第15章

类别:其他 作者:William Makepeace Thackeray字数:12499更新时间:18/12/18 08:41:02
ThegeneraltriedthepowerofanotherproclamationontheSpaniards,inwhichheannouncedthatweonlycameintheinterestofSpainandKingCharles,andforourselveswantedtomakenoconquestnorsettlementinSpainatall。ButallthiseloquencewaslostupontheSpaniards,itwouldseem:theCaptain—GeneralofAndalusiawouldnomorelistentousthantheGovernorofCadiz; andinreplytohisGrace\'sproclamation,theMarquisofVilladariasfiredoffanother,whichthosewhoknewtheSpanishthoughtratherthebestofthetwo;andofthisnumberwasHarryEsmond,whosekindJesuitinolddayshadinstructedhim,andnowhadthehonoroftranslatingforhisGracetheseharmlessdocumentsofwar。TherewasahardtouchforhisGrace,and,indeed,forothergeneralsinherMajesty\'sservice,intheconcludingsentenceoftheDon:\"Thatheandhiscouncilhadthegenerousexampleoftheirancestorstofollow,whohadneveryetsoughttheirelevationinthebloodorintheflightoftheirkings。\'Moripropatria\' washisdevice,whichtheDukemightcommunicatetothePrincesswhogovernedEngland。\" Whetherthetroopswereangryatthisreparteeorno,\'tiscertainsomethingputtheminafury;for,notbeingabletogetpossessionofCadiz,ourpeopleseizeduponPortSaintMary\'sandsackedit,burningdownthemerchants\'storehouses,gettingdrunkwiththefamouswinesthere,pillagingandrobbingquiethousesandconvents,murderinganddoingworse。AndtheonlybloodwhichMr。 Esmonddrewinthisshamefulcampaign,wastheknockingdownanEnglishsentinelwithahalf—pike,whowasofferinginsulttoapoortremblingnun。Isshegoingtoturnoutabeauty?oraprincess?orperhapsEsmond\'smotherthathehadlostandneverseen?Alasno,itwasbutapoorwheezyolddropsicalwoman,withawartuponhernose。ButhavingbeenearlytaughtapartoftheRomanreligion,heneverhadthehorrorofitthatsomeProtestantshaveshown,andseemtothinktobeapartofours。 AfterthepillageandplunderofSt。Mary\'sandanassaultuponafortortwo,thetroopsalltookshipping,andfinishedtheirexpedition,atanyrate,morebrilliantlythanithadbegun。 HearingthattheFrenchfleetwithagreattreasurewasinVigoBay,ourAdmirals,RookeandHopson,pursuedtheenemythither;thetroopslandedandcarriedthefortsthatprotectedthebay,Hopsonpassingtheboomfirstonboardhisshipthe\"Torbay,\"andtherestoftheships,EnglishandDutch,followinghim。TwentyshipswereburnedortakeninthePortofRedondilla,andavastdealmoreplunderthanwaseveraccountedfor;butpoormenbeforethatexpeditionwererichafterwards,andsooftenwasitfoundandremarkedthattheVigoofficerscamehomewithpocketsfullofmoney,thatthenotoriousJackShafto,whomadesuchafigureatthecoffeehousesandgaming—tablesinLondon,andgaveoutthathehadbeenasoldieratVigo,owned,whenhewasabouttobehanged,thatBagshotHeathhadbeenHISVigo,andthatheonlyspokeofLaRedondillatoturnawaypeople\'seyesfromtherealplacewherethebootylay。Indeed,HounsloworVigo——whichmattersmuch?Thelatterwasabadbusiness,thoughMr。AddisondidsingitspraisesinLatin。Thathonestgentleman\'smusehadaneyetothemainchance;andIdoubtwhethershesawmuchinspirationinthelosingside。 ButthoughEsmond,forhispart,gotnoshareofthisfabulousbooty,onegreatprizewhichhehadoutofthecampaignwas,thatexcitementofactionandchangeofscene,whichshookoffagreatdealofhispreviousmelancholy。Helearntatanyratetobearhisfatecheerfully。Hebroughtbackabrownedface,aheartresoluteenough,andalittlepleasantstoreofknowledgeandobservation,fromthatexpedition,whichwasoverwiththeautumn,whenthetroopswerebackinEnglandagain;andEsmondgivinguphispostofsecretarytoGeneralLumley,whosecommandwasover,andpartingwiththatofficerwithmanykindexpressionsofgoodwillontheGeneral\'sside,hadleavetogotoLondon,toseeifhecouldpushhisfortunesanywayfurther,andfoundhimselfoncemoreinhisdowageraunt\'scomfortablequartersatChelsey,andingreaterfavorthaneverwiththeoldlady。Hepropitiatedherwithapresentofacomb,afan,andablackmantle,suchastheladiesofCadizwear,andwhichmyLadyViscountesspronouncedbecameherstyleofbeautymightily。Andshewasgreatilyedifiedathearingofthatstoryofhisrescueofthenun,andfeltverylittledoubtbutthatherKingJames\'srelic,whichhehadalwaysdutifullyworninhisdesk,hadkepthimoutofdanger,andavertedtheshotoftheenemy。Myladymadefeastsforhim,introducedhimtomorecompany,andpushedhisfortuneswithsuchenthusiasmandsuccess,thatshegotapromiseofacompanyforhimthroughtheLadyMarlborough\'sinterest,whowasgraciouslypleasedtoacceptofadiamondworthacoupleofhundredguineas,whichMr。Esmondwasenabledtopresenttoherladyshipthroughhisaunt\'sbounty,andwhopromisedthatshewouldtakechargeofEsmond\'sfortune。HehadthehonortomakehisappearanceattheQueen\'sdrawing—roomoccasionally,andtofrequentmyLordMarlborough\'slevees。Thatgreatmanreceivedtheyoungonewithveryespecialfavor,soEsmond\'scomradessaid,anddeignedtosaythathehadreceivedthebestreportsofMr。Esmond,bothforcourageandability,whereonyoumaybesuretheyounggentlemanmadeaprofoundbow,andexpressedhimselfeagertoserveunderthemostdistinguishedcaptainintheworld。 Whilsthisbusinesswasgoingonthusprosperously,Esmondhadhisshareofpleasuretoo,andmadehisappearancealongwithotheryounggentlemenatthecoffee—houses,thetheatres,andtheMall。 Helongedtohearofhisdearmistressandherfamily:manyatime,inthemidstofthegayetiesandpleasuresofthetown,hisheartfondlyrevertedtothem;andoftenastheyoungfellowsofhissocietyweremakingmerryatthetavern,andcallingtoasts(asthefashionofthatdaywas)overtheirwine,Esmondthoughtofpersons——oftwofairwomen,whomhehadbeenusedtoadorealmost,andemptiedhisglasswithasigh。 BythistimetheelderViscountesshadgrowntiredagainoftheyounger,andwhenevershespokeofmylord\'swidow,\'twasintermsbynomeanscomplimentarytowardsthatpoorlady:theyoungerwomannotneedingherprotectionanylonger,theelderabusedher。MostofthefamilyquarrelsthatIhaveseeninlife(savingalwaysthosearisingfrommoneydisputes,whenadivisionoftwopencehalfpennywilloftendrivethedearestrelativesintowarandestrangement,)springoutofjealousyandenvy。JackandTom,bornofthesamefamilyandtothesamefortune,liveverycordiallytogether,notuntilJackisruinedwhenTomdesertshim,butuntilTommakesasuddenriseinprosperity,whichJackcan\'tforgive。 Tentimestoone\'tistheunprosperousmanthatisangry,nottheotherwhoisinfault。\'TisMrs。Jack,whocanonlyaffordachair,thatsickensatMrs。Tom\'snewcoach—and—sick,criesoutagainsthersister\'sairs,andsetsherhusbandagainsthisbrother。\'TisJackwhoseeshisbrothershakinghandswithalord(withwhomJackwouldliketoexchangesnuff—boxeshimself),thatgoeshomeandtellshiswifehowpoorTomisspoiled,hefears,andnobetterthanasneak,parasite,andbeggaronhorseback。I rememberhowfuriousthecoffee—housewitswerewithDickSteelewhenhesetuphiscoachandfinehouseinBloomsbury:theybegantoforgivehimwhenthebailiffswereafterhim,andabusedMr。 AddisonforsellingDick\'scountry—house。AndyetDickinthesponging—house,orDickinthePark,withhisfourmaresandplatedharness,wasexactlythesamegentle,kindly,improvident,jovialDickSteele:andyetMr。Addisonwasperfectlyrightingettingthemoneywhichwashis,andnotgivinguptheamountofhisjustclaim,tobespentbyDickuponchampagneandfiddlers,lacedclothes,finefurniture,andparasites,JewandChristian,maleandfemale,whoclungtohim。As,accordingtothefamousmaximofMonsieurdeRochefoucault,\"inourfriends\'misfortunesthere\'ssomethingsecretlypleasanttous;\"so,ontheotherhand,theirgoodfortuneisdisagreeable。If\'tishardforamantobearhisowngoodluck,\'tisharderstillforhisfriendstobearitforhimandbutfewofthemordinarilycanstandthattrial:whereasoneofthe\"precioususes\"ofadversityis,thatitisagreatreconciler; thatitbringsbackavertedkindness,disarmsanimosity,andcausesyesterday\'senemytoflinghishatredaside,andholdoutahandtothefallenfriendofolddays。There\'spityandlove,aswellasenvy,inthesameheartandtowardsthesameperson。Therivalrystopswhenthecompetitortumbles;and,asIviewit,weshouldlookattheseagreeableanddisagreeablequalitiesofourhumanityhumblyalike。Theyareconsequentandnatural,andourkindnessandmeannessbothmanly。 Soyoumayeitherreadthesentence,thattheelderofEsmond\'stwokinswomenpardonedtheyoungerherbeauty,whenthathadlostsomewhatofitsfreshness,perhaps;andforgotmosthergrievancesagainsttheother,whenthesubjectofthemwasnolongerprosperousandenviable;orwemaysaymorebenevolently(butthesumcomestothesamefigures,workedeitherway,)thatIsabellarepentedofherunkindnesstowardsRachel,whenRachelwasunhappy; and,bestirringherselfinbehalfofthepoorwidowandherchildren,gavethemshelterandfriendship。Theladieswerequitegoodfriendsaslongastheweakeroneneededaprotector。BeforeEsmondwentawayonhisfirstcampaign,hismistresswasstillontermsoffriendship(thoughapoorlittlechit,awomanthathadevidentlynospiritinher,&c。)withtheelderLadyCastlewood; andMistressBeatrixwasallowedtobeabeauty。 ButbetweenthefirstyearofQueenAnne\'sreign,andthesecond,sadchangesfortheworsehadtakenplaceinthetwoyoungerladies,atleastintheelder\'sdescriptionofthem。Rachel,ViscountessCastlewood,hadnomorefacethanadumpling,andMrs。 Beatrixwasgrownquitecoarse,andwaslosingallherbeauty。 LittleLordBlandford——(sheneverwouldcallhimLordBlandford; hisfatherwasLordChurchill——theKing,whomhebetrayed,hadmadehimLordChurchill,andhewasLordChurchillstill)——mightbemakingeyesather;buthismother,thatvixenofaSarahJennings,wouldneverhearofsuchafolly。LadyMarlboroughhadgothertobeamaidofhonoratCourttothePrincess,butshewouldrepentofit。ThewidowFrancis(shewasbutMrs。FrancisEsmond)wasascheming,artful,heartlesshussy。Shewasspoilingherbratofaboy,andshewouldendbymarryingherchaplain。 \"What,Tusher!\"criedMr。Esmond,feelingastrangepangofrageandastonishment。 \"Yes——Tusher,mymaid\'sson;andwhohasgotallthequalitiesofhisfatherthelackeyinblack,andhisaccomplishedmammathewaiting—woman,\"criesmylady。\"Whatdoyousupposethatasentimentalwidow,whowilllivedowninthatdingydungeonofaCastlewood,whereshespoilsherboy,killsthepoorwithherdrugs,hasprayerstwiceadayandseesnobodybutthechaplain—— whatdoyousupposeshecando,monCousin,butletthehorridparson,withhisgreatsquaretoesandhideouslittlegreeneyes,makelovetoher?Celac\'estvu,monCousin。WhenIwasagirlatCastlewood,allthechaplainsfellinlovewithme——they\'venothingelsetodo。\" Myladywentonwithmoretalkofthiskind,though,intruth,Esmondhadnoideaofwhatshesaidfurther,soentirelydidherfirstwordsoccupyhisthought。Weretheytrue?Notall,norhalf,noratenthpartofwhatthegarrulousoldwomansaid,wastrue。Couldthisbeso?NoearhadEsmondforanythingelse,thoughhispatronesschattedonforanhour。 Someyounggentlemenofthetown,withwhomEsmondhadmadeacquaintance,hadpromisedtopresenthimtothatmostcharmingofactresses,andlivelyandagreeableofwomen,Mrs。Bracegirdle,aboutwhomHarry\'soldadversaryMohunhaddrawnswords,afewyearsbeforemypoorlordandhefellout。ThefamousMr。Congrevehadstampedwithhishighapproval,tothewhichtherewasnogainsaying,thisdelightfulperson:andshewasactinginDickSteele\'scomedies,andfinally,andfortwenty—fourhoursafterbeholdingher,Mr。Esmondfelthimself,orthoughthimself,tobeasviolentlyenamoredofthislovelybrunette,aswereathousandotheryoungfellowsaboutthecity。Tohaveonceseenherwastolongtobeholdheragain;andtobeofferedthedelightfulprivilegeofheracquaintance,wasapleasuretheveryideaofwhichsettheyounglieutenant\'sheartonfire。Amancannotlivewithcomradesunderthetentswithoutfindingoutthathetooisfive—and—twenty。Ayoungfellowcannotbecastdownbygriefandmisfortuneeversoseverebutsomenighthebeginstosleepsound,andsomedaywhendinner—timecomestofeelhungryforabeefsteak。 Time,youthandgoodhealth,newscenesandtheexcitementofactionandacampaign,hadprettywellbroughtEsmond\'smourningtoanend;andhiscomradessaidthatDonDismal,astheycalledhim,wasDonDismalnomore。Sowhenapartywasmadetodineatthe\"Rose,\"andgototheplayhouseafterward,Esmondwasaspleasedasanothertotakehisshareofthebottleandtheplay。 Howwasitthattheoldaunt\'snews,oritmightbescandal,aboutTomTusher,causedsuchastrangeandsuddenexcitementinTom\'soldplayfellow?Hadn\'theswornathousandtimesinhisownmindthattheLadyofCastlewood,whohadtreatedhimwithsuchkindnessonce,andthenhadlefthimsocruelly,was,andwastoremainhenceforth,indifferenttohimforever?Hadhisprideandhissenseofjusticenotlongsincehelpedhimtocurethepainofthatdesertion——wasitevenapaintohimnow?Why,butlastnightashewalkedacrossthefieldsandmeadowstoChelseyfromPallMall,hadhenotcomposedtwoorthreestanzasofasong,celebratingBracegirdle\'sbrowneyes,anddeclaringthemathousandtimesmorebeautifulthanthebrightestblueonesthateverlanguishedunderthelashesofaninsipidfairbeauty!ButTomTusher!TomTusher,thewaiting—woman\'sson,raisinguphislittleeyestohismistress!TomTusherpresumingtothinkofCastlewood\'swidow! RageandcontemptfilledMr。Harry\'sheartattheverynotion;thehonorofthefamily,ofwhichhewasthechief,madeithisdutytopreventsomonstrousanalliance,andtochastisetheupstartwhocoulddaretothinkofsuchaninsulttotheirhouse。\'TistrueMr。Esmondoftenboastedofrepublicanprinciples,andcouldremembermanyfinespeecheshehadmadeatcollegeandelsewhere,withWORTHandnotBIRTHforatext:butTomTushertotaketheplaceofthenobleCastlewood——faugh!\'twasasmonstrousasKingHamlet\'swidowtakingoffherweedsforClaudius。Esmondlaughedatallwidows,allwives,allwomen;andwerethebannsabouttobepublished,asnodoubttheywere,thatverynextSundayatWalcoteChurch,EsmondsworethathewouldbepresenttoshoutNo!inthefaceofthecongregation,andtotakeaprivaterevengeupontheearsofthebridegroom。 Insteadofgoingtodinnerthenatthe\"Rose\"thatnight,Mr。 Esmondbadehisservantpackaportmanteauandgethorses,andwasatFarnham,half—wayontheroadtoWalcote,thirtymilesoff,beforehiscomradeshadgottotheirsupperaftertheplay。HebadehismangivenohinttomyLadyDowager\'shouseholdoftheexpeditiononwhichhewasgoing;andasChelseywasdistantfromLondon,theroadsbad,andinfestedbyfootpads,andEsmondofteninthehabit,whenengagedinapartyofpleasure,oflyingatafriend\'slodgingintown,therewasnoneedthathisoldauntshouldbedisturbedathisabsence——indeed,nothingmoredelightedtheoldladythantofancythatmoncousin,theincorrigibleyoungsinner,wasabroadboxingthewatch,orscouringSt。Giles\'s。Whenshewasnotatherbooksofdevotion,shethoughtEtheridgeandSedleyverygoodreading。ShehadahundredprettystoriesaboutRochester,HarryJermyn,andHamilton;andifEsmondwouldbuthaverunawaywiththewifeevenofacitizen,\'tismybeliefshewouldhavepawnedherdiamonds(thebestofthemwenttoourLadyofChaillot)topayhisdamages。 Mylord\'slittlehouseofWalcote——whichheinhabitedbeforehetookhistitleandoccupiedthehouseofCastlewood——liesaboutamilefromWinchester,andhiswidowhadreturnedtoWalcoteaftermylord\'sdeathasaplacealwaysdeartoher,andwhereherearliestandhappiestdayshadbeenspent,cheerfullerthanCastlewood,whichwastoolargeforherstraitenedmeans,andgivingher,too,theprotectionoftheex—dean,herfather。TheyoungViscounthadayear\'sschoolingatthefamouscollegethere,withMr。Tusherashisgovernor。SomuchnewsofthemMr。EsmondhadhadduringthepastyearfromtheoldViscountess,hisownfather\'swidow;fromtheyoungonetherehadneverbeenaword。 Twiceorthriceinhisbenefactor\'slifetime,EsmondhadbeentoWalcote;andnow,takingbutacoupleofhours\'restonlyattheinnontheroad,hewasupagainlongbeforedaybreak,andmadesuchgoodspeedthathewasatWalcotebytwoo\'clockoftheday。 Heridtotheendofthevillage,wherehealightedandsentamanthencetoMr。Tusher,withamessagethatagentlemanfromLondonwouldspeakwithhimonurgentbusiness。ThemessengercamebacktosaytheDoctorwasintown,mostlikelyatprayersintheCathedral。MyLadyViscountesswasthere,too;shealwayswenttoCathedralprayerseveryday。 Thehorsesbelongedtothepost—houseatWinchester。Esmondmountedagainandrodeontothe\"George;\"whencehewalked,leavinghisgrumblingdomesticatlasthappywithadinner,straighttotheCathedral。Theorganwasplaying:thewinter\'sdaywasalreadygrowinggray:ashepassedunderthestreet—archintotheCathedralyard,andmadehiswayintotheancientsolemnedifice。 CHAPTERVI。 THE29THDECEMBER。 TherewasscarceascoreofpersonsintheCathedralbesidetheDeanandsomeofhisclergy,andthechoristers,youngandold,thatperformedthebeautifuleveningprayer。ButMr。Tusherwasoneoftheofficiants,andreadfromtheeagleinanauthoritativevoice,andagreatblackperiwig;andinthestalls,stillinherblackwidow\'shood,satEsmond\'sdearmistress,hersonbyherside,verymuchgrown,andindeedanoble—lookingyouth,withhismother\'seyes,andhisfather\'scurlingbrownhair,thatfelloverhispointdeVenise——aprettypicturesuchasVanDyckmighthavepainted。Mons。Rigaud\'sportraitofmyLordViscount,doneatParisafterwards,givesbutaFrenchversionofhismanly,frank,Englishface。Whenhelookedupthereweretwosapphirebeamsoutofhiseyessuchasnopainter\'spalettehasthecolortomatch,I think。Onthisdaytherewasnotmuchchanceofseeingthatparticularbeautyofmyyounglord\'scountenance;forthetruthis,hekepthiseyesshutforthemostpart,and,theanthembeingratherlong,wasasleep。 Butthemusicceasing,mylordwokeup,lookingabouthim,andhiseyeslightingonMr。Esmond,whowassittingoppositehim,gazingwithnosmalltendernessandmelancholyupontwopersonswhohadsomuchofhisheartforsomanyyears,LordCastlewood,withastart,pulledathismother\'ssleeve(herfacehadscarcebeenliftedfromherbook),andsaid,\"Look,mother!\"soloud,thatEsmondcouldhearontheothersideofthechurch,andtheoldDeanonhisthronedstall。LadyCastlewoodlookedforaninstantashersonbadeher,andheldupawarningfingertoFrank;Esmondfelthiswholefaceflush,andhisheartthrobbing,asthatdearladybeheldhimoncemore。Therestoftheprayerswerespeedilyover;Mr。 Esmonddidnothearthem;nordidhismistress,verylikely,whosehoodwentmorecloselyoverherface,andwhoneverliftedherheadagainuntiltheservicewasover,theblessinggiven,andMr。Dean,andhisprocessionofecclesiastics,outoftheinnerchapel。 YoungCastlewoodcameclamberingoverthestallsbeforetheclergywerefairlygone,andrunninguptoEsmond,eagerlyembracedhim。 \"Mydear,dearestoldHarry!\"hesaid,\"areyoucomeback?Haveyoubeentothewars?You\'lltakemewithyouwhenyougoagain? Whydidn\'tyouwritetous?Cometomother。\" Mr。Esmondcouldhardlysaymorethana\"Godblessyou,myboy,\" forhisheartwasveryfullandgratefulatallthistendernessonthelad\'spart;andhewasasmuchmovedatseeingFrankashewasfearfulaboutthatotherinterviewwhichwasnowtotakeplace:forheknewnotifthewidowwouldrejecthimasshehaddonesocruellyayearago。 \"Itwaskindofyoutocomebacktous,Henry,\"LadyEsmondsaid。 \"Ithoughtyoumightcome。\" \"WereadofthefleetcomingtoPortsmouth。WhydidyounotcomefromPortsmouth?\"Frankasked,ormyLordViscount,ashenowmustbecalled。 Esmondhadthoughtofthattoo。Hewouldhavegivenoneofhiseyessothathemightseehisdearfriendsagainoncemore;butbelievingthathismistresshadforbiddenhimherhouse,hehadobeyedher,andremainedatadistance。 \"Youhadbuttoask,andyouknowIwouldbehere,\"hesaid。 Shegavehimherhand,herlittlefairhand;therewasonlyhermarriageringonit。Thequarrelwasallover。Theyearofgriefandestrangementwaspassed。Theyneverhadbeenseparated。Hismistresshadneverbeenoutofhismindallthattime。No,notonce。No,notintheprison;norinthecamp;noronshorebeforetheenemy;noratseaunderthestarsofsolemnmidnight;norashewatchedthegloriousrisingofthedawn:notevenatthetable,wherehesatcarousingwithfriends,oratthetheatreyonder,wherehetriedtofancythatothereyeswerebrighterthanhers。 Brightereyestheremightbe,andfacesmorebeautiful,butnonesodear——novoicesosweetasthatofhisbelovedmistress,whohadbeensister,mother,goddesstohimduringhisyouth——goddessnownomore,forheknewofherweaknesses;andbythought,bysuffering,andthatexperienceitbrings,wasoldernowthanshe; butmorefondlycherishedaswomanperhapsthanevershehadbeenadoredasdivinity。Whatisit?Whereliesit?thesecretwhichmakesonelittlehandthedearestofall?Whoevercanunriddlethatmystery?Hereshewas,hersonbyhisside,hisdearboy。 Hereshewas,weepingandhappy。Shetookhishandinbothhers; hefelthertears。Itwasaraptureofreconciliation。 \"HerecomesSquaretoes,\"saysFrank。\"Here\'sTusher。\" Tusher,indeed,nowappeared,creakingonhisgreatheels。Mr。Tomhaddivestedhimselfofhisalborsurplice,andcameforwardhabitedinhiscassockandgreatblackperiwig。HowhadEsmondeverbeenforamomentjealousofthisfellow? \"Giveusthyhand,TomTusher,\"hesaid。Thechaplainmadehimaverylowandstatelybow。\"IamcharmedtoseeCaptainEsmond,\" sayshe。\"MylordandIhavereadtheReddasincolumemprecor,andappliedit,Iamsure,toyou。YoucomebackwithGaditanianlaurels;whenIheardyouwereboundthither,Iwished,Iamsure,IwasanotherSeptimius。MyLordViscount,yourlordshipremembersSeptimi,Gadesadituremecum?\" \"There\'sanangleofearththatIlovebetterthanGades,Tusher,\" saysMr。Esmond。\"\'Tisthatonewhereyourreverencehathaparsonage,andwhereouryouthwasbroughtup。\" \"Ahousethathassomanysacredrecollectionstome,\"saysMr。 Tusher(andHarryrememberedhowTom\'sfatherusedtofloghimthere)——\"ahouseneartothatofmyrespectedpatron,mymosthonoredpatroness,musteverbeadearabodetome。But,madam,thevergerwaitstoclosethegatesonyourladyship。\" \"AndHarry\'scominghometosupper。Huzzay!huzzay!\"criesmylord。\"Mother,IshallrunhomeandbidBeatrixputherribbonson。Beatrixisamaidofhonor,Harry。Suchafineset—upminx!\" \"YourheartwasneverintheChurch,Harry,\"thewidowsaid,inhersweetlowtone,astheywalkedawaytogether。(Now,itseemedtheyneverhadbeenparted,andagain,asiftheyhadbeenagesasunder。)\"Ialwaysthoughtyouhadnovocationthatway;andthat\'twasapitytoshutyououtfromtheworld。YouwouldbuthavepinedandchafedatCastlewood:and\'tisbetteryoushouldmakeanameforyourself。Ioftensaidsotomydearlord。Howhelovedyou!\'Twasmylordthatmadeyoustaywithus。\" \"Iaskednobetterthantostaynearyoualways,\"saidMr。Esmond。 \"Buttogowasbest,Harry。Whentheworldcannotgivepeace,youwillknowwheretofindit;butoneofyourstrongimaginationandeagerdesiresmusttrytheworldfirstbeforehetiresofit。 \'Twasnottobethoughtof,orifitoncewas,itwasonlybymyselfishness,thatyoushouldremainaschaplaintoacountrygentlemanandtutortoalittleboy。YouareofthebloodoftheEsmonds,kinsman;andthatwasalwayswildinyouth。LookatFrancis。Heisbutfifteen,andIscarcecankeephiminmynest。 Histalkisallofwarandpleasure,andhelongstoserveinthenextcampaign。PerhapsheandtheyoungLordChurchillshallgothenext。LordMarlboroughhasbeengoodtous。Youknowhowkindtheywereinmymisfortune。Andsowasyour——yourfather\'swidow。 Nooneknowshowgoodtheworldis,tillgriefcomestotryus。 \'TisthroughmyLadyMarlborough\'sgoodnessthatBeatrixhathherplaceatCourt;andFrankisundermyLordChamberlain。Andthedowagerlady,yourfather\'swidow,haspromisedtoprovideforyou—— hasshenot?\" Esmondsaid,\"Yes。Asfaraspresentfavorwent,LadyCastlewoodwasverygoodtohim。Andshouldhermindchange,\"headdedgayly,\"asladies\'mindswill,Iamstrongenoughtobearmyownburden,andmakemywaysomehow。Notbytheswordverylikely。ThousandshaveabettergeniusforthatthanI,buttherearemanywaysinwhichayoungmanofgoodpartsandeducationcangetonintheworld;andIamprettysure,onewayorother,ofpromotion!\" Indeed,hehadfoundpatronsalreadyinthearmy,andamongstpersonsveryabletoservehim,too;andtoldhismistressoftheflatteringaspectoffortune。Theywalkedasthoughtheyhadneverbeenparted,slowly,withthegraytwilightclosingroundthem。 \"Andnowwearedrawingneartohome,\"shecontinued,\"Iknewyouwouldcome,Harry,if——ifitwasbuttoforgivemeforhavingspokenunjustlytoyouafterthathorrid——horridmisfortune。IwashalffranticwithgriefthenwhenIsawyou。AndIknownow——theyhavetoldme。Thatwretch,whosenameIcannevermention,evenhassaidit:howyoutriedtoavertthequarrel,andwouldhavetakenitonyourself,mypoorchild:butitwasGod\'swillthatI shouldbepunished,andthatmydearlordshouldfall。\" \"Hegavemehisblessingonhisdeath—bed,\"Esmondsaid。\"ThankGodforthatlegacy!\" \"Amen,amen!dearHenry,\"saidthelady,pressinghisarm。\"Iknewit。Mr。Atterbury,ofSt。Bride\'s,whowascalledtohim,toldmeso。AndIthankedGod,too,andinmyprayerseversincerememberedit。\" \"Youhadsparedmemanyabitternight,hadyoutoldmesooner,\" Mr。Esmondsaid。 \"Iknowit,Iknowit,\"sheanswered,inatoneofsuchsweethumility,asmadeEsmondrepentthatheshouldeverhavedaredtoreproachher。\"Iknowhowwickedmyhearthasbeen;andIhavesufferedtoo,mydear。IconfessedtoMr。Atterbury——Imustnottellanymore。He——IsaidIwouldnotwritetoyouorgotoyou—— anditwasbettereventhathavingparted,weshouldpart。ButI knewyouwouldcomeback——Iownthat。Thatisnoone\'sfault。Andto—day,Henry,intheanthem,whentheysangit,\'WhentheLordturnedthecaptivityofZion,wewerelikethemthatdream,\'I thought,yes,likethemthatdream——themthatdream。Andthenitwent,\'Theythatsowintearsshallreapinjoy;andhethatgoethforthandweepeth,shalldoubtlesscomeagainwithrejoicing,bringinghissheaveswithhim;\'Ilookedupfromthebook,andsawyou。IwasnotsurprisedwhenIsawyou。Iknewyouwouldcome,mydear,andsawthegoldsunshineroundyourhead。\" Shesmiledanalmostwildsmileasshelookedupathim。Themoonwasupbythistime,glitteringkeeninthefrostysky。Hecouldsee,forthefirsttimenowclearly,hersweetcarewornface。 \"Doyouknowwhatdayitis?\"shecontinued。\"Itisthe29thofDecember——itisyourbirthday!Butlastyearwedidnotdrinkit—— no,no。Mylordwascold,andmyHarrywaslikelytodie:andmybrainwasinafever;andwehadnowine。Butnow——nowyouarecomeagain,bringingyoursheaveswithyou,mydear。\"Sheburstintoawildfloodofweepingasshespoke;shelaughedandsobbedontheyoungman\'sheart,cryingoutwildly,\"bringingyoursheaveswithyou——yoursheaveswithyou!\" Ashehadsometimesfelt,gazingupfromthedeckatmidnightintotheboundlessstarlitdepthsoverhead,inaraptureofdevoutwonderatthatendlessbrightnessandbeauty——insomesuchawaynow,thedepthofthispuredevotion(whichwas,forthefirsttime,revealedtohim)quitesmoteuponhim,andfilledhisheartwiththanksgiving。GraciousGod,whowashe,weakandfriendlesscreature,thatsuchaloveshouldbepouredoutuponhim?Notinvain——notinvainhashelived——hardandthanklessshouldhebetothinkso——thathassuchatreasuregivenhim。Whatisambitioncomparedtothat,butselfishvanity?Toberich,tobefamous? Whatdotheseprofitayearhence,whenothernamessoundlouderthanyours,whenyouliehiddenawayundertheground,alongwithidletitlesengravenonyourcoffin?Butonlytruelovelivesafteryou——followsyourmemorywithsecretblessing——orprecedesyou,andintercedesforyou。Nonomnismoriar——ifdying,Iyetliveinatenderheartortwo;noramlostandhopelessliving,ifasainteddepartedsoulstilllovesandpraysforme。