第2章

类别:其他 作者:Robert Louis Stevenson字数:20358更新时间:18/12/14 14:51:33
Whatthedevil,indeed!ButthereIwas。 \'Thegreatthing,\'saidI,\'istomakeanendofit\';andoncemoreproposedthatheshouldhelpmetofindaguide。 \'C\'ESTQUE,\'hesaidagain,\'C\'ESTQUE-ILFAITNOIR。\' \'Verywell,\'saidI;\'takeoneofyourlanterns。\' \'No,\'hecried,drawingathoughtbackward,andagainintrenchinghimselfbehindoneofhisformerphrases;\'Iwillnotcrossthedoor。\' Ilookedathim。Isawunaffectedterrorstrugglingonhisfacewithunaffectedshame;hewassmilingpitifullyandwettinghislipwithhistongue,likeadetectedschoolboy。Idrewabriefpictureofmystate,andaskedhimwhatIwastodo。 \'Idon\'tknow,\'hesaid;\'Iwillnotcrossthedoor。\' HerewastheBeastofGevaudan,andnomistake。 \'Sir,\'saidI,withmymostcommandingmanners,\'youareacoward。\' AndwiththatIturnedmybackuponthefamilyparty,whohastenedtoretirewithintheirfortifications;andthefamousdoorwasclosedagain,butnottillIhadoverheardthesoundoflaughter。 FILIABARBARAPATERBARBARIOR。Letmesayitintheplural:theBeastsofGevaudan。 Thelanternshadsomewhatdazzledme,andIplougheddistressfullyamongstonesandrubbish-heaps。Alltheotherhousesinthevillagewerebothdarkandsilent;andthoughIknockedathereandthereadoor,myknockingwasunanswered。Itwasabadbusiness;I gaveupFouzilhacwithmycurses。Therainhadstopped,andthewind,whichstillkeptrising,begantodrymycoatandtrousers。 \'Verywell,\'thoughtI,\'waterornowater,Imustcamp。\'ButthefirstthingwastoreturntoModestine。IamprettysureIwastwentyminutesgropingformyladyinthedark;andifithadnotbeenfortheunkindlyservicesofthebog,intowhichIoncemorestumbled,Imighthavestillbeengropingforheratthedawn。Mynextbusinesswastogaintheshelterofawood,forthewindwascoldaswellasboisterous。How,inthiswell-woodeddistrict,I shouldhavebeensolonginfindingone,isanotheroftheinsolublemysteriesofthisday\'sadventures;butIwilltakemyoaththatIputnearanhourtothediscovery。 Atlastblacktreesbegantoshowuponmyleft,and,suddenlycrossingtheroad,madeacaveofunmitigatedblacknessrightinfront。Icallitacavewithoutexaggeration;topassbelowthatarchofleaveswaslikeenteringadungeon。Ifeltaboutuntilmyhandencounteredastoutbranch,andtothisItiedModestine,ahaggard,drenched,despondingdonkey。ThenIloweredmypack,laiditalongthewallonthemarginoftheroad,andunbuckledthestraps。Iknewwellenoughwherethelanternwas;butwherewerethecandles?Igropedandgropedamongthetumbledarticles,and,whileIwasthusgroping,suddenlyItouchedthespirit-lamp。 Salvation!Thiswouldservemyturnaswell。Thewindroaredunwearyinglyamongthetrees;Icouldheartheboughstossingandtheleaveschurningthroughhalfamileofforest;yetthesceneofmyencampmentwasnotonlyasblackasthepit,butadmirablysheltered。Atthesecondmatchthewickcaughtflame。Thelightwasbothlividandshifting;butitcutmeofffromtheuniverse,anddoubledthedarknessofthesurroundingnight。 ItiedModestinemoreconvenientlyforherself,andbrokeuphalftheblackbreadforhersupper,reservingtheotherhalfagainstthemorning。ThenIgatheredwhatIshouldwantwithinreach,tookoffmywetbootsandgaiters,whichIwrappedinmywaterproof,arrangedmyknapsackforapillowundertheflapofmysleeping- bag,insinuatedmylimbsintotheinterior,andbuckledmyselfinlikeabambino。IopenedatinofBolognasausageandbrokeacakeofchocolate,andthatwasallIhadtoeat。Itmaysoundoffensive,butIatethemtogether,bitebybite,bywayofbreadandmeat。AllIhadtowashdownthisrevoltingmixturewasneatbrandy:arevoltingbeverageinitself。ButIwasrareandhungry;atewell,andsmokedoneofthebestcigarettesinmyexperience。ThenIputastoneinmystrawhat,pulledtheflapofmyfurcapovermyneckandeyes,putmyrevolverreadytomyhand,andsnuggledwelldownamongthesheepskins。 IquestionedatfirstifIweresleepy,forIfeltmyheartbeatingfasterthanusual,asifwithanagreeableexcitementtowhichmymindremainedastranger。Butassoonasmyeyelidstouched,thatsubtleglueleapedbetweenthem,andtheywouldnomorecomeseparate。Thewindamongthetreeswasmylullaby。Sometimesitsoundedforminutestogetherwithasteady,evenrush,notrisingnorabating;andagainitwouldswellandburstlikeagreatcrashingbreaker,andthetreeswouldpattermealloverwithbigdropsfromtherainoftheafternoon。Nightafternight,inmyownbedroominthecountry,Ihavegiveneartothisperturbingconcertofthewindamongthewoods;butwhetheritwasadifferenceinthetrees,orthelieoftheground,orbecauseIwasmyselfoutsideandinthemidstofit,thefactremainsthatthewindsangtoadifferenttuneamongthesewoodsofGevaudan。Ihearkenedandhearkened;andmeanwhilesleeptookgradualpossessionofmybodyandsubduedmythoughtsandsenses;butstillmylastwakingeffortwastolistenanddistinguish,andmylastconsciousstatewasoneofwonderattheforeignclamourinmyears。 Twiceinthecourseofthedarkhours-oncewhenastonegalledmeunderneaththesack,andagainwhenthepoorpatientModestine,growingangry,pawedandstampedupontheroad-Iwasrecalledforabriefwhiletoconsciousness,andsawastarortwooverhead,andthelace-likeedgeofthefoliageagainstthesky。WhenIawokeforthethirdtime(Wednesday,September25th),theworldwasfloodedwithabluelight,themotherofthedawn。Isawtheleaveslabouringinthewindandtheribbonoftheroad;and,onturningmyhead,therewasModestinetiedtoabeech,andstandinghalfacrossthepathinanattitudeofinimitablepatience。I closedmyeyesagain,andsettothinkingovertheexperienceofthenight。Iwassurprisedtofindhoweasyandpleasantithadbeen,eveninthistempestuousweather。Thestonewhichannoyedmewouldnothavebeenthere,hadInotbeenforcedtocampblindfoldintheopaquenight;andIhadfeltnootherinconvenience,exceptwhenmyfeetencounteredthelanternorthesecondvolumeofPeyrat\'sPASTORSOFTHEDESERTamongthemixedcontentsofmysleeping-bag;nay,more,Ihadfeltnotatouchofcold,andawakenedwithunusuallylightsomeandclearsensations。 Withthat,Ishookmyself,gotoncemoreintomybootsandgaiters,and,breakinguptherestofthebreadforModestine,strolledabouttoseeinwhatpartoftheworldIhadawakened。Ulysses,leftonIthaca,andwithamindunsettledbythegoddess,wasnotmorepleasantlyastray。Ihavebeenafteranadventureallmylife,apuredispassionateadventure,suchasbefellearlyandheroicvoyagers;andthustobefoundbymorninginarandomwoodsidenookinGevaudan-notknowingnorthfromsouth,asstrangetomysurroundingsasthefirstmanupontheearth,aninlandcastaway-wastofindafractionofmyday-dreamsrealised。 Iwasontheskirtsofalittlewoodofbirch,sprinkledwithafewbeeches;behind,itadjoinedanotherwoodoffir;andinfront,itbrokeupandwentdowninopenorderintoashallowandmeadowydale。Allaroundtherewerebarehilltops,somenear,somefaraway,astheperspectiveclosedoropened,butnoneapparentlymuchhigherthantherest。Thewindhuddledthetrees。Thegoldenspecksofautumninthebirchestossedshiveringly。Overheadtheskywasfullofstringsandshredsofvapour,flying,vanishing,reappearing,andturningaboutanaxisliketumblers,asthewindhoundedthemthroughheaven。Itwaswildweatherandfamishingcold。Iatesomechocolate,swallowedamouthfulofbrandy,andsmokedacigarettebeforethecoldshouldhavetimetodisablemyfingers。AndbythetimeIhadgotallthisdone,andhadmademypackandbounditonthepack-saddle,thedaywastiptoeonthethresholdoftheeast。Wehadnotgonemanystepsalongthelane,beforethesun,stillinvisibletome,sentaglowofgoldoversomecloudmountainsthatlayrangedalongtheeasternsky。 Thewindhadusonthestern,andhurriedusbitinglyforward。I buttonedmyselfintomycoat,andwalkedoninapleasantframeofmindwithallmen,whensuddenly,atacorner,therewasFouzilhiconcemoreinfrontofme。Noronlythat,buttherewastheoldgentlemanwhohadescortedmesofarthenightbefore,runningoutofhishouseatsightofme,withhandsupraisedinhorror。 \'Mypoorboy!\'hecried,\'whatdoesthismean?\' Itoldhimwhathadhappened。Hebeathisoldhandslikeclappersinamill,tothinkhowlightlyhehadletmego;butwhenheheardofthemanofFouzilhac,angeranddepressionseizeduponhismind。 \'Thistime,atleast,\'saidhe,\'thereshallbenomistake。\' Andhelimpedalong,forhewasveryrheumatic,forabouthalfamile,anduntilIwasalmostwithinsightofCheylard,thedestinationIhadhuntedforsolong。 CHEYLARDANDLUC CANDIDLY,itseemedlittleworthyofallthissearching。Afewbrokenendsofvillage,withnoparticularstreet,butasuccessionofopenplacesheapedwithlogsandfagots;acoupleoftiltedcrosses,ashrinetoOurLadyofallGracesonthesummitofalittlehill;andallthis,uponarattlinghighlandriver,inthecornerofanakedvalley。Whatwentyeoutfortosee?thoughtI tomyself。Buttheplacehadalifeofitsown。Ifoundaboard,commemoratingtheliberalitiesofCheylardforthepastyear,hungup,likeabanner,inthediminutiveandtotteringchurch。In1877,itappeared,theinhabitantssubscribedforty-eightfrancstencentimesforthe\'WorkofthePropagationoftheFaith。\'Someofthis,Icouldnothelphoping,wouldbeappliedtomynativeland。CheylardscrapestogetherhalfpenceforthedarkenedsoulsinEdinburgh;whileBalquhidderandDunrossnessbemoantheignoranceofRome。Thus,tothehighentertainmentoftheangels,dowepelteachotherwithevangelists,likeschoolboysbickeringinthesnow。 Theinnwasagainsingularlyunpretentious。Thewholefurnitureofanotill-to-dofamilywasinthekitchen:thebeds,thecradle,theclothes,theplate-rack,themeal-chest,andthephotographoftheparishpriest。Therewerefivechildren,oneofwhomwassettoitsmorningprayersatthestair-footsoonaftermyarrival,andasixthwoulderelongbeforthcoming。Iwaskindlyreceivedbythesegoodfolk。Theyweremuchinterestedinmymisadventure。 ThewoodinwhichIhadsleptbelongedtothem;themanofFouzilhactheythoughtamonsterofiniquity,andcounselledmewarmlytosummonhimatlaw-\'becauseImighthavedied。\'Thegoodwifewashorror-strickentoseemedrinkoverapintofuncreamedmilk。 \'Youwilldoyourselfanevil,\'shesaid。\'Permitmetoboilitforyou。\' AfterIhadbegunthemorningonthisdelightfulliquor,shehavinganinfinityofthingstoarrange,Iwaspermitted,nayrequested,tomakeabowlofchocolateformyself。Mybootsandgaiterswerehunguptodry,and,seeingmetryingtowritemyjournalonmyknee,theeldestdaughterletdownahingedtableinthechimney- cornerformyconvenience。HereIwrote,drankmychocolate,andfinallyateanomelettebeforeIleft。Thetablewasthickwithdust;for,astheyexplained,itwasnotusedexceptinwinterweather。Ihadaclearlookupthevent,throughbrownagglomerationsofsootandbluevapour,tothesky;andwheneverahandfuloftwigswasthrownontothefire,mylegswerescorchedbytheblaze。 Thehusbandhadbegunlifeasamuleteer,andwhenIcametochargeModestineshowedhimselffulloftheprudenceofhisart。\'Youwillhavetochangethispackage,\'saidhe;\'itoughttobeintwoparts,andthenyoumighthavedoubletheweight。\' IexplainedthatIwantednomoreweight;andfornodonkeyhithertocreatedwouldIcutmysleeping-bagintwo。 \'Itfatiguesher,however,\'saidtheinnkeeper;\'itfatigueshergreatlyonthemarch。Look。\' Alas,therewerehertwoforelegsnobetterthanrawbeefontheinside,andbloodwasrunningfromunderhertail。TheytoldmewhenIstarted,andIwasreadytobelieveit,thatbeforeafewdaysIshouldcometoloveModestinelikeadog。Threedayshadpassed,wehadsharedsomemisadventures,andmyheartwasstillascoldasapotatotowardsmybeastofburden。Shewasprettyenoughtolookat;butthenshehadgivenproofofdeadstupidity,redeemedindeedbypatience,butaggravatedbyflashesofsorryandill-judgedlight-heartedness。AndIownthisnewdiscoveryseemedanotherpointagainsther。Whatthedevilwasthegoodofashe- assifshecouldnotcarryasleeping-bagandafewnecessaries?I sawtheendofthefablerapidlyapproaching,whenIshouldhavetocarryModestine。AEsopwasthemantoknowtheworld!IassureyouIsetoutwithheavythoughtsuponmyshortday\'smarch。 ItwasnotonlyheavythoughtsaboutModestinethatweightedmeupontheway;itwasaleadenbusinessaltogether。Forfirst,thewindblewsorudelythatIhadtoholdonthepackwithonehandfromCheylardtoLuc;andsecond,myroadlaythroughoneofthemostbeggarlycountriesintheworld。ItwasliketheworstoftheScottishHighlands,onlyworse;cold,naked,andignoble,scantofwood,scantofheather,scantoflife。Aroadandsomefencesbroketheunvaryingwaste,andthelineoftheroadwasmarkedbyuprightpillars,toserveintimeofsnow。 WhyanyoneshoulddesiretovisiteitherLucorCheylardismorethanmymuch-inventingspiritcansuppose。Formypart,Itravelnottogoanywhere,buttogo。Itravelfortravel\'ssake。Thegreataffairistomove;tofeeltheneedsandhitchesofourlifemorenearly;tocomedownoffthisfeather-bedofcivilisation,andfindtheglobegraniteunderfootandstrewnwithcuttingflints。 Alas,aswegetupinlife,andaremorepreoccupiedwithouraffairs,evenaholidayisathingthatmustbeworkedfor。Toholdapackuponapack-saddleagainstagaleoutofthefreezingnorthisnohighindustry,butitisonethatservestooccupyandcomposethemind。Andwhenthepresentissoexacting,whocanannoyhimselfaboutthefuture? IcameoutatlengthabovetheAllier。 Amoreunsightlyprospectatthisseasonoftheyearitwouldbehardtofancy。Shelvinghillsroserounditonallsides,heredabbledwithwoodandfields,thererisingtopeaksalternatelynakedandhairywithpines。Thecolourthroughoutwasblackorashen,andcametoapointintheruinsofthecastleofLuc,whichprickedupimpudentlyfrombelowmyfeet,carryingonapinnacleatallwhitestatueofOurLady,which,Iheardwithinterest,weighedfiftyquintals,andwastobededicatedonthe6thofOctober。ThroughthissorrylandscapetrickledtheAllierandatributaryofnearlyequalsize,whichcamedowntojoinitthroughabroadnudevalleyinVivarais。Theweatherhadsomewhatlightened,andthecloudsmassedinsquadron;butthefiercewindstillhuntedthemthroughheaven,andcastgreatungainlysplashesofshadowandsunlightoverthescene。 Lucitselfwasastragglingdoublefileofhouseswedgedbetweenhillandriver。Ithadnobeauty,norwasthereanynotablefeature,savetheoldcastleoverheadwithitsfiftyquintalsofbrand-newMadonna。Buttheinnwascleanandlarge。Thekitchen,withitstwobox-bedshungwithcleancheckcurtains,withitswidestonechimney,itschimney-shelffouryardslongandgarnishedwithlanternsandreligiousstatuettes,itsarrayofchestsandpairoftickingclocks,wastheverymodelofwhatakitchenoughttobe;amelodramakitchen,suitableforbanditsornoblemenindisguise。 Norwasthescenedisgracedbythelandlady,ahandsome,silent,darkoldwoman,clothedandhoodedinblacklikeanun。Eventhepublicbedroomhadacharacterofitsown,withthelongdealtablesandbenches,wherefiftymighthavedined,setoutasforaharvest-home,andthethreebox-bedsalongthewall。Inoneofthese,lyingonstrawandcoveredwithapairoftable-napkins,didIdopenanceallnightlongingoose-fleshandchatteringteeth,andsigh,fromtimetotimeasIawakened,formysheepskinsackandtheleeofsomegreatwood。 OURLADYOFTHESNOWS \'IbeholdTheHouse,theBrotherhoodaustere- AndwhatamI,thatIamhere?\' MATTHEWARNOLD。 FATHERAPOLLINARIS NEXTmorning(Thursday,20thSeptember)Itooktheroadinaneworder。Thesackwasnolongerdoubled,buthungatfulllengthacrossthesaddle,agreensausagesixfeetlongwithatuftofbluewoolhangingoutofeitherend。Itwasmorepicturesque,itsparedthedonkey,and,asIbegantosee,itwouldensurestability,blowhigh,blowlow。ButitwasnotwithoutapangthatIhadsodecided。ForalthoughIhadpurchasedanewcord,andmadeallasfastasIwasable,Iwasyetjealouslyuneasylesttheflapsshouldtumbleoutandscattermyeffectsalongthelineofmarch。 Mywaylayupthebaldvalleyoftheriver,alongthemarchofVivaraisandGevaudan。ThehillsofGevaudanontherightwerealittlemorenaked,ifanything,thanthoseofVivaraisupontheleft,andtheformerhadamonopolyofalowdottyunderwoodthatgrewthicklyinthegorgesanddiedoutinsolitaryburrsupontheshouldersandthesummits。Blackbricksoffir-woodwereplasteredhereandthereuponbothsides,andhereandtherewerecultivatedfields。Arailwayranbesidetheriver;theonlybitofrailwayinGevaudan,althoughtherearemanyproposalsafootandsurveysbeingmade,andeven,astheytellme,astationstandingreadybuiltinMende。Ayearortwohenceandthismaybeanotherworld。Thedesertisbeleaguered。NowmaysomeLanguedocianWordsworthturnthesonnetintoPATOIS:\'Mountainsandvalesandfloods,heardYE thatwhistle?\' AtaplacecalledLaBastideIwasdirectedtoleavetheriver,andfollowaroadthatmountedontheleftamongthehillsofVivarais,themodernArdeche;forIwasnowcomewithinalittlewayofmystrangedestination,theTrappistmonasteryofOurLadyoftheSnows。ThesuncameoutasIlefttheshelterofapine-wood,andIbeheldsuddenlyafinewildlandscapetothesouth。Highrockyhills,asblueassapphire,closedtheview,andbetweentheselayridgeuponridge,heathery,craggy,thesunglitteringonveinsofrock,theunderwoodclamberinginthehollows,asrudeasGodmadethematthefirst。Therewasnotasignofman\'shandinalltheprospect;andindeednotatraceofhispassage,savewheregenerationaftergenerationhadwalkedintwistedfootpaths,inandoutamongthebeeches,andupanddownuponthechannelledslopes。 Themists,whichhadhithertobesetme,werenowbrokenintoclouds,andfledswiftlyandshonebrightlyinthesun。Idrewalongbreath。Itwasgratefultocome,aftersolong,uponasceneofsomeattractionforthehumanheart。IownIlikedefiniteforminwhatmyeyesaretorestupon;andiflandscapesweresold,likethesheetsofcharactersofmyboyhood,onepennyplainandtwopencecoloured,Ishouldgothelengthoftwopenceeverydayofmylife。 Butifthingshadgrownbettertothesouth,itwasstilldesolateandinclementnearathand。Aspiderycrossoneveryhill-topmarkedtheneighbourhoodofareligioushouse;andaquarterofamilebeyond,theoutlooksouthwardopeningoutandgrowingbolderwitheverystep,awhitestatueoftheVirginatthecornerofayoungplantationdirectedthetravellertoOurLadyoftheSnows。 Here,then,Istruckleftward,andpursuedmyway,drivingmyseculardonkeybeforeme,andcreakinginmysecularbootsandgaiters,towardstheasylumofsilence。 Ihadnotgoneveryfarerethewindbroughttometheclangingofabell,andsomehow,Icanscarcetellwhy,myheartsankwithinmeatthesound。IhaverarelyapproachedanythingwithmoreunaffectedterrorthanthemonasteryofOurLadyoftheSnows。 ThisitistohavehadaProtestanteducation。Andsuddenly,onturningacorner,feartookholdonmefromheadtofoot-slavish,superstitiousfear;andthoughIdidnotstopinmyadvance,yetI wentonslowly,likeamanwhoshouldhavepassedabourneunnoticed,andstrayedintothecountryofthedead。Forthere,uponthenarrownew-maderoad,betweenthestriplingpines,wasamediaevalfriar,fightingwithabarrowfulofturfs。EverySundayofmychildhoodIusedtostudytheHermitsofMarcoSadeler- enchantingprints,fullofwoodandfieldandmediaevallandscapes,aslargeasacounty,fortheimaginationtogoa-travellingin; andhere,sureenough,wasoneofMarcoSadeler\'sheroes。Hewasrobedinwhitelikeanyspectre,andthehoodfallingback,intheinstancyofhiscontentionwiththebarrow,disclosedapateasbaldandyellowasaskull。Hemighthavebeenburiedanytimethesethousandyears,andallthelivelypartsofhimresolvedintoearthandbrokenupwiththefarmer\'sharrow。 Iwastroubledbesidesinmymindastoetiquette。DurstIaddressapersonwhowasunderavowofsilence?Clearlynot。Butdrawingnear,Idoffedmycaptohimwithafar-awaysuperstitiousreverence。Henoddedback,andcheerfullyaddressedme。WasI goingtothemonastery?WhowasI?AnEnglishman?Ah,anIrishman,then? \'No,\'Isaid,\'aScotsman。\' AScotsman?Ah,hehadneverseenaScotsmanbefore。Andhelookedmeallover,hisgood,honest,brawnycountenanceshiningwithinterest,asaboymightlookuponalionoranalligator。 FromhimIlearnedwithdisgustthatIcouldnotbereceivedatOurLadyoftheSnows;Imightgetameal,perhaps,butthatwasall。 Andthen,asourtalkranon,anditturnedoutthatIwasnotapedlar,butaliteraryman,whodrewlandscapesandwasgoingtowriteabook,hechangedhismannerofthinkingastomyreception(forIfeartheyrespectpersonseveninaTrappistmonastery),andtoldmeImustbesuretoaskfortheFatherPrior,andstatemycasetohiminfull。Onsecondthoughtshedeterminedtogodownwithmehimself;hethoughthecouldmanageformebetter。MighthesaythatIwasageographer? No;Ithought,intheinterestsoftruth,hepositivelymightnot。 \'Verywell,then\'(withdisappointment),\'anauthor。\' ItappearedhehadbeeninaseminarywithsixyoungIrishmen,allpriestslongsince,whohadreceivednewspapersandkepthiminformedofthestateofecclesiasticalaffairsinEngland。AndheaskedmeeagerlyafterDr。Pusey,forwhoseconversionthegoodmanhadcontinuedeversincetopraynightandmorning。 \'Ithoughthewasverynearthetruth,\'hesaid;\'andhewillreachityet;thereissomuchvirtueinprayer。\' Hemustbeastiff,ungodlyProtestantwhocantakeanythingbutpleasureinthiskindandhopefulstory。Whilehewasthusnearthesubject,thegoodfatheraskedmeifIwereaChristian;andwhenhefoundIwasnot,ornotafterhisway,heglosseditoverwithgreatgood-will。 Theroadwhichwewerefollowing,andwhichthisstalwartfatherhadmadewithhisowntwohandswithinthespaceofayear,cametoacorner,andshowedussomewhitebuildingsalittlefartheronbeyondthewood。Atthesametime,thebelloncemoresoundedabroad。Wewereharduponthemonastery。FatherApollinaris(forthatwasmycompanion\'sname)stoppedme。 \'Imustnotspeaktoyoudownthere,\'hesaid。\'AskfortheBrotherPorter,andallwillbewell。Buttrytoseemeasyougooutagainthroughthewood,whereImayspeaktoyou。Iamcharmedtohavemadeyouracquaintance。\' Andthensuddenlyraisinghisarms,flappinghisfingers,andcryingouttwice,\'Imustnotspeak,Imustnotspeak!\'heranawayinfrontofme,anddisappearedintothemonasterydoor。 Iownthissomewhatghastlyeccentricitywentagoodwaytorevivemyterrors。Butwhereonewassogoodandsimple,whyshouldnotallbealike?Itookheartofgrace,andwentforwardtothegateasfastasModestine,whoseemedtohaveadisaffectionformonasteries,wouldpermit。Itwasthefirstdoor,inmyacquaintanceofher,whichshehadnotshownanindecenthastetoenter。Isummonedtheplaceinform,thoughwithaquakingheart。 FatherMichael,theFatherHospitaller,andapairofbrown-robedbrotherscametothegateandspokewithmeawhile。Ithinkmysackwasthegreatattraction;ithadalreadybeguiledtheheartofpoorApollinaris,whohadchargedmeonmylifetoshowittotheFatherPrior,Butwhetheritwasmyaddress,orthesack,ortheideaspeedilypublishedamongthatpartofthebrotherhoodwhoattendonstrangersthatIwasnotapedlarafterall,Ifoundnodifficultyastomyreception。Modestinewasledawaybyalaymantothestables,andIandmypackwerereceivedintoOurLadyoftheSnows。 THEMONKS FATHERMICHAEL,apleasant,fresh-faced,smilingman,perhapsofthirty-five,tookmetothepantry,andgavemeaglassofliqueurtostaymeuntildinner。Wehadsometalk,orratherIshouldsayhelistenedtomyprattleindulgentlyenough,butwithanabstractedair,likeaspiritwithathingofclay。Andtruly,whenIrememberthatIdescantedprincipallyonmyappetite,andthatitmusthavebeenbythattimemorethaneighteenhourssinceFatherMichaelhadsomuchasbrokenbread,Icanwellunderstandthathewouldfindanearthlysavourinmyconversation。Buthismanner,thoughsuperior,wasexquisitelygracious;andIfindI havealurkingcuriosityastoFatherMichael\'spast。 Thewhetadministered,Iwasleftaloneforalittleinthemonasterygarden。Thisisnomorethanthemaincourt,laidoutinsandypathsandbedsofparti-coloureddahlias,andwithafountainandablackstatueoftheVirgininthecentre。Thebuildingsstandarounditfour-square,bleak,asyetunseasonedbytheyearsandweather,andwithnootherfeaturesthanabelfryandapairofslatedgables。Brothersinwhite,brothersinbrown,passedsilentlyalongthesandedalleys;andwhenIfirstcameout,threehoodedmonkswerekneelingontheterraceattheirprayers。A nakedhillcommandsthemonasteryupononeside,andthewoodcommandsitontheother。Itliesexposedtowind;thesnowfallsoffandonfromOctobertoMay,andsometimesliessixweeksonend;butiftheystoodinEden,withaclimatelikeheaven\'s,thebuildingsthemselveswouldofferthesamewintryandcheerlessaspect;andformypart,onthiswildSeptemberday,beforeIwascalledtodinner,Ifeltchillyinandout。 WhenIhadeatenwellandheartily,BrotherAmbrose,aheartyconversibleFrenchman(forallthosewhowaitonstrangershavethelibertytospeak),ledmetoalittleroominthatpartofthebuildingwhichissetapartforMM。LESRETRAITANTS。Itwascleanandwhitewashed,andfurnishedwithstrictnecessaries,acrucifix,abustofthelatePope,theIMITATIONinFrench,abookofreligiousmeditations,andtheLIFEOFELIZABETHSETON,evangelist,itwouldappear,ofNorthAmericaandofNewEnglandinparticular。 Asfarasmyexperiencegoes,thereisafairfieldforsomemoreevangelisationinthesequarters;butthinkofCottonMather!I shouldliketogivehimareadingofthislittleworkinheaven,whereIhopehedwells;butperhapsheknowsallthatalready,andmuchmore;andperhapsheandMrs。Setonarethedearestfriends,andgladlyunitetheirvoicesintheeverlastingpsalm。Overthetable,toconcludetheinventoryoftheroom,hungasetofregulationsforMM。LESRETRAITANTS:whatservicestheyshouldattend,whentheyweretotelltheirbeadsormeditate,andwhentheyweretoriseandgotorest。AtthefootwasanotableN。B。: \'LETEMPSLIBREESTEMPLOYEAL\'EXAMENDECONSCIENCE,ALA CONFESSION,AFAIREDEBONNESRESOLUTIONS,ETC。\'Tomakegoodresolutions,indeed!Youmighttalkasfruitfullyofmakingthehairgrowonyourhead。 IhadscarceexploredmynichewhenBrotherAmbrosereturned。AnEnglishboarder,itappeared,wouldliketospeakwithme。I professedmywillingness,andthefriarusheredinafresh,young,littleIrishmanoffifty,adeaconoftheChurch,arrayedinstrictcanonicals,andwearingonhisheadwhat,indefaultofknowledge,Icanonlycalltheecclesiasticalshako。HehadlivedsevenyearsinretreatataconventofnunsinBelgium,andnowfiveatOurLadyoftheSnows;heneversawanEnglishnewspaper;hespokeFrenchimperfectly,andhadhespokenitlikeanative,therewasnotmuchchanceofconversationwherehedwelt。Withthis,hewasamaneminentlysociable,greedyofnews,andsimple-mindedlikeachild。IfIwaspleasedtohaveaguideaboutthemonastery,hewasnolessdelightedtoseeanEnglishfaceandhearanEnglishtongue。 Heshowedmehisownroom,wherehepassedhistimeamongbreviaries,HebrewBibles,andtheWaverleyNovels。Thenceheledmetothecloisters,intothechapter-house,throughthevestry,wherethebrothers\'gownsandbroadstrawhatswerehangingup,eachwithhisreligiousnameuponaboard-namesfulloflegendarysuavityandinterest,suchasBasil,Hilarion,Raphael,orPacifique;intothelibrary,wherewerealltheworksofVeuillotandChateaubriand,andtheODESETBALLADES,ifyouplease,andevenMoliere,tosaynothingofinnumerablefathersandagreatvarietyoflocalandgeneralhistorians。ThencemygoodIrishmantookmeroundtheworkshops,wherebrothersbakebread,andmakecartwheels,andtakephotographs;whereonesuperintendsacollectionofcuriosities,andanotheragalleryofrabbits。ForinaTrappistmonasteryeachmonkhasanoccupationofhisownchoice,apartfromhisreligiousdutiesandthegenerallaboursofthehouse。Eachmustsinginthechoir,ifhehasavoiceandear,andjoininthehaymakingifhehasahandtostir;butinhisprivatehours,althoughhemustbeoccupied,hemaybeoccupiedonwhathelikes。ThusIwastoldthatonebrotherwasengagedwithliterature;whileFatherApollinarisbusieshimselfinmakingroads,andtheAbbotemployshimselfinbindingbooks。ItisnotsolongsincethisAbbotwasconsecrated,bytheway;andonthatoccasion,byaspecialgrace,hismotherwaspermittedtoenterthechapelandwitnesstheceremonyofconsecration。Aprouddayforhertohaveasonamitredabbot;itmakesyougladtothinktheyletherin。 Inallthesejourneyingstoandfro,manysilentfathersandbrethrenfellinourway。Usuallytheypaidnomoreregardtoourpassagethanifwehadbeenacloud;butsometimesthegooddeaconhadapermissiontoaskofthem,anditwasgrantedbyapeculiarmovementofthehands,almostlikethatofadog\'spawsinswimming,orrefusedbytheusualnegativesigns,andineithercasewithloweredeyelidsandacertainairofcontrition,asofamanwhowassteeringveryclosetoevil。 Themonks,byspecialgraceoftheirAbbot,werestilltakingtwomealsaday;butitwasalreadytimefortheirgrandfast,whichbeginssomewhereinSeptemberandlaststillEaster,andduringwhichtheyeatbutonceinthetwenty-fourhours,andthatattwointheafternoon,twelvehoursaftertheyhavebegunthetoilandvigiloftheday。Theirmealsarescanty,butevenofthesetheyeatsparingly;andthougheachisallowedasmallcarafeofwine,manyrefrainfromthisindulgence。Withoutdoubt,themostofmankindgrosslyovereatthemselves;ourmealsservenotonlyforsupport,butasaheartyandnaturaldiversionfromthelabouroflife。Yet,thoughexcessmaybehurtful,IshouldhavethoughtthisTrappistregimendefective。AndIamastonished,asIlookback,atthefreshnessoffaceandcheerfulnessofmannerofallwhomIbeheld。AhappiernorahealthiercompanyIshouldscarcesupposethatIhaveeverseen。Asamatteroffact,onthisbleakupland,andwiththeincessantoccupationofthemonks,lifeisofanuncertaintenure,anddeathnoinfrequentvisitor,atOurLadyoftheSnows。This,atleast,waswhatwastoldme。Butiftheydieeasily,theymustlivehealthilyinthemeantime,fortheyseemedallfirmoffleshandhighincolour;andtheonlymorbidsignthatIcouldobserve,anunusualbrilliancyofeye,wasonethatservedrathertoincreasethegeneralimpressionofvivacityandstrength。 ThosewithwhomIspokeweresingularlysweet-tempered,withwhatI canonlycallaholycheerfulnessinairandconversation。Thereisanote,inthedirectiontovisitors,tellingthemnottobeoffendedatthecurtspeechofthosewhowaituponthem,sinceitispropertomonkstospeaklittle。Thenotemighthavebeenspared;toamanthehospitallerswereallbrimmingwithinnocenttalk,and,inmyexperienceofthemonastery,itwaseasiertobeginthantobreakoffaconversation。WiththeexceptionofFatherMichael,whowasamanoftheworld,theyshowedthemselvesfullofkindandhealthyinterestinallsortsofsubjects-inpolitics,invoyages,inmysleeping-sack-andnotwithoutacertainpleasureinthesoundoftheirownvoices。 Asforthosewhoarerestrictedtosilence,Icanonlywonderhowtheybeartheirsolemnandcheerlessisolation。Andyet,apartfromanyviewofmortification,Icanseeacertainpolicy,notonlyintheexclusionofwomen,butinthisvowofsilence。Ihavehadsomeexperienceoflayphalansteries,ofanartistic,nottosayabacchanaliancharacter;andseenmorethanoneassociationeasilyformedandyetmoreeasilydispersed。WithaCistercianrule,perhapstheymighthavelastedlonger。Intheneighbourhoodofwomenitisbutatouch-and-goassociationthatcanbeformedamongdefencelessmen;thestrongerelectricityissuretotriumph; thedreamsofboyhood,theschemesofyouth,areabandonedafteraninterviewoftenminutes,andtheartsandsciences,andprofessionalmalejollity,desertedatoncefortwosweeteyesandacaressingaccent。Andnextafterthis,thetongueisthegreatdivider。 Iamalmostashamedtopursuethisworldlycriticismofareligiousrule;butthereisyetanotherpointinwhichtheTrappistorderappealstomeasamodelofwisdom。Bytwointhemorningtheclappergoesuponthebell,andsoon,hourbyhour,andsometimesquarterbyquarter,tilleight,thehourofrest;soinfinitesimallyisthedaydividedamongdifferentoccupations。 Themanwhokeepsrabbits,forexample,hurriesfromhishutchestothechapel,thechapter-room,ortherefectory,alldaylong: everyhourhehasanofficetosing,adutytoperform;fromtwo,whenherisesinthedark,tilleight,whenhereturnstoreceivethecomfortablegiftofsleep,heisuponhisfeetandoccupiedwithmanifoldandchangingbusiness。Iknowmanypersons,worthseveralthousandsintheyear,whoarenotsofortunateinthedisposaloftheirlives。Intohowmanyhouseswouldnotthenoteofthemonasterybell,dividingthedayintomanageableportions,bringpeaceofmindandhealthfulactivityofbody!Wespeakofhardships,butthetruehardshipistobeadullfool,andpermittedtomismanagelifeinourowndullandfoolishmanner。 Fromthispointofview,wemayperhapsbetterunderstandthemonk\'sexistence。Alongnovitiateandeveryproofofconstancyofmindandstrengthofbodyisrequiredbeforeadmissiontotheorder;butIcouldnotfindthatmanywerediscouraged。Inthephotographer\'sstudio,whichfiguressostrangelyamongtheoutbuildings,myeyewasattractedbytheportraitofayoungfellowintheuniformofaprivateoffoot。Thiswasoneofthenovices,whocameoftheageforservice,andmarchedanddrilledandmountedguardforthepropertimeamongthegarrisonofAlgiers。Herewasamanwhohadsurelyseenbothsidesoflifebeforedeciding;yetassoonashewassetfreefromservicehereturnedtofinishhisnovitiate。 Thisaustereruleentitlesamantoheavenasbyright。WhentheTrappistsickens,hequitsnothishabit;heliesinthebedofdeathashehasprayedandlabouredinhisfrugalandsilentexistence;andwhentheLiberatorcomes,attheverymoment,evenbeforetheyhavecarriedhiminhisrobetoliehislittlelastinthechapelamongcontinualchantings,joy-bellsbreakforth,asifforamarriage,fromtheslatedbelfry,andproclaimthroughouttheneighbourhoodthatanothersoulhasgonetoGod。 Atnight,undertheconductofmykindIrishman,ItookmyplaceinthegallerytohearcomplineandSALVEREGINA,withwhichtheCisterciansbringeverydaytoaconclusion。TherewerenoneofthosecircumstanceswhichstriketheProtestantaschildishorastawdryinthepublicofficesofRome。Asternsimplicity,heightenedbytheromanceofthesurroundings,spokedirectlytotheheart。Irecallthewhitewashedchapel,thehoodedfiguresinthechoir,thelightsalternatelyoccludedandrevealed,thestrongmanlysinging,thesilencethatensued,thesightofcowledheadsbowedinprayer,andthenthecleartrenchantbeatingofthebell,breakingintoshowthatthelastofficewasoverandthehourofsleephadcome;andwhenIremember,IamnotsurprisedthatImademyescapeintothecourtwithsomewhatwhirlingfancies,andstoodlikeamanbewilderedinthewindystarrynight。 ButIwasweary;andwhenIhadquietedmyspiritswithElizabethSeton\'smemoirs-adullwork-thecoldandtheravingofthewindamongthepines(formyroomwasonthatsideofthemonasterywhichadjoinsthewoods)disposedmereadilytoslumber。Iwaswakenedatblackmidnight,asitseemed,thoughitwasreallytwointhemorning,bythefirststrokeuponthebell。Allthebrotherswerethenhurryingtothechapel;thedeadinlife,atthisuntimelyhour,werealreadybeginningtheuncomfortedlaboursoftheirday。Thedeadinlife-therewasachillreflection。 AndthewordsofaFrenchsongcamebackintomymemory,tellingofthebestofourmixedexistence: \'Quet\'asdebellesfilles,Girofle! Girofla! Quet\'asdebellesfilles,L\'AMOURLETCOMPTERA!\' AndIblessedGodthatIwasfreetowander,freetohope,andfreetolove。 THEBOARDERS BUTtherewasanothersidetomyresidenceatOurLadyoftheSnows。Atthislateseasontherewerenotmanyboarders;andyetI wasnotaloneinthepublicpartofthemonastery。Thisitselfishardbythegate,withasmalldining-roomontheground-floorandawholecorridorofcellssimilartomineupstairs。IhavestupidlyforgottentheboardforaregularRETRAITANT;butitwassomewherebetweenthreeandfivefrancsaday,andIthinkmostprobablythefirst。Chancevisitorslikemyselfmightgivewhattheychoseasafree-willoffering,butnothingwasdemanded。I maymentionthatwhenIwasgoingaway,FatherMichaelrefusedtwentyfrancsasexcessive。Iexplainedthereasoningwhichledmetoofferhimsomuch;buteventhen,fromacuriouspointofhonour,hewouldnotacceptitwithhisownhand。\'Ihavenorighttorefuseforthemonastery,\'heexplained,\'butIshouldpreferifyouwouldgiveittooneofthebrothers。\' Ihaddinedalone,becauseIarrivedlate;butatsupperIfoundtwootherguests。Onewasacountryparishpriest,whohadwalkedoverthatmorningfromtheseatofhiscurenearMendetoenjoyfourdaysofsolitudeandprayer。Hewasagrenadierinperson,withthehalecolourandcircularwrinklesofapeasant;andashecomplainedmuchofhowhehadbeenimpededbyhisskirtsuponthemarch,Ihaveavividfancyportraitofhim,stridingalong,upright,big-boned,withkiltedcassock,throughthebleakhillsofGevaudan。Theotherwasashort,grizzling,thick-setman,fromforty-fivetofifty,dressedintweedwithaknittedspencer,andtheredribbonofadecorationinhisbutton-hole。Thislastwasahardpersontoclassify。Hewasanoldsoldier,whohadseenserviceandrisentotherankofcommandant;andheretainedsomeofthebriskdecisivemannersofthecamp。Ontheotherhand,assoonashisresignationwasaccepted,hehadcometoOurLadyoftheSnowsasaboarder,and,afterabriefexperienceofitsways,haddecidedtoremainasanovice。Alreadythenewlifewasbeginningtomodifyhisappearance;alreadyhehadacquiredsomewhatofthequietandsmilingairofthebrethren;andhewasasyetneitheranofficernoraTrappist,butpartookofthecharacterofeach。Andcertainlyherewasamaninaninterestingnickoflife。Outofthenoiseofcannonandtrumpets,hewasintheactofpassingintothisstillcountryborderingonthegrave,wheremensleepnightlyintheirgrave-clothes,and,likephantoms,communicatebysigns。 Atsupperwetalkedpolitics。Imakeitmybusiness,whenIaminFrance,topreachpoliticalgood-willandmoderation,andtodwellontheexampleofPoland,muchassomealarmistsinEnglanddwellontheexampleofCarthage。ThepriestandthecommandantassuredmeoftheirsympathywithallIsaid,andmadeaheavysighingoverthebitternessofcontemporaryfeeling。 \'Why,youcannotsayanythingtoamanwithwhichhedoesnotabsolutelyagree,\'saidI,\'buthefliesupatyouinatemper。\' Theybothdeclaredthatsuchastateofthingswasantichristian。 Whilewewerethusagreeing,whatshouldmytonguestumbleuponbutawordinpraiseofGambetta\'smoderation。Theoldsoldier\'scountenancewasinstantlysuffusedwithblood;withthepalmsofhishandshebeatthetablelikeanaughtychild。 \'COMMENT,MONSIEUR?\'heshouted。\'COMMENT?Gambettamoderate? Willyoudaretojustifythesewords?\' Butthepriesthadnotforgottenthetenorofourtalk。Andsuddenly,intheheightofhisfury,theoldsoldierfoundawarninglookdirectedonhisface;theabsurdityofhisbehaviourwasbroughthometohiminaflash;andthestormcametoanabruptend,withoutanotherword。 Itwasonlyinthemorning,overourcoffee(Friday,September27th),thatthiscouplefoundoutIwasaheretic。IsupposeIhadmisledthembysomeadmiringexpressionsastothemonasticlifearoundus;anditwasonlybyapoint-blankquestionthatthetruthcameout。IhadbeentolerantlyusedbothbysimpleFatherApollinarisandastuteFatherMichael;andthegoodIrishdeacon,whenheheardofmyreligiousweakness,hadonlypattedmeupontheshoulderandsaid,\'YoumustbeaCatholicandcometoheaven。\' ButIwasnowamongadifferentsectoforthodox。Thesetwomenwerebitteranduprightandnarrow,liketheworstofScotsmen,andindeed,uponmyheart,Ifancytheywereworse。Thepriestsnortedaloudlikeabattle-horse。 \'ETVOUSPRETENDEZMOURIRDANSCETTEESPECEDECROYANCE?\'hedemanded;andthereisnotypeusedbymortalprinterslargeenoughtoqualifyhisaccent。 IhumblyindicatedthatIhadnodesignofchanging。 Buthecouldnotawaywithsuchamonstrousattitude。\'No,no,\'hecried;\'youmustchange。Youhavecomehere,Godhasledyouhere,andyoumustembracetheopportunity。\' Imadeaslipinpolicy;Iappealedtothefamilyaffections,thoughIwasspeakingtoapriestandasoldier,twoclassesofmencircumstantiallydivorcedfromthekindandhomelytiesoflife。 \'Yourfatherandmother?\'criedthepriest。\'Verywell;youwillconvertthemintheirturnwhenyougohome。\' IthinkIseemyfather\'sface!IwouldrathertackletheGaetulianlioninhisdenthanembarkonsuchanenterpriseagainstthefamilytheologian。 Butnowthehuntwasup;priestandsoldierwereinfullcryformyconversion;andtheWorkofthePropagationoftheFaith,forwhichthepeopleofCheylardsubscribedforty-eightfrancstencentimesduring1877,wasbeinggallantlypursuedagainstmyself。Itwasanoddbutmosteffectiveproselytising。Theyneversoughttoconvincemeinargument,whereImighthaveattemptedsomedefence; buttookitforgrantedthatIwasbothashamedandterrifiedatmyposition,andurgedmesolelyonthepointoftime。Now,theysaid,whenGodhadledmetoOurLadyoftheSnows,nowwastheappointedhour。 \'Donotbewithheldbyfalseshame,\'observedthepriest,formyencouragement。 Foronewhofeelsverysimilarlytoallsectsofreligion,andwhohasneverbeenable,evenforamoment,toweighseriouslythemeritofthisorthatcreedontheeternalsideofthings,howevermuchhemayseetopraiseorblameuponthesecularandtemporalside,thesituationthuscreatedwasbothunfairandpainful。I committedmysecondfaultintact,andtriedtopleadthatitwasallthesamethingintheend,andwewerealldrawingnearbydifferentsidestothesamekindandundiscriminatingFriendandFather。That,asitseemstolayspirits,wouldbetheonlygospelworthyofthename。Butdifferentmenthinkdifferently;andthisrevolutionaryaspirationbroughtdownthepriestwithalltheterrorsofthelaw。Helaunchedintoharrowingdetailsofhell。 Thedamned,hesaid-ontheauthorityofalittlebookwhichhehadreadnotaweekbefore,andwhich,toaddconvictiontoconviction,hehadfullyintendedtobringalongwithhiminhispocket-weretooccupythesameattitudethroughalleternityinthemidstofdismaltortures。Andashethusexpatiated,hegrewinnobilityofaspectwithhisenthusiasm。 AsaresultthepairconcludedthatIshouldseekoutthePrior,sincetheAbbotwasfromhome,andlaymycaseimmediatelybeforehim。 \'C\'ESTMONCONSEILCOMMEANCIENMILITAIRE,\'observedthecommandant;\'ETCELUIDEMONSIEURCOMMEPRETRE。\' \'OUI,\'addedtheCURE,sententiouslynodding;\'COMMEANCIEN MILITAIRE-ETCOMMEPRETRE。\' Atthismoment,whilstIwassomewhatembarrassedhowtoanswer,incameoneofthemonks,alittlebrownfellow,aslivelyasagrig,andwithanItalianaccent,whothrewhimselfatonceintothecontention,butinamilderandmorepersuasivevein,asbefittedoneofthesepleasantbrethren。LookatHIM,hesaid。Therulewasveryhard;hewouldhavedearlylikedtostayinhisowncountry,Italy-itwaswellknownhowbeautifulitwas,thebeautifulItaly;butthentherewerenoTrappistsinItaly;andhehadasoultosave;andherehewas。 IamafraidImustbeatbottom,whatacheerfulIndiancritichasdubbedme,\'afaddlinghedonist,\'forthisdescriptionofthebrother\'smotivesgavemesomewhatofashock。Ishouldhavepreferredtothinkhehadchosenthelifeforitsownsake,andnotforulteriorpurposes;andthisshowshowprofoundlyIwasoutofsympathywiththesegoodTrappists,evenwhenIwasdoingmybesttosympathise。ButtotheCUREtheargumentseemeddecisive。 \'Hearthat!\'hecried。\'AndIhaveseenamarquishere,amarquis,amarquis\'-herepeatedtheholywordthreetimesover-\'andotherpersonshighinsociety;andgenerals。Andhere,atyourside,isthisgentleman,whohasbeensomanyyearsinarmies- decorated,anoldwarrior。Andhereheis,readytodedicatehimselftoGod。\' IwasbythistimesothoroughlyembarrassedthatIpledcoldfeet,andmademyescapefromtheapartment。Itwasafuriouswindymorning,withaskymuchcleared,andlongandpotentintervalsofsunshine;andIwandereduntildinnerinthewildcountrytowardstheeast,sorelystaggeredandbeatenuponbythegale,butrewardedwithsomestrikingviews。 AtdinnertheWorkofthePropagationoftheFaithwasrecommenced,andonthisoccasionstillmoredistastefullytome。Thepriestaskedmemanyquestionsastothecontemptiblefaithofmyfathers,andreceivedmyreplieswithakindofecclesiasticaltitter。 \'Yoursect,\'hesaidonce;\'forIthinkyouwilladmititwouldbedoingittoomuchhonourtocallitareligion。\' \'Asyouplease,monsieur,\'saidI。\'LAPAROLEESTAVOUS。\' AtlengthIgrewannoyedbeyondendurance;andalthoughhewasonhisowngroundand,whatismoretothepurpose,anoldman,andsoholdingaclaimuponmytoleration,Icouldnotavoidaprotestagainstthisuncivilusage。Hewassadlydiscountenanced。 \'Iassureyou。\'hesaid,\'Ihavenoinclinationtolaughinmyheart。Ihavenootherfeelingbutinterestinyoursoul。\' Andthereendedmyconversion。Honestman!hewasnodangerousdeceiver;butacountryparson,fullofzealandfaith。LongmayhetreadGevaudanwithhiskiltedskirts-amanstrongtowalkandstrongtocomforthisparishionersindeath!Idaresayhewouldbeatbravelythroughasnowstormwherehisdutycalledhim;anditisnotalwaysthemostfaithfulbelieverwhomakesthecunningestapostle。