第11章

类别:其他 作者:Emily Bronte字数:18602更新时间:18/12/14 16:56:42
`Andthenyouwouldlikemeaswellasyourfather?\'observedhe,morecheerfully。`Butpapasaysyouwouldlovemebetterthanhimandalltheworld,ifyouweremywife;soI\'dratheryouwerethat。\' `No,Ishouldneverloveanybodybetterthanpapa,\'shereturnedgravely。`Andpeoplehatetheirwives,sometimes;butnottheirsistersandbrothers:andifyouwerethelatteryouwouldlivewithus,andpapawouldbeasfondofyouasheisofme。\' Lintondeniedthatpeopleeverhatedtheirwives;butCathyaffirmedtheydid,and,inherwisdom,instancedhisownfather\'saversiontoheraunt。Iendeavouredtostopherthoughtlesstongue。Icouldn\'tsucceedtilleverythingsheknewwasout。MasterHeathcliff,muchirritated,assertedherrelationwasfalse。 `Papatoldme;andpapadoesnottellfalsehoods,\'sheansweredpertly。 `Nypapascornsyours!\'criedLinton。`Hecallshimasneakingfool!\' `Yoursisawickedman,\'retortedCatherine,`andyouareverynaughtytodaretorepeatwhathesays。HemustbewickedtohavemadeAuntIsabellaleavehimasshedid!\' `Shedidn\'tleavehim,\'saidtheboy;`youshan\'tcontradictme!\' `Shedid!\'criedmyyounglady。 `Well,I\'lltellyousomething!\'saidLinton。`Yourmotherhatedyourfather:nowthen。\' `Oh!\'exclaimedCatherine,tooenragedtocontinue。`Andshelovedmine!\'addedhe。 `Youlittleliar!Ihateyounow,\'shepanted,andherfacegrewredwithpassion。 `Shedid!shedid!\'sangLinton,sinkingintotherecessofhischair,andleaningbackhisheadtoenjoytheagitationoftheotherdisputant,whostoodbehind。 `Hush,MasterHeathcliff!\'Isaid;`that\'syourfather\'stale,too,Isuppose。\' `Itisn\'t:youholdyourtongue!\'heanswered。`Shedid,shedid,Catherine!shedid,shedid!\' Cathy,besideherself,gavethechairaviolentpush,andcausedhimtofallagainstonearm。Hewasimmediatelyseizedbyasuffocatingcoughthatsoonendedhistriumph。Itlastedsolongthatitfrightenedevenme。Astohiscousin,shewept,withallhermight;aghastatthemischiefshehaddone:thoughshesaidnothing。Iheldhimtillthefitexhausteditself。Thenhethrustmeaway,andleanthisheaddownsilently。 Catherinequelledherlamentationsalso,tookaseatopposite,andlookedsolemnlyintothefire。 `Howdoyoufeelnow,MasterHeathcliff?\'Iinquired,afterwaitingtenminutes。 `IwishshefeltasIdo,\'hereplied:`spiteful,cruelthing!Haretonnevertouchesme:heneverstruckmeinhislife。AndI wasbettertoday:andthere——`hisvoicediedinawhimper。 `Ididn\'tstrikeyou!\'mutteredCathy,chewingherliptopreventanotherburstofemotion。 Hesighedandmoanedlikeoneundergreatsuffering,andkeptitupforaquarterofanhour;onpurposetodistresshiscousinapparently,forwheneverhecaughtastifledsobfromherheputrenewedpainandpathosintotheinflectionsofhisvoice。 `I\'msorryIhurtyou,Linton,\'shesaidatlength,rackedbeyondendurance。`ButIcouldn\'thavebeenhurtbythatlittlepush,andIhadnoideathatyoucould,either:you\'renotmuch,areyou,Linton? Don\'tletmegohomethinkingI\'vedoneyouharm。Answer!speaktome。\' `Ican\'tspeaktoyou,\'hemurmured;`you\'vehurtmeso,thatIshalllieawakeallnightchokingwiththiscough。Ifyouhadityou\'dknowwhatitwas;butyou\'llbecomfortablyasleepwhileI\'minagony,andnobodynearme。Iwonderhowyouwouldliketopassthosefearfulnights!\'Andhebegantowailaloud,forverypityofhimself。 `Sinceyouareinthehabitofpassingdreadfulnights,\'Isaid,`itwon\'tbemisswhospoilsyourease:you\'dbethesamehadshenevercome。However,sheshallnotdisturbyouagain;andperhapsyou\'llgetquieterwhenweleaveyou。 `MustIgo?\'askedCatherinedolefully,bendingoverhim。`Doyouwantmetogo,Linton?\' `Youcan\'talterwhatyou\'vedone,\'herepliedpettishly,shrinkingfromher,`unlessyoualteritfortheworsebyteasingmeintoafever。\' `Well,then,Imustgo?\'sherepeated。 `Letmealone,atleast,\'saidhe;`Ican\'tbearyourtalking。\' Shelingered,andresistedmypersuasionstodepartureatiresomewhile;butasheneitherlookedupnorspoke,shefinallymadeamovementtothedoorandIfollowed。Wewererecalledbyascream。Lintonhadslidfromhisseatontothehearthstone,andlaywrithinginthemereperversenessofanindulgedplagueofachild,determinedtobeasgrievousandharassingasitcan。Ithoroughlygaugedhisdispositionfromhisbehaviour,andsawatonceitwouldbefollytoattempthumouringhim。Notsomycompanion: sheranbackinterror,kneltdown,andcried,andsoothed,andentreated,tillhegrewquietfromlackofbreath:bynomeansfromcompunctionatdistressingher。 `Ishalllifthimonthesettle,\'Isaid,`andhemayrollaboutashepleases:wecan\'tstoptowatchhim。Ihopeyouaresatisfied,MissCathy,thatyouarenotthepersontobenefithim;andthathisconditionofhealthisnotoccasionedbyattachmenttoyou。Now,then,thereheis!Comeaway:assoonasheknowsthereisnobodybytocareforhisnonsense,he\'llbegladtoliestill。\' Sheplacedacushionunderhishead,andofferedhimsomewater; herejectedthelatter,andtosseduneasilyontheformer,asifitwereastoneorablockofwood。Shetriedtoputitmorecomfortably。 `Ican\'tdowiththat,\'hesaid;`it\'snothighenough。\' Catherinebroughtanothertolayaboveit。 `That\'stoohigh,\'murmuredtheprovokingthing。 `HowmustIarrangeit,then?\'sheaskeddespairingly。 Hetwinedhimselfuptoher,asshehalfkneltbythesettle,andconvertedhershoulderintoasupport。 `No,thatwon\'tdo,\'Isaid。`You\'llbecontentwiththecushion,MasterHeathcliff。Misshaswastedtoomuchtimeonyoualready:wecannotremainfiveminuteslonger。\' `Yes,yes,wecan!\'repliedCathy。`He\'sgoodandpatientnow。 He\'sbeginningtothinkIshallhavefargreatermiserythanhewilltonight,ifIbelieveheistheworseformyvisit;andthenIdarenotcomeagain。 Tellthetruthaboutit,Linton;forImustn\'tcome,ifIhavehurtyou。\' `Youmustcome,tocureme,\'heanswered。`Yououghttocome,becauseyouhavehurtme:youknowyouhaveextremely!IwasnotasillwhenyouenteredasIamatpresent——wasI?\' `Butyou\'vemadeyourselfillbycryingandbeinginapassion。\' `Ididn\'tdoitatall,\'saidhiscousin。`However,we\'llbefriendsnow。Andyouwantme:youwouldwishtoseemesometimes,really?\' `ItoldyouIdid,\'herepliedimpatiently。`Sitonthesettleandletmeleanonyourknee。That\'sasmammausedtodo,wholeafternoonstogether。Sitquitestillanddon\'ttalk:butyoumaysingasong,ifyoucansing;oryoumaysayanicelonginterestingballad——oneofthoseyoupromisedtoteachme:orastory。I\'dratherhaveaballad,though:begin。\' Catherinerepeatedthelongestshecouldremember。Theemploymentpleasedbothmightily。Lintonwouldhaveanother;andafterthatanother,notwithstandingmystrenuousobjections;andsotheywentonuntiltheclockstrucktwelve,andweheardHaretoninthecourt,returningforhisdinner。 `Andtomorrow,Catherine,willyoubeheretomorrow?\'askedyoungHeathcliff,holdingherfrockassherosereluctantly。 `No,\'Ianswered,`nornextdayneither。\'She,however,gaveadifferentresponseevidently,forhisforeheadclearedasshestoopedandwhisperedinhisear。 `Youwon\'tgotomorrow,recollect,miss!\'Icommenced,whenwewereoutofthehouse。`Youarenotdreamingofit,areyou?\' `Oh,I\'lltakegoodcare,\'Icontinued:`I\'llhavethatlockmended,andyoucanescapebynowayelse。\' `Icangetoverthewall,\'shesaid,laughing。`TheGrangeisnotaprison,Ellen,andyouarenotmyjailer。Andbesides,I\'malmostseventeen:I\'mawoman。AndI\'mcertainLintonwouldrecoverquicklyifhehadmetolookafterhim。I\'molderthanheis,youknow,andwiser: lesschildish,amInot?Andhe\'llsoondoasIdirecthim,withsomeslightcoaxing。He\'saprettylittledarlingwhenhe\'sgood。I\'dmakesuchapetofhim,ifheweremine。Weshouldneverquarrel,shouldwe,afterwewereusedtoeachother?Don\'tyoulikehim,Ellen?\' `Likehim?\'Iexclaimed。`Theworst-temperedbitofasicklyslipthateverstruggledintoitsteens。Happily,asMrHeathcliffconjectured,he\'llnotwintwenty。Idoubtwhetherhe\'llseespring,indeed。Andsmalllosstohisfamilywheneverhedropsoff。Andluckyitisforusthathisfathertookhim:thekinderhewastreated,themoretediousandselfishhe\'dbe。I\'mgladyouhavenochanceofhavinghimforahusband,MissCatherine。\' Mycompanionwaxedseriousathearingthisspeech。Tospeakofhisdeathsoregardlessly,woundedherfeelings。 `He\'syoungerthanI,\'sheanswered,afteraprotractedpauseofmeditation,`andheoughttolivethelongest:hewill——hemustliveaslongasIdo。He\'sasstrongnowaswhenhefirstcameintothenorth; I\'mpositiveofthat。It\'sonlyacoldthatailshim,thesameaspapahas。Yousaypapawillgetbetter,andwhyshouldn\'the?\' `Well,well,\'Icried,`afterall,weneedn\'ttroubleourselves; forlisten,miss,andmind,I\'llkeepmyword,——ifyouattemptgoingtoWutheringHeightsagain,withorwithoutme,IshallinformMrLinton,and,unlessheallowit,theintimacywithyourcousinmustnotberevived。\' `Ithasbeenrevived,\'mutteredCathysulkily。`Mustnotbecontinued,then,\'Isaid。 `We\'llsee,\'washerreply,andshesetoffatagallop,leavingmetotoilintherear。 Webothreachedhomebeforeourdinnertime;mymastersupposedwehadbeenwanderingthroughthepark,andthereforehedemandednoexplanationofourabsence。AssoonasIentered,Ihastenedtochangemysoakedshoesandstockings;butsittingsuchawhileattheHeightshaddonethemischief。 OnthesucceedingmorningIwaslaidup,andduringthreeweeksIremainedincapacitatedforattendingtomyduties:acalamityneverexperiencedpriortothatperiod,andnever,Iamthankfultosay,since。 Mylittlemistressbehavedlikeanangel,incomingtowaitonme,andcheermysolitude:theconfinementbroughtmeexceedinglylow。 Itiswearisome,toastirringactivebody:butfewhaveslighterreasonsforcomplaintthanIhad。ThemomentCatherineleftMrLinton\'sroom,sheappearedatmybedside。Herdaywasdividedbetweenus;noamusementusurpedaminute:sheneglectedhermeals,herstudies,andherplay;andshewasthefondestnursethateverwatched。Shemusthavehadawarmheart,whenshelovedherfatherso,togivesomuchtome。Isaidherdaysweredividedbetweenus;butthemasterretiredearly,andIgenerallyneedednothingaftersixo\'clock;thustheeveningwasherown。Poorthing!Ineverconsideredwhatshedidwithherselfaftertea。Andthoughfrequently,whenshelookedintobidmegoodnight,Iremarkedafreshcolourinhercheeksandapinknessoverherslenderfingers;insteadoffancyingthehueborrowedfromacoldrideacrossthemoors,Ilaidittothechargeofahotfireinthelibrary。 [NextChapter][TableofContents]WutheringHeights[PreviousChapter][TableofContents]Chapter24Atthecloseofthreeweeks,Iwasabletoquitmychamber,andmoveaboutthehouse。Andonthefirstoccasionofmysittingupintheevening,I askedCatherinetoreadtome,becausemyeyeswereweak。Wewereinthelibrary,themasterhavinggonetobed:sheconsented,ratherunwillingly,Ifancied;andimaginingmysortofbooksdidnotsuither,Ibidherplaceherselfinthechoiceofwhatsheperused。Sheselectedoneofherownfavourites,andgotforwardsteadilyaboutanhour;thencamefrequentquestions。 `Ellen,arenotyoutired?Hadn\'tyoubetterliedownnow?You\'llbesick,keepingupsolong,Ellen。\' `No,no,dear,I\'mnottired,\'Ireturnedcontinually。 Perceivingmeimmovable,sheessayedanothermethodofshowingherdisrelishforheroccupation。Itchangedtoyawning,andstretching,and: `Ellen,I\'mtired。\' `Giveoverthenandtalk,\'Ianswered。 Thatwasworse:shefrettedandsighed,andlikedatherwatchtilleight,andfinallywenttoherroom,completelyoverdonewithsleep; judgingbyherpeevish,heavylook,andtheconstantrubbingsheinflictedonhereyes。Thefollowingnightsheseemedmoreimpatientstill;andonthethirdfromrecoveringmycompany,shecomplainedofaheadache,andleftme。Ithoughtherconductodd;andhavingremainedalonealongwhile,Iresolvedongoingandinquiringwhethershewerebetter,andaskinghertocomeandlieonthesofa,insteadofupstairsinthedark。NoCatherinecouldIdiscoverupstairs,andnonebelow。Theservantsaffirmedtheyhadnotseenher。IlistenedatMrEdgar\'sdoor;allwassilence。Ireturnedtoherapartment,extinguishedmycandle,andseatedmyselfinthewindow。 Themoonshonebright;asprinklingofsnowcoveredtheground,andIreflectedthatshemight,possibly,havetakenitintoherheadtowalkaboutthegarden,forrefreshment。Ididdetectafigurecreepingalongtheinnerfenceofthepark;butitwasnotmyyoungmistress:onitsemergingintothelight,Irecognizedoneofthegrooms。Hestoodaconsiderableperiod,viewingthecarriage-roadthroughthegrounds;thenstartedoffatabriskpace,asifhehaddetectedsomething,andreappearedpresently,leadingmiss\'spony;andthereshewas,justdismounted,andwalkingbyitsside。Themantookhischargestealthilyacrossthegrasstowardsthestable。Cathyenteredbythecasementwindowofthedrawing-room,andglidednoiselesslyuptowhereIawaitedher。Sheputthedoorgentlyto,slippedoffhersnowyshoes,untiedherhat,andwasproceeding,unconsciousofmyespionage,tolayasidehermantle,whenIsuddenlyroseandrevealedmyself。Thesurprisepetrifiedheraninstant:sheutteredaninarticulateexclamation,andstoodfixed。 `MydearMissCatherine,\'Ibegan,toovividlyimpressedbyherrecentkindnesstobreakintoascold,`wherehaveyoubeenridingoutatthishour?Andwhyshouldyoutrytodeceiveme,bytellingatale? Wherehaveyoubeen?Speak。\' `Tothebottomofthepark,\'shestammered。`Ididn\'ttellatale。\' `Andnowhereelse?\'Idemanded。 `No,\'wasthemutteredreply。 `Oh,Catherine!\'Icriedsorrowfully。`Youknowyouhavebeendoingwrong,oryouwouldn\'tbedriventoutteringanuntruthtome。Thatdoesgrieveme。I\'dratherbethreemonthsill,thanhearyouframeadeliberatelie。\' Shesprangforward,andburstingintotears,threwherarmsroundmyneck。 `Well,Ellen,I\'msoafraidofyoubeingangry,\'shesaid。`Promisenottobeangry,andyoushallknowtheverytruth:Ihatetohideit。\' Wesatdowninthewindow-seat;IassuredherIwouldnotscold,whateverhersecretmightbe,andIguesseditofcourse;soshecommenced: `I\'vebeentoWutheringHeights,Ellen,andI\'venevermissedgoingadaysinceyoufellill;exceptthricebefore,andtwiceafteryouleftyourroom。IgaveMichaelbooksandpicturestoprepareMinnyeveryevening,andtoputherbackinthestable:youmustn\'tscoldhimeither,mind。IwasattheHeightsbyhalf-pastsix,andgenerallystayedtillhalfpasteight,andthengallopedhome。ItwasnottoamusemyselfthatIwent:Iwasoftenwretchedallthetime。NowandthenIwashappy; onceinaweekperhaps。Atfirst,IexpectedtherewouldbesadworkpersuadingyoutoletmekeepmywordtoLinton:forIhadengagedtocallagainnextday,whenwequittedhim;but,asyoustayedupstairsonthemorrow,I escapedthattrouble;andwhileMichaelwasrefasteningthelockoftheparkdoorintheafternoon,Igotpossessionofthekey,andtoldhimhowmycousinwishedmetovisithim,becausehewassick,andcouldn\'tcometotheGrange;andhowpapawouldobjecttomygoing:andthenInegotiatedwithhimaboutthepony。Heisfondofreading,andhethinksofleavingsoontogetmarried;soheoffered,ifIwouldlendhimbooksoutofthelibrary,todowhatIwished:butIpreferredgivinghimmyown,andthatsatisfiedhimbetter。 `Onmysecondvisit,Lintonseemedinlivelyspirits;andZillah(thatistheirhousekeeper)madeusacleanroomandagoodfire,andtoldusthat,asJosephwasoutataprayermeetingandHaretonEarnshawwasoffwithhisdogs——robbingourwoodsofpheasants,asIheardafterwards——wemightdowhatweliked。Shebroughtmesomewarmwineandgingerbread,andappearedexceedinglygood-natured;andLintonsatinthearmchair,andIinthelittlerocking-chaironthehearthstone,andwelaughedandtalkedsomerrily,andfoundsomuchtosay:weplannedwherewewouldgo,andwhatwewoulddoinsummer。Ineedn\'trepeatthat,becauseyouwouldcallitsilly。 `Onetime,however,wewerenearquarrelling。HesaidthepleasantestmannerofspendingahotJulydaywaslyingfrommorningtilleveningonabankofheathinthemiddleofthemoors,withthebeeshummingdreamilyaboutamongthebloom,andthelarkssinginghighupoverhead,andtheblueskyandbrightsunshiningsteadilyandcloudlessly。Thatwashismostperfectideaofheaven\'shappiness:minewasrockinginarustlinggreentree,withawestwindblowing,andbrightwhitecloudsflittingrapidlyabove;andnotonlylarks,butthrostles,andblackbirds,andlinnets,andcuckoospouringoutmusiconeveryside,andthemoorsseenatadistance,brokenintocoolduskydells;butclosebygreatswellsoflonggrassundulatinginwavestothebreeze;andwoodsandsoundingwater,andthewholeworldawakeandwildwithjoy。Hewantedalltolieinanecstasyofpeace;I wantedalltosparkleanddanceinagloriousjubilee。Isaidhisheavenwouldbeonlyhalfalive;andhesaidminewouldbedrunk:IsaidIshouldfallasleepinhis;andhesaidhecouldnotbreatheinmine,andbegantogrowverysnappish。Atlast,weagreedtotryboth,assoonastherightweathercame;andthenwekissedeachotherandwerefriends。 `Aftersittingstillanhour,Ilookedatthegreatroomwithitssmoothuncarpetedfloor,andthoughthowniceitwouldbetoplayin,ifweremovedthetable;andIaskedLintontocallZillahintohelpus,andwe\'dhaveagameatblind-man\'sbuff;sheshouldtrytocatchus:youusedto,youknow,Ellen。Hewouldn\'t:therewasnopleasureinit,hesaid;butheconsentedtoplayatballwithme。Wefoundtwoinacupboard,amongaheapofoldtoys,tops,andhoops,andbattledores,andshuttlecocks。 OnewasmarkedC。,andtheotherH。;IwishedtohavetheC。,becausethatstoodforCatherine,andtheH。mightbeforHeathcliff,hisname;butthebrancameoutofH。,andLintondidn\'tlikeit。Ibeathimconstantly,andhegotcrossagain,andcoughed,andreturnedtohischair。Thatnight,though,heeasilyrecoveredhisgoodhumour:hewascharmedwithtwoorthreeprettysongs——yoursongs,Ellen;andwhenIwasobligedtogo,hebeggedandentreatedmetocomethefollowingevening;andIpromised。 MinnyandIwentflyinghomeaslightasair;andIdreamtofWutheringHeightsandmysweet,darlingcousin,tillmorning。 `OnthemorrowIwassad;partlybecauseyouwerepoorly,andpartlythatIwishedmyfatherknew,andapprovedofmyexcursions:butitwasbeautifulmoonlightaftertea;and,asIrodeon,thegloomcleared。 Ishallhaveanotherhappyevening,Ithoughttomyself:andwhatdelightsmemore,myprettyLintonwill。Itrotteduptheirgarden,andwasturningroundtotheback,whenthatfellowEarnshawmetme,tookmybridle,andbidmegoinbythefrontentrance。HepattedMinny\'sneck,andsaidshewasabonnybeast,andappearedasifhewantedmetospeaktohim。Ionlytoldhimtoleavemyhorsealone,orelseitwouldkickhim。Heansweredinhisvulgaraccent,``Itwouldn\'tdomuchhurtifitdid\";andsurveyeditslegswithasmile。Iwashalfinclinedtomakeittry;however,hemovedofftoopenthedoor,and,asheraisedthelatch,helookeduptotheinscriptionabove,andsaid,withastupidmixtureofawkwardnessandelation: ```MissCatherine!Icanreadyon,nah。\'\' ```Wonderful,\'\'Iexclaimed。``Prayletushearyou——youaregrownclever!\'\' `Hespelt,anddrawledoverbysyllables,thename——\"HaretonEarnshaw\"。 ```Andthefigures?\'\'Icriedencouragingly,perceivingthathecametoadeadhalt。 ```Icannottellthemyet,\'\'heanswered。 ``Oh,youdunce!\'\'Isaid,laughingheartilyathisfailure。 `Thefoolstared,withagrinhoveringabouthislips,andascowlgatheringoverhiseyes,asifuncertainwhetherhemightnotjoininmymirth:whetheritwerenotpleasantfamiliarity,orwhatitreallywas,contempt。Isettledhisdoubts,bysuddenlyretrievingmygravityanddesiringhimtowalkaway,forIcametoseeLinton,nothim。Hereddened——Isawthatbythemoonlight——droppedhishandfromthelatch,andskulkedoff,apictureofmortifiedvanity。HeimaginedhimselftobeasaccomplishedasLinton,Isuppose,becausehecouldspellhisownname;andwasmarvellouslydiscomfitedthatIdidn\'tthinkthesame。\' `Stop,MissCatherine,dear!\'Iinterrupted。`Ishallnotscold,butIdon\'tlikeyourconductthere。IfyouhadrememberedthatHaretonwasyourcousinasmuchasMasterHeathcliff,youwouldhavefelthowimproperitwastobehaveinthatway。Atleast,itwaspraiseworthyambitionforhimtodesiretobeasaccomplishedasLinton;andprobablyhedidnotlearnmerelytoshowoff:youhadmadehimashamedofhisignorancebefore,Ihavenodoubt;andhewishedtoremedyitandpleaseyou。Tosneerathisimperfectattemptwasverybadbreeding。Hadyoubeenbroughtupinhiscircumstances,wouldyoubelessrude?Hewasasquickandasintelligentachildaseveryouwere;andI\'mhurtthatheshouldbedespisednow,becausethatbaseHeathcliffhastreatedhimsounjustly。\' `Well,Ellen,youwon\'tcryaboutit,willyou?\'sheexclaimed,surprisedatmyearnestness。`Butwait,andyoushallhearifheconnedhisABCtopleaseme;andifitwereworthwhilebeingciviltothebrute。 Ientered;Lintonwaslyingonthesettle,andhalfgotuptowelcomeme。 ```I\'milltonight,Catherine,love,\'\'hesaid;``andyoumusthaveallthetalk,andletmelisten。Come,andsitbyme。Iwassureyouwouldn\'tbreakyourword,andI\'llmakeyoupromiseagain,beforeyougo。\'\' `IknewnowthatImustn\'tteasehim,ashe`wasill;andIspokesoftlyandputnoquestions,andavoidedirritatinghiminanyway。Ihadbroughtsomeofmynicestbooksforhim;heaskedmetoreadalittleofone,andIwasabouttocomply,whenEarnshawburstthedooropen:havinggatheredvenomwithreflection。Headvanceddirecttous,seizedLintonbythearm,andswunghimofftheseat。 ``Gettothyownroom!\'\'hesaid,inavoicealmostinarticulatewithpassion;andhisfacelookedswelledandfurious。``Takeherthereifshecomestoseethee:thoushalln\'tkeepmeoutofthis。Begonewi\' yeboth!\'\' `Hesworeatus,andleftLintonnotimetoanswer,nearlythrowinghimintothekitchen;andheclenchedhisfistasIfollowed,seeminglylongingtoknockmedown。Iwasafraidforamoment,andIletonevolumefall;hekickeditafterme,andshutusout。Iheardamalignant,cracklylaughbythefire,andturning,beheldthatodiousJosephstandingrubbinghisbonyhands,andquivering。 ``Awwersurehe\'dsarveyeeht!He\'sagrandlad!He\'sgettent\'raightsperritinhim!Heknaws——Aye,heknaws,asweelasAwdo,whosudbet\'maisteryonder——Ech,ech,ech!Hemadyeskiftproperly! Ech,ech,ech!\'\' ``Wheremustwego?\'\'Isaidtomycousin,disregardingtheoldwretch\'smockery。 `Lintonwaswhiteandtrembling。Hewasnotprettythen,Ellen: ohno!helookedfrightful;forhisthinfaceandlargeeyeswerewroughtintoanexpressionoffrantic,powerlessfury。Hegraspedthehandleofthedoor,andshookit:itwasfastenedinside。 ``Ifyoudon\'tletmeinI\'llkillyou!——Ifyoudon\'tletmein,I\'llkillyou!\'\'herathershriekedthansaid。``Devil!devil!——I\'llkillyou——I\'llkillyou!\'\' `Josephutteredhiscroakinglaughagain。 ``Thear,that\'st\'father!\'\'hecried。``That\'sfather!We\'vealIassummutuhorthersideinus。NiverheedHareton,lad——dunnutbe`feard——hecannotgetatthee!\'\' `ItookholdofLinton\'shands,andtriedtopullhimaway;butheshriekedsoshockinglythatIdarednotproceed。Atlasthiscrieswerechokedbyadreadfulfitofcoughing;bloodgushedfromhismouth,andhefellontheground。Iranintotheyard,sickwithterror;andcalledforZillah,asloudasIcould。Shesoonheardme:shewasmilkingthecowsinashedbehindthebarn,`andhurryingfromherwork,sheinquiredwhattherewastodo?Ihadn\'tbreathtoexplain;draggingherin,IlookedaboutforLinton。Earnshawhadcomeouttoexaminethemischiefhehadcaused,andhewasthenconveyingthepoorthingupstairs。ZillahandI ascendedafterhim;buthestoppedmeatthetopofthesteps,andsaidIshouldn\'tgoin:Imustgohome。IexclaimedthathehadkilledLinton,andIwouldenter。Josephlockedthedoor,anddeclaredIshoulddo``nosichstuff\'\',andaskedmewhetherIwere``bahntobeasmadashim\'\'。Istoodcrying,tillthehousekeeperreappeared。Sheaffirmedhewouldbebetterinabit,buthecouldn\'tdowiththatshriekinganddin; andshetookme,andnearlycarriedmeintothehouse。 `Ellen,Iwasreadytotearmyhairoffmyhead!Isobbedandweptsothatmyeyeswerealmostblind;andtheruffianyouhavesuchsympathywithstoodopposite:presumingeverynowandthentobidme``wisht\'\',anddenyingthatitwashisfault;and,finally,frightenedbymyassertionsthatIwouldtellpapa,andthatheshouldbeputinprisonandhanged,hecommencedblubberinghimself,andhurriedouttohidehiscowardlyagitation。 Still,Iwasnotridofhim:whenatlengththeycompelledmetodepart,andIhadgotsomehundredyardsoffthepremises,hesuddenlyissuedfromtheshadowoftheroadside,andcheckedMinnyandtookholdofme。 ``MissCatherine,I\'millgrieved,\'\'hebegan,``butit\'sraythertoobad——\'\' `Igavehimacutwithmywhip,thinkingperhapshewouldmurderme。Heletgo,thunderingoneofhishorridcurses,andIgallopedhomemorethanhalfoutofmysenses。 `Ididn\'tbidyougoodnightthatevening,andIdidn\'tgotoWutheringHeightsthenext:Iwishedto,exceedingly;butIwasstrangelyexcited,anddreadedtohearthatLintonwasdead,sometimes;andsometimesshudderedatthethoughtofencounteringHareton。OnthethirddayItookcourage:atleast,Icouldn\'tbearlongersuspense,andstoleoffoncemore。Iwentatfiveo\'clock,andwalked;fancyingImightmanagetocreepintothehouse,anduptoLinton\'sroom,unobserved。However,thedogsgavenoticeofmyapproach。Zillahreceivedme,andsaying,``theladwasmendingnicely\'\',showedmeintoasmall,tidy,carpetedapartment,where,tomyinexpressiblejoy,IbeheldLintonlaidonalittlesofa,readingoneofmybooks。Buthewouldneitherspeaktomenorlookatme,throughawholehour,Ellen:hehassuchanunhappytemper。Andwhatquiteconfoundedme,whenhedidopenhismouth,itwastoutterthefalsehoodthatIhadoccasionedtheuproar,andHaretonwasnottoblame!Unabletoreply,exceptpassionately,Igotupandwalkedfromtheroom。Hesentaftermeafaint``Catherine!\'\'Hedidnotreckononbeingansweredso:butIwouldn\'tturnback;andthemorrowwastheseconddayonwhichIstayedathome,nearlydeterminedtovisithimnomore。Butitwassomiserablegoingtobedandgettingup,andneverhearinganythingabouthim,thatmyresolutionmeltedintoairbeforeitwasproperlyformed。Ithadappearedwrongtotakethejourneyonce;nowitseemedwrongtorefrain。MichaelcametoaskifhemustsaddleMinny;Isaid``Yes\'\',andconsideredmyselfdoingadutyassheboremeoverthehills。Iwasforcedtopassthefrontwindowstogettothecourt:itwasnousetryingtoconcealmypresence。 ``Youngmasterisinthehouse,\'\'saidZillah,asshesawmemakingfortheparlour。Iwentin;Earnshawwastherealso,buthequittedtheroomdirectly。Lintonsatinthegreatarmchairhalfasleep;walkinguptothefire,Ibeganinaserioustone,partlymeaningittobetrue: ``Asyoudon\'tlikeme,Linton,andasyouthinkIcomeonpurposetohurtyou,andpretendthatIdosoeverytime,thisisourlastmeeting: letussaygoodbye;andtellMrHeathcliffthatyouhavenowishtoseeme,andthathemustn\'tinventanymorefalsehoodsonthesubject。\'\' ```Sitdownandtakeyourhatoff,Catherine,\'\'heanswered。 ``YouaresomuchhappierthanIam,yououghttobebetter。Papatalksenoughofmydefects,andshowsenoughscornofme,tomakeitnaturalIshoulddoubtmyself。IdoubtwhetherIamnotaltogetherasworthlessashecallsme,frequently;andthenIfeelsocrossandbitter,Ihateeverybody!Iamworthless,andbadintemper,andbadinspirit,almostalways;and,ifyouchoose,youmaysaygoodbye:you\'llgetridofanannoyance。Only,Catherine,domethisjustice:believethatifI mightbeassweet,andaskind,andasgoodasyouare,Iwouldbe;aswillingly,andmoreso,thanashappyandashealthy。AndbelievethatyourkindnesshasmademeloveyoudeeperthanifIdeservedyourlove: andthoughIcouldn\'t,andcannothelpshowingmynaturetoyou,Iregretitandrepentit;andshallregretandrepentittillIdie!\'\' `Ifelthespokethetruth;andIfeltImustforgivehim:and,thoughheshouldquarrelthenextmoment,Imustforgivehimagain。Wewerereconciled;butwecried,bothofus,thewholetimeIstayed:notentirelyforsorrow;yetIwassorryLintonhadthatdistortednature。 He\'llneverlethisfriendsbeatease,andhe\'llneverbeateasehimself! Ihavealwaysgonetohislittleparlour,sincethatnight;becausehisfatherreturnedthedayafter。 `Aboutthreetimes,Ithink,wehavebeenmerryandhopeful,aswewerethefirstevening;therestofmyvisitsweredrearyandtroubled: nowwithhisselfishnessandspite,andnowwithhissufferings:butI\'velearnedtoenduretheformerwithnearlyaslittleresentmentasthelatter。 MrHeathcliffpurposelyavoidsme: Ihavehardlyseenhimatall。LastSunday,indeed,comingearlierthanusual,IheardhimabusingpoorLinton,cruelly,forhisconductofthenightbefore。Ican\'ttellhowheknewofit,unlesshelistened。Lintonhadcertainlybehavedprovokingly:however,itwasthebusinessofnobodybutme,andIinterruptedMrHeathcliff\'slecturebyenteringandtellinghimso。Heburstintoalaugh,andwentaway,sayinghewasgladItookthatviewofthematter。Sincethen,I\'vetoldLintonhemustwhisperhisbitterthings。NowEllen,youhaveheardall;andIcan\'tbepreventedfromgoingtoWutheringHeightsexceptbyinflictingmiseryontwopeople; whereas,ifyou\'llonlynottellpapa,mygoingneeddisturbthetranquillityofnone。You\'llnottell,willyou?Itwillbeveryheartlessifyoudo。\' `I\'llmakeupmymindonthatpointbytomorrow,MissCatherine,\' Ireplied。`Itrequiressomestudy;andsoI\'llleaveyoutoyourrest,andgothinkitover。\' Ithoughtitoveraloud,inmymaster\'spresence;walkingstraightfromherroomtohis,andrelatingthewholestory:withtheexceptionofherconversationswithhercousin,andanymentionofHareton。MrLintonwasalarmedanddistressed,morethanhewouldacknowledgetome。Inthemorning,Catherinelearntmybetrayalofherconfidence,andshelearntalsothathersecretvisitsweretoend。Invainsheweptandwrithedagainsttheinterdict,andimploredherfathertohavepityonLinton:allshegottocomfortherwasapromisethathewouldwriteandgivehimleavetocometotheGrangewhenhepleased;butexplainingthathemustnolongerexpecttoseeCatherineatWutheringHeights。Perhaps,hadhebeenawareofhisnephew\'sdispositionandstateofhealth,hewouldhaveseenfittowithholdeventhatslightconsolation。 [NextChapter][TableofContents] WutheringHeights[PreviousChapter][TableofContents]Chapter25`Thesethingshappenedlastwinter,sir,\'saidMrsDean;`hardlymorethanayearago。Lastwinter,Ididnotthink,atanothertwelvemonths\'end,Ishouldbeamusingastrangertothefamilywithrelatingthem!Yet,whoknowshowlongyou\'llbeastranger?You\'retooyoungtorestalwayscontented,livingbyyourself;andIsomewayfancynoonecouldseeCatherineLintonandnotloveher。Yousmile;butwhydoyoulooksolivelyandinterested,whenItalkabouther?andwhyhaveyouaskedmetohangherpictureoveryourfireplace?andwhy——\' `Stop,mygoodfriend!\'Icried。`ItmaybeverypossiblethatIshouldloveher;butwouldsheloveme?Idoubtittoomuchtoventuremytranquillitybyrunningintotemptation:andthenmyhomeisnothere。 I\'mofthebusyworld,andtoitsarmsImustreturn。Goon。WasCatherineobedienttoherfather\'scommands?\' `Shewas,\'continuedthehousekeeper。`Heraffectionforhimwasstillthechiefsentimentinherheart;andhespokewithoutanger:hespokeinthedeeptendernessofoneabouttoleavehistreasureamidperilsandfoes,wherehisrememberedwordswouldbetheonlyaidthathecouldbequeathtoguideher。Hesaidtome,afewdaysafterwards: `\"Iwishmynephewwouldwrite,Ellen,orcall。Tellme,sincerely,whatyouthinkofhim:ishechangedforthebetter,oristhereaprospectofimprovement,ashegrowsaman?\'\' ```He\'sverydelicate,sir,\'\'Ireplied;``andscarcelylikelytoreachmanhood;butthisIcansay,hedoesnotresemblehisfather; andifMissCatherinehadthemisfortunetomarryhim,hewouldnotbebeyondhercontrol:unlessshewereextremelyandfoolishlyindulgent。 However,master,you\'llhaveplentyoftimetogetacquaintedwithhim,andseewhetherhewouldsuither:itwantsfouryearsandmoretohisbeingofage。\'\'\' Edgarsighed;andwalkingtothewindow,lookedouttowardsGimmertonKirk。Itwasamistyafternoon,buttheFebruarysunshonedimly,andwecouldjustdistinguishthetwofirtreesintheyard,andthesparelyscatteredgravestones。 `I\'veprayedoften\',hehalfsoliloquized,`fortheapproachofwhatiscoming;andnowIbegintoshrink,andfearit。IthoughtthememoryofthehourIcamedownthatglenabridegroomwouldbelesssweetthantheanticipationthatIwassoon,inafewmonths,or,possibly,weeks,tobecarriedup,andlaidinitslonelyhollow!Ellen,I\'vebeenveryhappywithmylittleCathy:throughwinternightsandsummerdaysshewasalivinghopeatmyside。ButI\'vebeenashappymusingbymyselfamongthosestones,underthatoldchurch:lying,throughthelongJuneevenings,onthegreenmoundofhermother\'sgraveandwishing——yearningforthetimewhenImightliebeneathit。WhatcanIdoforCathy?HowmustIquither?I\'dnotcareonemomentforLintonbeingHeathcliff\'sson;norforhistakingherfromme,ifhecouldconsoleherformyloss。I\'dnotcarethatHeathcliffgainedhisends,andtriumphedinrobbingmeofmylastblessing!ButshouldLintonbeunworthy——onlyafeebletooltohisfather——I cannotabandonhertohim!And,hardthoughitbetocrushherbuoyantspirit,ImustpersevereinmakinghersadwhileIlive,andleavinghersolitarywhenIdie。Darling!I\'dratherresignhertoGod,andlayherintheearthbeforeme。\' ResignhertoGod,asitis,sir,\'Ianswered,`andifweshouldloseyou——whichmayHeforbid——underHisprovidence,I\'llstandherfriendandcounsellortothelast。MissCatherineisagoodgirl:Idon\'tfearthatshewillgowilfullywrong;andpeoplewhodotheirdutyarealwaysfinallyrewarded。\' Springadvanced;yetmymastergatherednorealstrength,thoughheresumedhiswalksinthegroundswithhisdaughter。Toherinexperiencednotions,thisitselfwasasignofconvalescence;andthenhischeekwasoftenflushed,andhiseyeswerebright:shefeltsureofhisrecovering。 Onherseventeenthbirthday,hedidnotvisitthechurchyard:itwasraining,andIobserved: `You\'llsurelynotgoouttonight,sir?\' Heanswered: `No,I\'lldeferitthisyearalittlelonger。\' HewroteagaintoLinton,expressinghisgreatdesiretoseehim; and,hadtheinvalidbeenpresentable,I\'venodoubthisfatherwouldhavepermittedhimtocome。Asitwas,beinginstructed,hereturnedananswer,intimatingthatMrHeathcliffobjectedtohiscallingattheGrange;buthisuncle\'skindremembrancedelightedhim,andhehopedtomeethim,sometimes,inhisrambles,andpersonallytopetitionthathiscousinandhemightnotremainlongsoutterlydivided。 Thatpartofhisletterwassimple,andprobablyhisown。HeathcliffknewhecouldpleadeloquentlyenoughforCatherine\'scompany,then。 `Idonotask\',hesaid,`thatshemayvisithere;but,amInevertoseeher,becausemyfatherforbidsmetogotoherhome,andyouforbidhertocometomine?Donowandthen,ridewithhertowardstheHeights; andletusexchangeafewwords,inyourpresence!Wehavedonenothingtodeservethisseparation;andyouarenotangrywithme;youhavenoreasontodislikeme,youallow,yourself。Dearuncle!sendmeakindnotetomorrow,andleavetojoinyouanywhereyouplease,exceptatThrushcrossGrange。Ibelieveaninterviewwouldconvinceyouthatmyfather\'scharacterisnotmine:heaffirmsIammoreyournephewthanhisson;andthoughIhavefaultswhichrendermeunworthyofCatherine,shehasexcusedthem,andforhersake,youshouldalso。Youinquireaftermyhealth——itisbetter; butwhileIremaincutofffromallhope,anddoomedtosolitude,orthesocietyofthosewhoneverdidandneverwilllikeme,howcanIbecheerfulandwell?\' Edgar,thoughhefeltfortheboy,couldnotconsenttogranthisrequest;becausehecouldnotaccompanyCatherine。Hesaid,insummer,perhaps,theymightmeet:meantime,hewishedhimtocontinuewritingatintervals,andengagedtogivehimwhatadviceandcomforthewasablebyletter;beingwellawareofhishardpositioninhisfamily。Lintoncomplied;andhadhebeenunrestrained,wouldprobablyhavespoiledallbyfillinghisepistleswithcomplaintsandlamentations:buthisfatherkeptasharpwatchoverhim;and,ofcourse,insistedoneverylinethatmymastersentbeingshown;so,insteadofpenninghispeculiarpersonalsufferingsanddistresses,thethemesconstantlyuppermostinhisthoughts,heharpedonthecruelobligationofbeingheldasunderfromhisfriendandlove;andgentlyintimatedthatMrLintonmustallowaninterviewsoon,orheshouldfearhewaspurposelydeceivinghimwithemptypromises。 Cathywasapowerfulallyathome;and,betweenthem,theyatlengthpersuadedmymastertoacquiesceintheirhavingarideorawalktogetheraboutonceaweek,undermyguardianship,andonthemoorsnearesttheGrange:forJunefoundhimstilldeclining;andthoughhehadsetasideyearlyaportionofhisincomeformyyounglady\'sfortune,hehadanaturaldesirethatshemightretain——oratleastreturninashorttimeto——thehouseofherancestors;andheconsideredheronlyprospectofdoingthatwasbyaunionwithhisheir;hehadnoideathatthelatterwasfailingalmostasfastashimself;norhadanyone;Ibelieve:nodoctorvisitedtheHeights,andnoonesawMasterHeathclifftomakereportofhisconditionamongus。I,formypart,begantofancymyforebodingswerefalse,andthathemustbeactuallyrallying,whenhementionedridingandwalkingonthemoors,andseemedsoearnestinpursuinghisobject。IcouldnotpictureafathertreatingadyingchildastyrannicallyandwickedlyasIafterwardslearnedHeathcliffhadtreatedhim,tocompelthisapparenteagerness:hiseffortsredoublingthemoreimminentlyhisavariciousandunfeelingplanswerethreatenedwithdefeatbydeath。 [NextChapter][TableofContents] WutheringHeights[PreviousChapter][TableofContents]Chapter26Summerwasalreadypastitsprime,whenEdgarreluctantlyyieldedhisassenttotheirentreaties,andCatherineandIsetoutonourfirstridetojoinhercousin。Itwasaclose,sultryday:devoidofsunshine,butwithaskytoodappledandhazytothreatenrain;andourplaceofmeetinghadbeenfixedattheguide-stone,bythecrossroads。Onarrivingthere,however,alittleherd-boy,dispatchedasamessenger,toldusthat: `MaisterLintonwerjustutthissideth\'Heights:andhe\'dbemitchobleegedtoustogangonabitfarther。\' `ThenMasterLintonhasforgotthefirstinjunctionofhisuncle,\' Iobserved:`hebiduskeepontheGrangeland,andhereweareoffatonce。\' `Well,we\'llturnourhorses\'headsround,whenwereachhim,\' answeredmycompanion,`ourexcursionshalllietowardshome。\' Butwhenwereachedhim,andthatwasscarcelyaquarterofamilefromhisowndoor,wefoundhehadnohorse;andwewereforcedtodismount,andleaveourstograze。Helayontheheath,awaitingourapproach,anddidnotrisetillwecamewithinafewyards。Thenhewalkedsofeebly,andlookedsopale,thatIimmediatelyexclaimed: `Why,MasterHeathcliff,youarenotfitforenjoyingaramble,thismorning。Howillyoudolook!\' Catherinesurveyedhimwithgriefandastonishment;andchangedtheejaculationofjoyonherlips,tooneofalarm;andthecongratulationontheirlong-postponedmeeting,toananxiousinquiry,whetherhewereworsethanusual? `No——better——better!\'hepanted,trembling,andretainingherhandasifheneededitssupport,whilehislargeblueeyeswanderedtimidlyoverher;thehollownessroundthemtransformingtohaggardwildnessthelanguidexpressiontheyoncepossessed。 `Butyouhavebeenworse,\'persistedhiscousin;`worsethanwhenIsawyoulast;youarethinner,and—— `I\'mtired,\'heinterruptedhurriedly。`Itistoohotforwalking,letusresthere。And,inthemorning,Ioftenfeelsick——papasaysIgrowsofast。\' Badlysatisfied,Cathysatdown,andhereclinedbesideher。 `Thisissomethinglikeyourparadise,\'saidshe,makinganeffortatcheerfulness。`Yourecollectthetwodaysweagreedtospendintheplaceandwayeachthoughtpleasantest?Thisissurelyyours,onlythereareclouds:butthentheyaresosoftandmellow:itisnicerthansunshine。 Nextweek,ifyoucan,we\'llridedowntotheGrangePark,andtrymine。\' Lintondidnotappeartorememberwhatshetalkedof;andhehadevidentlygreatdifficultyinsustaininganykindofconversation。Hislackofinterestinthesubjectsshestarted,andhisequalincapacitytocontributetoherentertainment,weresoobviousthatshecouldnotconcealherdisappointment。Anindefinitealterationhadcomeoverhiswholepersonandmanner。Thepettishnessthatmightbecaressedintofondness,hadyieldedtoalistlessapathy;therewaslessofthepeevishtemperofachildwhichfretsandteasesonpurposetobesoothed,andmoreoftheself-absorbedmorosenessofaconfirmedinvalid,repellingconsolation,andreadytoregardthegood-humouredmirthofothersasaninsult。Catherineperceived,aswellasIdid,thathehelditratherapunishment,thanagratification,toendureourcompany;andshemadenoscrupleofproposing,presently,todepart。Thatproposal,unexpectedly,rousedLintonfromhislethargy,andthrewhimintoastrangestateofagitation。HeglancedfearfullytowardstheHeights,beggingshewouldremainanotherhalf-houratleast。 `ButIthink\',saidCathy,`you\'dbemorecomfortableathomethansittinghere;andIcannotamuseyoutoday,Isee,bymytales,andsongs,andchatter:youhavegrownwiserthanI,inthesesixmonths;youhavelittletasteformydiversionsnow:orelse,ifIcouldamuseyou,I\'dwillinglystay。\' `Staytorestyourself,\'hereplied。`AndCatherine,don\'tthink,orsaythatI\'mveryunwell:itistheheavyweatherandheatthatmakemedull;andIwalkedabout,beforeyoucame,agreatdealforme。 TelluncleI\'mintolerablehealth,willyou?\' `I\'lltellhimthatyousayso,Linton。Icouldn\'taffirmthatyouare,\'observedmyyounglady,wonderingathispertinaciousassertionofwhatwasevidentlyanuntruth。 `AndbehereagainnextThursday,\'continuedhe,shunningherpuzzledgaze。`Andgivehimmythanksforpermittingyoutocome——mybestthanks,Catherine。And-and,ifyoudidmeetmyfather,andheaskedyouaboutme,don\'tleadhimtosupposethatI\'vebeenextremelysilentandstupid:don\'tlooksadanddowncast,asyouaredoing——he\'llbeangry。\'