第10章

类别:其他 作者:John Galsworthy字数:11927更新时间:18/12/18 13:40:14
Fleur,leaningoutofherwindow,heardthehallclock’smuffledchimeoftwelve,thetinysplashofafish,thesuddenshakingofanaspen’sleavesinthepuffsofbreezethatrosealongtheriver,thedistantrumbleofanighttrain,andtimeandagainthesoundswhichnonecanputanametointhedarkness,softobscureexpressionsofuncataloguedemotionsfrommanandbeast,birdandmachine,or,maybe,fromdepartedForsytes,Darties,Cardigans,takingnightstrollsbackintoaworldwhichhadoncesuitedtheirembodiedspirits。ButFleurheedednotthesesounds;herspirit,farfromdisembodied,fledwithswiftwingfromrailway—carriagetofloweryhedge,strainingafterJon,tenaciousofhisforbiddenimage,andthesoundofhisvoice,whichwastaboo。Andshecrinkledhernose,retrievingfromtheperfumeoftheriversidenightthatmomentwhenhishandslippedbetweenthemayflowersandhercheek。Longsheleanedoutinherfreakdress,keentoburnherwingsatlife’scandle;whilethemothsbrushedhercheeksontheirpilgrimagetothelamponherdressing—table,ignorantthatinaForsyte’shousethereisnoopenflame。Butatlastevenshefeltsleepy,and,forgettingherbells,drewquicklyin。 Throughtheopenwindowofhisroom,alongsideAnnette’s,Soames,wakefultoo,heardtheirthinfainttinkle,asitmightbeshakenfromstars,orthedewdropsfallingfromaflower,ifonecouldhearsuchsounds。 ’Caprice!’hethought。’Ican’ttell。She’swilful。WhatshallI do?Fleur!’ Andlongintothe\"small\"nighthebrooded。 PARTII I MOTHERANDSON TosaythatJonForsyteaccompaniedhismothertoSpainunwillinglywouldscarcelyhavebeenadequate。Hewentasawell—natureddoggoesforawalkwithitsmistress,leavingachoicemutton—boneonthelawn。Hewentlookingbackatit。Forsytesdeprivedoftheirmutton—bonesarewonttosulk。ButJonhadlittlesulkinessinhiscomposition。Headoredhismother,anditwashisfirsttravel。 SpainhadbecomeItalybyhissimplysaying:\"I’drathergotoSpain,Mum;you’vebeentoItalysomanytimes;I’dlikeitnewtobothofus。\" Thefellowwassubtlebesidesbeingnaive。Heneverforgotthathewasgoingtoshortentheproposedtwomonthsintosixweeks,andmustthereforeshownosignofwishingtodoso。Foronewithsoenticingamutton—boneandsofixedanidea,hemadeagoodenoughtravellingcompanion,indifferenttowhereorwhenhearrived,superiortofood,andthoroughlyappreciativeofacountrystrangetothemosttravelledEnglishman。Fleur’swisdominrefusingtowritetohimwasprofound,forhereachedeachnewplaceentirelywithouthopeorfever,andcouldconcentrateimmediateattentiononthedonkeysandtumblingbells,thepriests,patios,beggars,children,crowingcocks,sombreros,cactus—hedges,oldhighwhitevillages,goats,olive—trees,greeningplains,singingbirdsintinycages,watersellers,sunsets,melons,mules,greatchurches,pictures,andswimminggrey—brownmountainsofafascinatingland。 Itwasalreadyhot,andtheyenjoyedanabsenceoftheircompatriots。 Jon,who,sofarasheknew,hadnobloodinhimwhichwasnotEnglish,wasofteninnatelyunhappyinthepresenceofhisowncountrymen。Hefelttheyhadnononsenseaboutthem,andtookamorepracticalviewofthingsthanhimself。Heconfidedtohismotherthathemustbeanunsociablebeast——itwasjollytobeawayfromeverybodywhocouldtalkaboutthethingspeopledidtalkabout。TowhichIrenehadrepliedsimply: \"Yes,Jon,Iknow。\" Inthisisolationhehadunparalleledopportunitiesofappreciatingwhatfewsonscanapprehend,thewhole—heartednessofamother’slove。Knowledgeofsomethingkeptfromhermadehim,nodoubt,undulysensitive;andaSouthernpeoplestimulatedhisadmirationforhertypeofbeauty,whichhehadbeenaccustomedtohearcalledSpanish,butwhichhenowperceivedtobenosuchthing。HerbeautywasneitherEnglish,French,Spanish,norItalian——itwasspecial! Heappreciated,too,asneverbefore,hismother’ssubtletyofinstinct。Hecouldnottell,forinstance,whethershehadnoticedhisabsorptioninthatGoyapicture,\"LaVendimia,\"orwhethersheknewthathehadslippedbackthereafterlunchandagainnextmorning,tostandbeforeitfullhalfanhour,asecondandthirdtime。ItwasnotFleur,ofcourse,butlikeenoughtogivehimheartache——sodeartolovers——rememberingherstandingatthefootofhisbedwithherhandheldaboveherhead。TokeepapostcardreproductionofthispictureinhispocketandslipitouttolookatbecameforJononeofthosebadhabitswhichsoonorlatedisclosethemselvestoeyessharpenedbylove,fear,orjealousy。Andhismother’sweresharpenedbyallthree。InGranadahewasfairlycaught,sittingonasun—warmedstonebenchinalittlebattlementedgardenontheAlhambrahill,whenceheoughttohavebeenlookingattheview。Hismother,hehadthought,wasexaminingthepottedstocksbetweenthepolledacacias,whenhervoicesaid: \"IsthatyourfavouriteGoya,Jon?\" Hechecked,toolate,amovementsuchashemighthavemadeatschooltoconcealsomesurreptitiousdocument,andanswered:\"Yes。\" \"Itcertainlyismostcharming;butIthinkIpreferthe’Quitasol’ YourfatherwouldgocrazyaboutGoya;Idon’tbelievehesawthemwhenhewasinSpainin’92。\" In’92——nineyearsbeforehehadbeenborn!Whathadbeenthepreviousexistencesofhisfatherandhismother?Iftheyhadarighttoshareinhisfuture,surelyhehadarighttoshareintheirpasts。Helookedupather。Butsomethinginherface——alookoflifehard—lived,themysteriousimpressofemotions,experience,andsuffering—seemed,withitsincalculabledepth,itspurchasedsanctity,tomakecuriosityimpertinent。Hismothermusthavehadawonderfullyinterestinglife;shewassobeautiful,andso——so——buthecouldnotframewhathefeltabouther。Hegotup,andstoodgazingdownatthetown,attheplainallgreenwithcrops,andtheringofmountainsglamorousinsinkingsunlight。HerlifewaslikethepastofthisoldMoorishcity,full,deep,remote——hisownlifeasyetsuchababyofathing,hopelesslyignorantandinnocent! TheysaidthatinthosemountainstotheWest,whichrosesheerfromtheblue—greenplain,asifoutofasea,Phoenicianshaddwelt——adark,strange,secretrace,abovetheland!Hismother’slifewasasunknowntohim,assecret,asthatPhoenicianpastwastothetowndownthere,whosecockscrowedandwhosechildrenplayedandclamouredsogaily,dayin,dayout。Hefeltaggrievedthatsheshouldknowallabouthimandhenothingaboutherexceptthatshelovedhimandhisfather,andwasbeautiful。Hiscallowignorance—— hehadnotevenhadtheadvantageoftheWar,likenearlyeverybodyelse!——madehimsmallinhisowneyes。 Thatnight,fromthebalconyofhisbedroom,hegazeddownontheroofofthetown——asifinlaidwithhoneycombofjet,ivory,andgold;and,longafter,helayawake,listeningtothecryofthesentryasthehoursstruck,andforminginhisheadtheselines: \"Voiceinthenightcrying,downintheoldsleepingSpanishcitydarkenedunderherwhitestars! Whatsaysthevoice—itsclear—lingeringanguish? Justthewatchman,tellinghisdatelesstaleofsafety? Justaroad—man,flingingtothemoonhissong? No!Tisonedeprived,whoselover’sheartisweeping,Justhiscry:’Howlong?’\" Theword\"deprived\"seemedtohimcoldandunsatisfactory,but\"bereaved\"wastoofinal,andnootherwordoftwosyllablesshort— longcametohim,whichwouldenablehimtokeep\"whoselover’sheartisweeping。\"Itwaspasttwobythetimehehadfinishedit,andpastthreebeforehewenttosleep,havingsaiditovertohimselfatleasttwenty—fourtimes。NextdayhewroteitoutandencloseditinoneofthoseletterstoFleurwhichhealwaysfinishedbeforehewentdown,soastohavehismindfreeandcompanionable。 Aboutnoonthatsameday,onthetiledterraceoftheirhotel,hefeltasuddendullpaininthebackofhishead,aqueersensationintheeyes,andsickness。Thesunhadtouchedhimtooaffectionately。 Thenextthreedayswerepassedinsemi—darkness,andadulled,achingindifferencetoallexceptthefeeloficeonhisforeheadandhismother’ssmile。Shenevermovedfromhisroom,neverrelaxedhernoiselessvigilance,whichseemedtoJonangelic。Butthereweremomentswhenhewasextremelysorryforhimself,andwishedterriblythatFleurcouldseehim。Severaltimeshetookapoignantimaginaryleaveofherandoftheearth,tearsoozingoutofhiseyes。Heevenpreparedthemessagehewouldsendtoherbyhismother——whowouldregrettoherdyingdaythatshehadeversoughttoseparatethem—— hispoormother!Hewasnotslow,however,inperceivingthathehadnowhisexcuseforgoinghome。 Towardhalf—pastsixeacheveningcamea\"gasgacha\"ofbells——acascadeoftumblingchimes,mountingfromthecitybelowandfallingbackchimeonchime。Afterlisteningtothemonthefourthdayhesaidsuddenly: \"I’dliketobebackinEngland,Mum,thesun’stoohot。\" \"Verywell,darling。Assoonasyou’refittotravel\"Andatoncehefeltbetter,and——meaner。 Theyhadbeenoutfiveweekswhentheyturnedtowardhome。Jon’sheadwasrestoredtoitspristineclarity,buthewasconfinedtoahatlinedbyhismotherwithmanylayersoforangeandgreensilkandhestillwalkedfromchoiceintheshade。Asthelongstruggleofdiscretionbetweenthemdrewtoitsclose,hewonderedmoreandmorewhethershecouldseehiseagernesstogetbacktothatwhichshehadbroughthimawayfrom。CondemnedbySpanishProvidencetospendadayinMadridbetweentheirtrains,itwasbutnaturaltogoagaintothePrado。JonwaselaboratelycasualthistimebeforehisGoyagirl。Nowthathewasgoingbacktoher,hecouldaffordalesserscrutiny。Itwashismotherwholingeredbeforethepicture,saying: \"Thefaceandthefigureofthegirlareexquisite。\" Jonheardheruneasily。Didsheunderstand?Buthefeltoncemorethathewasnomatchforherinself—controlandsubtlety。Shecould,insomesupersensitiveway,ofwhichhehadnotthesecret,feelthepulseofhisthoughts;sheknewbyinstinctwhathehopedandfearedandwished。Itmadehimterriblyuncomfortableandguilty,having,beyondmostboys,aconscience。Hewishedshewouldbefrankwithhim,healmosthopedforanopenstruggle。Butnonecame,andsteadily,silently,theytravellednorth。Thusdidhefirstlearnhowmuchbetterthanmenwomenplayawaitinggame。InParistheyhadagaintopauseforaday。Jonwasgrievedbecauseitlastedtwo,owingtocertainmattersinconnectionwithadressmaker; asifhismother,wholookedbeautifulinanything,hadanyneedofdresses!ThehappiestmomentofhistravelwasthatwhenhesteppedontotheFolkestoneboat。 Standingbythebulwarkrail,withherarminhis,shesaid\"I’mafraidyouhaven’tenjoyeditmuch,Jon。Butyou’vebeenverysweettome。\" Jonsqueezedherarm。 \"OhIyes,I’veenjoyeditawfully—exceptformyheadlately。\" Andnowthattheendhadcome,hereallyhad,feelingasortofglamouroverthepastweeks——akindofpainfulpleasure,suchashehadtriedtoscrewintothoselinesaboutthevoiceinthenightcrying;afeelingsuchashehadknownasasmallboylisteningavidlytoChopin,yetwantingtocry。Andhewonderedwhyitwasthathecouldn’tsaytoherquitesimplywhatshehadsaidtohim: \"Youwereverysweettome。\"Odd——onenevercouldbeniceandnaturallikethat!Hesubstitutedthewords:\"Iexpectweshallbesick。\" Theywere,andreachedLondonsomewhatattenuated,havingbeenawaysixweeksandtwodays,withoutasingleallusiontothesubjectwhichhadhardlyeverceasedtooccupytheirminds。 II FATHERSANDDAUGHTERS DeprivedofhiswifeandsonbytheSpanishadventure,JolyonfoundthesolitudeatRobinHillintolerable。Aphilosopherwhenhehasallthathewantsisdifferentfromaphilosopherwhenhehasnot。 Accustomed,however,totheidea,ifnottotherealityofresignation,hewouldperhapshavefaceditoutbutforhisdaughterJune。Hewasa\"lameduck\"now,andonherconscience。Havingachieved——momentarily——therescueofanetcherinlowcircumstances,whichshehappenedtohaveinhand,sheappearedatRobinHillafortnightafterIreneandJonhadgone。JunewaslivingnowinatinyhousewithabigstudioatChiswick。AForsyteofthebestperiod,sofarasthelackofresponsibilitywasconcerned,shehadovercomethedifficultyofareducedincomeinamannersatisfactorytoherselfandherfather。TherentoftheGalleryoffCorkStreetwhichhehadboughtforherandherincreasedincometaxhappeningtobalance,ithadbeenquitesimpl——shenolongerpaidhimtherent。 TheGallerymightbeexpectednowatanytime,aftereighteenyearsofbarrenusufruct,topayitsway,sothatshewassureherfatherwouldnotfeelit。Throughthisdeviceshestillhadtwelvehundredayear,andbyreducingwhatsheate,and,inplaceoftwoBelgiansinapoorway,employingoneAustrianinapoorer,practicallythesamesurplusforthereliefofgenius。AfterthreedaysatRobinHillshecarriedherfatherbackwithhertoTown。Inthosethreedaysshehadstumbledonthesecrethehadkeptfortwoyears,andhadinstantlydecidedtocurehim。Sheknew,infact,theveryman。 Hehaddonewonderswith。PaulPost——thatpainteralittleinadvanceofFuturism;andshewasimpatientwithherfatherbecausehiseyebrowswouldgoup,andbecausehehadheardofneither。Ofcourse,ifhehadn’t\"faith\"hewouldnevergetwell!ItwasabsurdnottohavefaithinthemanwhohadhealedPaulPostsothathehadonlyjustrelapsed,fromhavingoverworked,oroverlived,himselfagain。ThegreatthingaboutthishealerwasthathereliedonNature。HehadmadeaspecialstudyofthesymptomsofNature——whenhispatientfailedinanynaturalsymptomhesuppliedthepoisonwhichcausedit——andthereyouwere!Shewasextremelyhopeful。HerfatherhadclearlynotbeenlivinganaturallifeatRobinHill,andsheintendedtoprovidethesymptoms。Hewas——shefelt——outoftouchwiththetimes,whichwasnotnatural;hisheartwantedstimulating。 InthelittleChiswickhousesheandtheAustrian——agratefulsoul,sodevotedtoJuneforrescuingherthatshewasindangerofdeceasefromoverwork——stimulatedJolyoninallsortsofways,preparinghimforhiscure。Buttheycouldnotkeephiseyebrowsdown;as,forexample,whentheAustrianwokehimateighto’clockjustashewasgoingtosleep,orJunetookTheTimesawayfromhim,becauseitwasunnaturaltoread\"thatstuff\"whenheoughttobetakinganinterestin\"life。\"Heneverfailed,indeed,tobeastonishedatherresource,especiallyintheevenings。Forhisbenefit,asshedeclared,thoughhesuspectedthatshealsogotsomethingoutofit,sheassembledtheAgesofarasitwassatellitetogenius;andwithsomesolemnityitwouldmoveupanddownthestudiobeforehimintheFox—trot,andthatmorementalformofdancing——theOne—step——whichsopulledagainstthemusic,thatJolyon’seyebrowswouldbealmostlostinhishairfromwonderatthestrainitmustimposeonthedancer’swill—power。Awarethat,hungonthelineintheWaterColourSociety,hewasabacknumbertothosewithanypretensiontobecalledartists,hewouldsitinthedarkestcornerhecouldfind,andwonderaboutrhythm,onwhichsolongagohehadbeenraised。 AndwhenJunebroughtsomegirloryoungmanuptohim,hewouldrisehumblytotheirlevelsofarasthatwaspossible,andthink:’Dearme!Thisisverydullforthem!’Havinghisfather’sperennialsympathywithYouth,heusedtogetverytiredfromenteringintotheirpointsofview。Butitwasallstimulating,andheneverfailedinadmirationofhisdaughter’sindomitablespirit。Evengeniusitselfattendedthesegatheringsnowandthen,withitsnoseononeside;andJunealwaysintroducedittoherfather。This,shefelt,wasexceptionallygoodforhim,forgeniuswasanaturalsymptomhehadneverhad——fondasshewasofhim。 Certainasamancanbethatshewashisowndaughter,heoftenwonderedwhenceshegotherself——herred—goldhair,nowgreyedintoaspecialcolour;herdirect,spiritedface,sodifferentfromhisownratherfoldedandsubtilisedcountenance,herlittlelithefigure,whenheandmostoftheForsytesweretall。Andhewoulddwellontheoriginofspecies,anddebatewhethershemightbeDanishorCeltic。Celtic,hethought,fromherpugnacity,andhertasteinfilletsanddjibbahs。ItwasnottoomuchtosaythathepreferredhertotheAgewithwhichshewassurrounded,youthfulthough,forthegreaterpart,itwas。Shetook,however,toomuchinterestinhisteeth,forhestillhadsomeofthosenaturalsymptoms。Herdentistatoncefound\"Staphylococcusaureuspresentinpureculture\" (whichmightcauseboils,ofcourse),andwantedtotakeoutalltheteethhehadandsupplyhimwithtwocompletesetsofunnaturalsymptoms。Jolyon’snativetenacitywasroused,andinthestudiothateveninghedevelopedhisobjections。Hehadneverhadanyboils,andhisownteethwouldlasthistime。Ofcourse——Juneadmitted——theywouldlasthistimeifhedidn’thavethemout!Butifhehadmoreteethhewouldhaveabetterheartandhistimewouldbelonger。Hisrecalcitrance——shesaid——wasasymptomofhiswholeattitude;hewastakingitlyingdown。Heoughttobefighting。 WhenwashegoingtoseethemanwhohadcuredPaulPost?Jolyonwasverysorry,butthefactwashewasnotgoingtoseehim。Junechafed。Pondridge——shesaid——thehealer,wassuchafineman,andhehadsuchdifficultyinmakingtwoendsmeet,andgettinghistheoriesrecognised。Itwasjustsuchindifferenceandprejudiceasherfathermanifestedwhichwaskeepinghimback。Itwouldbesosplendidforbothofthem! \"Iperceive,\"saidJolyon,\"thatyouaretryingtokilltwobirdswithonestone。\" \"Tocure,youmean!\"criedJune。 \"Mydear,it’sthesamething。\" Juneprotested。Itwasunfairtosaythatwithoutatrial。 Jolyonthoughthemightnothavethechance,ofsayingitafter。 \"Dad!\"criedJune,\"you’rehopeless。\" \"That,\"saidJolyon,\"isafact,butIwishtoremainhopelessaslongaspossible。Ishallletsleepingdogslie,mychild。Theyarequietatpresent。\" \"That’snotgivingscienceachance,\"criedJune。\"You’venoideahowdevotedPondridgeis。Heputshissciencebeforeeverything。\" \"Just,\"repliedJolyon,puffingthemildcigarettetowhichhewasreduced,\"asMr。PaulPostputshisart,eh?ArtforArt’ssake—— ScienceforthesakeofScience。Iknowthoseenthusiasticegomaniacgentry。Theyvivisectyouwithoutblinking。I’menoughofaForsytetogivethemthego—by,June。\" \"Dad,\"saidJune,\"ifyouonlyknewhowold—fashionedthatsounds! Nobodycanaffordtobehalf—heartednowadays。\" \"I’mafraid,\"murmuredJolyon,withhissmile,\"that’stheonlynaturalsymptomwithwhichMr。Pondridgeneednotsupplyme。Weareborntobeextremeortobemoderate,mydear;though,ifyou’llforgivemysayingso,halfthepeoplenowadayswhobelievethey’reextremearereallyverymoderate。I’mgettingonaswellasIcanexpect,andImustleaveitatthat。\" Junewassilent,havingexperiencedinhertimetheinexorablecharacterofherfather’samiableobstinacysofarashisownfreedomofactionwasconcerned。 HowhecametoletherknowwhyIrenehadtakenJontoSpainpuzzledJolyon,forhehadlittleconfidenceinherdiscretion。Aftershehadbroodedonthenews,itbroughtarathersharpdiscussion,duringwhichheperceivedtothefullthefundamentaloppositionbetweenheractivetemperamentandhiswife’spassivity。Heevengatheredthatalittlesorenessstillremainedfromthatgeneration—oldstrugglebetweenthemoverthebodyofPhilipBosinney,inwhichthepassivehadsosignallytriumphedovertheactiveprinciple。 AccordingtoJune,itwasfoolishandevencowardlytohidethepastfromJon。Sheeropportunism,shecalledit。 \"Which,\"Jolyonputinmildly,\"istheworkingprincipleofreallife,mydear。\" \"Oh!\"criedJune,\"youdon’treallydefendherfornottellingJon,Dad。Ifitwerelefttoyou,youwould。\" \"Imight,butsimplybecauseIknowhemustfindout,whichwillbeworsethanifwetoldhim。\" \"Thenwhydon’tyoutellhim?It’sjustsleepingdogsagain。\" \"Mydear,\"saidJolyon,\"Iwouldn’tfortheworldgoagainstIrene’sinstinct。He’sherboy。\" \"Yourstoo,\"criedJune。 \"Whatisaman’sinstinctcomparedwithamother’s?\" \"Well,Ithinkit’sveryweakofyou。\" \"Idaresay,\"saidJolyon,\"Idaresay。\" Andthatwasallshegotfromhim;butthematterrankledinherbrain。Shecouldnotbearsleepingdogs。Andtherestirredinheratortuousimpulsetopushthemattertowarddecision。Jonoughttobetold,sothateitherhisfeelingmightbenippedinthebud,or,floweringinspiteofthepast,cometofruition。AndshedeterminedtoseeFleur,andjudgeforherself。WhenJunedeterminedonanything,delicacybecameasomewhatminorconsideration。Afterall,shewasSoames’cousin,andtheywerebothinterestedinpictures。 ShewouldgoandtellhimthatheoughttobuyaPaulPost,orperhapsapieceofsculpturebyBorisStrumolowski,andofcourseshewouldsaynothingtoherfather。ShewentonthefollowingSunday,lookingsodeterminedthatshehadsomedifficultyingettingacabatReadingstation。Therivercountrywaslovelyinthosedaysofherownmonth,andJuneachedatitsloveliness。Shewhohadpassedthroughthislifewithoutknowingwhatunionwashadaloveofnaturalbeautywhichwasalmostmadness。AndwhenshecametothatchoicespotwhereSoameshadpitchedhistent,shedismissedhercab,because,businessover,shewantedtorevelinthebrightwaterandthewoods。Sheappearedathisfrontdoor,therefore,asamerepedestrian,andsentinhercard。ItwasinJune’scharactertoknowthatwhenhernerveswereflutteringshewasdoingsomethingworthwhile。Ifone’snervesdidnotflutter,shewastakingthelineofleastresistance,andknewthatnoblenesswasnotobligingher。Shewasconductedtoadrawing—room,which,thoughnotinherstyle,showedeverymarkoffastidiouselegance。Thinking,’Toomuchtaste— —toomanyknick—knacks,’shesawinanoldlacquer—framedmirrorthefigureofagirlcominginfromtheverandah。Clothedinwhite,andholdingsomewhiterosesinherhand,shehad,reflectedinthatsilvery—greypoolofglass,avision—likeappearance,asifaprettyghosthadcomeoutofthegreengarden。 \"Howdoyoudo?\"saidJune,turninground。\"I’macousinofyourfather’s。\" \"Oh,yes;Isawyouinthatconfectioner’s。\" \"Withmyyoungstepbrother。Isyourfatherin?\" \"Hewillbedirectly。He’sonlygoneforalittlewalk。\" Juneslightlynarrowedherblueeyes,andliftedherdecidedchin。 \"Yourname’sFleur,isn’tit?I’veheardofyoufromHolly。WhatdoyouthinkofJon?\" Thegirlliftedtherosesinherhand,lookedatthem,andansweredcalmly: \"He’squiteaniceboy。\" \"NotabitlikeHollyorme,ishe?\" \"Notabit。\" ’She’scool,’thoughtJune。 Andsuddenlythegirlsaid:\"Iwishyou’dtellmewhyourfamiliesdon’tgeton?\" Confrontedwiththequestionshehadadvisedherfathertoanswer,Junewassilent;whetherbecausethisgirlwastryingtogetsomethingoutofher,orsimplybecausewhatonewoulddotheoreticallyisnotalwayswhatonewilldowhenitcomestothepoint。 \"Youknow,\"saidthegirl,\"thesurestwaytomakepeoplefindouttheworstistokeepthemignorant。Myfather’stoldmeitwasaquarrelaboutproperty。ButIdon’tbelieveit;we’vebothgotheaps。Theywouldn’thavebeensobourgeoisasallthat。\" Juneflushed。Thewordappliedtohergrandfatherandfatheroffendedher。 \"Mygrandfather,\"shesaid,\"wasverygenerous,andmyfatheris,too;neitherofthemwasintheleastbourgeois。\" \"Well,whatwasitthen?\"repeatedthegirl:ConsciousthatthisyoungForsytemeanthavingwhatshewanted,Juneatoncedeterminedtopreventher,andtogetsomethingforherselfinstead。 \"Whydoyouwanttoknow?\" Thegirlsmelledatherroses。\"Ionlywanttoknowbecausetheywon’ttellme。\" \"Well,itwasaboutproperty,butthere’smorethanonekind。\" \"Thatmakesitworse。NowIreallymustknow。\" June’ssmallandresolutefacequivered。Shewaswearingaroundcap,andherhairhadfluffedoutunderit。Shelookedquiteyoungatthatmoment,rejuvenatedbyencounter。 \"Youknow,\"shesaid,\"Isawyoudropyourhandkerchief。IsthereanythingbetweenyouandJon?Because,ifso,you’dbetterdropthattoo。\" Thegirlgrewpaler,butshesmiled。 \"Iftherewere,thatisn’tthewaytomakeme。\" Atthegallantryofthatreply,Juneheldoutherhand。 \"Ilikeyou;butIdon’tlikeyourfather;Ineverhave。Wemayaswellbefrank。\" \"Didyoucomedowntotellhimthat?\" Junelaughed。\"No;Icamedowntoseeyou。\" \"Howdelightfulofyou。\" Thisgirlcouldfence。 \"I’mtwoandahalftimesyourage,\"saidJune,\"butIquitesympathize。It’shorridnottohaveone’sownway。\" Thegirlsmiledagain。\"Ireallythinkyoumighttellme。\" Howthechildstucktoherpoint\"It’snotmysecret。ButI’llseewhatIcando,becauseIthinkbothyouandJonoughttobetold。AndnowI’llsaygood—bye。\" \"Won’tyouwaitandseeFather?\" Juneshookherhead。\"HowcanIgetovertotheotherside?\" \"I’llrowyouacross。\" \"Look!\"saidJuneimpulsively,\"nexttimeyou’reinLondon,comeandseeme。ThisiswhereIlive。Igenerallyhaveyoungpeopleintheevening。ButIshouldn’ttellyourfatherthatyou’recoming。\" Thegirlnodded。 Watchinghersculltheskiffacross,Junethought:’She’sawfullyprettyandwellmade。IneverthoughtSoameswouldhaveadaughterasprettyasthis。SheandJonwouldmakealovelycouple。 Theinstincttocouple,starvedwithinherself,wasalwaysatworkinJune。ShestoodwatchingFleurrowback;thegirltookherhandoffasculltowavefarewell,andJunewalkedlanguidlyonbetweenthemeadowsandtheriver,withanacheinherheart。Youthtoyouth,likethedragon—flieschasingeachother,andlovelikethesunwarmingthemthroughandthrough。Heryouth!Solongago——whenPhilandshe——Andsince?Nothing——noonehadbeenquitewhatshehadwanted。Andsoshehadmisseditall。Butwhatacoilwasroundthosetwoyoungthings,iftheyreallywereinlove,asHollywouldhaveit——asherfather,andIrene,andSoameshimselfseemedtodread。Whatacoil,andwhatabarrier!Andtheitchforthefuture,thecontempt,asitwere,forwhatwasoverpast,whichformstheactiveprinciple,movedintheheartofonewhoeverbelievedthatwhatonewantedwasmoreimportantthanwhatotherpeopledidnotwant。Fromthebank,awhile,inthewarmsummerstillness,shewatchedthewater—lilyplantsandwillowleaves,thefishesrising; sniffedthescentofgrassandmeadow—sweet,wonderinghowshecouldforceeverybodytobehappy。JonandFleur!Twolittlelameducks—— charmingcallowyellowlittleducks!Agreatpity!Surelysomethingcouldbedone!Onemustnottakesuchsituationslyingdown。Shewalkedon,andreachedastation,hotandcross。 Thatevening,faithfultotheimpulsetowarddirectaction,whichmademanypeopleavoidher,shesaidtoherfather: \"Dad,I’vebeendowntoseeyoungFleur。Ithinkshe’sveryattractive。It’snogoodhidingourheadsunderourwings,isit?\" ThestartledJolyonsetdownhisbarley—water,andbegancrumblinghisbread。 \"It’swhatyouappeartobedoing,\"hesaid。\"Doyourealisewhosedaughtersheis?\" \"Can’tthedeadpastburyitsdead?\" Jolyonrose。 \"Certainthingscanneverbeburied。\" \"Idisagree,\"saidJune。\"It’sthatwhichstandsinthewayofallhappinessandprogress。Youdon’tunderstandtheAge,Dad。It’sgotnouseforoutgrownthings。WhydoyouthinkitmatterssoterriblythatJonshouldknowabouthismother?Whopaysanyattentiontothatsortofthingnow?ThemarriagelawsarejustastheywerewhenSoamesandIrenecouldn’tgetadivorce,andyouhadtocomein。