatienttakentohisowncabin,andheandhisservantadministeredweakbrandyandwaterwithgreatcautionandskill。 Therewasnoperceptibleresult。Butatalleventstherewaslifeandvitalinstinctleft,orhecouldnothaveswallowed。 Thustheyhoveredabouthimforsomehours,andthenthebathwasready。 Thecaptaintookchargeofthepatient\'sclothes:thesurgeonandasailorbathedhiminlukewarmbeef-tea,andthencoveredhimverywarmwithblanketsnexttheskin。Guesshownearathingitseemedtothem,whenItellyoutheydarednotrubhim。 Justbeforesunsethispulsebecameperceptible。Thesurgeonadministeredhalfaspoonfulofegg-flip。Thepatientswallowedit。 Byandbyhesighed。 \"Hemustnotbeleft,dayornight,\"saidthecaptain。\"Idon\'tknowwhoorwhatheis,butheisaman;andIcouldnotbearhimtodienow。\" ThatnightCaptainDoddoverhauledthepatient\'sclothes,andlookedformarksonhislinen。Therewerenone。 \"Poordevil\"saidCaptainDodd。\"Heisabachelor。\" CaptainDoddfoundhispocket-book,withbank-notes,twohundredpounds。Hetookthenumbers,madeamemorandumofthem,andlockedthenotesup。