ItcouldcertainlynotbethefaultofMrs。Bart,whowasspokenofbyherfriendsasa\"wonderfulmanager。\"Mrs。Bartwasfamousfortheunlimitedeffectsheproducedonlimitedmeans;andtotheladyandheracquaintancestherewassomethingheroicinlivingasthoughoneweremuchricherthanone’sbank-bookdenoted。
Lilywasnaturallyproudofhermother’saptitudeinthisline:
shehadbeenbroughtupinthefaiththat,whateveritcost,onemusthaveagoodcook,andbewhatMrs。Bartcalled\"decentlydressed。\"Mrs。Bart’sworstreproachtoherhusbandwastoaskhimifheexpectedherto\"livelikeapig\";andhisreplyinginthenegativewasalwaysregardedasajustificationforcablingtoParisforanextradressortwo,andtelephoningtothejewellerthathemight,afterall,sendhometheturquoisebraceletwhichMrs。Barthadlookedatthatmorning。
Lilyknewpeoplewho\"livedlikepigs,\"andtheirappearanceandsurroundingsjustifiedhermother’srepugnancetothatformofexistence。Theyweremostlycousins,whoinhabiteddingyhouseswithengravingsfromCole’sVoyageofLifeonthedrawing-roomwalls,andslatternlyparlour-maidswhosaid\"I’llgoandsee\"tovisitorscallingatanhourwhenallright-mindedpersonsareconventionallyifnotactuallyout。Thedisgustingpartofitwasthatmanyofthesecousinswererich,sothatLilyimbibedtheideathatifpeoplelivedlikepigsitwasfromchoice,andthroughthelackofanyproperstandardofconduct。
Thisgaveherasenseofreflectedsuperiority,andshedidnotneedMrs。Bart’scommentsonthefamilyfrumpsandmiserstofosterhernaturallylivelytasteforsplendour。
Lilywasnineteenwhencircumstancescausedhertoreviseherviewoftheuniverse。
Thepreviousyearshehadmadeadazzlingdebutfringedbyaheavythunder-cloudofbills。Thelightofthedebutstilllingeredonthehorizon,butthecloudhadthickened;andsuddenlyitbroke。Thesuddennessaddedtothehorror;andtherewerestilltimeswhenLilyrelivedwithpainfulvividnesseverydetailofthedayonwhichtheblowfell。Sheandhermotherhadbeenseatedattheluncheon-table,overtheCHAUFROIXandcoldsalmonofthepreviousnight’sdinner:itwasoneofMrs。Bart’sfeweconomiestoconsumeinprivatetheexpensiveremnantsofherhospitality。Lilywasfeelingthepleasantlanguorwhichisyouth’spenaltyfordancingtilldawn;buthermother,inspiteofafewlinesaboutthemouth,andundertheyellowwavesonhertemples,wasasalert,determinedandhighincolourasifshehadrisenfromanuntroubledsleep。
Inthecentreofthetable,betweenthemeltingMARRONSGLACES
andcandiedcherries,apyramidofAmericanBeautiesliftedtheirvigorousstems;theyheldtheirheadsashighasMrs。Bart,buttheirrose-colourhadturnedtoadissipatedpurple,andLily’ssenseoffitnesswasdisturbedbytheirreappearanceontheluncheon-table。
\"Ireallythink,mother,\"shesaidreproachfully,\"wemightaffordafewfreshflowersforluncheon。Justsomejonquilsorlilies-of-the-valley——\"
Mrs。Bartstared。Herownfastidiousnesshaditseyefixedontheworld,andshedidnotcarehowtheluncheon-tablelookedwhentherewasnoonepresentatitbutthefamily。Butshesmiledatherdaughter’sinnocence。
\"Lilies-of-the-valley,\"shesaidcalmly,\"costtwodollarsadozenatthisseason。\"
Lilywasnotimpressed。Sheknewverylittleofthevalueofmoney。
\"Itwouldnottakemorethansixdozentofillthatbowl,\"sheargued。
\"Sixdozenwhat?\"askedherfather’svoiceinthedoorway。
Thetwowomenlookedupinsurprise;thoughitwasaSaturday,thesightofMr。Bartatluncheonwasanunwontedone。Butneitherhiswifenorhisdaughterwassufficientlyinterestedtoaskanexplanation。
Mr。Bartdroppedintoachair,andsatgazingabsentlyatthefragmentofjelliedsalmonwhichthebutlerhadplacedbeforehim。
\"Iwasonlysaying,\"Lilybegan,\"thatIhatetoseefadedflowersatluncheon;andmothersaysabunchoflilies-of-the-
valleywouldnotcostmorethantwelvedollars。Mayn’tItellthefloristtosendafeweveryday?\"
Sheleanedconfidentlytowardherfather:heseldomrefusedheranything,andMrs。Barthadtaughthertopleadwithhimwhenherownentreatiesfailed。
Mr。Bartsatmotionless,hisgazestillfixedonthesalmon,andhislowerjawdropped;helookedevenpalerthanusual,andhisthinhairlayinuntidystreaksonhisforehead。Suddenlyhelookedathisdaughterandlaughed。ThelaughwassostrangethatLilycolouredunderit:shedislikedbeingridiculed,andherfatherseemedtoseesomethingridiculousintherequest。Perhapshethoughtitfoolishthatsheshouldtroublehimaboutsuchatrifle。
\"Twelvedollars——twelvedollarsadayforflowers?Oh,certainly,mydear——givehimanorderfortwelvehundred。\"Hecontinuedtolaugh。
Mrs。Bartgavehimaquickglance。
\"Youneedn’twait,Poleworth——Iwillringforyou,\"shesaidtothebutler。
Thebutlerwithdrewwithanairofsilentdisapproval,leavingtheremainsoftheCHAUFROIXonthesideboard。
\"Whatisthematter,Hudson?Areyouill?\"saidMrs。Bartseverely。
Shehadnotoleranceforsceneswhichwerenotofherownmaking,anditwasodioustoherthatherhusbandshouldmakeashowofhimselfbeforetheservants。
\"Areyouill?\"sherepeated。
\"Ill?——No,I’mruined,\"hesaid。
Lilymadeafrightenedsound,andMrs。Bartrosetoherfeet。
\"Ruined——?\"shecried;butcontrollingherselfinstantly,sheturnedacalmfacetoLily。
\"Shutthepantrydoor,\"shesaid。
Lilyobeyed,andwhensheturnedbackintotheroomherfatherwassittingwithbothelbowsonthetable,theplateofsalmonbetweenthem,andhisheadbowedonhishands。
Mrs。Bartstoodoverhimwithawhitefacewhichmadeherhairunnaturallyyellow。ShelookedatLilyasthelatterapproached:
herlookwasterrible,buthervoicewasmodulatedtoaghastlycheerfulness。
\"Yourfatherisnotwell——hedoesn’tknowwhatheissaying。Itisnothing——butyouhadbettergoupstairs;anddon’ttalktotheservants,\"sheadded。
Lilyobeyed;shealwaysobeyedwhenhermotherspokeinthatvoice。ShehadnotbeendeceivedbyMrs。Bart’swords:sheknewatoncethattheywereruined。Inthedarkhourswhichfollowed,thatawfulfactovershadowedevenherfather’sslowanddifficultdying。Tohiswifehenolongercounted:hehadbecomeextinctwhenheceasedtofulfilhispurpose,andshesatathissidewiththeprovisionalairofatravellerwhowaitsforabelatedtraintostart。Lily’sfeelingsweresofter:shepitiedhiminafrightenedineffectualway。Butthefactthathewasforthemostpartunconscious,andthathisattention,whenshestoleintotheroom,driftedawayfromherafteramoment,madehimevenmoreofastrangerthaninthenurserydayswhenhehadnevercomehometillafterdark。Sheseemedalwaystohaveseenhimthroughablur——firstofsleepiness,thenofdistanceandindifference——
andnowthefoghadthickenedtillhewasalmostindistinguishable。Ifshecouldhaveperformedanylittleservicesforhim,orhaveexchangedwithhimafewofthoseaffectingwordswhichanextensiveperusaloffictionhadledhertoconnectwithsuchoccasions,thefilialinstinctmighthavestirredinher;butherpity,findingnoactiveexpression,remainedinastateofspectatorship,overshadowedbyhermother’sgrimunflaggingresentment。EverylookandactofMrs。
Bart’sseemedtosay:\"Youaresorryforhimnow——butyouwillfeeldifferentlywhenyouseewhathehasdonetous。\"
ItwasarelieftoLilywhenherfatherdied。
Thenalongwintersetin。Therewasalittlemoneyleft,buttoMrs。Bartitseemedworsethannothing——themeremockeryofwhatshewasentitledto。Whatwastheuseoflivingifonehadtolivelikeapig?Shesankintoakindoffuriousapathy,astateofinertangeragainstfate。Herfacultyfor\"managing\"desertedher,orshenolongertooksufficientprideinittoexertit。Itwaswellenoughto\"manage\"whenbysodoingonecouldkeepone’sowncarriage;butwhenone’sbestcontrivancedidnotconcealthefactthatonehadtogoonfoot,theeffortwasnolongerworthmaking。
Lilyandhermotherwanderedfromplacetoplace,nowpayinglongvisitstorelationswhosehouse-keepingMrs。Bartcriticized,andwhodeploredthefactthatsheletLilybreakfastinbedwhenthegirlhadnoprospectsbeforeher,andnowvegetatingincheapcontinentalrefuges,whereMrs。Bartheldherselffiercelyalooffromthefrugaltea-tablesofhercompanionsinmisfortune。Shewasespeciallycarefultoavoidheroldfriendsandthescenesofherformersuccesses。Tobepoorseemedtohersuchaconfessionoffailurethatitamountedtodisgrace;andshedetectedanoteofcondescensioninthefriendliestadvances。
Onlyonethoughtconsoledher,andthatwasthecontemplationofLily’sbeauty。Shestudieditwithakindofpassion,asthoughitweresomeweaponshehadslowlyfashionedforhervengeance。
Itwasthelastassetintheirfortunes,thenucleusaroundwhichtheirlifewastoberebuilt。Shewatcheditjealously,asthoughitwereherownpropertyandLilyitsmerecustodian;andshetriedtoinstilintothelatterasenseoftheresponsibilitythatsuchachargeinvolved。Shefollowedinimaginationthecareerofotherbeauties,pointingouttoherdaughterwhatmightbeachievedthroughsuchagift,anddwellingontheawfulwarningofthosewho,inspiteofit,hadfailedtogetwhattheywanted:toMrs。Bart,onlystupiditycouldexplainthelamentabledenouementofsomeofherexamples。Shewasnotabovetheinconsistencyofchargingfate,ratherthanherself,withherownmisfortunes;butsheinveighedsoacrimoniouslyagainstlove-matchesthatLilywouldhavefanciedherownmarriagehadbeenofthatnature,hadnotMrs。Bartfrequentlyassuredherthatshehadbeen\"talkedintoit\"——bywhom,shenevermadeclear。
Lilywasdulyimpressedbythemagnitudeofheropportunities。
Thedinginessofherpresentlifethrewintoenchantingrelieftheexistencetowhichshefeltherselfentitled。ToalessilluminatedintelligenceMrs。Bart’scounselsmighthavebeendangerous;butLilyunderstoodthatbeautyisonlytherawmaterialofconquest,andthattoconvertitintosuccessotherartsarerequired。Sheknewthattobetrayanysenseofsuperioritywasasubtlerformofthestupidityhermotherdenounced,anditdidnottakeherlongtolearnthatabeautyneedsmoretactthanthepossessorofanaveragesetoffeatures。
HerambitionswerenotascrudeasMrs。Bart’s。Ithadbeenamongthatlady’sgrievancesthatherhusband——intheearlydays,beforehewastootired——hadwastedhiseveningsinwhatshevaguelydescribedas\"readingpoetry\";andamongtheeffectspackedofftoauctionafterhisdeathwereascoreortwoofdingyvolumeswhichhadstruggledforexistenceamongthebootsandmedicinebottlesofhisdressing-roomshelves。TherewasinLilyaveinofsentiment,perhapstransmittedfromthissource,whichgaveanidealizingtouchtohermostprosaicpurposes。Shelikedtothinkofherbeautyasapowerforgood,asgivinghertheopportunitytoattainapositionwheresheshouldmakeherinfluencefeltinthevaguediffusionofrefinementandgoodtaste。Shewasfondofpicturesandflowers,andofsentimentalfiction,andshecouldnothelpthinkingthatthepossessionofsuchtastesennobledherdesireforworldlyadvantages。Shewouldnotindeedhavecaredtomarryamanwhowasmerelyrich:shewassecretlyashamedofhermother’scrudepassionformoney。
Lily’spreferencewouldhavebeenforanEnglishnoblemanwithpoliticalambitionsandvastestates;or,forsecondchoice,anItalianprincewithacastleintheApenninesandanhereditaryofficeintheVatican。Lostcauseshadaromanticcharmforher,andshelikedtopictureherselfasstandingalooffromthevulgarpressoftheQuirinal,andsacrificingherpleasuretotheclaimsofanimmemorialtradition……
Howlongagoandhowfaroffitallseemed!ThoseambitionswerehardlymorefutileandchildishthantheearlieroneswhichhadcentredaboutthepossessionofaFrenchjointeddollwithrealhair。WasitonlytenyearssinceshehadwaveredinimaginationbetweentheEnglishearlandtheItalianprince?Relentlesslyhermindtravelledonoverthedrearyinterval……
AftertwoyearsofhungryroamingMrs。Barthaddied——diedofadeepdisgust。Shehadhateddinginess,anditwasherfatetobedingy。HervisionsofabrilliantmarriageforLilyhadfadedafterthefirstyear。
\"Peoplecan’tmarryyouiftheydon’tseeyou——andhowcantheyseeyouintheseholeswherewe’restuck?\"Thatwastheburdenofherlament;andherlastadjurationtoherdaughterwastoescapefromdinginessifshecould。
\"Don’tletitcreepuponyouanddragyoudown。Fightyourwayoutofitsomehow——you’reyoungandcandoit,\"sheinsisted。
ShehaddiedduringoneoftheirbriefvisitstoNewYork,andthereLilyatoncebecamethecentreofafamilycouncilcomposedofthewealthyrelativeswhomshehadbeentaughttodespiseforlivinglikepigs。Itmaybethattheyhadaninklingofthesentimentsinwhichshehadbeenbroughtup,fornoneofthemmanifestedaverylivelydesireforhercompany;indeed,thequestionthreatenedtoremainunsolvedtillMrs。Penistonwithasighannounced:\"I’lltryherforayear。\"
Everyonewassurprised,butoneandallconcealedtheirsurprise,lestMrs。Penistonshouldbealarmedbyitintoreconsideringherdecision。
Mrs。PenistonwasMr。Bart’swidowedsister,andifshewasbynomeanstherichestofthefamilygroup,itsothermembersneverthelessaboundedinreasonswhyshewasclearlydestinedbyProvidencetoassumethechargeofLily。Inthefirstplaceshewasalone,anditwouldbecharmingforhertohaveayoungcompanion。Thenshesometimestravelled,andLily’sfamiliaritywithforeigncustoms——deploredasamisfortunebyhermoreconservativerelatives——wouldatleastenablehertoactasakindofcourier。ButasamatteroffactMrs。Penistonhadnotbeenaffectedbytheseconsiderations。Shehadtakenthegirlsimplybecausenooneelsewouldhaveher,andbecauseshehadthekindofmoralMAUVAISEHONTEwhichmakesthepublicdisplayofselfishnessdifficult,thoughitdoesnotinterferewithitsprivateindulgence。ItwouldhavebeenimpossibleforMrs。
Penistontobeheroiconadesertisland,butwiththeeyesofherlittleworlduponhershetookacertainpleasureinheract。
Shereapedtherewardtowhichdisinterestednessisentitled,andfoundanagreeablecompanioninherniece。ShehadexpectedtofindLilyheadstrong,criticaland\"foreign\"——forevenMrs。
Peniston,thoughsheoccasionallywentabroad,hadthefamilydreadofforeignness——butthegirlshowedapliancy,which,toamorepenetratingmindthanheraunt’s,mighthavebeenlessreassuringthantheopenselfishnessofyouth。MisfortunehadmadeLilysuppleinsteadofhardeningher,andapliablesubstanceislesseasytobreakthanastiffone。
Mrs。Peniston,however,didnotsufferfromherniece’sadaptability。Lilyhadnointentionoftakingadvantageofheraunt’sgoodnature。Shewasintruthgratefulfortherefugeofferedher:Mrs。Peniston’sopulentinteriorwasatleastnotexternallydingy。Butdinginessisaqualitywhichassumesallmannerofdisguises;andLilysoonfoundthatitwasaslatentintheexpensiveroutineofheraunt’slifeasinthemakeshiftexistenceofacontinentalpension。
Mrs。Penistonwasoneoftheepisodicalpersonswhoformthepaddingoflife。Itwasimpossibletobelievethatshehadherselfeverbeenafocusofactivities。ThemostvividthingaboutherwasthefactthathergrandmotherhadbeenaVanAlstyne。Thisconnectionwiththewell-fedandindustriousstockofearlyNewYorkrevealeditselfintheglacialneatnessofMrs。
Peniston’sdrawing-roomandintheexcellenceofhercuisine。ShebelongedtotheclassofoldNewYorkerswhohavealwayslivedwell,dressedexpensively,anddonelittleelse;andtotheseinheritedobligationsMrs。Penistonfaitfullyconformed。
Shehadalwaysbeenalooker-onatlife,andhermindresembledoneofthoselittlemirrorswhichherDutchancestorswereaccustomedtoaffixtotheirupperwindows,sothatfromthedepthsofanimpenetrabledomesticitytheymightseewhatwashappeninginthestreet。
Mrs。Penistonwastheownerofacountry-placeinNewJersey,butshehadneverlivedtheresinceherhusband’sdeath——aremoteevent,whichappearedtodwellinhermemorychieflyasadividingpointinthepersonalreminiscencesthatformedthestapleofherconversation。Shewasawomanwhoremembereddateswithintensity,andcouldtellatamoment’snoticewhetherthedrawing-roomcurtainshadbeenrenewedbeforeorafterMr。
Peniston’slastillness。
Mrs。Penistonthoughtthecountrylonelyandtreesdamp,andcherishedavaguefearofmeetingabull。Toguardagainstsuchcontingenciesshefrequentedthemorepopulouswatering-places,wheresheinstalledherselfimpersonallyinahiredhouseandlookedonatlifethroughthemattingscreenofherverandah。Inthecareofsuchaguardian,itsoonbecamecleartoLilythatshewastoenjoyonlythematerialadvantagesofgoodfoodandexpensiveclothing;and,thoughfarfromunderratingthese,shewouldgladlyhaveexchangedthemforwhatMrs。Barthadtaughthertoregardasopportunities。Shesighedtothinkwhathermother’sfierceenergieswouldhaveaccomplished,hadtheybeencoupledwithMrs。Peniston’sresources。Lilyhadabundantenergyofherown,butitwasrestrictedbythenecessityofadaptingherselftoheraunt’shabits。ShesawthatatallcostsshemustkeepMrs。Peniston’sfavourtill,asMrs。Bartwouldhavephrasedit,shecouldstandonherownlegs。Lilyhadnomindforthevagabondlifeofthepoorrelation,andtoadaptherselftoMrs。
Penistonshehad,tosomedegree,toassumethatlady’spassiveattitude。Shehadfanciedatfirstthatitwouldbeeasytodrawherauntintothewhirlofherownactivities,buttherewasastaticforceinMrs。Penistonagainstwhichherniece’seffortsspentthemselvesinvain。Toattempttobringherintoactiverelationwithlifewasliketuggingatapieceoffurniturewhichhasbeenscrewedtothefloor。Shedidnot,indeed,expectLilytoremainequallyimmovable:shehadalltheAmericanguardian’sindulgenceforthevolatilityofyouth。
Shehadindulgencealsoforcertainotherhabitsofherniece’s。
ItseemedtohernaturalthatLilyshouldspendallhermoneyondress,andshesupplementedthegirl’sscantyincomebyoccasional\"handsomepresents\"meanttobeappliedtothesamepurpose。Lily,whowasintenselypractical,wouldhavepreferredafixedallowance;butMrs。Penistonlikedtheperiodicalrecurrenceofgratitudeevokedbyunexpectedcheques,andwasperhapsshrewdenoughtoperceivethatsuchamethodofgivingkeptaliveinhernieceasalutarysenseofdependence。
Beyondthis,Mrs。Penistonhadnotfeltcalledupontodoanythingforhercharge:shehadsimplystoodasideandlethertakethefield。Lilyhadtakenit,atfirstwiththeconfidenceofassuredpossessorship,thenwithgraduallynarrowingdemands,tillnowshefoundherselfactuallystrugglingforafootholdonthebroadspacewhichhadonceseemedherownfortheasking。Howithappenedshedidnotyetknow。SometimesshethoughtitwasbecauseMrs。Penistonhadbeentoopassive,andagainshefeareditwasbecausesheherselfhadnotbeenpassiveenough。Hadsheshownanundueeagernessforvictory?Hadshelackedpatience,pliancyanddissimulation?Whethershechargedherselfwiththesefaultsorabsolvedherselffromthem,madenodifferenceinthesum-totalofherfailure。Youngerandplainergirlshadbeenmarriedoffbydozens,andshewasnine-and-twenty,andstillMissBart。
Shewasbeginningtohavefitsofangryrebellionagainstfate,whenshelongedtodropoutoftheraceandmakeanindependentlifeforherself。Butwhatmanneroflifewoulditbe?Shehadbarelyenoughmoneytopayherdress-makers’billsandhergamblingdebts;andnoneofthedesultoryinterestswhichshedignifiedwiththenameoftasteswaspronouncedenoughtoenablehertolivecontentedlyinobscurity。Ah,no——shewastoointelligentnottobehonestwithherself。Sheknewthatshehateddinginessasmuchashermotherhadhatedit,andtoherlastbreathshemeanttofightagainstit,draggingherselfupagainandagainaboveitsfloodtillshegainedthebrightpinnaclesofsuccesswhichpresentedsuchaslipperysurfacetoherclutch。
Thenextmorning,onherbreakfasttray,MissBartfoundanotefromherhostess。
\"DearestLily,\"itran,\"ifitisnottoomuchofaboretobedownbyten,willyoucometomysitting-roomtohelpmewithsometiresomethings?\"
Lilytossedasidethenoteandsubsidedonherpillowswithasigh。ItWASaboretobedownbyten——anhourregardedatBellomontasvaguelysynchronouswithsunrise——andsheknewtoowellthenatureofthetiresomethingsinquestion。MissPragg,thesecretary,hadbeencalledaway,andtherewouldbenotesanddinner-cardstowrite,lostaddressestohuntup,andothersocialdrudgerytoperform。ItwasunderstoodthatMissBartshouldfillthegapinsuchemergencies,andsheusuallyrecognizedtheobligationwithoutamurmur。
Today,however,itrenewedthesenseofservitudewhichthepreviousnight’sreviewofhercheque-bookhadproduced。
Everythinginhersurroundingsministeredtofeelingsofeaseandamenity。ThewindowsstoodopentothesparklingfreshnessoftheSeptembermorning,andbetweentheyellowboughsshecaughtaperspectiveofhedgesandparterresleadingbydegreesoflesseningformalitytothefreeundulationsofthepark。Hermaidhadkindledalittlefireonthehearth,anditcontendedcheerfullywiththesunlightwhichslantedacrossthemoss-greencarpetandcaressedthecurvedsidesofanoldmarquetrydesk。
Nearthebedstoodatableholdingherbreakfasttray,withitsharmoniousporcelainandsilver,ahandfulofvioletsinaslenderglass,andthemorningpaperfoldedbeneathherletters。
TherewasnothingnewtoLilyinthesetokensofastudiedluxury;but,thoughtheyformedapartofheratmosphere,sheneverlosthersensitivenesstotheircharm。Meredisplayleftherwithasenseofsuperiordistinction;butshefeltanaffinitytoallthesubtlermanifestationsofwealth。
Mrs。Trenor’ssummons,however,suddenlyrecalledherstateofdependence,andsheroseanddressedinamoodofirritabilitythatshewasusuallytooprudenttoindulge。Sheknewthatsuchemotionsleavelinesonthefaceaswellasinthecharacter,andshehadmeanttotakewarningbythelittlecreaseswhichhermidnightsurveyhadrevealed。
Thematter-of-coursetoneofMrs。Trenor’sgreetingdeepenedherirritation。Ifonediddragone’sselfoutofbedatsuchanhour,andcomedownfreshandradianttothemonotonyofnote-writing,somespecialrecognitionofthesacrificeseemedfitting。ButMrs。Trenor’stoneshowednoconsciousnessofthefact。
\"Oh,Lily,that’sniceofyou,\"shemerelysighedacrossthechaosofletters,billsandotherdomesticdocumentswhichgaveanincongruouslycommercialtouchtotheslendereleganceofherwriting-table。
\"Therearesuchlotsofhorrorsthismorning,\"sheadded,clearingaspaceinthecentreoftheconfusionandrisingtoyieldherseattoMissBart。
Mrs。Trenorwasatallfairwoman,whoseheightjustsavedherfromredundancy。Herrosyblondnesshadsurvivedsomefortyyearsoffutileactivitywithoutshowingmuchtraceofill-usageexceptinadiminishedplayoffeature。Itwasdifficulttodefineherbeyondsayingthatsheseemedtoexistonlyasahostess,notsomuchfromanyexaggeratedinstinctofhospitalityasbecauseshecouldnotsustainlifeexceptinacrowd。Thecollectivenatureofherinterestsexemptedherfromtheordinaryrivalriesofhersex,andsheknewnomorepersonalemotionthanthatofhatredforthewomanwhopresumedtogivebiggerdinnersorhavemoreamusinghouse-partiesthanherself。Ashersocialtalents,backedbyMr。Trenor’sbank-account,almostalwaysassuredherultimatetriumphinsuchcompetitions,successhaddevelopedinheranunscrupulousgoodnaturetowardtherestofhersex,andinMissBart’sutilitarianclassificationofherfriends,Mrs。Trenorrankedasthewomanwhowasleastlikelyto\"goback\"onher。
\"ItwassimplyinhumanofPraggtogooffnow,\"Mrs。Trenordeclared,asherfriendseatedherselfatthedesk。\"Shesayshersisterisgoingtohaveababy——asifthatwereanythingtohavingahouse-party!I’msureIshallgetmosthorriblymixedupandtherewillbesomeawfulrows。WhenIwasdownatTuxedoI
askedalotofpeoplefornextweek,andI’vemislaidthelistandcan’trememberwhoiscoming。Andthisweekisgoingtobeahorridfailuretoo——andGwenVanOsburghwillgobackandtellhermotherhowboredpeoplewere。IdidmeantoasktheWetheralls——thatwasablunderofGus’s。TheydisapproveofCarryFisher,youknow。AsifonecouldhelphavingCarryFisher!ItWASfoolishofhertogetthatseconddivorce——Carryalwaysoverdoesthings——butshesaidtheonlywaytogetapennyoutofFisherwastodivorcehimandmakehimpayalimony。AndpoorCarryhastoconsidereverydollar。It’sreallyabsurdofAliceWetheralltomakesuchafussaboutmeetingher,whenonethinksofwhatsocietyiscomingto。Someonesaidtheotherdaythattherewasadivorceandacaseofappendicitisineveryfamilyoneknows。Besides,CarryistheonlypersonwhocankeepGusinagoodhumourwhenwehaveboresinthehouse。HaveyounoticedthatALLthehusbandslikeher?All,Imean,exceptherown。It’srathercleverofhertohavemadeaspecialtyofdevotingherselftodullpeople——thefieldissuchalargeone,andshehasitpracticallytoherself。Shefindscompensations,nodoubt——IknowsheborrowsmoneyofGus——butthenI’dPAYhertokeephiminagoodhumour,soIcan’tcomplain,afterall。
\"Mrs。TrenorpausedtoenjoythespectacleofMissBart’seffortstounravelhertangledcorrespondence。
\"ButitisonlytheWetherallsandCarry,\"sheresumed,withafreshnoteoflament。\"Thetruthis,I’mawfullydisappointedinLadyCressidaRaith。\"
\"Disappointed?Hadyouknownherbefore?\"
\"Mercy,no——neversawhertillyesterday。LadySkiddawsentheroverwithletterstotheVanOsburghs,andIheardthatMariaVanOsburghwasaskingabigpartytomeetherthisweek,soI
thoughtitwouldbefuntogetheraway,andJackStepney,whoknewherinIndia,manageditforme。Mariawasfurious,andactuallyhadtheimpudencetomakeGweninviteherselfhere,sothattheyshouldn’tbeQUITEoutofit——ifI’dknownwhatLadyCressidawaslike,theycouldhavehadherandwelcome!ButI
thoughtanyfriendoftheSkiddaws’wassuretobeamusing。YourememberwhatfunLadySkiddawwas?ThereweretimeswhenI
simplyhadtosendthegirlsoutoftheroom。Besides,LadyCressidaistheDuchessofBeltshire’ssister,andInaturallysupposedshewasthesamesort;butyounevercantellinthoseEnglishfamilies。Theyaresobigthatthere’sroomforallkinds,anditturnsoutthatLadyCressidaisthemoralone——marriedaclergy-mananddoesmissionaryworkintheEastEnd。Thinkofmytakingsuchalotoftroubleaboutaclergyman’swife,whowearsIndianjewelryandbotanizes!ShemadeGustakeherallthroughtheglass-housesyesterday,andbotheredhimtodeathbyaskinghimthenamesoftheplants。FancytreatingGusasifhewerethegardener!
\"Mrs。TrenorbroughtthisoutinaCRESCENDOofindignation。
\"Oh,well,perhapsLadyCressidawillreconciletheWetherallstomeetingCarryFisher,\"saidMissBartpacifically。
\"I’msureIhopeso!Butsheisboringallthemenhorribly,andifshetakestodistributingtracts,asIhearshedoes,itwillbetoodepressing。Theworstofitisthatshewouldhavebeensousefulattherighttime。YouknowwehavetohavetheBishoponceayear,andshewouldhavegivenjusttherighttonetothings。IalwayshavehorridluckabouttheBishop’svisits,\"
addedMrs。Trenor,whosepresentmiserywasbeingfedbyarapidlyrisingtideofreminiscence;\"lastyear,whenhecame,Gusforgotallabouthisbeinghere,andbroughthometheNedWintonsandtheFarleys——fivedivorcesandsixsetsofchildrenbetweenthem!\"
\"WhenisLadyCressidagoing?\"Lilyenquired。
Mrs。Trenorcastuphereyesindespair。\"Mydear,ifoneonlyknew!IwasinsuchahurrytogetherawayfromMariathatI
actuallyforgottonameadate,andGussaysshetoldsomeoneshemeanttostophereallwinter。\"
\"Tostophere?Inthishouse?\"
\"Don’tbesilly——inAmerica。Butifnooneelseasksher——youknowtheyNEVERgotohotels。\"
\"PerhapsGusonlysaidittofrightenyou。\"
\"No——IheardhertellBerthaDorsetthatshehadsixmonthstoputinwhileherhusbandwastakingthecureintheEngadine。YoushouldhaveseenBerthalookvacant!Butit’snojoke,youknow——ifshestaysherealltheautumnshe’llspoileverything,andMariaVanOsburghwillsimplyexult。
\"AtthisaffectingvisionMrs。Trenor’svoicetrembledwithself-pity。\"Oh,Judy——asifanyonewereeverboredatBellomont!\"
MissBarttactfullyprotested。\"Youknowperfectlywellthat,ifMrs。VanOsburghweretogetalltherightpeopleandleaveyouwithallthewrongones,you’dmanagetomakethingsgooff,andshewouldn’t。\"
SuchanassurancewouldusuallyhaverestoredMrs。Trenor’scomplacency;
butonthisoccasionitdidnotchasethecloudfromherbrow。
\"Itisn’tonlyLadyCressida,\"shelamented。\"Everythinghasgonewrongthisweek。IcanseethatBerthaDorsetisfuriouswithme。\"
\"Furiouswithyou?Why?\"
\"BecauseItoldherthatLawrenceSeldenwascoming;buthewouldn’t,afterall,andshe’squiteunreasonableenoughtothinkit’smyfault。\"
MissBartputdownherpenandsatabsentlygazingatthenoteshehadbegun。
\"Ithoughtthatwasallover,\"shesaid。
\"Soitis,onhisside。AndofcourseBerthahasbeenidlesince。
ButIfancyshe’soutofajobjustatpresent——andsomeonegavemeahintthatIhadbetteraskLawrence。Well,IDIDaskhim——butIcouldn’tmakehimcome;andnowIsupposeshe’lltakeitoutofmebybeingperfectlynastytoeveryoneelse。\"
\"Oh,shemaytakeitoutofHIMbybeingperfectlycharming——tosomeoneelse。
\"Mrs。Trenorshookherheaddolefully。\"Sheknowshewouldn’tmind。Andwhoelseisthere?AliceWetherallwon’tletLuciusoutofhersight。NedSilvertoncan’ttakehiseyesoffCarryFisher——poorboy!GusisboredbyBertha,JackStepneyknowshertoowell——and——well,tobesure,there’sPercyGryce!\"
Shesatupsmilingatthethought。
MissBart’scountenancedidnotreflectthesmile。
\"Oh,sheandMr。Grycewouldnotbelikelytohititoff。\"
\"Youmeanthatshe’dshockhimandhe’dboreher?Well,that’snotsuchabadbeginning,youknow。ButIhopeshewon’ttakeitintoherheadtobenicetohim,forIaskedhimhereonpurposeforyou。\"
Lilylaughed。\"MERCIDUCOMPLIMENT!IshouldcertainlyhavenoshowagainstBertha。\"
\"DoyouthinkIamuncomplimentary?I’mnotreally,youknow。
Everyoneknowsyou’reathousandtimeshandsomerandclevererthanBertha;butthenyou’renotnasty。Andforalwaysgettingwhatshewantsinthelongrun,commendmetoanastywoman。\"
MissBartstaredinaffectedreproval。\"IthoughtyouweresofondofBertha。\"
\"Oh,Iam——it’smuchsafertobefondofdangerouspeople。ButsheISdangerous——andifIeversawheruptomischiefit’snow。
IcantellbypoorGeorge’smanner。Thatmanisaperfectbarometer——healwaysknowswhenBerthaisgoingto——\"
\"Tofall?\"MissBartsuggested。
\"Don’tbeshocking!Youknowhebelievesinherstill。AndofcourseIdon’tsaythere’sanyrealharminBertha。Onlyshedelightsinmakingpeoplemiserable,andespeciallypoorGeorge。\"
\"Well,heseemscutoutforthepart——Idon’twondershelikesmorecheerfulcompanionship。\"
\"Oh,Georgeisnotasdismalasyouthink。IfBerthadidworryhimhewouldbequitedifferent。Orifshe’dleavehimalone,andlethimarrangehislifeashepleases。Butshedoesn’tdareloseherholdofhimonaccountofthemoney,andsowhenHEisn’tjealousshepretendstobe。\"
MissBartwentonwritinginsilence,andherhostesssatfollowinghertrainofthoughtwithfrowningintensity。
\"Doyouknow,\"sheexclaimedafteralongpause,\"IbelieveI’llcallupLawrenceonthetelephoneandtellhimhesimplyMUST
come?\"
\"Oh,don’t,\"saidLily,withaquicksuffusionofcolour。Theblushsurprisedheralmostasmuchasitdidherhostess,who,thoughnotcommonlyobservantoffacialchanges,satstaringatherwithpuzzledeyes。
\"Goodgracious,Lily,howhandsomeyouare!Why?Doyoudislikehimsomuch?\"
\"Notatall;Ilikehim。ButifyouareactuatedbythebenevolentintentionofprotectingmefromBertha——Idon’tthinkIneedyourprotection。
\"Mrs。Trenorsatupwithanexclamation。\"Lily!——PERCY?Doyoumeantosayyou’veactuallydoneit?\"
MissBartsmiled。\"IonlymeantosaythatMr。GryceandIaregettingtobeverygoodfriends。\"
\"H’m——Isee。\"Mrs。Trenorfixedarapteyeuponher。\"Youknowtheysayhehaseighthundredthousandayear——andspendsnothing,exceptonsomerubbishyoldbooks。Andhismotherhasheart-diseaseandwillleavehimalotmore。OH,LILY,DOGO
SLOWLY,\"herfriendadjuredher。
MissBartcontinuedtosmilewithoutannoyance。\"Ishouldn’t,forinstance,\"sheremarked,\"beinanyhastetotellhimthathehadalotofrubbishyoldbooks。\"
\"No,ofcoursenot;Iknowyou’rewonderfulaboutgettinguppeople’ssubjects。Buthe’shorriblyshy,andeasilyshocked,and——and——\"
\"Whydon’tyousayit,Judy?Ihavethereputationofbeingonthehuntforarichhusband?\"
\"Oh,Idon’tmeanthat;hewouldn’tbelieveitofyou——atfirst,\"
saidMrs。Trenor,withcandidshrewdness。\"Butyouknowthingsareratherlivelyhereattimes——ImustgiveJackandGusahint——andifhethoughtyouwerewhathismotherwouldcallfast——oh,well,youknowwhatImean。Don’twearyourscarletCREPE-DE-CHINEfordinner,anddon’tsmokeifyoucanhelpit,Lilydear!\"
Lilypushedasideherfinishedworkwithadrysmile。\"You’reverykind,Judy:I’lllockupmycigarettesandwearthatlastyear’sdressyousentmethismorning。Andifyouarereallyinterestedinmycareer,perhapsyou’llbekindenoughnottoaskmetoplaybridgeagainthisevening。\"
\"Bridge?Doeshemindbridge,too?Oh,Lily,whatanawfullifeyou’lllead!ButofcourseIwon’t——whydidn’tyougivemeahintlastnight?There’snothingIwouldn’tdo,youpoorduck,toseeyouhappy!\"
AndMrs。Trenor,glowingwithhersex’seagernesstosmooththecourseoftruelove,envelopedLilyinalongembrace。
\"You’requitesure,\"sheaddedsolicitously,asthelatterextricatedherself,\"thatyouwouldn’tlikemetotelephoneforLawrenceSelden?\"
\"Quitesure,\"saidLily。
ThenextthreedaysdemonstratedtoherowncompletesatifactionMissBart’sabilitytomanageheraffairswithoutextraneousaid。
Asshesat,ontheSaturdayafternoon,ontheterraceatBellomont,shesmiledatMrs。Trenor’sfearthatshemightgotoofast。Ifsuchawarninghadeverbeenneedful,theyearshadtaughtherasalutarylesson,andsheflatteredherselfthatshenowknewhowtoadaptherpacetotheobjectofpursuit。InthecaseofMr。Gryceshehadfounditwelltoflutterahead,losingherselfelusivelyandluringhimonfromdepthtodepthofunconsciousintimacy。Thesurroundingatmospherewaspropitioustothisschemeofcourtship。Mrs。Trenor,truetoherword,hadshownnosignsofexpectingLilyatthebridge-table,andhadevenhintedtotheothercard-playersthattheyweretobetraynosurpriseatherunwonteddefection。Inconsequenceofthishint,Lilyfoundherselfthecentreofthatfemininesolicitudewhichenvelopsayoungwomaninthematingseason。AsolitudewastacitlycreatedforherinthecrowdedexistenceofBellomont,andherfriendscouldnothaveshownagreaterreadinessforself-effacementhadherwooingbeenadornedwithalltheattributesofromance。InLily’ssetthisconductimpliedasympatheticcomprehensionofhermotives,andMr。Gryceroseinheresteemasshesawtheconsiderationheinspired。
TheterraceatBellomontonaSeptemberafternoonwasaspotpropitioustosentimentalmusings,andasMissBartstoodleaningagainstthebalustradeabovethesunkengarden,atalittledistancefromtheanimatedgroupaboutthetea-table,shemighthavebeenlostinthemazesofaninarticulatehappiness。Inreality,herthoughtswerefindingdefiniteutteranceinthetranquilrecapitulationoftheblessingsinstoreforher。FromwhereshestoodshecouldseethemembodiedintheformofMr。
Gryce,who,inalightovercoatandmuffler,satsomewhatnervouslyontheedgeofhischair,whileCarryFisher,withalltheenergyofeyeandgesturewithwhichnatureandarthadcombinedtoendowher,pressedonhimthedutyoftakingpartinthetaskofmunicipalreform。
Mrs。Fisher’slatesthobbywasmunicipalreform。Ithadbeenprecededbyanequalzealforsocialism,whichhadinturnreplacedanenergeticadvocacyofChristianScience。Mrs。Fisherwassmall,fieryanddramatic;andherhandsandeyeswereadmirableinstrumentsintheserviceofwhatevercauseshehappenedtoespouse。Shehad,however,thefaultcommontoenthusiastsofignoringanyslacknessofresponseonthepartofherhearers,andLilywasamusedbyherunconsciousnessoftheresistancedisplayedineveryangleofMr。Gryce’sattitude。Lilyherselfknewthathismindwasdividedbetweenthedreadofcatchingcoldifheremainedoutofdoorstoolongatthathour,andthefearthat,ifheretreatedtothehouse,Mrs。Fishermightfollowhimupwithapapertobesigned。Mr。Grycehadaconstitutionaldisliketowhathecalled\"committinghimself,\"
andtenderlyashecherishedhishealth,heevidentlyconcludedthatitwassafertostayoutofreachofpenandinktillchancereleasedhimfromMrs。Fisher’stoils。MeanwhilehecastagonizedglancesinthedirectionofMissBart,whoseonlyresponsewastosinkintoanattitudeofmoregracefulabstraction。Shehadlearnedthevalueofcontrastinthrowinghercharmsintorelief,andwasfullyawareoftheextenttowhichMrs。Fisher’svolubilitywasenhancingherownrepose。
ShewasrousedfromhermusingsbytheapproachofhercousinJackStepneywho,atGwenVanOsburgh’sside,wasreturningacrossthegardenfromthetenniscourt。
ThecoupleinquestionwereengagedinthesamekindofromanceinwhichLilyfigured,andthelatterfeltacertainannoyanceincontemplatingwhatseemedtoheracaricatureofherownsituation。MissVanOsburghwasalargegirlwithflatsurfacesandnohighlights:JackStepneyhadoncesaidofherthatshewasasreliableasroastmutton。Hisowntastewasinthelineoflesssolidandmorehighly-seasoneddiet;buthungermakesanyfarepalatable,andtherehadbeentimeswhenMr。Stepneyhadbeenreducedtoacrust。
Lilyconsideredwithinteresttheexpressionoftheirfaces:thegirl’sturnedtowardhercompanion’slikeanemptyplatehelduptobefilled,whilethemanloungingathersidealreadybetrayedtheencroachingboredomwhichwouldpresentlycrackthethinveneerofhissmile。
\"Howimpatientmenare!\"Lilyreflected。\"AllJackhastodotogeteverythinghewantsistokeepquietandletthatgirlmarryhim;whereasIhavetocalculateandcontrive,andretreatandadvance,asifIweregoingthroughanintricatedance,whereonemisstepwouldthrowmehopelesslyoutoftime。\"
AstheydrewnearershewaswhimsicallystruckbyakindoffamilylikenessbetweenMissVanOsburghandPercyGryce。Therewasnoresemblanceoffeature。Grycewashandsomeinadidacticway——helookedlikeacleverpupil’sdrawingfromaplaster-cast——whileGwen’scountenancehadnomoremodellingthanafacepaintedonatoyballoon。Butthedeeperaffinitywasunmistakable:thetwohadthesameprejudicesandideals,andthesamequalityofmakingotherstandardsnon-existentbyignoringthem。ThisattributewascommontomostofLily’sset:theyhadaforceofnegationwhicheliminatedeverythingbeyondtheirownrangeofperception。GryceandMissVanOsburghwere,inshort,madeforeachotherbyeverylawofmoralandphysicalcorrespondence——\"Yettheywouldn’tlookateachother,\"Lilymused,\"theyneverdo。Eachofthemwantsacreatureofadifferentrace,ofJack’sraceandmine,withallsortsofintuitions,sensationsandperceptionsthattheydon’tevenguesstheexistenceof。Andtheyalwaysgetwhattheywant。\"
ShestoodtalkingwithhercousinandMissVanOsburgh,tillaslightcloudonthelatter’sbrowadvisedherthatevencousinlyamenitiesweresubjecttosuspicion,andMissBart,mindfulofthenecessityofnotexcitingenmitiesatthiscrucialpointofhercareer,droppedasidewhilethehappycoupleproceededtowardthetea-table。
Seatingherselfontheupperstepoftheterrace,Lilyleanedherheadagainstthehoneysuckleswreathingthebalustrade。Thefragranceofthelateblossomsseemedanemanationofthetranquilscene,alandscapetutoredtothelastdegreeofruralelegance。Intheforegroundglowedthewarmtintsofthegardens。
Beyondthelawn,withitspyramidalpale-goldmaplesandvelvetyfirs,slopedpasturesdottedwithcattle;andthroughalonggladetheriverwidenedlikealakeunderthesilverlightofSeptember。Lilydidnotwanttojointhecircleaboutthetea-table。Theyrepresentedthefutureshehadchosen,andshewascontentwithit,butinnohastetoanticipateitsjoys。ThecertaintythatshecouldmarryPercyGrycewhenshepleasedhadliftedaheavyloadfromhermind,andhermoneytroublesweretoorecentfortheirremovalnottoleaveasenseofreliefwhichalessdiscerningintelligencemighthavetakenforhappiness。Hervulgarcareswereatanend。Shewouldbeabletoarrangeherlifeasshepleased,tosoarintothatempyreanofsecuritywherecreditorscannotpenetrate。ShewouldhavesmartergownsthanJudyTrenor,andfar,farmorejewelsthanBerthaDorset。Shewouldbefreeforeverfromtheshifts,theexpedients,thehumiliationsoftherelativelypoor。Insteadofhavingtoflatter,shewouldbeflattered;insteadofbeinggrateful,shewouldreceivethanks。Therewereoldscoresshecouldpayoffaswellasoldbenefitsshecouldreturn。Andshehadnodoubtsastotheextentofherpower。SheknewthatMr。
Grycewasofthesmallcharytypemostinaccessibletoimpulsesandemotions。Hehadthekindofcharacterinwhichprudenceisavice,andgoodadvicethemostdangerousnourishment。ButLilyhadknownthespeciesbefore:shewasawarethatsuchaguardednaturemustfindonehugeoutletofegoism,andshedeterminedtobetohimwhathisAmericanahadhithertobeen:theonepossessioninwhichhetooksufficientpridetospendmoneyonit。Sheknewthatthisgenerositytoselfisoneoftheformsofmeanness,andsheresolvedsotoidentifyherselfwithherhusband’svanitythattogratifyherwisheswouldbetohimthemostexquisiteformofself-indulgence。Thesystemmightatfirstnecessitatearesorttosomeoftheveryshiftsandexpedientsfromwhichsheintendeditshouldfreeher;butshefeltsurethatinashorttimeshewouldbeabletoplaythegameinherownway。Howshouldshehavedistrustedherpowers?Herbeautyitselfwasnotthemereephemeralpossessionitmighthavebeeninthehandsofinexperience:herskillinenhancingit,thecareshetookofit,theuseshemadeofit,seemedtogiveitakindofpermanence。Shefeltshecouldtrustittocarryherthroughtotheend。
Andtheend,onthewhole,wasworthwhile。Lifewasnotthemockeryshehadthoughtitthreedaysago。Therewasroomforher,afterall,inthiscrowdedselfishworldofpleasurewhence,soshortatimesince,herpovertyhadseemedtoexcludeher。
Thesepeoplewhomshehadridiculedandyetenviedweregladtomakeaplaceforherinthecharmedcircleaboutwhichallherdesiresrevolved。Theywerenotasbrutalandself-engrossedasshehadfancied——orrather,sinceitwouldnolongerbenecessarytoflatterandhumourthem,thatsideoftheirnaturebecamelessconspicuous。Societyisarevolvingbodywhichisapttobejudgedaccordingtoitsplaceineachman’sheaven;andatpresentitwasturningitsilluminatedfacetoLily。
Intherosyglowitdiffusedhercompanionsseemedfullofamiablequalities。Shelikedtheirelegance,theirlightness,theirlackofemphasis:eventheself-assurancewhichattimeswassolikeobtusenessnowseemedthenaturalsignofsocialascendency。Theywerelordsoftheonlyworldshecaredfor,andtheywerereadytoadmithertotheirranksandletherlorditwiththem。Alreadyshefeltwithinherastealingallegiancetotheirstandards,anacceptanceoftheirlimitations,adisbeliefinthethingstheydidnotbelievein,acontemptuouspityforthepeoplewhowerenotabletoliveastheylived。
Theearlysunsetwasslantingacrossthepark。Throughtheboughsofthelongavenuebeyondthegardensshecaughttheflashofwheels,anddivinedthatmorevisitorswereapproaching。Therewasamovementbehindher,ascatteringofstepsandvoices:itwasevidentthatthepartyaboutthetea-tablewasbreakingup。
Presentlysheheardatreadbehindherontheterrace。ShesupposedthatMr。Grycehadatlastfoundmeanstoescapefromhispredicament,andshesmiledatthesignificanceofhiscomingtojoinherinsteadofbeatinganinstantretreattothefire-side。
Sheturnedtogivehimthewelcomewhichsuchgallantrydeserved;
buthergreetingwaveredintoablushofwonder,forthemanwhohadapproachedherwasLawrenceSelden。
\"YouseeIcameafterall,\"hesaid;butbeforeshehadtimetoanswer,Mrs。Dorset,breakingawayfromalifelesscolloquywithherhost,hadsteppedbetweenthemwithalittlegestureofappropriation。
TheobservanceofSundayatBellomontwaschieflymarkedbythepunctualappearanceofthesmartomnibusdestinedtoconveythehouseholdtothelittlechurchatthegates。Whetheranyonegotintotheomnibusornotwasamatterofsecondaryimportance,sincebystandingthereitnotonlyborewitnesstotheorthodoxintentionsofthefamily,butmadeMrs。Trenorfeel,whenshefinallyhearditdriveaway,thatshehadsomehowvicariouslymadeuseofit。
ItwasMrs。Trenor’stheorythatherdaughtersactuallydidgotochurcheverySunday;buttheirFrenchgoverness’sconvictionscallinghertotherivalfane,andthefatiguesoftheweekkeepingtheirmotherinherroomtillluncheon,therewasseldomanyonepresenttoverifythefact。Nowandthen,inaspasmodicburstofvirtue——whenthehousehadbeentoouproariousovernight——GusTrenorforcedhisgenialbulkintoatightfrock-coatandroutedhisdaughtersfromtheirslumbers;buthabitually,asLilyexplainedtoMr。Gryce,thisparentaldutywasforgottentillthechurchbellswereringingacrossthepark,andtheomnibushaddrivenawayempty。
LilyhadhintedtoMr。Grycethatthisneglectofreligiousobservanceswasrepugnanttoherearlytraditions,andthatduringhervisitstoBellomontsheregularlyaccompaniedMurielandHildatochurch。Thistalliedwiththeassurance,alsoconfidentiallyimparted,that,neverhavingplayedbridgebefore,shehadbeen\"draggedintoit\"onthenightofherarrival,andhadlostanappallingamountofmoneyinconsequenceofherignoranceofthegameandoftherulesofbetting。Mr。GrycewasundoubtedlyenjoyingBellomont。Helikedtheeaseandglitterofthelife,andthelustreconferredonhimbybeingamemberofthisgroupofrichandconspicuouspeople。
Buthethoughtitaverymaterialisticsociety;thereweretimeswhenhewasfrightenedbythetalkofthemenandthelooksoftheladies,andhewasgladtofindthatMissBart,forallhereaseandself-possession,wasnotathomeinsoambiguousanatmosphere。Forthisreasonhehadbeenespeciallypleasedtolearnthatshewould,asusual,attendtheyoungTrenorstochurchonSundaymorning;andashepacedthegravelsweepbeforethedoor,hislightovercoatonhisarmandhisprayer-bookinonecarefully-glovedhand,hereflectedagreeablyonthestrengthofcharacterwhichkepthertruetoherearlytraininginsurroundingssosubversivetoreligiousprinciples。
ForalongtimeMr。Gryceandtheomnibushadthegravelsweeptothemselves;but,farfromregrettingthisdeplorableindifferenceonthepartoftheotherguests,hefoundhimselfnourishingthehopethatMissBartmightbeunaccompanied。Thepreciousminuteswereflying,however;thebigchestnutspawedthegroundandfleckedtheirimpatientsideswithfoam;thecoachmanseemedtobeslowlypetrifyingonthebox,andthegroomonthedoorstep;
andstilltheladydidnotcome。Suddenly,however,therewasasoundofvoicesandarustleofskirtsinthedoorway,andMr。
Gryce,restoringhiswatchtohispocket,turnedwithanervousstart;butitwasonlytofindhimselfhandingMrs。Wetherallintothecarriage。
TheWetherallsalwayswenttochurch。Theybelongedtothevastgroupofhumanautomatawhogothroughlifewithoutneglectingtoperformasingleoneofthegesturesexecutedbythesurroundingpuppets。ItistruethattheBellomontpuppetsdidnotgotochurch;butothersequallyimportantdid——andMr。andMrs。
Wetherall’scirclewassolargethatGodwasincludedintheirvisiting-list。Theyappeared,therefore,punctualandresigned,withtheairofpeopleboundforadull\"AtHome,\"andafterthemHildaandMurielstraggled,yawningandpinningeachother’sveilsandribbonsastheycame。TheyhadpromisedLilytogotochurchwithher,theydeclared,andLilywassuchadearoldduckthattheydidn’tminddoingittopleaseher,thoughtheycouldn’tfancywhathadputtheideainherhead,andthoughfortheirownparttheywouldmuchratherhaveplayedlawntenniswithJackandGwen,ifshehadn’ttoldthemshewascoming。TheMissesTrenorwerefollowedbyLadyCressidaRaith,aweather-beatenpersoninLibertysilkandethnologicaltrinkets,who,onseeingtheomnibus,expressedhersurprisethattheywerenottowalkacrossthepark;butatMrs。Wetherall’shorrifiedprotestthatthechurchwasamileaway,herladyship,afteraglanceattheheightoftheother’sheels,acquiescedinthenecessityofdriving,andpoorMr。Grycefoundhimselfrollingoffbetweenfourladiesforwhosespiritualwelfarehefeltnottheleastconcern。
ItmighthaveaffordedhimsomeconsolationcouldhehaveknownthatMissBarthadreallymeanttogotochurch。Shehadevenrisenearlierthanusualintheexecutionofherpurpose。Shehadanideathatthesightofherinagreygownofdevotionalcut,withherfamouslashesdroopedaboveaprayer-book,wouldputthefinishingtouchtoMr。Gryce’ssubjugation,andrenderinevitableacertainincidentwhichshehadresolvedshouldformapartofthewalktheyweretotaketogetherafterluncheon。Herintentionsinshorthadneverbeenmoredefinite;butpoorLily,forallthehardglazeofherexterior,wasinwardlyasmalleableaswax。Herfacultyforadaptingherself,forenteringintootherpeople’sfeelings,ifitservedhernowandtheninsmallcontingencies,hamperedherinthedecisivemomentsoflife。Shewaslikeawater-plantinthefluxofthetides,andtodaythewholecurrentofhermoodwascarryinghertowardLawrenceSelden。Whyhadhecome?WasittoseeherselforBerthaDorset?
Itwasthelastquestionwhich,atthatmoment,shouldhaveengagedher。Shemightbetterhavecontentedherselfwiththinkingthathehadsimplyrespondedtothedespairingsummonsofhishostess,anxioustointerposehimbetweenherselfandtheill-humourofMrs。Dorset。ButLilyhadnotrestedtillshelearnedfromMrs。TrenorthatSeldenhadcomeofhisownaccord。
\"Hedidn’tevenwireme——hejusthappenedtofindthetrapatthestation。Perhapsit’snotoverwithBerthaafterall,\"Mrs。
Trenormusinglyconcluded;andwentawaytoarrangeherdinner-cardsaccordingly。
Perhapsitwasnot,Lilyreflected;butitshouldbesoon,unlessshehadlosthercunning。IfSeldenhadcomeatMrs。Dorset’scall,itwasatherownthathewouldstay。Somuchthepreviouseveninghadtoldher。Mrs。Trenor,truetohersimpleprincipleofmakinghermarriedfriendshappy,hadplacedSeldenandMrs。
Dorsetnexttoeachotheratdinner;but,inobediencetothetime-honouredtraditionsofthematch-maker,shehadseparatedLilyandMr。Gryce,sendingintheformerwithGeorgeDorset,whileMr。GrycewascoupledwithGwenVanOsburgh。
GeorgeDorset’stalkdidnotinterferewiththerangeofhisneighbour’sthoughts。Hewasamournfuldyspeptic,intentonfindingoutthedeleteriousingredientsofeverydishanddivertedfromthiscareonlybythesoundofhiswife’svoice。Onthisoccasion,however,Mrs。Dorsettooknopartinthegeneralconversation。ShesattalkinginlowmurmurswithSelden,andturningacontemptuousanddenudedshouldertowardherhost,who,farfromresentinghisexclusion,plungedintotheexcessesoftheMENUwiththejoyousirresponsibilityofafreeman。ToMr。
Dorset,however,hiswife’sattitudewasasubjectofsuchevidentconcernthat,whenhewasnotscrapingthesaucefromhisfish,orscoopingthemoistbread-crumbsfromtheinteriorofhisroll,hesatstraininghisthinneckforaglimpseofherbetweenthelights。
Mrs。Trenor,asitchanced,hadplacedthehusbandandwifeonoppositesidesofthetable,andLilywasthereforeabletoobserveMrs。Dorsetalso,andbycarryingherglanceafewfeetfarther,tosetuparapidcomparisonbetweenLawrenceSeldenandMr。Gryce。Itwasthatcomparisonwhichwasherundoing。WhyelsehadshesuddenlygrowninterestedinSelden?Shehadknownhimforeightyearsormore:eversinceherreturntoAmericahehadformedapartofherbackground。Shehadalwaysbeengladtositnexttohimatdinner,hadfoundhimmoreagreeablethanmostmen,andhadvaguelywishedthathepossessedtheotherqualitiesneedfultofixherattention;buttillnowshehadbeentoobusywithherownaffairstoregardhimasmorethanoneofthepleasantaccessoriesoflife。MissBartwasakeenreaderofherownheart,andshesawthathersuddenpreoccupationwithSeldenwasduetothefactthathispresenceshedanewlightonhersurroundings。Notthathewasnotablybrilliantorexceptional;
inhisownprofessionhewassurpassedbymorethanonemanwhohadboredLilythroughmanyawearydinner。Itwasratherthathehadpreservedacertainsocialdetachment,ahappyairofviewingtheshowobjectively,ofhavingpointsofcontactoutsidethegreatgiltcageinwhichtheywereallhuddledforthemobtogapeat。HowalluringtheworldoutsidethecageappearedtoLily,asshehearditsdoorclangonher!Inreality,assheknew,thedoorneverclanged:itstoodalwaysopen;butmostofthecaptiveswerelikefliesinabottle,andhavingonceflownin,couldneverregaintheirfreedom。ItwasSelden’sdistinctionthathehadneverforgottenthewayout。
Thatwasthesecretofhiswayofreadjustinghervision。Lily,turninghereyesfromhim,foundherselfscanningherlittleworldthroughhisretina:itwasasthoughthepinklampshadbeenshutoffandthedustydaylightletin。Shelookeddownthelongtable,studyingitsoccupantsonebyone,fromGusTrenor,withhisheavycarnivorousheadsunkbetweenhisshoulders,ashepreyedonajelliedplover,tohiswife,attheoppositeendofthelongbankoforchids,suggestive,withherglaringgood-looks,ofajeweller’swindowlitbyelectricity。Andbetweenthetwo,whatalongstretchofvacuity!Howdrearyandtrivialthesepeoplewere!Lilyreviewedthemwithascornfulimpatience:CarryFisher,withhershoulders,hereyes,herdivorces,hergeneralairofembodyinga\"spicyparagraph\";youngSilverton,whohadmeanttoliveonproof-readingandwriteanepic,andwhonowlivedonhisfriendsandhadbecomecriticaloftruffles;AliceWetherall,ananimatedvisiting-list,whosemostfervidconvictionsturnedonthewordingofinvitationsandtheengravingofdinner-cards;Wetherall,withhisperpetualnervousnodofacquiescence,hisairofagreeingwithpeoplebeforeheknewwhattheyweresaying;JackStepney,withhisconfidentsmileandanxiouseyes,halfwaybetweenthesheriffandanheiress;GwenVanOsburgh,withalltheguilelessconfidenceofayounggirlwhohasalwaysbeentoldthatthereisnoonericherthanherfather。
Lilysmiledatherclassificationofherfriends。Howdifferenttheyhadseemedtoherafewhoursago!Thentheyhadsymbolizedwhatshewasgaining,nowtheystoodforwhatshewasgivingup。
Thatveryafternoontheyhadseemedfullofbrilliantqualities;
nowshesawthattheyweremerelydullinaloudway。Undertheglitteroftheiropportunitiesshesawthepovertyoftheirachievement。Itwasnotthatshewantedthemtobemoredisinterested;butshewouldhavelikedthemtobemorepicturesque。Andshehadashamedrecollectionofthewayinwhich,afewhourssince,shehadfeltthecentripetalforceoftheirstandards。Sheclosedhereyesaninstant,andthevacuousroutineofthelifeshehadchosenstretchedbeforeherlikealongwhiteroadwithoutdiporturning:itwastrueshewastorolloveritinacarriageinsteadoftrudgingitonfoot,butsometimesthepedestrianenjoysthediversionofashortcutwhichisdeniedtothoseonwheels。
ShewasrousedbyachucklewhichMr。Dorsetseemedtoejectfromthedepthsofhisleanthroat。
\"Isay,dolookather,\"heexclaimed,turningtoMissBartwithlugubriousmerriment——\"Ibegyourpardon,butdojustlookatmywifemakingafoolofthatpoordeviloverthere!Onewouldreallysupposeshewasgoneonhim——andit’salltheotherwayround,Iassureyou。\"
Thusadjured,LilyturnedhereyesonthespectaclewhichwasaffordingMr。Dorsetsuchlegitimatemirth。Itcertainlyappeared,ashesaid,thatMrs。Dorsetwasthemoreactiveparticipantinthescene:herneighbourseemedtoreceiveheradvanceswithatemperatezestwhichdidnotdistracthimfromhisdinner。ThesightrestoredLily’sgoodhumour,andknowingthepeculiardisguisewhichMr。Dorset’smaritalfearsassumed,sheaskedgaily:\"Aren’tyouhorriblyjealousofher?\"
Dorsetgreetedthesallywithdelight。\"Oh,abominably——you’vejusthitit——keepsmeawakeatnight。Thedoctorstellmethat’swhathasknockedmydigestionout——beingsoinfernallyjealousofher——Ican’teatamouthfulofthisstuff,youknow,\"headdedsuddenly,pushingbackhisplatewithacloudedcountenance;andLily,unfailinglyadaptable,accordedherradiantattentiontohisprolongeddenunciationofotherpeople’scooks,withasupplementarytiradeonthetoxicqualitiesofmeltedbutter。
Itwasnotoftenthathefoundsoreadyanear;and,beingamanaswellasadyspeptic,itmaybethatashepouredhisgrievancesintoithewasnotinsensibletoitsrosysymmetry。AtanyrateheengagedLilysolongthatthesweetswerebeinghandedwhenshecaughtaphraseonherotherside,whereMissCorby,thecomicwomanofthecompany,wasbanteringJackStepneyonhisapproachingengagement。MissCorby’srolewasjocularity:shealwaysenteredtheconversationwithahandspring。
\"Andofcourseyou’llhaveSimRosedaleasbestman!\"Lilyheardherflingoutastheclimaxofherprognostications;andStepneyresponded,asifstruck:\"Jove,that’sanidea。WhatathumpingpresentI’dgetoutofhim!\"
SIMROSEDALE!Thename,mademoreodiousbyitsdiminutive,obtrudeditselfonLily’sthoughtslikealeer。Itstoodforoneofthemanyhatedpossibilitieshoveringontheedgeoflife。IfshedidnotmarryPercyGryce,thedaymightcomewhenshewouldhavetobeciviltosuchmenasRosedale。IFSHEDIDNOTMARRY
HIM?Butshemeanttomarryhim——shewassureofhimandsureofherself。Shedrewbackwithashiverfromthepleasantpathsinwhichherthoughtshadbeenstraying,andsetherfeetoncemoreinthemiddleofthelongwhiteroad……Whenshewentupstairsthatnightshefoundthatthelateposthadbroughtherafreshbatchofbills。Mrs。Peniston,whowasaconscientiouswoman,hadforwardedthemalltoBellomont。
MissBart,accordingly,rosethenextmorningwiththemostearnestconvictionthatitwasherdutytogotochurch。Shetoreherselfbetimesfromthelingeringenjoymentofherbreakfast-tray,rangtohavehergreygownlaidout,anddespatchedhermaidtoborrowaprayer-bookfromMrs。Trenor。
Buthercoursewastoopurelyreasonablenottocontainthegermsofrebellion。Nosoonerwereherpreparationsmadethantheyrousedasmotheredsenseofresistance。AsmallsparkwasenoughtokindleLily’simagination,andthesightofthegreydressandtheborrowedprayer-bookflashedalonglightdowntheyears。ShewouldhavetogotochurchwithPercyGryceeverySunday。TheywouldhaveafrontpewinthemostexpensivechurchinNewYork,andhisnamewouldfigurehandsomelyinthelistofparishcharities。Inafewyears,whenhegrewstouter,hewouldbemadeawarden。Onceinthewintertherectorwouldcometodine,andherhusbandwouldbeghertogooverthelistandseethatnoDIVORCEESwereincluded,exceptthosewhohadshowedsignsofpenitencebybeingre-marriedtotheverywealthy。Therewasnothingespeciallyarduousinthisroundofrelgiousobligations;butitstoodforafractionofthatgreatbulkofboredomwhichloomedacrossherpath。Andwhocouldconsenttobeboredonsuchamorning?Lilyhadsleptwell,andherbathhadfilledherwithapleasantglow,whichwasbecominglyreflectedintheclearcurveofhercheek。Nolineswerevisiblethismorning,orelsetheglasswasatahappierangle。
Andthedaywastheaccompliceofhermood:itwasadayforimpulseandtruancy。Thelightairseemedfullofpowderedgold;
belowthedewybloomofthelawnsthewoodlandsblushedandsmouldered,andthehillsacrosstheriverswaminmoltenblue。
EverydropofbloodinLily’sveinsinvitedhertohappiness。
Thesoundofwheelsrousedherfromthesemusings,andleaningbehindhershuttersshesawtheomnibustakeupitsfreight。Shewastoolate,then——butthefactdidnotalarmher。AglimpseofMr。Gryce’screstfallenfaceevensuggestedthatshehaddonewiselyinabsentingherself,sincethedisappointmenthesocandidlybetrayedwouldsurelywhethisappetitefortheafternoonwalk。Thatwalkshedidnotmeantomiss;oneglanceatthebillsonherwriting-tablewasenoughtorecallitsnecessity。Butmeanwhileshehadthemorningtoherself,andcouldmusepleasantlyonthedisposalofitshours。ShewasfamiliarenoughwiththehabitsofBellomonttoknowthatshewaslikelytohaveafreefieldtillluncheon。ShehadseentheWetheralls,theTrenorgirlsandLadyCressidapackedsafelyintotheomnibus;JudyTrenorwassuretobehavingherhairshampooed;CarryFisherhaddoubtlesscarriedoffherhostforadrive;NedSilvertonwasprobablysmokingthecigaretteofyoungdespairinhisbedroom;andKateCorbywascertaintobeplayingtenniswithJackStepneyandMissVanOsburgh。Oftheladies,thisleftonlyMrs。Dorsetunaccountedfor,andMrs。Dorsetnevercamedowntillluncheon:herdoctors,sheaverred,hadforbiddenhertoexposeherselftothecrudeairofthemorning。
TotheremainingmembersofthepartyLilygavenospecialthought;wherevertheywere,theywerenotlikelytointerferewithherplans。These,forthemoment,tooktheshapeofassumingadresssomewhatmorerusticandsummerlikeinstylethanthegarmentshehadfirstselected,andrustlingdownstairs,sunshadeinhand,withthedisengagedairofaladyinquestofexercise。Thegreathallwasemptybutfortheknotofdogsbythefire,who,takinginataglancetheoutdooraspectofMissBart,wereuponheratoncewithlavishoffersofcompanionship。
Sheputasidetherammingpawswhichconveyedtheseoffers,andassuringthejoyousvolunteersthatshemightpresentlyhaveausefortheircompany,saunteredonthroughtheemptydrawing-roomtothelibraryattheendofthehouse。Thelibrarywasalmosttheonlysurvivingportionoftheoldmanor-houseofBellomont:alongspaciousroom,revealingthetraditionsofthemother-countryinitsclassically-caseddoors,theDutchtilesofthechimney,andtheelaboratehob-gratewithitsshiningbrassurns。Afewfamilyportraitsoflantern-jawedgentlemenintie-wigs,andladieswithlargehead-dressesandsmallbodies,hungbetweentheshelveslinedwithpleasantly-shabbybooks:
booksmostlycontemporaneouswiththeancestorsinquestion,andtowhichthesubsequentTrenorshadmadenoperceptibleadditions。ThelibraryatBellomontwasinfactneverusedforreading,thoughithadacertainpopularityasasmoking-roomoraquietretreatforflirtation。IthadoccurredtoLily,however,thatitmightonthisoccasionhavebeenresortedtobytheonlymemberofthepartyintheleastlikelytoputittoitsoriginaluse。Sheadvancednoiselesslyoverthedenseoldrugscatteredwitheasy-chairs,andbeforeshereachedthemiddleoftheroomshesawthatshehadnotbeenmistaken。LawrenceSeldenwasinfactseatedatitsfartherend;butthoughabooklayonhisknee,hisattentionwasnotengagedwithit,butdirectedtoaladywhoselace-dadfigure,assheleanedbackinanadjoiningchair,detacheditselfwithexaggeratedslimnessagainsttheduskyleatherupholstery。
Lilypausedasshecaughtsightofthegroup;foramomentsheseemedabouttowithdraw,butthinkingbetterofthis,sheannouncedherapproachbyaslightshakeofherskirtswhichmadethecoupleraisetheirheads,Mrs。Dorsetwithalookoffrankdispleasure,andSeldenwithhisusualquietsmile。ThesightofhiscomposurehadadisturbingeffectonLily;buttobedisturbedwasinhercasetomakeamorebrillianteffortatself-possession。
\"Dearme,amIlate?\"sheasked,puttingahandinhisasheadvancedtogreether。
\"Lateforwhat?\"enquiredMrs。Dorsettartly。\"Notforluncheon,certainly——butperhapsyouhadanearlierengagement?\"
\"Yes,Ihad,\"saidLilyconfidingly。
\"Really?PerhapsIamintheway,then?ButMr。Seldenisentirelyatyourdisposal。\"Mrs。Dorsetwaspalewithtemper,andherantagonistfeltacertainpleasureinprolongingherdistress。
\"Oh,dear,no——dostay,\"shesaidgood-humouredly。\"Idon’tintheleastwanttodriveyouaway。\"
\"You’reawfullygood,dear,butIneverinterferewithMr。
Selden’sengagements。\"
Theremarkwasutteredwithalittleairofproprietorshipnotlostonitsobject,whoconcealedafaintblushofannoyancebystoopingtopickupthebookhehaddroppedatLily’sapproach。
Thelatter’seyeswidenedcharminglyandshebrokeintoalightlaugh。
\"ButIhavenoengagementwithMr。Selden!Myengagementwastogotochurch;andI’mafraidtheomnibushasstartedwithoutme。
HASitstarted,doyouknow?\"
SheturnedtoSelden,whorepliedthathehadhearditdriveawaysometimesince。
\"Ah,thenIshallhavetowalk;IpromisedHildaandMurieltogotochurchwiththem。It’stoolatetowalkthere,yousay?Well,Ishallhavethecreditoftrying,atanyrate——andtheadvantageofescapingpartoftheservice。I’mnotsosorryformyself,afterall!\"
Andwithabrightnodtothecoupleonwhomshehadintruded,MissBartstrolledthroughtheglassdoorsandcarriedherrustlinggracedownthelongperspectiveofthegardenwalk。
Shewastakingherwaychurchward,butatnoveryquickpace;afactnotlostononeofherobservers,whostoodinthedoorwaylookingafterherwithanairofpuzzledamusement。Thetruthisthatshewasconsciousofasomewhatkeenshockofdisappointment。AllherplansforthedayhadbeenbuiltontheassumptionthatitwastoseeherthatSeldenhadcometoBellomont。Shehadexpected,whenshecamedown
stairs,tofindhimonthewatchforher;andshehadfoundhim,instead,inasituationwhichmightwelldenotethathehadbeenonthewatchforanotherlady。Wasitpossible,afterall,thathehadcomeforBerthaDorset?Thelatterhadactedontheassumptiontotheextentofappearingatanhourwhenshenevershowedherselftoordinarymortals,andLily,forthemoment,sawnowayofputtingherinthewrong。ItdidnotoccurtoherthatSeldenmighthavebeenactuatedmerelybythedesiretospendaSundayoutoftown:
womenneverlearntodispensewiththesentimentalmotiveintheirjudgmentsofmen。ButLilywasnoteasilydisconcerted;
competitionputheronhermettle,andshereflectedthatSelden’scoming,ifitdidnotdeclarehimtobestillinMrs。