第19章

类别:其他 作者:John Galsworthy字数:10943更新时间:18/12/18 13:40:14
Thestudio,wheretheyhadbeensortingandlabelling,hadoncebeenHolly’sschoolroom,devotedtohersilkworms,driedlavender,music,andotherformsofinstruction。Now,attheendofJuly,despiteitsnorthernandeasternaspects,awarmandslumberousaircameinbetweenthelong—fadedlilaclinencurtains。Toredeemalittlethedepartedglory,asofafieldthatisgoldenandgone,clingingtoaroomwhichitsmasterhasleft,Irenehadplacedonthepaint—stainedtableabowlofredroses。This,andJolyon’sfavouritecat,whostillclungtothedesertedhabitat,werethepleasantspotsinthatdishevelled,sadworkroom。Jon,atthenorthwindow,sniffingairmysteriouslyscentedwithwarmstrawberries,heardacardriveup。 Thelawyersagainaboutsomenonsense!Whydidthatscentsomakeoneache?Andwherediditcomefrom——therewerenostrawberrybedsonthissideofthehouse。Instinctivelyhetookacrumpledsheetofpaperfromhispocket,andwrotedownsomebrokenwords。Awarmthbeganspreadinginhischest;herubbedthepalmsofhishandstogether。Presentlyhehadjottedthis: \"IfIcouldmakealittlesongAlittlesongtosoothemyheart! I’dmakeitalloflittlethingsTheplashofwater,rubofwings,Thepuffing—offofdandiescrown,Thehissofraindropspillingdown,Thepurrofcat,thetrillofbird,Andev’rywhisperingI’veheard>Fromwillywindinleavesandgrass,Andallthedistantdronesthatpass。 AsongastenderandaslightAsflower,orbutterflyinflight; AndwhenIsawitopening,I’dletitflyandsing!\" Hewasstillmutteringitovertohimselfatthewindow,whenheheardhisnamecalled,and,turninground,sawFleur。Atthatamazingapparition,hemadeatfirstnomovementandnosound,whileherclearvividglanceravishedhisheart。Thenhewentforwardtothetable,saying,\"Howniceofyoutocome!\"andsawherflinchasifhehadthrownsomethingather。 \"Iaskedforyou,\"shesaid,\"andtheyshowedmeuphere。ButIcangoawayagain。\" Jonclutchedthepaint—stainedtable。Herfaceandfigureinitsfrillyfrockphotographeditselfwithsuchstartlingvividnessuponhiseyes,thatifshehadsunkthroughthefloorhemuststillhaveseenher。 \"IknowItoldyoualie,Jon。ButItolditoutoflove。\" \"Yes,oh!yes!That’snothing!\" \"Ididn’tansweryourletter。Whatwastheuse——therewasn’tanythingtoanswer。Iwantedtoseeyouinstead。\"Sheheldoutbothherhands,andJongraspedthemacrossthetable。Hetriedtosaysomething,butallhisattentionwasgiventotryingnottohurtherhands。Hisownfeltsohardandherssosoft。Shesaidalmostdefiantly: \"Thatoldstory——wasitsoverydreadful?\" \"Yes。\"Inhisvoice,too,therewasanoteofdefiance。 Shedraggedherhandsaway。\"Ididn’tthinkinthesedaysboysweretiedtotheirmothers’apron—strings。\" Jon’schinwentupasifhehadbeenstruck。 \"Oh!Ididn’tmeanit,Jon。Whatahorriblethingtosay!\"Swiftlyshecameclosetohim。\"Jon,dear;Ididn’tmeanit。\" \"Allright。\" Shehadputhertwohandsonhisshoulder,andherforeheaddownonthem;thebrimofherhattouchedhisneck,andhefeltitquivering。 But,inasortofparalysis,hemadenoresponse。Sheletgoofhisshoulderanddrewaway。 \"Well,I’llgo,ifyoudon’twantme。ButIneverthoughtyou’dhavegivenmeup。\" \"Ihaven’t,\"criedJon,comingsuddenlytolife。\"Ican’t。I’lltryagain。\" Hereyesgleamed,sheswayedtowardhim。\"Jon——Iloveyou!Don’tgivemeup!Ifyoudo,Idon’tknowwhat——Ifeelsodesperate。Whatdoesitmatter——allthatpast—comparedwiththis?\" Sheclungtohim。Hekissedhereyes,hercheeks,herlips。Butwhilehekissedherhesaw,thesheetsofthatletterfallendownonthefloorofhisbedroom——hisfather’swhitedeadface——hismotherkneelingbeforeit。Fleur’swhispered,\"Makeher!Promise!Oh!Jon,try!\"seemedchildishinhisear。Hefeltcuriouslyold。 \"Ipromise!\"hemuttered。\"Only,youdon’tunderstand。\" \"Shewantstospoilourlives,justbecause——\" \"Yes,ofwhat?\" Againthatchallengeinhisvoice,andshedidnotanswer。Herarmstightenedroundhim,andhereturnedherkisses;butevenwhileheyielded,thepoisonworkedinhim,thepoisonoftheletter。Fleurdidnotknow,shedidnotunderstand——shemisjudgedhismother;shecamefromtheenemy’scamp!Solovely,andhelovedherso——yet,eveninherembrace,hecouldnothelpthememoryofHolly’swords: \"Ithinkshehasa’having’nature,\"andhismother’s\"Mydarlingboy,don’tthinkofme——thinkofyourself!\" Whenshewasgonelikeapassionatedream,leavingherimageonhiseyes,herkissesonhislips,suchanacheinhisheart,Jonleanedinthewindow,listeningtothecarbearingheraway。Stillthescentasofwarmstrawberries,stillthelittlesummersoundsthatshouldmakehissong;stillallthepromiseofyouthandhappinessinsighing,floating,flutteringJuly——andhishearttorn;yearningstronginhim;hopehighinhimyetwithitseyescastdown,asifashamed。Themiserabletaskbeforehim!IfFleurwasdesperate,sowashe——watchingthepoplarsswaying,thewhitecloudspassing,thesunlightonthegrass。 Hewaitedtillevening,tillaftertheiralmostsilentdinner,tillhismotherhadplayedtohimandstillhewaited,feelingthatsheknewwhathewaswaitingtosay。Shekissedhimandwentup—stairs,andstillhelingered,watchingthemoonlightandthemoths,andthatunrealityofcolouringwhichstealsalongandstainsasummernight。 Andhewouldhavegivenanythingtobebackagaininthepast——barelythreemonthsback;orawayforward,years,inthefuture。Thepresentwiththisdarkcrueltyofadecision,onewayortheother,seemedimpossible。Herealisednowsomuchmorekeenlywhathismotherfeltthanhehadatfirst;asifthestoryinthatletterhadbeenapoisonousgermproducingakindoffeverofpartisanship,sothathereallyfeltthereweretwocamps,hismother’sandhis—— Fleur’sandherfather’s。Itmightbeadeadthing,thatoldtragicownershipandenmity,butdeadthingswerepoisonoustilltimehadcleanedthemaway。Evenhislovefelttainted,lessillusioned,moreoftheearth,andwithatreacherouslurkingdoubtlestFleur,likeherfather,mightwanttoown;notarticulate,justastealinghaunt,horriblyunworthy,whichcreptinandabouttheardourofhismemories,touchedwithitstarnishingbreaththevividnessandgraceofthatcharmedfaceandfigure——adoubt,notrealenoughtoconvincehimofitspresence,justrealenoughtodefloweraperfectfaith。 Andperfectfaith,toJon,notyettwenty,wasessential。HestillhadYouth’seagernesstogivewithbothhands,totakewithneither— togivelovinglytoonewhohadhisownimpulsivegenerosity。Surelyshehad!Hegotupfromthewindow—seatandroamedinthebiggreyghostlyroom,whosewallswerehungwithsilveredcanvas。Thishousehisfathersaidinthatdeath—bedletter——hadbeenbuiltforhismothertolivein——withFleur’sfather!Heputouthishandinthehalf—dark,asiftograsptheshadowyhandofthedead。Heclenched,tryingtofeelthethinvanishedfingersofhisfather;tosqueezethem,andreassurehimthathe—hewasonhisfather’sside。Tears,prisonedwithinhim,madehiseyesfeeldryandhot。Hewentbacktothewindow。Itwaswarmer,notsoeerie,morecomfortingoutside,wherethemoonhunggolden,threedaysofffull;thefreedomofthenightwascomforting。IfonlyFleurandhehadmetonsomedesertislandwithoutapast——andNaturefortheirhouse!Jonhadstillhishighregardfordesertislands,wherebreadfruitgrew,andthewaterwasblueabovethecoral。Thenightwasdeep,wasfree——therewasenticementinit;alure,apromise,arefugefromentanglement,andlove!Milksoptiedtohismother’s……!Hischeeksburned。Heshutthewindow,drewcurtainsoverit,switchedoffthelightedsconce,andwentup—stairs。 Thedoorofhisroomwasopen,thelightturnedup;hismother,stillinhereveninggown,wasstandingatthewindow。Sheturnedandsaid: \"Sitdown,Jon;let’stalk。\"Shesatdownonthewindow—seat,Jononhisbed。Shehadherprofileturnedtohim,andthebeautyandgraceofherfigure,thedelicatelineofthebrow,thenose,theneck,thestrangeandasitwereremoterefinementofher,movedhim。Hismotherneverbelongedtohersurroundings。Shecameintothemfromsomewhere——asitwere!Whatwasshegoingtosaytohim,whohadinhisheartsuchthingstosaytoher? \"IknowFleurcameto—day。I’mnotsurprised。\"Itwasasthoughshehadadded:\"Sheisherfather’sdaughter!\"AndJon’shearthardened。 Irenewentonquietly: \"IhaveFather’sletter。Ipickeditupthatnightandkeptit。 Wouldyoulikeitback,dear?\" Jonshookhishead。 \"Ihadreadit,ofcourse,beforehegaveittoyou。Itdidn’tquitedojusticetomycriminality。\" ’Mother!\"burstfromJon’slips。 \"Heputitverysweetly,butIknowthatinmarryingFleur’sfatherwithoutloveIdidadreadfulthing。Anunhappymarriage,Jon,canplaysuchhavocwithotherlivesbesidesone’sown。Youarefearfullyyoung,mydarling,andfearfullyloving。Doyouthinkyoucanpossiblybehappywiththisgirl?\" Staringatherdarkeyes,darkernowfrompain,Jonanswered\"Yes;oh!yes——ifyoucouldbe。\" Irenesmiled。 \"Admirationofbeautyandlongingforpossessionarenotlove。Ifyourswereanothercaselikemine,Jon——wherethedeepestthingsarestifled;thefleshjoined,andthespiritatwar!\" \"Whyshouldit,Mother?Youthinkshemustbelikeherfather,butshe’snot。I’veseenhim。\" AgainthesmilecameonIrene’slips,andinJonsomethingwavered; therewassuchironyandexperienceinthatsmile。 \"Youareagiver,Jon;sheisataker。\" Thatunworthydoubt,thathauntinguncertaintyagain!Hesaidwithvehemence: \"Sheisn’t——sheisn’t。It’sonlybecauseIcan’tbeartomakeyouunhappy,Mother,nowthatFather——\"Hethrusthisfistsagainsthisforehead。 Irenegotup。 \"Itoldyouthatnight,dear,nottomindme。Imeantit。Thinkofyourselfandyourownhappiness!Icanstandwhat’sleft——I’vebroughtitonmyself。\" Againtheword\"Mother!\"burstfromJon’slips。 Shecameovertohimandputherhandsoverhis。 \"Doyoufeelyourhead,darling?\" Jonshookit。Whathefeltwasinhischest——asortoftearingasunderofthetissuethere,bythetwoloves。 \"Ishallalwaysloveyouthesame,Jon,whateveryoudo。Youwon’tloseanything。\"Shesmoothedhishairgently,andwalkedaway。 Heheardthedoorshut;and,rollingoveronthebed,lay,stiflinghisbreath,withanawfulheld—upfeelingwithinhim。 VII EMBASSY EnquiringforheratteatimeSoameslearnedthatFleurhadbeenoutinthecarsincetwo。Threehours!Wherehadshegone?UptoLondonwithoutawordtohim?Hehadneverbecomequitereconciledwithcars。Hehadembracedtheminprinciple——likethebornempiricist,orForsyte,thathewas——adoptingeachsymptomofprogressasitcamealongwith:\"Well,wecouldn’tdowithoutthemnow。\"Butinfacthefoundthemtearing,great,smellythings。 ObligedbyAnnettetohaveone——aRollhardwithpearl—greycushions,electriclight,littlemirrors,traysfortheashesofcigarettes,flowervases——allsmellingofpetrolandstephanotis——heregardeditmuchasheusedtoregardhisbrother—in—law,MontagueDartie。Thethingtypifiedallthatwasfast,insecure,andsubcutaneouslyoilyinmodernlife。Asmodernlifebecamefaster,looser,younger,Soameswasbecomingolder,slower,tighter,moreandmoreinthoughtandlanguagelikehisfatherJamesbeforehim。Hewasalmostawareofithimself。Paceandprogresspleasedhimlessandless;therewasanostentation,too,aboutacarwhichheconsideredprovocativeintheprevailingmoodofLabour。OnoneoccasionthatfellowSimshaddrivenovertheonlyvestedinterestofaworkingman。Soameshadnotforgottenthebehaviourofitsmaster,whennotmanypeoplewouldhavestoppedtoputupwithit。Hehadbeensorryforthedog,andquitepreparedtotakeitspartagainstthecar,ifthatruffianhadn’tbeensooutrageous。Withfourhoursfastbecomingfive,andstillnoFleur,alltheoldcar—wisefeelingshehadexperiencedinpersonandbyproxyballedwithinhim,andsinkingsensationstroubledthepitofhisstomach。AtsevenhetelephonedtoWinifredbytrunkcall。No!FleurhadnotbeentoGreenStreet。Thenwherewasshe?Visionsofhisbeloveddaughterrolledupinherprettyfrills,allbloodanddust—stained,insomehideouscatastrophe,begantohaunthim。Hewenttoherroomandspiedamongherthings。 Shehadtakennothing——nodressing—case,noJewellery。Andthis,areliefinonesense,increasedhisfearsofanaccident。Terribletobehelplesswhenhislovedonewasmissing,especiallywhenhecouldn’tbearfussorpublicityofanykind!Whatshouldhedoifshewerenotbackbynightfall? Ataquartertoeightheheardthecar。Agreatweightliftedfromoffhisheart;hehurrieddown。Shewasgettingout——paleandtired— looking,butnothingwrong。Hemetherinthehall。 \"You’vefrightenedme。Wherehaveyoubeen?\" \"ToRobinHill。I’msorry,dear。Ihadtogo;I’lltellyouafterward。\"And,withaflyingkiss,sheranup—stairs。 Soameswaitedinthedrawing—room。ToRobinHill!Whatdidthatportend? Itwasnotasubjecttheycoulddiscussatdinner——consecratedtothesusceptibilitiesofthebutler。TheagonyofnervesSoameshadbeenthrough,thereliefhefeltathersafety,softenedhispowertocondemnwhatshehaddone,orresistwhatshewasgoingtodo;hewaitedinarelaxedstuporforherrevelation。Lifewasaqueerbusiness。Therehewasatsixty—fiveandnomoreincommandofthingsthanifhehadnotspentfortyyearsinbuildingupsecurity— alwayssomethingonecouldn’tgetontermswith!Inthepocketofhisdinner—jacketwasaletterfromAnnette。Shewascomingbackinafortnight。Heknewnothingofwhatshehadbeendoingoutthere。 Andhewasgladthathedidnot。Herabsencehadbeenarelief。Outofsightwasoutofmind!Andnowshewascomingback。Anotherworry!AndtheBolderbyOldCromewasgone——Dumetriushadgotit—— allbecausethatanonymousletterhadputitoutofhisthoughts。Hefurtivelyremarkedthestrainedlookonhisdaughter’sface,asifshetooweregazingatapicturethatshecouldn’tbuy。HealmostwishedtheWarback。Worriesdidn’tseem,then,quitesoworrying。 >Fromthecaressinhervoice,thelookonherface,hebecamecertainthatshewantedsomethingfromhim,uncertainwhetheritwouldbewiseofhimtogiveither。Hepushedhissavouryawayuneaten,andevenjoinedherinacigarette。 Afterdinnershesettheelectricpiano—playergoing。Andheauguredtheworstwhenshesatdownonacushionfootstoolathisknee,andputherhandonhis。 \"Darling,benicetome。IhadtoseeJon——hewrotetome。He’sgoingtotrywhathecandowithhismother。ButI’vebeenthinking。 It’sreallyinyourhands,Father。Ifyou’dpersuadeherthatitdoesn’tmeanrenewingthepastinanyway!ThatIshallstayyours,andJonwillstayhers;thatyouneedneverseehimorher,andsheneedneverseeyouorme!Onlyyoucouldpersuadeher,dear,becauseonlyyoucouldpromise。Onecan’tpromiseforotherpeople。Surelyitwouldn’tbetooawkwardforyoutoseeherjustthisoncenowthatJon’sfatherisdead?\" \"Tooawkward?\"Soamesrepeated。\"Thewholething’spreposterous。\" \"Youknow,\"saidFleur,withoutlookingup,\"youwouldn’tmindseeingher,really。\" Soameswassilent。Herwordshadexpressedatruthtoodeepforhimtoadmit。Sheslippedherfingersbetweenhisown——hot,slim,eager,theyclungthere。Thischildofhiswouldcorkscrewherwayintoabrickwall! \"WhatamItodoifyouwon’t,Father?\"shesaidverysoftly。 \"I’lldoanythingforyourhappiness,\"saidSoanies;\"butthisisn’tforyourhappiness。\" \"Oh!itis;itis!\" \"It’llonlystirthingsup,\"hesaidgrimly。 \"Buttheyarestirredup。Thethingistoquietthem。Tomakeherfeelthatthisisjustourlives,andhasnothingtodowithyoursorhers。Youcandoit,Father,Iknowyoucan。\" \"Youknowagreatdeal,then,\"wasSoames’glumanswer。 \"Ifyouwill,JonandIwillwaitayear——twoyearsifyoulike。\" \"Itseemstome,\"murmuredSoames,\"thatyoucarenothingaboutwhatIfeel。\" Fleurpressedhishandagainsthercheek。 \"Ido,darling。Butyouwouldn’tlikemetobeawfullymiserable。\" Howshewheedledtogetherends!Andtryingwithallhismighttothinkshereallycaredforhim——hewasnotsure——notsure。Allshecaredforwasthisboy!Whyshouldhehelphertogetthisboy,whowaskillingheraffectionforhimself?Whyshouldhe?BythelawsoftheForsytesitwasfoolish!Therewasnothingtobehadoutofit——nothing!Togivehertothatboy!Topassherintotheenemy’scamp,undertheinfluenceofthewomanwhohadinjuredhimsodeeply! Slowly——inevitably——hewouldlosethisflowerofhislife!Andsuddenlyhewasconsciousthathishandwaswet。Hisheartgavealittlepainfuljump。Hecouldn’tbearhertocry。Heputhisotherhandquicklyoverhers,andateardroppedonthat,too。Hecouldn’tgoonlikethis!\"Well,well,\"hesaid,\"I’llthinkitover,anddowhatIcan。Come,come!\"Ifshemusthaveitforherhappiness——shemust;hecouldn’trefusetohelpher。Andlestsheshouldbegintothankhimhegotoutofhischairandwentuptothepiano—player—— makingthatnoise!Itrandown,ashereachedit,withafaintbuzz。 Thatmusicalboxofhisnurserydays:\"TheHarmoniousBlacksmith,\" \"GloriousPort\"——thethinghadalwaysmadehimmiserablewhenhismothersetitgoingonSundayafternoons。Hereitwasagain——thesamething,onlylarger,moreexpensive,andnowitplayed\"TheWild,WildWomen,\"and\"ThePoliceman’sHoliday,\"andhewasnolongerinblackvelvetwithaskybluecollar。’Profond’sright,’hethought,’there’snothinginit!We’reallprogressingtothegrave!’Andwiththatsurprisingmentalcommenthewalkedout。 HedidnotseeFleuragainthatnight。But,atbreakfast,hereyesfollowedhimaboutwithanappealhecouldnotescape——notthatheintendedtotry。No!Hehadmadeuphismindtothenerve—rackingbusiness。HewouldgotoRobinHill——tothathouseofmemories。 Pleasantmemory——thelast!Ofgoingdowntokeepthatboy’sfatherandIreneapartbythreateningdivorce。Hehadoftenthought,since,thatithadclinchedtheirunion。And,now,hewasgoingtoclinchtheunionofthatboywithhisgirl。’Idon’tknowwhatI’vedone,’ hethought,’tohavesuchthingsthrustonme!’Hewentupbytrainanddownbytrain,andfromthestationwalkedbythelongrisinglane,stillverymuchasheremembereditoverthirtyyearsago。 Funny——sonearLondon!Someoneevidentlywasholdingontothelandthere。Thisspeculationsoothedhim,movingbetweenthehighhedgesslowly,soasnottogetoverheated,thoughthedaywaschillenough。 Afterallwassaidanddonetherewassomethingrealaboutland,itdidn’tshift。Land,andgoodpictures!Thevaluesmightfluctuateabit,butonthewholetheywerealwaysgoingup——worthholdingonto,inaworldwheretherewassuchalotofunreality,cheapbuilding,changingfashions,sucha\"Hereto—dayandgoneto—morrow\"spirit。 TheFrenchwereright,perhaps,withtheirpeasantproprietorship,thoughhehadnoopinionoftheFrench。One’sbitofland! Somethingsolidinit!Hehadheardpeasantproprietorsdescribedasapig—headedlot;hadheardyoungMontcallhisfatherapigheadedMorningPoster——disrespectfulyoungdevil。Well,therewereworsethingsthanbeingpig—headedorreadingtheMorningPost。TherewasProfondandhistribe,andalltheseLabourchaps,andloud—mouthedpoliticiansand’wild,wildwomen’!Alotofworsethings!AndsuddenlySoamesbecameconsciousoffeelingweak,andhot,andshaky。 Sheernervesatthemeetingbeforehim!AsAuntJuleymighthavesaid——quoting\"SuperiorDosset\"——hisnerveswere\"inaproperfautigue。\"Hecouldseethehousenowamongitstrees,thehousehehadwatchedbeingbuilt,intendingitforhimselfandthiswoman,who,bysuchstrangefate,hadlivedinitwithanotherafterall! HebegantothinkofDumetrius,LocalLoans,andotherformsofinvestment。Hecouldnotaffordtomeetherwithhisnervesallshaking;hewhorepresentedtheDayofJudgmentforheronearthasitwasinheaven;he,legalownership,personified,meetinglawlessbeauty,incarnate。Hisdignitydemandedimpassivityduringthisembassydesignedtolinktheiroffspring,who,ifshehadbehavedherself,wouldhavebeenbrotherandsister。Thatwretchedtune,\"TheWild,WildWomen,\"keptrunninginhishead,perversely,fortunesdidnotrunthereasarule。Passingthepoplarsinfrontofthehouse,hethought:’Howthey’vegrown;Ihadthemplanted!’ Amaidansweredhisring。 \"Willyousay——Mr。Forsyte,onaveryspecialmatter。\" Ifsherealisedwhohewas,quiteprobablyshewouldnotseehim。 ’ByGeorge!’hethought,hardeningasthetugcame。’It’satopsy— turvyaffair!’ Themaidcameback。\"Wouldthegentlemanstatehisbusiness,please?\" \"SayitconcernsMr。Jon,\"saidSoames。 Andoncemorehewasaloneinthathallwiththepoolofgrey—whitemarbledesignedbyherfirstlover。Ah!shehadbeenabadlot——hadlovedtwomen,andnothimself!Hemustrememberthatwhenhecamefacetofacewithheroncemore。Andsuddenlyhesawherintheopeningchinkbetweenthelongheavypurplecurtains,swaying,asifinhesitation;theoldperfectpoiseandline,theoldstartleddark— eyedgravity,theoldcalmdefensivevoice:\"Willyoucomein,please?\" Hepassedthroughthatopening。Asinthepicture—galleryandtheconfectioner’sshop,sheseemedtohimstillbeautiful。Andthiswasthefirsttime——theveryfirst——sincehemarriedherseven—and—thirtyyearsago,thathewasspeakingtoherwithoutthelegalrighttocallherhis。Shewasnotwearingblack——oneofthatfellow’sradicalnotions,hesupposed。 \"Iapologiseforcoming,\"hesaidglumly;\"butthisbusinessmustbesettledonewayortheother。\" \"Won’tyousitdown?\" \"No,thankyou。\" Angerathisfalseposition,impatienceofceremonybetweenthem,masteredhim,andwordscametumblingout: \"It’saninfernalmischance;I’vedonemybesttodiscourageit。I considermydaughtercrazy,butI’vegotintothehabitofindulgingher;that’swhyI’mhere。Isupposeyou’refondofyourson。\" \"Devotedly。\" \"Well?\" \"Itrestswithhim。\" Hehadasenseofbeingmetandbaffled。Always——alwaysshehadbaffledhim,eveninthoseoldfirstmarrieddays。 \"It’samadnotion,\"hesaid。 \"Itis。\" \"Ifyouhadonly——!Well——theymighthavebeen——\"hedidnotfinishthatsentence\"brotherandsisterandallthissaved,\"buthesawhershudderasifhehad,andstungbythesighthecrossedovertothewindow。Outtherethetreeshadnotgrown——theycouldn’t,theywereold\"SofarasI’mconcerned,\"hesaid,\"youmaymakeyourmindeasy。I desiretoseeneitheryounoryoursonifthismarriagecomesabout。 Youngpeopleinthesedaysare——areunaccountable。ButIcan’tbeartoseemydaughterunhappy。WhatamItosaytoherwhenIgoback?\" \"PleasesaytoherasIsaidtoyou,thatitrestswithJon。\" \"Youdon’topposeit?\" \"Withallmyheart;notwithmylips。\" Soamesstood,bitinghisfinger。 \"Irememberanevening——\"hesaidsuddenly;andwassilent。Whatwasthere——whatwasthereinthiswomanthatwouldnotfitintothefourcornersofhishateorcondemnation?\"Whereishe——yourson?\" \"Upinhisfather’sstudio,Ithink。\" \"Perhapsyou’dhavehimdown。\" Hewatchedherringthebell,hewatchedthemaidcomein。 \"PleasetellMr。JonthatIwanthim。\" \"Ifitrestswithhim,\"saidSoameshurriedly,whenthemaidwasgone,\"IsupposeImaytakeitforgrantedthatthisunnaturalmarriagewilltakeplace;inthatcasethere’llbeformalities。WhomdoIdealwith——Herring’s?\" Irenenodded。 \"Youdon’tproposetolivewiththem?\" Ireneshookherhead。 \"Whathappenstothishouse?\" \"ItwillbeasJonwishes。\" \"Thishouse,\"saidSoamessuddenly:\"IhadhopeswhenIbeganit。Iftheyliveinit——theirchildren!Theysaythere’ssuchathingasNemesis。Doyoubelieveinit?\" \"Yes。\" \"Oh!Youdo!\" Hehadcomebackfromthewindow,andwasstandingclosetoher,who,inthecurveofhergrandpiano,was,asitwere,embayed。 \"I’mnotlikelytoseeyouagain,\"hesaidslowly。\"Willyoushakehands\"——hislipquivered,thewordscameoutjerkily——\"andletthepastdie。\"Heheldouthishand。Herpalefacegrewpaler,hereyessodark,restedimmovablyonhis,herhandsremainedclaspedinfrontofher。Heheardasoundandturned。Thatboywasstandingintheopeningofthecurtains。Veryqueerhelooked,hardlyrecognisableastheyoungfellowhehadseenintheGalleryoffCorkStreet——veryqueer;mucholder,noyouthinthefaceatall——haggard,rigid,hishairruffled,hiseyesdeepinhishead。Soamesmadeaneffort,andsaidwithaliftofhislip,notquiteasmilenorquiteasneer: \"Well,youngman!I’mhereformydaughter;itrestswithyou,itseems——thismatter。Yourmotherleavesitinyourhands。\" Theboycontinuedstaringathismother’sface,andmadenoanswer。 \"Formydaughter’ssakeI’vebroughtmyselftocome,\"saidSoames。 \"WhatamItosaytoherwhenIgoback?\" Stilllookingathismother,theboysaid,quietly: \"TellFleurthatit’snogood,please;Imustdoasmyfatherwishedbeforehedied。\" \"Jon!\" \"It’sallright,Mother。\" InakindofstupefactionSoameslookedfromonetotheother;then,takinguphatandumbrellawhichhehadputdownonachair,hewalkedtowardthecurtains。Theboystoodasideforhimtogoby。 Hepassedthroughandheardthegrateoftheringsasthecurtainsweredrawnbehindhim。Thesoundliberatedsomethinginhischest。 ’Sothat’sthat!’hethought,andpassedoutofthefrontdoor。