第6章

类别:其他 作者:Michael Fairless字数:8500更新时间:18/12/17 14:59:30
Itisthematerialcounterpartofthe\'NightoftheSoul。\'Wehaveleftourhouseandsetforthinthedarknesswhichparalysesthosefacultiesthatmakeusmenintheworldofmen。Butsurelythegreatmystics,withalltheirinsightandheavenlylove,fellshortwhentheysoughtfreedomincompleteseparatenessfromcreationinsteadofinperfectunitywithit。TheGreeksknewbetterwhentheyflungAriadne\'scrownamongthestars,andwroteDemeter\'sgriefonabarrenearth,andPersephone\'sjoyinthefruitfulfield。Fortheearthisgatheredupinman;heisthewholewhichisgreaterthanthesumofitsparts。StandingintheimageofGod,andclothedinthegarmentofGod,heliftsuppriestlyhandsandpresentsthesacrificeofredeemedearthbeforethethroneoftheAll-Father。\"Dustandashesandahouseofdevils,\"hecries; andtherecomesbackforanswer,\"REXCONCUPISCETDECOREMTUAM。\" TheAngelofDeathhasbroadwingsofsilenceandmysterywithwhichheshadowsthevalleywhereweneedfearnoevil,andwherethevoicewhichspeakstousisasthe\"voiceofdoves,taberingupontheirbreasts。\"Itisaplaceofhealingandpreparation,ofpeaceandrefreshingafterthesharply-definedoutlinesofagarishday。Walkingtherewelearntousethosenaturalfacultiesofthesoulwhicharehamperedbythefamiliarityofbodilyprogress,toapprehendthetruthswhichwehaveintellectuallyaccepted。Itistheplaceofsecretswherethehumilitywhichembracesallattainableknowledgecries\"Iknownot\";andwhileweproclaimfromthehouse-topsthatwhichwehavelearnt,themannerofourlearninglieshidforeachoneofusinthesanctuaryofoursouls。 TheEgyptians,intheirancientwisdom,actinthedesertagreatandrosphinx,imageofmysteryandsilence,staringfromunderlevelbrowsacrossthearidsandsofthesea-way。TheGreeksborrowedanddebasedtheimage,turningtheinscrutableintoasemi-womanwhoaskedafoolishriddle,andhurledherselfdowninpetulantpridewhenOEdipusansweredaright。Sowe,marringtheofficeofsilence,questionitsmystery;thwartourselveswithriddlesofourownsuggesting;andturnaway,leavingourofferingbuthalfconsumedonthealtaroftheunknowngod。ItwasnotthetheftoffirethatbroughtthevengeanceofheavenuponPrometheus,butthemockingsacrifice。OrpheuslostEurydicebecausehemustseeherfacebeforetheappointedtime。Persephoneateofthepomegranateandhungeredingloomforthedayoflightwhichshouldhavebeenendless。 Theuniverseisfullofmiracleandmystery;thedarknessandsilencearesetforasignwedarenotdespise。Thepallofnightlifts,leavingusengulphedinthelightofimmensityunderatossingheavenofstars。Thedawnbreaks,butitdoesnotsurpriseus,forwehavewatchedfromthevalleyandseenthepaletwilight。 ThroughthewondrousSabbathoffaithfulsouls,thelongdayofrosemaryandrue,thelightbrightensintheEast;andwepassontowardsitwithquietfeetandopeningeyes,bearingwithusalloftheredeemedearththatwehavemadeourown,untilwearefulfilledinthesunriseofthegreatEasterDay,andthepeoplescomefromnorthandsouthandeastandwesttotheCitywhichliethfoursquare-theBeatificVisionofGod。 VereIerusalemestillacivitasCuiuspaxiugisetsummaiucunditas; Ubinonpraevenitremdesiderium,Necdesideriominusestpraemium。 ATTHEWHITEGATE CHAPTERI AGREATjoyhascometome;oneofthoseunexpectedgiftswhichlifelovestobestowafterwehavelearnttolooseourgripofher。 Iambackinmyownplaceverynearmyroad-thewhitegatelieswithinmydistantvision;neartheleangreyDownswhichkeepwatchandwardbetweenthecountryandthesea;verynear,nay,inthelapofMotherEarth,forasIwriteIamlyingonagreencarpet,powderedyellowandwhitewiththesun\'sownflowers;overheadagreatsycamorewherethebeestoilandsing;andsighingshimmeringpoplarsgoldengreyagainsttheblue。ThedayofPersephonehasdawnedforme,andI,setfreelikeDemeter\'schild,gladdenmyeyeswiththisforetasteofcomingradiance,andrestmytiredsensewiththescentandsoundofhome。AwaydownthemeadowI heartheearlyscythesong,andthewarmairisfragrantwiththefallengrass。IthasitsownmessageformeasIliehere,Iwhohaveobtainedyetonemoremercy,andtheburdenofitislife,notdeath。 Irememberwhen,takingagracefrommyroad,IhelpedtomowFarmerMarler\'sten-acrefield,richinripeupstandinggrass。Themechanismoftheancientreaperhadgivenwayunderthestrainofthehomemeadows,andifthiscropwastobesaveditmustbebyhand。IhavekepttherecordofthosedaysofjoyouslabourunderaJunesky。Menwerehardtogetinourvillage;oldDodden,whowasoverseventy,volunteeredhisservices-hehaddoneyeomanworkwiththescytheinhisyouth-andtwoofthefarmhandswiththeirmastercompletedourstrength。 Wetookourplacesunderafiveo\'clockmorningsky,andthelarkscrieddowntousaswestoodknee-deepinthefragrantdew-steepedgrass,eachmanwithhisgleamingscythepoisedreadyforitssweepingswing。OldDoddenledbyrightofageandripeexperience;bentlikeasickle,brownanddryasanut,hisfaceatraceryofinnumerablewrinkles,hehasneverailedaday,andthecunningofhiscraftwasstillwithhim。Atfirstweworkedstiffly,unreadily,butsoonthemonotonousmotionpossesseduswithitsinsistentrhythm,andthegrassbowedtoeachsibilantswishandfellinsweet-smellingswathesatourfeet。Nowandthenastartledrabbitscurriedthroughtheminiatureforesttovanishwithwhiteflickoftailinthetangledhedge;hereandthereamotherlarkwasdiscoveredsittingmotionless,immovableuponherlittlebrood;butsavefortheseinfrequentincidentswepacedsteadilyonwithnospeechsavethecryofthehoneonthesteelandtheswishofthefallingswathes。Thesunrosehighintheheavenandburntonbentneckandbareandachingarms,thebloodbeatanddrummedinmyveinswiththeunwontedpostureandexercise;Iworkedasamanwhoseesandhearsinamist。Once,asIpausedtowhetmyscythe,myeyecaughtthelineoftheuntroubledhillsstrongandstillinthebroadsunshine;thentoworkagaininthelabouring,fertilevalley。 Resttimecame,andwipingthesweatfrombrowandbladewesoughtthewelcomeshadowofthehedgeandthecoolsweetoatmealwaterwithwhichthewisereaperquencheshisthirst。FarmerMarlerhastenedofftoseewithmaster-eyethatallwentwellelsewhere; thefarmmenslepttranquilly,stretchedatfulllength,claspedhandsforpillow;andoldDodden,sittingwithcrookedfingersinterlacedtochecktheirtremblingbetrayalofoldage,toldhowinhisyouthhehad\"swep\"afour-acrefieldsingle-handedinthreedays-analmostimpossiblefeat-andofthefirstreapingmachineintheseparts,andhowitbrought,tohisthinking,theruinofagriculturalmoralswithit。\"\'Tisagainnature,\"hesaid,\"theLardgaveusthelandan\'theseed,but\'Eesaidthatamanshouldsweat。Where\'sthesweatdrivin\'roundwi\'twohorsescuttin\'thestrawdownan\'gatherin\'itagain,wi\'scarceahand\'sturni\'theday\'swork?\" OldDodden\'shigh-pitchedquaveringvoiceroseandfell,mournfulashesurveyedthepresent,vehementasherecordedtheheroicpast。Hespokeoftheruralexodusandshookhisheadmournfully。 \"Weold\'unswerecontentwi\'earthandtheopenskylikeourfeythersbeforeus,butwi\'thechildren\'tisfirstmachinestosavedoin\'ahand\'sturno\'honestwork,an\'thenlandan\'skyain\'tbigenoughseemin\'ly,norgrandenough;itmustbetownan\'apavedstreet,an\'theysweattheirlivesoutatwixtfourwallsan\' callitseein\'life-\'tisdeathan\'worsecomestothemostof\'em。Ay,\'tisbettertostaybytheland,astheLardsaid,tilltimecomestolieunderit。\"Ilookedawayacrossthefieldwherethehotairthrobbedandquivered,andthefallengrass,robbedalreadyofitsfreshness,layproneatthefeetofitsupstandingfellows。ItisquiteuselesstoarguewitholdDodden;heonlyshakeshisheadandsaysfirmly,\"Anoldman,seventy-fivecomeMartinmassknowsmoreo\'lifethanayoungchap,standsterreason\";besides,hisepitomeofthetownlifeheknowsnothingofwasajustoneasfarasitwent;andhisownsonisthesweeperofaHolborncrossing,andmanyotherthingsthatheshouldnotbe; butthatistheparson\'ssecretandmine。 Wetookrankagainandsweptsteadilyonthroughthehotstillhoursintotheeveningshadows,untilthesinkingsunsetaGLORIA tothepsalmofanotherworkingday。Onlyathirdofthefieldlaymown,forwewerenotskilledlabourerstocutouracreaday;I sawitagainthatnightunderthemoonlightandthestarlight,wrappedinashroudofsummer\'smist。 Thewomenjoinedusonthethirddaytobeginhaymaking,andtheairwasfragrantoftossedandsun-driedgrass。Oneofthemwalkedapartfromtherest,withoutinterestorfreedomofmovement;herface,sealedandimpassive,wasagedbeyondthevigourofheryears。Iknewthewomanbysight,andherhistorybyhearsay。Wehaveacodeofmoralshere-notindeedpeculiartothisplaceorpeople-thataweddingis\'respectable\'ifitprecedeschild-birthbyabaremonth,tolerable,andtoberecognised,shoulditsucceedthesamebylessthanayear(providedthepairarenotlivinginthesamevillage);butthechildthathasneverbeen\'fathered\'andthewifewithoutaringare\'anathema,\'andsuchinonewasElizabethBanks。Shewentawayamaidandcamebackayearagowithachildandwithoutaname。Hermotherwasdead,herfatherandthevillagewouldhavenoneofher:thehominginstinctisverystrong,orshewouldscarcelyhavereturned,knowingthetraditionsoftheplace。OldDodden,seeingher,grumbledtomeintherest-time-\"Can\'tthinkwhatthefarmerwantswi\'LizzieBanksin\'isfield。\"\"Shemustlive,\"Isaid,\"andbyallshowingherlifeisahardone。\"\"She\'adthemakin\'of\'erbed,\"hewenton,obstinately。\"Whatfordoshebringherdisgracehome,wi\'afatherlessbratforallfolkstosee?Wedon\'twantthemsortinourvillage。TheLord\'shandisheavy,an\'abrat\'sacursethatcannotbehid。\" Whentea-timecameIcrossedthefieldtolookforamissinghone,andsawElizabethBanksfarfromtheotherwomen,busiedwithabundleunderthehedge。Ipassedcloseonmysearch,andlo!thebundlewasalittleboy。Helaysmilingandstretching,fightingtheairwithhissmallpinkfists,whilethewindplayedwithhiscurls。\"Acursethatcannotbehid,\"oldDoddenhadsaid。Themotherkneltamoment,devouringhimwithhereyes,thensnatchedhimtoherwithachinggreedandcoveredhimwithkisses。Isawthepoor,plainfaceillumined,transfigured,alivewithamother\'slove,andrememberedhowthewordcameoncetoaHebrewprophet:- SayuntoyourbrethrenAmmi,andtoyoursistersRuhamah。 Theeveningskywascloudingfast,thesoundofrainwasintheair;FarmerMarlershookhisheadashelookedatthegrasslyinginorderedrows。Iwasthelasttoleave,andasIlingeredatthegatedrinkinginthescentofthefieldandthecoolofthecomingrain,thefirstdropsfellonmyupturnedfaceandkissedthepoordryswathesatmyfeet,andIwasglad。 David,childofthefieldsandthesheepfolds,hiskingshiplaidaside,seesthroughthepartedcurtainoftheyearstheadventofhisgreaterSon,andcriesinhispsalmofthehilltops,hislastpropheticprayer:- Heshallcomedownlikerainuponthemowngrass。 EvensoHecame,andshallstillcome。Threedaysagothefield,initspageantoffreshbeauty,withshimmeringbladesandtossingbanners,greetedsunandshoweralikewithjoyforthefurtheranceofitslifeandpurpose;now,laidlow,ithearstheyounggrasswhisperthesplendourofitscominggreen;andthepoorswathesaregladatthetelling,butfullofgrieffortheirownapparentfailure。Theningreatpitycomestherain,therainofsummer,gentle,refreshing,penetrating,andtheswathesarecomforted,fortheyknowthatstandingtogreetorprostratetosuffer,theconsolationsoftheformerandthelatterrainarestilltheirown,withtendertouchandcoolcaress。Then,oncemoreparchedbythesun,theyareborneawaytothenewservicetheirapparentfailurehasfittedthemfor;andperhapsastheywaitinthedarkfortheunknownthatisstilltocometheyhearsometimesthecallofthedistantrain,andatthesoundthedrysapstirsafresh-theyarenotforgottenandcanwait。 \"SAYUNTOYOURSISTERSRUHAMAH,\"criestheprophet。 \"HESHALLCOMEDOWNLIKERAINONTHEMOWNGRASS,\"sangthepoetofthesheepfolds。 \"MYWAYSARENOTYOURWAYS,SAITHTHELORD。\" IrememberhowIwenthomealongthedampsweet-scentedlanesthroughthegreymistoftherain,thinkingofthemownfieldandElizabethBanksandmany,manymore;andthatnight,whentheskyhadclearedandthenightingalesang,Ilookedoutatthemoonridingatanchor,asilverboatinastillblueseaablazewiththeheadlightsofthestars,andthesayingoftheherdsmanofTekoacametome-asithascomeoftentimessince:- SeekHimthatmakeththesevenstarsandOrion,andturneththeshadowofdeathintothemorning,andmakeththedaydarkwithnight;thatcallethforthewatersoftheseaandpoureththemoutuponthefaceofearth;theLordisHisname。 CHAPTERII THISgardenisanepitomeofpeace;sunandwind,rain,flowers,andbirdsgathermeintotheblessednessoftheiractiveharmony。 Theworldholdsnowishforme,nowthatIhavecomehometodiewithmyownpeople,forverifyIthinkthatthesapofgrassandtreesmustruninmyveins,sosteadyistheirpulluponmyheart- strings。Londonclaimedallmyphilosophy,butthecountrygivesall,andasksofmeonlythewarmreceptivityofachildinitsmother\'sarms。 WhenIlieinmycoollightroomonthegardenlevel,Ilookacrossthebrightgrass-ILVERDESMALTO-toagreatredrosebushinlavishdisarrayagainstthedarkcypress。Nearby,amidatangleofmany-huedcorn-flowersIseethepromiseofcominglilies,thesuddencrimsonofasolitarypaeony;andinlowlierstateagainstthepoorparchedearthglowthegoldencupsoftheeschseholtzias。 Beyondthelowhedgeliespasturebrightwithbuttercups,wherethecattlefeed。Fartheroff,wherethescythehasbeenbusy,aresheep,cleanandshorn,withmerry,well-grownlambs;andinthefarthestfieldIcanseethegreathorsesmovinginslowsteadypaceasthefarmerturnshisfurrow。 Thebirdsarenoisycomradesandoldfriends,fromthelarkwhichchantsthedew-steepedmorning,tothenightingalethatbreaksthesilenceofthemostwonderfulnights。Ihearthewisdomoftherooksinthegreatelms;theliftingliltofthelinnet,andtherobin\'squaintlittlesummersong。Thestarlingschatterceaselessly,theirqueerstridentvoicesharshagainstthemelodiousgossipoftheotherbirds;themartinsshrillsoftlyastheyswooptoandfrobusiedwiththeirnestingunderthecaves; thrushandblackbirdvieinfriendlyrivalryliketheMeister- singerofold;sometimesIhearthedrawlingcryofapeacockstrayedfromthegreathouse,orthelaughofthewoodpecker;andatnightthehuntingnoteoftheowlreachesmeashesweepsbyinsearchofprey。 To-dayIamoutagain;andthegreatsycamoreshowershoneyandflowersonmeasIliebeneathit。Sometimesabeefallslikeanover-ripefruit,andwaitsawhiletocleanhispollen-coatedlegsereheflieshometodischargehisburden。Heistoobusytobefriendly,buthisgreatvelvetycousinismuchmoresociable,andstaysforagentlerubbetweenhisnoisyshimmeringwings,andanapinthehollowofmyhand,forheisanidlefriendlysoulwithplentyoftimeathisowndisposalandnoresponsibilities。 LookingacrossIcanwatchthemartinsatwork;theyhaveastarlingandasparrowfornearneighboursinthewoodengutter。 Onenestisalreadycompleteallbutthecoping,theothertwoarea-building:IwonderwhetherIortheywillbefirsttogosouththroughthemist。 Thisgreattreeisaworldinitself,andthedenizensappearfullofcuriosityastotheGulliverwhohastakenuphisabodebeneathit。Palegreencaterpillarsandspidersofallsizescomespinningdowntovisitme,andhavetobepersuadedwithinfinitedifficultytoascendtheirthreadsagain。Thereareflieswithbeautifuliridescentwings,beetlesofallshapes,someofthemliketinyjewelsinthesunlight。Theirnomenclatureisasealedbooktome; oftheirlifeandhabitsIknownothing;yetthisisbutalittlecornerofthecosmosIamleaving,andIfeelnotsomuchdesireforthebeautytocome,asagreatlongingtoopenmyeyesalittlewiderduringthetimewhichremainstomeinthisbeautifulworldofGod\'smaking,whereeachmomenttellsitsowntaleofactive,progressivelifeinwhichthereisnoundoing。NatureknowsnaughtofthewebofPenelope,thatacmeofanxiouspatheticwaiting,butgoessteadilyonineverwideningcircletowardsthefulfilmentofthemysteryofGod。 Thereare,Itakeit,twomaster-keystothesecretsoftheuniverse,viewedSUBSPECIEAETERNITATIS,theIncarnationofGod,andthePersonalityofMan;withtheseitistrueforusasforthepantheisticlittlemanofcontemptiblespeech,that\"allthingsareours,\"yea,evenuntothethirdheaven。 Ihavelostmyvoraciousappetiteforbooks;theirlanguageislessplainthanscentandsongandthewindinthetrees;andformethecluetothenextworldliesinthewisdomofearthratherthaninthelearningofmen。\"LIBERAMEABFUSCINAHOPHNI,\"prayedthegoodBishopfearfulofreligiousgreed。Iknowtoomuch,nottoolittle;itisrealisationthatIlack,whereforeIdesiretheselastdaystoconfirminmyselfthesustaininggoodnessofGod,thelovewhichisourcontinuingcity,theNewJerusalemwhoselength,breadth,andheightareallone。Itisatimeofexceedingpeace。 Thereisaplacewaitingformeunderthefirsinthequietchurchyard;thankstomypovertyIhavenoworldlyanxietiesorpersonaldispositions;andIamrichinfriends,manyofthemunknowntome,wholavishlysupplymyneedsandmakeitidealtoliveonthecharityofone\'sfellow-men。Iammostgladlyindebttoalltheworld;andtoEarth,mymother,forhergreatbeauty。 IcanneverrememberthetimewhenIdidnotloveher,thismotherofminewithherwonderfulgarmentsandorderedloveliness,hertendercareandpatientbearingofman\'sburden。IntheearliestdaysofmylonelychildhoodIusedtoliechinonhandamidthemilkmaids,redsorrel,andheavyspear-grasslisteningtohermanyvoices,andabovealltothevoiceofthelittlebrookwhichranthroughthemeadowswhereIusedtoplay:Ithinkithasrunthroughmywholelifealso,toloseitselfatlast,notinthegreatseabutintheriverthatmakethgladtheCityofGod。 Valleyandplain,mountainandfruitfulfield;thelark\'ssongandthespeedwellinthegrass;surelyamanneednotsighforgreaterlovelinessuntilhehasreadsomethingmoreofthislivingletter,andkneltbeforethatearthofwhichheistheonlyconfusion。 Itisagravematterthatthewordreligionholdssuchawayamongus,makingtheverygapseemtoyawnagainwhichtheIncarnationonceandforeverfilledfull。Wehavebanishedtheprotectinggodsthatruledinriverandmountain,treeandgrove;wehavegainsayedforthemostpartfolk-loreandmyth,superstitionandfairy-tale,evilonlyintheirabuse。Wehavedoneawaywithmystery,ornameditdeceit。Allthiswehavedoneinanenlightenedage,butdespitethispolicyofdestructionwehaveleftourselvesabelief,thegrandestandmostsimpletheworldhaseverknown,whichsanctifiesthewaterthatisshedbyeverypassingcloud;andgathersupinitsgreatcentralactvineyardandcornfield,proclaimingthemtobethatLifeoftheworldwithoutwhichamanisdeadwhileheliveth。Further,itisabeliefwhosefoundationsarethemostheavenlymysteryoftheTrinity,butwhosecentreisalittleChild:itsetsapriceupontheheadofthesparrow,andreckonstherichesofthisworldattheirtruevalue;