第15章

类别:其他 作者:John Jacob Astor字数:11419更新时间:18/12/18 08:53:24
\"Thisdayyourdoubtswillbeatrest,forbeforeanothersunsetyouwillknowmoreofthewomanyoulove。\" Theintensityofthespiritualisticinfluenceheresomewhatweakened,forhepartiallylostsightoftheluminousfigures,andcouldnolongerhearwhattheysaid。Hisheartwasinhismouthashewalked,andhefeltlikeamanabouttosetoutonhishoneymoon,orlikeabridewhoknowsnotwhethertolaughortocry。Anindescribableexhilarationwasconstantlypresent。 \"Iwonder,\"thoughthe,\"ifacaterpillarhasthesesensationsbeforebecomingabutterfly?ThoughIreturntotherockfromwhichIsprang,IbelieveIshallbewithSylviato—day。\" Footprintsformedinthesoftgroundallaroundhim,andtheairwasfilledwithspotsofphosphorescentlightthatcoincidedwiththerelativepositionsofthebrains,hearts,andeyesofhumanbeings。Thesesurroundedandoftenprecededhim,asthoughleadinghimon,whilethemostheavenlyanthemsfilledtheairandthevaultofthesky。 \"Ibelieve,\"hethought,withboundingheart,\"thatIshallbeinitiatedintothemysteriesofspacethisnight。\" Attimeshecouldheareventhewordsofthechorusesringinginhisears,thoughatothershethoughttheeffectwasaltogetherinhismind。 \"Oh,foraproof,\"heprayed,\"thatnosanemancandoubt!Myfaithisimplicitinthebishopandthevision,andIfeelthatinsomewayIshallreturntoeartherethecloseofanotherday,forIknowIamawake,andthatthisisnodream。\" Afireburnedinthemouthofthecave,withinwhichBearwardenandCortlandtlaysleeping。Thespecksofmicaintherocksreflecteditslight,butinadditiontothisadiffusedphosphorescencefilledtheplace,andthelargesod—coveredstonestheyusedforpillowsemittedpurpleanddarkredflames。 \"Isthatyou,Dick?\"askedBearwarden,awakingandgropingabout。 \"Webuiltupthefiresothatyoushouldfindthecamp,butitseemstohavegonedown。\"Sayingwhich,hestruckamatch,whereuponAyraultceasedtoseethephosphorescenceorbluishlight。AtthatmomentapealofthunderawakenedCortlandt,whosatupandrubbedhiseyes。 \"Ithink,\"saidAyrault,\"IwillgototheCallistoandgetourmackintoshesbeforetherainsetsin。\"Whereuponhelefthiscompanions,whoweresoonagainfastasleep。 Theskyhadsuddenlybecomefilledwithclouds,andAyraulthastenedtowardstheCallisto,intendingtoremainthere,ifnecessary,untilthestormwasover。Forabouttwentyminuteshehurriedonthroughthegrowingdarkness,stoppingonceonhighgroundtomakesureofhisbearings,andhehadcoveredmorethanhalfthedistancewhentheraincameoninaflood,accompaniedbybrilliantlightning。Seeingthehuge,hollowtrunkofafallentreenear,andnotwishingtobewetthrough,Ayraultfiredseveralsolidshotsfromhisrevolverintothecavity,todriveoutanywildanimalstheremightbeinside,andthenhurriedlycrawledin,feetfirst。Henextdrewinhishead,andwascongratulatinghimselfonhissnugretreat,whentheskybecameluridwithaflashoflightning,thenhisheaddroppedforward,andhewasunconscious。 CHAPTERXI。 DREAMLANDTOSHADOWLAND。 AsAyrault\'sconsciousnessreturned,hefanciedheheardmusic。 Thoughdistant,itwasdistinct,andseemedtoringfromtheetherofspace。Occasionallyitsoundedevenmoreremote,butitwasrhythmicalandcontinuous,inspiringandstirringhimasnothingthathehadeverheardbefore。Finally,itwasovercomebythemorevividimpressionsuponhisothersenses,andhefoundhimselfwalkinginthestreetsofhisnativecity。Itwasspring,andthetreeswerewhitewithbuds。Thelongshadowsofthelateafternoonstretchedacrosstheway,buttheclearskygaveindicationofprolongedtwilight,andtheairwaswarmandbalmy。Naturewasfilledwithlife,andseemedtobeproclaimingthatthecoldwaspast。 Ashemovedalongthestreethemetafuneralprocession。 \"Whatapity,\"hethought,\"amanshoulddie,withsummersonearathand!\" Hewasalsosurprisedatthekeennessofhissight;for,inclosedineachman\'sbody,hesawtheoutlineofhissoul。Butthedeadman\'sbodywasempty,likeacagewithoutabird。Healsoreadthethoughtsintheirminds。 \"Now,\"saidalargemaninthecarriagenextthehearse,\"Imaywinher,sincesheisawidow。\" Thewidowherselfkeptthinking:\"WouldithadbeenI!Hislifewasessentialtothechildren,whileIshouldscarcelyhavebeenmissed。IwishIhadnodutieshere,andmightfollowhimnow。\" Whileponderingonthesethings,hereachedSylvia\'shouse,andwentintothelittleroominwhichhehadsooftenseenher。Thewarmsouthwesterlybreezeblewthroughtheopenwindows,andfarbeyondCentralParktheapproachingsunsetpromisedtobebeautiful。Thetablewascoveredwithflowers,andthoughhehadoftenseenthatvariety,hehadneverbeforenoticedthemarvellouscombinationsofcolours,whiletheroomwasfilledwithathousanddeliciousperfumes。Thethrushhanginginthewindowsangdivinely,andinasilverframehesawalikenessofhimself。 \"Ihavealwayslovedthisroom,\"hethought,\"butitseemstomenowlikeheaven。\" Hesatdowninanarm—chairfromforceofhabit,toawaithisfiancee。 \"Oh,forawalkwithSylviabytwilight!\"histhoughtsranon,\"forsheneednotbeathomeagaintillafterseven。\" Presentlyheheardthesoftrustleofherdress,androsetomeether。Thoughshelookedinhisdirection,shedidnotseemtoseehim,andwalkedpasthimtothewindow。Shewasthepictureoflovelinesssilhouettedagainstthesky。Hewenttowardsher,andgazedintoherdeep—seaeyes,whichhadafar—awayexpression。 Sheturned,wentgracefullytothemantelpiece,andtookaphotographofherselffrombehindtheclock。OnitsbackAyraulthadscrawledaboyishversecomposedbyhimself,whichran: \"Mydivine,mostidealSylvia,Ovision,witheyessoblue,\'Tisinthehighestdegreeconsequential,Tomyexistenceinfactessential,ThatIshouldbelovedbyyou。\" Asshereadandrereadthoselines,withhiswholesoulheyearnedtohaveherlookathim。Hewatchedthecolourcomeandgoinherclear,brightcomplexion,andwasrejoicedtoseeinherthepersonificationofactivityandhealth。Beneathhisowneffusiononthephotographhesawsomethingwritteninpencil,inthehandheknewsowell: \"DidyoubutknowhowIloveyou,Nomoresillythingswouldyouask。 WithmywholeheartandsoulIadoreyou—— Idiot!goose!bombast!\" Andassheglancedatit,thesethoughtscrossedhermind:\"I shallnevercallyousuchnamesagain。HowmuchIshallhavetotellyou!Itisprovokingthatyoustayawaysolong。\" Hecamestillnearer——sonear,infact,thathecouldhearthebeatingofherheart——butshestillseemedentirelyunconsciousofhispresence。Losinghisreserveandself—control,heimpulsivelygraspedatherhands,thenfellonhisknees,andthen,dumfounded,struggledtohisfeet。Herhandsseemedtoslipthroughhis;hewasnotabletotouchher,andshewasstillunawareofhispresence。 Suddenlyawholefloodoflightandthetruthburstuponhim。HehadpassedpainlesslyandunconsciouslyfromthedreamlandofSaturntotheshadowlandofeternity。Themysterywassolved。 Likethedeadbishop,hehadbecomeafreespirit。Hisprayerwasanswered,andhisbody,struckbylightning,layfarawayonthatgreatringedplanet。Howhelongedtotakeinhisarmsthegirlwhohadpromisedherselftohim,andwho,henowsaw,lovedhimwithherwholeheart;buthewasonlyanimmaterialspirit,lightereventhantheetherofspace,andtheunchangeablelawsoftheuniverseseemedtohimbuttheironyoffate。Asaspirit,hewasintangibleandinvisibletothoseintheflesh,andlikewisetheywerebeyondhiscontrol。Thetragedyoflifethendawneduponhim,andtheawfulresultsofdeathmadethemselvesfelt。HeglancedatSylvia。Oncominginshehadlookedradiantlyhappy;nowsheseemeddepressed,andeventhebirdstoppedsinging。 \"Oh,\"hethought,\"couldIbutreturntolifeforonehour,totellherhowincessantlyshehasbeeninmythoughts,andhowI loveher!Death,totheaged,isnoloss——infact,ablessing——butnow!\"andhesobbedmentallyintheanguishofhissoul。Ifhecouldbutcommunicatewithher,hethought;butherememberedwhatthedepartedbishophadsaid,thatitwouldtakemostmencenturiestodothis,andthatotherscouldneverlearn。 Bythattimeshe,too,wouldbedead,perhapshavingbeenthewifeofsomeoneelse,andhefeltasenseofjealousyevenbeyondthegrave。Throwinghimselfuponarugonthefloor,inaparoxysmofdistress,hegazedatSylvia。 \"Oh,horriblemockery!\"hethought,thinkingofthespirit。\"HegavemeworsethanastonewhenIaskedforbread;for,inplaceoffreedom,hesentmedeath。CouldIbutbealiveagainforafewmoments!\"But,withabittersmile,heagainrememberedthewordsofthebishop,\"Whatwouldasoulinhellnotgiveforbutonehouronearth?\" Sylviahadseatedherselfonasmallsofa,onwhich,andnexttoher,hehadsooftensat。Hergentleeyeshadathoughtfullook,whileherfacewasthepersonificationofintelligenceandbeauty。Sheoccasionallyglancedathisphotograph,whichsheheldinherhand。 \"Sylvia,Sylvia!\"hesuddenlycried,risingtohiskneesatherfeet。\"Ilove,Iadoreyou!Itwasmylongingtobewithyouthatbroughtmehere。Iknowyoucanneitherseenorhearme,butcannotyoursoulcommunewithmine?\" \"IsDickhere?\"criedSylvia,becomingdeadlypaleandgettingup,\"oramIlosingmyreason?\" Seeingthatshewasdistressedbythepowerofhismind,Ayraultoncemoresanktothefloor,buryinghisfaceinhishands。 Unabletoendurethislonger,andfeelingasifhisheartmustbreak,herushedoutintothestreet,wishinghemightsoothehisanguishwithahypodermicinjectionofmorphine,andthathehadabodywithwhichtodivertandsuppresshissoul。 Nighthadfallen,andtheelectriclampscasttheirwhiteraysontheground,whilethestarsoverheadshoneintheireternalserenityandcalm。Thenwasitoncemorebroughthometohimthathewasaspirit,fordarknessandlightwerealike,andhefeltthebeginningofthatsenseofprescienceofwhichthebishophadspoken。Passingthroughthehousesofsomeoftheclubstowhichhebelonged,hesawhisnamestilluponthelistofmembers,andthenhewenttotheplacesofamusementheknewsowell。Onallsideswerefamiliarfaces,butwhatinterestedhimmostwasthegreatdivisionincessantlygoingon。Herewerejollypeopleenjoyinglifeandplayingcards,who,hisforesightshowedhim,wouldinlessthanayearbeunderground——likeMercutio,in\"RomeoandJuliet,\"to—dayknownasmerryfellows,whoto—morrowwouldbegravemen。 Whilehiseyesbeheldthesun,hehadimaginedtheairfeltwarmandbalmy。Henowsawthatthishadbeenahallucination,forhewaschilledthroughandthrough。Healsoperceivedthatbecastnoshadow,andthatnooneobservedhispresence。He,ontheotherhand,sawnotonlytheairasitenteredandlefthisfriends\'lungs,butalsothesubstanceoftheirbrains,andtheseedsofdiseaseanddeath,whosepresencetheythemselvesdidnotevensuspect,andtheseventy—fivepercentofwaterintheirbodies,makingthemappearlikesacksofliquid。Insomehesawthegermsofconsumption;inothers,affectionsoftheheart。Inall,hesawtheincessantstrugglebetweenthehealthyblood—cellsandthemalignant,omnipresentbacillithatthecellsweretryingtoovercome。Manymenandwomenhesawwereinlove,andhecouldtellwhatallwereabouttodo。Oh,thesecretsthatwererevealed,whilethemotivesforactswerenowlaidbarethattillthenhehadmisunderstood!Hehadoftenheardtheoldsaying,thatifeverypersoninaball—roomcouldreadthethoughtsoftherest,theballwouldseematravestyonenjoyment,ratherthanrealpleasure,andnowheperceiveditsforce。Healsonoticedthatmanywerebetterthanhehadsupposed,andweretrying,inablunderingbutperseveringway,toobeytheirconsciences。Hesawsomeunselfishthoughtsandacts。Manythingsthathehadattributedtoirresolutionorinconsistency,heperceivedwereinrealityself—sacrifice。Hewentoninfranticdisquiet,distancenolongerbeingofconsequence,andinhisroamingchancedtopassthroughthegraveyardinwhichmanygenerationsofhisancestorslayburied。 Withintheleadencoffinshesawthecoldremains;somewellpreserved,othersbuthandfulsofdust。 \"Tellme,Omyprogenitors,\"hecried,\"youwhosebloodtillthismorningflowedinmyveins,istherenotsomewaybywhichI,asaspirit,cancommunewiththematerialworld?Ihavealwaysadmiredyourjudgmentandwisdom,andyouhaveallbeeninShadowlandlongerthanI。Giveme,Iprayyou,someancestraladvice。\" Theonlysoundinanswerwasthehumoftheinsectsthatfilledtheeveningair。Themoonlightshonesoftly,butinaghastlyway,onthemarblecrossesofhisvaultandthosearound,andhefeltanunspeakablesadnesswithinthisabodeofthedead。\"Howmanyunfinishedlives,\"hethought,\"haveendedbeneaththesesods!Unimprovedtalentshereareburiedintheground。 Unattainedambitions,andthosewhodiedbeforetheirtime;thosewhotried,inahalf—heartedway,toimprovetheiropportunities,andaccomplishedsomething,andthosewhoneglectedthem,anddidstillless——allaretogetherhere,thejustwiththeunjust,thoughitbeforthelasttime。Thegraveabsorbstheirbodiesandendstheirprobationaryrecord,fromwhichthereisnoappeal。\" Nearbyweresomeopengraves,readytoreceivetheiroccupants,whilealittlefartheronherecognizedtheCortlandtmausoleum,lookingexactlyaswhenshownhim,throughhissecondsight,bythespiritonthepreviousday。 Fromthegravesfilledrecently,andfrommanyothers,rosethreadsofcolouredmatter,intheformofgases,theforerunnersofmiasma。Henowperceivedshadowyfiguresflittingaboutonthegroundandintheair,fromwhoseeyespouredstreamsofimmaterialtears。Theirbrains,hearts,andvertebralcolumnswerethepartsmosteasilyseen,andtheywerefilledwithaninextinguishableanguishandsorrowthatfromitsveryintensitymadeitselfseenasablueflame。Therufflesandknickerbockersinwhichsomeofthesewereattired,evidentlybytheeffectsofthethoughtsintheirminds,doubtlessfromforceofhabitfromwhattheyhadwornonearthwhilealive,showedthattheyhadbeendeadatleasttwohundredyears。Ayraultalsonowfoundhimselfinstreetclothes,althoughwheninhisclubshehadwornadresssuit。 \"Tellme,fellow—spirits,\"hesaid,addressingthem,\"howcanI communicatewithonethatisstillalive?\" Theylookedathimwithmoisteyes,butanswerednotaword。 \"Iattributedthemiseryinmyheart,\"thoughtAyrault,\"entirelytothedistressatlosingSylvia,whichGodknowsisenough;butthoughIsuspecteditbefore,Inowsee,bymycompanions,thatI aminthedepthsofhell。\" CHAPTERXII。 SHEOL。 Failingtofindwordstoconveyhisthoughts,hethrewhimselfintoanopengrave,prayingthattheearthmighthidehissoul,ashehadsupposeditsomedaywouldhidehisbody。Butthegroundwaslikecrystal,andhesawthewhitebonesinthegravesallaroundhim。Unabletoendurethesesurroundingslonger,herushedbacktohisoldhaunts,whereheknewheshouldfindthefriendsofhisyouth。Hedidnotpausetogobytheusualway,butpassed,withoutstopping,throughwallsandbuildings。Soonhebeheldthefamiliarscene,andheardhisownnamementioned。 Buttherewasnocomforthere,andwhathehadseenofoldwasbutanincidenttowhathegazedonnow。Prayingwithhiswholeheartthathemightmakehimselfheard,hesteppeduponafoot—stool,andcried: \"Yourbodiesaredecayingbeforeme。Youareburyingyourtalentsintheground。Wemustallstandforfinalsentenceatthelastday,mortalsandspiritsalike——thereisnotashadowofashadeofdoubt。Youreverythoughtwillbeknown,andforeveryevildeedandeveryidlewordGodwillbringusintojudgment。Theangelofdeathisamongyouandatworkinyourverymidst。Areyoupreparedtoreceivehim?Hehasalreadykilledmybody,andnowthatIcanneverdieIwishtherewasagraveformysoul。IwasreassuredbyavisionthattoldmeI wassafe,buteitheritwasahallucination,orIhavebeenbetrayedbysomespirit。LastnightIstilllived,andmybodyobeyedmywill。SincethenIhaveexperienceddeath,andwiththeresultingincreasedknowledgecomesthelossofallhope,withkeenerpangsthanIsupposedcouldexist。Oh,thatIhadnowtheiropportunities,thatImightwriteathesisthatshouldliveforever,andsavemillionsofsoulsfromtheanguishofmine!Inoculateyourmortalbodieswiththegermsoffaithandmutuallove,inastrongerdegreethantheydweltinme,lestyoulosethelifeabove。\" Butnooneheardhim,andhepreachedinvain。 Heagainrushedforth,and,afterahalf—involuntaryeffort,foundhimselfinthestreetbeforehislovedone\'shome。 Scarcelyknowingwhy,exceptthatithadbecomenaturetowishtobenearher,hestoodforalongtimeoppositeherdwelling。 \"Ohouse!\"hecried,\"inanimateobjectthatcanyetenthralmeso,Istandbeforeyourcoldfrontasasuppliantfromaverydistantrealm;yetinmysadnessIamcolderthanyourstones,morealonethaninadesolateplace。Shethatdwellswithinyouholdsmylove。Ilongforhershadoworthesoundofherstep。 Iammorewretchedlyinlovethanever——I,animpotent,invisiblespirit。MustIbearthissorrowinadditiontomyothers,inmyfruitlesssearchforrest?Mylifewillbeawakingnightmare,mostbitterironyoffate。\" Thetreesswayedabovehishead,andthemoon,initslastquarter,lookeddreamilyathim。 \"Ah,\"thoughtAyrault,\"couldIbutsleepandbehappy! Drowsinessandweariness,fatigue\'sgraspisonme;ormaySylvia\'snearnesssoothe,ashervoicehasbroughtmecalm! QuietImaysomedayenjoy,butslumberagain,never!Iseethatsoulsinhadesmusteverhavetheirmisdeedsbeforethem。Happymaninthisworld,therepentant\'ssinsareforgiven!Youloseyourcareinsleep。Somnolenceanddrowsiness——balmofachinghearts,angelsofmercy!Mortals,howblessed!untilyoudie,Godsendsyouthisrest。WhenIrecallsummereveningswithSylvia,whilegentlezephyrsfannedourbrows,IwouldchangePope\'sfamouslineto\'Manneveris,butalwaysHASBEEN blessed。\'\" Aclockinachurch—steeplenowstruckthree,thesoundringingthroughthestillnightair。 \"Itwillsoonbetimeforghoststogo,\"thoughtAyrault。\"I mustnothauntherdwelling。\" TherewasalightinSylvia\'sstudy,andAyraultremainedmeditativelygazingatit。 \"Happylamp,\"hethought,\"toshedyourlightononesofair! Shecanseeyou,andyoushine,forher。YouarebetteroffthanI。Wouldthathersoulmightshineforme,asyourlightshinesforher!Thelightofmylifehasdeparted。Othatthedarknesswerecomplete!Iamdead,\"histhoughtsranon,andwhentheprivilege——bitterword!——thatpermitsmetoremainherehasexpired,ImustdoubtlessreturntoSaturn,andthereinpurgatoryworkoutmyprobation。ButwhatcomfortisitthatafewcenturieshenceImaybeabletorevisitmynativeearth?—— Theflowerswillbloominthemorninglight,Andthelarksalutethesun,Theearthwillcontinuetorollthroughspace,AndImaybenearermyfinalgrace,ButSylvia\'slife—threadwillbespun。 \"EvenSylvia\'shousewillbeaheapofruins,oritsplacewillbetakenbysomethingelse。IfIhadSylvia,Ishouldcarefornothing;asIhavelosther,eventhissight,thoughsweet,mustalwaysbringregret。Iwish,atallevents,ImightseeSylvia,ifonlywiththesespirit—eyes,since,asamortal,shemaynevergladdenmysightagain。\" Tohissurprise,henowperceivedthathecouldsee,notwithstandingthedrawnshades。Sylviawasatherwriting—desk,inalight—colouredwrapper。Shesatthererestingherheadonherhand,lookingthoughtfulbutworried。Thoughitwassolate,shehadnotretired。ThethrushthatAyraulthadofteninlifeadmired,andthatshehadforsomereasonbroughtup—stairs,wassilentandasleep。 \"Happybird!\"hesaid,\"youobtainrestandforgetfulnessoncoveringyourhead;butwhatwingcancovermysoul?IusedtowishImightfluttertowardsheavenonnaturalwingslikeyou,littlethrush。NowIcan,indeed,outflyyou。ButwhateverIdoI\'munhappy,andwhereverIgoI\'minhell。Whatismaninhishelpless,firstspiritualstate?Heisbutaflower,andwitherssoon。HadI,likethebishop,beenlessblind,andobeyedmyconscienceclear,ImighthavereturnedtomynativeearthwhileSylviastillsojournshere;andcomingthusbyvirtueofdevelopment,Ishouldbeabletocommunewithher。 \"Whatislife?\"hecontinued。\"Intheretrospect,nothing。Itseemstomealreadyasbutaninfinitesimalpoint。Thingsthatengrossedme,andseemedofsuchmoment,thatovershadowedthedutyofobeyingmyconscience——whatwerethey,andwhere?Ah,where?Theyenduredbutamoment。Realityandevanescence—— evanescenceandreality。\" ThelightinSylvia\'sroomwasoutnow,andintheeasthebeheldthedawn。Theubiquitousgreywhichhesawatnightwasinvadedbystreamsofgloriouscrimsonandbluethatreachedfarupintothesky。Hegazedatthespectacle,andthenoncemoreatthathouseinwhichhislovewascentred。 \"WouldImightbeherguardianangel,toguideherintherightandkeepherfromallharm!Sleepon,Sylvia。Sweetone,sleep。 Yonstarsfadebesideyoureyes。Yourthoughtsandyoursoularefairerfarthantheeastinthisday\'ssunrise。IknowwhatI havelost。Ah,desolatingknowledge!forIhavereadSylvia\'sheart,andknowIwaslovedastrulyasIloved。WhenBearwardenandCortlandtbreakherthenews——ah,God!willshelive,anddotheyyetknowIamdead?\" Againcamethatspasmtoshedspirittears,andhadhenotknownitimpossiblehewouldhavethoughthisheartmustbreak。 Thebirdstwittered,andthelightgrew,butAyraultlaywithhisfaceupontheground。Finallythespiritofunrestdrovehimon。 Hepassedthebarreddoorofhisownhouse,throughwhichhehadenteredsooften。Itwasunchanged,butseemeddeserted。Next,hewenttothewater—front,wherehehadlefthisyacht。 Invisiblyandsadlyhestooduponherupperdeck,andgazedatthelevers,inresponsetohistouchonwhichthecrafthadcleftthewaves,reversed,orturnedlikeathingoflife。 \"\'Twasaprettytoy,\"hemused,\"andmanyhoursofjoyhaveIhadasIfloatedthroughlifeonboardofher。\" AshemopedalonghebeheldtwounkemptItalianshavingapiano—organandaviolin。Themusicwasnotfine,butittouchedachordinAyrault\'sbreast,forhehadwaltzedwithSylviatothatair,anditmadehisheartache。 \"Oh,theacutenessofmydistress,\"hecried,\"theutterdepthofmysorrow!CanIhavenopeaceindeath,nooblivioninthegrave?Iamremindedofmyblighted,hopelessloveinallkindsofunexpectedways,byunforeseentrifles。Oh,wouldImight,indeed,die!Mayobliterationbemydeliverer!\" \"Poorfellows,\"hecontinued,glancingattheItalians,forheperceivedthatneitheroftheplayerswashappy;thepianistwasavaricious,whiletheviolinist\'snaturalandhabitualjealousydestroyedhispeaceofmind。 \"Unhappinessseemsthecommonlot,\"thoughtAyrault。\"Earthcannotgivethatjoyforwhichwesigh。Poorfellows!thoughyourackmyearsanddistressmyheart,Icannothelpyounow。\" CHAPTERXIII。 THEPRIEST\'SSERMON。 Itbeingthefirstdayoftheweek,themorningairwasfilledwithchimesfrommanysteeples。 \"Divineservicealwayscomfortedinlife,\"thoughtAyrault,\"perchanceitmaydosonow,whenIhavereachedthestateforwhichittriedtoprepareme。\" Accordingly,hemovedonwiththethrong,andsoonwasascendingtheheightsofMorningsidePark,afterwhich,heenteredthecathedral。Thepriestwhosevoicehadsooftenthrilledhimstoodathispostinhissurplice,andthechoirhadfinishedtheprocessionalhymn。Duringtheresponsesinthelitany,andbetweenthecommandments,whilethecongregationandthechoirsang,heheardtheirnaturalvoicesasofoldascendingtothevaultedroofandarrestedthere。Henowalsoheardtheirspiritualvoicesresultingfromtheearnestnessoftheirprayers。 Thesewererungthroughthevastervaultofspace,arousingaspiritualechobeyondtheconstellationsandthenebulae。Theservice,whichwasthatoftheProtestantEpiscopalChurch,touchedhimasdeeplyasusual,afterwhichtherectorascendedthestepstothepulpit。 \"Thetext,thismorning,\"hebegan,\"isfromtheeighthchapterofSt。Paul\'sEpistletotheRomans,attheeighteenthverse: \'ForIreckonthatthesufferingsofthispresenttimearenotworthytobecomparedtotheglorythatshallberevealedinus。\' LetussupposethatyouorI,brethren,shouldbecomeafreeanddisembodiedspirit。Aminuteveininthebrainbursts,oraclotformsintheheart。Itmaybeameretrifle,someunexpectedthing,yetthecareerinthefleshisended,theeternallifeoftheliberatedspiritbegun。Thesoulslipsfromearth\'sgrasp,asairfromourfingers,andfindsitselfinthefrigid,boundlessvoidofspace。Yet,throughsomelongingthissoulmightrejoinus,and,thoughinvisible,mighthearthechurch—bellsring,andlongtorecallsomeoneofthemanybrightSundaymorningsspenthereonearth。Hasadirefulmisfortunebefallenthisbrother,orhasaslavebeensetfree?Letussupposeforamomentthatthefirsthasoccurred。\'Vanityofvanities,\'saidtheoldpreacher。\'Calamityofcalamities,\'saysthenew。Thatsoul\'sprobationaryperiodisended;hisrecord,onwhichhemustgo,isforevermade。Hehasbeenintheflesh,letussay,one,two,threeorfourscoreyears;beforehimarethecountlessaeonsofeternity。Hemayhavehadareasonablysatisfactorylife,fromhispointofview,andbeenfairlysuccessfulinstillingconscience。Thatstill,smallvoicedoubtlessspokeprettysharplyatfirst,butafterawhileitrarelytroubledhim,andintheenditspokenotatall。Hemay,inaway,haveenjoyedlifeandthebeautiesofnature。Hehasseenthefreshleavescomeandgo,butheforgotthemoral,thatbehimselfwasbutaleaf,andthat,astheyalldroppedtoearthtomakemoresoil,hisashesmustalsoreturntotheground。Buthissoul,friendsandbrethren,whatbecomesofthat?Ah!itisthestudyofthisquestionthatmoistensoureyeswithtears。Noevilmanisreallyhappyhere,andwhatmustbehissufferinginthecold,coldlandofspirits?Noslumberorforgetfulnesscaneasehislotinhades,andafterhiscondemnationatthelastjudgmenthemustforeverfacetheunsoftenedrealitiesofeternity。Noevilthingorthoughtcanfindlodgmentinheaven。 Ifitcould,heavenwouldnotbeahappyplace;neithercananymanimproveintheabyssofhell。Asthehorizongraduallydarkens,andthissoulrecedesfromGod,thetimespentinthefleshmustcometoseemthemostinfinitesimalmoment,moreevanescentthanthetickofaclock。Itseemsdreadfulthatforsuchshortmisdoingsasoulshouldsuffersolong,butnomancanbesavedinspiteofhimself。Hehadtheopportunities——andtheknowledgeofthismustgiveasoulthemostacutepang。 \"InRevelation,xx,6,wefindthesewords,\'Blessedandholyishethathathpartinthefirstresurrection:onsuchtheseconddeathhathnopower。\'Ihaveoftenaskedmyself,Maynotthismeanthatthosewithabadrecordinthegeneralresurrectionafteratimeceasetoexist,sinceallsufferonedeathatthecloseoftheirperiodhere? \"ThisissomewhatsuggestedbyProverbs,xii,28,。\'Inthewayofrighteousnessislife,andinthepathwaythereofthereisnodeath。\'Thismightlimittheeverlastingdamnation,sooftenrepeatedelsewhere,tothelivesofthecondemned,sincetothem,inasense,itwouldbeeverlasting。