第2章

类别:其他 作者:Fyodor Dostoyevsky字数:27101更新时间:18/12/19 17:00:42
\"Oh,nonsense,nonsense,\"saidthegeneral,withdecision。\"Whatextraordinaryideasyouhave,Gania!Asifshewouldhint;that’snotherwayatall。Besides,whatcouldyougiveher,withouthavingthousandsatyourdisposal?Youmighthavegivenheryourportrait,however。Hassheeveraskedyouforit?\" \"No,notyet。Verylikelysheneverwill。Isupposeyouhaven’tforgottenabouttonight,haveyou,IvanFedorovitch?Youwereoneofthosespeciallyinvited,youknow。\" \"Ohno,Irememberallright,andIshallgo,ofcourse。Ishouldthinkso!She’stwenty-fiveyearsoldtoday!And,youknow,Gania,youmustbereadyforgreatthings;shehaspromisedbothmyselfandAfanasyIvanovitchthatshewillgiveadecidedanswertonight,yesorno。Sobeprepared!\" Ganiasuddenlybecamesoillateasethathisfacegrewpalerthanever。 \"Areyousureshesaidthat?\"heasked,andhisvoiceseemedtoquiverashespoke。 \"Yes,shepromised。Webothworriedhersothatshegavein;butshewishedustotellyounothingaboutituntiltheday。\" ThegeneralwatchedGania’sconfusionintently,andclearlydidnotlikeit。 \"Remember,IvanFedorovitch,\"saidGania,ingreatagitation,\"thatIwastobefreetoo,untilherdecision;andthateventhenIwastohavemy’yesorno’free。\" \"Why,don’tyou,aren’tyou——\"beganthegeneral,inalarm。 \"Oh,don’tmisunderstand——\" \"But,mydearfellow,whatareyoudoing,whatdoyoumean?\" \"Oh,I’mnotrejectingher。Imayhaveexpressedmyselfbadly,butIdidn’tmeanthat。\" \"Rejecther!Ishouldthinknot!\"saidthegeneralwithannoyance,andapparentlynotintheleastanxioustoconcealit。 \"Why,mydearfellow,it’snotaquestionofyourrejectingher,itiswhetheryouarepreparedtoreceiveherconsentjoyfully,andwithpropersatisfaction。Howarethingsgoingonathome?\" \"Athome?Oh,IcandoasIlikethere,ofcourse;onlymyfatherwillmakeafoolofhimself,asusual。Heisrapidlybecomingageneralnuisance。Idon’tevertalktohimnow,butIholdhimincheek,safeenough。Iswearifithadnotbeenformymother,I shouldhaveshownhimthewayout,longago。Mymotherisalwayscrying,ofcourse,andmysistersulks。IhadtotellthematlastthatIintendedtobemasterofmyowndestiny,andthatI expecttobeobeyedathome。Atleast,Igavemysistertounderstandasmuch,andmymotherwaspresent。\" \"Well,Imustsay,Icannotunderstandit!\"saidthegeneral,shrugginghisshouldersanddroppinghishands。\"Yourememberyourmother,NinaAlexandrovna,thatdayshecameandsathereandgroaned-andwhenIaskedherwhatwasthematter,shesays,’Oh,it’ssuchaDISHONOURtous!’dishonour!Stuffandnonsense! IshouldliketoknowwhocanreproachNastasiaPhilipovna,orwhocansayawordofanykindagainsther。DidshemeanbecauseNastasiahadbeenlivingwithTotski?Whatnonsenseitis!Youwouldnotlethercomenearyourdaughters,saysNinaAlexandrovna。Whatnext,Iwonder?Idon’tseehowshecanfailto——tounderstand——\" \"Herownposition?\"promptedGania。\"Shedoesunderstand。Don’tbeannoyedwithher。Ihavewarnedhernottomeddleinotherpeople’saffairs。However,althoughthere’scomparativepeaceathomeatpresent,thestormwillbreakifanythingisfinallysettledtonight。\" Theprinceheardthewholeoftheforegoingconversation,ashesatatthetable,writing。Hefinishedatlast,andbroughttheresultofhislabourtothegeneral’sdesk。 \"SothisisNastasiaPhilipovna,\"hesaid,lookingattentivelyandcuriouslyattheportrait。\"Howwonderfullybeautiful!\"heimmediatelyadded,withwarmth。Thepicturewascertainlythatofanunusuallylovelywoman。Shewasphotographedinablacksilkdressofsimpledesign,herhairwasevidentlydarkandplainlyarranged,hereyesweredeepandthoughtful,theexpressionofherfacepassionate,butproud。Shewasratherthin,perhaps,andalittlepale。BothGaniaandthegeneralgazedattheprinceinamazement。 \"Howdoyouknowit’sNastasiaPhilipovna?\"askedthegeneral; \"yousurelydon’tknowheralready,doyou?\" \"Yes,Ido!IhaveonlybeenonedayinRussia,butIhaveheardofthegreatbeauty!\"AndtheprinceproceededtonarratehismeetingwithRogojininthetrainandthewholeofthelatter’sstory。 \"There’snews!\"saidthegeneralinsomeexcitement,afterlisteningtothestorywithengrossedattention。 \"Oh,ofcourseit’snothingbuthumbug!\"criedGania,alittledisturbed,however。\"It’sallhumbug;theyoungmerchantwaspleasedtoindulgeinalittleinnocentrecreation!IhaveheardsomethingofRogojin!\" \"Yes,sohaveI!\"repliedthegeneral。\"NastasiaPhilipovnatoldusallabouttheearringsthatveryday。Butnowitisquiteadifferentmatter。Youseethefellowreallyhasamillionofroubles,andheispassionatelyinlove。Thewholestorysmellsofpassion,andweallknowwhatthisclassofgentryiscapableofwheninfatuated。Iammuchafraidofsomedisagreeablescandal,Iamindeed!\" \"Youareafraidofthemillion,Isuppose,\"saidGania,grinningandshowinghisteeth。 \"AndyouareNOT,Ipresume,eh?\" \"Howdidhestrikeyou,prince?\"askedGania,suddenly。\"Didheseemtobeaserioussortofaman,orjustacommonrowdyfellow?Whatwasyourownopinionaboutthematter?\" WhileGaniaputthisquestion,anewideasuddenlyflashedintohisbrain,andblazedout,impatiently,inhiseyes。Thegeneral,whowasreallyagitatedanddisturbed,lookedattheprincetoo,butdidnotseemtoexpectmuchfromhisreply。 \"Ireallydon’tquiteknowhowtotellyou,\"repliedtheprince,\"butitcertainlydidseemtomethatthemanwasfullofpassion,andnot,perhaps,quitehealthypassion。Heseemedtobestillfarfromwell。Verylikelyhewillbeinbedagaininadayortwo,especiallyifhelivesfast。\" \"No!doyouthinkso?\"saidthegeneral,catchingattheidea。 \"Yes,Idothinkso!\" \"Yes,butthesortofscandalIreferredtomayhappenatanymoment。Itmaybethisveryevening,\"remarkedGaniatothegeneral,withasmile。 \"Ofcourse;quiteso。Inthatcaseitalldependsuponwhatisgoingoninherbrainatthismoment。\" \"Youknowthekindofpersonsheisattimes。\" \"How?Whatkindofpersonisshe?\"criedthegeneral,arrivedatthelimitsofhispatience。Lookhere,Gania,don’tyougoannoyinghertonightWhatyouaretodoistobeasagreeabletowardsheraseveryoucan。Well,whatareyousmilingat?Youmustunderstand,Gania,thatIhavenointerestwhateverinspeakinglikethis。Whicheverwaythequestionissettled,itwillbetomyadvantage。NothingwillmoveTotskifromhisresolution,soIrunnorisk。IfthereisanythingIdesire,youmustknowthatitisyourbenefitonly。Can’tyoutrustme?Youareasensiblefellow,andIhavebeencountingonyou;for,inthismatter,that,that——\" \"Yes,that’sthechiefthing,\"saidGania,helpingthegeneraloutofhisdifficultiesagain,andcurlinghislipsinanenvenomedsmile,whichhedidnotattempttoconceal。Hegazedwithhisfeveredeyesstraightintothoseofthegeneral,asthoughhewereanxiousthatthelattermightreadhisthoughts。 Thegeneralgrewpurplewithanger。 \"Yes,ofcourseitisthechiefthing!\"hecried,lookingsharplyatGania。\"Whataverycuriousmanyouare,Gania!YouactuallyseemtobeGLADtohearofthismillionairefellow’sarrival- justasthoughyouwishedforanexcusetogetoutofthewholething。Thisisanaffairinwhichyououghttoacthonestlywithbothsides,andgiveduewarning,toavoidcompromisingothers。But,evennow,thereisstilltime。Doyouunderstandme? Iwishtoknowwhetheryoudesirethisarrangementorwhetheryoudonot?Ifnot,sayso,——and-andwelcome!Nooneistryingtoforceyouintothesnare,GavrilaArdalionovitch,ifyouseeasnareinthematter,atleast。\" \"Idodesireit,\"murmuredGania,softlybutfirmly,loweringhiseyes;andherelapsedintogloomysilence。 Thegeneralwassatisfied。Hehadexcitedhimself,andwasevidentlynowregrettingthathehadgonesofar。Heturnedtotheprince,andsuddenlythedisagreeablethoughtofthelatter’spresencestruckhim,andthecertaintythathemusthaveheardeverywordoftheconversation。Buthefeltateaseinanothermoment;itonlyneededoneglanceattheprincetoseethatinthatquartertherewasnothingtofear。 \"Oh!\"criedthegeneral,catchingsightoftheprince’sspecimenofcaligraphy,whichthelatterhadnowhandedhimforinspection。\"Why,thisissimplybeautiful;lookatthat,Gania,there’srealtalentthere!\" Onasheetofthickwriting-papertheprincehadwritteninmedievalcharactersthelegend: \"ThegentleAbbotPafnutesignedthis。\" \"There,\"explainedtheprince,withgreatdelightandanimation,\"there,that’stheabbot’srealsignature——fromamanuscriptofthefourteenthcentury。Alltheseoldabbotsandbishopsusedtowritemostbeautifully,withsuchtasteandsomuchcareanddiligence。HaveyounocopyofPogodin,general?IfyouhadoneI couldshowyouanothertype。Stopabit——hereyouhavethelargeroundwritingcommoninFranceduringtheeighteenthcentury。 Someofthelettersareshapedquitedifferentlyfromthosenowinuse。Itwasthewritingcurrentthen,andemployedbypublicwritersgenerally。Icopiedthisfromoneofthem,andyoucanseehowgooditis。Lookatthewell-roundedaandd。IhavetriedtotranslatetheFrenchcharacterintotheRussianletters—— adifficultthingtodo,butIthinkIhavesucceededfairly。 Hereisafinesentence,writteninagood,originalhand——’Zealtriumphsoverall。’ThatisthescriptoftheRussianWarOffice。 Thatishowofficialdocumentsaddressedtoimportantpersonagesshouldbewritten。Thelettersareround,thetypeblack,andthestylesomewhatremarkable。Astylistwouldnotallowtheseornaments,orattemptsatflourishes——justlookattheseunfinishedtails!——butithasdistinctionandreallydepictsthesoulofthewriter。Hewouldliketogiveplaytohisimagination,andfollowtheinspirationofhisgenius,butasoldierisonlyateaseintheguard-room,andthepenstopshalf-way,aslavetodiscipline。Howdelightful!ThefirsttimeImetanexampleofthishandwriting,Iwaspositivelyastonished,andwheredoyouthinkIchancedtofindit?InSwitzerland,ofallplaces!NowthatisanordinaryEnglishhand。 Itcanhardlybeimproved,itissorefinedandexquisite——almostperfection。Thisisanexampleofanotherkind,amixtureofstyles。ThecopywasgivenmebyaFrenchcommercialtraveller。 ItisfoundedontheEnglish,butthedownstrokesarealittleblacker,andmoremarked。Noticethattheovalhassomeslightmodification——itismorerounded。Thiswritingallowsforflourishes;nowaflourishisadangerousthing!Itsuserequiressuchtaste,but,ifsuccessful,whatadistinctionitgivestothewhole!Itresultsinanincomparabletype——onetofallinlovewith!\" \"Dearme!Howyouhavegoneintoalltherefinementsanddetailsofthequestion!Why,mydearfellow,youarenotacaligraphist,youareanartist!Eh,Gania?\" \"Wonderful!\"saidGania。\"Andheknowsittoo,\"headded,withasarcasticsmile。 \"Youmaysmile,——butthere’sacareerinthis,\"saidthegeneral。 \"Youdon’tknowwhatagreatpersonageIshallshowthisto,prince。Why,youcancommandasituationatthirty-fiveroublespermonthtostartwith。However,it’shalf-pasttwelve,\"heconcluded,lookingathiswatch;\"sotobusiness,prince,forI mustbesettingtoworkandshallnotseeyouagaintoday。Sitdownaminute。IhavetoldyouthatIcannotreceiveyoumyselfveryoften,butIshouldliketobeofsomeassistancetoyou,somesmallassistance,ofakindthatwouldgiveyousatisfaction。IshallfindyouaplaceinoneoftheStatedepartments,aneasyplace——butyouwillrequiretobeaccurate。 Now,astoyourplans——inthehouse,orratherinthefamilyofGaniahere——myyoungfriend,whomIhopeyouwillknowbetter——hismotherandsisterhavepreparedtwoorthreeroomsforlodgers,andletthemtohighlyrecommendedyoungfellows,withboardandattendance。IamsureNinaAlexandrovnawilltakeyouinonmyrecommendation。Thereyouwillbecomfortableandwelltakencareof;forIdonotthink,prince,thatyouarethesortofmantobelefttothemercyofFateinatownlikePetersburg。NinaAlexandrovna,Gania’smother,andVarvaraAlexandrovna,areladiesforwhomIhavethehighestpossibleesteemandrespect。 NinaAlexandrovnaisthewifeofGeneralArdalionAlexandrovitch,myoldbrotherinarms,withwhom,Iregrettosay,onaccountofcertaincircumstances,Iamnolongeracquainted。Igiveyouallthisinformation,prince,inordertomakeitcleartoyouthatI ampersonallyrecommendingyoutothisfamily,andthatinsodoing,Iammoreorlesstakinguponmyselftoanswerforyou。 Thetermsaremostreasonable,andItrustthatyoursalarywillveryshortlyproveamplysufficientforyourexpenditure。Ofcoursepocket-moneyisanecessity,ifonlyalittle;donotbeangry,prince,ifIstronglyrecommendyoutoavoidcarryingmoneyinyourpocket。Butasyourpurseisquiteemptyatthepresentmoment,youmustallowmetopressthesetwenty-fiveroublesuponyouracceptance,assomethingtobeginwith。Ofcoursewewillsettlethislittlematteranothertime,andifyouaretheupright,honestmanyoulook,Ianticipateverylittletroublebetweenusonthatscore。TakingsomuchinterestinyouasyoumayperceiveIdo,Iamnotwithoutmyobject,andyoushallknowitingoodtime。Yousee,Iamperfectlycandidwithyou。Ihope,Gania,youhavenothingtosayagainsttheprince’stakinguphisabodeinyourhouse?\" \"Oh,onthecontrary!mymotherwillbeveryglad,\"saidGania,courteouslyandkindly。 \"Ithinkonlyoneofyourroomsisengagedasyet,isitnot? ThatfellowFerd-Ferd——\" \"Ferdishenko。\" \"Yes——Idon’tlikethatFerdishenko。Ican’tunderstandwhyNastasiaPhilipovnaencourageshimso。Ishereallyhercousin,ashesays?\" \"Ohdearno,it’sallajoke。NomorecousinthanIam。\" \"Well,whatdoyouthinkofthearrangement,prince?\" \"Thankyou,general;youhavebehavedverykindlytome;allthemoresosinceIdidnotaskyoutohelpme。Idon’tsaythatoutofpride。Icertainlydidnotknowwheretolaymyheadtonight。 Rogojinaskedmetocometohishouse,ofcourse,but——\" \"Rogojin?No,no,mygoodfellow。Ishouldstronglyrecommendyou,paternally,——or,ifyoupreferit,asafriend,——toforgetallaboutRogojin,and,infact,tosticktothefamilyintowhichyouareabouttoenter。\" \"Thankyou,\"begantheprince;\"andsinceyouaresoverykindthereisjustonematterwhichI——\" \"Youmustreallyexcuseme,\"interruptedthegeneral,\"butI positivelyhaven’tanothermomentnow。IshalljusttellElizabethaProkofievnaaboutyou,andifshewishestoreceiveyouatonce——asIshalladviseher——Istronglyrecommendyoutoingratiateyourselfwithheratthefirstopportunity,formywifemaybeofthegreatestservicetoyouinmanyways。Ifshecannotreceiveyounow,youmustbecontenttowaittillanothertime。Meanwhileyou,Gania,justlookovertheseaccounts,willyou?Wemustn’tforgettofinishoffthatmatter——\" Thegenerallefttheroom,andtheprinceneversucceededinbroachingthebusinesswhichhehadonhand,thoughhehadendeavouredtodosofourtimes。 Ganialitacigaretteandofferedonetotheprince。Thelatteracceptedtheoffer,butdidnottalk,beingunwillingtodisturbGania’swork。Hecommencedtoexaminethestudyanditscontents。ButGaniahardlysomuchasglancedatthepaperslyingbeforehim;hewasabsentandthoughtful,andhissmileandgeneralappearancestrucktheprincestillmoredisagreeablynowthatthetwowereleftalonetogether。 SuddenlyGaniaapproachedourherowhowasatthemomentstandingoverNastasiaPhilipovna’sportrait,gazingatit。 \"Doyouadmirethatsortofwoman,prince?\"heasked,lookingintentlyathim。Heseemedtohavesomespecialobjectinthequestion。 \"It’sawonderfulface,\"saidtheprince,\"andIfeelsurethatherdestinyisnotbyanymeansanordinary,uneventfulone。Herfaceissmilingenough,butshemusthavesufferedterribly—— hasn’tshe?Hereyesshowit——thosetwobonesthere,thelittlepointsunderhereyes,justwherethecheekbegins。It’saproudfacetoo,terriblyproud!AndI——Ican’tsaywhethersheisgoodandkind,ornot。Oh,ifshebebutgood!Thatwouldmakeallwell!\" \"Andwouldyoumarryawomanlikethat,now?\"continuedGania,nevertakinghisexcitedeyesofftheprince’sface。 \"Icannotmarryatall,\"saidthelatter。\"Iamaninvalid。\" \"WouldRogojinmarryher,doyouthink?\" \"Whynot?Certainlyhewould,Ishouldthink。Hewouldmarryhertomorrow!——marryhertomorrowandmurderherinaweek!\" HardlyhadtheprinceutteredthelastwordwhenGaniagavesuchafearfulshudderthattheprincealmostcriedout。 \"What’sthematter?\"saidhe,seizingGania’shand。 \"Yourhighness!Hisexcellencybegsyourpresenceinherexcellency’sapartments!\"announcedthefootman,appearingatthedoor。 Theprinceimmediatelyfollowedthemanoutoftheroom。 IV。 ALLthreeoftheMissEpanchinswerefine,healthygirls,well- grown,withgoodshouldersandbusts,andstrong——almostmasculine——hands;and,ofcourse,withalltheaboveattributes,theyenjoyedcapitalappetites,ofwhichtheywerenotintheleastashamed。 ElizabethaProkofievnasometimesinformedthegirlsthattheywerealittletoocandidinthismatter,butinspiteoftheiroutwarddeferencetotheirmotherthesethreeyoungwomen,insolemnconclave,hadlongagreedtomodifytheunquestioningobediencewhichtheyhadbeeninthehabitofaccordingtoher; andMrs。GeneralEpanchinhadjudgeditbettertosaynothingaboutit,though,ofcourse,shewaswellawareofthefact。 Itistruethathernaturesometimesrebelledagainstthesedictatesofreason,andthatshegrewyearlymorecapriciousandimpatient;buthavingarespectfulandwell-disciplinedhusbandunderherthumbatalltimes,shefounditpossible,asarule,toemptyanylittleaccumulationsofspleenuponhishead,andthereforetheharmonyofthefamilywaskeptdulybalanced,andthingswentassmoothlyasfamilymatterscan。 Mrs。Epanchinhadafairappetiteherself,andgenerallytookhershareofthecapitalmid-daylunchwhichwasalwaysservedforthegirls,andwhichwasnearlyasgoodasadinner。Theyoungladiesusedtohaveacupofcoffeeeachbeforethismeal,atteno’clock,whilestillinbed。Thiswasafavouriteandunalterablearrangementwiththem。Athalf-pasttwelve,thetablewaslaidinthesmalldining-room,andoccasionallythegeneralhimselfappearedatthefamilygathering,ifhehadtime。 Besidesteaandcoffee,cheese,honey,butter,pan-cakesofvariouskinds(theladyofthehouselovedthesebest),cutlets,andsoon,therewasgenerallystrongbeefsoup,andothersubstantialdelicacies。 Ontheparticularmorningonwhichourstoryhasopened,thefamilyhadassembledinthedining-room,andwerewaitingthegeneral’sappearance,thelatterhavingpromisedtocomethisday。Ifhehadbeenonemomentlate,hewouldhavebeensentforatonce;butheturneduppunctually。 Ashecameforwardtowishhiswifegood-morningandkissherhands,ashiscustomwas,heobservedsomethinginherlookwhichbodedill。Hethoughtheknewthereason,andhadexpectedit,butstill,hewasnotaltogethercomfortable。Hisdaughtersadvancedtokisshim,too,andthoughtheydidnotlookexactlyangry,therewassomethingstrangeintheirexpressionaswell。 Thegeneralwas,owingtocertaincircumstances,alittleinclinedtobetoosuspiciousathome,andneedlesslynervous; but,asanexperiencedfatherandhusband,hejudgeditbettertotakemeasuresatoncetoprotecthimselffromanydangerstheremightbeintheair。 However,IhopeIshallnotinterferewiththepropersequenceofmynarrativetoomuch,ifIdivergeforamomentatthispoint,inordertoexplainthemutualrelationsbetweenGeneralEpanchin’sfamilyandothersactingapartinthishistory,atthetimewhenwetakeupthethreadoftheirdestiny。Ihavealreadystatedthatthegeneral,thoughhewasamanoflowlyorigin,andofpooreducation,was,forallthat,anexperiencedandtalentedhusbandandfather。Amongotherthings,heconsidereditundesirabletohurryhisdaughterstothematrimonialaltarandtoworrythemtoomuchwithassurancesofhispaternalwishesfortheirhappiness,asisthecustomamongparentsofmanygrown-updaughters。Heevensucceededinranginghiswifeonhissideonthisquestion,thoughhefoundthefeatverydifficulttoaccomplish,becauseunnatural;butthegeneral’sargumentswereconclusive,andfoundeduponobviousfacts。Thegeneralconsideredthatthegirls’tasteandgoodsenseshouldbeallowedtodevelopandmaturedeliberately,andthattheparents’dutyshouldmerelybetokeepwatch,inorderthatnostrangeorundesirablechoicebemade;butthattheselectiononceeffected,bothfatherandmotherwereboundfromthatmomenttoenterheartandsoulintothecause,andtoseethatthematterprogressedwithouthindranceuntilthealtarshouldbehappilyreached。 Besidesthis,itwasclearthattheEpanchins’positiongainedeachyear,withgeometricalaccuracy,bothastofinancialsolidityandsocialweight;and,therefore,thelongerthegirlswaited,thebetterwastheirchanceofmakingabrilliantmatch。 Butagain,amidsttheincontrovertiblefactsjustrecorded,onemore,equallysignificant,roseuptoconfrontthefamily;andthiswas,thattheeldestdaughter,Alexandra,hadimperceptiblyarrivedathertwenty-fifthbirthday。Almostatthesamemoment,AfanasyIvanovitchTotski,amanofimmensewealth,highconnections,andgoodstanding,announcedhisintentionofmarrying。AfanasyIvanovitchwasagentlemanoffifty-fiveyearsofage,artisticallygifted,andofmostrefinedtastes。Hewishedtomarrywell,and,moreover,hewasakeenadmirerandjudgeofbeauty。 Now,sinceTotskihad,oflate,beenupontermsofgreatcordialitywithEpanchin,whichexcellentrelationswereintensifiedbythefactthattheywere,sotospeak,partnersinseveralfinancialenterprises,itsohappenedthattheformernowputinafriendlyrequesttothegeneralforcounselwithregardtotheimportantstephemeditated。Mighthesuggest,forinstance,suchathingasamarriagebetweenhimselfandoneofthegeneral’sdaughters? Evidentlythequiet,pleasantcurrentofthefamilylifeoftheEpanchinswasabouttoundergoachange。 Theundoubtedbeautyofthefamily,parexcellence,wastheyoungest,Aglaya,asaforesaid。ButTotskihimself,thoughanegotistoftheextremesttype,realizedthathehadnochancethere;Aglayawasclearlynotforsuchashe。 PerhapsthesisterlyloveandfriendshipofthethreegirlshadmoreorlessexaggeratedAglaya’schancesofhappiness。Intheiropinion,thelatter’sdestinywasnotmerelytobeveryhappy; shewastoliveinaheavenonearth。Aglaya’shusbandwastobeacompendiumofallthevirtues,andofallsuccess,nottospeakoffabulouswealth。Thetwoeldersistershadagreedthatallwastobesacrificedbythem,ifneedbe,forAglaya’ssake;herdowrywastobecolossalandunprecedented。 Thegeneralandhiswifewereawareofthisagreement,and,therefore,whenTotskisuggestedhimselfforoneofthesisters,theparentsmadenodoubtthatoneofthetwoeldergirlswouldprobablyaccepttheoffer,sinceTotskiwouldcertainlymakenodifficultyastodowry。Thegeneralvaluedtheproposalveryhighly。Heknewlife,andrealizedwhatsuchanofferwasworth。 Theanswerofthesisterstothecommunicationwas,ifnotconclusive,atleastconsolingandhopeful。Itmadeknownthattheeldest,Alexandra,wouldverylikelybedisposedtolistentoaproposal。 Alexandrawasagood-naturedgirl,thoughshehadawillofherown。Shewasintelligentandkind-hearted,and,ifsheweretomarryTotski,shewouldmakehimagoodwife。Shedidnotcareforabrilliantmarriage;shewaseminentlyawomancalculatedtosootheandsweetenthelifeofanyman;decidedlypretty,ifnotabsolutelyhandsome。WhatbettercouldTotskiwish? Sothemattercreptslowlyforward。ThegeneralandTotskihadagreedtoavoidanyhastyandirrevocablestep。Alexandra’sparentshadnotevenbeguntotalktotheirdaughtersfreelyuponthesubject,whensuddenly,asitwere,adissonantchordwasstruckamidtheharmonyoftheproceedings。Mrs。Epanchinbegantoshowsignsofdiscontent,andthatwasaseriousmatter。A certaincircumstancehadcreptin,adisagreeableandtroublesomefactor,whichthreatenedtooverturnthewholebusiness。 Thiscircumstancehadcomeintoexistenceeighteenyearsbefore。 ClosetoanestateofTotski’s,inoneofthecentralprovincesofRussia,therelived,atthattime,apoorgentlemanwhoseestatewasofthewretchedestdescription。Thisgentlemanwasnotedinthedistrictforhispersistentill-fortune;hisnamewasBarashkoff,and,asregardsfamilyanddescent,hewasvastlysuperiortoTotski,buthisestatewasmortgagedtothelastacre。Oneday,whenhehadriddenovertothetowntoseeacreditor,thechiefpeasantofhisvillagefollowedhimshortlyafter,withthenewsthathishousehadbeenburntdown,andthathiswifehadperishedwithit,buthischildrenweresafe。 EvenBarashkoff,inuredtothestormsofevilfortuneashewas,couldnotstandthislaststroke。Hewentmadanddiedshortlyafterinthetownhospital。Hisestatewassoldforthecreditors;andthelittlegirls——twoofthem,ofsevenandeightyearsofagerespectively,——wereadoptedbyTotski,whoundertooktheirmaintenanceandeducationinthekindnessofhisheart。 TheywerebroughtuptogetherwiththechildrenofhisGermanbailiff。Verysoon,however,therewasonlyoneofthemleft- NastasiaPhilipovna——fortheotherlittleonediedofwhooping- cough。Totski,whowaslivingabroadatthistime,verysoonforgotallaboutthechild;butfiveyearsafter,returningtoRussia,itstruckhimthathewouldliketolookoverhisestateandseehowmattersweregoingthere,and,arrivedathisbailiff’shouse,hewasnotlongindiscoveringthatamongthechildrenofthelattertherenowdweltamostlovelylittlegirloftwelve,sweetandintelligent,andbright,andpromisingtodevelopbeautyofmostunusualquality-astowhichlastTotskiwasanundoubtedauthority。 Heonlystayedathiscountryscatafewdaysonthisoccasion,buthehadtimetomakehisarrangements。Greatchangestookplaceinthechild’seducation;agoodgovernesswasengaged,aSwissladyofexperienceandculture。ForfouryearsthisladyresidedinthehousewithlittleNastia,andthentheeducationwasconsideredcomplete。Thegovernesstookherdeparture,andanotherladycamedowntofetchNastia,byTotski’sinstructions。 ThechildwasnowtransportedtoanotherofTotski’sestatesinadistantpartofthecountry。Hereshefoundadelightfullittlehouse,justbuilt,andpreparedforherreceptionwithgreatcareandtaste;andhereshetookupherabodetogetherwiththeladywhohadaccompaniedherfromheroldhome。Inthehousethereweretwoexperiencedmaids,musicalinstrumentsofallsorts,acharming\"younglady’slibrary,\"pictures,paint-boxes,alap- dog,andeverythingtomakelifeagreeable。WithinafortnightTotskihimselfarrived,andfromthattimeheappearedtohavetakenagreatfancytothispartoftheworldandcamedowneachsummer,stayingtwoandthreemonthsatatime。Sopassedfouryearspeacefullyandhappily,incharmingsurroundings。 Attheendofthattime,andaboutfourmonthsafterTotski’slastvisit(hehadstayedbutafortnightonthisoccasion),areportreachedNastasiaPhilipovnathathewasabouttobemarriedinSt。Petersburg,toarich,eminent,andlovelywoman。 Thereportwasonlypartiallytrue,themarriageprojectbeingonlyinanembryocondition;butagreatchangenowcameoverNastasiaPhilipovna。Shesuddenlydisplayedunusualdecisionofcharacter;andwithoutwastingtimeinthought,shelefthercountryhomeandcameuptoSt。Petersburg,straighttoTotski’shouse,allalone。 Thelatter,amazedatherconduct,begantoexpresshisdispleasure;butheverysoonbecameawarethathemustchangehisvoice,style,andeverythingelse,withthisyounglady;thegoodoldtimesweregone。Anentirelynewanddifferentwomansatbeforehim,betweenwhomandthegirlhehadleftinthecountrylastJulythereseemednothingincommon。 Inthefirstplace,thisnewwomanunderstoodagooddealmorethanwasusualforyoungpeopleofherage;somuchindeed,thatTotskicouldnothelpwonderingwhereshehadpickedupherknowledge。Surelynotfromher\"younglady’slibrary\"?Itevenembracedlegalmatters,andthe\"world\"ingeneral,toaconsiderableextent。 Hercharacterwasabsolutelychanged。Nomoreofthegirlishalternationsoftimidityandpetulance,theadorablenaivete,thereveries,thetears,theplayfulness……Itwasanentirelynewandhithertounknownbeingwhonowsatandlaughedathim,andinformedhimtohisfacethatshehadneverhadthefaintestfeelingforhimofanykind,exceptloathingandcontempt—— contemptwhichhadfollowedcloselyuponhersensationsofsurpriseandbewildermentafterherfirstacquaintancewithhim。 Thisnewwomangavehimfurthertounderstandthatthoughitwasabsolutelythesametoherwhomhemarried,yetshehaddecidedtopreventthismarriage——fornoparticularreason,butthatshechosetodoso,andbecauseshewishedtoamuseherselfathisexpenseforthatitwas\"quiteherturntolaughalittlenow!\" Suchwereherwords——verylikelyshedidnotgiveherrealreasonforthiseccentricconduct;but,atallevents,thatwasalltheexplanationshedeignedtooffer。 Meanwhile,Totskithoughtthematteroveraswellashisscatteredideaswouldpermit。Hismeditationslastedafortnight,however,andattheendofthattimehisresolutionwastaken。 Thefactwas,Totskiwasatthattimeamanoffiftyyearsofage;hispositionwassolidandrespectable;hisplaceinsocietyhadlongbeenfirmlyfixeduponsafefoundations;helovedhimself,hispersonalcomforts,andhispositionbetterthanalltheworld,aseveryrespectablegentlemanshould! AtthesametimehisgraspofthingsingeneralsoonshowedTotskithathenowhadtodealwithabeingwhowasoutsidethepaleoftheordinaryrulesoftraditionalbehaviour,andwhowouldnotonlythreatenmischiefbutwouldundoubtedlycarryitout,andstopfornoone。 Therewasevidently,heconcluded,somethingatworkhere;somestormofthemind,someparoxysmofromanticanger,goodnessknowsagainstwhomorwhat,someinsatiablecontempt——inaword,somethingaltogetherabsurdandimpossible,butatthesametimemostdangeroustobemetwithbyanyrespectablepersonwithapositioninsocietytokeepup。 ForamanofTotski’swealthandstanding,itwould,ofcourse,havebeenthesimplestpossiblemattertotakestepswhichwouldridhimatoncefromallannoyance;whileitwasobviouslyimpossibleforNastasiaPhilipovnatoharmhiminanyway,eitherlegallyorbystirringupascandal,for,incaseofthelatterdanger,hecouldsoeasilyremovehertoasphereofsafety。 However,theseargumentswouldonlyholdgoodincaseofNastasiaactingasothersmightinsuchanemergency。Shewasmuchmorelikelytooversteptheboundsofreasonableconductbysomeextraordinaryeccentricity。 HerethesoundjudgmentofTotskistoodhimingoodstead。HerealizedthatNastasiaPhilipovnamustbewellawarethatshecoulddonothingbylegalmeanstoinjurehim,andthatherflashingeyesbetrayedsomeentirelydifferentintention。 NastasiaPhilipovnawasquitecapableofruiningherself,andevenofperpetratingsomethingwhichwouldsendhertoSiberia,forthemerepleasureofinjuringamanforwhomshehaddevelopedsoinhumanasenseofloathingandcontempt。Hehadsufficientinsighttounderstandthatshevaluednothingintheworld——herselfleastofall——andhemadenoattempttoconcealthefactthathewasacowardinsomerespects。Forinstance,ifhehadbeentoldthathewouldbestabbedatthealtar,orpubliclyinsulted,hewouldundoubtedlyhavebeenfrightened;butnotsomuchattheideaofbeingmurdered,orwounded,orinsulted,asatthethoughtthatifsuchthingsweretohappenhewouldbemadetolookridiculousintheeyesofsociety。 HeknewwellthatNastasiathoroughlyunderstoodhimandwheretowoundhimandhow,andtherefore,asthemarriagewasstillonlyinembryo,Totskidecidedtoconciliateherbygivingitup。HisdecisionwasstrengthenedbythefactthatNastasiaPhilipovnahadcuriouslyalteredoflate。Itwouldbedifficulttoconceivehowdifferentshewasphysically,atthepresenttime,tothegirlofafewyearsago。Shewasprettythen……butnow!…… Totskilaughedangrilywhenhethoughthowshort-sightedhehadbeen。Indaysgonebyherememberedhowhehadlookedatherbeautifuleyes,howeventhenhehadmarvelledattheirdarkmysteriousdepths,andattheirwonderinggazewhichseemedtoseekananswertosomeunknownriddle。Hercomplexionalsohadaltered。Shewasnowexceedinglypale,but,curiously,thischangeonlymadehermorebeautiful。Likemostmenoftheworld,Totskihadratherdespisedsuchacheaply-boughtconquest,butoflateyearshehadbeguntothinkdifferentlyaboutit。IthadstruckhimaslongagoaslastspringthatheoughttobefindingagoodmatchforNastasia;forinstance,somerespectableandreasonableyoungfellowservinginagovernmentofficeinanotherpartofthecountry。HowmaliciouslyNastasialaughedattheideaofsuchathing,now! However,itappearedtoTotskithathemightmakeuseofherinanotherway;andhedeterminedtoestablishherinSt。 Petersburg,surroundingherwithallthecomfortsandluxuriesthathiswealthcouldcommand。Inthiswayhemightgaingloryincertaincircles。 FiveyearsofthisPetersburglifewentby,and,ofcourse,duringthattimeagreatdealhappened。Totski’spositionwasveryuncomfortable;having\"funked\"once,hecouldnottotallyregainhisease。Hewasafraid,hedidnotknowwhy,buthewassimplyafraidofNastasiaPhilipovna。Forthefirsttwoyearsorsohehadsuspectedthatshewishedtomarryhimherself,andthatonlyhervanitypreventedhertellinghimso。Hethoughtthatshewantedhimtoapproachherwithahumbleproposalfromhisownside,Buttohisgreat,andnotentirelypleasurableamazement,hediscoveredthatthiswasbynomeansthecase,andthatwerehetoofferhimselfhewouldberefused。Hecouldnotunderstandsuchastateofthings,andwasobligedtoconcludethatitwaspride,theprideofaninjuredandimaginativewoman,whichhadgonetosuchlengthsthatitpreferredtositandnurseitscontemptandhatredinsolituderatherthanmounttoheightsofhithertounattainablesplendour。Tomakemattersworse,shewasquiteimpervioustomercenaryconsiderations,andcouldnotbebribedinanyway。 Finally,Totskitookcunningmeanstotrytobreakhischainsandbefree。Hetriedtotemptherinvariouswaystoloseherheart; heinvitedprinces,hussars,secretariesofembassies,poets,novelists,evenSocialists,toseeher;butnotoneofthemallmadethefaintestimpressionuponNastasia。Itwasasthoughshehadapebbleinplaceofaheart,asthoughherfeelingsandaffectionsweredriedupandwitheredforever。 Shelivedalmostentirelyalone;sheread,shestudied,shelovedmusic。Herprincipalacquaintanceswerepoorwomenofvariousgrades,acoupleofactresses,andthefamilyofapoorschoolteacher。Amongthesepeopleshewasmuchbeloved。 Shereceivedfourorfivefriendssometimes,ofanevening。 Totskioftencame。Lately,too,GeneralEpanchinhadbeenenabledwithgreatdifficultytointroducehimselfintohercircle。Ganiamadeheracquaintancealso,andotherswereFerdishenko,anill- bred,andwould-bewitty,youngclerk,andPtitsin,amoney- lenderofmodestandpolishedmanners,whohadrisenfrompoverty。Infact,NastasiaPhilipovna’sbeautybecameathingknowntoallthetown;butnotasinglemancouldboastofanythingmorethanhisownadmirationforher;andthisreputationofhers,andherwitandcultureandgrace,allconfirmedTotskiintheplanhehadnowprepared。 AnditwasatthismomentthatGeneralEpanchinbegantoplaysolargeandimportantapartinthestory。 WhenTotskihadapproachedthegeneralwithhisrequestforfriendlycounselastoamarriagewithoneofhisdaughters,hehadmadeafullandcandidconfession。Hehadsaidthatheintendedtostopatnomeanstoobtainhisfreedom;evenifNastasiaweretopromisetoleavehimentirelyaloneinfuture,hewouldnot(hesaid)believeandtrusther;wordswerenotenoughforhim;hemusthavesolidguaranteesofsomesort。Soheandthegeneraldeterminedtotrywhatanattempttoappealtoherheartwouldeffect。HavingarrivedatNastasia’shouseoneday,withEpanchin,Totskiimmediatelybegantospeakoftheintolerabletormentofhisposition。Headmittedthathewastoblameforall,butcandidlyconfessedthathecouldnotbringhimselftofeelanyremorseforhisoriginalguilttowardsherself,becausehewasamanofsensualpassionswhichwereinbornandineradicable,andthathehadnopoweroverhimselfinthisrespect;butthathewished,seriously,tomarryatlast,andthatthewholefateofthemostdesirablesocialunionwhichhecontemplated,wasinherhands;inaword,heconfidedhisalltohergenerosityofheart。 GeneralEpanchintookuphispartandspokeinthecharacteroffatherofafamily;hespokesensibly,andwithoutwastingwordsoveranyattemptatsentimentality,hemerelyrecordedhisfulladmissionofherrighttobethearbiterofTotski’sdestinyatthismoment。Hethenpointedoutthatthefateofhisdaughter,andverylikelyofbothhisotherdaughters,nowhunguponherreply。 ToNastasia’squestionastowhattheywishedhertodo,Totskiconfessedthathehadbeensofrightenedbyher,fiveyearsago,thathecouldnevernowbeentirelycomfortableuntilsheherselfmarried。Heimmediatelyaddedthatsuchasuggestionfromhimwould,ofcourse,beabsurd,unlessaccompaniedbyremarksofamorepointednature。Heverywellknew,hesaid,thatacertainyounggentlemanofgoodfamily,namely,GavrilaArdalionovitchIvolgin,withwhomshewasacquainted,andwhomshereceivedatherhouse,hadlonglovedherpassionately,andwouldgivehislifeforsomeresponsefromher。Theyoungfellowhadconfessedthisloveofhistohim(Totski)andhadalsoadmitteditinthehearingofhisbenefactor,GeneralEpanchin。Lastly,hecouldnothelpbeingofopinionthatNastasiamustbeawareofGania’sloveforher,andifhe(Totski)mistooknot,shehadlookedwithsomefavouruponit,beingoftenlonely,andrathertiredofherpresentlife。Havingremarkedhowdifficultitwasforhim,ofallpeople,tospeaktoherofthesematters,TotskiconcludedbysayingthathetrustedNastasiaPhilipovnawouldnotlookwithcontemptuponhimifhenowexpressedhissinceredesiretoguaranteeherfuturebyagiftofseventy-fivethousandroubles。 Headdedthatthesumwouldhavebeenleftherallthesameinhiswill,andthatthereforeshemustnotconsiderthegiftasinanywayanindemnificationtoherforanything,butthattherewasnoreason,afterall,whyamanshouldnotbeallowedtoentertainanaturaldesiretolightenhisconscience,etc。,etc。; infact,allthatwouldnaturallybesaidunderthecircumstances。 Totskiwasveryeloquentallthrough,and,inconclusion,justtouchedonthefactthatnotasoulintheworld,notevenGeneralEpanchin,hadeverheardawordabouttheaboveseventy-fivethousandroubles,andthatthiswasthefirsttimehehadevergivenexpressiontohisintentionsinrespecttothem。 NastasiaPhilipovna’sreplytothislongrigmaroleastonishedboththefriendsconsiderably。 Notonlywastherenotraceofherformerirony,ofheroldhatredandenmity,andofthatdreadfullaughter,theveryrecollectionofwhichsentacoldchilldownTotski’sbacktothisveryday;butsheseemedcharmedandreallygladtohavetheopportunityoftalkingseriouslywithhimforonceinaway。Sheconfessedthatshehadlongwishedtohaveafrankandfreeconversationandtoaskforfriendlyadvice,butthatpridehadhithertopreventedher;now,however,thattheicewasbroken,nothingcouldbemorewelcometoherthanthisopportunity。 First,withasadsmile,andthenwithatwinkleofmerrimentinhereyes,sheadmittedthatsuchastormasthatoffiveyearsagowasnowquiteoutofthequestion。Shesaidthatshehadlongsincechangedherviewsofthings,andrecognizedthatfactsmustbetakenintoconsiderationinspiteofthefeelingsoftheheart。Whatwasdonewasdoneandended,andshecouldnotunderstandwhyTotskishouldstillfeelalarmed。 ShenextturnedtoGeneralEpanchinandobserved,mostcourteously,thatshehadlongsinceknownofhisdaughters,andthatshehadheardnonebutgoodreport;thatshehadlearnedtothinkofthemwithdeepandsincererespect。Theideaalonethatshecouldinanywayservethem,wouldbetoherbothaprideandasourceofrealhappiness。 Itwastruethatshewaslonelyinherpresentlife;Totskihadjudgedherthoughtsaright。Shelongedtorise,ifnottolove,atleasttofamilylifeandnewhopesandobjects,butastoGavrilaArdalionovitch,shecouldnotasyetsaymuch。Shethoughtitmustbethecasethathelovedher;shefeltthatshetoomightlearntolovehim,ifshecouldbesureofthefirmnessofhisattachmenttoherself;buthewasveryyoung,anditwasadifficultquestiontodecide。Whatshespeciallylikedabouthimwasthatheworked,andsupportedhisfamilybyhistoil。 Shehadheardthathewasproudandambitious;shehadheardmuchthatwasinterestingofhismotherandsister,shehadheardofthemfromMr。Ptitsin,andwouldmuchliketomaketheiracquaintance,but——anotherquestion!——wouldtheyliketoreceiveherintotheirhouse?Atallevents,thoughshedidnotrejecttheideaofthismarriage,shedesirednottobehurried。Asfortheseventy-fivethousandroubles,Mr。Totskineednothavefoundanydifficultyorawkwardnessaboutthematter;shequiteunderstoodthevalueofmoney,andwould,ofcourse,acceptthegift。Shethankedhimforhisdelicacy,however,butsawnoreasonwhyGavrilaArdalionovitchshouldnotknowaboutit。 Shewouldnotmarrythelatter,shesaid,untilshefeltpersuadedthatneitheronhispartnoronthepartofhisfamilydidthereexistanysortofconcealedsuspicionsastoherself。 Shedidnotintendtoaskforgivenessforanythinginthepast,whichfactshedesiredtobeknown。Shedidnotconsiderherselftoblameforanythingthathadhappenedinformeryears,andshethoughtthatGavrilaArdalionovitchshouldbeinformedastotherelationswhichhadexistedbetweenherselfandTotskiduringthelastfiveyears。Ifsheacceptedthismoneyitwasnottobeconsideredasindemnificationforhermisfortuneasayounggirl,whichhadnotbeeninanydegreeherownfault,butmerelyascompensationforherruinedlife。 ShebecamesoexcitedandagitatedduringalltheseexplanationsandconfessionsthatGeneralEpanchinwashighlygratified,andconsideredthemattersatisfactorilyarrangedonceforall。ButtheoncebittenTotskiwastwiceshy,andlookedforhiddensnakesamongtheflowers。However,thespecialpointtowhichthetwofriendsparticularlytrustedtobringabouttheirobject(namely,Gania’sattractivenessforNastasiaPhilipovna),stoodoutmoreandmoreprominently;thepourparlershadcommenced,andgraduallyevenTotskibegantobelieveinthepossibilityofsuccess。 BeforelongNastasiaandGaniahadtalkedthematterover。Verylittlewassaid——hermodestyseemedtosufferundertheinflictionofdiscussingsuchaquestion。Butsherecognizedhislove,ontheunderstandingthatsheboundherselftonothingwhatever,andthatshereservedtherighttosay\"no\"uptotheveryhourofthemarriageceremony。Ganiawastohavethesamerightofrefusalatthelastmoment。 ItsoonbecamecleartoGania,afterscenesofwrathandquarrellingsatthedomestichearth,thathisfamilywereseriouslyopposedtothematch,andthatNastasiawasawareofthisfactwasequallyevident。Shesaidnothingaboutit,thoughhedailyexpectedhertodoso。 Therewereseveralrumoursafloat,beforelong,whichupsetTotski’sequanimityagooddeal,butwewillnotnowstoptodescribethem;merelymentioninganinstanceortwo。OnewasthatNastasiahadenteredintocloseandsecretrelationswiththeEpanchingirls——amostunlikelyrumour;anotherwasthatNastasiahadlongsatisfiedherselfofthefactthatGaniawasmerelymarryingherformoney,andthathisnaturewasgloomyandgreedy,impatientandselfish,toanextraordinarydegree;andthatalthoughhehadbeenkeenenoughinhisdesiretoachieveaconquestbefore,yetsincethetwofriendshadagreedtoexploithispassionfortheirownpurposes,itwasclearenoughthathehadbeguntoconsiderthewholethinganuisanceandanightmare。 Inhisheartpassionandhateseemedtoholddividedsway,andalthoughhehadatlastgivenhisconsenttomarrythewoman(ashesaid),underthestressofcircumstances,yethepromisedhimselfthathewould\"takeitoutofher,\"aftermarriage。 NastasiaseemedtoTotskitohavedivinedallthis,andtobepreparingsomethingonherownaccount,whichfrightenedhimtosuchanextentthathedidnotdarecommunicatehisviewseventothegeneral。Butattimeshewouldpluckuphiscourageandbefullofhopeandgoodspiritsagain,acting,infact,asweakmendoactinsuchcircumstances。 However,boththefriendsfeltthatthethinglookedrosyindeedwhenonedayNastasiainformedthemthatshewouldgiveherfinalanswerontheeveningofherbirthday,whichanniversarywasdueinaveryshorttime。 Astrangerumourbegantocirculate,meanwhile;nolessthanthattherespectableandhighlyrespectedGeneralEpanchinwashimselfsofascinatedbyNastasiaPhilipovnathathisfeelingforheramountedalmosttopassion。WhathethoughttogainbyGania’smarriagetothegirlitwasdifficulttoimagine。PossiblyhecountedonGania’scomplaisance;forTotskihadlongsuspectedthatthereexistedsomesecretunderstandingbetweenthegeneralandhissecretary。AtalleventsthefactwasknownthathehadpreparedamagnificentpresentofpearlsforNastasia’sbirthday,andthathewaslookingforwardtotheoccasionwhenheshouldpresenthisgiftwiththegreatestexcitementandimpatience。Thedaybeforeherbirthdayhewasinafeverofagitation。 Mrs。Epanchin,longaccustomedtoherhusband’sinfidelities,hadheardofthepearls,andtherumourexcitedherliveliestcuriosityandinterest。Thegeneralremarkedhersuspicions,andfeltthatagrandexplanationmustshortlytakeplace——whichfactalarmedhimmuch。 Thisisthereasonwhyhewassounwillingtotakelunch(onthemorninguponwhichwetookupthisnarrative)withtherestofhisfamily。Beforetheprince’sarrivalhehadmadeuphismindtopleadbusiness,and\"cut\"themeal;whichsimplymeantrunningaway。 Hewasparticularlyanxiousthatthisonedayshouldbepassed—— especiallytheevening——withoutunpleasantnessbetweenhimselfandhisfamily;andjustattherightmomenttheprinceturnedup——\"asthoughHeavenhadsenthimonpurpose,\"saidthegeneraltohimself,asheleftthestudytoseekoutthewifeofhisbosom。 V。 Mrs。GeneralEpanchinwasaproudwomanbynature。WhatmustherfeelingshavebeenwhensheheardthatPrinceMuishkin,thelastofhisandherline,hadarrivedinbeggar’sguise,awretchedidiot,arecipientofcharity——allofwhichdetailsthegeneralgaveoutforgreatereffect!Hewasanxioustostealherinterestatthefirstswoop,soastodistractherthoughtsfromothermattersnearerhome。 Mrs。Epanchinwasinthehabitofholdingherselfverystraight,andstaringbeforeher,withoutspeaking,inmomentsofexcitement。 Shewasafinewomanofthesameageasherhusband,withaslightlyhookednose,ahigh,narrowforehead,thickhairturningalittlegrey,andasallowcomplexion。Hereyesweregreyandworeaverycuriousexpressionattimes。Shebelievedthemtobemosteffective——abeliefthatnothingcouldalter。 \"What,receivehim!Now,atonce?\"askedMrs。Epanchin,gazingvaguelyatherhusbandashestoodfidgetingbeforeher。 \"Oh,dearme,Iassureyouthereisnoneedtostandonceremonywithhim,\"thegeneralexplainedhastily。\"Heisquiteachild,nottosayapathetic-lookingcreature。Hehasfitsofsomesort,andhasjustarrivedfromSwitzerland,straightfromthestation,dressedlikeaGermanandwithoutafarthinginhispocket。I gavehimtwenty-fiveroublestogoonwith,andamgoingtofindhimsomeeasyplaceinoneofthegovernmentoffices。Ishouldlikeyoutoplyhimwellwiththevictuals,mydears,forI shouldthinkhemustbeveryhungry。\" \"Youastonishme,\"saidthelady,gazingasbefore。\"Fits,andhungrytoo!Whatsortoffits?\" \"Oh,theydon’tcomeonfrequently,besides,he’saregularchild,thoughheseemstobefairlyeducated。Ishouldlikeyou,ifpossible,mydears,\"thegeneraladded,makingslowlyforthedoor,\"toputhimthroughhispacesabit,andseewhatheisgoodfor。Ithinkyoushouldbekindtohim;itisagooddeed,youknow——however,justasyoulike,ofcourse——butheisasortofrelation,remember,andIthoughtitmightinterestyoutoseetheyoungfellow,seeingthatthisisso。\" \"Oh,ofcourse,mamma,ifweneedn’tstandonceremonywithhim,wemustgivethepoorfellowsomethingtoeatafterhisjourney; especiallyashehasnottheleastideawheretogoto,\"saidAlexandra,theeldestofthegirls。 \"Besides,he’squiteachild;wecanentertainhimwithalittlehide-and-seek,incaseofneed,\"saidAdelaida。 \"Hide-and-seek?Whatdoyoumean?\"inquiredMrs。Epanchin。 \"Oh,dostoppretending,mamma,\"criedAglaya,invexation。\"Sendhimup,father;motherallows。\" Thegeneralrangthebellandgaveordersthattheprinceshouldbeshownin。 \"Onlyonconditionthathehasanapkinunderhischinatlunch,then,\"saidMrs。Epanchin,\"andletFedor,orMavra,standbehindhimwhileheeats。Ishequietwhenhehasthesefits?Hedoesn’tshowviolence,doeshe?\" \"Onthecontrary,heseemstobeverywellbroughtup。Hismannersareexcellent——buthereheishimself。Hereyouare,prince——letmeintroduceyou,thelastoftheMuishkins,arelativeofyourown,mydear,oratleastofthesamename。 Receivehimkindly,please。They’llbringinlunchdirectly,prince;youmuststopandhavesome,butyoumustexcuseme。I’minahurry,Imustbeoff——\" \"WeallknowwhereYOUmustbeoffto!\"saidMrs。Epanchin,inameaningvoice。 \"Yes,yes——Imusthurryaway,I’mlate!Lookhere,dears,lethimwriteyousomethinginyouralbums;you’venoideawhatawonderfulcaligraphistheis,wonderfultalent!Hehasjustwrittenout’AbbotPafnutesignedthis’forme。Well,aurevoir!\" \"Stopaminute;whereareyouoffto?Whoisthisabbot?\"criedMrs。Epanchintoherretreatinghusbandinatoneofexcitedannoyance。 \"Yes,mydear,itwasanoldabbotofthatname-Imustbeofftoseethecount,he’swaitingforme,I’mlate——Good-bye!Aurevoir,prince!\"——andthegeneralboltedatfullspeed。 \"Oh,yes——Iknowwhatcountyou’regoingtosee!\"remarkedhiswifeinacuttingmanner,assheturnedherangryeyesontheprince。\"Nowthen,what’sallthisabout?——Whatabbot——Who’sPafnute?\"sheadded,brusquely。 \"Mamma!\"saidAlexandra,shockedatherrudeness。 Aglayastampedherfoot。 \"Nonsense!Letmealone!\"saidtheangrymother。\"Nowthen,prince,sitdownhere,no,nearer,comenearerthelight!Iwanttohaveagoodlookatyou。So,nowthen,whoisthisabbot?\" \"AbbotPafnute,\"saidourfriend,seriouslyandwithdeference。 \"Pafnute,yes。Andwhowashe?\" Mrs。Epanchinputthesequestionshastilyandbrusquely,andwhentheprinceansweredshenoddedherheadsagelyateachwordhesaid。 \"TheAbbotPafnutelivedinthefourteenthcentury,\"begantheprince;\"hewasinchargeofoneofthemonasteriesontheVolga,aboutwhereourpresentKostromagovernmentlies。HewenttoOreolandhelpedinthegreatmattersthengoingoninthereligiousworld;hesignedanedictthere,andIhaveseenaprintofhissignature;itstruckme,soIcopiedit。Whenthegeneralaskedme,inhisstudy,towritesomethingforhim,toshowmyhandwriting,Iwrote’TheAbbotPafnutesignedthis,’intheexacthandwritingoftheabbot。Thegenerallikeditverymuch,andthat’swhyherecalleditjustnow。\" \"Aglaya,makeanoteof’Pafnute,’orweshallforgethim。H’m! andwhereisthissignature?\" \"Ithinkitwasleftonthegeneral’stable。\" \"Letitbesentforatonce!\" \"Oh,I’llwriteyouanewoneinhalfaminute,\"saidtheprince,\"ifyoulike!\" \"Ofcourse,mamma!\"saidAlexandra。\"Butlet’shavelunchnow,weareallhungry!\" \"Yes;comealong,prince,\"saidthemother,\"areyouveryhungry?\" \"Yes;ImustsaythatIamprettyhungry,thanksverymuch。\" \"H’m!Iliketoseethatyouknowyourmanners;andyouarebynomeanssuchapersonasthegeneralthoughtfittodescribeyou。 Comealong;yousithere,oppositetome,\"shecontinued,\"Iwishtobeabletoseeyourface。Alexandra,Adelaida,lookaftertheprince!Hedoesn’tseemsoveryill,doeshe?Idon’tthinkherequiresanapkinunderhischin,afterall;areyouaccustomedtohavingoneon,prince?\" \"Formerly,whenIwassevenyearsoldorso。IbelieveIworeone;butnowIusuallyholdmynapkinonmykneewhenIeat。\" \"Ofcourse,ofcourse!Andaboutyourfits?\" \"Fits?\"askedtheprince,slightlysurprised。\"Iveryseldomhavefitsnowadays。Idon’tknowhowitmaybehere,though;theysaytheclimatemaybebadforme。\" \"Hetalksverywell,youknow!\"saidMrs。Epanchin,whostillcontinuedtonodateachwordtheprincespoke。\"Ireallydidnotexpectitatall;infact,Isupposeitwasallstuffandnonsenseonthegeneral’spart,asusual。Eataway,prince,andtellmewhereyouwereborn,andwhereyouwerebroughtup。I wishtoknowallaboutyou,youinterestmeverymuch!\" Theprinceexpressedhisthanksoncemore,andeatingheartilythewhile,recommencedthenarrativeofhislifeinSwitzerland,allofwhichwehaveheardbefore。Mrs。Epanchinbecamemoreandmorepleasedwithherguest;thegirls,too,listenedwithconsiderableattention。Intalkingoverthequestionofrelationshipitturnedoutthattheprincewasverywellupinthematterandknewhispedigreeoffbyheart。ItwasfoundthatscarcelyanyconnectionexistedbetweenhimselfandMrs。 Epanchin,butthetalk,andtheopportunityofconversingaboutherfamilytree,gratifiedthelatterexceedingly,andsherosefromthetableingreatgoodhumour。 \"Let’sallgotomyboudoir,\"shesaid,\"andtheyshallbringsomecoffeeinthere。That’stheroomwhereweallassembleandbusyourselvesaswelikebest,\"sheexplained。\"Alexandra,myeldest,here,playsthepiano,orreadsorsews;Adelaidapaintslandscapesandportraits(butneverfinishesany);andAglayasitsanddoesnothing。Idon’tworktoomuch,either。Hereweare,now;sitdown,prince,nearthefireandtalktous。Iwanttohearyourelatesomething。Iwishtomakesureofyoufirstandthentellmyoldfriend,PrincessBielokonski,aboutyou。I wishyoutoknowallthegoodpeopleandtointerestthem。Nowthen,begin!\" \"Mamma,it’sratherastrangeorder,that!\"saidAdelaida,whowasfussingamongherpaintsandpaint-brushesattheeasel。 AglayaandAlexandrahadsettledthemselveswithfoldedhandsonasofa,evidentlymeaningtobelisteners。Theprincefeltthatthegeneralattentionwasconcentrateduponhimself。 \"IshouldrefusetosayawordifIwereorderedtotellastorylikethat!\"observedAglaya。 \"Why?what’stherestrangeaboutit?Hehasatongue。Whyshouldn’thetellussomething?Iwanttojudgewhetherheisagoodstory-teller;anythingyoulike,prince-howyoulikedSwitzerland,whatwasyourfirstimpression,anything。You’llsee,he’llbegindirectlyandtellusallaboutitbeautifully。\" \"Theimpressionwasforcible——\"theprincebegan。 \"There,yousee,girls,\"saidtheimpatientlady,\"hehasbegun,yousee。\" \"Well,then,LEThimtalk,mamma,\"saidAlexandra。\"Thisprinceisagreathumbugandbynomeansanidiot,\"shewhisperedtoAglaya。 \"Oh,Isawthatatonce,\"repliedthelatter。\"Idon’tthinkitatallniceofhimtoplayapart。Whatdoeshewishtogainbyit,Iwonder?\" \"Myfirstimpressionwasaverystrongone,\"repeatedtheprince。 \"WhentheytookmeawayfromRussia,IrememberIpassedthroughmanyGermantownsandlookedoutofthewindows,butdidnottroublesomuchastoaskquestionsaboutthem。Thiswasafteralongseriesoffits。Ialwaysusedtofallintoasortoftorpidconditionaftersuchaseries,andlostmymemoryalmostentirely;andthoughIwasnotaltogetherwithoutreasonatsuchtimes,yetIhadnologicalpowerofthought。Thiswouldcontinueforthreeorfourdays,andthenIwouldrecovermyselfagain。I remembermymelancholywasintolerable;Ifeltinclinedtocry;I satandwonderedandwondereduncomfortably;theconsciousnessthateverythingwasstrangeweighedterriblyuponme;Icouldunderstandthatitwasallforeignandstrange。IrecollectI awokefromthisstateforthefirsttimeatBasle,oneevening; thebrayofadonkeyarousedme,adonkeyinthetownmarket。I sawthedonkeyandwasextremelypleasedwithit,andfromthatmomentmyheadseemedtoclear。\" \"Adonkey?Howstrange!Yetitisnotstrange。Anyoneofusmightfallinlovewithadonkey!Ithappenedinmythologicaltimes,\" saidMadameEpanchin,lookingwrathfullyatherdaughters,whohadbeguntolaugh。\"Goon,prince。\" \"SincethateveningIhavebeenspeciallyfondofdonkeys。I begantoaskquestionsaboutthem,forIhadneverseenonebefore;andIatoncecametotheconclusionthatthismustbeoneofthemostusefulofanimals——strong,willing,patient,cheap;and,thankstothisdonkey,IbegantolikethewholecountryIwastravellingthrough;andmymelancholypassedaway。\" \"Allthisisverystrangeandinteresting,\"saidMrs。Epanchin。 \"Nowlet’sleavethedonkeyandgoontoothermatters。Whatareyoulaughingat,Aglaya?andyoutoo,Adelaida?Theprincetoldushisexperiencesverycleverly;hesawthedonkeyhimself,andwhathaveyoueverseen?YOUhaveneverbeenabroad。\" \"Ihaveseenadonkeythough,mamma!\"saidAglaya。 \"AndI’veheardone!\"saidAdelaida。Allthreeofthegirlslaughedoutloud,andtheprincelaughedwiththem。 \"Well,it’stoobadofyou,\"saidmamma。\"Youmustforgivethem,prince;theyaregoodgirls。Iamveryfondofthem,thoughI oftenhavetobescoldingthem;theyareallassillyandmadasmarchhares。\" \"Oh,whyshouldn’ttheylaugh?\"saidtheprince。\"Ishouldn’thaveletthechancegobyintheirplace,Iknow。ButIstickupforthedonkey,allthesame;he’sapatient,good-naturedfellow。\" \"Areyouapatientman,prince?Iaskoutofcuriosity,\"saidMrs。Epanchin。 Alllaughedagain。 \"Oh,thatwretcheddonkeyagain,Isee!\"criedthelady。\"I assureyou,prince,Iwasnotguiltyoftheleast——\" \"Insinuation?Oh!Iassureyou,Itakeyourwordforit。\"Andtheprincecontinuedlaughingmerrily。 \"Imustsayit’sveryniceofyoutolaugh。Iseeyoureallyareakind-heartedfellow,\"saidMrs。Epanchin。 \"I’mnotalwayskind,though。\" \"Iamkindmyself,andALWAYSkindtoo,ifyouplease!\"sheretorted,unexpectedly;\"andthatismychieffault,foroneoughtnottobealwayskind。Iamoftenangrywiththesegirlsandtheirfather;buttheworstofitis,IamalwayskindestwhenIamcross。Iwasveryangryjustbeforeyoucame,andAglayatherereadmealesson——thanks,Aglaya,dear——comeandkissme——there——that’senough\"sheadded,asAglayacameforwardandkissedherlipsandthenherhand。\"Nowthen,goon,prince。 Perhapsyoucanthinkofsomethingmoreexcitingthanaboutthedonkey,eh?\" \"Imustsay,again,Ican’tunderstandhowyoucanexpectanyonetotellyoustoriesstraightaway,so,\"saidAdelaida。\"IknowI nevercould!\" \"Yes,buttheprincecan,becauseheisclever——clevererthanyouarebytenortwentytimes,ifyoulike。There,that’sso,prince;andseriously,let’sdropthedonkeynow——whatelsedidyouseeabroad,besidesthedonkey?\" \"Yes,buttheprincetoldusaboutthedonkeyverycleverly,allthesame,\"saidAlexandra。\"Ihavealwaysbeenmostinterestedtohearhowpeoplegomadandgetwellagain,andthatsortofthing。Especiallywhenithappenssuddenly。\" \"Quiteso,quiteso!\"criedMrs。Epanchin,delighted。\"IseeyouCANbesensiblenowandthen,Alexandra。YouwerespeakingofSwitzerland,prince?\" \"Yes。WecametoLucerne,andIwastakenoutinaboat。Ifelthowlovelyitwas,butthelovelinessweigheduponmesomehoworother,andmademefeelmelancholy。\" \"Why?\"askedAlexandra。 \"Idon’tknow;IalwaysfeellikethatwhenIlookatthebeautiesofnatureforthefirsttime;butthen,Iwasillatthattime,ofcourse!\" \"Oh,butIshouldliketoseeit!\"saidAdelaida;\"andIdon’tknowWHENweshallevergoabroad。I’vebeentwoyearslookingoutforagoodsubjectforapicture。I’vedoneallIknow。’TheNorthandSouthIknowbyheart,’asourpoetobserves。Dohelpmetoasubject,prince。\" \"Oh,butIknownothingaboutpainting。Itseemstomeoneonlyhastolook,andpaintwhatonesees。\" \"ButIdon’tknowHOWtosee!\" \"Nonsense,whatrubbishyoutalk!\"themotherstruckin。\"Notknowhowtosee!Openyoureyesandlook!Ifyoucan’tseehere,youwon’tseeabroadeither。Telluswhatyousawyourself,prince!\" \"Yes,that’sbetter,\"saidAdelaida;\"theprincelearnedtoseeabroad。\" \"Oh,Ihardlyknow!Yousee,Ionlywenttorestoremyhealth。I don’tknowwhetherIlearnedtosee,exactly。Iwasveryhappy,however,nearlyallthetime。\" \"Happy!youcanbehappy?\"criedAglaya。\"Thenhowcanyousayyoudidnotlearntosee?Ishouldthinkyoucouldteachustosee!\" \"Oh!DOteachus,\"laughedAdelaida。 \"Oh!Ican’tdothat,\"saidtheprince,laughingtoo。\"IlivedalmostallthewhileinonelittleSwissvillage;whatcanI teachyou?AtfirstIwasonlyjustnotabsolutelydull;thenmyhealthbegantoimprove——theneverydaybecamedearerandmoreprecioustome,andthelongerIstayed,thedearerbecamethetimetome;somuchsothatIcouldnothelpobservingit;butwhythiswasso,itwouldbedifficulttosay。\" \"Sothatyoudidn’tcaretogoawayanywhereelse?\" \"Well,atfirstIdid;Iwasrestless;Ididn’tknowhoweverI shouldmanagetosupportlife——youknowtherearesuchmoments,especiallyinsolitude。Therewasawaterfallnearus,suchalovelythinstreakofwater,likeathreadbutwhiteandmoving。