第12章

类别:其他 作者:Henry Rider Haggard字数:9203更新时间:18/12/18 09:32:38
\"Yes,falseandyettrue。Sotruethatshediedbecauseshewasfalse。\" \"Howcanawomanbebothfalseandtrue?\" \"Womancanbeallthings。Askthequestionofyourownheart。Canyounotperchancebebothfalseandtrue?\" Shethoughtawhileand,leavingthismatter,said: \"So,havingonceloved,youcanneverloveagain。\" \"Whynot?PerchanceIcanlovetoomuch。Butwhatwouldbetheusewhenmorelovewouldbutmeanmorelossandpain?\" \"Whomshouldyoulove,mylordHurachi,seeingthatthewomenofyourownfolkarefaraway?\" \"Ithinkonewhoisverynear,ifshewouldpaybackloveforlove。\" Quillamadenoanswer,andIthoughtthatshewasangryandwouldgoaway。Butshedidnot;indeed,shesatherselfdownuponthestoneatmysideandcoveredherfacewithherhandsasIhaddoneandbegantoweepasIhaddone。NowinmyturnIaskedher: \"Whydoyouweep?\" \"BecauseI,too,mustknowloneliness,andwithitshame,LordHurachi。\" Atthesewordsmyheartbeatandpassionflamedupinme。StretchingoutmyhandIdrewhersawayandinthedyinglightgazedatthefacebeneath。Lo!onitslovelinesstherewasalookwhichcouldnotbemisread。 \"Doyou,then,alsolove?\"Iwhispered。 \"Aye,more,Ithink,thaneverwomanlovedbefore。FromthemomentwhenfirstIsawyousleepinginthemoonbeamsonthedesertisle,I knewmyfatehadfoundme,andthatIloved。IfoughtagainstitbecauseImust,butthatlovehasgrownandgrown,tillnowIamalllove,and,havinggiveneverything,havenomorelefttogive。\" WhenIheardthis,makingnoanswer,Isweptherintomyarmsandkissedher,andthereshelayuponmybreastandkissedmeback。 \"Letmego,andhearme,\"shemurmuredpresently,\"foryouarestrongandIamweak。\" Iobeyed,andshesankbackuponthestone。 \"Mylord,\"shesaid,\"ourcaseisverysad,oratleastmycaseissad,sincethoughyoubeingamanmayloveoften,Icanlovebutonce,and,mylord,itmaynotbe。\" \"Whynot?\"Iaskedhoarsely。\"Yourpeoplethinkmeagod;cannotagodtakewhomhewillstowife?\" \"Notwhensheisvowedtoanothergod,hewhowillbeInca;notwhenonher,mayhap,hangsthefateofnations。\" \"Wemightfly,Quilla。\" \"WhithercouldtheGod—from—the—SeaflyandwhithercouldflythedaughteroftheMoon,whoisvowedtothesonoftheSuninmarriage,savetodeath?\" \"Thereareworsethingsthandeath,Quilla。\" \"Aye,butmylifeisinpawn。Imustlivethatmypeoplemaynotdie。 MyselfIofferedittothiscauseandnow,beingroyal,Icannottakeitbackagainformyownjoy。Itisbettertobeshamedwithhonourthantobelovedinthelapofshame。\" \"Whatthen?\"Iaskedhopelessly。 \"Onlythis,thataboveusarethegods,and——heardyounottheoracleofRimacthatdeclaredtomethatIshouldslipfromthehatedarms,thattheSunshouldbemyshelter,andinthebelovedarmsIshouldsleepatlast,thoughfromthevengeanceofthegodbetrayedImustflyfastandfar?Ithinkthatthismeansdeath,butalsoitmeanslifeindeathand——Oarmsbeloved,youshallfoldmeyet。Iknownothow,buthavefaith——foryoushallfoldmeyet。Meanwhile,temptmenotfromthepathofhonour,sincethisIknow,thatitalonecanleadmetomyhome。YetwhoisthegodbetrayedfromwhomImustfly?Who,who?\" Thusshespokeandwassilent,andI,too,wassilent。Yes,therewesat,bothsilentinthedarkness,searchingtheheavensforaguidingstar。Andaswesat,presentlyIheardthevoiceofKarisaying: \"HaveIfoundyou,Lord,andyoualso,LadyQuilla?Return,Iprayyou,forallsearchandarefrightened。\" \"Why?\"Ianswered。\"TheladyQuillaandIstudythiswondrousscene。\" \"Yes,Lord,thoughtothosewhoarenotgod—bornitwouldbedifficultinthisdarkness。Suffer,nowthatIshowyouthepath。\" CHAPTERV KARIGOES Asitchancedduringtheremainingdaysofthatjourney,QuillaandI werenotagainalonetogether(thatistosay,exceptonceforafewminutes),forwewereneveroutofeyeshotofsomeoneinourcompany。 ThusKariclungtomeveryclosely,indeed,andwhenIaskedhimwhy,toldmebluntlythatitwasformysafety\'ssake。Agodtoremainagod,hesaid,shouldlivealoneinatemple。Whenhebegantomixwithothersoftheearthandtodothosethingstheydid,toeatandtodrink,tolaughandtofrown;eventoslipinthemudortostumbleoverthestonesinthecommonpath,thoseotherswouldcometothinkthattherewassmalldifferencebetweengodandman。Especiallywouldtheythinksoifhewereobservedtolovethecompanyofwomenortomeltbeneaththeirsoftglances。 NowIgrewsoreatthestingofthesearrowswhichoflatehehadlovedtoshootatme,andwithoutpretendingtomisunderstandhim,saidoutright: \"Thetruthis,Kari,thatyouarejealousoftheladyQuillaasonceyouwerejealousofanother。\" Heconsideredthematterinhisgravefashion,andanswered: \"Yes,Master,thatisthetruth,orpartofit。Yousavedmylife,andshelteredmewhenIwasaloneinastrangeland,andforthisandforyourselfIcametoloveyouverygreatly,andlove,ifitbetrue,isalwaysjealousandalwayshatesarival。\" \"Therearedifferentsortsofloves,\"Isaid;\"thatofamanformanisone,thatofmanforwomanisanother。\" \"Yes,Master,andthatofwomanformanisathird;moreover,thereisthisaboutit——itistheacidwhichturnsallotherlovessour。Whereareaman\'sfriendswhenawomanhashimbytheheart?——althoughperchancetheylovehimbetterthaneverwillthewomanwhoatbottomlovesherselfbestofall。Still,letthatbe,forsoNatureworks,andwhocanfightagainstNature?WhatQuillatakes,Kariloses,andKarimustbecontenttolose。\" \"Haveyoudone?\"Iaskedangrily,whoweariedofhishomilies。 \"No,Master。Thematterofjealousyissmallandprivate;soisthematteroflove。But,Master,youhavenottoldmeoutrightwhetheryoulovetheladyQuilla,and,whatismoreimportant,whethershelovesyou。\" \"ThenIwilltellyounow。Idoandshedoes。\" \"YoulovetheladyQuillaandshesaysthatshelovesyou,whichmayormaynotbetrue,oriftrueto—daymaybefalseto—morrow。ForyoursakeIhopethatitisnottrue。\" \"Why?\"Isaidinarage。 \"Because,Master,inthislandtherearemanysortsofpoison,asI havelearnedtomycost。Alsothereareknives,ifnotofsteel,andmanywhomightwishtodiscoverwhetheragodwhocourtswomenlikeamancanbeharmedbypoisonsorpiercedbyknives。Oh!\"headded,inanothertone,ceasingfromhisbitterjests,\"believemethatIwouldshield,notmockyou。ThisLadyQuillaisaqueeninagreatgameofpiecessuchasyoutaughtmetoplayfarawayinEngland,andwithoutherperchancethatgamecannotbewon,orsothosewhoplayitthink。 Nowyouwouldstealthatqueenandthereby,astheyalsothink,bringdeathanddestructiononacountry。Itisnotsafe,Master。Thereareplentyoffairwomeninthisland;takeyourpickofthem,butleavethatonequeenalone。\" \"Kari,\"Ianswered,\"iftherebesuchagame,areyounotperchanceoneoftheplayersonthissideoronthat?\" \"Itmaybeso,Master,andifyouhavenotguessedit,perhapsonedayIwilltellyouuponwhichsideIplay。ItmayevenbethatformyownsakeIshouldbegladtoseeyouliftthisqueenfromofftheboard,andthatwhatItellyouisforloveofyouandnotofmyself,alsooftheladyQuilla,who,ifyoufall,fallswithyoudownthroughtheblacknightintothearmsoftheMoon,hermother。ButIhavesaidenough,andindeeditisfoolishtowastebreathinsuchtalk,sinceFatewillhaveitswaywithbothofyou,andtheendofthegameinwhichweplayisalreadywritteninPachacamac\'sbookforeveryoneofus。DidnotRimacspeakofittheothernight?Soplayon,playon,andletDestinyfulfilitself。IfIdaredtogivecounselitwasonlybecausehewhowatchesthebattlewithageneral\'seyeseesmoreofitthanhewhofights。\" Thenhebowedinhisstatelyfashionandleftme,anditwaslongerehespoketomeagainofthismatterofQuillaandourloveforoneanother。 Whenhewasgonemyangeragainsthimpassed,sinceIsawthathewaswarningmeofmorethanhedaredtosay,notforhimself,butbecausehelovedme。Moreover,Iwasafraid,forIfeltthatIwasmovinginthewebofagreatplotthatIdidnotunderstand,ofwhichQuillaandthosecold—eyedlordlingsofhercompanyandthechiefwhoseguestI hadbeen,andKarihimself,andmanyothersasyetunknowntome,spuntheinvisiblethreads。Onedaythesemightchokeme。Well,iftheydid,whatthen?OnlyIfearedforQuilla——greatlyIfearedforQuilla。 OnthedayfollowingmytalkwithKariatlengthwereachedthegreatcityoftheChancas,which,afterthem,wascalledChanca——atleastI alwaysknewitbythatname。FromthedawnwehadbeenpassingthroughrichvalleyswheredweltthousandsoftheseChancaswho,Icouldsee,wereamightypeoplethatborethemselvesproudlyandlikesoldiers。 Inmultitudestheygatheredthemselvestogetheruponeithersideoftheroad,chieflytocatchasightofme,thewhitegodwhohadrisenfromtheocean,butalsotogreettheirprincess,theladyQuilla。 Indeed,nowIlearnedforthefirsttimehowhighaprincessshewas,sincewhenherlitterpassed,thesefolkprostratedthemselves,kissingtheairandthedust。Moreover,assoonasshecameamongthemQuilla\'sbearingchanged,forhercarriagegrewmorehaughtyandherwordsfewer。Nowsheseldomspokesavetoissueacommand,noteventomyself,althoughInotedthatshestudiedmewithhereyeswhenshethoughtthatIwasnotobservingher。 DuringourmiddayhaltIlookedupandsawthatanarmywasapproachingus,fivethousandmenormore,andaskedKariitsmeaning。 \"These,\"heanswered,\"aresomeofthetroopsofHuaracha,KingoftheChancas,whomhesendsouttogreethisdaughterandonlychild,alsohisguest,theWhiteGod。\" \"Someofthetroops!Hashemore,then?\" \"Aye,Master,tentimesasmany,asIthink。Thisisagreatpeople; almostasgreatasthatoftheIncaswholiveatCuzco。Comenowintothetentandputonyourarmour,thatyoumaybereadytomeetthem。\" Ididso,and,steppingforthcladintheshiningsteel,tookmystandwhereKarishowedme,uponariseofground。OnmyrightatalittledistancestoodQuilla,moresplendidlyarrayedthanIhadeverseenher,andbehindherhermaidensandthecaptainsandcounsellorsofherfollowing。 Thearmydrewnearer,marshalledinregimentsandhaltedontheplainsometwohundredyardsaway。Presentlyfromitadvancedgeneralsandoldmen,cladinwhite,whomItooktobepriestsandelders。Theyapproachedtothenumberoftwentyormoreandboweddeeply,firsttoQuilla,whobentherheadinacknowledgmentandthentomyself。AfterthistheywenttospeakwithQuillaandherfollowing,butwhattheysaidIdidnotknow。Allthewhile,however,theireyeswerefixedonme。ThenQuillabroughtthemtomeandonebyonetheybowedbeforeme,sayingsomethinginalanguagewhichIdidnotunderstandwell,foritwassomewhatdifferentfromthatwhichKarihadtaughtme。 Afterthisweenteredthelitters,and,escortedbythatgreatarmy,wereborneforwarddownvalleysandoverridgestillaboutsunsetwecametoalargecup—likeplaininthecentreofwhichstoodthecitycalledChanca。OfthiscityIdidnotseemuchexceptthatitwasverygreatasthedarknesswasfallingwhenweentered,andafterwardsI couldnotgooutbecauseofthecrowdsthatpressedaboutme。Iwasbornedownawidestreettoahousethatstoodinalargegardenwhichwaswalledabout。HereinthisfinehouseIfoundfoodpreparedforme,anddrink,allofitservedindishesandcupsofgoldandsilver; alsotherewerewomenwhowaiteduponme,asdidKariwhonowwascalledZapanaandseemedtobemyslave。 WhenIhadeatenIwentoutaloneintothegarden,foronthisplaintheairwasverywarmandpleasant。Itwasabeautifulgarden,andI wanderedaboutamongitsavenuesandfloweringbushes,gladtobesolitaryandtohavetimetothink。AmongstotherthingsIwonderedwhereQuillamightbe,forofherIhadseennothingfromthetimethatweenteredthetown。Ihatedtobepartedfromher,becauseinthisvaststrangelandintowhichIhadwanderedshewastheonlyoneforwhomIhadcometocareandwithoutwhomIfeltIshoulddieofloneliness。 TherewasKari,itistrue,whoIknewlovedmeinhisfashion,butbetweenhimandmetherewasagreatgulffixed,notonlyofraceandfaith,butofsomethingnowwhichIdidnotwhollyunderstand。InLondonhehadbeenmyservantandhisendsweremyends;onourwanderinghehadbeenmycompanioningreatadventures。ButnowIknewthatotherinterestsanddesireshadtakenaholdofhim,andthathetrodaroadofwhichIcouldnotseethegoal;andnolongerthoughtmuchofmesavewhenwhatIdidordesiredtodocamebetweenhimandthatgoal。 ThereforeQuillaalonewaslefttome,andQuillawasabouttobetakenaway。Oh!Iweariedofthisstrangelandwithitssnowcladmountainsandrichvalleys,itshordesofdark—skinnedpeoplewithlargeeyes,smilingfaces,andsecrethearts;itsgreatcities,temples,andpalacesfilledwithuselessgoldandsilver;itsbrilliantsunshineandrushingrivers,itsgods,kings,andpolicies。 Theywerealientome,everyoneofthem,andifQuillaweretakenawayandIwereleftquitealone,thenIthoughtthatitwouldbewelltodie。 SomethingmovedbehindapalmtrunkoftheavenueinwhichIwalked,andnotknowingwhetheritwerebeastorman,IlaidmyhanduponmyswordwhichIstillwore,althoughIhadtakenoffthearmour。BeforeIcoulddrawitmywristwasgraspedandasoftvoicewhisperedinmyear: \"Fearnothing;itisI——Quilla。\" Quillaitwas,wrappedinalonghoodedcloaksuchasthepeasantwomenwearinthecoldcountry,forshethrewbackthehoodandabeamofstarlightfelluponherface。 \"Hearken!\"shesaid。\"Itisdangeroustobothofus,butIhavecometobidyoufarewell。\" \"Farewell!Ifeareditwouldbethus,butwhysosoon,Quilla?\" \"Forthisreason,LoveandLord。IhaveseenmyfathertheKing,andmademyreporttohimofthematterwithwhichIwassenttodealamongtheYuncas。Itpleasedhim,andsincehismoodwasgracious,I openedmyhearttohimandtoldhimthatnolongerdidIwishtobegiveninmarriagetoUrco,whowillsoonputontheIncafringe,for,asyouknow,itistohimthatIampromised!\" \"Whatdidheanswer,Quilla?\" \"Heanswered:\'Thismeans,Daughter,thatyouhavemetsomeothermantowhomyoudowishtobegiveninmarriage。Iwillnotaskhisname,sinceifIknewititwouldbemydutytokillhim,howeverhighandnoblehemightbe。\'\" \"Thenheguesses,Quilla?\" \"Ithinkheguesses;Ithinkthatalreadysomehavewhisperedinhisear,buthedoesnotwishtolistenwhodesirestoremaindeafandblind。\" \"Didhesaynomore,Quilla?\" \"Hesaidmuchmore;hesaidthis——nowItellyousecrets,Lord,andplacemyhonourinyourkeeping,forhavinggivenyoualltherest,whyshouldInotgiveyouthatalso?Hesaid:\'Daughter,youwhohavebeenmyambassador,you,myonlychild,whoknowallmycounsel,knowalsothatthereisabouttobethegreatestwarthatthelandofTavantinsuyuhaseverknown,warbetweenthetwomightynationsoftheQuichuasofCuzcowhereoftheoldUpanquiiskingandgod,andtheChancaswhereofIamkingandyou,ifyoulive,inadaytocomewillbethequeen。Nolongercanthesetwolionsdwellinthesameforest; oneofthemmustdevourtheother;norshallIfightalone,sinceonoursidearealltheYuncasofthecoastwho,asyoureporttome,areripeforrebellion。But,asyoualsoreport,andasIhavelearnedfromothers,theyarenotyetready。MoonsmustgobybeforetheirarmiesarejoinedtomineandIthrowoffthemask。Isitnotso?\' \"Iansweredthatitwasso,andmyfatherwenton: \"\'Thenduringthattime,Daughter,adustmustberaisedthatwillhidetheshiningofmyspears,and,Daughter,youarethatdust。 To—morrowtheoldIncaUpanquivisitsmeherewithasmallarmy。I readyourthought。Itis——Whydoyounotkillhimandhisarmy? Daughter,forthisreason。Heisveryagedandabouttolaydownhissceptre,whogrowsfeebleofmindandbody。IfIkilledhimwhatwoulditserveme,seeingthathehaslefthisson,Urco,whowillbeInca,rulingatCuzco,andthatofhissoldiersnotoneinfiftywillbewithhimhere?Moreover,heismyguest,andthegodsfrownonthosewhoslaytheirguests,norwillmenevertrustthemmore。\' \"NowIanswered:\'Youspokeofmeasacloudofdust,Father;how,then,canthispoordustserveyourendsandthoseoftheChancapeople?\' \"\'ThusDaughter,\'heanswered。\'WithyourownconsentyouarepromisedinmarriagetoUrco。UpanquitheIncahasheardrumoursthattheChancasprepareforwar。Therefore,hewhotravelsonhislastjourneythroughcertainofhisdominionscomestoleadyouaway,tobeUrco\'sbride,sayingtohimself,\"Ifthoserumoursaretrue,KingHuarachawillwithholdhisonlychildandheiress,sinceneverwillhemakewaruponCuzcoifsherulesthereasitsqueen。\"Therefore,ifIrefuseyoutohim,hewillwithdrawandbeginthewar,rollingdownhisthousandsuponusbeforeweareready,andbringingtheChancastodestructionandenslavement。Thereforealsonotonlymyfate,butthefateofallyourcountryliesinyourhand。\' \"\'Father,\'Isaid,\'tellme,whowaseverdeartoyouthatlacksons,istherenoescape?MustIeatthisbitterbread?Beforeyouanswer,learnthatyouhaveguessedaright,andthatIwho,whenImadethatpromise,caredfornoman,havecometofeeltheburningoflove\'sfire!\' \"Nowhelookedatmeawhile,thensaid:\'ChildoftheMoon,thereisbutoneescape,anditmustbesought——inthemoon。Thedeadcannotbegiveninmarriage。Ifyourstraitissosore,thoughitwouldcutmetotheheart,perchanceitisbetterthatyoushoulddieandgowhitherdoubtlesshewhomyoulovewillsoonfollowyou。DepartnowandcounselwithHeaveninyoursleep。To—morrow,beforeUpanquicomes,wewilltalkagain。\' \"SoIkneltandkissedthehandoftheKing,myfather,andlefthim,wonderingathisnoblenesswhocouldshowsucharoadtohisonlychild,thoughitstreadingwouldmeanwoetohimandmayhaptheruinofhishopes。Stillthatroadisanoldoneamongthewomenofmypeople,andwhyshouldInotwalkit,asthousandshavedonebeforeme?\" \"Howcameyouhere?\"Iaskedhoarsely。 \"Lord,Iguessedthatyouwouldbewalkinginthisgardenwhichjoinsontothatofthepalace,and——nonewereabout,and——thedoorinthewallwasopen。Indeed,itwasalmostasthoughIwereleftaloneandunwatchedofsetpurpose。SoIcameandsought——andfound,havingaquestiontoputtoyou。\" \"Whatquestion,Quilla?\" \"This:ShallIliveorshallIdie?SpeakthewordandIobey。Yetereyouspeak,rememberthatifIlivewemeetforthelasttime,sinceverysoonIgohencetobecomethewifeofUrcoandplaythepartthatispreparedforme?\" NowwhenI,Hubert,heardthesewords,Ifeltasthoughmyheartwouldburstwithinmybreastandknewnotwhattosay。SotogaintimeI askedher: \"Whichdoyoudesire——toliveortodie?\" Shelaughedalittleassheanswered: \"Thatisastrangequestion,Lord。HaveInottoldyouthatifIliveImustdosobefouledasoneofUrco\'swomen,whereas,ifIdie,IdiecleanandtakemylovewithmetowhereUrcocannotcome,butwhere,mayhap,anothermayfollowattheappointedtime。\" \"Whichtimewouldbeverysoon,Ithink,Quilla,seeingthathewhohadspoiledallthisprettyplotwouldscarcelybeleftlongupontheearth,evenifhewishedtostaythere。YetIsay:Donotdie——liveon。\" \"TobecomeUrco\'swoman!Thatisstrangecounselfromalover\'slips,Lord;suchaswouldscarcelyhavebeengivenbyanyofournobles。\" \"Aye,Quilla,anditisgivenbecauseIamnotofyourpeopleanddonotthinkastheythink,whorejecttheircustoms。YouarenotyetUrco\'swife,andmayberidofhimbyotherpathsthanthatofdeath,butfromthegravethereisnoescape。\" \"Andinthegravethereisnomorefear,Lord。ThitherUrcocannotcome;thereareneitherwarsnorplottings;therehonourdoesnotbeckonandloveholdback。IsaythatIwilldieandmakeanend,asforlikecausesmanyofmybloodhavedone,thoughnothereandnow。 WhenIamabouttobedeliveredtoUrcothenIwilldie,andperchancenotalone。Perchancehewillaccompanyme,\"sheaddedslowly。 \"Andifthishappens,whatshallIdo?\" \"Liveon,Lord,andfindotherwomentoloveyou,asagodshould。 TherearemanyinthislandfairerandwiserthanI,and,savemyself,youmaytakewhomyouwill。\" \"Listen,Quilla。Ihaveastorytotellyou。\" Then,asbrieflyasIcould,IsetoutthetaleofBlancheandofherend,whileshehunguponmyeveryword。 \"Oh!Igrieveforyou,\"shesaid,whenIhadfinished。 \"Yougrieveforme,andyet,whatshedidformysakeyouwoulddoalso,sothat,asitwere,bothmyhandsmustbedyedwithblood。ThisfirstterrorIhaveborne,butifasecondfallsuponmethenIknowthatIshallgomadandperishinthiswayorinthat,andyou,Quilla,willbemymurderess。\" \"No,no,notthat!\"shemurmured。 \"Thensweartomebyyourgodandbyyourspirit,thatyouwilldoyourselfnoharm,whateverchances,andthatifdieyoumust,itshallbewithmeforcompany。\" \"Isyourlovesogreatthatyouwoulddarethisformysake,Lord?\" \"Ithinkso,thoughnottillallelsehadfailed。Ithinkthatifyouweretakenfromme,Quilla,Icouldnotliveonhereinlonelinessandexile——howevergreatthesin。Butdoyouswear?\" \"Aye,LoveandLord,Iswear,foryoursake。Moreover,Iaddtotheoath。Ifperhapsweshouldescapetheseperilsandcometogether,I willbesuchawifetoyouasnevermanhashad。Iwillwrapyouroundwithloveandliftyouuptobeaking,thatyoumayliveingloryforgettingyourhomeacrossthesea,andallthesorrowsthatbefellyouthere。Childrenyoushallhavealsoofwhomyouneednotbeashamed,thoughmydarkbloodrunsinthem,andarmiesatcommandandpalacesfilledwithgold,andallroyaljoys。Andifperchancethegodsdeclareagainstus,andwepassfromtheworldtogether,thenI think,oh!thenIthinkthatIshallgiveyoufinergiftsthanthese,thoughwhattheyareIknownotyet,sincetothepoweroflovethereisnoend——hereonearthoryonderintheskies。\" Istaredatherfaceinthestarlight,andoh!ithadgrownsplendid。 Nolongerwasitthatofawoman,sincethroughit,likelightthroughpearl,shoneasouldivine。Itmighthavebeenagoddesswhostoodbesideme,forthoseeyeswereholyandherembracethatwrappedmeclosewasnotthatofthefleshalone。 \"Imustbegone,\"shewhispered,\"butnowIgowithoutfear。Perchancewemaynotspeakagainforlong,buttrustmealways。PlayyourpartandIwillplaymine。FollowmewhereverIamtakenandkeepneartome,ifyoumay,asevermyspiritshallbeneartoyou。Thenwhatmattersanything,evenifweareslain?Farewell,beloved,kissmeandfarewell。\"