Christianwatchedtheirsoftuncertainrushes。Goingtothelittlesummer—housesheflungherselfdownonaseat,andpressedherhandstoherheart。
Therewasastrangeandsuddenachingthere。Washegoingfromher?
Ifso,whatwouldbeleft?Howlittleandhownarrowseemedtheoutlookofherlife——withtheworldwaitingforher,theworldofbeauty,effort,self—sacrifice,fidelity!Itwasasthoughaflashofthatsummerlightninghadfledby,singeingher,takingfromherallpowersofflight,burningoffherwings,asoffoneofthosepalehoveringmoths。Tearsstartedup,andtrickleddownherface。
’Blind!’shethought;’howcouldIhavebeensoblind?’
Someonecamedownthepath。
\"Who’sthere?\"shecried。
Harzstoodinthedoorway。
\"Whydidyoucomeout?\"hesaid。\"Ah!whydidyoucomeout?\"Hecaughtherhand;Christiantriedtodrawitfromhim,andtoturnhereyesaway,butshecouldnot。Heflunghimselfdownonhisknees,andcried:\"Iloveyou!\"
InaraptureofsoftterrorChristianbentherforeheaddowntohishand。
\"Whatareyoudoing?\"sheheardhimsay。\"Isitpossiblethatyouloveme?\"andshefelthiskissesonherhair。
\"Mysweet!itwillbesohardforyou;youaresolittle,solittle,andsoweak。\"Claspinghishandclosertoherface,shemurmured:\"I
don’tcare。\"
Therewasalong,softsilence,thatseemedtolastforever。
Suddenlyshethrewherarmsroundhisneckandkissedhim。
\"Whatevercomes!\"shewhispered,andgatheringherdress,escapedfromhimintothedarkness。
XII
Christianwokenextmorningwithasmile。Inherattitudes,hervoice,hereyes,therewasahappyandsweetseriousness,asifshewerehuggingsomeholythought。Afterbreakfastshetookabookandsatintheopenwindow,whenceshecouldseethepoplar—treesguardingtheentrance。Therewasabreeze;therosesclosebykeptnoddingtoher;thecathedralbellswereinfullchime;beeshummedabovethelavender;andintheskysoftcloudswerefloatinglikehuge,whitebirds。
ThesoundsofMissNaylor’sstaccatodictationtravelledacrosstheroom,andGreta’ssighsasshetookitdown,oneeyeonherpaper,oneeyeonScruff,wholaywithablackearflappedacrosshispaw,andhistaneyebrowsquivering。Hewasindisgrace,forDominique,comingonhimunawares,hadseenhim\"sayhisprayers\"beforeapudding,andtakethepuddingforreward。
Christianputherbookdowngently,andslippedthroughthewindow。
Harzwascominginfromtheroad。\"Iamallyours!\"shewhispered。
Hisfingersclosedonhers,andhewentintothehouse。
Sheslippedback,tookupherbook,andwaited。Itseemedlongbeforehecameout,butwhenhedidhewavedherback,andhurriedon;shehadaglimpseofhisface,whitetothelips。Feelingfaintandsick,sheflewtoherstepfather’sroom。
HerrPaulwasstandinginacornerwiththeutterlydisturbedappearanceofaneasy—goingman,visitedbytheunexpected。Hisfineshirt—frontwascrumpledasifhisbreasthadheavedtoosuddenlyunderstrongemotion;hissmokedeyeglassesdangleddownhisback;
hisfingerswereembeddedinhisbeard。Hewasfixinghiseyeonaspotinthefloorasthoughheexpectedittoexplodeandblowthemtofragments。InanothercornerMrs。Decie,withhalf—closedeyes,wasrunningherfinger—tipsacrossherbrow。
\"Whathaveyousaidtohim?\"criedChristian。
HerrPaulregardedherwithglassyeyes。
\"MeinGott!\"hesaid。\"YourauntandI!\"
\"Whathaveyousaidtohim?\"repeatedChristian。
\"Theimpudence!Ananarchist!。Abeggar!\"
\"Paul!\"murmuredMrs。Decie。
\"Theoutlaw!Thefellow!\"HerrPaulbegantostrideabouttheroom。
Quiveringfromheadtofoot,Christiancried:\"Howdaredyou?\"andranfromtheroom,pushingasideMissNaylorandGreta,whostoodblanchedandfrightenedinthedoorway。
HerrPaulstoppedinhistramp,and,stillwithhiseyesfixedonthefloor,growled:
\"Afinething—hein?What’scoming?Willyoupleasetellme?Ananarchist——abeggar!\"
\"Paul!\"murmuredMrs。Decie。
\"Paul!Paul!Andyou!\"hepointedtoMissNaylor——\"Twowomenwitheyes!——hein!\"
\"Thereisnothingtobegainedbyviolence,\"Mrs。Deciemurmured,passingherhandkerchiefacrossherlips。MissNaylor,whosethinbrowncheekshadflushed,advancedtowardshim。
\"Ihopeyoudonot——\"shesaid;\"IamsuretherewasnothingthatI
couldhaveprevented——Ishouldbegladifthatwereunderstood。\"
And,turningwithsomedignity,thelittleladywentaway,closingthedoorbehindher。
\"Youhear!\"HerrPaulsaid,violentlysarcastic:\"nothingshecouldhaveprevented!Enfin,!WillyoupleasetellmewhatIamtodo?\"
\"Menoftheworld\"——whosephilosophyisacreatureofcircumstanceandacceptedthings——findanydeviationfromthepathoftheirconvictionsdangerous,shocking,andanintolerablebore。HerrPaulhadspenthislifelaughingatconvictions;thematterhadbuttotouchhimpersonally,andthetapoflaughterwasturnedoff。Thatanyonetowhomhewasthelawfulguardianshouldmarryotherthanawell—groomedman,properlyendowedwithgoods,properlyselected,wasbeyondexpressionhorrid。Fromhispointofviewhehadgreatexcuseforhorror;andhewasnaturallyunabletojudgewhetherhehadexcuseforhorrorfromotherpointsofview。Hisamazementhadinitaspiceofthepathetic;hewaslikeachildinthepresenceofathingthatheabsolutelycouldnotunderstand。Theinterviewhadlefthimwithasenseofinsecuritywhichhefelttobeparticularlyunfair。
Thedoorwasagainopened,andGretaflewin,hercheeksflushed,herhairfloatingbehindher,andtearsstreamingdownhercheeks。
\"Papa!\"shecried,\"youhavebeencrueltoChris。Thedoorislocked;Icanhearhercrying——whyhaveyoubeencruel?\"Withoutwaitingtobeanswered,sheflewoutagain。
HerrPaulseizedhishairwithbothhishands:\"Good!Verygood!Myownchild,please!Whatnextthen?\"
Mrs。Decierosefromherchairlanguidly。\"Myheadisverybad,\"shesaid,shadinghereyesandspeakinginlowtones:\"Itisnousemakingafuss——nothingcancomeofthis——hehasnotapenny。
Christianwillhavenothingtillyoudie,whichwillnotbeforalongtimeyet,ifyoucanbutavoidanapoplecticfit!\"
AttheselastwordsHerrPaulgaveastartofrealdisgust。\"Hum!\"
hemuttered;itwasasiftheworldwerebentonbeingbrutaltohim。
Mrs。Deciecontinued:
\"IfIknowanythingofthisyoungman,hewillnotcomehereagain,afterthewordsyouhavespoken。AsforChristian——youhadbettertalktoNicholas。Iamgoingtoliedown。\"
HerrPaulnervouslyfingeredtheshirt—collarroundhisstout,shortneck。
\"Nicholas!Certainly——agoodidea。Quellediabled’afaire!\"
’French!’thoughtMrs。Decie;’weshallsoonhavepeace。PoorChristian!I’msorry!Afterall,thesethingsareamatteroftimeandopportunity。’Thisconsoledheragooddeal。
ButforChristianthehourswerealongnightmareofgriefandshame,fearandanger。Wouldheforgive?Wouldhebetruetoher?Orwouldhegoawaywithoutaword?Sinceyesterdayitwasasifshehadsteppedintoanotherworld,andlostitagain。Inplaceofthatnewfeeling,intoxicatingaswine,whatwascoming?Whatbitter;
dreadfulending?
Arudeentrancethisintothelifeoffacts,andprimitiveemotions!
SheletGretaintoherroomafteratime,forthechildhadbegunsobbing;butshewouldnottalk,andsathourafterhouratthewindowwiththeairfanningherface,andthepaininhereyesturnedtotheskyandtrees。Afteroneortwoattemptsatconsolation,Gretasankonthefloor,andremainedthere,humblygazingathersisterinasilenceonlybrokenwhenChristianclearedherthroatoftears,andbythesongofbirdsinthegarden。Intheafternoonsheslippedawayanddidnotcomebackagain。
AfterhisinterviewwithMr。Treffry,HerrPaultookabath,perfumedhimselfwithprecision,andcausedittobeclearlyunderstoodthat,undercircumstancessuchasthese,aman’shousewasnotsuitedforapigtolivein。HeshortlyafterwardswentouttotheKurbaus,andhadnotreturnedbydinner—time。
Christiancamedownfordinner。Therewerecrimsonspotsinhercheeks,darkcirclesroundhereyes;shebehaved,however,asthoughnothinghadhappened。MissNaylor,affectedbythekindnessofherheartandtheshockhersystemhadsustained,rolledanumberofbreadpills,lookingateachasitcame,withanairofsurprise,andconcealingitwithdifficulty。Mr。Treffrywascoughing,andwhenhetalkedhisvoiceseemedtorumbleevenmorethanusual。Gretawasdumb,tryingtocatchChristian’seye;Mrs。Deciealoneseemedatease。AfterdinnerMr。Treffrywentofftohisroom,leaningheavilyonChristian’sshoulder。Ashesankintohischair,hesaidtoher:
\"Pullyourselftogether,mydear!\"Christiandidnotanswerhim。
OutsidehisroomGretacaughtherbythesleeve。
\"Look!\"shewhispered,thrustingapieceofpaperintoChristian’shand。\"ItistomefromDr。Edmund,butyoumustreadit。\"
Christianopenedthenote,whichranasfollows:
\"MYPHILOSOPHERANDFRIEND,——Ireceivedyournote,andwenttoourfriend’sstudio;hewasnotin,buthalfanhouragoIstumbledonhiminthePlatz。Heisnotquitehimself;hashadatouchofthesun——nothingserious:Itookhimtomyhotel,whereheisinbed。Ifhewillstaytherehewillbeallrightinadayortwo。Inanycaseheshallnoteludemyclutchesforthepresent。
\"MywarmrespectstoMistressChristian。——Yoursinfriendshipandphilosophy,EDMUNDDAWNEY。\"
Christianreadandre—readthisnote,thenturnedtoGreta。
\"WhatdidyousaytoDr。Dawney?\"
Gretatookbackthepieceofpaper,andreplied:\"Isaid:
\"’DEARDR。EDMUND,——WeareanxiousaboutHerrHarz。Wethinkheisperhapsnotverywellto—day。We(IandChristian)shouldliketoknow。Youcantellus。Pleaseshallyou?GRETA。’
\"ThatiswhatIsaid。\"
Christiandroppedhereyes。\"Whatmadeyouwrite?\"
Gretagazedathermournfully:\"Ithought——OChris!comeintothegarden。Iamsohot,anditissodullwithoutyou!\"
ChristianbentherheadforwardandrubbedhercheekagainstGreta’s,thenwithoutanotherwordranupstairsandlockedherselfintoherroom。Thechildstoodlistening;hearingthekeyturninthelock,shesankdownonthebottomstepandtookScruffinherarms。
HalfanhourlaterMissNaylor,carryingacandle,foundhertherefastasleep,withherheadrestingontheterrier’sback,andtearstainsonhercheeks……
Mrs。Deciepresentlycameout,alsocarryingacandle,andwenttoherbrother’sroom。Shestoodbeforehischair,withfoldedhands。
\"Nicholas,whatistobedone?\"
Mr。Treffrywaspouringwhiskyintoaglass。
\"Damnit,Con!\"heanswered;\"howshouldIknow?\"
\"There’ssomethinginChristianthatmakesinterferencedangerous。I
knowverywellthatI’venoinfluencewithheratall。\"
\"You’rerightthere,Con,\"Mr。Treffryreplied。
Mrs。Decie’spaleeyes,fastenedonhisface,forcedhimtolookup。
\"Iwishyouwouldleaveoffdrinkingwhiskyandattendtome。Paulisanelement——\"
\"Paul,\"Mr。Treffrygrowled,\"isanass!\"
\"Paul,\"pursuedMrs。Decie,\"isanelementofdangerinthesituation;anyill—timedoppositionofhismightdrivehertoIdon’tknowwhat。Christianisgentle,sheis’sympathetic’astheysay;
butthwarther,andsheisasobstinateas……
\"YouorI!Leaveheralone!\"
\"Iunderstandhercharacter,butIconfessthatIamatalosswhattodo。\"
\"Donothing!\"Hedrankagain。
Mrs。Decietookupthecandle。
\"Men!\"shesaidwithamysteriousintonation;shrugginghershoulders,shewalkedout。
Mr。Treffryputdownhisglass。
’Understand?’hethought;’no,youdon’t,andIdon’t。Whounderstandsayounggirl?Vapourings,dreams,moonshineI……Whatdoessheseeinthispainterfellow?Iwonder!’Hebreathedheavily。’Byheavens!Iwouldn’thavehadthishappenforahundredthousandpounds!’
XIII
FormanyhoursafterDawneyhadtakenhimtohishotel,Harzwasprostratewithstunningpainsintheheadandneck。Hehadbeenalldaywithoutfood,exposedtoburningsun,sufferingviolentemotion。
Movementofanysortcausedhimsuchagonythathecouldonlylieinstupor,countingthespotsdancingbefore,hiseyes。Dawneydideverythingforhim,andHarzresentedinalistlesswaytheintentscrutinyofthedoctor’scalm,blackeyes。
Towardstheendoftheseconddayhewasabletogetup;Dawneyfoundhimsittingonthebedinshirtandtrousers。
\"Myson,\"hesaid,\"youhadbettertellmewhatthetroubleis——itwilldoyourstubborncarcasegood。\"
\"Imustgobacktowork,\"saidHarz。
\"Work!\"saidDawneydeliberately:\"youcouldn’t,ifyoutried。\"
\"Imust。\"
\"Mydearfellow,youcouldn’ttellonecolourfromanother。\"
\"Imustbedoingsomething;Ican’tsithereandthink。\"
Dawneyhookedhisthumbsintohiswaistcoat:\"Youwon’tseethesunforthreedaysyet,ifIcanhelpit。\"
Harzgotup。
\"I’mgoingtomystudioto—morrow,\"hesaid。\"Ipromisenottogoout。ImustbewhereIcanseemywork。IfIcan’tpaint,Icandraw;Icanfeelmybrushes,movemythingsabout。IshallgomadifIdonothing。\"
Dawneytookhisarm,andwalkedhimupanddown。
\"I’llletyougo,\"hesaid,\"butgivemeachance!It’sasmuchtometoputyoustraightasitistoyoutopaintadecentpicture。
Nowgotobed;I’llhaveacarriageforyouto—morrowmorning。\"
Harzsatdownonthebedagain,andforalongtimestayedwithoutmoving,hiseyesfixedonthefloor。Thesightofhim,sodesperateandmiserable,hurttheyoungdoctor。
\"Canyougettobedbyyourself?\"heaskedatlast。
Harznodded。
\"Then,good—night,oldchap!\"andDawneylefttheroom。
HetookhishatandturnedtowardstheVilla。Betweenthepoplarshestoppedtothink。Thefarthertreeswerefret—workedblackagainstthelingeringgoldofthesunset;ahugemoth,attractedbythetipofhiscigar,cameflutteringinhisface。Themusicofaconcertinaroseandfell,likethesighingofsomedisillusionedspirit。Dawneystoodforseveralminutesstaringatthehouse。
HewasshowntoMrs。Decie’sroom。Shewasholdingamagazinebeforehereyes,andreceivedhimwithasmuchreliefasphilosophypermitted。
\"YouaretheverypersonIwantedtosee,\"shesaid。
Henoticedthatthemagazinesheheldwasuncut。
\"Youareayoungman,\"pursuedMrs。Decie,\"butasmydoctorIhavearighttoyourdiscretion。\"
Dawneysmiled;thefeaturesofhisbroad,clean—shavenfacelookedridiculouslysmallonsuchoccasions,buthiseyesretainedtheirairofcalculation。
\"Thatisso,\"heanswered。
\"Itisaboutthisunfortunateaffair。IunderstandthatMr。Harziswithyou。Iwantyoutouseyourinfluencetodissuadehimfromattemptingtoseemyniece。\"
\"Influence!\"saidDawney;\"youknowHarz!\"
Mrs。Decie’svoicehardened。
\"Everybody,\"shesaid,\"hashisweakpoints。Thisyoungmanisopentoapproachfromatleasttwoquarters——hisprideisone,hisworkanother。Iamseldomwrongingaugingcharacter;thesearehisvitalspots,andtheyareoftheessenceofthismatter。I’msorryforhim,ofcourse——butathisage,andlivingaman’slife,thesethings——\"Hersmilewasextrapale。\"Iwishyoucouldgivemesomethingformyhead。It’sfoolishtoworry。Nervesofcourse!
ButIcan’thelpit!Youknowmyopinion,Dr。Dawney。Thatyoungmanwillgofarifheremainsunfettered;hewillmakeaname。Youwillbedoinghimagreatserviceifyoucouldshowhimtheaffairasitreallyis——adragonhim,andquiteunworthyofhispride!Dohelpme!Youarejustthemantodoit!\"
Dawneythrewuphisheadasiftoshakeoffthisimpeachment;thecurveofhischinthusdisplayedwasimposinginitsfulness;
altogetherhewasimposing,havinganairofcapability。
Shestruckhim,indeed,asreallyscared;itwasasifhermaskofsmilehadbecomeawry,andfailedtocoverheremotion;andhewaspuzzled,thinking,’Iwouldn’thavebelievedshehaditinher……’
\"It’snotaneasybusiness,\"hesaid;\"I’llthinkitover。\"
\"Thankyou!\"murmuredMrs。Decie。\"Youaremostkind。\"
Passingtheschoolroom,helookedinthroughtheopendoor。
Christianwassittingthere。Thesightofherfaceshockedhim,itwassowhite,soresolutelydumb。Abooklayonherknees;shewasnotreading,butstaringbeforeher。Hethoughtsuddenly:’Poorthing!IfIdon’tsaysomethingtoher,Ishallbeabrute!’
\"MissDevorell,\"hesaid:\"Youcanreckononhim。\"
Christiantriedtospeak,butherlipstrembledsothatnothingcameforth。
\"Good—night,\"saidDawney,andwalkedout……
ThreedayslaterHarzwassittinginthewindowofhisstudio。Itwasthefirstdayhehadfounditpossibletowork,andnow,tiredout,hestaredthroughtheduskattheslowlylengtheningshadowsoftherafters。Asolitarymosquitohummed,andtwohousesparrows,whohadbuiltbeneaththeroof,chirrupedsleepily。Swallowsdartedbythewindow,dippingtheirbluewingstowardsthequietwater;ahushhadstolenovereverything。Hefellasleep。
Hewoke,withadimimpressionofsomenearpresence。Inthepaleglimmerfrominnumerablestars,theroomwasfullofshadowyshapes。
Helithislantern。Theflamedartedforth,bickered,thenslowlylitupthegreatroom。
\"Who’sthere?\"
Arustlingseemedtoanswer。Hepeeredabout,wenttothedoorway,anddrewthecurtain。Awoman’scloakedfigureshrankagainstthewall。Herfacewasburiedinherhands;herarms,fromwhichthecloakfellback,werealonevisible。
\"Christian?\"
Sheranpasthim,andwhenhehadputthelanterndown,wasstandingatthewindow。Sheturnedquicklytohim。\"Takemeawayfromhere!
Letmecomewithyou!\"
\"Doyoumeanit?\"
\"Yousaidyouwouldn’tgivemeup!\"
\"Youknowwhatyouaredoing?\"
Shemadeamotionofassent。
\"Butyoudon’tgraspwhatthismeans。Thingstobearthatyouknownothingof——hungerperhaps!Think,evenhunger!Andyourpeoplewon’tforgive——you’llloseeverything。\"
Sheshookherhead。
\"Imustchoose——it’sonethingortheother。Ican’tgiveyouup!
Ishouldbeafraid!\"
\"But,dear;howcanyoucomewithme?Wecan’tbemarriedhere。\"
\"Iamgivingmylifetoyou。\"
\"Youaretoogoodforme,\"saidHarz。\"Thelifeyou’regoinginto——
maybedark,likethat!\"hepointedtothewindow。
Asoundoffootstepsbrokethehush。Theycouldseeafigureonthepathbelow。Itstopped,seemedtoconsider,vanished。Theyheardthesoundsofgropinghands,ofacreakingdoor,ofuncertainfeetonthestairs。
Harzseizedherhand。
\"Quick!\"hewhispered;\"behindthiscanvas!\"
Christianwastremblingviolently。Shedrewherhoodacrossherface。Theheavybreathingandejaculationsofthevisitorwerenowplainlyaudible。
\"He’sthere!Quick!Hide!\"
Sheshookherhead。
Withathrillathisheart,Harzkissedher,thenwalkedtowardstheentrance。Thecurtainwaspulledaside。
ItwasHerrPaul,holdingacigarinonehand,hishatintheother,andbreathinghard。
\"Pardon!\"hesaidhuskily,\"yourstairsaresteep,anddark!maisen,fin!nousvoila!Ihaveventuredtocomeforatalk。\"Hisglancefellonthecloakedfigureintheshadow。
\"Pardon!Athousandpardons!Ihadnoidea!Ibegyoutoforgivethisindiscretion!Imaytakeityouresignpretensionsthen?Youhavealadyhere——Ihavenothingmoretosay;Ionlybegamillionpardonsforintruding。Athousandtimesforgiveme!Good—night!\"
Hebowedandturnedtogo。Christiansteppedforward,andletthehoodfallfromherhead。
\"It’sI!\"
HerrPaulpirouetted。
\"GoodGod!\"hestammered,droppingcigarandhat。\"GoodGod!\"
Thelanternflaredsuddenly,revealinghiscrimson,shakingcheeks。
\"Youcamehere,atnight!You,thedaughterofmywife!\"Hiseyeswanderedwithadullglareroundtheroom。
\"Takecare!\"criedHarz:\"Ifyousayawordagainsther———\"
Thetwomenstaredateachother’seyes。Andwithoutwarning,thelanternflickeredandwentout。Christiandrewthecloakroundheragain。HerrPaul’svoicebrokethesilence;hehadrecoveredhisself—possession。
\"Ah!ah!\"hesaid:\"Darkness!Tantmieux!Therightthingforwhatwehavetosay。Sincewedonotesteemeachother,itiswellnottoseetoomuch。\"
\"Justso,\"saidHarz。
Christianhadcomeclosetothem。Herpalefaceandgreatshiningeyescouldjustbeseenthroughthegloom。
HerrPaulwavedhisarm;thegesturewasimpressive,annihilating。
\"Thisisamatter,Ibelieve,betweentwomen,\"hesaid,addressingHarz。\"Letuscometothepoint。Iwilldoyouthecredittosupposethatyouhaveamarriageinview。Youknow,perhaps,thatMissDevorellhasnomoneytillIdie?\"
\"Yes。\"
\"AndIampassablyyoung!Youhavemoney,then?\"
\"No。\"
\"Inthatcase,youwouldproposetoliveonair?\"
\"No,towork;ithasbeendonebefore。\"
\"Itiscalculatedtoincreasehunger!YouarepreparedtotakeMissDevorell,ayoungladyaccustomedtoluxury,intoplaceslike——this!\"
hepeeredabouthim,\"intoplacesthatsmellofpaint,intothemilieuof’thepeople,’intothesocietyofBohemians——whoknows?ofanarchists,perhaps?\"
Harzclenchedhishands:\"Iwillanswernomorequestions。\"
\"Inthatevent,wereachtheultimatum,\"saidHerrPaul。\"Listen,HerrOutlaw!Ifyouhavenotleftthecountrybynoonto—morrow,youshallbeintroducedtothepolice!\"
Christianutteredacry。Foraminuteinthegloomtheonlysoundheardwastheshort,hardbreathingofthetwomen。
SuddenlyHarzcried:\"Youcoward,Idefyyou!\"
\"Coward!\"HerrPaulrepeated。\"Thatisindeedthelastword。Looktoyourself,myfriend!\"