`Andthenyouwouldlikemeaswellasyourfather?\'observedhe,morecheerfully。`Butpapasaysyouwouldlovemebetterthanhimandalltheworld,ifyouweremywife;soI\'dratheryouwerethat。\'
`No,Ishouldneverloveanybodybetterthanpapa,\'shereturnedgravely。`Andpeoplehatetheirwives,sometimes;butnottheirsistersandbrothers:andifyouwerethelatteryouwouldlivewithus,andpapawouldbeasfondofyouasheisofme。\'
Lintondeniedthatpeopleeverhatedtheirwives;butCathyaffirmedtheydid,and,inherwisdom,instancedhisownfather\'saversiontoheraunt。Iendeavouredtostopherthoughtlesstongue。Icouldn\'tsucceedtilleverythingsheknewwasout。MasterHeathcliff,muchirritated,assertedherrelationwasfalse。
`Papatoldme;andpapadoesnottellfalsehoods,\'sheansweredpertly。
`Nypapascornsyours!\'criedLinton。`Hecallshimasneakingfool!\'
`Yoursisawickedman,\'retortedCatherine,`andyouareverynaughtytodaretorepeatwhathesays。HemustbewickedtohavemadeAuntIsabellaleavehimasshedid!\'
`Shedidn\'tleavehim,\'saidtheboy;`youshan\'tcontradictme!\'
`Shedid!\'criedmyyounglady。
`Well,I\'lltellyousomething!\'saidLinton。`Yourmotherhatedyourfather:nowthen。\'
`Oh!\'exclaimedCatherine,tooenragedtocontinue。`Andshelovedmine!\'addedhe。
`Youlittleliar!Ihateyounow,\'shepanted,andherfacegrewredwithpassion。
`Shedid!shedid!\'sangLinton,sinkingintotherecessofhischair,andleaningbackhisheadtoenjoytheagitationoftheotherdisputant,whostoodbehind。
`Hush,MasterHeathcliff!\'Isaid;`that\'syourfather\'stale,too,Isuppose。\'
`Itisn\'t:youholdyourtongue!\'heanswered。`Shedid,shedid,Catherine!shedid,shedid!\'
Cathy,besideherself,gavethechairaviolentpush,andcausedhimtofallagainstonearm。Hewasimmediatelyseizedbyasuffocatingcoughthatsoonendedhistriumph。Itlastedsolongthatitfrightenedevenme。Astohiscousin,shewept,withallhermight;aghastatthemischiefshehaddone:thoughshesaidnothing。Iheldhimtillthefitexhausteditself。Thenhethrustmeaway,andleanthisheaddownsilently。
Catherinequelledherlamentationsalso,tookaseatopposite,andlookedsolemnlyintothefire。
`Howdoyoufeelnow,MasterHeathcliff?\'Iinquired,afterwaitingtenminutes。
`IwishshefeltasIdo,\'hereplied:`spiteful,cruelthing!Haretonnevertouchesme:heneverstruckmeinhislife。AndI
wasbettertoday:andthere——`hisvoicediedinawhimper。
`Ididn\'tstrikeyou!\'mutteredCathy,chewingherliptopreventanotherburstofemotion。
Hesighedandmoanedlikeoneundergreatsuffering,andkeptitupforaquarterofanhour;onpurposetodistresshiscousinapparently,forwheneverhecaughtastifledsobfromherheputrenewedpainandpathosintotheinflectionsofhisvoice。
`I\'msorryIhurtyou,Linton,\'shesaidatlength,rackedbeyondendurance。`ButIcouldn\'thavebeenhurtbythatlittlepush,andIhadnoideathatyoucould,either:you\'renotmuch,areyou,Linton?
Don\'tletmegohomethinkingI\'vedoneyouharm。Answer!speaktome。\'
`Ican\'tspeaktoyou,\'hemurmured;`you\'vehurtmeso,thatIshalllieawakeallnightchokingwiththiscough。Ifyouhadityou\'dknowwhatitwas;butyou\'llbecomfortablyasleepwhileI\'minagony,andnobodynearme。Iwonderhowyouwouldliketopassthosefearfulnights!\'Andhebegantowailaloud,forverypityofhimself。
`Sinceyouareinthehabitofpassingdreadfulnights,\'Isaid,`itwon\'tbemisswhospoilsyourease:you\'dbethesamehadshenevercome。However,sheshallnotdisturbyouagain;andperhapsyou\'llgetquieterwhenweleaveyou。
`MustIgo?\'askedCatherinedolefully,bendingoverhim。`Doyouwantmetogo,Linton?\'
`Youcan\'talterwhatyou\'vedone,\'herepliedpettishly,shrinkingfromher,`unlessyoualteritfortheworsebyteasingmeintoafever。\'
`Well,then,Imustgo?\'sherepeated。
`Letmealone,atleast,\'saidhe;`Ican\'tbearyourtalking。\'
Shelingered,andresistedmypersuasionstodepartureatiresomewhile;butasheneitherlookedupnorspoke,shefinallymadeamovementtothedoorandIfollowed。Wewererecalledbyascream。Lintonhadslidfromhisseatontothehearthstone,andlaywrithinginthemereperversenessofanindulgedplagueofachild,determinedtobeasgrievousandharassingasitcan。Ithoroughlygaugedhisdispositionfromhisbehaviour,andsawatonceitwouldbefollytoattempthumouringhim。Notsomycompanion:
sheranbackinterror,kneltdown,andcried,andsoothed,andentreated,tillhegrewquietfromlackofbreath:bynomeansfromcompunctionatdistressingher。
`Ishalllifthimonthesettle,\'Isaid,`andhemayrollaboutashepleases:wecan\'tstoptowatchhim。Ihopeyouaresatisfied,MissCathy,thatyouarenotthepersontobenefithim;andthathisconditionofhealthisnotoccasionedbyattachmenttoyou。Now,then,thereheis!Comeaway:assoonasheknowsthereisnobodybytocareforhisnonsense,he\'llbegladtoliestill。\'
Sheplacedacushionunderhishead,andofferedhimsomewater;
herejectedthelatter,andtosseduneasilyontheformer,asifitwereastoneorablockofwood。Shetriedtoputitmorecomfortably。
`Ican\'tdowiththat,\'hesaid;`it\'snothighenough。\'
Catherinebroughtanothertolayaboveit。
`That\'stoohigh,\'murmuredtheprovokingthing。
`HowmustIarrangeit,then?\'sheaskeddespairingly。
Hetwinedhimselfuptoher,asshehalfkneltbythesettle,andconvertedhershoulderintoasupport。
`No,thatwon\'tdo,\'Isaid。`You\'llbecontentwiththecushion,MasterHeathcliff。Misshaswastedtoomuchtimeonyoualready:wecannotremainfiveminuteslonger。\'
`Yes,yes,wecan!\'repliedCathy。`He\'sgoodandpatientnow。
He\'sbeginningtothinkIshallhavefargreatermiserythanhewilltonight,ifIbelieveheistheworseformyvisit;andthenIdarenotcomeagain。
Tellthetruthaboutit,Linton;forImustn\'tcome,ifIhavehurtyou。\'
`Youmustcome,tocureme,\'heanswered。`Yououghttocome,becauseyouhavehurtme:youknowyouhaveextremely!IwasnotasillwhenyouenteredasIamatpresent——wasI?\'
`Butyou\'vemadeyourselfillbycryingandbeinginapassion。\'
`Ididn\'tdoitatall,\'saidhiscousin。`However,we\'llbefriendsnow。Andyouwantme:youwouldwishtoseemesometimes,really?\'
`ItoldyouIdid,\'herepliedimpatiently。`Sitonthesettleandletmeleanonyourknee。That\'sasmammausedtodo,wholeafternoonstogether。Sitquitestillanddon\'ttalk:butyoumaysingasong,ifyoucansing;oryoumaysayanicelonginterestingballad——oneofthoseyoupromisedtoteachme:orastory。I\'dratherhaveaballad,though:begin。\'
Catherinerepeatedthelongestshecouldremember。Theemploymentpleasedbothmightily。Lintonwouldhaveanother;andafterthatanother,notwithstandingmystrenuousobjections;andsotheywentonuntiltheclockstrucktwelve,andweheardHaretoninthecourt,returningforhisdinner。
`Andtomorrow,Catherine,willyoubeheretomorrow?\'askedyoungHeathcliff,holdingherfrockassherosereluctantly。
`No,\'Ianswered,`nornextdayneither。\'She,however,gaveadifferentresponseevidently,forhisforeheadclearedasshestoopedandwhisperedinhisear。
`Youwon\'tgotomorrow,recollect,miss!\'Icommenced,whenwewereoutofthehouse。`Youarenotdreamingofit,areyou?\'
`Oh,I\'lltakegoodcare,\'Icontinued:`I\'llhavethatlockmended,andyoucanescapebynowayelse。\'
`Icangetoverthewall,\'shesaid,laughing。`TheGrangeisnotaprison,Ellen,andyouarenotmyjailer。Andbesides,I\'malmostseventeen:I\'mawoman。AndI\'mcertainLintonwouldrecoverquicklyifhehadmetolookafterhim。I\'molderthanheis,youknow,andwiser:
lesschildish,amInot?Andhe\'llsoondoasIdirecthim,withsomeslightcoaxing。He\'saprettylittledarlingwhenhe\'sgood。I\'dmakesuchapetofhim,ifheweremine。Weshouldneverquarrel,shouldwe,afterwewereusedtoeachother?Don\'tyoulikehim,Ellen?\'
`Likehim?\'Iexclaimed。`Theworst-temperedbitofasicklyslipthateverstruggledintoitsteens。Happily,asMrHeathcliffconjectured,he\'llnotwintwenty。Idoubtwhetherhe\'llseespring,indeed。Andsmalllosstohisfamilywheneverhedropsoff。Andluckyitisforusthathisfathertookhim:thekinderhewastreated,themoretediousandselfishhe\'dbe。I\'mgladyouhavenochanceofhavinghimforahusband,MissCatherine。\'
Mycompanionwaxedseriousathearingthisspeech。Tospeakofhisdeathsoregardlessly,woundedherfeelings。
`He\'syoungerthanI,\'sheanswered,afteraprotractedpauseofmeditation,`andheoughttolivethelongest:hewill——hemustliveaslongasIdo。He\'sasstrongnowaswhenhefirstcameintothenorth;
I\'mpositiveofthat。It\'sonlyacoldthatailshim,thesameaspapahas。Yousaypapawillgetbetter,andwhyshouldn\'the?\'
`Well,well,\'Icried,`afterall,weneedn\'ttroubleourselves;
forlisten,miss,andmind,I\'llkeepmyword,——ifyouattemptgoingtoWutheringHeightsagain,withorwithoutme,IshallinformMrLinton,and,unlessheallowit,theintimacywithyourcousinmustnotberevived。\'
`Ithasbeenrevived,\'mutteredCathysulkily。`Mustnotbecontinued,then,\'Isaid。
`We\'llsee,\'washerreply,andshesetoffatagallop,leavingmetotoilintherear。
Webothreachedhomebeforeourdinnertime;mymastersupposedwehadbeenwanderingthroughthepark,andthereforehedemandednoexplanationofourabsence。AssoonasIentered,Ihastenedtochangemysoakedshoesandstockings;butsittingsuchawhileattheHeightshaddonethemischief。
OnthesucceedingmorningIwaslaidup,andduringthreeweeksIremainedincapacitatedforattendingtomyduties:acalamityneverexperiencedpriortothatperiod,andnever,Iamthankfultosay,since。
Mylittlemistressbehavedlikeanangel,incomingtowaitonme,andcheermysolitude:theconfinementbroughtmeexceedinglylow。
Itiswearisome,toastirringactivebody:butfewhaveslighterreasonsforcomplaintthanIhad。ThemomentCatherineleftMrLinton\'sroom,sheappearedatmybedside。Herdaywasdividedbetweenus;noamusementusurpedaminute:sheneglectedhermeals,herstudies,andherplay;andshewasthefondestnursethateverwatched。Shemusthavehadawarmheart,whenshelovedherfatherso,togivesomuchtome。Isaidherdaysweredividedbetweenus;butthemasterretiredearly,andIgenerallyneedednothingaftersixo\'clock;thustheeveningwasherown。Poorthing!Ineverconsideredwhatshedidwithherselfaftertea。Andthoughfrequently,whenshelookedintobidmegoodnight,Iremarkedafreshcolourinhercheeksandapinknessoverherslenderfingers;insteadoffancyingthehueborrowedfromacoldrideacrossthemoors,Ilaidittothechargeofahotfireinthelibrary。
[NextChapter][TableofContents]WutheringHeights[PreviousChapter][TableofContents]Chapter24Atthecloseofthreeweeks,Iwasabletoquitmychamber,andmoveaboutthehouse。Andonthefirstoccasionofmysittingupintheevening,I
askedCatherinetoreadtome,becausemyeyeswereweak。Wewereinthelibrary,themasterhavinggonetobed:sheconsented,ratherunwillingly,Ifancied;andimaginingmysortofbooksdidnotsuither,Ibidherplaceherselfinthechoiceofwhatsheperused。Sheselectedoneofherownfavourites,andgotforwardsteadilyaboutanhour;thencamefrequentquestions。
`Ellen,arenotyoutired?Hadn\'tyoubetterliedownnow?You\'llbesick,keepingupsolong,Ellen。\'
`No,no,dear,I\'mnottired,\'Ireturnedcontinually。
Perceivingmeimmovable,sheessayedanothermethodofshowingherdisrelishforheroccupation。Itchangedtoyawning,andstretching,and:
`Ellen,I\'mtired。\'
`Giveoverthenandtalk,\'Ianswered。
Thatwasworse:shefrettedandsighed,andlikedatherwatchtilleight,andfinallywenttoherroom,completelyoverdonewithsleep;
judgingbyherpeevish,heavylook,andtheconstantrubbingsheinflictedonhereyes。Thefollowingnightsheseemedmoreimpatientstill;andonthethirdfromrecoveringmycompany,shecomplainedofaheadache,andleftme。Ithoughtherconductodd;andhavingremainedalonealongwhile,Iresolvedongoingandinquiringwhethershewerebetter,andaskinghertocomeandlieonthesofa,insteadofupstairsinthedark。NoCatherinecouldIdiscoverupstairs,andnonebelow。Theservantsaffirmedtheyhadnotseenher。IlistenedatMrEdgar\'sdoor;allwassilence。Ireturnedtoherapartment,extinguishedmycandle,andseatedmyselfinthewindow。
Themoonshonebright;asprinklingofsnowcoveredtheground,andIreflectedthatshemight,possibly,havetakenitintoherheadtowalkaboutthegarden,forrefreshment。Ididdetectafigurecreepingalongtheinnerfenceofthepark;butitwasnotmyyoungmistress:onitsemergingintothelight,Irecognizedoneofthegrooms。Hestoodaconsiderableperiod,viewingthecarriage-roadthroughthegrounds;thenstartedoffatabriskpace,asifhehaddetectedsomething,andreappearedpresently,leadingmiss\'spony;andthereshewas,justdismounted,andwalkingbyitsside。Themantookhischargestealthilyacrossthegrasstowardsthestable。Cathyenteredbythecasementwindowofthedrawing-room,andglidednoiselesslyuptowhereIawaitedher。Sheputthedoorgentlyto,slippedoffhersnowyshoes,untiedherhat,andwasproceeding,unconsciousofmyespionage,tolayasidehermantle,whenIsuddenlyroseandrevealedmyself。Thesurprisepetrifiedheraninstant:sheutteredaninarticulateexclamation,andstoodfixed。
`MydearMissCatherine,\'Ibegan,toovividlyimpressedbyherrecentkindnesstobreakintoascold,`wherehaveyoubeenridingoutatthishour?Andwhyshouldyoutrytodeceiveme,bytellingatale?
Wherehaveyoubeen?Speak。\'
`Tothebottomofthepark,\'shestammered。`Ididn\'ttellatale。\'
`Andnowhereelse?\'Idemanded。
`No,\'wasthemutteredreply。
`Oh,Catherine!\'Icriedsorrowfully。`Youknowyouhavebeendoingwrong,oryouwouldn\'tbedriventoutteringanuntruthtome。Thatdoesgrieveme。I\'dratherbethreemonthsill,thanhearyouframeadeliberatelie。\'
Shesprangforward,andburstingintotears,threwherarmsroundmyneck。
`Well,Ellen,I\'msoafraidofyoubeingangry,\'shesaid。`Promisenottobeangry,andyoushallknowtheverytruth:Ihatetohideit。\'
Wesatdowninthewindow-seat;IassuredherIwouldnotscold,whateverhersecretmightbe,andIguesseditofcourse;soshecommenced:
`I\'vebeentoWutheringHeights,Ellen,andI\'venevermissedgoingadaysinceyoufellill;exceptthricebefore,andtwiceafteryouleftyourroom。IgaveMichaelbooksandpicturestoprepareMinnyeveryevening,andtoputherbackinthestable:youmustn\'tscoldhimeither,mind。IwasattheHeightsbyhalf-pastsix,andgenerallystayedtillhalfpasteight,andthengallopedhome。ItwasnottoamusemyselfthatIwent:Iwasoftenwretchedallthetime。NowandthenIwashappy;
onceinaweekperhaps。Atfirst,IexpectedtherewouldbesadworkpersuadingyoutoletmekeepmywordtoLinton:forIhadengagedtocallagainnextday,whenwequittedhim;but,asyoustayedupstairsonthemorrow,I
escapedthattrouble;andwhileMichaelwasrefasteningthelockoftheparkdoorintheafternoon,Igotpossessionofthekey,andtoldhimhowmycousinwishedmetovisithim,becausehewassick,andcouldn\'tcometotheGrange;andhowpapawouldobjecttomygoing:andthenInegotiatedwithhimaboutthepony。Heisfondofreading,andhethinksofleavingsoontogetmarried;soheoffered,ifIwouldlendhimbooksoutofthelibrary,todowhatIwished:butIpreferredgivinghimmyown,andthatsatisfiedhimbetter。
`Onmysecondvisit,Lintonseemedinlivelyspirits;andZillah(thatistheirhousekeeper)madeusacleanroomandagoodfire,andtoldusthat,asJosephwasoutataprayermeetingandHaretonEarnshawwasoffwithhisdogs——robbingourwoodsofpheasants,asIheardafterwards——wemightdowhatweliked。Shebroughtmesomewarmwineandgingerbread,andappearedexceedinglygood-natured;andLintonsatinthearmchair,andIinthelittlerocking-chaironthehearthstone,andwelaughedandtalkedsomerrily,andfoundsomuchtosay:weplannedwherewewouldgo,andwhatwewoulddoinsummer。Ineedn\'trepeatthat,becauseyouwouldcallitsilly。
`Onetime,however,wewerenearquarrelling。HesaidthepleasantestmannerofspendingahotJulydaywaslyingfrommorningtilleveningonabankofheathinthemiddleofthemoors,withthebeeshummingdreamilyaboutamongthebloom,andthelarkssinginghighupoverhead,andtheblueskyandbrightsunshiningsteadilyandcloudlessly。Thatwashismostperfectideaofheaven\'shappiness:minewasrockinginarustlinggreentree,withawestwindblowing,andbrightwhitecloudsflittingrapidlyabove;andnotonlylarks,butthrostles,andblackbirds,andlinnets,andcuckoospouringoutmusiconeveryside,andthemoorsseenatadistance,brokenintocoolduskydells;butclosebygreatswellsoflonggrassundulatinginwavestothebreeze;andwoodsandsoundingwater,andthewholeworldawakeandwildwithjoy。Hewantedalltolieinanecstasyofpeace;I
wantedalltosparkleanddanceinagloriousjubilee。Isaidhisheavenwouldbeonlyhalfalive;andhesaidminewouldbedrunk:IsaidIshouldfallasleepinhis;andhesaidhecouldnotbreatheinmine,andbegantogrowverysnappish。Atlast,weagreedtotryboth,assoonastherightweathercame;andthenwekissedeachotherandwerefriends。
`Aftersittingstillanhour,Ilookedatthegreatroomwithitssmoothuncarpetedfloor,andthoughthowniceitwouldbetoplayin,ifweremovedthetable;andIaskedLintontocallZillahintohelpus,andwe\'dhaveagameatblind-man\'sbuff;sheshouldtrytocatchus:youusedto,youknow,Ellen。Hewouldn\'t:therewasnopleasureinit,hesaid;butheconsentedtoplayatballwithme。Wefoundtwoinacupboard,amongaheapofoldtoys,tops,andhoops,andbattledores,andshuttlecocks。
OnewasmarkedC。,andtheotherH。;IwishedtohavetheC。,becausethatstoodforCatherine,andtheH。mightbeforHeathcliff,hisname;butthebrancameoutofH。,andLintondidn\'tlikeit。Ibeathimconstantly,andhegotcrossagain,andcoughed,andreturnedtohischair。Thatnight,though,heeasilyrecoveredhisgoodhumour:hewascharmedwithtwoorthreeprettysongs——yoursongs,Ellen;andwhenIwasobligedtogo,hebeggedandentreatedmetocomethefollowingevening;andIpromised。
MinnyandIwentflyinghomeaslightasair;andIdreamtofWutheringHeightsandmysweet,darlingcousin,tillmorning。
`OnthemorrowIwassad;partlybecauseyouwerepoorly,andpartlythatIwishedmyfatherknew,andapprovedofmyexcursions:butitwasbeautifulmoonlightaftertea;and,asIrodeon,thegloomcleared。
Ishallhaveanotherhappyevening,Ithoughttomyself:andwhatdelightsmemore,myprettyLintonwill。Itrotteduptheirgarden,andwasturningroundtotheback,whenthatfellowEarnshawmetme,tookmybridle,andbidmegoinbythefrontentrance。HepattedMinny\'sneck,andsaidshewasabonnybeast,andappearedasifhewantedmetospeaktohim。Ionlytoldhimtoleavemyhorsealone,orelseitwouldkickhim。Heansweredinhisvulgaraccent,``Itwouldn\'tdomuchhurtifitdid\";andsurveyeditslegswithasmile。Iwashalfinclinedtomakeittry;however,hemovedofftoopenthedoor,and,asheraisedthelatch,helookeduptotheinscriptionabove,andsaid,withastupidmixtureofawkwardnessandelation:
```MissCatherine!Icanreadyon,nah。\'\'
```Wonderful,\'\'Iexclaimed。``Prayletushearyou——youaregrownclever!\'\'
`Hespelt,anddrawledoverbysyllables,thename——\"HaretonEarnshaw\"。
```Andthefigures?\'\'Icriedencouragingly,perceivingthathecametoadeadhalt。
```Icannottellthemyet,\'\'heanswered。
``Oh,youdunce!\'\'Isaid,laughingheartilyathisfailure。
`Thefoolstared,withagrinhoveringabouthislips,andascowlgatheringoverhiseyes,asifuncertainwhetherhemightnotjoininmymirth:whetheritwerenotpleasantfamiliarity,orwhatitreallywas,contempt。Isettledhisdoubts,bysuddenlyretrievingmygravityanddesiringhimtowalkaway,forIcametoseeLinton,nothim。Hereddened——Isawthatbythemoonlight——droppedhishandfromthelatch,andskulkedoff,apictureofmortifiedvanity。HeimaginedhimselftobeasaccomplishedasLinton,Isuppose,becausehecouldspellhisownname;andwasmarvellouslydiscomfitedthatIdidn\'tthinkthesame。\'
`Stop,MissCatherine,dear!\'Iinterrupted。`Ishallnotscold,butIdon\'tlikeyourconductthere。IfyouhadrememberedthatHaretonwasyourcousinasmuchasMasterHeathcliff,youwouldhavefelthowimproperitwastobehaveinthatway。Atleast,itwaspraiseworthyambitionforhimtodesiretobeasaccomplishedasLinton;andprobablyhedidnotlearnmerelytoshowoff:youhadmadehimashamedofhisignorancebefore,Ihavenodoubt;andhewishedtoremedyitandpleaseyou。Tosneerathisimperfectattemptwasverybadbreeding。Hadyoubeenbroughtupinhiscircumstances,wouldyoubelessrude?Hewasasquickandasintelligentachildaseveryouwere;andI\'mhurtthatheshouldbedespisednow,becausethatbaseHeathcliffhastreatedhimsounjustly。\'
`Well,Ellen,youwon\'tcryaboutit,willyou?\'sheexclaimed,surprisedatmyearnestness。`Butwait,andyoushallhearifheconnedhisABCtopleaseme;andifitwereworthwhilebeingciviltothebrute。
Ientered;Lintonwaslyingonthesettle,andhalfgotuptowelcomeme。
```I\'milltonight,Catherine,love,\'\'hesaid;``andyoumusthaveallthetalk,andletmelisten。Come,andsitbyme。Iwassureyouwouldn\'tbreakyourword,andI\'llmakeyoupromiseagain,beforeyougo。\'\'
`IknewnowthatImustn\'tteasehim,ashe`wasill;andIspokesoftlyandputnoquestions,andavoidedirritatinghiminanyway。Ihadbroughtsomeofmynicestbooksforhim;heaskedmetoreadalittleofone,andIwasabouttocomply,whenEarnshawburstthedooropen:havinggatheredvenomwithreflection。Headvanceddirecttous,seizedLintonbythearm,andswunghimofftheseat。
``Gettothyownroom!\'\'hesaid,inavoicealmostinarticulatewithpassion;andhisfacelookedswelledandfurious。``Takeherthereifshecomestoseethee:thoushalln\'tkeepmeoutofthis。Begonewi\'
yeboth!\'\'
`Hesworeatus,andleftLintonnotimetoanswer,nearlythrowinghimintothekitchen;andheclenchedhisfistasIfollowed,seeminglylongingtoknockmedown。Iwasafraidforamoment,andIletonevolumefall;hekickeditafterme,andshutusout。Iheardamalignant,cracklylaughbythefire,andturning,beheldthatodiousJosephstandingrubbinghisbonyhands,andquivering。
``Awwersurehe\'dsarveyeeht!He\'sagrandlad!He\'sgettent\'raightsperritinhim!Heknaws——Aye,heknaws,asweelasAwdo,whosudbet\'maisteryonder——Ech,ech,ech!Hemadyeskiftproperly!
Ech,ech,ech!\'\'
``Wheremustwego?\'\'Isaidtomycousin,disregardingtheoldwretch\'smockery。
`Lintonwaswhiteandtrembling。Hewasnotprettythen,Ellen:
ohno!helookedfrightful;forhisthinfaceandlargeeyeswerewroughtintoanexpressionoffrantic,powerlessfury。Hegraspedthehandleofthedoor,andshookit:itwasfastenedinside。
``Ifyoudon\'tletmeinI\'llkillyou!——Ifyoudon\'tletmein,I\'llkillyou!\'\'herathershriekedthansaid。``Devil!devil!——I\'llkillyou——I\'llkillyou!\'\'
`Josephutteredhiscroakinglaughagain。
``Thear,that\'st\'father!\'\'hecried。``That\'sfather!We\'vealIassummutuhorthersideinus。NiverheedHareton,lad——dunnutbe`feard——hecannotgetatthee!\'\'
`ItookholdofLinton\'shands,andtriedtopullhimaway;butheshriekedsoshockinglythatIdarednotproceed。Atlasthiscrieswerechokedbyadreadfulfitofcoughing;bloodgushedfromhismouth,andhefellontheground。Iranintotheyard,sickwithterror;andcalledforZillah,asloudasIcould。Shesoonheardme:shewasmilkingthecowsinashedbehindthebarn,`andhurryingfromherwork,sheinquiredwhattherewastodo?Ihadn\'tbreathtoexplain;draggingherin,IlookedaboutforLinton。Earnshawhadcomeouttoexaminethemischiefhehadcaused,andhewasthenconveyingthepoorthingupstairs。ZillahandI
ascendedafterhim;buthestoppedmeatthetopofthesteps,andsaidIshouldn\'tgoin:Imustgohome。IexclaimedthathehadkilledLinton,andIwouldenter。Josephlockedthedoor,anddeclaredIshoulddo``nosichstuff\'\',andaskedmewhetherIwere``bahntobeasmadashim\'\'。Istoodcrying,tillthehousekeeperreappeared。Sheaffirmedhewouldbebetterinabit,buthecouldn\'tdowiththatshriekinganddin;
andshetookme,andnearlycarriedmeintothehouse。
`Ellen,Iwasreadytotearmyhairoffmyhead!Isobbedandweptsothatmyeyeswerealmostblind;andtheruffianyouhavesuchsympathywithstoodopposite:presumingeverynowandthentobidme``wisht\'\',anddenyingthatitwashisfault;and,finally,frightenedbymyassertionsthatIwouldtellpapa,andthatheshouldbeputinprisonandhanged,hecommencedblubberinghimself,andhurriedouttohidehiscowardlyagitation。
Still,Iwasnotridofhim:whenatlengththeycompelledmetodepart,andIhadgotsomehundredyardsoffthepremises,hesuddenlyissuedfromtheshadowoftheroadside,andcheckedMinnyandtookholdofme。
``MissCatherine,I\'millgrieved,\'\'hebegan,``butit\'sraythertoobad——\'\'
`Igavehimacutwithmywhip,thinkingperhapshewouldmurderme。Heletgo,thunderingoneofhishorridcurses,andIgallopedhomemorethanhalfoutofmysenses。
`Ididn\'tbidyougoodnightthatevening,andIdidn\'tgotoWutheringHeightsthenext:Iwishedto,exceedingly;butIwasstrangelyexcited,anddreadedtohearthatLintonwasdead,sometimes;andsometimesshudderedatthethoughtofencounteringHareton。OnthethirddayItookcourage:atleast,Icouldn\'tbearlongersuspense,andstoleoffoncemore。Iwentatfiveo\'clock,andwalked;fancyingImightmanagetocreepintothehouse,anduptoLinton\'sroom,unobserved。However,thedogsgavenoticeofmyapproach。Zillahreceivedme,andsaying,``theladwasmendingnicely\'\',showedmeintoasmall,tidy,carpetedapartment,where,tomyinexpressiblejoy,IbeheldLintonlaidonalittlesofa,readingoneofmybooks。Buthewouldneitherspeaktomenorlookatme,throughawholehour,Ellen:hehassuchanunhappytemper。Andwhatquiteconfoundedme,whenhedidopenhismouth,itwastoutterthefalsehoodthatIhadoccasionedtheuproar,andHaretonwasnottoblame!Unabletoreply,exceptpassionately,Igotupandwalkedfromtheroom。Hesentaftermeafaint``Catherine!\'\'Hedidnotreckononbeingansweredso:butIwouldn\'tturnback;andthemorrowwastheseconddayonwhichIstayedathome,nearlydeterminedtovisithimnomore。Butitwassomiserablegoingtobedandgettingup,andneverhearinganythingabouthim,thatmyresolutionmeltedintoairbeforeitwasproperlyformed。Ithadappearedwrongtotakethejourneyonce;nowitseemedwrongtorefrain。MichaelcametoaskifhemustsaddleMinny;Isaid``Yes\'\',andconsideredmyselfdoingadutyassheboremeoverthehills。Iwasforcedtopassthefrontwindowstogettothecourt:itwasnousetryingtoconcealmypresence。
``Youngmasterisinthehouse,\'\'saidZillah,asshesawmemakingfortheparlour。Iwentin;Earnshawwastherealso,buthequittedtheroomdirectly。Lintonsatinthegreatarmchairhalfasleep;walkinguptothefire,Ibeganinaserioustone,partlymeaningittobetrue:
``Asyoudon\'tlikeme,Linton,andasyouthinkIcomeonpurposetohurtyou,andpretendthatIdosoeverytime,thisisourlastmeeting:
letussaygoodbye;andtellMrHeathcliffthatyouhavenowishtoseeme,andthathemustn\'tinventanymorefalsehoodsonthesubject。\'\'
```Sitdownandtakeyourhatoff,Catherine,\'\'heanswered。
``YouaresomuchhappierthanIam,yououghttobebetter。Papatalksenoughofmydefects,andshowsenoughscornofme,tomakeitnaturalIshoulddoubtmyself。IdoubtwhetherIamnotaltogetherasworthlessashecallsme,frequently;andthenIfeelsocrossandbitter,Ihateeverybody!Iamworthless,andbadintemper,andbadinspirit,almostalways;and,ifyouchoose,youmaysaygoodbye:you\'llgetridofanannoyance。Only,Catherine,domethisjustice:believethatifI
mightbeassweet,andaskind,andasgoodasyouare,Iwouldbe;aswillingly,andmoreso,thanashappyandashealthy。AndbelievethatyourkindnesshasmademeloveyoudeeperthanifIdeservedyourlove:
andthoughIcouldn\'t,andcannothelpshowingmynaturetoyou,Iregretitandrepentit;andshallregretandrepentittillIdie!\'\'
`Ifelthespokethetruth;andIfeltImustforgivehim:and,thoughheshouldquarrelthenextmoment,Imustforgivehimagain。Wewerereconciled;butwecried,bothofus,thewholetimeIstayed:notentirelyforsorrow;yetIwassorryLintonhadthatdistortednature。
He\'llneverlethisfriendsbeatease,andhe\'llneverbeateasehimself!
Ihavealwaysgonetohislittleparlour,sincethatnight;becausehisfatherreturnedthedayafter。
`Aboutthreetimes,Ithink,wehavebeenmerryandhopeful,aswewerethefirstevening;therestofmyvisitsweredrearyandtroubled:
nowwithhisselfishnessandspite,andnowwithhissufferings:butI\'velearnedtoenduretheformerwithnearlyaslittleresentmentasthelatter。
MrHeathcliffpurposelyavoidsme:
Ihavehardlyseenhimatall。LastSunday,indeed,comingearlierthanusual,IheardhimabusingpoorLinton,cruelly,forhisconductofthenightbefore。Ican\'ttellhowheknewofit,unlesshelistened。Lintonhadcertainlybehavedprovokingly:however,itwasthebusinessofnobodybutme,andIinterruptedMrHeathcliff\'slecturebyenteringandtellinghimso。Heburstintoalaugh,andwentaway,sayinghewasgladItookthatviewofthematter。Sincethen,I\'vetoldLintonhemustwhisperhisbitterthings。NowEllen,youhaveheardall;andIcan\'tbepreventedfromgoingtoWutheringHeightsexceptbyinflictingmiseryontwopeople;
whereas,ifyou\'llonlynottellpapa,mygoingneeddisturbthetranquillityofnone。You\'llnottell,willyou?Itwillbeveryheartlessifyoudo。\'
`I\'llmakeupmymindonthatpointbytomorrow,MissCatherine,\'
Ireplied。`Itrequiressomestudy;andsoI\'llleaveyoutoyourrest,andgothinkitover。\'
Ithoughtitoveraloud,inmymaster\'spresence;walkingstraightfromherroomtohis,andrelatingthewholestory:withtheexceptionofherconversationswithhercousin,andanymentionofHareton。MrLintonwasalarmedanddistressed,morethanhewouldacknowledgetome。Inthemorning,Catherinelearntmybetrayalofherconfidence,andshelearntalsothathersecretvisitsweretoend。Invainsheweptandwrithedagainsttheinterdict,andimploredherfathertohavepityonLinton:allshegottocomfortherwasapromisethathewouldwriteandgivehimleavetocometotheGrangewhenhepleased;butexplainingthathemustnolongerexpecttoseeCatherineatWutheringHeights。Perhaps,hadhebeenawareofhisnephew\'sdispositionandstateofhealth,hewouldhaveseenfittowithholdeventhatslightconsolation。
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WutheringHeights[PreviousChapter][TableofContents]Chapter25`Thesethingshappenedlastwinter,sir,\'saidMrsDean;`hardlymorethanayearago。Lastwinter,Ididnotthink,atanothertwelvemonths\'end,Ishouldbeamusingastrangertothefamilywithrelatingthem!Yet,whoknowshowlongyou\'llbeastranger?You\'retooyoungtorestalwayscontented,livingbyyourself;andIsomewayfancynoonecouldseeCatherineLintonandnotloveher。Yousmile;butwhydoyoulooksolivelyandinterested,whenItalkabouther?andwhyhaveyouaskedmetohangherpictureoveryourfireplace?andwhy——\'
`Stop,mygoodfriend!\'Icried。`ItmaybeverypossiblethatIshouldloveher;butwouldsheloveme?Idoubtittoomuchtoventuremytranquillitybyrunningintotemptation:andthenmyhomeisnothere。
I\'mofthebusyworld,andtoitsarmsImustreturn。Goon。WasCatherineobedienttoherfather\'scommands?\'
`Shewas,\'continuedthehousekeeper。`Heraffectionforhimwasstillthechiefsentimentinherheart;andhespokewithoutanger:hespokeinthedeeptendernessofoneabouttoleavehistreasureamidperilsandfoes,wherehisrememberedwordswouldbetheonlyaidthathecouldbequeathtoguideher。Hesaidtome,afewdaysafterwards:
`\"Iwishmynephewwouldwrite,Ellen,orcall。Tellme,sincerely,whatyouthinkofhim:ishechangedforthebetter,oristhereaprospectofimprovement,ashegrowsaman?\'\'
```He\'sverydelicate,sir,\'\'Ireplied;``andscarcelylikelytoreachmanhood;butthisIcansay,hedoesnotresemblehisfather;
andifMissCatherinehadthemisfortunetomarryhim,hewouldnotbebeyondhercontrol:unlessshewereextremelyandfoolishlyindulgent。
However,master,you\'llhaveplentyoftimetogetacquaintedwithhim,andseewhetherhewouldsuither:itwantsfouryearsandmoretohisbeingofage。\'\'\'
Edgarsighed;andwalkingtothewindow,lookedouttowardsGimmertonKirk。Itwasamistyafternoon,buttheFebruarysunshonedimly,andwecouldjustdistinguishthetwofirtreesintheyard,andthesparelyscatteredgravestones。
`I\'veprayedoften\',hehalfsoliloquized,`fortheapproachofwhatiscoming;andnowIbegintoshrink,andfearit。IthoughtthememoryofthehourIcamedownthatglenabridegroomwouldbelesssweetthantheanticipationthatIwassoon,inafewmonths,or,possibly,weeks,tobecarriedup,andlaidinitslonelyhollow!Ellen,I\'vebeenveryhappywithmylittleCathy:throughwinternightsandsummerdaysshewasalivinghopeatmyside。ButI\'vebeenashappymusingbymyselfamongthosestones,underthatoldchurch:lying,throughthelongJuneevenings,onthegreenmoundofhermother\'sgraveandwishing——yearningforthetimewhenImightliebeneathit。WhatcanIdoforCathy?HowmustIquither?I\'dnotcareonemomentforLintonbeingHeathcliff\'sson;norforhistakingherfromme,ifhecouldconsoleherformyloss。I\'dnotcarethatHeathcliffgainedhisends,andtriumphedinrobbingmeofmylastblessing!ButshouldLintonbeunworthy——onlyafeebletooltohisfather——I
cannotabandonhertohim!And,hardthoughitbetocrushherbuoyantspirit,ImustpersevereinmakinghersadwhileIlive,andleavinghersolitarywhenIdie。Darling!I\'dratherresignhertoGod,andlayherintheearthbeforeme。\'
ResignhertoGod,asitis,sir,\'Ianswered,`andifweshouldloseyou——whichmayHeforbid——underHisprovidence,I\'llstandherfriendandcounsellortothelast。MissCatherineisagoodgirl:Idon\'tfearthatshewillgowilfullywrong;andpeoplewhodotheirdutyarealwaysfinallyrewarded。\'
Springadvanced;yetmymastergatherednorealstrength,thoughheresumedhiswalksinthegroundswithhisdaughter。Toherinexperiencednotions,thisitselfwasasignofconvalescence;andthenhischeekwasoftenflushed,andhiseyeswerebright:shefeltsureofhisrecovering。
Onherseventeenthbirthday,hedidnotvisitthechurchyard:itwasraining,andIobserved:
`You\'llsurelynotgoouttonight,sir?\'
Heanswered:
`No,I\'lldeferitthisyearalittlelonger。\'
HewroteagaintoLinton,expressinghisgreatdesiretoseehim;
and,hadtheinvalidbeenpresentable,I\'venodoubthisfatherwouldhavepermittedhimtocome。Asitwas,beinginstructed,hereturnedananswer,intimatingthatMrHeathcliffobjectedtohiscallingattheGrange;buthisuncle\'skindremembrancedelightedhim,andhehopedtomeethim,sometimes,inhisrambles,andpersonallytopetitionthathiscousinandhemightnotremainlongsoutterlydivided。
Thatpartofhisletterwassimple,andprobablyhisown。HeathcliffknewhecouldpleadeloquentlyenoughforCatherine\'scompany,then。
`Idonotask\',hesaid,`thatshemayvisithere;but,amInevertoseeher,becausemyfatherforbidsmetogotoherhome,andyouforbidhertocometomine?Donowandthen,ridewithhertowardstheHeights;
andletusexchangeafewwords,inyourpresence!Wehavedonenothingtodeservethisseparation;andyouarenotangrywithme;youhavenoreasontodislikeme,youallow,yourself。Dearuncle!sendmeakindnotetomorrow,andleavetojoinyouanywhereyouplease,exceptatThrushcrossGrange。Ibelieveaninterviewwouldconvinceyouthatmyfather\'scharacterisnotmine:heaffirmsIammoreyournephewthanhisson;andthoughIhavefaultswhichrendermeunworthyofCatherine,shehasexcusedthem,andforhersake,youshouldalso。Youinquireaftermyhealth——itisbetter;
butwhileIremaincutofffromallhope,anddoomedtosolitude,orthesocietyofthosewhoneverdidandneverwilllikeme,howcanIbecheerfulandwell?\'
Edgar,thoughhefeltfortheboy,couldnotconsenttogranthisrequest;becausehecouldnotaccompanyCatherine。Hesaid,insummer,perhaps,theymightmeet:meantime,hewishedhimtocontinuewritingatintervals,andengagedtogivehimwhatadviceandcomforthewasablebyletter;beingwellawareofhishardpositioninhisfamily。Lintoncomplied;andhadhebeenunrestrained,wouldprobablyhavespoiledallbyfillinghisepistleswithcomplaintsandlamentations:buthisfatherkeptasharpwatchoverhim;and,ofcourse,insistedoneverylinethatmymastersentbeingshown;so,insteadofpenninghispeculiarpersonalsufferingsanddistresses,thethemesconstantlyuppermostinhisthoughts,heharpedonthecruelobligationofbeingheldasunderfromhisfriendandlove;andgentlyintimatedthatMrLintonmustallowaninterviewsoon,orheshouldfearhewaspurposelydeceivinghimwithemptypromises。
Cathywasapowerfulallyathome;and,betweenthem,theyatlengthpersuadedmymastertoacquiesceintheirhavingarideorawalktogetheraboutonceaweek,undermyguardianship,andonthemoorsnearesttheGrange:forJunefoundhimstilldeclining;andthoughhehadsetasideyearlyaportionofhisincomeformyyounglady\'sfortune,hehadanaturaldesirethatshemightretain——oratleastreturninashorttimeto——thehouseofherancestors;andheconsideredheronlyprospectofdoingthatwasbyaunionwithhisheir;hehadnoideathatthelatterwasfailingalmostasfastashimself;norhadanyone;Ibelieve:nodoctorvisitedtheHeights,andnoonesawMasterHeathclifftomakereportofhisconditionamongus。I,formypart,begantofancymyforebodingswerefalse,andthathemustbeactuallyrallying,whenhementionedridingandwalkingonthemoors,andseemedsoearnestinpursuinghisobject。IcouldnotpictureafathertreatingadyingchildastyrannicallyandwickedlyasIafterwardslearnedHeathcliffhadtreatedhim,tocompelthisapparenteagerness:hiseffortsredoublingthemoreimminentlyhisavariciousandunfeelingplanswerethreatenedwithdefeatbydeath。
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WutheringHeights[PreviousChapter][TableofContents]Chapter26Summerwasalreadypastitsprime,whenEdgarreluctantlyyieldedhisassenttotheirentreaties,andCatherineandIsetoutonourfirstridetojoinhercousin。Itwasaclose,sultryday:devoidofsunshine,butwithaskytoodappledandhazytothreatenrain;andourplaceofmeetinghadbeenfixedattheguide-stone,bythecrossroads。Onarrivingthere,however,alittleherd-boy,dispatchedasamessenger,toldusthat:
`MaisterLintonwerjustutthissideth\'Heights:andhe\'dbemitchobleegedtoustogangonabitfarther。\'
`ThenMasterLintonhasforgotthefirstinjunctionofhisuncle,\'
Iobserved:`hebiduskeepontheGrangeland,andhereweareoffatonce。\'
`Well,we\'llturnourhorses\'headsround,whenwereachhim,\'
answeredmycompanion,`ourexcursionshalllietowardshome。\'
Butwhenwereachedhim,andthatwasscarcelyaquarterofamilefromhisowndoor,wefoundhehadnohorse;andwewereforcedtodismount,andleaveourstograze。Helayontheheath,awaitingourapproach,anddidnotrisetillwecamewithinafewyards。Thenhewalkedsofeebly,andlookedsopale,thatIimmediatelyexclaimed:
`Why,MasterHeathcliff,youarenotfitforenjoyingaramble,thismorning。Howillyoudolook!\'
Catherinesurveyedhimwithgriefandastonishment;andchangedtheejaculationofjoyonherlips,tooneofalarm;andthecongratulationontheirlong-postponedmeeting,toananxiousinquiry,whetherhewereworsethanusual?
`No——better——better!\'hepanted,trembling,andretainingherhandasifheneededitssupport,whilehislargeblueeyeswanderedtimidlyoverher;thehollownessroundthemtransformingtohaggardwildnessthelanguidexpressiontheyoncepossessed。
`Butyouhavebeenworse,\'persistedhiscousin;`worsethanwhenIsawyoulast;youarethinner,and——
`I\'mtired,\'heinterruptedhurriedly。`Itistoohotforwalking,letusresthere。And,inthemorning,Ioftenfeelsick——papasaysIgrowsofast。\'
Badlysatisfied,Cathysatdown,andhereclinedbesideher。
`Thisissomethinglikeyourparadise,\'saidshe,makinganeffortatcheerfulness。`Yourecollectthetwodaysweagreedtospendintheplaceandwayeachthoughtpleasantest?Thisissurelyyours,onlythereareclouds:butthentheyaresosoftandmellow:itisnicerthansunshine。
Nextweek,ifyoucan,we\'llridedowntotheGrangePark,andtrymine。\'
Lintondidnotappeartorememberwhatshetalkedof;andhehadevidentlygreatdifficultyinsustaininganykindofconversation。Hislackofinterestinthesubjectsshestarted,andhisequalincapacitytocontributetoherentertainment,weresoobviousthatshecouldnotconcealherdisappointment。Anindefinitealterationhadcomeoverhiswholepersonandmanner。Thepettishnessthatmightbecaressedintofondness,hadyieldedtoalistlessapathy;therewaslessofthepeevishtemperofachildwhichfretsandteasesonpurposetobesoothed,andmoreoftheself-absorbedmorosenessofaconfirmedinvalid,repellingconsolation,andreadytoregardthegood-humouredmirthofothersasaninsult。Catherineperceived,aswellasIdid,thathehelditratherapunishment,thanagratification,toendureourcompany;andshemadenoscrupleofproposing,presently,todepart。Thatproposal,unexpectedly,rousedLintonfromhislethargy,andthrewhimintoastrangestateofagitation。HeglancedfearfullytowardstheHeights,beggingshewouldremainanotherhalf-houratleast。
`ButIthink\',saidCathy,`you\'dbemorecomfortableathomethansittinghere;andIcannotamuseyoutoday,Isee,bymytales,andsongs,andchatter:youhavegrownwiserthanI,inthesesixmonths;youhavelittletasteformydiversionsnow:orelse,ifIcouldamuseyou,I\'dwillinglystay。\'
`Staytorestyourself,\'hereplied。`AndCatherine,don\'tthink,orsaythatI\'mveryunwell:itistheheavyweatherandheatthatmakemedull;andIwalkedabout,beforeyoucame,agreatdealforme。
TelluncleI\'mintolerablehealth,willyou?\'
`I\'lltellhimthatyousayso,Linton。Icouldn\'taffirmthatyouare,\'observedmyyounglady,wonderingathispertinaciousassertionofwhatwasevidentlyanuntruth。
`AndbehereagainnextThursday,\'continuedhe,shunningherpuzzledgaze。`Andgivehimmythanksforpermittingyoutocome——mybestthanks,Catherine。And-and,ifyoudidmeetmyfather,andheaskedyouaboutme,don\'tleadhimtosupposethatI\'vebeenextremelysilentandstupid:don\'tlooksadanddowncast,asyouaredoing——he\'llbeangry。\'