第8章

类别:其他 作者:Edith Wharton字数:29866更新时间:18/12/19 16:53:04
\"MissBartremainshere,\"hiswiferejoinedincisively。\"And,I think,George,wehadbetternotdetainMrs。Stepneyanylonger。\" MissBart,duringthisbriefexchangeofwords,remainedinadmirableerectness,slightlyisolatedfromtheembarrassedgroupabouther。Shehadpaledalittleundertheshockoftheinsult,butthediscomposureofthesurroundingfaceswasnotreflectedinherown。Thefaintdisdainofhersmileseemedtoliftherhighaboveherantagonist’sreach,anditwasnottillshehadgivenMrs。Dorsetthefullmeasureofthedistancebetweenthemthatsheturnedandextendedherhandtoherhostess。 \"IamjoiningtheDuchesstomorrow,\"sheexplained,\"anditseemedeasierformetoremainonshoreforthenight。\" SheheldfirmlytoMrs。Bry’swaveringeyewhileshegavethisexplanation,butwhenitwasoverSeldensawhersendatentativeglancefromonetoanotherofthewomen’sfaces。Shereadtheirincredulityintheiravertedlooks,andinthemutewretchednessofthemenbehindthem,andforamiserablehalf-secondhethoughtshequiveredonthebrinkoffailure。Then,turningtohimwithaneasygesture,andthepalebraveryofherrecoveredsmile——\"DearMr。Selden,\"shesaid,\"youpromisedtoseemetomycab。\" Outside,theskywasgustyandovercast,andasLilyandSeldenmovedtowardthedesertedgardensbelowtherestaurant,spurtsofwarmrainblewfitfullyagainsttheirfaces。Thefictionofthecabhadbeentacitlyabandoned;theywalkedoninsilence,herhandonhisarm,tillthedeepershadeofthegardensreceivedthem,andpausingbesideabench,hesaid:\"Sitdownamoment。\" Shedroppedtotheseatwithoutanswering,buttheelectriclampatthebendofthepathshedagleamonthestrugglingmiseryofherface。Seldensatdownbesideher,waitingforhertospeak,fearfullestanywordhechoseshouldtouchtooroughlyonherwound,andkeptalsofromfreeutterancebythewretcheddoubtwhichhadslowlyreneweditselfwithinhim。Whathadbroughthertothispass?Whatweaknesshadplacedhersoabominablyatherenemy’smercy?AndwhyshouldBerthaDorsethaveturnedintoanenemyattheverymomentwhenshesoobviouslyneededthesupportofhersex?Evenwhilehisnervesragedatthesubjectionofhusbandstotheirwives,andatthecrueltyofwomentotheirkind,reasonobstinatelyharpedontheproverbialrelationbetweensmokeandfire。ThememoryofMrs。Fisher’shints,andthecorroborationofhisownimpressions,whiletheydeepenedhispityalsoincreasedhisconstraint,since,whicheverwayhesoughtafreeoutletforsympathy,itwasblockedbythefearofcommittingablunder。 Suddenlyitstruckhimthathissilencemustseemalmostasaccusatoryasthatofthemenhehaddespisedforturningfromher;butbeforehecouldfindthefittingwordshehadcuthimshortwithaquestion。 \"Doyouknowofaquiethotel?Icansendformymaidinthemorning。\" \"Anhotel——HERE——thatyoucangotoalone?It’snotpossible。\" Shemetthiswithapalegleamofheroldplayfulness。\"WhatIS,then?It’stoowettosleepinthegardens。\" \"Buttheremustbesomeone——\" \"SomeonetowhomIcango?Ofcourse——anynumber——butatTHIS hour?Youseemychangeofplanwasrathersudden——\" \"GoodGod——ifyou’dlistenedtome!\"hecried,ventinghishelplessnessinaburstofanger。 Shestillheldhimoffwiththegentlemockeryofhersmile。\"Buthaven’tI?\"sherejoined。\"Youadvisedmetoleavetheyacht,andI’mleavingit。\" Hesawthen,withapangofself-reproach,thatshemeantneithertoexplainnortodefendherself;thatbyhismiserablesilencehehadforfeitedallchanceofhelpingher,andthatthedecisivehourwaspast。 Shehadrisen,andstoodbeforehiminakindofcloudedmajesty,likesomedeposedprincessmovingtranquillytoexile。 \"Lily!\"heexclaimed,withanoteofdespairingappeal;but——\"Oh,notnow,\"shegentlyadmonishedhim;andthen,inallthesweetnessofherrecoveredcomposure:\"SinceImustfindsheltersomewhere,andsinceyou’resokindlyheretohelpme——\" Hegatheredhimselfupatthechallenge。\"YouwilldoasItellyou?There’sbutonething,then;youmustgostraighttoyourcousins,theStepneys。\" \"Oh——\"brokefromherwithamovementofinstinctiveresistance; butheinsisted:\"Come——it’slate,andyoumustappeartohavegonetheredirectly。\" Hehaddrawnherhandintohisarm,butsheheldhimbackwithalastgestureofprotest。\"Ican’t——Ican’t——notthat——youdon’tknowGwen:youmustn’taskme!\" \"IMUSTaskyou——youmustobeyme,\"hepersisted,thoughinfectedatheartbyherownfear。 Hervoicesanktoawhisper:\"Andifsherefuses?\"——but,\"Oh,trustme——trustme!\"hecouldonlyinsistinreturn;andyieldingtohistouch,shelethimleadherbackinsilencetotheedgeofthesquare。 InthecabtheycontinuedtoremainsilentthroughthebriefdrivewhichcarriedthemtotheilluminatedportalsoftheStepneys’hotel。Hereheleftheroutside,inthedarknessoftheraisedhood,whilehisnamewassentuptoStepney,andhepacedtheshowyhall,awaitingthelatter’sdescent。Tenminuteslaterthetwomenpassedouttogetherbetweenthegold-lacedcustodiansofthethreshold;butinthevestibuleStepneydrewupwithalastflareofreluctance。 \"It’sunderstood,then?\"hestipulatednervously,withhishandonSelden’sarm。\"Sheleavestomorrowbytheearlytrain——andmywife’sasleep,andcan’tbedisturbed。\" TheblindsofMrs。Peniston’sdrawing-roomweredrawndownagainsttheoppressiveJunesun,andinthesultrytwilightthefacesofherassembledrelativestookonafittingshadowofbereavement。Theywereallthere:VanAlstynes,StepneysandMelsons——evenastrayPenistonortwo,indicating,byagreaterlatitudeindressandmanner,thefactofremoterrelationshipandmoresettledhopes。ThePenistonsidewas,infact,secureintheknowledgethatthebulkofMr。Peniston’sproperty\"wentback\";whilethedirectconnectionhungsuspendedonthedisposalofhiswidow’sprivatefortuneandontheuncertaintyofitsextent。JackStepney,inhisnewcharacterastherichestnephew,tacitlytookthelead,emphasizinghisimportancebythedeeperglossofhismourningandthesubduedauthorityofhismanner; whilehiswife’sboredattitudeandfrivolousgownproclaimedtheheiress’sdisregardoftheinsignificantinterestsatstake。OldNedVanAlstyne,seatednexttoherinacoatthatmadeafflictiondapper,twirledhiswhitemoustachetoconcealtheeagertwitchofhislips;andGraceStepney,red-nosedandsmellingofcrape,whisperedemotionallytoMrs。HerbertMelson: \"Icouldn’tBEARtoseetheNiagaraanywhereelse!\" Arustleofweedsandquickturningofheadshailedtheopeningofthedoor,andLilyBartappeared,tallandnobleinherblackdress,withGertyFarishatherside。Thewomen’sfaces,asshepausedinterrogativelyonthethreshold,wereastudyinhesitation。Oneortwomadefaintmotionsofrecognition,whichmighthavebeensubduedeitherbythesolemnityofthescene,orbythedoubtastohowfartheothersmeanttogo;Mrs。JackStepneygaveacarelessnod,andGraceStepney,withasepulchralgesture,indicatedaseatatherside。ButLily,ignoringtheinvitation,aswellasJackStepney’sofficialattempttodirecther,movedacrosstheroomwithhersmoothfreegait,andseatedherselfinachairwhichseemedtohavebeenpurposelyplacedapartfromtheothers。 ItwasthefirsttimethatshehadfacedherfamilysinceherreturnfromEurope,twoweeksearlier;butifsheperceivedanyuncertaintyintheirwelcome,itservedonlytoaddatingeofironytotheusualcomposureofherbearing。Theshockofdismaywithwhich,onthedock,shehadheardfromGertyFarishofMrs。Peniston’ssuddendeath,hadbeenmitigated,almostatonce,bytheirrepressiblethoughtthatnow,atlast,shewouldbeabletopayherdebts。Shehadlookedforwardwithconsiderableuneasinesstoherfirstencounterwithheraunt。 Mrs。Penistonhadvehementlyopposedherniece’sdeparturewiththeDorsets,andhadmarkedhercontinueddisapprovalbynotwritingduringLily’sabsence。ThecertaintythatshehadheardoftherupturewiththeDorsetsmadetheprospectofthemeetingmoreformidable;andhowshouldLilyhaverepressedaquicksenseofreliefatthethoughtthat,insteadofundergoingtheanticipatedordeal,shehadonlytoentergracefullyonalong-assuredinheritance?Ithadbeen,intheconsecratedphrase,\"alwaysunderstood\"thatMrs。Penistonwastoprovidehandsomelyforherniece;andinthelatter’smindtheunderstandinghadlongsincecrystallizedintofact。 \"Shegetseverything,ofcourse——Idon’tseewhatwe’reherefor,\"Mrs。JackStepneyremarkedwithcarelessloudnesstoNedVanAlstyne;andthelatter’sdeprecatingmurmur——\"Juliawasalwaysajustwoman\"——mighthavebeeninterpretedassignifyingeitheracquiescenceordoubt。 \"Well,it’sonlyaboutfourhundredthousand,\"Mrs。Stepneyrejoinedwithayawn;andGraceStepney,inthesilenceproducedbythelawyer’spreliminarycough,washeardtosobout:\"Theywon’tfindatowelmissing——Iwentoverthemwithhertheveryday——\" Lily,oppressedbythecloseatmosphere,andthestiflingodouroffreshmourning,feltherattentionstrayingasMrs。Peniston’slawyer,solemnlyerectbehindtheBuhltableattheendoftheroom,begantorattlethroughthepreambleofthewill。 \"It’slikebeinginchurch,\"shereflected,wonderingvaguelywhereGwenStepneyhadgotsuchanawfulhat。ThenshenoticedhowstoutJackhadgrown——hewouldsoonbealmostasplethoricasHerbertMelson,whosatafewfeetoff,breathingpuffilyasheleanedhisblack-glovedhandsonhisstick。 \"Iwonderwhyrichpeoplealwaysgrowfat——Isupposeit’sbecausethere’snothingtoworrythem。IfIinherit,Ishallhavetobecarefulofmyfigure,\"shemused,whilethelawyerdronedonthroughalabyrinthoflegacies。Theservantscamefirst,thenafewcharitableinstitutions,thenseveralremoterMelsonsandStepneys,whostirredconsciouslyastheirnamesrangout,andthensubsidedintoastateofimpassivenessbefittingthesolemnityoftheoccasion。NedVanAlstyne,JackStepney,andacousinortwofollowed,eachcoupledwiththementionofafewthousands:LilywonderedthatGraceStepneywasnotamongthem。 Thensheheardherownname——\"tomynieceLilyBarttenthousanddollars——\"andafterthatthelawyeragainlosthimselfinacoilofunintelligibleperiods,fromwhichtheconcludingphraseflashedoutwithstartlingdistinctness:\"andtheresidueofmyestatetomydearcousinandname-sake,GraceJuliaStepney。\" Therewasasubduedgaspofsurprise,arapidturningofheads,andasurgingofsablefigurestowardthecornerinwhichMissStepneywailedouthersenseofunworthinessthroughthecrumpledballofablack-edgedhandkerchief。 Lilystoodapartfromthegeneralmovement,feelingherselfforthefirsttimeutterlyalone。Noonelookedather,nooneseemedawareofherpresence;shewasprobingtheverydepthsofinsignificance。Andunderhersenseofthecollectiveindifferencecametheacuterpangofhopesdeceived。 Disinherited——shehadbeendisinherited——andforGraceStepney! ShemetGerty’slamentableeyes,fixedonherinadespairingeffortatconsolation,andthelookbroughthertoherself。Therewassomethingtobedonebeforesheleftthehouse:tobedonewithallthenobilitysheknewhowtoputintosuchgestures。SheadvancedtothegroupaboutMissStepney,andholdingoutherhandsaidsimply:\"DearGrace,Iamsoglad。\" Theotherladieshadfallenbackatherapproach,andaspacecreateditselfabouther。Itwidenedassheturnedtogo,andnooneadvancedtofillitup。Shepausedamoment,glancingabouther,calmlytakingthemeasureofhersituation。Sheheardsomeoneaskaquestionaboutthedateofthewill;shecaughtafragmentofthelawyer’sanswer——somethingaboutasuddensummons,andan\"earlierinstrument。\"Thenthetideofdispersalbegantodriftpasther;Mrs。JackStepneyandMrs。 HerbertMelsonstoodonthedoorstepawaitingtheirmotor;asympathizinggroupescortedGraceStepneytothecabitwasfelttobefittingsheshouldtake,thoughshelivedbutastreetortwoaway;andMissBartandGertyfoundthemselvesalmostaloneinthepurpledrawing-room,whichmorethanever,initsstuffydimness,resembledawell-keptfamilyvault,inwhichthelastcorpsehadjustbeendecentlydeposited。 InGertyFarish’ssitting-room,whitherahansomhadcarriedthetwofriends,Lilydroppedintoachairwithafaintsoundoflaughter:itstruckherasahumorouscoincidencethatheraunt’slegacyshouldsonearlyrepresenttheamountofherdebttoTrenor。TheneedofdischargingthatdebthadreasserteditselfwithincreasedurgencysinceherreturntoAmerica,andshespokeherfirstthoughtinsayingtotheanxiouslyhoveringGerty:\"I wonderwhenthelegacieswillbepaid。\" ButMissFarishcouldnotpauseoverthelegacies;shebrokeintoalargerindignation。\"Oh,Lily,it’sunjust;it’scruel——GraceStepneymustFEELshehasnorighttoallthatmoney!\" \"AnyonewhoknewhowtopleaseAuntJuliahasarighttohermoney,\"MissBartrejoinedphilosophically。 \"Butshewasdevotedtoyou——sheledeveryonetothink——\"Gertycheckedherselfinevidentembarrassment,andMissBartturnedtoherwithadirectlook。\"Gerty,behonest:thiswillwasmadeonlysixweeksago。ShehadheardofmybreakwiththeDorsets?\" \"Everyoneheard,ofcourse,thattherehadbeensomedisagreement——somemisunderstanding——\" \"DidshehearthatBerthaturnedmeofftheyacht?\" \"Lily!\" \"Thatwaswhathappened,youknow。ShesaidIwastryingtomarryGeorgeDorset。Shedidittomakehimthinkshewasjealous。 Isn’tthatwhatshetoldGwenStepney?\" \"Idon’tknow——Idon’tlistentosuchhorrors。\" \"IMUSTlistentothem——ImustknowwhereIstand。\"Shepaused,andagainsoundedafaintnoteofderision。\"Didyounoticethewomen?TheywereafraidtosnubmewhiletheythoughtIwasgoingtogetthemoney——afterwardtheyscuttledoffasifI hadtheplague。\"Gertyremainedsilent,andshecontinued:\"I stayedontoseewhatwouldhappen。TheytooktheircuefromGwenStepneyandLuluMelson——IsawthemwatchingtoseewhatGwenwoulddo——Gerty,Imustknowjustwhatisbeingsaidofme。\" \"ItellyouIdon’tlisten——\" \"Onehearssuchthingswithoutlistening。\"SheroseandlaidherresolutehandsonMissFarish’sshoulders。\"Gerty,arepeoplegoingtocutme?\" \"YourFRIENDS,Lily——howcanyouthinkit?\" \"Whoareone’sfriendsatsuchatime?Who,butyou,youpoortrustfuldarling?AndheavenknowswhatYOUsuspectmeof!\"ShekissedGertywithawhimsicalmurmur。\"You’dneverletitmakeanydifference——butthenyou’refondofcriminals,Gerty!Howabouttheirreclaimableones,though?ForI’mabsolutelyimpenitent,youknow。\" Shedrewherselfuptothefullheightofherslendermajesty,toweringlikesomedarkangelofdefianceabovethetroubledGerty,whocouldonlyfalterout:\"Lily,Lily——howcanyoulaughaboutsuchthings?\" \"Soasnottoweep,perhaps。Butno——I’mnotofthetearfulorder。Idiscoveredearlythatcryingmakesmynosered,andtheknowledgehashelpedmethroughseveralpainfulepisodes。\"Shetookarestlessturnabouttheroom,andthen,reseatingherself,liftedthebrightmockeryofhereyestoGerty’sanxiouscountenance。 \"Ishouldn’thaveminded,youknow,ifI’dgotthemoney——\"andatMissFarish’sprotesting\"Oh!\"sherepeatedcalmly:\"Notastraw,mydear;for,inthefirstplace,theywouldn’thavequitedaredtoignoreme;andiftheyhad,itwouldn’thavemattered,becauseIshouldhavebeenindependentofthem。Butnow——!\"Theironyfadedfromhereyes,andshebentacloudedfaceuponherfriend。 \"Howcanyoutalkso,Lily?Ofcoursethemoneyoughttohavebeenyours,butafterallthatmakesnodifference。Theimportantthing——\"Gertypaused,andthencontinuedfirmly:\"Theimportantthingisthatyoushouldclearyourself——shouldtellyourfriendsthewholetruth。\" \"Thewholetruth?\"MissBartlaughed。\"Whatistruth?Whereawomanisconcerned,it’sthestorythat’seasiesttobelieve。Inthiscaseit’sagreatdealeasiertobelieveBerthaDorset’sstorythanmine,becauseshehasabighouseandanoperabox,andit’sconvenienttobeongoodtermswithher。\" MissFarishstillfixedherwithananxiousgaze。\"ButwhatIS yourstory,Lily?Idon’tbelieveanyoneknowsityet。\" \"Mystory?——Idon’tbelieveIknowitmyself。YouseeIneverthoughtofpreparingaversioninadvanceasBerthadid——andifI had,Idon’tthinkIshouldtakethetroubletouseitnow。\" ButGertycontinuedwithherquietreasonableness:\"Idon’twantaversionpreparedinadvance——butIwantyoutotellmeexactlywhathappenedfromthebeginning。\" \"Fromthebeginning?\"MissBartgentlymimickedher。\"DearGerty,howlittleimaginationyougoodpeoplehave!Why,thebeginningwasinmycradle,Isuppose——inthewayIwasbroughtup,andthethingsIwastaughttocarefor。Orno——Iwon’tblameanybodyformyfaults:I’llsayitwasinmyblood,thatIgotitfromsomewickedpleasure-lovingancestress,whoreactedagainstthehomelyvirtuesofNewAmsterdam,andwantedtobebackatthecourtoftheCharleses!\"AndasMissFarishcontinuedtopressherwithtroubledeyes,shewentonimpatiently:\"Youaskedmejustnowforthetruth——well,thetruthaboutanygirlisthatonceshe’stalkedaboutshe’sdonefor;andthemoresheexplainshercasetheworseitlooks——MygoodGerty,youdon’thappentohaveacigaretteaboutyou?\" Inherstuffyroomatthehoteltowhichshehadgoneonlanding,LilyBartthateveningreviewedhersituation。ItwasthelastweekinJune,andnoneofherfriendswereintown。Thefewrelativeswhohadstayedon,orreturned,forthereadingofMrs。 Peniston’swill,hadtakenflightagainthatafternoontoNewportorLongIsland;andnotoneofthemhadmadeanyprofferofhospitalitytoLily。ForthefirsttimeinherlifeshefoundherselfutterlyaloneexceptforGertyFarish。EvenattheactualmomentofherbreakwiththeDorsetsshehadnothadsokeenasenseofitsconsequences,fortheDuchessofBeltshire,hearingofthecatastrophefromLordHubert,hadinstantlyofferedherprotection,andunderhershelteringwingLilyhadmadeanalmosttriumphantprogresstoLondon。Thereshehadbeensorelytemptedtolingeroninasocietywhichaskedofheronlytoamuseandcharmit,withoutenquiringtoocuriouslyhowshehadacquiredhergiftfordoingso;butSelden,beforetheyparted,hadpressedonhertheurgentneedofreturningatoncetoheraunt,andLordHubert,whenhepresentlyreappearedinLondon,aboundedinthesamecounsel。LilydidnotneedtobetoldthattheDuchess’schampionshipwasnotthebestroadtosocialrehabilitation,andasshewasbesidesawarethathernobledefendermightatanymomentdropherinfavourofanewPROTEGEE,shereluctantlydecidedtoreturntoAmerica。Butshehadnotbeentenminutesonhernativeshorebeforesherealizedthatshehaddelayedtoolongtoregainit。TheDorsets,theStepneys,theBrys——alltheactorsandwitnessesinthemiserabledrama——hadprecededherwiththeirversionofthecase;and,evenhadsheseentheleastchanceofgainingahearingforherown,someobscuredisdainandreluctancewouldhaverestrainedher。 Sheknewitwasnotbyexplanationsandcounter-chargesthatshecouldeverhopetorecoverherloststanding;butevenhadshefelttheleasttrustintheirefficacy,shewouldstillhavebeenheldbackbythefeelingwhichhadkeptherfromdefendingherselftoGertyFarish——afeelingthatwashalfprideandhalfhumiliation。ForthoughsheknewshehadbeenruthlesslysacrificedtoBerthaDorset’sdeterminationtowinbackherhusband,andthoughherownrelationtoDorsethadbeenthatofthemerestgood-fellowship,yetshehadbeenperfectlyawarefromtheoutsetthatherpartintheaffairwas,asCarryFisherbrutallyputit,todistractDorset’sattentionfromhiswife。 Thatwaswhatshewas\"therefor\":itwasthepriceshehadchosentopayforthreemonthsofluxuryandfreedomfromcare。 Herhabitofresolutelyfacingthefacts,inherraremomentsofintrospection,didnotnowallowhertoputanyfalseglossonthesituation。Shehadsufferedfortheveryfaithfulnesswithwhichshehadcarriedoutherpartofthetacitcompact,butthepartwasnotahandsomeoneatbest,andshesawitnowinalltheuglinessoffailure。 Shesaw,too,inthesameuncompromisinglight,thetrainofconsequencesresultingfromthatfailure;andthesebecameclearertoherwitheverydayofherwearylingeringintown。ShestayedonpartlyforthecomfortofGertyFarish’snearness,andpartlyforlackofknowingwheretogo。Sheunderstoodwellenoughthenatureofthetaskbeforeher。Shemustsetouttoregain,littlebylittle,thepositionshehadlost;andthefirststepinthetedioustaskwastofindout,assoonaspossible,onhowmanyofherfriendsshecouldcount。HerhopesweremainlycentredonMrs。Trenor,whohadtreasuresofeasy-goingtoleranceforthosewhowereamusingorusefultoher,andinthenoisyrushofwhoseexistencethestillsmallvoiceofdetractionwasslowtomakeitselfheard。ButJudy,thoughshemusthavebeenapprisedofMissBart’sreturn,hadnotevenrecognizeditbytheformalnoteofcondolencewhichherfriend’sbereavementdemanded。AnyadvanceonLily’ssidemighthavebeenperilous:therewasnothingtodobuttotrusttothehappychanceofanaccidentalmeeting,andLilyknewthat,evensolateintheseason,therewasalwaysahopeofrunningacrossherfriendsintheirfrequentpassagesthroughtown。 Tothisendsheassiduouslyshowedherselfattherestaurantstheyfrequented,where,attendedbythetroubledGerty,shelunchedluxuriously,asshesaid,onherexpectations。 \"MydearGerty,youwouldn’thavemeletthehead-waiterseethatI’venothingtoliveonbutAuntJulia’slegacy?ThinkofGraceStepney’ssatisfactionifshecameinandfounduslunchingoncoldmuttonandtea!Whatsweetshallwehavetoday,dear——COUPE JACQUESorPECHESALAMELBA?\" ShedroppedtheMENUabruptly,withaquickheighteningofcolour,andGerty,followingherglance,wasawareoftheadvance,fromaninnerroom,ofapartyheadedbyMrs。TrenorandCarryFisher。Itwasimpossiblefortheseladiesandtheircompanions——amongwhomLilyhadatoncedistinguishedbothTrenorandRosedale——nottopass,ingoingout,thetableatwhichthetwogirlswereseated;andGerty’ssenseofthefactbetrayeditselfinthehelplesstrepidationofhermanner。MissBart,onthecontrary,borneforwardonthewaveofherbuoyantgrace,andneithershrinkingfromherfriendsnorappearingtolieinwaitforthem,gavetotheencounterthetouchofnaturalnesswhichshecouldimparttothemoststrainedsituations。SuchembarrassmentaswasshownwasonMrs。Trenor’sside,andmanifesteditselfintheminglingofexaggeratedwarmthwithimperceptiblereservations。HerloudlyaffirmedpleasureatseeingMissBarttooktheformofanebulousgeneralization,whichincludedneitherenquiriesastoherfuturenortheexpressionofadefinitewishtoseeheragain。Lily,well-versedinthelanguageoftheseomissions,knewthattheywereequallyintelligibletotheothermembersoftheparty:evenRosedale,flushedashewaswiththeimportanceofkeepingsuchcompany,atoncetookthetemperatureofMrs。Trenor’scordiality,andreflecteditinhisoff-handgreetingofMissBart。Trenor,redanduncomfortable,hadcutshorthissalutationsonthepretextofawordtosaytothehead-waiter;andtherestofthegroupsoonmeltedawayinMrs。Trenor’swake。 Itwasoverinamoment——thewaiter,MENUinhand,stillhungontheresultofthechoicebetweenCOUPEJACQUESandPECHESALA MELBA——butMissBart,intheinterval,hadtakenthemeasureofherfate。WhereJudyTrenorled,alltheworldwouldfollow;andLilyhadthedoomedsenseofthecastawaywhohassignalledinvaintofleeingsails。 InaflashsherememberedMrs。Trenor’scomplaintsofCarryFisher’srapacity,andsawthattheydenotedanunexpectedacquaintancewithherhusband’sprivateaffairs。InthelargetumultuousdisorderofthelifeatBellomont,wherenooneseemedtohavetimetoobserveanyoneelse,andprivateaimsandpersonalinterestsweresweptalongunheededintherushofcollectiveactivities,Lilyhadfanciedherselfshelteredfrominconvenientscrutiny;butifJudyknewwhenMrs。Fisherborrowedmoneyofherhusband,wasshelikelytoignorethesametransactiononLily’spart?Ifshewascarelessofhisaffectionsshewasplainlyjealousofhispocket;andinthatfactLilyreadtheexplanationofherrebuff。TheimmediateresultoftheseconclusionswasthepassionateresolvetopaybackherdebttoTrenor。Thatobligationdischarged,shewouldhavebutathousanddollarsofMrs。Peniston’slegacyleft,andnothingtoliveonbutherownsmallincome,whichwasconsiderablylessthanGertyFarish’swretchedpittance;butthisconsiderationgavewaytotheimperativeclaimofherwoundedpride。ShemustbequitswiththeTrenorsfirst;afterthatshewouldtakethoughtforthefuture。 Inherignoranceoflegalprocrastinationsshehadsupposedthatherlegacywouldbepaidoverwithinafewdaysofthereadingofheraunt’swill;andafteranintervalofanxioussuspense,shewrotetoenquirethecauseofthedelay。TherewasanotherintervalbeforeMrs。Peniston’slawyer,whowasalsooneoftheexecutors,repliedtotheeffectthat,somequestionshavingarisenrelativetotheinterpretationofthewill,heandhisassociatesmightnotbeinapositiontopaythelegaciestillthecloseofthetwelvemonthlegallyallottedfortheirsettlement。Bewilderedandindignant,Lilyresolvedtotrytheeffectofapersonalappeal;butshereturnedfromherexpeditionwithasenseofthepowerlessnessofbeautyandcharmagainsttheunfeelingprocessesofthelaw。Itseemedintolerabletoliveonforanotheryearundertheweightofherdebt;andinherextremityshedecidedtoturntoMissStepney,whostilllingeredintown,immersedinthedelectabledutyof\"goingover\"herbenefactress’seffects。ItwasbitterenoughforLilytoaskafavourofGraceStepney,butthealternativewasbittererstill; andonemorningshepresentedherselfatMrs。Peniston’s,whereGrace,forthefacilitationofherpioustask,hadtakenupaprovisionalabode。 Thestrangenessofenteringasasuppliantthehousewhereshehadsolongcommanded,increasedLily’sdesiretoshortentheordeal;andwhenMissStepneyenteredthedarkeneddrawing-room,rustlingwiththebestqualityofcrape,hervisitorwentstraighttothepoint:wouldshebewillingtoadvancetheamountoftheexpectedlegacy? Grace,inreply,weptandwonderedattherequest,bemoanedtheinexorablenessofthelaw,andwasastonishedthatLilyhadnotrealizedtheexactsimilarityoftheirpositions。Didshethinkthatonlythepaymentofthelegacieshadbeendelayed?Why,MissStepneyherselfhadnotreceivedapennyofherinheritance,andwaspayingrent——yes,actually!——fortheprivilegeoflivinginahousethatbelongedtoher。ShewassureitwasnotwhatpoordearcousinJuliawouldhavewished——shehadtoldtheexecutorssototheirfaces;buttheywereinaccessibletoreason,andtherewasnothingtodobuttowait。LetLilytakeexamplebyher,andbepatient——letthembothrememberhowbeautifullypatientcousinJuliahadalwaysbeen。 Lilymadeamovementwhichshowedherimperfectassimilationofthisexample。\"Butyouwillhaveeverything,Grace——itwouldbeeasyforyoutoborrowtentimestheamountIamaskingfor。\" \"Borrow——easyformetoborrow?\"GraceStepneyroseupbeforeherinsablewrath。\"DoyouimagineforamomentthatIwouldraisemoneyonmyexpectationsfromcousinJulia,whenIknowsowellherunspeakablehorrorofeverytransactionofthesort?Why,Lily,ifyoumustknowthetruth,itwastheideaofyourbeingindebtthatbroughtonherillness——youremembershehadaslightattackbeforeyousailed。Oh,Idon’tknowtheparticulars,ofcourse——Idon’tWANTtoknowthem——buttherewererumoursaboutyouraffairsthatmadehermostunhappy——noonecouldbewithherwithoutseeingthat。Ican’thelpitifyouareoffendedbymytellingyouthisnow——ifIcandoanythingtomakeyourealizethefollyofyourcourse,andhowdeeplySHE disapprovedofit,Ishallfeelitisthetruestwayofmakinguptoyouforherloss。 ItseemedtoLily,asMrs。Peniston’sdoorclosedonher,thatshewastakingafinalleaveofheroldlife。ThefuturestretchedbeforeherdullandbareasthedesertedlengthofFifthAvenue,andopportunitiesshowedasmeagrelyasthefewcabstrailinginquestoffaresthatdidnotcome。Thecompletenessoftheanalogywas,however,disturbedasshereachedthesidewalkbytherapidapproachofahansomwhichpulledupatsightofher。 Frombeneathitsluggage-ladentop,shecaughtthewaveofasignallinghand;andthenextmomentMrs。Fisher,springingtothestreet,hadfoldedherinademonstrativeembrace。 \"Mydear,youdon’tmeantosayyou’restillintown?WhenIsawyoutheotherdayatSherry’sIdidn’thavetimetoask——\"Shebrokeoff,andaddedwithaburstoffrankness:\"ThetruthisI wasHORRID,Lily,andI’vewantedtotellyousoeversince。\" \"Oh——\"MissBartprotested,drawingbackfromherpenitentclasp;butMrs。Fisherwentonwithherusualdirectness:\"Lookhere,Lily,don’tlet’sbeataboutthebush:halfthetroubleinlifeiscausedbypretendingthereisn’tany。That’snotmyway,andIcanonlysayI’mthoroughlyashamedofmyselfforfollowingtheotherwomen’slead。Butwe’lltalkofthatbyandbye——tellmenowwhereyou’restayingandwhatyourplansare。Idon’tsupposeyou’rekeepinghouseintherewithGraceStepney,eh?——anditstruckmeyoumightberatheratlooseends。\" InLily’spresentmoodtherewasnoresistingthehonestfriendlinessofthisappeal,andshesaidwithasmile:\"Iamatlooseendsforthemoment,butGertyFarishisstillintown,andshe’sgoodenoughtoletmebewithherwhenevershecansparethetime。\" Mrs。Fishermadeaslightgrimace。\"H’m——that’satemperatejoy。 Oh,Iknow——Gerty’satrump,andworthalltherestofusputtogether;butALALONGUEyou’reusedtoalittlehigherseasoning,aren’tyou,dear?Andbesides,Isupposeshe’llbeoffherselfbeforelong——thefirstofAugust,yousay?Well,lookhere,youcan’tspendyoursummerintown;we’lltalkofthatlatertoo。Butmeanwhile,whatdoyousaytoputtingafewthingsinatrunkandcomingdownwithmetotheSamGormers’ tonight?\" AndasLilystaredatthebreathlesssuddennessofthesuggestion,shecontinuedwithhereasylaugh:\"Youdon’tknowthemandtheydon’tknowyou;butthatdon’tmakearapofdifference。They’vetakentheVanAlstyneplaceatRoslyn,andI’vegotCARTEBLANCHEtobringmyfriendsdownthere——themorethemerrier。Theydothingsawfullywell,andthere’stoberatherajollypartytherethisweek——\"shebrokeoff,checkedbyanundefinablechangeinMissBart’sexpression。\"Oh,Idon’tmeanYOURparticularset,youknow:ratheradifferentcrowd,butverygoodfun。Thefactis,theGormershavestruckoutonalineoftheirown:whattheywantistohaveagoodtime,andtohaveitintheirownway。Theygavetheotherthingafewmonths’ trial,undermydistinguishedauspices,andtheywerereallydoingextremelywell——gettingonagooddealfasterthantheBrys,justbecausetheydidn’tcareasmuch——butsuddenlytheydecidedthatthewholebusinessboredthem,andthatwhattheywantedwasacrowdtheycouldreallyfeelathomewith。Ratheroriginalofthem,don’tyouthinkso?MattieGormerHASgotaspirationsstill;womenalwayshave;butshe’sawfullyeasy-going,andSamwon’tbebothered,andtheybothliketobethemostimportantpeopleinsight,sothey’vestartedasortofcontinuousperformanceoftheirown,akindofsocialConeyIsland,whereeverybodyiswelcomewhocanmakenoiseenoughanddoesn’tputonairs。Ithinkit’sawfullygoodfunmyself——someoftheartisticset,youknow,anyprettyactressthat’sgoing,andsoon。Thisweek,forinstance,theyhaveAudreyAnstell,whomadesuchahitlastspringin’TheWinningofWinny’;andPaulMorpeth——he’spaintingMattieGormer——andtheDickBellingers,andKateCorby——well,everyoneyoucanthinkofwho’sjollyandmakesarow。Nowdon’tstandtherewithyournoseintheair,mydear——itwillbeagooddealbetterthanabroilingSundayintown,andyou’llfindcleverpeopleaswellasnoisyones——Morpeth,whoadmiresMattieenormously,alwaysbringsoneortwoofhisset。\" Mrs。FisherdrewLilytowardthehansomwithfriendlyauthority。 \"Jumpinnow,there’sadear,andwe’lldriveroundtoyourhotelandhaveyourthingspacked,andthenwe’llhavetea,andthetwomaidscanmeetusatthetrain。\" ItwasagooddealbetterthanabroilingSundayintown——ofthatnodoubtremainedtoLilyas,recliningintheshadeofaleafyverandah,shelookedseawardacrossastretchofgreenswardpicturesquelydottedwithgroupsofladiesinlaceraimentandmenintennisflannels。ThehugeVanAlstynehouseanditsramblingdependencieswerepackedtotheirfullestcapacitywiththeGormers’week-endguests,whonow,intheradianceoftheSundayforenoon,weredispersingthemselvesoverthegroundsinquestofthevariousdistractionstheplaceafforded: distractionsrangingfromtennis-courtstoshooting-galleries,frombridgeandwhiskeywithindoorstomotorsandsteam-launcheswithout。Lilyhadtheoddsenseofhavingbeencaughtupintothecrowdascarelesslyasapassengerisgatheredinbyanexpresstrain。TheblondeandgenialMrs。Gormermight,indeed,havefiguredtheconductor,calmlyassigningseatstotherushoftravellers,whileCarryFisherrepresentedtheporterpushingtheirbagsintoplace,givingthemtheirnumbersforthedining-car,andwarningthemwhentheirstationwasathand。Thetrain,meanwhile,hadscarcelyslackenedspeed——lifewhizzedonwithadeafening’rattleandroar,inwhichonetravelleratleastfoundawelcomerefugefromthesoundofherownthoughts。 TheGormerMILIEUrepresentedasocialout-skirtwhichLilyhadalwaysfastidiouslyavoided;butitstruckher,nowthatshewasinit,asonlyaflamboyantcopyofherownworld,acaricatureapproximatingtherealthingasthe\"societyplay\"approachesthemannersofthedrawing-room。ThepeopleaboutherweredoingthesamethingsastheTrenors,theVanOsburghsandtheDorsets:thedifferencelayinahundredshadesofaspectandmanner,fromthepatternofthemen’swaistcoatstotheinflexionofthewomen’svoices。Everythingwaspitchedinahigherkey,andtherewasmoreofeachthing:morenoise,morecolour,morechampagne,morefamiliarity——butalsogreatergood-nature,lessrivalry,andafreshercapacityforenjoyment。 MissBart’sarrivalhadbeenwelcomedwithanuncriticalfriendlinessthatfirstirritatedherprideandthenbroughthertoasharpsenseofherownsituation——oftheplaceinlifewhich,forthemoment,shemustacceptandmakethebestof。 Thesepeopleknewherstory——ofthatherfirstlongtalkwithCarryFisherhadleftnodoubt:shewaspubliclybrandedastheheroineofa\"queer\"episode——butinsteadofshrinkingfromherasherownfriendshaddone,theyreceivedherwithoutquestionintotheeasypromiscuityoftheirlives。TheyswallowedherpastaseasilyastheydidMissAnstell’s,andwithnoapparentsenseofanydifferenceinthesizeofthemouthful:alltheyaskedwasthatsheshould——inherownway,fortheyrecognizedadiversityofgifts——contributeasmuchtothegeneralamusementasthatgracefulactress,whosetalents,whenoffthestage,wereofthemostvariedorder。Lilyfeltatoncethatanytendencytobe\"stuck-up,\"tomarkasenseofdifferencesanddistinctions,wouldbefataltohercontinuanceintheGormerset。Tobetakeninonsuchterms——andintosuchaworld!——washardenoughtothelingeringprideinher;butsherealized,withapangofself-contempt,thattobeexcludedfromitwould,afterall,beharderstill。For,almostatonce,shehadfelttheinsidiouscharmofslippingbackintoalifewhereeverymaterialdifficultywassmoothedaway。Thesuddenescapefromastiflinghotelinadustydesertedcitytothespaceandluxuryofagreatcountry-housefannedbyseabreezes,hadproducedastateofmorallassitudeagreeableenoughafterthenervoustensionandphysicaldiscomfortofthepastweeks。Forthemomentshemustyieldtotherefreshmenthersensescraved——afterthatshewouldreconsiderhersituation,andtakecounselwithherdignity。Herenjoymentofhersurroundingswas,indeed,tingedbytheunpleasantconsiderationthatshewasacceptingthehospitalityandcourtingtheapprovalofpeopleshehaddisdainedunderotherconditions。Butshewasgrowinglesssensitiveonsuchpoints:ahardglazeofindifferencewasfastformingoverherdelicaciesandsusceptibilities,andeachconcessiontoexpediencyhardenedthesurfacealittlemore。 OntheMonday,whenthepartydisbandedwithuproariousadieux,thereturntotownthrewintostrongerreliefthecharmsofthelifeshewasleaving。Theotherguestsweredispersingtotakeupthesameexistenceinadifferentsetting:someatNewport,someatBarHarbour,someintheelaboraterusticityofanAdirondackcamp。EvenGertyFarish,whowelcomedLily’sreturnwithtendersolicitude,wouldsoonbepreparingtojointheauntwithwhomshespenthersummersonLakeGeorge:onlyLilyherselfremainedwithoutplanorpurpose,strandedinabackwaterofthegreatcurrentofpleasure。ButCarryFisher,whohadinsistedontransportinghertoherownhouse,wheresheherselfwastoperchforadayortwoonthewaytotheBrys’camp,cametotherescuewithanewsuggestion。 \"Lookhere,Lily——I’lltellyouwhatitis:IwantyoutotakemyplacewithMattieGormerthissummer。They’retakingapartyouttoAlaskanextmonthintheirprivatecar,andMattie,whoisthelaziestwomanalive,wantsmetogowiththem,andrelieveherofthebotherofarrangingthings;buttheBryswantmetoo——oh,yes,we’vemadeitup:didn’tItellyou?——and,toputitfrankly,thoughIliketheGormersbest,there’smoreprofitformeintheBrys。Thefactis,theywanttotryNewportthissummer,andifIcanmakeitasuccessforthemthey——well,they’llmakeitasuccessforme。\"Mrs。Fisherclaspedherhandsenthusiastically。\"Doyouknow,Lily,themoreIthinkofmyideathebetterIlikeit——quiteasmuchforyouasformyself。TheGormershavebothtakenatremendousfancytoyou,andthetriptoAlaskais——well——theverythingIshouldwantforyoujustatpresent。\" MissBartliftedhereyeswithakeenglance。\"Totakemeoutofmyfriends’way,youmean?\"shesaidquietly;andMrs。Fisherrespondedwithadeprecatingkiss:\"Tokeepyououtoftheirsighttilltheyrealizehowmuchtheymissyou。\" MissBartwentwiththeGormerstoAlaska;andtheexpedition,ifitdidnotproducetheeffectanticipatedbyherfriend,hadatleastthenegativeadvantageofremovingherfromthefierycentreofcriticismanddiscussion。GertyFarishhadopposedtheplanwithalltheenergyofhersomewhatinarticulatenature。ShehadevenofferedtogiveuphervisittoLakeGeorge,andremainintownwithMissBart,ifthelatterwouldrenounceherjourney; butLilycoulddisguiseherrealdistasteforthisplanunderasufficientlyvalidreason。 \"Youdearinnocent,don’tyousee,\"sheprotested,\"thatCarryisquiteright,andthatImusttakeUpmyusuallife,andgoaboutamongpeopleasmuchaspossible?IfmyoldfriendschoosetobelieveliesaboutmeIshallhavetomakenewones,that’sall; andyouknowbeggarsmustn’tbechoosers。NotthatIdon’tlikeMattieGormer——IDOlikeher:she’skindandhonestandunaffected;anddon’tyousupposeIfeelgratefultoherformakingmewelcomeatatimewhen,asyou’veyourselfseen,myownfamilyhaveunanimouslywashedtheirhandsofme?\" Gertyshookherhead,mutelyunconvinced。ShefeltnotonlythatLilywascheapeningherselfbymakinguseofanintimacyshewouldneverhavecultivatedfromchoice,butthat,indriftingbacknowtoherformermanneroflife,shewasforfeitingherlastchanceofeverescapingfromit。GertyhadbutanobscureconceptionofwhatLily’sactualexperiencehadbeen:butitsconsequenceshadestablishedalastingholdonherpitysincethememorablenightwhenshehadofferedupherownsecrethopetoherfriend’sextremity。TocharacterslikeGerty’ssuchasacrificeconstitutesamoralclaimonthepartofthepersoninwhosebehalfithasbeenmade。HavingoncehelpedLily,shemustcontinuetohelpher;andhelpingher,mustbelieveinher,becausefaithisthemain-springofsuchnatures。ButevenifMissBart,afterherrenewedtasteoftheamenitiesoflife,couldhavereturnedtothebarrennessofaNewYorkAugust,mitigatedonlybypoorGerty’spresence,herworldlywisdomwouldhavecounselledheragainstsuchanactofabnegation。SheknewthatCarryFisherwasright:thatanopportuneabsencemightbethefirststeptowardrehabilitation,andthat,atanyrate,tolingeronintownoutofseasonwasafataladmissionofdefeat。 FromtheGormers’tumultuousprogressacrosstheirnativecontinent,shereturnedwithanalteredviewofhersituation。 Therenewedhabitofluxury——thedailywakingtoanassuredabsenceofcareandpresenceofmaterialease——graduallybluntedherappreciationofthesevalues,andlefthermoreconsciousofthevoidtheycouldnotfill。MattieGormer’sundiscriminatinggood-nature,andtheslap-dashsociabilityofherfriends,whotreatedLilypreciselyastheytreatedeachother——allthesecharacteristicnotesofdifferencebegantowearuponherendurance;andthemoreshesawtocriticizeinhercompanions,thelessjustificationshefoundformakinguseofthem。Thelongingtogetbacktoherformersurroundingshardenedtoafixedidea;butwiththestrengtheningofherpurposecametheinevitableperceptionthat,toattainit,shemustexactfreshconcessionsfromherpride。These,forthemoment,tooktheunpleasantformofcontinuingtoclingtoherhostsaftertheirreturnfromAlaska。LittleasshewasinthekeyoftheirMILIEU,herimmensesocialfacility,herlonghabitofadaptingherselftootherswithoutsufferingherownoutlinetobeblurred,theskilledmanipulationofallthepolishedimplementsofhercraft,hadwonforheranimportantplaceintheGormergroup。Iftheirresonanthilaritycouldneverbehers,shecontributedanoteofeasyelegancemorevaluabletoMattieGormerthanthelouderpassagesoftheband。SamGormerandhisspecialcroniesstoodindeedalittleinaweofher;butMattie’sfollowing,headedbyPaulMorpeth,madeherfeelthattheyprizedherfortheveryqualitiestheymostconspicuouslylacked。IfMorpeth,whosesocialindolencewasasgreatashisartisticactivity,hadabandonedhimselftotheeasycurrentoftheGormerexistence,wheretheminorexactionsofpolitenesswereunknownorignored,andamancouldeitherbreakhisengagements,orkeeptheminapainting-jacketandslippers,hestillpreservedhissenseofdifferences,andhisappreciationofgraceshehadnotimetocultivate。DuringthepreparationsfortheBrys’TABLEAUXhehadbeenimmenselystruckbyLily’splasticpossibilities——\"nottheface:tooself-controlledforexpression;buttherestofher——gad,whatamodelshe’dmake!\"——andthoughhisabhorrenceoftheworldinwhichhehadseenherwastoogreatforhimtothinkofseekingherthere,hewasfullyalivetotheprivilegeofhavinghertolookatandlistentowhileheloungedinMattieGormer’sdishevelleddrawing-room。 Lilyhadthusformed,inthetumultofhersurroundings,alittlenucleusoffriendlyrelationswhichmitigatedthecrudenessofhercourseinlingeringwiththeGormersaftertheirreturn。Norwasshewithoutpaleglimpsesofherownworld,especiallysincethebreaking-upoftheNewportseasonhadsetthesocialcurrentoncemoretowardLongIsland。KateCorby,whosetastesmadeheraspromiscuousasCarryFisherwasrenderedbyhernecessities,occasionallydescendedontheGormers,where,afterafirststareofsurprise,shetookLily’spresencealmosttoomuchasamatterofcourse。Mrs。Fisher,too,appearingfrequentlyintheneighbourhood,droveovertoimpartherexperiencesandgiveLilywhatshecalledthelatestreportfromtheweather-bureau;andthelatter,whohadneverdirectlyinvitedherconfidence,couldyettalkwithhermorefreelythanwithGertyFarish,inwhosepresenceitwasimpossibleeventoadmittheexistenceofmuchthatMrs。Fisherconvenientlytookforgranted。 Mrs。Fisher,moreover,hadnoembarrassingcuriosity。ShedidnotwishtoprobetheinwardnessofLily’ssituation,butsimplytoviewitfromtheoutside,anddrawherconclusionsaccordingly; andtheseconclusions,attheendofaconfidentialtalk,shesummeduptoherfriendinthesuccinctremark:\"Youmustmarryassoonasyoucan。\" Lilyutteredafaintlaugh——foronceMrs。Fisherlackedoriginality。\"Doyoumean,likeGertyFarish,torecommendtheunfailingpanaceaof’agoodman’slove’?\" \"No——Idon’tthinkeitherofmycandidateswouldanswertothatdescription,\"saidMrs。Fisherafterapauseofreflection。 \"Either?Arethereactuallytwo?\" \"Well,perhapsIoughttosayoneandahalf——forthemoment。\" MissBartreceivedthiswithincreasingamusement。\"Otherthingsbeingequal,IthinkIshouldpreferahalf-husband:whoishe?\" \"Don’tflyoutatmetillyouhearmyreasons——GeorgeDorset。\" \"Oh——\"Lilymurmuredreproachfully;butMrs。Fisherpressedonunrebuffed。\"Well,whynot?Theyhadafewweeks’honeymoonwhentheyfirstgotbackfromEurope,butnowthingsaregoingbadlywiththemagain。Berthahasbeenbehavingmorethaneverlikeamadwoman,andGeorge’spowersofcredulityareverynearlyexhausted。They’reattheirplacehere,youknow,andIspentlastSundaywiththem。Itwasaghastlyparty——nooneelsebutpoorNeddySilverton,wholookslikeagalley-slave(theyusedtotalkofmymakingthatpoorboyunhappy!)——andafterluncheonGeorgecarriedmeoffonalongwalk,andtoldmetheendwouldhavetocomesoon。\" MissBartmadeanincredulousgesture。\"Asfarasthatgoes,theendwillnevercome——Berthawillalwaysknowhowtogethimbackwhenshewantshim。\" Mrs。Fishercontinuedtoobservehertentatively。\"Notifhehasanyoneelsetoturnto!Yes——that’sjustwhatitcomesto:thepoorcreaturecan’tstandalone。AndIrememberhimsuchagoodfellow,fulloflifeandenthusiasm。\"Shepaused,andwenton,droppingherglancefromLily’s:\"Hewouldn’tstaywithhertenminutesifheKNEW——\" \"Knew——?\"MissBartrepeated。 \"WhatYOUmust,forinstance——withtheopportunitiesyou’vehad! Ifhehadpositiveproof,Imean——\" Lilyinterruptedherwithadeepblushofdispleasure。\"Pleaseletusdropthesubject,Carry:it’stooodioustome。\"Andtodiverthercompanion’sattentionsheadded,withanattemptatlightness:\"Andyoursecondcandidate?Wemustnotforgethim。\" Mrs。Fisherechoedherlaugh。\"Iwonderifyou’llcryoutjustasloudifIsay——SimRosedale?\" MissBartdidnotcryout:shesatsilent,gazingthoughtfullyatherfriend。Thesuggestion,intruth,gaveexpressiontoapossibilitywhich,inthelastweeks,hadmorethanoncerecurredtoher;butafteramomentshesaidcarelessly:\"Mr。RosedalewantsawifewhocanestablishhiminthebosomoftheVanOsburghsandTrenors。\" Mrs。Fishercaughtherupeagerly。\"AndsoYOUcould——withhismoney!Don’tyouseehowbeautifullyitwouldworkoutforyouboth?\" \"Idon’tseeanywayofmakinghimseeit,\"Lilyreturned,withalaughintendedtodismissthesubject。 ButinrealityitlingeredwithherlongafterMrs。Fisherhadtakenleave。ShehadseenverylittleofRosedalesinceherannexationbytheGormers,forhewasstillsteadilybentonpenetratingtotheinnerParadisefromwhichshewasnowexcluded;butonceortwice,whennothingbetteroffered,hehadturnedupforaSunday,andontheseoccasionshehadleftherinnodoubtastohisviewofhersituation。Thathestilladmiredherwas,morethanever,offensivelyevident;forintheGormercircle,whereheexpandedasinhisnativeelement,therewerenopuzzlingconventionstocheckthefullexpressionofhisapproval。Butitwasinthequalityofhisadmirationthatshereadhisshrewdestimateofhercase。HeenjoyedlettingtheGormersseethathehadknown\"MissLily\"——shewas\"MissLily\"tohimnow——beforetheyhadhadthefaintestsocialexistence: enjoyedmoreespeciallyimpressingPaulMorpethwiththedistancetowhichtheirintimacydatedback。Butheletitbefeltthatthatintimacywasamererippleonthesurfaceofarushingsocialcurrent,thekindofrelaxationwhichamanoflargeinterestsandmanifoldpreoccupationspermitshimselfinhishoursofease。 Thenecessityofacceptingthisviewoftheirpastrelation,andofmeetingitinthekeyofpleasantryprevalentamonghernewfriends,wasdeeplyhumiliatingtoLily。ButshedaredlessthanevertoquarrelwithRosedale。Shesuspectedthatherrejectionrankledamongthemostunforgettableofhisrebuffs,andthefactthatheknewsomethingofherwretchedtransactionwithTrenor,andwassuretoputthebasestconstructiononit,seemedtoplaceherhopelesslyinhispower。YetatCarryFisher’ssuggestionanewhopehadstirredinher。MuchasshedislikedRosedale,shenolongerabsolutelydespisedhim。Forhewasgraduallyattaininghisobjectinlife,andthat,toLily,wasalwayslessdespicablethantomissit。Withtheslowunalterablepersistencywhichshehadalwaysfeltinhim,hewasmakinghiswaythroughthedensemassofsocialantagonisms。Alreadyhiswealth,andthemasterlyusehehadmadeofit,weregivinghimanenviableprominenceintheworldofaffairs,andplacingWallStreetunderobligationswhichonlyFifthAvenuecouldrepay。Inresponsetotheseclaims,hisnamebegantofigureonmunicipalcommitteesandcharitableboards;heappearedatbanquetstodistinguishedstrangers,andhiscandidacyatoneofthefashionableclubswasdiscussedwithdiminishingopposition。HehadfiguredonceortwiceattheTrenordinners,andhadlearnedtospeakwithjusttherightnoteofdisdainofthebigVanOsburghcrushes;andallhenowneededwasawifewhoseaffiliationswouldshortenthelasttediousstepsofhisascent。 Itwaswiththatobjectthat,ayearearlier,hehadfixedhisaffectionsonMissBart;butintheintervalhehadmountednearertothegoal,whileshehadlostthepowertoabbreviatetheremainingstepsoftheway。Allthisshesawwiththeclearnessofvisionthatcametoherinmomentsofdespondency。Itwassuccessthatdazzledher——shecoulddistinguishfactsplainlyenoughinthetwilightoffailure。Andthetwilight,asshenowsoughttopierceit,wasgraduallylightedbyafaintsparkofreassurance。UndertheutilitarianmotiveofRosedale’swooingshehadfelt,clearlyenough,theheatofpersonalinclination。Shewouldnothavedetestedhimsoheartilyhadshenotknownthathedaredtoadmireher。What,then,ifthepassionpersisted,thoughtheothermotivehadceasedtosustainit?Shehadnevereventriedtopleasehim——hehadbeendrawntoherinspiteofhermanifestdisdain。Whatifshenowchosetoexertthepowerwhich,eveninitspassivestate,hehadfeltsostrongly?Whatifshemadehimmarryherforlove,nowthathehadnootherreasonformarryingher? Asbecamepersonsoftheirrisingconsequence,theGormerswereengagedinbuildingacountry-houseonLongIsland;anditwasapartofMissBart’sdutytoattendherhostessonfrequentvisitsofinspectiontothenewestate。There,whileMrs。Gormerplungedintoproblemsoflightingandsanitation,Lilyhadleisuretowander,inthebrightautumnair,alongthetree-fringedbaytowhichthelanddeclined。Littleasshewasaddictedtosolitude,therehadcometobemomentswhenitseemedawelcomeescapefromtheemptynoisesofherlife。Shewaswearyofbeingsweptpassivelyalongacurrentofpleasureandbusinessinwhichshehadnoshare;wearyofseeingotherpeoplepursueamusementandsquandermoney,whileshefeltherselfofnomoreaccountamongthemthananexpensivetoyinthehandsofaspoiledchild。 Itwasinthisframeofmindthat,strikingbackfromtheshoreonemorningintothewindingsofanunfamiliarlane,shecamesuddenlyuponthefigureofGeorgeDorset。TheDorsetplacewasintheimmediateneighbourhoodoftheGormers’newly-acquiredestate,andinhermotor-flightsthitherwithMrs。Gormer,Lilyhadcaughtoneortwopassingglimpsesofthecouple;buttheymovedinsodifferentanorbitthatshehadnotconsideredthepossibilityofadirectencounter。 Dorset,swingingalongwithbenthead,inmoodyabstraction,didnotseeMissBarttillhewascloseuponher;butthesight,insteadofbringinghimtoahalt,asshehadhalf-expected,senthimtowardherwithaneagernesswhichfoundexpressioninhisopeningwords。 \"MissBart!——You’llshakehands,won’tyou?I’vebeenhopingtomeetyou——IshouldhavewrittentoyouifI’ddared。\"Hisface,withitstossedredhairandstragglingmoustache,hadadrivenuneasylook,asthoughlifehadbecomeanunceasingracebetweenhimselfandthethoughtsathisheels。 ThelookdrewawordofcompassionategreetingfromLily,andhepressedon,asifencouragedbyhertone:\"Iwantedtoapologize——toaskyoutoforgivemeforthemiserablepartI played——\" Shecheckedhimwithaquickgesture。\"Don’tletusspeakofit: Iwasverysorryforyou,\"shesaid,withatingeofdisdainwhich,assheinstantlyperceived,wasnotlostonhim。 Heflushedtohishaggardeyes,flushedsocruellythatsherepentedthethrust。\"Youmightwellbe;youdon’tknow——youmustletmeexplain。Iwasdeceived:abominablydeceived——\" \"Iamstillmoresorryforyou,then,\"sheinterposed,withoutirony;\"butyoumustseethatIamnotexactlythepersonwithwhomthesubjectcanbediscussed。\" Hemetthiswithalookofgenuinewonder。\"Whynot?Isn’tittoyou,ofallpeople,thatIoweanexplanation——\" \"Noexplanationisnecessary:thesituationwasperfectlycleartome。\" \"Ah——\"hemurmured,hisheaddroopingagain,andhisirresolutehandswitchingattheunderbrushalongthelane。ButasLilymadeamovementtopasson,hebrokeoutwithfreshvehemence:\"MissBart,forGod’ssakedon’tturnfromme!Weusedtobegoodfriends——youwerealwayskindtome——andyoudon’tknowhowI needafriendnow。\" ThelamentableweaknessofthewordsrousedamotionofpityinLily’sbreast。Shetooneededfriends——shehadtastedthepangofloneliness;andherresentmentofBerthaDorset’scrueltysoftenedherhearttothepoorwretchwhowasafterallthechiefofBertha’svictims。 \"Istillwishtobekind;Ifeelnoill-willtowardyou,\"shesaid。\"Butyoumustunderstandthatafterwhathashappenedwecan’tbefriendsagain——wecan’tseeeachother。\" \"Ah,youAREkind——you’remerciful——youalwayswere!\"Hefixedhismiserablegazeonher。\"Butwhycan’twebefriends——whynot,whenI’verepentedindustandashes?Isn’tithardthatyoushouldcondemnmetosufferforthefalseness,thetreacheryofothers?Iwaspunishedenoughatthetime——istheretobenorespiteforme?\" \"Ishouldhavethoughtyouhadfoundcompleterespiteinthereconciliationwhichwaseffectedatmyexpense,\"Lilybegan,withrenewedimpatience;buthebrokeinimploringly:\"Don’tputitinthatway——whenthat’sbeentheworstofmypunishment。MyGod!whatcouldIdo——wasn’tIpowerless?Youweresingledoutasasacrifice:anywordImighthavesaidwouldhavebeenturnedagainstyou——\" \"IhavetoldyouIdon’tblameyou;allIaskyoutounderstandisthat,aftertheuseBerthachosetomakeofme——afterallthatherbehaviourhassinceimplied——it’simpossiblethatyouandI shouldmeet。\" Hecontinuedtostandbeforeher,inhisdoggedweakness。\"Isit——needitbe?Mightn’ttherebecircumstances——?\"hecheckedhimself,slashingatthewaysideweedsinawiderradius。Thenhebeganagain:\"MissBart,listen——givemeaminute。Ifwe’renottomeetagain,atleastletmehaveahearingnow。Yousaywecan’tbefriendsafter——afterwhathashappened。Butcan’tIatleastappealtoyourpity?Can’tImoveyouifIaskyoutothinkofmeasaprisoner——aprisoneryoualonecansetfree?\" Lily’sinwardstartbetrayeditselfinaquickblush:wasitpossiblethatthiswasreallythesenseofCarryFisher’sadumbrations? \"Ican’tseehowIcanpossiblybeofanyhelptoyou,\"shemurmured,drawingbackalittlefromthemountingexcitementofhislook。 Hertoneseemedtosoberhim,asithadsooftendoneinhisstormiestmoments。Thestubbornlinesofhisfacerelaxed,andhesaid,withanabruptdroptodocility:\"YouWOULDsee,ifyou’dbeasmercifulasyouusedtobe:andheavenknowsI’veneverneededitmore!\" Shepausedamoment,movedinspiteofherselfbythisreminderofherinfluenceoverhim。Herfibreshadbeensoftenedbysuffering,andthesuddenglimpseintohismockedandbrokenlifedisarmedhercontemptforhisweakness。 \"Iamverysorryforyou——Iwouldhelpyouwillingly;butyoumusthaveotherfriends,otheradvisers。\" \"Ineverhadafriendlikeyou,\"heansweredsimply。\"Andbesides——can’tyousee?——you’retheonlyperson\"——hisvoicedroppedtoawhisper——\"theonlypersonwhoknows。\" Againshefelthercolourchange;againherheartroseinprecipitatethrobstomeetwhatshefeltwascoming。Heliftedhiseyestoherentreatingly。\"Youdosee,don’tyou?Youunderstand?I’mdesperate——I’mattheendofmytether。I wanttobefree,andyoucanfreeme。Iknowyoucan。Youdon’twanttokeepmeboundfastinhell,doyou?Youcan’twanttotakesuchavengeanceasthat。Youwerealwayskind——youreyesarekindnow。Yousayyou’resorryforme。Well,itrestswithyoutoshowit;andheavenknowsthere’snothingtokeepyouback。Youunderstand,ofcourse——therewouldn’tbeahintofpublicity——notasoundorasyllabletoconnectyouwiththething。Itwouldnevercometothat,youknow:allIneedistobeabletosaydefinitely:’Iknowthis——andthis——andthis’——andthefightwoulddrop,andthewaybecleared,andthewholeabominablebusinesssweptoutofsightinasecond。\" Hespokepantingly,likeatiredrunner,withbreaksofexhaustionbetweenhiswords;andthroughthebreaksshecaught,asthroughtheshiftingrentsofafog,greatgoldenvistasofpeaceandsafety。Fortherewasnomistakingthedefiniteintentionbehindhisvagueappeal;shecouldhavefilleduptheblankswithoutthehelpofMrs。Fisher’sinsinuations。Herewasamanwhoturnedtoherintheextremityofhislonelinessandhishumiliation:ifshecametohimatsuchamomenthewouldbeherswithalltheforceofhisdeludedfaith。Andthepowertomakehimsolayinherhand——laythereinacompletenesshecouldnotevenremotelyconjecture。Revengeandrehabilitationmightbehersatastroke——therewassomethingdazzlinginthecompletenessoftheopportunity。 Shestoodsilent,gazingawayfromhimdowntheautumnalstretchofthedesertedlane。Andsuddenlyfearpossessedher——fearofherself,andoftheterribleforceofthetemptation。Allherpastweaknesseswerelikesomanyeageraccomplicesdrawinghertowardthepaththeirfeethadalreadysmoothed。Sheturnedquickly,andheldoutherhandtoDorset。 \"Goodbye——I’msorry;there’snothingintheworldthatIcando。\" \"Nothing?Ah,don’tsaythat,\"hecried;\"saywhat’strue:thatyouabandonmeliketheothers。You,theonlycreaturewhocouldhavesavedme!\" \"Goodbye——goodbye,\"sherepeatedhurriedly;andasshemovedawaysheheardhimcryoutonalastnoteofentreaty:\"Atleastyou’llletmeseeyouoncemore?\" Lily,onregainingtheGormergrounds,struckrapidlyacrossthelawntowardtheunfinishedhouse,whereshefanciedthatherhostessmightbespeculating,nottooresignedly,onthecauseofherdelay;for,likemanyunpunctualpersons,Mrs。Gormerdislikedtobekeptwaiting。 AsMissBartreachedtheavenue,however,shesawasmartphaetonwithahigh-steppingpairdisappearbehindtheshrubberyinthedirectionofthegate;andonthedoorstepstoodMrs。Gormer,withaglowofretrospectivepleasureonheropencountenance。AtsightofLilytheglowdeepenedtoanembarrassedred,andshesaidwithaslightlaugh:\"Didyouseemyvisitor?Oh,Ithoughtyoucamebackbytheavenue。ItwasMrs。GeorgeDorset——shesaidshe’ddroppedintomakeaneighbourlycall。\" Lilymettheannouncementwithherusualcomposure,thoughherexperienceofBertha’sidiosyncrasieswouldnothaveledhertoincludetheneighbourlyinstinctamongthem;andMrs。Gormer,relievedtoseethatshegavenosignofsurprise,wentonwithadeprecatinglaugh:\"Ofcoursewhatreallybroughtherwascuriosity——shemademetakeheralloverthehouse。Butnoonecouldhavebeennicer——noairs,youknow,andsogood-natured:I canquiteseewhypeoplethinkhersofascinating。\" Thissurprisingevent,coincidingtoocompletelywithhermeetingwithDorsettoberegardedascontingentuponit,hadyetimmediatelystruckLilywithavaguesenseofforeboding。ItwasnotinBertha’shabitstobeneighbourly,muchlesstomakeadvancestoanyoneoutsidetheimmediatecircleofheraffinities。Shehadalwaysconsistentlyignoredtheworldofouteraspirants,orhadrecognizeditsindividualmembersonlywhenpromptedbymotivesofself-interest;andtheverycapriciousnessofhercondescensionshad,asLilywasaware,giventhemspecialvalueintheeyesofthepersonsshedistinguished。LilysawthisnowinMrs。Gormer’sunconcealablecomplacency,andinthehappyirrelevancewithwhich,forthenextdayortwo,shequotedBertha’sopinionsandspeculatedontheoriginofhergown。AllthesecretambitionswhichMrs。Gormer’snativeindolence,andtheattitudeofhercompanions,keptinhabitualabeyance,werenowgerminatingafreshintheglowofBertha’sadvances;andwhateverthecauseofthelatter,Lilysawthat,iftheywerefollowedup,theywerelikelytohaveadisturbingeffectuponherownfuture。 Shehadarrangedtobreakthelengthofherstaywithhernewfriendsbyoneortwovisitstootheracquaintancesasrecent; andonherreturnfromthissomewhatdepressingexcursionshewasimmediatelyconsciousthatMrs。Dorset’sinfluencewasstillintheair。Therehadbeenanotherexchangeofvisits,ateaatacountry-club,anencounteratahuntball;therewasevenarumourofanapproachingdinner,whichMattieGormer,withanunnaturaleffortatdiscretion,triedtosmuggleoutoftheconversationwheneverMissBarttookpartinit。 ThelatterhadalreadyplannedtoreturntotownafterafarewellSundaywithherfriends;and,withGertyFarish’said,haddiscoveredasmallprivatehotelwhereshemightestablishherselfforthewinter。Thehotelbeingontheedgeofafashionableneighbourhood,thepriceofthefewsquarefeetshewastooccupywasconsiderablyinexcessofhermeans;butshefoundajustificationforherdislikeofpoorerquartersintheargumentthat,atthisparticularjuncture,itwasoftheutmostimportancetokeepupashowofprosperity。Inreality,itwasimpossibleforher,whileshehadthemeanstopayherwayforaweekahead,tolapseintoaformofexistencelikeGertyFarish’s。Shehadneverbeensonearthebrinkofinsolvency;butshecouldatleastmanagetomeetherweeklyhotelbill,andhavingsettledtheheaviestofherpreviousdebtsoutofthemoneyshehadreceivedfromTrenor,shehadastillfairmarginofcredittogoupon。Thesituation,however,wasnotagreeableenoughtolullhertocompleteunconsciousnessofitsinsecurity。 Herrooms,withtheircrampedoutlookdownasallowvistaofbrickwallsandfire-escapes,herlonelymealsinthedarkrestaurantwithitssurchargedceilingandhauntingsmellofcoffee——allthesematerialdiscomforts,whichwereyettobeaccountedassomanyprivilegessoontobewithdrawn,keptconstantlybeforeherthedisadvantagesofherstate;andhermindrevertedthemoreinsistentlytoMrs。Fisher’scounsels。 Beataboutthequestionasshewould,sheknewtheoutcomeofitwasthatshemusttrytomarryRosedale;andinthisconvictionshewasfortifiedbyanunexpectedvisitfromGeorgeDorset。 Shefoundhim,onthefirstSundayafterherreturntotown,pacinghernarrowsitting-roomtotheimminentperilofthefewknick-knackswithwhichshehadtriedtodisguiseitsplushexuberances;butthesightofherseemedtoquiethim,andhesaidmeeklythathehadn’tcometobotherher——thatheaskedonlytobeallowedtositforhalfanhourandtalkofanythingsheliked。Inreality,assheknew,hehadbutonesubject: himselfandhiswretchedness;anditwastheneedofhersympathythathaddrawnhimback。Buthebeganwithapretenceofquestioningheraboutherself,andasshereplied,shesawthat,forthefirsttime,afaintrealizationofherplightpenetratedthedensesurfaceofhisself-absorption。Wasitpossiblethatheroldbeastofanaunthadactuallycutheroff?Thatshewaslivingalonelikethisbecausetherewasnooneelseforhertogoto,andthatshereallyhadn’tmorethanenoughtokeepaliveontillthewretchedlittlelegacywaspaid?Thefibresofsympathywerenearlyatrophiedinhim,buthewassufferingsointenselythathehadafaintglimpseofwhatothersufferingsmightmean——and,assheperceived,analmostsimultaneousperceptionofthewayinwhichherparticularmisfortunesmightservehim。 Whenatlengthshedismissedhim,onthepretextthatshemustdressfordinner,helingeredentreatinglyonthethresholdtoblurtout:\"It’sbeensuchacomfort——dosayyou’llletmeseeyouagain——\"Buttothisdirectappealitwasimpossibletogiveanassent;andshesaidwithfriendlydecisiveness:\"I’msorry——butyouknowwhyIcan’t。\" Hecolouredtotheeyes,pushedthedoorshut,andstoodbeforeherembarrassedbutinsistent。\"Iknowhowyoumight,ifyouwould——ifthingsweredifferent——anditlieswithyoutomakethemso。It’sjustawordtosay,andyouputmeoutofmymisery!\" Theireyesmet,andforasecondshetrembledagainwiththenearnessofthetemptation。\"You’remistaken;Iknownothing;I sawnothing,\"sheexclaimed,striving,bysheerforceofreiteration,tobuildabarrierbetweenherselfandherperil; andasheturnedaway,groaningout\"Yousacrificeusboth,\"shecontinuedtorepeat,asifitwereacharm:\"Iknownothing——absolutelynothing。\" LilyhadseenlittleofRosedalesinceherilluminatingtalkwithMrs。Fisher,butonthetwoorthreeoccasionswhentheyhadmetshewasconsciousofhavingdistinctlyadvancedinhisfavour。 Therecouldbenodoubtthatheadmiredherasmuchasever,andshebelieveditrestedwithherselftoraisehisadmirationtothepointwhereitshouldbeardownthelingeringcounselsofexpediency。Thetaskwasnotaneasyone;butneitherwasiteasy,inherlongsleeplessnights,tofacethethoughtofwhatGeorgeDorsetwassoclearlyreadytooffer。Basenessforbaseness,shehatedtheotherleast:therewereevenmomentswhenamarriagewithRosedaleseemedtheonlyhonourablesolutionofherdifficulties。Shedidnotindeedletherimaginationrangebeyondthedayofplighting:afterthateverythingfadedintoahazeofmaterialwell-being,inwhichthepersonalityofherbenefactorremainedmercifullyvague。Shehadlearned,inherlongvigils,thattherewerecertainthingsnotgoodtothinkof,certainmidnightimagesthatmustatanycostbeexorcised——andoneofthesewastheimageofherselfasRosedale’swife。 CarryFisher,onthestrength,asshefranklyowned,oftheBrys’ Newportsuccess,hadtakenfortheautumnmonthsasmallhouseatTuxedo;andthitherLilywasboundontheSundayafterDorset’svisit。Thoughitwasnearlydinner-timewhenshearrived,herhostesswasstillout,andthefirelitquietofthesmallsilenthousedescendedonherspiritwithasenseofpeaceandfamiliarity。ItmaybedoubtedifsuchanemotionhadeverbeforebeenevokedbyCarryFisher’ssurroundings;but,contrastedtotheworldinwhichLilyhadlatelylived,therewasanairofreposeandstabilityintheveryplacingofthefurniture,andinthequietcompetenceoftheparlour-maidwholedheruptoherroom。Mrs。Fisher’sunconventionalitywas,afterall,amerelysuperficialdivergencefromaninheritedsocialcreed,whilethemannersoftheGormercirclerepresentedtheirfirstattempttoformulatesuchacreedforthemselves。 ItwasthefirsttimesinceherreturnfromEuropethatLilyhadfoundherselfinacongenialatmosphere,andthestirringoffamiliarassociationshadalmostpreparedher,asshedescendedthestairsbeforedinner,toenteruponagroupofheroldacquaintances。Butthisexpectationwasinstantlycheckedbythereflectionthatthefriendswhoremainedloyalwerepreciselythosewhowouldbeleastwillingtoexposehertosuchencounters;anditwashardlywithsurprisethatshefound,instead,Mr。Rosedalekneelingdomesticallyonthedrawing-roomhearthbeforehishostess’slittlegirl。 RosedaleinthepaternalrolewashardlyafiguretosoftenLily; yetshecouldnotbutnoticeaqualityofhomelygoodnessinhisadvancestothechild。Theywerenot,atanyrate,thepremeditatedandperfunctoryendearmentsoftheguestunderhishostess’seye,forheandthelittlegirlhadtheroomtothemselves;andsomethinginhisattitudemadehimseemasimpleandkindlybeingcomparedtothesmallcriticalcreaturewhoenduredhishomage。Yes,hewouldbekind——Lily,fromthethreshold,hadtimetofeel——kindinhisgross,unscrupulous,rapaciousway,thewayofthepredatorycreaturewithhismate。