第10章

类别:其他 作者:De Balzac, Honore字数:10637更新时间:18/12/18 13:57:11
\"Youhavecome,monsieur,frommyfriendMongenod?\"hesaid。 \"Yes,\"repliedErnest,growingtimidwhenhesawbeforehimafaceassombreasOthello’s。\"MynameisErnestdeLaBriere,relatedtothefamilyofthelatecabinetminister,andhisprivatesecretaryduringhistermofoffice。Onhisdismissal,hisExcellencyputmeintheCourtofClaims,towhichIamlegalcounsel,andwhereImaypossiblysucceedaschief——\" \"AndhowdoesallthisconcernMademoiselledeLaBastie?\"askedthecount。 \"Monsieur,Iloveher;andIhavetheunhoped—forhappinessofbeinglovedbyher。Hearme,monsieur,\"criedErnest,checkingaviolentmovementonthepartoftheangryfather。\"Ihavethestrangestconfessiontomaketoyou,ashamefuloneforamanofhonor;buttheworstpunishmentofmyconduct,naturalenoughinitself,isnotthetellingofittoyou;no,Ifearthedaughterevenmorethanthefather。\" Ernestthenrelatedsimply,andwiththenoblenessthatcomesofsincerity,allthefactsofhislittledrama,notomittingthetwentyormoreletters,whichhehadbroughtwithhim,northeinterviewwhichhehadjusthadwithCanalis。WhenMonsieurMignonhadfinishedreadingtheletters,theunfortunatelover,paleandsuppliant,actuallytrembledunderthefieryglanceoftheProvencal。 \"Monsieur,\"saidthelatter,\"inthiswholematterthereisbutoneerror,butthatiscardinal。Mydaughterwillnothavesixmillions; attheutmost,shewillhaveamarriageportionoftwohundredthousandfrancs,andverydoubtfulexpectations。\" \"Ah,monsieur!\"criedErnest,risingandgraspingMonsieurMignon’shand;\"youtakealoadfrommybreast。Nothingcannowhindermyhappiness。Ihavefriends,influence;IshallcertainlybechiefoftheCourtofClaims。HadMademoiselleMignonnomorethantenthousandfrancs,ifIhadeventomakeasettlementonher,sheshouldstillbemywife;andtomakeherhappyasyou,monsieur,havemadeyourwifehappy,tobetoyouarealson(forIhavenofather),arethedeepestdesiresofmyheart。\" CharlesMignonsteppedbackthreepacesandfixeduponLaBrierealookwhichenteredtheeyesoftheyoungmanasadaggerentersitssheath;hestoodsilentamoment,recognizingtheabsolutecandor,thepuretruthfulnessofthatopennatureinthelightoftheyoungman’sinspiredeyes。\"Isfateatlastwearyofpursuingme?\"heaskedhimself。\"AmItofindinthisyoungmanthepearlofsons—in—law?\"Hewalkedupanddowntheroominstrongagitation。 \"Monsieur,\"hesaidatlast,\"youareboundtosubmitwhollytothejudgmentwhichyouhavecomeheretoseek,otherwiseyouarenowplayingafarce。\" \"Oh,monsieur!\" \"Listentome,\"saidthefather,nailingLaBrierewherehestoodwithaglance。\"Ishallbeneitherharsh,norhard,norunjust。Youshallhavetheadvantagesandthedisadvantagesofthefalsepositioninwhichyouhaveplacedyourself。Mydaughterbelievesthatshelovesoneofthegreatpoetsoftheday,whosefameisreallythatwhichhasattractedher。Well,I,herfather,intendtogivehertheopportunitytochoosebetweenthecelebritywhichhasbeenabeacontoher,andthepoorrealitywhichtheironyoffatehasflungatherfeet。OughtshenottochoosebetweenCanalisandyourself?IrelyuponyourhonornottorepeatwhatIhavetoldyouastothestateofmyaffairs。Youmayeachcome,ImeanyouandyourfriendtheBarondeCanalis,toHavreforthelasttwoweeksofOctober。Myhousewillbeopentobothofyou,andmydaughtermusthaveanopportunitytostudyyou。Youmustyourselfbringyourrival,andnotdisabusehimastothefoolishtaleshewillhearaboutthewealthoftheComtedeLaBastie。IgotoHavreto—morrow,andIshallexpectyouthreedayslater。Adieu,monsieur。\" PoorLaBrierewentbacktoCanaliswithadraggingstep。Thepoet,meantime,lefttohimself,hadgivenwaytoacurrentofthoughtoutofwhichhadcomethatsecondaryimpulsewhichMonsieurdeTalleyrandvaluedsomuch。Thefirstimpulseisthevoiceofnature,thesecondthatofsociety。 \"Agirlworthsixmillions,\"hethoughttohimself,\"andmyeyeswerenotabletoseethatgoldshininginthedarkness!WithsuchafortuneIcouldbepeerofFrance,count,marquis,ambassador。I’verepliedtomiddle—classwomenandsillywomen,andcraftycreatureswhowantedautographs;I’vetiredmyselftodeathwithmasked—ballintrigues,——attheverymomentwhenGodwassendingmeasoulofprice,anangelwithgoldenwings!Bah!I’llmakeapoemonit,andperhapsthechancewillcomeagain。Heavens!theluckofthatlittleLaBriere,——struttingaboutinmylustre——plagiarism!I’mthecastandhe’stobethestatue,ishe?ItistheoldfableofBertrandandRaton。Sixmillions,abeauty,aMignondeLaBastie,anaristocraticdivinitylovingpoetryandthepoet!AndI,whoshowedmymuscleasmanoftheworld,whodidthoseAlcideexercisestosilencebymoralforcethechampionofphysicalforce,thatoldsoldierwithaheart,thatfriendofthisveryyounggirl,whomhe’llnowgoandtellthatIhaveaheartofiron!——I,toplayNapoleonwhenIoughttohavebeenseraphic!Goodheavens!True,Ishallhavemyfriend。Friendshipisabeautifulthing。Ihavekepthim,butatwhataprice!Sixmillions,that’sthecostofit;wecan’thavemanyfriendsifwepayallthatforthem。\" LaBriereenteredtheroomasCanalisreachedthispointinhismeditations。Hewasgloompersonified。 \"Well,what’sthematter?\"saidCanalis。 \"ThefatherexactsthathisdaughtershallchoosebetweenthetwoCanalis——\" \"Poorboy!\"criedthepoet,laughing,\"he’sacleverfellow,thatfather。\" \"IhavepledgedmyhonorthatIwilltakeyoutoHavre,\"saidLaBriere,piteously。 \"Mydearfellow,\"saidCanalis,\"ifitisaquestionofyourhonoryoumaycountonme。I’llaskforleaveofabsenceforamonth。\" \"Modesteissobeautiful!\"exclaimedLaBriere,inadespairingtone。 \"Youwillcrushmeoutofsight。Iwonderedallalongthatfateshouldbesokindtome;Iknewitwasallamistake。\" \"Bah!wewillseeaboutthat,\"saidCanaliswithinhumangaiety。 Thatevening,afterdinner,CharlesMignonandDumay,wereflying,byvirtueofthreefrancstoeachpostilion,fromParistoHavre。Thefatherhadeasedthewatch—dog’smindastoModesteandherloveaffairs;theguardwasrelieved,andButscha’sinnocenceestablished。 \"Itisallforthebest,myoldDumay,\"saidthecount,whohadbeenmakingcertaininquiriesofMongenodrespectingCanalisandLaBriere。 \"Wearegoingtohavetwoactorsforonepart!\"hecriedgaily。 Nevertheless,herequestedhisoldcomradetobeabsolutelysilentaboutthecomedywhichwasnowtobeplayedattheChalet,——acomedyitmightbe,butalsoagentlepunishment,or,ifyoupreferit,alessongivenbythefathertothedaughter。 ThetwofriendskeptupalongconversationallthewayfromParistoHavre,whichputthecolonelinpossessionofthefactsrelatingtohisfamilyduringthepastfouryears,andinformingDumaythatDesplein,thegreatsurgeon,wascomingtoHavreattheendofthepresentmonthtoexaminethecataractonMadameMignon’seyes,anddecideifitwerepossibletorestorehersight。 Afewmomentsbeforethebreakfast—hourattheChalet,theclackingofapostilion’swhipapprisedthefamilythatthetwosoldierswerearriving;onlyafather’sjoyatreturningafterlongabsencecouldbeheraldedwithsuchclatter,anditbroughtallthewomentothegardengate。Thereismanyafatherandmanyachild——perhapsmorefathersthanchildren——whowillunderstandthedelightsofsuchanarrival,andthathappyfactshowsthatliteraturehasnoneedtodepictit。 Perhapsallgentleandtenderemotionsarebeyondtherangeofliterature。 Notawordthatcouldtroublethepeaceofthefamilywasutteredonthisjoyfulday。Trucewastacitlyestablishedbetweenfather,mother,andchildastotheso—calledmysteriouslovewhichhadpaledModeste’scheeks,——forthiswasthefirstdayshehadleftherbedsinceDumay’sdepartureforParis。Thecolonel,withthecharmingdelicacyofatruesoldier,neverlefthiswife’ssidenorreleasedherhand;buthewatchedModestewithdelight,andwasneverwearyofnotingherrefined,elegant,andpoeticbeauty。Isitnotbysuchseemingtriflesthatwerecognizeamanoffeeling?Modeste,whofearedtointerruptthesubduedjoyofthehusbandandwifekeptatalittledistance,comingfromtimetotimetokissherfather’sforehead,andwhenshekisseditovermuchsheseemedtomeanthatshewaskissingitfortwo,——forBettinaandherself。 \"Oh,mydarling,Iunderstandyou,\"saidthecolonel,pressingherhandassheassailedhimwithkisses。 \"Hush!\"whisperedtheyounggirl,glancingathermother。 Dumay’sratherslyandpregnantsilencemadeModestesomewhatuneasyastotheupshotofhisjourneytoParis。Shelookedathimfurtivelyeverynowandthen,withoutbeingabletogetbeneathhisepidermis。 Thecolonel,likeaprudentfather,wantedtostudythecharacterofhisonlydaughter,andaboveallconsulthiswife,beforeenteringonaconferenceuponwhichthehappinessofthewholefamilydepended。 \"To—morrow,mypreciouschild,\"hesaidastheypartedforthenight,\"getupearly,andwewillgoandtakeawalkontheseashore。Wehavetotalkaboutyourpoems,MademoiselledeLaBastie。\" Hislastwords,accompaniedbyasmile,whichreappearedlikeanechoonDumay’slips,wereallthatgaveModesteanyclewtowhatwascoming;butitwasenoughtocalmheruneasinessandkeepherawakefarintothenightwithherheadfullofsuppositions;this,however,didnotpreventherfrombeingdressedandreadyinthemorninglongbeforethecolonel。 \"Youknowall,mykindpapa?\"shesaidassoonastheywereontheroadtothebeach。 \"Iknowall,andagooddealmorethanyoudo,\"hereplied。 Afterthatremarkfatheranddaughterwentsomelittlewayinsilence。 \"Explaintome,mychild,howithappensthatagirlwhomhermotheridolizescouldhavetakensuchanimportantstepastowritetoastrangerwithoutconsultingher。\" \"Oh,papa!becausemammawouldneverhaveallowedit。\" \"Anddoyouthink,mydaughter,thatthatwasproper?Thoughyouhavebeeneducatingyourmindinthisfatalway,howisitthatyourgoodsenseandyourintellectdidnot,indefaultofmodesty,stepinandshowyouthatbyactingasyoudidyouwerethrowingyourselfataman’shead。Tothinkthatmydaughter,myonlyremainingchild,shouldlackprideanddelicacy!Oh,Modeste,youmadeyourfatherpasstwohoursinhellwhenheheardofit;for,afterall,yourconducthasbeenthesameasBettina’swithouttheexcuseofaheart’sseduction; youwereacoquetteincoldblood,andthatsortofcoquetryishead— love,theworstviceofFrenchwomen。\" \"I,withoutpride!\"saidModeste,weeping;\"butHEhasnotyetseenme。\" \"HEknowsyourname。\" \"Ididnottellittohimtillmyeyeshadvindicatedthecorrespondence,lastingthreemonths,duringwhichoursoulshadspokentoeachother。\" \"Oh,mydearmisguidedangel,youhavemixedupaspeciesofreasonwithafollythathascompromisedyourownhappinessandthatofyourfamily。\" \"But,afterall,papa,happinessistheabsolutionofmytemerity,\" shesaid,pouting。 \"Oh!yourconductistemerity,isit?\" \"Atemeritythatmymotherpractisedbeforeme,\"sheretortedquickly。 \"Rebelliouschild!yourmotherafterseeingmeataballtoldherfather,whoadoredher,thatshethoughtshecouldbehappywithme。 Behonest,Modeste;isthereanylikenessbetweenalovehastilyconceived,Iadmit,butundertheeyesofafather,andyourmadactionofwritingtoastranger?\" \"Astranger,papa?sayratheroneofourgreatestpoets,whosecharacterandwhoselifeareexposedtothestrongestlightofday,todetraction,tocalumny,——amanrobedinfame,andtowhom,mydearfather,Iwasamereliteraryanddramaticpersonage,oneofShakespeare’swomen,untilthemomentwhenIwishedtoknowifthemanhimselfwereasbeautifulashissoul。\" \"GoodGod!mypoorchild,youareturningmarriageintopoetry。Butif,fromtimeimmemorial,girlshavebeencloisteredinthebosomoftheirfamilies,ifGod,ifsociallawsputthemunderthesternyokeofparentalsanction,itis,markmywords,tosparethemthemisfortunesthatthisverypoetrywhichcharmsanddazzlesyou,andwhichyouarethereforeunabletojudgeof,wouldentailuponthem。 Poetryisindeedoneofthepleasuresoflife,butitisnotlifeitself。\" \"Papa,thatisasuitstillpendingbeforetheCourtofFacts;thestruggleisforevergoingonbetweenourheartsandtheclaimsoffamily。\" \"Alasforthechildthatfindsherhappinessinresistingthem,\"saidthecolonel,gravely。\"In1813Isawoneofmycomrades,theMarquisd’Aiglemont,marryhiscousinagainstthewishesofherfather,andthepairhavesincepaiddearfortheobstinacywhichtheyounggirltookforlove。Thefamilymustbesovereigninmarriage。\" \"Mypoethastoldmeallthat,\"sheanswered。\"HeplayedOrgonforsometime;andhewasbraveenoughtodisparagethepersonallivesofpoets。\" \"Ihavereadyourletters,\"saidCharlesMignon,withtheflickerofamalicioussmileonhislipsthatmadeModesteveryuneasy,\"andI oughttoremarkthatyourlastepistlewasscarcelypermissibleinanywoman,evenaJulied’Etanges。GoodGod!whatharmnovelsdo!\" \"Weshouldlivethem,mydearfather,whetherpeoplewrotethemornot;Ithinkitisbettertoreadthem。TherearenotsomanyadventuresinthesedaysastherewereunderLouisXIV。andLouisXV。,andsotheypublishfewernovels。Besides,ifyouhavereadthoseletters,youmustknowthatIhavechosenthemostangelicsoul,themoststernlyuprightmanforyourson—in—law,andyoumusthaveseenthatweloveoneanotheratleastasmuchasyouandmammaloveeachother。Well,Iadmitthatitwasnotallexactlyconventional;Idid,ifyouWILLhavemesayso,wrong——\" \"Ihavereadyourletters,\"saidherfather,interruptingher,\"andI knowexactlyhowfaryourloverjustifiedyouinyourowneyesforaproceedingwhichmightbepermissibleinsomewomanwhounderstoodlife,andwhowasledawaybystrongpassion,butwhichinayounggirloftwentywasamonstrouspieceofwrong—doing。\" \"Yes,wrong—doingforcommonplacepeople,forthenarrow—mindedGobenheims,whomeasurelifewithasquarerule。Pleaseletuskeeptotheartisticandpoeticlife,papa。Weyounggirlshaveonlytwowaystoact;wemustletamanknowwelovehimbymincingandsimpering,orwemustgotohimfrankly。Isn’tthelastwaygrandandnoble?WeFrenchgirlsaredeliveredoverbyourfamilieslikesomuchmerchandise,atsixtydays’sight,sometimesthirty,likeMademoiselleVilquin;butinEngland,andSwitzerland,andGermany,theyfollowverymuchtheplanIhaveadopted。Nowwhathaveyougottosaytothat?AmInothalfGerman?\" \"Child!\"criedthecolonel,lookingather;\"thesupremacyofFrancecomesfromhersoundcommon—sense,fromthelogictowhichhernoblelanguageconstrainshermind。Franceisthereasonofthewholeworld。 EnglandandGermanyareromanticintheirmarriagecustoms,——thougheventherenoblefamiliesfollowourcustoms。Youcertainlydonotmeantodenythatyourparents,whoknowlife,whoareresponsibleforyoursoulandforyourhappiness,havenorighttoguardyoufromthestumbling—blocksthatareinyourway?Goodheavens!\"hecontinued,speakinghalftohimself,\"isittheirfault,orisitours?Oughtwetoholdourchildrenunderanironyoke?Mustwebepunishedforthetendernessthatleadsustomakethemhappy,andteachesourheartshowtodoso?\" Modestewatchedherfatheroutofthecornerofhereyeasshelistenedtothisspeciesofinvocation,utteredinabrokenvoice。 \"Wasitwrong,\"shesaid,\"inagirlwhoseheartwasfree,tochooseforherhusbandnotonlyacharmingcompanion,butamanofnoblegenius,borntoanhonorableposition,agentleman;theequalofmyself,agentlewoman?\" \"Youlovehim?\"askedherfather。 \"Father!\"shesaid,layingherheaduponhisbreast,\"wouldyouseemedie?\" \"Enough!\"saidtheoldsoldier。\"Iseeyourloveisinextinguishable。\" \"Yes,inextinguishable。\" \"Cannothingchangeit?\" \"Nothing。\" \"Nocircumstances,notreachery,nobetrayal?Youmeanthatyouwilllovehiminspiteofeverything,becauseofhispersonalattractions? EventhoughheprovedaD’Estourny,wouldyoulovehimstill?\" \"Oh,myfather!youdonotknowyourdaughter。CouldIloveacoward,amanwithouthonor,withoutfaith?\" \"Butsupposehehaddeceivedyou?\" \"He?thathonest,candidsoul,halfmelancholy?Youarejoking,father,orelseyouhavenevermethim。\" \"Butyouseenowthatyourloveisnotinextinguishable,asyouchosetocallit。Ihavealreadymadeyouadmitthatcircumstancescouldalteryourpoem;don’tyounowseethatfathersaregoodforsomething?\" \"Youwanttogivemealecture,papa;itispositivelyl’AmidesEnfantsoveragain。\" \"Poordeceivedgirl,\"saidherfather,sternly;\"itisnolectureofmine,Icountfornothinginit;indeed,Iamonlytryingtosoftentheblow。\" \"Father,don’tplaytrickswithmylife,\"exclaimedModeste,turningpale。 \"Then,mydaughter,summonallyourcourage。Itisyouwhohavebeenplayingtrickswithyourlife,andlifeisnowtrickingyou。\" Modestelookedatherfatherinstupidamazement。 \"Supposethatyoungmanwhomyoulove,whomyousawfourdaysagoatchurchinHavre,wasadeceiver?\" \"Never!\"shecried;\"thatnoblehead,thatpalefacefullofpoetry——\" \"——wasalie,\"saidthecolonelinterruptingher。\"HewasnomoreMonsieurdeCanalisthanIamthatsailoroverthereputtingouttosea。\" \"Doyouknowwhatyouarekillinginme?\"shesaidinalowvoice。 \"Comfortyourself,mychild;thoughaccidenthasputthepunishmentofyourfaultintothefaultitself,theharmdoneisnotirreparable。 Theyoungmanwhomyouhaveseen,andwithwhomyouexchangedheartsbycorrespondence,isaloyalandhonorablefellow;hecametomeandconfidedeverything。Helovesyou,andIhavenoobjectiontohimasason—in—law。\" \"IfheisnotCanalis,whoishethen?\"saidModesteinachangedvoice。 \"Thesecretary;hisnameisErnestdeLaBriere。Heisnotanobleman; butheisoneofthoseplainmenwithfixedprinciplesandsoundmoralitywhosatisfyparents。However,thatisnotthepoint;youhaveseenhimandnothingcanchangeyourheart;youhavechosenhim,comprehendhissoul,itisasbeautifulashehimself。\" ThecountwasinterruptedbyaheavysighfromModeste。Thepoorgirlsatwithhereyesfixedonthesea,paleandrigidasdeath,asifapistolshothadstruckherinthosefatalwords,APLAINMAN,WITH FIXEDPRINCIPLESANDSOUNDMORALITY。 \"Deceived!\"shesaidatlast。 \"Likeyourpoorsister,butlessfatally。\" \"Letusgohome,father,\"shesaid,risingfromthehillockonwhichtheyweresitting。\"Papa,hearme,IswearbeforeGodtoobeyyourwishes,whatevertheymaybe,intheAFFAIRofmymarriage。\" \"Thenyoudon’tlovehimanylonger?\"askedherfather。 \"Ilovedanhonestman,withnofalsehoodonhisface,uprightasyourself,incapableofdisguisinghimselflikeanactor,withthepaintofanotherman’sgloryonhischeeks。\" \"Yousaidnothingcouldchangeyou\";remarkedthecolonel,ironically。 \"Ah,donottriflewithme!\"sheexclaimed,claspingherhandsandlookingatherfatherindistressfulanxiety;\"don’tyouseethatyouarewringingmyheartanddestroyingmybeliefswithyourjokes。\" \"Godforbid!Ihavetoldyoutheexacttruth。\" \"Youareverykind,father,\"shesaidafterapause,andwithasortofsolemnity。 \"Hehaskeptyourletters,\"resumedthecolonel;\"nowsupposetherashcaressesofyoursoulhadfallenintothehandsofoneofthosepoetswho,asDumaysays,lighttheircigarswiththem?\" \"Oh!——youaregoingtoofar。\" \"Canalistoldhimso。\" \"HasDumayseenCanalis?\" \"Yes,\"answeredherfather。 Thetwowalkedalonginsilence。 \"SothatiswhythatGENTLEMAN,\"resumedModeste,\"toldmesomuchharmofpoetsandpoetry;nowonderthelittlesecretarysaid——Why,\" sheadded,interruptingherself,\"hisvirtues,hisnoblequalities,hisfinesentimentsarenothingbutanepistolarytheft!Themanwhostealsgloryandanamemayverylikely——\" \"——breaklocks,stealpurses,andcutpeople’sthroatsonthehighway,\"criedthecolonel。\"Ah,youyounggirls,that’sjustlikeyou,——withyourperemptoryopinionsandyourignoranceoflife。Amanwhooncedeceivesawomanwasbornunderthescaffoldonwhichheoughttodie。\" ThisridiculestoppedModeste’seffervescenceforamomentandleast,andagaintherewassilence。 \"Mychild,\"saidthecolonel,presently,\"meninsociety,asinnatureeverywhere,aremadetowintheheartsofwomen,andwomenmustdefendthemselves。Youhavechosentoinverttheparts。Wasthatwise? Everythingisfalseinafalseposition。Thefirstwrong—doingwasyours。No,amanisnotamonsterbecauseheseekstopleaseawoman; itisourrighttowinherbyaggressionwithallitsconsequences,shortofcrimeandcowardice。Amanmayhavemanyvirtuesevenifhedoesdeceiveawoman;ifhedeceivesher,itisbecausehefindsherwantinginsomeofthetreasuresthathesoughtinher。Nonebutaqueen,anactress,orawomanplacedsofaraboveamanthatsheseemstohimaqueen,cangotohimofherselfwithoutincurringblame——andforayounggirltodoit!Why,sheisfalsetoallthatGodhasgivenherthatissacredandlovelyandnoble,——nomatterwithwhatgraceorwhatpoetryorwhatprecautionsshesurroundsherfault。\" \"Toseekthemasterandfindtheservant!\"shesaidbitterly,\"oh!I canneverrecoverfromit!\" \"Nonsense!MonsieurErnestdeLaBriereis,tomythinking,fullytheequaloftheBarondeCanalis。Hewasprivatesecretaryofacabinetminister,andheisnowcounselfortheCourtofClaims;hehasaheart,andheadoresyou,but——heDOESNOTWRITEVERSES。No,Iadmit,heisnotapoet;butforallthathemayhaveaheartfullofpoetry。 Atanyrate,mydeargirl,\"addedherfather,asModestemadeagestureofdisgust,\"youaretoseebothofthem,theshamandthetrueCanalis——\" \"Oh,papa!——\" \"Didyounotswearjustnowtoobeymeineverything,evenintheAFFAIRofyourmarriage?Well,Iallowyoutochoosewhichofthetwoyoulikebestforahusband。Youhavebegunbyapoem,youshallfinishwithabucolic,andtryifyoucandiscovertherealcharacterofthesegentlemenhere,inthecountry,onafewhuntingorfishingexcursions。\" Modestebowedherheadandwalkedhomewithherfather,listeningtowhathesaidbutreplyingonlyinmonosyllables。 CHAPTERXVI DISENCHANTED Thepoorgirlhadfallenhumiliatedfromthealpshehadscaledinsearchofhereagle’snest,intothemudoftheswampbelow,where(tousethepoeticlanguageofanauthorofourday)\"afterfeelingthesolesofherfeettootendertotreadthebrokenglassofreality,Imagination——whichinthatdelicatebosomunitedthewholeofwomanhood,fromtheviolet—hiddenreveriesofachasteyounggirltothepassionatedesiresofthesex——hadledherintoenchantedgardenswhere,oh,bittersight!shenowsaw,springingfromtheground,notthesublimeflowerofherfancy,butthehairy,twistedlimbsoftheblackmandragora。\"Modestesuddenlyfoundherselfbroughtdownfromthemysticheightsofherlovetoastraight,flatroadborderedwithditches,——inshortthework—daypathofcommonlife。Whatardent,aspiringsoulwouldnothavebeenbruisedandbrokenbysuchafall? Whosefeetweretheseatwhichshehadshedherthoughts?TheModestewhore—enteredtheChaletwasnomoretheModestewhohadleftittwohoursearlierthananactressinthestreetislikeanactressontheboards。Shefellintoastateofnumbdepressionthatwaspitifultosee。Thesunwasdarkened,natureveileditself,eventheflowersnolongerspoketoher。Likeallyounggirlswithatendencytoextremes,shedranktoodeeplyofthecupofdisillusion。Shefoughtagainstreality,andwouldnotbendhernecktotheyokeoffamilyandconventions;itwas,shefelt,tooheavy,toohard,toocrushing。Shewouldnotlistentotheconsolationsofherfatherandmother,andtastedasortofsavagepleasureinlettinghersoulsuffertotheutmost。 \"PoorButschawasright,\"shesaidoneevening。 Thewordsindicatethedistanceshetravelledinashortspaceoftimeandingloomysadnessacrossthebarrenplainofreality。Sadness,whencausedbytheovergrowthofhope,isadisease,——sometimesafatalone。ItwouldbenomeanobjectforphysiologytosearchoutinwhatwaysandbywhatmeansThoughtproducesthesameinternaldisorganizationaspoison;andhowitisthatdespairaffectstheappetite,destroysthepylorus,andchangesallthephysicalconditionsofthestrongestlife。SuchwasthecasewithModeste。Inthreeshortdaysshebecametheimageofmorbidmelancholy;shedidnotsing,shecouldnotbemadetosmile。CharlesMignon,becominguneasyatthenon—arrivalofthetwofriends,thoughtofgoingtofetchthem,when,ontheeveningofthefifthday,hereceivednewsoftheirmovementsthroughLatournelle。