第18章

类别:其他 作者:John Galsworthy字数:10325更新时间:18/12/18 13:40:14
IV SOAMESCOGITATES TheannouncementinTheTimesofhiscousinJolyon’sdeathaffectedSoamesquitesimply。Sothatchapwasgone!Therehadneverbeenatimeintheirtwoliveswhenlovehadnotbeenlostbetweenthem。 Thatquick—bloodedsentimenthatredhadrunitscourselongsinceinSoames’heart,andhehadrefusedtoallowanyrecrudescence,butheconsideredthisearlydeceaseapieceofpoeticjustice。Fortwentyyearsthefellowhadenjoyedthereversionofhiswifeandhouse,and——hewasdead!Theobituarynotice,whichappearedalittlelater,paidJolyon——hethought——toomuchattention。Itspokeofthat\"diligentandagreeablepainterwhoseworkwehavecometolookonastypicalofthebestlate—Victorianwater—colourart。\"Soames,whohadalmostmechanicallypreferredMole,Morpin,andCaswellBaye,andhadalwayssniffedquiteaudiblywhenhecametooneofhiscousin’sontheline,turnedTheTimeswithacrackle。 HehadtogouptoTownthatmorningonForsyteaffairs,andwasfullyconsciousofGradman’sglancesidelongoverhisspectacles。 Theoldclerkhadabouthimanauraofregretfulcongratulation。Hesmelled,asitwere,ofolddays。Onecouldalmosthearhimthinking:\"Mr。Jolyon,ye—es——justmyage,andgone——dear,dear!I daresayshefeelsit。Shewasamice—lookin’woman。Fleshisflesh!They’vegiven’imanoticeinthepapers。Fancy!\"HisatmosphereinfactcausedSoamestohandlecertainleasesandconversionswithexceptionalswiftness。 \"AboutthatsettlementonMissFleur,Mr。Soames?\" \"I’vethoughtbetterofthat,\"answeredSoamesshortly。 \"Ah!I’mgladofthat。Ithoughtyouwerealittlehasty。Thetimesdochange。\" HowthisdeathwouldaffectFleurhadbeguntotroubleSoames。Hewasnotcertainthatsheknewofit——sheseldomlookedatthepaper,neveratthebirths,marriages,anddeaths。 Hepressedmatterson,andmadehiswaytoGreenStreetforlunch。 Winifredwasalmostdoleful。JackCardiganhadbrokenasplashboard,sofarasonecouldmakeout,andwouldnotbe\"fit\"forsometime。 Shecouldnotgetusedtotheidea。 \"DidProfondevergetoff?\"hesaidsuddenly。 \"Hegotoff,\"repliedWinifred,\"butwhere——Idon’tknow。\" Yes,thereitwas——impossibletotellanything!Notthathewantedtoknow。LettersfromAnnettewerecomingfromDieppe,wheresheandhermotherwerestaying。 \"Yousawthatfellow’sdeath,Isuppose?\" \"Yes,\"saidWinifred。\"I’msorryfor——forhischildren。Hewasveryamiable。\"Soamesutteredaratherqueersound。Asuspicionoftheolddeeptruth——thatmenwerejudgedinthisworldratherbywhattheywerethanbywhattheydid——creptandknockedresentfullyatthebackdoorsofhismind。 \"Iknowtherewasasuperstitiontothateffect,\"hemuttered。 \"Onemustdohimjusticenowhe’sdead。\" \"Ishouldliketohavedonehimjusticebefore,\"saidSoames;\"butI neverhadthechance。Haveyougota’Baronetage’here?\" \"Yes;inthatbottomrow。\" Soamestookoutafatredbook,andranovertheleaves。 \"Mont—SirLawrence,9thBt。,cr。1620,e。s。ofGeoffrey,8thBt。,andLavinia,daur。ofSirCharlesMuskham,Bt。,ofMuskhamHall,Shrops:marr。1890Emily,daur。ofConwayCharwell,Esq。,ofCondafordGrange,co。Oxon;1son,heirMichaelConway,b。1895,2 daurs。Residence:LippinghallManor,Folwell,Bucks。Clubs:Snooks’: CoffeeHouse:Aeroplane。SeeBidIicott。\" \"H’m!\"hesaid。\"Didyoueverknowapublisher?\" \"UncleTimothy。\" \"Alive,Imean。\" \"MontyknewoneathisClub。Hebroughthimheretodinneronce。 Montywasalwaysthinkingofwritingabook,youknow,abouthowtomakemoneyontheturf。Hetriedtointerestthatman。\" \"Well?\" \"Heputhimontoahorse——fortheTwoThousand。Wedidn’tseehimagain。Hewasrathersmart,ifIremember。\" \"Diditwin?\" \"No;itranlast,Ithink。YouknowMontyreallywasquitecleverinhisway。\" \"Washe?\"saidSoames。\"Canyouseeanyconnectionbetweenasuckingbaronetandpublishing?\" \"Peopledoallsortsofthingsnowadays,\"repliedWinifred。\"Thegreatstuntseemsnottobeidle——sodifferentfromourtime。Todonothingwasthethingthen。ButIsupposeit’llcomeagain。\" \"ThisyoungMontthatI’mspeakingofisverysweetonFleur。IfitwouldputanendtothatotheraffairImightencourageit。\" \"Hashegotstyle?\"askedWinifred。 \"He’snobeauty;pleasantenough,withsomescatteredbrains。 There’sagooddealofland,Ibelieve。Heseemsgenuinelyattached。 ButIdon’tknow。\" \"No,\"murmuredWinifred;\"it’s——verydifficult。Ialwaysfounditbesttodonothing。ItissuchaboreaboutJack;nowweshan’tgetawaytillafterBankHoliday。Well,thepeoplearealwaysamusing,I shallgointotheParkandwatchthem。\" \"IfIwereyou,\"saidSoames,\"Ishouldhaveacountrycottage,andbeoutofthewayofholidaysandstrikeswhenyouwant。\" \"Thecountryboresme,\"answeredWinifred,\"andIfoundtherailwaystrikequiteexciting。\" Winifredhadalwaysbeennotedforsang—froid。 Soamestookhisleave。AllthewaydowntoReadinghedebatedwhetherheshouldtellFleurofthatboy’sfather’sdeath。Itdidnotalterthesituationexceptthathewouldbeindependentnow,andonlyhavehismother’soppositiontoencounter。Hewouldcomeintoalotofmoney,nodoubt,andperhapsthehouse——thehousebuiltforIreneandhimself——thehousewhosearchitecthadwroughthisdomesticruin。Hisdaughter——mistressofthathouse!Thatwouldbepoeticjustice!Soamesutteredalittlemirthlesslaugh。Hehaddesignedthathousetore—establishhisfailingunion,meantitfortheseatofhisdescendants,ifhecouldhaveinducedIrenetogivehimone! HersonandFleur!Theirchildrenwouldbe,insomesort,offspringoftheunionbetweenhimselfandher! Thetheatricalityinthatthoughtwasrepulsivetohissobersense。 Andyet——itwouldbetheeasiestandwealthiestwayoutoftheimpasse,nowthatJolyonwasgone。ThejunctureoftwoForsytefortuneshadakindofconservativecharm。Andshe——Irene—wouldbelinkedtohimoncemore。Nonsense!Absurd!Heputthenotionfromhishead。 Onarrivinghomeheheardtheclickofbilliard—balls,andthroughthewindowsawyoungMontsprawlingoverthetable。Fleur,withhercueakimbo,waswatchingwithasmile。Howprettyshelooked!Nowonderthatyoungfellowwasoutofhismindabouther。Atitle—— land!Therewaslittleenoughinland,thesedays;perhapslessinatitle。TheoldForsyteshadalwayshadakindofcontemptfortitles,ratherremoteandartificialthings——notworththemoneytheycost,andhavingtodowiththeCourt。Theyhadallhadthatfeelingindifferingmeasure——Soamesremembered。Swithin,indeed,inhismostexpansivedayshadonceattendedaLevee。Hehadcomeawaysayingheshouldn’tgoagain——\"allthatsmallfry。\"Itwassuspectedthathehadlookedtoobiginknee—breeches。Soamesrememberedhowhisownmotherhadwishedtobepresentedbecauseofthefashionablenatureoftheperformance,andhowhisfatherhadputhisfootdownwithunwonteddecision。Whatdidshewantwiththatpeacocking—— wastingtimeandmoney;therewasnothinginit! TheinstinctwhichhadmadeandkepttheEnglishCommonsthechiefpowerintheState,afeelingthattheirownworldwasgoodenoughandalittlebetterthananyotherbecauseitwastheirworld,hadkepttheoldForsytessingularlyfreeof\"flummery,\"asNicholashadbeenwonttocallitwhenhehadthegout。Soames’generation,moreself—consciousandironical,hadbeensavedbyasenseofSwithininknee—breeches。Whilethethirdandthefourthgeneration,asitseemedtohim,laughedateverything。 However,therewasnoharmintheyoungfellow’sbeingheirtoatitleandestate——athingonecouldn’thelp。Heenteredquietly,asMontmissedhisshot。Henotedtheyoungman’seyes,fixedonFleurbendingoverinherturn;andtheadorationinthemalmosttouchedhim。 Shepausedwiththecuepoisedonthebridgeofherslimhand,andshookhercropofshortdarkchestnuthair。 \"Ishallneverdoit。\" \"’Nothingventure。’\" \"Allright。\"Thecuestruck,theballrolled。\"There!\" \"Badluck!Nevermind!\" Thentheysawhim,andSoamessaid: \"I’llmarkforyou。\" Hesatdownontheraisedseatbeneaththemarker,trimandtired,furtivelystudyingthosetwoyoungfaces。WhenthegamewasoverMontcameuptohim。 \"I’vestartedin,sir。Rumgame,business,isn’tit?Isupposeyousawalotofhumannatureasasolicitor。\" \"Idid。\" \"ShallItellyouwhatI’venoticed:Peoplearequiteonthewrongtackinofferinglessthantheycanaffordtogive;theyoughttooffermore,andworkbackward。\" Soamesraisedhiseyebrows。 \"Supposethemoreisaccepted?\" \"Thatdoesn’tmatteralittlebit,\"saidMont;\"it’smuchmorepayingtoabateapricethantoincreaseit。Forinstance,sayweofferanauthorgoodterms——henaturallytakesthem。Thenwegointoit,findwecan’tpublishatadecentprofitandtellhimso。He’sgotconfidenceinusbecausewe’vebeengeneroustohim,andhecomesdownlikealamb,andbearsusnomalice。Butifweofferhimpoortermsatthestart,hedoesn’ttakethem,sowehavetoadvancethemtogethim,andhethinksusdamnedscrewsintothebargain。 \"Trybuyingpicturesonthatsystem,\"saidSoames;\"anofferacceptedisacontract——haven’tyoulearnedthat?\" YoungMontturnedhisheadtowhereFleurwasstandinginthewindow。 \"No,\"hesaid,\"IwishIhad。Thenthere’sanotherthing。Alwaysletamanoffabargainifhewantstobeletoff。\" \"Asadvertisement?\"saidSoamesdryly。 \"Ofcourseitis;butImeantonprinciple。\" \"Doesyourfirmworkonthoselines?\" \"Notyet,\"saidMont,\"butit’llcome。\" \"Andtheywillgo。\" \"No,really,sir。I’mmakinganynumberofobservations,andtheyallconfirmmytheory。Humannatureisconsistentlyunderratedinbusiness,peopledothemselvesoutofanawfullotofpleasureandprofitbythat。Ofcourse,youmustbeperfectlygenuineandopen,butthat’seasyifyoufeelit。Themorehumanandgenerousyouarethebetterchanceyou’vegotinbusiness。\" Soamesrose。 \"Areyouapartner?\" \"Notforsixmonths,yet。\" \"Therestofthefirmhadbettermakehasteandretire。\" Montlaughed。 \"You’llsee,\"hesaid。\"There’sgoingtobeabigchange。Thepossessiveprinciplehasgotitsshuttersup。\" \"What?\"saidSoames。 \"Thehouseistolet!Good—bye,sir;I’moffnow。\" Soameswatchedhisdaughtergiveherhand,sawherwinceatthesqueezeitreceived,anddistinctlyheardtheyoungman’ssighashepassedout。Thenshecamefromthewindow,trailingherfingeralongthemahoganyedgeofthebilliard—table。Watchingher,Soamesknewthatshewasgoingtoaskhimsomething。Herfingerfeltroundthelastpocket,andshelookedup。 \"HaveyoudoneanythingtostopJonwritingtome,Father?\" Soamesshookhishead。 \"Youhaven’tseen,then?\"hesaid。\"Hisfatherdiedjustaweekagoto—day。\" \"Oh!\" Inherstartled,frowningfacehesawtheinstantstruggletoapprehendwhatthiswouldmean。 \"PoorJon!Whydidn’tyoutellme,Father?\" \"Ineverknow!\"saidSoamesslowly;\"youdon’tconfideinme。\" \"Iwould,ifyou’dhelpme,dear。\" \"PerhapsIshall。\" Fleurclaspedherhands。\"Oh!darling——whenonewantsathingfearfully,onedoesn’tthinkofotherpeople。Don’tbeangrywithme。\" Soamesputouthishand,asifpushingawayanaspersion。 \"I’mcogitating,\"hesaid。Whatonearthhadmadehimuseawordlikethat!\"HasyoungMontbeenbotheringyouagain?\" Fleursmiled。\"Oh!Michael!He’salwaysbothering;buthe’ssuchagoodsort——Idon’tmindhim。\" \"Well,\"saidSoames,\"I’mtired;Ishallgoandhaveanapbeforedinner。\" Hewentuptohispicture—gallery,laydownonthecouchthere,andclosedhiseyes。Aterribleresponsibilitythisgirlofhis——whosemotherwas——ah!whatwasshe?Aterribleresponsibility!Helpher—— howcouldhehelpher?Hecouldnotalterthefactthathewasherfather。OrthatIrene——!WhatwasityoungMonthadsaid——somenonsenseaboutthepossessiveinstinct——shuttersup——Tolet?Silly! Thesultryair,chargedwithascentofmeadow—sweet,ofriverandroses,closedonhissenses,drowsingthem。 V THEFIXEDIDEA Thefixedidea,\"whichhasoutrunmoreconstablesthananyotherformofhumandisorder,hasnevermorespeedandstaminathanwhenittakestheavidguiseoflove。Tohedgesandditches,anddoors,tohumanswithoutideasfixedorotherwise,toperambulatorsandthecontentssuckingtheirfixedideas,eventotheothersufferersfromthisfastmalady——thefixedideaoflovepaysnoattention。Itrunswitheyesturnedinwardtoitsownlight,obliviousofallotherstars。Thosewiththefixedideasthathumanhappinessdependsontheirart,onvivisectingdogs,onhatingforeigners,onpayingsupertax,onremainingMinisters,onmakingwheelsgoround,onpreventingtheirneighboursfrombeingdivorced,onconscientiousobjection,Greekroots,Churchdogma,paradoxandsuperioritytoeverybodyelse,withotherformsofego—mania——allareunstablecomparedwithhimorherwhosefixedideaisthepossessionofsomeherorhim。AndthoughFleur,thosechillysummerdays,pursuedthescatteredlifeofalittleForsytewhosefrocksarepaidfor,andwhosebusinessispleasure,shewas——asWinifredwouldhavesaidinthelatestfashionofspeech——\"honesttoGod\"indifferenttoitall。 Shewishedandwishedforthemoon,whichsailedincoldskiesabovetheriverortheGreenParkwhenshewenttoTown。SheevenkeptJon’sletters,coveredwithpinksilk,onherheart,thanwhichindayswhencorsetsweresolow,sentimentsodespised,andchestssooutoffashion,therecould,perhaps,havebeennogreaterproofofthefixityofheridea。 Afterhearingofhisfather’sdeath,shewrotetoJon,andreceivedhisanswerthreedayslateronherreturnfromariverpicnic。ItwashisfirstlettersincetheirmeetingatJune’s。Sheopeneditwithmisgiving,andreaditwithdismay。 \"SinceIsawyouI’veheardeverythingaboutthepast。Iwon’ttellityou——IthinkyouknewwhenwemetatJune’s。Shesaysyoudid。 Ifyoudid,Fleur,yououghttohavetoldme。Iexpectyouonlyheardyourfather’ssideofit。Ihaveheardmymother’s。It’sdreadful。Nowthatshe’ssosadIcan’tdoanythingtohurthermore。Ofcourse,Ilongforyouallday,butIdon’tbelievenowthatweshallevercometogether——there’ssomethingtoostrongpullingusapart。\" So!Herdeceptionhadfoundherout。ButJon——shefelt——hadforgiventhat。Itwaswhathesaidofhismotherwhichcausedthegutteringinherheartandtheweaksensationinherlegs。 Herfirstimpulsewastoreply——hersecond,nottoreply。Theseimpulseswereconstantlyrenewedinthedayswhichfollowed,whiledesperationgrewwithinher。Shewasnotherfather’schildfornothing。ThetenacitywhichhadatoncemadeandundoneSoameswasherbackbone,too,frilledandembroideredbyFrenchgraceandquickness。Instinctivelysheconjugatedtheverb\"tohave\"alwayswiththepronoun\"I。\"Sheconcealed,however,allsignsofhergrowingdesperation,andpursuedsuchriverpleasuresasthewindsandrainofadisagreeableJulypermitted,asifshehadnocareintheworld;nordidany\"suckingbaronet\"everneglectthebusinessofapublishermoreconsistentlythanherattendantspirit,MichaelMont。 ToSoamesshewasapuzzle。Hewasalmostdeceivedbythiscarelessgaiety。Almost——becausehedidnotfailtomarkhereyesoftenfixedonnothing,andthefilmoflightshiningfromherbedroomwindowlateatnight。Whatwasshethinkingandbroodingoverintosmallhourswhensheoughttohavebeenasleep?Buthedarednotaskwhatwasinhermind;and,sincethatonelittletalkinthebilliard— room,shesaidnothingtohim。 InthistaciturnconditionofaffairsitchancedthatWinifredinvitedthemtolunchandtogoafterwardto\"amostamusinglittleplay,’TheBeggar’sOpera\"’andwouldtheybringamantomakefour? Soames,whoseattitudetowardtheatreswastogotonothing,accepted,becauseFleur’sattitudewastogotoeverything。Theymotoredup,takingMichaelMont,who,beinginhisseventhheaven,wasfoundbyWinifred\"veryamusing。\"\"TheBeggar’sOpera\"puzzledSoames。Thepeoplewereveryunpleasant,thewholethingverycynical。Winifredwas\"intrigued\"——bythedresses。Themusic,too,didnotdispleaseher。AttheOpera,thenightbefore,shehadarrivedtooearlyfortheRussianBallet,andfoundthestageoccupiedbysingers,forawholehourpaleorapoplecticfromterrorlestbysomedreadfulinadvertencetheymightdropintoatune。 MichaelMontwasenrapturedwiththewholething。AndallthreewonderedwhatFleurwasthinkingofit。ButFleurwasnotthinkingofit。HerfixedideastoodonthestageandsangwithPollyPeachum,mimedwithFilch,dancedwithJennyDiver,posturedwithLucyLockit,kissed,trolled,andcuddledwithMacheath。Herlipsmightsmile,herhandsapplaud,butthecomicoldmasterpiecemadenomoreimpressiononherthanifithadbeenpathetic,likeamodern\"Revue。\"Whentheyembarkedinthecartoreturn,sheachedbecauseJonwasnotsittingnextherinsteadofMichaelMont。When,atsomejolt,theyoungman’sarmtouchedhersasifbyaccident,sheonlythought:’IfthatwereJon’sarm!’Whenhischeerfulvoice,temperedbyherproximity,murmuredabovethesoundofthecar’sprogress,shesmiledandanswered,thinking:’IfthatwereJon’svoice!’andwhenoncehesaid,\"Fleur,youlookaperfectangelinthatdress!\"sheanswered,\"Oh,doyoulikeit?thinking,’IfonlyJoncouldseeit!’ Duringthisdriveshetookaresolution。ShewouldgotoRobinHillandseehim——alone;shewouldtakethecar,withoutwordbeforehandtohimortoherfather。Itwasninedayssincehisletter,andshecouldwaitnolonger。OnMondayshewouldgo!ThedecisionmadeherwelldisposedtowardyoungMont。Withsomethingtolookforwardtoshecouldaffordtotolerateandrespond。Hemightstaytodinner; proposetoherasusual;dancewithher,pressherhand,sigh——dowhatheliked。Hewasonlyanuisancewhenheinterferedwithherfixedidea。Shewasevensorryforhimsofarasitwaspossibletobesorryforanybodybutherselfjustnow。Atdinnerheseemedtotalkmorewildlythanusualaboutwhathecalled\"thedeathofthecloseborough\"——shepaidlittleattention,butherfatherseemedpayingagooddeal,withthesmileonhisfacewhichmeantopposition,ifnotanger。 \"Theyoungergenerationdoesn’tthinkasyoudo,sir;doesit,Fleur?\" Fleurshruggedhershoulders——theyoungergenerationwasjustJon,andshedidnotknowwhathewasthinking。 \"YoungpeoplewillthinkasIdowhenthey’remyage,Mr。Mont。 Humannaturedoesn’tchange。\" \"Iadmitthat,sir;buttheformsofthoughtchangewiththetimes。 Thepursuitofself—interestisaformofthoughtthat’sgoingout。\" \"Indeed!Tomindone’sownbusinessisnotaformofthought,Mr。 Mont,it’saninstinct。\" Yes,whenJonwasthebusiness! \"Butwhatisone’sbusiness,sir?That’sthepoint。Everybody’sbusinessisgoingtobeone’sbusiness。Isn’tit,Fleur?\" Fleuronlysmiled。 \"Ifnot,\"addedyoungMont,\"there’llbeblood。\" \"Peoplehavetalkedlikethatfromtimeimmemorial\" \"Butyou’lladmit,sir,thatthesenseofpropertyisdyingout?\" \"Ishouldsayincreasingamongthosewhohavenone。\" \"Well,lookatme!I’mheirtoanentailedestate。Idon’twantthething;I’dcuttheentailto—morrow。\" \"You’renotmarried,andyoudon’tknowwhatyou’retalkingabout。\" Fleursawtheyoungman’seyesturnratherpiteouslyuponher。 \"Doyoureallymeanthatmarriage——?\"hebegan。 \"Societyisbuiltonmarriage,\"camefrombetweenherfather’scloselips;\"marriageanditsconsequences。Doyouwanttodoawaywithit?\" YoungMontmadeadistractedgesture。Silencebroodedoverthedinnertable,coveredwithspoonsbearingtheForsytecrest——apheasantproper——undertheelectriclightinanalabasterglobe。Andoutside,therivereveningdarkened,chargedwithheavymoistureandsweetscents。 ’Monday,’thoughtFleur;’Monday!’ VI DESPERATE TheweekswhichfollowedthedeathofhisfatherweresadandemptytotheonlyJolyonForsyteleft。Thenecessaryformsandceremonies— —thereadingoftheWill,valuationoftheestate,distributionofthelegacies——wereenactedoverthehead,asitwere,ofonenotyetofage。Jolyonwascremated。Byhisspecialwishnooneattendedthatceremony,orworeblackforhim。Thesuccessionofhisproperty,controlledtosomeextentbyoldJolyon’sWill,lefthiswidowinpossessionofRobinHill,withtwothousandfivehundredpoundsayearforlife。ApartfromthisthetwoWillsworkedtogetherinsomecomplicatedwaytoinsurethateachofJolyon’sthreechildrenshouldhaveanequalshareintheirgrandfather’sandfather’spropertyinthefutureasinthepresent,saveonlythatJon,byvirtueofhissex,wouldhavecontrolofhiscapitalwhenhewastwenty—one,whileJuneandHollywouldonlyhavethespiritoftheirs,inorderthattheirchildrenmighthavethebodyafterthem。 Iftheyhadnochildren,itwouldallcometoJonifheoutlivedthem;andsinceJunewasfifty,andHollynearlyforty,itwasconsideredinLincoln’sInnFieldsthatbutforthecrueltyofincometax,youngJonwouldbeaswarmamanashisgrandfatherwhenhedied。AllthiswasnothingtoJon,andlittleenoughtohismother。 ItwasJunewhodideverythingneedfulforonewhohadlefthisaffairsinperfectorder。Whenshehadgone,andthosetwowerealoneagaininthegreathouse,alonewithdeathdrawingthemtogether,andlovedrivingthemapart,Jonpassedverypainfuldayssecretlydisgustedanddisappointedwithhimself。Hismotherwouldlookathimwithsuchapatientsadnesswhichyethadinitaninstinctivepride,asifshewerereservingherdefence。Ifshesmiledhewasangrythathisansweringsmileshouldbesogrudgingandunnatural。Hedidnotjudgeorcondemnher;thatwasalltooremote——indeed,theideaofdoingsohadnevercometohim。No!hewasgrudgingandunnaturalbecausehecouldn’thavewhathewantedbecauseofher。Therewasonealleviation——muchtodoinconnectionwithhisfather’scareer,whichcouldnotbesafelyentrustedtoJune,thoughshehadofferedtoundertakeit。BothJonandhismotherhadfeltthatifshetookhisportfolios,unexhibiteddrawingsandunfinishedmatter,awaywithher,theworkwouldencountersuchicyblastsfromPaulPostandotherfrequentersofherstudio,thatitwouldsoonbefrozenoutevenofherwarmheart。Onitsold— fashionedplaneandofitskindtheworkwasgood,andtheycouldnotbearthethoughtofitssubjectiontoridicule。Aone—manexhibitionofhisworkwastheleasttestimonytheycouldpaytoonetheyhadloved;andonpreparationforthistheyspentmanyhourstogether。 Joncametohaveacuriouslyincreasedrespectforhisfather。Thequiettenacitywithwhichhehadconvertedamediocretalentintosomethingreallyindividualwasdisclosedbytheseresearches。Therewasagreatmassofworkwithararecontinuityofgrowthindepthandreachofvision。Nothingcertainlywentverydeep,orreachedveryhigh——butsuchastheworkwas,itwasthorough,conscientious,andcomplete。And,rememberinghisfather’sutterabsenceof\"side\" orself—assertion,thechaffinghumilitywithwhichhehadalwaysspokenofhisownefforts,evercallinghimself\"anamateur,\"Joncouldnothelpfeelingthathehadneverreallyknownhisfather。Totakehimselfseriously,yetneverboreothersbylettingthemknowthathedidso,seemedtohavebeenhisrulingprinciple。Therewassomethinginthiswhichappealedtotheboy,andmadehimheartilyendorsehismother’scomment:\"Hehadtruerefinement;hecouldn’thelpthinkingofothers,whateverhedid。Andwhenhetookaresolutionwhichwentcounter,hediditwiththeminimumofdefiance——notliketheAge,isit?Twiceinhislifehehadtogoagainsteverything;andyetitnevermadehimbitter。\"Jonsawtearsrunningdownherface,whichsheatonceturnedawayfromhim。Shewassoquietaboutherlossthatsometimeshehadthoughtshedidn’tfeelitmuch。Now,ashelookedather,hefelthowfarhefellshortofthereservepoweranddignityinbothhisfatherandhismother。And,stealinguptoher,heputhisarmroundherwaist。 Shekissedhimswiftly,butwithasortofpassion,andwentoutoftheroom。