IV
SOAMESCOGITATES
TheannouncementinTheTimesofhiscousinJolyon’sdeathaffectedSoamesquitesimply。Sothatchapwasgone!Therehadneverbeenatimeintheirtwoliveswhenlovehadnotbeenlostbetweenthem。
Thatquick—bloodedsentimenthatredhadrunitscourselongsinceinSoames’heart,andhehadrefusedtoallowanyrecrudescence,butheconsideredthisearlydeceaseapieceofpoeticjustice。Fortwentyyearsthefellowhadenjoyedthereversionofhiswifeandhouse,and——hewasdead!Theobituarynotice,whichappearedalittlelater,paidJolyon——hethought——toomuchattention。Itspokeofthat\"diligentandagreeablepainterwhoseworkwehavecometolookonastypicalofthebestlate—Victorianwater—colourart。\"Soames,whohadalmostmechanicallypreferredMole,Morpin,andCaswellBaye,andhadalwayssniffedquiteaudiblywhenhecametooneofhiscousin’sontheline,turnedTheTimeswithacrackle。
HehadtogouptoTownthatmorningonForsyteaffairs,andwasfullyconsciousofGradman’sglancesidelongoverhisspectacles。
Theoldclerkhadabouthimanauraofregretfulcongratulation。Hesmelled,asitwere,ofolddays。Onecouldalmosthearhimthinking:\"Mr。Jolyon,ye—es——justmyage,andgone——dear,dear!I
daresayshefeelsit。Shewasamice—lookin’woman。Fleshisflesh!They’vegiven’imanoticeinthepapers。Fancy!\"HisatmosphereinfactcausedSoamestohandlecertainleasesandconversionswithexceptionalswiftness。
\"AboutthatsettlementonMissFleur,Mr。Soames?\"
\"I’vethoughtbetterofthat,\"answeredSoamesshortly。
\"Ah!I’mgladofthat。Ithoughtyouwerealittlehasty。Thetimesdochange。\"
HowthisdeathwouldaffectFleurhadbeguntotroubleSoames。Hewasnotcertainthatsheknewofit——sheseldomlookedatthepaper,neveratthebirths,marriages,anddeaths。
Hepressedmatterson,andmadehiswaytoGreenStreetforlunch。
Winifredwasalmostdoleful。JackCardiganhadbrokenasplashboard,sofarasonecouldmakeout,andwouldnotbe\"fit\"forsometime。
Shecouldnotgetusedtotheidea。
\"DidProfondevergetoff?\"hesaidsuddenly。
\"Hegotoff,\"repliedWinifred,\"butwhere——Idon’tknow。\"
Yes,thereitwas——impossibletotellanything!Notthathewantedtoknow。LettersfromAnnettewerecomingfromDieppe,wheresheandhermotherwerestaying。
\"Yousawthatfellow’sdeath,Isuppose?\"
\"Yes,\"saidWinifred。\"I’msorryfor——forhischildren。Hewasveryamiable。\"Soamesutteredaratherqueersound。Asuspicionoftheolddeeptruth——thatmenwerejudgedinthisworldratherbywhattheywerethanbywhattheydid——creptandknockedresentfullyatthebackdoorsofhismind。
\"Iknowtherewasasuperstitiontothateffect,\"hemuttered。
\"Onemustdohimjusticenowhe’sdead。\"
\"Ishouldliketohavedonehimjusticebefore,\"saidSoames;\"butI
neverhadthechance。Haveyougota’Baronetage’here?\"
\"Yes;inthatbottomrow。\"
Soamestookoutafatredbook,andranovertheleaves。
\"Mont—SirLawrence,9thBt。,cr。1620,e。s。ofGeoffrey,8thBt。,andLavinia,daur。ofSirCharlesMuskham,Bt。,ofMuskhamHall,Shrops:marr。1890Emily,daur。ofConwayCharwell,Esq。,ofCondafordGrange,co。Oxon;1son,heirMichaelConway,b。1895,2
daurs。Residence:LippinghallManor,Folwell,Bucks。Clubs:Snooks’:
CoffeeHouse:Aeroplane。SeeBidIicott。\"
\"H’m!\"hesaid。\"Didyoueverknowapublisher?\"
\"UncleTimothy。\"
\"Alive,Imean。\"
\"MontyknewoneathisClub。Hebroughthimheretodinneronce。
Montywasalwaysthinkingofwritingabook,youknow,abouthowtomakemoneyontheturf。Hetriedtointerestthatman。\"
\"Well?\"
\"Heputhimontoahorse——fortheTwoThousand。Wedidn’tseehimagain。Hewasrathersmart,ifIremember。\"
\"Diditwin?\"
\"No;itranlast,Ithink。YouknowMontyreallywasquitecleverinhisway。\"
\"Washe?\"saidSoames。\"Canyouseeanyconnectionbetweenasuckingbaronetandpublishing?\"
\"Peopledoallsortsofthingsnowadays,\"repliedWinifred。\"Thegreatstuntseemsnottobeidle——sodifferentfromourtime。Todonothingwasthethingthen。ButIsupposeit’llcomeagain。\"
\"ThisyoungMontthatI’mspeakingofisverysweetonFleur。IfitwouldputanendtothatotheraffairImightencourageit。\"
\"Hashegotstyle?\"askedWinifred。
\"He’snobeauty;pleasantenough,withsomescatteredbrains。
There’sagooddealofland,Ibelieve。Heseemsgenuinelyattached。
ButIdon’tknow。\"
\"No,\"murmuredWinifred;\"it’s——verydifficult。Ialwaysfounditbesttodonothing。ItissuchaboreaboutJack;nowweshan’tgetawaytillafterBankHoliday。Well,thepeoplearealwaysamusing,I
shallgointotheParkandwatchthem。\"
\"IfIwereyou,\"saidSoames,\"Ishouldhaveacountrycottage,andbeoutofthewayofholidaysandstrikeswhenyouwant。\"
\"Thecountryboresme,\"answeredWinifred,\"andIfoundtherailwaystrikequiteexciting。\"
Winifredhadalwaysbeennotedforsang—froid。
Soamestookhisleave。AllthewaydowntoReadinghedebatedwhetherheshouldtellFleurofthatboy’sfather’sdeath。Itdidnotalterthesituationexceptthathewouldbeindependentnow,andonlyhavehismother’soppositiontoencounter。Hewouldcomeintoalotofmoney,nodoubt,andperhapsthehouse——thehousebuiltforIreneandhimself——thehousewhosearchitecthadwroughthisdomesticruin。Hisdaughter——mistressofthathouse!Thatwouldbepoeticjustice!Soamesutteredalittlemirthlesslaugh。Hehaddesignedthathousetore—establishhisfailingunion,meantitfortheseatofhisdescendants,ifhecouldhaveinducedIrenetogivehimone!
HersonandFleur!Theirchildrenwouldbe,insomesort,offspringoftheunionbetweenhimselfandher!
Thetheatricalityinthatthoughtwasrepulsivetohissobersense。
Andyet——itwouldbetheeasiestandwealthiestwayoutoftheimpasse,nowthatJolyonwasgone。ThejunctureoftwoForsytefortuneshadakindofconservativecharm。Andshe——Irene—wouldbelinkedtohimoncemore。Nonsense!Absurd!Heputthenotionfromhishead。
Onarrivinghomeheheardtheclickofbilliard—balls,andthroughthewindowsawyoungMontsprawlingoverthetable。Fleur,withhercueakimbo,waswatchingwithasmile。Howprettyshelooked!Nowonderthatyoungfellowwasoutofhismindabouther。Atitle——
land!Therewaslittleenoughinland,thesedays;perhapslessinatitle。TheoldForsyteshadalwayshadakindofcontemptfortitles,ratherremoteandartificialthings——notworththemoneytheycost,andhavingtodowiththeCourt。Theyhadallhadthatfeelingindifferingmeasure——Soamesremembered。Swithin,indeed,inhismostexpansivedayshadonceattendedaLevee。Hehadcomeawaysayingheshouldn’tgoagain——\"allthatsmallfry。\"Itwassuspectedthathehadlookedtoobiginknee—breeches。Soamesrememberedhowhisownmotherhadwishedtobepresentedbecauseofthefashionablenatureoftheperformance,andhowhisfatherhadputhisfootdownwithunwonteddecision。Whatdidshewantwiththatpeacocking——
wastingtimeandmoney;therewasnothinginit!
TheinstinctwhichhadmadeandkepttheEnglishCommonsthechiefpowerintheState,afeelingthattheirownworldwasgoodenoughandalittlebetterthananyotherbecauseitwastheirworld,hadkepttheoldForsytessingularlyfreeof\"flummery,\"asNicholashadbeenwonttocallitwhenhehadthegout。Soames’generation,moreself—consciousandironical,hadbeensavedbyasenseofSwithininknee—breeches。Whilethethirdandthefourthgeneration,asitseemedtohim,laughedateverything。
However,therewasnoharmintheyoungfellow’sbeingheirtoatitleandestate——athingonecouldn’thelp。Heenteredquietly,asMontmissedhisshot。Henotedtheyoungman’seyes,fixedonFleurbendingoverinherturn;andtheadorationinthemalmosttouchedhim。
Shepausedwiththecuepoisedonthebridgeofherslimhand,andshookhercropofshortdarkchestnuthair。
\"Ishallneverdoit。\"
\"’Nothingventure。’\"
\"Allright。\"Thecuestruck,theballrolled。\"There!\"
\"Badluck!Nevermind!\"
Thentheysawhim,andSoamessaid:
\"I’llmarkforyou。\"
Hesatdownontheraisedseatbeneaththemarker,trimandtired,furtivelystudyingthosetwoyoungfaces。WhenthegamewasoverMontcameuptohim。
\"I’vestartedin,sir。Rumgame,business,isn’tit?Isupposeyousawalotofhumannatureasasolicitor。\"
\"Idid。\"
\"ShallItellyouwhatI’venoticed:Peoplearequiteonthewrongtackinofferinglessthantheycanaffordtogive;theyoughttooffermore,andworkbackward。\"
Soamesraisedhiseyebrows。
\"Supposethemoreisaccepted?\"
\"Thatdoesn’tmatteralittlebit,\"saidMont;\"it’smuchmorepayingtoabateapricethantoincreaseit。Forinstance,sayweofferanauthorgoodterms——henaturallytakesthem。Thenwegointoit,findwecan’tpublishatadecentprofitandtellhimso。He’sgotconfidenceinusbecausewe’vebeengeneroustohim,andhecomesdownlikealamb,andbearsusnomalice。Butifweofferhimpoortermsatthestart,hedoesn’ttakethem,sowehavetoadvancethemtogethim,andhethinksusdamnedscrewsintothebargain。
\"Trybuyingpicturesonthatsystem,\"saidSoames;\"anofferacceptedisacontract——haven’tyoulearnedthat?\"
YoungMontturnedhisheadtowhereFleurwasstandinginthewindow。
\"No,\"hesaid,\"IwishIhad。Thenthere’sanotherthing。Alwaysletamanoffabargainifhewantstobeletoff。\"
\"Asadvertisement?\"saidSoamesdryly。
\"Ofcourseitis;butImeantonprinciple。\"
\"Doesyourfirmworkonthoselines?\"
\"Notyet,\"saidMont,\"butit’llcome。\"
\"Andtheywillgo。\"
\"No,really,sir。I’mmakinganynumberofobservations,andtheyallconfirmmytheory。Humannatureisconsistentlyunderratedinbusiness,peopledothemselvesoutofanawfullotofpleasureandprofitbythat。Ofcourse,youmustbeperfectlygenuineandopen,butthat’seasyifyoufeelit。Themorehumanandgenerousyouarethebetterchanceyou’vegotinbusiness。\"
Soamesrose。
\"Areyouapartner?\"
\"Notforsixmonths,yet。\"
\"Therestofthefirmhadbettermakehasteandretire。\"
Montlaughed。
\"You’llsee,\"hesaid。\"There’sgoingtobeabigchange。Thepossessiveprinciplehasgotitsshuttersup。\"
\"What?\"saidSoames。
\"Thehouseistolet!Good—bye,sir;I’moffnow。\"
Soameswatchedhisdaughtergiveherhand,sawherwinceatthesqueezeitreceived,anddistinctlyheardtheyoungman’ssighashepassedout。Thenshecamefromthewindow,trailingherfingeralongthemahoganyedgeofthebilliard—table。Watchingher,Soamesknewthatshewasgoingtoaskhimsomething。Herfingerfeltroundthelastpocket,andshelookedup。
\"HaveyoudoneanythingtostopJonwritingtome,Father?\"
Soamesshookhishead。
\"Youhaven’tseen,then?\"hesaid。\"Hisfatherdiedjustaweekagoto—day。\"
\"Oh!\"
Inherstartled,frowningfacehesawtheinstantstruggletoapprehendwhatthiswouldmean。
\"PoorJon!Whydidn’tyoutellme,Father?\"
\"Ineverknow!\"saidSoamesslowly;\"youdon’tconfideinme。\"
\"Iwould,ifyou’dhelpme,dear。\"
\"PerhapsIshall。\"
Fleurclaspedherhands。\"Oh!darling——whenonewantsathingfearfully,onedoesn’tthinkofotherpeople。Don’tbeangrywithme。\"
Soamesputouthishand,asifpushingawayanaspersion。
\"I’mcogitating,\"hesaid。Whatonearthhadmadehimuseawordlikethat!\"HasyoungMontbeenbotheringyouagain?\"
Fleursmiled。\"Oh!Michael!He’salwaysbothering;buthe’ssuchagoodsort——Idon’tmindhim。\"
\"Well,\"saidSoames,\"I’mtired;Ishallgoandhaveanapbeforedinner。\"
Hewentuptohispicture—gallery,laydownonthecouchthere,andclosedhiseyes。Aterribleresponsibilitythisgirlofhis——whosemotherwas——ah!whatwasshe?Aterribleresponsibility!Helpher——
howcouldhehelpher?Hecouldnotalterthefactthathewasherfather。OrthatIrene——!WhatwasityoungMonthadsaid——somenonsenseaboutthepossessiveinstinct——shuttersup——Tolet?Silly!
Thesultryair,chargedwithascentofmeadow—sweet,ofriverandroses,closedonhissenses,drowsingthem。
V
THEFIXEDIDEA
Thefixedidea,\"whichhasoutrunmoreconstablesthananyotherformofhumandisorder,hasnevermorespeedandstaminathanwhenittakestheavidguiseoflove。Tohedgesandditches,anddoors,tohumanswithoutideasfixedorotherwise,toperambulatorsandthecontentssuckingtheirfixedideas,eventotheothersufferersfromthisfastmalady——thefixedideaoflovepaysnoattention。Itrunswitheyesturnedinwardtoitsownlight,obliviousofallotherstars。Thosewiththefixedideasthathumanhappinessdependsontheirart,onvivisectingdogs,onhatingforeigners,onpayingsupertax,onremainingMinisters,onmakingwheelsgoround,onpreventingtheirneighboursfrombeingdivorced,onconscientiousobjection,Greekroots,Churchdogma,paradoxandsuperioritytoeverybodyelse,withotherformsofego—mania——allareunstablecomparedwithhimorherwhosefixedideaisthepossessionofsomeherorhim。AndthoughFleur,thosechillysummerdays,pursuedthescatteredlifeofalittleForsytewhosefrocksarepaidfor,andwhosebusinessispleasure,shewas——asWinifredwouldhavesaidinthelatestfashionofspeech——\"honesttoGod\"indifferenttoitall。
Shewishedandwishedforthemoon,whichsailedincoldskiesabovetheriverortheGreenParkwhenshewenttoTown。SheevenkeptJon’sletters,coveredwithpinksilk,onherheart,thanwhichindayswhencorsetsweresolow,sentimentsodespised,andchestssooutoffashion,therecould,perhaps,havebeennogreaterproofofthefixityofheridea。
Afterhearingofhisfather’sdeath,shewrotetoJon,andreceivedhisanswerthreedayslateronherreturnfromariverpicnic。ItwashisfirstlettersincetheirmeetingatJune’s。Sheopeneditwithmisgiving,andreaditwithdismay。
\"SinceIsawyouI’veheardeverythingaboutthepast。Iwon’ttellityou——IthinkyouknewwhenwemetatJune’s。Shesaysyoudid。
Ifyoudid,Fleur,yououghttohavetoldme。Iexpectyouonlyheardyourfather’ssideofit。Ihaveheardmymother’s。It’sdreadful。Nowthatshe’ssosadIcan’tdoanythingtohurthermore。Ofcourse,Ilongforyouallday,butIdon’tbelievenowthatweshallevercometogether——there’ssomethingtoostrongpullingusapart。\"
So!Herdeceptionhadfoundherout。ButJon——shefelt——hadforgiventhat。Itwaswhathesaidofhismotherwhichcausedthegutteringinherheartandtheweaksensationinherlegs。
Herfirstimpulsewastoreply——hersecond,nottoreply。Theseimpulseswereconstantlyrenewedinthedayswhichfollowed,whiledesperationgrewwithinher。Shewasnotherfather’schildfornothing。ThetenacitywhichhadatoncemadeandundoneSoameswasherbackbone,too,frilledandembroideredbyFrenchgraceandquickness。Instinctivelysheconjugatedtheverb\"tohave\"alwayswiththepronoun\"I。\"Sheconcealed,however,allsignsofhergrowingdesperation,andpursuedsuchriverpleasuresasthewindsandrainofadisagreeableJulypermitted,asifshehadnocareintheworld;nordidany\"suckingbaronet\"everneglectthebusinessofapublishermoreconsistentlythanherattendantspirit,MichaelMont。
ToSoamesshewasapuzzle。Hewasalmostdeceivedbythiscarelessgaiety。Almost——becausehedidnotfailtomarkhereyesoftenfixedonnothing,andthefilmoflightshiningfromherbedroomwindowlateatnight。Whatwasshethinkingandbroodingoverintosmallhourswhensheoughttohavebeenasleep?Buthedarednotaskwhatwasinhermind;and,sincethatonelittletalkinthebilliard—
room,shesaidnothingtohim。
InthistaciturnconditionofaffairsitchancedthatWinifredinvitedthemtolunchandtogoafterwardto\"amostamusinglittleplay,’TheBeggar’sOpera\"’andwouldtheybringamantomakefour?
Soames,whoseattitudetowardtheatreswastogotonothing,accepted,becauseFleur’sattitudewastogotoeverything。Theymotoredup,takingMichaelMont,who,beinginhisseventhheaven,wasfoundbyWinifred\"veryamusing。\"\"TheBeggar’sOpera\"puzzledSoames。Thepeoplewereveryunpleasant,thewholethingverycynical。Winifredwas\"intrigued\"——bythedresses。Themusic,too,didnotdispleaseher。AttheOpera,thenightbefore,shehadarrivedtooearlyfortheRussianBallet,andfoundthestageoccupiedbysingers,forawholehourpaleorapoplecticfromterrorlestbysomedreadfulinadvertencetheymightdropintoatune。
MichaelMontwasenrapturedwiththewholething。AndallthreewonderedwhatFleurwasthinkingofit。ButFleurwasnotthinkingofit。HerfixedideastoodonthestageandsangwithPollyPeachum,mimedwithFilch,dancedwithJennyDiver,posturedwithLucyLockit,kissed,trolled,andcuddledwithMacheath。Herlipsmightsmile,herhandsapplaud,butthecomicoldmasterpiecemadenomoreimpressiononherthanifithadbeenpathetic,likeamodern\"Revue。\"Whentheyembarkedinthecartoreturn,sheachedbecauseJonwasnotsittingnextherinsteadofMichaelMont。When,atsomejolt,theyoungman’sarmtouchedhersasifbyaccident,sheonlythought:’IfthatwereJon’sarm!’Whenhischeerfulvoice,temperedbyherproximity,murmuredabovethesoundofthecar’sprogress,shesmiledandanswered,thinking:’IfthatwereJon’svoice!’andwhenoncehesaid,\"Fleur,youlookaperfectangelinthatdress!\"sheanswered,\"Oh,doyoulikeit?thinking,’IfonlyJoncouldseeit!’
Duringthisdriveshetookaresolution。ShewouldgotoRobinHillandseehim——alone;shewouldtakethecar,withoutwordbeforehandtohimortoherfather。Itwasninedayssincehisletter,andshecouldwaitnolonger。OnMondayshewouldgo!ThedecisionmadeherwelldisposedtowardyoungMont。Withsomethingtolookforwardtoshecouldaffordtotolerateandrespond。Hemightstaytodinner;
proposetoherasusual;dancewithher,pressherhand,sigh——dowhatheliked。Hewasonlyanuisancewhenheinterferedwithherfixedidea。Shewasevensorryforhimsofarasitwaspossibletobesorryforanybodybutherselfjustnow。Atdinnerheseemedtotalkmorewildlythanusualaboutwhathecalled\"thedeathofthecloseborough\"——shepaidlittleattention,butherfatherseemedpayingagooddeal,withthesmileonhisfacewhichmeantopposition,ifnotanger。
\"Theyoungergenerationdoesn’tthinkasyoudo,sir;doesit,Fleur?\"
Fleurshruggedhershoulders——theyoungergenerationwasjustJon,andshedidnotknowwhathewasthinking。
\"YoungpeoplewillthinkasIdowhenthey’remyage,Mr。Mont。
Humannaturedoesn’tchange。\"
\"Iadmitthat,sir;buttheformsofthoughtchangewiththetimes。
Thepursuitofself—interestisaformofthoughtthat’sgoingout。\"
\"Indeed!Tomindone’sownbusinessisnotaformofthought,Mr。
Mont,it’saninstinct。\"
Yes,whenJonwasthebusiness!
\"Butwhatisone’sbusiness,sir?That’sthepoint。Everybody’sbusinessisgoingtobeone’sbusiness。Isn’tit,Fleur?\"
Fleuronlysmiled。
\"Ifnot,\"addedyoungMont,\"there’llbeblood。\"
\"Peoplehavetalkedlikethatfromtimeimmemorial\"
\"Butyou’lladmit,sir,thatthesenseofpropertyisdyingout?\"
\"Ishouldsayincreasingamongthosewhohavenone。\"
\"Well,lookatme!I’mheirtoanentailedestate。Idon’twantthething;I’dcuttheentailto—morrow。\"
\"You’renotmarried,andyoudon’tknowwhatyou’retalkingabout。\"
Fleursawtheyoungman’seyesturnratherpiteouslyuponher。
\"Doyoureallymeanthatmarriage——?\"hebegan。
\"Societyisbuiltonmarriage,\"camefrombetweenherfather’scloselips;\"marriageanditsconsequences。Doyouwanttodoawaywithit?\"
YoungMontmadeadistractedgesture。Silencebroodedoverthedinnertable,coveredwithspoonsbearingtheForsytecrest——apheasantproper——undertheelectriclightinanalabasterglobe。Andoutside,therivereveningdarkened,chargedwithheavymoistureandsweetscents。
’Monday,’thoughtFleur;’Monday!’
VI
DESPERATE
TheweekswhichfollowedthedeathofhisfatherweresadandemptytotheonlyJolyonForsyteleft。Thenecessaryformsandceremonies—
—thereadingoftheWill,valuationoftheestate,distributionofthelegacies——wereenactedoverthehead,asitwere,ofonenotyetofage。Jolyonwascremated。Byhisspecialwishnooneattendedthatceremony,orworeblackforhim。Thesuccessionofhisproperty,controlledtosomeextentbyoldJolyon’sWill,lefthiswidowinpossessionofRobinHill,withtwothousandfivehundredpoundsayearforlife。ApartfromthisthetwoWillsworkedtogetherinsomecomplicatedwaytoinsurethateachofJolyon’sthreechildrenshouldhaveanequalshareintheirgrandfather’sandfather’spropertyinthefutureasinthepresent,saveonlythatJon,byvirtueofhissex,wouldhavecontrolofhiscapitalwhenhewastwenty—one,whileJuneandHollywouldonlyhavethespiritoftheirs,inorderthattheirchildrenmighthavethebodyafterthem。
Iftheyhadnochildren,itwouldallcometoJonifheoutlivedthem;andsinceJunewasfifty,andHollynearlyforty,itwasconsideredinLincoln’sInnFieldsthatbutforthecrueltyofincometax,youngJonwouldbeaswarmamanashisgrandfatherwhenhedied。AllthiswasnothingtoJon,andlittleenoughtohismother。
ItwasJunewhodideverythingneedfulforonewhohadlefthisaffairsinperfectorder。Whenshehadgone,andthosetwowerealoneagaininthegreathouse,alonewithdeathdrawingthemtogether,andlovedrivingthemapart,Jonpassedverypainfuldayssecretlydisgustedanddisappointedwithhimself。Hismotherwouldlookathimwithsuchapatientsadnesswhichyethadinitaninstinctivepride,asifshewerereservingherdefence。Ifshesmiledhewasangrythathisansweringsmileshouldbesogrudgingandunnatural。Hedidnotjudgeorcondemnher;thatwasalltooremote——indeed,theideaofdoingsohadnevercometohim。No!hewasgrudgingandunnaturalbecausehecouldn’thavewhathewantedbecauseofher。Therewasonealleviation——muchtodoinconnectionwithhisfather’scareer,whichcouldnotbesafelyentrustedtoJune,thoughshehadofferedtoundertakeit。BothJonandhismotherhadfeltthatifshetookhisportfolios,unexhibiteddrawingsandunfinishedmatter,awaywithher,theworkwouldencountersuchicyblastsfromPaulPostandotherfrequentersofherstudio,thatitwouldsoonbefrozenoutevenofherwarmheart。Onitsold—
fashionedplaneandofitskindtheworkwasgood,andtheycouldnotbearthethoughtofitssubjectiontoridicule。Aone—manexhibitionofhisworkwastheleasttestimonytheycouldpaytoonetheyhadloved;andonpreparationforthistheyspentmanyhourstogether。
Joncametohaveacuriouslyincreasedrespectforhisfather。Thequiettenacitywithwhichhehadconvertedamediocretalentintosomethingreallyindividualwasdisclosedbytheseresearches。Therewasagreatmassofworkwithararecontinuityofgrowthindepthandreachofvision。Nothingcertainlywentverydeep,orreachedveryhigh——butsuchastheworkwas,itwasthorough,conscientious,andcomplete。And,rememberinghisfather’sutterabsenceof\"side\"
orself—assertion,thechaffinghumilitywithwhichhehadalwaysspokenofhisownefforts,evercallinghimself\"anamateur,\"Joncouldnothelpfeelingthathehadneverreallyknownhisfather。Totakehimselfseriously,yetneverboreothersbylettingthemknowthathedidso,seemedtohavebeenhisrulingprinciple。Therewassomethinginthiswhichappealedtotheboy,andmadehimheartilyendorsehismother’scomment:\"Hehadtruerefinement;hecouldn’thelpthinkingofothers,whateverhedid。Andwhenhetookaresolutionwhichwentcounter,hediditwiththeminimumofdefiance——notliketheAge,isit?Twiceinhislifehehadtogoagainsteverything;andyetitnevermadehimbitter。\"Jonsawtearsrunningdownherface,whichsheatonceturnedawayfromhim。Shewassoquietaboutherlossthatsometimeshehadthoughtshedidn’tfeelitmuch。Now,ashelookedather,hefelthowfarhefellshortofthereservepoweranddignityinbothhisfatherandhismother。And,stealinguptoher,heputhisarmroundherwaist。
Shekissedhimswiftly,butwithasortofpassion,andwentoutoftheroom。