Thestudio,wheretheyhadbeensortingandlabelling,hadoncebeenHolly’sschoolroom,devotedtohersilkworms,driedlavender,music,andotherformsofinstruction。Now,attheendofJuly,despiteitsnorthernandeasternaspects,awarmandslumberousaircameinbetweenthelong—fadedlilaclinencurtains。Toredeemalittlethedepartedglory,asofafieldthatisgoldenandgone,clingingtoaroomwhichitsmasterhasleft,Irenehadplacedonthepaint—stainedtableabowlofredroses。This,andJolyon’sfavouritecat,whostillclungtothedesertedhabitat,werethepleasantspotsinthatdishevelled,sadworkroom。Jon,atthenorthwindow,sniffingairmysteriouslyscentedwithwarmstrawberries,heardacardriveup。
Thelawyersagainaboutsomenonsense!Whydidthatscentsomakeoneache?Andwherediditcomefrom——therewerenostrawberrybedsonthissideofthehouse。Instinctivelyhetookacrumpledsheetofpaperfromhispocket,andwrotedownsomebrokenwords。Awarmthbeganspreadinginhischest;herubbedthepalmsofhishandstogether。Presentlyhehadjottedthis:
\"IfIcouldmakealittlesongAlittlesongtosoothemyheart!
I’dmakeitalloflittlethingsTheplashofwater,rubofwings,Thepuffing—offofdandiescrown,Thehissofraindropspillingdown,Thepurrofcat,thetrillofbird,Andev’rywhisperingI’veheard>Fromwillywindinleavesandgrass,Andallthedistantdronesthatpass。
AsongastenderandaslightAsflower,orbutterflyinflight;
AndwhenIsawitopening,I’dletitflyandsing!\"
Hewasstillmutteringitovertohimselfatthewindow,whenheheardhisnamecalled,and,turninground,sawFleur。Atthatamazingapparition,hemadeatfirstnomovementandnosound,whileherclearvividglanceravishedhisheart。Thenhewentforwardtothetable,saying,\"Howniceofyoutocome!\"andsawherflinchasifhehadthrownsomethingather。
\"Iaskedforyou,\"shesaid,\"andtheyshowedmeuphere。ButIcangoawayagain。\"
Jonclutchedthepaint—stainedtable。Herfaceandfigureinitsfrillyfrockphotographeditselfwithsuchstartlingvividnessuponhiseyes,thatifshehadsunkthroughthefloorhemuststillhaveseenher。
\"IknowItoldyoualie,Jon。ButItolditoutoflove。\"
\"Yes,oh!yes!That’snothing!\"
\"Ididn’tansweryourletter。Whatwastheuse——therewasn’tanythingtoanswer。Iwantedtoseeyouinstead。\"Sheheldoutbothherhands,andJongraspedthemacrossthetable。Hetriedtosaysomething,butallhisattentionwasgiventotryingnottohurtherhands。Hisownfeltsohardandherssosoft。Shesaidalmostdefiantly:
\"Thatoldstory——wasitsoverydreadful?\"
\"Yes。\"Inhisvoice,too,therewasanoteofdefiance。
Shedraggedherhandsaway。\"Ididn’tthinkinthesedaysboysweretiedtotheirmothers’apron—strings。\"
Jon’schinwentupasifhehadbeenstruck。
\"Oh!Ididn’tmeanit,Jon。Whatahorriblethingtosay!\"Swiftlyshecameclosetohim。\"Jon,dear;Ididn’tmeanit。\"
\"Allright。\"
Shehadputhertwohandsonhisshoulder,andherforeheaddownonthem;thebrimofherhattouchedhisneck,andhefeltitquivering。
But,inasortofparalysis,hemadenoresponse。Sheletgoofhisshoulderanddrewaway。
\"Well,I’llgo,ifyoudon’twantme。ButIneverthoughtyou’dhavegivenmeup。\"
\"Ihaven’t,\"criedJon,comingsuddenlytolife。\"Ican’t。I’lltryagain。\"
Hereyesgleamed,sheswayedtowardhim。\"Jon——Iloveyou!Don’tgivemeup!Ifyoudo,Idon’tknowwhat——Ifeelsodesperate。Whatdoesitmatter——allthatpast—comparedwiththis?\"
Sheclungtohim。Hekissedhereyes,hercheeks,herlips。Butwhilehekissedherhesaw,thesheetsofthatletterfallendownonthefloorofhisbedroom——hisfather’swhitedeadface——hismotherkneelingbeforeit。Fleur’swhispered,\"Makeher!Promise!Oh!Jon,try!\"seemedchildishinhisear。Hefeltcuriouslyold。
\"Ipromise!\"hemuttered。\"Only,youdon’tunderstand。\"
\"Shewantstospoilourlives,justbecause——\"
\"Yes,ofwhat?\"
Againthatchallengeinhisvoice,andshedidnotanswer。Herarmstightenedroundhim,andhereturnedherkisses;butevenwhileheyielded,thepoisonworkedinhim,thepoisonoftheletter。Fleurdidnotknow,shedidnotunderstand——shemisjudgedhismother;shecamefromtheenemy’scamp!Solovely,andhelovedherso——yet,eveninherembrace,hecouldnothelpthememoryofHolly’swords:
\"Ithinkshehasa’having’nature,\"andhismother’s\"Mydarlingboy,don’tthinkofme——thinkofyourself!\"
Whenshewasgonelikeapassionatedream,leavingherimageonhiseyes,herkissesonhislips,suchanacheinhisheart,Jonleanedinthewindow,listeningtothecarbearingheraway。Stillthescentasofwarmstrawberries,stillthelittlesummersoundsthatshouldmakehissong;stillallthepromiseofyouthandhappinessinsighing,floating,flutteringJuly——andhishearttorn;yearningstronginhim;hopehighinhimyetwithitseyescastdown,asifashamed。Themiserabletaskbeforehim!IfFleurwasdesperate,sowashe——watchingthepoplarsswaying,thewhitecloudspassing,thesunlightonthegrass。
Hewaitedtillevening,tillaftertheiralmostsilentdinner,tillhismotherhadplayedtohimandstillhewaited,feelingthatsheknewwhathewaswaitingtosay。Shekissedhimandwentup—stairs,andstillhelingered,watchingthemoonlightandthemoths,andthatunrealityofcolouringwhichstealsalongandstainsasummernight。
Andhewouldhavegivenanythingtobebackagaininthepast——barelythreemonthsback;orawayforward,years,inthefuture。Thepresentwiththisdarkcrueltyofadecision,onewayortheother,seemedimpossible。Herealisednowsomuchmorekeenlywhathismotherfeltthanhehadatfirst;asifthestoryinthatletterhadbeenapoisonousgermproducingakindoffeverofpartisanship,sothathereallyfeltthereweretwocamps,hismother’sandhis——
Fleur’sandherfather’s。Itmightbeadeadthing,thatoldtragicownershipandenmity,butdeadthingswerepoisonoustilltimehadcleanedthemaway。Evenhislovefelttainted,lessillusioned,moreoftheearth,andwithatreacherouslurkingdoubtlestFleur,likeherfather,mightwanttoown;notarticulate,justastealinghaunt,horriblyunworthy,whichcreptinandabouttheardourofhismemories,touchedwithitstarnishingbreaththevividnessandgraceofthatcharmedfaceandfigure——adoubt,notrealenoughtoconvincehimofitspresence,justrealenoughtodefloweraperfectfaith。
Andperfectfaith,toJon,notyettwenty,wasessential。HestillhadYouth’seagernesstogivewithbothhands,totakewithneither—
togivelovinglytoonewhohadhisownimpulsivegenerosity。Surelyshehad!Hegotupfromthewindow—seatandroamedinthebiggreyghostlyroom,whosewallswerehungwithsilveredcanvas。Thishousehisfathersaidinthatdeath—bedletter——hadbeenbuiltforhismothertolivein——withFleur’sfather!Heputouthishandinthehalf—dark,asiftograsptheshadowyhandofthedead。Heclenched,tryingtofeelthethinvanishedfingersofhisfather;tosqueezethem,andreassurehimthathe—hewasonhisfather’sside。Tears,prisonedwithinhim,madehiseyesfeeldryandhot。Hewentbacktothewindow。Itwaswarmer,notsoeerie,morecomfortingoutside,wherethemoonhunggolden,threedaysofffull;thefreedomofthenightwascomforting。IfonlyFleurandhehadmetonsomedesertislandwithoutapast——andNaturefortheirhouse!Jonhadstillhishighregardfordesertislands,wherebreadfruitgrew,andthewaterwasblueabovethecoral。Thenightwasdeep,wasfree——therewasenticementinit;alure,apromise,arefugefromentanglement,andlove!Milksoptiedtohismother’s……!Hischeeksburned。Heshutthewindow,drewcurtainsoverit,switchedoffthelightedsconce,andwentup—stairs。
Thedoorofhisroomwasopen,thelightturnedup;hismother,stillinhereveninggown,wasstandingatthewindow。Sheturnedandsaid:
\"Sitdown,Jon;let’stalk。\"Shesatdownonthewindow—seat,Jononhisbed。Shehadherprofileturnedtohim,andthebeautyandgraceofherfigure,thedelicatelineofthebrow,thenose,theneck,thestrangeandasitwereremoterefinementofher,movedhim。Hismotherneverbelongedtohersurroundings。Shecameintothemfromsomewhere——asitwere!Whatwasshegoingtosaytohim,whohadinhisheartsuchthingstosaytoher?
\"IknowFleurcameto—day。I’mnotsurprised。\"Itwasasthoughshehadadded:\"Sheisherfather’sdaughter!\"AndJon’shearthardened。
Irenewentonquietly:
\"IhaveFather’sletter。Ipickeditupthatnightandkeptit。
Wouldyoulikeitback,dear?\"
Jonshookhishead。
\"Ihadreadit,ofcourse,beforehegaveittoyou。Itdidn’tquitedojusticetomycriminality。\"
’Mother!\"burstfromJon’slips。
\"Heputitverysweetly,butIknowthatinmarryingFleur’sfatherwithoutloveIdidadreadfulthing。Anunhappymarriage,Jon,canplaysuchhavocwithotherlivesbesidesone’sown。Youarefearfullyyoung,mydarling,andfearfullyloving。Doyouthinkyoucanpossiblybehappywiththisgirl?\"
Staringatherdarkeyes,darkernowfrompain,Jonanswered\"Yes;oh!yes——ifyoucouldbe。\"
Irenesmiled。
\"Admirationofbeautyandlongingforpossessionarenotlove。Ifyourswereanothercaselikemine,Jon——wherethedeepestthingsarestifled;thefleshjoined,andthespiritatwar!\"
\"Whyshouldit,Mother?Youthinkshemustbelikeherfather,butshe’snot。I’veseenhim。\"
AgainthesmilecameonIrene’slips,andinJonsomethingwavered;
therewassuchironyandexperienceinthatsmile。
\"Youareagiver,Jon;sheisataker。\"
Thatunworthydoubt,thathauntinguncertaintyagain!Hesaidwithvehemence:
\"Sheisn’t——sheisn’t。It’sonlybecauseIcan’tbeartomakeyouunhappy,Mother,nowthatFather——\"Hethrusthisfistsagainsthisforehead。
Irenegotup。
\"Itoldyouthatnight,dear,nottomindme。Imeantit。Thinkofyourselfandyourownhappiness!Icanstandwhat’sleft——I’vebroughtitonmyself。\"
Againtheword\"Mother!\"burstfromJon’slips。
Shecameovertohimandputherhandsoverhis。
\"Doyoufeelyourhead,darling?\"
Jonshookit。Whathefeltwasinhischest——asortoftearingasunderofthetissuethere,bythetwoloves。
\"Ishallalwaysloveyouthesame,Jon,whateveryoudo。Youwon’tloseanything。\"Shesmoothedhishairgently,andwalkedaway。
Heheardthedoorshut;and,rollingoveronthebed,lay,stiflinghisbreath,withanawfulheld—upfeelingwithinhim。
VII
EMBASSY
EnquiringforheratteatimeSoameslearnedthatFleurhadbeenoutinthecarsincetwo。Threehours!Wherehadshegone?UptoLondonwithoutawordtohim?Hehadneverbecomequitereconciledwithcars。Hehadembracedtheminprinciple——likethebornempiricist,orForsyte,thathewas——adoptingeachsymptomofprogressasitcamealongwith:\"Well,wecouldn’tdowithoutthemnow。\"Butinfacthefoundthemtearing,great,smellythings。
ObligedbyAnnettetohaveone——aRollhardwithpearl—greycushions,electriclight,littlemirrors,traysfortheashesofcigarettes,flowervases——allsmellingofpetrolandstephanotis——heregardeditmuchasheusedtoregardhisbrother—in—law,MontagueDartie。Thethingtypifiedallthatwasfast,insecure,andsubcutaneouslyoilyinmodernlife。Asmodernlifebecamefaster,looser,younger,Soameswasbecomingolder,slower,tighter,moreandmoreinthoughtandlanguagelikehisfatherJamesbeforehim。Hewasalmostawareofithimself。Paceandprogresspleasedhimlessandless;therewasanostentation,too,aboutacarwhichheconsideredprovocativeintheprevailingmoodofLabour。OnoneoccasionthatfellowSimshaddrivenovertheonlyvestedinterestofaworkingman。Soameshadnotforgottenthebehaviourofitsmaster,whennotmanypeoplewouldhavestoppedtoputupwithit。Hehadbeensorryforthedog,andquitepreparedtotakeitspartagainstthecar,ifthatruffianhadn’tbeensooutrageous。Withfourhoursfastbecomingfive,andstillnoFleur,alltheoldcar—wisefeelingshehadexperiencedinpersonandbyproxyballedwithinhim,andsinkingsensationstroubledthepitofhisstomach。AtsevenhetelephonedtoWinifredbytrunkcall。No!FleurhadnotbeentoGreenStreet。Thenwherewasshe?Visionsofhisbeloveddaughterrolledupinherprettyfrills,allbloodanddust—stained,insomehideouscatastrophe,begantohaunthim。Hewenttoherroomandspiedamongherthings。
Shehadtakennothing——nodressing—case,noJewellery。Andthis,areliefinonesense,increasedhisfearsofanaccident。Terribletobehelplesswhenhislovedonewasmissing,especiallywhenhecouldn’tbearfussorpublicityofanykind!Whatshouldhedoifshewerenotbackbynightfall?
Ataquartertoeightheheardthecar。Agreatweightliftedfromoffhisheart;hehurrieddown。Shewasgettingout——paleandtired—
looking,butnothingwrong。Hemetherinthehall。
\"You’vefrightenedme。Wherehaveyoubeen?\"
\"ToRobinHill。I’msorry,dear。Ihadtogo;I’lltellyouafterward。\"And,withaflyingkiss,sheranup—stairs。
Soameswaitedinthedrawing—room。ToRobinHill!Whatdidthatportend?
Itwasnotasubjecttheycoulddiscussatdinner——consecratedtothesusceptibilitiesofthebutler。TheagonyofnervesSoameshadbeenthrough,thereliefhefeltathersafety,softenedhispowertocondemnwhatshehaddone,orresistwhatshewasgoingtodo;hewaitedinarelaxedstuporforherrevelation。Lifewasaqueerbusiness。Therehewasatsixty—fiveandnomoreincommandofthingsthanifhehadnotspentfortyyearsinbuildingupsecurity—
alwayssomethingonecouldn’tgetontermswith!Inthepocketofhisdinner—jacketwasaletterfromAnnette。Shewascomingbackinafortnight。Heknewnothingofwhatshehadbeendoingoutthere。
Andhewasgladthathedidnot。Herabsencehadbeenarelief。Outofsightwasoutofmind!Andnowshewascomingback。Anotherworry!AndtheBolderbyOldCromewasgone——Dumetriushadgotit——
allbecausethatanonymousletterhadputitoutofhisthoughts。Hefurtivelyremarkedthestrainedlookonhisdaughter’sface,asifshetooweregazingatapicturethatshecouldn’tbuy。HealmostwishedtheWarback。Worriesdidn’tseem,then,quitesoworrying。
>Fromthecaressinhervoice,thelookonherface,hebecamecertainthatshewantedsomethingfromhim,uncertainwhetheritwouldbewiseofhimtogiveither。Hepushedhissavouryawayuneaten,andevenjoinedherinacigarette。
Afterdinnershesettheelectricpiano—playergoing。Andheauguredtheworstwhenshesatdownonacushionfootstoolathisknee,andputherhandonhis。
\"Darling,benicetome。IhadtoseeJon——hewrotetome。He’sgoingtotrywhathecandowithhismother。ButI’vebeenthinking。
It’sreallyinyourhands,Father。Ifyou’dpersuadeherthatitdoesn’tmeanrenewingthepastinanyway!ThatIshallstayyours,andJonwillstayhers;thatyouneedneverseehimorher,andsheneedneverseeyouorme!Onlyyoucouldpersuadeher,dear,becauseonlyyoucouldpromise。Onecan’tpromiseforotherpeople。Surelyitwouldn’tbetooawkwardforyoutoseeherjustthisoncenowthatJon’sfatherisdead?\"
\"Tooawkward?\"Soamesrepeated。\"Thewholething’spreposterous。\"
\"Youknow,\"saidFleur,withoutlookingup,\"youwouldn’tmindseeingher,really。\"
Soameswassilent。Herwordshadexpressedatruthtoodeepforhimtoadmit。Sheslippedherfingersbetweenhisown——hot,slim,eager,theyclungthere。Thischildofhiswouldcorkscrewherwayintoabrickwall!
\"WhatamItodoifyouwon’t,Father?\"shesaidverysoftly。
\"I’lldoanythingforyourhappiness,\"saidSoanies;\"butthisisn’tforyourhappiness。\"
\"Oh!itis;itis!\"
\"It’llonlystirthingsup,\"hesaidgrimly。
\"Buttheyarestirredup。Thethingistoquietthem。Tomakeherfeelthatthisisjustourlives,andhasnothingtodowithyoursorhers。Youcandoit,Father,Iknowyoucan。\"
\"Youknowagreatdeal,then,\"wasSoames’glumanswer。
\"Ifyouwill,JonandIwillwaitayear——twoyearsifyoulike。\"
\"Itseemstome,\"murmuredSoames,\"thatyoucarenothingaboutwhatIfeel。\"
Fleurpressedhishandagainsthercheek。
\"Ido,darling。Butyouwouldn’tlikemetobeawfullymiserable。\"
Howshewheedledtogetherends!Andtryingwithallhismighttothinkshereallycaredforhim——hewasnotsure——notsure。Allshecaredforwasthisboy!Whyshouldhehelphertogetthisboy,whowaskillingheraffectionforhimself?Whyshouldhe?BythelawsoftheForsytesitwasfoolish!Therewasnothingtobehadoutofit——nothing!Togivehertothatboy!Topassherintotheenemy’scamp,undertheinfluenceofthewomanwhohadinjuredhimsodeeply!
Slowly——inevitably——hewouldlosethisflowerofhislife!Andsuddenlyhewasconsciousthathishandwaswet。Hisheartgavealittlepainfuljump。Hecouldn’tbearhertocry。Heputhisotherhandquicklyoverhers,andateardroppedonthat,too。Hecouldn’tgoonlikethis!\"Well,well,\"hesaid,\"I’llthinkitover,anddowhatIcan。Come,come!\"Ifshemusthaveitforherhappiness——shemust;hecouldn’trefusetohelpher。Andlestsheshouldbegintothankhimhegotoutofhischairandwentuptothepiano—player——
makingthatnoise!Itrandown,ashereachedit,withafaintbuzz。
Thatmusicalboxofhisnurserydays:\"TheHarmoniousBlacksmith,\"
\"GloriousPort\"——thethinghadalwaysmadehimmiserablewhenhismothersetitgoingonSundayafternoons。Hereitwasagain——thesamething,onlylarger,moreexpensive,andnowitplayed\"TheWild,WildWomen,\"and\"ThePoliceman’sHoliday,\"andhewasnolongerinblackvelvetwithaskybluecollar。’Profond’sright,’hethought,’there’snothinginit!We’reallprogressingtothegrave!’Andwiththatsurprisingmentalcommenthewalkedout。
HedidnotseeFleuragainthatnight。But,atbreakfast,hereyesfollowedhimaboutwithanappealhecouldnotescape——notthatheintendedtotry。No!Hehadmadeuphismindtothenerve—rackingbusiness。HewouldgotoRobinHill——tothathouseofmemories。
Pleasantmemory——thelast!Ofgoingdowntokeepthatboy’sfatherandIreneapartbythreateningdivorce。Hehadoftenthought,since,thatithadclinchedtheirunion。And,now,hewasgoingtoclinchtheunionofthatboywithhisgirl。’Idon’tknowwhatI’vedone,’
hethought,’tohavesuchthingsthrustonme!’Hewentupbytrainanddownbytrain,andfromthestationwalkedbythelongrisinglane,stillverymuchasheremembereditoverthirtyyearsago。
Funny——sonearLondon!Someoneevidentlywasholdingontothelandthere。Thisspeculationsoothedhim,movingbetweenthehighhedgesslowly,soasnottogetoverheated,thoughthedaywaschillenough。
Afterallwassaidanddonetherewassomethingrealaboutland,itdidn’tshift。Land,andgoodpictures!Thevaluesmightfluctuateabit,butonthewholetheywerealwaysgoingup——worthholdingonto,inaworldwheretherewassuchalotofunreality,cheapbuilding,changingfashions,sucha\"Hereto—dayandgoneto—morrow\"spirit。
TheFrenchwereright,perhaps,withtheirpeasantproprietorship,thoughhehadnoopinionoftheFrench。One’sbitofland!
Somethingsolidinit!Hehadheardpeasantproprietorsdescribedasapig—headedlot;hadheardyoungMontcallhisfatherapigheadedMorningPoster——disrespectfulyoungdevil。Well,therewereworsethingsthanbeingpig—headedorreadingtheMorningPost。TherewasProfondandhistribe,andalltheseLabourchaps,andloud—mouthedpoliticiansand’wild,wildwomen’!Alotofworsethings!AndsuddenlySoamesbecameconsciousoffeelingweak,andhot,andshaky。
Sheernervesatthemeetingbeforehim!AsAuntJuleymighthavesaid——quoting\"SuperiorDosset\"——hisnerveswere\"inaproperfautigue。\"Hecouldseethehousenowamongitstrees,thehousehehadwatchedbeingbuilt,intendingitforhimselfandthiswoman,who,bysuchstrangefate,hadlivedinitwithanotherafterall!
HebegantothinkofDumetrius,LocalLoans,andotherformsofinvestment。Hecouldnotaffordtomeetherwithhisnervesallshaking;hewhorepresentedtheDayofJudgmentforheronearthasitwasinheaven;he,legalownership,personified,meetinglawlessbeauty,incarnate。Hisdignitydemandedimpassivityduringthisembassydesignedtolinktheiroffspring,who,ifshehadbehavedherself,wouldhavebeenbrotherandsister。Thatwretchedtune,\"TheWild,WildWomen,\"keptrunninginhishead,perversely,fortunesdidnotrunthereasarule。Passingthepoplarsinfrontofthehouse,hethought:’Howthey’vegrown;Ihadthemplanted!’
Amaidansweredhisring。
\"Willyousay——Mr。Forsyte,onaveryspecialmatter。\"
Ifsherealisedwhohewas,quiteprobablyshewouldnotseehim。
’ByGeorge!’hethought,hardeningasthetugcame。’It’satopsy—
turvyaffair!’
Themaidcameback。\"Wouldthegentlemanstatehisbusiness,please?\"
\"SayitconcernsMr。Jon,\"saidSoames。
Andoncemorehewasaloneinthathallwiththepoolofgrey—whitemarbledesignedbyherfirstlover。Ah!shehadbeenabadlot——hadlovedtwomen,andnothimself!Hemustrememberthatwhenhecamefacetofacewithheroncemore。Andsuddenlyhesawherintheopeningchinkbetweenthelongheavypurplecurtains,swaying,asifinhesitation;theoldperfectpoiseandline,theoldstartleddark—
eyedgravity,theoldcalmdefensivevoice:\"Willyoucomein,please?\"
Hepassedthroughthatopening。Asinthepicture—galleryandtheconfectioner’sshop,sheseemedtohimstillbeautiful。Andthiswasthefirsttime——theveryfirst——sincehemarriedherseven—and—thirtyyearsago,thathewasspeakingtoherwithoutthelegalrighttocallherhis。Shewasnotwearingblack——oneofthatfellow’sradicalnotions,hesupposed。
\"Iapologiseforcoming,\"hesaidglumly;\"butthisbusinessmustbesettledonewayortheother。\"
\"Won’tyousitdown?\"
\"No,thankyou。\"
Angerathisfalseposition,impatienceofceremonybetweenthem,masteredhim,andwordscametumblingout:
\"It’saninfernalmischance;I’vedonemybesttodiscourageit。I
considermydaughtercrazy,butI’vegotintothehabitofindulgingher;that’swhyI’mhere。Isupposeyou’refondofyourson。\"
\"Devotedly。\"
\"Well?\"
\"Itrestswithhim。\"
Hehadasenseofbeingmetandbaffled。Always——alwaysshehadbaffledhim,eveninthoseoldfirstmarrieddays。
\"It’samadnotion,\"hesaid。
\"Itis。\"
\"Ifyouhadonly——!Well——theymighthavebeen——\"hedidnotfinishthatsentence\"brotherandsisterandallthissaved,\"buthesawhershudderasifhehad,andstungbythesighthecrossedovertothewindow。Outtherethetreeshadnotgrown——theycouldn’t,theywereold\"SofarasI’mconcerned,\"hesaid,\"youmaymakeyourmindeasy。I
desiretoseeneitheryounoryoursonifthismarriagecomesabout。
Youngpeopleinthesedaysare——areunaccountable。ButIcan’tbeartoseemydaughterunhappy。WhatamItosaytoherwhenIgoback?\"
\"PleasesaytoherasIsaidtoyou,thatitrestswithJon。\"
\"Youdon’topposeit?\"
\"Withallmyheart;notwithmylips。\"
Soamesstood,bitinghisfinger。
\"Irememberanevening——\"hesaidsuddenly;andwassilent。Whatwasthere——whatwasthereinthiswomanthatwouldnotfitintothefourcornersofhishateorcondemnation?\"Whereishe——yourson?\"
\"Upinhisfather’sstudio,Ithink。\"
\"Perhapsyou’dhavehimdown。\"
Hewatchedherringthebell,hewatchedthemaidcomein。
\"PleasetellMr。JonthatIwanthim。\"
\"Ifitrestswithhim,\"saidSoameshurriedly,whenthemaidwasgone,\"IsupposeImaytakeitforgrantedthatthisunnaturalmarriagewilltakeplace;inthatcasethere’llbeformalities。WhomdoIdealwith——Herring’s?\"
Irenenodded。
\"Youdon’tproposetolivewiththem?\"
Ireneshookherhead。
\"Whathappenstothishouse?\"
\"ItwillbeasJonwishes。\"
\"Thishouse,\"saidSoamessuddenly:\"IhadhopeswhenIbeganit。Iftheyliveinit——theirchildren!Theysaythere’ssuchathingasNemesis。Doyoubelieveinit?\"
\"Yes。\"
\"Oh!Youdo!\"
Hehadcomebackfromthewindow,andwasstandingclosetoher,who,inthecurveofhergrandpiano,was,asitwere,embayed。
\"I’mnotlikelytoseeyouagain,\"hesaidslowly。\"Willyoushakehands\"——hislipquivered,thewordscameoutjerkily——\"andletthepastdie。\"Heheldouthishand。Herpalefacegrewpaler,hereyessodark,restedimmovablyonhis,herhandsremainedclaspedinfrontofher。Heheardasoundandturned。Thatboywasstandingintheopeningofthecurtains。Veryqueerhelooked,hardlyrecognisableastheyoungfellowhehadseenintheGalleryoffCorkStreet——veryqueer;mucholder,noyouthinthefaceatall——haggard,rigid,hishairruffled,hiseyesdeepinhishead。Soamesmadeaneffort,andsaidwithaliftofhislip,notquiteasmilenorquiteasneer:
\"Well,youngman!I’mhereformydaughter;itrestswithyou,itseems——thismatter。Yourmotherleavesitinyourhands。\"
Theboycontinuedstaringathismother’sface,andmadenoanswer。
\"Formydaughter’ssakeI’vebroughtmyselftocome,\"saidSoames。
\"WhatamItosaytoherwhenIgoback?\"
Stilllookingathismother,theboysaid,quietly:
\"TellFleurthatit’snogood,please;Imustdoasmyfatherwishedbeforehedied。\"
\"Jon!\"
\"It’sallright,Mother。\"
InakindofstupefactionSoameslookedfromonetotheother;then,takinguphatandumbrellawhichhehadputdownonachair,hewalkedtowardthecurtains。Theboystoodasideforhimtogoby。
Hepassedthroughandheardthegrateoftheringsasthecurtainsweredrawnbehindhim。Thesoundliberatedsomethinginhischest。
’Sothat’sthat!’hethought,andpassedoutofthefrontdoor。