Oneeveningwhenhewasrecoveringfromalongdebauchthestrangercamereelingalongthemainstreetofthetown。TomHardsatinachairbeforetheNewWillardHousewithhisdaughter,thenachildoffive,onhisknees。BesidehimontheboardsidewalksatyoungGeorgeWillard。Thestrangerdroppedintoachairbesidethem。Hisbodyshookandwhenhetriedtotalkhisvoicetrembled。
Itwaslateeveninganddarknesslayoverthetownandovertherailroadthatranalongthefootofalittleinclinebeforethehotel。Somewhereinthedistance,offtothewest,therewasaprolongedblastfromthewhistleofapassengerengine。Adogthathadbeensleepingintheroadwayaroseandbarked。
Thestrangerbegantobabbleandmadeaprophecyconcerningthechildthatlayinthearmsoftheagnostic。
\"Icameheretoquitdrinking,\"hesaid,andtearsbegantorundownhischeeks。HedidnotlookatTomHard,butleanedforwardandstaredintothedarknessasthoughseeingavision。\"Iranawaytothecountrytobecured,butIamnotcured。Thereisareason。\"Heturnedtolookatthechildwhosatupverystraightonherfather\'skneeandreturnedthelook。
ThestrangertouchedTomHardonthearm。
\"DrinkisnottheonlythingtowhichIamad-
dicted,\"hesaid。\"Thereissomethingelse。Iamaloverandhavenotfoundmythingtolove。ThatisabigpointifyouknowenoughtorealizewhatI
mean。Itmakesmydestructioninevitable,yousee。
Therearefewwhounderstandthat。\"
Thestrangerbecamesilentandseemedovercomewithsadness,butanotherblastfromthewhistleofthepassengerenginearousedhim。\"Ihavenotlostfaith。Iproclaimthat。IhaveonlybeenbroughttotheplacewhereIknowmyfaithwillnotbereal-
ized,\"hedeclaredhoarsely。Helookedhardatthechildandbegantoaddressher,payingnomoreat-
tentiontothefather。\"Thereisawomancoming,\"
hesaid,andhisvoicewasnowsharpandearnest。
\"Ihavemissedher,yousee。Shedidnotcomeinmytime。Youmaybethewoman。Itwouldbelikefatetoletmestandinherpresenceonce,onsuchaneveningasthis,whenIhavedestroyedmyselfwithdrinkandsheisasyetonlyachild。\"
Theshouldersofthestrangershookviolently,andwhenhetriedtorollacigarettethepaperfellfromhistremblingfingers。Hegrewangryandscolded。
\"Theythinkit\'seasytobeawoman,tobeloved,butIknowbetter,\"hedeclared。Againheturnedtothechild。\"Iunderstand,\"hecried。\"PerhapsofallmenIaloneunderstand。\"
Hisglanceagainwanderedawaytothedarkenedstreet。\"Iknowabouther,althoughshehasnevercrossedmypath,\"hesaidsoftly。\"Iknowaboutherstrugglesandherdefeats。Itisbecauseofherdefeatsthatsheistomethelovelyone。Outofherdefeatshasbeenbornanewqualityinwoman。Ihaveanameforit。IcallitTandy。ImadeupthenamewhenIwasatruedreamerandbeforemybodybecamevile。Itisthequalityofbeingstrongtobeloved。Itissomethingmenneedfromwomenandthattheydonotget。\"
ThestrangeraroseandstoodbeforeTomHard。
Hisbodyrockedbackandforthandheseemedabouttofall,butinsteadhedroppedtohiskneesonthesidewalkandraisedthehandsofthelittlegirltohisdrunkenlips。Hekissedthemecstatically。
\"BeTandy,littleone,\"hepleaded。\"Daretobestrongandcourageous。Thatistheroad。Ventureanything。Bebraveenoughtodaretobeloved。Besomethingmorethanmanorwoman。BeTandy。\"
Thestrangeraroseandstaggeredoffdownthestreet。AdayortwolaterhegotaboardatrainandreturnedtohishomeinCleveland。Onthesummerevening,afterthetalkbeforethehotel,TomHardtookthegirlchildtothehouseofarelativewhereshehadbeeninvitedtospendthenight。Ashewentalonginthedarknessunderthetreesheforgotthebabblingvoiceofthestrangerandhismindreturnedtothemakingofargumentsbywhichhemightde-
stroymen\'sfaithinGod。Hespokehisdaughter\'snameandshebegantoweep。
\"Idon\'twanttobecalledthat,\"shedeclared。\"I
wanttobecalledTandy——TandyHard。\"ThechildweptsobitterlythatTomHardwastouchedandtriedtocomforther。Hestoppedbeneathatreeand,takingherintohisarms,begantocaressher。\"Begood,now,\"hesaidsharply;butshewouldnotbequieted。Withchildishabandonshegaveherselfovertogrief,hervoicebreakingtheeveningstillnessofthestreet。\"IwanttobeTandy。IwanttobeTandy。IwanttobeTandyHard,\"shecried,shak-
ingherheadandsobbingasthoughheryoungstrengthwerenotenoughtobearthevisionthewordsofthedrunkardhadbroughttoher。
THESTRENGTHOFGOD
THEREVERENDCurtisHartmanwaspastorofthePresbyterianChurchofWinesburg,andhadbeeninthatpositiontenyears。Hewasfortyyearsold,andbyhisnatureverysilentandreticent。Topreach,standinginthepulpitbeforethepeople,wasalwaysahardshipforhimandfromWednesdaymorninguntilSaturdayeveninghethoughtofnothingbutthetwosermonsthatmustbepreachedonSunday。
EarlyonSundaymorninghewentintoalittleroomcalledastudyinthebelltowerofthechurchandprayed。Inhisprayerstherewasonenotethatal-
wayspredominated。\"GivemestrengthandcourageforThywork,OLord!\"hepleaded,kneelingonthebarefloorandbowinghisheadinthepresenceofthetaskthatlaybeforehim。
TheReverendHartmanwasatallmanwithabrownbeard。Hiswife,astout,nervouswoman,wasthedaughterofamanufacturerofunderwearatCleveland,Ohio。Theministerhimselfwasratherafavoriteinthetown。TheeldersofthechurchlikedhimbecausehewasquietandunpretentiousandMrs。White,thebanker\'swife,thoughthimschol-
arlyandrefined。
ThePresbyterianChurchhelditselfsomewhatalooffromtheotherchurchesofWinesburg。Itwaslargerandmoreimposinganditsministerwasbetterpaid。Heevenhadacarriageofhisownandonsummereveningssometimesdroveabouttownwithhiswife。ThroughMainStreetandupanddownBuckeyeStreethewent,bowinggravelytothepeo-
ple,whilehiswife,afirewithsecretpride,lookedathimoutofthecornersofhereyesandworriedlestthehorsebecomefrightenedandrunaway。
ForagoodmanyyearsafterhecametoWines-
burgthingswentwellwithCurtisHartman。Hewasnotonetoarousekeenenthusiasmamongthewor-
shippersinhischurchbutontheotherhandhemadenoenemies。Inrealityhewasmuchinearnestandsometimessufferedprolongedperiodsofre-
morsebecausehecouldnotgocryingthewordofGodinthehighwaysandbywaysofthetown。HewonderediftheflameofthespiritreallyburnedinhimanddreamedofadaywhenastrongsweetnewcurrentofpowerwouldcomelikeagreatwindintohisvoiceandhissoulandthepeoplewouldtremblebeforethespiritofGodmademanifestinhim。\"I
amapoorstickandthatwillneverreallyhappentome,\"hemuseddejectedly,andthenapatientsmilelituphisfeatures。\"Ohwell,IsupposeI\'mdoingwellenough,\"headdedphilosophically。
Theroominthebelltowerofthechurch,whereonSundaymorningstheministerprayedforanin-
creaseinhimofthepowerofGod,hadbutonewindow。Itwaslongandnarrowandswungout-
wardonahingelikeadoor。Onthewindow,madeoflittleleadedpanes,wasadesignshowingtheChristlayinghishandupontheheadofachild。
OneSundaymorninginthesummerashesatbyhisdeskintheroomwithalargeBibleopenedbe-
forehim,andthesheetsofhissermonscatteredabout,theministerwasshockedtosee,intheupperroomofthehousenextdoor,awomanlyinginherbedandsmokingacigarettewhileshereadabook。
CurtisHartmanwentontiptoetothewindowandcloseditsoftly。Hewashorrorstrickenatthethoughtofawomansmokingandtrembledalsotothinkthathiseyes,justraisedfromthepagesofthebookofGod,hadlookeduponthebareshouldersandwhitethroatofawoman。Withhisbraininawhirlhewentdownintothepulpitandpreachedalongsermonwithoutoncethinkingofhisgesturesorhisvoice。Thesermonattractedunusualattentionbecauseofitspowerandclearness。\"Iwonderifsheislistening,ifmyvoiceiscarryingamessageintohersoul,\"hethoughtandbegantohopethatonfutureSundaymorningshemightbeabletosaywordsthatwouldtouchandawakenthewomanapparentlyfargoneinsecretsin。
ThehousenextdoortothePresbyterianChurch,throughthewindowsofwhichtheministerhadseenthesightthathadsoupsethim,wasoccupiedbytwowomen。AuntElizabethSwift,agreycompetent-
lookingwidowwithmoneyintheWinesburgNa-
tionalBank,livedtherewithherdaughterKateSwift,aschoolteacher。Theschoolteacherwasthirtyyearsoldandhadaneattrim-lookingfigure。
Shehadfewfriendsandboreareputationofhavingasharptongue。Whenhebegantothinkabouther,CurtisHartmanrememberedthatshehadbeentoEuropeandhadlivedfortwoyearsinNewYorkCity。\"Perhapsafterallhersmokingmeansnoth-
ing,\"hethought。Hebegantorememberthatwhenhewasastudentincollegeandoccasionallyreadnovels,goodalthoughsomewhatworldlywomen,hadsmokedthroughthepagesofabookthathadoncefallenintohishands。Witharushofnewdeter-
minationheworkedonhissermonsallthroughtheweekandforgot,inhiszealtoreachtheearsandthesoulofthisnewlistener,bothhisembarrassmentinthepulpitandthenecessityofprayerinthestudyonSundaymornings。
ReverendHartman\'sexperiencewithwomenhadbeensomewhatlimited。HewasthesonofawagonmakerfromMuncie,Indiana,andhadworkedhiswaythroughcollege。Thedaughteroftheunder-
wearmanufacturerhadboardedinahousewherehelivedduringhisschooldaysandhehadmarriedherafteraformalandprolongedcourtship,carriedonforthemostpartbythegirlherself。Onhismar-
riagedaytheunderwearmanufacturerhadgivenhisdaughterfivethousanddollarsandhepromisedtoleaveheratleasttwicethatamountinhiswill。Theministerhadthoughthimselffortunateinmarriageandhadneverpermittedhimselftothinkofotherwomen。Hedidnotwanttothinkofotherwomen。
WhathewantedwastodotheworkofGodquietlyandearnestly。
Inthesouloftheministerastruggleawoke。FromwantingtoreachtheearsofKateSwift,andthroughhissermonstodelveintohersoul,hebegantowantalsotolookagainatthefigurelyingwhiteandquietinthebed。OnaSundaymorningwhenhecouldnotsleepbecauseofhisthoughtshearoseandwenttowalkinthestreets。WhenhehadgonealongMainStreetalmosttotheoldRichmondplacehestoppedandpickingupastonerushedofftotheroominthebelltower。WiththestonehebrokeoutacornerofthewindowandthenlockedthedoorandsatdownatthedeskbeforetheopenBibletowait。WhentheshadeofthewindowtoKateSwift\'sroomwasraisedhecouldsee,throughthehole,directlyintoherbed,butshewasnotthere。ShealsohadarisenandhadgoneforawalkandthehandthatraisedtheshadewasthehandofAuntElizabethSwift。
Theministeralmostweptwithjoyatthisdeliver-
ancefromthecarnaldesireto\"peep\"andwentbacktohisownhousepraisingGod。Inanillmomentheforgot,however,tostoptheholeinthewindow。
ThepieceofglassbrokenoutatthecornerofthewindowjustnippedoffthebareheeloftheboystandingmotionlessandlookingwithrapteyesintothefaceoftheChrist。
CurtisHartmanforgothissermononthatSundaymorning。Hetalkedtohiscongregationandinhistalksaidthatitwasamistakeforpeopletothinkoftheirministerasamansetasideandintendedbynaturetoleadablamelesslife。\"OutofmyownexperienceIknowthatwe,whoaretheministersofGod\'sword,arebesetbythesametemptationsthatassailyou,\"hedeclared。\"Ihavebeentemptedandhavesurrenderedtotemptation。ItisonlythehandofGod,placedbeneathmyhead,thathasraisedmeup。Ashehasraisedmesoalsowillheraiseyou。
Donotdespair。Inyourhourofsinraiseyoureyestotheskiesandyouwillbeagainandagainsaved。\"
Resolutelytheministerputthethoughtsofthewomaninthebedoutofhismindandbegantobesomethinglikealoverinthepresenceofhiswife。
OneeveningwhentheydroveouttogetherheturnedthehorseoutofBuckeyeStreetandinthedarknessonGospelHill,aboveWaterworksPond,puthisarmaboutSarahHartman\'swaist。Whenhehadeatenbreakfastinthemorningandwasreadytoretiretohisstudyatthebackofhishousehewentaroundthetableandkissedhiswifeonthecheek。WhenthoughtsofKateSwiftcameintohishead,hesmiledandraisedhiseyestotheskies。
\"Intercedeforme,Master,\"hemuttered,\"keepmeinthenarrowpathintentonThywork。\"
Andnowbegantherealstruggleinthesoulofthebrown-beardedminister。Bychancehediscov-
eredthatKateSwiftwasinthehabitoflyinginherbedintheeveningsandreadingabook。Alampstoodonatablebythesideofthebedandthelightstreameddownuponherwhiteshouldersandbarethroat。Ontheeveningwhenhemadethediscoverytheministersatatthedeskinthedustyroomfromnineuntilafterelevenandwhenherlightwasputoutstumbledoutofthechurchtospendtwomorehourswalkingandprayinginthestreets。HedidnotwanttokisstheshouldersandthethroatofKateSwiftandhadnotallowedhismindtodwellonsuchthoughts。Hedidnotknowwhathewanted。
\"IamGod\'schildandhemustsavemefrommy-
self,\"hecried,inthedarknessunderthetreesashewanderedinthestreets。Byatreehestoodandlookedattheskythatwascoveredwithhurryingclouds。HebegantotalktoGodintimatelyandclosely。\"Please,Father,donotforgetme。Givemepowertogotomorrowandrepairtheholeinthewindow。Liftmyeyesagaintotheskies。Staywithme,Thyservant,inhishourofneed。\"
Upanddownthroughthesilentstreetswalkedtheministerandfordaysandweekshissoulwastroubled。Hecouldnotunderstandthetemptationthathadcometohimnorcouldhefathomtherea-
sonforitscoming。InawayhebegantoblameGod,sayingtohimselfthathehadtriedtokeephisfeetinthetruepathandhadnotrunaboutseekingsin。
\"ThroughmydaysasayoungmanandallthroughmylifehereIhavegonequietlyaboutmywork,\"
hedeclared。\"WhynowshouldIbetempted?WhathaveIdonethatthisburdenshouldbelaidonme?\"
ThreetimesduringtheearlyfallandwinterofthatyearCurtisHartmancreptoutofhishousetotheroominthebelltowertositinthedarknesslookingatthefigureofKateSwiftlyinginherbedandlaterwenttowalkandprayinthestreets。Hecouldnotunderstandhimself。Forweekshewouldgoalongscarcelythinkingoftheschoolteacherandtellinghimselfthathehadconqueredthecarnalde-
siretolookatherbody。Andthensomethingwouldhappen。Ashesatinthestudyofhisownhouse,hardatworkonasermon,hewouldbecomener-
vousandbegintowalkupanddowntheroom。\"I
willgooutintothestreets,\"hetoldhimselfandevenashelethimselfinatthechurchdoorheper-
sistentlydeniedtohimselfthecauseofhisbeingthere。\"IwillnotrepairtheholeinthewindowandIwilltrainmyselftocomehereatnightandsitinthepresenceofthiswomanwithoutraisingmyeyes。
Iwillnotbedefeatedinthisthing。TheLordhasdevisedthistemptationasatestofmysoulandI
willgropemywayoutofdarknessintothelightofrighteousness。\"
OnenightinJanuarywhenitwasbittercoldandsnowlaydeeponthestreetsofWinesburgCurtisHartmanpaidhislastvisittotheroominthebelltowerofthechurch。Itwaspastnineo\'clockwhenhelefthisownhouseandhesetoutsohurriedlythatheforgottoputonhisovershoes。InMainStreetnoonewasabroadbutHopHigginsthenightwatchmanandinthewholetownnoonewasawakebutthewatchmanandyoungGeorgeWillard,whosatintheofficeoftheWinesburgEagletryingtowriteastory。Alongthestreettothechurchwenttheminister,plowingthroughthedriftsandthinkingthatthistimehewouldutterlygivewaytosin。\"I
wanttolookatthewomanandtothinkofkissinghershouldersandIamgoingtoletmyselfthinkwhatIchoose,\"hedeclaredbitterlyandtearscameintohiseyes。Hebegantothinkthathewouldgetoutoftheministryandtrysomeotherwayoflife。
\"Ishallgotosomecityandgetintobusiness,\"hedeclared。\"IfmynatureissuchthatIcannotresistsin,Ishallgivemyselfovertosin。AtleastIshallnotbeahypocrite,preachingthewordofGodwithmymindthinkingoftheshouldersandneckofawomanwhodoesnotbelongtome。\"
ItwascoldintheroomofthebelltowerofthechurchonthatJanuarynightandalmostassoonashecameintotheroomCurtisHartmanknewthatifhestayedhewouldbeill。Hisfeetwerewetfromtrampinginthesnowandtherewasnofire。IntheroominthehousenextdoorKateSwifthadnotyetappeared。Withgrimdeterminationthemansatdowntowait。SittinginthechairandgrippingtheedgeofthedeskonwhichlaytheBiblehestaredintothedarknessthinkingtheblackestthoughtsofhislife。Hethoughtofhiswifeandforthemomentalmosthatedher。\"Shehasalwaysbeenashamedofpassionandhascheatedme,\"hethought。\"Manhasarighttoexpectlivingpassionandbeautyinawoman。Hehasnorighttoforgetthatheisanani-
malandinmethereissomethingthatisGreek。I
willthrowoffthewomanofmybosomandseekotherwomen。Iwillbesiegethisschoolteacher。I
willflyinthefaceofallmenandifIamacreatureofcarnallustsIwilllivethenformylusts。\"
Thedistractedmantrembledfromheadtofoot,partlyfromcold,partlyfromthestruggleinwhichhewasengaged。Hourspassedandafeverassailedhisbody。Histhroatbegantohurtandhisteethchattered。Hisfeetonthestudyfloorfeltliketwocakesofice。Stillhewouldnotgiveup。\"IwillseethiswomanandwillthinkthethoughtsIhaveneverdaredtothink,\"hetoldhimself,grippingtheedgeofthedeskandwaiting。
CurtisHartmancameneardyingfromtheeffectsofthatnightofwaitinginthechurch,andalsohefoundinthethingthathappenedwhathetooktobethewayoflifeforhim。Onothereveningswhenhehadwaitedhehadnotbeenabletosee,throughthelittleholeintheglass,anypartoftheschoolteacher\'sroomexceptthatoccupiedbyherbed。Inthedarknesshehadwaiteduntilthewomansud-
denlyappearedsittinginthebedinherwhitenight-
robe。Whenthelightwasturnedupsheproppedherselfupamongthe\'pillowsandreadabook。
Sometimesshesmokedoneofthecigarettes。Onlyherbareshouldersandthroatwerevisible。
OntheJanuarynight,afterhehadcomeneardyingwithcoldandafterhismindhadtwoorthreetimesactuallyslippedawayintoanoddlandoffan-
tasysothathehadbyanexerciseofwillpowertoforcehimselfbackintoconsciousness,KateSwiftappeared。Intheroomnextdooralampwaslightedandthewaitingmanstaredintoanemptybed。Thenuponthebedbeforehiseyesanakedwomanthrewherself。Lyingfacedownwardsheweptandbeatwithherfistsuponthepillow。Withafinaloutburstofweepingshehalfarose,andinthepresenceofthemanwhohadwaitedtolookandnottothinkthoughtsthewomanofsinbegantopray。Inthelamplightherfigure,slimandstrong,lookedlikethefigureoftheboyinthepresenceoftheChristontheleadedwindow。
CurtisHartmanneverrememberedhowhegotoutofthechurch。Withacryhearose,draggingtheheavydeskalongthefloor。TheBiblefell,makingagreatclatterinthesilence。Whenthelightinthehousenextdoorwentouthestumbleddownthestairwayandintothestreet。AlongthestreethewentandraninatthedooroftheWinesburgEagle。
ToGeorgeWillard,whowastrampingupanddownintheofficeundergoingastruggleofhisown,hebegantotalkhalfincoherently。\"ThewaysofGodarebeyondhumanunderstanding,\"hecried,run-
ninginquicklyandclosingthedoor。Hebegantoadvanceupontheyoungman,hiseyesglowingandhisvoiceringingwithfervor。\"Ihavefoundthelight,\"hecried。\"Aftertenyearsinthistown,Godhasmanifestedhimselftomeinthebodyofawoman。\"Hisvoicedroppedandhebegantowhis-
per。\"Ididnotunderstand,\"hesaid。\"WhatItooktobeatrialofmysoulwasonlyapreparationforanewandmorebeautifulfervorofthespirit。GodhasappearedtomeinthepersonofKateSwift,theschoolteacher,kneelingnakedonabed。DoyouknowKateSwift?Althoughshemaynotbeawareofit,sheisaninstrumentofGod,bearingthemes-
sageoftruth。\"
ReverendCurtisHartmanturnedandranoutoftheoffice。Atthedoorhestopped,andafterlookingupanddownthedesertedstreet,turnedagaintoGeorgeWillard。\"Iamdelivered。Havenofear。\"Heheldupableedingfistfortheyoungmantosee。\"I
smashedtheglassofthewindow,\"hecried。\"Nowitwillhavetobewhollyreplaced。ThestrengthofGodwasinmeandIbrokeitwithmyfist。\"
THETEACHER
SNOWLAYDEEPinthestreetsofWinesburg。Ithadbeguntosnowaboutteno\'clockinthemorningandawindsprangupandblewthesnowincloudsalongMainStreet。Thefrozenmudroadsthatledintotownwerefairlysmoothandinplacesicecov-
eredthemud。\"Therewillbegoodsleighing,\"saidWillHenderson,standingbythebarinEdGriffith\'ssaloon。OutofthesaloonhewentandmetSylvesterWestthedruggiststumblingalonginthekindofheavyovershoescalledarctics。\"SnowwillbringthepeopleintotownonSaturday,\"saidthedruggist。
Thetwomenstoppedanddiscussedtheiraffairs。
WillHenderson,whohadonalightovercoatandnoovershoes,kickedtheheelofhisleftfootwiththetoeoftheright。\"Snowwillbegoodforthewheat,\"observedthedruggistsagely。
YoungGeorgeWillard,whohadnothingtodo,wasgladbecausehedidnotfeellikeworkingthatday。TheweeklypaperhadbeenprintedandtakentothepostofficeWednesdayeveningandthesnowbegantofallonThursday。Ateighto\'clock,afterthemorningtrainhadpassed,heputapairofskatesinhispocketandwentuptoWaterworksPondbutdidnotgoskating。PastthepondandalongapaththatfollowedWineCreekhewentuntilhecametoagroveofbeechtrees。Therehebuiltafireagainstthesideofalogandsatdownattheendofthelogtothink。Whenthesnowbegantofallandthewindtoblowhehurriedaboutgettingfuelforthefire。
TheyoungreporterwasthinkingofKateSwift,whohadoncebeenhisschoolteacher。Ontheeve-
ningbeforehehadgonetoherhousetogetabookshewantedhimtoreadandhadbeenalonewithherforanhour。Forthefourthorfifthtimethewomanhadtalkedtohimwithgreatearnestnessandhecouldnotmakeoutwhatshemeantbyhertalk。Hebegantobelieveshemustbeinlovewithhimandthethoughtwasbothpleasingandannoying。
Upfromtheloghesprangandbegantopilesticksonthefire。Lookingabouttobesurehewasalonehetalkedaloudpretendinghewasinthepresenceofthewoman,\"Oh,,you\'rejustlettingon,youknowyouare,\"hedeclared。\"Iamgoingtofindoutaboutyou。Youwaitandsee。\"
Theyoungmangotupandwentbackalongthepathtowardtownleavingthefireblazinginthewood。Ashewentthroughthestreetstheskatesclankedinhispocket。InhisownroomintheNewWillardHousehebuiltafireinthestoveandlaydownontopofthebed。Hebegantohavelustfulthoughtsandpullingdowntheshadeofthewindowclosedhiseyesandturnedhisfacetothewall。Hetookapillowintohisarmsandembraceditthinkingfirstoftheschoolteacher,whobyherwordshadstirredsomethingwithinhim,andlaterofHelenWhite,theslimdaughterofthetownbanker,withwhomhehadbeenforalongtimehalfinlove。
Bynineo\'clockofthateveningsnowlaydeepinthestreetsandtheweatherhadbecomebittercold。
Itwasdifficulttowalkabout。Thestoresweredarkandthepeoplehadcrawledawaytotheirhouses。
TheeveningtrainfromClevelandwasverylatebutnobodywasinterestedinitsarrival。Byteno\'clockallbutfouroftheeighteenhundredcitizensofthetownwereinbed。
HopHiggins,thenightwatchman,waspartiallyawake。Hewaslameandcarriedaheavystick。Ondarknightshecarriedalantern。Betweennineandteno\'clockhewenthisrounds。UpanddownMainStreethestumbledthroughthedriftstryingthedoorsofthestores。Thenhewentintoalleywaysandtriedthebackdoors。FindingalltighthehurriedaroundthecornertotheNewWillardHouseandbeatonthedoor。Throughtherestofthenightheintendedtostaybythestove。\"Yougotobed。I\'llkeepthestovegoing,\"hesaidtotheboywhosleptonacotinthehoteloffice。
HopHigginssatdownbythestoveandtookoffhisshoes。Whentheboyhadgonetosleephebegantothinkofhisownaffairs。Heintendedtopainthishouseinthespringandsatbythestovecalculatingthecostofpaintandlabor。Thatledhimintoothercalculations。Thenightwatchmanwassixtyyearsoldandwantedtoretire。HehadbeenasoldierintheCivilWaranddrewasmallpension。Hehopedtofindsomenewmethodofmakingalivingandaspiredtobecomeaprofessionalbreederofferrets。
Alreadyhehadfourofthestrangelyshapedsavagelittlecreatures,thatareusedbysportsmeninthepursuitofrabbits,inthecellarofhishouse。\"NowIhaveonemaleandthreefemales,\"hemused。\"IfIamluckybyspringIshallhavetwelveorfifteen。
InanotheryearIshallbeabletobeginadvertisingferretsforsaleinthesportingpapers。\"
Thenightwatchmansettledintohischairandhismindbecameablank。Hedidnotsleep。Byyearsofpracticehehadtrainedhimselftositforhoursthroughthelongnightsneitherasleepnorawake。
Inthemorninghewasalmostasrefreshedasthoughhehadslept。
WithHopHigginssafelystowedawayinthechairbehindthestoveonlythreepeoplewereawakeinWinesburg。GeorgeWillardwasintheofficeoftheEaglepretendingtobeatworkonthewritingofastorybutinrealitycontinuingthemoodofthemorningbythefireinthewood。InthebelltowerofthePresbyterianChurchtheReverendCurtisHartmanwassittinginthedarknesspreparinghim-
selfforarevelationfromGod,andKateSwift,theschoolteacher,wasleavingherhouseforawalkinthestorm。
Itwaspastteno\'clockwhenKateSwiftsetoutandthewalkwasunpremeditated。Itwasasthoughthemanandtheboy,bythinkingofher,haddrivenherforthintothewintrystreets。AuntElizabethSwifthadgonetothecountyseatconcerningsomebusinessinconnectionwithmortgagesinwhichshehadmoneyinvestedandwouldnotbebackuntilthenextday。Byahugestove,calledabaseburner,inthelivingroomofthehousesatthedaughterreadingabook。Suddenlyshesprangtoherfeetand,snatchingacloakfromarackbythefrontdoor,ranoutofthehouse。
AttheageofthirtyKateSwiftwasnotknowninWinesburgasaprettywoman。Hercomplexionwasnotgoodandherfacewascoveredwithblotchesthatindicatedillhealth。Aloneinthenightinthewinterstreetsshewaslovely。Herbackwasstraight,hershoulderssquare,andherfeatureswereasthefeaturesofatinygoddessonapedestalinagardeninthedimlightofasummerevening。
DuringtheafternoontheschoolteacherhadbeentoseeDoctorWellingconcerningherhealth。Thedoctorhadscoldedherandhaddeclaredshewasindangeroflosingherhearing。ItwasfoolishforKateSwifttobeabroadinthestorm,foolishandperhapsdangerous。
Thewomaninthestreetsdidnotrememberthewordsofthedoctorandwouldnothaveturnedbackhadsheremembered。Shewasverycoldbutafterwalkingforfiveminutesnolongermindedthecold。
FirstshewenttotheendofherownstreetandthenacrossapairofhayscalessetinthegroundbeforeafeedbarnandintoTrunionPike。AlongTrunionPikeshewenttoNedWinters\'barnandturningeastfollowedastreetoflowframehousesthatledoverGospelHillandintoSuckerRoadthatrandownashallowvalleypastIkeSmead\'schickenfarmtoWaterworksPond。Asshewentalong,thebold,ex-
citedmoodthathaddrivenheroutofdoorspassedandthenreturnedagain。
TherewassomethingbitingandforbiddinginthecharacterofKateSwift。Everyonefeltit。Intheschoolroomshewassilent,cold,andstern,andyetinanoddwayveryclosetoherpupils。Onceinalongwhilesomethingseemedtohavecomeoverherandshewashappy。Allofthechildrenintheschoolroomfelttheeffectofherhappiness。Foratimetheydidnotworkbutsatbackintheirchairsandlookedather。
Withhandsclaspedbehindherbacktheschoolteacherwalkedupanddownintheschoolroomandtalkedveryrapidly。Itdidnotseemtomatterwhatsubjectcameintohermind。OnceshetalkedtothechildrenofCharlesLambandmadeupstrange,inti-
matelittlestoriesconcerningthelifeofthedeadwriter。ThestoriesweretoldwiththeairofonewhohadlivedinahousewithCharlesLambandknewallthesecretsofhisprivatelife。Thechildrenweresomewhatconfused,thinkingCharlesLambmustbesomeonewhohadoncelivedinWinesburg。
Onanotheroccasiontheteachertalkedtothechil-
drenofBenvenutoCellini。Thattimetheylaughed。
Whatabragging,blustering,brave,lovablefellowshemadeoftheoldartist!Concerninghimalsosheinventedanecdotes。TherewasoneofaGermanmusicteacherwhohadaroomaboveCellini\'slodg-
ingsinthecityofMilanthatmadetheboysguffaw。
SugarsMcNutts,afatboywithredcheeks,laughedsohardthathebecamedizzyandfelloffhisseatandKateSwiftlaughedwithhim。Thensuddenlyshebecameagaincoldandstern。
Onthewinternightwhenshewalkedthroughthedesertedsnow-coveredstreets,acrisishadcomeintothelifeoftheschoolteacher。AlthoughnooneinWinesburgwouldhavesuspectedit,herlifehadbeenveryadventurous。Itwasstilladventurous。
Daybydayassheworkedintheschoolroomorwalkedinthestreets,grief,hope,anddesirefoughtwithinher。Behindacoldexteriorthemostextraor-
dinaryeventstranspiredinhermind。Thepeopleofthetownthoughtofherasaconfirmedoldmaidandbecauseshespokesharplyandwentherownwaythoughtherlackinginallthehumanfeelingthatdidsomuchtomakeandmartheirownlives。
Inrealityshewasthemosteagerlypassionatesoulamongthem,andmorethanonce,inthefiveyearssinceshehadcomebackfromhertravelstosettleinWinesburgandbecomeaschoolteacher,hadbeencompelledtogooutofthehouseandwalkhalfthroughthenightfightingoutsomebattleragingwithin。OnceonanightwhenitrainedshehadstayedoutsixhoursandwhenshecamehomehadaquarrelwithAuntElizabethSwift。\"Iamgladyou\'renotaman,\"saidthemothersharply。\"MorethanonceI\'vewaitedforyourfathertocomehome,notknowingwhatnewmesshehadgotinto。I\'vehadmyshareofuncertaintyandyoucannotblamemeifIdonotwanttoseetheworstsideofhimreproducedinyou。\"
KateSwift\'smindwasablazewiththoughtsofGeorgeWillard。Insomethinghehadwrittenasaschoolboyshethoughtshehadrecognizedthesparkofgeniusandwantedtoblowonthespark。
OnedayinthesummershehadgonetotheEagleofficeandfindingtheboyunoccupiedhadtakenhimoutMainStreettotheFairGround,wherethetwosatonagrassybankandtalked。Theschoolteachertriedtobringhometothemindoftheboysomeconceptionofthedifficultieshewouldhavetofaceasawriter。\"Youwillhavetoknowlife,\"shedeclared,andhervoicetrembledwithearnestness。
ShetookholdofGeorgeWillard\'sshouldersandturnedhimaboutsothatshecouldlookintohiseyes。Apasser-bymighthavethoughtthemabouttoembrace。\"Ifyouaretobecomeawriteryou\'llhavetostopfoolingwithwords,\"sheexplained。\"Itwouldbebettertogiveupthenotionofwritinguntilyouarebetterprepared。Nowit\'stimetobeliving。Idon\'twanttofrightenyou,butIwouldliketomakeyouunderstandtheimportofwhatyouthinkofattempting。Youmustnotbecomeamerepeddlerofwords。Thethingtolearnistoknowwhatpeoplearethinkingabout,notwhattheysay。\"
OntheeveningbeforethatstormyThursdaynightwhentheReverendCurtisHartmansatinthebelltowerofthechurchwaitingtolookatherbody,youngWillardhadgonetovisittheteacherandtoborrowabook。Itwasthenthethinghappenedthatconfusedandpuzzledtheboy。Hehadthebookunderhisarmandwaspreparingtodepart。AgainKateSwifttalkedwithgreatearnestness。Nightwascomingonandthelightintheroomgrewdim。Asheturnedtogoshespokehisnamesoftlyandwithanimpulsivemovementtookholdofhishand。Be-
causethereporterwasrapidlybecomingamansomethingofhisman\'sappeal,combinedwiththewinsomenessoftheboy,stirredtheheartofthelonelywoman。Apassionatedesiretohavehimun-
derstandtheimportoflife,tolearntointerpretittrulyandhonestly,sweptoverher。Leaningfor-
ward,herlipsbrushedhischeek。Atthesamemo-
mentheforthefirsttimebecameawareofthemarkedbeautyofherfeatures。Theywerebothem-
barrassed,andtorelieveherfeelingshebecameharshanddomineering。\"What\'stheuse?ItwillbetenyearsbeforeyoubegintounderstandwhatI
meanwhenItalktoyou,\"shecriedpassionately。
Onthenightofthestormandwhiletheministersatinthechurchwaitingforher,KateSwiftwenttotheofficeoftheWinesburgEagle,intendingtohaveanothertalkwiththeboy。Afterthelongwalkinthesnowshewascold,lonely,andtired。AsshecamethroughMainStreetshesawthefightfromtheprintshopwindowshiningonthesnowandonanimpulseopenedthedoorandwentin。Foranhourshesatbythestoveintheofficetalkingoflife。Shetalkedwithpassionateearnestness。Theimpulsethathaddrivenheroutintothesnowpoureditselfoutintotalk。Shebecameinspiredasshesometimesdidinthepresenceofthechildreninschool。Agreateagernesstoopenthedooroflifetotheboy,whohadbeenherpupilandwhoshethoughtmightpos-
sessatalentfortheunderstandingoflife,hadpos-
sessionofher。Sostrongwasherpassionthatitbecamesomethingphysical。Againherhandstookholdofhisshouldersandsheturnedhimabout。Inthedimlighthereyesblazed。Shearoseandlaughed,notsharplyaswascustomarywithher,butinaqueer,hesitatingway。\"Imustbegoing,\"shesaid。\"Inamoment,ifIstay,I\'llbewantingtokissyou。\"
Inthenewspaperofficeaconfusionarose。KateSwiftturnedandwalkedtothedoor。Shewasateacherbutshewasalsoawoman。AsshelookedatGeorgeWillard,thepassionatedesiretobelovedbyaman,thathadathousandtimesbeforesweptlikeastormoverherbody,tookpossessionofher。
InthelamplightGeorgeWillardlookednolongeraboy,butamanreadytoplaythepartofaman。
TheschoolteacherletGeorgeWillardtakeherintohisarms。Inthewarmlittleofficetheairbecamesuddenlyheavyandthestrengthwentoutofherbody。Leaningagainstalowcounterbythedoorshewaited。Whenhecameandputahandonhershoul-
dersheturnedandletherbodyfallheavilyagainsthim。ForGeorgeWillardtheconfusionwasimmedi-
atelyincreased。Foramomentheheldthebodyofthewomantightlyagainsthisbodyandthenitstiff-
ened。Twosharplittlefistsbegantobeatonhisface。
Whentheschoolteacherhadrunawayandlefthimalone,hewalkedupanddowntheofficeswearingfuriously。
ItwasintothisconfusionthattheReverendCurtisHartmanprotrudedhimself。WhenhecameinGeorgeWillardthoughtthetownhadgonemad。
Shakingableedingfistintheair,theministerpro-
claimedthewomanGeorgehadonlyamomentbe-
foreheldinhisarmsaninstrumentofGodbearingamessageoftruth。
Georgeblewoutthelampbythewindowandlockingthedooroftheprintshopwenthome。
Throughthehoteloffice,pastHopHigginslostinhisdreamoftheraisingofferrets,hewentandupintohisownroom。Thefireinthestovehadgoneoutandheundressedinthecold。Whenhegotintobedthesheetswerelikeblanketsofdrysnow。
GeorgeWillardrolledaboutinthebedonwhichhadlainintheafternoonhuggingthepillowandthinkingthoughtsofKateSwift。Thewordsoftheminister,whohethoughthadgonesuddenlyin-
sane,ranginhisears。Hiseyesstaredabouttheroom。Theresentment,naturaltothebaffledmale,passedandhetriedtounderstandwhathadhap-
pened。Hecouldnotmakeitout。Overandoverheturnedthematterinhismind。Hourspassedandhebegantothinkitmustbetimeforanotherdaytocome。Atfouro\'clockhepulledthecoversupabouthisneckandtriedtosleep。Whenhebecamedrowsyandclosedhiseyes,heraisedahandandwithitgropedaboutinthedarkness。\"Ihavemissedsome-
thing。IhavemissedsomethingKateSwiftwastry-
ingtotellme,\"hemutteredsleepily。ThenhesleptandinallWinesburghewasthelastsoulonthatwinternighttogotosleep。
LONELINESS
HEWASTHEsonofMrs。AlRobinsonwhoonceownedafarmonasideroadleadingoffTrunionPike,eastofWinesburgandtwomilesbeyondthetownlimits。Thefarmhousewaspaintedbrownandtheblindstoallofthewindowsfacingtheroadwerekeptclosed。Intheroadbeforethehouseaflockofchickens,accompaniedbytwoguineahens,layinthedeepdust。EnochlivedinthehousewithhismotherinthosedaysandwhenhewasayoungboywenttoschoolattheWinesburgHighSchool。Oldcitizensrememberedhimasaquiet,smilingyouthinclinedtosilence。Hewalkedinthemiddleoftheroadwhenhecameintotownandsometimesreadabook。Driversofteamshadtoshoutandsweartomakehimrealizewherehewassothathewouldturnoutofthebeatentrackandletthempass。
Whenhewastwenty-oneyearsoldEnochwenttoNewYorkCityandwasacitymanforfifteenyears。HestudiedFrenchandwenttoanartschool,hopingtodevelopafacultyhehadfordrawing。InhisownmindheplannedtogotoParisandtofinishhisarteducationamongthemastersthere,butthatneverturnedout。
NothingeverturnedoutforEnochRobinson。Hecoulddrawwellenoughandhehadmanyodddeli-
catethoughtshiddenawayinhisbrainthatmighthaveexpressedthemselvesthroughthebrushofapainter,buthewasalwaysachildandthatwasahandicaptohisworldlydevelopment。Henevergrewupandofcoursehecouldn\'tunderstandpeo-
pleandhecouldn\'tmakepeopleunderstandhim。
Thechildinhimkeptbumpingagainstthings,againstactualitieslikemoneyandsexandopinions。
Oncehewashitbyastreetcarandthrownagainstanironpost。Thatmadehimlame。ItwasoneofthemanythingsthatkeptthingsfromturningoutforEnochRobinsonInNewYorkCity,whenhefirstwenttheretoliveandbeforehebecameconfusedanddisconcertedbythefactsoflife,Enochwentaboutagooddealwithyoungmen。Hegotintoagroupofotheryoungartists,bothmenandwomen,andintheeveningstheysometimescametovisithiminhisroom。Oncehegotdrunkandwastakentoapolicestationwhereapolicemagistratefrightenedhimhorribly,andoncehetriedtohaveanaffairwithawomanofthetownmetonthesidewalkbeforehislodginghouse。ThewomanandEnochwalkedtogetherthreeblocksandthentheyoungmangrewafraidandranaway。Thewomanhadbeendrinkingandtheincidentamusedher。Sheleanedagainstthewallofabuildingandlaughedsoheartilythatanothermanstoppedandlaughedwithher。Thetwowentawaytogether,stilllaughing,andEnochcreptofftohisroomtremblingandvexed。
TheroominwhichyoungRobinsonlivedinNewYorkfacedWashingtonSquareandwaslongandnarrowlikeahallway。Itisimportanttogetthatfixedinyourmind。ThestoryofEnochisinfactthestoryofaroomalmostmorethanitisthestoryofaman。