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类别:其他 作者:Mark Twain字数:11541更新时间:18/12/18 14:51:42
Thethingisimpossible。 Y。M。ThereMUSTbeagenuinelyandutterlyselfsacrificingactrecordedinhumanhistorysomewhere。 O。M。Youareyoung。Youhavemanyyearsbeforeyou。 Searchoneout。 Y。M。Itdoesseemtomethatwhenamanseesafellowbeingstrugglinginthewaterandjumpsinattheriskofhislifetosavehim O。M。Wait。DescribetheMAN。DescribetheFELLOWBEING。 StateifthereisanAUDIENCEpresent;oriftheyareALONE。 Y。M。Whathavethesethingstodowiththesplendidact? O。M。Verymuch。Shallwesuppose,asabeginning,thatthetwoarealone,inasolitaryplace,atmidnight? Y。M。Ifyouchoose。 O。M。Andthatthefellowbeingistheman’sdaughter? Y。M。Well,nnomakeitsomeoneelse。 O。M。Afilthy,drunkenruffian,then? Y。M。Isee。Circumstancesaltercases。Isupposethatiftherewasnoaudiencetoobservetheact,themanwouldn’tperformit。 O。M。ButthereishereandthereamanwhoWOULD。People,forinstance,likethemanwholosthislifetryingtosavethechildfromthefire;andthemanwhogavetheneedyoldwomanhistwentyfivecentsandwalkedhomeinthestormtherearehereandtheremenlikethatwhowoulddoit。Andwhy?Becausetheycouldn’tBEARtoseeafellowbeingstrugglinginthewaterandnotjumpinandhelp。ItwouldgiveTHEMpain。Theywouldsavethefellowbeingonthataccount。THEYWOULDN’TDOITOTHERWISE。 TheystrictlyobeythelawwhichIhavebeeninsistingupon。YoumustrememberandalwaysdistinguishthepeoplewhoCAN’TBEAR thingsfrompeoplewhoCAN。Itwillthrowlightuponanumberofapparently\"selfsacrificing\"cases。 Y。M。Oh,dear,it’sallsodisgusting。 O。M。Yes。Andsotrue。 Y。M。Cometakethegoodboywhodoesthingshedoesn’twanttodo,inordertogratifyhismother。 O。M。HedoessevententhsoftheactbecauseitgratifiesHIMtogratifyhismother。Throwthebulkofadvantagetheotherwayandthegoodboywouldnotdotheact。HeMUSTobeytheironlaw。Nonecanescapeit。 Y。M。Well,takethecaseofabadboywho O。M。Youneedn’tmentionit,itisawasteoftime。Itisnomatteraboutthebadboy’sact。Whateveritwas,hehadaspiritcontentingreasonforit。Otherwiseyouhavebeenmisinformed,andhedidn’tdoit。 Y。M。Itisveryexasperating。Awhileagoyousaidthatman’sconscienceisnotabornjudgeofmoralsandconduct,buthastobetaughtandtrained。NowIthinkaconsciencecangetdrowsyandlazy,butIdon’tthinkitcangowrong;ifyouwakeitup ALittleStoryO。M。Iwilltellyoualittlestory: OnceuponatimeanInfidelwasguestinthehouseofaChristianwidowwhoselittleboywasillandneartodeath。TheInfideloftenwatchedbythebedsideandentertainedtheboywithtalk,andheusedtheseopportunitiestosatisfyastronglonginginhisnaturethatdesirewhichisinusalltobetterotherpeople’sconditionbyhavingthemthinkaswethink。Hewassuccessful。Butthedyingboy,inhislastmoments,reproachedhimandsaid: \"IBELIEVED,ANDWASHAPPYINIT;YOUHAVETAKENMYBELIEF AWAY,ANDMYCOMFORT。NOWIHAVENOTHINGLEFT,ANDIDIE MISERABLE;FORTHETHINGSWHICHYOUHAVETOLDMEDONOTTAKETHE PLACEOFTHATWHICHIHAVELOST。\" Andthemother,also,reproachedtheInfidel,andsaid: \"MYCHILDISFOREVERLOST,ANDMYHEARTISBROKEN。HOW COULDYOUDOTHISCRUELTHING?WEHAVEDONEYOUNOHARM,BUT ONLYKINDNESS;WEMADEOURHOUSEYOURHOME,YOUWEREWELCOMETO ALLWEHAD,ANDTHISISOURREWARD。\" TheheartoftheInfidelwasfilledwithremorseforwhathehaddone,andhesaid: \"ITWASWRONGISEEITNOW;BUTIWASONLYTRYINGTODOHIM GOOD。INMYVIEWHEWASINERROR;ITSEEMEDMYDUTYTOTEACHHIM THETRUTH。\" Thenthemothersaid: \"IHADTAUGHTHIM,ALLHISLITTLELIFE,WHATIBELIEVEDTO BETHETRUTH,ANDINHISBELIEVINGFAITHBOTHOFUSWEREHAPPY。 NOWHEISDEAD,ANDLOST;ANDIAMMISERABLE。OURFAITHCAME DOWNTOUSTHROUGHCENTURIESOFBELIEVINGANCESTORS;WHATRIGHT HADYOU,ORANYONE,TODISTURBIT?WHEREWASYOURHONOR,WHERE WASYOURSHAME?\" Y。M。Hewasamiscreant,anddeserveddeath! O。M。Hethoughtsohimself,andsaidso。 Y。M。Ahyousee,HISCONSCIENCEWASAWAKENED1! O。M。Yes,hisSelfDisapprovalwas。ItPAINEDhimtoseethemothersuffer。HewassorryhehaddoneathingwhichbroughtHIMpain。Itdidnotoccurtohimtothinkofthemotherwhenhewasmisteachingtheboy,forhewasabsorbedinprovidingPLEASUREforhimself,then。Providingitbysatisfyingwhathebelievedtobeacallofduty。 Y。M。Callitwhatyouplease,itistomeacaseofAWAKENEDCONSCIENCE。Thatawakenedconsciencecouldnevergetitselfintothatspeciesoftroubleagain。AcurelikethatisaPERMANENTcure。 O。M。PardonIhadnotfinishedthestory。WearecreaturesofOUTSIDEINFLUENCESweoriginateNOTHINGwithin。 Wheneverwetakeanewlineofthoughtanddriftintoanewlineofbeliefandaction,theimpulseisALWAYSsuggestedfromtheOUTSIDE。RemorsesopreyedupontheInfidelthatitdissolvedhisharshnesstowardtheboy’sreligionandmadehimcometoregarditwithtolerance,nextwithkindness,fortheboy’ssakeandthemother’s。Finallyhefoundhimselfexaminingit。Fromthatmomenthisprogressinhisnewtrendwassteadyandrapid。 HebecameabelievingChristian。Andnowhisremorseforhavingrobbedthedyingboyofhisfaithandhissalvationwasbittererthanever。Itgavehimnorest,nopeace。HeMUSThaverestandpeaceitisthelawofnature。Thereseemedbutonewaytogetit;hemustdevotehimselftosavingimperiledsouls。Hebecameamissionary。Helandedinapagancountryillandhelpless。A nativewidowtookhimintoherhumblehomeandnursedhimbacktoconvalescence。Thenheryoungboywastakenhopelesslyill,andthegratefulmissionaryhelpedhertendhim。Herewashisfirstopportunitytorepairapartofthewrongdonetotheotherboybydoingapreciousserviceforthisonebyundermininghisfoolishfaithinhisfalsegods。Hewassuccessful。Butthedyingboyinhislastmomentsreproachedhimandsaid: \"IBELIEVED,ANDWASHAPPYINIT;YOUHAVETAKENMYBELIEF AWAY,ANDMYCOMFORT。NOWIHAVENOTHINGLEFT,ANDIDIE MISERABLE;FORTHETHINGSWHICHYOUHAVETOLDMEDONOTTAKETHE PLACEOFTHATWHICHIHAVELOST。\" Andthemother,also,reproachedthemissionary,andsaid: \"MYCHILDISFOREVERLOST,ANDMYHEARTISBROKEN。HOW COULDYOUDOTHISCRUELTHING?WEHADDONEYOUNOHARM,BUTONLY KINDNESS;WEMADEOURHOUSEYOURHOME,YOUWEREWELCOMETOALLWE HAD,ANDTHISISOURREWARD。\" Theheartofthemissionarywasfilledwithremorseforwhathehaddone,andhesaid: \"ITWASWRONGISEEITNOW;BUTIWASONLYTRYINGTODOHIM GOOD。INMYVIEWHEWASINERROR;ITSEEMEDMYDUTYTOTEACHHIM THETRUTH。\" Thenthemothersaid: \"IHADTAUGHTHIM,ALLHISLITTLELIFE,WHATIBELIEVEDTO BETHETRUTH,ANDINHISBELIEVINGFAITHBOTHOFUSWEREHAPPY。 NOWHEISDEADANDLOST;ANDIAMMISERABLE。OURFAITHCAME DOWNTOUSTHROUGHCENTURIESOFBELIEVINGANCESTORS;WHATRIGHT HADYOU,ORANYONE,TODISTURBIT?WHEREWASYOURHONOR,WHERE WASYOURSHAME?\" Themissionary’sanguishofremorseandsenseoftreacherywereasbitterandpersecutingandunappeasable,now,astheyhadbeenintheformercase。Thestoryisfinished。Whatisyourcomment? Y。M。Theman’sconscienceisafool!Itwasmorbid。Itdidn’tknowrightfromwrong。 O。M。Iamnotsorrytohearyousaythat。IfyougrantthatONEman’sconsciencedoesn’tknowrightfromwrong,itisanadmissionthatthereareotherslikeit。Thissingleadmissionpullsdownthewholedoctrineofinfallibilityofjudgmentinconsciences。MeantimethereisonethingwhichIaskyoutonotice。 Y。M。Whatisthat? O。M。Thatinbothcasestheman’sACTgavehimnospiritualdiscomfort,andthathewasquitesatisfiedwithitandgotpleasureoutofit。ButafterwardwhenitresultedinPAINtoHIM,hewassorry。Sorryithadinflictedpainupontheothers,BUTFORNOREASONUNDERTHESUNEXCEPTTHATTHEIRPAINGAVEHIM PAIN。OurconsciencestakeNOnoticeofpaininflicteduponothersuntilitreachesapointwhereitgivespaintoUS。InALLcaseswithoutexceptionweareabsolutelyindifferenttoanotherperson’spainuntilhissufferingsmakeusuncomfortable。 ManyaninfidelwouldnothavebeentroubledbythatChristianmother’sdistress。Don’tyoubelievethat? Y。M。Yes。YoumightalmostsayitoftheAVERAGEinfidel,Ithink。 O。M。Andmanyamissionary,sternlyfortifiedbyhissenseofduty,wouldnothavebeentroubledbythepaganmother’sdistressJesuitmissionariesinCanadaintheearlyFrenchtimes,forinstance;seeepisodesquotedbyParkman。 Y。M。Well,letusadjourn。Wherehavewearrived? O。M。Atthis。Thatwe(mankind)haveticketedourselveswithanumberofqualitiestowhichwehavegivenmisleadingnames。Love,Hate,Charity,Compassion,Avarice,Benevolence,andsoon。ImeanweattachmisleadingMEANINGStothenames。 Theyareallformsofselfcontentment,selfgratification,butthenamessodisguisethemthattheydistractourattentionfromthefact。AlsowehavesmuggledawordintothedictionarywhichoughtnottobethereatallSelfSacrifice。Itdescribesathingwhichdoesnotexist。Butworstofall,weignoreandnevermentiontheSoleImpulsewhichdictatesandcompelsaman’severyact:theimperiousnecessityofsecuringhisownapproval,ineveryemergencyandatallcosts。Toitweoweallthatweare。Itisourbreath,ourheart,ourblood。Itisouronlyspur,ourwhip,ourgoad,ouronlyimpellingpower;wehavenoother。Withoutitweshouldbemereinertimages,corpses;noonewoulddoanything,therewouldbenoprogress,theworldwouldstandstill。Weoughttostandreverentlyuncoveredwhenthenameofthatstupendouspowerisuttered。 Y。M。Iamnotconvinced。 O。M。Youwillbewhenyouthink。 III InstancesinPointOldMan。HaveyougiventhoughttotheGospelofSelf Approvalsincewetalked? YoungMan。Ihave。 O。M。ItwasIthatmovedyoutoit。ThatistosayanOUTSIDEINFLUENCEmovedyoutoitnotonethatoriginatedinyourhead。Willyoutrytokeepthatinmindandnotforgetit? Y。M。Yes。Why? O。M。Becausebyandbyinoneofourtalks,Iwishtofurtherimpressuponyouthatneitheryou,norI,noranymaneveroriginatesathoughtinhisownhead。THEUTTEREROFA THOUGHTALWAYSUTTERSASECONDHANDONE。 Y。M。Oh,now O。M。Wait。Reserveyourremarktillwegettothatpartofourdiscussiontomorrowornextday,say。Now,then,haveyoubeenconsideringthepropositionthatnoactiseverbornofanybutaselfcontentingimpulse(primarily)。Youhavesought。 Whathaveyoufound? Y。M。Ihavenotbeenveryfortunate。Ihaveexaminedmanyfineandapparentlyselfsacrificingdeedsinromancesandbiographies,but O。M。Undersearchinganalysistheostensibleselfsacrificedisappeared?Itnaturallywould。 Y。M。Buthereinthisnovelisonewhichseemstopromise。 IntheAdirondackwoodsisawageearnerandlaypreacherinthelumbercampswhoisofnoblecharacteranddeeplyreligious。AnearnestandpracticallaborerintheNewYorkslumscomesupthereonvacationheisleaderofasectionoftheUniversitySettlement。Holme,thelumberman,isfiredwithadesiretothrowawayhisexcellentworldlyprospectsandgodownandsavesoulsontheEastSide。HecountsithappinesstomakethissacrificeforthegloryofGodandforthecauseofChrist。Heresignshisplace,makesthesacrificecheerfully,andgoestotheEastSideandpreachesChristandHimcrucifiedeverydayandeverynighttolittlegroupsofhalfcivilizedforeignpauperswhoscoffathim。Butherejoicesinthescoffings,sinceheissufferingtheminthegreatcauseofChrist。YouhavesofilledmymindwithsuspicionsthatIwasconstantlyexpectingtofindahiddenquestionableimpulsebackofallthis,butIamthankfultosayIhavefailed。Thismansawhisduty,andforDUTY’SSAKE hesacrificedselfandassumedtheburdenitimposed。 O。M。Isthatasfarasyouhaveread? Y。M。Yes。 O。M。Letusreadfurther,presently。Meantime,insacrificinghimselfNOTforthegloryofGod,PRIMARILY,asHE imagined,butFIRSTtocontentthatexactingandinflexiblemasterwithinhimDIDHESACRIFICEANYBODYELSE? Y。M。Howdoyoumean? O。M。Herelinquishedalucrativepostandgotmerefoodandlodginginplaceofit。Hadhedependents? Y。M。Wellyes。 O。M。InwhatwayandtowhatextenddidhisselfsacrificeaffectTHEM? Y。M。Hewasthesupportofasuperannuatedfather。Hehadayoungsisterwitharemarkablevoicehewasgivingheramusicaleducation,sothatherlongingtobeselfsupportingmightbegratified。Hewasfurnishingthemoneytoputayoungbrotherthroughapolytechnicschoolandsatisfyhisdesiretobecomeacivilengineer。 O。M。Theoldfather’scomfortswerenowcurtailed? Y。M。Quiteseriously。Yes。 O。M。Thesister’smusiclessenshadtostop? Y。M。Yes。 O。M。Theyoungbrother’seducationwell,anextinguishingblightfelluponthathappydream,andhehadtogotosawingwoodtosupporttheoldfather,orsomethinglikethat? Y。M。Itisaboutwhathappened。Yes。 O。M。Whatahandsomejobofselfsacrificinghediddo!ItseemstomethathesacrificedeverybodyEXCEPThimself。Haven’tItoldyouthatnomanEVERsacrificeshimself;thatthereisnoinstanceofituponrecordanywhere;andthatwhenaman’sInteriorMonarchrequiresathingofitsslaveforeitheritsMOMENTARYoritsPERMANENTcontentment,thatthingmustandwillbefurnishedandthatcommandobeyed,nomatterwhomaystandinthewayandsufferdisasterbyit?ThatmanRUINEDHISFAMILYtopleaseandcontenthisInteriorMonarch Y。M。AndhelpChrist’scause。 O。M。YesSECONDLY。Notfirstly。HEthoughtitwasfirstly。 Y。M。Verywell,haveitso,ifyouwill。ButitcouldbethathearguedthatifhesavedahundredsoulsinNewYork O。M。ThesacrificeoftheFAMILYwouldbejustifiedbythatgreatprofituponthethewhatshallwecallit? Y。M。Investment? O。M。Hardly。HowwouldSPECULATIONdo?HowwouldGAMBLE do?Notasolitarysoulcapturewassure。Heplayedforapossiblethirtythreehundredpercentprofit。ItwasGAMBLING withhisfamilyfor\"chips。\"Howeverletusseehowthegamecameout。Maybewecangetonthetrackofthesecretoriginalimpulse,theREALimpulse,thatmovedhimtosonoblyself sacrificehisfamilyintheSavior’scauseunderthesuperstitionthathewassacrificinghimself。Iwillreadachapterorso……Herewehaveit!Itwasboundtoexposeitselfsoonerorlater。HepreachedtotheEastSiderabbleaseason,thenwentbacktohisolddull,obscurelifeinthelumbercamps\"HURTTO THEHEART,HISPRIDEHUMBLED。\"Why?WerenothiseffortsacceptabletotheSavior,forWhomalonetheyweremade?Dearme,thatdetailisLOSTSIGHTOF,isnotevenreferredto,thefactthatitstartedoutasamotiveisentirelyforgotten!Thenwhatisthetrouble?Theauthoressquiteinnocentlyandunconsciouslygivesthewholebusinessaway。Thetroublewasthis:thismanmerelyPREACHEDtothepoor;thatisnottheUniversitySettlement’sway;itdealsinlargerandbetterthingsthanthat,anditdidnotenthuseoverthatcrudeSalvationArmyeloquence。ItwascourteoustoHolmebutcool。Itdidnotpethim,didnottakehimtoitsbosom。\"PERISHEDWEREALLHIS DREAMSOFDISTINCTION,THEPRAISEANDGRATEFULAPPROVAL\"Ofwhom?TheSavior?No;theSaviorisnotmentioned。Ofwhom,then?Of\"HisFELLOWWORKERS。\"Whydidhewantthat?BecausetheMasterinsideofhimwantedit,andwouldnotbecontentwithoutit。Thatemphasizedsentencequotedabove,revealsthesecretwehavebeenseeking,theoriginalimpulse,theREAL impulse,whichmovedtheobscureandunappreciatedAdirondacklumbermantosacrificehisfamilyandgoonthatcrusadetotheEastSidewhichsaidoriginalimpulsewasthis,towit:withoutknowingitHEWENTTHERETOSHOWANEGLECTEDWORLDTHELARGE TALENTTHATWASINHIM,ANDRISETODISTINCTION。AsIhavewarnedyoubefore,NOactspringsfromanybuttheonelaw,theonemotive。ButIprayyou,donotacceptthislawuponmysay so;butdiligentlyexamineforyourself。Wheneveryoureadofaselfsacrificingactorhearofone,orofadutydoneforDUTY’S SAKE,takeittopiecesandlookfortheREALmotive。Itisalwaysthere。 Y。M。Idoiteveryday。Icannothelpit,nowthatIhavegottenstarteduponthedegradingandexasperatingquest。Foritishatefullyinteresting!infact,fascinatingistheword。AssoonasIcomeacrossagoldendeedinabookIhavetostopandtakeitapartandexamineit,Icannothelpmyself。 O。M。Haveyoueverfoundonethatdefeatedtherule? Y。M。Noatleast,notyet。Buttakethecaseofservant tippinginEurope。YoupaytheHOTELforservice;youowetheservantsNOTHING,yetyoupaythembesides。Doesn’tthatdefeatit? O。M。Inwhatway? Y。M。YouarenotOBLIGEDtodoit,thereforeitssourceiscompassionfortheirillpaidcondition,and O。M。Hasthatcustomevervexedyou,annoyedyou,irritatedyou? Y。M。Well,yes。 O。M。Stillyousuccumbedtoit? Y。M。Ofcourse。 O。M。Whyofcourse? Y。M。Well,customislaw,inaway,andlawsmustbesubmittedtoeverybodyrecognizesitasaDUTY。 O。M。ThenyoupayfortheirritatingtaxforDUTY’Ssake? Y。M。Isupposeitamountstothat。 O。M。ThentheimpulsewhichmovesyoutosubmittothetaxisnotALLcompassion,charity,benevolence? Y。M。Wellperhapsnot。 O。M。IsANYofit? Y。M。IperhapsIwastoohastyinlocatingitssource。 O。M。Perhapsso。Incaseyouignoredthecustomwouldyougetpromptandeffectiveservicefromtheservants? Y。M。Oh,hearyourselftalk!ThoseEuropeanservants? Why,youwouldn’tgetanyofall,tospeakof。 O。M。Couldn’tTHATworkasanimpulsetomoveyoutopaythetax? Y。M。Iamnotdenyingit。 O。M。Apparently,then,itisacaseofforduty’ssakewithalittleselfinterestadded? Y。M。Yes,ithasthelookofit。Buthereisapoint: wepaythattaxknowingittobeunjustandanextortion;yetwegoawaywithapainattheheartifwethinkwehavebeenstingywiththepoorfellows;andweheartilywishwewerebackagain,sothatwecoulddotherightthing,andMOREthantherightthing,theGENEROUSthing。Ithinkitwillbedifficultforyoutofindanythoughtofselfinthatimpulse。 O。M。Iwonderwhyyoushouldthinkso。WhenyoufindservicechargedintheHOTELbilldoesitannoyyou? Y。M。No。 O。M。Doyouevercomplainoftheamountofit? Y。M。No,itwouldnotoccurtome。 O。M。TheEXPENSE,then,isnottheannoyingdetail。Itisafixedcharge,andyoupayitcheerfully,youpayitwithoutamurmur。Whenyoucametopaytheservants,howwouldyoulikeitifeachofthemenandmaidshadafixedcharge? Y。M。Likeit?Ishouldrejoice! O。M。EvenifthefixedtaxwereashadeMOREthanyouhadbeeninthehabitofpayingintheformoftips? Y。M。Indeed,yes! O。M。Verywell,then。AsIunderstandit,itisn’treallycompassionnoryetdutythatmovesyoutopaythetax,anditisn’ttheAMOUNTofthetaxthatannoysyou。YetSOMETHING annoysyou。Whatisit? Y。M。Well,thetroubleis,youneverknowWHATtopay,thetaxvariesso,alloverEurope。 O。M。Soyouhavetoguess? Y。M。Thereisnootherway。Soyougoonthinkingandthinking,andcalculatingandguessing,andconsultingwithotherpeopleandgettingtheirviews;anditspoilsyoursleepnights,andmakesyoudistraughtinthedaytime,andwhileyouarepretendingtolookatthesightsyouareonlyguessingandguessingandguessingallthetime,andbeingworriedandmiserable。 O。M。Andallaboutadebtwhichyoudon’toweanddon’thavetopayunlessyouwantto!Strange。Whatisthepurposeoftheguessing? Y。M。Toguessoutwhatisrighttogivethem,andnotbeunfairtoanyofthem。 O。M。Ithasquiteanoblelooktakingsomuchpainsandusingupsomuchvaluabletimeinordertobejustandfairtoapoorservanttowhomyouowenothing,butwhoneedsmoneyandisillpaid。 Y。M。Ithink,myself,thatifthereisanyungraciousmotivebackofititwillbehardtofind。 O。M。Howdoyouknowwhenyouhavenotpaidaservantfairly? Y。M。Why,heissilent;doesnotthankyou。Sometimeshegivesyoualookthatmakesyouashamed。Youaretooproudtorectifyyourmistakethere,withpeoplelooking,butafterwardyoukeeponwishingandwishingyouHADdoneit。My,theshameandthepainofit!Sometimesyousee,bythesigns,thatyouhaveitJUSTRIGHT,andyougoawaymightilysatisfied。 SometimesthemanissoeffusivelythankfulthatyouknowyouhavegivenhimagooddealMOREthanwasnecessary。 O。M。NECESSARY?Necessaryforwhat? Y。M。Tocontenthim。 O。M。HowdoyoufeelTHEN? Y。M。Repentant。 O。M。ItismybeliefthatyouhaveNOTbeenconcerningyourselfinguessingouthisjustdues,butonlyincipheringoutwhatwouldCONTENThim。AndIthinkyouhaveaselfdeludingreasonforthat。 Y。M。Whatwasit? O。M。Ifyoufellshortofwhathewasexpectingandwanting,youwouldgetalookwhichwouldSHAMEYOUBEFOREFOLK。 ThatwouldgiveyouPAIN。YOUforyouareonlyworkingforyourself,notHIM。IfyougavehimtoomuchyouwouldbeASHAMED OFYOURSELFforit,andthatwouldgiveYOUpainanothercaseofthinkingofYOURSELF,protectingyourself,SAVINGYOURSELFFROM DISCOMFORT。YouneverthinkoftheservantonceexcepttoguessouthowtogetHISAPPROVAL。Ifyougetthat,yougetyourOWN approval,andthatisthesoleandonlythingyouareafter。TheMasterinsideofyouisthensatisfied,contented,comfortable; therewasNOOTHERthingatstake,asamatterofFIRSTinterest,anywhereinthetransaction。 FurtherInstancesY。M。Well,tothinkofit;SelfSacrificeforothers,thegrandestthinginman,ruledout!nonexistent! O。M。Areyouaccusingmeofsayingthat? Y。M。Why,certainly。 O。M。Ihaven’tsaidit。 Y。M。Whatdidyousay,then? O。M。Thatnomanhaseversacrificedhimselfinthecommonmeaningofthatphrasewhichis,selfsacrificeforanotherALONE。Menmakedailysacrificesforothers,butitisfortheirownsakeFIRST。TheactmustcontenttheirownspiritFIRST。 Theotherbeneficiariescomesecond。 Y。M。Andthesamewithdutyforduty’ssake? O。M。Yes。Nomanperformsadutyformereduty’ssake;theactmustcontenthisspiritFIRST。HemustfeelbetterforDOINGthedutythanhewouldforshirkingit。Otherwisehewillnotdoit。 Y。M。TakethecaseoftheBERKELEYCASTLE。 O。M。Itwasanobleduty,greatlyperformed。Takeittopiecesandexamineit,ifyoulike。 Y。M。ABritishtroopshipcrowdedwithsoldiersandtheirwivesandchildren。Shestruckarockandbegantosink。Therewasroomintheboatsforthewomenandchildrenonly。Thecolonellineduphisregimentonthedeckandsaid\"itisourdutytodie,thattheymaybesaved。\"Therewasnomurmur,noprotest。Theboatscarriedawaythewomenandchildren。Whenthedeathmomentwascome,thecolonelandhisofficerstooktheirseveralposts,themenstoodatshoulderarms,andso,asondressparade,withtheirflagflyingandthedrumsbeating,theywentdown,asacrificetodutyforduty’ssake。Canyouviewitasotherthanthat? O。M。Itwassomethingasfineasthat,asexaltedasthat。 Couldyouhaveremainedinthoseranksandgonedowntoyourdeathinthatunflinchingway? Y。M。CouldI?No,Icouldnot。 O。M。Think。Imagineyourselfthere,withthatwaterydoomcreepinghigherandhigheraroundyou。 Y。M。Icanimagineit。Ifeelallthehorrorofit。Icouldnothaveenduredit,Icouldnothaveremainedinmyplace。 Iknowit。 O。M。Why? Y。M。Thereisnowhyaboutit:Iknowmyself,andIknowI couldn’tDOit。 O。M。ButitwouldbeyourDUTYtodoit。 Y。M。Yes,IknowbutIcouldn’t。 O。M。Itwasmorethanthousandmen,yetnotoneofthemflinched。Someofthemmusthavebeenbornwithyourtemperament;iftheycoulddothatgreatdutyforduty’sSAKE,whynotyou?Don’tyouknowthatyoucouldgooutandgathertogetherathousandclerksandmechanicsandputthemonthatdeckandaskthemtodieforduty’ssake,andnottwodozenofthemwouldstayintherankstotheend? Y。M。Yes,Iknowthat。 O。M。ButyourTRAINthem,andputthemthroughacampaignortwo;thentheywouldbesoldiers;soldiers,withasoldier’spride,asoldier’sselfrespect,asoldier’sideals。TheywouldhavetocontentaSOLDIER’Sspiritthen,notaclerk’s,notamechanic’s。Theycouldnotcontentthatspiritbyshirkingasoldier’sduty,couldthey? Y。M。Isupposenot。 O。M。ThentheywoulddothedutynotfortheDUTY’Ssake,butfortheirOWNsakeprimarily。TheDUTYwasJUSTTHESAME,andjustasimperative,whentheywereclerks,mechanics,rawrecruits,buttheywouldn’tperformitforthat。Asclerksandmechanicstheyhadotherideals,anotherspirittosatisfy,andtheysatisfiedit。TheyHADto;itisthelaw。TRAININGispotent。Trainingtowardhigherandhigher,andeverhigheridealsisworthanyman’sthoughtandlaboranddiligence。 Y。M。Considerthemanwhostandsbyhisdutyandgoestothestakeratherthanberecreanttoit。 O。M。Itishismakeandhistraining。Hehastocontentthespiritthatisinhim,thoughitcosthimhislife。Anotherman,justassincerelyreligious,butofdifferenttemperament,willfailofthatduty,thoughrecognizingitasaduty,andgrievingtobeunequaltoit:buthemustcontentthespiritthatisinhimhecannothelpit。Hecouldnotperformthatdutyforduty’sSAKE,forthatwouldnotcontenthisspirit,andthecontentingofhisspiritmustbelookedtoFIRST。Ittakesprecedenceofallotherduties。 Y。M。Takethecaseofaclergymanofstainlessprivatemoralswhovotesforathiefforpublicoffice,onhisownparty’sticket,andagainstanhonestmanontheotherticket。 O。M。Hehastocontenthisspirit。Hehasnopublicmorals;hehasnoprivateones,wherehisparty’sprosperityisatstake。Hewillalwaysbetruetohismakeandtraining。 IV TrainingYoungMan。Youkeepusingthatwordtraining。Byitdoyouparticularlymean OldMan。Study,instruction,lectures,sermons?Thatisapartofitbutnotalargepart。ImeanALLtheoutsideinfluences。Thereareamillionofthem。Fromthecradletothegrave,duringallhiswakinghours,thehumanbeingisundertraining。IntheveryfirstrankofhistrainersstandsASSOCIATION。Itishishumanenvironmentwhichinfluenceshismindandhisfeelings,furnisheshimhisideals,andsetshimonhisroadandkeepshiminit。Ifheleavethatroadhewillfindhimselfshunnedbythepeoplewhomhemostlovesandesteems,andwhoseapprovalhemostvalues。Heisachameleon;bythelawofhisnaturehetakesthecolorofhisplaceofresort。Theinfluencesabouthimcreatehispreferences,hisaversions,hispolitics,histastes,hismorals,hisreligion。Hecreatesnoneofthesethingsforhimself。HeTHINKShedoes,butthatisbecausehehasnotexaminedintothematter。YouhaveseenPresbyterians? Y。M。Many。