第5章

类别:其他 作者:Michael Fairless字数:8186更新时间:18/12/17 14:59:30
Idonotevenknowmybishop\'sname,onlythattheworkisofthethirteenthcentury;butheisgoodtocompanywiththroughtheday,forhehasknowndarknessandlightandthemindsofmanymen;mostsurely,too,hehasknownthatGodfulfilsHimselfinstrangeways,sowiththeshadowofhisfeetuponthepolishedfloorherestsinpeace。 CHAPTERIV ONSundaymylittletreewaslimnedinwhiteandthesparrowswerecravingshelteratmywindowfromtheblizzard。Nowthemildthinairbringsabreathofspringinitswakeandthedaffodilsinthegardenwaitthekissesofthesun。Hand-in-handwithmemoryIslipawaydowntheyears,andrememberadaywhenIawokeatearliestdawn,foracrossmysleepIhadheardthelustygolden-throatedtrumpetersheraldingthespring。 Theairwassharp-set;adelicaterimefrostedroofandroad;thesealayhazyandstilllikeagreatpearl。Thenastheskystirredwithflushuponflushofwarmrosylight,itpassedfrommistypearltoopalwithheartofflame,fromopaltogleamingsapphire。 Theearthcalled,thefieldscalled,therivercalled-thatpiedpipertowhosemusicamancannotstophisears。ItwaswithmeaswiththeCanterburypilgrims:- \"Soprikethhemnatureinhircorages; Thanlongenfolktogononpilgrimages。\" HalfanhourlaterIwasawaybytheearlytrainthatcarriesthebranchmailsandafewworkmen,andwasdeliveredatthelittlewaysidestationwiththeletters。ThekindairwentsingingpastasIswungalongthereverberatingroadbetweenthehightree- crownedbankswhichwecallhedgesinmerryDevon,withalltheworldtomyselfandtheBrethren。Agreatblackbirdflewoutwithaloud\"chook,chook,\"andtheredofthehawonhisyellowbill。 Arobintrilledfromalowrose-bush;twowrenssearcheddiligentlyonafallentreeforbreakfast,quiteunconcernedwhenIrestedamomentbesidethem;andashrewmouseslippedacrosstheroadfolloweddirectlybyitsmate。Marchvioletsbloomedundertheshelteredhedgewithhereandthereapaleprimrose;afrostedbramblespraystillhelditsautumntintsclingingtothesemblanceofthepast;andgreatbranchesofsnowyblackthornbrokethebarrenhedgewayasifspringmadeamockofwinter\'ssnows。 LightofheartandfootwiththenewwineoftheyearIspedonagain,straydaffodilslightingthewayside,untilIheardthevoiceofthestreamandreachedthefieldgatewhichleadstothelowermeadows。Therebeforemelayspring\'spageant;greenpennonswaving,daintymaidscurtseying,andahostofjoyousyellowtrumpetersproclaiming\'Victory\'toanawakenedearth。Theyrangeinserriedranksrightdowntotheriver,sothatamanmustwalkwarilytoreachthewater\'sedgewheretheystandgazingdownatthemselvesinfairestsemblanceliketheirmosttragicprogenitor,and,risingfromthebrightgrassintheirthousands,stretchawayuntiltheymeltinagoldencloudatthefarendofthemistymead。 ThroughthefieldgateandacrosstheroadIseethem,starringthesteepearthbankthatleadstotheuppercopse,gleaminglikepaleflamesagainstthedarktree-boles。Theretheyhavebutfrailtenure;here,inthemeadows,theyreignsupreme。 Attheupperendofthefieldtheriverprovidesyetclosersanctuaryforthesechildrenofthespring。Heldinitsembracingarmsliesanislandlongandnarrow,somethirtyfeetbytwelve,averitableuntrodEldorado,gloriousingoldfromendtoend,afringeofreedsbythewater\'sedge,andsaveforthat-daffodils。 Agreatoakstandsatthemeadow\'sneck,anoakwithgnarledandwanderingrootswhereamanmayrest,foritisbareofdaffodilssaveforagroupofthree,andasolitaryoneapartgrowingclosetotheoldtree\'sside。Isatdownbymylonelylittlesister,blueskyoverhead,greengrassatmyfeetdecked,likethepasturesoftheBlessed,inglorioussheen;aseaoftriumphant,goldenheadstossingblithelybackasthewindsweptdowntoplaywiththemathispleasure。 Itwasallminetohaveandtoholdwithoutseveringasingleslenderstemorharbouringathoughtofcovetousness;mine,asthewholeearthwasmine,toappropriatetomyselfwithouttheburdenandbaneofworldlypossession。\"ThousayestthatIam-aKing,\" saidtheLordbeforePilate,and\"Mykingdomisnotofthisworld。\" WewhoaremadekingsafterHislikenesspossessallthings,notafterthisworld\'sfashionbutinproportiontoourpoverty;andwhenweceasetotoilandspin,arearrayedasthelilies,inaglorytranscendingSolomon\'s。BridePoverty-shewhoclimbedtheCrosswithChrist-stretchedouteagerhandstofreeusfromourchains,butwefleefromher,andlayuptreasureagainstherimportunity,whileAmytasonhisseaweedbedweepstearsofpurepityforcrave-mouthCaesarofgreatpossessions。 Presentlyanotherofspring\'sloverscriedacrossthewater\"Cuckoo,cuckoo,\"andthevoiceofthestreamsangjoyouslyinunison。Itisfreefromburden,thismerrylittleriver,andneitherweirnormillbarsitsquickwaytotheseaasitcompletestheeternalcircle,lavishinggiftsofcoolnessandrefreshmentonthechildrenofthemeadows。 Ithasitsbirthonthegreatlonemoor,cradledinawonderfulpeat-smellingbog,withamany-huedcoverletofsoftmosses-palegold,orange,emerald,tawny,oliveandwhite,withtheredstainofsun-dewandtuftedcotton-grass。Undertheoldgreyrockswhichwatchitrise,yellow-eyedtormantilstarstheturf,andbids\"Godspeed\"tothelittlechildofearthandsky。Thusthejourneybegins;andwithever-increasingstrengththestreamcarvesawaythroughthedearbrownpeat,wearsafreshwrinkleonthepatientstones,andpattersmerrilyunderaclapperbridgewhichspanneditsbreadthwhenthemistletoereignedandBottor,thegrimrockidol,exactedthetollofhumanlifethatmadehimgreat。Onandongoesthestream,foritmaynotstay;leavingofitsfreshnesswiththegreatosmundathatstretcheseagerrootstowardstherunningwater;flowingawhilewithabrotherstream,topartagaineastandwestaseachtakesuphisseparateburdenofservice-myfriendtocherishthelowermeadowsintheirfloweryjoyance-andsobythegreatsea-gatebacktoskyandearthagain。 TheriverofGodisfullofwater。ThestreetsoftheCityarepuregold。Verily,herealsohavingnothingwepossessallthings。 TheairwaskeenandstillasIwalkedbackintheearlyevening,andadaffodillightwasintheskyasifHeavenmirroredbackearth\'sradiance。Nearthestationsomechildrenflittedpast,likelittlewhitemillermothshomingthroughthedusk。AsI climbedthehillthemoonrodehighinagoldenfield-itwasdaffodilstothelast。 CHAPTERV THEseagullsfromtheupperreachespassdowntheriverinsobersteadyflightseekingtheopensea。Ishallmisstheswoopandcircleofsilverwingsinthesunlightandtheplaintivecallwhichsoundssostrangelyawayfromrockandshore,butitisgoodtoknowthattheyhavegonefrommudbankandmurkytownbacktothefreeairsoftheirinheritance,totheshadowofsun-sweptcliffsandthecurlingcrestofthewind-beatenwaves,tobroodagainoverthegreatoceanofaworld\'stears。 Mylittletreeisgemmedwithbuds,shy,immature,butfullofpromise。Thesparrowsbusiedwithnest-buildingintheneighbouringpipesandguttersuseitforavantageground,andcrowdthereinnumbers,eachlittlebeaksealedwithlonggoldenstrawordownyfeather。 Theriverisheavywithhaybarges,thelastfruitsofwinter\'sstorehouse;thelengtheningdaysslowlyandsteadilyoustthedark; theairisloudwithagrowingclamouroflife:springisnotonlyproclaimed,butonthisFeastsheiscrowned,anddespitethewarringwindthedaysbringtheirmeedofsunshine。Westandforamomentatthemeetingoftheways,thehandclaspofWinterandSpring,ofSleepandWakening,ofLifeandDeath;andthereisbetweenthemnoteventhethinlinewhichRabbiJochananonhisdeath-bedbeheldasallthatdividedhellfromheaven。 \"SPHAERACUJUSCENTRUMUBIQUE,CIRCUMFERENTIANULLIBUS,\"wassaidofMercury,thatmessengerofthegodswhomarshalledreluctantspiritstotheUnderworld;andforMercurywemaywriteLifewithDeathasitsgreatsacramentofbrotherhoodandrelease,tobedreadedonlyaswedreadtopartakeunworthilyofgreatbenefits。 Likeallsacramentsithasitsrightfultimeandduesolemnities; thehorrorandsinofsuicidelieinthepresumptionoffreewill,theforestallingofagift,-thesinofEveinParadise,whotookthatwhichmightonlybegivenatthehandoftheLord。Ithastooitsphysicalpains,buttheyarethoseofawomanintravail,andwerememberthemnomoreforjoythatachild-manisbornintotheworldnakedandnotashamed:beholdingourselvesasweareweshallseealsotheleavesoftheTreeofLifesetforthehealingofthenations。 Weareslowly,veryslowly,abandoningourbeliefinsuddenandviolenttransitionsforasurerandfulleracceptanceofthedoctrineofevolution;butmostofusstilldrawasharplineofdemarcationbetweenthisworldandthenext,andexpectaradicalchangeinourselvesandoursurroundings,abreakinthechainofcontinuityentirelycontrarytotheteachingofnatureandexperience。Inthesamewayweclingtothespeciousuntruththatwecanbeginoverandoveragaininthisworld,forgettingthatwhileoursorrowandrepentancebringsacramentalgiftsofgraceandstrength,GodHimselfcannot,byHisownlimitation,rewritethePast。Weareinoursorrowthatwhichwehavemadeourselvesinoursin;ourtemptationsarethereaswellasthewayofescape。 WeareintheimageofGod。Wecreateourworld,ourundyingselves,ourheaven,orourhell。\"QUICREAVITTESINETENON SALVABITTESINETE。\"Itisstupendous,magnificent,andmostappalling。Amandoesnotchangeashecrossesthethresholdofthelargerroom。Hispersonalityremainsthesame,althoughtheexpressionofitmaybealtered。Herewehavematerialbodiesinamaterialworld-there,perhaps,etherbodiesinanetherworld。 Thereisnoindecencyinreasonablespeculationandcuriosityaboutthelifetocome。Oneendofthethreadisbetweenourfingers,butwearehauntedforthemostpartbythesnapofAtropos\' shears。 Socratesfaceddeathwiththemagnificentcalmbredofdignifiedfamiliarity。Hehadbuiltforhimselfadesiredheavenofcolour,light,andpreciousstones-thephilosophicformulaofthosewhosetthespiritualabovethematerial,andworshiptruthinthebeautyofholiness。Heisnottroubledbydoubtsorregrets,forthepathofthejustliesplainbeforehisface。Heforbidsmourningandlamentationsasoutofplace,obeysminutelyandcheerilythedirectionsofhisexecutioner,andpasseswithunaffecteddignitytotheapprehensionofthatlargertruthforwhichhehadconstantlypreparedhimself。HisfriendsmayburyhimprovidedtheywillremembertheyarenotburyingSocrates;andthatallthingsmaybedonedecentlyandinorder,acockmustgotoAEsculapius。 Longbefore,inthedaysoftheCaptivity,therelivedingodless,blood-sheddingNinevehanexiledJewwhosefatherhadfallenfromthefaith。Hewasasimpleman,child-likeanddirect;livingthecareful,kindlylifeofanorthodoxJew,sufferingmanypersecutionsforconscience\'sake,andinconstantdangerofdeath。 Henarratesthestoryofhislifeandoftheblindnesswhichfellonhim,withgentleplacidity,andcheckstheexuberanceofhismoreemotionalwifewiththeassuranceofuntroubledfaith。 Finally,whenhispiousexpectationsarefulfilled,hissightrestored,andhissonprosperouslyestablishedbesidehim,hebreaksintoaprayerofrejoicingwhichrevealsthesecretofhisconfidentcontent。Hemadeuseoftwogreatfaculties:thesenseofproportion,whichenabledhimtoappriselifeanditsaccidentsjustly,andthegiftofin-seeing,whichledSocratesafterhim,andBlessedJohninlonelyexileonPatmos,tolookthroughthethingstemporaltothehiddenmeaningsofeternity。 \"LetmysoulblessGodthegreatKing,\"hecries;andlooksawaypastthepresentdistress;pasttheRestorationwhichwastoendinfreshscatteringandconfusion;pastthedreamofgold,andporphyry,andmarbledefacedbytheeaglesandemblemsoftheconqueror;untilhiseyesareheldbytheJerusalemofGod,\"builtupwithsapphires,andemeralds,andpreciousstones,\"withbattlementsofpuregold,andthecryof\'Alleluia\'inherstreets。 Manyyearslater,whenhewasveryaged,hecalledhissontohimandgavehimasheritagehisownsimpleruleoflife,addingbutonerequest:\"Keepthouthelawandthecommandments,andshewthyselfmercifulandjust,thatitmaygowellwiththee…… Considerwhatalmsdoeth,andhowrighteousnessdothdeliver…… Andburymedecently,andthymotherwithme。\"Havingsosaid,hewenthiswayquietlyandcontentedlytotheJerusalemofhisheart。 Itisthesimplenoteoffamiliaritythatiswantinginus;thatbywhichwelinkworldwithworld。Once,yearsago,IsatbythebedsideofadyingmaninawretchedgarretintheEastEnd。Hewasentirelyignorant,entirelyquiescent,andentirelyuninterested。Theministerofaneighbouringchapelcametoseehimandspoketohimatsomelengthoftheneedforrepentanceandthejoysofheaven。Afterhehadgonemyfriendlaystaringrestlesslyatthemassofdecrepitbrokenchimneypotswhichmadehishorizon。Atlasthespoke,andtherewasanewnoteinhisvoice:- \"Eesaidas\'owthereweregoldingstreetsinthemparts。Iain\'tnowaysparticlerwotthey\'remadeof,butit\'llfeelnatrallikeifthere\'schimleystoo。\" Thesunstretchedasuddenfingerandpaintedthechimneypotsredandgoldagainstthesmoke-dimmedsky,andwithhisfacealightwithsurprisedreliefmyfrienddied。 Weareonewiththeearth,oneinsin,oneinredemption。ItisthefringeofthegarmentofGod。\"IfImaybuttouchthehem,\" saidacertainwoman。 OnthegreatDeath-daywhichshadowstheearlyspringwithashadowofwhichitmaybesaidUMBRADEIESTLUX,theearthbroughtgiftsofgrief,thefruitofthecurse,barrenthorns,hollowreed,andthewoodofthecross;theseamadeofferingofTyrianpurple;theskyveiledherfaceingreatdarkness,whilethenationofpriestscrucifiedforthelasttimetheirPaschallamb。\"Iwillhear,saiththeLord;Iwillheartheheavens,andtheyshallheartheearth,andtheearthshallhearthecornandwineandoil,andtheyshallhearJezreel,andIwillsowheruntomeintheearth;andI willhavemercyuponherthathadnotobtainedmercy,andIwillsayuntothemwhichwerenotmypeople,\'Thouartmypeople,\'andtheyshallsay\'ThouartmyGod。\'\" ThesecondAdamstoodinthegardenwithquickeningfeet,andalltheearthpulsedandsangforjoyofthenewhopeandthenewlifequickeningwithinher,tobehersthroughthepainsoftravail,thepangsofdissolution。TheTreeofLifebearsBreadandWine-foodofthewayfaringman。Thedayofdivisionsispast,thedayofunityhasdawned。Onehasrisenfromthedead,andintheValleyofAchorstandswidetheDoorofHope-theSacramentofDeath。 ScioDomine,etverescio……quianonsumdignusaccedereadtantummysteriumpropternimiapeccatameaetinfinitasnegligentiasmeas。Sedscio……quiatupotesmefaceredignum。 CHAPTERVI \"ANYTUSandMeletuscankillme,buttheycannothurtme,\"saidSocrates;andGovernorSancho,withalltheitchofnewly-acquiredauthority,couldnotmaketheyoungweaverofsteel-headsforlancessleepinprison。IntheVisionofErthesoulspassedstraightforwardunderthethroneofnecessity,andoutintotheplainsofforgetfulness,wheretheymustseverallydrinkoftheriverofunmindfulnesswhosewaterscannotbeheldinanyvessel。 Thethrone,theplain,andtheriverarestillhere,butinthedistancerisethegreatloneheavenwardhills,andthewiseamongusnolongeraskofthegodsLethe,butratherremembrance。 Necessitycansetmehelplessonmyback,butshecannotkeepmethere;norcanfourwallslimitmyvision。IpassoutfromunderherthroneintothegardenofGodafreeman,tomyultimatebeatitudeormyexceedingshame。Alldaylongthisworldliesopentome;ay,andotherworldsalso,ifIwillbuthaveitso;andwhennightcomesIpassintothekingdomandpowerofthedark。 Iliethroughthelonghoursandwatchmybridge,whichissetwithlightsacrossthegloom;watchthetrafficwhichisformebutsomanypassinglampstellingtheirtalebyvaryingheightandbrightness。Ihearundermywindowthesprintofover-tiredhorses,therattleofuncertainwheelsasthestreet-sellershastensouth;thejangleofcabbellsasthetheatre-goerstaketheirhomewardway;thegruffaltercationofwearymen,theunmelodioussongandclamorouslaughofwomenwhosemerrimentiswearierstill。 Thencomesatimeofstillnesswhenthelightintheskywaxesandwanes,whenthecloud-driftsobscurethestars,andIgazeoutintoblacknesssetwithwatchingeyes。Nosoundcomesfromwithoutbutthevoiceofthenight-windandthecryofthehour。Theclockonthemantelpieceticksimperatively,foracheckhasfallenonthefamiliaritywhichbreedsadisregardofcommonthings,andareasonhastobesoughtforeachsoundwhichclaimsahearing。Thepauseiswonderfulwhileitlasts,butitisnotforlong。Theworkingworldawakes,thepoorerbrethrentakeuptheburdenofservice; thedawnlightsthesky;remembrancecriesanendtoforgetting。 Sometimesinthecountryonanightinearlysummeryoumayshutthecottagedoortostepoutintoanimmensedarknesswhichpallsheavenandearth。Goingforwardintotheembraceofthegreatgloom,youareasababeswaddledbythehandsofnightintohelplessquiescence。Yourfeettreadanunseenpath,yourhandsgraspatavoid,orshrinkfromthecontacttheycannotrealise; youreyesareholden;yourvoicewoulddieinyourthroatdidyouseektorendtheveilofthatimpenetrablesilence。 Shutinbytheintangibledark,wearebroughtupagainstthoseworldswithinworldsblottedoutbyourconcretedailylife。Theworkingofthegreatmicrocosmatwhichwepeerdimlythroughthelittlewindowofscience;thewonderful,breathingearth;thepulsing,throbbingsap;thegrowingfragranceshutinthecalyxofto-morrow\'sflower;theheart-beatofasleepingworldthatwedreamthatweknow;andaround,above,andinterpenetratingall,theworldofdreams,ofangelsandofspirits。 ItwasthisworldwhichJacobsawonthefirstnightofhisexile,andagainwhenhewrestledinPenieluntilthebreakofday。ItwasthisworldwhichElishasawwithopeneyes;whichJobknewwhendarknessfellonhim;whichEzekielgazedintofromhisplaceamongthecaptives;whichDanielbeheldashestoodalonebythegreatriver,theriverHiddekel。 Forthemomentwehaveleftbehindtherealmofquestionandexplanation,ofpowerovermatterandtheexerciseofbodilyfaculties;andpassedintodarknessalightwithvisionswecannotsee,intosilencealivewithvoiceswecannothear。Likehelplessmenwesetourallontheonethingleftus,andliftupourhearts,knowingthatwearebutamerespeckamongamyriadworlds,yetgreaterthanthesumofthem;havingourrootsinthedarkplacesoftheearth,butourbranchesinthesweetairsofheaven。