第17章

类别:其他 作者:Joseph Conrad字数:11688更新时间:18/12/18 14:24:46
ThiswasthemoresubtlesanctionofMrsVerloc’smother’sheroismandunscrupulousness。Heractofabandonmentwasreallyanarrangementforsettlinghersonpermanentlyinlife。Otherpeoplemadematerialsacrificesforsuchanobject,sheinthatway。Itwastheonlyway。Moreover,shewouldbeabletoseehowitworked。Illorwellshewouldavoidthehorribleincertitudeonthedeath—bed。Butitwashard,hard,cruellyhard。 Thecabrattled,jingled,jolted;infact,thelastwasquiteextraordinary。 Byitsdisproportionateviolenceandmagnitudeitobliteratedeverysensationofonwardmovement;andtheeffectwasofbeingshakeninastationaryapparatuslikeamedievaldeviceforthepunishmentofcrime,orsomeverynew—fangledinventionforthecureofasluggishliver。Itwasextremelydistressing;andtheraisingofMrsVerloc’smother’svoicesoundedlikeawailofpain。 `Iknow,mydear,you’llcometoseemeasoftenasyoucansparethetime。Won’tyou?’ `Ofcourse,’answeredWinnie,shortly,staringstraightbeforeher。 Andthecabjoltedinfrontofasteamy,greasyshopinablazeofgasandinthesmelloffriedfish。 Theoldwomanraisedawailagain。 `And,mydear,ImustseethatpoorboyeverySunday。Hewon’tmindspendingthedaywithhisoldmother——’ Winniescreamedoutstolidly: `Mind!Ishouldthinknot。Thatpoorboywillmissyousomethingcruel。 Iwishyouhadthoughtalittleofthat,mother。’ Notthinkofit!Theheroicwomanswallowedaplayfulandinconvenientobjectlikeabilliardball,whichhadtriedtojumpoutofherthroat。 Winniesatmuteforawhile,poutingatthefrontofthecab,thensnappedout,whichwasanunusualtonewithher: `IexpectI’llhaveajobwithhimatfirst,he’llbethatrestless——’ `Whateveryoudo,don’tlethimworryyourhusband,mydear。’ Thustheydiscussedonfamiliarlinesthebearingsofanewsituation。 Andthecabjolted。MrsVerloc’smotherexpressedsomemisgivings。CouldSteviebetrustedtocomeallthatwayalone?Winniemaintainedthathewasmuchless`absent—minded’now。Theyagreedastothat。Itcouldnotbedenied。Muchless—hardlyatall。Theyshoutedateachotherinthejinglewithcomparativecheerfulness。Butsuddenlythematernalanxietybrokeoutafresh。Thereweretwoomnibusestotake,andashortwalkbetween。 Itwastoodifficult!Theoldwoman’gavewaytogriefandconsternation。 Winniestaredforward。 `Don’tyouupsetyourselflikethis,mother。Youmustseehim,ofcourse。 `No,mydear。I’lltrynotto。Shemoppedherstreamingeyes。’ `Butyoucan’tsparethetimetocomewithhim,andifheshouldforgethimselfandlosehiswayandsomebodyspoketohimsharply,hisnameandaddressmaysliphismemory,andhe’llremainlostfordaysanddays——’ ThevisionofaworkhouseinfirmaryforpoorStevie—ifonlyduringinquiries—wrungherheart。Forshewasaproudwoman。Winnie’sstarehadgrownhard,intent,inventive。 `Ican’tbringhimtoyoumyselfeveryweek,’shecried。`Butdon’tyouworry,mother。I’llseetoitthathedon’tgetlostforlong。’ Theyfeltapeculiarbump;avisionofbrickpillarslingeredbeforetherattlingwindowsofthecab;asuddencessationofatrociousjoltinganduproariousjinglingdazedthetwowomen。Whathadhappened?Theysatmotionlessandscaredintheprofoundstillness,tillthedoorcameopen,andarough,strainedwhisperingwasheard: `’Ereyouare!’ Arangeofgabledlittlehouses,eachwithonedimyellowwindow,onthegroundfloor,surroundedthedarkopenspaceofagrassplotplantedwithshrubsandrailedofffromthepatchworkoflightsandshadowsitthewideroad,resoundingwiththedullrumbleoftraffic。Beforethedoorofoneofthesetinyhouses—onewithoutalightinthelittledownstairswindow—the’cabhadcometoastandstill。MrsVerloc’smothergotoutfirst,backwards,withakeyinherhand。Winnielingeredontheflagstonepathtopaythecabman。Stevie,afterhelpingtocarryinsidealotofsmallparcels,cameoutandstoodunderthelightofagas—lampbelongingtotheCharity。Thecabmanlookedatthepiecesofsilver,which,appearingveryminuteinhisbig,grimypalm,symbolizedtheinsignificantresultswhichrewardtheambitiouscourageandtoilofamankindwhosedayisshortonthisearthofevil。 Hehadbeenpaiddecently—fourone—shillingpieces—andhecontemplatedtheminperfectstillness,asiftheyhadbeenthesurprisingtermsofamelancholyproblem。Theslowtransferofthattreasuretoaninnerpocketdemandedmuchlaboriousgropinginthedepthsofdecayedclothing。Hisformwassquatandwithoutflexibility。Stevie,slender,hisshouldersalittleup,andhishandsthrustdeepinthesidepocketsofhiswarmovercoat,stoodattheedgeofthepath,pouting。 Thecabman,pausinginhisdeliberatemovements,seemedstruckbysomemistyrecollection。 `Oh!’Ereyouare,youngfellow,’hewhispered。`You’llknowhimagain—wontyou?’ Steviewasstaringatthehorse,whosehindquartersappearedundulyelevatedbytheeffectofemancipation。Thelittlestifftailseemedtohavebeenfittedinforaheartlessjoke;andattheotherendthethin,flatneck,likeaplankcoveredwitholdhorse—hide,droopedtothegroundundertheweightofanenormousbonyhead。Theearshungatdifferentangles,negligently;andthemacabrefigureofthatmutedwellerontheearthsteamedstraightupfromribsandbackboneinthemuggystillnessoftheair。 ThecabmanstrucklightlyStevie’sbreastwiththeironhookprotrudingfromaragged,greasysleeve。 `Look’ereyoungfeller。’Owdyouliketositbehindthis’ossuptotwoo’clockinthemorningp’raps?’ Stevielookedvacantlyintothefiercelittleeyeswithred—edgedlids。 `Heain’tlame,’pursuedtheother,whisperingwithenergy。`Heain’tgotnosoreplaceson’im。’Ereheis。’Owwouldyoulike——’ Hisstrained,extinctvoiceinvestedhisutterancewithacharacterofvehementsecrecy。Stevie’svacantgazewaschangingslowlyintodread。 `Youmaywelllook!Tillthreeandfouro’clockinthemorning。Coldand’ungry。Lookingforfares。Drunks。’ Hisjovialpurplecheeksbristledwithwhitehairs;andlikeVirgil’sSilenus,who,hisfacesmearedwiththejuiceofberries,discoursedofOlympianGodstotheinnocentshepherdsofSicily,hetalkedtoStevieofdomesticmattersandtheaffairsofmenwhosesufferingsaregreatandimmortalitybynomeansassured。 `Iamanightcabby,Iam,’hewhispered,withasortofboastfulexasperation。 `I’vegottotakeoutwhattheywillbloomingwellgivemeattheyard。 I’vegotmymissusandfourkidsat’ome。 Themonstrousnatureofthatdeclarationofpaternityseemedtostriketheworlddumb。Asilencereigned,duringwhichtheflanksoftheoldhorse,thesteedofapocalypticmisery,smokedupwardsinthelightofthecharitablegas—lamp。 Thecabmangrunted,thenaddedinhismysteriouswhisper:`Thisain’taneasyworld。’ Stevie’sfacehadbeentwitchingforsometimeandatlasthisfeelingsburstoutintheirusualconcisefoam。 `Bad!Bad!’ Hisgazeremainedfixedontheribsofthehorse,self—consciousandsombre,asthoughhewereafraidtolookabouthimatthebadnessoftheworld。Andhisslenderness,hisrosylipsandpale,clearcomplexion,gavehimtheaspectofadelicateboy,notwithstandingthefluffygrowthofgoldenhaironhischeeks。Hepoutedinascaredwaylikeachild。Thecabman,shortandbroad,eyedhimwithhisfiercelittleeyesthatseemedtosmartinaclearandcorrodingliquid。 `’Ardon’osses,butdam’sight’arderonpoorchapslikeme,’hewheezedjustaudibly。 `Poor!Poor!’stammeredoutStevie,pushinghishandsdeeperintohispocketswithconvulsivesympathy。Hecouldsaynothing;forthetendernesstoallpainandallmisery,thedesiretomakethehorsehappyandthecabmanhappy,hadreachedthepointofabizarrelongingtotakethemtobedwithhim。Andthat,heknew,wasimpossible。ForSteviewasnotmad。 Itwas,asitwere,asymboliclonging;andatthesametimeitwasverydistinct,becausespringingfromexperience,themotherofwisdom。Thuswhenasachildhecoweredinadarkcornerscared,wretched,sore,andmiserablewiththeblack,blackmiseryofthesoul,hissisterWinnieusedtocomealongandcarryhimofftobedwithher,asintoaheavenofconsolingpeace。Stevie,thoughapttoforgetmerefacts,suchashisnameandaddressforinstance,hadafaithfulmemoryofsensations。Tobetakenintoabedofcompassionwasthesupremeremedy,withtheonlyonedisadvantageofbeingdifficultofapplicationonalargescale。Andlookingatthecabman,Stevieperceivedthisclearly,becausehewasreasonable。 ThecabmanwentonwithhisleisurelypreparationsasifSteviehadnotexisted。Hemadeasiftohoisthimselfonthebox,butatthelastmoment,fromsomeobscuremotive,perhapsmerelyfromdisgustwithcarriageexercise,desisted。Heapproachedinsteadthemotionlesspartnerofhislabours,andstoopingtoseizethebridle,liftedupthebig,wearyheadtotheheightofhisshoulderwithoneeffortofhisrightarm,likeafeatofstrength。 `Comeon,’hewhispered,secretly。 Limping,heledthecabaway。Therewasanairofausterityinthisdeparture,thescrunchedgravelofthedrivecryingoutundertheslowlyturningwheels,thehorse’sleanthighsmovingwithasceticdeliberationawayfromthelightintotheobscurityoftheopenspacebordereddimlybythepointedroofsandthefeeblyshiningwindowsofthelittlealmshouses。 Theplaintofthegraveltravelledslowlyallroundthedrive。Betweenthelampsofthecharitablegatewaytheslowcortegereappeared,lightedupforamoment,theshort,thickmanlimpingbusily,withthehorse’sheadheldaloftinhisfist,thelankanimalwalkinginstiffandforlorndignity,thedark,lowboxonwheelsrollingbehindcomicallywithanairofwaddling。Theyturnedtotheleft。Therewasapubdownthestreet,withinfiftyyardsofthegate。 Stevie,leftalonebesidetheprivatelamp—postoftheCharity,hishandsthrustdeepintohispockets,glaredwithvacantsulkiness。Atthebottomofhispocketshisincapable,weakhandswereclenchedhardintoapairofangryfists。Inthefaceofanythingwhichaffecteddirectlyorindirectlyhismorbiddreadofpain,Stevieendedbyturningvicious。 Amagnanimousindignationswelledhisfrailchesttobursting,andcausedhiscandideyestosquint。Supremelywiseinknowinghisownpowerlessness,Steviewasnotwiseenoughtorestrainhispassions。Thetendernessofhisuniversalcharityhadtwophasesasindissolublyjoinedandconnectedasthereverseandobversesidesofamedal。Theanguishofimmoderatecompassionwassucceededbythepainofaninnocentbutpitilessrage。 Thosetwostatesexpressingthemselvesoutwardlybythesamesignsoffutilebodilyagitation,hissisterWinniesoothedhisexcitementwithouteverfathomingitstwofoldcharacter。MrsVerlocwastednoportionofthistransientlifeinseekingforfundamentalinformation。Thisisasortofeconomyhavingalltheappearancesandsomeoftheadvantagesofprudence。Obviouslyitmaybegoodforonenottoknowtoomuch。Andsuchaviewaccordsverywellwithconstitutionalindolence。 OnthateveningonwhichitmaybesaidthatMrsVerloc’smotherhavingpartedforgoodfromherchildrenhadalsodepartedthislife,WinnieVerlocdidnotinvestigateherbrother’spsychology。Thepoorboywasexcited,ofcourse。AfteroncemoreassuringtheoldwomanonthethresholdthatshewouldknowhowtoguardagainsttheriskofStevielosinghimselfforverylongonhispilgrimagesoffilialpiety,shetookherbrother’sarmtowalkaway。Steviedidnotevenmuttertohimself,butwiththespecialsenseofsisterlydevotiondevelopedinherearliestinfancy,shefeltthattheboywasverymuchexcitedindeed。Holdingtighttohisarm,undertheappearanceofleaningonit,shethoughtofsomewordssuitabletotheoccasion。 `Now,Stevie,youmustlookwellaftermeatthecrossings,andgetfirstintothebus,likeagoodbrother。’ ThisappealtomanlyprotectionwasreceivedbySteviewithhisusualdocility。Itflatteredhim。Heraisedhisheadandthrewouthischest。 `Don’tbenervous,Winnie。Mustn’tbenervous!Busallright,’heansweredinabrusque,slurringstammerpartakingofthetimorousnessofachildandtheresolutionofaman。Headvancedfearlesslywiththewomanonhisarm,buthislowerlipdrooped。Nevertheless,onthepavementofthesqualidandwidethoroughfare,whosepovertyinalltheamenitiesoflifestoodfoolishlyexposedbyamadprofusionofgas—lights,theirresemblancetoeachotherwassopronouncedastostrikethecasualpassers—by。 Beforethedoorsofthepublic—houseatthecorner,wheretheprofusionofgas—lightreachedtheheightofpositivewickedness,afour—wheeledcabstandingbythekerbstone,withnooneonthebox,seemedcastoutintothegutteronaccountofirremediabledecay。MrsVerlocrecognizedtheconveyance。Itsaspectwassoprofoundlylamentable,withsuchaperfectionofgrotesquemiseryandweirdnessofmacabredetail,asifitweretheCabofDeathitselfthatMrsVerloc,withthatreadycompassionofawomanforahorse(whensheisnotsittingbehindhim),exclaimedvaguely! `Poorbrute。’ Hangingbacksuddenly,Stevieinflictedanarrestingjerkuponhissister。 `Poor!Poor!’heejaculatedappreciatively。`Cabmanpoor,too。Hetoldmehimself。’ Thecontemplationoftheinfirmandlonelysteedovercamehim。Jostled,butobstinate,hewouldremainthere,tryingtoexpresstheviewnewlyopenedtohissympathiesofthehumanandequinemiseryincloseassociation。 Butitwasverydifficult。`Poorbrute,’poorpeople!’wasallhecouldrepeat。Itdidnotseemforcibleenough,andhecametoastopwithanangrysplutter。`Shame!’Steviewasnomasterofphrases,andperhapsforthatveryreasonhisthoughtslackedclearnessandprecision。Buthefeltwithgreatcompletenessandsomeprofundity。Thatlittlewordcontainedallhissenseofindignationandhorroratonesortofwretchednesshavingtofeedupontheanguishoftheother—asthepoorcabmanbeatingthepoorhorseinthename,asitwere,ofhispoorkidsathome。AndStevieknewwhatitwastobebeaten。Heknewitfromexperience。Itwasabadworld。Bad!Bad! MrsVerloc,hisonlysister,guardian,andprotector,couldnotpretendtosuchdepthsofinsight。Moreover,shehadnotexperiencedthemagicofthecabman’seloquence。Shewasinthedarkastotheinwardnessoftheword`Shame’。Andshesaidplacidly: `Comealong,Stevie。Youcan’thelpthat。’ ThedocileSteviewentalong;butnowhewentalongwithoutpride,shamblingly,andmutteringhalfwords,andevenwordsthatwouldhavebeenwholeiftheyhadnotbeenmadeupofhalvesthatdidnotbelongtoeachother。 Itwasasthoughhehadbeentryingtofitallthewordshecouldremembertohissentimentsinordertogetsomesortofcorrespondingidea。And,asamatteroffact,hegotitatlast。Hehungbacktoutteritatonce。 `Badworldforpoorpeople。’ Directlyhehadexpressedthatthoughthebecameawarethatitwasfamiliartohimalreadyinallitsconsequences。Thiscircumstancestrengthenedhisconvictionimmensely,butalsoaugmentedhisindignation。Somebody,hefelt,oughttobepunishedforit—punishedwithgreatseverity。Beingnosceptic,butamoralcreature,hewasinamanneratthemercyofhisrighteouspassions。 `Beastly!’headded,concisely。 ItwascleartoMrsVerlocthathewasgreatlyexcited。 `Nobodycanhelpthat,’shesaid。`Docomealong。Isthatthewayyou’retakingcareofme?’ Steviemendedhispaceobediently。Hepridedhimselfonbeingagoodbrother。Hismorality,whichwasverycomplete,demandedthatfromhim。 YethewaspainedattheinformationimpartedbyhissisterWinnie—whowasgood。Nobodycouldhelpthat!Hecamealonggloomily,butpresentlyhebrightenedup。Liketherestofmankind,perplexedbythemysteryoftheuniverse,hehadhismomentsofconsolingtrustintheorganizedpowersoftheearth。 `Police,’hesuggested,confidently。 `Thepolicearen’tforthat,’observedMrsVerloc,cursorily,hurryingonherway。 Stevie’sfacelengthenedconsiderably。Hewasthinking。Themoreintensehisthinking,theslackerwasthedroopofhislowerjaw。Anditwaswithanaspectofhopelessvacancythathegaveuphisintellectualenterprise。 `Notforthat?’hemumbled,resignedbutsurprised。`Notforthat?’ Hehadformedforhimselfanidealconceptionforthemetropolitanpoliceasasortofbenevolentinstitutionforthesuppressionofevil。Thenotionofbenevolenceespeciallywasverycloselyassociatedwithhissenseofthepowerofthemeninblue。Hehadlikedallpoliceconstablestenderly,withaguilelesstrustfulness。Andhewaspained。Hewasirritated,too,byasuspicionofduplicityinthemembers’oftheforce。ForSteviewasfrankandasopenasthedayhimself。Whatdidtheymeanbypretendingthen?Unlikehissister,whoputhertrustinfacevalues,hewishedtogotothebottomofthematter。Hecarriedonhisinquirybymeansofanangrychallenge。 `Whataretheyforthen,Winn?Whataretheyfor?Tellme。’ Winniedislikedcontroversy。ButfearingmostafitofblackdepressionconsequentonSteviemissinghismotherverymuchatfirst,shedidnotaltogetherdeclinethediscussion’。Guiltlessofallirony,sheansweredyetinaformwhichwasnotperhapsunnaturalinthewifeofMrVerloc,DelegateoftheCentralRedCommittee,personalfriendofcertainanarchists,andavotaryofsocialrevolution。 `Don’tyouknowwhatthepolicearefor,Stevie?Theyaretheresothatthemashavenothingshouldn’ttakeanythingawayfromthemwhohave。’ Sheavoidedusingtheverb`tosteal’,becauseitalwaysmadeherbrotheruncomfortable。ForSteviewasdelicatelyhonest。Certainsimpleprincipleshadbeeninstilledintohimsoanxiously(onaccountofhis`queerness’) thatthemerenamesofcertaintransgressionsfilledhimwithhorror。Hehadbeenalwayseasilyimpressedbyspeeches。Hewasimpressedandstartlednow,andhisintelligencewasveryalert。 `What?’heaskedatonce,anxiously。`Noteveniftheywerehungry? Mustn’tthey?’ Thetwohadpausedintheirwalk。 `Notiftheywereeverso,’saidMrsVerloc,withtheequanimityofapersonuntroubledbytheproblemofthedistributionofwealthandexploringtheperspectiveoftheroadwayforanomnibusoftherightcolour。`Certainlynot。Butwhat’stheuseoftalkingaboutallthat?Youaren’teverhungry。 Shecastaswiftglanceattheboy,likeayoungman,byherside。Shesawhimamiable,attractive,affectionateandonlyalittle,averylittlepeculiar。Andshecouldnotseehimotherwise,forhewasconnectedwithwhattherewasofthesaltofpassioninhertastelesslife—thepassionofindignation,ofcourage,ofpity,andevenofself—sacrifice。Shedidnotadd:`Andyouaren’tlikelyevertobeaslongasIlive。’Butshemightverywellhavedoneso,sinceshehadtakeneffectualstepstothatend。MrVerlocwasaverygoodhusband。Itwasherhonestimpressionthatnobodycouldhelplikingtheboy。Shecriedoutsuddenly: `Quick,Stevie。Stopthatgreenbus。’ AndStevie,tremulousandimportantwithhissisterWinnieonhisarm,flunguptheotherhighabovehisheadattheapproachingbus,withcompletesuccess。 AnhourafterwardsMrVerlocraisedhiseyesfromanewspaperhewasreading,oratanyratelookingat,behindthecounter,andintheexpiringclatterofthedoor—bellbeheldWinnie,hiswife,enterandcrosstheshoponherwayupstairs,followedbyStevie,hisbrother—in—law。ThesightofhiswifewasagreeabletoMrVerloc。Itwashisidiosyncrasy。Thefigureofhisbrother—in—lawremainedimperceptibletohimbecauseofthemorosethoughtfulnessthatlatelyhadfallenlikeaveilbetweenMrVerlocandtheappearancesoftheworldofsenses。Helookedafterhiswifefixedly,withoutaword,asthoughshehadbeenaphantom。Hisvoiceforhomeusewashuskyandplacid,butnowitwasheardnotatall。Itwasnotheardatsupper,towhichhewascalledbyhiswifeintheusualbriefmanner: `Adolf。’Hesatdowntoconsumeitwithoutconviction,wearinghishatpushedfarbackonhishead。Itwasnotdevotiontoanoutdoorlife,butthefrequentationofforeigncafeswhichwasresponsibleforthathabit,investingwithacharacterofunceremoniousimpermanencyMrVerloc’ssteadyfidelitytohisownfireside。Twiceattheclatterofthecrackedbellhearosewithoutaword,disappearedintotheshop,andcamebacksilently。 DuringtheseabsencesMrsVerloc,becomingacutelyawareofthevacantplaceatherrighthand,missedhermotherverymuchandstaredstonily; whileStevie,fromthesamereason,keptonshufflinghisfeet,asthoughthefloorunderthetablewereuncomfortablyhot。WhenMrVerlocreturnedtositinhisplace,liketheveryembodimentofsilence,thecharacterofMrsVerloc’sstareunderwentasubtlechange,andStevieceasedtofidgetwithhisfeet,becauseofhisgreatandawedregardforhissister’shusband。 Hedirectedathimglancesofrespectfulcompassion。MrVerlocwassorry。 HissisterWinniehadimpresseduponhim(intheomnibus)thatMrVerlocwouldbefoundathomeinastateofsorrow,andmustnotbeworried。Hisfather’sanger,theirritabilityofgentlemenlodgers,andMrVerloc’spredispositiontoimmoderategrief,hadbeenthemainsanctionsofStevie’sself—restraint。Ofthesesentiments,alleasilyprovoked,butnotalwayseasytounderstand,thelasthadthegreatestmoralefficiency—becauseMrVerlocwasgood。Hismotherandhissisterhadestablishedthatethicalfactonanunshakablefoundation。Theyhadestablished,erected,consecrateditbehindMrVerloc’sback,forreasonsthathadnothingtodowithabstractmorality。AndMrVerlocwasnotawareofit。ItisbutbarejusticetohimtosaythathehadnonotionofappearinggoodtoStevie。 Yetsoitwas。HewaseventheonlymansoqualifiedinStevie’sknowledge,becausethegentlemenlodgershadbeentootransientandtooremotetohaveanythingverydistinctaboutthembutperhapstheirboots;andasregardsthedisciplinarymeasuresofhisfather,thedesolationofhismotherandsistershrankfromsettingupatheoryofgoodnessbeforethevictim。Itwouldhavebeentoocruel。AnditwasevenpossiblethatSteviewouldnothavebelievedthem。AsfarasMrVerlocwasconcerned,nothingcouldstandinthewayofStevie’sbelief。MrVerlocwasobviouslyyetmysteriouslygood。Andthegriefofagoodmanisaugust。 Steviegaveglancesofreverentialcompassiontohisbrother—in—law。 MrVerlocwassorry。ThebrotherofWinniehadneverbeforefelthimselfinsuchclosecommunionwiththemysteryofthatman’sgoodness。Itwasanunderstandablesorrow。AndSteviehimselfwassorry。Hewasverysorry。 Thesamesortofsorrow。Andhisattentionbeingdrawntothisunpleasantstate,Stevieshuffledhisfeet。Hisfeelingswerehabituallymanifestedbytheagitationofhislimbs。 `Keepyourfeetquiet,dear,’saidMrsVerloc,withauthorityandtenderness; thenturningtowardsherhusbandinanindifferentvoice,themasterlyachievementofinstinctivetact:`Areyougoingouttonight?’sheasked。 ThemeresuggestionseemedrepugnanttoMrVerloc。Heshookhisheadmoodily,andthensatstillwithdowncasteyes,lookingatthepieceofcheeseonhisplateforawholeminute。Attheendofthattimehegotup,andwentout—wentrightoutintheclatteroftheshop—doorbell。 Heactedthusinconsistently,notfromanydesiretomakehimselfunpleasant,butbecauseofanunconquerablerestlessness。Itwasnoearthlygoodgoingout。HecouldnotfindanywhereinLondonwhathewanted。Buthewentout。 Heledacortegeofdismalthoughtsalongdarkstreets,throughlightedstreets,inandoutoftwoBashbars,asifinahalf—heartedattempttomakeanightofit,andfinallybackagaintohismenacedhome,wherehesatdownfatiguedbehindthecounter,andtheycrowdedurgentlyroundhim,likeapackofhungryblackhounds。Afterlockingupthehouseandputtingoutthegashetookthemupstairswithhim—adreadfulescortforamangoingtobed。Hiswifehadprecededhimsometimebefore,andwithherampleformdefinedvaguelyunderthecounterpane,herheadonthepillow,andahandunderthecheek,offeredtohisdistractiontheviewofearlydrowsinessarguingthepossessionofanequablesoul。Herbigeyesstaredwideopen,inertanddarkagainstthesnowywhitenessofthelinen。Shedidnotmove。 Shehadanequablesoul。Shefeltprofoundlythatthingsdonotstandmuchlookinginto。Shemadeherforceandherwisdomofthatinstinct。 ButthetaciturnityofMrVerlochadbeenlyingheavilyuponherforagoodmanydays。Itwas,asamatteroffact,affectinghernerves。Recumbentandmotionless,shesaidplacidly: `You’llcatchcoldwalkingaboutinyoursockslikethis。’ Thisspeech,becomingthesolicitudeofthewifeandtheprudenceofthewoman,tookMrVerlocunawares。Hehadlefthisbootsdownstairs,buthehadforgottentoputonhisslippers,andhehadbeenturningaboutthebedroomonnoiselesspadslikeabearinacage。Atthesoundofhiswife’svoicehestoppedandstaredatherwithasomnambulistic,expressionlessgazesolongthatMrsVerlocmovedherlimbsslightlyunderthebedclothes。 Butshedidnotmoveherblackheadsunkinthewhitepillow,onehandunderhercheekandthebig,dark,unwinkingeyes。 Underherhusband’sexpressionlessstare,andrememberinghermother’semptyroomacrossthelanding,shefeltanacutepangofloneliness。Shehadneverbeenpartedfromhermotherbefore。Theyhadstoodbyeachother。 Shefeltthattheyhad,andshesaidtoherselfthatnowmotherwasgone—goneforgood。MrsVerlochadnoillusions。Stevieremained,however。 Andshesaid: `Mother’sdonewhatshewantedtodo。There’snosenseinitthatI cansee。I’msureshecouldn’thavethoughtyouhadenoughofher。It’sperfectlywicked,leavinguslikethat。’ MrVerlocwasnotawell—readperson;hisrangeofallusivephraseswaslimited,buttherewasapeculiaraptnessincircumstanceswhichmadehimthinkofratsleavingadoomedship。Heverynearlysaidso。Hehadgrownsuspiciousandembittered。Coulditbethattheoldwomanhadsuchanexcellentnose?Buttheunreasonablenessofsuchasuspicionwaspatent,andMrVerlocheldhistongue。Notaltogether,however。Hemuttered,heavily: `Perhapsit’sjustaswell。’ Hebegantoundress。MrsVerlockeptverystill,perfectlystill,withhereyesfixedinadreamy,quietstare。Andherheartforthefractionofasecondseemedtostandstill,too。Thatnightshewas`notquiteherself’,asthesayingis,anditwasborneuponherwithsomeforcethatasimplesentencemayholdseveraldiversemeanings—mostlydisagreeable。Howwasitjustaswell?Andwhy?Butshedidnotallowherselftofallintotheidlenessofbarrenspeculation。Shewasratherconfirmedinherbeliefthatthingsdidnotstandbeinglookedinto。