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类别:其他 作者:John Galsworthy字数:9240更新时间:18/12/18 14:50:10
Wefollowed。Bending,andtreadingheavily,hewentupstairs。HestruckablowonPasiance’sdoor。\"Letmein!\"hesaid。IdrewDanintomybedroom。Thekeywasslowlyturned,herdoorwasflungopen,andthereshestoodinherdressing—gown,acandleinherhand,herfacecrimson,andoh!soyoung,withitsshort,crisphairandroundcheeks。Theoldman——likeagiantinfrontofher——raisedhishands,andlaidthemonhershoulders。 \"What’sthis?You——you’vehadamaninyourroom?\" Hereyesdidnotdrop。 \"Yes,\"shesaid。Dangaveagroan。 \"Who?\" \"ZacharyPearse,\"sheansweredinavoicelikeabell。 Hegaveheroneawfulshake,droppedhishands,thenraisedthemasthoughtostrikeher。Shelookedhimintheeyes;hishandsdropped,andhetoogroaned。AsfarasIcouldsee,herfacenevermoved。 \"I’mmarriedtohim,\"shesaid,\"d’youhear?Marriedtohim。Gooutofmyroom!\"Shedroppedthecandleonthefloorathisfeet,andslammedthedoorinhisface。Theoldmanstoodforaminuteasthoughstunned,thengropedhiswaydownstairs。 \"Dan,\"Isaid,\"isittrue?\" \"Ah!\"heanswered,\"it’strue;didn’tyouhearher?\" IwasgladIcouldn’tseehisface。 \"Thatendsit,\"hesaidatlast;\"there’stheoldmantothinkof。\" \"Whatwillhedo?\" \"Gotothefellowthisverynight。\"Heseemedtohavenodoubt。 Trustonemanofactiontoknowanother。 Imutteredsomethingaboutbeinganoutsider——wonderediftherewasanythingIcoulddotohelp。 \"Well,\"hesaidslowly,\"Idon’tknowthatI’manythingbutanoutsidernow;butI’llgoalongwithhim,ifhe’llhaveme。\" Hewentdownstairs。Afewminuteslatertheyrodeoutfromthestraw—yard。Iwatchedthempastthelineofhayricks,intotheblackershadowsofthepines,thenthetrampofhoofsbegantofailinthedarkness,andatlastdiedaway。 I’vebeensittinghereinmybedroomwritingtoyoueversince,tillmycandle’salmostgone。Ikeepthinkingwhattheendofitistobe;andreproachingmyselffordoingnothing。Andyet,whatcouldI havedone?I’msorryforher——sorrierthanIcansay。Thenightissoquiet——Ihaven’theardasound;issheasleep,awake,crying,triumphant? It’sfouro’clock;I’vebeenasleep。 They’reback。Danislyingonmybed。I’lltryandtellyouhisstoryasnearasIcan,inhisownwords。 \"Werode,\"hesaid,\"roundtheupperway,keepingoutofthelanes,andgottoKingswearbyhalf—pasteleven。Thehorse—ferryhadstoppedrunning,andwehadajobtofindanyonetoputusover。Wehiredthefellowtowaitforus,andtookacarriageatthe’Castle。’ BeforewegottoBlackMillitwasnearlyone,pitch—dark。Withthebreezefromthesoutheast,Imadeoutheshouldhavebeeninanhourormore。Theoldmanhadneverspokentomeonce:andbeforewegotthereIhadbeguntohopeweshouldn’tfindthefellowafterall。Wemadethedriverpullupintheroad,andwalkedroundandround,tryingtofindthedoor。Thensomeonecried,’Whoareyou?’ \"’JohnFord。’ \"’Whatdoyouwant?’ItwasoldPearse。 \"’ToseeZacharyPearse。’ \"Thelongwindowoutoftheporchwherewesattheotherdaywasopen,andinwewent。Therewasadoorattheendoftheroom,andalightcomingthrough。JohnFordwenttowardsit;Istayedoutinthedark。 \"’Who’sthatwithyou?’ \"’Mr。Treffry。’ \"’Lethimcomein!’Iwentin。Theoldfellowwasinbed,quitestillonhispillows,acandlebyhisside;tolookathimyou’dthinknothingofhimbuthiseyeswerealive。Itwasqueerbeingtherewiththosetwooldmen!\" Danpaused,seemedtolisten,thenwentondoggedly。 \"’Sitdown,gentleman,’saidoldPearse。’Whatmayyouwanttoseemysonfor?’JohnFordbeggedhispardon,hehadsomethingtosay,hesaid,thatwouldn’twait。 \"Theywereverypolitetooneanother,\"mutteredDan…… \"’Willyouleaveyourmessagewithme?’saidPearse。 \"’WhatIhavetosaytoyoursonisprivate。’ \"’I’mhisfather。’ \"’I’mmygirl’sgrandfather;andheronlystand—by。’ \"’Ah!’mutteredoldPearse,’RickVoisey’sdaughter?’ \"’Imeantoseeyourson。’ \"OldPearsesmiled。Queersmilehe’sgot,sortofsneeringsweet。 \"’YoucannevertellwhereZackmaybe,’hesaid。’YouthinkIwanttoshieldhim。You’rewrong;Zackcantakecareofhimself。’ \"’Yourson’shere!’saidJohnFord。’Iknow。’OldPearsegaveusaveryqueerlook。 \"’Youcomeintomyhouselikethievesinthenight,’hesaid,’andgivemethelie,doyou?’ \"’Yoursoncametomychild’sroomlikeathiefinthenight;it’sforthatIwanttoseehim,’andthen,\"saidDan,\"therewasalongsilence。AtlastPearsesaid: \"’Idon’tunderstand;hasheplayedtheblackguard?’ \"JohnFordanswered,’He’smarriedher,or,beforeGod,I’dkillhim。’ \"OldPearseseemedtothinkthisover,nevermovingonhispillows。 ’Youdon’tknowZack,’hesaid;’I’msorryforyou,andI’msorryforRickVoisey’sdaughter;butyoudon’tknowZack。’ ’Sorry!’groanedoutJohnFord;’he’sstolenmychild,andI’llpunishhim。’ \"’Punish!’criedoldPearse,’wedon’ttakepunishment,notinmyfamily。’ \"’CaptainJanPearse,assureasIstandhere,youandyourbreedwillgetyourpunishmentofGod。’OldPearsesmiled。 \"’Mr。JohnFord,that’sasmaybe;butsureasIlieherewewon’ttakeitofyou。Youcan’tpunishunlessyoumaketofeel,andthatyoucan’tdu。’\" Andthatistruth! Danwentonagain: \"’Youwon’ttellmewhereyoursonis!’butoldPearseneverblinked。 \"’Iwon’t,’hesaid,’andnowyoumaygetout。Iliehereanoldmanalone,withnousetomylegs,nightonnight,an’thehouseopen; anyrapscallioncouldgetin;d’yethinkI’mafraidofyou?’ \"Wewerebeat;andwalkedoutwithoutaword。Butthatoldman;I’vethoughtofhimalot——ninety—two,andlyingthere。Whateverhe’sbeen,andtheytellyourumthingsofhim,whateverhissonmaybe,he’saman。It’snotwhathesaid,northattherewasanythingtobeafraidofjustthen,butsomehowit’stheideaoftheoldchaplyingthere。Idon’teverwishtoseeabetterpluckedone……\" Wesatsilentafterthat;outofdoorsthelightbegantostiramongtheleaves。Therewereallkindsofrustlingsounds,asiftheworldwereturningoverinbed。 SuddenlyDansaid: \"He’scheatedme。Ipaidhimtoclearoutandleaveheralone。 D’youthinkshe’sasleep?\"He’smadenoappealforsympathy,he’dtakepityforaninsult;buthefeelsitbadly。 \"I’mtiredasacat,\"hesaidatlast,andwenttosleeponmybed。 It’sbroaddaylightnow;Itooamtiredasacat…… V \"Saturday,6tbAugust……ItakeupmytalewhereIleftoffyesterday……DanandI startedassoonaswecouldgetMrs。Hopgoodtogiveuscoffee。Theoldladywasmoretentative,moreundecided,morepouncing,thanI hadeverseenher。Shewasmanifestlyuneasy:Ha—apgood——who\"don’tslape\"don’the,ifsnoresareanycriterion——hadcalledoutinthenight,\"Harktoth’’arses’’oofs!\"Hadweheardthem?Andwheremightwebegoingthen?’Twasveryearrlytostart,an’nobreakfast。Haapgoodhadsaiditwasgoin’toshaowerr。MissPasiancewasnotto’erviolinyet,an’MisterFord’ekept’isroom。 Wasit?——wouldtherebe——?\"Well,an’therr’san’arvestbug;’tissomeearrlyforthey!\"Wonderfulhowshepouncesonallsuchcreatures,whenIcan’tevenseethem。Shepresseditabsentlybetweenfingerandthumb,andbeganmanoeuvringroundanotherway。 Longbeforeshehadreachedherpoint,wehadgulpeddownourcoffee,anddeparted。Butaswerodeoutshecameatarun,holdingherskirtshighwitheitherhand,raisedheroldeyesbrightandanxiousintheirsettingoffinewrinkles,andsaid: \"’Tiddensorrowforher?\" Ashrugoftheshoulderswasalltheanswershegot。Werodebythelanes;throughslopingfarmyards,allmudandpigs,anddirtystraw,andfarmerswithclean—shavenupperlipsandwhiskersunderthechin; pastfieldsofcorn,wherelarksweresinging。Upordown,wedidn’tdrawreintillwecametoDan’shotel。 Therewastherivergleamingbeforeusunderarainbowmistthathallowedeveryshape。Thereseemedaffinitybetweentheearthandthesky。I’veneverseenthatparticularsoftunityoutofDevon。 Andeveryship,howeverblackormodern,onthosepalewaters,hadthelookofadreamship。Thetallgreenwoods,theredearth,thewhitehouses,wereallmeltedintooneopalhaze。Itwasraining,butthesunwasshiningbehind。Gullsswoopedbyus——ghostsoftheoldgreedywanderersofthesea。 WehadtoldourtwoboatmentopullusouttothePiedWitcb!Theystartedwithgreatresolution,thenrestedontheiroars。 \"ThePiedWitch,zurr?\"askedonepolitely;\"an’whichmayherbe?\" That’stheWestcountrymanallover!Neversayyou\"nay,\"neverloseanopportunity,neverownhedoesn’tknow,orcan’tdoanything—— independence,amiability,andaneyetothemainchance。WementionedPearse’sname。 \"Capt’nZach’ryPearse!\"Theyexchangedalookhalf—amused,half— admiring。 \"TheZunflaower,yumane。That’sher。Zunflaower,ahoy!\"Aswemountedthesteamer’sblacksideIheardonesay: \"PiedWitch!Apra—apernamethat——adandynameforher!\"Theylaughedastheymadefast。 ThemateoftheSunflower,orPiedWitcb,orwhatevershewascalled,metus——atallyoungfellowinhisshirtsleeves,tannedtotherootsofhishair,withsinewy,tattooedarms,andgreyeyes,charredroundtherimsfromstaringatweather。 \"Theskipperisonboard,\"hesaid。\"We’reratherbusy,asyousee。 Getonwiththat,yousea—cooks,\"hebawledattwofellowswhoweredoingnothing。Allovertheship,menwerehauling,splicing,andstowingcargo。 \"To—day’sFriday:we’reoffonWednesdaywithanyluck。Willyoucomethisway?\"Heledusdownthecompaniontoadarkholewhichhecalledthesaloon。\"Names?What!areyouMr。Treffry?Thenwe’repartners!\"Aschoolboy’sgleecameonhisface。 \"Lookhere!\"hesaid;\"Icanshowyousomething,\"andheunlockedthedoorofacabin。Thereappearedtobenothinginitbutahugepieceoftarpaulin,whichdepended,bulging,fromthetopmostbunk。Hepulleditup。Thelowerbunkhadbeenremoved,andinitsplacewastheuglybodyofadismountedGatlinggun。 \"Gotsixofthem,\"hewhispered,withunholymystery,throughwhichhisnativefranknessgapedout。\"Worththeirweightingoldouttherejustnow,theskippersays。Gotaheapofrifles,too,andlotsofammunition。He’sgivenmeashare。ThisisbetterthantheP。andO。,andplayingdeckcricketwiththepassengers。I’dmadeupmymindalreadytochuckthat,andgoinforplantin’sugar,whenI ranacrosstheskipper。Wonderfulchap,theskipper!I’llgoandtellhim。He’sbeenoutallnight;onlycameaboardatfourbells; havinganapnow,buthewon’tmindthatforyou。\" Offhewent。IwonderedwhattherewasinZacharyPearsetoattractayoungsterofthissort;oneofthecustomarytwelvechildrenofsomecountryparson,nodoubt—burningtoshootafewniggers,andforeverfrankandyouthful。 Hecamebackwithhishandsfullofbottles。 \"What’llyoudrink?Theskipper’llbehereinajiffy。Excusemygoin’ondeck。We’resobusy。\" AndinfiveminutesZacharyPearsedidcome。Hemadenoattempttoshakehands,forwhichIrespectedhim。Hisfacelookedworn,andmoredefiantthanusual。 \"Well,gentlemen?\"hesaid。 \"We’vecometoaskwhatyou’regoingtodo?\"saidDan。 \"Idon’tknow,\"answeredPearse,\"thatthat’sanyofyourbusiness。\" Dan’slittleeyeswereliketheeyesofanangrypig。 \"You’vegotfivehundredpoundsofmine,\"hesaid;\"whydoyouthinkIgaveityou?\" Zacharybithisfingers。 \"That’snoconcernofmine,\"hesaid。\"IsailonWednesday。Yourmoney’ssafe。\" \"DoyouknowwhatIthinkofyou?\"saidDan。 \"No,andyou’dbetternottellme!\"Then,withoneofhispeculiarchanges,hesmiled:\"Asyoulike,though。\" Dan’sfacegrewverydark。\"Givemeaplainanswer,\"hesaid:\"Whatareyougoingtodoabouther?\" Zacharylookedupathimfromunderhisbrows。 \"Nothing。\" \"Areyoucurenoughtodenythatyou’vemarriedher?\" Zacharylookedathimcoolly。\"Notatall,\"hesaid。 \"WhatinGod’snamedidyoudoitfor?\" \"You’venomonopolyinthepostofhusband,Mr。Treffry。\" \"ToputachildinthatpositionD!Haven’tyoutheheartofaman? Whatd’yecomesneakinginatnightfor?ByGad!Don’tyouknowyou’vedoneabeastlything?\" Zachary’sfacedarkened,heclenchedhisfists。Thenheseemedtoshuthisangerintohimself。 \"Youwantedmetoleavehertoyou,\"hesneered。\"IgavehermypromisethatI’dtakeheroutthere,andwe’dhavegoneoffonWednesdayquietlyenough,ifyouhadn’tcomeandnosedthewholethingoutwithyourinfernaldog。Thefat’sinthefire!There’snoreasonwhyIshouldtakehernow。I’llcomebacktoherarichman,ornotatall。\" \"Andinthemeantime?\"Islippedin。 Heturnedtome,inaningratiatingway。 \"Iwouldhavetakenhertosavethefuss——Ireallywould——it’snotmyfaultthething’scomeout。I’monariskyjob。Tohaveherwithmemightruinthewholething;itwouldaffectmynerve。Itisn’tsafeforher。\" \"Andwhat’sherpositiontobe,\"Isaid,\"whileyou’reaway?Doyouthinkshe’dhavemarriedyouifshe’dknownyouweregoingtoleaveherlikethis?Yououghttogiveupthisbusiness。 Youstoleher。Herlife’sinyourhands;she’sonlyachild!\" Aquiverpassedoverhisface;itshowedthathewassuffering。 \"Giveitup!\"Iurged。 \"Mylastfarthing’sinit,\"hesighed;\"thechanceofalifetime。\" Helookedatmedoubtfully,appealingly,asifforthefirsttimeinhislifehehadbeengivenaglimpseofthatdilemmaofconsequenceswhichhisnatureneverrecognises。Ithoughthewasgoingtogivein。Suddenly,tomyhorror,Dangrowled,\"Playtheman!\" Pearseturnedhishead。\"Idon’twantyouradviceanyway,\"hesaid; \"I’llnotbedictatedto。\" \"Toyourlastday,\"saidDan,\"youshallanswertomeforthewayyoutreather。\" Zacharysmiled。 \"Doyouseethatfly?\"hesaid。\"Wel——Icareforyouaslittleasthis,\"andheflickedtheflyoffhiswhitetrousers。\"Good— morning……!\" Thenoblemarinerswhomannedourboatpulledlustilyfortheshore,butwehadhardlyshovedoff’whenastormofrainburstovertheship,andsheseemedtovanish,leavingapictureonmyeyesofthematewavinghiscapabovetherail,withhistannedyoungfacebentdownatus,smiling,keen,andfriendly……Wereachedtheshoredrenched,angrywithourselves,andwitheachother;Istartedsulkilyforhome。 AsIrodepastanorchard,anapple,loosenedbytherainstorm,camedownwithathud。 \"Theappleswereripeandreadytofall,Oh!heigh—ho!andreadytofall。\" Imadeupmymindtopack,andgoaway。Butthere’sastrangeness,asortofhauntingfascinationinitall。Toyou,whodon’tknowthepeople,itmayonlyseemapieceofrathersordidfolly。Butitisn’tthegood,theobvious,theusefulthatputsaspellonusinlife。It’sthebizarre,thedimlyseen,themysteriousforgoodorevil。 ThesunwasoutagainwhenIrodeuptothefarm;itsyellowthatchshonethroughthetreesasifshelteringastoreofgladnessandgoodnews。JohnFordhimselfopenedthedoortome。 Hebeganwithanapology,whichmademefeelmorethaneveranintruder;thenhesaid: \"Ihavenotspokentomygranddaughter——IwaitedtoseeDanTreffry。\" Hewassternandsad—eyed,likeamanwithagreatweightofgriefonhisshoulders。Helookedasifhehadnotslept;hisdresswasoutoforder,hehadnottakenhisclothesoff,Ithink。Heisn’tamanwhomyoucanpity。IfeltIhadtakenalibertyinknowingofthematteratall。WhenItoldhimwherewehadbeen,hesaid: \"Itwasgoodofyoutotakethistrouble。Thatyoushouldhavehadto!Butsincesuchthingshavecometopass——\"Hemadeagesturefullofhorror。Hegaveonetheimpressionofamanwhosepridewasstrugglingagainstamortalhurt。Presentlyheasked: \"Yousawhim,yousay?Headmittedthismarriage?Didhegiveanexplanation?\" ItriedtomakePearse’spointofviewclear。Beforethisoldman,withhisinflexiblewillandsenseofduty,IfeltasifIheldabriefforZachary,andmusttrytodohimjustice。 \"Letmeunderstand,\"hesaidatlast。\"Hestoleher,yousay,tomakesure;anddesertsherwithinafortnight。\" \"Hesayshemeanttotakeher——\" \"Doyoubelievethat?\" BeforeIcouldanswer,IsawPasiancestandingatthewindow。HowlongshehadbeenthereIdon’tknow。 \"Isittruethatheisgoingtoleavemebehind?\"shecriedout。 Icouldonlynod。 \"Didyouhearhimyourownself?\" \"Yes。\" Shestampedherfoot。 \"Buthepromised!Hepromised!\" JohnFordwenttowardsher。 \"Don’ttouchme,grandfather!Ihateeveryone!Lethimdowhathelikes,Idon’tcare。\" JohnFord’sfaceturnedquitegrey。 \"Pasiance,\"hesaid,\"didyouwanttoleavemesomuch?\" Shelookedstraightatus,andsaidsharply: \"What’sthegoodoftellingstories。Ican’thelpitshurtingyou。\" \"Whatdidyouthinkyouwouldfindawayfromhere?\" Shelaughed。 \"Find?Idon’tknow——nothing;Iwouldn’tbestifledanyway。NowI supposeyou’llshutmeupbecauseI’maweakgirl,notstronglikemen!\" \"Silence!\"saidJohnFord;\"Iwillmakehimtakeyou。\" \"Youshan’t!\"shecried;\"Iwon’tletyou。He’sfreetodoashelikes。He’sfree——Itellyouall,everybody——free!\" Sheranthroughthewindow,andvanished。 JohnFordmadeamovementasifthebottomhaddroppedoutofhisworld。Ilefthimthere。 Iwenttothekitchen,whereHopgoodwassittingatthetable,eatingbreadandcheese。Hegotuponseeingme,andverykindlybroughtmesomecoldbaconandapintofale。 \"IthartIshudebeseeingyu,zurr,\"hesaidbetweenhisbites; \"Therr’snothartto’atin’’boutthe’ouseto—day。Theoldwumman’spuzzivantin’overMissPasiance。Younggirlsareskeerycritters\"—— hebrushedhissleeveoverhisbroad,hardjaws,andfilledapipe\"speciallywhenit’sinthebloodof’em。SquireRickVoiseywerradandy;an’MistressVoisey——well,shewerraniceladytu,but\"—— rollingthestemofhispipefromcornertocornerofhismouth——\"shewerrapra—apervixen。\" Hopgood’sagoodfellow,andIbelieveassoftashelookshard,buthe’snotquitethesortwithwhomonechoosestotalkoveramatterlikethis。Iwentupstairs,andbegantopack,butafterabitdroppeditforabook,andsomehoworotherfellasleep。 Iwoke,andlookedatmywatch;itwasfiveo’clock。Ihadbeenasleepfourhours。Asinglesunbeamwasslantingacrossfromoneofmywindowstotheother,andtherewasthecoolsoundofmilkdroppingintopails;then,allatonce,astirasofalarm,andheavyfootsteps。 Iopenedmydoor。Hopgoodandacoast—guardsmanwerecarryingPasianceslowlyupthestairs。Shelayintheirarmswithoutmoving,herfacewhiterthanherdress,ascratchacrosstheforehead,andtwoorthreedropsthereofdriedblood。Herhandswereclasped,andsheslowlycrookedandstiffenedoutherfingers。Whentheyturnedwithheratthestairtop,sheopenedherlips,andgasped,\"Allright,don’tputmedown。Icanbearit。\"Theypassed,and,withahalf—smileinhereyes,shesaidsomethingtomethatIcouldn’tcatch;thedoorwasshut,andtheexcitedwhisperingbeganagainbelow。Iwaitedforthementocomeout,andcaughtholdofHopgood。 Hewipedthesweatoffhisforehead。 \"Pooryoungthing!\"hesaid。\"Shefell——downthecliffs——’tisherback——coastguardsawher’twerrtheyfetchedherin。TheLord’elphermebbeshe’snotbrokenupmuch!An’MisterForddon’tknow!I’mgwineforthedoctor。\" Therewasanhourormoretowaitbeforehecame;ayoungfellow; almostaboy。Helookedverygrave,whenhecameoutofherroom。 \"Theoldwomantherefondofher?nurseherwell……?Fondasadog!——good!Don’tknow——can’ttellforcertain!Afraidit’sthespine,musthaveanotheropinion!Whatapluckygirl!TellMr。FordtohavethebestmanhecangetinTorquay——there’sC———。I’llberoundthefirstthinginthemorning。Keepherdeadquiet。I’veleftasleepingdraught;she’llhavefevertonight。\" JohnFordcameinatlast。Pooroldman!Whatitmusthavecosthimnottogotoherforfearoftheexcitement!Howmanytimesinthenextfewhoursdidn’tIhearhimcometothebottomofthestairs; hisheavywheezing,andsighing;andtheforlorntreadofhisfeetgoingback!Abouteleven,justasIwasgoingtobed,Mrs。Hopgoodcametomydoor。 \"Willyucome,sir,\"shesaid;\"she’saskingforyu。NaowtIcanzaybutwhatshewillseeyu;zeemscrazy,don’tit?\"Ateartrickleddowntheoldlady’scheek。\"Du’eecome;’twilldu’err’armmebbe,butIdunno——she’llfretelse。\" Islippedintotheroom。Lyingbackonherpillows,shewasbreathingquicklywithhalf—closedeyes。Therewasnothingtoshowthatshehadwantedme,orevenknewthatIwasthere。Thewickofthecandle,setbythebedside,hadbeensnuffedtooshort,andgavebutafaintlight;bothwindowanddoorstoodopen,stilltherewasnodraught,andthefeeblelittleflameburnedquitestill,castingafaintyellowstainontheceilingliketherefectionfromabuttercupheldbeneathachin。Theseceilingsarefartoolow!Acrossthewide,squatwindowtheapplebranchesfellinblackstripeswhichneverstirred。Itwastoodarktoseethingsclearly。Atthefootofthebedwasachest,andthereMrs。Hopgoodhadsatdown,movingherlipsasifinspeech。Mingledwiththehalf—mustysmellofage; therewereotherscents,ofmignonette,apples,andsomesweet— smellingsoap。Thefloorhadnocarpet,andtherewasnotonesingledarkobjectexcepttheviolin,hangingfromanailoverthebed。A little,roundclocktickedsolemnly。 \"Whywon’tyougivemethatstuff,Mums?\"Pasiancesaidinafaint,sharpvoice。\"Iwanttosleep。\" \"Haveyoumuchpain?\"Iasked。 \"OfcourseIhave;it’severywhere。\" Sheturnedherfacetowardsme。 \"YouthoughtIdiditonpurpose,butyou’rewrong。IfIhad,I’dhavedoneitbetterthanthis。Iwouldn’thavethisbrutalpain。\"