第10章

类别:其他 作者:Rudyard Kipling字数:12610更新时间:18/12/14 12:46:38
\"He\'stheonlylivingsoulIcangetatwhowasconnectedwithHolmescroft,\"Isaid。 \"Ah!Livingsoulisgood,\"saidM\'Leod。\"Atanyrateourlittlegirlwillbepleasedthatyouarestillinterestedinus。Won\'tyoucomedownsomedaythisweek?\" \"Howisittherenow?\"Iasked。 Hescreweduphisface。\"Simplyfrightful!\"hesaid。\"TheaisatDroitwich。\" \"Ishouldlikeitimmensely,butImustcultivateBaxterforthepresent。You\'llbesureandkeephimbusyyourend,won\'tyou?\" Helookedatmewithquietcontempt。\"Donotbeafraid。IshallbeagoodJew。Ishallbemyownsolicitor。\" Beforeafortnightwasover,BaxteradmittedruefullythatM\'Leodwasbetterthanmostfirmsinthebusiness:Webuyerswerecoy,argumentative,shockedatthepriceofHolmescroft,inquisitive,andcoldbyturns,butMr。M\'Leodthesellereasilymetandsurpassedus;andMr。Baxterenteredeveryletter,telegram,andconsultationattheproperratesinacinematograph-filmofabill。AttheendofamonthhesaiditlookedasthoughM\'Leod,thankstohim,werereallygoingtolistentoreason。Iwasmanypoundsoutofpocket,butIhadlearnedsomethingofMr。Baxteronthehumanside。Ideservedit。NeverinmylifehaveIworkedtoconciliate,amuse,andflatterahumanbeingasIworkedovermysolicitor。 Itappearedthathegolfed。Therefore,Iwasanenthusiasticbeginner,anxioustolearn。TwiceIinvadedhisofficewithabag(M\'Leodlentit)fullofthespelicansneededinthisdetestablegame,andavocabularytomatch。Thethirdtimetheicebroke,andMr。Baxtertookmetohislinks,quitetenmilesoff,whereinamazeoftramwaylines,railroads,andnursery-maids,weskelpedourdivottedwayroundnineholeslikebargesplungingthroughheadseas。Heplayedvilelyandhadneverexpectedtomeetanyoneworse;butasherealisedmyform,Ithinkhebegantolikeme,forhetookmeinhandbythetwohourstogether。 Afterafortnighthecouldgivemenomorethanastrokeahole,andwhen,withthisallowance,Ioncemanagedtobeathimbyone,hewashonestlyglad,andassuredmethatIshouldbeagolferifIstucktoit。Iwasstickingtoitformyownends,butnowandagainmyconscienceprickedme;forthemanwasaniceman。 Betweengameshesuppliedmewithoddpiecesofevidence,suchasthathehadknowntheMoultriesallhislife,beingtheircousin,andthatMissMary,theeldest,wasanunforgivingwomanwhowouldneverletbygonesbe。Inaturallywonderedwhatshemighthaveagainsthim;andsomehowconnectedhimunfavourablywithmadAgnes。 \"Peopleoughttoforgiveandforget,\"hevolunteeredonedaybetweenrounds。\"Speciallywhere,inthenatureofthings,theycan\'tbesureoftheirdeductions。Don\'tyouthinkso?\" \"Italldependsonthenatureoftheevidenceonwhichoneformsone\'sjudgment,\"Ianswered。 \"Nonsense!\"hecried。\"I\'mlawyerenoughtoknowthatthere\'snothingintheworldsomisleadingascircumstantialevidence。 Neverwas。\" \"Why?Haveyoueverseenmenhangedonit?\" \"Hanged?Peoplehavebeensupposedtobeeternallylostonit,\" hisfaceturnedgreyagain。\"Idon\'tknowhowitiswithyou,butmyconsolationisthatGodmustknow。Hemust!Thingsthatseemonthefaceof\'emlikemurder,orsaysuicide,mayappeardifferenttoGod。Heh?\" \"That\'swhatthemurdererandthesuicidecanalwayshope——I suppose。\" \"Ihaveexpressedmyselfclumsilyasusual。ThefactsasGodknows\'em——maybedifferent——evenafterthemostclinchingevidence。I\'vealwayssaidthat——bothasalawyerandaman,butsomepeoplewon\'t——Idon\'twanttojudge\'em——we\'llsaytheycan\'t——believeit;whereasIsaythere\'salwaysaworkingchance——acertainty——thattheworsthasn\'thappened。\"Hestoppedandclearedhisthroat。\"Now,let\'scomeon!ThistimenextweekIshallbetakingmyholiday。\" \"Whatlinks?\"Iaskedcarelessly,whiletwinsinaperambulatorgotoutofourlineoffire。 \"Apottylittlenine-holeaffairatahydrointheMidlands。Mycousinsstaythere。Alwayswill。Notbutwhatthefourthandtheseventhholestakesomedoing。Youcouldmanageit,though,\"hesaidencouragingly。\"You\'redoingmuchbetter。It\'sonlyyourapproachshotsthatareweak。\" \"You\'reright。Ican\'tapproachfornuts!Ishallgotopieceswhileyou\'reaway——withnoonetocoachme,\"Isaidmournfully。 \"Ihaven\'ttaughtyouanything,\"hesaid,delightedwiththecompliment。 \"IoweallI\'velearnedtoyou,anyhow。Whenwillyoucomeback?\" \"Lookhere,\"hebegan。\"Idon\'tknow,yourengagements,butI\'venoonetoplaywithatBurryMills。Neverhave。Whycouldn\'tyoutakeafewdaysoffandjoinmethere?Iwarnyouitwillberatherdull。It\'sathroatandgoutplace-baths,massage,electricity,andsoforth。Butthefourthandtheseventhholesreallytakesomedoing。\" \"I\'mforthegame,\"Iansweredvaliantly;HeavenwellknowingthatIhatedeverystrokeandwordofit。 \"That\'stheproperspirit。AstheirlawyerImustaskyounottosayanythingtomycousinsaboutHolmescroft。Itupsets\'em。 Alwaysdid。Butspeakingasmantoman,itwouldbeverypleasantformeifyoucouldseeyourwayto——\" Isawitassoonasdecencypermitted,andthankedhimsincerely。 Accordingtomynowwell-developedtheoryhehadcertainlymisappropriatedhisagedcousins\'moniesunderpowerofattorney,andhadprobablydrivenpoorAgnesMoultrieoutofherwits,butIwishedthathewasnotsogentle,andgood-tempered,andinnocenteyed。 BeforeIjoinedhimatBurryMillsHydro,IspentanightatHolmescroft。MissM\'LeodhadreturnedfromherHydro,andfirstwemadeverymerryontheopenlawninthesunshineoverthemannersandcustomsoftheEnglishresortingtosuchplaces。Sheknewdozensofhydros,andwarnedmehowtobehaveinthem,whileMr。andMrs。M\'Leodstoodasideandadoredher。 \"Ah!That\'sthewayshealwayscomesbacktous,\"hesaid。\"Pityitwearsoffsosoon,ain\'tit?Yououghttohearhersing\'Withmirththouprettybird。\'\" Wehadthehousetofacethroughtheevening,andthereweneitherlaughednorsung。Thegloomfellonusasweentered,anddidnotshifttillteno\'clock,whenwecrawledout,asitwere,frombeneathit。 \"Ithasbeenbadthissummer,\"saidMrs。M\'Leodinawhisperafterwerealisedthatwewerefreed。\"SometimesIthinkthehousewillgetupandcryout——itissobad。\" \"How?\" \"Haveyouforgottenwhatcomesafterthedepression?\" Sothenwewaitedaboutthesmallfire,andthedeadairintheroompresentlyfilledandpresseddownuponuswiththesensation(butwordsareuselesshere)asthoughsomedumbandboundpowerwerestrivingagainstgagandbondtodeliveritssoulofanarticulateword。Itpassedinafewminutes,andIfelltothinkingaboutMr。Baxter\'sconscienceandAgnesMoultrie,gonemadinthewell-litbedroomthatwaitedme。ThesereflectionssecuredmeanightduringwhichIrediscoveredhow,frompurelymentalcauses,amancanbephysicallysick;butthesicknesswasblisscomparedtomydreamswhenthebirdswaked。Onmydeparture,M\'Leodgavemeabeautifulnarwhal\'shorn,muchasanursegivesachildsweetsforbeingbraveatadentist\'s。 \"There\'snoduplicateofitintheworld,\"hesaid,\"elseitwouldhavecometooldMaxM\'Leod;\"andhetuckeditintothemotor。MissM\'Leodonthefarsideofthecarwhispered,\"Haveyoufoundoutanything,Mr。Perseus?\" Ishookmyhead。 \"ThenIshallbechainedtomyrockallmylife,\"shewenton。 \"Onlydon\'ttellpapa。\" IsupposedshewasthinkingoftheyounggentlemanwhospecialisedinSouthAmericanrails,forInoticedaringonthethirdfingerofherlefthand。 IwentstraightfromthathousetoBurryMillsHydro,keenforthefirsttimeinmylifeonplayinggolf,whichisguaranteedtooccupythemind。Baxterhadtakenmearoomcommunicatingwithhisown,andafterlunchintroducedmetoatall,horse-headedelderlyladyofdecidedmanners,whomawhite-hairedmaidpushedalonginabath-chairthroughthepark-likegroundsoftheHydro。 ShewasMissMaryMoultrie,andshecoughedandclearedherthroatjustlikeBaxter。Shesuffered——shetoldmeitwasaMoultriecastemark——fromsomeobscureformofchronicbronchitis,complicatedwithspasmoftheglottis;and,inadead,flatvoice,withasunkeneyethatlookedandsawnot,toldmewhatwashes,gargles,pastilles,andinhalationsshehadprovedmostbeneficial。FromherIwaspassedontoheryoungersister,MissElizabeth,asmallandwitheredthingwithtwitchinglips,victim,shetoldme,toverymuchthesamesortofthroat,butsecretlydevotedtoanothersetofmedicines。WhenshewentawaywithBaxterandthebath-chair,IfellacrossamajoroftheIndianarmywithgoutinhisglassyeyes,andastomachwhichhehadtakenallroundtheContinent。Helaideverythingbeforeme; andhimIescapedonlytobeconfidedinbyamatronwithatendencytofolliculartonsilitisandeczema。Baxterwaitedhandandfootonhiscousinstillfiveo\'clock,trying,asIsaw,toatoneforhistreatmentofthedeadsister。MissMaryorderedhimaboutlikeadog。 \"Iwarnedyouitwouldbedull,\"hesaidwhenwemetinthesmoking-room。 \"It\'stremendouslyinteresting,\"Isaid。\"Buthowaboutalookroundthelinks?\" \"Unluckilydampalwaysaffectsmyeldestcousin。I\'vegottobuyheranewbronchitis-kettle。Arthursbrokeheroldoneyesterday。\" Weslippedouttothechemist\'sshopinthetown,andheboughtalargeglitteringtinthingwhoseworkingsheexplained。 \"I\'musedtothissortofwork。Icomeuphereprettyoften,\"hesaid。\"I\'vethefamilythroattoo。\" \"You\'reagoodman,\"Isaid。\"Averygoodman。\" Heturnedtowardsmeintheeveninglightamongthebeeches,andhisfacewaschangedtowhatitmighthavebeenagenerationbefore。 \"Yousee,\"hesaidhuskily,\"therewastheyoungest——Agnes。 Beforeshefellill,youknow。Butshedidn\'tlikeleavinghersisters。Neverwould。\"Hehurriedonwithhisodd-shapedloadandleftmeamongtheruinsofmyblacktheories。ThemanwiththatfacehaddoneAgnesMoultrienowrong。 Weneverplayedourgame。IwaswakedbetweentwoandthreeinthemorningfrommyhygienicbedbyBaxterinanulsteroverorangeandwhitepyjamas,whichIshouldneverhavesuspectedfromhischaracter。 \"Mycousinhashadsomesortofaseizure,\"hesaid。\"Willyoucome?Idon\'twanttowakethedoctor。Don\'twanttomakeascandal。Quick!\" SoIcamequickly,andledbythewhite-hairedArthursinajacketandpetticoat,enteredadouble-beddedroomreekingwithsteamandFriar\'sBalsam。Theelectricswereallon。MissMary——I knewherbyherheight——wasattheopenwindow,wrestlingwithMissElizabeth,whogrippedherroundtheknees。 MissMary\'shandwasatherownthroat,whichwasstreakedwithblood。 \"She\'sdoneit。She\'sdoneittoo!\"MissElizabethpanted。\"Holdher!Helpme!\" \"Oh,Isay!Womendon\'tcuttheirthroats,\"Baxterwhispered。 \"MyGod!Hasshecutherthroat?\"themaidcriedout,andwithnowarningrolledoverinafaint。Baxterpushedherunderthewash-basins,andleapedtoholdthegauntwomanwhocrowedandwhistledasshestruggledtowardthewindow。Hetookherbytheshoulder,andshestruckoutwildly: \"Allright!She\'sonlycutherhand,\"hesaid。\"Wettowelquick!\" WhileIgotthathepushedherbackward。Herstrengthseemedalmostasgreatashis。IswabbedatherthroatwhenIcould,andfoundnomark;thenhelpedhimtocontrolheralittle。MissElizabethleapedbacktobed,wailinglikeachild。 \"Tieupherhandsomehow,\"saidBaxter。\"Don\'tletitdripabouttheplace。She\"——hesteppedonbrokenglassinhisslippers,\"shemusthavesmashedapane。\" MissMarylurchedtowardstheopenwindowagain,droppedonherknees,herheadonthesill,andlayquiet,surrenderingthecuthandtome。 \"Whatdidshedo?\"BaxterturnedtowardsMissElizabethinthefarbed。 \"Shewasgoingtothrowherselfoutofthewindow,\"wastheanswer。\"Istoppedher,andsentArthursforyou。Oh,wecanneverholdupourheadsagain!\" MissMarywrithedandfoughtforbreath。Baxterfoundashawlwhichhethrewoverhershoulders。 \"Nonsense!\"saidhe。\"Thatisn\'tlikeMary;\"buthisfaceworkedwhenhesaidit。 \"Youwouldn\'tbelieveaboutAggie,John。Perhapsyouwillnow!\" saidMissElizabeth。\"Isawherdoit,andshe\'scutherthroattoo!\" \"Shehasn\'t,\"Isaid。\"It\'sonlyherhand。\" MissMarysuddenlybrokefromuswithanindescribablegrunt,flew,ratherthanran,tohersister\'sbed,andthereshookherasonefuriousschoolgirlwouldshakeanother。 \"Nosuchthing,\"shecroaked。\"Howdareyouthinkso,youwickedlittlefool?\" \"Getintobed,Mary,\"saidBaxter。\"You\'llcatchachill。\" Sheobeyed,butsatupwiththegreyshawlroundherleanshoulders,glaringathersister。\"I\'mbetternow,\"shepanted。\" Arthursletmesitouttoolong。Where\'sArthurs?Thekettle。\" \"NevermindArthurs,\"saidBaxter。\"Yougetthekettle。\"I hastenedtobringitfromthesidetable。\"Now,Mary,asGodseesyou,tellmewhatyou\'vedone。\" Hislipsweredry,andhecouldnotmoisten。themwithhistongue。 MissMaryappliedherselftothemouthofthekettle,andbetweenindrawsofsteamsaid:\"Thespasmcameonjustnow,whileIwasasleep。Iwasnearlychokingtodeath。SoIwenttothewindowI\'vedoneitoftenbefore,without,wakinganyone。Bessie\'ssuchanoldmaidaboutdraughts。ItellyouIwaschokingtodeath。I couldn\'tmanagethecatch,andInearlyfellout。Thatwindowopenstoolow。Icutmyhandtryingtosavemyself。Whohastieditupinthisfilthyhandkerchief?Iwishyouhadhadmythroat,Bessie。Ineverwasnearerdying!\"Shescowledonusallimpartially,whilehersistersobbed。 Fromthebottomofthebedweheardaquiveringvoice:\"Isshedead?Havetheytookheraway?Oh,Inevercouldbearthesighto\'blood!\" \"Arthurs,\"saidMissMary,\"youareanhireling。Goaway!\" ItismybeliefthatArthurscrawledoutonallfours,butIwasbusypickingupbrokenglassfromthecarpet。 ThenBaxter,seatedbythesideofthebed,begantocross-examineinavoiceIscarcelyrecognised。NoonecouldforaninstanthavedoubtedthegenuinerageofMissMaryagainsthersister,hercousin,orhermaid;andthatadoctorshouldhavebeencalledinforshedidmethehonourofcallingmedoctor——wasthelastdrop。Shewaschokingwithherthroat;hadrushedtothewindowforair;hadnearpitchedout,andincatchingatthewindowbarshadcutherhand。OverandovershemadethiscleartotheintentBaxter。Thensheturnedonhersisterandtongue-lashedhersavagely。 \"Youmustn\'tblameme,\"MissBessiefalteredatlast。\"Youknowwhatwethinkofnightandday。\"。 \"I\'mcomingtothat,\"saidBaxter。\"Listentome。Whatyoudid,Mary,misledfourpeopleintothinkingyou——youmeanttodoawaywithyourself。\" \"Isn\'tonesuicideinthefamilyenough?OhGod,helpandpityus!Youcouldn\'thavebelievedthat!\"shecried。 \"Theevidencewascomplete。Now,don\'tyouthink,\"Baxter\'sfingerwaggedunderhernose——\"can\'tyouthinkthatpoorAggiedidthesamethingatHolmescroftwhenshefelloutofthewindow?\" \"Shehadthesamethroat,\"saidMissElizabeth。\"Exactlythesamesymptoms。Don\'tyouremember,Mary?\" \"Whichwasherbedroom?\"IaskedofBaxterinanundertone。 \"Overthesouthverandah,lookingontothetennislawn。\" \"InearlyfelloutofthatverywindowwhenIwasatHolmescroft——openingittogetsomeair。Thesilldoesn\'tcomemuchaboveyourknees,\"Isaid。 \"Youhearthat,Mary?Mary,doyouhearWhatthisgentlemansays? Won\'tyoubelievethatwhatnearlyhappenedtoyoumusthavehappenedtopoorAggiethatnight?ForGod\'ssake——forhersake——Mary,won\'tyoubelieve?\" Therewasalongsilencewhilethesteamkettlepuffed。 \"IfIcouldhaveproof——ifIcouldhaveproof,\"saidshe,andbrokeintomosthorribletears。 Baxtermotionedtome,andIcreptawaytomyroom,andlayawaketillmorning,thinkingmorespeciallyofthedumbThingatHolmescroftwhichwishedtoexplainitself。IhatedMissMaryasperfectlyasthoughIhadknownherfortwentyyears,butIfeltthat,aliveordead,Ishouldnotlikehertocondemnme。 Yetatmid-day,whenIsawMissMaryinherbathchair,ArthursbehindandBaxterandMissElizabethoneitherside,inthepark-likegroundsoftheHydro,Ifounditdifficulttoarrangemywords。 \"Nowthatyouknowallaboutit,\"saidBaxteraside,afterthefirststrangenessofourmeetingwasover,\"it\'sonlyfairtotellyouthatmypoorcousindidnotdieinHolmescroftatall。 Shewasdeadwhentheyfoundherunderthewindowinthemorning。 Justdead。\" \"Underthatlaburnumoutsidethewindow?\"Iasked,forIsuddenlyrememberedthecrookedevilthing。 \"Exactly。Shebrokethetreeinfalling。Butnodeathhasevertakenplaceinthehouse,sofaraswewereconcerned。Youcanmakeyourselfquiteeasyonthatpoint。Mr。M\'Leod\'sextrathousandforwhatyoucalledthe\'cleanbillofhealth\'wassomethingtowardmycousins\'estatewhenwesold。Itwasmydutyastheirlawyertogetitforthem——atanycosttomyownfeelings。\" IknowbetterthantoarguewhentheEnglishtalkabouttheirduty。SoIagreedwithmysolicitor。 \"Theirsister\'sdeathmusthavebeenagreatblowtoyourcousins,\"Iwenton。Thebath-chairwasbehindme。 \"Unspeakable,\"Baxterwhispered。\"Theybroodedonitdayandnight。Nowonder。IftheirtheoryofpoorAggiemakingawaywithherselfwascorrect,shewaseternallylost!\" \"Doyoubelievethatshemadeawaywithherself?\" \"No,thankGod!Neverhave!AndafterwhathappenedtoMarylastnight,IseeperfectlywhathappenedtopoorAggie。Shehadthefamilythroattoo。Bytheway,Marythinksyouareadoctor。 Otherwiseshewouldn\'tlikeyourhavingbeeninherroom。\" \"Verygood。Issheconvincednowabouthersister\'sdeath?\" \"She\'dgiveanythingtobeabletobelieveit,butshe\'sahardwoman,andbroodingalongcertainlinesmakesonegroovy。Ihavesometimesbeenafraidofherreason——onthereligiousside,don\'tyouknow。Elizabethdoesn\'tmatter。Brainofahen。Alwayshad。\" HereArthurssummonedmetothebath-chair,andtheravagedface,beneathitsknittedShetlandwoolhood,ofMissMaryMoultrie。 \"Ineednotremindyou,Ihope,ofthesealofsecrecy——absolutesecrecy——inyourprofession,\"shebegan。\"Thankstomycousin\'sandmysister\'sstupidity,youhavefoundout\"sheblewhernose。 \"Pleasedon\'texciteher,sir,\"saidArthursattheback。 \"But,mydearMissMoultrie,IonlyknowwhatI\'veseen,ofcourse,butitseemstomethatwhatyouthoughtwasatragedyinyoursister\'scase,turnsout,onyourownevidence,sotospeak,tohavebeenanaccident——adreadfullysadone——butabsolutelyanaccident。\" \"Doyoubelievethattoo?\"shecried。\"Orareyouonlysayingittocomfortme?\" \"Ibelieveitfromthebottomofmyheart。ComedowntoHolmescroftforanhour——forhalfanhourandsatisfyyourself。\" \"Ofwhat?Youdon\'tunderstand。Iseethehouseeveryday-everynight。Iamalwaysthereinspirit——wakingorsleeping。I couldn\'tfaceitinreality。\" \"Butyoumust,\"Isaid。\"Ifyougothereinthespiritthegreaterneedforyoutogothereintheflesh。Gotoyoursister\'sroomoncemore,andseethewindow——Inearlyfelloutofitmyself。It\'s——it\'sawfullylowanddangerous。Thatwouldconvinceyou,\"Ipleaded。 \"YetAggiehadsleptinthatroomforyears,\"sheinterrupted。 \"You\'vesleptinyourroomhereforalongtime,haven\'tyou?Butyounearlyfelloutofthewindowwhenyouwerechoking。\" \"Thatistrue。Thatisonethingtrue,\"shenodded。\"AndImighthavebeenkilledas——perhapsAggiewaskilled。\" \"Inthatcaseyourownsisterandcousinandmaidwouldhavesaidyouhadcommittedsuicide,MissMoultrie。ComedowntoHolmescroft,andgoovertheplacejustonce。\" \"Youarelying,\"shesaidquitequietly。\"Youdon\'twantmetocomedowntoseeawindow。Itissomethingelse。IwarnyouweareEvangelicals。Wedon\'tbelieveinprayersforthedead。\'Asthetreefalls——\'\" \"Yes。Idaresay。Butyoupersistinthinkingthatyoursistercommittedsuicide\" \"No!No!IhavealwaysprayedthatImighthavemisjudgedher。\" Arthursatthebath-chairspokeup:\"Oh,MissMary!youwould\'aveitfromthefirstthatpoorMissAggie\'admadeawaywithherself;an\',ofcourse,MissBessietookthenotionfromyou: OnlyMaster——MisterJohnstoodout,-and——andI\'d\'avetakenmyBibleoathyouwasmakingawaywithyourselflastnight。\" MissMaryleanedtowardsme,onefingeronmysleeve。 \"IfgoingtoHolmescroftkillsme,\"shesaid,\"youwillhavethemurderofafellow-creatureonyourconscienceforalleternity。\" \"I\'llriskit,\"Ianswered。RememberingwhattormentthemerereflectionofhertormentshadcastonHolmescroft,andremembering,aboveall,thedumbThingthatfilledthehousewithitsdesiretospeak,Ifeltthattheremightbeworsethings。 Baxterwasamazedattheproposedvisit,butatanodfromthatterriblewomanwentofftomakearrangements。ThenIsentatelegramtoM\'LeodbiddinghimandhisvacateHolmescroftforthatafternoon。MissMaryshouldbealonewithherdead,asIhadbeenalone。 Iexpecteduntoldtroubleintransportingher,buttodoherjustice,thepromisegivenforthejourney,sheunderwentitwithoutmurmur,spasm,orunnecessaryword。MissBessie,pressedinacornerbythewindow,weptbehindherveil,andfromtimetotimetriedtotakeholdofhersister\'shand。Baxterwrappedhimselfinhisnewlyfoundhappinessasselfishlyasabridegroom,forhesatstillandsmiled。 \"SolongasIknowthatAggiedidn\'tmakeawaywithherself,\"heexplained,\"ItellyoufranklyIdon\'tcarewhathappened。She\'sashardasarock——Mary。Alwayswas。Shewon\'tdie。\" Weledheroutontotheplatformlikeablindwoman,andsogotherintothefly。Thehalf-hourcrawltoHolmescroftwasthemostrackingexperienceoftheday。M\'Leodhadobeyedmyinstructions。 Therewasnoonevisibleinthehouseorthegardens;andthefrontdoorstoodopen。 MissMaryrosefrombesidehersister,steppedforthfirst,andenteredthehall。 \"Come,Bessie,\"shecried。 \"Idaren\'t。Oh,Idaren\'t。\" \"Come!\"Hervoicehadaltered。IfeltBaxterstart。\"There\'snothingtobeafraidof。\" \"Goodheavens!\"saidBaxter。\"She\'srunningupthestairs。We\'dbetterfollow。\" \"Let\'swaitbelow。She\'sgoingtotheroom。\" WeheardthedoorofthebedroomIknewopenandshut,andwewaitedinthelemon-colouredhall,heavywiththescentofflowers。 \"I\'veneverbeenintoitsinceitwassold,\"Baxtersighed。\"Whatalovely,restfulplateitis!PoorAggieusedtoarrangetheflowers。\" \"Restful?\"Ibegan,butstoppedofasudden,forIfeltallovermybruisedsoulthatBaxterwasspeakingtruth。Itwasalight,spacious,airyhouse,fullofthesenseofwell-beingandpeace——aboveallthings,ofpeace。Iventuredintothedining-roomwherethethoughtfulM\'Leod\'shadleftasmallfire。 Therewasnoterrorthere,presentorlurking;andinthedrawing-room,whichforgoodreasonswehadnevercaredtoenter,thesunandthepeaceandthescentoftheflowersworkedtogetherasisfitinaninhabitedhouse。WhenIreturnedtothehall,Baxterwassweetlyasleeponacouch,lookingmostunlikeamiddle-agedsolicitorwhohadspentabrokennightwithanexactingcousin。 Therewasampletimeformetoreviewitall——tofelicitatemyselfuponmymagnificentacumen(barringsomeerrorsaboutBaxterasathiefandpossiblyamurderer),beforethedooraboveopened,andBaxter,evidentlyalightsleeper,sprangawake。 \"I\'vehadaheavenlylittlenap,\"hesaid,rubbinghiseyeswiththebacksofhishandslikeachild。\"GoodLord!That\'snottheirstep!\" Butitwas。IhadneverbeforebeenprivilegedtoseetheShadowturnedbackwardonthedial——theyearsrippedbodilyoffpoorhumanshoulders——oldsunkeneyesfilledandalight——harshlipsmoistenedandhuman。 \"John,\"MissMarycalled,\"Iknownow。Aggiedidn\'tdoit!\"and\"Shedidn\'tdoit!\"echoedMiss\"Ididnotthinkitwrongtosayaprayer,\"MissMarycontinued。 \"Notforhersoul,butforourpeace。ThenIwasconvinced。\" \"Thenwegotconviction,\"theyoungersisterpiped。 \"We\'vemisjudgedpoorAggie,John。ButIfeelsheknowsnow。 Whereversheis,sheknowsthatweknowsheisguiltless。\" \"Yes,sheknows。Ifeltittoo,\"saidMissElizabeth。,\"Ineverdoubted,\"saidJohn\'Baxter,whosefacewasbeautifulatthathour。\"Notfromthefirst。Neverhave!\" \"Youneverofferedmeproof,John。Now,thankGod,itwillnotbethesameanymore。IcanthinkhenceforwardofAggiewithoutsorrow。\"Shetripped,absolutelytripped,acrossthehall。\"WhatideastheseJewshaveofarrangingfurniture!\"ShespiedmebehindabigCloisonneevase。\"I\'veseenthewindow,\"shesaidremotely。\"Youtookagreatriskinadvisingmetoundertakesuchajourney。However,asitturnsout……Iforgiveyou,andIprayyoumayneverknowwhatmentalanguishmeans!Bessie!Lookatthispeculiarpiano!Doyousuppose,Doctor,thesepeoplewouldofferonetea?Imissmine。\" \"Iwillgoandsee,\"Isaid,andexploredM\'Leod\'snew-builtservants\'wing。Itwasintheservants\'hallthatIunearthedtheM\'Leodfamily,burstingwithanxiety。 \"Teaforthree,quick,\"Isaid。\"Ifyouaskmeanyquestionsnow,Ishallhaveafit!\"SoMrs。M\'Leodgotit,andIwasbutler,amidmurmuredapologiesfromBaxter,stillsmilingandself-absorbed,andthecolddisapprovalofMissMary,whothoughtthepatternofthechinavulgar。However,sheatewell,andevenaskedmewhetherIwouldnotlikeacupofteaformyself。 Theywentawayinthetwilight——thetwilightthatIhadoncefeared。TheyweregoingtoanhotelinLondontorestafterthefatiguesoftheday,andastheirflyturneddownthedrive,I caperedonthedoorstep,withtheall-darkenedhousebehindme。 ThenIheardtheuncertainfeetoftheM\'Leodsandbadethemnottoturnonthelights,buttofeel——tofeelwhatIhaddone;fortheShadowwasgone,withthedumbdesireintheair。Theydrewshort,butafterwardsdeeper,breaths,likebathersenteringchillwater,separatedonefromtheother,movedaboutthehall,tiptoedupstairs,raceddown,andthenMissM\'Leod,andIbelievehermother,thoughshedeniesthis,embracedme。IknowM\'Leoddid。 Itwasadisgracefulevening。Tosayweriotedthroughthehouseistoputitmildly。WeplayedasortofBlindMan\'sBuffalongthedarkestpassages,intheunlighteddrawing-room,andlittledining-room,callingcheerilytoeachotheraftereachexplorationthathere,andhere,andhere,thetrouble-hadremoveditself。Wecameuptothebedroom——mineforthenightagain——andsat,thewomenonthebed,andwemenonchairs,drinkinginblesseddraughtsofpeaceandcomfortandcleanlinessofsoul,whileItoldthemmytaleinfull,andreceivedfreshpraise,thanks,andblessings。 Whentheservants,returnedfromtheirday\'souting,gaveusasupperofcoldfriedfish,M\'Leodhadsenseenoughtoopennowine。Wehadbeenpracticallydrunksincenightfall,andgrewincoherentonwaterandmilk。 \"IlikethatBaxter,\"saidM\'Leod。\"He\'sasharpman。Thedeathwasn\'tinthehouse,butheranitprettyclose,ain\'tit?\" \"AndthejokeofitisthathesupposesIwanttobuytheplacefromyou,\"Isaid。\"Areyouselling?\" \"NotfortwicewhatIpaidforit——now,\"saidM\'Leod。\"I\'llkeepyouinfursallyourlife,butnotourHolmescroft。\" \"No——neverourHolmescroft,\"saidMissM\'Leod。\"We\'llaskhimhereonTuesday,mamma。\"Theysqueezedeachother\'shands。 \"Nowtellme,\"saidMrs。M\'Leod——\"thattallone,Isawoutofthescullerywindow——didshetellyoushewasalwayshereinthespirit?Ihateher。Shemadeallthistrouble。Itwasnotherhouseaftershehadsoldit。Whatdoyouthink?\" \"Isuppose,\"Ianswered,\"shebroodedoverwhatshebelievedwashersister\'ssuicidenightandday——sheconfessedshedid——andherthoughtsbeingconcentratedonthisplace,theyfeltlikea——likeaburningglass。\" \"Burningglassisgood,\"saidM\'Leod。 \"Isaiditwaslikealightofblacknessturnedonus,\"criedthegirl,twiddlingherring。\"Thatmusthavebeenwhenthetallonethoughtworstabouthersisterandthehouse。\" \"Ah,thepoorAggie!\"saidMrs。M\'Leod。\"ThepoorAggie,tryingtotelleveryoneitwasnotso!NowonderwefeltSomethingwishedtosaySomething。Thea,Max,doyourememberthatnight\" \"Weneednotrememberanymore,\"M\'Leodinterrupted。\"Itisnotourtrouble。Theyhavetoldeachothernow。\" \"Doyouthink,then,\"saidMissM\'Leod,\"thatthosetwo,thelivingones,wereactuallytoldsomething——upstairs——inyourintheroom?\" \"Ican\'tsay。Atanyratetheyweremadehappy,andtheyateabigteaafterwards。Asyourfathersays,itisnotourtroubleanylonger——thankGod!\" \"Amen!\"saidM\'Leod。\"Now,Thea,letushavesomemusicafterallthesemonths。\'Withmirth,thouprettybird,\'ain\'tit?Yououghttohearthat。\" Andinthehalf-lightedhall,TheasanganoldEnglishsongthatIhadneverheardbefore。 Withmirth,thouprettybird,rejoiceThyMaker\'spraiseenhanced; Liftupthyshrillandpleasantvoice,ThyGodishighadvanced! ThyfoodbeforeHedidprovide,Andgivesitinafittingside,Wherewithbethousufficed! Whyshouldstthounowunpleasantbe,ThywrathagainstGodventing,ThatHealittlebirdmadethee,Thysillyheadtormenting,BecauseHemadetheenotaman? Oh,Peace!Hehathwellthoughtthereon,Therewithbethousufficed! THERABBI\'SSONG IFTHOUGHTcanreachtoHeaven,OnHeavenletitdwell,ForfearthatThoughtbegivenLikepowertoreachtoHell。 ForfearthedesolationAnddarknessofthymind,PerplexanhabitationWhichthouhastleftbehind。 Letnothinglingerafter—— Nowhisperingghostremain,Inwall,orbeam,orrafter,Ofanyhateorpain: Cleanseandcallhomethyspirit,Denyherleavetocast,Onaughtthyheirsinherit,Theshadowofherpast。 Forthink,inallthysadness,Whatroadourgriefsmaytake; Whosebrainreflectourmadness,Orwhomourterrorsshake。 Forthink,lestanylanguishBycauseofthydistressThearrowsofouranguishFlyfartherthanweguess。 Ourlives,ourtears,aswater,Arespilledupontheground; Godgivethnomanquarter,YetGodameanshathfound; Thoughfaithandhopehavevanished,Andevenlovegrowsdim; AmeanswherebyHisbanishedBenotexpelledfromHim!