Henriettapleadedasmovinglyasshecouldforanimmediatereturntotheirdomesticstate,butheputheroffwithendearingspeeches,promisednothingbuteternalaffection,andsentherbacktoLondonbythetwelveo\'clockexpress。Thenhiscountenancechanged;hewalkedbacktoLyvern,andthencetothechalet,likeamanpursuedbydisgustandremorse。Laterintheafternoon,toraisehisspirits,hetookhisskatesandwenttoWickens\'spond,where,itbeingSaturday,hefoundtheicecrowdedwiththeAltonstudentsandtheirhalf—holidayvisitors。
Fairholme,describingcircleswithhishabitualairofcompressedhardihood,stoppedandstaredwithindignantsurpriseasSmilashlurchedpasthim。
\"Isthatmanherebyyourpermission?\"hesaidtoFarmerWickens,whowaswalkingaboutasifsuperintendingaharvest。
\"Heisherebecausehelikes,Itakeit,\"saidWickensstubbornly。\"Heisaneighborofmineandafriendofmine。Isthereanyobjectionstomyhavingafriendonmyownpond,seein\'
thatthereisnighontwoorthreetonofotherpeople\'sfriendsonit108withoutasmuchasawith—your—leaveoraby—your—
leave。\"
\"Oh,no,\"saidFairholme,somewhatdashed。\"Ifyouaresatisfiedtherecanbenoobjection。\"
\"I\'mgladonit。Ithoughttheremoutbe。\"
\"Letmetellyou,\"saidFairholme,nettled,\"thatyourlandlordwouldnotbepleasedtoseehimhere。HesentoneofSirJohn\'sbestshepherdsoutofthecountry,afterfillinghisheadwithideasabovehisstation。IheardSirJohnspeakverywarmlyaboutitlastSunday。\"
\"Mayhapyoudid,MusterFairholme。Ihavealeaseofthisland——andgravelly,poorstuffitis——andIamnowaysbeholdentoSirJohn\'slikingsanddislikings。AverygoodthingtooforSirJohnthatIhavealease,forthereain\'tamaninthecountry\'udtak\'apresento\'thefarmifitwasfreeto—morrow。
Andwhat\'sa\'more,thoughthatyoungmandotalkfoolishthingsabouttherightsoffarmlaborersandsuch—likenonsense,ifSirJohnwastohearhimlayin\'itdownconcernin\'rentandimprovements,andthewaywetenantfarmersisputupon,p\'rapshe\'dspeakwarmerthanevernextSunday。\"
AndWickens,withasmileexpressiveofhissenseofhavingretortedeffectivelyupontheparson,noddedandwalkedaway。
JustthenAgatha,skatinghandinhandwithJaneCarpenter,heardthesewordsinherear:\"Ihavesomethingveryfunnytotellyou。
Don\'tlookround。\"
SherecognizedthevoiceofSmilashandobeyed。
\"Iamnotquitesurethatyouwillenjoyitasitdeserves,\"headded,anddartedoffagain,aftercastinganeloquentglanceatMissCarpenter。
Agathadisengagedherselffromhercompanion,madeacircuit,andpassednearSmilash,saying:\"Whatisit?\"
Smilashflittedawaylikeaswallow,tracedseveralcirclesaroundFairholme,andthenreturnedtoAgathaandproceededsidebysidewithher。
\"IhavereadtheletteryouwrotetoHetty,\"hesaid。
Agatha\'sfacebegantoglow。Sheforgottomaintainherbalance,andalmostfell。
\"Takecare。Andsoyouarenotfondofme——intheromanticsense?\"
Noanswer。Agathadumbandafraidtolifthereyelids。
\"Thatisfortunate,\"hecontinued,\"because——goodevening,MissWard;Ihavedonenothingbutadmireyourskatingforthelasthour——becausemenweredeceiversever;andIamnoexception,asyouwillpresentlyadmit。\"
Agathamurmuredsomething,butitwasunintelligibleamidthedinofskating。
\"Youthinknot?Well,perhapsyouareright;Ihavesaidnothingtoyouthatisnotinameasuretrue。Youhavealwayshadapeculiarcharmforme。ButIdidnotmeanyoutotellHetty。Canyouguesswhy?\"
Agathashookherhead。
\"Becausesheismywife。\"
Agatha\'sanklesbecamelimp。WithaneffortshekeptuprightuntilshereachedJane,towhomsheclungforsupport。
\"Don\'t,\"screamedJane。\"You\'llupsetme。\"
\"Imustsitdown,\"saidAgatha。\"Iamtired。Letmeleanonyouuntilwegettothechairs。\"
\"Bosh!Icanskateforanhourwithoutsittingdown,\"saidJane。
However,shehelpedAgathatoachairandlefther。ThenSmilash,asifdesiringarestalso,satdownclosebyonthemarginofthepond。
\"Well,\"hesaid,withouttroublinghimselfastowhethertheirconversationattractedattentionornot,\"whatdoyouthinkofmenow?\"
\"Whydidyounottellmebefore,Mr。Trefusis?\"
\"Thatisthecreamofthejoke,\"hereplied,poisinghisheelsontheicesothathisskatesstoodverticallyatlegs\'lengthfromhim,andlookingatthemwithacynicalair。\"Ithoughtyouwereinlovewithme,andthatthetruthwouldbetoosevereablowtoyou。Ha!ha!And,forthesamereason,yougenerouslyforboretotellmethatyouwerenomoreinlovewithmethanwiththemaninthemoon。Eachplayedafarce,andpalmeditoffontheotherasatragedy。\"
\"Therearesomethingssounmanly,sounkind,andsocruel,\"saidAgatha,\"thatIcannotunderstandanygentlemansayingthemtoagirl。Pleasedonotspeaktomeagain。MissWard!Cometomeforamoment。I——Iamnotwell。\"
Wardhurriedtoherside。Smilash,afterstaringatherforamomentinastonishment,andinsomeconcern,skimmedawayintothecrowd。WhenhereachedtheoppositebankhetookoffhisskatesandaskedJane,whostrayedintentionallyinhisdirection,totellMissWyliethathewasgone,andwouldskatenomorethere。Withoutaddingawordofexplanationheleftherandmadeforhisdwelling。Ashewentdownintothehollowwheretheroadpassedthroughtheplantationonthecollegesideofthechalethedescriedaboy,intheuniformofthepostoffice,slidingalongthefrozenditch。Apresentimentofeviltidingscameuponhimlikeadarkeningofthesky。Hequickenedhispace。
\"Anythingforme?\"hesaid。
Theboy,whoknewhim,fumbledinalettercaseandproducedabuffenvelope。Itcontainedatelegram。
FromJansenius,London。
TOJ。Smilash,ChamoounixVilla,Lyvern。
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Therewasapause。Thenhefoldedthepapermethodicallyandputitinhispocket,asifquitedonewithit。
\"Andso,\"hesaid,\"perhapsthetragedyistofollowthefarceafterall。\"
Helookedattheboy,whoretreated,notlikinghisexpression。
\"DidyouslideallthewayfromLyvern?\"
\"Onlytocomequicker,\"saidthemessenger,faltering。\"IcameasquickasIcould。\"
\"Youcarriednewsheavyenoughtobreakthethickesticeeverfrozen。Ihaveamindtothrowyouoverthetopofthattreeinsteadofgivingyouthishalf—crown。\"
\"Youletmealone,\"whimperedtheboy,retreatinganotherpace。
\"GetbacktoLyvernasfastasyoucanrunorslide,andtellMr。
Marshtosendmethefastesttraphehas,todrivemetotherailwaystation。Hereisyourhalf—crown。Offwithyou;andifI
donotfindthetrapreadywhenIwantit,woebetideyou。\"
Theboycameforthemoneymistrustfully,andranoffwithitasfastashecould。Smilashwentintothechaletandneverreappeared。Instead,Trefusis,agentlemaninanulster,carryingarug,cameout,lockedthedoor,andhurriedalongtheroadtoLyvern,wherehewaspickedupbythetrap,andcarriedswiftlytotherailwaystation,justintimetocatchtheLondontrain。
\"Eveningpaper,sir?\"saidavoiceatthewindow,ashesettledhimselfinthecornerofafirst—classcarriage。
\"No,thankyou。\"
\"Footwarmer,sir?\"saidaporter,appearinginthenews—vender\'splace。
\"Ah,that\'sagoodidea。Yes,letmehaveafootwarmer。\"
Thefootwarmerwasbrought,andTrefusiscomposedhimselfcomfortablyforhisjourney。Itseemedveryshorttohim;hecouldhardlybelieve,whenthetrainarrivedinLondon,thathehadbeennearlythreehoursontheway。
TherewasasenseofChristmasaboutthetravellersandthepeoplewhowereattheterminustomeetthem。TheporterwhocametothecarriagedoorremindedTrefusisbyhismannerandvoicethattheseasonwasoneatwhichitbecomesagentlemantobefestiveandliberal。
\"Wotluggage,sir?Hansomorfourweoll,sir?\"
ForamomentTrefusisfeltavagabondimpulsetoresumethelanguageofSmilashandfabletothemanofhampersofturkeyandplum—puddinginthevan。Butherepressedit,gotintoahansom,andwasdriventohisfather—in—law\'shouseinBelsizeAvenue,studyinginagloomilycriticalmoodtheanxietythatsurgeduponhimandmadehisheartbeatlikeaboy\'sashedrewnearhisdestination。Thereweretwocarriagesatthedoorwhenhealighted。Thereticentexpressionofthecoachmensentatremorthroughhim。
Thedooropenedbeforeherang。\"Ifyouplease,sir,\"saidthemaidinalowvoice,\"willyoustepintothelibrary;andthedoctorwillseeyouimmediately。\"
OnthefirstlandingofthestaircasetwogentlemenwerespeakingtoMr。Jansenius,whohastilymovedoutofsight,notbeforeaglimpseofhisairofgrief174anddiscomfiturehadgivenTrefusisastrangetwinge,succeededbyasensationofhavingbeentwentyyearsawidower。Hesmiledunconcernedlyashefollowedthegirlintothelibrary,andaskedherhowshedid。
Shemurmuredsomereplyandhurriedaway,thinkingthatthepooryoungmanwouldalterhistonepresently。
Hewasjoinedatoncebyagraywhiskeredgentleman,scrupulouslydressedandmannered。Trefusisintroducedhimself,andthephysicianlookedathimwithsomeinterest。Thenhesaid:
\"Youhavearrivedtoolate,Mr。Trefusis。Allisover,Iamsorrytosay。\"
\"Wasthelongrailwayjourneyshetookinthiscoldweatherthecauseofherdeath?\"
Somebitterwordsthatthephysicianhadheardupstairsmadehimawarethatthiswasadelicatequestion。Buthesaidquietly:
\"Theproximatecause,doubtless。Theproximatecause。\"
\"Shereceivedsomeunwelcomeandquiteunlooked—forintelligencebeforeshestarted。Hadthatanythingtodowithherdeath,doyouthink?\"
\"Itmayhaveproducedanunfavorableeffect,\"saidthephysician,growingrestiveandtakinguphisgloves。\"Thehabitofreferringsucheventstosuchcausesiscarriedtoofar,asarule。\"
\"Nodoubt。Iamcuriousbecausetheeventisnovelinmyexperience。Isupposeitisacommonplaceinyours。Pardonme。
175Thelossofaladysoyoungandsofavorablycircumstancedisnotacommonplaceeitherinmyexperienceorinmyopinion。\"
Thephysicianhelduphisheadashespoke,inprotestagainstanyassumptionthathissympathieshadbeenbluntedbyhisprofession。
\"Didshesuffer?\"
\"Forsomehours,yes。Wewereabletodoalittletoalleviateherpain——poorthing!\"HealmostforgotTrefusisasheaddedtheapostrophe。
\"Hoursofpain!Canyouconceiveanygoodpurposethatthosehoursmayhaveserved?\"
Thephysicianshookhishead,leavingitdoubtfulwhetherhemeanttoreplyinthenegativeortodeploreconsiderationsofthatnature。Healsomadeamovementtodepart,beinguneasyinconversationwithTrefusis,whowould,hefeltsure,presentlyaskquestionsormakeremarkswithwhichhecouldhardlydealwithoutcommittinghimselfinsomedirection。Hisconsciencewasnotquiteatrest。Henrietta\'spainhadnot,hethought,servedanygoodpurpose;buthedidnotwanttosayso,lestheshouldacquireareputationforimpietyandlosehispractice。Hebelievedthatthegeneralpractitionerwhoattendedthefamily,andhadcalledhiminwhenthecasegrewserious,hadtreatedHenriettaunskilfully,butprofessionaletiquetteboundhimsostronglythat,soonerthanbetrayhiscolleague\'sinefficiency,hewouldhaveallowedhimtodecimateLondon。
\"Onewordmore,\"saidTrefusis。\"Didsheknowthatshewasdying?\"
\"No。Iconsidereditbestthatsheshouldnotbeinformedofherdanger。Shepassedawaywithoutanyapprehension。\"
\"Thenonecanthinkofitwithequanimity。Shedreadeddeath,poorchild。Thewonderisthattherewasnotenoughfollyinthehouseholdtoprevailagainstyourgoodsense。\"
Thephysicianbowedandtookhisleave,esteeminghimselfsomewhatfortunateinescapingwithoutbeingreproachedforhishumanityinhavingallowedHenriettatodieunawares。
Amomentlaterthegeneralpractitionerentered。Trefusis,havingaccompaniedtheconsultingphysiciantothedoor,detectedthefamilydoctorintheactofpullingalongfacejustoutsideit。
Restrainingadesiretoseizehimbythethroat,heseatedhimselfontheedgeofthetableandsaidcheerfully:
\"Well,doctor,howhastheworldusedyousincewelastmet?\"
Thedoctorwastakenaback,butthesolemndispositionofhisfeaturesdidnotrelaxashealmostintoned:\"HasSirFrancistoldyouthesadnews,Mr。Trefusis?\"
\"Yes。Frightful,isn\'tit?Lordblessme,we\'rehereto—dayandgoneto—morrow。\"
\"True,verytrue!\"
\"SirFrancishasahighopinionofyou。\"
Thedoctorlookedalittlefoolish。\"Everythingwasdonethatcouldbedone,Mr。Trefusis;butMrs。Janseniuswasveryanxiousthatnostoneshouldbeleftunturned。ShewasgoodenoughtosaythathersolereasonforwishingmetocallinSirFranciswasthatyoushouldhavenocausetocomplain。\"
\"Indeed!\"
\"Anexcellentmother!Asadeventforher!Ah,yes,yes!Dearme!
Averysadevent!\"
\"Mostdisagreeable。Suchacolddaytoo。Pleasantertobeinheaventhanhereinsuchweather,possibly。\"
\"Ah!\"saidthedoctor,asifmuchsoundcomfortlayinthat。\"I
hopeso;Ihopeso;Idonotdoubtit。SirFrancisdidnotpermitustotellher,andI,ofcourse,deferredtohim。Perhapsitwasforthebest。\"
\"Youwouldhavetoldher,then,ifSirFrancishadnotobjected?\"
\"Well,thereare,yousee,considerationswhichwemustnotignoreinourprofession。Deathisaseriousthing,asIamsureIneednotremindyou,Mr。Trefusis。Wehavesometimeshigherdutiesthanindulgencetothenaturalfeelingsofourpatients。\"
\"Quiteso。Thepossibilityofeternalblissandtheprobabilityofeternaltormentareconsolationsnottobelightlywithheldfromadyinggirl,eh?However,what\'spastcannotbemended。I
havemuchtobethankfulfor,afterall。Iamayoungman,andshallnotcutabadfigureasawidower。Andnowtellme,doctor,amInotinverybadreputeupstairs?\"
\"Mr。Trefusis!Sir!Icannotmeddleinfamilymatters。I
understandmydutiesandneveroverstepthem。\"Thedoctor,shockedatlast,spokeasloftilyashecould。
\"ThenIwillgoandseeMr。Jansenius,\"saidTrefusis,gettingoffthetable。
\"Stay,sir!Onemoment。Ihavenotfinished。Mrs。Janseniushasaskedmetoask——IwasabouttosaythatIamnotspeakingnowasthemedicaladviserofthisfamily;butalthoughanoldfriend——and——ahem!Mrs。Janseniushasaskedmetoask——torequestyoutoexcuseMr。Jansenius,asheisprostratedbygrief,andis,asIcan——asamedicalman——assureyou,unabletoseeanyone。
Shewillspeaktoyouherselfassoonasshefeelsabletodoso——atsometimethisevening。Meanwhile,ofcourse,anyordersyoumaygive——youmustbefatiguedbyyourjourney,andIalwaysrecommendpeoplenottofasttoolong;itproducesanacuteformofindigestion——anyordersyoumaywishtogivewill,ofcourse,beattendedtoatonce。\"
\"Ithink,\"saidTrefusis,afteramoment\'sreflection,\"Iwillorderahansom。\"
\"Thereisnoill—feeling,\"saidthedoctor,who,asaslowman,wasusuallyalarmedbypromptdecisions,evenwhentheyseemedwisetohim,asthisonedid。\"IhopeyouhavenotgatheredfromanythingIhavesaid——\"
\"Notatall;youhavedisplayedtheutmosttact。ButIthinkI
hadbettergo。Janseniuscanbeardeathandmiserywithperfectfortitudewhenitisonalargescaleandhiddeninabackslum。
Butwhenitbreaksintohisownhouse,andattackshisproperty——hisdaughterwashispropertyuntilveryrecently——heisjustthemantolosehisheadandquarrelwithmeforkeepingmine。\"
Thedoctorwasunabletocopewiththisspeech,whichconveyedvaguelymonstrousideastohim。SeeingTrefusisabouttoleave,hesaidinalowvoice:\"Willyougoupstairs?\"
\"Upstairs!Why?\"
\"I——Ithoughtyoumightwishtosee——\"Hedidnotfinishthesentence,butTrefusisflinched;theblankhadexpressedwhatwasmeant。
\"ToseesomethingthatwasHenrietta,andthatisathingwemustcastoutandhide,withalittlesuperstitiousmummingtosaveappearances。Whydidyouremindmeofit?\"
\"But,sir,whateveryourviewsmaybe,willyounot,asamatterofform,indeferencetothefeelingsofthefamily——\"
\"Letthemsparetheirfeelingsfortheliving,onwhosebehalfI
haveoftenappealedtotheminvain,\"criedTrefusis,losingpatience。\"Damntheirfeelings!\"And,turningtothedoor,hefounditopen,andMrs。Janseniustherelistening。
Trefusiswasconfounded。Heknewwhattheeffectofhisspeechmustbe,andfeltthatitwouldbefollytoattemptexcuseorexplanation。Heputhishandsintohispockets,leanedagainstthetable,andlookedather,mutelywonderingwhatwouldfollowonherpart。
Thedoctorbrokethesilencebysayingtremulously,\"IhavecommunicatedthemelancholyintelligencetoMr。Trefusis。\"
\"Ihopeyoutoldhimalso,\"shesaidsternly,\"that,howeverdeficientwemaybeinfeeling,wedideverythingthatlayinourpowerforourchild。\"
\"Iamquitesatisfied,\"saidTrefusis。
\"Nodoubtyouare——withtheresult,\"saidMrs。Jansenius,hardly。
\"Iwishtoknowwhetheryouhaveanythingtocomplainof。\"
\"Nothing。\"
\"Pleasedonotimplythatanythinghashappenedthroughourneglect。\"
\"WhathaveItocomplainof?Shehadawarmroomandaluxuriousbedtodiein,withthebestmedicaladviceintheworld。Plentyofpeoplearestarvingandfreezingto—daythatwemayhavethemeanstodiefashionably;askTHEMiftheyhaveanycauseforcomplaint。DoyouthinkIwillwrangleoverherbodyabouttheamountofmoneyspentonherillness?Whatmeasureisthatofthecauseshehadforcomplaint?Inevergrudgedmoneytoher——howcouldI,seeingthatmorethanIcanwasteisgiventomefornothing?Orhowcouldyou?Yetshehadgreatreasontocomplainofme。Youwillallowthattobeso。\"
\"Itisperfectlytrue。\"
\"Well,whenIaminthehumorforit,Iwillreproachmyselfandnotyou。\"Hepaused,andthenturnedforciblyonher,saying,\"Whydoyouselectthistime,ofallothers,tospeaksobitterlytome?\"
\"IamnotawarethatIhavesaidanythingtocallforsucharemark。DidYOU,\"(appealingtothedoctor)\"hearmesayanything?\"
\"Mr。Trefusisdoesnotmeantosaythatyoudid,Iamsure。Oh,no。Mr。Trefusis\'sfeelingsarenaturally——areharrowed。Thatisall。\"
\"Myfeelings!\"criedTrefusisimpatiently。\"Doyousupposemyfeelingsareatrumperysetofsocialobservances,tobeharrowedtoorderandexhibitedatfunerals?Shehasgoneaswethreeshallgosoonenough。Ifwewereimmortal,wemightreasonablypitythedead。Aswearenot,wehadbettersaveourenergiestominimizetheharmwearelikelytodobeforewefollowher。\"
Thedoctorwasdeeplyoffendedbythisspeech,forthestatementthatheshouldonedaydieseemedtohimareflectionuponhisprofessionalmasteryoverdeath。Mrs。JanseniuswasgladtoseeTrefusisconfirmingherbadopinionandreportofhimbyhisconductandlanguageinthedoctor\'spresence。Therewasabriefpause,andthenTrefusis,toofaroutofsympathywiththemtobeabletoleadtheconversationintoakindervein,lefttheroom。
Intheactofputtingonhisovercoatinthehall,hehesitated,andhungitupagainirresolutely。Suddenlyheranupstairs。Atthesoundofhisstepsawomancamefromoneoftheroomsandlookedinquiringlyathim。
\"Isithere?\"hesaid。
\"Yes,sir,\"shewhispered。
Apainfulsenseofconstrictioncameinhischest,andheturnedpaleandstoppedwithhishandonthelock。
\"Don\'tbeafraid,sir,\"saidthewoman,withanencouragingsmile。\"Shelooksbeautiful。\"
Helookedatherwithastrangegrin,asifshehadutteredaghastlybutirresistiblejoke。Thenhewentin,and,whenhereachedthebed,wishedhehadstayedwithout。Hewasnotoneofthosewho,seeinglittleinthefacesofthelivingmisslittleinthefacesofthedead。Thearrangementoftheblackhaironthepillow,thesoftdrapery,andtheflowersplacedtherebythenursetocompletetheartisticeffecttowhichshehadsoconfidentlyreferred,werelostonhim;hesawonlyalifelessmaskthathadbeenhiswife\'sface,andatsightofithiskneesfailed,andhehadtoleanforsupportontherailatthefootofthebed。
Whenhelookedagainthefaceseemedtohavechanged。Itwasnolongerawaxlikemask,butHenrietta,girlishandpatheticallyatrest。Deathseemedtohavecancelledhermarriageandwomanhood;
hehadneverseenherlooksoyoung。Aminutepassed,andthenateardroppedonthecoverlet。Hestarted;shookanothertearonhishand,andstaredatitincredulously。
\"ThisisafraudofwhichIhaveneverevendreamed,\"hesaid。
\"Tearsandnosorrow!HereamIcrying!growingmaudlin!whilstI
amgladthatsheisgoneandIfree。Ihavethemechanismofgriefinmesomewhere;itbeginstoturnatsightofherthoughI
havenosorrow;justassheusedtostartthemechanismofpassionwhenIhadnolove。Andthatmadenodifferencetoher;
whilstthewheelswentroundshewassatisfied。Ihopethemechanismofgriefwillflagandstopinitsspinningassoonastheotherusedto。Itisstoppingalready,Ithink。Whatamockery!WhilstitlastsIsupposeIamreallysorry。Andyet,wouldIrestorehertolifeifIcould?Perhapsso;IamthereforethankfulthatIcannot。\"Hefoldedhisarmsontherailandgravelyaddressedthedeadfigure,whichstillaffectedhimsostronglythathehadtoexerthiswilltofaceitwithcomposure。\"Ifyoureallylovedme,itiswellforyouthatyouaredead——idiotthatIwastobelievethatthepassionyoucouldinspire,youpoorchild,wouldlast。Wearebothlucky;Ihaveescapedfromyou,andyouhaveescapedfromyourself。\"
Presentlyhebreathedmorefreelyandlookedroundtheroomtohelphimselfintoamatter—of—factveinbyalittleunembarrassedaction,andthecommonplaceaspectofthebedroomfurniture。Hewenttothepillow,andbentoverit,examiningthefaceclosely。
\"Poorchild!\"hesaidagain,tenderly。Then,withsuddenreaction,apostrophizinghimselfinsteadofhiswife,\"Poorass!
Pooridiot!Poorjackanapes!Hereisthebodyofawomanwhowasnearlyasoldasmyself,andperhapswiser,andhereamI
moralizingoveritasifIwereGodAlmightyandsheababy!Themoreyouremindamanofwhatheis,themoreconceitedhebecomes。Monstrous!Ishallfeelimmortalpresently。\"
Hetouchedthecheekwithafaintattemptatroughness,tofeelhowcolditwas。Thenhetouchedhisown,andremarked:
\"ThisiswhatIamhasteningtowardattheexpressspeedofsixtyminutesanhour!\"Hestoodlookingdownatthefaceandtastingthissombrereflectionforalongtime。Whenitpalledonhim,herousedhimself,andexclaimedmorecheerfully:
\"Afterall,sheisnotdead。Everywordsheuttered——everyideasheformedandexpressed,wasaninexhaustibleandindestructibleimpulse。\"Hepaused,consideredalittlefurther,andrelapsedintogloom,adding,\"andthedozenotherswhosenameswillbewithhersinthe\'Times\'to—morrow?Theirwordstooarestillintheair,toenduretheretoalleternity。Hm!Howtheairmustbecrammedwithnonsense!Twosoundssometimesproduceasilence;
perhapsideasneutralizeoneanotherinsomeanalogousway。No,mydear;youaredeadandgoneanddonewith,andIshallbedeadandgoneanddonewithtoosoontoleavemeleisuretofoolmyselfwithhopesofimmortality。PoorHetty!Well,good—by,mydarling。Letuspretendforamomentthatyoucanhearthat;I
knowitwillpleaseyou。\"
Allthiswasinahalf—articulatewhisper。Whenheceasedhestillbentoverthebody,gazingintentlyatit。Evenwhenhehadexhaustedthesubject,andturnedtogo,hechangedhismind,andlookedagainforawhile。Thenhestooderect,apparentlynervedandrefreshed,andlefttheroomwithafirmstep。Thewomanwaswaitingoutside。Seeingthathewaslessdistressedthanwhenheentered,shesaid:
\"Ihopeyouaresatisfied,sir!\"
\"Delighted!Charmed!Thearrangementsareextremelyprettyandtasteful。Mostconsolatory。\"Andhegaveherhalfasovereign。
\"Ithankyou,sir,\"shesaid,droppingacurtsey。\"Thepooryounglady!Shewasanxioustoseeyou,sir。Tohearhersaythatyouweretheonlyonethatcaredforher!Andsofretfulwithhermother,too。\'LethimbetoldthatIamdangerouslyill,\'saysshe,\'andhe\'llcome。\'Shedidn\'tknowhowtrueherwordwas,poorthing;andshewentoffwithoutbeingawareofit。\"
\"Flatteringherselfandflatteringme。Happygirl!\"
\"Blessyou,Iknowwhatherfeelingswere,sir;Ihavehadexperience。\"Heresheapproachedhimconfidentially,andwhispered:\"Thefamilywereagain\'you,sir,andsheknewit。Butshewouldn\'tlistentothem。Shethoughtofnothing,whenshewaseasyenoughtothinkatall,butofyourcoming。And——hush!
Here\'stheoldgentleman。\"
TrefusislookedroundandsawMr。Jansenius,whosehandsomefacewaswhiteandseamedwithgriefandannoyance。Hedrewbackfromtheprofferedhandofhisson—in—law,likeanoverworriedchildfromanill—timedattempttopetit。Trefusispitiedhim。Thenursecoughedandretired。
\"HaveyoubeenspeakingtoMrs。Jansenius?\"saidTrefusis。
\"Yes,\"saidJanseniusoffensively。
\"SohaveI,unfortunately。Praymakemyapologiestoher。Iwasrude。Thecircumstancesupsetme。\"
\"Youarenotupset,sir,\"saidJanseniusloudly。\"Youdonotcareadamn。\"
Trefusisrecoiled。