Burgesshasalwaysfoundrestintheseexcursions，andAdamsunrest。TheyaretryingChristianScience，now，withthecustomaryresult，theinevitableresult。NopoliticalorreligiousbeliefcanmakeBurgessunhappyortheothermanhappy。
Iassureyouitispurelyamatteroftemperament。BeliefsareACQUIREMENTS，temperamentsareBORN;beliefsaresubjecttochange，nothingwhatevercanchangetemperament。
Y。M。Youhaveinstancedextremetemperaments。
O。M。Yes，thehalfdozenothersaremodificationsoftheextremes。Butthelawisthesame。Wherethetemperamentistwothirdshappy，ortwothirdsunhappy，nopoliticalorreligiousbeliefscanchangetheproportions。Thevastmajorityoftemperamentsareprettyequallybalanced;theintensitiesareabsent，andthisenablesanationtolearntoaccommodateitselftoitspoliticalandreligiouscircumstancesandlikethem，besatisfiedwiththem，atlastpreferthem。NationsdonotTHINK，theyonlyFEEL。Theygettheirfeelingsatsecondhandthroughtheirtemperaments，nottheirbrains。Anationcanbebrought
byforceofcircumstances，notargumenttoreconcileitselftoANYKINDOFGOVERNMENTORRELIGIONTHATCANBEDEVISED;intimeitwillfititselftotherequiredconditions;later，itwillpreferthemandwillfiercelyfightforthem。Asinstances，youhaveallhistory:theGreeks，theRomans，thePersians，theEgyptians，theRussians，theGermans，theFrench，theEnglish，theSpaniards，theAmericans，theSouthAmericans，theJapanese，theChinese，theHindus，theTurksathousandwildandtamereligions，everykindofgovernmentthatcanbethoughtof，fromtigertohousecat，eachnationKNOWINGithastheonlytruereligionandtheonlysanesystemofgovernment，eachdespisingalltheothers，eachanassandnotsuspectingit，eachproudofitsfanciedsupremacy，eachperfectlysureitisthepetofGod，eachwithoutundoubtingconfidencesummoningHimtotakecommandintimeofwar，eachsurprisedwhenHegoesovertotheenemy，butbyhabitabletoexcuseitandresumecomplimentsinaword，thewholehumanracecontent，alwayscontent，persistentlycontent，indestructiblycontent，happy，thankful，proud，NO
MATTERWHATITSRELIGIONIS，NORWHETHERITSMASTERBETIGEROR
HOUSECAT。AmIstatingfacts？YouknowIam。Isthehumanracecheerful？Youknowitis。Consideringwhatitcanstand，andbehappy，youdometoomuchhonorwhenyouthinkthat_I_
canplacebeforeitasystemofplaincoldfactsthatcantakethecheerfulnessoutofit。Nothingcandothat。Everythinghasbeentried。Withoutsuccess。Ibegyounottobetroubled。
THEDEATHOFJEAN
ThedeathofJeanClemensoccurredearlyinthemorningofDecember24，1909。Mr。ClemenswasingreatstressofmindwhenIfirstsawhim，butafewhourslaterIfoundhimwritingsteadily。
\"Iamsettingitdown，\"hesaid，\"everything。Itisarelieftometowriteit。Itfurnishesmeanexcuseforthinking。\"AtintervalsduringthatdayandthenextIlookedin，andusuallyfoundhimwriting。Thenontheeveningofthe26th，whenheknewthatJeanhadbeenlaidtorestinElmira，hecametomyroomwiththemanuscriptinhishand。
\"Ihavefinishedit，\"hesaid;\"readit。Icanformnoopinionofitmyself。Ifyouthinkitworthy，somedayatthepropertimeitcanendmyautobiography。Itisthefinalchapter。\"
Fourmonthslateralmosttotheday（April21st）hewaswithJean。
AlbertBigelowPaine。
Stormfield，ChristmasEve，11A。M。，1909。
JEANISDEAD！
Hasanyoneevertriedtoputuponpaperallthelittlehappeningsconnectedwithadearonehappeningsofthetwenty
fourhoursprecedingthesuddenandunexpecteddeathofthatdearone？Wouldabookcontainthem？Wouldtwobookscontainthem？
Ithinknot。Theypourintothemindinaflood。Theyarelittlethingsthathavebeenalwayshappeningeveryday，andwerealwayssounimportantandeasilyforgettablebeforebutnow！
Now，howdifferent！howprecioustheyare，nowdear，howunforgettable，howpathetic，howsacred，howclothedwithdignity！
LastnightJean，allflushedwithsplendidhealth，andIthesame，fromthewholesomeeffectsofmyBermudaholiday，strolledhandinhandfromthedinnertableandsatdowninthelibraryandchatted，andplanned，anddiscussed，cheerilyandhappily（andhowunsuspectingly！）untilninewhichislateforusthenwentupstairs，Jean’sfriendlyGermandogfollowing。AtmydoorJeansaid，\"Ican’tkissyougoodnight，father:Ihaveacold，andyoucouldcatchit。\"Ibentandkissedherhand。ShewasmovedIsawitinhereyesandsheimpulsivelykissedmyhandinreturn。Thenwiththeusualgay\"Sleepwell，dear！\"fromboth，weparted。
AthalfpastseventhismorningIwoke，andheardvoicesoutsidemydoor。Isaidtomyself，\"Jeanisstartingonherusualhorsebackflighttothestationforthemail。\"ThenKaty[1]entered，stoodquakingandgaspingatmybedsideamoment，thenfoundhertongue:
\"MISSJEANISDEAD！\"
PossiblyIknownowwhatthesoldierfeelswhenabulletcrashesthroughhisheart。
Inherbathroomthereshelay，thefairyoungcreature，stretcheduponthefloorandcoveredwithasheet。Andlookingsoplacid，sonatural，andasifasleep。Weknewwhathadhappened。Shewasanepileptic:shehadbeenseizedwithaconvulsionandheartfailureinherbath。Thedoctorhadtocomeseveralmiles。Hisefforts，likeourpreviousones，failedtobringherbacktolife。
Itisnoon，now。Howlovableshelooks，howsweetandhowtranquil！Itisanobleface，andfullofdignity;andthatwasagoodheartthatliestheresostill。
InEngland，thirteenyearsago，mywifeandIwerestabbedtotheheartwithacablegramwhichsaid，\"Susywasmercifullyreleasedtoday。\"IhadtosendalikeshottoClara，inBerlin，thismorning。Withtheperemptoryaddition，\"Youmustnotcomehome。\"Claraandherhusbandsailedfromhereonthe11thofthismonth。HowwillClarabearit？Jean，fromherbabyhood，wasaworshiperofClara。
FourdaysagoIcamebackfromamonth’sholidayinBermudainperfectedhealth;butbysomeaccidentthereportersfailedtoperceivethis。Daybeforeyesterday，lettersandtelegramsbegantoarrivefromfriendsandstrangerswhichindicatedthatIwassupposedtobedangerouslyill。YesterdayJeanbeggedmetoexplainmycasethroughtheAssociatedPress。Isaiditwasnotimportantenough;butshewasdistressedandsaidImustthinkofClara。ClarawouldseethereportintheGermanpapers，andasshehadbeennursingherhusbanddayandnightforfourmonths[2]andwaswornoutandfeeble，theshockmightbedisastrous。
Therewasreasoninthat;soIsentahumorousparagraphbytelephonetotheAssociatedPressdenyingthe\"charge\"thatIwas\"dying，\"andsaying\"Iwouldnotdosuchathingatmytimeoflife。\"
Jeanwasalittletroubled，anddidnotliketoseemetreatthemattersolightly;butIsaiditwasbesttotreatitso，fortherewasnothingseriousaboutit。ThismorningIsentthesorrowfulfactsofthisday’sirremediabledisastertotheAssociatedPress。Willbothappearinthisevening’spapers？
theonesoblithe，theothersotragic？
IlostSusythirteenyearsago;Ilosthermotherherincomparablemother！fiveandahalfyearsago;ClarahasgoneawaytoliveinEurope;andnowIhavelostJean。HowpoorIam，whowasoncesorich！SevenmonthsagoMr。RogerdiedoneofthebestfriendsIeverhad，andthenearestperfect，asmanandgentleman，Ihaveyetmetamongmyrace;withinthelastsixweeksGilderhaspassedaway，andLaffanold，oldfriendsofmine。Jeanliesyonder，Isithere;wearestrangersunderourownroof;wekissedhandsgoodbyatthisdoorlastnightanditwasforever，weneversuspectingit。Sheliesthere，andIsitherewriting，busyingmyself，tokeepmyheartfrombreaking。
Howdazzlinglythesunshineisfloodingthehillsaround！Itislikeamockery。
Seventyfouryearsagotwentyfourdaysago。Seventyfouryearsoldyesterday。Whocanestimatemyagetoday？
Ihavelookeduponheragain。IwonderIcanbearit。ShelooksjustashermotherlookedwhenshelaydeadinthatFlorentinevillasolongago。Thesweetplacidityofdeath！itismorebeautifulthansleep。
Isawhermotherburied。IsaidIwouldneverendurethathorroragain;thatIwouldneveragainlookintothegraveofanyonedeartome。Ihavekepttothat。TheywilltakeJeanfromthishousetomorrow，andbearhertoElmira，NewYork，whereliethoseofusthathavebeenreleased，butIshallnotfollow。
Jeanwasonthedockwhentheshipcamein，onlyfourdaysago。Shewasatthedoor，beamingawelcome，whenIreachedthishousethenextevening。Weplayedcards，andshetriedtoteachmeanewgamecalled\"MarkTwain。\"Wesatchattingcheerilyinthelibrarylastnight，andshewouldn’tletmelookintotheloggia，whereshewasmakingChristmaspreparations。Shesaidshewouldfinishtheminthemorning，andthenherlittleFrenchfriendwouldarrivefromNewYorkthesurprisewouldfollow;thesurpriseshehadbeenworkingoverfordays。WhileshewasoutforamomentIdisloyallystolealook。Theloggiafloorwasclothedwithrugsandfurnishedwithchairsandsofas;andtheuncompletedsurprisewasthere:intheformofaChristmastreethatwasdrenchedwithsilverfilminamostwonderfulway;andonatablewasprodigalprofusionofbrightthingswhichshewasgoingtohanguponittoday。Whatdesecratinghandwilleverbanishthateloquentunfinishedsurprisefromthatplace？Notmine，surely。Alltheselittlemattershavehappenedinthelastfourdays。\"Little。\"YesTHEN。Butnotnow。Nothingshesaidorthoughtordidislittlenow。Andallthelavishhumor！whatisbecomeofit？Itispathos，now。Pathos，andthethoughtofitbringstears。
Alltheselittlethingshappenedsuchafewhoursagoandnowsheliesyonder。Liesyonder，andcaresfornothinganymore。Strangemarvelousincredible！Ihavehadthisexperiencebefore;butitwouldstillbeincredibleifIhadhaditathousandtimes。
\"MISSJEANISDEAD！\"
ThatiswhatKatysaid。WhenIheardthedooropenbehindthebed’sheadwithoutapreliminaryknock，IsupposeditwasJeancomingtokissmegoodmorning，shebeingtheonlypersonwhowasusedtoenteringwithoutformalities。
Andso
IhavebeentoJean’sparlor。SuchaturmoilofChristmaspresentsforservantsandfriends！Theyareeverywhere;tables，chairs，sofas，theflooreverythingisoccupied，andover
occupied。ItismanyandmanyayearsinceIhaveseenthelike。
InthatancientdayMrs。ClemensandIusedtoslipsoftlyintothenurseryatmidnightonChristmasEveandlookthearrayofpresentsover。Thechildrenwerelittlethen。AndnowhereisJean’sparlorlookingjustasthatnurseryusedtolook。Thepresentsarenotlabeledthehandsareforeveridlethatwouldhavelabeledthemtoday。Jean’smotheralwaysworkedherselfdownwithherChristmaspreparations。Jeandidthesameyesterdayandtheprecedingdays，andthefatiguehascostherherlife。Thefatiguecausedtheconvulsionthatattackedherthismorning。Shehadhadnoattackformonths。
Jeanwassofulloflifeandenergythatshewasconstantlyisdangerofovertaxingherstrength。Everymorningshewasinthesaddlebyhalfpastseven，andofftothestationforhermail。SheexaminedthelettersandIdistributedthem:sometoher，sometoMr。Paine，theotherstothestenographerandmyself。Shedispatchedhershareandthenmountedherhorseagainandwentaroundsuperintendingherfarmandherpoultrytherestoftheday。Sometimessheplayedbilliardswithmeafterdinner，butshewasusuallytootiredtoplay，andwentearlytobed。
YesterdayafternoonItoldheraboutsomeplansIhadbeendevisingwhileabsentinBermuda，tolightenherburdens。Wewouldgetahousekeeper;alsowewouldputhershareofthesecretaryworkintoMr。Paine’shands。
Noshewasn’twilling。Shehadbeenmakingplansherself。
Thematterendedinacompromise，Isubmitted。Ialwaysdid。
Shewouldn’tauditthebillsandletPainefilloutthechecks
shewouldcontinuetoattendtothatherself。Also，shewouldcontinuetobehousekeeper，andletKatyassist。Also，shewouldcontinuetoanswerthelettersofpersonalfriendsforme。Suchwasthecompromise。Bothofuscalleditbythatname，thoughI
wasnotabletoseewheremyformidablechangehadbeenmade。
However，Jeanwaspleased，andthatwassufficientforme。
Shewasproudofbeingmysecretary，andIwasneverabletopersuadehertogiveupanypartofhershareinthatunlovelywork。
InthetalklastnightIsaidIfoundeverythinggoingsosmoothlythatifshewerewillingIwouldgobacktoBermudainFebruaryandgetblessedlyoutoftheclashandturmoilagainforanothermonth。ShewasurgentthatIshoulddoit，andsaidthatifIwouldputoffthetripuntilMarchshewouldtakeKatyandgowithme。Westruckhandsuponthat，andsaiditwassettled。
IhadamindtowritetoBermudabytomorrow’sshipandsecureafurnishedhouseandservants。Imeanttowritetheletterthismorning。Butitwillneverbewritten，now。
Forsheliesyonder，andbeforeherisanotherjourneythanthat。
Nightisclosingdown;therimofthesunbarelyshowsabovetheskylineofthehills。
Ihavebeenlookingatthatfaceagainthatwasgrowingdeareranddearertomeeveryday。IwasgettingacquaintedwithJeanintheselastninemonths。Shehadbeenlonganexilefromhomewhenshecametousthreequartersofayearago。Shehadbeenshutupinsanitariums，manymilesfromus。Howeloquentgladandgratefulshewastocrossherfather’sthresholdagain！
WouldIbringherbacktolifeifIcoulddoit？Iwouldnot。
Ifawordwoulddoit，Iwouldbegforstrengthtowithholdtheword。AndIwouldhavethestrength;Iamsureofit。InherlossIamalmostbankrupt，andmylifeisabitterness，butI
amcontent:forshehasbeenenrichedwiththemostpreciousofallgiftsthatgiftwhichmakesallothergiftsmeanandpoor
death。IhaveneverwantedanyreleasedfriendofminerestoredtolifesinceIreachedmanhood。IfeltinthiswaywhenSusypassedaway;andlatermywife，andlaterMr。Rogers。WhenClarametmeatthestationinNewYorkandtoldmeMr。Rogershaddiedsuddenlythatmorning，mythoughtwas，Oh，favoriteoffortune
fortunateallhislongandlovelylifefortunatetohislatestmoment！Thereporterssaidthereweretearsofsorrowinmyeyes。TruebuttheywereforME，notforhim。Hehadsufferednoloss。Allthefortuneshehadevermadebeforewerepovertycomparedwiththisone。
WhydidIbuildthishouse，twoyearsago？Toshelterthisvastemptiness？HowfoolishIwas！ButIshallstayinit。Thespiritsofthedeadhallowahouse，forme。Itwasnotsowithothermembersofthefamily。SusydiedinthehousewebuiltinHartford。Mrs。Clemenswouldneverenteritagain。Butitmadethehousedearertome。Ihaveentereditoncesince，whenitwastenantlessandsilentandforlorn，buttomeitwasaholyplaceandbeautiful。Itseemedtomethatthespiritsofthedeadwereallaboutme，andwouldspeaktomeandwelcomemeiftheycould:Livy，andSusy，andGeorge，andHenryRobinson，andCharlesDudleyWarner。Howgoodandkindtheywere，andhowlovabletheirlives！InfancyIcouldseethemallagain，I
couldcallthechildrenbackandhearthemrompagainwithGeorgethatpeerlessblackexslaveandchildren’sidolwhocameonedayaflittingstrangertowashwindows，andstayedeighteenyears。Untilhedied。ClaraandJeanwouldneverenteragaintheNewYorkhotelwhichtheirmotherhadfrequentedinearlierdays。Theycouldnotbearit。ButIshallstayinthishouse。Itisdearertometonightthaneveritwasbefore。
Jean’sspiritwillmakeitbeautifulformealways。HerlonelyandtragicdeathbutIwillnotthinkofthatnow。
Jean’smotheralwaysdevotedtwoorthreeweekstoChristmasshopping，andwasalwaysphysicallyexhaustedwhenChristmasEvecame。Jeanwasherveryownchildsheworeherselfoutpresent
huntinginNewYorktheselatterdays。Painehasjustfoundonherdeskalonglistofnamesfifty，hethinkspeopletowhomshesentpresentslastnight。Apparentlysheforgotnoone。AndKatyfoundtherearollofbanknotes，fortheservants。
Herdoghasbeenwanderingaboutthegroundstoday，comradelessandforlorn。Ihaveseenhimfromthewindows。ShegothimfromGermany。Hehastallearsandlooksexactlylikeawolf。HewaseducatedinGermany，andknowsnolanguagebuttheGerman。Jeangavehimnoorderssaveinthattongue。Andsowhentheburglaralarmmadeafierceclamoratmidnightafortnightago，thebutler，whoisFrenchandknowsnoGerman，triedinvaintointerestthedoginthesupposedburglar。Jeanwroteme，toBermuda，abouttheincident。ItwasthelastletterIwasevertoreceivefromherbrightheadandhercompetenthand。
Thedogwillnotbeneglected。
TherewasneverakinderheartthanJean’s。Fromherchildhoodupshealwaysspentthemostofherallowanceoncharitiesofonekindoranother。Aftershebecamesecretaryandhadherincomedoubledshespenthermoneyuponthesethingswithafreehand。Minetoo，Iamgladandgratefultosay。
Shewasaloyalfriendtoallanimals，andshelovedthemall，birds，beasts，andeverythingevensnakesaninheritancefromme。Sheknewallthebirds;shewashighupinthatlore。
Shebecameamemberofvarioushumanesocietieswhenshewasstillalittlegirlbothhereandabroadandsheremainedanactivemembertothelast。Shefoundedtwoorthreesocietiesfortheprotectionofanimals，hereandinEurope。
Shewasanembarrassingsecretary，forshefishedmycorrespondenceoutofthewastebasketandansweredtheletters。
Shethoughtalllettersdeservedthecourtesyofananswer。
Hermotherbroughtherupinthatkindlyerror。
Shecouldwriteagoodletter，andwasswiftwithherpen。
Shehadbutanindifferentearmusic，buthertonguetooktolanguageswithaneasyfacility。SheneverallowedherItalian，French，andGermantogetrustythroughneglect。
Thetelegramsofsympathyareflowingin，fromfarandwide，now，justastheydidinItalyfiveyearsandahalfago，whenthischild’smotherlaiddownherblamelesslife。Theycannothealthehurt，buttheytakeawaysomeofthepain。WhenJeanandIkissedhandsandpartedatmydoorlast，howlittledidweimaginethatintwentytwohoursthetelegraphwouldbebringingwordslikethese:
\"Fromthebottomofourheartswesendoutsympathy，dearestoffriends。\"
Formanyandmanyadaytocome，whereverIgointhishouse，remembrancersofJeanwillmutelyspeaktomeofher。Whocancountthenumberofthem？
Shewasinexiletwoyearswiththehopeofhealinghermaladyepilepsy。TherearenowordstoexpresshowgratefulI
amthatshedidnotmeetherfateinthehandsofstrangers，butinthelovingshelterofherownhome。
\"MISSJEANISDEAD！\"
Itistrue。Jeanisdead。
AmonthagoIwaswritingbubblingandhilariousarticlesformagazinesyettoappear，andnowIamwritingthis。
CHRISTMASDAY。NOON。LastnightIwenttoJean’sroomatintervals，andturnedbackthesheetandlookedatthepeacefulface，andkissedthecoldbrow，andrememberedthatheartbreakingnightinFlorencesolongago，inthatcavernousandsilentvastvilla，whenIcreptdownstairssomanytimes，andturnedbackasheetandlookedatafacejustlikethisoneJean’smother’sfaceandkissedabrowthatwasjustlikethisone。AndlastnightIsawagainwhatIhadseenthenthatstrangeandlovelymiraclethesweet，softcontoursofearlymaidenhoodrestoredbythegracioushandofdeath！WhenJean’smotherlaydead，alltraceofcare，andtrouble，andsuffering，andthecorrodingyearshadvanishedoutoftheface，andIwaslookingagainuponitasIhadknownandworshippeditinitsyoungbloomandbeautyawholegenerationbefore。
Aboutthreeinthemorning，whilewanderingaboutthehouseinthedeepsilences，asonediesintimeslikethese，whenthereisadumbsensethatsomethinghasbeenlostthatwillneverbefoundagain，yetmustbesought，ifonlyfortheemploymenttheuselessseekinggives，IcameuponJean’sdoginthehalldownstairs，andnotedthathedidnotspringtogreetme，accordingtohishospitablehabit，butcameslowandsorrowfully;
alsoIrememberedthathehadnotvisitedJean’sapartmentsincethetragedy。Poorfellow，didheknow？Ithinkso。AlwayswhenJeanwasabroadintheopenhewaswithher;alwayswhenshewasinthehousehewaswithher，inthenightaswellasintheday。
Herparlorwashisbedroom。WheneverIhappeneduponhimonthegroundfloorhealwaysfollowedmeabout，andwhenIwentupstairshewenttooinatumultuousgallop。Butnowitwasdifferent:afterpattinghimalittleIwenttothelibraryheremainedbehind;whenIwentupstairshedidnotfollowme，savewithhiswistfuleyes。Hehaswonderfuleyesbig，andkind，andeloquent。Hecantalkwiththem。Heisabeautifulcreature，andisofthebreedoftheNewYorkpolicedogs。Idonotlikedogs，becausetheybarkwhenthereisnooccasionforit;butI
havelikedthisonefromthebeginning，becausehebelongedtoJean，andbecauseheneverbarksexceptwhenthereisoccasion
whichisnotoftenerthantwiceaweek。
InmywanderingsIvisitedJean’sparlor。OnashelfI
foundapileofmybooks，andIknewwhatitmeant。ShewaswaitingformetocomehomefromBermudaandautographthem，thenshewouldsendthemaway。IfIonlyknewwhomsheintendedthemfor！ButIshallneverknow。Iwillkeepthem。Herhandhastouchedthemitisanaccoladetheyarenoble，now。
AndinaclosetshehadhiddenasurpriseformeathingI
haveoftenwishedIowned:anoblebigglobe。Icouldn’tseeitforthetears。ShewillneverknowtheprideItakeinit，andthepleasure。Todaythemailsarefulloflovingremembrancesforher:fullofthoseold，oldkindwordsshelovedsowell，\"MerryChristmastoJean！\"Ifshecouldonlyhavelivedonedaylonger！
Atlastsheranoutofmoney，andwouldnotusemine。SoshesenttooneofthoseNewYorkhomesforpoorgirlsalltheclothesshecouldspareandmore，mostlikely。
CHRISTMASNIGHT。Thisafternoontheytookherawayfromherroom。AssoonasImight，Iwentdowntothelibrary，andthereshelay，inhercoffin，dressedinexactlythesameclothessheworewhenshestoodattheotherendofthesameroomonthe6thofOctoberlast，asClara’schiefbridesmaid。Herfacewasradiantwithhappyexcitementthen;itwasthesamefacenow，withthedignityofdeathandthepeaceofGoduponit。
Theytoldmethefirstmournertocomewasthedog。Hecameuninvited，andstooduponhishindlegsandrestedhisforepawsuponthetrestle，andtookalastlonglookatthefacethatwassodeartohim，thenwenthiswayassilentlyashehadcome。
HEKNOWS。
Atmidafternoonitbegantosnow。ThepityofitthatJeancouldnotseeit！Shesolovedthesnow。
Thesnowcontinuedtofall。Atsixo’clockthehearsedrewuptothedoortobearawayitspatheticburden。Astheyliftedthecasket，PainebeganplayingontheorchestrelleSchubert’s\"Impromptu，\"whichwasJean’sfavorite。ThenheplayedtheIntermezzo;thatwasforSusy;thenheplayedtheLargo;thatwasfortheirmother。Hedidthisatmyrequest。ElsewhereinmyAutobiographyIhavetoldhowtheIntermezzoandtheLargocametobeassociatedinmyheartwithSusyandLivyintheirlasthoursinthislife。
FrommywindowsIsawthehearseandthecarriageswindalongtheroadandgraduallygrowvagueandspectralinthefallingsnow，andpresentlydisappear。Jeanwasgoneoutofmylife，andwouldnotcomebackanymore。Jervis，thecousinshehadplayedwithwhentheywerebabiestogetherheandherbelovedoldKatywereconductinghertoherdistantchildhoodhome，whereshewillliebyhermother’ssideoncemore，inthecompanyofSusyandLangdon。
DECEMBER26TH。Thedogcametoseemeateighto’clockthismorning。Hewasveryaffectionate，poororphan！Myroomwillbehisquartershereafter。
Thestormragedallnight。Ithasragedallthemorning。
Thesnowdrivesacrossthelandscapeinvastclouds，superb，sublimeandJeannotheretosee。
2:30P。M。Itisthetimeappointed。Thefuneralhasbegun。
Fourhundredmilesaway，butIcanseeitall，justasifIwerethere。ThesceneisthelibraryintheLangdonhomestead。
Jean’scoffinstandswherehermotherandIstood，fortyyearsago，andweremarried;andwhereSusy’scoffinstoodthirteenyearsago;wherehermother’sstoodfiveyearsandahalfago;
andwhereminewillstandafteralittletime。
FIVEO’CLOCK。Itisallover。
WhenClarawentawaytwoweeksagotoliveinEurope，itwashard，butIcouldbearit，forIhadJeanleft。IsaidWEwouldbeafamily。Wesaidwewouldbeclosecomradesandhappyjustwetwo。ThatfairdreamwasinmymindwhenJeanmetmeatthesteamerlastMonday;itwasinmymindwhenshereceivedmeatthedoorlastTuesdayevening。Weweretogether;WEWEREA
FAMILY！thedreamhadcometrueoh，preciselytrue，contentedly，true，satisfyinglytrue！andremainedtruetwowholedays。
Andnow？NowJeanisinhergrave！
InthegraveifIcanbelieveit。Godresthersweetspirit！
1。KatyLeary，whohadbeenintheserviceoftheClemensfamilyfortwentynineyears。
2。Mr。Gabrilowitschhadbeenoperatedonforappendicitis。
THETURNINGPOINTOFMYLIFE
I
IfIunderstandtheidea，theBAZARinvitesseveralofustowriteupontheabovetext。Itmeansthechangeinmylife’scoursewhichintroducedwhatmustberegardedbymeasthemostIMPORTANTconditionofmycareer。Butitalsoimplieswithoutintention，perhapsthatthatturningpointITSELFwasthecreatorofthenewcondition。Thisgivesittoomuchdistinction，toomuchprominence，toomuchcredit。ItisonlytheLASTlinkinaverylongchainofturningpointscommissionedtoproducethecardinalresult;itisnotanymoreimportantthanthehumblestofitstenthousandpredecessors。Eachofthetenthousanddiditsappointedshare，onitsappointeddate，inforwardingthescheme，andtheywereallnecessary;tohaveleftoutanyoneofthemwouldhavedefeatedtheschemeandbroughtaboutSOMEOTHERresult。Itknowwehaveafashionofsaying\"suchandsuchaneventwastheturningpointinmylife，\"butweshouldn’tsayit。WeshouldmerelygrantthatitsplaceasLAST
linkinthechainmakesitthemostCONSPICUOUSlink;inrealimportanceithasnoadvantageoveranyoneofitspredecessors。
PerhapsthemostcelebratedturningpointrecordedinhistorywasthecrossingoftheRubicon。Suetoniussays:
ComingupwithhistroopsonthebanksoftheRubicon，hehaltedforawhile，and，revolvinginhismindtheimportanceofthestephewasonthepointoftaking，heturnedtothoseabouthimandsaid，\"Wemaystillretreat;butifwepassthislittlebridge，nothingisleftforusbuttofightitoutinarms。\"
Thiswasastupendouslyimportantmoment。Andalltheincidents，bigandlittle，ofCaesar’spreviouslifehadbeenleadinguptoit，stagebystage，linkbylink。ThiswastheLASTlinkmerelythelastone，andnobiggerthantheothers;
butaswegazebackatitthroughtheinflatingmistsofourimagination，itlooksasbigastheorbitofNeptune。
You，thereader，haveaPERSONALinterestinthatlink，andsohaveI;sohastherestofthehumanrace。Itwasoneofthelinksinyourlifechain，anditwasoneofthelinksinmine。
Wemaywait，now，withbaitedbreath，whileCaesarreflects。
Yourfateandmineareinvolvedinhisdecision。
Whilehewasthushesitating，thefollowingincidentoccurred。Apersonremarkedforhisnoblemienandgracefulaspectappearedcloseathand，sittingandplayinguponapipe。
Whennotonlytheshepherds，butanumberofsoldiersalso，flockedtolistentohim，andsometrumpetersamongthem，hesnatchedatrumpetfromoneofthem，rantotheriverwithit，and，soundingtheadvancewithapiercingblast，crossedtotheotherside。Uponthis，Caesarexclaimed:\"Letusgowhithertheomensofthegodsandtheiniquityofourenemiescallup。
THEDIEISCAST。\"
Sohecrossedandchangedthefutureofthewholehumanrace，foralltime。ButthatstrangerwasalinkinCaesar’slifechain，too;andanecessaryone。Wedon’tknowhisname，weneverhearofhimagain;hewasverycasual;heactslikeanaccident;buthewasnoaccident，hewastherebycompulsionofHISlifechain，toblowtheelectrifyingblastthatwastomakeupCaesar’smindforhim，andthencegopipingdowntheaislesofhistoryforever。
Ifthestrangerhadn’tbeenthere！ButheWAS。AndCaesarcrossed。Withsuchresults！SuchvasteventseachalinkintheHUMANRACE’Slifechain;eacheventproducingthenextone，andthatonethenextone，andsoon:thedestructionoftherepublic;thefoundingoftheempire;thebreakingupoftheempire;theriseofChristianityuponitsruins;thespreadofthereligiontootherlandsandsoon;linkbylinktookitsappointedplaceatitsappointedtime，thediscoveryofAmericabeingoneofthem;ourRevolutionanother;theinflowofEnglishandotherimmigrantsanother;theirdriftwestward（myancestorsamongthem）another;thesettlementofcertainoftheminMissouri，whichresultedinME。ForIwasoneoftheunavoidableresultsofthecrossingoftheRubicon。Ifthestranger，withhistrumpetblast，hadstayedaway（whichheCOULDN’T，forhewastheappointedlink）Caesarwouldnothavecrossed。Whatwouldhavehappened，inthatcase，wecanneverguess。Weonlyknowthatthethingsthatdidhappenwouldnothavehappened。Theymighthavebeenreplacedbyequallyprodigiousthings，ofcourse，buttheirnatureandresultsarebeyondourguessing。ButthematterthatinterestsmepersonallyisthatIwouldnotbeHERE
now，butsomewhereelse;andprobablyblackthereisnotelling。
Verywell，Iamgladhecrossed。Andveryreallyandthankfullyglad，too，thoughInevercaredanythingaboutitbefore。
II
Tome，themostimportantfeatureofmylifeisitsliteraryfeature。Ihavebeenprofessionallyliterarysomethingmorethanfortyyears。Therehavebeenmanyturningpointsinmylife，buttheonethatwasthelinkinthechainappointedtoconductmetotheliteraryguildisthemostCONSPICUOUSlinkinthatchain。
BECAUSEitwasthelastone。Itwasnotanymoreimportantthanitspredecessors。Alltheotherlinkshaveaninconspicuouslook，exceptthecrossingoftheRubicon;butasfactorsinmakingmeliterarytheyarealloftheonesize，thecrossingoftheRubiconincluded。
IknowhowIcametobeliterary，andIwilltellthestepsthatleaduptoitandbroughtitabout。
ThecrossingoftheRubiconwasnotthefirstone，itwashardlyevenarecentone;IshouldhavetogobackagesbeforeCaesar’sdaytofindthefirstone。TosavespaceIwillgobackonlyacoupleofgenerationsandstartwithanincidentofmyboyhood。WhenIwastwelveandahalfyearsold，myfatherdied。
Itwasinthespring。Thesummercame，andbroughtwithitanepidemicofmeasles。Foratimeachilddiedalmosteveryday。
Thevillagewasparalyzedwithfright，distress，despair。
Childrenthatwerenotsmittenwiththediseasewereimprisonedintheirhomestosavethemfromtheinfection。Inthehomestherewerenocheerfulfaces，therewasnomusic，therewasnosingingbutofsolemnhymns，novoicebutofprayer，norompingwasallowed，nonoise，nolaughter，thefamilymovedspectrallyaboutontiptoe，inaghostlyhush。Iwasaprisoner。Mysoulwassteepedinthisawfuldrearinessandinfear。Atsometimeorothereverydayandeverynightasuddenshivershookmetothemarrow，andIsaidtomyself，\"There，I’vegotit！andI
shalldie。\"Lifeonthesemiserabletermswasnotworthliving，andatlastImadeupmymindtogetthediseaseandhaveitover，onewayortheother。Iescapedfromthehouseandwenttothehouseofaneighborwhereaplaymateofminewasveryillwiththemalady。WhenthechanceofferedIcreptintohisroomandgotintobedwithhim。Iwasdiscoveredbyhismotherandsentbackintocaptivity。ButIhadthedisease;theycouldnottakethatfromme。Icameneartodying。Thewholevillagewasinterested，andanxious，andsentfornewsofmeeveryday;andnotonlyonceaday，butseveraltimes。EverybodybelievedI
woulddie;butonthefourteenthdayachangecamefortheworseandtheyweredisappointed。
Thiswasaturningpointofmylife。（Linknumberone。）
ForwhenIgotwellmymotherclosedmyschoolcareerandapprenticedmetoaprinter。Shewastiredoftryingtokeepmeoutofmischief，andtheadventureofthemeaslesdecidedhertoputmeintomoremasterfulhandsthanhers。
Ibecameaprinter，andbegantoaddonelinkafteranothertothechainwhichwastoleadmeintotheliteraryprofession。
Alongroad，butIcouldnotknowthat;andasIdidnotknowwhatitsgoalwas，oreventhatithadone，Iwasindifferent。
Alsocontented。
Ayoungprinterwandersaroundagooddeal，seekingandfindingwork;andseekingagain，whennecessitycommands。N。B。
NecessityisaCIRCUMSTANCE;Circumstanceisman’smasterandwhenCircumstancecommands，hemustobey;hemayarguethematterthatishisprivilege，justasitisthehonorableprivilegeofafallingbodytoarguewiththeattractionofgravitationbutitwon’tdoanygood，hemustOBEY。Iwanderedfortenyears，undertheguidanceanddictatorshipofCircumstance，andfinallyarrivedinacityofIowa，whereI
workedseveralmonths。AmongthebooksthatinterestedmeinthosedayswasoneabouttheAmazon。ThetravelertoldanalluringtaleofhislongvoyageupthegreatriverfromParatothesourcesoftheMadeira，throughtheheartofanenchantedland，alandwastefullyrichintropicalwonders，aromanticlandwhereallthebirdsandflowersandanimalswereofthemuseumvarieties，andwherethealligatorandthecrocodileandthemonkeyseemedasmuchathomeasiftheywereintheZoo。Also，hetoldanastonishingtaleaboutCOCA，avegetableproductofmiraculouspowers，assertingthatitwassonourishingandsostrengthgivingthatthenativeofthemountainsoftheMadeiraregionwouldtrampuphillanddownalldayonapinchofpowderedcocaandrequirenoothersustenance。
