第2章

类别:其他 作者:Rabindranath Tagore字数:7031更新时间:18/12/18 10:05:18
MadanaAlas,thoudaughterofmortals!IstolefromthedivineStorehousethefragrantwineofheaven,filledwithitoneearthlynighttothebrim,andplaceditinthyhandtodrink—— yetstillIhearthiscryofanguish! Chitra[bitterly] Whodrankit?Therarestcompletionoflife’sdesire,thefirstunionoflovewasprofferedtome,butwaswrestedfrommygrasp? Thisborrowedbeauty,thisfalsehoodthatenwrapsme,willslipfrommetakingwithittheonlymonumentofthatsweetunion,asthepetalsfallfromanoverblownflower;andthewomanashamedofhernakedpovertywillsitweepingdayandnight。LordLove,thiscursedappearancecompanionsmelikeademonrobbingmeofalltheprizesoflove——allthekissesforwhichmyheartisathirst。 MadanaAlas,howvainthysinglenighthadbeen!Thebarqueofjoycameinsight,butthewaveswouldnotletittouchtheshore。 ChitraHeavencamesoclosetomyhandthatIforgotforamomentthatithadnotreachedme。ButwhenIwokeinthemorningfrommydreamIfoundthatmybodyhadbecomemyownrival。Itismyhatefultasktodeckhereveryday,tosendhertomybelovedandseehercaressedbyhim。Ogod,takebackthyboon! MadanaButifItakeitfromyouhowcanyoustandbeforeyourlover? Tosnatchawaythecupfromhislipswhenhehasscarcelydrainedhisfirstdraughtofpleasure,wouldnotthatbecruel?Withwhatresentfulangerhemustregardtheethen? ChitraThatwouldbebetterfarthanthis。Iwillrevealmytrueselftohim,anoblerthingthanthisdisguise。Ifherejectsit,ifhespurnsmeandbreaksmyheart,Iwillbeareventhatinsilence。 VasantaListentomyadvice。Whenwiththeadventofautumnthefloweringseasonisoverthencomesthetriumphoffruitage。A timewillcomeofitselfwhentheheat—cloyedbloomofthebodywilldroopandArjunawillgladlyaccepttheabidingfruitfultruthinthee。Ochild,gobacktothymadfestival。 SCENEIV ChitraWHYdoyouwatchmelikethat,mywarrior? ArjunaIwatchhowyouweavethatgarland。Skillandgrace,thetwinbrotherandsister,aredancingplayfullyonyourfingertips。I amwatchingandthinking。 ChitraWhatareyouthinking,sir? ArjunaIamthinkingthatyou,withthissamelightnessoftouchandsweetness,areweavingmydaysofexileintoanimmortalwreath,tocrownmewhenIreturnhome。 ChitraHome!Butthisloveisnotforahome! ArjunaNotforahome? ChitraNo。Nevertalkofthat。Taketoyourhomewhatisabidingandstrong。Leavethelittlewildflowerwhereitwasborn;leaveitbeautifullytodieattheday’sendamongallfadingblossomsanddecayingleaves。Donottakeittoyourpalacehalltoflingitonthestonyfloorwhichknowsnopityforthingsthatfadeandareforgotten。 ArjunaIsoursthatkindoflove? ChitraYes,noother!Whyregretit?Thatwhichwasmeantforidledaysshouldneveroutlivethem。Joyturnsintopainwhenthedoorbywhichitshoulddepartisshutagainstit。Takeitandkeepitaslongasitlasts。Letnotthesatietyofyoureveningclaimmorethanthedesireofyourmorningcouldearn……Thedayisdone。Putthisgarlandon。Iamtired。Takemeinyourarms,mylove。Letallvainbickeringsofdiscontentdieawayatthesweetmeetingofourlips。 ArjunaHush!Listen,mybeloved,thesoundofprayerbellsfromthedistantvillagetemplestealsupontheeveningairacrossthesilenttrees! SCENEV VasantaICANNOTkeeppacewiththee,myfriend!Iamtired。Itisahardtasktokeepalivethefirethouhastkindled。Sleepovertakesme,thefandropsfrommyhand,andcoldashescovertheglowofthefire。Istartupagainfrommyslumberandwithallmymightrescuethewearyflame。Butthiscangoonnolonger。 MadanaIknow,thouartasfickleasachild。Everrestlessisthyplayinheavenandonearth。Thingsthatthoufordaysbuildestupwithendlessdetailthoudostshatterinamomentwithoutregret。 Butthisworkofoursisnearlyfinished。Pleasure—wingeddaysflyfast,andtheyear,almostatitsend,swoonsinrapturousbliss。 SCENEVI ArjunaIWOKEinthemorningandfoundthatmydreamshaddistilledagem。Ihavenocaskettoincloseit,noking’scrownwhereontofixit,nochainfromwhichtohangit,andyethavenotthehearttothrowitaway。MyKshatriya’srightarm,idlyoccupiedinholdingit,forgetsitsduties。 EnterCHITRA。 ChitraTellmeyourthoughts,sir! ArjunaMymindisbusywiththoughtsofhuntingtoday。See,howtherainpoursintorrentsandfiercelybeatsuponthehillside。Thedarkshadowofthecloudshangsheavilyovertheforest,andtheswollenstream,likerecklessyouth,overleapsallbarrierswithmockinglaughter。OnsuchrainydayswefivebrotherswouldgototheChitrakaforesttochasewildbeasts。Thoseweregladtimes。Ourheartsdancedtothedrumbeatofrumblingclouds。Thewoodsresoundedwiththescreamsofpeacocks。Timiddeercouldnothearourapproachingstepsforthepatterofrainandthenoiseofwaterfalls;theleopardswouldleavetheirtracksonthewetearth,betrayingtheirlairs。Oursportover,wedaredeachothertoswimacrossturbulentstreamsonourwaybackhome。Therestlessspiritisonme。Ilongtogohunting。 ChitraFirstrundownthequarryyouarenowfollowing。Areyouquitecertainthattheenchanteddeeryoupursuemustneedsbecaught? No,notyet。Likeadreamthewildcreatureeludesyouwhenitseemsmostnearlyyours。Lookhowthewindischasedbythemadrainthatdischargesathousandarrowsafterit。Yetitgoesfreeandunconquered。Oursportislikethat,mylove!Yougivechasetothefleet—footedspiritofbeauty,aimingathereverydartyouhaveinyourhands。Yetthismagicdeerrunseverfreeanduntouched。 ArjunaMylove,haveyounohomewherekindheartsarewaitingforyourreturn?Ahomewhichyouoncemadesweetwithyourgentleserviceandwhoselightwentoutwhenyouleftitforthiswilderness? ChitraWhythesequestions?Arethehoursofunthinkingpleasureover? DoyounotknowthatIamnomorethanwhatyouseebeforeyou? Formethereisnovistabeyond。ThedewthathangsonthetipofaKinsukapetalhasneithernamenordestination。Itoffersnoanswertoanyquestion。Shewhomyouloveislikethatperfectbeadofdew。 ArjunaHasshenotiewiththeworld?Canshebemerelylikeafragmentofheavendroppedontheearththroughthecarelessnessofawantongod? ChitraYes。 ArjunaAh,thatiswhyIalwaysseemabouttoloseyou。Myheartisunsatisfied,mymindknowsnopeace。Comeclosertome,unattainableone!Surrenderyourselftothebondsofnameandhomeandparentage。Letmyheartfeelyouonallsidesandlivewithyouinthepeacefulsecurityoflove。 ChitraWhythisvainefforttocatchandkeepthetintsoftheclouds,thedanceofthewaves,thesmelloftheflowers? ArjunaMistressmine,donothopetopacifylovewithairynothings。 Givemesomethingtoclasp,somethingthatcanlastlongerthanpleasure,thatcanendureeventhroughsuffering。 ChitraHeromine,theyearisnotyetfull,andyouaretiredalready! NowIknowthatitisHeaven’sblessingthathasmadetheflower’stermoflifeshort。Couldthisbodyofminehavedroopedanddiedwiththeflowersoflastspringitsurelywouldhavediedwithhonour。Yet,itsdaysarenumbered,mylove。 Spareitnot,pressitdryofhoney,forfearyourbeggar’sheartcomebacktoitagainandagainwithunsateddesire,likeathirstybeewhensummerblossomsliedeadinthedust。 SCENEVII MadanaTONIGHTisthylastnight。 VasantaThelovelinessofyourbodywillreturntomorrowtotheinexhaustiblestoresofthespring。TheruddytintofthylipsfreedfromthememoryofArjuna’skisses,willbudanewasapairoffreshasokaleaves,andthesoft,whiteglowofthyskinwillbebornagaininahundredfragrantjasmineflowers。 ChitraOgods,grantmethismyprayer!Tonight,initslasthourletmybeautyflashitsbrightest,likethefinalflickerofadyingflame。 MadanaThoushalthavethywish。 SCENEVIII VillagersWHOwillprotectusnow? ArjunaWhy,bywhatdangerareyouthreatened? VillagersTherobbersarepouringfromthenorthernhillslikeamountainfloodtodevastateourvillage。 ArjunaHaveyouinthiskingdomnowarden? VillagersPrincessChitrawastheterrorofallevildoers。Whileshewasinthishappylandwefearednaturaldeaths,buthadnootherfears。Nowshehasgoneonapilgrimage,andnoneknowswheretofindher。 ArjunaIsthewardenofthiscountryawoman? VillagersYes,sheisourfatherandmotherinone。 [Exeunt。 EnterCHITRA。 ChitraWhyareyousittingallalone? ArjunaIamtryingtoimaginewhatkindofwomanPrincessChitramaybe。 Ihearsomanystoriesofherfromallsortsofmen。 ChitraAh,butsheisnotbeautiful。Shehasnosuchlovelyeyesasmine,darkasdeath。Shecanpierceanytargetshewill,butnotourhero’sheart。 ArjunaTheysaythatinvaloursheisaman,andawomanintenderness。 ChitraThat,indeed,ishergreatestmisfortune。Whenawomanismerelyawoman;whenshewindsherselfroundandroundmen’sheartswithhersmilesandsobsandservicesandcaressingendearments;thensheishappy。Ofwhatusetoherarelearningandgreatachievements?CouldyouhaveseenheronlyyesterdayinthecourtoftheLordShiva’stemplebytheforestpath,youwouldhavepassedbywithoutdeigningtolookather。Buthaveyougrownsowearyofwoman’sbeautythatyouseekinherforaman’sstrength? Withgreenleaveswetfromthesprayofthefoamingwaterfall,I havemadeournoondaybedinacaverndarkasnight。Therethecoolofthesoftgreenmossesthickontheblackanddrippingstone,kissesyoureyestosleep。Letmeguideyouthither。 ArjunaNottoday,beloved。 ChitraWhynottoday? ArjunaIhaveheardthatahordeofrobbershasnearedtheplains。 NeedsmustIgoandpreparemyweaponstoprotectthefrightenedvillagers。 ChitraYouneedhavenofearforthem。Beforeshestartedonherpilgrimage,PrincessChitrahadsetstrongguardsatallthefrontierpasses。 ArjunaYetpermitmeforashortwhiletosetaboutaKshatriya’swork。 WithnewglorywillIennoblethisidlearm,andmakeofitapillowmoreworthyofyourhead。 ChitraWhatifIrefusetoletyougo,ifIkeepyouentwinedinmyarms?Wouldyourudelysnatchyourselffreeandleaveme?Gothen!Butyoumustknowthattheliana,oncebrokenintwo,neverjoinsagain。Go,ifyourthirstisquenched。But,ifnot,thenrememberthatthegoddessofpleasureisfickle,andwaitsfornoman。Sitforawhile,mylord!Tellmewhatuneasythoughtsteaseyou。Whooccupiedyourmindtoday?IsitChitra? ArjunaYes,itisChitra。Iwonderinfulfilmentofwhatvowshehasgoneonherpilgrimage。Ofwhatcouldshestandinneed? ChitraHerneeds?Why,whathassheeverhad,theunfortunatecreature? Herveryqualitiesareasprisonwalls,shuttingherwoman’sheartinabarecell。Sheisobscured,sheisunfulfilled。Herwomanlylovemustcontentitselfdressedinrags;beautyisdeniedher。Sheislikethespiritofacheerlessmorning,sittinguponthestonymountainpeak,allherlightblottedoutbydarkclouds。Donotaskmeofherlife。Itwillneversoundsweettoman’sear。 ArjunaIameagertolearnallabouther。Iamlikeatravellercometoastrangecityatmidnight。Domesandtowersandgarden—treeslookvagueandshadowy,andthedullmoanoftheseacomesfitfullythroughthesilenceofsleep。Wistfullyhewaitsforthemorningtorevealtohimallthestrangewonders。Oh,tellmeherstory。 ChitraWhatmoreistheretotell? ArjunaIseemtoseeher,inmymind’seye,ridingonawhitehorse,proudlyholdingthereinsinherlefthand,andinherrightabow,andliketheGoddessofVictorydispensinggladhopeallroundher。Likeawatchfullionesssheprotectsthelitteratherdugswithafiercelove。Woman’sarms,thoughadornedwithnaughtbutunfetteredstrength,arebeautiful!Myheartisrestless,fairone,likeaserpentrevivingfromhislongwinter’ssleep。Come,letusbothraceonswifthorsessidebyside,liketwinorbsoflightsweepingthroughspace。Outfromthisslumbrousprisonofgreengloom,thisdank,densecoverofperfumedintoxication,chokingbreath。 ChitraArjuna,tellmetrue,if,nowatonce,bysomemagicIcouldshakemyselffreefromthisvoluptuoussoftness,thistimidbloomofbeautyshrinkingfromtherudeandhealthytouchoftheworld,andflingitfrommybodylikeborrowedclothes,wouldyoubeabletobearit?IfIstandupstraightandstrongwiththestrengthofadaringheartspurningthewilesandartsoftwiningweakness,ifIholdmyheadhighlikeatallyoungmountainfir,nolongertrailinginthedustlikealiana,shallIthenappealtoman’seye?No,no,youcouldnotendureit。ItisbetterthatIshouldkeepspreadaboutmeallthedaintyplaythingsoffugitiveyouth,andwaitforyouinpatience。Whenitpleasesyoutoreturn,Iwillsmilinglypouroutforyouthewineofpleasureinthecupofthisbeauteousbody。Whenyouaretiredandsatiatedwiththiswine,youcangotoworkorplay;andwhenIgrowoldIwillaccepthumblyandgratefullywhatevercornerisleftforme。Woulditpleaseyourheroicsouliftheplaymateofthenightaspiredtobethehelpmeetoftheday,iftheleftarmlearnttosharetheburdenoftheproudrightarm? ArjunaIneverseemtoknowyouaright。Youseemtomelikeagoddesshiddenwithinagoldenimage。Icannottouchyou,Icannotpayyoumyduesinreturnforyourpricelessgifts。Thusmyloveisincomplete。Sometimesintheenigmaticdepthofyoursadlook,inyourplayfulwordsmockingattheirownmeaning,Igainglimpsesofabeingtryingtorendasunderthelanguorousgraceofherbody,toemergeinachastefireofpainthroughavaporousveilofsmiles。IllusionisthefirstappearanceofTruth。Sheadvancestowardsherloverindisguise。Butatimecomeswhenshethrowsoffherornamentsandveilsandstandsclothedinnakeddignity。Igropeforthatultimateyou,thatbaresimplicityoftruth。 Whythesetears,mylove?Whycoveryourfacewithyourhands? HaveIpainedyou,mydarling?ForgetwhatIsaid。Iwillbecontentwiththepresent。Leteachseparatemomentofbeautycometomelikeabirdofmysteryfromitsunseennestinthedarkbearingamessageofmusic。Letmeforeversitwithmyhopeonthebrinkofitsrealization,andthusendmydays。 SCENEIX CHITRAandARJUNA Chitra[cloaked] Mylord,hasthecupbeendrainedtothelastdrop?Isthis,indeed,theend?No,whenallisdonesomethingstillremains,andthatismylastsacrificeatyourfeet。 Ibroughtfromthegardenofheavenflowersofincomparablebeautywithwhichtoworshipyou,godofmyheart。Iftheritesareover,iftheflowershavefaded,letmethrowthemoutofthetemple[unveilinginheroriginalmaleattire]。Now,lookatyourworshipperwithgraciouseyes。 IamnotbeautifullyperfectastheflowerswithwhichI worshipped。Ihavemanyflawsandblemishes。Iamatravellerinthegreatworld—path,mygarmentsaredirty,andmyfeetarebleedingwiththorns。WhereshouldIachieveflower—beauty,theunsulliedlovelinessofamoment’slife?ThegiftthatIproudlybringyouistheheartofawoman。Herehaveallpainsandjoysgathered,thehopesandfearsandshamesofadaughterofthedust;herelovespringsupstrugglingtowardimmortallife。Hereinliesanimperfectionwhichyetisnobleandgrand。Iftheflower—serviceisfinished,mymaster,acceptthisasyourservantforthedaystocome! IamChitra,theking’sdaughter。PerhapsyouwillrememberthedaywhenawomancametoyouinthetempleofShiva,herbodyloadedwithornamentsandfinery。Thatshamelesswomancametocourtyouasthoughshewereaman。Yourejectedher;youdidwell。Mylord,Iamthatwoman。Shewasmydisguise。ThenbytheboonofgodsIobtainedforayearthemostradiantformthatamortaleverwore,andweariedmyhero’sheartwiththeburdenofthatdeceit。MostsurelyIamnotthatwoman。 IamChitra。Nogoddesstobeworshipped,noryettheobjectofcommonpitytobebrushedasidelikeamothwithindifference。Ifyoudeigntokeepmebyyoursideinthepathofdangeranddaring,ifyouallowmetosharethegreatdutiesofyourlife,thenyouwillknowmytrueself。Ifyourbabe,whomIamnourishinginmywombbebornason,IshallmyselfteachhimtobeasecondArjuna,andsendhimtoyouwhenthetimecomes,andthenatlastyouwilltrulyknowme。TodayIcanonlyofferyouChitra,thedaughterofaking。 ArjunaBeloved,mylifeisfull。