第3章

类别:其他 作者:Russell Conwell字数:14938更新时间:18/12/14 11:25:45
IshutmyeyesnowandlookbacktomynativetowninMassachusetts,andIseethecattle-showgroundonthemountain-top;Icanseethehorse- shedsthere。IcanseetheCongregationalchurch; seethetownhallandmountaineers\'cottages; seeagreatassemblyofpeopleturningout,dressedresplendently,andIcanseeflagsflyingandhandkerchiefswavingandhearbandsplaying。Icanseethatcompanyofsoldiersthathadre-enlistedmarchinguponthatcattle-showground。Iwasbutaboy,butIwascaptainofthatcompanyandpuffedoutwithpride。Acambricneedlewouldhaveburstmealltopieces。ThenIthoughtitwasthegreatesteventthatevercametomanonearth。Ifyouhaveeverthoughtyouwouldliketobeakingorqueen,yougoandbereceivedbythemayor。 Thebandsplayed,andallthepeopleturnedouttoreceiveus。ImarchedupthatCommonsoproudattheheadofmytroops,andweturneddownintothetownhall。ThentheyseatedmysoldiersdownthecenteraisleandIsatdownonthefrontseat。Agreatassemblyofpeopleahundredortwo——cameintofillthetownhall,sothattheystoodupallaround。Thenthetownofficerscameinandformedahalf-circle。Themayorofthetownsatinthemiddleoftheplatform。Hewasamanwhohadneverheldofficebefore;buthewasagoodman,andhisfriendshavetoldmethatImightusethiswithoutgivingthemoffense。Hewasagoodman,buthethoughtanofficemadeamangreat。Hecameupandtookhisseat,adjustedhispowerfulspectacles,andlookedaround,whenhesuddenlyspiedmesittingthereonthefrontseat。Hecamerightforwardontheplatformandinvitedmeuptositwiththetownofficers。NotownofficerevertookanynoticeofmebeforeIwenttowar,excepttoadvisetheteachertothrashme,andnowIwasinviteduponthestandwiththetownofficers。Ohmy! thetownmayorwasthentheemperor,thekingofourdayandourtime。AsIcameupontheplatformtheygavemeachairaboutthisfar,I wouldsay,fromthefront。 WhenIhadgotseated,thechairmanoftheSelectmenaroseandcameforwardtothetable,andweallsupposedhewouldintroducetheCongregationalminister,whowastheonlyoratorintown,andthathewouldgivetheorationtothereturningsoldiers。But,friends,youshouldhaveseenthesurprisewhichranovertheaudiencewhentheydiscoveredthattheoldfellowwasgoingtodeliverthatspeechhimself。Hehadnevermadeaspeechinhislife,buthefellintothesameerrorthathundredsofothermenhavefalleninto。Itseemssostrangethatamanwon\'tlearnhemustspeakhispieceasaboyifhein- tendstobeanoratorwhenheisgrown,butheseemstothinkallhehastodoistoholdanofficetobeagreatorator。 Sohecameuptothefront,andbroughtwithhimaspeechwhichhehadlearnedbyheartwalkingupanddownthepasture,wherehehadfrightenedthecattle。Hebroughtthemanuscriptwithhimandspreaditoutonthetablesoastobesurehemightseeit。Headjustedhisspectaclesandleanedoveritforamomentandmarchedbackonthatplatform,andthencameforwardlikethis——tramp,tramp,tramp。Hemusthavestudiedthesubjectagreatdeal,whenyoucometothinkofit,becauseheassumedan“elocutionary\'\' attitude。Herestedheavilyuponhisleftheel,threwbackhisshoulders,slightlyadvancedtherightfoot,openedtheorgansofspeech,andadvancedhisrightfootatanangleofforty- five。Ashestoodinthatelocutionaryattitude,friends,thisisjustthewaythatspeechwent。 Somepeoplesaytome,“Don\'tyouexaggerate?\'\' Thatwouldbeimpossible。ButIamhereforthelessonandnotforthestory,andthisisthewayitwent: “Fellow-citizens——\'\'Assoonasheheardhisvoicehisfingersbegantogolikethat,hiskneesbegantoshake,andthenhetrembledallover。 Hechokedandswallowedandcamearoundtothetabletolookatthemanuscript。Thenhegatheredhimselfupwithclenchedfistsandcameback:“Fellow-citizens,weareFellow-citizens,weare——weare——weare——weare——weare——weareveryhappy——weareveryhappy——weareveryhappy。Weareveryhappytowelcomebacktotheirnativetownthesesoldierswhohavefoughtandbled——andcomebackagaintotheirnativetown。Weareespecially——weareespecially——weareespecially。Weareespeciallypleasedtoseewithusto-daythisyounghero\'\'(thatmeantme)——“thisyoungherowhoinimagination\'\' (friends,rememberhesaidthat;ifhehadnotsaid“inimagination\'\'Iwouldnotbeegotisticenoughtorefertoitatall)——“thisyoungherowhoinimaginationwehaveseenleading——wehaveseenleading——leading。Wehaveseenleadinghistroopsontothedeadlybreach。Wehaveseenhisshining——wehaveseenhisshining——hisshining——hisshiningsword——flashing。Flashinginthesunlight,asheshoutedtohistroops,`Comeon\'!\'\' Ohdear,dear,dear!howlittlethatgoodmanknewaboutwar。IfhehadknownanythingaboutwaratallheoughttohaveknownwhatanyofmyG。A。R。comradeshereto-nightwilltellyouistrue,thatitisnexttoacrimeforanofficerofinfantryeverintimeofdangertogoaheadofhismen。“I,withmyshiningswordflashinginthesunlight,shoutingtomytroops,`Comeon\'!\'\'Ineverdidit。DoyousupposeIwouldgetinfrontofmymentobeshotinfrontbytheenemyandinthebackbymyownmen? Thatisnoplaceforanofficer。Theplacefortheofficerinactualbattleisbehindtheline。Howoften,asastaffofficer,Irodedowntheline,whenourmenweresuddenlycalledtothelineofbattle,andtheRebelyellswerecomingoutofthewoods,andshouted:“Officerstotherear!Officerstotherear!\'\'Theneveryofficergetsbehindthelineofprivatesoldiers,andthehighertheofficer\'srankthefartherbehindhegoes。Notbecauseheisanythelessbrave,butbecausethelawsofwarrequirethat。Andyetheshouted,“I,withmyshiningsword——\'\'InthathousetheresatthecompanyofmysoldierswhohadcarriedthatboyacrosstheCarolinariversthathemightnotwethisfeet。Someofthemhadgonefarouttogetapigorachicken。Someofthemhadgonetodeathundertheshell-sweptpinesinthemountainsofTennessee,yetinthegoodman\'sspeechtheywerescarcelyknown。Hedidrefertothem,butonlyincidentally。Theheroofthehourwasthisboy。Didthenationowehimanything? No,nothingthenandnothingnow。Whywashethehero?Simplybecausethatmanfellintothatsamehumanerror——thatthisboywasgreatbecausehewasanofficerandthesewereonlyprivatesoldiers。 Oh,IlearnedthelessonthenthatIwillneverforgetsolongasthetongueofthebelloftimecontinuestoswingforme。Greatnessconsistsnotintheholdingofsomefutureoffice,butreallyconsistsindoinggreatdeedswithlittlemeansandtheaccomplishmentofvastpurposesfromtheprivateranksoflife。Tobegreatatallonemustbegreathere,now,inPhiladelphia。Hewhocangivetothiscitybetterstreetsandbettersidewalks,betterschoolsandmorecolleges,morehappinessandmorecivilization,moreofGod,hewillbegreatanywhere。Leteverymanorwomanhere,ifyouneverhearmeagain,rememberthis,thatifyouwishtobegreatatall,youmustbeginwhereyouareandwhatyouare,inPhiladelphia,now。Hethatcangivetohiscityanyblessing,hewhocanbeagoodcitizenwhileheliveshere,hethatcanmakebetterhomes,hethatcanbeablessingwhetherheworksintheshoporsitsbehindthecounterorkeepshouse,whateverbehislife,hewhowouldbegreatanywheremustfirstbegreatinhisownPhiladelphia。 HISLIFEANDACHIEVEMENTS BY ROBERTSHACKLETON THESTORYOFTHESWORD[2] [2]_Dr,Conwellwasliving,andactivelyatwork,whenthesepageswerewritten。Itis,therefore,amuchtruerpictureofhispersonalitythananythingwritteninthepasttense_。 ISHALLwriteofaremarkableman,aninterestingman,amanofpower,ofinitiative,ofwill,ofpersistence;amanwhoplansvastlyandwhorealizeshisplans;amanwhonotonlydoesthingshimself,butwho,evenmoreimportantthanthat,istheconstantinspirationofothers。IshallwriteofRussellH。Conwell。 Asafarmer\'sboyhewastheleaderoftheboysoftherockyregionthatwashishome;asaschool- teacherhewondevotion;asanewspapercorrespondenthegainedfame;asasoldierintheCivilWarherosetoimportantrank;asalawyerhedevelopedalargepractice;asanauthorhewrotebooksthatreachedamightytotalofsales。Heleftthelawfortheministryandistheactiveheadofagreatchurchthatheraisedfromnothingness。 Heisthemostpopularlecturerintheworldandyearlyspeakstomanythousands。Heis,sotospeak,thediscovererof“AcresofDiamonds,\'\' throughwhichthousandsofmenandwomenhaveachievedsuccessoutoffailure。Heistheheadoftwohospitals,oneofthemfoundedbyhimself,thathavecaredforahostofpatients,boththepoorandtherich,irrespectiveofraceorcreed。 Heisthefounderandheadofauniversitythathasalreadyhadtensofthousandsofstudents。 HishomeisinPhiladelphia;butheisknownineverycornerofeverystateintheUnion,andeverywherehehashostsoffriends。Allofhislifehehashelpedandinspiredothers。 Quitebychance,andonlyyesterday,literallyyesterdayandbychance,andwithnothoughtatthemomentofConwellalthoughhehadbeenmuchinmymindforsometimepast,IpickedupathinlittlebookofdescriptionbyWilliamDeanHowells,and,turningthepagesofachapteronLexington,oldLexingtonoftheRevolution,written,soHowellshadsetdown,in1882,I noticed,afterhehadwrittenofthetownitself,andofthelong-pastfightthere,andofthepresent- dayaspect,thathementionedthechurchlifeoftheplaceandremarkedonthestrikingadvancesmadebytheBaptists,whohadlately,asheexpressedit,beenreconstitutedoutofveryperishingfragmentsandmadestrongandflourishing,undertheministrationsofalaypreacher,formerlyacolonelintheUnionarmy。AnditwasonlyafewdaysbeforeIchanceduponthisdescriptionthatDr。Conwell,theformercolonelandformerlaypreacher,hadtoldmeofhisexperiencesinthatlittleoldRevolutionarytown。 Howellswentontosaythat,sohewastold,thecolonel\'ssuccesswasprincipallyduetohismakingthechurchattractivetoyoungpeople。 Howellssaysnomoreofhim;apparentlyhedidnotgotohearhim;andonewondersifhehaseverassociatedthatlaypreacherofLexingtonwiththefamousRussellH。Conwelloftheserecentyears! “Attractivetoyoungpeople。\'\'Yes,onecanrecognizethatto-day,justasitwasrecognizedinLexington。Anditmaybeaddedthatheatthesametimeattractsolderpeople,too!Inthis,indeed,lieshispower。Hemakeshischurchinteresting,hissermonsinteresting,hislecturesinteresting。Heishimselfinteresting!Becauseofhisbeinginteresting,hegainsattention。Theattentiongained,heinspires。 Biographyismorethandates。Dates,afterall,arebutmile-stonesalongtheroadoflife。AndthemostimportantfactofConwell\'slifeisthathelivedtobeeighty-two,workingsixteenhourseverydayforthegoodofhisfellow-men。HewasbornonFebruary15,1843——bornofpoorparents,inalow-roofedcottageintheeasternBerkshires,inMassachusetts。 “Iwasborninthisroom,\'\'hesaidtome,simply,aswesattogetherrecently[3]infrontoftheoldfireplaceintheprincipalroomofthelittlecottage;forhehasboughtbacktherockyfarmofhisfather,andhasretainedandrestoredthelittleoldhome。“Iwasborninthisroom。Itwasbedroomandkitchen。Itwaspoverty。\'\'Andhisvoicesankwithakindofgrimnessintosilence。 [3]_ThisinterviewtookplaceattheoldConwellfarminthesummerof1915_。 Thenhespokealittleofthestrugglesofthoselong-pastyears;andwewentoutontheporch,astheeveningshadowsfell,andlookedoutoverthevalleyandstreamandhillsofhisyouth,andhetoldofhisgrandmother,andofayoungMarylanderwhohadcometotheregiononavisit; itwasataleoftheimpetuousloveofthosetwo,ofrashmarriage,oftheinterferenceofparents,ofthefiercerivalryofanothersuitor,ofanattackontheMarylander\'slife,ofpassionatehastiness,ofunforgivablewords,ofseparation,oflifelongsorrow。“Whydoesgrandmothercrysooften?\'\' heremembersaskingwhenhewasalittleboy。 Andhewastoldthatitwasforthehusbandofheryouth。 Wewentbackintothelittlehouse,andheshowedmetheroominwhichhefirstsawJohnBrown。“Icamedownearlyonemorning,andsawahuge,hairymansprawleduponthebedthere——andIwasfrightened,\'\'hesays。 ButJohnBrowndidnotlongfrightenhim! Forhewasmuchattheirhouseafterthat,andwassofriendlywithRussellandhisbrotherthattherewasnochanceforawe;anditgivesacuriousside- lightonthecharacterofthesternabolitionistthatheactually,withinfinitepatience,taughttheoldhorseoftheConwellstogohomealonewiththewagonafterleavingtheboysatschool,amileormoreaway,andatschool-closingtimetotrotgentlyoffforthemwithoutadriverwhenmerelyfacedinthatdirectionandtoldtogo!ConwellremembershowJohnBrown,intrainingit,usedpatientlytowalkbesidethehorse,andcontrolitsgoinganditsturnings,untilitwasquitereadytogoandturnentirelybyitself。 TheConwellhousewasastationontheUndergroundRailway,andRussellConwellremembers,whenalad,seeingtheescapingslavesthathisfatherhaddrivenacrosscountryandtemporarilyhidden。“Thosewereheroicdays,\'\'hesays,quietly。“Andonceinawhilemyfatherletmegowithhim。Theywerewonderfulnightdrives—— thecoweringslaves,thedarknessoftheroad,thecautionandthesilenceanddreadofitall。\'\' Thisundergroundroute,heremembers,wasfromPhiladelphiatoNewHaven,thencetoSpringfield,whereConwell\'sfatherwouldtakehischarge,andonwardtoBellowsFallsandCanada。 Conwelltells,too,ofmeetingFrederickDouglass,thecoloredorator,inthatlittlecottageinthehills。“`Ineversawmyfather,\'Douglasssaidoneday——hisfatherwasawhiteman——`andI rememberlittleofmymotherexceptthatonceshetriedtokeepanoverseerfromwhippingme,andthelashcutacrossherownface,andherbloodfelloverme。\' “WhenJohnBrownwascaptured,\'\'Conwellwenton,“myfathertriedtosellthisplacetogetalittlemoneytosendtohelphisdefense。 Buthecouldn\'tsellit,andonthedayoftheexecu- tionwekneltsolemnlyhere,fromeleventotwelve,justpraying,prayinginsilenceforthepassingsoulofJohnBrown。Andasweprayedweknewthatotherswerealsopraying,forachurch-belltolledduringthatentirehour,anditsawesomeboomwentsadlysoundingoverthesehills。\'\' ConwellbelievesthathisreallifedatesfromahappeningofthetimeoftheCivilWar——ahappeningthatstillloomsvividandintensebeforehim,andwhichundoubtedlydiddeepenandstrengthenhisstronganddeepnature。YettherealConwellwasalwaysessentiallythesame。 Neighborhoodtraditionstilltellsofhisbraveryasaboyandayouth,ofhisrecklesscoasting,hisskillasaswimmerandhissavingoflives,hisstrengthandendurance,hisplungingoutintothedarknessofawildwinternighttosaveaneighbor\'scattle。Hissoldierscamehomewithtalesofhisdevotiontothem,andofhowhesharedhisrationsandhisblanketsandbravelyriskedhislife;ofhowhecreptoffintoaswamp,atimminentperil,torescueoneofhismenlostormiredthere。ThepresentConwellwasalwaysConwell; infact,hemaybetracedthroughhisancestry,too,forinhimarethesturdyvirtues,thebravery,thegrimdetermination,thepracticality,ofhisfather; andromanticism,thatcomesfromhisgrandmother; andthedreamyqualitiesofhismother,who,practicalandhardworkingNewEnglandwomanthatshewas,wasatthesametimeinfluencedbyanalmoststartlingmysticism。 AndConwellhimselfisadreamer:firstofallheisadreamer;itisthemostimportantfactinregardtohim!Itisbecauseheisadreamerandvisualizeshisdreamsthathecanplanthegreatthingsthattoothermenwouldseemimpossibilities;andthenhisintenselypracticalsidehisintenseefficiency,hispower,hisskill,hispatience,hisfineearnestness,hismasteryoverothers,develophisdreamsintorealities。 Hedreamsdreamsandseesvisions——buthisvisionsarenevervisionaryandhisdreamsbecomefacts。 Therockyhillswhichmeantadoggedstruggleforveryexistence,thefugitiveslaves,JohnBrown——whataschoolforyouth!Andtheliteralschoolwasatinyone-roomschool-housewhereyoungConwellcameunderthecareofateacherwhorealizedtheboy\'sunusualcapabilitiesandwasabletogivehimbroadandunusualhelp。Thenawisecountrypreacheralsorecognizedtheunusual,andurgedtheparentstogivestillmoreeducation,whereuponsupremeeffortwasmadeandyoungRussellwassenttoWilbrahamAcademy。 Helikestotellofhislifethere,andofthehardships,ofwhichhemakeslight;andofthejoywithwhichweek-endpiesandcakeswerereceivedfromhome! Hetellsofhowhewentoutontheroadssellingbooksfromhousetohouse,andofhoweagerlyhedevouredthecontentsofthesamplebooksthathecarried。“Theywereafoundationoflearningforme,\'\'hesays,soberly。“Andtheygavemeabroadideaoftheworld。\'\' HewenttoYalein1860,buttheoutbreakofthewarinterferedwithcollege,andheenlistedin1861。Buthewasonlyeighteen,andhisfatherobjected,andhewentbacktoYale。Butnextyearheagainenlisted,andmenofhisBerkshireneighborhood,likewiseenlisting,insistedthathebetheircaptain;andGovernorAndrews,appealedto,consentedtocommissionthenineteen-year- oldyouthwhowassoevidentlyanaturalleader; andthemengavefreelyoftheirscantmoneytogetforhimasword,allgayandsplendidwithgilt,andupontheswordwasthedeclarationinstatelyLatinthat,“Truefriendshipiseternal。\'\' Andwiththatswordisassociatedthemostvivid,themostmomentousexperienceofRussellConwell\'slife。 ThatswordhangsattheheadofConwell\'sbedinhishomeinPhiladelphia。Manofpeacethatheis,andministerofpeace,thatsymbolofwarhasforoverhalfacenturybeenofinfiniteimportancetohim。 Hetoldmethestoryaswestoodtogetherbeforethatsword。Andashetoldthestory,speakingwithquietrepression,butseeingitallandlivingitalljustasvividlyasifithadoccurredbutyesterday,“Thatswordhasmeantsomuchtome,\'\' hemurmured;andthenhebeganthetale: “AboyupthereintheBerkshires,aneighbor\'sson,wasJohnRing;Icallhimaboy,forweallcalledhimaboy,andwelookeduponhimasaboy,forhewasunder-sizedandunder-developed—— somuchsothathecouldnotenlist。 “Butforsomereasonhewasdevotedtome,andhenotonlywantedtoenlist,buthealsowantedtobeintheartillerycompanyofwhichI wascaptain;andIcouldonlytakehimalongasmyservant。Ididn\'twantaservant,butitwastheonlywaytotakepoorlittleJohnnieRing。 “Johnniewasdeeplyreligious,andwouldreadtheBibleeveryeveningbeforeturningin。InthosedaysIwasanatheist,oratleastthoughtI was,andIusedtolaughatRing,andafterawhilehetooktoreadingtheBibleoutsidethetentonaccountofmylaughingathim!Buthedidnotstopreadingit,andhisfaithfulnesstomeremainedunchanged。 “Thescabbardoftheswordwastooglitteringfortheregulations\'\'——theghostofasmilehoveredonConwell\'slips——“andIcouldnotwearit,andcouldonlywearaplainoneforserviceandkeepthishanginginmytentonthetent-pole。JohnRingusedtohandleitadoringly,andkeptitpolishedtobrilliancy——It\'sdullenoughthesemanyyears,\'\'headded,somberly。“ToRingitrepresentednotonlyhiscaptain,buttheverygloryandpompofwar。 “OnedaytheConfederatessuddenlystormedourpositionnearNewBerneandsweptthroughthecamp,drivingourentireforcebeforethem; andall,includingmycompany,retreatedhurriedlyacrosstheriver,settingfiretoalongwoodenbridgeaswewentover。Itsoonblazedupfuriously,makingabarrierthattheConfederatescouldnotpass。 “But,unknowntoeverybody,andunnoticed,JohnRinghaddashedbacktomytent。Ithinkhewasabletomakehiswaybackbecausehejustlookedlikeamereboy;buthoweverthatwas,hegotpasttheConfederatesintomytentandtookdown,fromwhereitwashangingonthetent- pole,mybright,gold-scabbardedsword。 “JohnRingseizedtheswordthathadlongbeensoprecioustohim。Hedodgedhereandthere,andactuallymanagedtogainthebridgejustasitwasbeginningtoblaze。Hestartedacross。Theflameswereeverymomentgettingfiercer,thesmokedenser,andnowandthen,ashecrawledandstaggeredon,heleanedforafewsecondsfarovertheedgeofthebridgeinanefforttogetair。 Bothsidessawhim;bothsideswatchedhisterribleprogress,evenwhilefiringwasfiercelykeptupfromeachsideoftheriver。AndthenaConfederateofficer——hewasoneofGeneralPickett\'sofficers——rantothewater\'sedgeandwavedawhitehandkerchiefandthefiringceased。 “`Tellthatboytocomebackhere!\'hecried。 `Tellhimtocomebackhereandwewilllethimgofree!\' “HecalledthisoutjustasRingwasabouttoenterupontheworstpartofthebridge——thecov- eredpart,wherethereweretopandbottomandsidesofblazingwood。TheroaroftheflameswassoclosetoRingthathecouldnothearthecallsfromeithersideoftheriver,andhepusheddesperatelyonanddisappearedinthecoveredpart。 “Therewasdeadsilenceexceptforthecracklingofthefire。Notamancriedout。Allwaitedinhopelessexpectancy。AndthencameamightyyellfromNorthernerandSoutherneralike,forJohnniecamecrawlingoutoftheendofthecoveredway——hehadactuallypassedthroughthatfrightfulplace——andhisclotheswereablaze,andhetoppledoverandfellintoshallowwater;andinafewmomentshewasdraggedout,unconscious,andhurriedtoahospital。 “Helingeredforadayorso,stillunconscious,andthencametohimselfandsmiledalittleashefoundthattheswordforwhichhehadgivenhislifehadbeenleftbesidehim。Hetookitinhisarms。Hehuggedittohisbreast。Hegaveafewwordsoffinalmessageforme。Andthatwasall。\'\' Conwell\'svoicehadgonethrillinglylowashenearedtheend,foritwasallsovery,veryvividtohim,andhiseyeshadgrowntenderandhislipsmorestrongandfirm。Andhefellsilent,thinkingofthatlong-agohappening,andthoughhelookeddownuponthethrongingtrafficofBroadStreet,itwasclearthathedidnotseeit,andthatiftherumblinghubbubofsoundmeantanythingtohimitwastherumblingofthegunsofthedistantpast。Whenhespokeagainitwaswithastilltensertoneoffeeling。 “WhenIstoodbesidethebodyofJohnRingandrealizedthathehaddiedforloveofme,I madeavowthathasformedmylife。IvowedthatfromthatmomentIwouldlivenotonlymyownlife,butthatIwouldalsolivethelifeofJohnRing。AndfromthatmomentIhaveworkedsixteenhourseveryday——eightforJohnRing\'sworkandeighthoursformyown。\'\' Acuriousnotehadcomeintohisvoice,asofonewhohadruntheraceandnearedthegoal,foughtthegoodfightandnearedtheend。 “EverymorningwhenIriseIlookatthissword,orifIamawayfromhomeIthinkofthesword,andvowanewthatanotherdayshallseesixteenhoursofworkfromme。\'\'AndwhenonecomestoknowRussellConwellonerealizesthatneverdidamanworkmorehardandconstantly,“ItwasthroughJohnRingandhisgivinghislifethroughdevotiontomethatIbecameaChristian,\'\'hewenton。“Thisdidnotcomeaboutimmediately,butitcamebeforethewarwasover,anditcamethroughfaithfulJohnnieRing。\'\' ThereisalittlelonelycemeteryintheBerkshires,atinyburying-groundonawind-swepthill,afewmilesfromConwell\'soldhome。Inthisisolatedburying-groundbushesandvinesandgrassgrowinprofusion,andafewtreescastagentleshade;andtree-cladhillsgobillowingoffformilesandmilesinwildandlonelybeauty。 AndinthatlonelylittlegraveyardIfoundtheplainstonethatmarkstheresting-placeofJohnRing。 II THEBEGINNINGATOLDLEXINGTON ITisnotbecauseheisaministerthatRussellConwellissuchaforceintheworld。HewentintotheministrybecausehewassincerelyandprofoundlyaChristian,andbecausehefeltthatasaministerhecoulddomoregoodintheworldthaninanyothercapacity。Butbeingaministerisbutanincident,sotospeak。Theimportantthingisnotthatheisaminister,butthatheishimself! RecentlyIheardaNew-Yorker,theheadofagreatcorporation,say:“IbelievethatRussellConwellisdoingmoregoodintheworldthananymanwhohaslivedsinceJesusChrist。\'\'Andhesaidthisinseriousandunexaggeratedearnest。 YetConwelldidnotgetreadilyintohislife- work。Hemighthaveseemedalmostafailureuntilhewaswellontowardforty,foralthoughhekeptmakingsuccessestheywerenotpermanentsuccesses,andhedidnotsettlehimselfintoadefiniteline。Herestlesslywentwestwardtomakehishome,andthenrestlesslyreturnedtotheEast。Afterthewarwasoverhewasalawyer,hewasalecturer,hewasaneditor,hewentaroundtheworldasacorrespondent,hewrotebooks。 Hekeptmakingmoney,andkeptlosingit;helostitthroughfire,throughinvestments,throughaidinghisfriends。Itisprobablethattheunsettlednessoftheyearsfollowingthewarwasduetotheunsettlingeffectofthewaritself,whichthus,initsinfluence,brokeintohismaturelifeafterbreakingintohisyearsatYale。Buthoweverthatmaybe,thoseseething,changing,stirringyearswereyearsofvitalimportancetohim,forinthemyriadexperiencesofthattimehewasbuildingthefoundationoftheConwellthatwastocome。 Abroadhemetthenotablesoftheearth。Athomehemadehostsoffriendsandloyaladmirers。 Itisworthwhilenotingthatasalawyerhewouldnevertakeacase,eithercivilorcriminal,thatheconsideredwrong。Itwasbasicwithhimthathecouldnotandwouldnotfightonwhathethoughtwasthewrongside。Onlywhenhisclientwasrightwouldhegoahead! Yethelaughs,hisquiet,infectious,characteristiclaugh,ashetellsofhowoncehewasdeceived,forhedefendedaman,chargedwithstealingawatch,whowassoobviouslyinnocentthathetookthecaseinablazeofindignationandhadtheyoungfellowproudlyexonerated。Thenextdaythewronglyaccusedonecametohisofficeandshamefacedlytookoutthewatchthathehadbeenchargedwithstealing。“IwantyoutosendittothemanItookitfrom,\'\'hesaid。Andhetoldwithasortofshamefacedprideofhowhehadgotagoodolddeacontogive,inallsincerity,theevidencethatexculpatedhim。“And,say,Mr。Conwell——Iwanttothankyouforgettingmeoff——andIhopeyou\'llexcusemydeceivingyou——and——Iwon\'tbeanyworsefornotgoingtojail。\'\'AndConwelllikestorememberthatthereaftertheyoungmanliveduptotheprideofexoneration;and,thoughConwelldoesnotsayitorthinkit,oneknowsthatitwastheConwellinfluencethatinspiredtohonesty——foralwaysheisaninspirer。 Conwellevenkeptcertainhoursforconsultationwiththosetoopoortopayanyfee;andatonetime,whilestillanactivelawyer,hewasguardianforoversixtychildren!Themanhasalwaysbeenamarvel,andalwaysoneiscominguponsuchromanticfactsasthese。 Thatisacuriousthingabouthim——howmuchthereisofromanceinhislife!WorshipedtotheendbyJohnRing;leftfordeadallnightatKenesawMountain;calmlysinging“Nearer,myGod,toThee,\'\'toquietthepassengersonasupposedlysinkingship;savinglivesevenwhenaboy;neverdisappointingasingleaudienceofthethousandsofaudienceshehasarrangedtoaddressduringallhisyearsoflecturing!Hehimselftakesalittleprideinthislastpoint,anditischaracteristicofhimthathehasactuallyforgottenthatjustoncehedidfailtoappear:hehasquiteforgottenthatoneevening,onhiswaytoalecture,hestoppedarunawayhorsetosavetwowomen\'slives,andwentinconsequencetoahospitalinsteadoftotheplatform!Anditistypicalofhimtoforgetthatsortofthing。 TheemotionaltemperamentofConwellhasalwaysmadehimresponsivetothegreat,thestriking,thepatriotic。HewasdeeplyinfluencedbyknowingJohnBrown,andhisbriefmemoriesofLincolnareintense,thoughhesawhimbutthreetimesinall。 ThefirsttimehesawLincolnwasonthenightwhenthefuturePresidentdeliveredtheaddress,whichafterwardbecamesofamous,inCooperUnion,NewYork。ThenameofLincolnwasthenscarcelyknown,anditwasbymerechancethatyoungConwellhappenedtobeinNewYorkonthatday。Butbeingthere,andlearningthatAbrahamLincolnfromtheWestwasgoingtomakeanaddress,hewenttohearhim。 HetellshowuncouthlyLincolnwasdressed,evenwithonetrousers-leghigherthantheother,andofhowawkwardhewas,andofhowpoorly,atfirst,hespokeandwithwhatapparentembarrassment。ThechairmanofthemeetinggotLincolnaglassofwater,andConwellthoughtthatitwasfromapersonaldesiretohelphimandkeephimfrombreakingdown。ButhelovestotellhowLincolnbecameachangedmanashespoke;howheseemedtofeelashamedofhisbriefembarrassmentand,pullinghimselftogetherandputtingasidethewrittenspeechwhichhehadprepared,spokefreelyandpowerfully,withsplendidconviction,asonlyabornoratorspeaks。ToConwellitwasatremendousexperience。 ThesecondtimehesawLincolnwaswhenhewenttoWashingtontopleadforthelifeofoneofhismenwhohadbeencondemnedtodeathforsleepingonpost。Hewasstillbutacaptain(hispromotiontoacolonelcywasstilltocome),ayouth,andwasawedbygoingintothepresenceofthemanheworshiped。Andhisvoicetremblesalittle,evennow,ashetellsofhowpleasantlyLincolnlookedupfromhisdesk,andhowcheerfullyheaskedhisbusinesswithhim,andofhowabsorbedlyLincolnthenlistenedtohistale,although,soitappeared,healreadyknewofthemainoutline。 “Itwillbeallright,\'\'saidLincoln,whenConwellfinished。ButConwellwasstillfrightened。 Hefearedthatinthemultiplicityofpublicmattersthismerematterofthelifeofamountainboy,aprivatesoldier,mightbeforgottentilltoolate。“Itisalmostthetimeset——\'\'hefaltered。 AndConwell\'svoicealmostbreaks,manofemotionthatheis,ashetellsofhowLincolnsaid,withsterngravity:“Goandtelegraphthatsoldier\'smotherthatAbrahamLincolnneversignedawarranttoshootaboyundertwenty,andneverwill。\'\'ThatwastheoneandonlytimethathespokewithLincoln,anditremainsanindelibleimpression。 ThethirdtimehesawLincolnwaswhen,asofficeroftheday,hestoodforhoursbesidethedeadbodyofthePresidentasitlayinstateinWashington。Inthosehours,ashestoodrigidlyasthethrongwentshufflingsorrowfullythrough,animmenseimpressioncametoColonelConwelloftheworkandworthofthemanwhotherelaydead,andthatimpressionhasneverdeparted。 JohnBrown,AbrahamLincoln,oldRevolutionaryLexington——howConwell\'slifeisassociatedwithfamousmenandplaces!——anditwasactuallyatLexingtonthathemadethecrucialdecisionastothecourseofhislife!Anditseemstomethatitwas,althoughquiteunconsciously,becauseoftheveryfactthatitwasLexingtonthatConwellwasinfluencedtodecideandtoactashedid。Haditbeeninsomeotherkindofplace,somemerelyordinaryplace,somequiteusualplace,hemightnothavetakentheimportantstep。ButitwasLexington,itwasbraveoldLexington,inspiringLexington;andhewasinspiredbyit,forthemanwhohimselfinspiresnoblyisalwaystheonewhoishimselfopentonobleinspiration。Lexingtoninspiredhim。 “WhenIwasalawyerinBostonandalmostthirty-sevenyearsold,\'\'hetoldme,thinkingslowlybackintotheyears,“IwasconsultedbyawomanwhoaskedmyadviceinregardtodisposingofalittlechurchinLexingtonwhosecongregationhadbecomeunabletosupportit。I wentoutandlookedattheplace,andItoldherhowthepropertycouldbesold。Butitseemedapitytomethatthelittlechurchshouldbegivenup。However,Iadvisedameetingofthechurchmembers,andIattendedthemeeting。Iputthecasetothem——itwasonlyahandfulofmenandwomen——andtherewassilenceforalittle。Thenanoldmanroseand,inaquaveringvoice,saidthematterwasquiteclear;thatthereevidentlywasnothingtodobuttosell,andthathewouldagreewiththeothersinthenecessity;butasthechurchhadbeenhischurchhomefromboyhood,sohequaveredandquiveredon,hebeggedthattheywouldexcusehimfromactuallytakingpartindisposingofit;andinadeepsilencehewenthaltinglyfromtheroom。 “Themenandthewomenlookedatoneanother,stillsilent,sadlyimpressed,butnotknowingwhattodo。AndIsaidtothem:`Whynotstartoveragain,andgoonwiththechurch,afterall!\'\'\' TypicalConwellism,that!First,theimpulsetohelpthosewhoneedhelping,thentheinspirationandleadership。 “`Butthebuildingisentirelytootumble- downtouse,\'saidoneofthemen,sadly;andI knewhewasright,forIhadexaminedit;butI said: “`Letusmeetthereto-morrowmorningandgettoworkonthatbuildingourselvesandputitinshapeforaservicenextSunday。\' “Itmadethemseemsopleasedandencouraged,andsoconfidentthatanewpossibilitywasopeningthatIneverdoubtedthateachoneofthosepresent,andmanyfriendsbesides,wouldbeatthebuildinginthemorning。IwasthereearlywithahammerandaxandcrowbarthatI hadsecured,readytogotowork——butnooneelseshowedup!\'\' Hehasaruefulappreciationofthehumorofit,ashepicturedthescene;andoneknowsalsothat,inthatlittletownofLexington,whereAmericanshadsobravelyfacedtheimpossible,RussellConwellalsobracedhimselftofacetheimpossible。Apettiermanwouldinstantlyhavegivenuptheentirematterwhenthosewhoweremostinterestedfailedtorespond,butoneofthestrongestfeaturesinConwell\'scharacterishisabilitytodrawevendoubtersandweaklingsintoline,hisabilitytostireventhosewhohavegivenup。 “Ilookedoverthatbuilding,\'\'hegoeson,whimsically,“andIsawthatrepairreallyseemedoutofthequestion。Nothingbutanewchurchwoulddo!SoItooktheaxthatIhadbroughtwithmeandbeganchoppingtheplacedown。 Inalittlewhileaman,notoneofthechurchmembers,camealong,andhewatchedmeforatimeandsaid,`Whatareyougoingtodothere?\' “AndIinstantlyreplied,`Teardownthisoldbuildingandbuildanewchurchhere!\' “Helookedatme。`Butthepeoplewon\'tdothat,\'hesaid。 “`Yes,theywill,\'Isaid,cheerfully,keepingatmywork。Whereuponhewatchedmeafewminuteslongerandsaid: “`Well,youcanputmedownforonehundreddollarsforthenewbuilding。Comeuptomylivery-stableandgetitthisevening。\' “`Allright;I\'llsurelybethere,\'Ireplied。 “Inalittlewhileanothermancamealongandstoppedandlooked,andherathergibedattheideaofanewchurch,andwhenItoldhimofthelivery-stablemancontributingonehundreddollars,hesaid,`Butyouhaven\'tgotthemoneyyet!\'