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类别:其他 作者:Charles Brockden Brown字数:16899更新时间:18/12/14 15:58:59
lookedattheopenknifeinhishandandshuddered,butknewnothowtopreventthedeedwhichIdreaded。Hequicklynoticedmyfears,andcomprehendedthem。Stretchingtowardsmehishand,withanairofincreasingmildness:\"Takeit,\"saidhe:\"Fearnotforthyownsake,norformine。Thecupisgoneby,anditstransientinebriationissucceededbythesobernessoftruth。 \"ThouangelwhomIwaswonttoworship!fearestthou,mysister,forthylife?Onceitwasthescopeofmylabourstodestroythee,butIwaspromptedtothedeedbyheaven;such,atleast,wasmybelief。Thinkestthouthatthydeathwassoughttogratifymalevolence?No。Iampurefromallstain。I believedthatmyGodwasmymover! \"NeithertheenormyselfhaveIcausetoinjure。Ihavedonemyduty,andsurelythereismeritinhavingsacrificedtothat,allthatisdeartotheheartofman。Ifadevilhasdeceivedme,hecameinthehabitofanangel。IfIerred,itwasnotmyjudgmentthatdeceivedme,butmysenses。Inthysight,beingofbeings!Iamstillpure。StillwillIlookformyrewardinthyjustice!\" Didmyearstrulyreportthesesounds?IfIdidnoterr,mybrotherwasrestoredtojustperceptions。Heknewhimselftohavebeenbetrayedtothemurderofhiswifeandchildren,tohavebeenthevictimofinfernalartifice;yethefoundconsolationintherectitudeofhismotives。Hewasnotdevoidofsorrow,forthiswaswrittenonhiscountenance;buthissoulwastranquilandsublime。 Perhapsthiswasmerelyatransitionofhisformermadnessintoanewshape。Perhapshehadnotyetawakenedtothememoryofthehorrorswhichhehadperpetrated。InfatuatedwretchthatIwas!Tosetmyselfupasamodelbywhichtojudgeofmyheroicbrother!Myreasontaughtmethathisconclusionswereright;butconsciousoftheimpotenceofreasonovermyownconduct;consciousofmycowardlyrashnessandmycriminaldespair,Idoubtedwhetheranyonecouldbestedfastandwise。 Suchwasmyweakness,thateveninthemidstofthesethoughts,mymindglidedintoabhorrenceofCarwin,andI utteredinalowvoice,O!Carwin!Carwin!Whathastthoutoanswerfor? Mybrotherimmediatelynoticedtheinvoluntaryexclamation: \"Clara!\"saidhe,\"bethyself。Equityusedtobeathemeforthyeloquence。Reduceitslessonstopractice,andbejusttothatunfortunateman。Theinstrumenthasdoneitswork,andI amsatisfied。 \"Ithankthee,myGod,forthislastillumination!Myenemyisthinealso。Ideemedhimtobeman,themanwithwhomIhaveoftencommuned;butnowthygoodnesshasunveiledtomehistruenature。Astheperformerofthybehests,heismyfriend。\" Myheartbegannowtomisgiveme。Hismournfulaspecthadgraduallyyieldedplacetoaserenebrow。Anewsoulappearedtoactuatehisframe,andhiseyestobeamwithpreternaturallustre。Thesesymptomsdidnotabate,andhecontinued: \"Clara!Imustnotleavetheeindoubt。IknownotwhatbroughtaboutthyinterviewwiththebeingwhomthoucallestCarwin。Foratime,Iwasguiltyofthyerror,anddeducedfromhisincoherentconfessionsthatIhadbeenmadethevictimofhumanmalice。Heleftusatmybidding,andIputupaprayerthatmydoubtsshouldberemoved。Thyeyeswereshut,andthyearssealedtothevisionthatansweredmyprayer。 \"Iwasindeeddeceived。Theformthouhastseenwastheincarnationofadaemon。Thevisageandvoicewhichurgedmetothesacrificeofmyfamily,werehis。Nowhepersonatesahumanform:thenhewasinvironedwiththelustreofheaven—— \"Clara,\"hecontinued,advancingclosertome,\"thydeathmustcome。Thisministerisevil,buthefromwhomhiscommissionwasreceivedisGod。Submitthenwithallthywontedresignationtoadecreethatcannotbereversedorresisted。 Marktheclock。Threeminutesareallowedtothee,inwhichtocallupthyfortitude,andpreparetheeforthydoom。\"Therehestopped。 Evennow,whenthissceneexistsonlyinmemory,whenlifeandallitsfunctionshavesunkintotorpor,mypulsethrobs,andmyhairsuprise:mybrowsareknit,asthen;andIgazearoundmeindistraction。Iwasunconquerablyaversetodeath; butdeath,imminentandfullofagonyasthatwhichwasthreatened,wasnothing。Thiswasnottheonlyorchiefinspirerofmyfears。 Forhim,notformyself,wasmysoultormented。Imightdie,andnocrime,surpassingthereachofmercy,wouldpursuemetothepresenceofmyJudge;butmyassassinwouldsurvivetocontemplatehisdeed,andthatassassinwasWieland! WingstobearmebeyondhisreachIhadnot。Icouldnotvanishwithathought。Thedoorwasopen,butmymurdererwasinterposedbetweenthatandme。Ofself-defenceIwasincapable。Thephrenzythatlatelypromptedmetobloodwasgone;mystatewasdesperate;myrescuewasimpossible。 Theweightoftheseaccumulatedthoughtscouldnotbeborne。 Mysightbecameconfused;mylimbswereseizedwithconvulsion; Ispoke,butmywordswerehalf-formed:—— \"Spareme,mybrother!Lookdown,righteousJudge!snatchmefromthisfate!takeawaythisfuryfromhim,orturnitelsewhere!\" Suchwastheagonyofmythoughts,thatInoticednotstepsenteringmyapartment。Supplicatingeyeswerecastupward,butwhenmyprayerwasbreathed,Ioncemorewildlygazedatthedoor。Aformmetmysight:IshudderedasiftheGodwhomI invokedwerepresent。ItwasCarwinthatagainintruded,andwhostoodbeforeme,erectinattitude,andstedfastinlook! Thesightofhimawakenednewandrapidthoughts。Hisrecenttalewasremembered:hismagicaltransitionsandmysteriousenergyofvoice:Whetherhewereinfernalormiraculous,orhuman,therewasnopowerandnoneedtodecide。Whetherthecontriverornotofthisspell,hewasabletounbindit,andtocheckthefuryofmybrother。Hehadascribedtohimselfintentionsnotmalignant。Herenowwasaffordedatestofhistruth。Lethiminterpose,asfromabove;revokethesavagedecreewhichthemadnessofWielandhasassignedtoheaven,andextinguishforeverthispassionforblood! Myminddetectedataglancethisavenuetosafety。Therecommendationsitpossessedthrongedasitweretogether,andmadebutoneimpressiononmyintellect。RemotereffectsandcollateraldangersIsawnot。Perhapsthepauseofaninstanthadsufficedtocallthemup。TheimprobabilitythattheinfluencewhichgovernedWielandwasexternalorhuman;thetendencyofthisstratagemtosanctionsofatalanerror,orsubstituteamoredestructiverageinplaceofthis;thesufficiencyofCarwin\'smeremuscularforcestocounteracttheefforts,andrestrainthefuryofWieland,might,atasecondglance,havebeendiscovered;butnosecondglancewasallowed。 Myfirstthoughthurriedmetoaction,and,fixingmyeyesuponCarwinIexclaimed—— \"Owretch!oncemorehastthoucome?Letitbetoabjurethymalice;tocounterworkthishellishstratagem;toturnfrommeandfrommybrother,thisdesolatingrage! \"Testifythyinnocenceorthyremorse:exertthepowerswhichpertaintothee,whatevertheybe,toturnasidethisruin。Thouarttheauthorofthesehorrors!WhathaveIdonetodeservethustodie?HowhaveImeritedthisunrelentingpersecution?Iadjurethee,bythatGodwhosevoicethouhastdaredtocounterfeit,tosavemylife! \"Wiltthouthengo?leaveme!Succourless!\" Carwinlistenedtomyintreatiesunmoved,andturnedfromme。 Heseemedtohesitateamoment:thenglidedthroughthedoor。 Rageanddespairstifledmyutterance。Theintervalofrespitewaspassed;thepangsreservedformebyWieland,werenottobeendured;mythoughtsrushedagainintoanarchy。Havingreceivedtheknifefromhishand,Ihelditlooselyandwithoutregard; butnowitseizedagainmyattention,andIgraspeditwithforce。 HeseemedtonoticenottheentranceorexitofCarwin。Mygestureandthemurderousweaponappearedtohaveescapedhisnotice。Hissilencewasunbroken;hiseye,fixedupontheclockforatime,wasnowwithdrawn;furykindledineveryfeature; allthatwashumaninhisfacegavewaytoanexpressionsupernaturalandtremendous。Ifeltmyleftarmwithinhisgrasp—— EvennowIhesitatedtostrike。Ishrunkfromhisassault,butinvain—— Hereletmedesist。WhyshouldIrescuethiseventfromoblivion?WhyshouldIpaintthisdetestableconflict?Whynotterminateatoncethisseriesofhorrors?——Hurrytothevergeoftheprecipice,andcastmyselfforeverbeyondremembranceandbeyondhope? StillIlive:withthisloaduponmybreast;withthisphantomtopursuemysteps;withadderslodgedinmybosom,andstingingmetomadness:stillIconsenttolive! Yes,Iwillriseabovethesphereofmortalpassions:Iwillspurnatthecowardlyremorsethatbidsmeseekimpunityinsilence,orcomfortinforgetfulness。Mynervesshallbenewstrungtothetask。HaveInotresolved?Iwilldie。Thegulphbeforemeisinevitableandnear。Iwilldie,butthenonlywhenmytaleisatanend。 ChapterXXVI Myrighthand,graspingtheunseenknife,wasstilldisengaged。Itwasliftedtostrike。Allmystrengthwasexhausted,butwhatwassufficienttotheperformanceofthisdeed。Alreadywastheenergyawakened,andtheimpulsegiven,thatshouldbearthefatalsteeltohisheart,when——Wielandshrunkback:hishandwaswithdrawn。Breathlesswithaffrightanddesperation,Istood,freedfromhisgrasp;unassailed; untouched。 Thuslonghadthepowerwhichcontrouledthesceneforbornetointerfere;butnowhismightwasirresistible,andWielandinamomentwasdisarmedofallhispurposes。Avoice,louderthanhumanorganscouldproduce,shrillerthanlanguagecandepict,burstfromtheceiling,andcommandedhim——TOHOLD! TroubleanddismaysucceededtothestedfastnessthathadlatelybeendisplayedinthelooksofWieland。Hiseyesrovedfromonequartertoanother,withanexpressionofdoubt。Heseemedtowaitforafurtherintimation。 Carwin\'sagencywashereeasilyrecognized。Ihadbesoughthimtointerposeinmydefence。Hehadflown。Ihadimaginedhimdeaftomyprayer,andresolutetoseemeperish:yethedisappearedmerelytodeviseandexecutethemeansofmyrelief。 Whydidhenotforbearwhenthisendwasaccomplished?Whydidhismisjudgingzealandaccursedprecipitationoverpassthatlimit?Ormeanthethustocrownthescene,andconducthisinscrutableplotstothisconsummation? Suchideaswerethefruitofsubsequentcontemplation。Thismomentwaspregnantwithfate。Ihadnopowertoreason。Inthecareerofmytempestuousthoughts,rentintopieces,asmymindwas,byaccumulatinghorrors,Carwinwasunseenandunsuspected。IpartookofWieland\'scredulity,shookwithhisamazement,andpantedwithhisawe。 Silencetookplaceforamoment;somuchasallowedtheattentiontorecoveritspost。Thennewsoundswereutteredfromabove。 \"Manoferrors!ceasetocherishthydelusion:notheavenorhell,butthysenseshavemisledtheetocommittheseacts。 Shakeoffthyphrenzy,andascendintorationalandhuman。Belunaticnolonger。\" Mybrotheropenedhislipstospeak。Histonewasterrificandfaint。Hemutteredanappealtoheaven。Itwasdifficulttocomprehendthethemeofhisinquiries。Theyimplieddoubtastothenatureoftheimpulsethathithertohadguidedhim,andquestionedwhetherhehadactedinconsequenceofinsaneperceptions。 Totheseinterrogatoriesthevoice,whichnowseemedtohoverathisshoulder,loudlyansweredintheaffirmative。Thenuninterruptedsilenceensued。 Fallenfromhisloftyandheroicstation;nowfinallyrestoredtotheperceptionoftruth;weighedtoearthbytherecollectionofhisowndeeds;consolednolongerbyaconsciousnessofrectitude,forthelossofoffspringandwife——alossforwhichhewasindebtedtohisownmisguidedhand;WielandwastransformedatonceintothemanOFSORROWS! Hereflectednotthatcreditshouldbeasreasonablydeniedtothelast,astoanyformerintimation;thatonemightasjustlybeascribedtoerringordiseasedsensesastheother。 Hesawnotthatthisdiscoveryinnodegreeaffectedtheintegrityofhisconduct;thathismotiveshadlostnoneoftheirclaimstothehomageofmankind;thatthepreferenceofsupremegood,andtheboundlessenergyofduty,wereundiminishedinhisbosom。 Itisnotformetopursuehimthroughtheghastlychangesofhiscountenance。Wordshehadnone。Nowhesatuponthefloor,motionlessinallhislimbs,withhiseyesglazedandfixed;amonumentofwoe。 Anonaspiritoftempestuousbutundesigningactivityseizedhim。Herosefromhisplaceandstrodeacrossthefloor,totteringandatrandom。Hiseyeswerewithoutmoisture,andgleamedwiththefirethatconsumedhisvitals。Themusclesofhisfacewereagitatedbyconvulsion。Hislipsmoved,butnosoundescapedhim。 Thatnatureshouldlongsustainthisconflictwasnottobebelieved。Mystatewaslittledifferentfromthatofmybrother。Ientered,asitwere,intohisthought。Myheartwasvisitedandrentbyhispangs——Ohthatthyphrenzyhadneverbeencured!thatthymadness,withitsblissfulvisions,wouldreturn!or,ifthatmustnotbe,thatthyscenewouldhastentoaclose!thatdeathwouldcovertheewithhisoblivion! WhatcanIwishforthee?Thouwhohastviedwiththegreatpreacherofthyfaithinsanctityofmotives,andinelevationabovesensualandselfish!Thouwhomthyfatehaschangedintoparicideandsavage!CanIwishforthecontinuanceofthybeing?No。 Foratimehismovementsseemeddestituteofpurpose。Ifhewalked;ifheturned;ifhisfingerswereentwinedwitheachother;ifhishandswerepressedagainstoppositesidesofhisheadwithaforcesufficienttocrushitintopieces;itwastotearhismindfromself-contemplation;towastehisthoughtsonexternalobjects。 Speedilythistrainwasbroken。Abeamappearedtobedartedintohismind,whichgaveapurposetohisefforts。Anavenuetoescapepresenteditself;andnowheeagerlygazedabouthim: whenmythoughtsbecameengagedbyhisdemeanour,myfingerswerestretchedasbyamechanicalforce,andtheknife,nolongerheededorofuse,escapedfrommygrasp,andfellunperceivedonthefloor。Hiseyenowlighteduponit;heseizeditwiththequicknessofthought。 Ishriekedaloud,butitwastoolate。Heplungedittothehiltinhisneck;andhislifeinstantlyescapedwiththestreamthatgushedfromthewound。Hewasstretchedatmyfeet;andmyhandsweresprinkledwithhisbloodashefell。 Suchwasthylastdeed,mybrother!Foraspectaclelikethiswasitmyfatetobereserved!Thyeyeswereclosed——thyfaceghastlywithdeath——thyarms,andthespotwherethouliedest,floatedinthylife\'sblood!Theseimageshavenot,foramoment,forsakenme。TillIambreathlessandcold,theymustcontinuetohoverinmysight。 Carwin,asIsaid,hadlefttheroom,buthestilllingeredinthehouse。Myvoicesummonedhimtomyaid;butIscarcelynoticedhisre-entrance,andnowfaintlyrecollecthisterrifiedlooks,hisbrokenexclamations,hisvehementavowalsofinnocence,theeffusionsofhispityforme,andhisoffersofassistance。 Ididnotlisten——Iansweredhimnot——Iceasedtoupbraidoraccuse。HisguiltwasapointtowhichIwasindifferent。 Ruffianordevil,blackashellorbrightasangels,thenceforthhewasnothingtome。Iwasincapableofsparingalookorathoughtfromtheruinthatwasspreadatmyfeet。 Whenheleftme,Iwasscarcelyconsciousofanyvariationinthescene。Heinformedtheinhabitantsofthehutofwhathadpassed,andtheyflewtothespot。Carelessofhisownsafety,hehastedtothecitytoinformmyfriendsofmycondition。 Myunclespeedilyarrivedatthehouse。ThebodyofWielandwasremovedfrommypresence,andtheysupposedthatIwouldfollowit;butno,myhomeisascertained;hereIhavetakenupmyrest,andneverwillIgohence,till,likeWieland,Iambornetomygrave。 Importunitywastriedinvain:theythreatenedtoremovemebyviolence——nay,violencewasused;butmysoulprizestoodearlythislittlerooftoenduretobebereavedofit。Forceshouldnotprevailwhenthehoarylocksandsupplicatingtearsofmyunclewereineffectual。Myrepugnancetomovegavebirthtoferociousnessandphrenzywhenforcewasemployed,andtheywereobligedtoconsenttomyreturn。 Theybesoughtme——theyremonstrated——theyappealedtoeverydutythatconnectedmewithhimthatmademe,andwithmyfellow-men——invain。WhileIliveIwillnotgohence。HaveI notfulfilledmydestiny? Whywillyetormentmewithyourreasoningsandreproofs? Canyerestoretomethehopeofmybetterdays?CanyegivemebackCatharineandherbabes?Canyerecalltolifehimwhodiedatmyfeet? Iwilleat——Iwilldrink——Iwillliedownandriseupatyourbidding——allIaskisthechoiceofmyabode。Whatisthereunreasonableinthisdemand?ShortlywillIbeatpeace。ThisisthespotwhichIhavechoseninwhichtobreathemylastsigh。Denymenot,Ibeseechyou,soslightaboon。 Talknottome,Omyreveredfriend!ofCarwin。Hehastoldtheehistale,andthouexculpatesthimfromalldirectconcerninthefateofWieland。Thissceneofhavockwasproducedbyanillusionofthesenses。Beitso:Icarenotfromwhatsourcethesedisastershaveflowed;itsufficesthattheyhaveswallowedupourhopesandourexistence。 Whathisagencybegan,hisagencyconductedtoaclose。Heintended,bythefinaleffortofhispower,torescuemeandtobanishhisillusionsfrommybrother。Suchishistale,concerningthetruthofwhichIcarenot。HenceforthIfosterbutonewish——Iaskonlyquickdeliverancefromlifeandalltheillsthatattendit—— Gowretch!tormentmenotwiththypresenceandthyprayers——Forgivethee?Willthatavailtheewhenthyfatefulhourshallarrive?Bethouacquittedatthyowntribunal,andthouneedestnotfeartheverdictofothers。Ifthyguiltbecapableofblackerhues,ifhithertothyconsciencebewithoutstain,thycrimewillbemademoreflagrantbythusviolatingmyretreat。Takethyselfawayfrommysightifthouwouldestnotbeholdmydeath! Thouaregone!murmuringandreluctant!Andnowmyreposeiscoming——myworkisdone! ChapterXXVII [Writtenthreeyearsaftertheforegoing,anddatedatMontpellier。] IimaginedthatIhadforeverlaidasidethepen;andthatI shouldtakeupmyabodeinthispartoftheworld,wasofalleventstheleastprobable。MydestinyIbelievedtobeaccomplished,andIlookedforwardtoaspeedyterminationofmylifewiththefullestconfidence。 SurelyIhadreasontobewearyofexistence,tobeimpatientofeverytiewhichheldmefromthegrave。Iexperiencedthisimpatienceinitsfullestextent。Iwasnotonlyenamouredofdeath,butconceived,fromtheconditionofmyframe,thattoshunitwasimpossible,eventhoughIhadardentlydesiredit; yethereamI,athousandleaguesfrommynativesoil,infullpossessionoflifeandofhealth,andnotdestituteofhappiness。 Suchisman。Timewillobliteratethedeepestimpressions。 Griefthemostvehementandhopeless,willgraduallydecayandwearitselfout。Argumentsmaybeemployedinvain:everymoralprescriptionmaybeineffectuallytried:remonstrances,howevercogentorpathetic,shallhavenopowerovertheattention,orshallberepelledwithdisdain;yet,asdayfollowsday,theturbulenceofouremotionsshallsubside,andourfluctuationsbefinallysucceededbyacalm。 Perhaps,however,theconquestofdespairwaschieflyowingtoanaccidentwhichrenderedmycontinuanceinmyownhouseimpossible。Attheconclusionofmylong,and,asIthensupposed,mylastlettertoyou,Imentionedmyresolutiontowaitfordeathintheveryspotwhichhadbeentheprincipalsceneofmymisfortunes。Fromthisresolutionmyfriendsexertedthemselveswiththeutmostzealandperseverancetomakemedepart。Theyjustlyimaginedthattobethussurroundedbymemorialsofthefateofmyfamily,wouldtendtofostermydisease。Aswiftsuccessionofnewobjects,andtheexclusionofeverythingcalculatedtoremindmeofmyloss,wastheonlymethodofcure。 Irefusedtolistentotheirexhortations。Greatasmycalamitywas,tobetornfromthisasylumwasregardedbymeasanaggravationofit。Byaperverseconstitutionofmind,hewasconsideredasmygreatestenemywhosoughttowithdrawmefromascenewhichsuppliedeternalfoodtomymelancholy,andkeptmydespairfromlanguishing。 InrelatingthehistoryofthesedisastersIderivedasimilarspeciesofgratification。Myuncleearnestlydissuadedmefromthistask;buthisremonstranceswereasfruitlessonthisheadastheyhadbeenonothers。Theywouldhavewithheldfrommetheimplementsofwriting;buttheyquicklyperceivedthattowithstandwouldbemoreinjuriousthantocomplywithmywishes。Havingfinishedmytale,itseemedasifthescenewereclosing。Afeverlurkedinmyveins,andmystrengthwasgone。 Anyexertion,howeverslight,wasattendedwithdifficulty,and,atlength,Irefusedtorisefrommybed。 Inowseetheinfatuationandinjusticeofmyconductinitstruecolours。Ireflectuponthesensationsandreasoningsofthatperiodwithwonderandhumiliation。ThatIshouldbeinsensibletotheclaimsandtearsofmyfriends;thatIshouldoverlookthesuggestionsofduty,andflyfromthatpostinwhichonlyIcouldbeinstrumentaltothebenefitofothers; thattheexerciseofthesocialandbeneficentaffections,thecontemplationofnatureandtheacquisitionofwisdomshouldnotbeseentobemeansofhappinessstillwithinmyreach,is,atthistime,scarcelycredible。 ItistruethatIamnowchanged;butIhavenottheconsolationtoreflectthatmychangewasowingtomyfortitudeortomycapacityforinstruction。Betterthoughtsgrewupinmymindimperceptibly。Icannotbutcongratulatemyselfonthechange,though,perhaps,itmerelyarguesaficklenessoftemper,andadefectofsensibility。 AftermynarrativewasendedIbetookmyselftomybed,inthefullbeliefthatmycareerinthisworldwasonthepointoffinishing。Myuncletookuphisabodewithme,andperformedformeeveryofficeofnurse,physicianandfriend。Onenight,aftersomehoursofrestlessnessandpain,Isunkintodeepsleep。Itstranquillity,however,wasofnolongduration。Myfancybecamesuddenlydistempered,andmybrainwasturnedintoatheatreofuproarandconfusion。Itwouldnotbeeasytodescribethewildandphantasticalincongruitiesthatpesteredme。Myuncle,Wieland,PleyelandCarwinweresuccessivelyandmomentlydiscernedamidstthestorm。SometimesIwasswallowedupbywhirlpools,orcaughtupintheairbyhalf-seenandgiganticforms,andthrownuponpointedrocks,orcastamongthebillows。Sometimesgleamsoflightwereshotintoadarkabyss,onthevergeofwhichIwasstanding,andenabledmetodiscover,foramoment,itsenormousdepthandhideousprecipices。Anon,IwastransportedtosomeridgeofAEtna,andmadeaterrifiedspectatorofitsfierytorrentsanditspillarsofsmoke。 Howeverstrangeitmayseem,Iwasconscious,evenduringmydream,ofmyrealsituation。Iknewmyselftobeasleep,andstruggledtobreakthespell,bymuscularexertions。Thesedidnotavail,andIcontinuedtosuffertheseabortivecreationstillaloudvoice,atmybedside,andsomeoneshakingmewithviolence,putanendtomyreverie。Myeyeswereunsealed,andIstartedfrommypillow。 Mychamberwasfilledwithsmoke,which,thoughinsomedegreeluminous,wouldpermitmetoseenothing,andbywhichI wasnearlysuffocated。Thecracklingofflames,andthedeafeningclamourofvoiceswithout,burstuponmyears。 StunnedasIwasbythishubbub,scorchedwithheat,andnearlychoakedbytheaccumulatingvapours,Iwasunabletothinkoractformyownpreservation;Iwasincapable,indeed,ofcomprehendingmydanger。 Iwascaughtup,inaninstant,byapairofsinewyarms,bornetothewindow,andcarrieddownaladderwhichhadbeenplacedthere。Myunclestoodatthebottomandreceivedme。I wasnotfullyawareofmysituationtillIfoundmyselfshelteredintheHUT,andsurroundedbyitsinhabitants。 Byneglectoftheservant,someunextinguishedembershadbeenplacedinabarrelinthecellarofthebuilding。Thebarrelhadcaughtfire;thiswascommunicatedtothebeamsofthelowerfloor,andthencetotheupperpartofthestructure。 Itwasfirstdiscoveredbysomepersonsatadistance,whohastenedtothespotandalarmedmyuncleandtheservants。Theflameshadalreadymadeconsiderableprogress,andmyconditionwasoverlookedtillmyescapewasrenderednearlyimpossible。 Mydangerbeingknown,andaladderquicklyprocured,oneofthespectatorsascendedtomychamber,andeffectedmydeliveranceinthemannerbeforerelated。 Thisincident,disastrousasitmayatfirstseem,had,inreality,abeneficialeffectuponmyfeelings。Iwas,insomedegree,rousedfromthestuporwhichhadseizedmyfaculties。 Themonotonousandgloomyseriesofmythoughtswasbroken。Myhabitationwaslevelledwiththeground,andIwasobligedtoseekanewone。Anewtrainofimages,disconnectedwiththefateofmyfamily,forceditselfonmyattention,andabeliefinsensiblysprungup,thattranquillity,ifnothappiness,wasstillwithinmyreach。Notwithstandingtheshockswhichmyframehadendured,theanguishofmythoughtsnosoonerabatedthanIrecoveredmyhealth。 Inowwillinglylistenedtomyuncle\'ssolicitationstobethecompanionofhisvoyage。Preparationswereeasilymade,andafteratediouspassage,wesetourfeetontheshoreoftheancientworld。Thememoryofthepastdidnotforsakeme;butthemelancholywhichitgenerated,andthetearswithwhichitfilledmyeyes,werenotunprofitable。Mycuriositywasrevived,andIcontemplated,withardour,thespectacleoflivingmannersandthemonumentsofpastages。 Inproportionasmyheartwasreinstatedinthepossessionofitsancienttranquillity,thesentimentwhichIhadcherishedwithregardtoPleyelreturned。InashorttimehewasunitedtotheSaxonwoman,andmadehisresidenceintheneighbourhoodofBoston。Iwasgladthatcircumstanceswouldnotpermitaninterviewtotakeplacebetweenus。Icouldnotdesiretheirmisery;butIreapednopleasurefromreflectingontheirhappiness。Time,andtheexertionsofmyfortitude,curedme,insomedegree,ofthisfolly。Icontinuedtolovehim,butmypassionwasdisguisedtomyself;Iconsidereditmerelyasamoretenderspeciesoffriendship,andcherisheditwithoutcompunction。 Throughmyuncle\'sexertionsameetingwasbroughtaboutbetweenCarwinandPleyel,andexplanationstookplacewhichrestoredmeatoncetothegoodopinionofthelatter。Thoughseparatedsowidelyourcorrespondencewaspunctualandfrequent,andpavedthewayforthatunionwhichcanonlyendwiththedeathofoneofus。 InmyletterstohimImadenosecretofmyformersentiments。ThiswasathemeonwhichIcouldtalkwithoutpainful,thoughnotwithoutdelicateemotions。ThatknowledgewhichIshouldneverhaveimpartedtoalover,Ifeltlittlescrupletocommunicatetoafriend。 AyearandanhalfelapsedwhenTheresawassnatchedfromhimbydeath,inthehourinwhichshegavehimthefirstpledgeoftheirmutualaffection。Thiseventwasbornebyhimwithhiscustomaryfortitude。Itinducedhim,however,tomakeachangeinhisplans。HedisposedofhispropertyinAmerica,andjoinedmyuncleandme,whohadterminatedthewanderingsoftwoyearsatMontpellier,whichwillhenceforth,Ibelieve,beourpermanentabode。 IfyoureflectuponthatentireconfidencewhichhadsubsistedfromourinfancybetweenPleyelandmyself;onthepassionthatIhadcontracted,andwhichwasmerelysmotheredforatime;andontheesteemwhichwasmutual,youwillnot,perhaps,besurprizedthattherenovationofourintercourseshouldgivebirthtothatunionwhichatpresentsubsists。WhentheperiodhadelapsednecessarytoweakentheremembranceofTheresa,towhomhehadbeenboundbytiesmoreofhonorthanoflove,hetenderedhisaffectionstome。Ineednotaddthatthetenderwaseagerlyaccepted。 PerhapsyouaresomewhatinterestedinthefateofCarwin。 Hesaw,whentoolate,thedangerofimposture。Somuchaffectedwashebythecatastrophetowhichhewasawitness,thathelaidasideallregardtohisownsafety。Hesoughtmyuncle,andconfidedtohimthetalewhichhehadjustrelatedtome。HefoundamoreimpartialandindulgentauditorinMr。 Cambridge,whoimputedtomaniacalillusiontheconductofWieland,thoughheconceivedthepreviousandunseenagencyofCarwin,tohaveindirectlybutpowerfullypredisposedtothisdeplorableperversionofmind。 ItwaseasyforCarwintoeludethepersecutionsofLudloe。 ItwasmerelyrequisitetohidehimselfinaremotedistrictofPennsylvania。This,whenhepartedfromus,hedeterminedtodo。Heisnowprobablyengagedintheharmlesspursuitsofagriculture,andmaycometothink,withoutinsupportableremorse,ontheevilstowhichhisfataltalentshavegivenbirth。Theinnocenceandusefulnessofhisfuturelifemay,insomedegree,atoneforthemiseriessorashlyorsothoughtlesslyinflicted。 Moreurgentconsiderationshinderedmefrommentioning,inthecourseofmyformermournfulrecital,anyparticularsrespectingtheunfortunatefatherofLouisaConway。Thatmansurelywasreservedtobeamonumentofcapriciousfortune。Hissouthernjourniesbeingfinished,hereturnedtoPhiladelphia。 Beforehereachedthecityheleftthehighway,andalightedatmybrother\'sdoor。Contrarytohisexpectation,noonecameforthtowelcomehim,orhailhisapproach。Heattemptedtoenterthehouse,butbolteddoors,barredwindows,andasilencebrokenonlybyunansweredcalls,shewedhimthatthemansionwasdeserted。 Heproceededthencetomyhabitation,whichhefound,inlikemanner,gloomyandtenantless。Hissurprizemaybeeasilyconceived。Therusticswhooccupiedthehuttoldhimanimperfectandincredibletale。Hehastedtothecity,andextortedfromMrs。Bayntonafulldisclosureoflatedisasters。 Hewasinuredtoadversity,andrecovered,afternolongtime,fromtheshocksproducedbythisdisappointmentofhisdarlingscheme。OurintercoursedidnotterminatewithhisdeparturefromAmerica。WehavesincemetwithhiminFrance,andlighthasatlengthbeenthrownuponthemotiveswhichoccasionedthedisappearanceofhiswife,inthemannerwhichI formerlyrelatedtoyou。 Ihavedweltupontheardouroftheirconjugalattachment,andmentionedthatnosuspicionhadeverglanceduponherpurity。This,thoughthebeliefwaslongcherished,recentdiscoverieshaveshewntobequestionable。Nodoubtherintegritywouldhavesurvivedtothepresentmoment,ifanextraordinaryfatehadnotbefallenher。 MajorStuarthadbeenengaged,whileinGermany,inacontestofhonorwithanAiddeCampoftheMarquisofGranby。Hisadversaryhadpropagatedarumourinjurioustohischaracter。 Achallengewassent;ameetingensued;andStuartwoundedanddisarmedthecalumniator。Theoffencewasatonedfor,andhislifesecuredbysuitableconcessions。 Maxwell,thatwashisname,shortlyafter,inconsequenceofsucceedingtoarichinheritance,soldhiscommissionandreturnedtoLondon。Hisfortunewasspeedilyaugmentedbyanopulentmarriage。Interestwashissoleinducementtothismarriage,thoughtheladyhadbeenswayedbyacredulousaffection。Thetruestateofhisheartwasquicklydiscovered,andaseparation,bymutualconsent,tookplace。Theladywithdrewtoanestateinadistantcounty,andMaxwellcontinuedtoconsumehistimeandfortuneinthedissipationofthecapital。 Maxwell,thoughdeceitfulandsensual,possessedgreatforceofmindandspeciousaccomplishments。HecontrivedtomisleadthegenerousmindofStuart,andtoregaintheesteemwhichhismisconduct,foratime,hadforfeited。HewasrecommendedbyherhusbandtotheconfidenceofMrs。Stuart。Maxwellwasstimulatedbyrevenge,andbyalawlesspassion,toconvertthisconfidenceintoasourceofguilt。 Theeducationandcapacityofthiswoman,theworthofherhusband,thepledgeoftheiralliancewhichtimehadproduced,hermaturityinageandknowledgeoftheworld——allcombinedtorenderthisattempthopeless。Maxwell,however,wasnoteasilydiscouraged。Themostperfectbeing,hebelieved,mustowehisexemptionfromvicetotheabsenceoftemptation。Theimpulsesoflovearesosubtile,andtheinfluenceoffalsereasoning,whenenforcedbyeloquenceandpassion,sounbounded,thatnohumanvirtueissecurefromdegeneracy。Allartsbeingtried,everytemptationbeingsummonedtohisaid,dissimulationbeingcarriedtoitsutmostbound,Maxwell,atlength,nearlyaccomplishedhispurpose。Thelady\'saffectionswerewithdrawnfromherhusbandandtransferredtohim。Shecouldnot,asyet,bereconciledtodishonor。Alleffortstoinducehertoelopewithhimwereineffectual。Shepermittedherselftolove,andtoavowherlove;butatthislimitshestopped,andwasimmoveable。 Hencethisrevolutioninhersentimentswasproductiveonlyofdespair。Herrectitudeofprinciplepreservedherfromactualguilt,butcouldnotrestoretoherherancientaffection,orsaveherfrombeingthepreyofremorsefulandimpracticablewishes。Herhusband\'sabsenceproducedastateofsuspense。This,however,approachedtoaperiod,andshereceivedtidingsofhisintendedreturn。Maxwell,beinglikewiseapprizedofthisevent,andhavingmadealastandunsuccessfulefforttoconquerherreluctancetoaccompanyhiminajourneytoItaly,whitherhepretendedaninvinciblenecessityofgoing,lefthertopursuethemeasureswhichdespairmightsuggest。AtthesametimeshereceivedaletterfromthewifeofMaxwell,unveilingthetruecharacterofthisman,andrevealingfactswhichtheartificesofherseducerhadhithertoconcealedfromher。Mrs。Maxwellhadbeenpromptedtothisdisclosurebyaknowledgeofherhusband\'spractices,withwhichhisownimpetuosityhadmadeheracquainted。 Thisdiscovery,joinedtothedelicacyofherscruplesandtheanguishofremorse,inducedhertoabscond。Thisschemewasadoptedinhaste,buteffectedwithconsummateprudence。Shefled,ontheeveofherhusband\'sarrival,inthedisguiseofaboy,andembarkedatFalmouthinapacketboundforAmerica。 ThehistoryofherdisastrousintercoursewithMaxwell,themotivesinducinghertoforsakehercountry,andthemeasuresshehadtakentoeffectherdesign,wererelatedtoMrs。 Maxwell,inreplytohercommunication。Betweenthesewomenanancientintimacyandconsiderablesimilitudeofcharactersubsisted。Thisdisclosurewasaccompaniedwithsolemninjunctionsofsecrecy,andtheseinjunctionswere,foralongtime,faithfullyobserved。 Mrs。Maxwell\'sabodewassituatedonthebanksoftheWey。 Stuartwasherkinsman;theiryouthhadbeenspenttogether;andMaxwellwasinsomedegreeindebtedtothemanwhomhebetrayed,forhisalliancewiththisunfortunatelady。HeresteemforthecharacterofStuarthadneverbeendiminished。Ameetingbetweenthemwasoccasionedbyatourwhichthelatterhadundertaken,intheyearafterhisreturnfromAmerica,toWalesandthewesterncounties。Thisinterviewproducedpleasureandregretineach。Theirowntransactionsnaturallybecamethetopicsoftheirconversation;andtheuntimelyfateofhiswifeanddaughterwererelatedbytheguest。 Mrs。Maxwell\'sregardforherfriend,aswellasforthesafetyofherhusband,persuadedhertoconcealment;buttheformerbeingdead,andthelatterbeingoutofthekingdom,sheventuredtoproduceMrs。Stuart\'sletter,andtocommunicateherownknowledgeofthetreacheryofMaxwell。Shehadpreviouslyextortedfromherguestapromisenottopursueanyschemeofvengeance;butthispromisewasmadewhileignorantofthefullextentofMaxwell\'sdepravity,andhispassionrefusedtoadheretoit。 AtthistimemyuncleandIresidedatAvignon。AmongtheEnglishresidentthere,andwithwhomwemaintainedasocialintercourse,wasMaxwell。Thisman\'stalentsandaddressrenderedhimafavoritebothwithmyuncleandmyself。Hehadeventenderedmehishandinmarriage;butthisbeingrefused,hehadsoughtandobtainedpermissiontocontinuewithustheintercourseoffriendship。Sincealegalmarriagewasimpossible,nodoubt,hisviewswereflagitious。WhetherhehadrelinquishedtheseviewsIwasunabletojudge。 Hewasoneinalargecircleatavillaintheenvirons,towhichIhadlikewisebeeninvited,whenStuartabruptlyenteredtheapartment。Hewasrecognizedwithgenuinesatisfactionbyme,andwithseemingpleasurebyMaxwell。Inashorttime,someaffairofmomentbeingpleaded,whichrequiredanimmediateandexclusiveinterview,Maxwellandhewithdrewtogether。StuartandmyunclehadbeenknowntoeachotherintheGermanarmy; andthepurposecontemplatedbytheformerinthislongandhastyjourney,wasconfidedtohisoldfriend。 Adefiancewasgivenandreceived,andthebanksofarivulet,aboutaleaguefromthecity,wasselectedasthesceneofthiscontest。Myuncle,havingexertedhimselfinvaintopreventanhostilemeeting,consentedtoattendthemasasurgeon——Nextmorning,atsun-rise,wasthetimechosen。 Ireturnedearlyintheeveningtomylodgings。 Preliminariesbeingsettledbetweenthecombatants,Stuarthadconsentedtospendtheeveningwithus,anddidnotretiretilllate。Onthewaytohishotelhewasexposedtonomolestation,butjustashesteppedwithintheportico,aswarthyandmalignantfigurestartedfrombehindacolumn。andplungedastilettointohisbody。 Theauthorofthistreasoncouldnotcertainlybediscovered; butthedetailscommunicatedbyStuart,respectingthehistoryofMaxwell,naturallypointedhimoutasanobjectofsuspicion。 Nooneexpressedmoreconcern,onaccountofthisdisaster,thanhe;andhepretendedanardentzealtovindicatehischaracterfromtheaspersionsthatwerecastuponit。Thenceforth,however,Ideniedmyselftohisvisits;andshortlyafterhedisappearedfromthisscene。 Fewpossessedmoreestimablequalities,andabettertitletohappinessandthetranquilhonorsoflonglife,thanthemotherandfatherofLouisaConway:yettheywerecutoffinthebloomoftheirdays;andtheirdestinywasthusaccomplishedbythesamehand。Maxwellwastheinstrumentoftheirdestruction,thoughtheinstrumentwasappliedtothisendinsodifferentamanner。 Ileaveyoutomoralizeonthistale。Thatvirtueshouldbecomethevictimoftreacheryis,nodoubt,amournfulconsideration;butitwillnotescapeyournotice,thattheevilsofwhichCarwinandMaxwellweretheauthors,owedtheirexistencetotheerrorsofthesufferers。AlleffortswouldhavebeenineffectualtosubvertthehappinessorshortentheexistenceoftheStuarts,iftheirownfrailtyhadnotsecondedtheseefforts。Iftheladyhadcrushedherdisastrouspassioninthebud,anddriventheseducerfromherpresence,whenthetendencyofhisartificeswasseen;ifStuarthadnotadmittedthespiritofabsurdrevenge,weshouldnothavehadtodeplorethiscatastrophe。IfWielandhadframedjusternotionsofmoralduty,andofthedivineattributes;orifIhadbeengiftedwithordinaryequanimityorforesight,thedouble-tongueddeceiverwouldhavebeenbaffledandrepelled。