第5章

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Shedreamed,reflected,puzzled,wept,consumedbyfearsandsuspicions。Thenherjoyousyoungsoulreassuringitself,shebegantoplananadventure,toimagineanabnormalanddramaticsituation,foundedontherecollectionsofallthepoeticalromancesshehadread。Sherecalledallthemovingcatastrophes,orsadandtouchingstories;shejumbledthemtogether,andconcoctedastoryofherownwithwhichsheinterpretedthehalf-understoodmysterywhichenvelopedherlife。 Shewasnolongercastdown。Shedreamed,sheliftedveils,sheimaginedunlikelycomplications,athousandsingular,terriblethings,seductive,nevertheless,bytheirverystrangeness。Couldshebe,bychance,thenaturaldaughterofaprince?Hadherpoormother,betrayedanddeserted,madeMarquisebysomeking,perhapsKingVictorEmmanuel,beenobligedtotakeflightbeforetheangerofthefamily?Wasshenotratherachildabandonedbyitsrelations,whowerenobleandillustrious,thefruitofaclandestinelove,takeninbytheMarquise,whohadadoptedandbroughtherup? Stillothersuppositionspassedthroughhermind。Sheacceptedorrejectedthemaccordingtothedictatesofherfancy。Shewasmovedtopityoverherowncase,happyatthebottomofherheart,andsadalso,takingasortofsatisfactioninbecomingasortofaheroineofabookwhomust:assumeanobleattitude,worthyofherself。 Shelaidoutthepartshemustplay,accordingtoeventsatwhichsheguessed。Shevaguelyoutlinedthisrole,likeoneofScribe\'sorofGeorgeSand\'s。Itshouldbeenduedwithdevotion,self- abnegation,greatnessofsoul,tenderness;andfinewords。Herpliantnaturealmostrejoicedinthisnewattitude。Sheponderedalmosttilleveningwhatsheshoulddo,wonderinghowsheshouldmanagetowrestthetruthfromtheMarquise。 Andwhennightcame,favorabletotragicsituations,shehadthoughtoutasimpleandsubtiletricktoobtainwhatshewanted:itwas,brusquely,tosaythatServignyhadaskedforherhandinmarriage。 Atthisnews,MadameObardi,takenbysurprise,wouldcertainlyletawordescapeherlips,acrywhichwouldthrowlightintothemindofherdaughter。AndYvettehadaccomplishedherplan。 Sheexpectedanexplosionofastonishment,anexpansionoflove,aconfidencefullofgesturesandtears。But,insteadofthis,hermother,withoutappearingstupefiedorgrieved,hadonlyseemedbored;andfromtheconstrained,discontented,andworriedtoneinwhichshehadreplied,theyounggirl,inwhomtheresuddenlyawakedalltheastuteness,keenness,andsharpnessofawoman,understandingthatshemustnotinsist,thatthemysterywasofanothernature,thatitwouldbepainfultohertolearnit,andthatshemustpuzzleitoutallalone,hadgonebacktoherroom,herheartoppressed,hersoulindistress,possessednowwiththeapprehensionsofarealmisfortune,withoutknowingexactlyeitherwhenceorwhythisemotioncametoher。Soshewept,leaningatthewindow。 Sheweptlong,notdreamingofanythingnow,notseekingtodiscoveranythingmore,andlittlebylittle,wearinessovercomingher,sheclosedhereyes。Shedozedforafewminutes,withthatdeepsleepofpeoplewhoaretiredoutandhavenottheenergytoundressandgotobed,thatheavysleep,brokenbydreams,whentheheadnodsuponthebreast。 Shedidnotgotobeduntilthefirstbreakofday,whenthecoldofthemorning,chillingher,compelledhertoleavethewindow。 Thenextdayandthedayafter,shemaintainedareservedandmelancholyattitude。Herthoughtswerebusy;shewaslearningtospyout,toguessatconclusions,toreason。Alight,stillvague,seemedtoilluminemenandthingsaroundherinanewmanner;shebegantoentertainsuspicionsagainstall,againsteverythingthatshehadbelieved,againsthermother。Sheimaginedallsortsofthingsduringthesetwodays。Sheconsideredallthepossibilities,takingthemostextremeresolutionswiththesuddennessofherchangeableandunrestrainednature。Wednesdayshehituponaplan,anentirescheduleofconductandasystemofspying。SheroseThursdaymorningwiththeresolvetobeverysharpandarmedagainsteverybody。 Shedeterminedeventotakeforhermottothesetwowords:\"Myselfalone,\"andsheponderedformorethananhourhowsheshouldarrangethemtoproduceagoodeffectengravedabouthercrest,onherwritingpaper。 SavalandServignyarrivedatteno\'clock。Theyounggirlgaveherhandwithreserve,withoutembarrassment,andinatone,familiarthoughgrave,shesaid: \"Goodmorning,Muscade,areyouwell?\"\"Goodmorning,Mam\'zelle,fairly,thanks,andyou?\"Hewaswatchingher。\"Whatcomedywillsheplayme,\"hesaidtohimself。 TheMarquisehavingtakenSaval\'sarm,hetookYvette\'s,andtheybegantostrollaboutthelawn,appearinganddisappearingeveryminute,behindtheclumpsoftrees。 Yvettewalkedwithathoughtfulair,lookingatthegravelofthepathway,appearinghardlytohearwhathercompanionsaidandscarcelyansweringhim。 Suddenlysheasked:\"Areyoutrulymyfriend,Muscade?\" \"Why,ofcourse,Mam\'zelle。\" \"Buttruly,truly,now?\" \"Absolutelyyourfriend,Mam\'zelle,bodyandsoul。\" \"Evenenoughofafriendnottolietomeonce,justonce?\" \"Eventwice,ifnecessary。\" \"Evenenoughtotellmetheabsolute,exacttruth?\" \"Yes,Mam\'zelle。\" \"Well,whatdoyouthink,waydowninyourheart,ofthePrinceofKravalow?\" \"Ah,thedevil!\" \"Youseethatyouarealreadypreparingtolie。\" \"Notatall,butIamseekingthewords,theproperwords。GreatHeavens,PrinceKravalowisaRussian,whospeaksRussian,whowasborninRussia,whohasperhapshadapassporttocometoFrance,andaboutwhomthereisnothingfalsebuthisnameandtitle。\" Shelookedhimintheeyes:\"Youmeanthatheis——?\" \"Anadventurer,Mam\'zelle。\" \"Thankyou,andChevalierValrealiisnobetter?\"\"Youhavehitit。\" \"AndMonsieurdeBelvigne?\" \"Withhimitisadifferentthing。Heisofprovincialsociety,honorableuptoacertainpoint,butonlyalittlescorchedfromhavinglivedtoorapidly。\" \"Andyou?\" \"Iamwhattheycallabutterfly,amanofgoodfamily,whohadintelligenceandwhohassquandereditinmakingphrases,whohadgoodhealthandwhohasinjureditbydissipation,whohadsomeworthperhapsandwhohasscattereditbydoingnothing。Thereislefttomeacertainknowledgeoflife,acompleteabsenceofprejudice,alargecontemptformankind,includingwomen,averydeepsentimentoftheuselessnessofmyactsandavasttoleranceforthemob。\" \"Nevertheless,attimes,Icanbefrank,andIamevencapableofaffection,asyoucouldsee,ifyouwould。WiththesedefectsandqualitiesIplacemyselfatyourorders,Mam\'zelle,morallyandphysically,todowhatyoupleasewithme。\" Shedidnotlaugh;shelistened,weighinghiswordsandhisintentions;thensheresumed: \"WhatdoyouthinkoftheCountessdeLammy?\" Hereplied,vivaciously:\"Youwillpermitmenottogivemyopinionaboutthewomen。\" \"Aboutnoneofthem?\" \"Aboutnoneofthem。\"\"Thenyoumusthaveabadopinionofthemall。 Come,think;won\'tyoumakeasingleexception?\" Hesneeredwiththatinsolentairwhichhegenerallywore;andwiththatbrutalaudacitywhichheusedasaweapon,hesaid:\"Presentcompanyisalwaysexcepted。\" Sheblushedalittle,butcalmlyasked:\"Well,whatdoyouthinkofme?\" \"Youwantmetotell。Well,sobeit。Ithinkyouareayoungpersonofgoodsense,andpracticalness,orifyouprefer,ofgoodpracticalsense,whoknowsverywellhowtoarrangeherpastime,toamusepeople,tohideherviews,tolayhersnares,andwho,withouthurrying,awaitsevents。\" \"Isthatall?\"sheasked。 \"That\'sall。\" Thenshesaidwithaseriousearnestness:\"Ishallmakeyouchangethatopinion,Muscade。\" Thenshejoinedhermother,whowasproceedingwithshortsteps,herheaddown,withthatmannerassumedintalkingverylow,whilewalking,ofveryintimateandverysweetthings。Assheadvancedshedrewshapesinthesand,lettersperhaps,withthepointofhersunshade,andshespoke,withoutlookingatSaval,long,softly,leaningonhisarm,pressedagainsthim。 Yvettesuddenlyfixedhereyesuponher,andasuspicion,ratherafeelingthanadoubt,passedthroughhermindasashadowofaclouddrivenbythewindpassesovertheground。 Thebellrangforbreakfast。Itwassilentandalmostgloomy。Therewasastormintheair。Greatsolidcloudsresteduponthehorizon,muteandheavy,butchargedwithatempest。Assoonastheyhadtakentheircoffeeontheterrace,theMarquiseasked: \"Well,darling,areyougoingtotakeawalktodaywithyourfriendServigny?Itisagoodtimetoenjoythecoolnessunderthetrees。\" Yvettegaveheraquickglance。 \"No,mamma,Iamnotgoingoutto-day。\" TheMarquiseappearedannoyed,andinsisted。\"Oh,goandtakeastroll,mychild,itisexcellentforyou。\" ThenYvettedistinctlysaid:\"No,mamma,Ishallstayinthehouseto-day,andyouknowverywellwhy,becauseItoldyoutheotherevening。\" MadameObardigaveitnofurtherthought,preoccupiedwiththethoughtofremainingalonewithSaval。Sheblushedandwasannoyed,disturbedonherownaccount,notknowinghowshecouldfindafreehourortwo。Shestammered: \"Itistrue。Iwasnotthinkingofit。Idon\'tknowwheremyheadis。\" AndYvettetakingupsomeembroidery,whichshecalled\"thepublicsafety,\"andatwhichsheworkedfiveorsixtimesayear,ondulldays,seatedherselfonalowchairnearhermother,whilethetwoyoungmen,astridefolding-chairs,smokedtheircigars。 Thehourspassedinalanguidconversation。TheMarquisefidgety,castlongingglancesatSaval,seekingsomepretext,somemeans,ofgettingridofherdaughter。Shefinallyrealizedthatshewouldnotsucceed,andnotknowingwhatrusetoemploy,shesaidtoServigny: \"Youknow,mydearDuke,thatIamgoingtokeepyouboththisevening。To-morrowweshallbreakfastattheFournaiserestaurant,atChaton。\" Heunderstood,smiled,andbowed:\"Iamatyourorders,Marquise。\" Thedayworeonslowlyandpainfullyunderthethreateningsofthestorm。Thehourfordinnergraduallyapproached。Theheavyskywasfilledwithslowandheavyclouds。Therewasnotabreathofairstirring。Theeveningmealwassilent,too。Anoppression,anembarrassment,asortofvaguefear,seemedtomakethetwomenandthetwowomenmute。 Whenthecoverswereremoved,theysatlongupontheterrace;onlyspeakingatlongintervals。Nightfell,asultrynight。Suddenlythehorizonwastornbyanimmenseflashoflightning,whichilluminedwithadazzlingandwanlightthefourfacesshroudedindarkness。 Thenafar-offsound,heavyandfeeble,liketherumblingofacarriageuponabridge,passedovertheearth;anditseemedthattheheatoftheatmosphereincreased,thattheairsuddenlybecamemoreoppressive,andthesilenceoftheeveningdeeper。 Yvetterose。\"Iamgoingtobed,\"shesaid,\"thestormmakesmeill。\" AndsheofferedherbrowtotheMarquise,gaveherhandtothetwoyoungmen,andwithdrew。 Asherroomwasjustabovetheterrace,theleavesofagreatchestnut-treegrowingbeforethedoorsoongleamedwithagreenhue,andServignykepthiseyesfixedonthispalelightinthefoliage,inwhichattimeshethoughthesawashadowpass。Butsuddenlythelightwentout。MadameObardigaveagreatsigh。 \"Mydaughterhasgonetobed,\"shesaid。 Servignyrose,saying:\"Iamgoingtodoasmuch,Marquise,ifyouwillpermitme。\"Hekissedthehandsheheldouttohimanddisappearedinturn。 ShewasleftalonewithSaval,inthenight。Inamomentshewasclaspedinhisarms。Then,althoughhetriedtopreventher,shekneeledbeforehimmurmuring:\"Iwanttoseeyoubythelightningflashes。\" ButYvette,hercandlesnuffedout,hadreturnedtoherbalcony,barefoot,glidinglikeashadow,andshelistened,consumedbyanunhappyandconfusedsuspicion。Shecouldnotsee,asshewasabovethem,ontheroofoftheterrace。 Sheheardnothingbutamurmurofvoices,andherheartbeatsofastthatshecouldactuallyhearitsthrobbing。Awindowclosedontheflooraboveher。Servigny,then,musthavejustgoneuptohisroom。 Hermotherwasalonewiththeotherman。 Asecondflashoflightning,clearingthesky;lightedupforasecondallthelandscapesheknewsowell,withastartlingandsinistergleam,andshesawthegreatriver,withthecolorofmeltedlead,asariverappearsindreamsinfantasticscenes。 Justthenavoicebelowherutteredthewords:\"Iloveyou!\"Andsheheardnothingmore。Astrangeshudderpassedoverherbody,andhersoulshiveredinfrightfuldistress。Aheavy,infinitesilence,whichseemedeternal,hungovertheworld。Shecouldnolongerbreathe,herbreastoppressedbysomethingunknownandhorrible。 Anotherflashoflightningilluminedspace,lightingupthehorizonforaninstant,thenanotheralmostimmediatelycame,followedbystillothers。Andthevoice,whichshehadalreadyheard,repeatedmoreloudly:\"Oh!howIloveyou!howIloveyou!\"AndYvetterecognizedthevoice;itwashermother\'s。 Alargedropofwarmrainfelluponherbrow,andaslightandalmostimperceptiblemotionranthroughtheleaves,thequiveringoftherainwhichwasnowbeginning。Thenanoisecamefromafar,aconfusedsound,likethatofthewindinthebranches:itwasthedelugedescendinginsheetsonearthandriverandtrees。Inafewminutesthewaterpouredabouther,coveringher,drenchingherlikeashower-bath。Shedidnotmove,thinkingonlyofwhatwashappeningontheterrace。 Sheheardthemgetupandgototheirrooms。Doorswereclosedwithinthehouse;andtheyounggirl,yieldingtoanirresistibledesiretolearnwhatwasgoingon,adesirewhichmaddenedandtorturedher,glideddownstairs,softlyopenedtheouterdoor,and,crossingthelawnunderthefuriousdownpour,ranandhidinaclumpoftrees,tolookatthewindows。 Onlyonewindowwaslighted,hermother\'s。Andsuddenlytwoshadowsappearedintheluminoussquare,twoshadows,sidebyside。Thendistracted,withoutreflection,withoutknowingwhatshewasdoing,shescreamedwithallhermight,inashrillvoice:\"Mamma!\"asapersonwouldcryouttowarnpeopleindangerofdeath。 Herdesperatecrywaslostinthenoiseoftherain,butthecoupleseparated,disturbed。Andoneoftheshadowsdisappeared,whiletheothertriedtodiscoversomething,peeringthroughthedarknessofthegarden。 Fearingtobesurprised,ortomeethermotheratthatmoment,Yvetterushedbacktothehouse,ranupstairs,drippingwet,andshutherselfinherroom,resolvedtoopenherdoortonoone。 Withouttaking,offherstreamingdress,whichclungtoherform,shefellonherknees,withclaspedhands,inherdistressimploringsomesuperhumanprotection,themysteriousaidofHeaven,theunknownsupportwhichapersonseeksinhoursoftearsanddespair。 Thegreatlightningflashesthrewforaninstanttheirlividreflectionsintoherroom,andshesawherselfinthemirrorofherwardrobe,withherwetanddisheveledhair,lookingsostrangethatshedidnotrecognizeherself。Sheremainedtheresolongthatthestormabatedwithoutherperceivingit。Therainceased,alightfilledthesky,stillobscuredwithclouds,andamild,balmy,deliciousfreshness,afreshnessofgrassandwetleaves,cameinthroughtheopenwindow。 Yvetterose,tookoffherwet,coldgarments,withoutthinkingwhatshewasdoing,andwenttobed。Shestaredwithfixedeyesatthedawningday。Thensheweptagain,andthenshebegantothink。 Hermother!Alover!Whatashame!Shehadreadsomanybooksinwhichwomen,evenmothers,hadoversteppedtheboundsofpropriety,toregaintheirhonoratthepagesoftheclimax,thatshewasnotastonishedbeyondmeasureatfindingherselfenvelopedinadramasimilartoallthoseofherreading。Theviolenceofherfirstgrief,thecruelshockofsurprise,hadalreadywornoffalittle,intheconfusedremembranceofanalogoussituations。Hermindhadrambledamongsuchtragicadventures,paintedbythenovel-writers,thatthehorriblediscoveryseemed,littlebylittle,likethenaturalcontinuationofsomeserialstory,beguntheeveningbefore。 Shesaidtoherself:\"Iwillsavemymother。\"Andalmostreassuredbythisheroicresolution,shefeltherselfstrengthened,readyatonceforthedevotionandthestruggle。Shereflectedonthemeanswhichmustbeemployed。Asingleoneseemedgood,whichwasquiteinkeepingwithherromanticnature。AndsherehearsedtheinterviewwhichsheshouldhavewiththeMarquise,asanactorrehearsesthescenewhichheisgoingtoplay。 Thesunhadrisen。Theservantswerestirringaboutthehouse。Thechambermaidcamewiththechocolate。Yvetteputthetrayonthetableandsaid: \"YouwillsaytomymotherthatIamnotwell,thatIamgoingtostayinbeduntilthosegentlemenleave,thatIcouldnotsleeplastnight,andthatIdonotwanttobedisturbedbecauseIamgoingtotrytorest。\" Theservant,surprised,lookedatthewetdress,whichhadfallenlikearagonthecarpet。 \"SoMademoisellehasbeenout?\"shesaid。 \"Yes,Iwentoutforawalkintheraintorefreshmyself。\" Themaidpickeduptheskirts,stockings,andwetshoes;thenshewentawaycarryingonherarm,withfastidiousprecautions,thesegarments,soakedastheclothesofadrownedperson。AndYvettewaited,wellknowingthathermotherwouldcometoher。 TheMarquiseentered,havingjumpedfromherbedatthefirstwordsofthechambermaid,forasuspicionhadpossessedher,heartsincethatcry:\"Mamma!\"heardinthedark。 \"Whatisthematter?\"shesaid。 Yvettelookedatherandstammered:\"I——I——\"Thenoverpoweredbyasuddenandterribleemotion,shebegantochoke。 TheMarquise,astonished,againasked:\"Whatintheworldisthematterwithyou?\" Then,forgettingallherplansandpreparedphrases,theyounggirlhidherfaceinbothhandsandstammered: \"Oh!mamma!Oh!mamma!\" MadameObardistoodbythebed,toomuchaffectedthoroughlytounderstand,butguessingalmosteverything,withthatsubtileinstinctwhenceshederivedherstrength。AsYvettecouldnotspeak,chokedwithtears,hermother,wornoutfinallyandfeelingsomefearfulexplanationcoming,brusquelyasked: \"Come,willyoutellmewhatthematteris?\" Yvettecouldhardlyutterthewords:\"Oh!lastnight——Isaw——yourwindow。\" TheMarquise,verypale;said:\"Well?whatofit?\" Herdaughterrepeated,stillsobbing:\"Oh!mamma!Oh!mamma!\" MadameObardi,whosefearandembarrassmentturnedtoanger,shruggedhershouldersandturnedtogo。\"Ireallybelievethatyouarecrazy。Whenthisends,youwillletmeknow。\" Buttheyounggirl,suddenlytookherhandsfromherface,whichwasstreamingwithtears。 \"No,listen,Imustspeaktoyou,listen。Youmustpromiseme——wemustbothgo,away,veryfaroff,intothecountry,andwemustlivelikethecountrypeople;andnoonemustknowwhathasbecomeofus。 Sayyouwill,mamma;Ibegyou,Iimploreyou;willyou?\" TheMarquise,confused,stoodinthemiddleoftheroom。Shehadinherveinstheirasciblebloodofthecommonpeople。Thenasenseofshame,amother\'smodesty,mingledwithavaguesentimentoffearandtheexasperationofapassionatewomanwhoseloveisthreatened,andsheshuddered,readytoaskforpardon,ortoyieldtosomeviolence。 \"Idon\'tunderstandyou,\"shesaid。