第13章

类别:其他 作者:Emily Bronte字数:17633更新时间:18/12/14 16:56:42
Thatseemedrathertoofavourableanarrangementtobehopedfor:andyetIdidhope,andbegantocheerupundertheprospectofretainingmyhomeandmyemployment,and,aboveall,mybelovedyoungmistress;whenaservant——oneofthediscardedones,notyetdeparted——rushedhastilyin,andsaid`thatdevilHeathcliff\'wascomingthroughthecourt:shouldhefastenthedoorinhisface? Ifwehadbeenmadenoughtoorderthatproceeding,wehadnottime。Hemadenoceremonyofknockingorannouncinghisname:hewasmaster,andavailedhimselfofthemaster\'sprivilegetowalkstraightin,withoutsayingaword。Thesoundofourinformant\'svoicedirectedhimtothelibrary: heentered,andmotioninghimout,shutthedoor。 Itwasthesameroomintowhichhehadbeenushered,asaguest,eighteenyearsbefore:thesamemoonshonethroughthewindow;andthesameautumnlandscapelayoutside。Wehadnotyetlightedacandle,butalltheapartmentwasvisible,eventotheportraitsonthewall:thesplendidheadofMrsLinton,andthegracefuloneofherhusband。Heathcliffadvancedtothehearth。Timehadlittlealteredhispersoneither。Therewasthesameman:hisdarkfacerathersallowerandmorecomposed,hisframeastoneortwoheavier,perhaps,andnootherdifference。Catherinehadrisen,withanimpulsetodashout,whenshesawhim。 `Stop!\'hesaid,arrestingherbythearm。`Nomorerunningsaway! Wherewouldyougo?I\'mcometofetchyouhome;andIhopeyou\'llbeadutifuldaughter,andnotencouragemysontofurtherdisobedience。IwasembarrassedhowtopunishhimwhenIdiscoveredhispartinthebusiness: he\'ssuchacobweb,apinchwouldannihilatehim;butyou\'llseebyhislookthathehasreceivedhisdue!Ibroughthimdownoneevening,thedaybeforeyesterday,andjustsethiminachair,andnevertouchedhimafterwards。IsentHaretonout,andwehadtheroomtoourselves。Intwohours,IcalledJosephtocarryhimupagain;andsincethenmypresenceisaspotentonhisnervesasaghost;andIfancyheseesmeoften,thoughIamnotnear。Haretonsayshewakesandshrieksinthenightbythehourtogether,andcallsyoutoprotecthimfromme;and,whetheryoulikeyourpreciousmateornot,youmustcome:he\'syourconcernnow;Iyieldallmyinterestinhimtoyou。 `WhynotletCatherinecontinuehere?\'Ipleaded,`andsendMasterLintontoher。Asyouhatethemboth,you\'dnotmissthem:theycanonlybeadailyplaguetoyourunnaturalheart。 `I\'mseekingatenantfortheGrange,\'heanswered;`andIwantmychildrenaboutme,tobesure。Besides,thatlassowesmeherservicesforherbread。I\'mnotgoingtonurtureherinluxuryandidlenessafterLintonhasgone。Makehasteandgetready,now;anddon\'tobligemetocompelyou。\' `Ishall,\'saidCatherine。`LintonisallIhavetoloveintheworld,andthoughyouhavedonewhatyoucouldtomakehimhatefultome,andmetohim,youcannotmakeushateeachother。AndIdefyyoutohurthimwhenIamby,andIdefyyoutofrightenme!\' Youareaboastfulchampion,\'repliedHeathcliff;`butIdon\'tlikeyouwellenoughtohurthim:youshallgetthefullbenefitofthetorment,aslongasitlasts。ItisnotIwhowillmakehimhatefultoyou——itishisownsweetspirit。He\'sasbitterasgallatyourdesertionanditsconsequences:don\'texpectthanksforthisnobledevotion。IheardhimdrawapleasantpicturetoZillahofwhathewoulddoifhewereasstrongasI:theinclinationisthere,andhisveryweaknesswillsharpenhiswitstofindasubstituteforstrength。\' `Iknowhehasabadnature,\'saidCatherine:`he\'syourson。 ButI\'mgladI\'veabetter,toforgiveit;andIknowhelovesme,andforthatreasonIlovehim。MrHeathcliff,youhavenobodytoloveyou;and,howevermiserableyoumakeus,weshallstillhavetherevengeofthinkingthatyourcrueltyarisesfromyourgreatermisery。Youaremiserable,areyounot?Lonely,likethedevil,andenviouslikehim?Nobodylovesyou——nobodywillcryforyouwhenyoudie!Iwouldn\'tbeyou!\' Catherinespokewithakindofdrearytriumph:sheseemedtohavemadeuphermindtoenterintothespiritofherfuturefamily,anddrawpleasurefromthegriefsofherenemies。 `Youshallbesorrytobeyourselfpresently\',saidherfather-in-law,`ifyoustandthereanotherminute。Begone,witch,andgetyourthings!\' Shescornfullywithdrew。Inherabsence,IbegantobegforZillah\'splaceattheHeights,offeringtoresignminetoher;buthewouldsufferitonnoaccount。Hebidmebesilent;andthen,forthefirsttime,allowedhimselfaglanceroundtheroomandalookatthepictures。HavingstudiedMrsLinton,hesaid: `Ishallhavethathome。NotbecauseIneedit,but——\'Heturnedabruptlytothefire,andcontinued,withwhat,forlackofabetterword,Imustcallasmile——`I\'IltellyouwhatIdidyesterday!Igotthesexton,whowasdiggingLinton\'sgrave,toremovetheearthoffhercoffin-lid,andIopenedit。Ithought,once,Iwouldhavestayedthere:whenIsawherfaceagain——it。ishersyet!——hehad~hardworktostirme;buthesaiditwouldchangeiftheairblewonit,andsoIstruckonesideofthecoffinloose,andcovereditup:notLinton\'sside,damnhim!Iwishhe\'dbeensolderedinlead。AndIbribedthesextontopullitawaywhenI\'mlaidthere,andslidemineouttoo;I\'llhaveitmadeso:andthen,bythetimeLintongetstoushe\'llnotknowwhichiswhich!\' `Youwereverywicked,MrHeathcliff!\'Iexclaimed,`wereyounotashamedtodisturbthedead?\' `Idisturbednobody,Nelly,\'hereplied;`andIgavesomeeasetomyself。Ishallbeagreatdealmorecomfortablenow;andyou\'llhaveabetterchanceofkeepingmeunderground,whenIgetthere。Disturbedher?No!shehasdisturbedme,nightandday,througheighteenyears——incessantly——remorselessly——tillyesternight;andyesternightIwastranquil。IdreamtIwassleepingthelastsleepbythatsleeper,withmyheartstoppedandmycheekfrozenagainsthers。\' `Andifshehadbeendissolvedintoearth,orworse,whatwouldyouhavedreamtofthen?\'Isaid。 `Ofdissolvingwithher,andbeingmorehappystill!\'heanswered。 `DoyousupposeIdreadanychangeofthatsort?Iexpectedsuchatransformationonraisingthelid:butI\'mbetterpleasedthatitshouldnotcommencetillIshareit。Besides,unlessIhadreceivedadistinctimpressionofherpassionlessfeatures,thatstrangefeelingwouldhardlyhavebeenremoved。 Itbeganoddly。YouknowIwaswildaftershedied;andeternally,fromdawntodawn,prayinghertoreturntomeherspirit!Ihaveastrongfaithinghosts:Ihaveaconvictionthattheycan,anddo,existamongus!Thedayshewasburiedtherecameafallofsnow。IntheeveningIwenttothechurchyard。Itblewbleakaswinter——allroundwassolitary。Ididn\'tfearthatherfoolofahusbandwouldwanderupthedensolate;andnooneelsehadbusinesstobringthemthere。Beingalone,andconscioustwoyardsoflooseearthwasthesolebarrierbetweenus,Isaidtomyself——\"I\'llhaveherinmyarmsagain!Ifshebecold,I\'llthinkitisthisnorthwindthatchillsme;andifshebemotionless,itissleep。\"Igotaspadefromthetoolhouse,andbegantodelvewithallmymight——itscrapedthecoffin;Ifelltoworkwithmyhands;thewoodcommencedcrackingaboutthescrews;Iwasonthepointofattainingmyobject,whenitseemedthatIheardasighfromsomeoneabove,closeattheedgeofthegrave,andbendingdown。\"IfIcanonlygetthisoff,\"Imuttered,\"Iwishtheymayshovelintheearthoverusboth!\"andIwrenchedatitmoredesperatelystill。Therewasanothersigh,closeatmyear。Iappearedtofeelthewarmbreathofitdisplacingthesleet-ladenwind。Iknewnolivingthinginfleshandbloodwasby;but,ascertainlyasyouperceivetheapproachtosomesubstantialbodyinthedark,thoughitcannotbediscerned,socertainlyIfeltthatCathywasthere:notunderme,butontheearth。 Asuddensenseofreliefflowedfrommyheartthrougheverylimb。Irelinquishedmylabourofagony,andturnedconsoledatonce:unspeakablyconsoled。 Herpresencewaswithme:itremainedwhileIrefilledthegrave,andledmehome。Youmaylaugh,ifyouwill;butIwassureIshouldseeherthere。 Iwassureshewaswithme,andIcouldnothelptalkingtoher。HavingreachedtheHeights,Irushedeagerlytothedoor。Itwasfastened;and,Iremember,thataccursedEarnshawandmywifeopposedmyentrance。Irememberstoppingtokickthebreathoutofhim,andthenhurryingupstairs,tomyroomandhers。Ilookedroundimpatiently——Ifeltherbyme——Icouldalmostseeher,andyetIcouldnot!Ioughttohavesweatbloodthen,fromtheanguishofmyyearning——fromthefervourofmysupplicationstohavebutoneglimpse!Ihadnotone。Sheshowedherself,assheoftenwasinlife,adeviltome!And,sincethen,sometimesmoreandsometimesless,I\'vebeenthesportofthatintolerabletorture!Infernal!keepingmynervesatsuchastretch,that,iftheyhadnotresembledcatgut,theywouldlongagohaverelaxedtothefeeblenessofLinton\'s。WhenIsatinthehousewithHareton,itseemedthatongoingout,Ishouldmeether; whenIwalkedonthemoorsIshouldmeethercomingin。WhenIwentfromhome,Ihastenedtoreturn:shemustbesomewhereattheHeights,Iwascertain!AndwhenIsleptinherchamber——Iwasbeatenoutofthat。 Icouldn\'tliethere;forthemomentIclosedmyeyes,shewaseitheroutsidethewindow,orslidingbackthepanels,orenteringtheroom,orevenrestingherdarlingheadonthesamepillowasshedidwhenachild;andImustopenmylidstosee。AndsoIopenedandclosedthemahundredtimesanight——tobealwaysdisappointed!Itrackedme!I\'veoftengroanedaloud,tillthatoldrascalJosephnodoubtbelievedthatmyconsciencewasplayingthefiendinsideofme。Now,sinceI\'veseenher,I\'mpacified——alittle。 It~sastrangewayofkilling!notbyinches,butbyfractionsandhairbreadths,tobeguilemewiththespectreofahope,througheighteenyears!\' MrHeathcliffpausedandwipedhisforehead;hishairclungtoit,wetwithperspiration;hiseyeswerefixedontheredembersofthefire,thebrowsnotcontracted,butraisednextthetemples;diminishingthegrimaspectofhiscountenance,butimpartingapeculiarlookoftrouble,andapainfulappearanceofmentaltensiontowardsoneabsorbingsubject。 Heonlyhalfaddressedme,andImaintainedsilence。Ididn\'tliketohearhimtalk!Afterashortperiodheresumedhismeditationonthepicture,tookitdownandleantitagainstthesofatocontemplateitatbetteradvantage;andwhilesooccupiedCatherineentered,announcingthatshewasready,whenherponyshouldbesaddled。 `Sendthatovertomorrow,\'saidHeathclifftome;thenturningtoher,headded——`Youmaydowithoutyourpony:itisafineevening,andyou\'llneednoponiesatWutheringHeights;forwhatjourneysyoutake,yourownfeetwillserveyou。Comealong。\' `Goodbye,Ellen!\'whisperedmydearlittlemistress。Asshekissedme,herlipsfeltlikeice。`Comeandseeme,Ellen;don\'tforget。\' `Takecareyoudonosuchthing,MrsDean!\'saidhernewfather。 `WhenIwishtospeaktoyouI\'llcomehere。Iwantnoneofyourpryingatmyhouse!\' Hesignedhertoprecedehim;andcastingbackalookthatcutmyheart,sheobeyed。Iwatchedthemfromthewindow,walkdownthegarden。 HeathclifffixedCatherine\'sarmunderhis:thoughshedisputedtheactatfirstevidently;andwithrapidstrideshehurriedherintothealley,whosetreesconcealedthem。 [NextChapter][TableofContents] WutheringHeights[PreviousChapter][TableofContents]Chapter30IhavepaidavisittotheHeights,butIhavenotseenhersincesheleft: JosephheldthedoorinhishandwhenIcalledtoaskafterher,andwouldn\'tletmepass。HesaidMrsLintonwas`thrang\',andthemasterwasnotin。 Zillahhastoldmesomethingofthewaytheygoon,otherwiseIshouldhardlyknowwhowasdeadandwholiving。ShethinksCatherinehaughty,anddoesnotlikeher,Icanguessbyhertalk。Myyoungladyaskedsomeaidofherwhenshefirstcame;butMrHeathclifftoldhertofollowherownbusiness,andlethisdaughter-in-lawlookafterherself;andZillahwillinglyacquiesced,beinganarrow-minded,selfishwoman。Catherineevincedachild\'sannoyanceatthisneglect;repaiditwithcontempt,andthusenlistedmyinformantamongherenemies,assecurelyasifshehaddonehersomegreatwrong。IhadalongtalkwithZillahaboutsixweeksago,alittlebeforeyoucame,onedaywhenweforegatheredonthemoor;andthisiswhatshetoldme。 `ThefirstthingMrsLintondid\',shesaid,`onherarrivalattheHeights,wastorunupstairs,withoutevenwishinggoodeveningtomeandJoseph;sheshutherselfintoLinton\'sroom,andremainedtillmorning。 Then,whilethemasterandEarnshawwereatbreakfast,sheenteredthehouse,andaskedallinaquiverifthedoctormightbesentfor?hercousinwasveryill。 `\"Weknowthat!\"answeredHeathcliff;\"buthislifeisnotworthafarthing,andIwon\'tspendafarthingonhim。\" `\"ButIcannottellhowtodo,\"shesaid;\"andifnobodywillhelpme,he\'lldie!\" `\"Walkoutoftheroom,\"criedthemaster,\"andletmeneverhearawordmoreabouthim!Noneherecarewhatbecomesofhim;ifyoudo,actthenurse;ifyoudonot,lockhimupandleavehim。\" `Thenshebegantobotherme,andIsaidI\'dhadenoughplaguewiththetiresomething;weeachhadourtasks,andherswastowaitonLinton,MrHeathcliffbidmeleavethatlabourtoher。 `Howtheymanagedtogether,Ican\'ttell。Ifancyhefrettedagreatdeal,andmoanedhisselnnightandday;andshehadpreciouslittlerest:onecouldguessbyherwhitefaceandheavyeyes。Shesometimescameintothekitchenallwilderedlike,andlookedasifshewouldfainbegassistance;butIwasnotgoingtodisobeythemaster:Ineverdaredisobeyhim,MrsDean;and,thoughIthoughtitwrongthatKennethshouldnotbesentfor,itwasnoconcernofmineeithertoadviseorcomplain,andI alwaysrefusedtomeddle。Onceortwice,afterwehadgonetobed,I\'vehappenedtoopenmydooragainandseenhersittingcryingonthestairs\' top;andthenI\'veshutmyselfinquick,forfearofbeingmovedtointerfere。 Ididpityherthen,I\'msure:stillIdidn\'twishtolosemyplace,youknow。 `Atlast,onenightshecameboldlyintomychamber,andfrightenedmeoutofmywits,bysaying: `\"TellMrHeathcliffthathissonisdying——I\'msureheis,thistime。Getup,instantly,andtellhim。\" `Havingutteredthisspeech,shevanishedagain。Ilayaquarterofanhourlisteningandtrembling。Nothingstirred——thehousewasquiet。 `She\'smistaken,Isaidtomyself。He\'sgotoverit。Ineedn\'tdisturbthem;andIbegantodoze。Butmysleepwasmarredasecondtimebyasharpringingofthebell——theonlybellwehave,putuponpurposeforLinton;andthemastercalledtometoseewhatwasthematter,andinformthemthathewouldn\'thavethatnoiserepeated。 `IdeliveredCatherine\'smessage。Hecursedtohimself,andinafewminutescameoutwithalightedcandle,andproceededtotheirroom。 Ifollowed。MrsHeathcliffwasseatedbythebedside,withherhandsfoldedonherknees。Herfather-in-lawwentup,heldthelighttoLinton\'sface,lookedathim,andtouchedhim;afterwardsheturnedtoher。 `\"Now——Catherine,\"hesaid,\"howdoyoufeel?\"`Shewasdumb。 `\"Howdoyoufeel,Catherine?\"herepeated。 `\"He\'ssafe,andI\'mfree,\"sheanswered:\"Ishouldfeelwell——but\",shecontinued,withabitternessshecouldn\'tconceal,\"youhaveleftmesolongtostruggleagainstdeathalone,thatIfeelandseeonlydeath! Ifeellikedeath!\" `Andshelookedlikeit,too!Igaveheralittlewine。HaretonandJoseph,whohadbeenwakenedbytheringingandthesoundoffeet,andheardourtalkfromoutside,nowentered。Josephwasfain,Ibelieve,ofthelad\'sremoval;Haretonseemedathoughtbothered:thoughhewasmoretakenupwithstaringatCatherinethanthinkingofLinton。Butthemasterbidhimgetofftobedagain:wedidn\'twanthishelp。HeafterwardsmadeJosephremovethebodytohischamber,andtoldmetoreturntomine,andMrsHeathcliffremainedbyherself。 `Inthemorning,hesentmetotellhershemustcomedowntobreakfast:shehadundressed,andappearedgoingtosleep,andsaidshewasill;atwhichIhardlywondered。IinformedMrHeathcliff,andhereplied: `\"Well,letherbetillafterthefuneral;andgoupnowandthentogetherwhatisneedful;and,assoonassheseemsbetter,tellme。\"\' Cathystayedupstairsafortnight,accordingtoZillah;whovisitedhertwiceaday,andwouldhavebeenrathermorefriendly,butherattemptsatincreasingkindnesswereproudlyandpromptlyrepelled。 Heathcliffwentuponce,toshowherLinton\'swill。Hehadbequeathedthewholeofhis,andwhathadbeenher,movablepropertytohisfather: thepoorcreaturewasthreatened,orcoaxed,intothatactduringherweek\'sabsence,whenhisuncledied。Thelands,beingaminor,hecouldnotmeddlewith。However,MrHeathcliffhasclaimedandkepttheminhiswife\'srightandhisalso:Isupposelegally:atanyrate,Catherine,destituteofcashandfriends,cannotdisturbhispossession。 `Nobody\',saidZillah,`everapproachedherdoor,exceptthatonce,butI;andnobodyaskedanythingabouther。ThefirstoccasionofhercomingdownintothehousewasonaSundayafternoon。Shehadcriedout,whenIcarriedupherdinner,thatshecouldn\'tbearanylongerbeinginthecold:andItoldherthemasterwasgoingtoThrushcrossGrange,andEarnshawandIneedn\'thinderherfromdescending;so,assoonassheheardHeathcliff\'shorsetrotoff,shemadeherappearancedonnedinblack,andheryellowcurlscombedbackbehindherearsasplainasaQuaker: shecouldn\'tcombthemout。 `JosephandIgenerallygotochapelonSundays\';thekirk,youknow,hasnoministernow,explainedMrsDean;andtheycalltheMethodists\' orBaptists\'place(Ican\'tsaywhichitis),atGimmerton,achapel。`Josephhadgone,\'shecontinued,`butIthoughtpropertobideathome。Youngfolksarealwaysthebetterforanelder\'soverlooking;andHareton,withallhisbashfulness,isn\'tamodelofnicebehaviour。Ilethimknowthathiscousinwouldverylikelysitwithus,andshehadbeenalwaysusedtoseetheSabbathrespected;sohehadasgoodleavehisgunsandbitsofindoorworkalone,whileshestayed。Hecolouredupatthenews,andcasthiseyesoverhishandsandclothes。Thetrain-oilandgunpowderwereshovedoutofsightinaminute。Isawhemeanttogiveherhiscompany; andIguessed,byhisway,hewantedtobepresentable;so,laughing,asIdurstnotlaughwhenthemasterisby,Iofferedtohelphim,ifhewould,andjokedathisconfusion。Hegrewsullen,andbegantoswear。 `Now,MrsDean,\'Zillahwenton,seeingmenotpleasedbyhermanner,`youhappenthinkyouryoungladytoofineforMrHareton;andhappenyou\'reright:butIownIshouldlovewelltobringherprideapeglower。Andwhatwillallherlearningandherdaintinessdoforher,now?She\'saspoorasyouorI:poorerI\'llbebound:you\'resaving,andI\'mdoingmylittleallthatroad。\'?HaretonallowedZillahtogivehimheraid;andsheflatteredhimintoagoodhumour:so,whenCatherinecame,halfforgettingherformerinsults,hetriedtomakehimselfagreeable,bythehousekeeper\'saccount。 `Missiswalkedin\',shesaid,`aschillasanicicle,andashighasaprincess。Igotupandofferedhermyseatinthearmchair。No,sheturneduphernoseatmycivility。Earnshawrose,too,andbidhercometothesettle,andsitclosebythefire:hewassureshewasstarved。 `\"I\'vebeenstarvedamonthandmore,\"sheanswered,restingonthewordasscornfulasshecould。 `Andshegotachairforherself,andplaceditatadistancefrombothofus。Havingsattillshewaswarm,shebegantolookround,anddiscoveredanumberofbooksinthedresser;shewasinstantlyuponherfeetagain,stretchingtoreachthem:buttheyweretoohighup。Hercousin,afterwatchingherendeavoursawhile,atlastsummonedcouragetohelpher;sheheldherfrock,andhefilleditwiththefirstthatcametohand。 `Thatwasagreatadvanceforthelad。Shedidn\'tthankhim;still,hefeltgratifiedthatshehadacceptedhisassistance,andventuredtostandbehindassheexaminedthem,andeventostoopandpointoutwhatstruckhisfancyincertainoldpictureswhichtheycontained;norwashedauntedbythesaucystyleinwhichshejerkedthepagefromhisfinger: hecontentedhimselfwithgoingabitfartherback,andlookingatherinsteadofthebook。Shecontinuedreading,orseekingforsomethingtoread。Hisattentionbecame,bydegrees,quitecentredinthestudyofherthick,silkycurls:herfacehecouldn\'tsee,andshecouldn\'tseehim。 And,perhaps,notquiteawaketowhathedid,butattractedlikeachildtoacandle,atlastheproceededfromstaringtotouching;heputouthishandandstrokedonecurl,asgentlyasifitwereabird。Hemighthavestuckaknifeintoherneck,shestartedroundinsuchataking。 `\"Getaway,thismoment!Howdareyoutouchme?Whyareyoustoppingthere?\"shecried,inatoneofdisgust。\"Ican\'tendureyou!I\'llgoupstairsagain,ifyoucomenearme。\" `MrHaretonrecoiled,lookingasfoolishashecoulddo:hesatdowninthesettleveryquiet,andshecontinuedturningoverhervolumesanotherhalf-hour;finally,Earnshawcrossedover,andwhisperedtome: `\"Willyouaskhertoreadtous,Zillah?I\'mstalledofdoingnaught;andIdolike——Icouldliketohearher!DunnotsayIwantedit,butaskofyourseln。\" `\"MrHaretonwishesyouwouldreadtous,ma\'am,\"Isaidimmediately。 \"He\'dtakeitverykind——he\'dbemuchobliged。\" `Shefrowned;andlookingup,answered: `\"MrHareton,andthewholesetofyou,willbegoodenoughtounderstandthatIrejectanypretenceatkindnessyouhavethehypocrisytooffer!Idespiseyou,andwillhavenothingtosaytoanyofyou!WhenIwouldhavegivenmylifeforonekindword,eventoseeoneofyourfaces,youallkeptoff。ButIwon\'tcomplaintoyou!I\'mdrivendownherebythecold;noteithertoamuseyouorenjoyyoursociety。\" `\"WhatcouldIha\'done?\"beganEarnshaw。\"HowwasItoblame?\" `\"Oh!youareanexception,\"answeredMrsHeathcliff。\"Inevermissedsuchaconcernasyou。\" `\"ButIofferedmorethanonce,andasked,\"hesaid,kindlingupatherpertness,\"IaskedMrHeathclifftoletmewakeforyou宍\"Besilent!I\'llgooutofdoors,oranywhere,ratherthanhaveyourdisagreeablevoiceinmyear!\"saidmylady。 `Haretonmutteredshemightgotohell,forhim!andunslinginghisgun,restrainedhimselffromhisSundayoccupationsnolonger。Hetalkednow,freelyenough;andshepresentlysawfittoretreattohersolitude: butthefrosthadsetin,and,inspiteofherpride,shewasforcedtocondescendtoourcompany,moreandmore。However,Itookcarethereshouldbenofurtherscorningatmygoodnature:eversince,I\'vebeenasstiffasherself;andshehasnoloverorlikeramongus:andshedoesnotdeserveone;for,letthemsaytheleastwordtoher,andshe\'llcurlbackwithoutrespectofanyone!She\'llsnapatthemasterhimself,andasgoodasdareshimtothrashher;andthemorehurtshegets,themorevenomousshegrows。\' Atfirst,onhearingthisaccountfromZillah,Ideterminedtoleavemysituation,takeacottage,andgetCatherinetocomeandlivewithme:butMrHeathcliffwouldassoonpermitthatashewouldsetupHaretoninanindependenthouse;andIcanseenoremedy,atpresent,unlessshecouldmarryagain:andthatschemeitdoesnotcomewithinmyprovincetoarrange。 ThusendedMrsDean\'sstory。Notwithstandingthedoctor\'sprophecy,Iamrapidlyrecoveringstrength;andthoughitbeonlythesecondweekinJanuary,Iproposegettingoutonhorsebackinadayortwo,andridingovertoWutheringHeights,toinformmylandlordthatIshallspendthenextsixmonthsinLondon;and,ifhelikes,hemaylookoutforanothertenanttotaketheplaceafterOctober。Iwouldnotpassanotherwinterhereformuch。 [NextChapter][TableofContents]WutheringHeights[PreviousChapter][TableofContents]Chapter31Yesterdaywasbright,calm,andfrosty。IwenttotheHeightsasIproposed; myhousekeeperentreatedmetobearalittlenotefromhertoheryounglady,andIdidnotrefuse,fortheworthywomanwasnotconsciousofanythingoddinherrequest。Thefrontdoorstoodopen,butthejealousgatewasfastened,asatmylastvisit;Iknocked,andinvokedEarnshawfromamongthegardenbeds;heunchainedit,andIentered。Thefellowisashandsomearusticasneedbeseen。Itookparticularnoticeofhimthistime;butthenhedoeshisbest,apparently,tomaketheleastofhisadvantages。 IaskedifMrHeathcliffwereathome?Heanswered,No;buthewouldbeinatdinnertime。Itwaseleveno\'clock,andIannouncedmyintentionofgoinginandwaitingforhim,atwhichheimmediatelyflungdownhistoolsandaccompaniedme,intheofficeofwatchdog,notasasubstituteforthehost。 Weenteredtogether;Catherinewasthere,makingherselfusefulinpreparingsomevegetablesfortheapproachingmeal;shelookedmoresulkyandlessspiritedthanwhenIhadseenherfirst。Shehardlyraisedhereyestonoticeme,andcontinuedheremploymentwiththesamedisregardtocommonformsofpolitenessasbefore;neverreturningmybowandgoodmorningbytheslightestacknowledgment。 `Shedoesnotseemsoamiable\',Ithought,`asMrsDeanwouldpersuademetobelieve。She\'sabeauty,itistrue;butnotanangel。\' Earnshawsurlilybidherremoveherthingstothekitchen。`Removethemyourself,\'shesaid,pushingthemfromherassoonasshehaddone; andretiringtoastoolbythewindow,whereshebegantocarvefiguresofbirdsandbeastsoutoftheturnipparingsinherlap。Iapproachedher,pretendingtodesireaviewofthegarden;and,asIfancied,adroitlydroppedMrsDean\'snoteontoherknee,unnoticedbyHareton——butsheaskedaloud,`Whatisthat?\'andchuckeditoff。 `Aletterfromyouroldacquaintance,thehousekeeperattheGrange,\' Ianswered;annoyedatherexposingmykinddeed,andfearfullestitshouldbeimaginedamissiveofmyown。Shewouldgladlyhavegathereditupatthisinformation,butHaretonbeather;heseizedandputitinhiswaistcoat,sayingMrHeathcliffshouldlookatitfirst。Thereat,Catherinesilentlyturnedherfacefromus,and,verystealthily,drewoutherpockethandkerchiefandappliedittohereyes;andhercousin,afterstrugglingawhiletokeepdownhissofterfeelings,pulledouttheletterandflungitonthefloorbesideher,asungraciouslyashecould。Catherinecaughtandperusediteagerly;thenshebutafewquestionstomeconcerningtheinmates,rationalandirrational,ofherformerhome;andgazingtowardsthehills,murmuredinsoliloquy: `IshouldliketoberidingMinnydownthere!Ishouldliketobeclimbingupthere!Oh!I\'mtired——I\'mstalled,Hareton!\'Andsheleantherprettyheadbackagainstthesill,withhalfayawnandhalfasigh,andlapsedintoanaspectofabstractedsadness:neithercaringnorknowingwhetherweremarkedher。 `MrsHeathcliff,\'Isaid,aftersittingsometimemute,`youarenotawarethatIamanacquaintanceofyours?sointimatethatIthinkitstrangeyouwon\'tcomeandspeaktome。Myhousekeeperneverweariesoftalkingaboutandpraisingyou;andshe\'llbegreatlydisappointedifIreturnwithnonewsoforfromyou,exceptthatyoureceivedherletterandsaidnothing!\' Sheappearedtowonderatthisspeech,andasked: `DoesEllenlikeyou?\' `Yes,verywell,\'Irepliedunhesitatingly。 `Youmusttellher,\'shecontinued,`thatIwouldanswerherletter,butlhavenomaterialsforwriting:notevenabookfromwhichImighttearaleaf。\' `Nobooks!\'Iexclaimed。`Howdoyoucontrivetoliveherewithoutthem?iflmaytakethelibertytoinquire。Thoughprovidedwithalargelibrary,I\'mfrequentlyverydullattheGrange;takemybooksaway,andIshouldbedesperate!\' `Iwasalwaysreading,whenIhadthem,\'saidCatherine;`andMrHeathcliffneverreads;sohetookitintohisheadtodestroymybooks。 Ihavenothadaglimpseofoneforweeks。Onlyonce,IsearchedthroughJoseph\'sstoreoftheology,tohisgreatirritation;andonce,Hareton,Icameuponasecretstockinyourroom——someLatinandGreek,andsometalesandpoetry:alloldfriends。Ibroughtthelasthere——andyougatheredthem,asamagpiegatherssilverspoons,forthemereloveofstealing! Theyareofnousetoyou;orelseyouconcealedtheminthebadspiritthatasyoucannotenjoythemnobodyelseshall。PerhapsyourenvycounselledMrHeathclifftorobmeofmytreasures?ButI\'vemostofthemwrittenonmybrainandprintedinmyheart,andyoucannotdeprivemeofthose!\' Earnshawblushedcrimsonwhenhiscousinmadethisrevelationofhisprivateliteraryaccumulations,andstammeredanindignantdenialofheraccusations。\' `MrHaretonisdesirousofincreasinghisamountofknowledge,\' Isaid,comingtohisrescue。`Heisnotenviousbutemulousofyourattainments。He\'llbeacleverscholarinafewyears。\' `Andhewantsmetosinkintoadunce,meantime,\'answeredCatherine。`Yes,Ihearhimtryingtospellandreadtohimself,andprettyblundershemakes!IwishyouwouldrepeatChevyChaseasyoudidyesterday: itwasextremelyfunny。Iheardyou;andIheardyouturningoverthedictionarytoseekoutthehardwords,andthencursingbecauseyoucouldn\'treadtheirexplanations!\' Theyoungmanevidentlythoughtittoobadthatheshouldbelaughedatforhisignorance,andthenlaughedatfortryingtoremoveit。Ihadasimilarnotion;and,rememberingMrsDean\'sanecdoteofhisfirstattemptatenlighteningthedarknessinwhichhehadbeenreared,Iobserved: `But,MrsHeathcliff,wehaveeachhadacommencement,andeachstumbledandtotteredonthethreshold;hadourteachersscornedinsteadofaidingus,weshouldstumbleandtotteryet。\' `Oh!\'shereplied,`Idon\'twishtolimithisacquirements:still,hehasnorighttoappropriatewhatismine,andmakeitridiculoustomewithhisvilemistakesandmispronunciations!Thosebooks,bothproseandverse,wereconsecratedtomebyotherassociations;andIhatetohavethemdebasedandprofanedinhismouth!Besides,ofall,hehasselectedmyfavouritepiecesthatIlovethemosttorepeat,asifoutofdeliberatemalice。\' Hareton\'schestheavedinsilenceaminute:helabouredunderaseveresenseofmortificationandwrath,whichitwasnoeasytasktosuppress。Irose,and,fromagentlemanlyideaofrelievinghisembarrassment,tookupmystationinthedoorway,surveyingtheexternalprospectasI stood。Hefollowedmyexample,andlefttheroom;butpresentlyreappeared,bearinghalfadozenvolumesinhishands,whichhethrewintoCatherine\'slap,exclaiming: `Takethem!Ineverwanttohear,orread,orthinkofthemagain!\' `Iwon\'thavethemnow,\'sheanswered。`Ishallconnectthemwithyou,andhatethem。\' Sheopenedonethathadobviouslybeenoftenturnedover,andreadaportioninthedrawlingtoneofabeginner;thenlaughed,andthrewitfromher。`Andlisten,\'shecontinuedprovokingly,commencingaverseofanoldballadinthesamefashion。 Buthisself-lovewouldendurenofurthertorment:Iheard,andnotaltogetherdisapprovingly,amanualcheckgiventohersaucytongue。 Thelittlewretchhaddoneherutmosttohurthercousinssensitivethoughuncultivatedfeelings,andaphysicalargumentwastheonlymodehehadofbalancingtheaccount,andrepayingitseffectsontheinflicter。Heafterwardsgatheredthebooksandhurledthemonthefire。Ireadinhiscountenancewhatanguishitwastoofferthatsacrificetospleen。Ifanciedthatastheyconsumed,herecalledthepleasuretheyhadalreadyimparted,andthetriumphandever-increasingpleasurehehadanticipatedfromthem; andIfanciedIguessedtheincitementtohissecretstudiesalso。Hehadbeencontentwithdailylabourandroughanimalenjoyments,tillCatherinecrossedhispath。Shameatherscorn,andhopeofherapproval,werehisfirstprompterstohigherpursuits;and,insteadofguardinghimfromoneandwinninghimtotheother,hisendeavourstorisehimselfhadproducedjustthecontraryresult。 `Yes;that\'sallthegoodthatsuchabruteasyoucangetfromthem!\'criedCatherine,suckingherdamagedlip,andwatchingtheconflagrationwithindignanteyes。 `You\'dbetterholdyourtongue,now,\'heansweredfiercely。 Andhisagitationprecludingfurtherspeech,headvancedhastilytotheentrance,whereImadewayforhimtopass。Buterehehadcrossedthedoorstones,MrHeathcliff,comingupthecauseway,encounteredhim,andlayingholdofhisshoulder,asked: \"What\'stodonow,mylad?\' `Naught,naught,\'hesaid,andbrokeawaytoenjoyhisgriefandangerinsolitude。 Heathcliffgazedafterhim,andsighed。 `ItwillbeoddifIthwartmyself,\'hemuttered,unconsciousthatIwasbehindhim。`ButwhenIlookforhisfatherinhisface,Ifindhereverydaymore。Howthedevilishesolike?Icanhardlybeartoseehim。\' Hebenthiseyestotheground,andwalkedmoodilyin。Therewasarestless,anxiousexpressioninhiscountenanceIhadneverremarkedtherebefore;andhelookedsparerinperson。Hisdaughter-in-law,onperceivinghimthroughthewindow,immediatelyescapedtothekitchen,sothatIremainedalone。 `I\'mgladtoseeyououtofdoorsagain,MrLockwood,\'hesaid,inreplytomygreeting;`fromselfishmotivespartly:Idon\'tthinkI couldreadilysupplyyourlossinthisdesolation。I\'vewonderedmorethanoncewhatbroughtyouhere。 `Anidlewhim,Ifear,sir,\'wasmyanswer;`orelseanidlewhimisgoingtospiritmeaway。IshallsetoutforLondon,nextweek;andImustgiveyouwarningthatIfeelnodispositiontoretainThrushcrossGrangebeyondthetwelvemonthsIagreedtorentit。1believeIshallnotlivethereanymore。\' `Oh,indeed;you\'retiredofbeingbanishedfromtheworld,areyou?\'hesaid。`Butifyoubecomingtopleadoffpayingforaplaceyouwon\'toccupy,yourjourneyisuseless:Ineverrelentinexactingmyduefromanyone。\' `I\'mcomingtopleadoffnothingaboutit,\'Iexclaimed,considerablyirritated。`Shouldyouwishit,I\'llsettlewithyounow,\'andIdrewmynotebookfrommypocket。 `No,no,\'herepliedcoolly;`you\'llleavesufficientbehindtocoveryourdebts,ifyoufailtoreturn:I\'mnotinsuchahurry。Sitdownandtakeyourdinnerwithus;aguestthatissafefromrepeatinghisvisitcangenerallybemadewelcome。Catherine,bringthethingsin:whereareyou?\' Catherinereappeared,bearingatrayofknivesandforks。 `YoumaygetyourdinnerwithJoseph,\'mutteredHeathcliffaside,`andremaininthekitchentillheisgone。\' Sheobeyedhisdirectionsverypunctually:perhapsshehadnotemptationtotransgress。Livingamongclownsandmisanthropists,sheprobablycannotappreciateabetterclassofpeoplewhenshemeetsthem。 WithMrHeathcliff,grimandsaturnine,ontheonehand,andHareton,absolutelydumb,ontheother,Imadeasomewhatcheerlessmeal,andbidadieuearly。Iwouldhavedepartedbythebackway,togetalastglimpseofCatherineandannoyoldJoseph;butHaretonreceivedorderstoleadupmyhorse,andmyhosthimselfescortedmetothedoor,soIcouldnotfulfilmywish。 `Howdrearylifegetsoverinthathouse!\'lreflected,whileridingdowntheroad。`WhatarealizationofsomethingmoreromanticthanafairytaleitwouldhavebeenforMrsLintonHeathcliff,hadsheandIstruckupanattachment,ashergoodnursedesired,andmigratedtogetherintothestirringatmosphereofthetown!\' [NextChapter][TableofContents]WutheringHeights[PreviousChapter][TableofContents]Chapter321802—— ThisSeptemberIwasinvitedtodevastatethemoorsofafriendinthenorth,andonmyjourneytohisabode,IunexpectedlycamewithinfifteenmilesofGimmerton。Theostlerataroadsidepublichousewasholdingapailofwatertorefreshmyhorses,whenacartofverygreenoats,newlyreaped,passedby,andheremarked: `Yon\'sfroughGimmerton,nah!They\'reallasthreewickafterotherfolkwi\'therharvest。\' `Gimmerton?`Irepeated——myresidenceinthatlocalityhadalreadygrowndimanddreamy。`Ah!Iknow。Howfarisitfromthis?\' `Happenfourteenmileo\'erth\'hills;andaroughroad,\'heanswered。 AsuddenimpulseseizedmetovisitThrushcrossGrange。Itwasscarcelynoon,andIconceivedthatImightaswellpassthenightundermyownroofasinaninn。Besides,Icouldspareadayeasilytoarrangematterswithmylandlord,andthussavemyselfthetroubleofinvadingtheneighbourhoodagain。Havingrestedawhile,Idirectedmyservanttoinquirethewaytothevillage;and,withgreatfatiguetoourbeasts,wemanagedthedistanceinsomethreehours。 Ilefthimthere,andproceededdownthevalleyalone。Thegreychurchlookedgreyer,andthelonelychurchyardlonelier。Idistinguishedamoorsheepcroppingtheshortturfonthegraves。Itwassweet,warmweather——toowarmfortravelling;buttheheatdidnothindermefromenjoyingthedelightfulsceneryaboveandbelow:hadIseenitnearerAugust,I\'msureitwouldhavetemptedmetowasteamonthamongitssolitudes。Inwinternothingmoredreary,insummernothingmoredivine,thanthoseglensshutinbyhills,andthosebluff,boldswellsofheath。 IreachedtheGrangebeforesunset,andknockedforadmittance; butthefamilyhadretreated\'intothebackpremises,Ijudged,byonethin,bluewreathcurlingfromthekitchenchimney,andtheydidnothear。 Irodeintothecourt。Undertheporch,agirlofnineortensatknitting,andanoldwomanreclinedonthehousesteps,smokingameditativepipe。 `IsMrsDeanwithin?\'Idemandedofthedame。 `MistressDean?Nay!\'sheanswered,`shoodoesn\'tbidehere:shoo\'supatth\'Heights。\' `Areyouthehousekeeper,then?\'Icontinued。 `Ea,Awkeepth\'house,\'shereplied。 `Well,I\'mMrLockwood,themaster。Arethereanyroomstolodgemein,Iwonder?Iwishtostayhereallnight。\' `T\'maister!\'shecriedinastonishment。`Whet,whoiverknewyahwurcoming?Yahsudha\'sendword。They\'snowtnortherdrynormensfulabahtt\'place:nowtthereisn\'t!\' Shethrewdownherpipeandbustledin,thegirlfollowed,andIenteredtoo;soonperceivingthatherreportwastrue,and,moreover,thatIhadalmostupsetherwitsbymyunwelcomeapparition,Ibidherbecomposed。Iwouldgooutforawalk;and,meantime,shemusttrytoprepareacornerofasitting-roomformetosupin,andabedroomtosleepin。Nosweepinganddusting,onlygoodfireanddrysheetswerenecessary。 Sheseemedwillingtodoherbest;thoughshethrustthehearth-brushintothegratesinmistakeforthepoker,andmalappropriatedseveralotherarticlesofhercraft:butIretired,confidinginherenergyforaresting-placeagainstmyreturn。WutheringHeightswasthegoalofmyproposedexcursion。 Anafterthoughtbroughtmeback,whenIhadquittedthecourt。 `AllwellattheHeights?\'Iinquiredofthewoman。 `Eea,f\'rowtEeknaw,\'sheanswered,skurryingawaywithapanofhotcinders。 IwouldhaveaskedwhyMrsDeanhaddesertedtheGrange,butitwasimpossibletodelayheratsuchacrisis,soIturnedawayandmademyexit,ramblingleisurelyalongwiththeglowofasinkingsunbehind,andthemildgloryofarisingmooninfront——onefading,andtheotherbrightening——asIquittedthepark,andclimbedthestonyby-roadbranchingofftoMrHeathcliff\'sdwelling。BeforeIarrivedinsightofit,allthatremainedofdaywasabeamlessamberlightalongthewest:butIcouldseeeverypebbleonthepath,andeverybladeofgrass,bythatsplendidmoon。Ihadneithertoclimbthegatenortoknock——ityieldedtomyhand。 Thatisanimprovement,Ithought。AndInoticedanother,bytheaidofmynostrils;afragranceofstocksandwallflowerswaftedontheairfromamongstthehomelyfruittrees。 Bothdoorsandlatticeswereopen;andyet,asisusuallythecaseinacoaldistrict,afine,redfireilluminedthechimney:thecomfortwhichtheeyederivesfromitrenderstheextraheatendurable。ButthehouseofWutheringHeightsissolarge,thattheinmateshaveplentyofspaceforwithdrawingoutofitsinfluence;andaccordingly,whatinmatestherewerehadstationedthemselvesnotfarfromoneofthewindows。I couldbothseethemandhearthemtalkbeforeIentered,andlookedandlistenedinconsequence;beingmovedtheretobyamingledsenseofcuriosityandenvy,thatgrewasIlingered。 `Con-trary!\'saidavoiceassweetasasilverbell——`Thatforthethirdtime,youdunce!I\'mnotgoingtotellyouagain。Recollect,orI\'llpullyourhair!\' `Contrary,then,\'answeredanother,indeepbutsoftenedtones。 `Andnow,kissme,formindingsowell。\' `No,readitoverfirstcorrectly,withoutasinglemistake。\' Themalespeakerbegantoread:hewasayoungman,respectablydressedandseatedatatable,havingabookbeforehim。Hishandsomefeaturesglowedwithpleasure,andhiseyeskeptimpatientlywanderingfromthepagetoasmallwhitehandoverhisshoulder,whichrecalledhimbyasmartslaponthecheek,wheneveritsownerdetectedsuchsignsofinattention。 Itsownerstoodbehind;herlight,shiningringletsblending,atintervals,withhisbrownlocks,asshebenttosuperintendhisstudies;andherface——itwasluckyhecouldnotseeherface,orhewouldneverhavebeensosteady。 Icould:andIbitmylipinspite,athavingthrownawaythechanceI mighthavehadofdoingsomethingbesidesstaringatitssmilingbeauty。 Thetaskwasdone,notfreefromfurtherblunders;butthepupilclaimedareward,andreceivedatleastfivekisses:which,