第8章

类别:其他 作者:Thomas Hardy字数:12064更新时间:18/12/18 14:47:25
’Shouldwelive……justasweare,exactly,……supposingI agreed?’shefaintlyinquired。 ’Yes,thatismyidea。’ ’Quiteprivately,yousay。Howcould——themarriagebequiteprivate?’ ’IwouldgoawaytoLondonandgetalicense。Thenyoucouldcometome,andreturnagainimmediatelyaftertheceremony。Icouldreturnatleisureandnotasoulintheworldwouldknowwhathadtakenplace。Think,dearest,withwhatafreeconscienceyoucouldthenassistmeinmyeffortstoplumbthesedeepsaboveus!Anyfeelingthatyoumaynowhaveagainstclandestinemeetingsassuchwouldthenberemoved,andourheartswouldbeatrest。’ Therewasacertainscientificpracticabilityeveninhislove— making,anditherecameoutexcellently。Butshesatonwithsuspendedbreath,herheartwildlybeating,whilehewaitedinopen— mouthedexpectation。Eachwasswayedbytheemotionwithinthem,muchasthecandle—flamewasswayedbythetempestwithout。Itwasthemostcriticaleveningoftheirlives。 Thepaleraysofthelittlelanternfelluponherbeautifulface,snuglyandneatlyboundinbyherblackbonnet;butnotabeamofthelanternleakedoutintothenighttosuggesttoanywatchfuleyethathumanlifeatitshighestexcitementwasbeatingwithinthedarkandisolatedtower;forthedomehadnowindows,andeveryshutterthataffordedanopeningforthetelescopewashermeticallyclosed。Predilectionsandmisgivingssoequallystrovewithinherstillyouthfulbreastthatshecouldnotutteraword;herintentionwheeledthiswayandthatlikethebalanceofawatch。Hisunexpectedpropositionhadbroughtaboutthesmartestencounterofinclinationwithprudence,ofimpulsewithreserve,thatshehadeverknown。 Ofallthereasonsthatshehadexpectedhimtogiveforhisurgentrequesttoseeherthisevening,anofferofmarriagewasprobablythelast。Whetherornotshehadeveramusedherselfwithhypotheticalfanciesonsuchasubject,——anditwasonlynaturalthatsheshouldvaguelyhavedoneso,——thecourageinherprotegecoollytoadvanceit,withoutahintfromherselfthatsuchaproposalwouldbetolerated,showedherthattherewasmoreinhischaracterthanshehadreckonedon:andthediscoveryalmostfrightenedher。Thehumour,attitude,andtenorofherattachmenthadbeenofquiteanunpremeditatedquality,unsuggestiveofanysuchaudacioussolutiontotheirdistressesasthis。 ’Irepeatmyquestion,dearest,’hesaid,afterherlongpause。 ’Shallitbedone?OrshallIexilemyself,andstudyasbestI can,insomedistantcountry,outofsightandsound?’ ’Arethosetheonlyalternatives?Yes,yes;Isupposetheyare!’ Shewaitedyetanothermoment,bentoverhiskneelingfigure,andkissedhisforehead。’Yes;itshallbedone,’shewhispered。’I willmarryyou。’ ’Myangel,Iamcontent!’ Hedrewheryieldingformtohisheart,andherheadsankuponhisshoulder,ashepressedhistwolipscontinuouslyuponhers。Tosuchhadthestudyofcelestialphysicsbroughttheminthespaceofeightmonths,oneweek,andafewodddays。 ’Iamweakerthanyou,——fartheweaker,’shewenton,hertearsfalling。’RatherthanloseyououtofmysightIwillmarrywithoutstipulationorcondition。But——Iputittoyourkindness——grantmeonelittlerequest。’ Heinstantlyassented。 ’Itisthat,inconsiderationofmypeculiarpositioninthiscounty,——O,youcan’tunderstandit!——youwillnotputanendtotheabsolutesecrecyofourrelationshipwithoutmyfullassent。Also,thatyouwillnevercometoWellandHousewithoutfirstdiscussingwithmetheadvisabilityofthevisit,acceptingmyopiniononthepoint。There,seehowatimidwomantriestofenceherselfin!’ ’Mydearlady—love,neitherofthosetwohigh—handedcoursesshouldIhavetaken,evenhadyounotstipulatedagainstthem。Theveryessenceofourmarriageplanisthatthosetwoconditionsarekept。 Iseeaswellasyoudo,evenmorethanyoudo,howimportantitisthatforthepresent,——ay,foralongtimehence——Ishouldstillbebutthecurate’slonelyson,unattachedtoanybodyoranything,withnoobjectofinterestbuthisscience;andyoutherecluseladyofthemanor,towhomheisonlyanacquaintance。’ ’Seewhatdeceitslovesowsinhonestminds!’ ’ItwouldbeahumiliationtoyouatpresentthatIcouldnotbearifamarriagebetweenusweremadepublic;aninconveniencewithoutanycompensatingadvantage。’ ’Iamsogladyouassumeitwithoutmysettingitbeforeyou!NowI knowyouarenotonlygoodandtrue,butpoliticandtrustworthy。’ ’Well,then,hereisourcovenant。Myladyswearstomarryme;I,inreturnforsuchgreatcourtesy,swearnevertocompromiseherbyintrudingatWellandHouse,andtokeepthemarriageconcealedtillIhavewonapositionworthyofher。’ ’OrtillIrequestittobemadeknown,’sheadded,possiblyforeseeingacontingencywhichhadnotoccurredtohim。 ’Ortillyourequestit,’herepeated。 ’Itisagreed,’murmuredLadyConstantine,XVI Afterthisthereonlyremainedtobesettledbetweenthemthepracticaldetailsoftheproject。 Thesewerethatheshouldleavehomeinacoupleofdays,andtakelodgingseitherinthedistantcityofBathorinaconvenientsuburbofLondon,tillasufficienttimeshouldhaveelapsedtosatisfylegalrequirements;thatonafinemorningattheendofthistimesheshouldhieawaytothesameplace,andbemetatthestationbySt。Cleeve,armedwiththemarriagelicense;whencetheyshouldatonceproceedtothechurchfixeduponfortheceremony; returninghomeindependentlyinthecourseofthenexttwoorthreedays。 Whilethesetacticswereunderdiscussionthetwo—and—thirtywindsofheavencontinued,asbefore,tobeataboutthetower,thoughtheironsetsappearedtobesomewhatlesseninginforce。Himselfnowcalmedandsatisfied,Swithin,asisthewontofhumanity,tookserenerviewsofNature’scrushingmechanicswithout,andsaid,’Thewinddoesn’tseemdisposedtoputthetragicperiodtoourhopesandfearsthatIspokeofinmymomentarydespair。’ ’Thedispositionofthewindisasviciousasever,’sheanswered,lookingintohisfacewithpausingthoughtson,perhaps,othersubjectsthanthatdiscussed。’Itisyourmoodofviewingitthathaschanged。\"Thereisnothingeithergoodorbad,butthinkingmakesitso。\"’ And,asifflatlytostultifySwithin’sassumption,acircularhurricane,exceedinginviolenceanythathadprecededit,seizedholduponRings—HillSpeeratthatmomentwiththedeterminationofaconsciousagent。Thefirstsensationofaresultingcatastrophewasconveyedtotheirintelligencebytheflappingofthecandle— flameagainstthelantern—glass;thenthewind,whichhithertotheyhadheardratherthanfelt,rubbedpastthemlikeafugitive。 Swithinbeheldaroundandabovehim,inplaceoftheconcavityofthedome,theopenheaven,withitsracingclouds,remotehorizon,andintermittentgleamofstars。Thedomethathadcoveredthetowerhadbeenwhirledoffbodily;andtheyhearditdescendcrashinguponthetrees。 FindinghimselfuntouchedSwithinstretchedouthisarmstowardsLadyConstantine,whoseapparelhadbeenseizedbythespinningair,nearlyliftingheroffherlegs。She,too,wasasyetunharmed。 Eachheldtheotherforamoment,when,fearingthatsomethingfurtherwouldhappen,theytookshelterinthestaircase。 ’Dearest,whatanescape!’hesaid,stillholdingher。 ’Whatistheaccident?’sheasked。’Hasthewholetopreallygone?’ ’Thedomehasbeenblownofftheroof。’ Assoonasitwaspracticableherelittheextinguishedlantern,andtheyemergedagainupontheleads,wheretheextentofthedisasterbecameatonceapparent。Savingtheabsenceoftheenclosinghemisphereallremainedthesame。Thedome,beingconstructedofwood,waslightbycomparisonwiththerestofthestructure,andthewheelswhichallowedithorizontal,or,asSwithinexpressedit,azimuthmotion,denieditafirmholduponthewalls;sothatithadbeenliftedoffthemlikeacoverfromapot。Theequatorialstoodinthemidstasithadstoodbefore。 Havingexecuteditsgrotesquepurposethewindsanktocomparativemildness。Swithintookadvantageofthislullbycoveringuptheinstrumentswithcloths,afterwhichthebetrothedcouplepreparedtogodownstairs。 Buttheeventsofthenighthadnotyetfullydisclosedthemselves。 Atthismomenttherewasasoundoffootstepsandaknockingatthedoorbelow。 ’Itcan’tbeforme!’saidLadyConstantine。’Iretiredtomyroombeforeleavingthehouse,andtoldthemonnoaccounttodisturbme。’ SheremainedatthetopwhileSwithinwentdownthespiral。InthegloomhebeheldHannah。 ’OMasterSwithin,canyecomehome!Thewindhavebloweddownthechimleythatdon’tsmoke,andthepinning—endwithit;andtheoldancienthouse,thathavebeeninyourfamilysolongasthememoryofman,isnakedtotheworld!Itisamercythatyourgrammerwerenotkilled,sittingbythehearth,pooroldsoul,andsoontowalkwi’God,——for’a’sgettingwamblingonherpins,Mr。Swithin,asagedfolksdo。AsIsay,’awasallbutmurderedbytheelements,anddoingnomoreharmthanthebabesinthewood,norspeakingoneharmfulword。AndthefireandsmokewereblowedallacrosshouselikeachapterinRevelation;andyourpoorreverentfather’sfeaturesscorchedtoflakes,lookinglikethevilestruffian,andthegiltframespoiled!Everyflitch,everyeye—piece,andeverychineisburiedunderthewalling;andIfedthempigswithmyownhands,MasterSwithin,littlethinkingtheywouldcometothisend。 Doyecollectyourself,Mr。Swithin,andcomeatonce!’ ’Iwill,——Iwill。I’llfollowyouinamoment。Doyouhastenbackagainandassist。’ WhenHannahhaddepartedtheyoungmanranuptoLadyConstantine,towhomheexplainedtheaccident。AftersympathizingwitholdMrs。 MartinLadyConstantineadded,’Ithoughtsomethingwouldoccurtomarourscheme!’ ’Iamnotquitesureofthatyet。’ Onashortconsiderationwithhim,sheagreedtowaitatthetopofthetowertillhecouldcomebackandinformheriftheaccidentwerereallysoseriousastointerferewithhisplanfordeparture。 Hethenlefther,andthereshesatinthedark,alone,lookingovertheparapet,andstraininghereyesinthedirectionofthehomestead。 Atfirstallwasobscurity;butwhenhehadbeengoneabouttenminuteslightsbegantomovetoandfrointhehollowwherethehousestood,andshoutsoccasionallymingledwiththewind,whichretainedsomeviolenceyet,playingoverthetreesbeneathherasonthestringsofalyre。Butnotaboughofthemwasvisible,acloakofblacknesscoveringeverythingnetherward;whileoverheadthewindyskylookeddownwithastrangeanddisguisedface,thethreeorfourstarsthatalonewerevisiblebeingsodissociatedbycloudsthatsheknewnotwhichtheywere。UnderanyothercircumstancesLadyConstantinemighthavefeltanamelessfearinthussittingaloftonalonelycolumn,withaforestgroaningunderherfeet,andpalaeolithicdeadmenfeedingitsroots;buttherecentpassionatedecisionstirredherpulsestoanintensitybesidewhichtheordinarytremorsoffeminineexistenceassertedthemselvesinvain。 Theapocalypticeffectofthescenesurroundingherwas,indeed,notinharmonious,andaffordedanappropriatebackgroundtoherintentions。 Afterwhatseemedtoheraninterminablespaceoftime,quickstepsinthestaircasebecameaudibleabovetheroarofthefirs,andinafewinstantsSt。Cleeveagainstoodbesideher。 Thecaseofthehomesteadwasserious。Hannah’saccounthadnotbeenexaggeratedinsubstance:thegableendofthehousewasopentothegarden;thejoists,leftwithoutsupport,haddropped,andwiththemtheupperfloor。Bythehelpofsomelabourers,wholivednear,andLadyConstantine’smanAnthony,whowaspassingatthetime,thehomesteadhadbeenproppedup,andprotectedforthenightbysomerickcloths;butSwithinfeltthatitwouldbeselfishinthehighestdegreetoleavetwolonelyoldwomentothemselvesatthisjuncture。’Inshort,’heconcludeddespondently,’IcannotgotostayinBathorLondonjustnow;perhapsnotforanotherfortnight!’ ’Nevermind,’shesaid。’Afortnighthencewilldoaswell。’ ’AndIhavetheseforyou,’hecontinued。’YourmanGreenwaspassingmygrandmother’sonhiswaybackfromWarborne,wherehehadbeen,hesays,foranylettersthathadcomeforyoubytheeveningpost。AshestayedtoassisttheothermenItoldhimIwouldgoontoyourhousewiththelettershehadbrought。OfcourseIdidnottellhimIshouldseeyouhere。’ ’Thankyou。Ofcoursenot。NowI’llreturnatonce。’ Indescendingthecolumnhereyefelluponthesuperscriptionofoneoftheletters,andsheopenedandglancedoveritbythelanternlight。Sheseemedstartled,and,musing,said,’Thepostponementofour——intentionmustbe,Ifear,foralongtime。IfindthataftertheendofthismonthIcannotleavehomesafely,evenforaday。’ Perceivingthathewasabouttoaskwhy,sheadded,’Iwillnottroubleyouwiththereasonnow;itwouldonlyharassyou。Itisonlyafamilybusiness,andcannotbehelped。’ ’Thenwecannotbemarriedtill——Godknowswhen!’saidSwithinblankly。’Icannotleavehometillafterthenextweekortwo;youcannotleavehomeunlesswithinthattime。Sowhatarewetodo?’ ’Idonotknow。’ ’Mydear,dearone,don’tletusbebeatenlikethis!Don’tletawell—consideredplanbeoverthrownbyamereaccident!Here’saremedy。DoYOUgoandstaytherequisitetimeintheparishwearetobemarriedin,insteadofme。WhenmygrandmotherisagainwellhousedIcancometoyou,insteadofyoutome,aswefirstsaid。 Thenitcanbedonewithinthetime。’ Reluctantly,shyly,andyetwithacertaingladnessofheart,shegavewaytohisproposalthattheyshouldchangeplacesintheprogramme。Therewasmuchthatshedidnotlikeinit,shesaid。 Itseemedtoherasifsheweretakingtheinitiativebygoingandattendingtothepreliminaries。Itwastheman’sparttodothat,inheropinion,andwasusuallyundertakenbyhim。 ’But,’arguedSwithin,’therearecasesinwhichthewomandoesgivethenotices,andsoon;thatistosay,whenthemanisabsolutelyhinderedfromdoingso;andoursissuchacase。Theseemingisnothing;Iknowthetruth,andwhatdoesitmatter?Youdonotrefuse——retractyourwordtobemywife,because,toavoidasickeningdelay,theformalitiesrequireyoutoattendtotheminplaceofme?’ Shedidnotrefuse,shesaid。Inshortsheagreedtohisentreaty。 Theyhad,intruth,gonesofarintheirdreamofunionthattherewasnodrawingbacknow。Whicheverofthemwasforcedbycircumstancestobetheprotagonistintheenterprise,thethingmustbedone。Theirintentiontobecomehusbandandwife,atfirsthaltingandtimorous,hadaccumulatedmomentumwiththelapseofhours,tillitnowboredowneveryobstacleinitscourse。 ’Sinceyoubegmeto,——sincethereisnoalternativebetweenmygoingandalongpostponement,’shesaid,astheystoodinthedarkporchofWellandHousebeforeparting,——’sinceIamtogofirst,andseemtobethepioneerinthisadventure,promiseme,Swithin,promiseyourViviette,thatinyearstocome,whenperhapsyoumaynotlovemesowarmlyasyoudonow——’ ’Thatwillneverbe。’ ’Well,hopingitwillnot,butsupposingitshould,promisemethatyouwillneverreproachmeastheonewhotooktheinitiativewhenitshouldhavebeenyourself,forgettingthatitwasatyourrequest;promisethatyouwillneversayIshowedimmodestreadinesstodoso,oranythingwhichmayimplyyourobliviousnessofthefactthatIactinobediencetonecessityandyourearnestprayer。’ Needitbesaidthathepromisednevertoreproachherwiththatoranyotherthingaslongastheyshouldlive?Thefewdetailsofthereversedarrangementweresoonsettled,Bathbeingtheplacefinallydecidedon。Then,withawarmaudacitywhicheventshadencouraged,hepressedhertohisbreast,andshesilentlyenteredthehouse。 Hereturnedtothehomestead,theretoattendtotheunexpecteddutiesofrepairingthehavocwroughtbythegale。 Thatnight,inthesolitudeofherchamber,LadyConstantinereopenedandreadthesubjoinedletter——oneofthosehandedtoherbySt。Cleeve:—— \"—————STREET,PICCADILLY,October15,18——。 ’DEARVIVIETTE,——YouwillbesurprisedtolearnthatIaminEngland,andthatIamagainoutofharness——unlessyoushouldhaveseenthelatterinthepapers。RioJaneiromaydoformonkeys,butitwon’tdoforme。HavingresignedtheappointmentIhavereturnedhere,asapreliminarysteptofindinganotherventformyenergies; inotherwords,anothermilchcowformysustenance。Iknewnothingwhateverofyourhusband’sdeathtilltwodaysago;sothatanyletterfromyouonthesubject,atthetimeitbecameknown,musthavemiscarried。Hypocrisyatsuchamomentisworsethanuseless,andIthereforedonotcondolewithyou,particularlyastheevent,thoughnewtoabanishedmanlikeme,occurredsolongsince。Youarebetterwithouthim,Viviette,andarenowjustthelimbfordoingsomethingforyourself,notwithstandingthethreadbarestateinwhichyouseemtohavebeencastupontheworld。Youarestillyoung,and,asIimagine(unlessyouhavevastlyalteredsinceI beheldyou),good—looking:thereforemakeupyourmindtoretrieveyourpositionbyamatchwithoneofthelocalcelebrities;andyouwoulddowelltobegindrawingneighbouringcoversatonce。A genialsquire,withmoreweightthanwit,morerealtythanweight,andmorepersonaltythanrealty(consideringthecircumstances),wouldbebestforyou。Youmightmakeapositionforusbothbysomesuchalliance;for,totellthetruth,Ihavehadbutin—and— outlucksofar。Ishallbewithyouinlittlemorethanafortnight,whenwewilltalkoverthematterseriously,ifyoudon’tobject。——Youraffectionatebrother,LOUIS。’ Itwasthisallusiontoherbrother’scomingvisitwhichhadcaughthereyeinthetowerstaircase,andledtoamodificationintheweddingarrangement。 HavingreadtheletterthroughonceLadyConstantineflungitasidewithanimpatientlittlestampthatshookthedecayingoldfloorandcasement。Itscontentsproducedperturbation,misgiving,butnotretreat。Thedeepglowofenchantmentshedbytheideaofaprivateunionwithherbeautifulyoungloverkilledthepalelightofcoldreasoningfromanindifferentlygoodrelative。 ’Oh,no,’shemurmured,asshesat,coveringherfacewithherhand。 ’NotforwealthuntoldcouldIgivehimupnow!’ Noargument,shortofApolloinpersonfromtheclouds,wouldhaveinfluencedher。Shemadeherpreparationsfordepartureasifnothinghadintervened。 XVII InherdaysofprosperityLadyConstantinehadoftengonetothecityofBath,eitherfrivolously,forshoppingpurposes,ormusico— religiously,toattendchoirfestivalsintheabbey;sotherewasnothingsurprisinginherrevertingtoanoldpractice。Thatthejourneymightappeartobeofasomewhatsimilarnatureshetookwithhertheservantwhohadbeenaccustomedtoaccompanyheronformeroccasions,thoughthewoman,havingnowleftherservice,andsettledinthevillageasthewifeofAnthonyGreen,withayoungchildonherhands,couldwithsomedifficultyleavehome。LadyConstantineovercametheanxiousmother’sscruplesbyprovidingthatyoungGreenshouldbewellcaredfor;andknowingthatshecouldcountuponthiswoman’sfidelity,ifuponanybody’s,incaseofanaccident(foritwaschieflyLadyConstantine’sexertionsthathadmadeanhonestwifeofMrs。Green),shedepartedforafortnight’sabsence。 Thenextdayfoundmistressandmaidsettledinlodgingsinanoldplum—colouredbrickstreet,whichahundredyearsagocouldboastofrankandfashionamongitsresidents,thoughnowthebroadfan—lightovereachbroaddooradmittedthesuntothehallsofalodging— housekeeperonly。Thelamp—postswerestillthosethathaddonedutywithoillights;andrheumaticoldcoachmenandpostilions,thatoncehaddrivenandriddengloriouslyfromLondontoLand’sEnd,ornamentedwiththeirbentpersonsandbowlegsthepavementinfrontofthechiefinn,inthesorryhopeofearningsixpencetokeepbodyandsoultogether。 ’Wearekeptwellinformedonthetimeo’day,mylady,’saidMrs。 Green,asshepulleddowntheblindsinLadyConstantine’sroomontheeveningoftheirarrival。’There’sachurchexactlyatthebackofus,andIheareveryhourstrike。’ LadyConstantinesaidshehadnoticedthattherewasachurchquitenear。 ’Well,itisbettertohavethatatthebackthanotherfolks’ winders。Andifyourladyshipwantstogothereitwon’tbefartowalk。’ ’That’swhatoccurredtome,’saidLadyConstantine,’IFIshouldwanttogo。’ Duringtheensuingdaysshefelttotheutmostthetediousnessofwaitingmerelythattimemightpass。Notasoulknewherthere,andsheknewnotasoul,acircumstancewhich,whileitaddedtohersenseofsecrecy,intensifiedhersolitude。Occasionallyshewenttoashop,withGreenashercompanion。Thoughtherewerepurchasestobemade,theywerebynomeansofapressingnature,andbutpoorlyfilledupthevacanciesofthosestrange,speculativedays,—— dayssurroundedbyashadeoffear,yetpoetizedbysweetexpectation。 OnthethirteenthdayshetoldGreenthatshewasgoingtotakeawalk,andleavingthehouseshepassedbytheobscureststreetstotheAbbey。Afterwanderingaboutbeneaththeaislestillhercouragewasscrewedtoitshighest,shewentoutattheotherside,and,lookingtimidlyroundtoseeifanybodyfollowed,walkedontillshecametoacertaindoor,whichshereachedjustatthemomentwhenherheartbegantosinktoitsverylowest,renderingallthescrewingupinvain。 WhetheritwasbecausethemonthwasOctober,orfromanyotherreason,thedesertedaspectofthequarteringeneralsatespeciallyonthisbuilding。Moreoverthepavementwasup,andheapsofstoneandgravelobstructedthefootway。Nobodywascoming,nobodywasgoing,inthatthoroughfare;sheappearedtobethesingleoneofthehumanracebentuponmarriagebusiness,whichseemedtohavebeenunanimouslyabandonedbyalltherestoftheworldasprovenfolly。ButshethoughtofSwithin,hisblondehair,ardenteyes,andeloquentlips,andwascarriedonwardbytheveryreflection。 Enteringthesurrogate’sroomLadyConstantinemanaged,atthelastjuncture,tostatehererrandintonessocollectedastostartleevenherselftowhichherlistenerrepliedalsoasifthewholethingwerethemostnaturalintheworld。Whenitcametotheaffirmationthatshehadlivedfifteendaysintheparish,shesaidwithdismay—— ’Ono!Ithoughtthefifteendaysmeanttheintervalofresidencebeforethemarriagetakesplace。Ihavelivedhereonlythirteendaysandahalf。NowImustcomeagain!’ ’Ah——well——Ithinkyouneednotbesoparticular,’saidthesurrogate。’Asamatteroffact,thoughtheletterofthelawrequiresfifteendays’residence,manypeoplemakefivesufficient。 Theprovisionisinserted,asyoudoubtlessareaware,tohinderrunawaymarriagesasmuchaspossible,andsecretunions,andothersuchobjectionablepractices。Youneednotcomeagain。’ ThateveningLadyConstantinewrotetoSwithinSt。Cleevethelastletterofthefortnight:—— ’MYDEAREST,——Docometomeassoonasyoucan。ByasortoffavouringblunderIhavebeenabletoshortenthetimeofwaitingbyaday。Comeatonce,forIamalmostbrokendownwithapprehension。 Itseemsratherrashatmoments,allthis,andIwishyouwereheretoreassureme。IdidnotknowIshouldfeelsoalarmed。Iamfrightenedateveryfootstep,anddreadlestanybodywhoknowsmeshouldaccostme,andfindoutwhyIamhere。IsometimeswonderhowIcouldhaveagreedtocomeandenactyourpart,butIdidnotrealizehowtryingitwouldbe。Yououghtnottohaveaskedme,Swithin;uponmyword,itwastoocruelofyou,andIwillpunishyouforitwhenyoucome!ButIwon’tupbraid。Ihopethehomesteadisrepairedthathascostmeallthissacrificeofmodesty。IfitwereanybodyintheworldbutYOUinquestionI wouldrushhome,withoutwaitingherefortheendofit,——IreallythinkIwould!But,dearest,no。Imustshowmystrengthnow,orletitbeforeverhid。Thebarriersofceremonyarebrokendownbetweenus,anditisforthebestthatIamhere。’ Andyet,atnopointofthistryingpreludeneedLadyConstantinehavefearedforherstrength。Deedsinthisconnexiondemandtheparticularkindofcouragethatsuchperfervidwomenareendowedwith,thecourageoftheiremotions,inwhichyoungmenareoftenlamentablydeficient。Herfearwas,intruth,thefearofbeingdiscoveredinanunwontedposition;notoftheactitself。Andthoughherletterwasinitswayatrueexpositionofherfeeling,haditbeennecessarytogothroughthewholelegalprocessoveragainshewouldhavebeenfoundequaltotheemergency。 IthadbeenforsomedaysapointofanxietywithherwhattodowithGreenduringthemorningofthewedding。Chanceunexpectedlyhelpedherinthisdifficulty。ThedaybeforethepurchaseofthelicenseGreencametoLadyConstantinewithaletterinherhandfromherhusbandAnthony,herfaceaslongasafiddle。 ’Ihopethere’snothingthematter?’saidLadyConstantine。 ’Thechild’stookbad,mylady!’saidMrs。Green,withsuspendedfloodsofwaterinhereyes。’IlovethechildbetterthanIshallloveallthemthat’scomingputtogether;forhe’sbeenagoodboytohismothereversincetwelveweeksaforehewasborn!’Twashe,atenderdeary,thatmadeAnthonymarryme,andtherebyturnedhisselffromalittlecalamitytoalittleblessing!For,asyouknow,themanwereabackwardmaninthechurchparto’matrimony,mylady;thoughhe’lldoanythingwhenhe’sforcedabitbyhismanlyfeelings。Andnowtolosethechild——hoo—hoo—hoo!WhatshallIdoo!’ ’Well,youwanttogohomeatonce,Isuppose?’ Mrs。Greenexplained,betweenhersobs,thatsuchwasherdesire; andthoughthiswasadayortwosoonerthanhermistresshadwishedtobeleftalonesheconsentedtoGreen’sdeparture。Soduringtheafternoonherwomanwentoff,withdirectionstoprepareforLadyConstantine’sreturnintwoorthreedays。Butastheexactdayofherreturnwasuncertainnocarriagewastobesenttothestationtomeether,herintentionbeingtohireonefromthehotel。 LadyConstantinewasnowleftinuttersolitudetoawaitherlover’sarrival。 XVIII AmorebeautifulOctobermorningthanthatofthenextdayneverbeamedintotheWellandvalleys。Theyearlydissolutionofleafagewassettinginapace。Thefoliageoftheparktreesrapidlyresolveditselfintothemultitudeofcomplexionswhichmarkthesubtlegradesofdecay,reflectingwetlightsofsuchinnumerablehuesthatitwasawondertothinktheirbeautiesonlyarepetitionofscenesthathadbeenexhibitedthereonscoresofpreviousOctobers,andhadbeenallowedtopassawaywithoutasingledirgefromtheimperturbablebeingswhowalkedamongthem。Farintheshadowssemi—opaquescreensofbluehazemademysteriesofthecommonestgravel—pit,dingle,orrecess。 ThewoodencabinatthefootofRings—HillSpeerhadbeenfurnishedbySwithinasasittingandsleepingapartment,somelittlewhilebeforethistime;forhehadfoundithighlyconvenient,duringnightobservationsatthetopofthecolumn,toremainonthespotallnight,nottodisturbhisgrandmotherbypassinginandoutofthehouse,andtosavehimselfthelabourofincessantlycrossingthefield。 Hewouldmuchhavelikedtotellherthesecret,and,haditbeenhisowntotell,wouldprobablyhavedoneso;butsharingitwithanobjectorwhoknewnothisgrandmother’saffectionsowellashedidhimself,therewasnoalternativetoholdinghistongue。Themoreeffectuallytoguardithedecidedtosleepatthecabinduringthetwoorthreenightsprevioustohisdeparture,leavingwordatthehomesteadthatinadayortwohewasgoingonanexcursion。