第10章

\"Everythingissocontraryandprovoking，\"saidFanny，petulantly。 \"Nowwhatintheworldhaveyoutofretabout？\"askedPolly，ratheranxiously。 \"Quantitiesofthings，\"beganFan，andthenstopped，forsomehowshefeltashamedtoownthatshewasafflictedbecauseshecouldn\'thaveanewsetoffurs，gotoParisinthespring，andmakeMr。Sydneyloveher。 Shehuntedupsomethingmorepresentable，andsaidinadespairingtone，­； \"Well，motherisverypoorly，TomandTrixquarrelallthetime，Maudgetsmoreandmorewilfuleveryday，andpapaisworriedabouthisaffairs。\" \"Asadstateofthings，butnothingverydesperate。Can\'tyoulendahandanywhere？Thatmightdogoodallround。\" \"No；Ihaven\'tthetalentformanagingpeople，butIseewhatoughttobedone。\" \"Well，don\'twailaboutit；keepyourselfhappy，ifyoucan； itwillhelpotherpeopletoseeyoucheerful。\" \"JustwhatTomsaid，\'Keepjolly\'；but，dearme，howcanone，wheneverythingissostupidandtiresome？\" \"Ifeveragirlneededwork，it\'syou!\"criedPolly。\"Youbegantobeayoungladysoearly，thatyouaretiredofeverythingattwenty-two。 Iwishyou\'dgoatsomething，thenyou\'dfindhowmuchtalentandenergyyoureallyhad。\" \"Iknoweversomanygirlswhoarejustlikeme，sicktodeathoffashionablelifebutdon\'tknowwhattotakeinitsplace。I\'dliketotravel；butpapasayshecan\'taffordit，soIcanonlydragaboutandgetonasI may。\" \"Ipityyourichgirlssomuch，youhavesomanyopportunities，anddon\'tseemtoknowhowtousethem!IsupposeIshoulddojustthesameinyourplace，butitseemsnowasifIcouldbeveryhappyandusefulwithplentyofmoney。\" \"Youarethatwithoutit。There，Iwon\'tcroakanymore。Letusgoandtakeagoodwalk，anddon\'tyoutellanyonehowIcameandcriedlikeababy。\" \"Never!\"saidPolly，puttingonherbonnet。 \"Ioughttogoandmakecalls，\"saidFanny，\"butIdon\'tfeelnowasifIeverwantedtoseeanyofthegirlsagain。Dreadfulstateofmind，isn\'tit？\" \"Supposeyoucomeandseesomeofmyfriendsinstead!Theyarenotfineorceremonious，butlively，odd，andpleasant。Come，itwillamuseyou。\" \"Iwill，\"criedFanny，whosespiritsseemedimprovedbytheshower。 \"Nicelittleoldlady，isn\'tshe？\"addedFan，asshecaughtsightofMissMills，ontheirwayout，sittingatatablepiledwithwork，andsewingawaywithanenergythatmadethegraycurlsvibrate。 \"SaintMehitable，Icallher。Now，thereisarichwomanwhoknewhowtogethappinessoutofhermoney，\"saidPolly，astheywalkedaway。\"Shewaspoortillshewasnearlyfifty；thenacomfortablefortunewaslefther，andsheknewjusthowtouseit。Thathousewasgivenher，butinsteadoflivinginitallalone，shefilleditwithpoorgentlefolkswhoneededneat，respectablehomes，butcouldn\'tgetanythingcomfortablefortheirlittlemoney。I\'moneofthem，andIknowtheworthofwhatshedoesforme。Twooldwidowladieslivebelowme，severalstudentsoverhead，poorMrs。Keanandherlameboyhavethebackparlor，andJennythelittlebedroomnextMissMills。Eachpayswhattheycan；that\'sindependent，andmakesusfeelbetterbutthatdearwomandoesathousandthingsthatmoneycan\'tpayfor，andwefeelherinfluenceallthroughthehouse。I\'dratherbemarried，andhaveahomeofmyown；butnexttothat，IshouldliketobeanoldmaidlikeMissMills。\" Polly\'ssoberfaceandemphatictonemadeFannylaugh，andatthecheerysoundayounggirlpushingababy-carriagelookedroundandsmiled。 Whatlovelyeyes!\"whisperedFanny。 Yes，that\'slittleJane，\"returnedPolly，adding，whenshehadpassed，withanodandafriendly\"Don\'tgettired，Jenny，\"\"wehelponeanotheratourhouse，andeveryfinemorningJennytakesJohnnyKeanoutwhenshegoesforherownwalk。Thatgiveshismothertimetorest，doesboththechildrengood，andkeepsthingsneighborly。MissMillssuggestedit，andJennyissogladtodoanythingforanybody，it\'sapleasuretolether。\" \"I\'veheardofMissMillsbefore。ButIshouldthinkshewouldgettiredtodeath，sittingtheremakinghoodsandpetticoatsdayafterday，\" saidFanny，afterthinkingoverJenny\'sstoryforafewminutes，forseeingthegirlseemedtobringitnearer，andmakeitmorerealtoher。 \"Butshedon\'tsitthereallthetime。Peoplecometoherwiththeirtroubles，andshegoestothemwithallsortsofhelp，fromsoapandsoup，toshroudsforthedeadandcomfortfortheliving。Igowithhersometimes，anditismoreexcitingthananyplay，toseeandhearthelivesandstoriesofthepoor。\" \"Howcanyoubearthedreadfulsightsandsounds，thebadair，andthepovertythatcan\'tbecured？\" \"Butitisn\'talldreadful。Therearegoodandlovelythingsamongthem，ifoneonlyhaseyestoseethem。Itmakesmegratefulandcontented，showsmehowrichIam，andkeepsmereadytodoallIcanforthesepoorsouls。\" \"MygoodPolly!\"andFannygaveherfriendsarmanaffectionatesqueeze，wonderingifitwasthisalonethathadworkedthechangeinPolly。 \"Youhaveseentwoofmynewfriends，MissMillsandJenny，nowI\'llshowyoutwomore，\"saidPolly，presently，astheyreachedadoor，andsheledthewayupseveralflightsofpublicstairs。\"RebeccaJeffreyisaregularlysplendidgirl，fulloftalent；shewon\'tletuscallitgenius； shewillbefamoussomeday，Iknow，sheissomodest，andyetsointentonherwork。LizzieSmallisanengraver，anddesignsthemostdelightfullittlepictures。Beckyandshelivetogether，andtakecareofoneanotherintrueDamonandPythiasstyle。Thisstudioistheirhome，­；theywork，eat，sleep，andlivehere，goinghalvesineverything。Theyareallaloneintheworld，butashappyandindependentasbirds；realfriends，whomnothingwillpart。\" \"Letalovercomebetweenthem，andtheirfriendshipwon\'tlastlong，\" saidFanny。 \"Ithinkitwill。Takealookatthem，andyou\'llchangeyourmind，\" answeredPolly，tappingatadoor，onwhichtwomodestcardsweretacked。 \"Comein!\"saidavoice，andobeying，Fannyfoundherselfinalarge，queerlyfurnishedroom，lightedfromabove，andoccupiedbytwogirls。 Onestoodbeforeagreatclayfigure，inacorner。Thisonewastall，withastrongface，keeneyes，short，curlyhair，andafinehead。Fannywasstruckatoncebythisfaceandfigure，thoughtheonewasnothandsome，andtheotherhalfhiddenbyagreatpinaforecoveredwithclay。Atatablewherethelightwasclearest，satafrail-lookinggirl，withathinface，bigeyes，andpalehair，­；adreamy，absorbedlittleperson，whobentoverablock，skillfullywieldinghertools。 \"BeckyandBess，howdoyoudo？Thisismyfriend，FannyShaw。Weareoutonarampage；sogoonwithyourwork，andletuslazyoneslookonandadmire。\" AsPollyspoke，bothgirlslookedupandnodded，smilingly；BessgaveFantheoneeasy-chair；Beckytookanartisticsurveyofthenew-comer，witheyesthatseemedtoseeeverything；theneachwentonwithherwork，andallbegantotalk。 \"YouarejustwhatIwant，Polly。Pullupyoursleeve，andgivemeanarmwhileyousit；themusclesherearen\'tright，andyou\'vegotjustwhatIwant，\"saidBecky，slappingtheroundarmofthestatue，atwhichFanwasgazingwithawe。 \"Howdoyougeton？\"askedPolly，throwingoffhercloak，androllinguphersleeves，asifgoingtowashing。 \"Slowly。Theideaisworkingitselfclear，andIfollowasfastasmyhandscan。Isthefacebetter，doyouthink？\"saidBecky，takingoffawetcloth，andshowingtheheadofthestatue。 \"Howbeautifulitis!\"criedFanny，staringatitwithincreasedrespect。 \"Whatdoesitmeantoyou？\"askedRebecca，turningtoherwithasuddenshineinherkeeneyes。 \"Idon\'tknowwhetheritismeantforasaintoramuse，agoddessorafate；buttomeitisonlyabeautifulwoman，bigger，lovelier，andmoreimposingthananywomanIeversaw，\"answeredFanny，slowly，tryingtoexpresstheimpressionthestatuemadeuponher。 Rebeccasmiledbrightly，andBesslookedroundtonodapprovingly，butPollyclappedherhands，andsaid，­； \"Welldone，Fan!Ididn\'tthinkyou\'dgettheideasowell，butyouhave，andI\'mproudofyourinsight。NowI\'lltellyou，forBeckywillletme，sinceyouhavepaidherthecomplimentofunderstandingherwork。Sometimeagowegotintoafamoustalkaboutwhatwomenshouldbe，andBeckysaidshe\'dshowusherideaofthecomingwoman。Theresheis，asyousay，bigger，lovelier，andmoreimposingthananyweseenowadays； andatthesametime，sheisatruewoman。Seewhatafineforehead，yetthemouthisbothfirmandtender，asifitcouldsaystrong，wisethings，aswellasteachchildrenandkissbabies。Wecouldn\'tdecidewhattoputinthehandsasthemostappropriatesymbol。Whatdoyousay？\" \"Giveherasceptre:shewouldmakeafinequeen，\"answeredFanny。 \"No，wehavehadenoughofthat；womenhavebeencalledqueensalongtime，butthekingdomgiventhemisn\'tworthruling，\"answeredRebecca。 \"Idon\'tthinkitisnowadays，\"saidFanny，withatiredsortofsigh。 \"Putaman\'shandinherstohelpheralong，then，\"saidPolly，whosehappyfortuneithadbeentofindfriendsandhelpersinfatherandbrothers。 \"No；mywomanistostandalone，andhelpherself，\"saidRebecca，decidedly。 \"She\'stobestrong-minded，isshe？\"­；andFanny\'slipcurledalittleassheutteredthemisusedwords。 \"Yes，strong-minded，strong-hearted，strong-souled，andstrong-bodied； thatiswhyImadeherlargerthanthemiserable，pinched-upwomanofourday。Strengthandbeautymustgotogether。Don\'tyouthinkthesebroadshoulderscanbearburdenswithoutbreakingdown，thesehandsworkwell，theseeyesseeclearly，andtheselipsdosomethingbesidessimperandgossip？\" Fannywassilent；butavoicefromBess\'scornersaid，­； \"Putachildinherarms，Becky。\" \"Notthateven，forsheistobesomethingmorethananurse。\" \"Giveheraballot-box，\"criedanewvoice，andturninground，theysawanodd-lookingwomanperchedonasofabehindthem。 \"Thankyouforthesuggestion，Kate。I\'llputthatwiththeothersymbolsatherfeet；forI\'mgoingtohaveneedle，pen，palette，andbroomsomewhere，tosuggestthevarioustalentssheowns，andtheballot-boxwillshowthatshehasearnedtherighttousethem。Howgoesit？\"andRebeccaofferedaclay-daubedhand，whichthenew-comercordiallyshook。 \"Greatnews，girls!AnnaisgoingtoItaly!\"criedKate，tossingupherbonnetlikeaschool-boy。 \"Oh，howsplendid!Whotakesher？Hasshehadafortunelefther？Tellallaboutit，\"exclaimedthegirls，gatheringroundthespeaker。 \"Yes，itissplendid；justoneofthebeautifulthingsthatdoeseverybodyheapsofgood，itissogenerousandsodeserved。YouknowAnnahasbeenlongingtogo；workingandhopingforachance，andnevergettingit，tillallofasuddenMissBurtonisinspiredtoinvitethegirltogowithherforseveralyearstoItaly。Thinkoftheluckofthatdearsoul，theadvantagesshe\'llhave，thegooditwilldoher，and，bestofall，thelovelywayinwhichitcomestoher。MissBurtonwants，herasafriend，asksnothingofherbuthercompany，andAnnawillgothroughfireandwaterforher，ofcourse。Now，isn\'tthatfine？\" Itwasgoodtoseehowheartilythesegirlssympathizedintheircomrade\'sgoodfortune。Pollydancedallovertheroom，BessandBeckyhuggedoneanother，andKatelaughedwithhereyesfull，whileevenFannyfeltaglowof，prideandpleasureatthekindact。 \"Whoisthat？\"shewhisperedtoPolly，whohadsubsidedintoacorner。 \"Why，itIsKateKing，theauthoress。Blessme，howrudenottointroduceyou!Here，myKing，isanadmirerofyours，FannyShaw，andmywellbelovedfriend，\"criedPolly，presentingFan，whoregardedtheshabbyyoungwomanwithasmuchrespect，asifshehadbeenarrayedinvelvetandermine； forKatehadwrittenasuccessfulbookbyaccident，andhappenedtobethefashion，justthen。 \"It\'stimeforlunch，girls，andIbroughtminealongwithme，it\'ssomuchjolliertoeatinsisterhood。Let\'sclubtogether，andhavearevel，\"saidKate，producingabagoforanges，andseveralbig，plummybuns。 \"We\'vegotsardines，crackers，andcheese，\"saidBess，clearingoffatablewithallspeed。 \"Waitabit，andI\'lladdmyshare，\"criedPolly，andcatchinguphercloak，sheranofftothegrocerystorenearby。 \"You\'llbeshockedatourperformances，MissShaw，butyoucancallitapicnic，andnevertellwhatdreadfulthingsyousawusdo，\"saidRebecca，polishingapaintknifebyrubbingitupanddowninapotofivy，whileKatespreadforththefeastinseveraloddplates，andaflatshellortwo。 \"Letushavecoffeetofinishoffwith；putonthepot，Bess，andskimthemilk，\"addedBecky，assheproducedcups，mugs，andaqueerlittlevase，tosupplydrinkingvesselsfortheparty。 \"Here\'snuts，apotofjam，andsomecake。Fanlikessweetthings，andwewanttobeelegantwhenwehavecompany，\"saidPolly，flyinginagain，anddepositinghershareonthetable。 \"Now，then，fallto，ladies，andhelpyourselves。Nevermindifthechinadon\'tholdout；takethesardinesbytheirlittletails，andwipeyourfingersonmybrown-papernapkins，\"saidKate，settingtheexamplewithsucharelish，thattheothersfolloweditinagaleofmerriment。 Fannyhadbeentomanyelegantlunches，butneverenjoyedonemorethanthatdrollpicnicinthestudio；fortherewasafreedomaboutitthatwascharming，anartisticflavortoeverything，andsuchaspiritofgood-willandgayety，thatshefeltathomeatonce。Astheyate，theotherstalkedandshelistened，findingitasinterestingasanyromancetoheartheseyoungwomendiscusstheirplans，ambitions，successes，anddefeats。Itwasanewworldtoher，andtheyseemedadifferentraceofcreaturesfromthegirlswhoseliveswerespentindress，gossip，pleasure，orennui。Theyweregirlsstill，fullofspiritsfun，andyouth；butbelowthelight-heartednesseachcherishedapurpose，whichseemedtoennobleherwomanhood，togiveheracertainpower，asustainingsatisfaction，adailystimulus，thatledherontodailyeffort，andintimetosomesuccessincircumstanceorcharacter，whichwasworthallthepatience，hope，andlaborofherlife。 Fannywasjusttheninthemoodtofeelthebeautyofthis，forthesincerestemotionshehadeverknownwasbeginningtomakeherdissatisfiedwithherself，andtheaimlesslifesheled。\"Menmustrespectsuchgirlsasthese，\"shethought；\"yes，andlovethemtoo，forinspiteoftheirindependence，theyarewomanly。IwishIhadatalenttolivefor，ifitwoulddoasmuchformeasitdoesforthem。ItisthissortofthingthatisimprovingPolly，thatmakeshersocietyinterestingtoSydney，andherselfsodeartoeveryone。Moneycan\'tbuythesethingsforme，andIwantthemverymuch。\" Asthesethoughtswerepassingthroughhermind，Fannywashearingallsortsoftopicsdiscussedwithfeminineenthusiasmandfrankness。Art，morals，politics，society，books，religion，housekeeping，dress，andeconomy，forthemindsandtonguesrovedfromsubjecttosubjectwithyouthfulrapidity，andseemedtogetsomethingfromthedryestandthedullest。 \"Howdoesthenewbookcomeon？\"askedPolly，suckingherorangeinpublicwithacomposurewhichwouldhavescandalizedthegoodladiesof\"Cranford。\" \"Betterthanitdeserves。Mychildren，bewareofpopularity；itisadelusionandasnare；itpuffethuptheheartofman，andespeciallyofwoman；itblindeththeeyestofaults；itexaltethundulythehumblepowersofthevictim；itisapttobecapricious，andjustasonegetstolikingthetasteofthisintoxicatingdraught，itsuddenlyfaileth，andoneisleftgasping，likeafishoutofwater，\"andKateemphasizedherspeechbyspearingasardinewithapenknife，andeatingitwithagroan。 \"Itwon\'thurtyoumuch，Iguess；youhaveworkedandwaitedsolong，alargedosewilldoyougood，\"saidRebecca，givingheragenerousspoonfulofjam，asifeagertoaddasmuchsweetnessaspossibletoalifethathadnotbeenaneasyone。 \"WhenareyouandBeckygoingtodissolvepartnership？\"askedPolly，eagerfornewsofall。 \"Never!Georgeknowshecan\'thaveonewithouttheother，andhasnotsuggestedsuchathingaspartingus。ThereisalwaysroominmyhouseforBecky，andsheletsmedoasshewouldifshewasinmyplace，\"answeredBess，withalookwhichherfriendansweredbyasmile。 \"Theloverwon\'tseparatethispairoffriends，yousee，\"whisperedPollytoFan。\"Bessistobemarriedinthespring，andBeckyistolivewithher。\" \"Bytheway，Polly，I\'vegotsometicketsforyou。Peoplearealwayssendingmesuchthings，andasIdon\'tcareforthem，I\'mgladtomakethemovertoyouyoungandgiddyinfants。Therearepassesforthestatuaryexhibition，Beckyshallhavethose，herearetheconcertticketsforyou，mymusicalgirl；andthatisforacourseoflecturesonliterature，whichI\'llkeepformyself。\" AsKatedealtoutthecoloredcardstothegratefulgirls，Fannytookagoodlookather，wonderingifthetimewouldevercomewhenwomencouldearnalittlemoneyandsuccess，withoutpayingsuchaheavypriceforthem；forKatelookedsick，tired，andtooearlyold。Thenhereyewenttotheunfinishedstatue，andshesaid，impulsively，­； \"Ihopeyou\'llputthatinmarble，andshowuswhatweoughttobe。\" \"IwishIcould!\"AndanintensedesireshoneinRebecca\'sface，asshesawherfaultywork，andfelthowfairhermodelwas。 Foraminute，thefiveyoungwomensatsilentlookingupatthebeautiful，strongfigurebeforethem，eachlongingtoseeitdone，andeachunconsciousthatshewashelping，byherindividualeffortandexperience，tobringthedaywhentheirnoblestidealofwomanhoodshouldbeembodiedinfleshandblood，notclay。 Thecitybellsrungone，andPollystartedup。 \"Imustgo，forIpromisedaneighborofminealessonattwo。\" \"Ithoughtthiswasaholiday，\"saidFanny。 \"Soitis，butthisisalittlelaboroflove，anddoesn\'tspoilthedayatall。Thechildhastalent，lovesmusic，andneedshelp。Ican\'tgivehermoney，butIcanteachher；soIdo，andsheisthemostpromisingpupilIhave。Helponeanother，ispartofthereligionofoursisterhood，Fan。\" \"Imustputyouinastory，Polly。Iwantaheroine，andyouwilldo，\" saidKate。 \"Me!why，thereneverwassuchahumdrum，unromanticthingasIam，\" criedPolly，amazed。 \"I\'vebookedyou，nevertheless，soinyougo；butyoumayaddasmuchromanceasyoulike，it\'stimeyoudid。\" \"I\'mreadyforitwhenitcomes，butitcan\'tbeforced，youknow，\" andPollyblushedandsmiledasifsomelittlespiceofthatdelightfulthinghadstolenintoherlife，forallitsprosaicseeming。 Fannywasamusedtoseethatthegirlsdidnotkissatparting，butshookhandsinaquiet，friendlyfashion，lookingatoneanotherwitheyesthatsaidmorethanthemost\"gushing\"words。 \"Ilikeyourfriendsverymuch，Polly。IwasafraidIshouldfindthemmannishandrough，orsentimentalandconceited。Buttheyaresimple，sensiblecreatures，fulloftalent，andallsortsoffinethings。Iadmireandrespectthem，andwanttogoagain，ifImay。\" \"Oh，Fan，Iamsoglad!Ihopedyou\'dlikethem，Iknewthey\'ddoyougood，andI\'lltakeyouanytime，foryoustoodthetestbetterthanIexpected。Beckyaskedmetobringyouagain，andsheseldomdoesthatforfashionableyoungladies，letmetellyou。\" \"Iwanttobeeversomuchbetter，andIthinkyouandtheymightshowmehow，\"saidFanny，withatraitoroustrembleinhervoice。 \"We\'llshowyouthesunnysideofpovertyandwork，andthatisausefullessonforanyone，MissMillssays，\"answeredPolly，hopingthatFanwouldlearnhowmuchthepoorcanteachtherich，andwhathelpfulfriendsgirlsmaybetooneanother。ChapterXIV。ChapterXIV。CHAPTERXIVNIPPEDINTHEBUDONtheeveningofFan\'svisit，Pollysatdownbeforeherfirewitharesoluteandthoughtfulaspect。Shepulledherhairdown，turnedherskirtback，putherfeetonthefender，andtookPuttelintoherlap，allofwhicharrangementssignifiedthatsomethingveryimportanthadgottobethoughtoverandsettled。Pollydidnotsoliloquizealoud，asheroinesonthestageandinbookshaveawayofdoing，buttheconversationsheheldwithherselfwasverymuchlikethis:­； \"I\'mafraidthereissomethinginit。I\'vetriedtothinkit\'snothingbutvanityorimagination，yetIcan\'thelpseeingadifference，andfeelingasifIoughtnottopretendthatIdon\'t。Iknowit\'sconsideredproperforgirlstoshuttheireyesandletthingscometoacrisisnomatterhowmuchmischiefisdone。ButIdon\'tthinkit\'sdoingaswe\'dbedoneby，anditseemsagreatdealmorehonesttoshowamanthatyoudon\'tlovehimbeforehehasentirelylosthisheart。ThegirlslaughedatmewhenIsaidso，andtheydeclaredthatitwouldbeaveryimproperthingtodo，butI\'veobservedthattheydon\'thesitatetosnub\'ineligibleparties，\'astheycallpoor，veryyoung，orunpopularmen。 It\'sallrightthen，butwhenanicepersoncomesit\'spartofthefuntolethimgoontotheveryend，whetherthegirlscareforhimornot。 Themoreproposals，themorecredit。FansaysTrixalwaysaskswhenshecomeshomeafterthesummerexcursions，\'Howmanybirdshaveyoubagged？\' asifmenwerepartridges。Whatwickedcreaturesweare!someofusatleast。Iwonderwhysuchaloveofconquestwasputintous？Mothersaysagreatdealofitisowingtobadeducationnowadays，butsomegirlsseembornfortheexpresspurposeofmakingtroubleandwouldmanagetodoitiftheylivedinahowlingwilderness。I\'mafraidI\'vegotaspiceofit，andifIhadthechance，shouldbeasbadasanyofthem。I\'vetrieditandlikedit，andmaybethisistheconsequenceofthatnight\'sfun。\" HerePollyleanedbackandlookedupatthelittlemirroroverthechimney-piece，whichwashungsothatitreflectedthefacesofthoseaboutthefire。 InitPollysawapairoftelltaleeyeslookingoutfromatangleofbrightbrownhair，cheeksthatflushedanddimpledsuddenlyasthefreshmouthsmiledwithanexpressionofconsciouspower，halfproud，halfashamed，andasprettytoseeasthecoquettishgesturewithwhichshesmoothedbackhercurlsandflourishedawhitehand。Foraminutesheregardedthepleasantpicturewhilevisionsofgirlishromancesandtriumphsdancedthroughherhead，thensheshookherhairalloverherfaceandpushedherchairoutofrangeofthemirror，saying，withadrollmixtureofself-reproachandself-approvalinhertone；­； \"Oh，Puttel，Puttel，whatafoolIam!\" Pussappearedtoendorsethesentimentbyaloudpurrandagracefulwaveofhertail，andPollyreturnedtothesubjectfromwhichtheselittlevanitieshadbeguiledher。 \"Justsupposeitistrue，thathedoesaskme，andIsayyes!Whatastiritwouldmake，andwhatfunitwouldbetoseethefacesofthegirlswhenitcameout!Theyallthinkagreatdealofhimbecauseheissohardtoplease，andalmostanyofthemwouldfeelimmenselyflatteredifhelikedthem，whethertheychosetomarryhimornot。Trixhastriedforyearstofascinatehim，andhecan\'tbearher，andI\'msoglad!WhataspitefulthingIam。Well，Ican\'thelpit，shedoesaggravatemeso!\" AndPollygavethecatsuchatweakoftheearthatPuttelbouncedoutofherlapinhighdudgeon。 \"Itdon\'tdotothinkofher，andIwon\'t!\"saidPollytoherself，settingherlipswithagrimlookthatwasnotatallbecoming。\"WhataneasylifeIshouldhave­；plentyofmoney，quantitiesoffriends，allsortsofpleasures，andnowork，nopoverty，nocoldshouldersorpatchedboots。 Icoulddosomuchforallathome­；howIshouldenjoythat!\"AndPollyletherthoughtsrevelintheluxuriousfutureherfancypainted。Itwasaverybrightpicture，butsomethingseemedamisswithit，forpresentlyshesighedandshookherhead，thinkingsorrowfully，\"Ah，butIdon\'tlovehim，andI\'mafraidInevercanasIought!He\'sverygood，andgenerous，andwise，andwouldbekind，Iknow，butsomehowIcan\'timaginespendingmylifewithhim；I\'msoafraidIshouldgettiredofhim，andthenwhatshouldIdo？PollySydneydon\'tsoundwell，andMrs。ArthurSydneydon\'tseemtofitmeabit。Wonderhowitwouldseemtocallhim\'Arthur\'？\"AndPollysaiditunderherbreath，withalookoverhershouldertobesurenooneheardit。\"It\'saprettyname，butrathertoofine，andIshouldn\'tdaretosay\'Syd，\'ashissisterdoes。Ilikeshort，plain，home-likenames，suchasWill，Ned，orTom。No，no，Icannevercareforhim，andit\'snousetotry!\"TheexclamationbrokefromPollyasifasuddentroublehadseizedher，andlayingherheaddownonherknees，shesatmotionlessformanyminutes。 Whenshelookedup，herfaceworeanexpressionwhichnoonehadeverseenonitbefore；alookofmingledpainandpatience，asifsomelosshadcometoher，andleftthebitternessofregretbehind。 \"Iwon\'tthinkofmyself，ortrytomendonemistakebymakinganother，\" shesaidwithaheavysigh。\"I\'lldowhatIcanforFan，andnotstandbetweenherandachanceofhappiness。Letmesee，howcanIbegin？Iwon\'twalkwithhimanymore；I\'lldodgeandgoroundaboutways，sothatwecan\'tmeet。IneverhadmuchfaithintheremarkablecoincidenceofhisalwayshappeninghometodinnerjustasIgotogivetheRothstheirlesson。 Thefactis，Iliketomeethim，Iamgladtobeseenwithhim，andputonairs，Idaresay，likeavaingooseasIam。Well，Iwon\'tdoitanymore，andthatwillspareFanoneaffliction。Poordear，howImusthaveworriedherallthistime，andneverguessedit。Shehasn\'tbeenquiteaskindasever；butwhenshegotsharp，Ifancieditwasdyspepsia。Oh，me!Iwishtheothertroublecouldbecuredaseasilyasthis。\" Herepussshowedanamiabledesiretoforgiveandforget，andPollytookherup，sayingaloud:­； \"Puttel，whenmissisabusesyou，playit\'sdyspepsia，anddon\'tbearmalice，becauseit\'saverytryingdisease，mydear。\" Then，goingbacktoherthoughts，sherambledonagain；­； \"Ifhedoesn\'ttakethathint，Iwillgivehimastrongerone，forIwillnothavematterscometoacrisis，thoughIcan\'tdenythatmywickedvanitystronglytemptsmetotryand\'bagabird\'justfortheexcitementandcreditofthething。Polly，I\'mashamedofyou!Whatwouldyourblessedmothersaytohearsuchexpressionsfromyou？I\'dwriteandtellheralltheworry，onlyitwouldn\'tdoanygood，andwouldonlytroubleher。I\'venorighttotellFan\'ssecrets，andI\'mashamedtotellmine。No，I\'llleavemotherinpeace，andfightitoutalone。IdothinkFanwouldsuithimexcellentlybyandby。Hehasknownherallherlife，andhasagoodinfluenceoverher。Lovewoulddosomuchtowardmakingherwhatshemightbe；it\'sashametohavethechancelostjustbecausehehappenstoseeme。Ishouldthinkshe\'dhateme；butI\'llshowherthatsheneedn\'t，anddoallIcantohelpher；forshehasbeensogoodtomenothingshallevermakemeforgetthat。Itisadelicateanddangeroustask，butIguessIcanmanageit；atanyrateI\'lltry，andhavenothingtoreproachmyselfwithifthingsdogo\'contrary。\'\" WhatPollythoughtof，asshelaybackinherchair，withhereyesshut，andahopelesslookonherface，isnoneofourbusiness，thoughwemightfeelawishtoknowwhatcausedateartogatherslowlyfromtimetotimeunderherlashes，androlldownonPuttel\'sQuaker-coloredcoat。Wasitregretfortheconquestsherelinquished，wasitsympathyforherfriend，orwasitanuncontrollableoverflowoffeelingasshereadsomesadortenderpassageofthelittleromancewhichshekepthiddenawayinherownheart？ OnMonday，Pollybeganthe\"delicateanddangeroustask。\"Insteadofgoingtoherpupilsbywayoftheparkandthepleasantstreetsadjoining，shetookaroundaboutroutethroughbackstreets，andthusescapedMr。 Sydney，who，asusual，camehometodinnerveryearlythatdayandlookeddisappointedbecausehenowheresawthebrightfaceinthemodestbonnet。 Pollykeptthisupforaweek，andbycarefullyavoidingtheShaws\'houseduringcallinghours，shesawnothingofMr。Sydney，who，ofcourse，didn\'tvisitheratMissMills\'。Minniehappenedtobepoorlythatweekandtooknolesson，soUncleSydwasdeprivedofhislasthope，andlookedasifhisallowanceofsunshinehadbeensuddenlycutoff。 Now，asPollywasbynomeansaperfectcreature，Iamfreetoconfessthattheoldtemptationassailedhermorethanoncethatweek，for，whenthefirstexcitementofthedodgingreformhadsubsided，shemissedthepleasantlittleinterviewsthatusedtoputacertainflavorofromanceintoherdull，hard-workingdays。ShelikedMr。Sydneyverymuch，forhehadalwaysbeenkindandfriendlysincetheearlytimeswhenhehadtreatedthelittlegirlwithacourtesywhichtheyoungwomangratefullyremembered。 Idon\'tthinkitwashiswealth，accomplishments，orpositionthatmostattractedPolly，thoughthesedoubtlesspossessedagreaterinfluencethanshesuspected。Itwasthatindescribablesomethingwhichwomenarequicktoseeandfeelinmenwhohavebeenblessedwithwiseandgoodmothers。 ThishadanespecialcharmtoPolly，forshesoonfoundthatthissideofhischaracterwasnotshowntoeveryone。Withmostgirls，hewasveryliketheotheryoungmenofhisset，exceptperhapsinacertaingraceofmannerwhichwasasnaturaltohimashisrespectforallwomankind。 ButwithFannyandPollyheshowedthedomestictraitsandvirtueswhicharemoreengagingtowomanlywomenthananyamountofcoolintellectorworldlywisdom。 PollyhadseenagooddealofhimduringhervisitsattheShaws\'，wherehewasintimate，owingtothefriendshipbetweenMadamandhismother； butshehadneverthoughtofhimasapossibleloverforeitherFannyorherselfbecausehewassixoreightyearsolderthanthey，andstillsometimesassumedthepartofavenerablementor，asintheearlydays。Latelythishadchanged，especiallytowardsPolly，anditflatteredhermorethanshewouldconfesseventoherself。Sheknewheadmiredheronetalent，respectedherindependence，andenjoyedhersociety；butwhensomethingwarmerandmoreflatteringthanadmiration，respect，orpleasurecreptintohismanner，shecouldnothelpseeingthatoneofthegoodgiftsofthislifewasdailycomingmoreandmorewithinherreach，andbegantoaskherselfifshecouldhonestlyreceivethegift，andrewardthegiver。 Atfirstshetriedtothinkshecould，butunfortunatelyheartsareso\"contrary\"thattheywon\'tbeobedienttoreason，will，orevengratitude。 PollyfeltaverycordialfriendshipforMr。Sydney，butnotoneparticleofthelovewhichistheonlycoininwhichlovecanbetrulypaid。Thenshetookafancyintoherheadthatsheoughttoacceptthispieceofgoodfortuneforthesakeofthefamily，andforgetherself。Butthisfalseideaofself-sacrificedidnotsatisfy，forshewasnotafashionablegirltrainedtobelievethatherfirstdutywastomake\"agoodmatch\"andnevermindtheconsequences，thoughtheyrenderedhermiserableforlife。Polly\'screedwasverysimple:\"IfIdon\'tlovehim，Ioughtnottomarryhim，especiallywhenIdolovesomebodyelse，thougheverythingisagainstme。\" IfshehadreadasmanyFrenchnovelsassomeyoungladies，shemighthaveconsidereditinterestingtomarryunderthecircumstancesandsufferasecretanguishtomakeheraromanticvictim。ButPolly\'seducationhadbeenneglected，andafteragooddealofnaturalindecisionshedidwhatmostwomendoinsuchcases，thoughtshewould\"waitandsee。\" ThediscoveryofFanny\'ssecretseemedtoshowhersomethingtodo，forifthe\"waitandsee\"decisionwasmakingherfriendunhappy，itmustbechangedassoonaspossible。ThisfinishedPolly\'sindecision，andafterthatnightsheneverallowedherselftodwelluponthepleasanttemptationwhichcameinaguiseparticularlyattractivetoayounggirlwithaspiceoftheoldEveinhercomposition。Sodayafterdayshetrudgedthroughthedullbackstreets，longingforthesunnypark，thefacethatalwaysbrightenedwhenitsawhercoming，andmostofallthechanceofmeeting­；well，itwasn\'tTrix。 WhenSaturdaycame，PollystartedasusualforavisittoBeckyandBess，butcouldn\'tresiststoppingattheShaws\'toleavealittleparcelforFan，thoughitwascallingtime。Asshesteppedin，meaningtorunupforawordifFannyshouldchancetobealone，twohatsonthehalltablearrestedher。 \"Whoishere，Katy？\" \"OnlyMr。SydneyandMasterTom。Won\'tyoustopabit，MissPolly？\" \"Notthismorning，I\'mratherinahurry。\"AndawaywentPollyasifadozeneagerpupilswereclamoringforherpresence。Butasthedoorshutbehindhershefeltsoleftoutinthecold，thathereyesfilled，andwhenNep，Tom\'sgreatNewfoundland，cameblunderingafterher，shestoppedandhuggedhisshaggyhead，sayingsoftly，asshelookedintothebrown，benevolenteyes，fullofalmosthumansympathy:­； \"Now，goback，olddear，youmustn\'tfollowme。Oh，Nep，it\'ssohardtoputloveawaywhenyouwantitverymuchanditisn\'trighttotakeit。\" Afoolishlittlespeechtomaketoadog，butyouseePollywasonlyatender-heartedgirl，tryingtodoherduty。 \"SinceheissafewithFanny，ImayventuretowalkwhereIlike。It\'ssuchalovelyday，allthebabieswillbeout，anditalwaysdoesmegoodtoseethem，\"thoughtPolly，turningintothewide，sunnystreet，whereWestEnd-dompromenadedatthathour。 Thebabieswereoutinfullforce，lookingasgayanddelicateandsweetasthesnow-drops，hyacinths，anddaffodilsonthebankswhencethesnowhadmelted。Butsomehowthebabiesdidn\'tdoPollythegoodsheexpected，thoughtheysmiledatherfromtheircarriages，andkissedtheirchubbyhandsasshepassedthem，forPollyhadthesortoffacethatbabieslove。Onetinycreatureinblueplushwascastingdespairingglancesafteraverysmalllordofcreationwhowaswalkingawaywithatoddlingbelleinwhite，whileasecondyounggentlemaningorgeouspurplegaiterswasendeavoringtoconsolethedeserteddamsel。 \"TakeholdofMasterCharley\'shand，MissMamie，andwalkpretty，likeWillyandFlossy，\"saidthemaid。 \"No，no，IwanttodowidWilly，andhewon\'tletme。Do\'way，Tarley，Idon\'tliteyou，\"criedlittleBlue-bonnet，castingdownhererminemuffandsobbinginamicroscopichandkerchief，thethread-laceedgingonwhichcouldn\'tmitigateherwoe，asitmighthavedonethatofanoldersufferer。 \"WillylikesFlossybest，sostopcryingandcomerightalong，younaughtychild。\" AspoorlittleDidowasjerkedawaybytheunsympatheticmaid，andPurple-gaitersessayedinvaintopleadhiscause，Pollysaidtoherself，withasmileandasigh；­； \"Howearlytheoldstorybegins!\" Itseemedasifthespringweatherhadbroughtoutallmanneroftenderthingsbesidefreshgrassandthefirstdandelions，forasshewentdownthestreetPollykeptseeingdifferentphasesofthesweetoldstorywhichshewastryingtoforget。 Atastreetcorner，ablack-eyedschool-boywaspartingfromarosy-facedschool-girl，whosemusicrollhewasreluctantlysurrendering。 \"Don\'tyouforget，now，\"saidtheboy，lookingbashfullyintothebrighteyesthatdancedwithpleasureasthegirlblushedandsmiled，andansweredreproachfully；­； \"Why，ofcourseIshan\'t!\" \"Thatlittleromancerunssmoothlysofar；Ihopeitmaytotheend，\" saidPollyheartilyasshewatchedtheladtrampaway，whistlingasblithelyasifhispleasurableemotionsmustfindavent，orendangerthebuttonsontheroundjacket；whilethegirlprancedonherowndoorstep，asifpractisingforthejoyfuldancewhichshehadpromisednottoforget。 AlittlefartheronPollypassedanewlyengagedcouplewhomsheknew，walkingarminarmforthefirsttime，bothwearingthatproudyetconsciouslookwhichissodelightfultobeholduponthecountenancesofthesetemporarilyglorifiedbeings。 \"Howhappytheyseem；oh，dear!\"saidPolly，andtrudgedon，wonderingifherturnwouldevercomeandfearingthatitwasimpossible。 Aglimpseofamotherly-lookingladyenteringadoor，receivedbyaflockofprettychildren，whocastthemselvesuponmammaandherparcelswithcriesofrapture，didPollygood；andwhen，aminuteaftershepassedagrayoldcouplewalkingplacidlytogetherinthesunshine，shefeltbetterstill，andwasgladtoseesuchahappyendingtotheromanceshehadreadalldownthestreet。 AsifthemischievouslittlegodwishedtotakePollyatadisadvantage，orperhapstogiveheranotherchance，justatthatinstantMr。Sydneyappearedatherside。HowhegottherewasneververycleartoPolly，buttherehewas，flushed，andalittleoutofbreath，butlookingsogladtoseeherthatshehadn\'tthehearttobestiffandcool，asshehadfullyintendedtobewhentheymet。 \"Verywarm，isn\'tit？\"hesaidwhenhehadshakenhandsandfallenintostep，justintheoldway。 \"Youseemtofinditso。\"AndPollylaughed，withasuddensparkleinhereyes。Shereallycouldn\'thelpit，itwassopleasanttoseehimagain，justwhenshewasfeelingsolonely。 \"HaveyougivenupteachingtheRoths？\"askedSydney，changingthesubject。 \"No。\" \"Doyougoasusual？\" \"Yes。\" \"Well，it\'samysterytomehowyougetthere。\" \"Asmuchasitistomehowyougotheresosuddenly。\" \"IsawyoufromtheShaws\'windowandtookthelibertyofrunningafteryoubythebackstreet，\"hesaid，laughing。 \"ThatisthewayIgettotheRoths，\"answeredPolly。Shedidnotmeantotell，buthisfranknesswassoagreeablesheforgotherself。 \"It\'snotnearlysopleasantorsoshortforyouasthepark。\" \"Iknowit，butpeoplesometimesgettiredofoldwaysandliketotrynewones。\" Pollydidn\'tsaythatquitenaturally，andSydneygaveheraquicklook，asheasked；­； \"Doyougettiredofoldfriends，too，MissPolly？\" \"Notoften；but­；\"Andthereshestuck，forthefearofbeingungratefulorunkindmadeheralmosthopethathewouldn\'ttakethehintwhichshehadbeencarefullypreparingforhim。 Therewasadreadfullittlepause，whichPollybrokebysayingabruptly；­； \"HowisFan？\" \"Dashing，asever。DoyouknowI\'mratherdisappointedinFanny，forshedon\'tseemtoimprovewithheryears，\"saidSydney，asifheacceptedthediversionandwasgladofit。 \"Ah，youneverseeheratherbest。Sheputsonthatdashingairbeforepeopletohideherrealself。ButIknowherbetter；andIassureyouthatshedoesimprove；shetriestomendherfaults，thoughshewon\'townit，andwillsurpriseyousomeday，bytheamountofheartandsenseandgoodnessshehasgot。\" Pollyspokeheartilynow，andSydneylookedatherasifFanny\'sdefenderpleasedhimmorethanFanny\'sdefence。 \"I\'mverygladtohearit，andwillinglytakeyourwordforit。Everybodyshowsyoutheirgoodside，Ithink，andthatiswhyyoufindtheworldsuchapleasantplace。\" \"Oh，butIdon\'t!Itoftenseemslikeaveryhardanddismalplace，andIcroakovermytrialslikeanungratefulraven。\" \"Can\'twemakethetrialslighterforyou？\" Thevoicethatputthequestionwassoverykind，thatPollydarednotlookup，becausesheknewwhattheeyesweresilentlysaying。 \"Thankyou，no。Idon\'tgetmoretribulationthanisgoodforme，I fancy，andweareapttomakemistakeswhenwetrytododgetroubles。\" \"Orpeople，\"addedSydneyinatonethatmadePollycoloruptoherforehead。 \"Howlovelytheparklooks，\"shesaid，ingreatconfusion。 \"Yes，it\'sthepleasantestwalkwehave；don\'tyouthinkso？\"askedtheartfulyoungman，layingatrap，intowhichPollyimmediatelyfell。 \"Yes，indeed!It\'salwayssorefreshingtometoseealittlebitofthecountry，asitwere，especiallyatthisseason。\" Oh，Polly，Polly，whatastupidspeechtomake，whenyouhadjustgivenhimtounderstandthatyouweretiredofthepark!Notbeingafooloracox-comb，Sydneyputthisandthattogether，andtakingvarioustriflesintotheaccount，hehadbythistimecometotheconclusionthatPollyhadheardthesamebitsofgossipthathehad，whichlinkedtheirnamestogether，thatshedidn\'tlikeit，andtriedtoshowshedidn\'tinthisway。Hewasquickertotakeahintthanshehadexpected，andbeingbothproudandgenerous，resolvedtosettlethematteratonce，forPolly\'ssakeaswellashisown。So，whenshemadeherlastbrilliantremark，hesaidquietly，watchingherfacekeenlyallthewhile；­； \"Ithoughtso；well，I\'mgoingoutoftownonbusinessforseveralweeks，soyoucanenjoyyour\'littlebitofcountry\'withoutbeingannoyedbyme。\" \"Annoyed？Oh，no!\"criedPollyearnestly；thenstoppedshort，notknowingwhattosayforherself。 Shethoughtshehadagooddealofthecoquetteinher，andI\'venodoubtthatwithtimeandtrainingshewouldhavebecomeaverydangerouslittleperson，butnowshewasfartootransparentandstraightforwardbynatureeventotellawhiteliecleverly。Sydneyknewthis，andlikedherforit，buthetookadvantageofit，neverthelessbyaskingsuddenly；­； \"Honestly，now，wouldn\'tyougotheoldwayandenjoyitasmuchasever，ifIwasn\'tanywhereabouttosetthebusybodiesgossiping？\" \"Yes，\"saidPolly，beforeshecouldstopherself，andthencouldhavebittenhertongueoutforbeingsorude。Anotherawfulpauseseemedimpending，butjustatthatmomentahorsemanclatteredbywithasmileandasalute，whichcausedPollytoexclaim，\"Oh，there\'sTom!\"withatoneandalookthatsilencedthewordshoveringonSydney\'slips，andcausedhimtoholdouthishandwithalookwhichmadePolly\'sheartflutterthenandachewithpityforagoodwhileafterward，thoughheonlysaid，\"Goodby，Polly。\" Hewasgonebeforeshecoulddoanythingbutlookupathimwitharemorsefulface，andshewalkedon，feelingthatthefirstandperhapstheonlylovershewouldeverhave，hadreadhisanswerandaccepteditinsilence。Shedidnotknowwhatelsehehadread，andcomfortedherselfwiththethoughtthathedidnotcareforherverymuch，sincehetookthefirstrebuffsoquickly。 PollydidnotreturntoherfavoritewalktillshelearnedfromMinniethat\"Uncle\"hadreallylefttown，andthenshefoundthathisfriendlycompanyandconversationwaswhathadmadethewaysopleasantafterall。 Shesighedovertheperversityofthingsingeneral，andcroakedalittleoverhertrialsinparticular，butonthewholegotoverherlossbetterthansheexpected，forsoonshehadothersorrowsbesideherowntocomfort，andsuchworkdoesabodymoregoodthanfloodsofregretfultears，orhoursofsentimentallamentation。 SheshunnedFannyforadayortwo，butgainednothingbyit，forthatyounglady，hearingofSydney\'ssuddendeparture，couldnotresttillshediscoveredthecauseofit，andwalkedinuponPollyoneafternoonjustwhentheduskmadeitapropitioushourfortenderconfidences。 \"Whathaveyoubeendoingwithyourselflately？\"askedFanny，composingherself，withherbacktowardtherapidlywaninglight。 \"Waggingtoandfroasusual。What\'sthenewswithyou？\"answeredPolly，feelingthatsomethingwascomingandrathergladtohaveitoveranddonewith。 \"Nothingparticular。TrixtreatsTomshamefully，andhebearsitlikealamb。Itellhimtobreakhisengagement，andnotbeworriedso；buthewon\'t，becauseshehasbeenjiltedonceandhethinksit\'ssuchameanthingtodo。\" \"Perhapsshe\'lljilthim。\" \"I\'venodoubtshewill，ifanythingbettercomesalong。ButTrixisgettingpassé；e，andIshouldn\'twonderifshekepthimtohisword，justoutofperversity，ifnothingelse。\" \"PoorTom，whatafate!\"saidPollywithwhatwasmeanttobeacomicalgroan；butitsoundedsotragicalthatshesawitwouldn\'tpass，andhastenedtohidethefailurebysaying，withalaugh，\"IfyoucallTrixpassé；eattwenty-three，whatshallweallbeattwenty-five？\" \"Utterlydonewith，andlaidupontheshelf。Ifeelsoalready，forIdon\'tgethalftheattentionIusedtohave，andtheothernightIheardMaudandGracewonderingwhythoseoldgirls\'didn\'tstayathome，andgivethemachance。\'\" \"HowisMaudie？\" \"Prettywell，butsheworriesmebyherqueertastesandnotions。Shelovestogointothekitchenandmess，shehatestostudy，andsaidrightbeforetheVincentsthatsheshouldthinkitwouldbegreatfuntobeabeggar-girl，togoroundwithabasket，itmustbesointerestingtoseewhatyou\'dget。\" \"Minniesaidtheotherdayshewishedshewasapigeonsoshecouldpaddleinthepuddlesandnotfussaboutrubbers。\" \"Bytheway，whenisherunclecomingback？\"askedFanny，whocouldn\'twaitanylongerandjoyfullyseizedtheopeningPollymadeforher。 \"I\'msureIdon\'tknow。\" \"Norcare，Isuppose，youhard-heartedthing。\" \"Why，Fan，whatdoyoumean？\" \"I\'mnotblind，mydear，neitherisTom，andwhenayounggentlemancutsacallabruptlyshort，andracesafterayounglady，andisseenholdingherhandatthequietestcornerofthepark，andthengoestravellingallofasudden，weknowwhatitmeansifyoudon\'t。\" \"Whogotupthatniceidea，Ishouldliketoknow？\"demandedPolly，asFannystoppedforbreath。