第16章

类别:其他 作者:John Galsworthy字数:11850更新时间:18/12/18 14:50:10
tryingtoconjureup,nodoubt,thatlong—agoimageofhisyoungbrideinherdress\"thecolourofapigeon’sfeathers,\"withherblueeyesandyellowhair,thelittlefrownbetweenherbrows,thefirmlyshutredlips,openingtospeakthewords,\"Forbetter,forworse,forricher,forpoorer,insicknessandinhealth。\" \"Atthattime,sir,\"hewentonsuddenly,\"Iwasabitofadandy。I wore,Iremember,abluefrock—coat,withwhitetrousers,andagreytophat。EvennowIshouldalwaysprefertobewelldressed…… \"Wehadanexcellentlunch,anddrankVeuveClicquot,awinethatyoucannotgetinthesedays!Daltoncamewithustotherailwaystation。Ican’tbearpartings;andyet,theymustcome。 \"Thateveningwewalkedoutinthecoolundertheaspen—trees。WhatshouldIrememberinallmylifeifnotthatnight——theyoungbullockssnufflinginthegateways——thecampionflowersalllightedupalongthehedges——themoonwithahalo—bats,too,inandoutamongthestems,andtheshadowsofthecottagesasblackandsoftasthatseadownthere。Foralongtimewestoodontheriver—bankbeneathalime—tree。Thescentofthelimeflowers!Amancanonlyendureabouthalfhisjoy;abouthalfhissorrow。Lucyandherhusband,\"hewenton,presently,\"hisnamewasFrankTor——amanlikeanoldViking,whoatenothingbutmilk,bread,andfruit——wereverygoodtous!ItwaslikeParadiseinthatinn——thoughthecommissariat,Iamboundtosay,waslimited。Thesweetbriargrewroundourbedroomwindows;whenthebreezeblewtheleavesacrosstheopening——itwaslikeabathofperfume。Eiliegrewasbrownasagipsywhilewewerethere。Idon’tthinkanymancouldhavelovedhermorethanIdid。 Butthereweretimeswhenmyheartstoodstill;itdidn’tseemasifsheunderstoodhowmuchIlovedher。Oneday,Iremember,shecoaxedmetotakehercamping。Wedrifteddown—streamalltheafternoon,andintheeveningpulledintothereedsunderthewillow—boughsandlitafireforhertocookby——though,asamatteroffact,ourprovisionswerecookedalready——butyouknowhowitis;alltheromancewasinhavingarealfire。’Wewon’tpretend,’shekeptsaying。Whilewewereeatingoursupperaharecametoourclearing— —abigfellow——howsurprisedhelooked!’Thetallhare,’Eiliecalledhim。Afterthatwesatbytheashesandwatchedtheshadows,tillatlastsheroamedawayfromme。Thetimewentveryslowly;I gotuptolookforher。Itwaspastsundown。Icalledandcalled。 ItwasalongtimebeforeIfoundher——andshewaslikeawildthing,hotandflushed,herprettyfrocktorn,herhandsandfacescratched,herhairdown,likesomebeautifulcreatureofthewoods。Ifoneloves,alittlethingwillscareone。Ididn’tthinkshehadnoticedmyfright;butwhenwegotbacktotheboatshethrewherarmsroundmyneck,andsaid,’Iwon’teverleaveyouagain!’ \"OnceinthenightIwoke——awater—henwascrying,andinthemoonlightakingfisherflewacross。Thewonderontheriver——thewonderofthemoonandtrees,thesoftbrightmist,thestillness!Itwaslikeanotherworld,peaceful,enchanted,farholierthanours。 Itseemedlikeavisionofthethoughtsthatcometoone——howseldom! andgoifonetriestograspthem。Magic——poetry—sacred!\"Hewassilentaminute,thenwentoninawistfulvoice:\"Ilookedather,sleepinglikeachild,withherhairloose,andherlipsapart,andI thought:’Goddosotome,ifeverIbringherpain!’HowwasItounderstandher?themysteryandinnocenceofhersoul!Theriverhashadallmylightandallmydarkness,thehappiestdays,andthehourswhenI’vedespaired;andIliketothinkofit,for,youknow,intimebittermemoriesfade,onlythegoodremain……Yetthegoodhavetheirownpain,adifferentkindofaching,forweshallnevergetthemback。Sir,\"hesaid,turningtomewithafaintsmile,\"it’snousecryingoverspiltmilk……IntheneighbourhoodofLucy’sinn,theRoseandMaybush——Canyouimagineaprettiername?I havebeenallovertheworld,andnowherefoundnamessoprettyasintheEnglishcountry。There,too,everybladeofgrass;andflower,hasakindofprideaboutit;knowsitwillbecaredfor;andalltheroads,trees,andcottages,seemtobecertainthattheywillliveforever……ButIwasgoingtotellyou:Halfamilefromtheinnwasaquietoldhousewhichweusedtocallthe’Convent’——thoughI believeitwasafarm。Wespentmanyafternoonsthere,trespassingintheorchard——Eiliewasfondoftrespassing;iftherewerealongwayroundacrosssomebodyelse’sproperty,shewouldalwaystakeit。 Wespentourlastafternooninthatorchard,lyinginthelonggrass。 IwasreadingChildeHaroldforthefirsttime——awonderful,amemorablepoem!Iwasatthatpassage——thebull—fight——youremember: \"’Thricesoundstheclarion;lo!thesignalfalls,Thedinexpands,andexpectationmute’—— whensuddenlyEiliesaid:’SupposeIweretoleaveofflovingyou?’ Itwasasifsomeonehadstruckmeintheface。Ijumpedup,andtriedtotakeherinmyarms,butsheslippedaway;thensheturned,andbeganlaughingsoftly。Ilaughedtoo。Idon’tknowwhy…… VI \"WewentbacktoLondonthenextday;welivedquiteclosetotheschool,andaboutfivedaysaweekDaltoncametodinewithus。Hewouldhavecomeeveryday,ifhehadnotbeenthesortofmanwhorefusestoconsulthisownpleasure。Wehadmorepupilsthanever。 InmyleisureItaughtmywifetofence。Ihaveneverseenanyonesolitheandquick;orsobeautifulasshelookedinherfencingdress,withembroideredshoes。 \"Iwascompletelyhappy。Whenamanhasobtainedhisdesirehebecomescarelessandself—satisfied;Iwaswatchful,however,forI knewthatIwasnaturallyaselfishman。Istudiedtoarrangemytimeandsavemymoney,togiveherasmuchpleasureasIcould。 Whatshelovedbestintheworldjustthenwasriding。Iboughtahorseforher,andintheeveningsofthespringandsummerwerodetogether;butwhenitwastoodarktogooutlate,shewouldridealone,greatdistances,sometimesspendthewholedayinthesaddle,andcomebacksotiredshecouldhardlywalkupstairs——Ican’tsaythatIlikedthat。Itmademenervous,shewassoheadlong——butI didn’tthinkitrighttointerferewithher。Ihadagooddealofanxietyaboutmoney,forthoughIworkedhardandmademorethanever,thereneverseemedenough。Iwasanxioustosave——Ihoped,ofcourse——butwehadnochild,andthiswasatroubletome。Shegrewmorebeautifulthanever,andIthinkwashappy。Hasiteverstruckyouthateachoneofuslivesontheedgeofavolcano?Thereis,I imagine,noonewhohasnotsomeaffectionorinterestsostrongthathecountstherestfornothing,besideit。Nodoubtamanmaylivehislifethroughwithoutdiscoveringthat。Butsomeofus——!Iamnotcomplaining;whatis——is。\"Hepulledthecaploweroverhiseyes,andclutchedhishandsfirmlyonthetopofhisstick。Hewaslikeamanwhorusheshishorseatsomehopelessfence,unwillingtogivehimselftime,forfearofcraningatthelastmoment。\"Inthespringof’78,anewpupilcametome,ayoungmanoftwenty—onewhowasdestinedforthearmy。Itookafancytohim,anddidmybesttoturnhimintoagoodswordsman;buttherewasakindofperverserecklessnessinhim;forafewminutesonewouldmakeagreatimpression,thenhewouldgrowutterlycareless。’Francis,’Iwouldsay,’ifIwereyouIshouldbeashamed。’’Mr。Brune,’hewouldanswer,’whyshouldIbeashamed?Ididn’tmakemyself。’Godknows,Iwishtodohimjustice,hehadaheart——onedayhedroveupinacab,andbroughtinhispoordog,whohadbeenrunover,andwasdying:Forhalfanhourheshuthimselfupwithitsbody,wecouldhearhimsobbinglikeachild;hecameoutwithhiseyesallred,andcried:’Iknowwheretofindthebrutewhodroveoverhim,’andoffherushed。HehadbeautifulItalianeyes;aslightfigure,notverytall;darkhair,alittledarkmoustache;andhislipswerealwaysatrifleparted——itwasthat,andhiswalk,andthewayhedroopedhiseyelids,whichgavehimapeculiar,soft,proudlook。Iusedtotellhimthathe’dnevermakeasoldier!’Oh!’he’danswer,’that’llbeallrightwhenthetimecomes!Hebelievedinakindofluckthatwastodoeverythingforhim,whenthetimecame。OnedayhecameinasIwasgivingEilieherlesson。Thiswasthefirsttimetheysaweachother。Afterthathecamemoreoften,andsometimesstayedtodinnerwithus。Iwon’tdeny,sir,thatIwasgladtowelcomehim;I thoughtitgoodforEilie。Cantherebeanythingmoreodious,\"heburstout,\"thansuchaself—complacentblindness?Therearepeoplewhosay,’Poorman,hehadsuchfaith!’Faith,sir!Conceit!Iwasafool——inthisworldonepaysforfolly…… \"Thesummercame;andoneSaturdayinearlyJune,Eilie,I,andFrancis——Iwon’ttellyouhisothername——wentriding。Thenighthadbeenwet;therewasnodust,andpresentlythesuncameout——agloriousday!Werodealongway。Aboutseveno’clockwestartedback—slowly,foritwasstillhot,andtherewasallthecoolofnightbeforeus。Itwasnineo’clockwhenwecametoRichmondPark。 Agrandplace,RichmondPark;andinthathalf—lightwonderful,thedeermovingsosoftly,youmighthavethoughttheywerespirits。Weweresilenttoo——greattreeshavethateffectonme…… \"Whocansaywhenchangescome?Likeashiftofthewind,theoldpasses,thenewisonyou。Iamtellingyounowofachangelikethat。Withoutasignofwarning,Eilieputherhorseintoagallop。 ’Whatareyoudoing?’Ishouted。Shelookedbackwithasmile,thenhedashedpastmetoo。Ahornetmighthavestungthemboth:theygallopedoverfallentrees,underlowhangingbranches,uphillanddown。Ihadtowatchthatmadness!Myhorsewasnotsofast。I rodelikeademon;butfellfarbehind。Iamnotamanwhotakesthingsquietly。WhenIcameupwiththematlast,Icouldnotspeakforrage。Theywereridingsidebyside,thereinsonthehorses’ necks,lookingineachother’sfaces。’Youshouldtakecare,’I said。’Care!’shecried;’lifeisnotalltakingcare!’Myangerleftme。Idroppedbehind,asgroomsridebehindtheirmistresses…… Jealousy!Notortureissoceaselessorsoblack……Inthoseminutesahundredthingscameupinme——ahundredmemories,true,untrue,whatdoIknow?Mysoulwaspoisoned。Itriedtoreasonwithmyself。Itwasabsurdtothinksuchthings!Itwasunmanly…… Evenifitweretrue,oneshouldtrytobeagentleman!ButIfoundmyselflaughing;yes,sir,laughingatthatword。\"Hespokefaster,asifpouringhisheartoutnottoalivelistener,buttothenight。 \"Icouldnotsleepthatnight。Tolienearherwiththosethoughtsinmybrainwasimpossible!Imadeanexcuse,andsatupwithsomepapers。Thehardestthinginlifeistoseeathingcomingandbeabletodonothingtopreventit。WhatcouldIdo?Haveyounoticedhowpeoplemaybecomeutterstrangerswithoutaword?Itonlyneedsathought……Theverynextdayshesaid:’IwanttogotoLucy’s。’ ’Alone?’’Yes。’Ihadmadeupmymindbythenthatshemustdojustasshewished。PerhapsIactedwrongly;Idonotknowwhatoneoughttodoinsuchacase;butbeforeshewentIsaidtoher:’Eilie,whatisit?’’Idon’tknow,’sheanswered;andIkissedher——thatwasall……Amonthpassed;Iwrotetohernearlyeveryday,andIhadshortlettersfromher,tellingmeverylittleofherself。Daltonwasatorturetome,forIcouldnottellhim;hehadaconvictionthatshewasgoingtobecomeamother。’Ah,Brune!’hesaid,’mypoorwifewasjustlikethat。’Life,sir,isasomewhatironicalaffair……!He——Ifindithardtospeakhisname——cametotheschooltwoorthreetimesaweek。IusedtothinkIsawachange,apurposegrowingupthroughhisrecklessness;thereseemedaviolenceinhimasifhechafedagainstmyblade。IhadakindofjoyinfeelingI hadthemastery,andcouldtosstheironoutofhishandanyminutelikeastraw。Iwasashamed,andyetIgloriedinit。Jealousyisalowthing,sir——alow,basething!Whenheaskedmewheremywifewas,Itoldhim;Iwastooproudtohideit。Soonafterthathecamenomoretotheschool。 \"Onemorning,whenIcouldbearitnolonger,Iwrote,andsaidIwascomingdown。Iwouldnotforcemyselfonher,butIaskedhertomeetmeintheorchardoftheoldhousewecalledtheConvent。I askedhertobethereatfouro’clock。Ithasalwaysbeenmy,beliefthatamanmustneitherbeganythingofawoman,norforceanythingfromher。Womenaregenerous——theywillgiveyouwhattheycan。I sealedmyletter,andposteditmyself。AllthewaydownIkeptonsayingtomyself,’Shemustcome——surelyshewillcome!’ VII \"Iwasinhighspirits,butthenextmomenttrembledlikeamanwithague。Ireachedtheorchardbeforemytime。Shewasnotthere。Youknowwhatitisliketowait?Istoodstillandlistened;IwenttothepointwhenceIcouldseefarthest;Isaidtomyself,’Awatchedpotneverboils;ifIdon’tlookforhershewillcome。’Iwalkedupanddownwithmyeyesontheground。Thesicknessofit!AhundredtimesItookoutmywatch……Perhapsitwasfast,perhapsherswasslow——Ican’ttellyouathousandthpartofmyhopesandfears。 Therewasaspringofwater,inonecorner。Isatbesideit,andthoughtofthelasttimeIhadbeenthere——andsomethingseemedtoburstinme。Itwasfiveo’clockbeforeIlostallhope;therecomesatimewhenyou’regladthathopeisdead,itmeansrest。’That’sover,’yousay,’nowIcanact。’ButwhatwasItodo?Ilaydownwithmyfacetotheground;whenone’sintrouble,it’stheonlythingthathelps——somethingtopressagainstandclingtothatcan’tgiveway。Ilaytherefortwohours,knowingallthetimethatI shouldplaythecoward。Atseveno’clockIlefttheorchardandwenttowardstheinn;Ihadbrokenmyword,butIfelthappy……Ishouldseeher——and,sir,nothing——nothingseemedtomatterbesidethat。 Torwasinthegardensnippingathisroses。Hecameup,andIcouldseethathecouldn’tlookmeintheface。’Where’smywife?’Isaid。 Heanswered,’Let’sgetLucy。’Iranindoors。Lucymetmewithtwoletters;thefirst——myown——unopened;andthesecond,this: \"’Ihaveleftyou。Youweregoodtome,butnow——itisnouse。 EILIE。’\" \"Shetoldmethataboyhadbroughtaletterformywifethedaybefore,fromayounggentlemaninaboat。WhenLucydelivereditsheasked,’Whoishe,MissEilie?WhatwillMr。Brunesay?’Mywifelookedatherangrily,butgavehernoanswer——andallthatdaysheneverspoke。Intheeveningshewasgone,leavingthisnoteonthebed……Lucycriedasifherheartwouldbreak。Itookherbytheshouldersandputherfromtheroom;Icouldn’tbearthenoise。I satdownandtriedtothink。WhileIwassittingthereTorcameinwithaletter。Itwaswrittenonthenotepaperofaninntwelvemilesuptheriver:thesewerethewords。 \"’Eilieismine。Iamreadytomeetyouwhereyoulike。’\" Hewentonwithapainfulevennessofspeech。\"WhenIreadthosewords,Ihadonlyonethought——toreachthem;Irandowntotheriver,andchoseoutthelightestboat。JustasIwasstarting,Torcamerunning。’Youdroppedthisletter,sir,’besaid。’Twopairofarmsarebetterthanone。’Hecameintotheboat。ItookthescullsandIpulledoutintothestream。Ipulledlikeamadman;andthatgreatman,withhisbarearmscrossed,waslikeahuge,tawnybullsittingthereoppositeme。Presentlyhetookmyplace,andItooktherudderlines。Icouldseehischest,coveredwithhair,heavingupanddown,itgavemeasortofcomfort——itmeantthatweweregettingnearer。Thenitgrewdark,therewasnomoon,Icouldbarelyseethebank;there’ssomethinginthedarkwhichdrivesoneintooneself。Peopletellyoutherecomesamomentwhenyournatureisdecided——’saved’or’lost’astheycallit——forgoodorevil。Thatisnottrue,yourselfisalwayswithyou,andcannotbealtered; but,sir,Ibelievethatinatimeofagonyonefindsoutwhatarethethingsonecando,andwhatarethoseonecannot。Yougettoknowyourself,that’sall。Andsoitwaswithme。Everythoughtandmemoryandpassionwassoclearandstrong!Iwantedtokillhim。I wantedtokillmyself。Buther——no!Wearetaughtthatwepossessourwives,bodyandsoul,wearebroughtupinthatfaith,wearecommandedtobelieveit——butwhenIwasfacetofacewithit,thosewordshadnomeaning;thatbelief,thosecommands,theywerewithoutmeaningtome,theywere——vile。Ohyes,Iwantedtofindcomfortinthem,Iwantedtoholdontothem——butIcouldn’t。Youmayforceabody;howcanyouforceasoul?No,no——cowardly!ButIwantedto—— Iwantedtokillhimandforcehertocomebacktome!Andthen,suddenly,IfeltasifIwerepressingrightonthemostsecretnerveofmyheart。Iseemedtoseeherface,whiteandquivering,asifI’dstampedmyheelonit。Theysaythisworldisruledbyforce;itmaybetrue——IknowIhaveaweakspotinme……Icouldn’tbearit。 AtlastIJumpedtomyfeetandshoutedout,’Turntheboatround!’ TorlookedupatmeasifIhadgonemad。AndIhadgonemad。I seizedtheboat—hookandthreatenedhim;Icalledhimfearfulnames。 ’Sir,’hesaid,’Idon’ttakesuchnamesfromanyone!’’You’lltakethemfromme,’Ishouted;’turntheboatround,youidiot,youhound,youfish!……’Ihaveaterribletemper,aperfectcursetome。Heseemedamazed,evenfrightened;hesatdownagainsuddenlyandpulledtheboatround。Ifellontheseat,andhidmyface。Ibelievethemooncameup;theremusthavebeenamisttoo,forIwascoldasdeath。Inthislife,sir,wecannothideourfaces——butbydegreesthepainofwoundsgrowsless。Somewillhaveitthatsuchblowsaremortal;itisnotso。Timeismerciful。 \"IntheearlymorningIwentbacktoLondon。Ihadfeveronme——andwasdelirious。IdaresayIshouldhavekilledmyselfifIhadnotbeensousedtoweapons——theyandIweretoooldfriends,Isuppose—— Ican’texplain。ItwasalongwhilebeforeIwasupandabout。 Daltonnursedmethroughit;hisgreatheavymoustachehadgrownquitewhite。Wenevermentionedher;whatwasthegood?Therewerethingstosettleofcourse,thelawyer——thiswasunspeakablydistastefultome。Itoldhimitwastobeasshewished,butthefellowwouldcometome,withhis——there,Idon’twanttobeunkind。 Iwishedhimtosayitwasmyfault,buthesaid——Irememberhissmilenow——hesaid,thatwasimpossible,wouldbeseenthrough,talkedofcollusion——Idon’tunderstandthesethings,andwhat’smore,Ican’tbearthem,theyare——dirty。 \"Twoyearslater,whenIhadcomebacktoLondon,aftertheRusso— Turkishwar,Ireceivedaletterfromher。Ihaveithere。\"Hetookanold,yellowsheetofpaperoutofaleathernpocketbook,spreaditinhisfingers,andsatstaringatit。Forsomeminuteshedidnotspeak。 \"Intheautumnofthatsameyearshediedinchildbirth。Hehaddesertedher。Fortunatelyforhim,hewaskilledontheIndianfrontier,thatveryyear。Ifshehadlivedshewouldhavebeenthirty—twonextJune;notagreatage……IknowIamwhattheycallacrank;doctorswilltellyouthatyoucan’tbecuredofabadillness,andbethesamemanagain。Ifyouarebent,toforceyourselfstraightmustleaveyouweakinanotherplace。Imustandwillthinkwellofwomen——everythingdone,andeverythingsaidagainstthemisastoneonherdeadbody。Couldyousit,andlistentoit?\"Asthoughdrivenbyhisownquestion,herose,andpacedupanddown。Hecamebacktotheseatatlast。 \"That,sir,isthereasonofmybehaviourthisafternoon,andagainthisevening。Youhavebeensokind,Iwanted!——wantedtotellyou。 Shehadalittledaughter——Lucyhashernow。MyfriendDaltonisdead;therewouldhavebeennodifficultyaboutmoney,but,Iamsorrytosay,thathewasswindled——disgracefully。Itfelltometoadministerhisaffairs——heneverknewit,buthediedpenniless;hehadtrustedsomewretchedfellows——hadanideatheywouldmakehisfortune。AsIverysoonfound,theyhadruinedhim。ItwasimpossibletoletLucy——suchadearwoman——bearthatburden。Ihavetriedtomakeprovision;but,yousee,\"hetookholdofmysleeve,\"I,too,havenotbeenfortunate;infact,it’sdifficulttosaveagreatdealoutofL190ayear;butthecapitalisperfectlysafe—— andIgetL47,10s。aquarter,paidonthenail。Ihaveoftenbeentemptedtoreinvestatagreaterrateofinterest,butI’veneverdared。Anyway,therearenodebts——I’vebeenobligedtomakearulenottobuywhatIcouldn’tpayforonthespot……NowIamreallyplaguingyou——butIwantedtotellyou——incase—anythingshouldhappentome。\"Heseemedtotakeasuddenscare,stiffened,twistedhismoustache,andmuttering,\"Yourgreatkindness!Shallneverforget!\"turnedhurriedlyaway。 Hevanished;hisfootsteps,andthetapofhisstickgrewfainterandfainter。Theydiedout。Hewasgone。SuddenlyIgotupandhastenedafterhim。Isoonstopped——whatwastheretosay? VIII ThefollowingdayIwasobligedtogotoNice,anddidnotreturntillmidnight。TheportertoldmethatJulesleFerrierhadbeentoseeme。Thenextmorning,whileIwasstillinbed,thedoorwasopened,andJulesappeared。Hisfacewasverypale;andthemomenthestoodstilldropsofperspirationbegancoursingdownhischeeks。 \"Georges!\"hesaid,\"heisdead。There,there!Howstupidyoulook! Mymanispacking。Ihavehalfanhourbeforethetrain;myevidenceshallcomefromItaly。Ihavedonemypart,therestisforyou。 Whydidyouhavethatdinner?TheDonQuixote!Theidiot!Thepoorman!Don’tmove!Haveyouacigar?Listen!Whenyoufollowedhim,Ifollowedtheothertwo。Myinfernalcuriosity!Canyouconceiveagreaterfolly?Howfasttheywalked,thosetwo!feelingtheircheeks,asifhehadstruckthemboth,youknow;itwasfunny。Theysoonsawme,fortheireyeswereallroundabouttheirheads;theyhadthemarkofagloveontheircheeks。\"Thecolourbegantocomeback,intoJules’sface;hegesticulatedwithhiscigarandbecamemoreandmoredramatic。\"Theywaitedforme。’Tiens!’saidone,’thisgentlemanwaswithhim。Myfriend’snameisM。LeBaronde———。 Themanwhostruckhimwasanodd—lookingperson;kindlyinformmewhetheritispossibleformyfriendtomeethim?’Eh!\"commentedJules,\"hewasoffensive!Wasitformetogiveourdignityaway? ’Perfectly,monsieur!’Ianswered。’Inthatcase,’hesaid,’pleasegivemehisnameandaddress……Icouldnotrememberhisname,andasfortheaddress,Ineverknewit……!Ireflected。’That,’Isaid,’Iamunabletodo,forspecialreasons。’’Aha!’hesaid,’reasonsthatwillpreventourfightinghim,Isuppose?’Onthecontrary,’I said。’Iwillconveyyourrequesttohim;ImaymentionthatIhaveheardheisthebestswordsmanandpistol—shotinEurope。Good— night!’Iwishedtogivethemsomethingtodreamof,youunderstand……Patience,mydear!Patience!Iwas,comingtoyou,butIthoughtIwouldletthemsleeponit——therewasplentyoftime! ButyesterdaymorningIcameintothePlace,andtherehewasonthebench,withabigdog。Ideclaretoyouheblushedlikeayounggirl。’Sir,’hesaid,’Iwashopingtomeetyou;lasteveningImadeagreatdisturbance。Itookanunpardonableliberty’——andheputinmyhandanenvelope。Myfriend,whatdoyousupposeitcontained——apairofgloves!SenorDonPunctilioso,hein?Hewasthedevil,thisfriendofyours;hefascinatedmewithhisgentleeyesandhiswhitemoustachettes,hishumility,hisflames——poorman……!ItoldhimI hadbeenaskedtotakehimachallenge。’Ifanythingcomesofit,’I said,’makeuseofme!’’Isthatso?’hesaid。’Iammostgratefulforyourkindoffer。Letmesee——itissolongsinceIfoughtaduel。Thesoonerit’soverthebetter。Couldyouarrangeto—morrowmorning?Weapons?Yes;letthemchoose。’Yousee,myfriend,therewasnohangingbackhere;nousvoilaentrain。\" Julestookouthiswatch。\"Ihavesixteenminutes。Itisluckyforyouthatyouwereawayyesterday,oryouwouldbeinmyshoesnow。I fixedtheplace,righthandoftheroadtoRoquebrune,justbytherailwaycutting,andthetime——five—thirtyofthemorning。ItwasarrangedthatIshouldcallforhim。Disgustinghour;IhavenotbeenupsoearlysinceIfoughtJacquesTirbautin’85。Atfiveo’clockIfoundhimreadyanddrinkingteawithruminit——singularman!hemademehavesometoo,brrr!Hewasshaved,anddressedinthatoldfrock—coat。Hisgreatdogjumpedintothecarriage,buthebadehergetout,tookherpawsonhisshoulders,andwhisperedinherearsomeItalianwords;acharm,hein!andbackshewent,thetailbetweenthelegs。Wedroveslowly,soasnottoshakehisarm。 HewasmoregaythanI。Allthewayhetalkedtomeofyou:howkindyouwere!howgoodyouhadbeentohim!’Youdonotspeakofyourself!’Isaid。’Haveyounofriends,nothingtosay?Sometimesanaccidentwillhappen!’’Oh!’heanswered,’thereisnodanger; butifbyanychance——well,thereisaletterinmypocket。’’Andifyoushouldkillhim?’Isaid。’ButIshallnot,’heansweredslyly: ’doyouthinkIamgoingtofireathim?No,no;heistooyoung。’ ’But,’Isaid,’I——’Iamnotgoingtostandthat!’’Yes,’hereplied,’Iowehimashot;butthereisnodanger——nottheleastdanger。’Wehadarrived;alreadytheywerethere。Ahbah!Youknowthepreliminaries,thepoliteness——thisduelling,youknow,itisabsurd,afterall。Weplacedthemattwentypaces。Itisnotabadplace。Therearepine—treesround,androcks;atthathouritwascoolandgreyasachurch。Ihandedhimthepistol。HowcanI describehimtoyou,standingthere,smoothingthebarrelwithhisfingers!’Whatabeautifulthingagoodpistol!’hesaid。’Onlyafooloramadmanthrowsawayhislife,’Isaid。’Certainly,’hereplied,’certainly;butthereisnodanger,’andheregardedme,raisinghismoustachette。 \"Theretheystoodthen,backtoback,withthemouthsoftheirpistolstothesky。’Un!’Icried,’deux!tirez!’Theyturned,I sawthesmokeofhisshotgostraightuplikeaprayer;hispistoldropped。Irantohim。Helookedsurprised,putouthishand,andfellintomyarms。Hewasdead。Thosefoolscamerunningup。’Whatisit?’criedone。Imadehimabow。’Asyousee,’Isaid;’youhavemadeaprettyshot。Myfriendfiredintheair。Messieurs,youhadbetterbreakfastinItaly。’Wecarriedhimtothecarriage,andcoveredhimwitharug;theothersdroveforthefrontier。Ibroughthimtohisroom。Hereishisletter。\"Julesstopped;tearswererunningdownhisface。\"Heisdead;Ihaveclosedhiseyes。Lookhere,youknow,weareallofuscads——itistherule;butthis—— this,perhaps,wastheexception。\"Andwithoutanotherwordherushedaway…… Outsidetheoldfellow’slodgingadismountedcocherwasstandingdisconsolateinthesun。\"HowwasItoknowtheyweregoingtofightaduel?\"heburstoutonseeingme。\"Hehadwhitehair——Icallyoutowitnesshehadwhitehair。Thisisbadforme:theywillravishmylicence。Aha!youwillsee——thisisbadforme!\"Igavehimtheslipandfoundmywayupstairs。Theoldfellowwasalone,lyingonthebed,hisfeetcoveredwitharugasifhemightfeelcold;hiseyeswereclosed,butinthissleepofdeath,hestillhadthatairoffaintsurprise。Atfulllength,watchingthebedintently,Fredalay,asshelaynightlywhenhewasreallyasleep。Theshutterswerehalfopen;theroomstillsmeltslightlyofrum。Istoodforalongtimelookingattheface:thelittlewhitefansofmoustachebrushedupwardsevenindeath,thehollowsinhischeeks,thequietofhisfigure;hewaslikesomeoldknight……Thedogbrokethespell。 Shesatup,andrestingherpawsonthebed,lickedhisface。Iwentdownstairs——Icouldn’tbeartohearherhowl。Thiswashislettertome,writteninapointedhandwriting: \"MYDEARSIR,——Shouldyoureadthis,Ishallbegone。Iamashamedtotroubleyou——amanshouldsurelymanagesoasnottogivetrouble;