Theremarkwassosingularlyatvariancewithallshehadledhimtoexpectfromher,thatStrumolowskistretchedouthishandandtookacigarette。
\"Englandneverwantsanidealist,\"hesaid。
ButinJunesomethingprimitivelyEnglishwasthoroughlyupset;oldJolyon’ssenseofjusticehadrisen,asitwere,frombed。\"Youcomeandspongeonus,\"shesaid,\"andthenabuseus。Ifyouthinkthat’splayingthegame,Idon’t。\"
Shenowdiscoveredthatwhichothershaddiscoveredbeforeher——thethicknessofhidebeneathwhichthesensibilityofgeniusissometimesveiled。Strumolowski’syoungandingenuousfacebecametheincarnationofasneer。
\"Sponge,onedoesnotsponge,onetakeswhatisowing——atenthpartofwhatisowing。Youwillrepenttosaythat,MissForsyte。\"
\"Oh,no,\"saidJune,\"Ishan’t。\"
\"Ah!Weknowverywell,weartists——youtakeustogetwhatyoucanoutofus。Iwantnothingfromyou\"——andheblewoutacloudofJune’ssmoke。
Decisionroseinanicypufffromtheturmoilofinsultedshamewithinher。\"Verywell,then,youcantakeyourthingsaway。\"
And,almostinthesamemoment,shethought:’Poorboy!He’sonlygotagarret,andprobablynotataxifare。Infrontofthesepeople,too;it’spositivelydisgusting!’
YoungStrumolowskishookhisheadviolently;hishair,thick,smooth,closeasagoldenplate,didnotfalloff。
\"Icanliveonnothing,\"hesaidshrilly;\"IhaveoftenhadtoforthesakeofmyArt。Itisyoubourgeoiswhoforceustospendmoney。\"
ThewordshitJunelikeapebble,intheribs。AfterallshehaddoneforArt,allheridentificationwithitstroublesandlameducks。Shewasstrugglingforadequatewordswhenthedoorwasopened,andherAustrianmurmured:
\"Ayounglady,gnadigesFraulein。\"
\"Where?\"
\"Inthelittlemeal—room。\"
WithaglanceatBorisStrumolowski,atHannahHobdey,atJimmyPortugal,Junesaidnothing,andwentout,devoidofequanimity。
Enteringthe\"littlemeal—room,\"sheperceivedtheyoungladytobeFleur——lookingverypretty,ifpale。AtthisdisenchantedmomentalittlelameduckofherownbreedwaswelcometoJune,sohomoeopathicbyinstinct。
Thegirlmusthavecome,ofcourse,becauseofJon;or,ifnot,atleasttogetsomethingoutofher。AndJunefeltjustthenthattoassistsomebodywastheonlybearablething。
\"Soyou’verememberedtocome,\"shesaid。
\"Yes。Whatajollylittleduckofahouse!Butpleasedon’tletmebotheryou,ifyou’vegotpeople。\"
\"Notatall,\"saidJune。\"Iwanttoletthemstewintheirownjuiceforabit。HaveyoucomeaboutJon?\"
\"Yousaidyouthoughtweoughttobetold。Well,I’vefoundout。\"
\"Oh!\"saidJuneblankly。\"Notnice,isit?\"
TheywerestandingoneoneachsideofthelittlebaretableatwhichJunetookhermeals。AvaseonitwasfullofIcelandpoppies;thegirlraisedherhandandtouchedthemwithaglovedfinger。Tohernew—fangleddress,frillyaboutthehipsandtightbelowtheknees,Junetookasuddenliking——acharmingcolour,flax—blue。
’Shemakesapicture,’thoughtJune。Herlittleroom,withitswhitewashedwalls,itsfloorandhearthofoldpinkbrick,itsblackpaint,andlatticedwindowathwartwhichthelastofthesunlightwasshining,hadneverlookedsocharming,setoffbythisyoungfigure,withthecreamy,slightlyfrowningface。SherememberedwithsuddenvividnesshownicesheherselfhadlookedinthoseolddayswhenherheartwassetonPhilipBosinney,thatdeadlover,whohadbrokenfromhertodestroyforeverIrene’sallegiancetothisgirl’sfather。DidFleurknowofthat,too?
\"Well,\"shesaid,\"whatareyougoingtodo?\"
ItwassomesecondsbeforeFleuranswered。
\"Idon’twantJontosuffer。Imustseehimoncemoretoputanendtoit。\"
\"You’regoingtoputanendtoit!\"
\"Whatelseistheretodo?\"
ThegirlseemedtoJune,suddenly,intolerablyspiritless。
\"Isupposeyou’reright,\"shemuttered。\"Iknowmyfatherthinksso;
but——Ishouldneverhavedoneitmyself。Ican’ttakethingslyingdown。\"
Howpoisedandwatchfulthatgirllooked;howunemotionalhervoicesounded!
\"PeoplewillassumethatI’minlove。\"
\"Well,aren’tyou?\"
Fleurshruggedhershoulders。’Imighthaveknownit,’thoughtJune;
’she’sSoames’daughter——fish!Andyet——he!’
\"Whatdoyouwantmetodothen?\"shesaidwithasortofdisgust。
\"CouldIseeJonhereto—morrowonhiswaydowntoHolly’s?He’dcomeifyousenthimalineto—night。Andperhapsafterwardyou’dletthemknowquietlyatRobinHillthatit’sallover,andthattheyneedn’ttellJonabouthismother。\"
\"Allright!\"saidJuneabruptly。\"I’llwritenow,andyoucanpostit。Half—pasttwotomorrow。Ishan’tbein,myself。\"
Shesatdownatthetinybureauwhichfilledonecorner。WhenshelookedroundwiththefinishednoteFleurwasstilltouchingthepoppieswithherglovedfinger。
Junelickedastamp。\"Well,hereitis。Ifyou’renotinlove,ofcourse,there’snomoretobesaid。Jon’slucky。\"
Fleurtookthenote。\"Thanksawfully!\"
’Cold—bloodedlittlebaggage!’thoughtJune。Jon,sonofherfather,tolove,andnottobelovedbythedaughterof——Soames!Itwashumiliating!
\"Isthatall?\"
Fleurnodded;herfrillsshookandtrembledassheswayedtowardthedoor。
\"Good—bye!\"
\"Good—bye!……Littlepieceoffashion!\"mutteredJune,closingthedoor。\"Thatfamily!\"Andshemarchedbacktowardherstudio。BorisStrumolowskihadregainedhisChrist—likesilenceandJimmyPortugalwasdamningeverybody,exceptthegroupinwhosebehalfherantheNeo—Artist。AmongthecondemnedwereEricCobbley,andseveralother\"lame—duck\"geniiwhoatonetimeoranotherhadheldfirstplaceintherepertoireofJune’saidandadoration。Sheexperiencedasenseoffutilityanddisgust,andwenttothewindowtolettheriver—windblowthosesqueakywordsaway。
ButwhenatlengthJimmyPortugalhadfinished,andgonewithHannahHobdey,shesatdownandmotheredyoungStrumolowskiforhalfanhour,promisinghimamonth,atleast,oftheAmericanstream;sothathewentawaywithhishaloinperfectorder。’Inspiteofall,’
Junethought,’Borisiswonderful’
VIII
THEBITBETWEENTHETEETH
Toknowthatyourhandisagainsteveryone’sis——forsomenatures——
toexperienceasenseofmoralrelease。FleurfeltnoremorsewhensheleftJune’shouse。Readingcondemnatoryresentmentinherlittlekinswoman’sblueeyes—shewasgladthatshehadfooledher,despisingJunebecausethatelderlyidealisthadnotseenwhatshewasafter。
Endit,forsooth!Shewouldsoonshowthemallthatshewasonlyjustbeginning。AndshesmiledtoherselfonthetopofthebuswhichcarriedherbacktoMayfair。Butthesmiledied,squeezedoutbyspasmsofanticipationandanxiety。WouldshebeabletomanageJon?Shehadtakenthebitbetweenherteeth,butcouldshemakehimtakeittoo?Sheknewthetruthandtherealdangerofdelay——heknewneither;thereinlayallthedifferenceintheworld。
’SupposeItellhim,’shethought;’wouldn’titreallybesafer?’
Thishideousluckhadnorighttospoiltheirlove;hemustseethat!
Theycouldnotletit!Peoplealwaysacceptedanaccomplishedfactintime!Fromthatpieceofphilosophy——profoundenoughatherage——
shepassedtoanotherconsiderationlessphilosophic。IfshepersuadedJontoaquickandsecretmarriage,andhefoundoutafterwardthatshehadknownthetruth。Whatthen?Jonhatedsubterfuge。Again,then,woulditnotbebettertotellhim?Butthememoryofhismother’sfacekeptintrudingonthatimpulse。
Fleurwasafraid。Hismotherhadpoweroverhim;morepowerperhapsthansheherself。Whocouldtell?Itwastoogreatarisk。Deep—
sunkintheseinstinctivecalculationsshewascarriedonpastGreenStreetasfarastheRitzHotel。Shegotdownthere,andwalkedbackontheGreenParkside。Thestormhadwashedeverytree;theystilldripped。Heavydropsfellontoherfrills,andtoavoidthemshecrossedoverundertheeyesoftheIseeumClub。ChancingtolookupshesawMonsieurProfondwithatallstoutmaninthebaywindow。
TurningintoGreenStreetsheheardhernamecalled,andsaw\"thatprowler\"comingup。Hetookoffhishat——aglossy\"bowler\"suchassheparticularlydetested。
\"Goodevenin’!MissForsyde。Isn’tthereasmallthingIcandoforyou?\"
\"Yes,passbyontheotherside。\"
\"Isay!Whydoyoudislikeme?\"
\"DoI?\"
\"Itlookslikeit。\"
\"Well,then,becauseyoumakemefeellifeisn’tworthliving。\"
MonsieurProfondsmiled。
\"Lookhere,MissForsyde,don’tworry。It’llbeallright。Nothinglasts。\"
\"Thingsdolast,\"criedFleur;\"withmeanyhow——especiallylikesanddislikes。\"
\"Well,thatmakesmeabitun’appy。\"
\"Ishouldhavethoughtnothingcouldevermakeyouhappyorunhappy。\"
\"Idon’tliketoannoyotherpeople。I’mgoin’onmyyacht。\"
Fleurlookedathim,startled。
\"Where?\"
\"SmallvoyagetotheSouthSeasorsomewhere,\"saidMonsieurProfond。
Fleursufferedreliefandasenseofinsult。Clearlyhemeanttoconveythathewasbreakingwithhermother。Howdaredhehaveanythingtobreak,andyethowdaredhebreakit?
\"Good—night,MissForsyde!RemembermetoMrs。Dartie。I’mnotsobadreally。Good—night!\"Fleurlefthimstandingtherewithhishatraised。Stealingalookround,shesawhimstroll——immaculateandheavy——backtowardhisClub。
’Hecan’tevenlovewithconviction,’shethought。’WhatwillMotherdo?’
Herdreamsthatnightwereendlessanduneasy;sheroseheavyandunrested,andwentatoncetothestudyofWhitaker’sAlmanac。A
Forsyteisinstinctivelyawarethatfactsaretherealcruxofanysituation。ShemightconquerJon’sprejudice,butwithoutexactmachinerytocompletetheirdesperateresolve,nothingwouldhappen。
>Fromtheinvaluabletomeshelearnedthattheymusteachbetwenty—
one;orsomeone’sconsentwouldbenecessary,whichofcoursewasunobtainable;thenshebecamelostindirectionsconcerninglicenses,certificates,notices,districts,comingfinallytotheword\"perjury。\"Butthatwasnonsense!Whowouldreallymindtheirgivingwrongagesinordertobemarriedforlove!Sheatehardlyanybreakfast,andwentbacktoWhitaker。Themoreshestudiedthelesssureshebecame;till,idlyturningthepages,shecametoScotland。Peoplecouldbemarriedtherewithoutanyofthisnonsense。Shehadonlytogoandstaytheretwenty—onedays,thenJoncouldcome,andinfrontoftwopeopletheycoulddeclarethemselvesmarried。Andwhatwasmore——theywouldbe!Itwasfarthebestway;andatoncesheranoverherschoolfellows。TherewasMaryLambewholivedinEdinburghandwas\"quiteasport!\"
Shehadabrothertoo。ShecouldstaywithMaryLambe,whowithherbrotherwouldserveforwitnesses。Shewellknewthatsomegirlswouldthinkallthisunnecessary,andthatallsheandJonneeddowastogoawaytogetherforaweekendandthensaytotheirpeople:
\"WearemarriedbyNature,wemustnowbemarriedbyLaw。\"ButFleurwasForsyteenoughtofeelsuchaproceedingdubious,andtodreadherfather’sfacewhenheheardofit。Besides,shedidnotbelievethatJonwoulddoit;hehadanopinionofhersuchasshecouldnotbeartodiminish。No!MaryLambewaspreferable,anditwasjustthetimeofyeartogotoScotland。Moreateasenowshepacked,avoidedheraunt,andtookabustoChiswick。Shewastooearly,andwentontoKewGardens。Shefoundnopeaceamongitsflower—beds,labelledtrees,andbroadgreenspaces,andhavinglunchedoffanchovy—pastesandwichesandcoffee,returnedtoChiswickandrangJune’sbell。TheAustrianadmittedhertothe\"littlemeal—room。\"
NowthatsheknewwhatsheandJonwereupagainst,herlongingforhimhadincreasedtenfold,asifhewereatoywithsharpedgesordangerouspaintsuchastheyhadtriedtotakefromherasachild。
Ifshecouldnothaveherway,andgetJonforgoodandall,shefeltlikedyingofprivation。Byhookorcrookshemustandwouldgethim!Arounddimmirrorofveryoldglasshungoverthepinkbrickhearth。Shestoodlookingatherselfreflectedinit,pale,andratherdarkundertheeyes;littleshudderskeptpassingthroughhernerves。Thensheheardthebellring,and,stealingtothewindow,sawhimstandingonthedoorstepsmoothinghishairandlips,asifhetooweretryingtosubduetheflutteringofhisnerves。
Shewassittingononeofthetworush—seatedchairs,withherbacktothedoor,whenhecamein,andshesaidatonce\"Sitdown,Jon,Iwanttotalkseriously。\"
Jonsatonthetablebyherside,andwithoutlookingathimshewenton:
\"Ifyoudon’twanttoloseme,wemustgetmarried。\"
Jongasped。
\"Why?Isthereanythingnew?\"
\"No,butIfeltitatRobinHill,andamongmypeople。\"
\"But——\"stammeredJon,\"atRobinHill——itwasallsmooth——andthey’vesaidnothingtome。\"
\"Buttheymeantostopus。Yourmother’sfacewasenough。Andmyfather’s。\"
\"Haveyouseenhimsince?\"
Fleurnodded。Whatmatteredafewsupplementarylies?
\"But,\"saidJoneagerly,\"Ican’tseehowtheycanfeellikethatafteralltheseyears。\"
Fleurlookedupathim。
\"Perhapsyoudon’tlovemeenough。\"
\"Notloveyouenough!Why——!\"
\"Thenmakesureofme。\"
\"Withouttellingthem?\"
\"Nottillafter。\"
Jonwassilent。Howmucholderhelookedthanonthatday,barelytwomonthsago,whenshefirstsawhim——quitetwoyearsolder!
\"ItwouldhurtMotherawfully,\"hesaid。
Fleurdrewherhandaway。
\"You’vegottochoose。\"
Jonslidoffthetableontohisknees。
\"Butwhynottellthem?Theycan’treallystopus,Fleur!\"
\"Theycan!Itellyou,theycan。\"
\"How?\"
\"We’reutterlydependent——byputtingmoneypressure,andallsortsofotherpressure。I’mnotpatient,Jon。\"
\"Butit’sdeceivingthem。\"
Fleurgotup。
\"Youcan’treallyloveme,oryouwouldn’thesitate。’Heeitherfearshisfatetoomuch!’\"
Liftinghishandstoherwaist,Jonforcedhertositdownagain。
Shehurriedon:
\"I’veplanneditallout。We’veonlytogotoScotland。Whenwe’remarriedthey’llsooncomeround。Peoplealwayscomeroundtofacts。
Don’tyousee,Jon?\"
\"Buttohurtthemsoawfully!\"
Sohewouldratherhurtherthanthosepeopleofhis!\"Allright,then;letmego!\"
Jongotupandputhisbackagainstthedoor。
\"Iexpectyou’reright,\"hesaidslowly;\"butIwanttothinkitover。\"
Shecouldseethathewasseethingwithfeelingshewantedtoexpress;butshedidnotmeantohelphim。Shehatedherselfatthismomentandalmosthatedhim。Whyhadshetodoalltheworktosecuretheirlove?Itwasn’tfair。Andthenshesawhiseyes,adoringanddistressed。
\"Don’tlooklikethat!Ionlydon’twanttoloseyou,Jon。\"
\"Youcan’tlosemesolongasyouwantme。\"
\"Oh,yes,Ican。\"
Jonputhishandsonhershoulders。
\"Fleur,doyouknowanythingyouhaven’ttoldme?\"
Itwasthepoint—blankquestionshehaddreaded。Shelookedstraightathim,andanswered:\"No。\"Shehadburntherboats;butwhatdiditmatter,ifshegothim?Hewouldforgiveher。Andthrowingherarmsroundhisneck,shekissedhimonthelips。Shewaswinning!Shefeltitinthebeatingofhisheartagainsther,intheclosingofhiseyes。\"Iwanttomakesure!Iwanttomakesure!\"shewhispered。\"Promise!\"
Jondidnotanswer。Hisfacehadthestillnessofextremetrouble。
Atlasthesaid:
\"It’slikehittingthem。Imustthinkalittle,Fleur。Ireallymust。\"
Fleurslippedoutofhisarms。
\"Oh!Verywell!\"Andsuddenlysheburstintotearsofdisappointment,shame,andoverstrain。Followedfiveminutesofacutemisery。Jon’sremorseandtendernessknewnobounds;buthedidnotpromise。
Despiteherwilltocry,\"Verywell,then,ifyoudon’tlovemeenough—goodbye!\"shedarednot。Frombirthaccustomedtoherownway,thischeckfromonesoyoung,sotender,sodevoted,baffledandsurprisedher。Shewantedtopushhimawayfromher,totrywhatangerandcoldnesswoulddo,andagainshedarednot。Theknowledgethatshewasschemingtorushhimblindfoldintotheirrevocableweakenedeverything——weakenedthesincerityofpique,andthesincerityofpassion;evenherkisseshadnotthelureshewishedforthem。Thatstormylittlemeetingendedinconclusively。
\"Willyousometea,gnadigesFraulein?\"
PushingJonfromher,shecriedout:
\"No—no,thankyou!I’mjustgoing。\"
Andbeforehecouldpreventhershewasgone。
Shewentstealthily,moppinghergushed,stainedcheeks,frightened,angry,verymiserable。ShehadstirredJonupsofearfully,yetnothingdefinitewaspromisedorarranged!Butthemoreuncertainandhazardousthefuture,themore\"thewilltohave\"workeditstentaclesintothefleshofherheart——likesomeburrowingtick!
NoonewasatGreenStreet。WinifredhadgonewithImogentoseeaplaywhichsomesaidwasallegorical,andothers\"veryexciting,don’tyouknow。\"ItwasbecauseofwhatotherssaidthatWinifredandImogenhadgone。FleurwentontoPaddington。Throughthecarriagetheairfromthebrick—kilnsofWestDraytonandthelatehayfieldsfannedherstillgushedcheeks。Flowershadseemedtobehadforthepicking;nowtheywereallthornedandprickled。Butthegoldenflowerwithinthecrownofspikesseemedtohertenaciousspiritallthefairerandmoredesirable。
IX
THEFATINTHEFIRE
OnreachinghomeFleurfoundanatmospheresopeculiarthatitpenetratedeventheperplexedauraofherownprivatelife。Hermotherwasinaccessiblyentrenchedinabrownstudy;herfathercontemplatingfateinthevinery。Neitherofthemhadawordtothrowtoadog。’Isitbecauseofme?’thoughtFleur。’OrbecauseofProfond?’Tohermothershesaid:
\"What’sthematterwithFather?\"
Hermotheransweredwithashrugofhershoulders。
Toherfather:
\"What’sthematterwithMother?\"
Herfatheranswered:
\"Matter?Whatshouldbethematter?\"andgaveherasharplook。
\"Bytheway,\"murmuredFleur,\"MonsieurProfondisgoinga’small’
voyageonhisyacht,totheSouthSeas。\"
Soamesexaminedabranchonwhichnograpesweregrowing。
\"Thisvine’safailure,\"hesaid。\"I’vehadyoungMonthere。Heaskedmesomethingaboutyou。\"
\"Oh!Howdoyoulikehim,Father?\"
\"He——he’saproduct——likealltheseyoungpeople。\"
\"Whatwereyouathisage,dear?\"
Soamessmiledgrimly。
\"Wewenttowork,anddidn’tplayabout——flyingandmotoring,andmakinglove。\"
\"Didn’tyouevermakelove?\"
Sheavoidedlookingathimwhileshesaidthat,butshesawhimwellenough。Hispalefacehadreddened,hiseyebrows,wheredarknesswasstillmingledwiththegrey,hadcomeclosetogether。
\"Ihadnotimeorinclinationtophilander。\"
\"Perhapsyouhadagrandpassion。\"
Soameslookedatherintently。
\"Yes——ifyouwanttoknow——andmuchgooditdidme。\"Hemovedaway,alongbythehot—waterpipes。Fleurtiptoedsilentlyafterhim。
\"Tellmeaboutit,Father!\"
Soamesbecameverystill。
\"Whatshouldyouwanttoknowaboutsuchthings,atyourage?\"
\"Isshealive?\"
Henodded。
\"Andmarried?\"Yes。\"
\"It’sJonForsyte’smother,isn’tit?Andshewasyourwifefirst。\"
Itwassaidinaflashofintuition。Surelyhisoppositioncamefromhisanxietythatsheshouldnotknowofthatoldwoundtohispride。
Butshewasstartled。Toseesomeonesooldandcalmwinceasifstruck,tohearsosharpanoteofpaininhisvoice!
\"Whotoldyouthat?Ifyouraunt!Ican’tbeartheaffairtalkedof。\"
\"But,darling,\"saidFleur,softly,\"it’ssolongago。\"
\"Longagoornot,I……\"
Fleurstoodstrokinghisarm。
\"I’vetriedtoforget,\"hesaidsuddenly;\"Idon’twishtobereminded。\"Andthen,asifventingsomelongandsecretirritation,headded:\"Inthesedayspeopledon’tunderstand。Grandpassion,indeed!Nooneknowswhatitis。\"
\"Ido,\"saidFleur,almostinawhisper。
Soames,whohadturnedhisbackonher,spunround。
\"Whatareyoutalkingof——achildlikeyou!\"
\"PerhapsI’veinheritedit,Father。\"
\"What?\"
\"Forherson,yousee。\"
Hewaspaleasasheet,andsheknewthatshewasasbad。Theystoodstaringateachotherinthesteamyheat,redolentofthemushyscentofearth,ofpottedgeranium,andofvinescomingalongfast。
\"Thisiscrazy,\"saidSoamesatlast,betweendrylips。
Scarcelymovingherown,shemurmured:
\"Don’tbeangry,Father。Ican’thelpit。\"
Butshecouldseehewasn’tangry;onlyscared,deeplyscared。
\"Ithoughtthatfoolishness,\"hestammered,\"wasallforgotten。\"
\"Oh,no!It’stentimeswhatitwas。\"
Soameskickedatthehot—waterpipe。Thehaplessmovementtouchedher,whohadnofearofherfather——none。
\"Dearest!\"shesaid。\"Whatmustbe,must,youknow。\"
\"Must!\"repeatedSoames。\"Youdon’tknowwhatyou’retalkingof。
Hasthatboybeentold?\"
Thebloodrushedintohercheeks。
\"Notyet。\"
Hehadturnedfromheragain,and,withoneshoulderalittleraised,stoodstaringfixedlyatajointinthepipes。
\"It’smostdistastefultome,\"hesaidsuddenly;\"nothingcouldbemoreso。Sonofthatfellow!It’s——it’s——perverse!\"
Shehadnoted,almostunconsciously,thathedidnotsay\"sonofthatwoman,\"andagainherintuitionbeganworking。
Didtheghostofthatgrandpassionlingerinsomecornerofhisheart?
Sheslippedherhandunderhisarm。
\"Jon’sfatherisquiteillandold;Isawhim。\"
\"You——?\"
\"Yes,IwenttherewithJon;Isawthemboth。\"
\"Well,andwhatdidtheysaytoyou?\"
\"Nothing。Theywereverypolite。\"
\"Theywouldbe。\"Heresumedhiscontemplationofthepipe—joint,andthensaidsuddenly:
\"Imustthinkthisover——I’llspeaktoyouagainto—night。\"
Sheknewthiswasfinalforthemoment,andstoleaway,leavinghimstilllookingatthepipe—joint。Shewanderedintothefruit—garden,amongtheraspberryandcurrantbushes,withoutimpetustopickandeat。Twomonthsago——shewaslight—hearted!Eventwodaysago——
light—hearted,beforeProsperProfondtoldher。Nowshefelttangledinaweb—ofpassions,vestedrights,oppressionsandrevolts,thetiesofloveandhate。Atthisdarkmomentofdiscouragementthereseemed,eventoherhold—fastnature,nowayout。Howdealwithit——
howswayandbendthingstoherwill,andgetherheart’sdesire?
And,suddenly,roundthecornerofthehighboxhedge,shecameplumponhermother,walkingswiftly,withanopenletterinherhand。Herbosomwasheaving,hereyesdilated,hercheeksflushed。InstantlyFleurthought:’Theyacht!PoorMother!’
Annettegaveherawidestartledlook,andsaid:
\"J’ailamigraine。\"
\"I’mawfullysorry,Mother。\"
\"Oh,yes!youandyourfather——sorry!\"
\"But,Mother——Iam。Iknowwhatitfeelslike。\"
Annette’sstartledeyesgrewwide,tillthewhitesshowedabovethem。
\"Poorinnocent!\"shesaid。
Hermother——soself—possessed,andcommonsensical——tolookandspeaklikethis!Itwasallfrightening!Herfather,hermother,herself!
Andonlytwomonthsbacktheyhadseemedtohaveeverythingtheywantedinthisworld。
Annettecrumpledtheletterinherhand。Fleurknewthatshemustignorethesight。
\"Can’tIdoanythingforyourhead,Mother?\"
Annetteshookthatheadandwalkedon,swayingherhips。
’It’scruel,’thoughtFleur,’andIwasglad!Thatman!Whatdomencomeprowlingfor,disturbingeverything!Isupposehe’stiredofher。Whatbusinesshashetobetiredofmymother?Whatbusiness!’
Andatthatthought,sonaturalandsopeculiar,sheutteredalittlechokedlaugh。
Sheought,ofcourse,tobedelighted,butwhatwastheretobedelightedat?Herfatherdidn’treallycare!Hermotherdid,perhaps?Sheenteredtheorchard,andsatdownunderacherry—tree。