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类别:其他 作者:John Galsworthy字数:9030更新时间:18/12/18 14:50:10
Christianwatchedtheirsoftuncertainrushes。Goingtothelittlesummer—housesheflungherselfdownonaseat,andpressedherhandstoherheart。 Therewasastrangeandsuddenachingthere。Washegoingfromher? Ifso,whatwouldbeleft?Howlittleandhownarrowseemedtheoutlookofherlife——withtheworldwaitingforher,theworldofbeauty,effort,self—sacrifice,fidelity!Itwasasthoughaflashofthatsummerlightninghadfledby,singeingher,takingfromherallpowersofflight,burningoffherwings,asoffoneofthosepalehoveringmoths。Tearsstartedup,andtrickleddownherface。 ’Blind!’shethought;’howcouldIhavebeensoblind?’ Someonecamedownthepath。 \"Who’sthere?\"shecried。 Harzstoodinthedoorway。 \"Whydidyoucomeout?\"hesaid。\"Ah!whydidyoucomeout?\"Hecaughtherhand;Christiantriedtodrawitfromhim,andtoturnhereyesaway,butshecouldnot。Heflunghimselfdownonhisknees,andcried:\"Iloveyou!\" InaraptureofsoftterrorChristianbentherforeheaddowntohishand。 \"Whatareyoudoing?\"sheheardhimsay。\"Isitpossiblethatyouloveme?\"andshefelthiskissesonherhair。 \"Mysweet!itwillbesohardforyou;youaresolittle,solittle,andsoweak。\"Claspinghishandclosertoherface,shemurmured:\"I don’tcare。\" Therewasalong,softsilence,thatseemedtolastforever。 Suddenlyshethrewherarmsroundhisneckandkissedhim。 \"Whatevercomes!\"shewhispered,andgatheringherdress,escapedfromhimintothedarkness。 XII Christianwokenextmorningwithasmile。Inherattitudes,hervoice,hereyes,therewasahappyandsweetseriousness,asifshewerehuggingsomeholythought。Afterbreakfastshetookabookandsatintheopenwindow,whenceshecouldseethepoplar—treesguardingtheentrance。Therewasabreeze;therosesclosebykeptnoddingtoher;thecathedralbellswereinfullchime;beeshummedabovethelavender;andintheskysoftcloudswerefloatinglikehuge,whitebirds。 ThesoundsofMissNaylor’sstaccatodictationtravelledacrosstheroom,andGreta’ssighsasshetookitdown,oneeyeonherpaper,oneeyeonScruff,wholaywithablackearflappedacrosshispaw,andhistaneyebrowsquivering。Hewasindisgrace,forDominique,comingonhimunawares,hadseenhim\"sayhisprayers\"beforeapudding,andtakethepuddingforreward。 Christianputherbookdowngently,andslippedthroughthewindow。 Harzwascominginfromtheroad。\"Iamallyours!\"shewhispered。 Hisfingersclosedonhers,andhewentintothehouse。 Sheslippedback,tookupherbook,andwaited。Itseemedlongbeforehecameout,butwhenhedidhewavedherback,andhurriedon;shehadaglimpseofhisface,whitetothelips。Feelingfaintandsick,sheflewtoherstepfather’sroom。 HerrPaulwasstandinginacornerwiththeutterlydisturbedappearanceofaneasy—goingman,visitedbytheunexpected。Hisfineshirt—frontwascrumpledasifhisbreasthadheavedtoosuddenlyunderstrongemotion;hissmokedeyeglassesdangleddownhisback; hisfingerswereembeddedinhisbeard。Hewasfixinghiseyeonaspotinthefloorasthoughheexpectedittoexplodeandblowthemtofragments。InanothercornerMrs。Decie,withhalf—closedeyes,wasrunningherfinger—tipsacrossherbrow。 \"Whathaveyousaidtohim?\"criedChristian。 HerrPaulregardedherwithglassyeyes。 \"MeinGott!\"hesaid。\"YourauntandI!\" \"Whathaveyousaidtohim?\"repeatedChristian。 \"Theimpudence!Ananarchist!。Abeggar!\" \"Paul!\"murmuredMrs。Decie。 \"Theoutlaw!Thefellow!\"HerrPaulbegantostrideabouttheroom。 Quiveringfromheadtofoot,Christiancried:\"Howdaredyou?\"andranfromtheroom,pushingasideMissNaylorandGreta,whostoodblanchedandfrightenedinthedoorway。 HerrPaulstoppedinhistramp,and,stillwithhiseyesfixedonthefloor,growled: \"Afinething—hein?What’scoming?Willyoupleasetellme?Ananarchist——abeggar!\" \"Paul!\"murmuredMrs。Decie。 \"Paul!Paul!Andyou!\"hepointedtoMissNaylor——\"Twowomenwitheyes!——hein!\" \"Thereisnothingtobegainedbyviolence,\"Mrs。Deciemurmured,passingherhandkerchiefacrossherlips。MissNaylor,whosethinbrowncheekshadflushed,advancedtowardshim。 \"Ihopeyoudonot——\"shesaid;\"IamsuretherewasnothingthatI couldhaveprevented——Ishouldbegladifthatwereunderstood。\" And,turningwithsomedignity,thelittleladywentaway,closingthedoorbehindher。 \"Youhear!\"HerrPaulsaid,violentlysarcastic:\"nothingshecouldhaveprevented!Enfin,!WillyoupleasetellmewhatIamtodo?\" \"Menoftheworld\"——whosephilosophyisacreatureofcircumstanceandacceptedthings——findanydeviationfromthepathoftheirconvictionsdangerous,shocking,andanintolerablebore。HerrPaulhadspenthislifelaughingatconvictions;thematterhadbuttotouchhimpersonally,andthetapoflaughterwasturnedoff。Thatanyonetowhomhewasthelawfulguardianshouldmarryotherthanawell—groomedman,properlyendowedwithgoods,properlyselected,wasbeyondexpressionhorrid。Fromhispointofviewhehadgreatexcuseforhorror;andhewasnaturallyunabletojudgewhetherhehadexcuseforhorrorfromotherpointsofview。Hisamazementhadinitaspiceofthepathetic;hewaslikeachildinthepresenceofathingthatheabsolutelycouldnotunderstand。Theinterviewhadlefthimwithasenseofinsecuritywhichhefelttobeparticularlyunfair。 Thedoorwasagainopened,andGretaflewin,hercheeksflushed,herhairfloatingbehindher,andtearsstreamingdownhercheeks。 \"Papa!\"shecried,\"youhavebeencrueltoChris。Thedoorislocked;Icanhearhercrying——whyhaveyoubeencruel?\"Withoutwaitingtobeanswered,sheflewoutagain。 HerrPaulseizedhishairwithbothhishands:\"Good!Verygood!Myownchild,please!Whatnextthen?\" Mrs。Decierosefromherchairlanguidly。\"Myheadisverybad,\"shesaid,shadinghereyesandspeakinginlowtones:\"Itisnousemakingafuss——nothingcancomeofthis——hehasnotapenny。 Christianwillhavenothingtillyoudie,whichwillnotbeforalongtimeyet,ifyoucanbutavoidanapoplecticfit!\" AttheselastwordsHerrPaulgaveastartofrealdisgust。\"Hum!\" hemuttered;itwasasiftheworldwerebentonbeingbrutaltohim。 Mrs。Deciecontinued: \"IfIknowanythingofthisyoungman,hewillnotcomehereagain,afterthewordsyouhavespoken。AsforChristian——youhadbettertalktoNicholas。Iamgoingtoliedown。\" HerrPaulnervouslyfingeredtheshirt—collarroundhisstout,shortneck。 \"Nicholas!Certainly——agoodidea。Quellediabled’afaire!\" ’French!’thoughtMrs。Decie;’weshallsoonhavepeace。PoorChristian!I’msorry!Afterall,thesethingsareamatteroftimeandopportunity。’Thisconsoledheragooddeal。 ButforChristianthehourswerealongnightmareofgriefandshame,fearandanger。Wouldheforgive?Wouldhebetruetoher?Orwouldhegoawaywithoutaword?Sinceyesterdayitwasasifshehadsteppedintoanotherworld,andlostitagain。Inplaceofthatnewfeeling,intoxicatingaswine,whatwascoming?Whatbitter; dreadfulending? Arudeentrancethisintothelifeoffacts,andprimitiveemotions! SheletGretaintoherroomafteratime,forthechildhadbegunsobbing;butshewouldnottalk,andsathourafterhouratthewindowwiththeairfanningherface,andthepaininhereyesturnedtotheskyandtrees。Afteroneortwoattemptsatconsolation,Gretasankonthefloor,andremainedthere,humblygazingathersisterinasilenceonlybrokenwhenChristianclearedherthroatoftears,andbythesongofbirdsinthegarden。Intheafternoonsheslippedawayanddidnotcomebackagain。 AfterhisinterviewwithMr。Treffry,HerrPaultookabath,perfumedhimselfwithprecision,andcausedittobeclearlyunderstoodthat,undercircumstancessuchasthese,aman’shousewasnotsuitedforapigtolivein。HeshortlyafterwardswentouttotheKurbaus,andhadnotreturnedbydinner—time。 Christiancamedownfordinner。Therewerecrimsonspotsinhercheeks,darkcirclesroundhereyes;shebehaved,however,asthoughnothinghadhappened。MissNaylor,affectedbythekindnessofherheartandtheshockhersystemhadsustained,rolledanumberofbreadpills,lookingateachasitcame,withanairofsurprise,andconcealingitwithdifficulty。Mr。Treffrywascoughing,andwhenhetalkedhisvoiceseemedtorumbleevenmorethanusual。Gretawasdumb,tryingtocatchChristian’seye;Mrs。Deciealoneseemedatease。AfterdinnerMr。Treffrywentofftohisroom,leaningheavilyonChristian’sshoulder。Ashesankintohischair,hesaidtoher: \"Pullyourselftogether,mydear!\"Christiandidnotanswerhim。 OutsidehisroomGretacaughtherbythesleeve。 \"Look!\"shewhispered,thrustingapieceofpaperintoChristian’shand。\"ItistomefromDr。Edmund,butyoumustreadit。\" Christianopenedthenote,whichranasfollows: \"MYPHILOSOPHERANDFRIEND,——Ireceivedyournote,andwenttoourfriend’sstudio;hewasnotin,buthalfanhouragoIstumbledonhiminthePlatz。Heisnotquitehimself;hashadatouchofthesun——nothingserious:Itookhimtomyhotel,whereheisinbed。Ifhewillstaytherehewillbeallrightinadayortwo。Inanycaseheshallnoteludemyclutchesforthepresent。 \"MywarmrespectstoMistressChristian。——Yoursinfriendshipandphilosophy,EDMUNDDAWNEY。\" Christianreadandre—readthisnote,thenturnedtoGreta。 \"WhatdidyousaytoDr。Dawney?\" Gretatookbackthepieceofpaper,andreplied:\"Isaid: \"’DEARDR。EDMUND,——WeareanxiousaboutHerrHarz。Wethinkheisperhapsnotverywellto—day。We(IandChristian)shouldliketoknow。Youcantellus。Pleaseshallyou?GRETA。’ \"ThatiswhatIsaid。\" Christiandroppedhereyes。\"Whatmadeyouwrite?\" Gretagazedathermournfully:\"Ithought——OChris!comeintothegarden。Iamsohot,anditissodullwithoutyou!\" ChristianbentherheadforwardandrubbedhercheekagainstGreta’s,thenwithoutanotherwordranupstairsandlockedherselfintoherroom。Thechildstoodlistening;hearingthekeyturninthelock,shesankdownonthebottomstepandtookScruffinherarms。 HalfanhourlaterMissNaylor,carryingacandle,foundhertherefastasleep,withherheadrestingontheterrier’sback,andtearstainsonhercheeks…… Mrs。Deciepresentlycameout,alsocarryingacandle,andwenttoherbrother’sroom。Shestoodbeforehischair,withfoldedhands。 \"Nicholas,whatistobedone?\" Mr。Treffrywaspouringwhiskyintoaglass。 \"Damnit,Con!\"heanswered;\"howshouldIknow?\" \"There’ssomethinginChristianthatmakesinterferencedangerous。I knowverywellthatI’venoinfluencewithheratall。\" \"You’rerightthere,Con,\"Mr。Treffryreplied。 Mrs。Decie’spaleeyes,fastenedonhisface,forcedhimtolookup。 \"Iwishyouwouldleaveoffdrinkingwhiskyandattendtome。Paulisanelement——\" \"Paul,\"Mr。Treffrygrowled,\"isanass!\" \"Paul,\"pursuedMrs。Decie,\"isanelementofdangerinthesituation;anyill—timedoppositionofhismightdrivehertoIdon’tknowwhat。Christianisgentle,sheis’sympathetic’astheysay; butthwarther,andsheisasobstinateas…… \"YouorI!Leaveheralone!\" \"Iunderstandhercharacter,butIconfessthatIamatalosswhattodo。\" \"Donothing!\"Hedrankagain。 Mrs。Decietookupthecandle。 \"Men!\"shesaidwithamysteriousintonation;shrugginghershoulders,shewalkedout。 Mr。Treffryputdownhisglass。 ’Understand?’hethought;’no,youdon’t,andIdon’t。Whounderstandsayounggirl?Vapourings,dreams,moonshineI……Whatdoessheseeinthispainterfellow?Iwonder!’Hebreathedheavily。’Byheavens!Iwouldn’thavehadthishappenforahundredthousandpounds!’ XIII FormanyhoursafterDawneyhadtakenhimtohishotel,Harzwasprostratewithstunningpainsintheheadandneck。Hehadbeenalldaywithoutfood,exposedtoburningsun,sufferingviolentemotion。 Movementofanysortcausedhimsuchagonythathecouldonlylieinstupor,countingthespotsdancingbefore,hiseyes。Dawneydideverythingforhim,andHarzresentedinalistlesswaytheintentscrutinyofthedoctor’scalm,blackeyes。 Towardstheendoftheseconddayhewasabletogetup;Dawneyfoundhimsittingonthebedinshirtandtrousers。 \"Myson,\"hesaid,\"youhadbettertellmewhatthetroubleis——itwilldoyourstubborncarcasegood。\" \"Imustgobacktowork,\"saidHarz。 \"Work!\"saidDawneydeliberately:\"youcouldn’t,ifyoutried。\" \"Imust。\" \"Mydearfellow,youcouldn’ttellonecolourfromanother。\" \"Imustbedoingsomething;Ican’tsithereandthink。\" Dawneyhookedhisthumbsintohiswaistcoat:\"Youwon’tseethesunforthreedaysyet,ifIcanhelpit。\" Harzgotup。 \"I’mgoingtomystudioto—morrow,\"hesaid。\"Ipromisenottogoout。ImustbewhereIcanseemywork。IfIcan’tpaint,Icandraw;Icanfeelmybrushes,movemythingsabout。IshallgomadifIdonothing。\" Dawneytookhisarm,andwalkedhimupanddown。 \"I’llletyougo,\"hesaid,\"butgivemeachance!It’sasmuchtometoputyoustraightasitistoyoutopaintadecentpicture。 Nowgotobed;I’llhaveacarriageforyouto—morrowmorning。\" Harzsatdownonthebedagain,andforalongtimestayedwithoutmoving,hiseyesfixedonthefloor。Thesightofhim,sodesperateandmiserable,hurttheyoungdoctor。 \"Canyougettobedbyyourself?\"heaskedatlast。 Harznodded。 \"Then,good—night,oldchap!\"andDawneylefttheroom。 HetookhishatandturnedtowardstheVilla。Betweenthepoplarshestoppedtothink。Thefarthertreeswerefret—workedblackagainstthelingeringgoldofthesunset;ahugemoth,attractedbythetipofhiscigar,cameflutteringinhisface。Themusicofaconcertinaroseandfell,likethesighingofsomedisillusionedspirit。Dawneystoodforseveralminutesstaringatthehouse。 HewasshowntoMrs。Decie’sroom。Shewasholdingamagazinebeforehereyes,andreceivedhimwithasmuchreliefasphilosophypermitted。 \"YouaretheverypersonIwantedtosee,\"shesaid。 Henoticedthatthemagazinesheheldwasuncut。 \"Youareayoungman,\"pursuedMrs。Decie,\"butasmydoctorIhavearighttoyourdiscretion。\" Dawneysmiled;thefeaturesofhisbroad,clean—shavenfacelookedridiculouslysmallonsuchoccasions,buthiseyesretainedtheirairofcalculation。 \"Thatisso,\"heanswered。 \"Itisaboutthisunfortunateaffair。IunderstandthatMr。Harziswithyou。Iwantyoutouseyourinfluencetodissuadehimfromattemptingtoseemyniece。\" \"Influence!\"saidDawney;\"youknowHarz!\" Mrs。Decie’svoicehardened。 \"Everybody,\"shesaid,\"hashisweakpoints。Thisyoungmanisopentoapproachfromatleasttwoquarters——hisprideisone,hisworkanother。Iamseldomwrongingaugingcharacter;thesearehisvitalspots,andtheyareoftheessenceofthismatter。I’msorryforhim,ofcourse——butathisage,andlivingaman’slife,thesethings——\"Hersmilewasextrapale。\"Iwishyoucouldgivemesomethingformyhead。It’sfoolishtoworry。Nervesofcourse! ButIcan’thelpit!Youknowmyopinion,Dr。Dawney。Thatyoungmanwillgofarifheremainsunfettered;hewillmakeaname。Youwillbedoinghimagreatserviceifyoucouldshowhimtheaffairasitreallyis——adragonhim,andquiteunworthyofhispride!Dohelpme!Youarejustthemantodoit!\" Dawneythrewuphisheadasiftoshakeoffthisimpeachment;thecurveofhischinthusdisplayedwasimposinginitsfulness; altogetherhewasimposing,havinganairofcapability。 Shestruckhim,indeed,asreallyscared;itwasasifhermaskofsmilehadbecomeawry,andfailedtocoverheremotion;andhewaspuzzled,thinking,’Iwouldn’thavebelievedshehaditinher……’ \"It’snotaneasybusiness,\"hesaid;\"I’llthinkitover。\" \"Thankyou!\"murmuredMrs。Decie。\"Youaremostkind。\" Passingtheschoolroom,helookedinthroughtheopendoor。 Christianwassittingthere。Thesightofherfaceshockedhim,itwassowhite,soresolutelydumb。Abooklayonherknees;shewasnotreading,butstaringbeforeher。Hethoughtsuddenly:’Poorthing!IfIdon’tsaysomethingtoher,Ishallbeabrute!’ \"MissDevorell,\"hesaid:\"Youcanreckononhim。\" Christiantriedtospeak,butherlipstrembledsothatnothingcameforth。 \"Good—night,\"saidDawney,andwalkedout…… ThreedayslaterHarzwassittinginthewindowofhisstudio。Itwasthefirstdayhehadfounditpossibletowork,andnow,tiredout,hestaredthroughtheduskattheslowlylengtheningshadowsoftherafters。Asolitarymosquitohummed,andtwohousesparrows,whohadbuiltbeneaththeroof,chirrupedsleepily。Swallowsdartedbythewindow,dippingtheirbluewingstowardsthequietwater;ahushhadstolenovereverything。Hefellasleep。 Hewoke,withadimimpressionofsomenearpresence。Inthepaleglimmerfrominnumerablestars,theroomwasfullofshadowyshapes。 Helithislantern。Theflamedartedforth,bickered,thenslowlylitupthegreatroom。 \"Who’sthere?\" Arustlingseemedtoanswer。Hepeeredabout,wenttothedoorway,anddrewthecurtain。Awoman’scloakedfigureshrankagainstthewall。Herfacewasburiedinherhands;herarms,fromwhichthecloakfellback,werealonevisible。 \"Christian?\" Sheranpasthim,andwhenhehadputthelanterndown,wasstandingatthewindow。Sheturnedquicklytohim。\"Takemeawayfromhere! Letmecomewithyou!\" \"Doyoumeanit?\" \"Yousaidyouwouldn’tgivemeup!\" \"Youknowwhatyouaredoing?\" Shemadeamotionofassent。 \"Butyoudon’tgraspwhatthismeans。Thingstobearthatyouknownothingof——hungerperhaps!Think,evenhunger!Andyourpeoplewon’tforgive——you’llloseeverything。\" Sheshookherhead。 \"Imustchoose——it’sonethingortheother。Ican’tgiveyouup! Ishouldbeafraid!\" \"But,dear;howcanyoucomewithme?Wecan’tbemarriedhere。\" \"Iamgivingmylifetoyou。\" \"Youaretoogoodforme,\"saidHarz。\"Thelifeyou’regoinginto—— maybedark,likethat!\"hepointedtothewindow。 Asoundoffootstepsbrokethehush。Theycouldseeafigureonthepathbelow。Itstopped,seemedtoconsider,vanished。Theyheardthesoundsofgropinghands,ofacreakingdoor,ofuncertainfeetonthestairs。 Harzseizedherhand。 \"Quick!\"hewhispered;\"behindthiscanvas!\" Christianwastremblingviolently。Shedrewherhoodacrossherface。Theheavybreathingandejaculationsofthevisitorwerenowplainlyaudible。 \"He’sthere!Quick!Hide!\" Sheshookherhead。 Withathrillathisheart,Harzkissedher,thenwalkedtowardstheentrance。Thecurtainwaspulledaside。 ItwasHerrPaul,holdingacigarinonehand,hishatintheother,andbreathinghard。 \"Pardon!\"hesaidhuskily,\"yourstairsaresteep,anddark!maisen,fin!nousvoila!Ihaveventuredtocomeforatalk。\"Hisglancefellonthecloakedfigureintheshadow。 \"Pardon!Athousandpardons!Ihadnoidea!Ibegyoutoforgivethisindiscretion!Imaytakeityouresignpretensionsthen?Youhavealadyhere——Ihavenothingmoretosay;Ionlybegamillionpardonsforintruding。Athousandtimesforgiveme!Good—night!\" Hebowedandturnedtogo。Christiansteppedforward,andletthehoodfallfromherhead。 \"It’sI!\" HerrPaulpirouetted。 \"GoodGod!\"hestammered,droppingcigarandhat。\"GoodGod!\" Thelanternflaredsuddenly,revealinghiscrimson,shakingcheeks。 \"Youcamehere,atnight!You,thedaughterofmywife!\"Hiseyeswanderedwithadullglareroundtheroom。 \"Takecare!\"criedHarz:\"Ifyousayawordagainsther———\" Thetwomenstaredateachother’seyes。Andwithoutwarning,thelanternflickeredandwentout。Christiandrewthecloakroundheragain。HerrPaul’svoicebrokethesilence;hehadrecoveredhisself—possession。 \"Ah!ah!\"hesaid:\"Darkness!Tantmieux!Therightthingforwhatwehavetosay。Sincewedonotesteemeachother,itiswellnottoseetoomuch。\" \"Justso,\"saidHarz。 Christianhadcomeclosetothem。Herpalefaceandgreatshiningeyescouldjustbeseenthroughthegloom。 HerrPaulwavedhisarm;thegesturewasimpressive,annihilating。 \"Thisisamatter,Ibelieve,betweentwomen,\"hesaid,addressingHarz。\"Letuscometothepoint。Iwilldoyouthecredittosupposethatyouhaveamarriageinview。Youknow,perhaps,thatMissDevorellhasnomoneytillIdie?\" \"Yes。\" \"AndIampassablyyoung!Youhavemoney,then?\" \"No。\" \"Inthatcase,youwouldproposetoliveonair?\" \"No,towork;ithasbeendonebefore。\" \"Itiscalculatedtoincreasehunger!YouarepreparedtotakeMissDevorell,ayoungladyaccustomedtoluxury,intoplaceslike——this!\" hepeeredabouthim,\"intoplacesthatsmellofpaint,intothemilieuof’thepeople,’intothesocietyofBohemians——whoknows?ofanarchists,perhaps?\" Harzclenchedhishands:\"Iwillanswernomorequestions。\" \"Inthatevent,wereachtheultimatum,\"saidHerrPaul。\"Listen,HerrOutlaw!Ifyouhavenotleftthecountrybynoonto—morrow,youshallbeintroducedtothepolice!\" Christianutteredacry。Foraminuteinthegloomtheonlysoundheardwastheshort,hardbreathingofthetwomen。 SuddenlyHarzcried:\"Youcoward,Idefyyou!\" \"Coward!\"HerrPaulrepeated。\"Thatisindeedthelastword。Looktoyourself,myfriend!\"