第1章

类别:其他 作者:Jenny B。 Jones字数:2694更新时间:18/12/17 14:11:48
Shelovedhimso,thatwhenhewentawaytoalittlewarinwhichhiscountrywasinterestedshecouldnotunderstand,norquiteforgive。 Asthecorrespondentofanewspaper,Chestertonhadlookedonatotherwars;whentheyellowracesmet,whentheinfidelTurkspankedtheChristianGreek;andonehehadwatchedfrominsideaBritishsquare,wherehewasgreatlyalarmedlestheshouldbetrampleduponbyterrifiedcamels。Thishadhappenedbeforeheandshehadmet。Aftertheymet,shetoldhimthatwhatchanceshehadchosentotakebeforehecameintoherlifefelloutsideofherjurisdiction。Butnowthathislifebelongedtoher,thistalkofhisstandinguptobeshotatwaswicked。Itwasworsethanwicked;itwasabsurd。 WhentheMainesankinHavanaharborandtheword\"war\"wasappearinghourlyinhystericalextras,MissArmitageexplainedherposition。 \"Youmustn\'tthink,\"shesaid,\"thatIamoneofthosesillygirlswhowouldbegyounottogotowar。\" Atthemomentofspeakinghercheekhappenedtoberestingagainsthis,andhisarmwasabouther,sohehumblybenthisheadandkissedher,andwhisperedveryproudlyandsoftly,\"No,dearest。\" Atwhichshewithdrewfromhimfrowning。 \"No!I\'mnotabitlikethosegirls,\"sheproclaimed。\"ImerelytellyouYOUCAN\'TGO!Mygracious!\"shecried,helplessly。Sheknewthewordsfellshortofexpressingherdistress,buthereducationhadnotsuppliedherwithexclamationsofgreaterviolence。 \"Mygoodness!\"shecried。\"Howcanyoufrightenmeso?It\'snotlikeyou,\"shereproachedhim。\"Youaresounselfish,sonoble。 Youarealwaysthinkingofotherpeople。Howcanyoutalkofgoingtowar——tobekilled——tome?Andnow,nowthatyouhavemademeloveyouso?\" Thehands,thatwhenshetalkedseemedtohimlikeswallowsdartingandflashinginthesunlight,clutchedhissleeve。Thefingers,thathewouldratherkissthanthelipsofanyotherwomanthateverlived,clungtohisarm。Theirclaspremindedhimofthatofadrowningchildhehadonceliftedfromthesurf。 \"Ifyoushoulddie,\"whisperedMissArmitage。\"WhatwouldIdo。 WhatwouldIdo!\" \"Butmydearest,\"criedtheyoungman。\"MydearestONE!I\'veGOT togo。It\'sourownwar。Everybodyelsewillgo,\"hepleaded。 \"Everymanyouknow,andthey\'regoingtofight,too。I\'mgoingonlytolookon。That\'sbadenough,isn\'tit,withoutsittingathome?YoushouldbesorryI\'mnotgoingtofight。\" \"Sorry!\"exclaimedthegirl。\"Ifyouloveme——\" \"IfIloveyou,\"shoutedtheyoungman。Hisvoicesuggestedthathewasabouttoshakeher。\"Howdareyou?\" Sheabandonedthatpositionandattackedfromonemorelogical。 \"Butwhypunishme?\"sheprotested。\"DoIwantthewar?DoIwanttofreeCuba?No!IwantYOU,andifyougo,youaretheonewhoissuretobekilled。Youaresobig——andsobrave,andyouwillberushinginwhereverthefightingis,andthen——thenyouwilldie。\"Sheraisedhereyesandlookedathimasthoughseeinghimfromagreatdistance。\"And,\"sheaddedfatefully,\"Iwilldie,too,ormaybeIwillhavetolive,tolivewithoutyouforyears,formanymiserableyears。\" Fearfully,withgreatcaution,asthoughinhisjoyinherhemightcrushherinhishands,theyoungmandrewhertohimandheldherclose。Afterasilencehewhispered。\"But,youknowthatnothingcanhappentome。Notnow,thatGodhasletmeloveyou。Hecouldnotbesocruel。Hewouldnothavegivenmesuchhappinesstotakeitfromme。Amanwholovesyou,asIloveyou,cannotcometoanyharm。AndthemanYOUloveisimmortal,immune。Heholdsacharmedlife。Solongasyoulovehim,hemustlive。\" Theeyesofthegirlsmiledupathimthroughhertears。Sheliftedherlipstohis。\"Thenyouwillneverdie!\"shesaid。 Sheheldhimawayfromher。\"Listen!\"shewhispered。\"Whatyousayistrue。Itmustbetrue,becauseyouarealwaysright。I loveyousothatnothingcanharmyou。Mylovewillbeacharm。 Itwillhangaroundyourneckandprotectyou,andkeepyou,andbringyoubacktome。Whenyouareindangermylovewillsaveyou。For,whileitlives,Ilive。Whenitdies——\" Chestertonkissedherquickly。 \"Whathappensthen,\"hesaid,\"doesn\'tmatter。\" Thewargamehadrunitshappy-go-luckycoursebrieflyandbrilliantly,with\"gloryenoughforall,\"evenforChesterton。 For,innopreviouscampaignhadgoodfortunesopersistentlystoodsmilingathiselbow。Ateachmomentofthewarthatwascritical,picturesque,dramatic,bysomeluckyaccidenthefoundhimselfamongthosepresent。Hecouldnotlose。EvenwhenhispressboatbrokedownatCardenas,aYankeecruiserandtwoSpanishgun-boats,apparentlyforhissolebenefit,engagedinanimpromptuduelwithinrangeofhismegaphone。Whenhishorsewentlame,thecolumnwithwhichhehadwishedtoadvance,passedforwardtothefrontunmolested,whiletherearguard,towhichhehadbeenforcedtojoinhisfortune,foughtitswaythroughthestiflingunderbrush。 Betweenhisnewsdespatches,whenhewasnotsingingthepraisesofhisfellow-countrymen,orcopyinglistsoftheirkilledandwounded,hewrotetoMissArmitage。Hisletterswerescrawledonyellowcopypaperandconsistedofrepetitionsofthethreewords,\"Iloveyou,\"rearranged,illuminated,andintensified。 Eachletterbeganmuchinthesameway。\"Thewarisstillgoingon。Youcanreadaboutitinthepapers。WhatIwantyoutoknowisthatIloveyouasnomanever——\"Andsoonformanypages。 Fromheronlyoneofthelettersshewrotereachedhim。ItwaspickedupinthesandatSiboneyafterthemedicalcorps,inanefforttowipeouttheyellow-fever,hadsetfiretothepost- officetent。 ShehadwrittenitsomeweeksbeforefromhersummerhomeatNewport,andinitshesaid:\"Whenyouwenttothefront,IthoughtnowomancouldlovemorethanIdidthen。But,nowIknow。AtleastIknowonegirlwhocan。Shecannotwriteit。Shecannevertellyou。Youmustjustbelieve。 \"EachdayIhearfromyou,forassoonasthepapercomes,Itakeitdowntotherocksandreadyourcables,andIlooksouthacrosstheoceantoCuba,andtrytoseeyouinallthatfightingandheatandfever。ButIamnotafraid。ForeachmorningIwaketofindI loveyoumore;thatithasgrownstronger,morewonderful,morehardtobear。AndIknowthecharmIgaveyougrowswithit,andismorepowerful,andthatitwillbringyoubacktomewearingnewhonors,\'bearingyoursheaveswithyou。\'